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figure drawing 2day
#i need to work on actually drawing the whole body 😔 i tend to skip feet&head as u can obv see#or i draw too big on the paper & run out of space HEJAHAHAHA#sometimes ill just draw em in the corner if i have enough time😭#its fun though.. finally got myself charcoal sticks to shade w#but i didnt break them in well enough before the session#so i couldnt do those rly nice side sweeps like i wanted 😭#first is a 15 min pose n the other two are 5 mins#lg doodles
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reminiscing when i accidentally foreshadowed larry's Whole Deal session 1
#scribbles#toonkind dnd#larry samuel#authors note: it was not intentional foreshadowing#i did not figure out his Whole Deal til session 2 or 3#and then realized in retrospect that scene fit the lore perfectly#sometimes the dice know better than you do
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he's talking about Ortega
#My take on stupid-sexy-ortega dream#No horny.#fhr#fallen hero retribution#my art#cyrus becker#I accumulated enough warm up sketches#to clean up and make another silly#soz#sometimes warm up is the whole session#so there is no proper art#..yeaaah....
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the inherent fourth wall breaking of found footage stories not in the sense that the characters are leaving the fiction or able to look outside of it, but in the other direction that the audience becomes part of the fiction
#thinking of doug eiffel logs that we listen to that have the in-universe purpose to keep the main antagonist updated on their situation#thinking about characters in the bright sessions finding out and being upset about their sessions being recorded#the very recordings that are our only way in to the story#thinking of the hard-to-pin-down-at-first identity and purpose of the microphone in ars paradoxica#so omnipresent that you might not even register it as found footage at first#only to find out way way later on the whole town is bugged#(i think that was the reason? been a while)#thinking about the camera in carmilla that sometimes seems to have a will of its own and just Turns On when theres smth interesting happeni#the nature of being a character means you Are Being Watched#you only exist to be watched and when you are being watched#but sometimes#you can reach out and touch not the watcher per se but the medium#and you can look back#you can take control#you can unbug the house#turn off the camera#use it against the watcher#who is fucking up your life#because often that is what theyre doing#the in-universe watcher#it's almost impossible not to feel implicated as an audience member#and you are being cut off too#from the story#when the character fights against the watching of the antagonsit#when the character deceives the antagonist#you are also being deceived#like what they say abt hera when pryce is on board like. shes compromised. assume everything hera knows pryce knows. so you cant tell her#anyway
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My therapist told me today that I'm one of her patients who's made the most progress in the last two years and honestly I have a feeling I'm getting a good grade at therapy
#which is ofc something real and achievable#but fr fr tho I'm so proud of my progress 🥲 I think most ppl don't really acknowledge how much therapy is actually hard#like exposing yourself. being vulnerable. opening up about your fears and insecurities and really shameful things#and being open to try a new perspective and actually going through the motions of putting yourself out there#putting things to the test and feeling wrong and having your body react like a prey animal the whole time#and still push through and keep trying again and again until your brain finally assimilates that this is you now#this is how you want to think and live your life now and you're not gonna have it any other way#it's hard and you don't do it perfectly and you go back to your sessions and you try again#there's hard truths we have to admit about ourselves there that we aren't always ready for#but you just keep going and things do eventually change#even though sometimes it feels like a painfully slow process#and idk just hearing her tell me that she sees me. that she sees how hard I'm trying. man. it's. im not gonna cry#sleep.txt#it's been real. fr fr
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it’s raining rlly hard outside i have animal crossing music playing and i’m rlly happy ^_^
#my wife putting her magic into the house & my room worked !!#she left for an indoor concert & practicing w/ her own band#cuz they have jam sessions on fridays#but i asked if she could put magic into my room and she put in the whole house & extra in ny room#cuz it keeps everything safe for me#sometimes she puts it into stuffed animals too! especially cinder#🥀#🐱#diary 📖
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literally 10 min yt ads need to be illegal
#skippable ads should be no longer than 30 seconds & unskippable no longer than 5#if u cant meet the brief then u dont get the spot sorry!!!!#i should not be getting whole ass episodes of spiderman or joe schmoe's 30 min journaling session or whatever the fuc#it was funny when that one person got the entirety of horton hears a who and then it shouldve died there#sometimes my hands are busy!!! im elsewhere in the room!!!#i dont wanna drop what im doing just to go over & turn off linda's spiritual healing masterclass i didnt ask for!!!#im sorry who????????? im sorry????????#u do not pick my hyper niche fixations for me that is MY job thank u very much!!!! begone demons#retag later#society if big sites actually cared abt user experience:
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I have this problem where I love and adore ttrpgs and want to be playing them all the time, but I feel like I'm probably the absolute worst person to play with because I am annoying and bossy and never shut up and also am extremely prone to rules lawyering and everyone hates it and me
#i have GOT to learn how to shut the fuck up#rules are just really fun! i like them!!#anyway. sometimes we'll finish a session and I'll spend the next three hours feeling EXACTLY how i felt after any social interaction the#whole time i was in elementary school (aka I'm obnoxious and everyone hates playing games with me lmao)#i should stick to single player strategy rpgs#the worst part is that literally no one has said that to me but I'm so so certain it's true#''wow I'm really glad we've had so much character work and role-playing in this dungeon crawl thank u p.g. for encouraging that!''#so you think i should die? you think i should jump off a bridge? you hate me? ''that is the opposite of what we said'' ok but u didnt say no
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i simply feel that if you burn shit in your roommate’s skillet you should then feel the obligation to be the one who scrapes it out and cleans up
#sometimes i think about the fact that i’m literally the only person who’s cleaned the kitchen in this place for the entire year and a half#i’ve lived here and i get. a little pissed off#i’ve tried being polite and bringing up the problem without explicitly pointing fingers by leaving cleaning products (which i bought)#out on the counters and sending a text in the group chat like ‘hey! 😊 i got these wipes for us! i think that all of us could#use these a little more often so that the kitchen doesn’t get so gross!’ but it seems that everyone either has no sense of shame or just#genuinely doesn’t mind living in filth for the periods between the marathon cleaning sessions i do every few weekends when i have the time#one of the guys who lives downstairs will just walk right by me cleaning up on his way to the fridge and pretend he can’t see me#which is still better than the other one (the one who just burned shit in my skillet) who once saw me cleaning and asked if he could help#and when i got all pleased and asked if he could maybe take the trash out for me while i was cleaning counters (a small and simple task!#when he’d literally asked me if there was anything he could do!) he visibly deflated. said ‘well i’m not really around here much [so it’s#not my trash in there etc.]’ and wandered off. without doing anything#like. HELLO???? you could have just been like the other guy and pretended you didn’t see me doing all the work if this was how you were#going to be about it#but i guess he wanted to feel good about himself having offered/expected me to just say ‘oh no thanks i love being your housekeeper 😊’#tbh i really need to be more assertive and be like ‘hey guys i’m sick of this’ and maybe. bring up the Sexism of it all. because.#you know. the whole situation feels pretty gendered#was complaining about all this to an irl friend the other day and she said i should start a chore chart but i don’t want to be responsible#for maintaining the chore chart either! take on the mental load of managing the housework and also turning into Resident Bitch for asking#men to do things for me. you know. there is simply no way out here#there is another woman who lives here as well but unfortunately i don’t think she’ll be much help in forcing the issue because. she doesn’t#clean shit either!#actually in the days since she moved in the shower drain in our bathroom has become horrendously clogged which. well. i mean not to point#fingers but one of us has got about two inches of hair and the other has got a foot and a half. so#i also simply feel that if you clog a drain you should be the one to unclog it but i’ll probably do that as well#sorry for the massive tag rant by the way i really shouldn’t make myself out to be some kind of martyr because i’m not particularly neat#myself but…. ooooh god if the bar isn’t all the way down in hell#anyway i just did a whole bunch of dishes but i left that one skillet to soak passive-aggressively overnight#i don’t think the aggression will come across though because i think he genuinely won’t even pay attention to the fact that it’s still#dirty and i’ll end up being the one to clean it tomorrow#caseyposting
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had fun messing around in srpg today :) made a small chapter, but damn there’s a lot going on in the engine. i feel lost… is this how it feels… to be new to a game-making engine…🧎♂️
#the sample project & online guide helped a lot in terms of what i did today though.#so i’ll try to get more used to more default stuff before introducing scripts & all that#anyway chapter 1: princess & 2 retainers have goofy little training session#this is actually a set of characters i’ve used to test things in rpgm sometimes so its fun to drag them into a whole nother engine
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meme aside lmao but kuukou would be bored enough to do this with his vegetables lol
#vee queued to fill the void#he’ll spend an hour or two messing with the vegetables he SHOULD be prepping for the harai family dinner#and recreates this but it’s his dragon complete with butternut squash for the gold parts lmao#and he’s proudly taking pics and blowing up jyushi and hitoya’s phones with them lol#when shakku materialises from nothing in the kitchen bc his punk ass son senses were tingling lol#and whacks kuukou upside his head for getting sidetracked and playing with his food lol#when they get into their infamous harai family brawling session it end because shakku absolutely unhinged by this point#eats kuukou’s cucumber squash dragon whole and that is the end of that LOL#there’s this artist on twitter who draws food like dinosaurs and whenever i stumble across their art#i find myself wishing kuukou was real lol he’d love to see that#i think we should get more ‘kuukou’s bored so he’ll be artsy for a bit’ content lol he can draw he can play guitar (?)#he might make his own jewelry and sometimes his clothes lends itself to his own customisations AND I WANNA WATCH HIM DO IT LOL
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#i hate how wishy washy my social life is in this city like.#like everything has to be Planned and is a Thing and it’s like. i don’t want to go to a fancy group dinner#or get invited to a birthday party#i just want someone who will go to target with me#or come over and keep me company while i do laundry and then get tacos after like.#something that Actually feels intimate…idk#but now its like. i either go to this fancy dinner with a big group (who are mostly couples) and at least have something to do today#or. i spend my saturday alone.#like even the friends i have 1 on 1 its like. plans have to be made in advance if we wanna go get coffee or something#like nothing is just. spontaneous and casual its alk a Thing#but also like fuck. i just spent whole week at work alone i don’t wanna be alone in my weekend too like fuuuuuck this#and its like. i can’t help but feel like its my fault but i know its been hard because i work remote so im so fucking isolated#sometimes i think i should just move home but i know thatll just make me feel like i failed#at like. moving to a big city and making it work#but also i know its not just me like lonely city by olivia laing blah blah blah but goddddddd#i am a social creature!!!! i want to be around people!!!!! but in a meaningful and fulfilling way!!!!!!!#anyway thats my therapy session for today see u next time#m
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Sometimes you’ll make a character and after some time they’re like “actually you got me completely wrong. Here’s how I really am like.” And that’s good and that’s healthy. I think.
#and sometimes they’ll agree with how you made them but they’re like you missed something#and then they have a whole ass therapy session with you#writer speaks#writeblr
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I wish everyone else in the party was like me (obsessive) and we all had playlists for our characters and songs for particular story beats, cause if I share anything I have with them I'll look mental
#august talking#i have a few songs that are PERFECT for the session we just had#our dm shares songs sometimes but that's cool cause shes built a whole world and all these NPCs#meanwhile im just losing it over my player character#who's just a hair too much of a player-insert character to be comfortable for anyone if that comes out#august plays dnd
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my sister just told me about what's likely one of the most traumatizing events of her life and all the while she was cackling and laughing meanwhile i was just
#for once im actually glad she trauma dumped on me because jesus christ how did she live with this her whole life#dont get me wrong shes still a terrible person#but sometimes during these impromptu therapy sessions i feel like if her circumstances were different she couldve been a better person
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on the one hand I think an interesting direction to take melliwyk getting increasingly stressed and overtaxed and frantic would be for her behavior become increasingly careless and reckless, but the problem is that a part of why she's been Like This is that I don't want any of the Important Things she's trying to figure out to spin out of control
#the stakes are high enough that I'M too stressed about fucking things up to play too much into 'she's cracking under pressure' :')#justin got to play out zhartook struggling to process trauma with a really narratively cool PC-and-DM-controlled Loss Of Control#in the form of tying his first circle of the moon elemental wildshape to an uncontrolled emotional response#for melliwyk there isn't anything really Like That? I guess I could work with the DM to script a longer sleep incident but#that's not really the same-- for one thing zhartook becoming an uncontrolled fire elemental was An Encounter; both solvable and over quickly#for another thing melliwyk sometimes not being able to be awakened for longer stretches of time is a known possibility#(the mechanics behind the premise that if I ever couldn't make a session my character could just be asleep the whole time)#it's not CLEARLY tied to stress and it's not really actionable on my part or the party's#in theory-- or in a scripted show or written story-- it would be a chance for the party to pick up for her#after which she realizes she really doesn't have to put so much on just herself without asking for help#in PRACTICE I feel like it would just be really annoying for everyone lol#I dunno! she's definitely pushed herself more and slept less#but again I as a player don't wanna push 'your wizard isn't long resting' too far either :') not really fair to everyone else...#there's a necronomicon that's probably cursed but the benefits of attuning to it anyway aren't extremely clear?#I MEAN it definitely HAS benefits but they're not anything urgently useful right now#alas I continue not to be creative or intelligent enough to roleplay a chaotic wizard gnome#about me#my OCs#melliwyk
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