#sqlumi

[meoware]

It's been a while lol

[whatgeese]

Watched the angelstone supercut and actually got emotional I miss them so bad man

[bizlybebo]

Can you draw a Sqlumi. PLEASE.for me. The Sqlumi guy

SQLUMI … haven’t heard that name in years

(version without the arrows/text)

[doublebeau]

guys i miss sqlumi

[markmentomoreef]

I SHOWED MY FRIEND THE SUPERCUT, AND SHE WAS AS OBSESSED AS I WAS….

THEN THEY SHOWED ME THIS SONG FOR THEM-

[habeascorpseus]

when i was in 7th grade, i had my first boyfriend. corny shit, i know. in many cases i dont think middle school relationships are enough to be classified as dating- but to this day, i do firmly believe our clumsy attempts at recreating the behavior of couples barely older than us did count. there was an emotional connection there. we had met in 6th grade and bonded over fnaf and minecraft 3 animations and all those other things that people still found found entertaining in 2014.

another notable thing in 7th grade that happened was that i had discovered i was transgender. well, i say "discovered", but it was honestly a long time coming. between my obsession with being seen as a "tomboy," my favorite song on the Kidz Bop 16 CD being Beyonce's "If I Were A Boy" (but sung in a way to make it so much less about cheating that it really became more of a call to action to imagine life as a man) to the point where i manually would loop it on my cd player for hours, and my growing love for mlm shipping— i had been a certified egg since i was in 4th grade. but despite being raised around and parented with about a dozen lesbian and gay couples since birth, i didnt know whether or not my parents were transphobic or not. so, after looking through a list of trans identities, i decided to just come out as genderfluid to my parents as sort of a compromise to the intimidating rigidity of being a trans boy. and even though it wasn't entirely fitting to what i'd ultimately figure out about myself, i grew pretty attached to it.

back to the middle school boyfriend.

at the end of 7th grade— like, a week before summer vacation— i publically came out as genderfluid. while my ex, who i will from now on refer to as Lou, had initially taken it well, albeit with some confusion, over the summer, a much different series of feelings began unfolding. unfortunately, as middle school boys are wont to do whenever one of them begins to act even slightly against the norm, his friends began asking him if he was gay. "if michael¹ is a boy sometimes, does that make you straight, or bisexual?" are some of the things i later heard them ask. and since i, phoneless till the age of 16, was unable to talk to him throughout this relentless picking apart of his own identity, by the time we got back to school, things were... different.

¹ Michael is the name i went by irl for 3 years from 7th-9th grade.

for one, there were the jokes. he was a big leafy fan (and i really did try even back then to steer him away from that but its hard when youre a cringe nerd middle schooler) and back then "attack helicopter" jokes were kind of all the rage, so he began jokingly identifying as a toaster. then he made a toaster mask out of a cardboard box, spray paint, and duct tape that he brought to school and began putting on whenever i walked by him in the hallway. and then, and possibly worst of all- a simple html website shared between his friends called "what gender is Michael today?" which lead to a random generator of options like, "boy", "girl", "toaster", and "attack helicopter." all of which is kind of a lot to deal with when youre a middle schooler with a pretty rough time of it already, and suddenly your main bully is the guy youve effectively been in a relationship with for 6 months.

and now you may be asking: hey habeas, why this sudden autobiographical deep dive into the most traumatic period of your life? what spawned this? how is this story relevant to literally anything going on? well, that's where the next part of the story comes in.

that year, our sex ed teacher was a 5ft transgender man named Mudd. Mudd had a buzzcut, and a higher pitched voice, and small hands, but beyond all of that, there was nothing visibly different about him than any other boy or man in the school. in fact, the boys thought he was cool as hell. they were fascinated by the idea of transformation of the self into an unrecognizable body. they never misgendered him, even after learning his status as a trans man. in fact, they were comfortable enough around him to be transphobic towards me. and Mudd, like a good trans mentor, told them to cut that shit out, and told me that regardless of how complicated and occasionally contradictory my identity was, it was still me, and i needed to stand up for who i was as a person.

a week later, Lou called me a tranny, and in response, i punched him in the nose and promptly stopped talking to him.

so again, why is this relevant? well, I'm not sure how terminally online (or specifically, on twitter) some of you are, but recently there's been a bit of a tiff in a certain fandom about bi lesbianism. specifically, how it, as an identity, is harmful to both the bisexual and lesbian communities. which, one: nooooo....??? bisexuality and lesbianism arent separate so much fraternal twins, and I've already talked too much to include further definitions to prove it. but my argument is really less about its validity as an identity and more about the principle of there being limits to acceptance, even within our community.

like with my experience, people were fine when they were faced with binary identities. a trans man like mudd is cool, or a trans girl like Jazz Jennings (we watched a lot of I Am Jazz in homeroom) could be seen as normal, and more so, inspiring. but when i came in with an identity people found to be contradictory or "too confusing," it resulted in backlash. the entire definition of being "queer" is to be abnormal to what general society finds acceptable, and even then, some things are "too weird" to be tolerated. even amongst "weird" people. which i find to be a pretty troubling trend amongst queer leftist young people who's only real experience with an "lgbt community" has been online. here, we prioritize and find catharsis in labels and categories to the point where the "queer community" has become instead split between identities- the gays, the lesbians, the bis, the transes, the aros and aces and the whatnot. in the real world, it doesnt matter what flavor of queer you are, nobody's going to stop and ask before they call you a groomer and then legislate your freedom away. which is why we, as an online queer community, have to get rid of the notion that some identities are "too contradictory" or "dont exist" enough to be worth giving support and love.

im saying all this here... because, well, one: nobody wants to read a 40+ tweet thread about my personal brush with irl homophobia and how that radicalized me against community separation in general, and two: i am deeply afraid of 14 year olds on twitter with too much time on their hands. but also im saying this because it was infuriating yesterday to watch my entire twitter feed suddenly turn into a puritanical campaign against the very concept of someones identity and have the ability to say nothing. it disgusted me how quickly we turn against our own simply because the way they are is confusing to our tiny fucking peanut brains. and i know none of those people who went on that tirade will read this, but i felt like it needed to be said anyways.

don't let society's impulse to ostracize the confusing and strange win out over human decency. don't do conservatives' strategy to divide and conquer us for them. a person's identity not being comprehensible to you is not inherently an attack on who you, yourself, are. you are your identity and you should stand up for it, and you should stand up for others' identities too. punch your bullies in the nose.

long live the confusing, the contradictory, and most importantly, the queer.

[meoware]

SQLUMI 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[whatgeese]

here’s my @jrwi-art-exchange piece for @starsinoursystem !! Always love drawing these guys 🫶🫶🫶 I hope you like it!

[bizlybebo]

whatever . kicks a rock

[snailvee]

oh circumcise my love for you

[needlejuicerecords]

how y'all feeling about the new lemon demon samples ...

no man you dont even know im so hype

[peter-sqloint]

this looks like you @sqlumi

man-made aurora opal & natural iolite gemstone pendants by starbirdjewelry on ig

[canyourlawnmowerdothis]

for all that it's worth, i would've loved you til the end

but i'm cold in your heart and you're branded

into mine

lines by @the-algebra-thing , colors by me :3

[gay-s0ck-puppet]

peter sqloint is the literal embodiment of ‘me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic’

try to prove me wrong. you can’t.

[rolandeepyaoi]

‼️spoilers for eps 13‼️ but seriously nobody touch me rn I am so completely normal about how Peter and Rumi were both paralleling each other's battles, both fighting tooth and nail for the other out of pure love. both fighting these powerful higher beings all by themselves and winning because god doesn't love make you do crazy shit, make you more powerful. and they both wanted to seem so cool in front of the other afterwards but ended up just breaking down because the though of loosing each other permanently was terrifying. Rumi letting down some of his barriers to Peter and Peter being accepting of it all. I love them. I love them so so much.

[peter-sqloint]

@sqlumi hey @sqlumi @sqlumi plz comw hewhrhrhehdbfbd look look look

Apothderium Attraction

[pt: Apothderium Attraction]

[IDs: 2 rectangular flags with 7 equally-sized horizontal lines. colors in this order from top to bottom: pink, grey-pink, purple, dark grey-purple, purple, grey-pink, pink. in the center of the first flag is a pink symbol of a sun with a grey-pink symbol of a heart inside of it. End ID]

Apothderium Attraction: a type of attraction characterized by feelings of eternal, ethereal, deep, all-encompassing, and devoted love, as well as an enthusiastic and passionate desire and longing for someone. Can also have feelings of fate, soulmates, and of being "written in the stars", but doesn't have to.

typically experience alongside Amidous Attraction, Diauamoric Attraction, and/or Doraric/Dorare Attraction

Etymology: apotheosis, desiderium

[ID: a pink symbol of a sun with a grey-pink symbol of a heart inside of it. End ID]

@radiomogai

[ID: a red line divider with a red circle in the middle. both are outlined in dark red. End ID]