the way I have to pioneer every group project because I need the sense of control that it’s being done correctly although I can’t think of anything worse than leadership. so… that’s contradictory of me 😖
Hi sel hello this is dhdjjdhfhr I'm so 🧎♀️🧎♀️ ok I was taking a break from studying right and I was scrolling twitter (I refuse to call it x) and then I found this and wHEW I need to share it cause I do not gatekeep 🙏🏻🙏🏻
They have a nanami and geto version too and wow would you look at that I am now a blob on the floor ok imma go back to studying hope you have a nice day babes mwah mwah 🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️
midi. oh my god. MIDI.
rated 🔞 — look at your own risk
(i mean it . i think my heart stopped . 🐱 DROPPED)
i don’t even know what to SAY rn . oh my fucking GOD . thank you???!!!!!!????!!!!!!?!!?!!
literally out rn and i had to sit down… brain empty rn… i hope you have a good study. looked at the geto one. also the nanami. i’m. idk how i can get back to writing. i hope YOU 🫵 have the best day.
I’ve finally done the act 2 durge scene and I’m crying so badly on the morning after yves going like -
[I promise I will be the person you see in me] bffr thats literally in response to what wyll says if you decide to break up with the others for him are you kidding me!!!!!!!
idk there's something about oveta planning for days to kill nakia (her own aunty), sneaking into her room at night and poisoning her, watching her die slowly and painfully with a hand over her mouth so she can't cry out. leaving her covered in blood and bile, with her eyes wide open and unseeing.
vs.
killing a guard (she didn't even know his name), not exactly on impulse but still barely a plan, by bashing his face in as quickly as she could until they're both covered in his blood, and then she steals his clothes and his keys and his sword and then. then she cleans his face, and she tells him she's sorry, and she kisses his eyelids.
I like to give all my OCs different tarot cards and I really didn't wanna give Zafrina The Star but it even looks like her like cmon (b00bies are censored in case tumblr can't handle them)
I'm still mulling it over, though Star might fit (my) regular Tav experience the best (sans all the constant lying she does) but the Durge version would definitely be Strength.
I'm also giving Starboy something for both routes (it's bound to happen, seeing no one else for Frina but him) and Death and The Hanged Man seem most fitting - where the latter makes me so giddy because before I never really understood the point of THM card and through him I finally do - at least with his role in the Durge timeline.
I find it genuinely hilarious how many signs there were pointing to us being a system from ages ago... As the host whos been here the longest I'm surprised I didn't look into it sooner, like I SERIOUSLY wondered on MORE THAN TWO SEPERATE OCCASIONS as a teen whether I had DID, but brushed it off both times because I thought "oh I'm not traumatised enough" and "you have to experience blackouts and time jumps and I haven't so I can't" (spoiler alert, I definitely was incredibly traumatised and I definitley have had blackouts before but even then I didn't know that those weren't fully necessary for a diagnosis).
And this is without getting into "my" love of any media that involved characters with alter egos, "multiple personalities", etc. Like I LOVED the Jekyll and Hyde musical when I found it, my favourite Total Drama character was Mike (the one with DID but like. when people still knew it as MPD. also he wasnt the best rep lol), I loved the Markiplier and Jacksepticeye egos, for a short time I was into Sander Sides, I had full on "characters" that were "aspects of my personality" but also next to them was just. My actual sona? Completely seperate from them, which actually represented me?
I just really thought I liked media with alternate egos/personalities but methinks the call was coming from inside the house sdjshsnsjsbdjdb
It's like I enjoy darlington find him very sweet want to pat him on the head which he would shamefully find EXTREMELY sexy bc of his mommy issues but the truth is he is only there for flashbacks and anytime things get interesting with him and alex it immediately cuts to the present meanwhile dawes is right there the whole time. just makes sense for her & alex to kiss
not @gautiersylvain making me think about how baby rethan still is for a drow and how they're gonna outlive both gale and their little half-drow sisters by hundreds of years
I might just straight up revert back to writing Fixation, Gyokko's a fucking BITCH to write for but I still wanna press on with his fic too because there's so little content for him, like, everywhere. He's underrated, there's next to no information about him, and I'm struggling to properly write him after he nearly skewered an artist reader!