#soleil gitm

[chknbzkt]

“That smile… that damn smile…”

Soleil belongs to @venomous-qwille and he’s actively making me worse 🫠🤌🏽

[soupdweller]

sol my beloved

based on a scene from gitm by @venomous-qwille

[toucheholland23]

Lots of doodles from today!! Most gifts for my beloveds @follyfaun @lacyoflight 💖💖

GITM and its characters belong to @venomous-qwille

[camerondoesdrawing]

OH MY GOD????

hnhg HUH H HHDUFD FIS @venomous-qwille

[fuckyeahashes]

PUPPET AU WHAT IF THEY WERE PUPPETS WHAT IF THAT HAPPENED WHAT IF THEY WERE PUPPETS WHAT IF THAT HAPPE

[kukopelli]

Gitm doodle dump from the discordd so insane ab this fic fr @venomous-qwille

[notdysfunk]

Chauffeur??

Fancy pants >:( Artfight attack of Nova/Sol for @venomous-qwille !!

[its-always-nightshift]

Here’s a drawing of Soleil from @venomous-qwille ‘s fic Ghost In The Machine on Ao3. French Sun, my beloved. J’aime qu’il français de Canadien. Je suis aussi, mais je suis Cajun. When I found out he was also French I was SO stoked, AND he’s the most deranged? Ça c’est très excitement, quite a character. I’ll also be posting a drawing of Misuta sometime later. Maybe Fool as well if I find the time?

Anyway thanks for GITM Qwille! This is a redraw of a scene since I’ve been catching up on a bunch of chapters I missed. The scene snippet is below.

Spoilers for GITM Chapters 20+ below:

Here’s a more accurate version too, more silhouetted:

[chimkin-samich]

Yeah, yeah, the audio is in Italian but I promise you it's been translated word for word, I couldn't help myself it fit him *like a glove*

Guess I had to wait COVID delirium to muster up the courage to do fanart for other creators 👉👈

GITM belongs to @venomous-qwille

[mocha-illustrates]

hi i'm alive, i've just been down with the sol sickness since last september so have some sketches and wips

anyway go read ghost in the machine by @venomous-qwille plsplsplsplsplsplspslpls

[lacyoflight]

The guy….

Soleil & GITM au by @venomous-qwille 💖

[astroneiric]

SolRuin.... Matchies.

Ruin just existing is going to constantly deal psychic damage on Soleil I think.

( GITM belongs to @venomous-qwille !! )

[camerondoesdrawing]

Silly solly, off his trolley~

Character is soleil from gitm both belong to @venomous-qwille

[morning-sweets]

GHOST IN THE MACHINE ALERT‼️

Drew some of the fellas from GITM, they’re so neat :)

Characters and GITM belong to @venomous-qwille

Go read it ‼️

[fuckyeahashes]

This is going to be the sparks notes version of this, as we are coming out with a document detailing the events that took place in a hope of getting some kind of closure, or at least to get us taken off of whatever hit list Qwille has us on. I am only going to talk about the events as they pertain to me, as only that is my story to tell. Other people have also suffered with their own stories, they will be included in the document when it is released.

Qwille and their friends did not like me pretty much the moment I showed up in their server, and I still don't really know why. That's fine. You don't have to like everyone. No one is owed the affection of anyone else. I was well liked on the server in general however! I made lots of friends.

At one point, as I am sure Qwille is going to bring this up as a way to show how awful I am, but I had a manic episode and became convinced Qwille was talking about me behind my back. I confronted them, and then the next day apologized, communicated that I had bipolar, and told them I was getting my medication raised so that this didn't happen again. I believe they might have taken this very badly, and incredibly personally.

Over time, Qwille and their friends had started to hound me, undermine every single thing I said, make fun of me, bully me. This not only increased in frequency but in maliciousness for months on end. They started not only bullying me, but the people that were publicly my friends on the server. I had no idea why they were doing this, or what was going on. I reached out to them (multiple times in fact) in an effort to get them to be more comfortable with me, or at least to get them to harass me less. I was not breaking any rules. If I did cross a line, I immediately apologized. I was kind to everyone. this had absolutely zero impact on whether or not I was bullied more or less. I cannot explain the stress of going to a community to make friends, making them, and then to be harassed and hounded at every opportunity for what seemed like no reason at all, and to have any attempt to reach neutral ground either ignored or met with a vague non-answer with what I was actually doing wrong. "Just leave if you don't like it" "it's just a discord server" is not an excuse that works for a server of over 1,000 people. It is also not an excuse when you are fully aware that there are entire friend groups there, and an almost entirely autistic audience, who likely have no IRL friends outside of it. Especially since I had no intention of showing my tumblr or art or anything else at the time, as my goal was to make friends for me, and not because I am a professional artist.

One day, one of the mods came to me and told me they could tell I was stressed, and that I could talk to them and confide in them. I told them that I had ASPD, and one of the reasons the bullying from the moderators and Qwille there was so upsetting is because being seen as an enemy, or a bad person, is a very touchy and hurtful subject to me, especially when I work so hard to be the opposite of that. They immediately accused me of attempting to manipulate them by telling them this information, and when I begged them not to tell their friends because knowing I had that would just give them more reason to feel justified in hating and bullying me, they once again claimed I had tried to manipulate them by telling them this information and then attempting to keep them from telling anyone else. This, with my disorder and how I struggle with it, was very hurtful to hear.

At one point Qwille showed up and claimed I was faking my autism to get away with things. I have paperwork to clarify my autism diagnosis, and later that was included in the reasons I was banned from the server. One day, I was suddenly banned without warning. The reason given by Gilly to me was that I, basically, was faking my autism to get away with things, rude and unruly, a problem causer, and basically they were just completely and totally sick of me. I was… not surprised. I could tell they were looking for an excuse to ban me ages ago. I accepted that I was going to lose contact with all my friends and looked up different things to do to distract me from my stressful life. 

What I didnt expect was for me to be so well liked and supported that people actually spoke out at Qwille demanding to know why I was banned. Their reason was that I had made people uncomfortable and that there were an overwhelming amount of people who had submitted tickets claiming I had made them uncomfortable. When people all brought forward stories about how I was very respectful to them and demanded to see the tickets in which people had said I had made them uncomfortable, the mods said they couldn’t do that because all of those people were minors. And that we didn’t know these minors, because they were lurkers. Once again, these people were bullying me in a public space, in front of everyone. It was blatant, everyone could see it, and I was well liked. This was not believed, and the mods desperately attempted to change the conversation topic to something else.

My friends made a new server for me so that we could still hang out. I was incredibly touched. And then, like clockwork, everyone who had spoken up for me on the server got banned one by one. 

Each person would get blamed for something they didn’t do, a period of time would pass, and the next friend of mine would get banned. Enough so that no one would notice. Eventually the post about banning people who were spreading NSFW content came out informing people that they did not need an explanation or a notice to be banned for that, and we all knew what that meant. They were going to start using that as an excuse to ban us. It would be a lot easier if they used that as a cover. 

Dame watched every single one of us get bullied and banned one by one. To watch this happen to your friends, every single one of us bullied into silence and submission and then banned either for made up reasons or none at all was incredibly stressful for both them and us. This is not a small community. If we had done something wrong it would be different. But we hadn’t. All they had done was be associated with me.

When Dame got banned, it was incredibly hard on them. Eventually the stress of all of this had them completely disappear after leaving a message about suicide. And not just from discord, from the entire internet. We were all terrified. We had no idea if they were alive or dead. Recently they returned, and we were so happy! But when I showed the anon hate that qwille and their friends had sent me, directly targeting my ASPD, something I am very sensitive about, they snapped. Because that meant, after all this time, they were STILL hurting us. There is no excuse for ableism, even if you don’t like them ESPECIALLY from a group that is supposed to believe the opposite. If you think an entire year of harassment, fear, and paranoia while watching your friends accused of terrible things isn’t enough to justify to a suicide attempt, I can’t help you. 

There is no mention of the post Dame made prior to it being announced. There is no reason to tell a community of people at your beck and call to not pay attention to something they aren’t aware of unless you are trying to draw attention to it. As a result, my friend who is recovering from a suicide attempt has been sent suicide bait and asks encouraging them to self harm, as have I and the rest of my friends. Qwille has said nothing on this.

Now, you can’t even like my posts without fear of being instantly banned without notice. It doesn’t even matter who you are. I wish I could talk to these people, find out what it is about me they hate so much that they think they are justified in this.

--By the way, as qwille and their friends are claiming we've been planning this, we have not. At first, when I got banned, my friends wanted to do this just because of the injustice of what happened to me. And again, when it started happening to other friends of mine. But it was dropped. This, here, is happening because of you sending people to harass my friends. The suicide bait, the cutting anons, the laughter, that is why this is happening. It wouldn't have otherwise.

[toucheholland23]

Someday they will make the banana bread 😔💖

Solly, Cricket and GITM belong to @/venomous-qwille