#aaaaanyways

[froggtogs]

gone fishing

[cara-carabowditbowdit]

been trying out different art programs recently... firealpacas cray cray

[twinkinspector]

denki likes to hold a vibrator between your pussy lips and let you grind on it while he fingerfucks you

"c'mon, pretty girl. just give me one so i can fuck you full of my cum"

[xieliancore]

band au scaramouche partly inspired by this chiscara fic!

[habeascorpseus]

when i was in 7th grade, i had my first boyfriend. corny shit, i know. in many cases i dont think middle school relationships are enough to be classified as dating- but to this day, i do firmly believe our clumsy attempts at recreating the behavior of couples barely older than us did count. there was an emotional connection there. we had met in 6th grade and bonded over fnaf and minecraft 3 animations and all those other things that people still found found entertaining in 2014.

another notable thing in 7th grade that happened was that i had discovered i was transgender. well, i say "discovered", but it was honestly a long time coming. between my obsession with being seen as a "tomboy," my favorite song on the Kidz Bop 16 CD being Beyonce's "If I Were A Boy" (but sung in a way to make it so much less about cheating that it really became more of a call to action to imagine life as a man) to the point where i manually would loop it on my cd player for hours, and my growing love for mlm shipping— i had been a certified egg since i was in 4th grade. but despite being raised around and parented with about a dozen lesbian and gay couples since birth, i didnt know whether or not my parents were transphobic or not. so, after looking through a list of trans identities, i decided to just come out as genderfluid to my parents as sort of a compromise to the intimidating rigidity of being a trans boy. and even though it wasn't entirely fitting to what i'd ultimately figure out about myself, i grew pretty attached to it.

back to the middle school boyfriend.

at the end of 7th grade— like, a week before summer vacation— i publically came out as genderfluid. while my ex, who i will from now on refer to as Lou, had initially taken it well, albeit with some confusion, over the summer, a much different series of feelings began unfolding. unfortunately, as middle school boys are wont to do whenever one of them begins to act even slightly against the norm, his friends began asking him if he was gay. "if michael¹ is a boy sometimes, does that make you straight, or bisexual?" are some of the things i later heard them ask. and since i, phoneless till the age of 16, was unable to talk to him throughout this relentless picking apart of his own identity, by the time we got back to school, things were... different.

¹ Michael is the name i went by irl for 3 years from 7th-9th grade.

for one, there were the jokes. he was a big leafy fan (and i really did try even back then to steer him away from that but its hard when youre a cringe nerd middle schooler) and back then "attack helicopter" jokes were kind of all the rage, so he began jokingly identifying as a toaster. then he made a toaster mask out of a cardboard box, spray paint, and duct tape that he brought to school and began putting on whenever i walked by him in the hallway. and then, and possibly worst of all- a simple html website shared between his friends called "what gender is Michael today?" which lead to a random generator of options like, "boy", "girl", "toaster", and "attack helicopter." all of which is kind of a lot to deal with when youre a middle schooler with a pretty rough time of it already, and suddenly your main bully is the guy youve effectively been in a relationship with for 6 months.

and now you may be asking: hey habeas, why this sudden autobiographical deep dive into the most traumatic period of your life? what spawned this? how is this story relevant to literally anything going on? well, that's where the next part of the story comes in.

that year, our sex ed teacher was a 5ft transgender man named Mudd. Mudd had a buzzcut, and a higher pitched voice, and small hands, but beyond all of that, there was nothing visibly different about him than any other boy or man in the school. in fact, the boys thought he was cool as hell. they were fascinated by the idea of transformation of the self into an unrecognizable body. they never misgendered him, even after learning his status as a trans man. in fact, they were comfortable enough around him to be transphobic towards me. and Mudd, like a good trans mentor, told them to cut that shit out, and told me that regardless of how complicated and occasionally contradictory my identity was, it was still me, and i needed to stand up for who i was as a person.

a week later, Lou called me a tranny, and in response, i punched him in the nose and promptly stopped talking to him.

so again, why is this relevant? well, I'm not sure how terminally online (or specifically, on twitter) some of you are, but recently there's been a bit of a tiff in a certain fandom about bi lesbianism. specifically, how it, as an identity, is harmful to both the bisexual and lesbian communities. which, one: nooooo....??? bisexuality and lesbianism arent separate so much fraternal twins, and I've already talked too much to include further definitions to prove it. but my argument is really less about its validity as an identity and more about the principle of there being limits to acceptance, even within our community.

like with my experience, people were fine when they were faced with binary identities. a trans man like mudd is cool, or a trans girl like Jazz Jennings (we watched a lot of I Am Jazz in homeroom) could be seen as normal, and more so, inspiring. but when i came in with an identity people found to be contradictory or "too confusing," it resulted in backlash. the entire definition of being "queer" is to be abnormal to what general society finds acceptable, and even then, some things are "too weird" to be tolerated. even amongst "weird" people. which i find to be a pretty troubling trend amongst queer leftist young people who's only real experience with an "lgbt community" has been online. here, we prioritize and find catharsis in labels and categories to the point where the "queer community" has become instead split between identities- the gays, the lesbians, the bis, the transes, the aros and aces and the whatnot. in the real world, it doesnt matter what flavor of queer you are, nobody's going to stop and ask before they call you a groomer and then legislate your freedom away. which is why we, as an online queer community, have to get rid of the notion that some identities are "too contradictory" or "dont exist" enough to be worth giving support and love.

im saying all this here... because, well, one: nobody wants to read a 40+ tweet thread about my personal brush with irl homophobia and how that radicalized me against community separation in general, and two: i am deeply afraid of 14 year olds on twitter with too much time on their hands. but also im saying this because it was infuriating yesterday to watch my entire twitter feed suddenly turn into a puritanical campaign against the very concept of someones identity and have the ability to say nothing. it disgusted me how quickly we turn against our own simply because the way they are is confusing to our tiny fucking peanut brains. and i know none of those people who went on that tirade will read this, but i felt like it needed to be said anyways.

don't let society's impulse to ostracize the confusing and strange win out over human decency. don't do conservatives' strategy to divide and conquer us for them. a person's identity not being comprehensible to you is not inherently an attack on who you, yourself, are. you are your identity and you should stand up for it, and you should stand up for others' identities too. punch your bullies in the nose.

long live the confusing, the contradictory, and most importantly, the queer.

[v0idlessart]

✨CrowN's Nest physical Volume 1 is now available! Size: A5 Pages: 184 B/W Language: English

As well as a bunch new merchandise. Feel free to check out this link to my store!

You can also read completely free over at my comics website!

[definite-human]

Petition to outlaw cute boys wearing eyeliner because how tf am I supposed to pay attention to literally anything else

[plagues-personal-hell]

Second. AAUUHHGGGHGHGHHHHHHH {sound of me making this}

[trashendence]

So, first of all how dare you make me laugh at something so dark (but I really did).

I think a lot about how this episode, at that particular moment, is the one and only time we ever got anyone — Buck, Eddie, or any other character — refer to them as "best friends." And he said it about ten minutes (or maybe a few days in show time) before "there's no one in this world I trust with my son more than you," in this episode that was the launch of the love story.

Just thinking how 911 is so precise and intentional, with everything, but especially with Buck and Eddie. No best friends, no uncle Buck (only *his* Buck), and we got the dreaded "brothers" only twice, earlier in Season 2, before everything changed.

I think about this a lot.

i’m glad it made you laugh, friend, because it was indeed a bit dark. (i also think you were the one to point out to me that this was the first and last ‘best friend’ to ever be voiced in relation to buddie which- changed me on a molecular level so yeah, thanks for that.)

it’s just that 9-1-1 doesn’t shy away from defining relationships, ever. and it has nothing to do with labels, rather with the fact that its storytelling needs to give structure and permanency to the deep affection running between characters. spouses, best friends, brothers, sisters, parents, sons. since the show is extremely fast-paced, this solid network of love and its unconditionality is what keeps everything together. and yet, for buck and eddie’s love to not be clearly defined for years is somehow…fitting.

i mean, this last ‘best friend’ happens at the heart of an arc that sees buck clinging with his everything to his ‘firefighter buckley’ persona because he’d feel like nothing without it and it also happens at the emotional climax of the episode chris spent looking specifically for ‘buck’, his buck who couldn’t hear him in the middle of a natural disaster — “are you buck? he was looking for buck”. and for someone like evan buckley? who is so deeply wounded and traumatized that even hearing his own true name touches way too many hidden buttons? it means a lot; names, definitions, roles — they matter . “there’s no one in this world [like you]”, or “there’s - there has been - no one in this world that even has a similar role in my life, no one that exactly compares, so i don’t know what i’m supposed to call you. you are buck.”

and to think that immediately after all of this, when eddie feels lost because he can’t reach out to buck — because he can’t call anyone from the 118 AND he can’t call buck —, buck’s fear is precisely that he’s been replaced by lena (whose name he physically strips off to uncover his own). there’s no one in this world, no one compares, and buck thinks lena — basically a stranger — has what it takes to replace ‘firefighter buckley’ and ‘buck’. thinks he’s expendable like that.

buck and eddie go on by exclusion, work in negatives — ‘what we are not’, ‘i am important if you die; i am necessary if you are not anymore’ — and they haven’t been able to define what they are to each other because eddie always had a problem accepting what he wants - to be, to have - while buck never really knew what to want in the first place.

but they’ll get there.

[echoes-lighthouse]

for Alex - ❤️‍🩹 Would your f/o ever hurt you? Under what circumstances, or why not?

I love this particular selfship because asks about it always have one half of my brain like 'aww lovely daydream' and the other half of my brain is just sitting there grimacing.

Inside of me there are two wolves.

The funny thing is that I'm not so much of a masochist as a... sadist at my self-inserts' expense? If that makes sense?

Anyways let's get down to the question!!! Which is from my dark selfship asks, for selfships that aren't as fluffy as the usual assumptions in this community <3 I'll answer it under a readmore for folks who want to avoid the physical and mental abuse discussions :I

The short answer is yes, absolutely, Alex hurts me regularly for his own entertainment. I think that he sees me very much as an extension of himself, and that leads to some interesting dynamics.

I grew up with Alex as a constant in my life, and he's been testing my limits ever since I can remember. Twisting my arm, cutting my hair, stabbing me in the leg under the dinner table, I literally don't know a home life without Alex there as a constant unpredictable force.

The balance with Alex is that he doesn't want to hurt me "permanently," and he does that oh-so-classic tactic where he moves in cycles that are slow enough for me to forgive him before he hurts me again.

He's also protective of me around strangers, and even to our parents sometimes. They're not dangerous the same way that Alex is, but they tend to be harsher with me because they know that I won't talk back, and Alex gets in between us when I'm upset. Reinforces the idea that it's me and him against the world.

He lets his friends hurt me in very prescribed ways, and he's angry with them when they overstep. He uses me as both a peace offering and a way to possess his friends through me, in a way that he himself can't/won't. I don't think that he's aware of that factor, and I don't think that I'm aware of that factor at the age of my standard self-insert, but it's true either way.

[jellyfish-grave]

I think once i gain popularity one of the first things I wanna do is make a popularity poll of my ocs

[sga-owns-my-soul]

Asking for our unhinged crack(?) Ship. Teyla/Daniel

(Also mcshep, obviously. If you haven't done it yet)

ship bingo

omg teyla/daniel my BELOVED (if you don't know go read Beautiful Disaster it's a beautiful fic of daniel going to atlantis and him and teyla develop a BEAUTIFUL relationship and i'm obsessed)

they're SO <3333

and mcshep my beloved 😌😌

[fullusun]

why would you snoop like that like YOUUUU are any better 💀🫵🏻 — wifey !

i came across it BY ACCIDENT. ACC 👏🏻 I👏🏻DENT👏🏻

[wtfuckevenknows]

This is gonna go so fucking wrong 🙃

[thiembweh]

🤏 (Via)

[stanchett]

howdy friends, the last 24 hours have been absolutely insane