#thank yo u for reading my rambling

[bugdogg]

hopefully i get to sleep soon but heres some cool down doodles

despite choro's disinterest in Akita (and being scared shitless of her), i sorta think she takes a liking to him a bit

i think she tells him to deliver messages to Totoko just to piss her off and then he becomes some what of a messenger between them

out of all the brothers, she scowls at him the least is what im saying.

[shinakazami1]

omg people like me 432s ;;;;; THANK U GUYS SM FOR LEAVING YOUR WONDERFUL TAGS, IT MEANS A LOT OUOFSAIH I need to ART MORE AND SHARE MORE FACTS THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF U

[residentialsinyomakai]

I was tagged by the wonderful @jqmon ! Thank youuuu and here I go;

Favorite color: Purple, navy blue, and neons in general! They're pretty nice and can stand against a black background.

Last song i listened to: I have just had a random playlist on right now actually, but I think its called A Mask of my Own Face by Lemon Demon!

Currently Reading: "Camouflage of Great Reknown" by RatCandy! Again AUGH i love this fic Zote is me and i am Zote. Anyways, I would go on a tangent about that but this shouldn't drone on longer than my usual ramblings wahahazzzzz Also, "To Kill a Mocking Bird" By Harper Lee.

Currently watching/rewatching: "Yokai Watch!" and "Brave the Animated Series!" I've watched the latter almost 17 times in counting now aodjoeod, it's one of my faves that rivals Yokai Watch (which is pretty impressive if you know me!)

Want to watch/rewatch: "Yo-kai Watch" (OG), "Good Omens", "The Good Place", the new TMNT show and "ROTTMNT"! Quite the list but y'know =u=.

Currently craving: What I would do for some tiramisu right now...

Coffee or Tea: Same as prev, I like em both! I do like them like my chocolate though; a little more on the bitter side!

Hobbies in Mind: Drawing (digital and traditional), singing, playing videos games, and general crafts. I'd try to make anything once ○°w°○ wwwww.

Current AU: I have an unnamed Yokai Watch AU featuring my sona/character Caspian! I like making random stuff for it but I don't have a post or anything on it yet tho aifkoeod. Not to say I haven't fleshed some of it out or come up with a plot+official refs rho! (Fun fact if you've seen some of my posts; the yokai redesigns I showed yall a while ago were mostly just an excuse to show you the AU versions wwwww^) That, and a little personal world thing with two irls that I love <33 (COUGH. @samiisams and @sketchdeath22 ..... they have amazing stuff go look ooooo......)

People who I wanna get to know better: Hope y'all don't mind the tagggggggg!

@analog-smiles @c00kietin @strange0-0storm @amf-studios @aura-bug @suppai-limes @sketchdeath22 @samiisams

Love y'all!/p (hope I didn't accidently tag anyone whose already participated auiemdhjcr...)

[saralovesyouu]

Hello, :) I hope ur well. Can I pls request a comfort fic with Saeyoung and a depressed f!reader? Let's say reader is not the type to cry at all, like he has never seen her cry because she keeps it all bottled up even though she's in a lot of pain. I hope that's ok. Thank u ^^

Don’t cry, I’m here. — Saeyoung x fem! reader

Of course! And I’m doing well besides the 3 hours of sleep I’ve gotten, thanks. I hope you are too. I was confused about the gender of the reader, so I was rereading that a few times cause I was like. What? But when I read it the fourth time I was like OH they meant female reader. I thought that was funny I’m a little dumb, but anyways! Also yeah no that’s fine, I hope you enjoy it!

This is very much proofread.

I didn’t want to specify the reader’s issues cause of depression cause I don’t want to be like “oh the reader is upset cause of this” and then for you to have meant a different thing, so I tried to write it so that the reader’s reason for breaking down so suddenly wouldn’t be.. specific.

Warnings : Not much, reader’s reason for breaking down is not specific, reader is suggested to be female, a bit of comfort.

Saeyoung was sure he had you figured out. From small details about you in person, to large pieces of information of you online. He memorized every freckle and mole on your body, every password to all of your accounts.

So that’s why it surprised him when he saw you—his beautiful girlfriend—crying.

How did it get to this point? Well to him there was only one conclusion.

You were bottling it all up. How could he not notice?

It should’ve been obvious enough whenever you said you didn’t want to eat cause you lost your appetite, or when you seemed a tad more exhausted than usual, or even just when you started to space out whenever he was talking.

All the signs were there, right in front of him too.

So why didn’t he catch on?

Why didn’t he catch the way your eyes seemed to be unusually dull? Why didn’t he see the way you seemed to not want to get out of bed, refusing and blaming it on your fatigue? Why did he let it go far, why was he so blind to see you were in pain?

He of all people understands what that type of pain feels like, what it’s like to mask it and bottle it up, so why didn’t he know you were feeling this way?

So it was no surprise how speechless he was when he got home to see you crying on the bathroom floor.

He stayed shocked, standing in the doorway seeing you crying your heart out. Saeyoung didn’t stay frozen in dismay, rushing to your side.

“Hey, honey, no-no don’t cry what’s wrong?” He panicked, he wasn’t sure what to do.

“‘ts just too much to handle Saeyoung..” you cried, clinging onto him for the sake of your sanity.

“I don’t know what to do.. I thought my problems are my problems and they should stay my problems—“ you hiccuped “—so I wouldn’t have to bother you or anyone else about it, but it’s just too much pressure—I’m so sorry.”

“I didn’t want to be burden on any of you.”

Saeyoung felt his heart shatter when he heard how pained your voice sounded, holding you close as he hushed you “Hey, don’t apologize. Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” was what he asked, but really he was thinking why didn’t he see it sooner?

Usually he’d know what to do, how to comfort you. But he’s never seen you like this before. Hell, he has never seen you cry before. So he’s so thrown off on what to do.

“You were always—“ you tried to talk, but your words only came out in choked out sobs so Saeyoung interrupted you.

“Shh.. shh it’s okay my love. I’m just..” he paused, unsure what the right words to say were “I’m here now, tell me what’s wrong?”

And so you spilled. All your troubles and worries, every single doubt and problem you’ve been experiencing. And he sat there, holding you close to him as if you would slip through his hands like sand—and listened to every word you had to say.

After you had finished, your rambling now incoherent due to your sobs, he gently rubbed soothing circles onto your back. “It’s okay. I’m here now. You’re okay.” He cooed, hoping that would help in comforting you.

But you weren’t calming down, and he wasn’t sure what to do. He was thinking of texting, or maybe even calling another RFA member in hopes they would know, but he somehow already knew they’d be as clueless as he was now. So all he could do was try to calm you down.

“Hey,” Saeyoung whispered, pulling you back up by your shoulders, your teary eyes staring right back into his golden ones “can you breathe with me?”

Yeah, he thought. That should be the first step in calming her down, right?

“O.. Okay.” You hiccuped.

“Good, okay. Breathe in,” he inhaled, waiting for you to inhale with him as well, and after a few moments he exhaled “breathe out.”

It took a while, but eventually you weren’t crying as bad anymore.

“Okay,” Saeyoung mumbled “okay.”

“Are you okay?” He asked, his voice was soft, and low—in almost a whisper-like way. Which heavily contrasted his usually ‘happy-go-lucky’ nature.

“I think so.” Was all you managed to croak out in response, hiccuping a bit. But at least you weren’t sobbing to the point of being unresponsive.

He was still very much confused. You always seemed so cheerful, laughing at his jokes, teasing Yoosung with him. You never cried, or if you did, never in front of him.

Saeyoung wants to take care of you, the way you did with him when he tried to push you away.

“Do you..” he paused, propping himself up so now he was leaning against the wall “..do you need anything? Water? A snack?”

“Can you just stay here with me?” You asked, your eyes fluttering closed, a bit worn out from crying so much “Just for a bit.”

“Yeah,” he agreed, nodding “yeah I can do that.”

And at least, you thought, you at least had some form of peace in his arms. He wouldn’t let anyone hurt you, and for the first time you didn’t feel alone, no longer wallowing in the depths of your depression. Cause now, now you had Saeyoung.

And he was going to make sure you, his precious girlfriend, would never feel like this ever again. Or at least be there for you whenever you fell into that deep rabbit hole again.

But one thing was for sure, he would make sure you never have to face this type of issue on you own.

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Bonus!!

“Saeyoung..” you whispered, still curled up in a fetal position as he wrapped himself around you.

“Yeah?” He hummed in reply, tugging you closer to him, as if to remind you that he’s still there.

“Thank you.” you chuckled, your voice was quiet, but he still managed to hear you.

Saeyoung was about to speak again, when he heard you talk “You shouldn’t have seen me like that. But still, thank you for staying with me.”

He was a bit surprised. What did you mean he shouldn’t have seen you like that?

“It’s nothing.” Was all he murmured, snuggling his face deeper into the crevice of your neck.

“You sure you don’t have anything else to do?” You asked, then adding “No work to be done? I don’t want you getting in trouble just because I’m .. like this.”

Saeyoung chuckled, making a faint ‘pssh’ sound “I’m sure I can take a break from the computer if it means making sure your okay.”

All you did was hum in reply, nodding in confirmation.

“Hey (Y/N)?” He called, propping himself up on his elbows, looking over to see your face.

“Yeah?” You replied, eyes flickering to meet his.

“You know I love you, right?” He murmured in more of a question, but you knew he only meant to assure you.

“Yeah, I know.” you nodded turning around to be face to face with him.

“I love you too.”

(A/N) : This is about maybe 900 words? Maybe a bit more than that. I was pretty reluctant on posting this, not cause of anything with the request but the way I had written it was kinda ehhh to me. Y’know? I’m not good with comfort but this was fun to try! I really hope you liked it, if you didn’t please do not hesitate to lmk so I can fix anything and everything for you, but I hope you’re well too! And I’m also sorry for not publishing this sooner, as I said before I’m a bit insecure of my writing hesitant to post this. But I’m going to, just cause I want to see if there’s anything I can fix. I’m always open to criticism! That being said, thank you for reading this, and again—if you see that anything need fixing or something is not to your liking lmk!!

[lowkeyren]

Hii I hope I'm not intruding, but I was overcome with the urge to rant after I read your alhaitham childhood sweetheart fic. Truly amazing piece of work. Genuinely, my jaw is hanging. I had to clutch my heart in fear it would grow legs and leap out of my chest. Was absolutely swooning.

Anyways. I just wanted to say how Fanfiction is one of the best things to ever exist in this world. It has the potential to ruin and destroy but also heal and fulfill. And I can't appreciate artists enough in this regard because they bring to life, life. If that makes sense. They color a black and white world. They fill the heart with so much imagination and instill so much hope. Love exists because of their creative liberty. And the way writers incorporate all these seemingly minor details to a character just builds them in a light we either yearn for or relate to. I'm rambling this off to you solely because of how much I love alhaitham and how much your fic truly brought me to life. It was insanely well written in my eyes. I loved alhaithams portrayal. I loved the idea.

You captured it so well that i could taste the sweetness of a sweet on my tongue. Oooh and that little moment with alhaitham, cyno, nari and kaveh left me grinning so hard. LIKE I LOVE THE DIALOGUE. nothing too wow or dramatic but it fits and flows o well together with the characters and the story. oh lord and when alhaitham meets us at the end. I'm in love with the way he loves us. [without waiting for an answer, you decide to indulge him, linking your pinky with his. as your thumbs briefly touch, you catch the look in his eyes —serious, yet with a softness that makes your heart skip. “a promise that i’ll be by your side as long as sugar tastes sweet,” he says, his voice low and sincere.] This needs to be framed and hung on my wall. AS LONG AS SUGAR TASTES SWEET? GET OUT OF HERE. adorable. Heart twisting, gut wrenching. I'm rolling on the dirt floor crying. And then u have him say ["so come back with me"]

I'm in a romantic mood. I'll go cry about this. Not getting over it ever. You're amazing. Thank you

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HEYA NO URE NOT INTRUDING AT ALL!!!! u actually made my made my whole week. no joke :') TYSM FOR READING THE FIC IM SO GLAD PPL LIKED IT AHHHHHH

your ask legit left me speechless for like 3 days straight. to hear that my fic had that kind of impact on you, esp on alhaitham's characterization, is beyond rewarding. genuinely, thank you for taking the time to share your comments with me —it seriously means the world to me!!!! (GOD URE SO SWEET URE SO SWEET URE SO S— cavities.)

AND YOU LOVING THE DIALOGUE? THANK YOU, I STRUGGLED WITH THAT SO MUCH ARRUGHHH (cus i was like dang this is such a perfect chance to include a 4ggravate scene but i was so worried i wld mischaracterize them LMAO)

dw i lowkey giggled at alhaitham's last few lines too (so come back w me / as long as sugar tastes sweet) i tried out other lines, but i ended up sticking with these ones because it felt the most impactful to me SO IM THRILLED TO HEAR THAT OTHERS THINK SO TOO (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ

you, you're amazing, dear reader. thank you for your kind words, you lovely wonderful sweet soul <3

[lunarcrown]

Yo OP your art is SO GOOD! I love the warm paper tones of your comics. Whenever I see them, I'm always like, "the sacred texts!" In all seriousness, you are an amazing artist. Just wanted to let you know I really appreciate your art t never fails to cheer me up on a bad day. Sorry for rambling so much, ty! :D

THANK UUUUU AHHH you’re so kind sheeeeshhh

I love warm tones and I LOVE paper texture and gritty brushes so I’m glad it’s enjoyable to look at!!!!!!

I read somewhere once that a non-white background and non-black drawing tool is the best way to draw and sketch without worrying about mistakes and lets things be more organic, so blue lines and warm bg have been my BEST PALS!!!!!

Anyways I hope u enjoy!!!! My fanart has slowed a bit bc I’m HUSTLING drawing for work but the instances I get to do fun stuff are THE BEST!!!!!

[aquilathefighter]

Fluffbruary 28: Wreck

The thrilling conclusion to @fluffbruary! If you'd like to read all of my ficlets, you can check them out on AO3 here!

Fandom: The Sandman (2022)

Relationship: Dream of the Endless/Hob Gadling

Thank you to the lovely @pintobordeaux for helping me get unstuck with this idea!

Dream was pacing outside the restaurant, checking his phone every four or five passes across the length of the building. His date was to arrive soon and frankly, he was terrified. It’s the first time he’s had an interest in a long-term relationship since the divorce. He’d had a few hookups and situationships in the interim, but those didn’t feel this high stakes. Hence the unraveling ball of anxiety in his gut, trailing back and forth across the sidewalk.

He checks his phone again. 6:59 PM. Where is he?

Dream has half a mind to be offended. Doesn’t he know it’s rude to be late to a first date? He can’t find it in himself to get angry, if only because his insides are already a wreck, unspooled and trailing behind him. He crosses in front of the door, dodging a family leaving, two small children full of sweets giggling and running ahead of their parents. Dream collapses on the bench outside and watches as they disappear into the horizon.

As they become specks in Dream’s vision, he feels a buzz in his pocket. He nearly drops the phone trying to fish it out of his pocket with his shaking hands.

Robert: SO sorry! wanted 2 warn u that id be late but service on the tube is terrible!

Robert: Be there in 5 :)

The tension drains out of him like he’d been poked with a stickpin. He sends a reply acknowledging the message.

Dream: Ok.

Then, he slips his phone back into his pocket and closes his eyes. At least he could try to meditate for a few minutes, to rewind his intestines back in place and calm his nerves. A deep breath in and let it out slowly. Again. And again, until his mind is blessedly quiet. Dream floats for a minute or so, at ease in his mind despite the noise of the city around him.

Until a voice jars him into launching himself off the bench. As concrete meets asscheek, Dream looks up at whoever was trying to talk to him. The man is laughing at him.

“You dare…”

“Yeah, I most certainly do. Because your date just scared the living daylights out of you!” He holds out a hand to help Dream up.

“Greetings, Robert. My apologies for my surprise at your arrival.”

“Call me Hob, ‘s what my friends call me,” the man still holding his arm grins. “I really am sorry about that. I had no clue you’d jump like that.”

“Hob. No apologies are necessary.” Dream extricates himself from Hob’s grip. “Shall we go inside?”

Hob nods. “Lead the way.”

The meal goes well enough, with Hob apologizing emphatically over his tardiness and scaring Dream outside and Dream insisting he need not apologize. It turns out they work at the same university; in neighboring departments at that. Hob is a lecturer in Medieval History, which gives Dream ample time to ramble about Arthuriana and its impacts on English literature through today. He lets his mask drop, flailing his hands about as he talks about his favorite concept.

Hob seems enchanted by his true self, if the way he grins while Dream is talking is any measure. It’s relaxing to not have to put on any airs about being a “normal human being,” as his sibling might say. Hob seems utterly unconcerned about how much eye contact Dream is giving him, or whether he’s making the right facial expression. Dream feels… happy for the first time in an eternity.

The waiter gives them some not-so-subtle hints to get out as they talk late into the night. Hob insists on paying the bill, explaining that he has to be a gentleman and make up for the beginning somehow. Dream feels his face flush at being treated to something.

The pair hit the chill of the night air, hovering near the doorway. Hob steps closer.

“May I kiss you?”

Dream reaches out a hand to cup his cheek, the rough stubble setting his nerve endings alight.

“You may do anything you like to me, Robert Gadling,” Dream rumbles as he tilts his head and moves in.

Hob laughs in joy, pulling Dream close and pressing their lips together. It’s the most delicious kiss Dream has ever had, above all of the passionate make-outs that were all tongue and teeth and fire. Kissing Hob is almost delicate, pain au chocolat and candy floss in its sweetness. He groans as Hob pulls away, desperate to pull him back in and never let him go.

Hob smiles again and Dream thinks he could drown and live forever in chestnut, just staring at him.

Dream’s hand is still on his cheek, thumb running across cheekbone and 5 o’clock shadow, as he asks “Can I see you again?”

“Yes, God, I promise I won’t be late next time!”

This time, Dream laughs with him.  

[yawn-junn]

YO IM BACK TO REQUEST ANOTHER SEUNGHEON MXM FIC (can u do prompt 5) CUZ i love seungheon sm BUT DO IT WHEN URE FREEEEEEEE (im the guy who requested two of the seungheon mxm fics 🙏) THANK YOU SO MUCH THOUGH ILY AND UR FICS

Late Night Kisses - Seungheon

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Omg yas just because I love writing these(and I'm in a really good mood rn-)imma write this early (a week early) anyway prompt 5 ok yeah I can the storyline for this was inspired by a BOYNEXTDOOR reaction I read earlier today it's short but at least it's something also can we talk Bout how good they look in the new trailer-

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TW: kissing : cursing (like once) :

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it was around 1:00am when you woke up Seungheon your reason being he didn't give you your night time kiss as he usually does and you can't sleep without it

"Seungheon...wake up.." you said lightly shaking him he rolled over to face you and grabbed on to your arm still asleep you sighed and tried to shake him awake for the 100th time in a row "Seungheon! WAKE TF UP!" you yelled in his ear you smiled in victory when he jumped awake

"What? What's wrong? Did something happen? Are you ok? Did you break an arm?-" he rambled on before you cut him off "well to answer your questions 1 you broke my heart 2 you didn't give me my nightly kiss 3 no I'm not ok I'm heart broken 4 no my arms are ok" you said giggling as you wiggled your arms around to show him

He sighed in relief before laying his head back down and sitting up again "then why? Why did you wake me up?" He said as he slightly pouted (the way I internally fangirled imagining that-) "You sir-" you said pointing at him "didn't give me my nightly kiss" you said his face dropped before a teasing smile appeared "Kiss? You want a kiss?" He asked before cooing at you

"Your so cute!!" He said grabbing your cheeks (face cheeks don't be weird) you swatted his hands away "ok never mind then I'll go ask Yungyu for one" you said trying to get up he was quick to hold you down "oh no you don't" he said grabbing your face and kissing everywhere "you have a lot of strength for a 16 year old" you said as you giggled

He rolled his eyes and layed his head on your chest "now go to bed" he said snuggling into you now feeling extremely tired you fell asleep from then on Seungheon would 'forget' your nightly kiss only to have that sweet moment again (he's just so ejrbeohs rksbdkdh)

507 𝕎𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤

6-3-23

[theanimeoftheblackbunnymask]

I legit am still scared to send asks since I'm worried about coming off too demand-y BUT I will happily give you as much appreciation as you need!! 1. You write Yandere characters extremely well

2. You're formatting is so neat and clean, I adore it.

3. When you write dark characters, you write them DARK.

4. I find the BSD community lacking in truly dark Yandere works, so I come to your page to read your BSD works constantly.

5. Your Yandere PM Dazai is something I go back to weekly since I think it is the blueprint for Yandere PM Dazai.

6. Your Yandere Fyodor Alphabet was the first I ever read and it was so perfect I started my Yandere Fyodor obsession.

7. Separately, you're vents are so goddamn relatable!! (is this a bad thing...?)

8. Lastly. YOU ARE AMAZING AND DESERVE MORE ENGAGEMENT!!

All authors must have proper engagement with their work to feel motivated! No one likes making work or art for no audience!! I know that feeling and it sucks ass.

I hope this doesn't come off too strong or too much. I just really like your writing and wish you hear it to the fullest. <3

AHHH, MY HEART-

I just woke up and this has to be the best thing to wake up to!

I honestly try to keep my writing as neat as possible because I hate it when fics are just slapped together, no neatness, no nothing. I want my work to be easy to read, you know?

When it comes to dark characters, I try to be accurate. I think my favorite thing I've worked on for this blog would have to my yandere Dazai Alphabet, it just feels like the most Canon thing, and I'm so glad you like my PM! Dazai one, it seems to be the most popular.

I agree with the lack of yandere content in the Fandom. I was honestly suprised because I was like, these characters have so much potential.

And back to the dark characters thing. I hate it when people say dark contents when it's actually just borderline fluff. This is a big reason on why I don't do every request I'm given. It was a big issue on my Creepypasta blog because I got so much fluff ask for extremely dark and gruesome characters, and I was like, yo, this not what I'm talking about. Sometimes I don't write yandere characters because when I'm sad and just want fluff, or I got a really cute idea, I can back away from it for a little bit.

I never knew my vents were relatable-, I honestly do it just to ramble.

And you're so right on engagement! Like, I be getting lost of notes, but I get like, so little comments or people in my inbox just talking about it and it's kinda like damn, did you even read it? (I'm glad I get a lot of engagement on my Creepypasta blog, but I want a balance between both blogs, you know?)

Also, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GOING INTO DETAIL ABOUT WHAT U LIKE ABOUT MY BLOG! IT WAS AMAZING TO READ!

[monmuses]

Yo this is kinda like those copy paste things bc I'm literally sending this to most of the mutuals I can think of. But I'm writing it if it makes any difference, and I promise my words are 100% correct even if it's copy pasted to other ppl :PP. Just wanted to say ilysm. I love ur writing style and your icons and your characters and WE NEED TO RP MORE OFTEN. Your blog is chefs kiss!! I love reading ur in character posts but also your ooc rambles. I'm glad to be mutuals With you. 💗💗💗💗

AAA thank you?? so much?? i'm slowly working my motivation back to write but [gestures to Krieg] playing this lil shit has taken up all my time and i gotta work on actually doing stuff again HJFSAHG but thank u!! i really appreciate it!!

it helps w/ the lil brain worms that ive gotten recently today hsjdsf but thank you!!

[arachnaemboss]

Yo this is kinda like those copy paste things bc I'm literally sending this to most of the mutuals I can think of. But I'm writing it if it makes any difference, and I promise my words are 100% correct even if it's copy pasted to other ppl :PP. Just wanted to say ilysm. I love ur writing style and your icons and your characters and WE NEED TO RP MORE OFTEN. Your blog is chefs kiss!! I love reading ur in character posts but also your ooc rambles. I'm glad to be mutuals With you. 💗💗💗💗

OH thank you!!! IM GLAD U LIKE MY BLOG... you can hmu in dms to plot any time! 💛 🖤 💛 🖤

[ckret2]

YO it's been so long but I just want to say i still really adore your writing style. Sometimes I'll remember your KOTM fics exist and re-read every fic in the master list again in like a day. Idk, there something intriguing about how you write language and culture differences, between humans, titans, and the different extraterrestrials.

(Honestly sometimes these fics remind me of alter-human experiences, which might explain my attachment for ur fics lol.)

Anyway, I was wondering what your plan was for the series? (And if u were just waiting for prompts, I got ideas. just wanted to make sure first lol)

Anyway thanks for tolerating my rambling 😅

Oh, thanks so much!! I'm glad you still enjoy them! :) I think that's some of my best work to date on writing inhuman/alien cultures.

Okay so, here's how writing works for me: I pour brain gasoline into my writing engine and then the words go brrr.

A huge, long-term writing project is like an SUV. I have to pour a whole lot of gasoline into the engine, but then it can go very far.

I get brain gasoline from things that mentally energize me. These things include going out to restaurants, cafes, and libraries to write; going to movie theaters and concerts; doing other art projects (like leatherworking or sewing) that require going out to craft stores or classes; getting furniture & decor to improve my home; going to festivals, conventions, or other fun events; and even just getting to walk around malls and downtown areas.

I ain't done shit since early 2020! Any writing energy I had toward the start of quarantine has gradually depleted. I know most of the planet has gone back to treating covid like it's no big deal because it's not as fatal anymore, but long covid is still a thing and my household has health conditions that would make gallivanting around in public actively self-destructive, so I still ain't doing shit.

So it's not a matter of not having ideas. I actually have a list of—let me check—twelve fics on my to-write list for the Rodorah plotline, and that's just to finish the current plot arc before launching the next phase of the plot.

But I'm just not getting the kind of brain gasoline I need to run the SUV-sized engine of a project like No Kings Only Monsters. I'm getting enough gasoline to power a moped. Right now my moped is a writing/art roleplay blog in another fandom where I'm working on an ongoing plot. For me a roleplay blog takes a lot less sustained mental energy than writing whole fics, much less a running series of fics.

So, the technical term for what I'm doing right now is "biding my time." I kind of just have to wait until I reach a more energizing period of my life, and look for opportunities to make that happen.

Within a couple months I'm going to be finishing up the most writing-intensive part of my current RP blog plot, and (fingers crossed) I'm going to be moving into a house. (I bought a house.) The new house is over twice as big as my apartment, and I actually OWN it, which means I can do a LOT to make it my own. I'm hopeful that the process of moving will energize me enough to start working on the place (painting walls, getting furniture, etc), and then the ongoing progress of fixing up my place will further energize me enough to return to fic writing.

That doesn't mean I'll immediately hop back on No Kings Only Monsters. I first want to do some more recent fic ideas that have been percolating in the back of my head. But No Kings Only Monsters is on my "by god, I'm gonna finish this" writing to-do list, so after I've gotten back in the swing of writing things I may revisit a writing strategy that served me well in 2018-2019: "write X amount of words on this project and as a reward you can spend the rest of the day writing whatever you want."

I'm hopeful for the future! But for now, I just can't focus on something that big.

(Hold on to your ideas though; flinging them at me now when I don't have any brain gasoline wouldn't do much good, but I'm not opposed to someday taking reader requests again.)

[graybandanarightpocket]

introduction post!!

hi everyone! my name is rosier or rose. i’m a 20 yo trans subby puppy boy switch. i use he/they pronouns and follows will come from @a******q*****. im single.

here’s some stuff i’m into:

non-sexual d/s

a/b/o

vampirism

sexual d/s

light degredation

praise

worship

somno

intoxication

some stuff to please avoid:

detrans

gore

vomit

piss

shit

vomit

if it’s not on either of these lists feel free to ask me about it.

things i’m okay with being called

puppy (please call me this), prince, sweetheart, love , darling, flower, omega (within context), slut, cunt, toy, prettyboy, if u have a different name you want to call me just tell me :3

on the rare occasion i’m domming or topping in any way sir works well.

please send me:

what you want to do to me literally anything i really like sexting and dirty talk (i’m more likely to respond ig you also have an intro post)

pictures of arms, hands, necks, and thighs

whatever you want tbh, i don’t share or save content sent to me

tags to find my stuff through: #hornyposting my horny posts lol #rare occasion hornyposts where i talk about domming/topping specifically #rambling is me posting anything that isn’t necessarily horny sometimes talking about life sometimes other stuff tends to be related to sex in some way though

thank you for reading i hope we can all have fun

[slightlymore]

omg hello first things first i just wanna say i have probably read if i lose my mind countless of times since i love it so much!

i really love the way u write the story from the plot, characters, pacing, everything! it made me crave more of your similar haechan works and saw that u dropped ur newest death of peace of mind AND OH MY GOSH I JUST FINISHED READING IT JUST NOW AND INITIALLY GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW IT'S FOR THE ONE'S WHO LOVE DREAM SORTER HAECHAN!

thank you thank you so much for writing this! ♡♡♡ AAAAAA I JUST REALLY ENJOYED READING IT AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT PART 😭

with that being said, although i am a bit familiar with miyazaki or tim burton films, i still have yet to completely immerse myself in watching them sooooooo i am quite curious where you get these specific ideas and inspirations (like dream sorter and soulmate train conductor) from hehe since it's so interesting to incorporate those seemingly mundane type of things irl (like dreams and trains) into a magic core concept love story! like were those ideas garnered from the concept of the films themselves or did you add anything from your end for a little ✨pizzazz✨?

omg i hope my last ramble made at least any sense since i really don't know much about miyazaki and tim burton films 😅

anyway, thank you so much again and i hope you have a great week ahead! ♡♡♡

hello!!!!!! thank you so so so much for sending this! I'm so glad you loved the stories!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

dream sorter came to me when I saw those pictures of bell boy haechan in the hotel and i was like yo imagine a hotel you stay in and you fall in love with him but it sounded so boring just like that so I was like well all those colours and the eerie vibes reminds me of something more magical so I was like DREAMS, and that's how it came around hehehe also teddy bear the song really added to it because the main lines haechan sing are let's meet in our dreams and I was like YOOOO bet let's

the train one is when 2 days ago I saw this tik tok on my fyp of an account doing magical scenarios and they were like imagine you go on a train and it brings you to different magical places and you meet your soulmate there and I was like HUHHH so I made up the idea of this world where you must go on this train to meet your soulmate but again having yn meet the soulmate there and that's it sounded boring so I was like TRAIN CONDUCTOR and then the imagery just came to me, steam train, late Victorian era/industrial revolution, nice dresses and little spring and summery towns like a ghibli film BUT also the lack of time in the train, curtains on the windows at all times, basically sentient train, little magical happenings, it also feels like some kind of eerie dream which recalls burton

as you perhaps noticed, in both stories the reader falls in love with background people or people who organise the magical world and I really like this idea. instead of falling in love with another dreamer in your dreams you fall in love with the sorter of them, and instead of finding your soulmate in another passenger you find it in the conductor. there's something curious and powerful about this

when it comes to the miyazaki and tim burton tags i basically use them mostly to kinda explain to people what the vibe of the fics are and nothing from the actual plot of the films. the magic in these particular fics is not explained in depth (as it is for example in my demon Haechan series), it's taken for granted, like it's just there, mostly how it happened in miyazakis and burton's films, and it's just eerie and weird, nothing more. I've also only seen a few of the movies and that's it but they have a very specific vibe to them. miyazaki has these gorgeous lands and flowers and little towns and steam boats and trains and planes and burton has these eerie and borderline creepy imagery. in both of their works the stories are gorgeous but also kinda tragic somehow and the weirdnesses the characters encounter are seen as normal (marrying a skeleton, howls whole persona and walking house, talking animals, a town in which people find normal seeing a boy with scissors for hands etc) merging them together I feel like they describe the dream sorter haechan fic and the conductor fic well

[arsenalgbt]

Hey hi this is crushedstars from ao3 :) First of all thank you for being so nice haha I used to write original stuff a lot but you know how life hits you, and now it just slips into everything. I do write poetry and have written fics but not arsenal-related! anyway haha. Since you asked some of my favourite writers include Angela Carter, Jane Austen, Etel Adnan, James Baldwin, Rabih Alameddine, Marcel Proust, J.M.G. le Clezio, and when it comes to poets, it's Anna Akhmatova, Fadwa Tuqan, Richard Siken! You compared me to Shakespeare (which - hello, crazy) and I do recommend reading him!! Some answers to your comments: the thing that the fic bleeds is that Declan and Kai so obviously love and worship each other but the crater between them is caused by 1) the fact that the love the other shows is not something the other understands, much less is fluent in, and 2) each of them leaves blanks in what they transmit to the other because of their own past/insecurities/struggles/skewed perception and the other is left with having to fill out the blank, which is a deeply subjective process that ends up with them materializing really deep fears. So if the marriage wants to heal those two points should be somewhat addressed by them. NOT saying they should change how they love or how they show their love, but tackling the problem at the root, looking at it head-on. What's poisoning this? Do you know I love you? Do you know I'd throw it all away for you? Do you know I stay alive for you? With regard to JTimber: I understand the writer's urge for the big reveal and the late entrance of the Heart of the Narrative character in the flesh, but please, liberate yourself from that. He doesn't have to physically be in the room. He is there. When Kai was secretive about his doctor's appointment Declan jumped to the conclusion that he was with Jurrien. Jurrien has always been here, from the literal first instalment with Leah, the first scene. That sets it. He haunts the narrative. And why do ghosts exist?? because something is left unresolved. Because there's a knot tied too tight. So Jurrien doesn't have to be here for Kai to get closure and Declan to stop seeing him in his marital bed. With regard to Spinnechen's gender: PLEASE that was just 6 AM ramblings, don't feel like you have to change the gender! It would also be so extremely meaningful for Kai and Declan to have a son and still shield them from the generational hell they've been subjected to. But if you want her to be a girl ofc ofc. Anyway those are my thoughts. All my personal opinion please remember you hold the feather and the ink! Happy to answer any other questions :)

1) the fact that the love the other shows is not something the other understands, much less is fluent in, and 2) each of them leaves blanks in what they transmit to the other because of their own past/insecurities/struggles/skewed perception and the other is left with having to fill out the blank, which is a deeply subjective process that ends up with them materializing really deep fears.

man

just how the fuck my magnum opus could prompt amazing people to leave amazing comments............. super fucking honoured yo....... the fact that how Declan loves is a foreign language to kai, and vice versa. GODDAMN.

ABOUT JURRIEN LOLLLLL he will be there unfortunately *whoooooops* but I adore your ((( He haunts the narrative. And why do ghosts exist?? because something is left unresolved. Because there's a knot tied too tight. ))) again gawd damn...

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It would also be so extremely meaningful for Kai and Declan to have a son and still shield them from the generational hell they've been subjected to.

asfhasdjkhfhajk oh I'm so torn. this reasoning also makes sense. but if it's a girl it's like a hella clean start, a symbol of something new. oh well! *retreating to my cave*

out of the poets and writers u mentioned above I've only read Baldwin and siken. deffo gonna scour the rest because???? your comments are so poetic ajshfhjfjka ahhhh so no arsenal fics. how about in the future? maybe F1? asjfhdhsjkfjkafak

sorry for the late reply I yap on the weekend 🫡 BTW CAN I INCONVENIENT YOU ONCE AGAIN......... I'm just dying to know your perspective on Declan (your first comment said how I always show but never tell how Declan walks on egg shells with everybody). ESPECIALLY his relationship with his mates we dem Boyz 💯 and his 'pure hatred so I kissed u to make sure' towards Mikel LMAO 😭 pls just whenever u have time 😭 and oh how did you find this fic like? are u into deckai are u into either of them are u a gunnerinna????

[light-lanterne]

yo, i googled the album u mentioned in ur vampire cleradin post and it's about an actual historical serial killer which is so cool tbh. i'll listen to it when i have the time but i was wondering smth. is will going to share the fate of the blood countess???

hello !! yep, the entire album ("cruelty and the beast" by cradle of filth) narrates the life of countess elizabeth báthory, !! it explores her life, from childhood to bitter death, and focusses a lot on her alleged crimes (600+ victims :S) and everything that brought them to fruition :]

so yeah, i highly recommend listening to the whole thing (definitely listen to the remaster, though); it's one of the best "black" metal albums ever (metal in general, imo) and it explores the countess' life in a very beautiful and haunting way ~ if you don't like the sound (which for most is an acquired taste, i suppose), you can just read the gorgeous lyrics and get the whole story that way too !!

(dani filth is by far the best lyricist in the whole world and i won't take any criticism >:( alas, i better stop before i ramble for too long. i just love this band a lot so please forgive my enthusiasm u.u )

in regards to will's fate, i'm not sure i'm going to write a huge story surrounding this concept so i'm probably not going to get into those details x.x not that it wouldn't be interesting to tackle how mike would handle the fallout (having will get taken from him, locked away and alone, and not being able to do anything about it), but the countess' death is remarkably sad and i'm not sure how i'd go around it :(

so yeah,,, will probably keep it to how mike handles the initial revelation and how he and will adapt to being "partners in crime" in this medieval-esque context x.x

anyway, thanks for the ask !! i hope you have a delightful day / night and if you do listen to the album, that you can enjoy the sound (or at least dani's poetry) ~ :D

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