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crualex-de-vil · 7 months

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Checking under V's hood ❤️‍🔥

#cyberpunk 2077 #cp77 #cp2077 #panam #panam palmer #I havent romanced anyone in my “true V” playthrough yet #bc I can't have her #tbh I dont really want anyone else #my V might be ending the game romanceless #pining after the one ™#fanart #atomicdraws

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al-luviec · 2 months

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juvie buddies

#alek art #td duncan #td mal #total drama #total drama all stars #(if i want to get technical)#2024 #duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16 #ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different #duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt #scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it #duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here #i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a #gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because #i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont #see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo #but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it #duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his #privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in #juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike #is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon #madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together #duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault #mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a #lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he #knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt #matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify #had me messed up

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snakesanderson · 10 months

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so the athletic did an article on why the sens wear their numbers and

claude giroux was completely uncurious not questioning the powers that be

sandy just trying to avoid being too " dusty "

#he's gonna rock it :)))#and he's so right 84 IS dusty #i really like 85 it looks really good #the rest were pretty boring tbh but if anyone wants someone elses answer i can add #ive never really done image ids before so if theres an ettiquette thing i dont know please say and ill edit #claude giroux #jake sanderson #ottawa senators

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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sometimes i truly do feel so isolated and alienated because even if people on here are lonely and sad they still have friends and partners and they're capable of having jobs and getting educations ... and im like ok wow im like actually the only one who doesn't just "feel" those things but also is completely worthless and insignificant. cool 👍

#and it's why i cant feel connected to anyone even if some ppl are nice to me #bc ok yeah but at the end of the day i still AM a loser while u have a life and ppl who care abt u........#nobody gets me. like for real...... ☹️#having avpd is fucked up and a curse tbh #idk rn im also in an avpd moment where i cant even reply to anyone at all #im like ok wow.... i both feel like im only worthless and stupid and awkward anyway why even bother trying #plus im genuinely like tired...... i just wanna be the most important to ONE person and be chosen by them over everyone else #never having experienced that just makes everything else pale away in comparison like i cant even find it in me to feel anythinf #anything*#im just feeling so fucking sad and im realizing how fkn alone i an #AM* god trying so hard not to cut myself since i cant even type properly #and since i have avpd that only makes me isolate myself more which makes me more miserable #but also the thing is... my only choice IS to isolate myself bc i dont have anybody #having short shallow social exchanges w ppl who i only exist a little bit to is making me feel more empty #i so badly need deep strong emotional connections #but actually i dont even care abt that... really truly all i want is to be no 1 to one person #so.... i dont know i dont fkn know all i know is that im so lonely #and even if shallow impersonal things can sustain me sometimes im in an avpd mood rn where i feel so fuckinf #fucking***** broken and worthless and all i want is to further isolate myself #bc when i try to talk to ppl im reminded of how stupid i am #bc they mean sm more to me than i do to them #bc they have real lives with real ppl that matter to them!!!#it's not what my soul needs so i just cant bring myself to.....#idk i also feel like an asshole bc i truly appreciate nice messages #idk i just wanna cry tbh and kms bc i will always have avpd and be broken 🩷

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phantastragoria · 2 years

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🌟 Merry (belated) Christmas from the Guardians of the Galaxy 🌟

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clits-and-clips · 6 months

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Spiralling AGAIN would you believe it

#txt #trying to figure it out #i tried to be there for jim and listen to him and be a good partner #but he barely opened up #i didnt know he wanted to leave me #he chose to open up when i was mad #so i didnt respond #so that i didnt yell #not that that is his fault #i should have done better #but i couldny #in that house #i was so overstimulated all the fucking tome #time #like always #and i didnt even realise it #until he kicked me put #out*#and now im just guilty over everything.#why wasnt i better #why cpuldnt i be better #its not fair that he didnt tell me #3 months and you really couldnt tell me what was on your mind #thats unfair man #i was trying so hard to be better #to do better #giving him space is almost impossible #hes my best friend and my soul mate #i dont want to talk to anyone else tbh #so being ignored is like a knife to my chest and idk what to do about it and this is my last tag i can put it and i just dont even know

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waywardsalt · 1 year

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i feel like one of the main draws of the ganonbeck ship is that ganondorf is wildly out of linebeck’s league but it can work anyways

#tbh linebeck dating insanely out of his league seems to be the through-line between a lot of linebeck crackships #something enticing abt the idea of ganondorf basically having the pick of whoever the fuck he’d want and deciding on this skinny wet cat #ganonbeck #linebeck #ganondorf #like the other linebeck crackships i know of are with ghirahim or midna. powerful demon or twili royalty lol #tbh the setup of ganondorf being miles out of linebecks league is interesting in of itself #allows for exploration of why ganondorf likes linebeck instead of anyone else as well as how the fuck linebeck managed this #ganondorf is like. king of the gerudo wielder of power very skilled magic user a man important in hyrule as a whole #and linebeck is just some guy who like. commits petty crime and fucks around and finds out for money #this dumbass crackship has potential to be comedic tragic sappy dramatic adventurous. what the hell is happening but its fun #salty talks #dont mind me im struggling to write my ganonbeck oneshot but im making up for it by thinking Really Hard #man this really started bc a cool artist realized that linebeck and ganondorf could interact in ssbu

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mayo-is-an-instrument · 3 months

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I made a boo oc!! I'll make more drawings to use them for when I start making "serious" YouTube videos :3

#mayodraws #dont really know what else to tag so #TIME FOR RAMBLING WOOHOO #im thinking of just getting rid of the name Mayo tbh #ive grown sick of it #honestly might just stick to my real name for everything atp #i use it for the entirety of discord now so 💀#i just feel like its not me if its not my actual name #its like its a separate identity of myself even if im the same person you know?#i like feeling that i am me even through a screen i am still me and not some offbrand representation of myself #so hey everyone my name is Hailey :3 feel free to call me that #soon enough ill change all my socials or the ones I actually use to be some form of 'Hailstorm' because it sounds cool imo #and its a nickname my sister gave me so it also means something special to me <3 #should I have made a separate post for this? yes #is it too late? also yes #since im in a ramble session i may as well say more on my mind #im in a server for discord and i so badly have been trying to become friends with people there but holy shit even after like 2 months #i still cant gather courage to speak most of the time #hopefully ill open up more soon but man i need to just not be so shy 😭#are you having fun reading through the tags 💀💀#i would be surprised of anyone actually read all if them #if you did i hope you have a wonderful day 👍👍#also Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its Christmas totally #back onto the youtuve thing most of my videos are just shit like “toad screaming” or editing zelda cutscenes but at some point i want to #make scripted videos for nintendo related stuff #i already finished a script for ttyd and i know its not the best script but for being my first its good enough and ill learn along the way #okay im done yapping Happy St Patrick's Day

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amyrafierceblade · 1 year

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I kinda wanna make an ask blog for my version of Viggo Grimborn, but idk if people's actually interact lol. Its a fun idea to toy around nonetheless

#viggo grimborn #Also if anyone is wondering why I make the odd specofication every now and the #between Viggo/Canon Viggo and “my interpretation/headcanon of Viggo”#its because I feel my version is so far from the original that its not quite the same #and I dont want people to get upset or confused if he acts “ooc”#tbh i dont really care that much but still I dont like confusion with myself and think itd be kinda mean of me to expect everyone else to #not mind being confused

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ei-mugi · 8 months

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theres actually a cat out there named after my most stupid online alias becuase when i was 13 some rando with like 78k subscribers on their roblox youtube or something like that ended up in my online friendgroup and so i was in a few of their videos. and some kid commented that they loved me and this youtuber so much they named their 2 new cats after us. i think the channels deleted now but i still love knowing about the cat out there with the stupidest name ever

#i dont wanna say what the alias was bcus i dont need that following me (even tho ppl still call me it) but just know its like #the most random verb ever and i hated when other people started calling me it as a nickname #because there was a cooler nickname based on my username that i really wanted people to call me instead but literally nobody did #so i ended up sticking with the dumb verb name #ive never seen anyone else online with an alias or nickname remotely close to it #that kids parents were probably like why the actual fuck are you naming your cat this random ass word #i like it now but its still objectively a bad name #anyway tbh i never watched any of this persons videos that i wasnt in myself because i thought they were boring

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callmehere-iwillappear · 10 months

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FOR LIKE. CONTEXT. idiot's guide is broken up into two arcs, arc 1 is... almost done i think. hopefully. there's still kind of a ways to go for arc 2

so essentially i'm thinking about, once i do finish writing and editing arc 1, starting to post those chapters on a once a week schedule. then if i haven't finished arc 2 by the time i run out, i'd take a break from posting until it does get finished. if it is finished by then i'll just continue posting lmaofjdsklfjd

#talk tag #HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES SENSE LMAO #uhhh. idk what else #like okay i knowwwwwww i know i said im waiting and i WILL if thats what the poll says but also #i am very excited for some of the stuff i already have written LMAO #and i feel like posting it and getting like feedback and shit will help motivate me maybe????? idk shrugs #I REALLY REALLY WANT TO SEE PPL FIGURE IT OUT #i like. legit. always forget that ppl dont know as much as me bc its My Fic #and i assumed ppl would know [redacted] only to realize that. its not explicitly stated or even heavily implied. just lightly implied #so it makes sense that ppl Wouldn't know. and now i am very very very very very excited to see when people figure it out LMAO #among other things #yes there are MULTIPLE secrets to be figured out #though one of them i think is probably not. like. i don't think anyone's gonna figure it out until it's Actually Revealed In Text #or very few people anyway #either way i'm excited akl;fjdklsjfd #i looooooove seeing ppls theories whether they're right or wrong tbh

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#smth that does trouble me is that i am extremely emotional and i have complained of that for a long time lol #it does make me feel ashamed and frustrated bc #when i was a child i had to suppress all my emotions bc i got punished for literally feeling anything #so i never learned how to process any emotions in a normal healthy way #and idk w most ppl in my life they get an intensely watered down version of me bc i just restrain myself #and dont let myself feel a lot or anything at all bc when i feel it's bad #but sometimes very rarely i like someone so so so much that like ...#if i let my love out that emotional instability will also be shown.... ://///#and idk. since i've never been in a space where i can *fully* with comfortability and security in that i can let it out (bc im scared and #careful and need time lolz) i need more of a learning curve #but i know im capable of such deep profound love and devotion and loyalty and faithfulness and like all of that #tbh 98% i have gotten to a point thanks to my avpd and fear of judgement im able to not let my instable emotions pour out #like actually i dont. no one knows me based on my vent blog lol 🖕 it's only when i get overstimulated (noise emotions impressions etc etc)#or have certain issues of mine triggered. that it pours out #i dont mean that to blame other ppl like i know that *i* have these issues and like they mainly affect and impact me #but yeah idk it's frustrating & idk how to navigate it bc 1st im emotionally locked bc im fearful of everything that includes deep feelings #then im too scared of rejection to even like try to say anything. then when i realize i didnt... realize everything i get too emotional bc #idk how to process emotions and like i just dont know??????#im just ashamed of it and i feel bad abt emotional outbursts but im also able to love so deeply and fully #and bc of my childish emotions and how fkn worthless i am i dream of a dad bf who is patient #and understanding and compassionate and takes me as i am and sees that im trying and am in pain #ppl judge that and me but thats just how i feel and what i want and need and im not hurting anyone else #i mean... except the one person who has never made me feel ashamed or bad for this and since i feel too much #he's the only one i've had emotional outbursts to and then i was too scared to show love to balance it out #(and this sounds bad but it's hard to explain and tbh i realize that it doesnt really concern anyone lol)#and yeah i regret it and yeah a lot of things i say is applicable on me as well and im self aware abt it and yeah idk :p

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sorikkung · 4 months

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people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh

#not like it makes a practical difference considering i only upload twice a year at best #but im realising how much my writing is shame motivated and its just not sustainable or healthy #it saddens me that these stories i invested So much time and effort into will probably never get finished #i wanna hold out hope that they will but #i dont want anyones expectations to be too high #bc knowing myself they probably wont #i started wgoin thinking that this would be the story i commit to finishing and not just abandon as soon as i get bored #but that was before i had really realised how my brain works #and for a while writing these chapters have felt very forced #gbgb had a much better run till it crashed and i was just unable to pick it back up #tbh that one could potentially still be saved bc of how open ended it is if i get any inspo for it back whatsoever #bc it had no strict plan i was entirely making it up as i go #and im realising thats how i write best. i tried to plan wgoin so id commit to finishing it but im realising that has the opposite effect #if i plan anything too thoroughly writing it becomes like gnawing on lead #cause i got all the dopamine out of the idea already #i write best when i have nothing but a vague idea or a vibe #gbgb crashed bc i ran out of vibes and ideas but if i find any again who knows #there is the possibility where i scrap the plan i had for wgoins entire plot and make the rest up as i go #which i might try purely bc i love the story sm #and i think i enjoyed writing it most back in the first three parts where i Was making it up as i went #which is why im saying indefinite hiatus instead of discontinued #bc there is hope for them. just not. much #so if u stick around maybe follow me on ao3 if u dont wanna see all my posts n just my stories #maybe in 3 years time youll see another wgoin notif or sumn #sorry to the small but dedicated handful of readers who really loved these fics #i wanted to write more for you guys bc ik its hard to find this kinda fic anywhere else; its why i started writing it #but i am but one unmedicated autist w severe adhd. we r working on the unmedicated part tho #ive learned so much abt how my brain functions now n how to make the most of it tho #i told myself id finish any new writing before i post it. so know anything new Will be complete :3 #mischiefing time

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dreamsy990 · 1 year

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perfectionism, i think.

#i dont really know if its perfectionism #but whenever i write something and i love it #and someone asks to see #suddenly its horrible and im horrible #maybe its the expectation?#like when im sharing something online then theres no expectations #but as soon as it becomes personal then theres expectations #why else are they asking yknow?#like im fine with posting my fics on ao3 #because there if someone doesnt like it theyll just scroll by #idk #i wish i could share this stuff though #but its like. a lot #vent i think #the art here is good but tbh i didnt really make this for anyone but myself #so i just kinda. threw it together #i spent the entire time i drew it debating whether or not to post it #but i think people will relate #thank you to the people who do genuinely want to see/like my work #i think i hate my work more than everyone in the world combined ever coule #could

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upsidedowngrass · 1 year

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i will say one of my Biggest pet peeves in one fanworks is 'liam becomes the new airy.' like im sorry i respect u and ur interpretations and ur creative interests !!! im glad ppl have fun and have ideas about post canon one, theres a lot of potential there!!!! but also the moment that i see a work have liam do this i instantly stop paying attention

#not putting this in the tag cus i dont wanna make ppl feel bad!!!#and like. i HAVE seen works that mildly explore it but in a way that i kinda like #but its just. it bothers me So Bad #like it contradicts every trait liam has ever shown in the series AND all of his motivations #'ppl qct ooc under stress!' yeah but it doesnt make ppl act in ways Completely diff from who they r... like hes still liam #at that pt hes just a whole new CHARACTER #but its like. his ENTIRE motivation is that he wants to stop anyone else from going what he went thru. will do anything to prevent that #itd literally undo what makes his entire character him at all to have him go back on that. thats literally his most prominent motivation #its SO intrinsically tied to him as a character #like yeah!!! him and airy are both isolated in that world. there are strong similiarities between their characters #but they still went theu snth DISTINCTLY different.#airy died and was isolated. liam was kidnapped and then isolated. it feels just different enough that i CANT see how #liam would just end up as 'airy 2.' their experiences may be similar but theyre still extremely different #and its like. ive said it before but i think julien is meant to serve WAY more of a parallel to liam than airy is #if theres anything i think liam would do if he couldnt get home? it would be to try and try and try #until hes just... not going anywhere #his stubbornness (and juliens stubbornness for that matter) is vital to understanding his actions.#hed never stop even if it meant he REALLY never stopped. and i think thats just as emotionally impactful #and? even if he WERE to act ooc. uh #tbh? i think hes terrified of dying. he does NOT like it. i think esp after the waiting room hed dread it bc all he knows of it #is that hell just keep dying and dying. or end up just stuck there forever #but. if he were to start rly going against his established traits. i think hed more sooner off himself than start s3 #ESP since it is his own concern for others that makes him act the most Against his own self in the entire series #when he tries to kill airy. bc he couldnt stand the idea of everything continuing #and airy doing this to more ppl. THAT is what is strong enough to make him go against his own personality #and i think its too deeply intertwined into his character for him to try to deal with isolation by kidnapping people #esp not owen.#suicide mention #ANYWAY. these tags r long #OK TO RB BTW if u want i just didnt tag it bc i dont wanna make any1 goin thru the tag sad or anything

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bardengarde · 8 months

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Every now and again I'd like to post my takes on the Trapper vs BJ debate, but I won't because I value my sanity and because I love both characters for different reasons- why do they have to fight???

#babbling bard #notice how i won't use show or character tags bc i Don't want to get into it #i get people have preferences and theres nothing wrong with that!!!#but personally i enjoy all the characters in mash because i really think everyone put in hard work to make the characters entertaining even #even if they weren't always good or necessarily enjoyable #and tbh i was really surprised upon first entering the fandom and seeing some of the characters are viewed with so much vitriol by some #because if nothing else i felt like every character on the show had a purpose and that the overall chemistry worked so well #now the arguments I'm making extend beyond just b j and trap but like i said- dont wanna get anon hate #tbh they should just shake hands #not knocking anyone who does have a character they hate btw #tho I'll be in the corner like :((( over them #lmfao i said i dont want to post my takes but now look at me.... posting my takes

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