soupcrouton · 2 years ago
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Aueghhh bad headache last night holy fuck
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issie-https · 2 years ago
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Devils night
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A/n: Double upload? Yes, hunny xoxo! Once again, shit smut ahead😘
Word count: 1527
Warnings: smut, fingering, vaginal sex(p in v), swearing, groupies being annoying ig and a sprinkle of angst for a paragraph
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I didn't even want to be there. I walked up to the open door of the Halloween party Axl was having at his house. There was this tradition we started a few years ago where on Devils night, 30th October, we would have a party. Slash had convinced be to come this year, his bribe for me being alcohol and games. "You came," He said, walking over to me and engulfing me in a tight hug. "Mhm. Didn't want to but I bought this new dress, gotta debut it somehow. Like it?" I asked, giving him a little twirl. "Drop dead gorgeous," he smirked at the little joke he managed to slip in. I had worn a maroon and black corset dress with thigh high stockings and I put some fake blood here and there, I also teased my hair making it look like Axl's hair in the WTTJ music video. Yes, I didn't want to go but I still had to make an effort. "You're such a weirdo," I laughed, walking past him and through the crowd of people to get to the rest of the band, whom of which had all found some groupie, dressed in literally just lingerie, to bang for the night.
"Y/n! You look fucking amazing," Axl said, briefly leaving the girl who he was stood next to, to give me a hug. "So do you, Ax. You all did amazing with your costumes," I smiled at the band and also at the girls on their hips. "I thought it was supposed to be a Halloween party, who invited a child," the girl stood next to Duff whispered to the girl Axl was with. "Yeah, my fucking party that I have hosted for the past 6 years. The only reason I'm not doing it this year is because I'm fed up of girls like you banging my friends in my house, then eating my food and drinking my shit in the morning. In addition, it is a Halloween party, where's your costume? Get felt up by too many guys it fell off?" I yelled over the music and stormed off. The girls just laughed as I walked away, back to the front door so I could get in my car, and fuck off home. Before I could swing my car door open, Slash caught up to me and said, "Y/n! Wait! I thought you wanted to spend the night with me?" He said. "I did, but the sluts inside that house are judging me for having an actual costume and not putting myself on display. I'm sorry for leaving not even 5 minutes after arriving but I can't have that energy near me," I replied, my eyes tearing up. I'd normally never let some groupie get to me but somehow that comment did? "Let me come home with you, we can sit and watch horror movies and eat tomorrows trick or treaters candy," he smiled. I huffed and got in the drivers seat, "get in then or I'll drive off without you," I smiled.
The whole ride home, we listened to whatever was on the radio which happened to be Queen, thank fucking god!
We finally got back to my house and the second the door was open, Slash ran into the living room and dived onto the sofa. "DONT BREAK THE SOFA!" I screamed. "I DIDNT!" He yelled back. "What snack do you want?" I asked after kicking my heels off. "The snacks I would like are cookies, chips and salsa. Nothing more, nothing less," He stated, walking up behind me and following me through my kitchen. "I was thinking of doing some kids meal stuff because I haven't had dinner," I said, opening my freezer. "What stuff?" He replied. "Chicken nuggets, fries, other stuff that isn't good for us health wise but it's good for us emotionally wise," I replied. "You're so stupid," he laughed.
We cooked lots of shit, picky bits if you will, we put them on trays on my coffee table and put on 'A Nightmare On Elm Street'.
Almost halfway through the movie, Slash pulled me onto his lap, my back pressed against his chest. His hand went from my waist, to my hips, to my thighs. "Slash, please" I breathed. "What? What do you want?" He said against my neck.
He pressed a few kisses before moving his hand to the inside of my thighs. "I want you. Please," I begged. His hand moved under the skirt of my dress, pushing my panties to the side and pressing his finger against my clit. "Fuck," I moaned. He teased my clit more before moving to my entrance, slowly pushing two fingers in. "You're such a good girl for me," he moaned lowly in my ear. Lewd moans and whines left my mouth as his fingers kept grazing my g-spot. Not long after he started fingering me, I could feel the knot in my stomach tightening. "Slash, I-I'm so close," I whined. "I know, baby. I can feel you clenching around my fingers," he whispered lowly in my ear.
He pulled out his fingers just as I was about to cum, making tears well in my eyes and begs and pleads fall over my lips.
"Hands and knees, baby," he said lowly. I got down on the floor on all fours, wagging my ass like a puppy. He gave a harsh slap to my ass and then unbuckled his belt and pulled his leather trousers down to his knees. I look at him behind me, not surprised that he wasn't wearing underwear. He pushed his hard cock into me, eliciting loud moans from my mouth. He started off slow, letting me get used to his cock. But after a few seconds of him teasing me, he started pounding into me showing no signs of slowing down. "You feel so good around me," he said, slight breathless. The more he pounded into me, the closer I was getting to my release. "I can feel you squeezing me," he moaned, pulling my hair to press my back to his chest again. "F-fuck, I'm gonna-". "I know. Cum for me, princess," that was all I needed before I came on his dick, my cum mixing with his and spilling out of me, down our thighs.
We got cleaned up and resumed cuddling on the sofa. "I don't know how to say this without sounding weird, but your pussy is so good," he whispered in my ear. "That sounded a little weird but thank you. Right back at ya," I smiled, pecking his lips every other word. "You're such a nerd," he laughed. "You love me for it," I spoke. "Maybe you're right," He replied.
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nocturnal-nexu · 3 months ago
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So I just had a very wholesome and unexpected evening
So I was watching some vids about the Olympic Muffin Man, and amongst the videos, I found one with the recipe! I HAD to go to the store and get the ingredients I didn't have on hand. As I was driving through my neighborhood, I saw a lady walking a cute, fluffy dog. The dog looked just like my late dog Kati. For some reason, I actually stopped, rolled down my window, and said, "Your dog is so cute! She reminds me of my old dog." And the nice lady walked up to me and held her dog up to my window so I could pet her. I hadn't expected that! After I gave the pup a few head scratches, I said thank you and continued on my way. After I got to the store and found what I needed, I was headed to the checkout when "I Want it That Way" started playing over the music speakers. I started to sing it quietly to myself, chuckling a bit. And then, as I approached the register, I heard the guy who was busy cleaning the store singing it too. Not quietly. He wasn't embarrassed, he didnt care if anyone heard him. I started to sing a little louder, too. He came over to the register so I could pay for my groceries, we both said "Hi," And then, as I was paying, he began to sing again. So I sang along, too. Now that I'm back home, I've gotten to thinking. I could have easily just thought, "Oh, that's a cute dog," and kept driving to the store. I didn't have to sing along with that store worker, but I did. There is something so beautiful about just interacting with people. As much as I like my alone time, I like to be around people just as much. In Genesis, God stated that "it was not good for man to be alone," so he made Eve. We weren't made to be isolated and alone. We were made to experience and enjoy life together.
So don't be afraid to be yourself around others. You might get to pet a cute puppy or harmonize with a random store worker. :)
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librarycard · 2 years ago
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sorry i need to write this and im really frunk but i need to type it anyway. when i was going home as many peopl know the first thing i did after top surgery was put on welcome to th ebblack parade. and i burst into tears. ic ouldnt help it. i was so happy. i was so fucking. and my dad. my dad hadnt seen me cry in fivce years. and he said so. i ahdnt reqalzed it had been so long. but when he sadi that he said should i pull ovcer because truly he didnt know what to do. he didnt. but tears streaming down my face i was like. please just listen. listen. do you understand what this was to me. what it was. there is clear memory of being 14 at a waterpark and looking agt my mom. while i wore a bikini and asking her to accept that i was a boy. i felt stupid . i felt righteous. i remembered gerard. my mom told me she'd never respect that and neither wuld my dad. one day they did but it took me threatening to never spewak to them. the thing is -> i could not give a fuck . DO OR DIE. youll never make me. go ancd trhy. youll never break me. WE ANT IT ALL. WE WANN APLAY THIS PART. and gthen. i looked my dad in the eye. the man who two years elarier would have nedver thought he could accept that iw as trans. the man who was driving me home from getting my top surgery at 5am. and thorugh tears along to gerard i muttered. i wont explain. or say im sorry. im unashamed. im gona show my scars. and in that moment i touched my chest. where the bandasges where. i knew i was being ridiculous. i knew i was crying from happiness even tohugh i hadnt cried from sadness since i was 14. and i said give a cheer for all the broken. dad. and listen here because its who we are. BECAUSE IM JUST A MAN (im not but i am) im not a hero (i never was and im not now) im just a boy(of course i am. of course) who had gto sing this song <- and the thing was if i hadnt gotten top surgery or started t i wouldve killed myself. i just wouldve. but of course i didbt. i was who i wanted to be. finally. i was in that car and id never been closer to what gerard was saying. i was there. finally. finally. finally. i was who i wanted to be. the drains were still attached, i hadnt seen my chest yet, and i was who i wanted to be. thank god. thank myself, because i was the one who fucking TRIED. TO . GET THESE THINGS. only me. in alabama, when i had to leave the state for almost a year just to get testosterone, i tried. and i did it. i did it. i did it. i am who i am. i am a man but im not a man. by virture of the fac tthat im not a hero. im j ust aboy. who had to lplay this part. isnt taht crazy. i had to. i dont anymore. i am who i am. i love who ia m. no matter how bad life gets. who i am is beautiful. i love it. i cherish it. and then when black parade ended i played mama. the song that when i was young made me ralize i was transgender. and i remembered how i felt the first time i heard it. walking in circles. outside mh house with my headphones in. so so young. realizing what i was. finally. and being scared so scared i stopped listening to mcr. nd now i think. i had no idea. that htings could be okay. that my body could be my body.and now it is. thakn you my chemical romance. THANK YOU WASHINGTON <- me. because i deserve to be thanked for being myself. k bye
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voidwritesstuff · 9 months ago
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Long Way To The Truth
Cw:Lucas has a paranoid spiral, killing off an npc,guns,mentions of ptsd..
♡Chapter Five: Utah
♡summary; Lucas has various run ins with the law,some pleaseant and others...
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As he drives into the state of Utah,theres something that had been picking at the back of his mind. That damn black SUV, it may be his paranoia but hes been dealing with these goverment spooks his whole life.
He rolls back his shoulder,trying to shake off the bad feeling thats clinging onto him like a leech. A sigh falls past his lips as he turns on the radio,and for a second time in his journey, Black Sabbath plays,same song.
Finished with my woman 'cause
She couldn't help me with my mind
People think I'm insane because
I am frowning all the time
Lucas hisses in discontent at the recognition of the song, but leaves it on. With a scowl he keeps Driving, a resting bitch face that could scare anyone.
All day long I think of things
But nothing seems to satisfy
Think I'll lose my mind
If I don't find something to pacify
Can you help me
Occupy my brain?
Oh yeah
He hates how much the song fits Him. In any other context he'd be singing along,but after being chased by some weird SUV,yeah no thanks.
One of his "quirks" is that he overthinks,he does that a lot. Hell,that SUV was enough to send him to the edge of a paranoid spiral,hes so damn close, he cant be caught before ever reaching Milton-Haven..
I need someone to show me
The things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make
True happiness, I must be blind
See,this is the thing thats making him consider seeing a therapist again,hes used to his paranoid spirals,hes lived with them his whole life. But just because hes gotten used to it,that doesnt mean its easy.
On bad days,he couldnt even leave his house, he'd cover up all Windows and entrances And just bunker himself into his house for days at a time.
He hates It, he hates the feeling of paranoia,the Fear,the anxiety. God,he does need help.
Make a joke and I will sigh
And you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel
And love to me is so unreal
And its not only the paranoia,he feels happiness like its muffled,filtered out. He could laugh,he could find things funny,but the happiness didnt last long. And as much as he wants to hold on to that feeling,there are days where its as brief as the passing breeze.
And so as you hear these words
Telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life
I wish I could but it's too late
The song ends shortly thereafter. He sighs in relief and lets the other songs play out until he reaches a café. There he orders breakfast and sits on a quiet,lone booth in the back.
Paranoid,hes paranoid, he knows that. But he tries to play it off so he doesnt stick out like a sore thumb.
Lucas tilts his head to the side,stretching his neck muscles with a deep sigh. He feels the bones in his neck pop and a lot more relaxed he grabs his Journal
"Already in Utah, ive been paranoid and panicky all day. I havent felt like this since my last paranoid spiral a week ago,the Day I decided I needed to chase this mystery.
God,i can still remember the feeling of having my house in complete shutdown. All the Doors locked, it was GODDAMN awful.
I need a break before I actually have a public freakout and draw more attention to myself. I dont want to be even more of a target...or feel that way ever again.
Thought this trip would help me get out of the house and feel less paranoid. Having to be on the edge of yet another spiral is a Real gut punch to the Morale. Its just a few days more, I think I can hold out.
Hopefully."
Post breakfast,he resumes his Driving,checking his outside mirror more than he should. He double checks that his rifle Is at hand more than he normally would.
Oh he can already feel it setting in,the cold sweating, the anxious bounce of the leg, the way his fingers tap on the Gear shift in an uneven,inconsistent rythm. Its like a melody falling appart.
Hes out of synch,hes out of rythm,like a drummer messing up the beat of the song over and over again.
Lightheaded,his heartbeat is a drum in his ears,blasting and breaking his eardrums. Its awful, asphyxiating
With shaky,irregular breaths his eyes look for a motel nearby. He spots one in the map,one of the things he highlighted before the trip, and on the way there, he decided he needs to calm down.
It starts off with breathing excersices,deep inhales and exhales. Then,grounding excersices, 5 things he can see,four things he can touch,That sort. And slowly but surely,his breath Evens out,his heartbeat returns to normal and he feels back to reality.
Yet,it takes a toll on him. His body feels s lot weaker,more tired.
He hates it,he Hates that he knows whats the right thing to do. And so,he keeps Driving.
As he reluctantly pulls into the parking lot of the motel, Lucas mentally curses that stupid paranoia spiral that led him here.
The door to his van closes rather loudly,usually he is carefull with car Doors, but today hes pretty pissed, so he slams the door shut,catching the attention of a person leaning on the entrance to the motel.
But he doesnt notice them until he hears them go-- Damn,Rough Day.
You wouldve thought he could have broken his neck with the speed that he Turned to see the person talking to him.
Hes met with a rather short woman, around 5'3,short Bond hair,grey eyes and dressed in pretty comfortable normal clothes.
--You could say as much-- he replied, a little annoyed but trying to not lash out.
This girl can tell though, she notices the way his jaw sets and his eyes almost burn a hole through her head.
--You might want to find someone to look out for your van, shit's been crazy as of late.
Lucas squints at her,checking for anything that might confirm his suspicion.
And he does, he sees the glimmer of a badge poking out from the pocket of her jacket. But she looks a lot younger than him and hes too tired to throw down with anyone.
--Tough chance kid,now ive had a very,very,bad day so far. So,if you dont mind-- he starts before the woman stands infront of him. He snarls and hisses a growl,annoyance building up.
--look- I know what youre trying to do
--Youre a fed,'course y'do
--n' I think its the right thing-- she added,which made him back off just a little.-- I wasnt lying about stuff getting crazy,ill Keep an eye out on the van.
--And me
She rolled her eyes, pursing her lips and giving him a blank stare-- you wish. Im on your side and I think it would do you good to listen to what I have to say. Youre a Smart Man,arent you? So quiet down
Fine, hes playing along. Hes too tired to protest-- fine,what is your wisdom, oh great fed.
God,his sarcasm was really taking the wheel,huh?
--I am on your side,I dont think our little friend from the 60s should make a comeback,its too effective,too inhumane -- she explains,relaxing her posture a little since he is not an active threat.-- so you go sleep,hey some rest and get ready. Because theyre comin at you with everything that theyve got
Lucas sighs, nodding-- 'kay, fine so do I have to pay a bribe or something
--dont tempt me. But no-- she replied-- And also,theres this therapist in Milton-Haven,I know a guy whose sister is a patient of his,told me hes a great guy. His names something Wales. I think you could use the help
Oh,so he looks THAT traumatized,huh?
--Good to know I look that fucked up-- he snapped back.
--Brother,we have a whole file on you
--'course y'do
--I know you have PTSD. Trust me- ive bee-- im right there with you, theres help out there for you.
At that,his gaze softens,his heart feels like its being squeezed and his face changes. Hes no longer angry,he feels...sorry.
She can tell,and hes quick to recompose himself and scoff,trying to play it off by walking into the motel as he says-- Hide yer damn badge,yer Fed's showing.
The agent only chuckles at his flusteredness and adds-- sweet dreams,Mr.Cole.
Lucas books a room for the night. He gets set into bed,actually enjoying the comfort of the bed rather than be put off by it.  Hes that exhausted. With a deep breath,he allows his conscience to be taken over by sleep.
He finds himself in the barracks of the place they were stationed at. Hes enjoying the mildly Cool breeze that flows through the few Windows.
--Bored much,lieutenant?--Wheeler asks, with a smirk on his lips.
--oh hey Al-- he replied,as his friend sat down beside him on the bed.-- not bored its just...jetlagged
--yeah ive had that happen to me,itll take a few days to get used to it
--Its like ive been steamrolled-- he murmurs,rubbing his eyes-- im so damn Tir-- he yawns,cutting his sentence in hair--ed
Alphonso chuckled-- welcome to the world,kid. Hey,you wont Belive what I sneaked past the guards
A little curious he asks-- What?
Like a kid in christmas,his Friend pulls out two small Hershey chocolate bars-- the good stuff,kid.
--How did you even--He grabs one of the bars,its Cool to the touch-- how is it cold?
--i have my ways-- Wheeler answer with a shrug as he peeled open the chocolate.
--Who did you even have to bribe to get these past,well,everyone?!--Lucas asked, impressed,confused and slightly worried that this will come back to bite them in the ass.
--A true magician never reveals his methods,'n also you'd be surprised at the ammount of shit ive Snucked in-- his captain answered,taking a bite out of his chocolate-- Get rid of the evidence before it melts. Cmon
Enthusiastically,he mows down that chocolate,laughing along with Wheeler to some of his tales of Shenanigans past.
He awakens with a groan as he rolls on his back, his body feeling a little sore. It takes him a second to stand up,spending a few minutes laying on his back with one hand on his stomach and the other behind his head.
When he does eventually sit up,he rubs the sleep out of his eyes and a sleepy whine escapes him,sounding Like a half asleep kitten rather than a fully grown 55 Year old Man.
"13:05"reads the clock on the nightstand,he sighs loudly and gets ready to leave to get lunch. But when he opens the door he finds a cardboard bag with a mcdonalds emblem printed on it,and on it a note "Its not poisoned. YES this note Will make you think that it is, if I wanted you dead I would've Killed you in your sleep. Anyway I hope you had a good nap. -S.V."
And once again,just when he thinks his life couldnt get any weirder, life proves him wrong
Hes not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth,so he takes the food and eats. It disturbs Him a little that she got his order right too, but hes also not that surprised.
Once hes done eating, he goes to check on his van through the Window of his room. Still there,nothing out of place from what he can see, but Parked right Next to It  is a black SUV. He looks low key OFFENDED that she would park the very obvious fed vehicle right Next to his white van.
But then he stops and thinks about the absolute insanity that is having a white van Next to an unmarked SUV. Both of the most suspicious vehicles to ever exist on this planet,Next to eachother just hanging out.
For his peace of mind he figured its like negative plus negative equals positive. If people saw those two things there they'd think nothing of it because who would actually do that.
Yet before he backs off to Keep sleeping, he notices the Agent go into the SUV with what seems to be a happy meal box, and just sit there and eat as she listens to the radio.
He knows that federal agents are people just like he was,but actually seeing an agent jam out to aqua's "Barbie girl" was defenetly an experience. But he feels moved and only scoffs playfully,to then Grab a fresh pair of clothes and get into the shower.
Because of the day he was having,he didnt do his whole routine. He just did enough so his hair didnt look like complete shit and left It as it was,whatever happened to it was between him and god.
Tiredly,he hops into bed only to hear a rattle come from the cardboard box that was still on the bed. He reaches over only to find a green tamagochi in the bag,theres a note taped on it "a token of peace for when youre stuck in a traffic jam"
He snorts and decides to kill of some time by playing with the tamagochi. He'd have to look for tracking devices later,but that was an issue for future Lucas.
Current Lucas spends his time playing with the tamagochi for a few hours until hes ready to leave. He packs up his stuff,puts the little Toy in his pocket and goes to his van to shove all his shit in there.
But before he leaves, he goes to the store by foot, gets exactly two Hershey chocolate bars and returns.
--No wonder I caught your badge--He mutters,noticing the Window of the SUV rolled down half way. He grabs the Hershey chocolate that has a note on it and lets it fall on the drivers Seat, then he goes into his own vehicle and just as he closes the door he notices something.
Theres a small bundle of notes on the passenger Seat tied together with an elástica band.
He takes a few seconds to take a quick look at them, they're mayer documents, theres a list with adresses of buildings, a few with redacted notes.
And a little post it that says "if anybody asks,I didnt get them for you. This never happened,I dont exist. Also itll do you good to find Dr.James. safe trip"
Lucas raises a brow but sets the papers down, and just as he pulls away from the parking lot,his fed friend comes from the inside of the motel and watches him leave. He salutes her and she salutes right back, leaving her to Snicker to herself.
She gets into her car only to notice the chocolate bar with the note, she takes it and it reads "thanks for looking out for my van. Consider this your Bribe- LT.L.C." and underneath it theres a small Killroy drawn with the phrase "get killroiy'd" ,The agent snorts and gets into her car.
She needs to think for a damn good lie to tell her assigned battle buddy,a guy by the last name Dwight,who she left on the dinner they had breakfast at whilist waiting for Lucas to show up. She knew it had to be good,if not her fellow agent would go and check it out, and she did not like his odds against Lucas.
They werent particularly close. Hell,shes never heard of the guy before this very day. But both were there to hold eachother accountable just in case, and the guy had a reputation for taking matters in his own hands If he wasnt satisfied with the results of others.
For some reason,the mere thought of that left a sour taste in her mouth. She had to be careful about this to not out herself,or hey anyone in trouble or worse.
Regardless,Most of Lucas' night drive goes by without any issue,most of the night though. He catches another loose interaction in that no longer dormant frequency.
He stops the van on the side of the road,nothing but Rolling fields of wetlands around him. Theres cicadas and grasshoppers serenading the moon that night as it peeks from the dark clouds. If you were to stand there for a bit, you'd feel very alone very quickly. Its really unsettling.
Theres a bit of static but not enough to the Point that its a garbled mess, he hears a female voice, has to be early thirties.
《Confirm arrival of shipment,over》
And a male voice answers 《confirming arrival of shipment. ETA a few months,still waiting on the ship. Over》
That same female voice replied 《ten-four.》 Then theres a brief pause,he hears an impatient sigh from the woman and then she adds 《Lets hope the ship doesnt crash or else we're all in big FUCKING trouble. Romeo Mike Julliet out》
He knew the shipment was a big deal but- hearing that Lady sound that impatient for it really Honed in the idea.
Lucas writes down what he heard and closes his Journal,and just as hes about to tuck in for the night, he hears the rustling of Grass and semi quiet footsteps approaching his van.
"Why is nothing ever allowed to be simple" he thinks,getting his gun ready and cocking it as silently as he could. He turns off the lights on his van,making it seem like hes going to sleep, he lays down,hiding himself between the dark shadows of the van as the moon gets covered by the thick stormy clouds.
When the head of his intruder is peeking through the half opened Window of the Man's back door he shoots.
Even if the rifle wasnt suppressed, nobody wouldve heard the shot in the middle of that field Clad road. The body falls and he waits for a shitstorm.
But its quiet.
And then his mind goes to that agent he met,his blood freezes and he tenses up. The Sky gets struck with thunder so loud it might break the heavens in two, the rain pours down on the earth.
Oh no
The doors SLAM Open as he looks at the short figure laying limp on the road. His breath quickens as he steps out and hovers over the body.
Blood gets swept by the rain,the thunder illuminates the fields in brief flashes of white light,like a roar from a celestial lion.
On the side of the road,the green Grass gets stained crimson and as his heart beats to the rythm of a thousand drums,to the Point that it drowns out the storm...
He sighs in relief as he sees its another agent,a guy,pretty short in statue. His eyes catch the guy's CIB badge strapped to his belt --OH THANK GOD
But then the reality sets in, he just Killed a CIB agent.
Oh.
Shit.
Like a bat out of hell,he hops right back into his van and drives the whole night through,soaked in rain and checking his back every four minutes. By sunrise he makes it to Nevada and stays in the most hidden,most inconspicuous cheap motel he can find. He just fucked up. Big. Time.
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behindbrowneyezz · 2 years ago
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12.5.22
Honestly, I keep putting off blogging because i know that when my dad gets free time...a sick thought in the head. Instead of just reaching out to me like a normal father, he decides to go stalk my social media accounts.  I've always wondered how he does this...im sure if its not some program he has discovered, then it probably is from katies page. Able to see all my pictures. The statuses i post. I don't mean just on here. in fact i dont even know if here can see this. BUT I do know he has checked my Facebook before, I know this from now 3 different relatives that have warned me about this. Somehow almost 3 years ago, he was able to see a very intimate status i had posted about my thoughts on him and the rest of my RELATIVES going to meet for lunch. Right in my area and didn't bother to send me an invite. Now I know very well most of them cant stand me. In fact i know none of them love me but my brothers, which im not upset about at all. We dont exactly come from a world full of wonderful humans. Each of us have HUGE skeletons in our closet. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. The only difference is that i’m super open about the fucking mess of a human I am! I dont hide it. I wear it on my sleeve every day. Some days more then others. But it drives them all nuts. I cant help that i love to talk, that i feel like people that claim to love me...would be curious on what goes on in my head..but they truly hate it. they wish id be silent. a sober, silent, YES MAM kind of broad. But even as a kid i had this fight or flight mode that never got turned off.
You see, i got molested a lot as a real young toddler. YES TODDLER, i didnt really ever think it affected me much. SO i never really spoke about it. I always told myself that somehow it just didnt affect me so what was the point in bringing it up. It wasnt till i was 17 years old and started drinking that it started to come a problem. Once I started drinking heavily, i started to remember things i had went many years ignoring. If you were to ask my father about this he would probably say that he think i’m lying about it. I dont care. What sick fuck would i be if that i was lying about something so serious. It was his stupid ass that got a druggie pregnant 3 fucking times and let her teach us ridiculous things. I never thought that id lie to my dad as a teenager. But as EVERY teen does, of course there were days that i lied. he was miserable, mean, and hardly interested in anything my brothers and i had going on. SO DUH YES i lied many days about many weird things so i didnt have to see the devil come out. BUT i can tell you ive never lied about the assaults ive experienced. In fact, ive been so honest to myself over the years about it because its the only way that i know that i’m going to DO BETTER. I was raised by and raised around nasty awful lairs themselves. For years i would blame myself, my broken brain for these moments..not realizing i had to understand that at those times..i was a CHILD. no one was there to fully protect me. My dad worked his ass off to always make sure we had a roof over our heads, which thank GOD for that....but wow does he hate me for all those years he lost. SO now he lives a life of ignoring where he came from, a life where he chooses to ignore the first human HE helped create because im ‘DIFFCULT” imagine. imagine thinking your job is over as a parent at 18 because you kicked her out for smoking pot and tossed her shit in trash bags....then moved states for a woman your children dont even know much about. Imagine right?
Well that's my reality. YES ive made a million mistakes....and you know what else? I’m probably going to make a million more throughout my life. BUt for some reason my father feels like i’m the only one hes relalated to that doesn’t deserve forgiveness, kindness, grace, and most of all love. Maybe its my fat ass mouth hes scared of. Maybe he truly hates the human i am. Maybe it IS easier to not have me around....but imagine treating your child like FAMILY is everything..work hard. play hard. and hold on tight because life is wild...all just to ignore them for the rest of their lives. Thats why i get so heated when he decides to just check on all my social media accounts. that coward cant even call or text me??? his ego is so big he truly thinks thats okay? he cant let me have a space where i can be myself and not have to worry about that ass hole reading every god damn word i say? if you hate me LEAVE ME BE. its actually not that hard. he has very much have shown me that. I DO call eveyone my relatives now because those people arent my family. granted some of them i have personally pushed away, but i dont feel bad about that. they chose to be who they are and i’m choosing to TRY to be better then what i was taught. They havent ever been MY family. they are my fathers family and they can very much keep it that way!! Lmfao, a coward AT BEST. i miss the man he was when i was a little girl. THAT man was a man of honor, love, and tough as nails. the person he is...now?...A soulless coward is what he is now. 
Soulless. Coward. 
Maybe he was always like that, maybe people will hate me for calling him that, but i can assure you hes said much worse things about me. Imagine loving to bash your own children to people that wouldnt be at your funeral. Imagine being at a dinner or a family gathering and then deciding to just try to convince everyone around you that your children are a mess and YOU had zero to do with it. Hes just embarrasing at this point. I cant imagine how that man sleeps at night, i dont understand how he looks at himself in the mirror and thinks ‘Wow chris you did great today’.
Maybe he was always this human, maybe I never truly saw him until i started to see the world more. I’m not sure. I hope that's not the case, i really dont. He was my hero, my world, he was the reason i didn't hate myself or life for so long. I really loved that man more then I could ever express. I thought we would be going to concerts, making family meals, and gossiping about women for the rest of my life. I always thought hed be in my apartment judging my things and fixing up anything i couldnt myself. I always thought wed be sending eachother new music we were obsessed with and sneaking off to a good happy hour spot. I truly wish i could talk to my younger self and tell her that its all fake. Dont enjoy those moments. Stop asking him to go to concerts,beg to move in with one of your grandmas. NEVER pick up that bottle. Man how different my world would be now if i had been able to. I dont hate him, i feel sorry for him. because one day, just like my birth mother, he will be dead and will have to see all the wonderful moments he has had to miss out on. HE has MY most precious gift on the planet and he uses it as a TOOL to brag to strangers about how much of a saint he is. Imagine right. Lets all pray for this man. When i saw him last he gave me a crockpot full of candy and hugged me once. that year he got everyone really nice gifts but me..in his words to one of my relatives “If its not on the list, i wont get it” . that year he must of felt like he HAD to ‘make an appearance’ as he used to love to say about life things when i was a child. Imagine, hating your one and only daughter so much you throw her a crockpot and then leave and never answer your phone to her calls or texts again. Ill never understand why he thinks people should all be chasing HIM for the rest of their life and he doesn’t have to give any love in return but SHEEEESH what a toxic trait. I probably wouldn't be so angry, so hurt if it hadnt been for all the wonderful parents out there that constantly give their children grace. Mind you, my grandma is one of those parents. Hes in his 40s and still calls her at least 4 times a week I’ve been told. So you'd think he had learned from the best. Lets all laugh together. my little girl self will always miss him dearly, but the woman i’m becoming sees a very different human. Maybe hes not even human at all anymore. Just a hallow shell trying to survive another shitty day on this shitty planet. 
They call this the Devils playground, i think they just may be right.
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georgeweasleyslostearhq · 2 years ago
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HIDEOUT
Pairing: Eddie munson x fem!reader
Summary: you go check out corroded coffin at the hideout, being the supportive girlfriend you are, you lied and say they did great.
Warnings: under age drinking (only one drink) I feel like this is really cringe but oh well. Lying? I guess in case you would count that
Note: I'm sick of seeing people write that they were amazing. They only get 5 DRUNKS watching them. There's no way they're the best.
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"So you're still coming tonight, right?" Eddie asked me excitedly
"I have nothing better to do" I shrugged
"Great. It's about time you come see us" he said, kissing my forehead.
When Eddie invited me to see them, I got happy. Knowing that he wanted me there to watch him perform. But the closer the day came, I got more nervous, he's told me that they dont get much of an audience, so really the only one actually paying attention instead of being drunk would be me. But I still agreed to go, I know how happy he would be if I showed up. After all, he talks about the band a lot.
"Ok, meet me outside the hideout at 6" he told me with a small smile on his face
"Alright. I'll see you then"
"God. I love you, see ya" he said before kissing me and walking away
"Love you too" I whispered to myself
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I stood around the corner for a while. I'm not embarrassed by them or anything, scared? A bit, but I dont know why. It's not like I havent heard him play. Eddie's a great guitarist, but in a band is different. There's more going in and it's hard to get it to sound good together. Not that I doubt them or anything.
"There you are" Eddie beamed as he saw me walk towards him. A joint placed between his lips as he leaned against a wall.
"Wouldn't miss it for the world" I smiled at him, the least I could be is supportive towards him and his friends.
He took one last hit before dropping it on the floor and rubbing it in the ground with his foot.
"C'mon. The guys are in there getting set up" he spoke, grabbing my hand and leading me in the place.
"Take a seat anywhere, It doesn't really matter where, just as long as I can see your face" he winked.
Eddie had made it clear he wanted to see my reaction to them playing, he always said 'cant wait to see your face when you hear us'
It warms my heart knowing how excited he is to me being here, but it scares me if he sees that I might've not liked it.
So I just laugh along with him. Taking a seat at the bar as he went backstage.
The place was...ok. there was 7 people in total. Not including me.
In the corner of the room, there were 3 middle aged drunk men, talking amongst themselves, Two guys that look a little too young to be here, and in the middle of the room, A guy that looked sober enough to drive home if he wanted, and the bartender, if you even counted him
"What can I get ya" he asked. He didn't look young. But he didn't look old either, I'd say mid 30s.
"Just a coke thanks" I responded, looking down at my hands
"You look like you need alcohol" he stated with a light chuckle
"Cant. I'm only twenty" I said simply
"I'll give one on the house, it's not strong but you cant taste it, how about that?" He suggested.
"Why not" I shrugged. I felt like I'd need it to get through the next hour.
The man passed me a drink. It wasn't a big glass. It's a normal sized drink, but it looked like all I would need.
"Hello. My name is Eddie and this is corroded coffin!" Eddie's voice echoed through the room before the loud bangs and strums replaced his voice.
It was...something. it definitely wasn't like how he played for me when it was just him.
It didnt sound great, but it didnt sound horrible. And seen as though it wasn't really my type of music, it added a point to how bad it was. But that's just me.
"Yeah. The band isn't great. A lot of people leave before they get here cause they know they'll be performing. The only people who stay are the ones who are so drunk they can barely hear them" the bartender explained.
That cause I little pang in my heart. I feel bad for them. People leaving cause they know my boyfriend will be playing. That hurts to know. And makes me wonder if he knows that himself.
"That's really sad" I said, more to myself than the guy.
"Why? You like them?" He questioned
"They're my friends" I didnt feel the need to say I was Eddie's girlfriend, it's not really his business.
"Mm" he hummed. I looked down at my drink and see I already drank half of it, and it's only 1 song in.
This is gonna be a long time.
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During the middle if their third song the sober guy in the middle of the room, got up and walked out looking tired and annoyed. Welp. That's one down.
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"Thank you all for coming tonight, we play every Tuesday" I know I shouldn't of, but I cringed at that, the way no one but me was even listening to it was kind of upsetting, I knew it wouldn't be no Queen or Metallica but I expected them to have some potential.
I finished the last gulp of my drink and got up, the bartender was currently in the back for some reason I dont know so I just left the bar and waited outside, in front of Eddie's van. I was also hoping he would give me a ride home, cause I walked here. I saw him walk out with the guys, his guitar in his hand, smiling like an idiot.
"Hey guys!" I grinned at them as they got closer.
"Hey, Y/n" they all smiled at me
"Hey sweetheart" Eddie said, kissing the top of my head before trying to open the doors of the van. I helped him open it and watched as they all put their stuff in the back carefully. Eddie put his guitar in the case and zipped it up, talking amongst the rest.
As they all went back inside to get the rest of the things. Eddie stayed back with me for a minute, wrapping his arms around my waist.
"How was it? Did you like it?" he asked nervously
"I loved it, you guys did great" I full heartedly lied to him. It took my whole body not to lie and say it was bad, but I didn't want to upset him.
The way his face lit up as I said that made me feel both good and guilty.
"Alright, tell me about it when I get back, I have to get my amp" he announced and ran back inside the place.
I let out a big sigh and leaned my head on the outside of his van before going on the other side to take a seat on the passenger seat.
I didn't have to wait long for them. They got all they're things sorted before hopping in and started going home. Eddie dropping them off one by one.
"Bye guys" Gareth said before hoping out and waving goodbye to Eddie and I.
We said goodbye and drove away from bus house, going to Eddie's trailer.
"Which song was your favorite?" Eddie asked me curiously
"Um... the forth one" I replied unsure
"I was hoping you'd like one, I wrote that" he beamed
"Oh, what was it about?" I questioned
"I thought it was obvious. You" he confessed.
That didn't feel good. While I was sitting there barely listening and thinking they were bad, he was there singing a song he wrote about me? I felt like a shit girlfriend
"Oh, yeah, that makes sense" I nodded along
"You didn't like it did you? Were you even paying attention? It's ok if you didn't like it, you don't have to lie to me" he furrowed his eyebrows
"No, no, I loved all of them, you guys were really good" I fibbed
"Really?" He looked at me like he knew I wasn't telling the truth
"Really" I smiled politely while reaching for his hand that was resting on the gear.
I rubbed his hand with my thumb softly to comfort him.
"Alright" he muttered.
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I dont know if I liked that but well. That's how I think it would actually go, none of that sincere 'it was amazing' stuff. They're definitely bad.
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𝔻𝔸𝕋𝕀ℕ𝔾 𝕌𝕃𝕋ℝ𝔸 𝕄𝔸𝔾ℕ𝕌𝕊 𝕎/ ℍ𝕌𝕄𝔸ℕ ℙ𝔸ℝ𝕋ℕ𝔼ℝ (𝕋𝔽ℙ)
Hes one of my favorites not sorry
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-guess who got spotted? Ultra Magnus
-well we're taking you back to the base
-he found you extremely childish and it annoyed him to a T
-And of course Optimus appointed him as your partner
-yay for him-
-Once he actually- finally- for god saken- took the time to actually get to know you, he didnt find you as annoying
-you were being bullied one day outside the school and the bulky threw you into the side of Magnus' alt mode- the door suddenly went flying open must've been a bad bolt
-Not to long after the same group of bullies keyed Magnus' alt form:
"Aw shes gonna cry!" One of the boys teased.
"Why? Did your sugar daddy tell you if you wreck it you'll actually have to do something for them." Another spoke.
"Aw. I knew she was a-"
The thrid boy was grabbed by the throat as his hands clawed at the wrist of the teen who held him, causing the other two to back up slightly.
"Touch any of my shit again and I'll bury you myself."
She threw him to the side, catching himself on his feet he held his neck with a hand, gritting his teeth he glared at her.
"Who do you think your talking to!?" He argued, catching the attention of kids near by.
She turned to look at him just to be punched in the face falling to the floor from the sudden force that knocked her off her balance.
"Dude! The hell! Your gonna get us in trouble!" One of the boys shouted.
The teen ignored him toppling over Y/n straddling her stomach, as he delivered brutal puches to her face. Kids started to gather cheering on the male as Y/n pushed him off her and return the favor, causing and either louder up roar."
"I told you!" She shouted punching him in the face.
"Don't!"
A broken nose
"Touch!"
A black eye
"My!"
A busted lip
"Shit!"
Her final blow was stopped when teachers pulled them apart.
"You broke my nose!" The teen cried.
"Well then go cry to your mom who I fucked last night!"
-Did Magnus just see what he thought? The seemingly innocent cheerful girl looking more scarrier than a decepticon out with a bloodlust
-he waited until you were able to come out- even though the kids had informed him via comn link she'd go home with her parents- you came out alone, him being the only thing there:
"I don't want to go with you today Magnus."
"I'd prefer if you did come with me." Magnus stated
Y/n frowned as she looked at the deep key job.
"Im not allowed back for a week."
"I figured so."
The door opened as Y/n only followed as she hopped in.
-did he- did he just be n i c e?!
-Instead of taking you to the street corner as usual he took you. He drove you around, mindlessly
-you ended up falling asleep so he took you back to base, unknowing of what to do with you, he he held your small form in his large servo, luckily nurse June had showed up sometime before to help with something and she was able to lay you down on the couch.
-Optimus has asked what happened as you were littered with brusies and cuts, Magnus explained and took full blame but Miko backed him up
-Magnus said one of the humans should contact Y/n's parents- Nurse June looked worried as she knew you were lacking in the depart of family.
-so she advised to keep her in base saying , "well if they didnt even bother to pick her up why worry right?
-Everyone found that extremely off as a cover June said: "well you like her right? She'll tell you whats wrong?"
-Arcee choked at that sentence, Ratchet actually laughed, wheeljsck was given ammo to fuel is annoyingness, Bulkhead was extremely uncomfortable, the two youngsters were like "hold up" and Optimus like a proud dad- brother- figure thing- smiled to himself
-Magnus was completely embarssed but kept it under wraps.
-miko was completely shocked when she figured it out
-"Magnus go scout" "thank you sir"
-you woke up to a dark room looking around you seemed to be on a cot, and Ultra Magnus was sleeping in the berth above you- wait- WHERE YOU IN HIS ROOM?!
-He woke up as soon as he heard you wake up.
-it was only silence at first, but he ended up thanking you in a way, saying it was arrogant but brave of you
-you thanked him for helping you as well
-cue the speaking at the same time
-confession was kinda werid tbh:
"So..." y/n spoke.
"Suppose you know about me then? All of it?" Y/n asked, "Im sure Nurse Darby told you."
"No, nothing was said about you." Magnus spoke.
"Oh...good...good."
It was silent for a few mintues the air thick and the only thing used as a light source was Magnus' bright optics.
"If you wish you can tell me." Magnus informed.
"Right..." y/n breathed in, "My uh mother...she died while I was being born....my dad commited a murder-suicide, he said it was my fault in his will."
"I am sorry." Magnus spoke softly then paused for a long second, "How do you do it?"
Y/n looked up at him, "do what?"
"Your as enetergic and as arrogant as Rodimus, your sparks would be one in the same." Magnus told, "but your well rounded as if you were a high ranking assistant to Alpha Trion. Then you deal with what would take most well trainned mechs off the feild."
Y/n shrugged, "I suppose..." y/n paused, "I dont want anyone else to leave me, it's tiring being alone."
Magnus answered awfully quick, "I would never leave you, you have too much meaning in my life."
-Woah wait! He didn't but did mean that!
-you ended up asking who Rodimus was and you both talked through the night.
-you guys were closer than ever after that
-he attempted to tell you out more straight forward but failed for a while
-when he finally told you- you were all like: Oh I know
-cue dating??????? Poor man hes so confused
-nothing changed much he loved being with you either way- with dating he just became more and more worried for each other
-Acree has extreme suspicions of you two
-you guys were going good, open with one another and honest, it was a pretty loving relationship
-that "Im Lutenit" shit dont slide with you
-you guys like driving in the rain, he especially like it if you've calmed down from a hetic week and fell asleep getting the resr you deserve
-when he lost his hand in combat and had it replaced with a new one you went to a tattoo shop and asked for stitching as if someone has stiched your fingers back together, you proceeded to go up to Magnus afterwards and tell him you guys were just alike now
-He got angery you hurt yourself- well he thought you hurt yourself- he couldn't stay mad at you
-Guess who squared up on the predaking? You and this is how it happened:
Magnus had been knocked to the side with the two wreckers. You who had came our from behind a Boulder shouted at the dino-mechanism
"Hey You!"
The giant beast looked towards you, "yeah you!"
Rushing its way over it screeched in Y/n's face, "Oh blow it out your ass!"
The schreeching stopped as Y/ns arms crossed
"How dare you!-" and you raged ON.
-The predaking is now warry of the autobots
-Wheeljack was given even more ammo to mess with Ultra Magnus now knowing you two were dating
-except Ultra Magnus to see you in a whole knew light of being a strong hooman and finding it absolutely memorizing and beautiful
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merlinssaggyyfronts · 4 years ago
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BBC Merlin Rewatch:
01x01: The Dragon’s Call
FIRSTLY THE FUCKING DESCRIPTION LMAO “Merlin, a young country boy” COUNTRY BOY AHAHDHSNDH IF ONLY YOU KNEW!!! ITS LIKE SETTING SOMEONE UP FOR DISASTER BUT THEN AGAIN THEY WERE SO LIKE I MEAN-
aw look at merlin all happy and smily, walking into camelot like he isnt going to witness the death of his best friend/king and basically everyone he loves
LOOK AT HIM HES SO HAPPY!!! HE DOESNT KNOW YET
“like everyone, he must live and learn” yo shut ur bitchass up lizard man u literally tried to murder everyone in camelot that one time
“his name: traumatised 😍😍”
AH YES THE OPENING!!1!1!-!-! AHHH THE AMOUNT OF HAPPINESS I FEEL HEARING THE OPENING
fuck ur bitchass uther no one likes u
“i pride myself as a fair and just king” sir didnt u like basically kill ur wife... and thousands of peo- OH MY GOD MORGANA BB ILY
oh jesus okay hes dead um chile-
“when i came to this land” wait i thought he was raised kn camelot brb i forgot im an idiot wait,,, does this mean before this it was the du bois family on the throne of camelot?? also, mired in chaos? u mean like.... before ur wife died and everyone was living peacefully? ....okay
“merlin, seeing a person who's been stated had been studying magic get beheaded: [a magical being himself] ah,, welcoming.” -my gf
“since the great dragon was captured” ....so did no one think about where they put a dragon?? a captured one at that. ud think he’d be more smart but nah he just left a random ass dragon under his castle like THAT is going to end well
YUHH MARY COLLJNS HATE HIM!!! YELL BABEY YELL!!! “you took my son!” YES MURDER HIM OMG I CAN FEEL HER PAIN
“a son for a son!” omg why couldnt u have killed uther bb ur the perfect villain i love u ur literally just a loving mother i-
OOOOO GAIUS
.....why is there a bunny mask in there
why is thERE A BUNNY MASK-
why didnt merlins eyes glow when he dragged the bed to gaius to save him
also whats this slomo magic why didnt he do this after this why did season one haveso much magic and like every other season was just everyone throwing it back
like i get instinctual magic but like.... if its instinctual wouldnt it happen more especially when his powers get stronger-
gaius: what did you just do?!
also gaius, five seconds later: i know what it was!! i just wanted to know where you learned it
merlin: 😐
merlin, about his magic: i was born like this
gaius, who knows full well warlocks exist: impossible!
(are warlocks naturally born knowing how to use magic without learning? i mean if u have to learn magic like a sorcerer then whats the difference between a warlock and a sorcerer cuz wouldnt sorcerers atleast have to have some magic in them to actually cast spells? am i dumb or do i just not get it)
wait so merlin arrived in camelot on a wednesday
merlin, walking into camelot: it is wednesday my dudes
merlin: [witnesses an execution] aaaAAAAAA-
“someone that might help him find a purpose of his gifts” oh honey he’ll get something mUCH LARGER THAN THAT-
oH MORGANA
SHUT UR BITCHASS UTHER SHE WILL KILL YOU-
“the more brutal you are, the more enemies you’ll create” oh the waY SHE PREDICTED THEIR FUTURE OO
ah bless u lady helen/mary collins we love them spicy villains
...why do you have a dressing table in a tent
[watches mary collins murder lady helen] i never snitch on dadd- ...someone pls delete me
merlin, about his instinctual magic: i just do it!
gaius: ...lord have mercy what did i just sign myself up to
what ever happened to sir olwen did he die from accidentally overdosing
oHHH THERE HE IS THERE HE IS THERES MY BOY!!! MY LIL PRAT MAN!!!!
merlin looks so offended, oh god i could watch this whole scene for HOURS
oooOOOO YES MERLIN FUCK HIM UP!!! SHOW HIM WHOS BOSS
“do i know you?” “im merlin” “so i dont know you” ugh theres already sexual tension
“i would never have a friend who could be such an ass” “or i one so stupid”
also them, ten years later: “i use my magic for you arthur, only you” “just hold me” “i cant lose him! hes my friend!” “thank you..”
“tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees?” OOOOH THE BOYS ARE FLIRTING
NOT THE “would you like me to help you?” SIR YOU ARE FLIRTING SO INTENSELY AND DONT EVEN REALISE IT SIR DO YOU KNOW YOURE FALLING IN LOVE
im convinced atleast half the knights with arthur were like “ayo thas kinda sus bro 😳😳 ayo 😳😳”
arthur: tell me merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to help you?
merlin: ....i really dont know how to answer that
imagine being paid to throw fruits at colin morgan omg id be so thrilled
OOOH HERE COMES OUR QUEEN GWEN!!! MY LOVE MY EVERYTHING YES ILY
gwen: well, arthur looks like one of those, save the world kinda men... and you dont
merlin, 1500 years later, having failed his destiny: well i mean you’re not wrong
gaius: uther banned magic a long time ago
merlin, flabbergasted as if he wasnt raised on tales of the death of his kind every day in the kingdom right next to his: why?!?!?
gaius: the dragon is imprisoned where nobody can free him
merlin:
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(that is the face of someone knowing full well hes going to free that dragon. look at him. he’s already made up his mind.)
[sees merlin and arthur in the marketplace] oh heres he is again heres the lil bitxh ooo theyre about to FIGHT
god hes flirting so hard without even realising it, oh my god
“i could take you apart with one blow” “i could take you apart with less” um sirs this is a mcdonalds drive thru 😃
arthur: ahah, you’re in trouble now~ 😏😏
i had to pause cuz wHAT THE HELL WHY DOES HE SOUND LIKE THAT-
....yall are yelling very loudly, um, arent there guards near yall? people passing by? please relax
“im just a nobody, and i always will be” OH IF ONLY YOU KNEWWW
“if i cant use magic, i might as well die” ....well, ive got a surprise for you-
“maybe theres someone with more magic than me?” like... a whole dragon? i mean if you say so 👀
merlin about why he was born like this: if you cant tell me, no one can!
a fucking dragon, basically every magical creature and the druids: WELL-
the camelot guards are so stupid how the hell is this kingdom still standing
how does kilgharrah know merlins name? in prophecy hes known as emrys (and we see basically every magical being call him emrys and not merlin,, i think). so how does he know? did he stretch his neck long enough that he could somehow hear merlin? is it cuz theyre kin? is it cuz merlin and gaius were yelling so loudly that kilgharrah could hear them all the way in his cave? ig we’ll never know 🖐
merlin: where are you?!
kilgharrah:
kilgharrah: without you, arthur will never succeed.
merlin: ....oh look, im already paranoid
the amount of sadness i feel hearing kilgharrah say “none of us can choose our destiny, merlin. and none of us can escape it” is INSANE cuz in season one you can SEE merlin trying to escape it. hes doing his damned best trying to have some control over his life. and then in later seasons you can see the light slowly drain from his eyes as he becomes just another toy for the gods to be entertained by. he realises he cant control a single thing about his life so he does the one thing he can: protect arthur. and he loses SO MUCH because of it! its not fair, he deserved so much, and when he finally got everything he could ever ask for, it was taken away from him by his own mistakes.
arthur, seeing morgana in a beautiful dress: god have mercy 😍
uther: .....um
the way they set arthur and morgana up as if they arent gonna make them siblings i- what the fawk 😄
person A, who knows arthurian lore: oh no! arthur is going to have an affair with morgan(a) and have mordred! oh no!!
person B, whos seen merlin: oh no in this show its worse
person B, knowing full well theyre siblings: much worse....
gwen: who’d wanna marry arthur? 🙄
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gwen, getting crowned queen of camelot: well fuck
hhhnghnh yes queen sing them to sleep yes murder his bitchass (and fail but like its the thought that counts)
on a sidenote tho this is such a fun way to murder someone, id try this
the absolutely OFFENDED “FATHER!” and the horrified look in arthurs eyss when uther announced merlin would be his manservant is PRICELESS OMG
oh the way uther unintentionally plants the first seed of his sons love story omg 😍😍
Conclusion: this episode is a 10/10 greatest episode with so many iconic scenes omg. mary collins u will forever have my heart for unintentionally kickstarting merlin and arthurs relationship destiny. i loved the whole thing and oh GOD does it already hurt knowing full well how the show ends
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vkiflo · 4 years ago
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" One Touch " A Sakusa Kiyoomi x Reader Part 1
( Warnings: Fluff , Abuse , R@pe , Self Harm , Bullies ) I wanna be like you, I wanna say that I can   I wanna be the person that you think that I am 君のようなひとになりたいな 「僕らしいひと」になりたいな " (Y/N), Wake up, Its time for school. " My eyes fluttered open, Immediately closing them due to the sun. Dammit. I woke up once again. Time to go through with another day, Though, I call it hell. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - " Mama! Look! Its a flower! " You Stated out of breath. " Oh my! (Y/N), That's a rare Kiku flower ! Where did you find it ? " Your mother said surprised. " *panting* I-Its up that *Cough* H-Hill !!! " Your mother patted you back while you spoke. Grabbing her hand you ran up the hill, Forcing your mother to run with you. Running up the hill you both saw grass, Flooded with Kiku flowers. " I-Its so pretty !! Oh my god !! Lets bring some back for your dad ! " Your mom stated almost brought to tears. " Okay !! " You said smiling brighter than the sun. " Ahh, That's it ! The prettiest bouquet !! Your dad will love it !! " Your mom said while patting your head. " Lets head back, Okay ? " Ahaha !! Okay mommy !! " You said smiling. You both walked back down the hill towards your house, Holding hands at that. Opening the door to your shared home, Your dad, Cooking dinner happily. " Hey honey " He said kissing mommy's forehead. " Ohh whats this beautiful batch of flowers ?! " Your dad said kneeling down to you patting your head, Then smelling the flowers. " Its for you daddy !! " Your shoved it slightly out into his hands while giving him your signature smile. He took them happily and shed a tear. " Thank you so much (Y/N) ! O-Oh !! These are Kiku flowers !! Very rare ! Where did you find them !? " You laughed a bit and said " Its up the hill !! You should come with us one day to see them !! All of them are super duper pretty !! " You said smiling. " Okay ! We'll go tomorrow afternoon, For now, Lets go eat lunch !! " That tomorrow afternoon ? Never happened. Why? Your blood birth mother. Was killed. After that, Your dad became depressed. He cried every night. You'd try to comfort him. But he kept pushing you away. You soon became lonely. No one to talk to. No one to play with. No one to smile to. So. You formed the exact same thing you dad had. At the time you didn't know what it was called. But you didn't like it.
Your dad soon started the desire to get his frustration out by hitting things, and that thing. Was you. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Looking around my room, Looking for my uniform, I spotted him. My dad. Oh how much i hated him for how much torture he put me through. I got up and said good morning to my dad. He walked out to get back to bed, I mean.. Its 5 AM. Since he doesn't drive me to school, i walk. If want to, I can just go and do it. But then would that really be me? 望��ならそうすりゃいいけどさ ; でもそれってほんとにぼくなのかい Arriving to school, I plastered a smile across my face, Though, It was fake. Oh look. Its Fumihiro Sato. The biggest bully of our school. Itachiyama High School. Walking past him i tried not to get seen. Unsuccessful, As always. " (Y/N) !! Not gonna say good morning ?? Whats wrong with you !? " He said waving his hand in the air with his hand in his pocket. Not wanting to communicate, I ran, Terrified he would catch me. He started running after me, Not even being able to get into the school, He tripped me and grabbed me throat. " What happened to greeting your friends ? Huh ? " He said tightening his grip on my throat, Then slapping my cheek. Hard. " Hey. Get out of my way. " A boy stated seeming pissed. He wore a mask with a disgusted face. Fumihiro, For some reason, Moved out of the way. Dragging me along with him. I started choking, Hard. Though no one cared. But- He did ?? " And also,, Get your filthy hands off of her. Now. " The boy with curly hair wore a sadistic death glare towards Fumihiro. And would you look at that. He got off me and walked off, Sulking. I guess Fumihiro has a new target. Though I doubt he could ever beat him. The boy that helped me walked off into the school without another word. I ran into the school as well not wanting Fumihiro to come back after me when he was out of our view. I tried looking after him to thank him. But he was gone. I had about an hour before school started, So I decided to go sleep in the classroom until the bell rang, which it would wake me up. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - One child's-play dream. The way I am, someone like me is better off dead. 子供騙しな夢一つ こんな僕なら死ねばいいのにT **bell ring** 'crap... Its time for school' * yawn * " Good Morning class. Before we start our lesson on Environmental Science, We have a new student joining us." I don't really pay attention to new students or people in general, But when i heard his voice, I recognized him and looked up. Oh, Its him. The kind guy who saved me. Or... That one time he was being kind... " Sakusa Kiyoomi. " He said plainly. The teacher waited a solid ten seconds thinking he would say more. Yeah no. He was done. " O-Oh !! I guess that was it ? O-Okay ! Sit in front of the girl with the (H/C)... " She went up to him to whisper something, I already know it was about me. But... He,, Moved away ? And walked towards his seat, leaving the teacher dumbfound. He walked up to his seat and grabbed some paper towels.. And wiped his seat and desk. Then he put on hand sanitizer. School ended and I headed to my club, Volleyball manager at the Highschool Itachiyama Volleyball Club. I was told we were getting a new member so i hurried to see who it was. These were really my only friends. Well... Sort of. I don't open up to them much because i feel if i do, they'll betray me after knowing the truth, And then act just like Fumihiro. I really do not want that to happen. So i'll just keep suffering alone. Just how its always been. " (Y/N) !! Cmon in ! We have a new member as we told everyone, Could you go wash his uniform and add his name onto a jacket ? " Motoya said while hitting a spike to the other side of the net. I nodded and got to work. Maybe about an hour later, We head the gym door open and i knew who it was, The new member. I grabbed the uniform and jacket and rushed to greet him. H-Hey- Isn't that the guy whose in all of my classes !? Welp, Doesn't really matter much. " Hey Sakusa I didnt know you were the one who would be joining !! Guys ! This is Sakusa Kiyoomi, My cousin !! " I walked up to him and gave him his clean uniform. And ran off to go set for others. Where someone like me being alive brings sadness to tens of thousands of people こんな僕が生きてるだけで 何万人のひとが悲しんで " Dad, Im home. " I said forcing myself. " Oh ! (Y/N),, "
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horansqueen · 4 years ago
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You & Me : chapter 30
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A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA
Sequel to AM CONVERSATIONS
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CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29
NOTES:
-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -5.1k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.
- notes: i know its a long chapter but i didnt want to cut the smut scene. sometimes i feel like i go too far with smut but hey, you tell me. also well im slightly disappointed because i didnt really get many notes in the last chapter sooo hopefully this one doesn’t flop? thank you!
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Chapter 30 : Her chapter
OLIVIA
The room was dark and we remained silent for a while, both lost in our thoughts. I was thinking about what he had asked me, wondering if I was ready to get back into a relationship and somehow, it was driving me insane. Was I ready? Could I just jump back into it and move on? If I did and realized I was not ready, would our relationship end up the way it ended the first time? I felt something twist in my stomach and held my breath as i teared up. All the emotions I had felt during that time apart from him came rushing down, invading my body and confusing me even more. I knew I couldn't go through that a second time, but I also was not sure it had anything to do with the official title we could give each other. In fact, if Niall left again right now, it would probably be just as bad. Thinking about losing him made me grip the sheets of the bed hard and I bit my bottom lip so hard I actually hurt myself. The truth was, I had fallen again. No wait, 'fallen' was not the right word. I never thought being in love gave me the sensation to fall. No, it was the opposite. Being in love made you feel like you flew so high, way over the clouds. The fall, however, could literally break your neck and kill you. That's how I had felt when Niall had broken up with me a year ago. That was what I never wanted to go through ever again. But here I was, laying next to the only man I was ever in love with, the only man I'd ever be in love with, risking my sanity once again. I had it so fucking bad I didn't know how to process everything and if he cut my wings again, who was going to save me this time?
Niall's hand reached for mine that was laying in between us and held it. I squeezed his fingers instead of the sheets and sighed low. How did he do that? How did he calm me down with a simple touch? Why did he have so much control over me, physically and mentally?
"I didn't want to make things awkward between us." he finally talked in a low tone, turning his head my way. "I also don't want to pressure you into anything. Maybe I shouldn't have turned this into sex earlier, in the bath tub but... it was the first way I found to make sure I didn't have a verbal diarrhea of all the things in my mind."
I turned my head his way too and let my eyes roam on his face. I could still see him well but the features I couldn't see in the darkness were engraved in my brain anyway. It was insane the amount of time I had spent watching him and I didn't even care that it sounded so pathetic.
"Why didn't you want to tell me about the thoughts in your head?" I asked in a soft tone.
"Because I don't think you're ready to hear them."
The first thing that came to my mind was to answer him that I was ready but my heart jumped in my chest and I realized he was right. Maybe I was not ready to find out about his deep thoughts, maybe I knew it would either hurt me or stress me even more than I already was.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, feeling myself tear up. "I'm such a mess, I know."
He turned his whole body my way and brought his free hand to my head, slipping his fingers in my hair before moving closer and kissing me gently.
"Don't apologize." he let out against my lips before kissing me again. "No one is blaming you for anything, I promise. You take your time, you take whatever time you need, and I'll be here the whole time, right by your side."
"Why, Niall?" I whispered, blinking a few times before shutting my eyes tight. "Why do you want to wait for me?"
"Because I'm in love with you. Because I can't fucking live without you. Because I'm convinced we're meant to be." he replied quickly but softly. "I've always known we were meant to be. I made a few mistakes but I never stopped loving you, not even a second. And I know I was stupid and selfish but I genuinely thought it was alright because at the end of the road, it was going to be only you and me."
I wanted to smile at the reference from his song but I couldn't. I knew he was a different man but it didn't change the fact that he took me for granted when he broke up with me, and that now that he had lived what he wanted to live, he just wanted me back. I shouldn't be so bitter about it but it was not easy and when his mouth found mine again, I wrapped my arm around his waist, turning to face him, and pulled him closer.
"I want to trust you." I admitted, trying not to cry. "But it's just so hard, Niall. My heart is all in, I hope you know that. But my head... my head remembers. My head won't let me forget."
"I know petal, I know." he whispered, bringing his mouth on mine again to kiss me harder. "I don't want you to forget. I'll wait. I'll wait until you forgive me completely, I'll wait to see if you'll ever want to forgive me at all." He kissed me deeply and i felt a wave of intense love for him wash over me. "I'll wait a few lifetimes if I have to."
We kissed deeper and he pulled me against him, pressing our bodies together as I felt tears on my cheeks. I didn't know why I was so emotional but crying made me feel better. Or maybe it was him. Or a bit of both. We fell asleep together and when I woke up, I was still pressed against him. I brought my lips to his again and he groaned, answer my kiss before letting his mouth run on my jaw and neck.
"We should go hiking today." he proposed in a low tone, making me frown.
The moment we had had the night before was gone but somehow, something still lingered between us, like an emotion or a strong connection, I was not sure.
"Hiking? Yea, okay. And then bungee jumping? Sky diving, perhaps?" I let out ironically, making him laugh.
"I'm talking about hiking, not extreme sports. Just hike up a mountain, a small one!" he quickly added, making me grimace.
"That fat ass of mine didn't grow for no reason, Niall. Sport isn't my thing." I added with a smile before his hand reached for my butt.
"In no way would I want this ass to go, but baby a bit of hiking isn't that big of a deal. I'm not asking you to come for a run with me." he pointed out.
I pulled away as he grabbed my ass tighter, making me smile more. I loved him so much I would have actually agreed to go for a run with him, but I didn't mention it.
"Fine." I replied, making his face illuminate suddenly. "But you wait for me at all times and if I want a break, we take a break."
"Deal!"
The hike to the top was not as tough as I thought it would be and since Niall knew how clumsy I was, he helped me every time he noticed I needed it. I loved feeling his hand in mine, even if only for a few seconds, and it always surprised me how strong he was. We stood at the top and I tried to catch my breath as I looked around. Despite being not that high, the sight was very nice and I suddenly felt happy that I agreed to that.
I pushed my hair behind my shoulders, now totally aware of how dirty it was, and rubbed the back of my hand on my sweaty forehead. Without thinking, I gripped Niall's fingers and didn't let go as I looked at the skyline. I felt him grip my fingers tighter but he remained silent for a while before taking his phone out. He let go of my fingers to take a few pictures but I still kept quiet until I finally turned around. My lips curled when I noticed he was taking a picture of me and I shook my head.
"Nop, none of that!" I let out with a chuckle as I took a few steps closer, putting my hand in front of my face. "I'm all sweaty and dirty."
"That's your best state!" he argued with a laugh when I realized he was actually filming.
"Oh my god, Niall stop filming!"
He laughed more and pulled me closer to kiss me. I let him press his mouth on mine and closed my eyes, perfectly aware that he was actually filming that kiss, too. I wanted to be annoyed but the truth was, I liked it. I wanted souvenirs of us, too, even if I already had a ton of those. He pulled his phone down, still kissing me, and he probably put it back in his pockets because I felt both his hands reach for my jaw and neck. I felt the salty taste of his skin on my tongue and it made my whole body throb. Everything about him was turning me on.
"Fuck, you taste so good." I whispered, making him smile against my lips.
"I'm all sweaty." he pointed out with a chuckle as I shrugged before he became serious again. "If we were a normal couple, I'd post that video on instagram with the caption 'I love her'. I'd post the picture I took of you with the skyline, too. I'd probably caption it with, 'the most beautiful sight' like the cheesy man I am and I'd be talking about you. I'd take a selfie of us right now and post it too. Our friends would like it and leave comments about how disgustingly sweet we are. My cousins would make fun of me. Louis would comment everything by laughing at us with a few emojis and curse words. And we wouldn't give a fuck because we'd know they'd just be jealous."
The thought made me sad but at the same time, his words were nice to hear. Sometimes, I allowed myself to imagine that we were both still living in Ireland together. We'd have normal jobs, hang out on the weekend, meet on wednesdays for a drink or two with our friends, and keep going to the movies only us two every friday night. Perhaps he would have fallen in love with me anyway, or I liked to believe it, and we'd buy a house together and probably a dog. We'd take long walks through the familiar streets and maybe fly to France once in a while to see my parents. I couldn't tell if this story was better than the one we were going through right now and I tried to convince myself that the context was different, but the feelings would be exactly the same. Would they, though? Would Niall really love me that way? Would we have drifted apart? Would he have found an other girl, a girl I probably knew, someone that went to school with us, someone I would be jealous of forever, even after I would have found someone, too?
I swallowed the lump in my throat, knowing I would never know, and just tilted my head as I stared at Niall. He looked amazing, as he always did, and I just sighed.
"I'd probably post a million of pictures of you, especially pictures of you when you fall asleep on the couch. I have tons of those on my phone."
He frowned and his lips parted as he pulled away a bit, his arms now around my waist. "No you don't!"
"I do! And they're password protected so don't even try to delete them!" I pointed out with a smile, making him grimace. "More seriously, Niall. I like our story. We're not a normal couple and it's alright. We're both very private anyway and everyone in the world getting a glimpse of us like we were some reality tv show to follow... I wouldn't like that."
"I know." he whispered, making me smile sadly.
"I barely post on social medias anyway, but apparently it was a 'good idea' to make them official and stuff. Not my idea."
He laughed. "Yea I sort of guessed." he admitted, bending down again to kiss me. "Okay how about I treat you to a nice restaurant now? Then we can end the night in our incredible motel room, what do you say?"
"And I'll show you the surprise I brought." I added with a smirk. Immediately, he frowned and I chuckled. "Don't worry, you'll like it."
The whole time it took us to go back to the car, I spent it thinking about what he had talked about. Us being a normal couple and doing normal things together. It was all a fantasy, but it was still interesting to imagine.
We agreed that we needed a shower first and quickly took one together before getting dressed. I was surprised neither of us had tried to start something in the shower but I really wanted to build the lust between us and perhaps, that's what he wanted to.
The restaurant was crowded and I just hoped no one would recognize us. Niall asked for a table far from the door and we ended up in a corner and hidden from most people, which made me feel slightly better. I proposed to sit so he was facing the wall to make sure he wouldn't be recognized and finally, we asked for a bottle of wine and ordered our meals. I felt uncomfortable in the dress I had picked and realized that I hadn't actually worn something like that in a while, except for the wedding we went to. Niall never complained about the clothes I would wear and that was nice. He always had a nice comment when I was wearing a dress or a skirt but he also made a few raunchy comments when I was in sweatpants so I was not sure it had anything to do with the clothes.
"You look gorgeous." he just said, making me smile as I brought my glass to my lips.
"I love what you're wearing, too." I pointed out, raising my eyebrows.
His suit was a lighter blue than what I was used to and it looked nice on him. I stared at the chain on his neck and tilted my head, enjoying the fact that he was not wearing a tie.
"I'm very glad you love showing your chest hair because I really love seeing it."
He laughed more than I expected as he filled my glass again.
"You know what I love? You. Naked. Laying on a bed and ready for me." he whispered with a smirk.
"That's very very dirty of you." I chuckled, taking a sip. "Are you trying to get me drunk?"
"You're the one who gets very dirty when you're drunk." he pointed out with a smile. "But no, I'm not. Are you gonna tell me what's the surprise you brought?"
"If I tell you, you may want to skip dessert."
"I skip desserts often now, I'm not 15 anymore." he rolled his eyes with a smile.
"Try more 20. You love dessert." I raised my nose up before pressing my lips together. I watched him as he looked down at his plate and took a bite of his food before taking a sip of wine. "Handcuffs. I brought handcuffs."
I didn't expect that but he literally choked on his wine, making me laugh. I tried to hide it by biting my bottom lips and he finally cleared his throat. I felt bad when I saw his eyes water but he finally found his breath back and blinked a few times, staring at me.
"Why?"
"The other day you said you wanted me all tied down." I just shrugged. "I just thought it was worth a try."
He stared at me again and I stared back, my smile turning into a fond one as I tilted my head.
"You're ready to try anything, aren't you?"
"Almost, yea." I admitted, shrugging only one shoulder this time. "If it turns you on then, i'm in!"
"That gives me so many thoughts." he admitted with a laugh and I could swear he started eating quickly after that.
I finished my plate and when his eyes met mine again, I smiled more. I meant what I had said, I was ready to try many things with him, whether it was sexual or not, and the thought of loving each other with so much distance between us like we would have to do very soon made me hold my breath. That, too, I was ready to try. And he had promised he wouldn't see anyone else, which reassured me more than I thought it would. Was I starting to trust him again?
"You're right. We're gonna skip dessert." he finally let out, making me laugh again.
We finally asked cakes to go and he left the bag near the door as soon as we walked in the room. His lips found mine and I kissed him back, chuckling against his mouth as we stumbled around to reach the bed.
"You think someone saw us today?" I asked low, pushing his jacket off his shoulders as it fell on the carpet with a thud.
"No, we're good at this. You know what else we're good at?" he replied, letting two of his fingers slip in the front of my dress to pull it down. "Fuck, you're not wearing a bra."
"I knew you'd like it." I mentioned with a smile, unbuttoning his shirt and pushing it off his shoulders before working on his pants. "How bad do you want to use me?"
His eyes found mine and I could swear I saw something in his facial expression, something brutal, rough, something that came from instinct, something visceral, as if he wanted to grab me by the throat and use me until I'd beg him to stop.
I reached for the zipper of my dress and squirmed out of it before taking a step back and moving my panties down. He just stared at me, shirtless with his pants unzipped, and all I could think about was him on top of me, making me cum over and over again. He looked at me like he was literally going to jump on me and I tilted my head, nibbling on my bottom lip but staying out of reach.
"They're in the front pocket of my bag." I just mentioned.
It took him a few seconds but he finally found them as I sat on the bed, my heart accelerating as he walking closer. It was the very first time I would allow someone to do something like that to me and even if it was making me nervous, it was also extremely exciting.
"Are you sure you're ready to let me do that?"
I swallowed hard and nodded. "Mmhm, I trust you."
I did. I trusted him with my body. I trusted that he would make me cum good, that he wouldn't do anything that I didn't want to, even if I was tied up, and I trusted that he wouldn't just leave me there or anything like that.
He made me lay down on my back and used the handcuffs to tie me to the bed before letting his eyes roam on my body for a few seconds. The position was not uncomfortable but I knew it was going to be hard not to move at all.
"If at any moment you want me to untie you, or if you hurt, you tell me, okay?" I nodded and his eyes moved on my legs. "Fuck I wish I could tie your legs too. If you move them too much I'm gonna spank you so fucking hard you won't be able to sit for a week."
His words made my heart jump in my chest and he moved closer to the bed, his hand slipping between my legs and reaching my pussy.
"Just tie one of my legs with a pair of sweatpants."
His eyes found mine as his eyebrows raised. "Are you serious?"
He looked surprised but I just nodded and quickly, he did what I proposed. The knot was not really tight and if I moved enough, I could probably untie it, but when he brought his hand back between my legs, I felt totally submitted to him. He pushed his pants down with his free hand and my lips parted when I saw his hard cock spring out of his pants. I had no idea why I was so turned on by him but I suddenly started thinking about all these years I thought about him on top of me, late at night, back when he didn't even see me as a potential lover.
"You're so fucking wet. And impatient." he pointed out, running his fingers up my stomach and leaving a wet trace on my skin before going back between my legs. His pushed his fingers inside me and I let out a whimper, feeling my eyes flutter. "Fuck, I don't know how I'm gonna last. Just the sight of you all tied up is making me so fucking hard."
I watched him bring his hand to his cock, rubbing it with my wetness until it was coated and despite myself, I let out a short whimper. He moved closer to me, rubbing the tip of his cock on my lips and quickly, I wrapped my lips around his tip. He grabbed the back of my head to hold it and pushed his cock in my mouth, making me choke before pulling back.
"That sound is fucking amazing." he pointed out before doing it again.
I choked one more time but the more he did it, the more used I was getting and when he finally pulled away completely, I swallowed hard and panted. My heart was beating hard but I was not sure if it was because of lust or because it stressed me a bit to be in this situation.
"Stick your tongue out." he ordered before tapping his cock a few times on it. "Look at me."
My gaze quickly found his and he groaned, rubbing his cock on my tongue for about a minute before moving away. My eyes followed him as he took his pants off completely along with his socks and got on the bed, between my legs. He let both his hands run on my legs and my thighs before reaching my pussy he bent down just to suck on my clit for a while, making my eyes roll back in my head as I moaned. Slowly, he crawled on top of me and fingered me slowly as his thumb rubbed on my clit.
"You're mine, yea?" he asked, looking straight in my eyes as my lips parted. "Say it."
My eyes fluttered as I felt an orgasm build in my stomach and he probably felt me clench around his fingers because he quickly took his hand away and I let out a moan in protest.
"You're mine."
"Mm, I'm yours."
I thought about that time he fingered me in my room for the first time in months, and I remembered he had asked me the same thing. I never thought Niall was an insecure person and I knew it was probably just because the fact that I belonged to him turned him on, but it was also right after he found out about Louis and I.
I thought he'd push his fingers back inside me but instead, he moved up, placing his knees on each sides of my chest before brushing his cock on my mouth. It throbbed on my lips and the thought was so hot that I almost came. He started jerking off, his tip hitting my lips before I finally opened them and sucked on it again. He groaned, pulling his cock up and I whimpered as I ran my tongue on his balls, taking one in my mouth and sucking on it. This time, he let out a moan and started grinding against me.
"Fuck, your mouth always drives me so fucking crazy."
He moved back, rubbing his cock on one of my tits before taking place between my legs again and rubbing the tip of his cock on my clit. I squirmed, unable to move, and pulled on my arms. The handcuffs made a light noise against the bars of the bed and he looked up.
"Gentle. You don't want to hurt your wrists do you?" he asked, raising his eyebrows as a smirk draw itself on his lips. "I know you want to cum but a little edging has never killed anyone, yeah?"
I hated edging. I knew the whole point but Niall was a tease and being so close to cum over and over again was torture for me. Clearly, it turned him on though and I bit my bottom lip very hard.
"You look so desperate." he added. "Look at you, fuck."
"Please, please fuck me."
His eyes moved up to look into mine and he seemed surprised by my plea. "I love when you beg me."
Instead to do as I implored, he slid a finger on my slit and pushed it in my ass, making me squirm again. "I haven't done that since the last time I did it with you."
I held my breath, my heart suddenly racing, and he added two fingers in my pussy to fuck me slowly. I could feel his hard cock press against one of my thighs and I just wanted him deep inside me.
"You let anyone else fuck your ass this year?" he wondered as I quickly shook my head. "Good girl. I promise I'll make you cum harder than anyone ever has."
I tried to relax and my eyes fluttered when I felt the tip of his cock push against my ass. I breathed in and let out a few curse words when it was finally in, opening my eyes to look at him again. He spit in his hand and brought it to his cock. I felt him jerk off a bit before pushing the rest of his dick inside me and bringing his hand up, rubbing his thumb quickly on my clit at the same time.
"The way you throb around me... fuck, I don't know how long I'm gonna last."
He focused on what he was doing, pushing himself in and out of me slowly as I wiggled and whimpered. He was bringing me so close to an orgasm and when he felt I was about to cum, he moved his hand away from my pussy and pushed himself deeper in my ass.
"Niall please, please make me cum."
I didn't expect him to start fucking me harder but he did and even if he wasn't touching me anymore, I knew I was about to cum.
"Jesus fucking christ,"
I felt him shake as he got an orgasm but he pulled out of me and continued to cum on my pussy, bringing his thumb on my clit and rubbing it quickly with his sperm and making me reach immediately my own peak. I shook and cursed, feeling him rub his tip on my thigh, spreading more of his orgasm on me.
It took me a few seconds before I finally opened my eyes and I smiled when he lied down on top of me to kiss me. His lips moved slowly against mine but it's only when I pulled on my arms again that he chuckled against my mouth.
"Alright, alright. I'm untying you."
He started by my ankle and finally undid the handcuffs, bringing one of my wrists to his lips and kissing it gently. He moved back over me to kiss me again and I wrapped my arms around his neck, trapping him with my thighs on each sides of his waist.
"You're such a tease." I chuckled in his mouth.
"Hey that was the whole point." he argued with a small laugh. "Was good?"
"Mmhm, definitely."
After a few minutes, he sighed and moved away. "I really need to pee, I'm sorry."
I laughed and waited until he came back to go to the bathroom too and clean myself. When I joined him back in bed, the lights were off and he was under the sheets. I quickly cuddled his side and he wrapped his arm around me. We remained in silence and once again, a wave of love flooded inside me. It was always that way, late at night, when I was in his arms, and I was scared it would drive me insane to not be able to cuddle him at night when he'll be away.
"Thank you for trusting me." he whispered. "I really hope someday you can trust me again with your heart, and not just with your body."
I licked my lips, not really sure of what to answer. I knew the post-orgasm feeling was making me a bit euphoric but I wanted to tell him that I would. I wanted to tell him he just needed to be patient again... just for a very short time period. I wanted to tell him that I knew I would eventually give myself to him completely again, that he would definitely have the chance to break me again, to hurt me in a way no one else could hurt me. Instead, I swallowed my words and closed my eyes.
"I'm gonna fucking miss you, Niall." I whispered, knowing my voice would crack if I talked louder. I closed my eyes and swallowed the lump in my throat, feeling something stir in my stomach. He kissed the top of my head and I didn't know if I was going to be able to stop myself from crying. His voice reached my ear in a soft murmur and I hugged him tighter.
"Not as much as I'll miss you."
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MJF x Reader
Summary-Reader truly loves Max, but he talks all the time.
requested- @princessducky
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Max talked a lot, it was as simple as that. He talked about anything and everything, and it never really bothered you. I was a quiet person anyways, but I could only listen to stories about when he played football so many times.
it wasn't just me he did this to. God forbid he saw an old friend in town, we would be there for hours. And that's why I was driving actoss the state to pick max up. He had missed the time to pick up a rental car, so you had to get him. I tried my best to calm down in the car, but I was still irritated when I showed up.
"hey babe." He said sliding into the pasanger seat. He kissed my forehead head before setealing into his seat. Really? No, thank you for saving my ass? Thanks fore driving 4 hours to pick me up? He immediately went into some rant about AEW. I wasn't paying much attention as I was exhausted and trying to focus on the road.
listening to the hum of the car and his voice, I felt my eyes start to get heavy. "Y/N!!" My head flew up, eyes snapping opened inly to see I was in the wrong side of the road, a car speading towards us. "Fuck!" I yelled, jurking the steering wheel to the right. I pulled all the way over so I could stop the car. We both sat there for a moment taking deep breaths, not saying anything, until "Are you ok?"
I looked over at him, eyes wide. "Max, I almost killed both of us. DO YOU REALLY THINK IM OK!?" I yelled slamming my hands down on the wheel. "Fuck this! Fuck this car! Fuck this drive! Fuck everything!" I yelled all my anger coming out. Max reached out to grab my hand.
"why don't you lay down in the back. Get some sleep, and I'll drive us home?" He said, eyes soft, but still dripping with worry. I wanted to argue, to fight him on it, but I was so tired, so I simply nodded. I climbed out and got in the back so I could lay out on the back seat. I felt the car start to move again, and I was asleep in a few minutes.
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Max POV
"How the fuck do I get this thing to work?" I mumbled, messing with the coffee pot. Yes you heard it here, I don't know how to work my own coffee pot. After a good 10 minutes I gave up, grabbing a granola bar and sitting down on the couch. I should be asleep. it was 4 in the morning, a we had just gotten home. Y/n was up stairs asleep in our bed, I had just carried her up there when we got home.
I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened. Sure, she was scared they had almost got in a car accident, hell, I was terrified. But the way she responded made me think there was something else she was upset about. "I bet y/f/n would know." I say to myself, pulling out my phone.
y/f/n never seemed to sleep, so I wasn't surprised when she answered on the second ring. "Hey Max! What are you doing?" "hey, I wanted to ask you something.has y/n been upset about anything?" I asked. y/F/n didn't say anything witch did not help sooth my mind. "Y/F/n tell me what's going on." "she thinks you talk to much!" "what?"
"I'm sorry. She doesn't think you talk to much. it more of, she get frustrated with how you don't really, appreciate how much she does. I mean, she drove 4 hours to pick you up because you missed your time. BECAUSE, you were talking I might add." I felt guilty immediately. How did i not notice how she was feeling?
"thanks y/f/n. I appreciate it." I said. How the fuck was I supposed to apologize for this I wondered walking upstairs. I opened the door just as y/n was reaching for the door handle. "I thought I heard you talking to someone. You aren't going crazy on me are you?" She joked."actually, I was talking to y/f/n.""oh! Why?"
"I wanted to know why you were so upset. And don't say it was because of the car. I'm sorry, I didnt realize I was talking so much. And I should be appreciating you more, and I will try to! I really am-" "MAX!" I stoped talking looking up at her. "Just shut up and kiss me." I pulled her to me for a kiss. "you don't talk to much, just make sure you get what you need done." "I will." I said smiling, kissing her again.
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a-franciscan-spirit · 5 years ago
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Please, please say a prayer for my dad. And for my family too. Long story under the cut.
My dad had major back surgery on Monday. They sent him home on Wednesday even though my mom told them he wasnt ready to leave the hospital yet. He requires constant care because he literally cannot do anything for himself right now. I can see the strain my mom is under right now, and Im trying to do everything I can for her in between work shifts. Im struggling to adult for three people so she can give him the continual care he needs. Neither of us have slept much all week. I woke up this morning, and my mom told me she almost had to call an ambulance for him last night. He couldnt walk, he couldnt breathe. My teenage brother had to help--cause I passed out and he was still awake--and they managed to make it through to morning thanks to the extra oxygen of his CPAP machine. Though apparently he is rather incoherent. But not even ten minutes later, my mom tells me that the doctor said he had to go to the ER cause he may have a pulmonary embolism. So my mom did have to call an ambulance.
I can hear them upstairs right now. God, Im so scared. And I cant afford to sit down and cry cause everyone needs me to be strong right now. And Im aware that the moment Im actually alone, Im probably going to collapse in a fit of anxiety.
I know Ive been bad about praying this week. I know I havent turned to God as I should have. I know Ive been trying to carry it all by myself. But I also cant help but feel like Ive let my mom down; like I havent done enough. Just because I end up being the one to hold up the home front, and attempt to keep things looking normal for my brother when Im not at work. There’s a small voice in my head that says “look at you. you cant keep trying to do more. youve done as much as you can. dont feel guilty about not doing more than you are able.” But its really hard to listen to it at the moment. I was planning to go to Mass today, but I dont know if I’ll be in a fit state to drive.
Anyway, before I end up babbling, I should go check on my mom... and make sure she cant tell Ive been trying not to cry for the last hour. It would be a big comfort to me to know at least someone is praying until Im alone enough to bawl into a rosary later. Edit: I forgot she said she was going to follow the ambulance to the hospital. And now it is eerily quiet... Update from mother who just got to the hospital: He’s apparently in sepsis, high fever, low blood pressure, etc etc. And shes beating herself up for not calling last night. I told her “you didnt know, you cant blame yourself for something you didnt know.” And the neighbors are already asking questions. Which, bless them, are well-intentioned, but that means I have to do damage control later. Afternoon update: He has been admitted to ICU with pneumonia and a slew of other things. I have no idea how long its going to be until he can come home again. And Im worried. At least he will get the care he needs and hopefully he will improve soon. 
Evening update: No sepsis, but he may have had a small heart attack... and had a liter and a half of fluid drained from his lungs. He also has very low kidney function and his liver is struggling so, he has a lot of things not working so well right now. Please keep praying.
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barnesandrogersfanfics · 6 years ago
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That Damn Sex Pollen! - Part 1
Words: 1884 (ish)
Pairings: Bucky x Reader
Warnings: SMUT and swearing
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"So much for having the weekend off" i muttered quietly as i followed Bucky through the large warehouse.
"You should know its never guaranteed in this line of work by now Y/N" he smirked at me over his shoulder.
"It could at least be something exciting Buck, i mean come onnnn collecting info from a drive??"
"At least we'll be done quick and get back to enjoying the rest of our weekend in peace before they all get back to the compound".
The rest of the team had been called out to a Hydra camp Tony had tracked down, Bucky and I stayed behind as we had had back to back missions for a while and it was our turn to stay home. But when Fury called needing some information extracted there was no choice but for us to go.
Bucky walked into the back office and started the data grab required while i kept watch. It didnt take too long, Bucky was soon walking towards me showing me the drive he had pinched between two fingers "all done, lets go" he said.
Suddenly the doors all slammed shut and automatic locks were heard engaging.
"Shit! Buck whats going on??" I asked pushing at the door.
"Move, let me try" he said before ramming his metal arm into the door, it dented but that was about it.
"I cant get through" he stated before marching off and trying the other doors, nothing.
"Bucky i dont think we're getting out of here without help" i said sitting down on the floor leaning back against the wall as i pulled out my phone "shit, there's no signal in here! Maybe the panic button? It'll take them a while to get here but its all we have" i pulled back the plastic casing on my bracelet that held the panic button Tony insisted we have on mission.
"Might as well get comfy Sarge we're gonna be here a while" i stated the obvious and watched as Bucky sat across from me looking nervous.
"This place is so strange..... i mean what are those plants doing in a warehouse?" I asked noticing a load of pink flowered plants off to the side, it looked like they were growing it like marijuana!
"Oh shit...." Buckys eyes went wide suddenly "this can't be happening"
"What cant be happening??.....Jesus christ is it getting hot in here??" I asked suddenly feeling heat rush to my face.
I unzipped my tac vest and shrugged out of it leaving me in my combat pants and black tank top. I notice Bucky shuffling further away from me and it makes me frown "whats wrong with you?" I ask.
"You know what that stuff is??" He points to the pink flowers nervously, i shake my head not really caring. Its like a fog has descended and all i notice is Bucky..... he is beautiful! Heat burns low in my belly as my eyes roam Bucky's muscular form, imaging what he looks like naked! It wouldn't be the first time i had pictured that!
"They call it sex pollen! Y/N do you understand what that is??"
"Mmhmmm let me guess, makes you really horny?" I asked as i pressed my thighs together, shit this is embarrassing!
"Just stay over there..... help will be here soon. We can fight this". Bucky says through gritted teeth, his hands fisted at his sides.
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It had been hours and we were still stuck in this fucking warehouse with the god damn sex pollen!! It was absolute torture!! Bucky was now only in his combat pants and tank top and i couldnt help but imagine his arms around me.... those hands on my body, his fingers inside....
"You okay over there? You’re kinda staring" Bucky asked bringing me back to reality.
"Not really" i stated wiping at the sweat on my forehead and neck "its getting worse..... its starting to hurt Buck" i said honestly.
"Thats what it does, it'll get worse until you get the antidote or...."
"Or what??"
"Scratch the itch so to say" he blushed, Bucky had thought about being with you so many times but not under these circumstances.
"You mean until its fucked outta me??" I asked with wide eyes.
"Yeah" he nodded reaching down to readjust himself in his pants. He'd been rock hard for hours now and all he wanted to do was bury himself inside you and help you both out!
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"You might have to do it Buck, im not joking! I feel like im dying!" I said a couple hours later as i laid on the cold floor trying to cool down my over heated skin, i was almost crying at how much it hurt.
"We cant do that Y/N....."
"Please Bucky" i whined but he just looked away "fine, i'll take care of myself" i huffed undoing my pants and slipping my hand in my panties that were absolutely soaked at this point!
"What are you doing doll...." he asked his voice hitching at the sight in front of him.
"I have to! I need the pain to stop Buck I'm dying...." as my fingers made contact with my clit a loud moan escaped my mouth uncontrollably!
"Jesus fucking christ....." i heard Bucky mutter and looked over to see him palming his cock through his trousers as he watched me.
"You could just help me out...."
"Come over here" he said holding his hand out to me, his eyes were full of lust as he pulled me into his lap pressing me down on his hard cock and rocking me against him. My head fell back and i moaned in ecstasy at the feeling of him but it wasn't enough!! I needed the real thing and so did he.
"We cant do this....." Bucky said in my ear as his hands slipped under my tank top and caressed my naked back.
"You only want this because of that damn plant"
"Ive always wanted you Buck" i mumbled pressing kisses to his neck as my hands reached for his top, i needed to feel more of him against me.
"What?? You want me??" He asked wide eyed looking for any sign that i was lying.
"From the second i met you i wanted you" i admitted before leaning in and pressing my lips to his. He was quick to return the kiss, his tongue tracing my bottom lip....
"Please fuck me Bucky..... i need you so bad!" I begged as i rubbed myself over his huge bulge to get some friction.
"Ive wanted to hear you say that for so long doll!" He practically growled in my ear before laying me back against the cold warehouse floor. I watched as Bucky pulled my already open pants down my legs with my panties and sat back looking at my soaking wet cunt before him. He reached out with his metal hand and run his fingers through my wet folds earning him a moan as my back arched up off the floor.
"So fucking pretty!" He said before reaching for his own pants and finally freeing his hard cock.
"Oh god, look at that thing!" I said seeing the size of it as it sprung free.
"You like what you see doll?" He asked smirking down at me.... smug bastard!
I bit at my bottom lip and nodded as i reached forward to wrap my hand around the base of his cock before lining it up with my entrance.
"Fuck me James" i begged looking into his almost black eyes, almost all of the blue had disappeared.
"Yes m'am" he smiled before pushing forward and finally giving me what i needed.... what i wanted!
The sounds he made as he fucked me were absolute sin, i swear i could cum just listening to him!!
"Oh Buck you feel so fucking good....."
"Yeah? You like feeling my hard cock filling your tight little pussy??"
"God yes!! Dont ever stop" i cried out when he thrust harder into me going even deeper than before.
"You’re gonna feel me inside you for days baby!" He said before kissing my neck. His hands were on my breasts kneading and pinching.....
"I need to cum! Please Bucky let me cum" i begged for my release.
"You gonna cum all over my cock??"
"Yes!! Shit yes!!" I cried out as i felt his fingers start to circle my clit and he increased the speed of his thrusts, my stomach tightened and then i was screaming his name my eyes squeezed so tight i saw stars! He gave a few more thrusts and then i felt him release inside me. His hips slowly coming to a stop but his cock remained inside me.
"Wow..... that was...." i panted as my hands run up his chest and over his shoulder to rest on his back. Bucky leaned forward and kissed me again but this time it was much more passionate.
"That was amazing. So much better than i ever imagined...."
"I know the feeling" i smiled "i love you Buck..... you know that right?" I suddenly said as my thumb traced over his bottom lip.
"I do now" he smirked "i love you too Doll".
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After another round of mind blowing sex we started getting dressed.....We didn't want to risk any of the team catching us.
"Y/N..... what are we going to do about this?" Bucky asked avoiding eye contact. I couldn't believe this was the same man who had been saying such dirty things to me as he fucked me 10 minutes earlier.
"I don't know Buck..... i meant what i said before. I do love you.... it wasn't the sex pollen making me say those things"
"I know, me too" he nodded taking my hand and entwining our fingers.
Suddenly there was a banging on the main door we entered through earlier.
"Y/N..... Buck?? You in there?" Came the loud booming voice of one Sam Wilson.
"Yes!! Sam we're in here!" I called back grabbing my tac vest and pulling it back on and zipping it up.
"Hold on sugar we'll have you out in no time" he called back.
When the door finally opened Sam was grinning at us like an idiot "i cant believe you two got locked in here".
"Makes three of us!" I laugh and head towards the door, im rushed by a flustered looking Steve Rogers.
"Oh my god are you okay?" He asked wrapping his arms around me "i was so worried when i saw your panic button had been activated!!"
"Im fine" i nodded quickly "the download must have triggered an old security measure.....all the doors slammed shut and Buck and i couldnt get them open"
"Dont scare me like that again baby okay?!" He said before pressing his lips to mine "lets go home".
"Sounds good to me"
"You okay Buck?" Steve asked his best friend who had stayed standing away from us.
"All good Steve" he nodded grabbing his tac jacket from the floor and heading to the door.
"Hey, thanks for looking out for my girl Buck" Steve called after his friend. Bucky just gave him a quick nod before walking out and joining the rest of the team on the quinjet.
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janetbrown711 · 5 years ago
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“What are you doing in a place like this?”  Lena and Eva
Eva loved Lena's visits more than anything. She felt like for once in her life she had a real friend who really, really wanted to see her. Someone who was willing to make up the most ridiculous lies Eva had ever heard in her life just to say hi.
However, it seemed her visits were getting shorter and shorter which meant either Lena was getting busier or her mom was catching on. Either way, it came to the point where Lena would ask her for a favor and Mariella would just conjure it up without even leaving Lena's sights or giving Eva a chance to slip out of the temple to say hello. Eva knew if she wanted to see Lena again she had to do something about it.
So when Lena visited next, Eva slipped out of the front of the temple with a bag full of food and some water and went to her carriage. She saw there was a trunk in the back and was about to sneak in when her driver caught her.
"What are you doing?" It was a ghostly man. His eyes glowed with black smoke coming out, and his feathers were grey and sullen. He wore a long black robe and he either didn't have feet or they didn't touch the ground.
"I-i uh..." she panicked.
"Are you this... Eva that Lena won't shut up about?" He asked.
"Yes, yes i am," Eva nodded, putting on her best mask of confidence.
"I see," he eyed her up and down.
"Uh... who are you?" Eva asked.
"Louie, the god of death. Get in the trunk, she'll be back soon," Louie opened it for her. Eva smiled gratefully before stepping in. The trunk was much larger than she had thought (or maybe she was much smaller than she realized) so she fit quite comfortably. She knew that was likely to change once they got started, but she was fine with that.
Soon enough though, she heard Lena come back and enter the carriage. She shouted a few things and soon they were off. And fast. Eva could've sworn she got whiplash as she heard the skeleton horse's ear piercing shrieks.
The underworld sure was going to be interesting.
And hot.
She soon realized that as they traveled father down it was really, really hot.
Meh. She'd adapt.
Eventually, the carriage came to a stop and she heard Lena get out. Eva laid in the trunk a long while after Lena left before Louie opened the trunk and got her out.
"Thanks Louie," she smiled before taking a look around. There was a blue, glowing river flowing around the ground with what looked like souls of the dead. She looked up and saw smooth, dark stone creating a high and ominous roof. There wasn't a glimpse of sunlight. What did create the light were torches and the river of souls.
"You want me to take you to Lena?" Louie gestured to a small black gondola on the river. Eva shook her head.
"I think I wanna explore a bit for myself," Eva said.
"You still have to ride my boat then. You can't cross without dying very, very painfully without riding my boat," he stated flatly.
"I can't die, I'm immortal?" She chuckled, confused.
"It's not so much as dying as your soul being torn and broken out of your body. C'mon," he went into his boat and Eva obeyed.
Slowly they rowed along as Eva kept her eyes off the river. If she dared looked down she feared the souls would try to reach up and grab her and 'kill' her like Louie said. Eventually they reached the dock and Eva got off.
"I got to get back to work, but I'm sure you'll figure out a way past Cerberus," he grinned a little before disappearing in a puff of smoke.
"Cerberus? Isn't that just Lena's dog? How bad could that be?" Eva rolled her eyes when she suddenly heard loud barking behind her. She spun around and saw a three headed dog covered in spots barking at her.
"O-oh hello there," she smiled nervously. As soon as she spoke the barking ceased and the heads looked at her curiously.
"I didnt think that'd work," she thought out loud. She tried taking another step closer but one head growled.
"Hi there boys... I'm Eva. I'm a... guest here. Lena's talked all out me to you guys," she spoke in that 'I'm talking to a dog' voice everyone uses. When she said her name, Cerberus immediately perked up and wagged their tale. Eva stepped forward, to which he didn't object, so she went gave him some good scratches under his chins. Once Cerberus was happy enough to let her pass the gates, Eva patted all of the heads and and headed in.
Inside the gates was not too much different. There wasn't a river of souls to be the main source of light, instead there were crystals and other rocks that naturally shone. Eva wandered around a bit found a river of pure fire which was very... hot..., the river styx which looked inky black and painful, when eventually she stumbled upon a gate where a small garden was. Eva realized she had left her bag in the carriage so she was really, really hungry. Quickly, she made her way into he garden and picked a pomegranate from the tree.
"What are you doing in a place like this?" Eva froze.
"Well... not a place like this, this is the kind of place I'd expect you to be," Eva turned around and saw Lena looking very displeased.
"Hi Lena... long time no see?" She laughed nervously.
"Eva, put that down, you can't eat that," Lena took the pomegranate from her hand.
"Well why not?" Eva frowned.
"They who eat the fruit of the underworld become a part of the underworld," Lena explained.
"Well what's so bad about that?" Eva put her hands on her hips.
"It means you wouldn't be able to leave," Lena sighed.
"Oh..." Eva slowly understood.
"We need to return you to your mother before she makes a big fit and starts a famine until she finds you," Lena summoned the cornucopia Demeter gave her and handed Eva a peach from that. Eva accepted, but was still disheartened.
"How did you cross the river of souls anyway?" Lena asked as they started heading back.
"Louie helped," Eva said as she took a bite.
"Llewellyn," she sighed and shook her head.
"Well how did you get past Cerberus? He was in my office but i suspected intrusion when he lept away and to the gate. He surely would've at least tried to stop you," Lena asked.
"He just liked me, i don't know," she shrugged.
"Cerberus only likes me," she muttered to herself.
"I like to think im likable," Eva questioned her words.
"Oh no no no, I'm not saying you aren't or anything I-i just-... sorry. I'm sorry," Lena brushed her hair back.
"It's okay, it's okay," she laughed, "I get it. Dogs are usually particular."
"Cerberus more than others. But... i guess that's good to know," Lena smiled a bit to herself.
"Good to know why?" Eva asked the towering goddess.
"Well... if you... could ever... or would ever... want to stop by, you know?" Lena blushed.
"Oh i would love to! I'd love to stay b-but... my mother probably won't let me out of the temple after this," Eva lowered her eyes.
"O-oh..." Lena nodded, "Well... I'm sure Certain that Cerberus will miss you," she said as they walked past the gate where he was waiting. He wagged his tail and both Lena and Eva gave them good scratches behind the ear before they walked back.
"So... why'd you name him Cerberus?" She asked.
"It uh... it means 'spot'" she explained and Eva laughed.
"You're the goddess of the underworld, ruler over all the dead and all that creepy stuff, and you name your three headed hell hound spot? Why that's- well- that's-"
"Ridiculous?" Lena raised an eyebrow.
"Adorable," Eva snorted.
"Adorable?" Lena paused.
"Yeah, i think it's cute," Eva smiled at her and watched Lena's face turn bright pink. Eva chuckled more.
"Thanks... no ones... ever called me cute before so... i appreciate it," Lena smiled so nervously, it was so cute that it made Eva blush.
"No problem," she smiled back. Soon enough though, they reached the river of souls so she had to call on Louie to be their guide. The three rode in silence until they got to their carriage.
"So... the underworld isn't that far from the temple, right?" Eva asked.
"The underworld is under all the world. Its both near and far. If you want to travel the world, technically you could do that in the underworld," Lena explained.
"Oh! Cool!" Eva sat down.
"Yeah, I'm sure you'd like it. There's a lot you haven't seen," Lena sat too.
"...we keep forgetting about my mother," Eva said as the carriage started to drive.
"Well... I'm sure she's bound to let you go out again, right?" Lena asked, uncertain.
"I hope," she sighed, looking out the window as they sped by and by.
"I promise to visit more," Lena offered her hand.
"I think mother is never going to let me out again or even see you again if she thinks i ran off to see you," Eva said.
"But maybe if you just come twice a year like normal, that'd be nice. Maybe she'd let us chat longer... i don't know, but this doesn't mean we have to give up entirely," Eva tried to smile. Lena smiled tiredly at her.
"I'm sure we'll try," she said. They rode the rest of the way in silence. Once they arrived Eva looked out the window and saw most of their plants were dead, and an unhappy Mariella was sitting in a chair, talking with a nymph of sorts.
"I bet this is her doing. She gets all huffy when i disobey and kills some plants because she won't let them grow until i apologize," Eva said.
"Ah," Lena nodded.
"I... i guess i should go," Eva put her hand on the handle.
"Wait, Eva, I-" Lena touched her shoulder.
"Yes?" Eva asked.
"I... I'll miss you... a lot. Your company has been greatly... appreciated," she looked away. Eva grabbed her hand and squeezed it.
"You too," Eva smiled at her before heading out, not knowing when she would ever see Lena again.
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a-kayy47 · 5 years ago
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Learning to live:Chapter 2
So what brings you and the rugrats to Charming?" Tig asked. I knew he wasn't really intrested, he just wanted to know if I was going to be trouble, I won't but my ex might be. "Well, I got tired of my kids sperm donor cheating on me and being a junkie. After 7 years of it, it gets old" I said looking down at my feet and taking deep drags of my cigarette. "Why didn't you leave sooner lass?" Brit's ol'man asked.
"Honestly, I didn't think I deserved better or would ever find anyone who would ever want me." I answered still looking down.
"Fuck that prick! You deserve better babe. You're a damn good momma, you work every fucking day and never do anything for yourself, shit whens the last time you've actually had fun?" Brit asked me.
"Umm...Like real fun? Probably the last party I went to at Uncle Tom's clubhouse when I got arrested." I said looking up with a shit eating grin on my face.
"I wouldn't say getting arrested is fun." A bigger guy with glasses piped in as he walked up to us.
"That's because you've never been arrested with this bitch!" Brit said. "I remember it like it was yesterday. We was 16 and ate shrooms for the first time. And for some reason we thought it would be fun to get payback at some fucking blonde bitch for calling us biker whores and shit so we stole her car and pushed it into the lake!" Britni said laughing reminiscing on the memory. "You pushed a car in a lake and didnt get jail time?" The bigger guy asked again. "Oh that's not why we got arrested!" I said laughing. "Miss let's sneak into the local bar and dance naked on the bar is what got us arrested!" Britni told them still laughing uncontrollably at the memory.
"Yeah, I got public indecency and underage intoxication." I told them "You also tried to blow the cop to get him to let you go!" Britni reminded me. "Fuck, I forgot about that! Hey, at least he was attractive!" I said laughing "Dude he was twice your age!" She replied.
"We used to have so much fun. I miss it so much, all these fuckers want to do is drink till they pass out or bury their face in pussy!" Brit said putting her arm over my shoulder and squeezing.
"Well I haven't had sex since I got pregnant with Rayne and I haven't drank till I passed out since I was 18 so I'm not much fun anymore."
"Well we'll just have to change that! You're a hot peice of ass babe! You gotta get laid!" Brit said smacking my ass.
"Wait, did you just say you haven't had sex since you got pregnant with your girl..shes what like 5?" Tig asked with wide eyes.
"Yepp, she'll be 6 in September."
"But, you're like super hot!" The bigger guy said.
"Well thanks, I'm sorry I didnt catch your name."
"Phil." He told me.
"Well thank you Phil. But a lot of people dont think so, including myself. I still have baby weight to loose and it's been almost 6 years so." I said with a little chuckle.
•Happy's POV•
This chick was crazy! Staying with a dude for 7 years getting cheated on all because she didnt think anybody would want her! And not having sex in 5 years but knowing her boyfriend was out fucking anything with two sets of lips. She deserved better! The sparkle in her eye and the way she laughed while remembering all the fun her and Britni used to have warmed my heart even though I'd never tell anyone that. Everyone deserves to blow off some steam every now and then. Hell if I didnt get too I'd loose my fucking mind! And what the hell was she talking about no one wanting her, fuck I'd take her to my dorm and have my way with her right now! She was perfect! Beautiful face, tattoos lining her arms and hands, long thick black hair that I wanted to wrap my hands in, nice full chest that you could definitely tell was real the way they bounced when she laughed. Light skin with a slight olive undertone, a nice waist with a little belly from having kids, wide child bearing hips with a nice plump ass to match. She was bigger than the girls around here but shit that's what I liked something I could be rough with in bed and not worrying about breaking her. She may be bigger but you could tell she worked out, her ass was nice and firm but still had that fantastic bounce when she walked I could only imagine what it would look like bouncing on my dick. I wanted to find the fucker that ever treated her wrong and make him regret every single time he put his hands on her.
I remembered seeing her at the gas station and couldn't get those beautiful green eyes and plump lips out of his head then to see her pull up her and find out she's staying. By the time it was all said in done I'd have this women and she'd never remember that prick.
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"Shut the hell up girl! I know you workout everyday!" Brit said pushing my shoulder. "Not everyday, and now I wont be able to since I don't have anywhere to keep up my boxing lessons." I said looking over to check on the kids.
"Happy boxes, he could teach ya a little." Tig said grinning at Happy.
"I'm sure he's busy with other things. I'll just have to stick to walking or jogging then the kids can tag along."I said shrugging it off.
"Be out here tomorrow morning at 8." Happy said which shocked all of us.
"I'll be there, Thanks." I said shyly.
"Alright let's go get you and the kids settled in. I'm sure you have a busy day tomorrow." Britni said breaking the conversation.
"God yes, I have to get the kids enrolled in school and look for a salon and see if they're hiring." I said exhausted just thinking about it.
"Well the school thing I can help with, Tara, Jax' ol'lady can help with that she just enrolled Thomas their youngest. And as for a salon there is only one and it's a barber shop most women go to Oakland to get their hair done but he's a good friend and with some talking to should give you a booth. I know the ladies would love a hairstylist closer home." Britni said filling me in.
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After about a 10-minute drive from the TM we arrived at Britni's apartment.  The kids were beyond excited to get settled in somewhere for more than a night, and I couldn’t blame them in all honesty I was too. Brit pulled her Camaro into the garage and I parked by the sidewalk that lead to her  “apartment” as she called it, to me it was just a small house. She walked up to the car and immediately started helping me get things out. The kids had already jumped out and were sitting on the steps that lead up to the porch.
“Just get what ya’ll need tonight and I’ll send someone over tomorrow to help you unload the rest?” She stated opening the back hatch.
“Oh, you don’t have to do that I can get it. I packed it myself.” I replied with a chuckle.
“Don’t argue! Anyways if I didn’t send someone to help Gemma would have my head.” She said with an eye roll.
“Is someone afraid of this Gemma?” I asked with a smirk.
“We all are.” She answered flatly. “Wait till YOU meet her! I’m sure you’ll give her a run for her money!” She said with that smirk of hers that I knew meant trouble.
“Great! Can’t wait!” I said sarcastically grabbing the kids’ bags.
Brit grabbed my bag and led me to the door, unlocking it and entering the house. She had a nice place. As soon as you walked in the door you entered the living room, which she had painted a dark gray with a black leather couch and recliner on one side and a big flat screen TV on the other. The living room led into the kitchen, which had a small island in the middle of both rooms, it was simple black and gray just like Brit. I noticed that there was a door on each side of the living room, which I was guessing was the two bedrooms.
The kids hurried inside and stretched out on the couch and turned on the TV making them selves a home right away. I followed Brit to the door that was on the right side of the living room.
“It’s not much but its better than where you was.” Brit said as she walked in the room and flipped on the light.
 “Anything was better than that! I’ll never be able to repay you, you know that right!” I told her in all seriousness.
“Shut your mouth, you and those babies are all the family I have left, if something would have happened to you I would of lost my mind. I just wish I could have got you out sooner, before the beatings started.” She said low.
“How did you know about that?” I asked looking down at my feet.
“Let’s just say Jamie called me every time you was in the hospital.” She told me.
That boy, I swear he might be quit and keep to himself but he never misses a thing.
“Annie, why didn’t you call me sooner? I would have got you out. I have a whole MC that would have backed me!” She said grabbing me by the shoulders and making me look her in the eyes.
“I was scared, you don’t know how many times I tried, I tried so fucking hard but I could never do it.” I said starting to cry.
“After the last time he put me in the hospital I was done. He really did a number on me that time.” I said lifting up the bottom of my shorts and showing her a scar that went 8 inches across my upper thigh.
“What the fuck Annie!” She asked running her fingers across the scar.
“My shorts were to short for a “Fat Bitch” to wear so he decided that he need to make a permanent mark to show me that my shorts had to be below that line.”
“This is the first time I’ve wore shorts in two years.”
I told her still looking at my feet.
“Babe you are worth so much more than that. Why didn’t you tell me what was happening?” She asked me again.
“I was embarrassed. I was such a strong person before I got with him I didn’t take shit from anyone let alone a man. Then I got with him and it was like I was trapped. I was scared to leave because if he ever found me I was sure he would kill me, and I couldn’t do that to the kids. That’s why I came here, I knew if he finds me here and kills me at least they had you to protect them. I cant let him get my babies..he would destroy them. They’re so innocent and sweet and have such a big heart and he’s so evil he would ruin them.” I rambled to her.
“I’m so sorry Annie, but know you are safe here YOU and those kids. Neither the MC nor me will let anything happen to you. And I promise you we will get the old Annie back! Now lets get you all settled in, you have a busy day tomorrow.” Britni said giving me a longing hug.
We walked out to the living room to see both kids passed out on the couch. I grabbed their blankets from their bag and cover both of them up and them a kiss on the forehead before I went to get ready to go to sleep myself. Britt went over and locked the door “Don’t worry only people that has a key is Chibs and Happy and they shouldn’t be by tonight.” She reassured me. I gave her a nod and told her good night. I went to my room and took off my clothes to change into a big-oversized Harley Davidson shirt and pair panties. I checked my purse for the 9mm that I picked up before we left West Virginia from an old friend. I made sure the mag was filled and out of the gun and laid both in the draw in the nightstand by the bed. The only thing that was going to help me sleep at night is knowing I had something to protect my babies! I laid in bed thinking about everything I had to do tomorrow and drifted off to sleep.
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