#tefl was a mistake

[stardustedknuckles]

Hey guys today I realized I'm insufferable.

[corvid-language-library]

Future Plans

This is mostly me thinking aloud (or rather, writing shit down), so feel free to ignore (it's gonna get long).

Basically, I'm trying to decide what to do in regards to staying in Japan/moving on.

I love living here. I love my job. After a year of doing it, I've learned from my mistakes and I feel like I've become a much better teacher. With the new school year I've implemented some changes in my approach that I know are going to have positive outcomes, and I want to see it through. I want to keep working with these kids, I want to help them grow.

But... I have reasons for wanting to go back to the UK (never thought I'd say that):

Top of the list is my nan having quite severe dementia. That in itself doesn't affect me greatly as I've not seen her for years and was never close to her. However, I know my mum is struggling to look after her. She frequently drives 3 hours to see her, then spends a week caring for her, and while she tries to put a humorous spin on the stories she tells me I can tell it's hard for her. I want to be there for her, maybe even go with her to help look after my nan just to take the burden off of her.

Related to that... I worry that my mum will develop dementia later on and I'll regret not spending the years we could've had together with her. She's the only family member I'm close to really and honestly, I miss her.

Also family-related... I'm missing my niece growing up. I'm not a part of her life at all and that makes me sad.

I'm still considering studying Education Psychology in the city where my brother lives. It would be expensive and I'd need to rely on my dad's money, which I don't really want to do, but it would set me up nicely to either go into research or then apply to do a teaching Masters degree in Norway (plus I'd get to actually be a part of my niece's life for a bit).

I miss having a fucking oven oh my god I want to bake so fucking badly you have no idea.

At the moment I intend to see my contract out for at least the rest of this year. After that, I'm not 100%. I might continue another year and stay until my visa expires (depends on the situation with my nan I guess).

Another plan would be:

Go back to the UK either when my contract reaches its end at the end of January or when my visa expires at the start of January

Come March, apply to university in Norway

Move to Norway the following summer if I get accepted

I'm also considering transfering away from Yamagata if I decide to stay on for a third year, but I'm in two minds. As mentioned above, I want to continue working with these kids and see through what I've started. I also love Yamagata and my team are great and I'm finally making friends! But I also want to explore more of Japan. It's so expensive to travel here from Europe and I doubt I'd be coming back anytime soon, but it's difficult to get to different areas of Japan from Yamagata. If I were in, say, Osaka, it would be much easier for me to go to new places.

Other options:

Just stay in Yamagata and get my visa renewed and settle down properly

Go do TEFL in a different country that's slightly closer to home (maybe Spain or France)

So yeah, those are some thoughts I'm having. I don't really know what to do at the moment and most people just politely listen and then say "well, it's down to you really" and that doesn't help lmao. Thankfully I've got quite a while to decide anyway.

[imidnightrosei]

So I wanted to dedicate a post to kinda my durges backstory I'll try to keep this from devolving into word vomit

so ik durge did grow up in baulders gate but because of angst and just because I wanted to a slight altered (at least my durges backstory) I do one day wanna try making this an actual fic but that's gonna have to wait

ANYWAY

one day in the small town moonhaven a small drow baby is found by a selunite retired adventurer (I imagine a tefling male haven't fully thought of a design yet)

anyway, if you know, shadowheart most likely grew up in Moonhaven so yea thats where the angst comes in I imagine baby viclin and shadowheart were very close

until one night viclin blacks out and finds himself over some poor animal and is scared obviously. they don't know what to do until they hear arnell who comes up next to him ( in my head arnell mistakes this and thinks viclin is also a werewolf) he helps him calm down and promises to help them.

flash forward a bit, and if you know durge at some point, unalives thier foster family and scared it's gonna happen again and not wanting to hurt his best friend shadowheart runs away where he is found by bhall cultists and us taking to the church of bhall (then the rest if the normal backstory happens)

I also think shadowheart and Viclin would meet a few time nit recognizing eachother

like possibly at a gala where shadowheart is undercover and Viclin is there too with ketheric and gortash

ANYWAY sorry for all that word vomit lol

[sincereandsensiblestudies]

January 23rd, 2023

As it turns out, I did not finish reading my texts yesterday. Today I'm working (tutoring a student in English) but later, I have time to do some more reading. I came up with a battle plan and hope that it works. Also, I did clean my desk yesterday.. Which means I moved most of the things onto my living room table and some onto the kitchen one. So now I still have to clean those two. But at least my desk is cleared so that's somewhat of a win.

Honestly, while I usually like didactics, some of the topics I have to read about are intensely boring and sometimes I simply don't agree with some points that are being made because recent studies have shown different perspectives. So I do struggle with that a bit. Additionally, a lot of these aspects won't be relevant to me because I'm not teaching this subject, nor planning on staying here to be a teacher. I much preferred the TEFL course, which was by far much more relevant for my future career.

I understand that we do have to learn about this, simply to have some of the aspects of teaching in mind - e.g. learning processes of students, which was incredibly interesting - but I don't understand why we have to take an exam if 80% of the course is not relevant to the students who won't teach this subject. I wish it was a didactics course that is useful teachers in general. E.g. we learn about learning processes if students but nothing about different strategies to deal with 'mistakes' in the classroom, nothing about how to actually support students better. Of course, understanding learning processes helps but only to a certain degree.

[fahadventure]

If you’ve come across my articles on TEFL, Home Workout, Digital Journeys 1 and 2 , you are welcome for a different treat today which will talk briefly about my journeys of acoustic music works from the scratch and can give you ideas here and in the next few articles on acoustic guitar for beginners, how to play acoustic guitar chords, finding good acoustic music shop, some acoustic guitar songs which are easy to play and finally a technique to tune your acoustic guitar and ukulele without any acoustic guitar tuner.

Background: Let’s start with a small history check of 2008, when I was just a teenager cadet, studying in Mirzapur Cadet College and was looking at my other fellow multi-talented batchmates and seniors doing lots of productive things and learning more. Artcell, Aurthohin, Black, Warfaze were some of the renowned popular Bangladeshi bands of that time that we would listen to, all day long, accompanied by some Indian and Pakistani bands like Jaal and English bands like Backstreet Boys, Greenday etc. Some of my friends had huge fascination for singing and music altogether, but none of us could take it to the next level. At those times, we were given small vacations after every 2 or 3 months so that we could meet our family and cherish few of the things that we couldn’t do for the limitations and restrictions there.

Beginner phase: So, in the same year during vacation, I got a guitar from my sister as a gift at a cheap price. Afterwards, started looking for teachers (as Youtube was not prominent for learning anything by then), started learning the basics through them (I had to learn from several teachers as my vacations were inconsistent with their time) and practiced them after going back to cadet, with my seniors and 2 of my batchmates periodically. A typical starter pack might include doing some hand and finger exercises, knowing how to draw the basic chords and hold them practically, names of the notes, finger picking and plucking tasks, RPGO etc (will explain and talk about all these in the following articles). A lot of my friends got inspiration through us and started learning without having a guitar, as their mentors were right in front of them! Remember there are only 12 notes namely, A, A#, B, C, C#, D, D#, E, F, F#, G, G# (# are called sharp) and 14 chords (A-G, all Major and minors). Right now, in 2023, I have learnt playing some advanced versions and stored them in my own Youtube Channel.

Mistakes to avoid: As a beginner, you might face a lot of difficulties and have rush of blood, enough to take bad decisions. Please remember, learning anything like playing guitar needs focus, practice, patience and a little bit of time. Don’t try to cover a song immediately after the day you bought a guitar. Whether you’re a righty or lefty, take some time to adjust your hands and fingers to hold it and get used to doing things it has never done before. There are plenty of online videos on hand exercises. Buying a cheap or normal guitar with good sound is also very important, as you don’t want to lose your money while experimenting on the fancy guitars and damage it. Slowly, master the chords one by one, enrich your knowledge on what major and minor chords are why they are called so. I’m hopeful that within a month or two, you’ll be able to perform on stages with these knowledges. I have kept my Youtube channel just as a part of my hobby, but in future I have ambitions to earn through them as well! It’s very important to earn views at first with contents with quality just like the one I got with one of the popular songs, Bondu! (21K views already 😱).

Last words: If you like to sing as a hobby like me and don’t want to pursue your career as a guitarist, still learn it! It’s one of the easiest instruments to learn and impress your friends or (girlfriends/boyfriends!). You can perform on stages and get the extra attention, wherever you’re shining. If you’re residing in Dhaka, Bangladesh, you can find good acoustic music shops in Science Lab, Bashundhara City etc or you can even order online through some facebook pages. There are several easy-going acoustic guitar songs that you can find in Youtube channels like. Finally, if you don’t know how to tune a guitar, you can buy an acoustic guitar tuner from one of the aforementioned shops or you can simply use one of your natural organs, ‘ear’ as the tuner if you have a pair of good listening ones. I have a video that I made for tuning ukulele but you can use the same technique for your guitar, if you’re out of network and don’t have the access to tune guitar from elsewhere online. That’s all for today.

#music #acousticguitartuner #Acousticmusicworks #acousticmusicshops #acousticguitarforbeginners #acousticguitarchords #acousticmusicsongs #guitar #guitarlessons #guitarlesson #guitarplayer #guitars

HAPPY LEARNING! 

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International TEFL TESOL Accreditation Council

International TEFL TESOL Accreditation Council

International TEFL TESOL Accreditation Council review. After a quick look at the International TEFL TESOL Accreditation Council’s website, it doesn’t take a genius to work out that it is not a reputable TEFL accreditation body. Two immediate red flags are the stock images of random people in office attire, and the poorly-written language used- grammar and spelling mistakes included. Its…

[markalina748]

TESOL certification online

TESOL online

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It's challenging to obtain a recognized certification to teach English skillfully by taking an unassuming course from a restricted site that doesn't offer live work on teaching. We in general know that unobtrusive is expensive in some way. Again, some readiness is better than no planning and you want to acquire the best TEFL certification online in the most potential cost viable manner.

Regardless, online TEFL courses resemble much else in that you will get what you follow through on for and expecting an expense has all the earmarks of being ridiculous, it probably is. Do whatever it takes not to pick this course to save your money. Taking everything into account, take an online TESOL course that will give you the best skills and knowledge.

By avoiding the previously mentioned and different misunderstandings, rest ensured helpful things will undoubtedly come way when you decide to take up a TEFL certificate online. Make sure to get your work done before you finally choose to enroll for any TESOL certificate online program to avoid last-minute second considerations. For more data, click this page.

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LATTE MUG ~ I like cooking my family and my pets. Use commas. Dont be a psycho. ~ Grammar Coffee Mug, Funny Quote Mug, Nerd Mug, Grammar

[blackpoliglota]

Moi assistant une réunion qui aurait été un e-mail...

This is me in that scenario and now after having spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME looking for a GIF for this post... that doesn't even fit the space properly on the desktop version 😭😭😭

Ah well, much ado about nothing, I suppose... anyway, I'M BAAAAAAAAAACK!!! So sorry for the unannounced hiatus... which wasn't really much of a hiatus, as I was still reblogging things BUT STILL. I ended up getting super sidetracked with teaching and dealing with the biggest headache on the planet known as the Spanish Beaurocracy™️🤦🏾‍♀️ Seriously y'all, those people DO NOT know how to do their jobs! If you want to hear about the fun time of trying to get my papers in order so I could remain a legal foreign resident, lemme know! Well, even if you don't I may create a post solely dedicated to that anyway; I could use the opportunity to let out some steam.

Now without further ado, onto my first original post of 2021!!!

As you may have guessed, this is about emails, particularly those written in French. I have 2 recent-ish emails I sent off to a college French professor asking for a recommendation letter for a fellowship. Wanting to keep up my French skills (and not disappoint my former professor), I used that opportunity to practice French by setting aside several lovely hours of my life for each email... yep, you read it right, HOURS. If I wrote those emails in Spanish it would've only taken me a hour tops for each email, but since this is French we're talking about here I had to spend the majority of my email-writing time looking up virtually every other word/phrase, cringe over each eventual sentence(s) I'd create with said word/phrase, and ultimately convince myself to move onto the next sentence to repeat that same process. . . all of this with taking a break after every 3rd sentence due to being lowkey dissuaded from continuing. . . fuuuuuuuun🙃🙃🙃

Anyway, not all language learning sessions are great. BUT, ya gotta push through those annoying/bad times to achieve greatness, amirite? Right, so with that being said, ALLONS-Y!!!

So I mentioned having spent the majority of my time looking up words and phrases for these 2 emails, meaning I now have a lovely list of vocabulary to get through! Check it out below:

Le premier e-mail

La Nouveauté - innovation / novelty / originality / freshness [In the email I mistakenly used it to mean "news", when I really should have used "nouvelles"]

À part - Aside from

La folie - madness / lunacy / insanity / chaos

Supporter - To put up with / to tolerate / to bear

Pour l'instant - For the moment

Falloir (qqch)- To have to do (sth) / must do (sth) [In the email I mistakenly used it to mean "should", when I really should have used "devoir"]

Déménager - To move (house)

L'essai (m.) - Try / attempt

Remettre - To turn in / to hand over [there are many more meanings for this verb, but in the email it's used to mean this]

Le formulaire - (Application) Form

Le faute - Fault / mistake / error

La date limite - Deadline

Faire face à - To deal with / to face

Opérer - To operate / to work / to function

Quoi qu'il en soit - Anyway / either way / be that as it may

Ce que - What [As an antecedent, not a question word]

Se rendre compte de (qqch) - To realize / to become aware of (sth)

La bourse - Scholarship / fellowship / grant / stock market

Requérir - to require / to call for

Le solliciteur / la solliciteuse - Petitioner / solicitor [In the email I mistakenly used it to mean "applicant", when I really should have used "demandeur / demandeuse" according to WordReference]

Le motif - Reason / motive / pattern / motif

Si longtemps - So long [As in "such a long time"]

Le thème - Topic / subject / theme

La déclaration personnelle - Personal statement

La déclaration d'intention - Statement of purpose

Payer le luxe - To have the luxury (to do sth) / to afford (to do sth)

Urger - To be urgent [In the email I mistakenly used it to mean "to oblige", when I really should have used "obliger"]

Amitiés - Best Wishes / All the Best [Letter sign-off]

And for the sake of breaking up these two lists so you won't be too overwhelmed at all the vocab I need to study, here's a picture of the first email below:

Now for the next one!

Le deuxième e-mail

Le tour - Turn

Désolée de. . . - Sorry for. . .

Tel (m.) / telle (f.) - Such (a)

À temps - On time

Lié (m.) / liée (f.) - Related / connected

L'affaire (f.) - Matter / issue / business

Le séjour - Stay / temporary residence / family room / living room

Donc - Therefore [Grammatical position is after the verb, after "pas" if negation is present]

Une fois encore - Once again

L'objet (m.) - (Email) Subject / object / purpose / target

La nouvelle normale - The New Normal [COVID-19 related]

Vécu - Lived [Past participle of the verb "vivre"]

Propre - (One's) Own / clean / tidy / neat

Lorsque - While / when / as soon as

S'étonner - To be surprised / to be astonished / to be amazed

Chacun de nous - Any one of us / each of us

Poursuivre - To continue / to pursue / to keep up

Presque - Almost

L'enseignement de l'anglais langue étrangère - Teaching English as a Foreign Language [abbrv. "TEFL"]

Instituteur (m.) / Institutrice (f.) - (Primary school) Teacher

Le déménagement - Move / moving

Devenu(e) - Became [Past participle of the verb "devenir"]

L'éducateur / l'éducatrice - Educator

Le retour - Return

Bien que - Although / even though

La carrière - Career

La demande - Application

Écrasant (m.) / écrasante (f.) - Overwhelming / crushing / heavy

En réalité - Actually / in fact / in reality

Le résultat - Result

La ronde des finalistes - Finalist round

Alors que - While / even though

Les études (f.) - Studies

Réviser - To review

La communauté - Community

À ce sujet - On that note / speaking of which

À l'avenir - In the future

Postuler à (qqch) - To apply for (sth)

Scolaire - Academic / scholastic

S'améliorer - To improve / to upgrade / to get better

La capacité - Ability / capability

Cela dit - That (being) said

Fou (m.) / folle (f.) - Crazy / insane / mad / wild

Être en bonne santé - To be healthy

Être en sécurité - To be safe

Jurer - To swear / to vow / to curse / to cuss

Le temps de réponse - Response time

Chaleureusement - With Warm Regards / Warmly [Letter sign-off]

And here is the second email itself:

As you can see, I blocked out the name of my professor because Consent Tings™️. Hopefully the email images help with putting the vocab into context! I plan to make quizlets for these vocab words soon and will post the link to it here for y'all if you're interested in studying them! Also, DISCLAIMER: if you didn't know this before, I am by no means an expert in the French language; I'm hardly at the B1 level. Cela dit (that being said. . . see that? heh heh😏), I'm sure there are a plethora of errors in both emails. If you're feeling extra critical when reading them, please please PLEASE point out those errors to me! I want to discuss them with you and learn from them so I can poursuivre m'améliorer (keep on improving. . . once again, hehee😂)!

Alrighty, that covers just about everything! Again, I am so sorry for not having created any original posts in such a long time; life carried me away🤷🏾‍♀️ Now that I finally have my first post of 2021, here's to more frequent content creating!

乾杯(Gān bēi)! 🥂

EDIT: Links to the quizlets below!

Le premier e-mail: https://quizlet.com/_9mktlv?x=1jqt&i=3dk8u9

Le deuxième e-mail: https://quizlet.com/_9ml1s4?x=1jqt&i=3dk8u9

[cosmictulips]

I feel the need to explain fully what has happened in the past 48 hours. because you are my ... ...? readers? and I owe you the reason why I keep having to delay readings. plus I like you guys. so here we go.

This started about last october. I was living with a friend, who we will call L. I was supposed to move out that october because she was supposed to move with her hubsand to a new military base. I got SO incredibly lucky that they ended up staying but it also started a pretty bad chain of events.

I wasn't supposed to be there for very long. and when it started stretching I started looking for other jobs. I couldn't get the stay at home ones because I don't have a TEFL license or a BA to do what my skill sets are qualified for.

so I tried getting a job where she worked. and... well something was wrong with my references so they terminated the interview.

then I couldn't get my passport in time to live with a friend of mine. I couldn't move in with two others because of situations that happened in their life that forced them out of their homes and back into their parents, or an unsafe situation on their part.

and the list goes on.

Finally, back in January, early Feb. I thought I had a plan. and up until 48 hours ago. that plan, I ASSUMED was still set. except it wasn't.

L made the mistake of doing two things and dragging someone else into the mess that ultimately made me look like a fool and a liar. so she said "fuck off"

Now, I could've fought it. I have evidence that would prove me... well... not a liar or a fool. but I didn't. because for some reason in my life, I've had to fight to be heard. I've had to fight to be believed. and I'm tired of. it. You'd think after knowing me for five years she would've listened to my side more but she only believed someone who also shared the same struggles as hers. "same"

so the past 48 hours I've had to pack my life away again. and through an emergency contact I was able to get a place to stay for the moment. otherwise I would be homeless right now. and I still face that threat because I only have about a week where I'm going.

I have a potential job lined up. I'll have to figure out how to get there later. but it's getting better.

I have a very long road ahead of me.

but I am not stopping readings. I made a service for you. and luckly soon, I'll be a hold of my hoard of tarot and oracle decks. I'll be able to provide you with better readings, both free and paid. I'll be able to start the youtube channel for general readings and set up a clear and concise paid reading section.

so hope is not lost.

and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart who have reached out to me through asks and those of you who know me outside this blog ;)

your patience and kindness means the world to me right now. especially since I need it.

[nordic-language-love]

Norwegian

Read 1x article + wrote opinion

Read 5x chapters Odinsbarn

Watched 4x Kveldsnytt broadcasts

Watched 2x Nytt På Nytt episodes

Listened to 1x Norsken, svensken og dansken podcast

Listened to 1x Smartere om ti minutter podcast

Wrote 3x journal entries

30 minute italki session

Speaking practice: talked about my job and learning Norwegian

Mysteriet av Nils - finished chapter 29 + read chapter 30

Duolingo: increased skills Sport and Body to level 3

This is a long one, sorry!

My listening abilities are so inconsistent, like sometimes I can watch Kveldsnytt and understand basically everything, other times I can only get a vague gist of what’s going on. I guess it depends on a number of factors: what topics are being discussed, what dialect the presenter has, how tired I am and how much I zone out (sometimes I have to rewind it because I just haven’t been paying attention). This week I got on so much better than last week (I turned off subtitles again and got on fine), but I don’t think it’s because I’ve miraculously improved since then lol

While listening to music this week, a Norwegian song came on that I hadn’t heard for a while, and I was so surprised at how much I understood now. Last time I listened to that song it was mostly just gibberish, but this time it was like 70% real words that I understood and only maybe 30% gibberish. That’s pretty good tbh - even when listening to songs in English I often mishear lyrics (I was listening to Tool the other day and got literally 2 lines of an entire song lol) so understanding that much feels pretty good to me!

I got round to listening to another Norsken, svensken og dansken podcast this week too. I noticed I can understand the Norwegian quite well even when only passively listening, and I can understand the Swedish and Danish okay when I concentrate, although I tend to focus on individual words (particularly with Danish) rather than just listening to the whole sentence, so I end up not actually understanding fully, if that makes sense? I used to have the same problem with Norwegian (which I forgot - it’s nice to be reminded I have actually made progress!) so I’m hoping with continued practice I’ll understand more. I’m thinking of maybe making it a goal of mine to understand Swedish and Danish better and maybe dabbling in them on Duolingo, but I think I’ve got a bit more work on my Norwegian to do first. Kinda wanna get to C1 listening before I start branching out like that!

Also, Nytt På Nytt is back! I watched it with subtitles but I tried to use them as little as possible. I understood Bård quite well and Erna too (I guess I’m used to her because I see her on the news so much), although the others were quite hit-and-miss and I definitely didn’t understand everything being said. But it’s still a huge improvement from when I first started watching it and would not only have to read subtitles the whole time but would sometimes have to pause and rewind it just to read them or maybe look up entire sentences.

Additionally, I was quite pleased with my writing this week. I started writing about an article I’d read and decided not to use a dictionary, and I ended up writing quite a lot. I then went back and edited it, still without using a dictionary. Then I used a dictionary just to add a little more nuance to what I was trying to say. It took quite a while - I kept coming back to it throughout the day - but I’m still really pleased with how little I needed to look up (even though I still made a lot of mistakes).

And then of course there was my italki session, which I’ve already talked about! I was so happy with how that went and how well I managed. I definitely wasn’t fluent (I said something in French at one point whoops lmao) and would often stop and start and rethink what I was trying to say, but all in all I’m happy with how it went!

I’m making good progress with Odinsbarn too. Sometimes there’s lots of new vocabulary but it’s very rare I actually feel the need to stop and look something up (sometimes I look things up because I’m like “if that means what I think it means then that’s hecka useful). I’ve not had much time to read this week, so I’m hoping to do more of that next week.

All in all, I’m feeling positive about all my skills this week. No doubt come next week or a couple of weeks from now that’ll change, but it’s nice to feel like I’m making progress :)

Productivity grid

Yeah, it’s been a good week for Norwegian. Look at all that blue! I’ve been slacking a bit on my TEFL course though. I’ve literally got 2.5 assignments left but I’m kiiiinda stuck on them so I’ve been really lazy about it. I need to get my arse in gear this week and just get them over with. What I’ve got to remember is that if I don’t pass them and I have to redo them, I’ll have learned something and I’ll be better as a teacher eventually as a result.

Have a good week everyone!

[pokecommunitycenter]

I'm writing a book, I'm learning how to drive, I'm studying for my TEFL certificate, I'm an active member of Toastmasters--after many setbacks I'm finally getting my post-college life off the ground and still finding time to take care of myself and do my hobbies. I'm also proud of the fact that I am a very versatile writer: I'm good at writing both short, snappy dialogue and HUGEASS METAS that stretch for 3-4 pages or more single spaced. (1/2)

I also want to thank you for prompting people to tell you things that they are proud of about themselves. I have been on Tumblr since high school, and I have always felt saddened by the way things seem to center around everybody here being a shit human being. In the non-RP parts of Tumblr, people are always talking about how they are fat, ugly, lazy and stupid, and while much of it is self-deprecating humor, I still see precious little talk about peoples' good traits.

Moreover, I feel as though Tumblr is used primarily as a venting space for many people particularly marginalized people, and while our struggles deserve attention, our successes and happinesses as people deserve attention as well. So it really means a lot to me that someone is going out and actively encouraging people to be positive about themselves, since that is something I don't often see here. Much love!

Come tell Ditto what you are proud of about yourself !!

There is so much here that Ditto is happy to see you take pride in !!

Most importantly, Ditto is happy to see you taking time & pride in taking that time for yourself. The world can get so busy, we forget to do that sometimes. But !! It is very important.

Ditto was raised by a wonderful pair of ladies, that helped Ditto to see failures or hiccups not as bad things, but as stepping stones to get to the good things. You can’t obtain talent in anything without a few little mistakes, & while it’s important to make note of them, dwelling on them or gaslighting them does not help at all.

Encouragement & positive reinforcement goes farther than scolding or pointing out flaw excessively. 

Everyone deserves a little help, too. Cause sometimes we as humans get so wrapped up in taking care of others, & making ourselves available to others, that we forget how to do that for ourselves.

So !! Ditto is here. Ditto will remind people, & give them the mic, the spotlight on the dance floor. The boost up to the next tree branch !!

Thank you for taking a minute to be proud of yourself, & share it with Ditto & the Dash !!

[aureumdraconeus]

So part two of sophocles sunday, otherwise known as AD just rants about stuff that’s on his mind, this time the topic is that of mistakes and looking back:

I’ve had this blog for...what maybe a couple years now? I remember having a few others but this is certainly the most long-running and shifting blog of the lot (Seriously we’re up to almost 3000 of ya following my dumb ass). But if there is one thing I always think about when I see certain people pop up on my dashboard, it’s these few words that always resonate with me: “What could I have done better”.

Those that are close to me would probably have known about back in early 2019 when I ended up cutting ties with people who probably look at me and see me as nothin’ but garbage, they were great RP’ers and honestly they still are, but by that point in my life I had honestly discovered my greatest vice when it comes to this community... self-worth and clinginess.

I clung to these people like they were my best friends because they had connections and honestly were well-liked all across the RP community, they had constructed their own worlds and honestly had produced such stellar characters and portrayals that I thought that I needed to pick up the slack and make my own universe to join in.

This proved to be the worst choice, especially with where I was at. See I was in Japan at the time, doing my TEFL qualifications and generally a lot of my nights were spent staying up way later (sometimes all-nighters) than I should have, that...fucked with me mentally quite a bit. It wasn’t until I finally reached the deep end that I realised that I had fucked up immensely and words wouldn't be able to put me back on good terms.

Now whenever I see their blogs, I still enjoy their content but I feel those words speak to me in the back of my mind more than ever. What could I have done better when being around these people? Was I just some parasite that leeches off of them or did they honestly see me as an awful person? 

Obviously, this isn’t something I think about all the time but it did give me a lesson in humility and allowing actions to speak louder than my words. I’m still trying to work up the courage to go back and work on that project and try to make it something unique...but that won’t be for a while. But until that point I have this one lesson that I think I’d wanna share with you all:

Regardless of what mistakes you make, you still have a path to take.

I thought that because of how I acted I wouldn’t find anybody else to interact with or build connections with and I’ve been proven wrong. Granted, I’m probably still not the most liked individual in this cesspool of fuckery but hey, at least my inbox is free from faceless individuals wishing death upon me, eh?

This honestly felt like more of a vent, but basically, I just look back upon how I’ve grown and I realise now that actions certainly do speak louder than words, and that the kindness of others should not be taken for granted...especially when they try their best to keep you on a good path.