#starting my PHP on Friday

[beardedmrbean]

Really and truly not sending this to be dismissive, but apparently there’s more to that Jonathan Joss situation than what we know. His husband claiming that the house was burned due to homophobia was already lying, as there’s a news article that stated that it was because they left a grill lit (and Johnathan admitted it):

https://www.expressnews.com/lifestyle/article/king-of-the-hill-jonathan-joss-san-antonio-fire-20053771.php

Also people are pointing out that it makes no sense that the shooter killed Jonathan for being gay but didn’t bother killing his husband. Something isn’t adding up, but I still firmly believe Jonathan should never have died. It’s just that there’s way more than what’s being told and I don’t like people potentially lying about hate crimes

Clickable link to the article here it's about the fire

Actor and San Antonio native Jonathan Joss lost three dogs and his childhood home in a South Side house fire Thursday.

The McCollum High School grad, famous for his roles as the voice of John Redcorn in the animated series "King of the Hill" and Chief Ken Hotate in "Parks and Recreation," said the vacant home lacked gas and electricity.

"I don't have a job," Joss said via phone Friday from a San Antonio hotel. "And now my three dogs died in my home. I can't even concentrate on work."

Joss said he and his partner had lit a barbecue grill inside the house for warmth and to "make some Abuelita" Mexican hot chocolate earlier Thursday, but were sure they extinguished it before leaving at noon to get lunch and pick up supplies to clean the home.

Fire crews reportedly responded to the home in the 200 block of Dorsey Drive around 1 p.m. Thursday. By the time Joss and his partner returned just before 2 p.m., the uninsured residence was a smoldering loss.

"I told them it was my fault," Joss said. "Very easily it could have started because of my stupidity."

Joss noted his father bought the home in 1957 and his mother willed it to him before she died. Joss said the fire also destroyed his 1994 Chevrolet Impala SS, along with his "King of the Hill" library and more than 30 years of television memorabilia.

He broke into tears as he recounted the loss of his three dogs at the home. Firefighters found the body of one dog and Joss found the other two.

Of his eldest dog Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, a 13-year-old Chihuahua mix, Joss said the dog always kept him safe.

Joss noted he was in the process of returning to Los Angeles to resume his acting. He returns as John Redcorn for a "King of the Hill" revival slated for this year on Hulu. Joss' other credits include the 2016 remake of the 1960 classic "The Magnificent Seven" and the Paramount+ series "Tulsa King" starring Sylvester Stallone.

Joss said he and his partner are just trying to get some aid. Those interested in helping can contact Joss at 210-929-9017.

"Just [want to say] thank you to my fans, and always love your puppies because you never know when accidents will happen," Joss said. "God speed and be strong, everybody." _________________________

Ugh, this is muddying the waters.

Trial should clear a bunch of that up though, hopefully at least

[never-not-ever]

Long update ahead~

I’m on roommate #6 which is sort of low considering I’ve been here 8 months today. This is going to be so random but once I start thinking of something (like rooms, roommates and how long for each) I get fixated and like to waste time on it.

I had a single room when I first got here and I think I had it for a week.

I moved into room #2 with roommate #1, I think we were roommates for 2 weeks before she discharged. Then I got roommate #2 and was with her for about a week before I moved into a single. I was in that single for 5 weeks. Then I moved into room #4 and had the best roommate ever for about 3 weeks before she discharged. So I was in room #4 for 11 weeks which is the longest I’ve had a stable room. When my old favorite roommate discharged I got a new roommate #4 and me and her were roommates for so long, about 11 weeks. Our room ended up getting mold and we had to move after 7 weeks together which brings me to room number #5. (Started to get confused, so I made a table below, it’s literally been an hour now fixated on this room/roommate shit). We were roommates for another 3 weeks in room #5 before I moved into a single for about 7 weeks. Then I moved to my current room #7 and had roommate #5 for 4 weeks and my current roommate #6 for about a week.

Room#/Length/Roommate

#1- 1 week, single room

#2- 3 weeks, C- 2 weeks, M- 1 week

#3- 5 weeks, single room

#4- 11 weeks, M- 3 weeks, A- 8 weeks

#5- 3 weeks, A- 3 more weeks

#6-7 weeks, single room

#7- 4 weeks, V- 4 weeks, G- 1 week

I guess it’s really # of times I’ve moved, since room #2 and #4 were actually the same room. But the second time around I was on the other side of the room. Wow was that a lot of useless information for nothing! Glad I got that out of my system. Time to see where I last left off on an update… like 3.5 weeks ago… hmmm…

Seems clear cut what to update on. So I posted last on a Monday. I actually remember these past 3 weeks clearly. That Monday was a crying, empty, “I ruined everything/hate myself” day. The next day I clarified with my team that the 6 month IOP and the PHP are definitely off the table and they said yes. I went and sat in my corner at the end of the farthest hall, started crying and getting upset again but it was quick, not an all day affair like the previous day.

In order to leave it’s always been the same criteria- I have to have outside providers set up and need to stop self harming. I mean the self harming isn’t a reason to keep me here, it’s more so the structure/providers to leave. But if the self harming gets severe like it usually does then that’s reason for them to pull back on discharge as well.

So that day I said fuck it, I’m leaving next Friday. I spent all day figuring out my crappy insurance, searching for psychiatrists and therapists and partials. I had all the rest of that week and the following week before my hopeful discharge that Friday to get everything together.

The only issue is vacations. That Friday (my personal discharge date) was my doctors last day before her 2 week vacation. She was fine with the covering doctor discharging me while she’s gone if he was comfortable with it. See I wanted to leave that Friday because I would have a week at home with my Nana before she went on vacation for a week. My Nana and my team were all worried about me being home alone while she was away.

That’s why I wanted to leave that Friday but that didn’t happen. I was so hellbent on making that my discharge date that I put blinders on and pushed away urges and the self harm stopped, I just wanted to leave. I thought maybe I could leave next week, maybe the covering doctor would discharge me. Then my social worker told me we were going to have a meeting the following Thursday with my Nana. And that’s when I realized I wasn’t leaving while my doctor was on vacation, that I would be here til the end of the month. Because my Nana would not be comfortable with me discharging the day before she went away for a week, leaving me home alone.

So during my doctors last week my mood started to drop and it honest to god had nothing to do with her leaving. I just started to feel so hopeless again. My doctor said she was worried if I didn’t leave on that Friday like I hoped, that I would unravel. I guess she was right.

This shift in things started almost 3 weeks ago but this past week things have gotten so much worse. I’m constantly on high alert and anxious. My mood is so low and I spend so much of the day thinking about self harm, which has started up again. Surprisingly I’m still on 15s and able to go outside on walks so not much has changed with privileges being cut back. We’ll see what my doctor thinks/does when she gets back.

I’m still looking for a therapist. Once I have that, we can set a discharge date and put in a referral for a partial. The only issue is the self harm. I have 4 days before my doctor gets back. I could miraculously turn everything around, go these 4 days without self harm and have an optimistic attitude on Tuesday when I meet with her. But if it was that easy I would have left a long time ago.

I’m constantly invalidating everything I feel and think. But for once I’m going to say and believe that I can’t change how low my mood has gotten. I can’t change that the SI has started to creep back in because of the hopelessness. I can’t change any of that. And because of that I’m worried about these next few days and her return. I know I can control my actions in regards to self harm but only up until a point.

That’s enough of a treatment update. I’ll try to post more frequent about non-treatmenty things.

[pandesalmonster]

my search for the perfect twitter bookmarks manager (aka i tried 4 twitter paid manager apps and i still can't choose bc they're all expensive as hell)

i want to leave twitter ASAP BUT

i don't know how to do it

i've been collecting and organizing my bookmarks with "twillot" a freemium twitter bookmark web organizer. it costs 581 php/month (368 php/month if you do annual billing But you will be charged 4416 php right away.)

I have 3 candidates for my twitter bookmarks organizer, the main drawback for each is that i have to depend on them? but the monthly fee is wayyy too expensive, that's like 2-3 days of meals for me, and it's already 3% of my salary, and i have to make space to buy kpop stuff.

so far, i paid for 1 month of twillot basic plan which yeeted out 581 pesos from my credit card. ouch

so it's either find a higher paying job (i plan to leave my job by October so start applying around August) so i can afford to lose 600 pesos per month (that's like 30 pesos per working day. ouch!)

so the options are:

1. TWEETSMASH

PRICING: - $49 - exports pass (one time payment) - can export and auto sync bookmarks, organize into "smart" folders - reader pass: $14 monthly or $84 yearly (6 months off or $7 monthly) - can turn into newsletters, no export to pdf option - yearly pass: $99 yearly ($8.25 monthly) - full experience PROS: woman made #womenintech, can open in tablet browser ���, it looks similar to notion so somewhat cleaner looking than dewey CONS: no nested folders?, and it's selling AI too much?

2. DEWEY

PRICING: - $50 - 48 hour export pass - all features for 48 HOURS ONLY - pro monthly: $10 monthly = $120 yearly - no export, notion & gsheet integration) - pro yearly: $7.50 monthly or $90 yearly (3 months off) - all features - last black friday they offered 30% off, then christmas they offered 35% off, then on new year they offered 25% off, so i'm waiting this year for either black friday or christmas for at least a 25% off discount (i'm talking $63 yearly which is still a lot but hopefully i'm $63 richer by november LOL)

PROS: nested folder, can open in tablet browser ✅, almost same interface as tweetsmash, i think this was the one i tried exporting to pdf and it came out nice, has an option to save the whole thread, auto groups by year and month CONS: interface is too noisy (too many gradients), the export pass is limited for 48 hours why why why, also the limited features when you do monthly billing instead of yearly billing is so nasty, when i first did their AI auto categorization it just threw out 200 different folders and that sucked, they

3. TWILLOT

PRICING - basic - $10 monthly or $78 yearly (3.5 months off or $6.5 monthly) - export 50000 tweets, up to 50000 bookmarks - pro - $20 monthly or - unlimited bookmarks PROS: prettiest interface (it looks like an excel file but cleaner), easy to tag tweets into folders, promises local backup (better than export to csv imo) but i tried it and it doesn't work so. CONS: idk if i want my money to go to a chinese dev and indirectly to the ccp lol, no sorting by date, doesn't open in tablets because it's a google web extension. (sad) ❌ but also, it's newer than the first 2 apps so i will give it some slack, the export to pdf doesnt put the username for some reason? but it numbers the tweets, and the images come out really HD, so that's nice.

4. FAVOURITES IO

PROS: cheap CONS: limited features, only search and tags, no export

i really want to like twillot but it was too late for me to get the early bird discounted subscription, and it's a younger app.

so i'm thinking of unsubbing to twillot after the 1 month, then waiting for the black friday/ christmas/ new year discount and subscribe to a dewey yearly plan; or if there's no discount, getting the tweetsmash 1 time export pass and hopefully it doesn't have a time limit like dewey has.

so far i've organized 833 tweets into folders (2%) in twillot, so i've wasted some time, but it's part of the exploration.

i want to do like a youtube video on this so i can monetize it a bit LOL but maybe i should send feedback to the devs first).

what's really cool is that both the tweetsmash and twillot devs are on twitter and reddit (they advertise their apps on there and seek advice and stuff). i think the dewey team are also on there. what i mean is you can see they built these apps because they were sick of seeing this problem and were like "fine, i'll do it myself!" which is inspiring as someone who once dreamed of building an app (for what? idk? like my own personal assistant on the phone lol). and they did it and these apps are running, albeit not perfectly, but they built it! and people pay for their apps! that's cool!

so my takeaway is maybe i want to shift my career to tech soon bc that's where the money is still at (pls don't flop soon)

[bugbutton]

so, i was going to start intensive outpatient tomorrow, but on friday afternoon they called me and told me they were recommending me for their partial hospitalization program. when i asked why, she said something like that she couldn't tell me or something (I wish I could remember exactly, but I was already panicking and dissociated by this time). i asked her if i say no to partial hospitalization, will they reject me for IOP, and she said "well, again, it's not accept or reject, but finding the best fit for you" which like, yeah those are pretty words and i get it but also it is still a rejection and you don't get to tell me it's not. anyway, her answer was something like "they'll call you about it hopefully by this evening" and so i waited.

at about 8:30pm, i decided to call them because i hadn't heard back. the person i spoke to was a different person, and hadn't been expecting me, and when I told her that I had been told that I would hear back, she told me that she didn't have any notes or memos about it (so I guess they just had not intended to call me back like they said they would). I asked her what the deal was, and she repeated what I had already been told— that I was being recommended for PHP over IOP. I expressed that I was frustrated and confused, because I wanted to at least know *why,* and she was like "they didn't tell you?" and I was like "no, she said she couldn't" and she was quiet for a moment and was like "that's not right" (I feel bad for her in hindsight, because it sucks when you have to clean up a mess your coworker made)

she told me the reasons why and they included some bullshit like "intermittent anger" and some other stuff which I regretted having shared with the clinician who did my intake, even though I know I shouldn't lie or cover anything up so that I can get the best treatment, I felt like I had given the "wrong" answers and that if only I had masked more, I would have been accepted.

then regarding my frustration with the sudden change, I said, "they offered to let me start today. what if I had shown up today? were they just going to be like, surprise you're in PHP? that's not okay!" and to my surprise and relief, she agreed with me. she explained to me more about the partial hospitalization program and I expressed some concerns I have with it, mainly that they provide food, but I'm worried that it won't be stuff I can eat. I think I told her to have them call me, and hopefully tomorrow they will, or I'll call them. I want to give this place a chance but if they don't impress me or I don't feel like they apologize/make it up to me sufficiently, I'm gonna find somewhere else.

it sucked though because I had been feeling hopeful about this place and it felt like my hope was stolen from right in my hands, y'know? but whatever. I'm managing. I'm still feeling more at ease just knowing that IOP or PHP is gonna be my next step. but this shit just sucks I wish shit would stop happening to me

[sad--tree]

okayyyyy last exam last exam last exam

s o o n

[creepinginyourheartbabecomeonnow]

‼️please help homeless filipino siblings afford a car for shelter and to make a living‼️

This is long, but i hope and pray you consider reading it all, please

hi, im Alex and im sure you've seen me on here the past few weeks, begging for my youngest brother's hospital fees

he's been released and we found our two other brothers on the street begging for food and in a bad condition

we recently lost both our parents so we're left orphans and homeless, we have no other family left

im the eldest and all three of my brothers are underage, i feel bad for not being abled enough to get a job to provide for them

i've been a grab (uber) driver before the bank had to repossess our own car so i had to stop and get different jobs but i dont last because im extremely anemic and i get so physically exhausted

i found a secondhand suv for sale posted on a post, i texted them about it

we met up this afternoon to talk and to check the car. it's old but in a good condition, it's also the cheapest i could find that would fit all four of us comfortably and would stand as a temporary home for us. i was told that the owner has been trying to sell this car for two years for his wife's dialysis with no luck. the car is on sale for 250k PHP or 4,281.12 USD

i really would like to afford this car as it would help us:

have shelter now, we're homeless and have nowhere to go

make a living, i can drive for grab again and also for delivery (this is a job i can actually do fine)

save up to pay for our hospital debts (our dad's when he died, our mom's ambulance fee and my youngest brother's remaining hospital debt)

pay for our mom's ashes (1,275$)

i wouldn't have to be away from my brothers, i cannot leave them alone on their own. they can be with me all the time

save up to pay for a proper place

save up to send my brothers to public school

save up for my brother's asthma medications

save up to get back my two sons that i gave up to the orphanage last year

help the car owner with his own financial problem with his wife's dialysis

this car can change our lives, unfortunately i have 0 anything to afford it. the owner said i only have to give 65,000 PHP or 1,112.99 USD to drive off with it and i can pay the rest of the amount in installments whenever I can. he's very kind and i hope to help him and his family as well

if only 55 people can spare us 20$ to friday Oct 28th, we can drive off with this car for a new start. we haven't properly grieved for both our parents and i hope with this we can finally do it in peace

a reblog to reach a bigger audience would help us a lot as well, i know this seems impossible to reach by friday but i am praying for a miracle to happen to us, just once. thank you and i hope you would consider helping us a bit

[theworldoffostering]

Friday’s Used to be Fun, Right?

Today I woke up and worked for an hour before DH had to leave for work.

I dropped Baby off for school and then E off at school for her school services.

Came home and had a 30 minute call with a nurse that works for DD’s psych. She thinks DD needs to go back into a PHP. DD wants to go back into the PHP as well.

Spent 30 minutes calling PHPs only to be told they don’t have any room, some have waiting lists, and some want you to call daily to see if a spot is available. It feels like there could be a more efficient system in 2021.

Had a scheduled call with a very high maintenance student that has complained to my boss about me. Her parent also contacted my boss. Student never picked up my call.

Sent off an email to the Director of Special Ed about Ms. 6’s IEP. I basically said that they needed to provide some additional flexibility if they wanted her enrolled. If they didn’t, then whatever. I guess we are rolling through high school homeschool style. I really want her to go but am SO sick of the incredibly outdated system where we try to shove kids into a mold that they clearly don’t fit into.

That all happened before 9:50 when I had to pick E up from school.

Camr home and hopped into. WebEx meeting.

Took DS to his class. While he was at school for 50 minutes, I cruised through the grocery store and managed to do quite a haul. I left in time to pick him up.

Came home and unloaded groceries and put them away (the kids did most of this) and I shoveled our sidewalk because it snowed a small amount last night.

Put NB down for his nap.

DD made taco soup for dinner and I walked her through how to make pretzel dough. She rocked both of them.

I got the kids through their school work. It was a lot, but today each of them did super well at getting a lot done that they needed to do. Yesterday we did not fair as well.

DH arrived around around 3:30 and got kids together to hit the ski slopes. I helped DD navigate yet more medical leave paperwork for work. It is a lot and we’ve made numerous phone calls to the company that handles these claims for her work, as well as various doctors, the hospital, etc.

I had a work call with my boss regarding the student who didn’t show up for our scheduled call this morning. Sigh.

I baked NB’s bday cake. It’s a new recipe and I haven’t made a legit cake since July. I’m really hoping it turns out well and tastes great.

Baby came home from daycare and was having a total meltdown. I put him in a “relaxing bath” which included epsom salt, essential oils, and a candle. I also let him eat the cake batter from the spatula while he was in the bath because why not? It helped. We watched a little figure skating on NBC and he then fell right to sleep.

9pm now and I’m working. (Kids all just came home from skiing.) Hoping to get a jump start on grading the work that’s due today and tallying some final grades.

I’m beat. Can’t wait to fall asleep.

[awisemilkaddictstudies]

day 1 and 2 of summer challenge (august edition)

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day 1 - 4.8.2021 wednesday

i was really proud of myself for working today. i managed to sit for two hours straight and just work which normally doesn't happen.

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day 2 - 5.8.2021 thursday

i honestly didn't do much at all since i had to go out for a while. i decided to just work on the main function of my cs project. i'll work on the design later. it just seems like such a waste of time to only focus on the design. like i understand that UI and UX is very important but right now the design is not my priority. i really need to get this working first with all the php and sql stuff which is where i struggle the most. so, i started doing that and it's going fine.

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day 3 - 6.8.2021 friday

friday is one of my really lazy days. like i'm really lazy on a friday. i don't get anything done but i managed to scrape by today.

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[ajoekerr]

two weeks

Last Monday, I put in my notice at Tumblr. It's been quite a wild ride the last four years but, alas, it is now my time to move on to a new challenge like many Tumblr engineers before me. Tumblr has been an absolutely amazing place to work and has challenged me in ways that I would have never expected.

I've never really... quit a job before (Tumblr is my first "real" job!) but, fortunately, I had this amazing article by @brianmichel to go off of! After reading it a few times, I think I found a good path to efficiently quit and leave behind a good amount of my knowledge.

the first week

The day I gave notice, I posted on one of our internal P2 blogs that I was leaving and I was looking for documentation requests. Over the years, the Tumblr Security Team has worked on an absolutely incredible amount of projects and, since I was the last member of the team left, I wanted to get all of the historical knowledge out of my head. I also started working on bringing the hackday project that @continuants and I worked on to life. I cut tickets, set some strict-ish deadlines, and got to work.

On Wednesday, I actually sat down and made a list of projects, processes, and services that I was the last one left who had knowledge of. This ended up being a list of ~45 things (woah!). For each of these things, where applicable, I pointed to up-to-date documentation/references and made tickets for the ~7 things that were missing documentation. I also started transferring over my "important" team documents over to the new manager of the Core PHP team at Tumblr.

In the same effort, I also found all of the alerts & email addresses & other things that were only monitored by me and made a giant checklist to kick off the discussion of “do we need this?” and, if so, who they should go to. This approach seemed to work pretty well as there was some instant discussion and some alerts that were pretty instantly transferred.

By Friday, I had a functional version of my final Tumblr project in production and had written documentation for (most) of the things that were undocumented! At that point, I was able to set myself up for a successful second week of finishing up my project and taking as many meetings as I possibly could!

the final week

At the start of my final week at Tumblr, I started redirecting as many requests as I could to do a good test run of what it would be like without me (plus, ya know, I was busy! 😅). I think doing this as soon as I possibly could was a really good idea because it poked holes in the runbooks that had been previously written and provided a chance to figure out who was the new point of contact. As Brian put in his post, it's "a dry run of what it's going to be like when [I] actually leave".

Then, I set up some appointment slots on my calendar for "coffee" (on a Google Meet) and that filled up my calendar pretty quickly! It was really nice to chat with folks one last time before I left. I also did a final round of 1:1s with my team to say goodbye and tie up any final loose ends before I left.

On top of that, I was able to wrap up my project nicely with completing some feature requests from the end users and write some documentation about it to boot. I'm super happy with the amount of work I was able to get done on this project and I'm leaving it in very capable hands! 🙌

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I will literally never be able to put into words how much being able to work at Tumblr has meant to me and I will forever be grateful for the wonderful folks who have made my first job truly amazing.

💕 & fuck yeah forever.

[citymaus]

“Keep Oakland Housed, a program launched by Mayor Libby Schaaf to help people on the brink of homelessness, prevented nearly 5,000 households from losing their homes with cash assistance and legal services, officials said.

At a news conference Friday, Schaaf touted the program’s success, which was initially expected to help 500 households per year since it started in 2018.

“In 2018 we had modest goals to try and keep a few hundred people per year from losing the housing they had,” Schaaf said. “Little did we dream what a phenomenal impact Keep Oakland Housed would have.”

The assistance comes as Oakland grapples with an increasing crisis on city streets. Oakland’s homeless population has increased by 47%, from 2,761 in 2017 to 4,071 in 2019. The number of unsheltered people grew by more than 68% to 3,210.

Keep Oakland Housed was boosted by $1.5 million in private donations and about $5 million in federal Cares Act funding. Donors include the San Francisco Foundation, Kaiser Permanente and Crankstart, a charity run by a Silicon Valley venture capitalist.

Since its launch, the program has doled out more than $2.5 million worth of legal services to prevent evictions and more than $9.4 million in emergency financial assistance for households, according to a report.

Tenants who need cash for housing can receive up to $7,000 in checks made out to landlords or third-party providers. Residents facing eviction lawsuits are eligible for legal representation.

Nearly two-thirds of the program’s participants were women and two-thirds were Black.

“In a video played during the news conference, Marquise Moore, a 31-year-old Oakland resident, talked about how he lost his job during the pandemic and had to resort to couchsurfing and sleeping in his vehicle.

Now he lives in a two-bedroom apartment with his daughter.

“I have piece of mind knowing that my daughter is OK and we have a place called home,” he said.”

read more: sfchronicle, 15.01.2021.  read the report of keep oakland housed’s first two years.

[fuckyeahwomenfilmdirectors]

Director Claire Denis along with actress and director Emmanuelle Bercot presented the César for Best Director to Roman Polanski at the 2020 César awards. In recent years Polanski, a director who was convicted of the rape of a child in 1977, has faced more accusations from women claiming he raped them when they were children. His win prompted walkouts from the Portrait of a Lady on Fire team led by actress Adèle Haenel who recently came forward about being sexually harassed as a child by a director. 

Denis talked about her decision to present when she knew Polanski winning was a possibility.  

Translation by moi:

Did you hesitate before accepting to present the award for Best Director?

No. As soon as they suggested presenting the César with Emmanuelle Bercot I thought it was an intelligent choice. We’re two women directors and she and I represent something sincere and solid. Emmanuelle and I liked the idea and we said okay right away, but not one without the other. 

Were you dreading saying Polanski’s name?

Not at all. I didn’t like that during the course of the evening they mumbled Polanski’s name or gave him aliases. If you didn’t want to say his name then you shouldn’t have come! Saying Roman Polanski didn’t mangle my mouth. When Emanuelle said the result I looked at her and we said Well, it happened. Emanuelle and I had to deliver the results of a vote not render a verdict. 

From the stage did you see Adèle Haenel get up? 

Yes, I noticed. One day we’ll talk with those who left the room. That Friday night we didn’t have the means to start a debate. 

Do you understand her gesture?

You can’t put yourself in the place of someone else. But I’m not at all insensitive to the pain of others, very much the opposite. 

[tapingmyselfbacktogether]

I ended up going inpatient the Monday after Christmas and was in for two weeks. Now I’m doing an outpatient anxiety program. I started last week on Monday in PHP and had to drop down to IOP on Friday so I could start TMS. So I’m having my 2nd TMS session today. Between the new program, some med adjustments, and TMS I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to start doing better and stay that way. I’ve also had an appointment with a cardiologist last week and she’s running a few tests so hopefully I’ll get some answers there.

[popculture-etc]

Golden Child - Take a Leap (4th Mini album): A review

Tonight, there’s a lull and today, I just received this one in the mail. I got the Version B which came with a Daeyol 1/4th-ish huge solo poster and finally, a Sungyoon/Y photocard. Yay! 

Lately, I’ve taken to collecting Golden Child, Infinite’s Kim Sunggyu (I have some coming in the mail soon) and Pentagon albums from Woollim Entertainment and Cube Entertainment respectively since getting a full time job a couple years---I’ve just resigned this year so, yeah. I’m after other opportunities yet even with the pandemic hovering around us still so yep, good luck to all of us at this time moving forward...well, not to sound all that ominous but yeah...

Anyway, should I post a lot of the other purchases I’ve had since getting into kpop just a couple or three years ago? I started with Beast, they’re now Highlight, and it snowballed from there. Lol. Now, I’m settled into both Pentagon and Golden Child and at times, Infinite---I have a bias on Kim Sunggyu thanks to his shining, very charming, sooo adorkable personality in variety shows---as of late.

Yes, back to this one, Golden Child’s Take A Leap...

I’m on the fourth track now and I LOVE how easy going 혼잣말 is! 

Just a quick rundown of my first brush with Golden Child

I first got into Golden Child because of their first release, their debut album. SEA was my first introduction to them and the conclusion of Woollim Pick, their first showcase (it’s on youtube, yes) and their MV for it still are my go-to’s for feel good Golden Child tracks. It domino’d from there and I’d become a solid fan when It’s U, Genie and Let Me came out. It did take awhile for me to get to know them well and until now I’m still unfamiliar with the members outside of Joochan, Y/Sungyoon (he’s my current bias, yes), Jangjun, Daeyol (I know him because of Infinite’s Sungyeol, lol) Tag and Bomin. I’m still more familiar with Pentagon, not gonna lie, because I’d been following this one since their 2016 debut (I had a Yuto bias and I still have a Yuto bias where Pentagon is concerned, yes but I’ve been wavering a bit as of late so...lol). 

But yes, like my attachment to Pentagon, I got into Golden Child because of their music. I had their first and second mini albums on my phone on eternal repeat---I play them along with some of Pentagon’s tracks right before work, when I’m getting for work at the office...when we weren’t home based yet due to SARS-COV-2 pandemic, yes. I did say SEA was my fist intro to them so yes, music is always what makes me get into boygroups, kpop or otherwise.

All of that out of the way, hmn...this album, Take A Leap, doesn’t disappoint. It’s not as disjointed as their first full album and the repackaged one---this, I can confidently say. It’s GREAT for a lull-some friday night, chill and easy listening. It’s definitely money well-spent and a pre-order that didn’t result to disappointment. If there’s one thing I love about Woollim Entertainment, it’s that their artists’ album intros are HELLA GOOD. It’s the one thing I loved with Infinite’s Top Seed, Golden Child’s first full album and it carried onto this one, Take A Leap 4th mini-album. This one didn’t have the solo or duo or trio songs that the full album and repackaged albums have so it’s definitely more cohesive, much like it’s an ode to their older mini-albums that I loved. Golden Child just keeps giving the goods, huh? In my opinion, in my pop-music-loving book, YES! Now, I’m not saying that the full album and repackaged full album wasn’t as cohesive, I just thought some songs from these two were skip-worthy and Take A Leap’s...just has no track worth skipping, yes. 

TL;DR, I wouldn’t skip anything from Golden Child’s Take a Leap, yes. And it’s well sooo...worth the 800-900 Php I spent for this thing on pre-order. (insert a ton of hearts here)

I liked the sunnier, lighter, more GOLDEN, Golden Child way back but I love their transition into the darker, edgier sound too. 

I won’t go too in depth with the tracks in the album but I’ll just say: the songs transition seamlessly from intro to the last one that you’ll want to put the whole album on repeat the whole of this chill Friday night in when you listen to said album in. Off tangent, but what better time to do so than around this time of a global health crisis when movement is very, very limited. Yes. Back on topic, I haven’t watched One (Lucid Dream)’s music video much and given it the number of views it deserves but yes, Take A Leap is no disappointment to people who purchased it for their listening pleasure like myself. 

And with this, I’ll leave this one here: I’ll keep supporting Golden Child (and Pentagon), yes. I’m always up for high quality, easy listening music and they hardly ever really disappoint with every release. 

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I want to post more too! I came on just to make an update of how I once ruined things again.. “you’ve sabotaged every discharge date”.

I’m about to play a game with a lady here. First distraction of the day. This morning has been nothing but crying and then brief moments of emptiness.

So to make a quick update.

I started getting passes to prepare for discharge. She said I could do as many as I felt I needed.

Two weeks into my passes I snuck my self harm stuff (I hate saying tool, it’s weird) back but I didn’t use it right away.

Last week I it happened. And I honestly don’t remember some of the days. It’s like a fog, especially Thursday.

Thursday I came clean about it. My doctor was gone for the day but there was a plan if I self harmed to pull the passes. So that happened. No passes this weekend that just passed.

My doctor was out Friday but I met with my social worker. Today was a meeting with both of them. My doctor was angry and “disappointed”. She said the PHP program here won’t take me cause of the self harm and even worse the 6 month intensive DBT partial also said no cause of the self harm. I tried asking my doctor if it was just right now or for good and she said not going to happen ever. Which is kind of confusing.

But I emailed the lady from that 6 month program to double check and I emailed my DMH case manager.

I’ll post a better update later. Don’t know if any of this makes sense. I feel so out of it and just really riding the shame train “I ruined everything” and “I hate myself”

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Friday night update: I managed to grade an entire class of papers and catch up with grading in that one class. Currently prepping my last lecture of the semester. Still have two classes of speeches and a class of papers to go before it's just little stuff that's left. Next week is the last week of classes, and then we will have a week of finals.

DD is being moved to a partial hospitalization program (PHP) because it has been determined that what she is currently doing is not enough. The PHP will meet 9-2:30 five days/week. The biggest difference is that it includes virtual appointments with a doctor who will help assess the medication. I feel like this is important, and hopefully will help.

After an epic fight with my husband, he is taking FMLA starting Monday. Ironically, the lecture I'm prepping is on conflict. Probably TMI, but I'm just here on your Friday night keeping it real (while I read social studies with my kid while prepping the lecture bc multitasking is necessary). I'm starting with a therapist for me next week.