#sometimes over-anticipating it

[latias-eevee-hatori]

When you have words to explain a thing, at least on a verrrry surface level, but not the words to explain any deeper than that.

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[corviiids]

man i know it's all in jest and/or affectionate but actually when i open my notes and it's all random strangers responding to my posts (mostly homerstuck) with shit like "op i want to flay you alive" "this is disgusting and cursed" etc it simply does not encourage me to post any more of it as people have been demanding i do, as i simply do not enjoy being engaged with in this way. playful rudeness from strangers just isn't pleasant to me. no hate genuinely i know y'all mean well and i appreciate that but damn people really do just say shit to total strangers on the internet

[ginger-grimm]

I’m so happy that Anthony is back at Smosh, but I mean this with my whole chest when I say it, I am not here for anyone (especially old fans) coming back and bashing the new cast and the new content on Games and Pit. All these lovely people have now been building this new legacy for eight years and deserve their credit and their attention and they deserve to not be ridicouled again (I cringe at the hate that the OG Smosh Squad received for literally no reason).

Please don’t drag Courtney, Shayne, Keith, Noah, Olivia, Kimmy, Jackie, Amanda, Chanse, Angela, and the rest of the crew’s names through the mud and please continue to appreciate the content they work hard on and put out. Let’s not leave anyone behind in this new era.

[stardustdiiving]

They’re going to confirm my idea of Arlecchino cycles of abuse story and I am going to go absolutely bonkers

[plantanarchy]

really just saw a post from a family friend dog breeder saying "If your dog is afraid of fireworks, you're a failure as a pet owner and shouldn't have a dog" ... huh. yeah ok, I'll rehome my chihuahua because she shakes a little over the strange sky noises no matter how much I try to desensitize. I'll get right on that.

[variksel]

nah its weird being in your early 20s, being surrounded by friends going thru some sort of early adulthood crises and "holy fuck im never gonna amount to anything im already 21, im never gonna be making money im never gonna be famous" -thoughts when like. all of the media you consume is by people who are well into their 30s and often, 40s

like i feel like im so chill about this partly because i feel like if this random mid class guy who got famous for the first time off of a podcast he started at 35 after working restaurant and retail jobs ........ anythin can happen u can do new shit after 27 girl

[dredshirtroberts]

oh shit y'all.

i've done gotten invested in Gurren Lagann. we're like 19 episodes deep in this paint and i have been emotionally compromised by the silly mechs.

believe in the me.

[the-trans-dragon]

Hehehe >:3 got a kissie and some headpats from a pretty girl >:3 muahahahahahaha >:3

[wollfling]

Happy new year everyone ♡ here's an Arlinn

[neverendingford]

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[flamboyant-king]

Magfest was fun! Walked around as Cammy, made a lot of “merch,” talked to a bunch of cool dudes, traded wares, met new friends and finally met old ones, got a jello shot from a Raccacoonie cosplayer, ate so much awful food, learned of new games, and got inspired.

I made so many buttons of cammypus and other funny creatures, folded 50+ origami boxes for the perler bead crafters, and drew on any paper I can find. It was nice and now I have no money.

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3

[shrunkupthejams]

*gives character a stuttering problem* haha yes YES

[scowlowl]

can i ask what yr thoughts on endo discourse are? i dont want to follow antis accidentally

my take on that is that i can't literally reach into someone's brain and see what the hell is going on in there and neither can you, so maybe get the hell out of there and stop trying to tell people what their experiences are based on what you think they should be.

okay look.

i get this ask once in a while, usually after rb'ing something about trauma and dissociation on my sideblog and that's fine but like... me just talking about trauma and dissociation is not the same thing as saying your experiences are invalid because it's not the same. which is kind of the vibe of these questions sometimes so i'm just gonna use yours as a springboard.

i have no fucking idea about you. or anyone, endo or not, or your life. or what happened in it. or what you think about it. or what you've been through. and frankly i am not invested enough in every single person on this website's feelings to add paragraphs of disclaimers about validating everyone else just so i can vent for ten minutes about my own shit.

i'm gonna post stuff about trauma and DID and how they're linked. because they are for me. that's gonna include the neuroscience behind it because learning that aspect of it has been immensely helpful in my own healing and communication efforts with my system. me talking about that does not automatically mean your own experiences as a system, or the presence of trauma, must conform to that. it's not like subtext in every post or reblog.

i'm not gonna talk about endos because that's not me, those discussions really don't involve me because i don't want to be part of them, and the one line i draw is that if you're not a survivor then get out of those spaces and at the very least, regardless of your personal opinions, leave room for discussions about being a system that don't actually relate to you. you don't have to relate or understand something to make space for it.

you can't see in my brain. fuck, i can't even see in my own brain. i also can't see in yours to say definitively what is going on in there. i can have opinions, and i can choose whether or not to air them, and there is so much complexity to a lot of this stuff that i am absolutely not getting into it on tumblr more than that.

…also, like, there are a lot of conflicting opinions between system members about a lot of this stuff. we don't all agree. there's at least one anti-endo member who just bites his tongue because the drama's not worth it here, and there's also a member who's in such denial about the trauma that she's like "well we're clearly endo, or were endo first, or--"

which is a different can of worms but i mostly mention to be like. you know. opinions vary somewhat and we have to apply that whole, trying to make room for experiences you can't relate to and finding ways to connect regardless to tumblr and my own system. that is where i'm coming from. i'm not anti-anything except anti-annoy me.

[autopotion]

So much shit coming out in the near future that I genuinely want and I'm legitimately stressed out about it. Final Fantasy VII Rebirth... Dragon Age: Dreadwolf... Hades II... They (video games) can't keep getting away with this

[itsadamnbeehive]

picky eater rant lol