#so much FUCKING UUUGHHHH

[coirionin]

so, unfortunately for me, i have become obsessed with the song of achilles so fucking quickly and viciously my neck almost broke from the whiplash. and like. what if. and hear me out here. a tsoa obikin au? eh? eehhh????

[mellowthorn]

what a rough day.

[cottagecorezemo]

uuughhhh so I've had some health stuff going on this whole year, multiple new medications and all that, so I haven't written since APRIL. Just haven't had the spoons or the drive or the social impetus or fannish juice or anything like that fueling me. (Barely managed to write what I did in the spring, too.)

BUT last night I started working on a wip and was writing for about three hours WHEN MY LAPTOP BLUESCREENED. It's the worst laptop I've ever had and does this at random, and I know it, but I was in the flow state... and couldn't remember the last time I'd saved.

Me for five solid minutes, my head in my hands: NO NO NO GODDAMMIT NOOO NOOO DAMMIT GOD NOOOO DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT UGH FUCK

Like.

I don't have the writing stamina, the GAS, the OOMPH, the CHUTZPAH, to lose this much work and be able to recover! You know???

Even when I'm writing a ton and those mental muscles are in great shape and the gears are all lubed up, this would be a bit of a blow. To lose a significant chunk of writing. But I am not in great writing shape right now. I'm writing on low battery power, and experiencing the world from behind a weird plastic curtain of med fog. It's hard for me to even start, and everything I write is incoherent zero draft that needs a lot of editing to become even first draft quality, and if I think about what I've written too much, I hate it and trash it and feel bad and don't even try again for a while.

So to have written at all in the first place... and then lose it to the random blue screen of death...

😩

Unfortunately I was a poor kid who grew up without word processing programs fancier than Wordpad and now I still don't use them, even though I have them. So I wasn't using an app with autosave. No temporary files were kept on my hard drive. The writing I lost was just gooone.

But to my immense relief, I found I had last saved half an hour before my lappy ate shit. I'd saved just after completing a scene, on total autopilot. The new scene I had just started was all gone, but I still had the scene I'd edited, reworked, and finished.

I rewrote what I had of the scene before having to tap out.

I'm so grateful. To have written. To have finished a scene, and saved it. To have had enough battery left in me to rewrite what I'd lost.

That was deeply demoralizing for a good ten minutes, but ultimately could have been way worse.

[the-fiction-witch]

In The Kitchen

Media Accused

Character Jake Murry

Couple Jake X Reader

Rating Smut

Concept Cuddles in the Kitchen

Smut Nudity / HJ / semi non consensual / BJ /

I yawned and my beat to wake up even if I was pretty tired, I stood barefoot in my kitchen in my boxers and loose blue t-shirt I'd slept in less, But I don't know. Even though the house was empty with my mum and gran on holiday it still felt weird coming downstairs naked. So I just slipped on some stuff from my floor I was making scrambled eggs in the microwave and I was way too tired for anything more advanced than that. I was so tired and honestly exhausted from the last few days but I couldn't help my smile as I heard her little footsteps down the stairs

"Good morning sweetheart" I smiled but no answer came She merely wrapped her arms around me and pushed herself against my back "awwww you still sleepy?" I asked as she was barefoot in a pair of my boxers and my sleeve shirt even if the sleeves were far too big for her and she balled them around her hands She didn't answer she just softly pet me as we cuddled so I continued on with breakfast until her hands moved "y/n?" I questioned as she began grasping my pecks "uuuuuuuhhh? Okay, whatever makes you happy sweetheart" I chuckled until she groped because tickled "Hey! Cut it out!' I complained putting the bowl back in the microwave for the next round of cooking but as I did her hands slipped down and into my boxers half of me wanted to argue, I was still so tried and honestly at this point I was probably shooting dust, and we're in the kitchen my mum finds out we did anything in here she'll kill me, but the other half of me didn't care just melting into her touch again "y/n what are you doing?" I asked but she didn't answer she merely grasped my shaft and began her merciless jerking making me grip the countertop hard "uhhhhh! Y/n…. Y/n stop-" I began

"Hurry up Jake you only have till the timer goes off" she smirked in my ear speeding up her hand

"Uuuughhh! Uuuuuuuhhh! That's only three minutes!" I argued but she meerly giggled I did my best to bite my lip but fuck it was so hot having her do this to me "uuuhhh y/n, y/n… uuhhhhhh please I'm close!" I gasped

She smirked and turned me to face her sweet bedhead

"Umm hello sweetheart" I smirked trying to kiss her back she tugged down my boxers her hand sat on my hip wrapping around my back the other on my now fully exposed shaft working hard to pleasure me I gripped the counter and her waist enjoying every second moving my hand up a little to cop a feel on her breasts given she had no bra "uuuuuuuhhh y/n! Please!" I begged my hips bucking towards her hand in desperation She smiled and gave my cheek a kiss before moving to her knees and taking me in her mouth "Oh my god! Uuuuuuuhhh uuuuuuuhhh uuughhhh! Y/n! Y/n! You can't do this to me it's too good- uuuuuuuhhh I've got nothing left to give y/n you've made me cum so much this weekend I've lost track, I don't think I can sweetheart"

She pulled back a moment to lick my head "ohhh I'll make you Jake" she smirked before deep throating me

"Oohh holy…shit! Uuuuuuuhhh uuughhhh! Yes! Yes! Y/n! Uuuuuuughhhhhhh!" I groaned as I came into her mouth she happily swallowed and licked me clean as I pretty much collapsed on the counter as she returned to her feet with a cute smile

"Breakfast?"

"Humm yes sweetheart" I smirked giving her head a kiss and giving her a cuddle "Must you turn me into a moaning mess every half hour?"

"Yes" she smiled helping with breakfast 

[cyberrat]

Thinking of your HC backstory: Valentino not just being held in some basement, but one with a low ceiling, so being as stupidly tall as he is, he could never stand up fully.

goood fuuuck yeeeeaaaah!!!

the absolute miserable claustrophobia fuck fuck fuck. not only getting molested and abused for *years* in some dingy fucking basement with so much torture porn coming off of it, but also him either locked in little cages or just generally not able to stand up fully.

So fucking horny uuughhhh.

[possibly-eli]

the kinda sad thing about watching a show and liking it so much that you rewatch it is that itll never feel the same. like you can be The Most In To A Show but like. you know all the story and major plot points and when you know all the Lore and Interesting Parts of the Story it makes the episodes that arent chock-full of tension and lore just kinda insufferable. like. steven universe for example. i fucking LOVE steven universe but like. i know what happens yk? and i just kinda cant deal with it if im watching an episode where "nothing" happens because i COULD be watching an episode where EVERYTHING happens. like. idk man why would i watch same old world or something when i could watch change your mind. and its the same with other shows! like i can never rewatch the first season and a decent part of season 2 of the owl house because its not for the future and everything feels like filler even if it isnt. i cant even watch my source show (rottmnt)! cause like. man idk what it Is i just cant tolerate the not-lore episodes of shows when ive already watched it.

and like, when im watching the show for the first time i am glued to the fucking SCREEN through EVERY episode (except for the body swap episode of toh because i Hate bodyswaps idk what to tell you man). like, every episode of steven universe, every episode of rise, every episode of bojack, all of it!!!! but as soon as the show's done and i go to rewatch its just. UUUGHHHH yk?

[masterlalna]

I posted 30,697 times in 2022

That's 15,447 more posts than 2021!

87 posts created (0%)

30,610 posts reblogged (100%)

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I tagged 2,383 of my posts in 2022

#oh hey look it's not reblogged - 87 posts

#lol - 75 posts

#me - 46 posts

#suicide/ - 30 posts

#lmao - 18 posts

#blood/ - 17 posts

#true - 17 posts

#literally - 17 posts

#help - 16 posts

#lmfao - 14 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i also hate it when ppl get on a stage n go all women r delicate fragile lambs incapable of self defense and terrified of their own shadow!

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

followed one older lesbian and now my recommended is 100% terf blogs. now i gotta doublecheck the girl i followed and uuughhhh idet theres anything i can do to fix my recc now. kill me.

2 notes - Posted January 4, 2022

#4

HELLO

2 notes - Posted November 11, 2022

#3

happy butch appreciation day from the 275th dyke with this haircut you seen today amen 🙏

5 notes - Posted August 18, 2022

#2

honestly, pick better gender goals. when i was like, idealizing looking like loki or light deathnote i felt like shit. just frowning into the mirror and groaning. but now that im like. i want to be heavy tf2. i want to be bane dc. i wanna be kingpin marvel. ppl who r, like me, fucking huge, ive felt way better. you know? i look in the mirror like i am big n powerful. i can kill someone. im not fat and sad. im fat and epic. im not saying you have to pick chars who look exactly like you (me and bane share No similarities LOL) but just celebrate aspects about yourself that you already have. reframe your narrative. youll feel better.

13 notes - Posted January 4, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

help my kitty get the surgery he needs

>>>> https://gofund.me/91d90b34 <<<<

my poor boy ate something he shouldn’t have. nothing about his condition isn’t fixable, it’s just extremely expensive!

he’s only five years old and one of the sweetest cats alive. every little bit helps. thank you so much for your time!

103 notes - Posted October 12, 2022

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[iwaasfairy]

turning on notifs for your blog was the best decision i ever made <3 thank u for always keeping us well fed with ur talent and creativity... uuughhhh <33333

I wILL SELL MY KIDNEY FOR YOu if yoU KEEP BEING So fucKING SWEET tO ME I hope you know I adore n love you for being so azmweet and amazing nnn my head is so tiRED BUt I think you’re so cuTe just gotta say taht before I pass out n I very very much appreciate you

[hideyourautumn-milkteeth]

UUUGHHHH I HAATE HAVING A SPEECH IMPAIRMENT SO MUCH

Especially the one I have cause when I tell people what it is nobody takes it fucking SERIOUSLY

I have a STUTTER, when to most people that doesn't actually fucking mean anything. To them it means smth cute or quirky or nerdy someone does if they're nervous or flustered. And maybe they'll see me that way, (which on its own is uncomfortable) but there eventually will come a time when it's not quirky anymore.

And they realize they're stuck listening to it even when I feel completely normal. Cause it isn't just this small thing people do when they're nervous. It's literally neurological. I was born with this. They realize that and then they start getting frustrated and annoyed and suddenly I'm just not worth listening to anymore.

[edgebled]

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[ryansjane]

exactly yup yup even though i only get into offgun this year by watching not me the series, i agreed with your answer and many rumors said that since not me dealing with sensitive issues, the promotional marketing for offgun is really limited but like God bless not me the series!!! i love it sooo much, offgun's chemistry is just uuughhhh out of this world 😭

yeah, I've been here since theory of love & I can promise everyone I've definitely felt a shift. like these two used to get promotion ALL the fucking time, even when they had no series or variety show to promote, yet now it's only chinese magazines & lives, or solo thai projects... and it's really fucking annoying bc not me said what everyone in thailand is thinking, and now offgun are suffering the consequences of starring in the most important thai drama ever made??? so fucking annoying. they deserve the world, not this bullshit. hope they can bounce back from this, thankfully since they have a huge fanbase I think it'll be fine, but it only solidifies the fact that they need another less controversial bl show to appease the minds of bigots in the thai entertainment industry. not me best show & offgun best ship ever though, they're just on a whole other level <3

xxx

[the-fiction-witch]

I Missed You

Media My Left Hand Man / Phantom Halo / Sleep No More

Character Samuel Emmerson

Couple Samuel X Reader

Rating SMUT

I sat on my bed reading some comic books as usual when I heard the door, I knew my dad and Becket was out so I sighed and got up heading to the door and checking the peephole to make sure it wasn't a debt collector or anything worse, but I saw a sweet sight so I quickly opened it. 

"Hi Y/n," I smiled as I saw her on the porch, 

"Hi Sammy," she giggled hopping in and giving my cheek a kiss as she goes back to my room, 

I shut the door and bolted after her wrapping my arms around her in her cute little pinafore dress as she threw her bag on the bed, she happily wrapped her own around my neck and pulled us into a deep passionate kiss. 

I kissed her back enthusiastically for as long as she'd let me until she pulled away, "Umm I missed you so badly Y/n."

"Aww missed you too Sammy," she giggled, 

"What uhh did you pop by for then? just a cuddle? just some kisses?" I cooed

"I was thinking something more..." she smirked stroking her hands down my shirt,

"Yeah? How much more?"

"Well I was thinking some bed breaking sex?"

for a second I was speechless, "Uhhh... yes. I would like that very much," I nodded,

She smirked and pulled me back to our kiss and tugging us both into my bed, 

I kissed her passionately stroking my hands over that perfect body, she kissed me harder and clawed her nails at the back of my shirt, I eagerly pulled back sitting over her with my legs either side of her slipping my shirt off and throwing it off my bed quickly returning to her lips holding her face in my hand as we kissed. She stroked her hand down to my jeans but I pulled back trying to catch my breath "this what you want?" I cooed to her she nodded, “Ummm I don’t know what is going on with you today… but I kinda want it to happen everyday!” I smirked tugging them off too as I reconnected our lips and slowly pulled up her dress pushing higher and higher till she sat up and helped me tugg it off her leaving her completely naked on my bed. I had to admit I stopped and admired her no matter how often i see her she always floors me with just how amazing she is… I kissed her neck and kissed down her chest squeezing her breast as I went fuck she felt so good and I kissed all the way down to her mound trying to make her open her legs so I could eat her out but she didn't want me too she forced me back to her lips by my hair and began clawing at my underwear

"Ummmm okay Y/n" I growled quickly, kicking them off much to her enjoyment as she smiled widely, stroking her hand across my shaft tenderly "uhhhh!" I gasped my head throwing back my jaw dropping, she smirked and opened her legs wide stroking her pussy almost invitingly and I sure as hell didn't need to be told twice, I held the base of my shaft to guide myself expecting some difficulty given I hadn't used my hands or my mouth for her but she was absolutely soaked! I slipped in so easily you'd think I'd have been eating her out for three hours! But she felt so good ! Everything I have ever wanted to feel around me! I uhh I admit I think I went a bit crazy holding the bedframe as I wasted no time to absolutely fucking destroy her! My head nothing but extacy, my hips working in their own, the bed creaking and squeaking, my breaths sharp and jagged her only sound her playfully little giggles which only made me want to be harder and more intense, I wanted to stop her innocence giggles and make her scream for me! I knew I was close but I wanted to hear her so badly kissing her neck leaving her with a few hard hickeys "You always feel so good! But today… Ummm! I need you so badly" she gripped my arms and started to dig her nails into my skin I knew I was so desperate biting my lip and squeezing my eye shut trying do hard not to cum just yet when are tightened around me and squirting down my bed screaming in my ear and that was enough "uuuuuuuhhh-uuughhhh!" I burried myself as deep inside her as possible before I pulled out and laid beside her bothy of us starting at the ceiling "fuck -" I gasped "what the hell Y/n?” I chuckled,

“I missed you,” she giggled,

“Yeah… I missed you too,” I smiled holding her hand and giving her a kiss as we calmed down. 

[foxymoxynoona]

Hi foxy!!! How are you doing?❤️❤️ (I was about to ask you how did Thanksgiving go but then I checked and I found out it’s on the 25th. Let’s ignore that😂)

Right back from Meadow, reading this last arc of this story and Amended made me realize how BAD I want to see jk with a little family. I’M SORRY to JK in advance because if people were to tell me this i’d freak the fuck out. But uuughhhh i want to read about Meadow JK with this child and please give us an amended baby😭😭

What have you done to me. I’m not even a kid person😭😭😭

🌸

Ok if I take a minute to whine, my son gave me a headcold so I am POUTY and distracted haha. BUT I did get Flux updated, it just took way longer than it should have. And yes, Thanksgiving is next week! Since we live far from family, we don't really do much for it these days though.

I'm a sucker for JK with families. I know some people get tired of me writing it, it's just where I am in life so it's a lot of fun to write. I think there's something just really soft and sweet about seeing a man who wants a family get his little family. It's just as empowering to me as a woman who doesn't want kids, you know, not having them haha.

Also literature kids are so much better. If I actually wrote every scene with the kids as what it's really like, no one would read it. At one point last night, both my boys pulled their shirts over their heads and were spinning around in circles trying to blindly slap each other while my older song chanted, "PEE AND POOP. PEE AND POOP." That was 30 seconds of the entire evening and I'm already tired just writing it LOL.

[tobesensation-9]

In Time Pt. 2 (Hwiyoung x Reader)

Synopsis: There was always something going on between you and Kim Youngkyun. Whether he was your sworn enemy, your best friend, or your lover. ‘In Time’ tells the story of how the two of you faced different stages of your lives together and how the two of you ultimately get to be that special person for each other.

‘In Time’ pt.1 

Time and time again you'd try to walk home or walk to school in peace but you'd be appraoched by none than other than your ‘saviour’. You knew he was going to try to use this as a way to bother you, you thought. I should’ve just spoken up and not let the principal to rely on his word.

“Hey y/n”. Youngkyun catches up and walks beside you, smiling. You never really noticed his smile before, it caught you off guard. Maybe you just noticed it, he had tried being so nice to you for the past few weeks, and because you were so annoyed with his nice gestures, you never looked him in the face. 

“What? Is there something on my face?” He touches his face instinctively. 

“Oh...uh no.” 

You catch yourself from staring at him and look down at the sidewalk. 

You didn't want to admit it  yourself, but this guy was starting to grow on you. You didn't like it. 

A few years earlier 

In the fourth grade you used to have a huge crush on one of Youngkyun’s friends. Unlike how he used to treat you, his friend was considerably more sweet to you.

You would hangout with them all the time at recess, and even was able to play with each other after, since they lived in the same neighborhood as you. But one day, when the two of you were playing at the park in your neighborhood, Youngkyun appeared and he looked angry.

“Ya!”

“Oh ‘Kyun what are you doing here?” Your crush greets him, perking up at the sight of his friend.

“Yeah what are you doing here?”

He looks at you but doesn’t even acknowledge you, and continues to talk to your crush, “Why do you keep hanging with her? She’s no one you need to be playing with. You should be playing with me.”

Although your crush stayed with you that day, it brought on days and days of Youngkyun bothering the two of you. Until it got to point where your crush, stopped talking to you. When you tried to say hi to them at school or in the neighborhood they’d pretend you didn’t exist.

Present

Although you guys were older now, things like that and more makes you super self-conscious. With him turning into a completly different person in high school after years of that just didn’t make sense.

“Hey uh....y/n.” He stops suddenly in the midst of your walk.

You stop and look at him, “Uh, yeah?”

“I know you don’t want anything to do with me. And I know you’re probably wondering why I’ve been trying to be so nice to you, right?”

“Actually no. Wondering what we’re gonna have for lunch?”

He just stares at you confused. “But don’t you always take your lunch?” He motions to your book bag, where your lunch is.

“So your stalker and a psychic,” you I’m me to yourself.

He snickers at your comment, you guys he heard you.

“I just want to let you know that even back then, when I was acting like a complete brat, I really wanted to be your friend.”

What?

“Why did you just ask?”

“Well to be honest, yeah I should’ve, but after all that I did you probably wouldn’t have even said yes,” he shrugs.

“Well...yeah I wouldn’t have. Who would’ve done that, have someone be so mean to you all this time and then suddenly stop that and be friends?”

“I know. So I figured I’d just act normal about it and just act like a friend, and not be a immature idiot about it.”

“I mean you said idiot not me, but you totally were. A brat. An idiot. A pain in my ass.”

“Are you done?”

You laugh. “For now, I’m still thinking of some stuff. I’ve had years to come up with names for you and you’ll finally hear them all.” You start walking again and he joins.

“Well that’s great. This is gonna be exciting.”

Once the two of you become friends, all the growing like together and petty child’s play became blurry. The two of you started to hangout all the time, varying if it came to studying, to bike riding, to having dinners at each other’s homes, the two of you almost did everything together. Including going to the same college.

You were the more logical and responsible type, loving math and science while Youngkyun was more in touch with his sensitive side and loved the liberal arts. The two of you would always complain to each other about the general education courses you’d have to take that had appealed more the others major.

“UUUGHHHH! Why do we have to write a freaking essay about fucking children eating other!!”

Your sprawled all over Youngkyun’s bed, kicking around.

“I mean it’s survival of the fittest y/n. You’re the bio major you should know this. You know...un natural....natural something.”

“Natural selection idiot.”

“Yeah...that.”

You left yourself up and chuck your copy of Lord of the Flies across the room.

“Please get that and hurry up. Don’t touch anything or even breath when you go over there. He hates when you so much as breath on his side of them room, especially when he isn’t here.”

“Geez what’s up with that.”

“I don’t even know, but lately I’ve been too scared to use my shampoo and conditioner lately. He could’ve replaced it with Nair or something.”

You laugh, “Damn. But he did, I’m actually running low so lend that me.”

“Ha ha very funny.”

“I wasn’t trying to be, I was serious.”

He looks at you annoyed and you laugh harder.

*cellphone rings*

He finds his cellphone and smiles at the caller i.d., “Oh hey. What’s going on?”

He gets up and leaves the dorm room to continue the conversation.

You knew who it was, it was some girl he met at the college orientation before your first semester started. You were glad he had someone he liked, as far you knew, in high school he never liked anyone. It’s great to experience something like this. You also thought he might’ve liked you, which disgusted you at first the more you thought about it. Then disgust turned into denial, then it turned into little strings of hope. You tried to suppress the little strings of hope though, for the last two years you had.

But why would you want him to like you, it’s not like you liked him? Well at least you thought you didn’t.

Part 3 coming soon 😊!

[la-paritalienne]

well???? where my song by song review of nfr??? I wanna knooow

aaahhhhh wowwww! i wasn’t expecting this but i’d looove to do it so thank you for giving me the opportunity. this is how i feel right now of course, some songs could grow on me even more, but in general i feel like this his her best work and the quality is just over the top, so my grades are going to be veeeery high.

norman fucking rockwell: i adore this as an album opener, it just sets the mood perfectly, lyrically it’s genius and vocally it’s mind-blowing but like, in a soft way? (when she goes bluuuuue). however, it’s not a song i’d listen to on repeat or ‘on its own’, like personally it makes sense within the album but it’s probably my least fave on its own. my fave lyrics: why wait for the best when i could have you?

8/10

mariners apartment complex: look… this song came out so long ago that i almost would forget how beautiful it is, but it is truly a masterpiece, from the first line to… well, the outro?? it’s been a long since i’ve truly listened to it but in redoing it, i’m amazed, and i feel like in the context of the whole album, it acquires even more depth and beauty. fave lyrics: they mistook my kindness for weakness, i fucked up i know that but jesus, can’t a girl just do the best she can? 

9/10

venice bitch: i can’t simply say this is a work of art because all of the songs in this album are. but this is like. THE masterpiece, the statement piece. a ten minute dreamy trip, so layered and when you think ‘that’s it, this is my favourite part’ another one comes in – for me it’s the outtro that really does it. fave lyrics: fresh out of fucks forever

10/10

fuck it i love you: sounds like one of the chillest, ‘easiest’ ones, but the lyrics are so poignant and her voice really does things (dream a little dream of me)….. overall it’s just one of my faves. again, strong outtro game, when everything overlaps uuughhhh it gives me chills. fave lyrics: it turns out everywhere you go you take yourself, that’s not a lie

9,5/10

doin’ time: this isn’t technically lana’s song but it’s already an amazing song + her covering it? a 10. fave lyrics: me and my girl, we got this relationship. i love her so bad, but she treats me like shit (mainly bc hearing lana sing ‘me and my girl’… bye) but also the tension is getting hotter, i’d like to hold her…head underwater

10/10

love song: gorgeous. romantic yet sexy and gritty in just the right way. the refrain is heavenly… fave lyrics: oh, be my once in a life time (and the rest of the refrain too tbh, but these words just pierce through my soul)

9,5/10

cinnamon girl: i haven’t even pressed play and i’m already teary eyed. this should say everything. fave fave fave. lyrics, piano, voice, mood… i can’t formulate a proper review bc it’s just the way this song gets under your skin and makes you feel… it’s unexplainable like i could only keysmash and shiver and cry. fave lyrics: if you hold me without hurting me, you’ll be the first who ever did

100/10

how to disappear: chills. the sound is so old school it transports you far away and the lyrics are genius bc they’re like… situational (is this a word?) and descriptive and then she goes ‘and this is how to disappear’ like how exactly??? genius i tell you. fave lyrics: i’m always going to be right here, no one’s going anywhere

9+/10

california: i mean… born to die / paradise vibes!!!!!!! we’ll do whatever you want, travel wherever etc >>>>>>>> the only thing i can say is i like this part better than the ‘rest’, not that the rest isn’t great, but this is what truly makes the song to me. fave lyrics: you don’t ever have to be stronger than you really are, when you’re lying in my arms baby

9,5/10

the next best american record: it’s a good song but then the refrain comes!!!!!! and it’s a great song. not my fave overall but still. the glass shattering is a plus! fave lyrics: it’s you, all the roads lead to you 

8,5/10

the greatest: it’s poetic, nostalgic and slightly depressing but it has current affair references which make the whole song more meaningful and iconic, to me. and the guitarrrrrrr. not a song i’d listen to on repeat tho, compared to others in the album. fave lyrics: the culture is lit and i’ve had a ball, i guess i’m signing off after all

8,5/10

bartender: i feel like my review is kind of boring bc i’m always like ‘the lyrics!!! genius!!!’ but this is it. all the ladies… the pre-chorus and the chorus remind me of another lana era, maybe even the honeymoon one (which is the closest to my heart maybe?) and i feel like this song is full of tiny gems that make it unforgettable, even though it sounds like one of the lighter ones of the album… girls just want to have fun, cherry coke, ‘ha ha ha ha’, baby remember… love love love. fave lyrics: the poetry inside of me is warm like a gun

9,5/10

happiness is a butterfly: when it starts is so metaphorical and gloomy but then she goes don’t be a jerk don’t call me a taxi and i get chills in my brain. her voice is particularly magical here, i feel. the imagery is a+, the mix of surreal and everyday life, existential questions and i just wanna dance with you. a fave! aaaand fave lyrics: happiness is a butterfly, try to catch it like every night, it escapes from my hands into moonlight. every day is a lullab, i hum it on the phone like every night

10/10

hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have – but i have it: to me this is the second statement piece of the album, after venice bitch. the title is already like… taking a stand. amazing closer. the lyrics are like… incomprehensible yet you’re like yes… i get you and you get me, thank you for this piece queen. it’s got sylvia plath, ‘hi dad’, ipad, revolution… i feel like there’s so much to unlock in here that i don’t even want to unlock it, just sit back and enjoy the ride. plus it ends the album with a beautiful glint of hope for which, again, thank you queen. bonus for the broken falsetto. fave lyrics: i’ve been tearing up town in my fucking white gown like a goddamn near sociopath

10/10

feel free to let me know what you think! ♡

[katsukikitten]

Majo - Dorm fun

"What are you doing?" Katsuki asks as he flops onto one of the sofas in the common room as you sit crossed legged at the low coffee table.

"Focusing." You almost bite back as you stare into the onyx orb, jotting down movements, thoughts and feelings in your meticulous script. A snort fills the room.

"Focusing in a room that's going to be filled in less than five minutes with fuck all annoying teenagers?" He mocks, "Brilliant plan dummy."

"Yes, it is brilliant. As it will help me to learn how to block people out." You say, eyes prying into a person's life. Their deepest darkest emotions set out before you like a menu.

"Tsk." He grabs for the remote next to your notebook staring along the way, "Does All Might know you're spying on him?"

He flips through the channels idly, remote resting on his stomach while crimson eyes read your scrupulous notes.

"Does it matter?" He hears the grin in your voice without seeing it. He can't help but smirk as you've gained much more confidence since dating him. Still he can't help but tease you.

"I guess not, but be prepared to tell all of class 1A what the hell he's doing in his free time. Especially that derpy Deku."

You wave your hand as if swiping away his words.

"Not everyone has prying eyes like you, Suki." You giggle and he rolls his eyes, "Plus everyone loves the movie you've just picked. No one will be interested."

"Ah okay. If you have notes on yourself in there be sure to jot down *delusional* ."

"Ha. Ha." You say dryly as you dig deeper. All Might stands on the black back drop in his smaller form, with little to no extra aura around him like the first time you saw him. You notate it as booming voices enter the dorm.

Though you cannot see it Katsuki smiles a bit devilishly. He is ready to see exactly how this plays out but will come to your rescue should you need it.

"NO, EIJI, its MY turn to pick the movie!" Mina yells, trying to elbow Kirishima who's currently muscling his way through the group.

"No, I called the dibs after class today. A very important and educational documentary on hero history is coming on that Midoriya and I would like to watch. You guys need to watch it. It will help with exams."

"Uuughhhh that's what SCHOOL is for Ida!" Kaminari comments, "Plus and I want to watch this live concert that they are telecasting from the US."

"Its been weeks since I've had a turn!" Uraraka pouts, "Momo and I have had to stay up so late to watch our recorded shows. And someone keeps deleting them!"

"M..maybe Uraraka can have our dibs Ida?" Miydoria asks shyly.

"According to the calander it's my turn. We are watching horror." Tokoyami states, "Right Asui?"

"Right!" She croaks.

Their voices grow louder as they approach, arguing pulling you from the silence that is All Might's room.

Arguing so loud it begins to drown out All Might's thoughts, leaving you only slightly flustered. You try to focus on the visual in hopes the 'audio' will return. He sips his tea, lounging at his desk and he replies to piled up fan mail idly, neglecting his teaching plans.

Teaching for dummies and a notebook borrowed from Aizawa sit open on his cluttered desk.

"I cannot keep focusing on Midoriya, though he is my protege. Bakugou needs my attention, emotionally. While Y/N, and all the others have such great potential I cannot let my...."

"I SAID ITS MY TURN NOW WHO SELECTED THIS MOVIE?!" Mina howls as she stands in the mouth of the archway. Katsuki holds up the remote to be seen as he growls.

"OI! The rule is first come first serve. Now make the fucking snacks would ya? I've caught you watching this movie a hundred times, what are you bitching for, Pinky?"

"I...I cannot believe you!" A whine but she storms into the kitchen, she pops her pink head out of the kitchen to add, "No one take MY corner of the couch."

"Uhh Ka...kaachan."

"What is it Deku?" True venom drips from your boyfriends kissable lips as he stares up at the emerald eye boy.

"Uhh Uraraka chan would love to be able to watch her show, it starts in a few minutes and..."

"And I don't give a shit." Katsuki glares up harshly at him through thick long lashes before Midoriya guides Urakaka to their usual spot on the couch, despite neither of them admitting their feelings for the other they sure do act like a couple.

"Hey Bakugo. Buddy. I know you're trying to see this fight with me. It will be ultra manly." Kiri says leaning over the couch to try to slip the remote away from his friend's steely grip. Only to be met with a small, almost harmless explosion, "HEY! Watch the hair dude. I'm still trying to hang out with Mina tonight."

"Yea sure, that is until she hears that you didn't try to get the remote for her." Sero teases sitting beside Shoji. He launches a string of tape that evaporates in a series of explosions. He curses to himself as he watches his half baked plan go up in flames.

Your patience runs thin as you push yourself, you half hoped that at least half of them would go to their dorms considering none of them were going to get that remote.

Still they argue, so much so they barely notice what you're doing.

"Hey Bakugo. Are you at least going to sit up?" Todoroki asks, purposefully sitting next to Momo, "Its rude to make your girlfriend sit on the floor."

"What Y/N? Why are you...Oh." Mina enters the room with a variety of snacks on a tray. She sets them down at the far end, peeking over your notebook.

She gasps, drawing even more attention on you as you try to ignore her, ignore them.

Katsuki watches you with heavy eyes, gauging your reaction. He knows he needs to be protective of you. You often push yourself too far and if you had an attack in front of all of your friends you'd never forgive yourself.

"ALL MIGHT?! DOES HE KNOW?!" She snatches the notebook and you try to swipe at her using your peripheral vision but fail.

The entire class is silent, only the commercial can be heard through the entire dorm.

"Mina has a strong acid quirk but needs more mental training. Where she is strong in tenacity she lacks focus." She reads from the notebook, "Wow rude. I am great at focusing."

She unknowingly knocks over Sero's soda as she plops next to Kirishima on the couch.

"Are these his personal notes? I've noticed you kinda adapt to their hand writing when you jot down their thoughts. It's....scary cool." Mina adds, yellow eyes scanning the page. The whole class, aside from Bakugo leans forward on their seats. A few even dropping from the sofa to be closer to you.

"Y...yes." You feel their eyes, their hunger to hear about themselves from their idol. You've never felt their stares with such intensity before, almost nearing close to the weighted gaze of your boyfriend.

None weigh as heavy as his. Though Midoriya's is pretty close right now.

A shiver runs along your spine as it always does when the full twenty set of eyes is on you.

Maybe this was a bad idea? Your cheeks redden just a bit as their thoughts creep to you despite your focus on All Might.

"What does he think about me? Is he proud? Am I doing him justice? Am I doing one for all justice? Will I disappoint him? Will his notes be more negative than positive? Will.."

"Midoriya." Your voice is ever soft yet dark. Katsuki growls inwardly never liking Deku's name to leave your lips.

Those lips are for his name only.

"Midoriya." You say again, you can feel a nose bleed coming on as you fight the darker side of your power. It would be easy to slip into his skin. To flay his mind and bend it to your will through manipulation since he is leaving himself so open, "You might as well be screaming in my face with how loud you're thinking."

His face burns bright red, he goes to open his mouth to say sorry but all you hear is his mind.

"What does it say about me?!"

"He hasn't looked at your notes today for me to know." You say, finally snatching the notebook from Mina without breaking your concentration.

The class shares a look while Katsuki sits up before sliding directly next to you.

"You okay, my enchantress?" He projects the thought like you taught him and it drowns out all the backround noise. You take a sharp inhale before nodding. You smooth your notebook.

"Stop staring." You hiss, "Stop being quiet go back to talking."

But no one offers a word to one another. Bakugou begins to hand out death stares before Kiri pipes up.

"So Mina, the upcoming exams. Think you're gonna need a study partner?"

"OMFG PLEASE PLEASE SAY YOURE OFFERING YOURSELF TO ME EIJI AAAAHHH." You hear Mina scream in her mind. You push it away, leaning closer to Katsuki.

There is something about his intensity that is grounding, most likely because it is a consistent hum. His walls are always up and his will is awe worthy. A nice way of saying how stubborn he is.

All Might types a text to Azawai asking about his dinner plans. He has a lot to discuss, especially Y/N's potential.

"Its crazy she got two proheros who have great will power to lose their tempers in front of all their students. How did she evoke that intense anger? Anger I hadn't felt since..."

You stop writing, suddenly something pulls at your thoughts. At your focus on the black backdrop pulling you into the middle of conciousness. Your heart races as you follow the the sound.

A tune being whistled.

You near ever closer to a dark room as an old bed and cracked mirror begin to fill the space.

A tune you seemed to have forgotten until it dredges up bad memories.

Your rapid breathing becomes audible, you feel Katsuki's hands move to grab your face to pull you out but you hold onto his wrists with such a grip he might bruise.

You know this whistle, its haunted your deepest nightmares as you've lived it.

"Ah there you are little majo. I knew you'd come when I called like a good girl." You know that voice as you're sucked into the dimly lit room with a man much too familar. Though he seems off as his dead eyes stare into the mirror. Doing the same trick he would do while keeping you locked in the dark, seeing how far your mind could wander.

Like a fucked up game of hide and seek.

Your nose bleeds as you stare into a face you could never forget, even if you worked yourself.

You should know. You tried.

"I have a new boss now. He's a good guy pays well." He starts as if you actually give a shit, "I need you to do something for me."

"Go fuck yourself." You growl and its audible in the room you sit in.

You do not hear Katsuki yell for everyone to leave. He's never heard your voice dip so low.

So dark and threatening.

They all leave wide eyed, especially when he explodes the can of soda in Mina's hand when she refuses. Kiri practically swings her over his shoulder to high tail it to his dorm room.

"Y/N." Katsuki whispers in your ear but you do not hear and hold fast onto his wrists. He struggles to free himself from your tiny hands.

"That is not how you speak to your father little witch." A snarl so low, he jumps to stand and you flinch out of habit. Many years were spent in a dark closet, all by his threatening hands.

It is a wonder you are not blind. He laughs at your movement. Your heart pounds into your throat.

"Now listen. Stop being such a selfish bitch and help your old man out. My new boss is a powerful man. I promised him I could do some brainwashing. Some...rearranging on both human and none humans. You need to come to me now. It's going to be a great job. You'll even get to bend the mind of a student there." His smile turns manic.

"You know I can't control anyone." Voice still icy cold as you speak. Eyes beginning to fill with tears of blood as you focus on his shattered mind. One of the few you cannot work.

"Ah ah ah. I feel you poking and prodding. You have to remember that you got your power from MY WIFE." He yells slamming his fist into the mirror, blood drips from his knuckles as four sets of his eyes stare at you.

You yelp while his laugh echoes in the dingy room. You shake, scared, angry.

Broken.

How could this happen?

How could he still summon you?

But most importantly how did he get out of jail?

"Stop trying to sound so tough. I know your limitations. I know the temptation of your curse. My beautiful wife's was very similar, she told me everything. You parasite, you can worm your way into thoughts. Move something here, replace something there. Boom they've bent to your will. Just like you did to your mother and now look what's happened." He gestures to the empty room riddled with needles and rotting take out, "She's left us both to care for one another."

"Now don't let my wife's death be in vain."

"You...you're the one who..." You're shaking so hard, your quirk amplifying as you subconsciously try to force your way into his mind.

"I what? You're just as guilty. You planted the idea of a forced entry in to the very seasoned detective..." He shrugs his shoulders and you scream.

"YOU MADE ME. YOU FUCKING MADE ME." Items fly across the living room as your voice goes raw and youre hardly able to catch your breath.

Your father stands and does something he's never been able to do before, he grabs onto your throat in your conciousness. His eyes glow when before he was quirkless, only being able to summon you through fear.

He squeezes and the bruise appears on your physical body. Crimson eyes widen with worry, with furry.

"H..how?" You choke.

"I told you my new boss was a pretty good guy." He laughs, nails digging into tender flesh. Drawing scarlet half moons, you gasp, eyes watering with tears and blood.

"Y/N!" A whisper.

Seconds stretch into what feels like hours.

"You've got three days to find me." He snarls, "No hints this time either. If you don't. Well let's just say you don't want me to find you."

"Y/N!!!" Katsuki appears on the black drop beside you, eyes burning with hot rage. This is a fight of wills he may not win. Fear grips you as you watch your father look over your shoulder. You act quickly as you push yourself plucking the darling image of your Bakugou from your father's brain as you send Katsuki flying back to the living.

His eyes widen with an emotion you've never seen him wear before.

Fear.

So deeply rooted in your Father's eyes you wonder if this is all a dream. That you'll wake up any second. But as with all emotion with him, it is fleeting.

"I see you've found your soul mate." He leans in closely to add "Do not let me remember them or their death will be slower than your mother's. Three days."

With that he slams you into the floor of consciousness shoving you back in to your body as you claw at your throat.

Your eyes water as you see Katsuki. Shaking sobs rack your body as you scream into his throat.

"NEVER FOLLOW ME AGAIN!" Its hoarse and raw with emotion, so much so that Katsuki stiffens. He runs soothing circles onto your back as you come undone in front if him. Repeating over and over again into his tear soaked neck.

"I can't let him remember. I can't let him remember."

A/N Oops I dont know why I wrote this but here have it. It was originally supposed to be like a cute slice of life AU for Majo but I'm finding out I dont work that way.