since the tortured poets department is out in two days, i hereby announce i’m doing an announcement about an upcoming project f1 related (obviously) in two days
sebastian vettel, lewis hamilton, fernando alonso, oscar piastri, charles leclerc, max verstappen, mick schumacher, lando norris, carlos sainz and george russell girlies, i think you’re gonna like this mix
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It’s late July, A lost breath of soulful desperation bled half the year that has passed over my eyes, painting a veil like fabric that blinded me mercifully.
can time really heal anything? I’ve been struggling with digesting all that it stored for me…
My cruel heart is only a result of the ignorance that i built brick by brick from its remnants
I even named the process defensive mechanism.
It’s early august, I’ve held on to a routine for as long as i can, living off of small accomplishments; cause what’s the alternative?
Prisesstant melancholy? Undoubtable anguish?
I became insensitive to time passage, like a child that never knew health only saw it as a blanketing apology covering everyone they love.
a child that can vividly touch the heaviness of the life they’ll carry for as long as they’re allowed to.
I’ve been accumulating feelings like corpses that are waiting to be identified in a morgue.
frozen above my brainstem, that until the heat of the summer caused them to melt and overlap into a storming ocean; leaving little versions of me to drown in their waves
and I as a helpless outsider watching from a coast and hoping i could pour all of this in one single poem, or maybe aspire it all like you’d do a patient with fluids in their lungs: Thoracentesis.
And use it as a supply to wash away the catatonic rage that flows through my veins.
reality is ringing it’s bell inside the cavity where my eyes should be, and even though i can hear it.
It’s taking me longer than I thought it would to reach; cause thats all i can do.. try.
I measure my self value interchangeably with all the pieces of me i left behind to comfort others.
That and all the leftovers of my mother’s life.
My soul is constantly tugging.
Tugging, tugging, tugging. Never in the same direction but it’s still clear that it wishes to be free from me.
Emotionally attached to this and that to her and him
But they’re never enough; i never am…
And I’m so tired of it all, the never ending self loathing.
But to whom do I confess ?
Who would acknowledge my longing, Who will embrace my infelicitous desire to be held together or even just touched,
an innocent reminder of my existence, to ease me into being a human again, especially after I starved myself for the sake of nourishing others.
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•Quotes: Louis Tomlinson/ Taylor swift/ Henry Miller/ Rainer Maria Rilke/Helen Oyeyemi/Anne Sexton/Franz Kafka/Susan Sontag
•Original context: Sinligh
•Art reference:
1. Timothy Archer - The blue rider. 2. The Train by Ben McLaughlin. 3. Paintings by Raymond BonillaRaymond. 4. Ottoman Beauty with a Butterfly by Harold H. Piffard. 5. Side Light by Quang Ho. 6. Painting by Alex Kanevsky. 7. Fine Morning by Sally Strand. 8.painting by Steven J. Levin
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“Swifties are so basic!” “Directioners are a cult!”
imma stop you right there buddy. we are not shaming teenage girls here, but if we were, how bout we talk about you, a grown ass man, will all your grown ass man friends absolutely losing your shit over a bunch of other grown ass men kicking balls around?
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