#sustsinability

[pumpkinland]

I try not to talk about weight or weight loss too much bc it can trigger a lot of people and i want to be respectful of that and also because when the topic comes up it inevitably invites people who think they've cracked the secret to weight management that works for everyone and if you struggle it's because you're lazy or stupid and just don't understand that what works for everyone else works for you too, you just don't have enough willpower or discipline and your weight is a moral failing (lol) but the thing is like

when i say i am trying to lose weight i feel like most people don't understand that i literally do not have a regimen or a nutrition plan or anything that's off limits, or any kind of restrictions, or literally anything i literally just kind of vibe and go with the flow. like i try to just make sure i feel ok at all times and be conscious of how often i indulge in treats and reign it in sometimes and let loose others. and i feel like it has been working for me bc my goal is to just gradually eat better and move more. it's just like to make progress over what i did yesterfay, what i did last month, what i did 6 months ago, etc, until i get to a point where ive gone from a shit diet to a decent one, without shocking my body or myself in the process and creating something unsustainable that isn't going to last. and like. for me. FOR ME. this has been working. ive lost 20 lbs this way. it wasn't fast though.

and what really really REALLY sucks is that THIS is what "lifestyle changes" means. changing your lifestyle is jarring and difficult to adapt to esp if you do it all at once. but the thing is it's still difficult to talk about bc you have people in one hand who were so hurt by diet culture as to become victims of eating disorders (through no fault of their own) who now find it triggering to discuss weight management at all (rightfully so). on the other hand you have people who are or were lucky that conventional diet wisdom worked for them, and now believe that if you're not thin it's because you just didn't try hard enough and don't have the mental fortitude or moral toughness and that being fat is your punishment for failing to be virtuous and disciplined.

those people will usually hear what im doing and seem upset that not only is it working for me, that i don't go to the gym 5 days a week and eat vegetables for 85% of my meals and im still losing weight, but they seem to feel like i should be punished for daring to feel comfortable on my journey, rather than punishing myself and pushing myself as hard as i can and restricting my calories and using exercise as a punishment instead of a reward or a treat, and they always jump really hard on me when i say how much ive lost and they find out how long it took, they're like well that's not good enough. that took you too long. if you were doing it right you'd lose it faster. so then it becomes well ok sure you lost 20 lbs but that's not good enough... you're being lazy, you should have done that faster. you'd be thinner right now if you weren't so lazy. and so instead of celebrating the victory with me, of losing 20 lbs, which is not a small amount to lose no matter what anyone tries to tell you! the minimize it and belittle it because a fat person should never be comfortable when it comes to weight, they should always feel shame for what they have done (be fat) and punish themselves as much as it takes to repent (become thin). and it's just like.

dude. im not christian. I'm just fat.

[raedas]

the thing about me and movies is they’re stressful

[knific]

guys I just broke my wardrobe door bc i saw a chainsaw ppt2 gijinka and got too excited

[dancingindreamlight]

Yeah... I probably don't have the mental/emotional fortitude to be any kind of activist, even online. I get easily passionate about things like Freedom, Justice, but in the real world, not just Ideal Land, where everything is nicely clear-cut into good and evil, everything is messy. And people are nasty and resentful and fight even in their own group and I take on all that negative emotion and I have enough of that on my own. No strength enough even for myself in minor things so... not an asset. Same old story.

Best if I'm not involved bc I WILL go crazy esp if overtired from doing almost nothing. So.

Can't deal w conflict. I want to help even if it's just online but even that is too much for me lol. I absorb all the positive emotions which is good but negative as well and I. Can't take it

Yes I probably would die right away in any sort of actual conflict; if it came to having to survive on my own I'd also die. And my Ideals would probably fall away if someone so much as threatened me if I were in any sort of prison/torture situation so. Yes I I'm coward and an idiot and have no right right say anything to anyone. Stay in my own lane (until maybe the country crashes but I'll not be able to handle any sort of hard situation if the trump thing gets real bad... ) and not get involved which means shrinking down into almost nothing (which is me anyway, compared to the heroes in countries with actual awful circumstances who . Don't back down)

[covid-safer-hotties]

Have you seen any research on drugs that would prevent the spread of Covid similar to how we have drugs that prevent HIV infection? There was news recently of an updated version of PrEP that got me wondering. I haven't really seen much on that topic of late, so I'm curious if anything comes to mind got you... Thanks so much!

It's because there are no new news or studies. Drug companies are too busy trying to repurpose previously used chemicals like Thalidomide (ya know, that drug that makes limbless babies if they even survive to term) to do any real research into new drugs, because that would take money and sustsined effort, and that cuts into their bottom line and CEOs' xmas bonuses. Covid's penchant for rapid mutation and the complete lack of society-wide control mechanisms likely mean any pharmaceutical prophylactics that eventually are produced will have limited effect until we get the point across to leaders that we need to stop the spread to make drugs and vaccines effective against covid and long covid. It may be a decade or two before we see any real progress at the rate things are going, tbh.

[lordofgodhead]

context:...dated this guy when i went by "arlilhal" and then on hyjinx gay littoe boy stuff super embarrassing. anyway we had issues that had to be worked thriygh-everybody does-and he left every chance he could get i guess.

its been seven months since i last spoke to ex jake. perhaps im super proud of myself...but its just convinient hes impossible to find too...

anyway i think ive gtten my resolve about everything looking at oyr old messages on my old disc "arlilhal_" for a little. finally at peace. woo.

sweating my phat ass off if he ever skedaddles back in2 my life but its not unwelcome and at that point id assume perhaps hes considered himself changed enough to do so. and i would always believe that...

looking back ive grown bitter but its pretty tame actuwlly and fine... he was a bad ish boy with good intentions and i was the same. stuff happens. truly inevitable. just how growing up and hopefjlly becomibg a good person works.

i definitrly dont act like how i did seven months and before that ago. id like to think ive gotten p much better. how could i not. i am just like. that cool...

idk its kind of unspoken. i cant explain it. but if he came back anytime now hed see im. okay and cool now? yes. very cool. much cooler.

i hope he hasnt.killed himself or anything. i dont want the guy dead. id reaaaaally like. if he.. wasnt dead..ok? ok. thatd be cool. thanks.

i hope he ever comes back. by chance if we somehow interact. then itd basically be fate...! or if he checks the arlilhal straw.page. and tries to talk to one of my tumblrs.

Last image message thing he sent me said smn like. "i will always appreciate you. no matter how far i am."

anyway since i reread stuff it lesves things on a better note i guess. love the guy still as a friend (Cant say any romantic or sexuwl feels remotely sustsined. this ie good). but aint no one to love anymore if he aint here right LOOOL.whstevr

its weird. he probsbly subconciously contributrd a lot to my special interest in and genersl love of jake english. even when hed shlukdve had tge opposite effect.

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[beattopia]

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[azlovesem]

Hello. Hey people laugh but it works i sell. But i wouldnt sell you out. Im not defeated by you because i cant fight i just cant dont have the heart to. Thats few people on earth i cant just break in half. Including one or two family and friends. It may be one day a few of them i just break thrm gor domething stupid they say or do. But not you. You are very special to me. So i had to just haul off and crack a few people in the head. Because i vommunicate with thrm for a reason. I can genersllyocate them that way. Oh well theyre dead so theres no sense worrying or talking about it at all. Why go in more detsil than this? Or even admit this is about anything to begin with. Id just be like i dont know ehat youre talking about. Do i need legal counsel of some sort. I dont know what i said when i crashed but i sustsined a head injury. So anything i did say isnt really admissable. Which wasnt much. In the way of disputing innocence. Or proving quilt whatever. i more of less fell asleep. These things happen on the highway.

[endless-pterodactyl-screeching]

Found a lazy little Lucy in the barn loft. She's so sweet 💜

[thankyouforreadingmyusername]

so i know that nct's whole thing is an "unlimited member" concept but uhh. i think we can all agree that they really need to cap this at a certain number this is just getting out of control lol

[icarusgf]

zayn has been gone for so long i’ve become emotionally dependent on a twitch streamer 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[iwriteaboutfeminism]

Family farmers are working class people, and their small businesses matter.

If we value sustainable food in this country, we need to break up the monopoly that huge factory farms have and thereby enable the smaller, cleaner, more humane farmers to thrive.

[magnoliamyrrh]

ive never understood where the stereotype or expectation is supposed to come from that women have to be frail and demure or whatever. am i missing something bc i swear in the balkans at least romania the traditional expectation was that prepubecent girls and teenage girls and women especially during harsh times already had to do massive amounts household labour to sustsin their families, helped build houses, plow fields, take care or cattle, and carry heavy shit all the time. where does this expectation even come from. even today like??? being a houswife sure af doesnt entail being demure it entails having the strengh to cook for hours and clean for hours and take care of children and frankly work a job on top of that too and likely take care of extended family and likely also be a therapist like?

[beautyhighway]

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[mornelleallstars]

Had a melt down this afternoon to the point of tears. After some quite time I came across this. I am so tired of people doing everything they can to take what they haven't work for. It is amongst government, businesses service providers and such . The thing is they really could not withstand what one had to go through to achieve what they have earned.They see the outcomes it look very appealing so they schemed with hearts saying I want it so tired of the ignorance of these sorts.Do you have the grace to achieve it though .Just stay in your lane and excell in it # life #love #buildingbridges #community #children #partnership#mission#vision#workingtogether#hischildren#mornelleallstars#community#buildinstrongercommunties#purpose#kindness#grace#gvingback#commitment#passion#community#empowered#sustsin#development#copsandchildren#lovewhatwedo#makingadifference #strongertogether https://www.instagram.com/p/BxAsLFcD86l/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x8n1k5lgguib