To strip back the flesh
CWs: Lab whump, experiment whumpee, clinical/detached whumper, surgical procedure/operation, vivisection, drugging/sedation (whumpee is conscious for the procedure though), non-con body modification (past), non-con touch, bodily fluids, body horror
Saul wakes up to an unfamiliar experience … being dissected alive. After all, there’s more than meets the eye with his body now.
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Everything feels… floaty. Too light to be real. Dizzy and fuzzy and… and…
Saul shudders, lifting a heavy hand to his face. …What’s happening again?
He can hear someone’s voice, someone who reassures him, tells him it’ll be fine, but he doesn’t really believe that, not as the world sways and blurs. Another voice tells the first to leave, and he can feel something take his wrist and set it back at his side. He protests, murmuring something too muddled to understand; slurring the words into a mush of butchered gibberish.
The second voice has a face, blue and purple and orange, and honestly, that’s just too many colors, he thinks — she reminds him of ice; her sharp gaze trained on his body.
V… She’s V. He remembers. …He thinks. Val…
Val reaches for something he can’t see. He asks what she’s doing — but she obviously can’t understand.
“Enunciate,” she says, holding a… an object, something he can’t name… to his skin.
He tries. “..Dunno your… ff,,fancy words, V.”
“Hm.” She says, her voice noncommittal to anything he says. She busies herself in feeling up his chest area, tracing the outline of the… thing in his body. He gasps.
“Wha- at —”
He now realizes he’s not wearing a shirt.
“Shh.” Val checks the accuracy of her tool’s placement, then takes the instrument and cuts through the blackened, thin membrane of the core. Fluid leaks out, and Saul can feel the ugly, wet mess trickle onto him, spilling over his sides.
He can’t speak. The only sound that comes out of his mouth is a choked-back gag.
Val eases her fingers into the gap, pulling the skin back and pinning it down.
Another kind of fluid drips down Saul’s cheeks.
“No.. no- o, stop…” He begs.
Val doesn’t pay any mind to him. She plunges her hands deep into the gaping hole she’s created, probing his innards, the sensation of her gloved hands on his organs so oddly clinical, yet sickeningly intimate.
He swears his insides are literally twisting in disgust; but maybe that’s just Val pulling his intestines out of the gap and examining them, spreading more ooze and viscera across the trembling expanse of his flesh.
She makes notes on his condition, writing as if there isn’t a living, breathing person next to her, cut open and wailing, writhing — Val checks boxes and makes tick marks, filling in something that he doesn’t care about but means so much more to her than his pain.
He doesn’t even hurt that much, he’s too far away, but still too close — or maybe she’s too close, hands on his organs, pulling them out… revealing more organs, more lungs and heart and tangled up meat, hidden bones jutting through the cavity Val made that become revealed with every unwelcome touch.
Saul begs her, pleads for her to stop, drowning in a haze of confusion and inner turmoil, panic rising with every breath he takes. The intrusion of Val’s hands on his entrails is like an infection, crawling into every crevice there ever was in his body, squirming under his skin and becoming like a living thing, a parasite —
“He really does live on inside of you,” she remarks, and Saul doesn’t try to parse the meaning of her sentiment. He doesn’t want to know.
“He hasn’t woken up yet, however…” She continues. “Shame.
“There’s not much of a timeframe for this.” Val offers, as if to comfort him for being a late bloomer instead of an artificially made monstrosity.
“…But I can accelerate the process.”
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He wakes up, a gap in his mind, and he’s still fuzzy but he knows something happened, and his body is sealed together again and…
Wait.
This body…
It’s not his.
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Oh, yeah, I crashed so hard after my appointment yesterday that I forgot to mention it, but I have a date set for my ostomy reversal in the first week of September! I'm a little concerned about having to stop taking my Enbrel for it*, but hopefully it will work out one way or another. I'm not looking forward to recovering from abdominal surgery again (or the adaptational period where the 6 inches that are left of my semicolon get used to doing the job of the whole thing), but I am very much looking forward to not having to deal with my ostomy bag anymore.
*For two reasons. First, sometimes when someone stops taking a monoclonal antibody, it won't work when they start it again. And secondly, once my psoriasis really gets going, it's an immense drain on my body. I don't have any way to get numbers, but it gets to the point where it feels like it might inhibit my healing more than the Enbrel will.
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