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thought it’d be fun to compile all of my drawings of this character over the years
as a bonus here’s the very very first drawing i’ve done. ended up liking the design enough to run with it
#some never before seen unfinished sketches#i miiight delete this later since most of this is old stuff i’ve reposted plenty of times#american haunts#my art#cowboys#new stuff on the way i’m just super busy
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Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.
Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).
Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.
Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.
Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).
AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.
But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s
At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.
#mlp#yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia.#yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show#but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!!#i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse#in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character#personal#delete later#unless you like this analysis stuff#i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did#cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her#mother and father as a teenager#i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased#but i'll put some in the tags#involving rarijack –– i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity#anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention#(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff#long post#regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at#a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up
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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess
#ramble#ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so#i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion#i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party#i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is#basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft#like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering#and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it#i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear#but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them#and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs#but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT#and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird#idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it#like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going#recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know#maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel#hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible#i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask
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Hello, a little rant here. I don't know whether people are becoming insensitive or I'm just taking things very seriously these times, but I beg of you, when I post about an update on the situation in Gaza, or about a lost life or any piece of news that is most likely horrifying and heartbreaking, do not repost or reblog with "yikes" or "real bullshit" or whatever goes in the same line. It just makes it seem so trivial when in fact it's world-shattering. Not to mention the horrible edits I see on Instagram/tiktok.
I literally came across an "Instagram reel" of my friend's UNCLE (who lost three of his kids, and was saying his goodbyes while they were in body bags), it was edited into a reel, with the effects and changing colors and the trending sound of the song "daylight by David kushner". I was speechless.
I know people show their solidarity differently, I know this. Especially through music, I've literally been listening to Samer songs as well as "Telk Qadieah", etc. But the edit I saw was way too much. I don't know how to explain it, because I've seen many reels of Palestinians in Gaza grieving and I thought it's important to share them but this one is different. It was like the edits you'd make for characters from a TV show or movie that died or had a sad storyline.
I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting but I genuinely feel like I'm going crazy. With everything going on and how it seems like some people are living in a parallel world rn.
I hope I don't get misunderstood, I'm not talking about the general clips with sometimes sad songs on them, I'm talking about certain edits the people started to make that are so weird and insensitive. Like the people they're editing aren't real, like they're some entertainment material.
#I'm not good with words honestly i just am tired#i might even delete this later bc i never share personal stuff here but still#text post#gaza#palestine
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assorted wips again
1. anchan space buns!!
2. emo arisato twins + ryomina and akiham
3. mzen x p3
4. suzalulu sketch dump
5. suzalulu + souyo (eng voice actor joke)
#cat’s art#prsk#an shiraishi#vbs#project sekai#persona 3#ryomina#akiham#kotone shiomi#makoto yuki#akihiko sanada#ryoji mochizuki#code geass#lelouch lamperouge#lelouch vi britannia#suzaku kururugi#suzalulu#souyo#persona 4#hmm i might delete some tags later. too many#apologies i have been on a big code geass kick. i love lelouch#but since there’s like 3 people left that like code geass i feel kinda shy#i kinda wanna just dump any of my future code geass stuff in a separate sideblog tbh#but then idk if it matters that much? is this my everything art blog or most things art blog#anyways. it’s not art block these days just mental ones :/ trying to get over the less-than-kind things i’ve been telling myself#whatever. please enjoy the sketches until i have better to offer
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My first tumblr post aa throws this unshaded mess at you and runs
#fnaf#fnaf sb#dca#daycare attendant#moondrop#moon fnaf#moon security breach#moon x y/n#moon x self insert#my art#hdbdhwhdbhss#im not used to posting#and i also dont really like my art#but i felt like i could share this#SORRY FOR THE TERRIBLE PROPORTIONS BUT IM FAR TOK LAZY TO FIX#the hearts r so sappy lamsmksjdjd#might delete later tbh#this is very low effort excuse me#lems silly stuff
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bought authentic anime cel backgrounds and used one for this
#just a silly lil one off until i finish more stuff for the au#might delete later and put it in a bigger post#my art#metal gear solid#mgs#solid snake#retro aesthetic#snavid#fanart#mgs1#mgs fanart#fake screenshot#retro anime#artists on tumblr#mine
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doggy art.
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When i was a child i was SOO into halloween and trick or treating. I went once, but let’s remember i live in indonesia where…. nobody celebrates halloween. And it was like, in 2006. My neighborhood is full of grandmas and grampas in their retirement homes. So i just ended up going door to door in a dracula costume and sit to talk with them. Got my cheeks pinched here and there, and they gave butter biscuits and warm tea🥰
#i love my childhood friends (neighbor grandmas and grampas)#AKDHSKDJDKKD#random stuff#delete later#i mean NOW there are halloween parties in college.#i also went once#as pele#from midsommar#bc i dont have a white dress 😭 (i wanted to go as dani but i only got white shirt and pants) AKHDKFKF
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EXCUSE YOU?!
[Kann den Artikel nicht lesen, weil kein Spiegel+, aber. Uh. How about no?]
#german stuff#german politics#kaj rambles#someone please please tell me that it doesn't sound this bad in context#honestly tho. ich wollte eigentlich bis zur landtagswahl zusehen dass ich mich evtl bei den grünen engagiere#weil die anders als die linke irgendwie immer mehr bereitschaft für regierungsverantwortung zu haben scheinen#aber selbst die beziehen bei dem thema ja inzwischen eine position die weniger progressiv ist als merkels (!) 'wir schaffen das' damals#anyway#to delete later#probably
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ruining his tough guy persona....
#persona 3#llemon art#p3 reload#persona 3 reload#shinjiro aragaki#akishinji#(implied akihiko isnt here...)#(but its who hes making chocolates for...)#queuing something at 12 am and NOT 2/3 am for once!!!!#might delete later bc i dont usually make comic formatted stuff liek this...#the other one is at least COOL...#this ones just stupid n silly...#i love akishinji thoigh...#hes tries soo hard to act like he dont gaf...#he DOES gaf...#i actually REALLT like the colored/rendered drawinf though!!#its super cute#and im super proud of it#i love shinji...#junpei iori#does he know?#he does not know...#he is going to have to confide in someone for this...#the art came first not the comic...#they aren't technically actually related but yk...!!
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#cookie run#dark cacao cookie#mine#might delete later???????? im unsure on how to feel about this thing#anyway now i actually got everything out of my system. now im gonna go back to focusing on oc stuff#character so good i almost forgive kingdom for its mistakes
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i went on a couple of crazy writing sprints this week so please enjoy some out of context bits from my 3 different novel WIPs in no order with no theme
honourable mentions:
#ramble#book writing stuff#remember when i only had one novel wip#one of them will see the light of day i swear#i am slowly getting more comfortable posting my writing#it's weirdly vulnerable for me akfdhdf#idk how i can write and post comics All the time but any novel writing feels like exposing myself lmao#also i can't stick to one genre and i don't think i should apologise for that#personally i like to read everything and it makes me want to write everything as well#let's play 'will i get insecure and delete this later'
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What if someone is a Trump supporter, but can give you some good reasoning on why?
There is no DEFINITIVE reason WHY someone is a Trump supporter. Generally, there are too many factors...age, race, background, and much more.
What matters, is that at the end of the day, they do not understand the ramifications of his actions. They are not only uneducated on the matter, but refuse to absorb information that may go against their views.
For me, it can often feel like trying to convince someone Climate Change is real. At the end of the day, the only way I can get to them to believe me, is for them to be open to believing me...even with all the evidence in the world.
Much like how you cannot force change onto a person who does not want it.
#might delete later#idk I dont want to get too political. I need a place to vent sometimes#ask stuff#political#american politics
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ALL MY FELLAS ‼️‼️
#jjba#jojos bizarre adventure#jojo part 4#diamond is unbreakable#jojo fanart#my animation#josuke higashikata#okuyasu nijimura#koichi hirose#jotaro kujo#rohan kishibe#felt silly might delete later#watermark is big cause this got reposted without permission like 5 times#cause it got 6k likes on twt#don't repost stuff without permission! Or credit! Thanks besties
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