#thanks for giving me social interaction

[carlyraejepsans]

sans' dialogue in deltarune if you try to return the box of chocolates really takes me out because it just shows how awkward he is he is absolutely floundering to try and find a funny comeback

walk behind the snack stand to trigger the eggs husband cutscene and THEN give him the box of chocolates to achieve maximum psychic damage

[avallachs]

no one asked, but the reason all of my ocs are either healers or very knowledgeable about poisons and/or disease (or both!) is because it all relates to my special interest of All Time

[hacksawboy]

my sawtism is p much gone but the other day my irl did randomly dm me out of the absolute fucking blue the phrase "do you think they're gonna make saw y and saw z" and that's been marinating on the brain

[britneyshakespeare]

i have been working with kids for four years and i had to write my first ever note just now about a seventh grade boy being inappropriate towards me. i don't know what the hell this could possibly lead to or what. he was trying to feel my legs repeatedly to the point where i had to stop sitting next to him (and i was subbing for his one-to-one para!!!). he's got high support needs. in that kind of job, you're supposed to sit next to them all day and look over their work.

the teacher whose classroom this was happening in could also tell something was wrong. the whole class was acting kinda crazy because it was the day before school vacation week and there was another class coming in to share projects. so like, he was swamped with keeping order already. but we were sitting two feet away from his podium at the front of the room. the kid was giving him and me a hard time when he wouldn't take out his chromebook as he was instructed. and then when he did take out his chromebook, he immediately, for some reason, places it on my lap. he had been ogling my legs the whole time. he puts his computer ON MY LAP. and i'm just like, stunned, because what the hell? can you not keep it on your own lap, for some reason? i don't even know what to say, i just hold it a little above my lap while i'm thinking why on earth would this be happening? he would NOT do this to his regular para if she were here, would he? this can't be normal.

and the teacher sees this and within a minute places a stool in front of the kid for him to put his laptop on. and i'm like. oh ok. yeah. he notices exactly what's happening and that that's not appropriate. and then when the other class comes in to share projects he tells me "miss b——, you don't actually have to sit next to c—— this whole period if you don't want to." and he grabs me a chair for me to go sit with the other paras in the back opposite corner of the room. like he KNEW. and thank you mr. d—— for recognizing that because i was just kind of shocked and didn't know if i was overreacting in my head to all of this.

when there's a point in the class where the kids are discussing stuff, i privately mention what's happened to the para who's sitting closest to me. and she says that the thing about him calling me pretty is something he's been known to do, but the fact that he kept trying to touch my legs is new behavior. and that's a completely different class of behavior. i was telling him NO, don't do that, and he kept doing it. and the fact that he was calling me pretty repeatedly, even when i was giving him instructions that he wasn't taking. and this is the second to last class before the end of the day, so she says she'll take a walk with him before learning center and talk to him about it, and i'm grateful for that. she does. the kid apologizes to me as soon as i come into learning center. but like. WHAT the hell.

i'm STILL like what the hell. this is unfathomable to me. the other adults who i told about this or who witnessed it were supportive of me. but. what to do??? i wrote a long note to his regular para about this, because i knew she was going to hear about it at least from the first para i told. the second para i told about it after school had a kind of... i'm not gonna say enabling reaction, but i suppose since it had already been "taken care of" (or at least, he had been spoken to and apologized) she didn't really have much to add in the way of discipline. i told her what happened after school and she was just like... a little bit, laughing? like oh, yup, that dog. she at the very least confirmed he KNEW what he was doing, that that was not an accident. she said to me "i had a feeling he was going to develop a crush on you" (me and these other paras were together for most of the beginning of the day too). but it's like. it's not about that.

i have worked with children for FOUR years. children have had crushes on me before; i'm quite unfazed by it. boys from the ages of 5-to-15 have told me i'm so pretty before and asked me to marry them. i've never had them feeling up my legs before. i've never had them making me physically uncomfortable. it's NOT about this seventh grader having a crush on the pretty substitute. he is NOT unusual for that, at all. but i've never had a boy of any age or education level repeatedly touching my knees and thighs. THAT is problem behavior!!!

because what if i wasn't assertive enough with him to tell him to stop? what if i was a girl his age? worse, what if i was an adult who encouraged this behavior? i don't come to the middle school to be a seductress. i had no intention in putting on a pair of tights and a skirt this morning of being viewed as an attractive object, especially not by a pubescent boy. what if i did though? what if his interpretation of me wasn't so incorrect and offensive? what if i let him keep touching me inappropriately and saying flirtatious things to me? me, an adult in my mid-twenties, towards a middle school boy?

in no world would that be ok. if i had been feeling up and overly-complimenting a CHILD at my place of work, holy shit would there be reports about me. so a child acting that way could never be ok either. if it'd be firable for me to be reciprocating that action, then that action should not be happening to me. ever. and that child should never repeat that action again to any other adult again.

like i am simply not there to be treated as an attractive young woman. i put on a skirt that shows too much knee and get paired with a boy, though, and that's apparently just a natural consequence. hooo-ly shit. like i don't know what to do. first of all, the more time passes since this has happened, the more i am just unable to stop thinking about it. i wasn't "hurt" or too emotional in the moment but i'm just still processing it and it gets worse. i'm just more and more disgusted.

i don't know what i expect to come out of this, or the email i sent to his regular para. like, am i gonna have to attend a fucking meeting? what is the precedent that this sets for him? WHY do i feel BAD for him about this? well, because he's a child, of course. a child who has done wrong he may not be able to understand. but he knows WHAT he did. he just doesn't know WHY it was wrong.

and i couldn't even say something to him that was like, "well, how would you like it if i was touching you like this?" because young boys do not understand how inappropriate it'd be. i'm sure this kid thought he was gonna get away with what he was doing at the very least. but probably not unlikely he (being a child with no concept of how wrong it'd be) thought he could get some sort of "positive" attention for treating me like this. either way he was simply doing what he wanted to do, with no perspective of how it would make me feel or that it could be classified as harassment. teenage boys think it'd be awesome if the older attractive woman would reciprocate their affections. they're wrong. i, as the older attractive woman of his affection, cannot be the one to convince him of that, though.

i don't know. i don't know. like it's just so not ok. but if i didn't tell another adult about this, he would've gotten away with it. he would probably do it again. and him being in trouble for it is not the same as him understanding that it was wrong. unless someone has a REAL talk with him about inappropriate attention and consent, it's not unlikely that he'll just repeat the behavior in a setting where he thinks he won't be caught or told on. THAT'S the problem. me, i could just never have to be this boy's para again. in my email, i didn't say that i would never be ok working with or around him ever again. he already knows i didn't like it and i'm not afraid to tell on him; as far as that lesson applies to me, individually, i think he's become too ashamed to repeat that.

i don't know. i don't know. i very much expressed that i, i guess, "forgave" him in the email that i wrote. i clarified that i was writing it for the sake of having it on the record. i think that could potentially be very important for the purposes of preventing further similar or escalating behavior from him in the future. i don't want him to be in trouble. i don't think i will be blamed for this, especially not with how promptly i acted, although i don't know to what extent this will be framed as me thinking i'm a "victim." i'm not... i don't feel victimized. i feel disgusted. i feel afraid for the sake of what could happen to or with him in the future, if he thinks behavior like his towards me today is ok.

i feel like if i end up having to further respond to this, this will be made about me. in a way it kind of was. is? in the moment it was happening, it was certainly about me. because i was the one this boy was giving all this unwanted attention to. but to make the consequences of this about me and to involve me any further, i also don't want. because i said what i said already, i don't care if a student has a crush on me. this isn't about me being the pretty substitute. i'm the pretty substitute all the time, to tons of people. that's not really something i've been concerned about up until now.

but do i have to reexplain my personal embarrassment? that i was wearing a skirt? that he was ogling my legs? really? what more do i have to gain from sharing that, other than having the adults at my place of work confirm or deny me in their heads as the pretty substitute? i don't know. perhaps that's REALLY overthinking it. but i don't want to be the substitute that caused a problem for this special ed kid. i don't wanna be the reason that he can't be around me anymore, the person people think of when they're monitoring how he's acting around girls and young women. i DON'T want to be the one people think of when they think of his past misbehavior. i'm NOT here for that.

that's just fucking humiliating. and in this being a thing that could follow him, i have to be ogled and touched over and over again in people's minds for this to be taken seriously. but for this to be swept under the rug would be even worse, no? i don't know. i hate this. the principal is a nice guy; i wouldn't be surprised if he and/or people from the special ed department reached out to me sympathetically about this. but i don't wanna be reached out to. i don't wanna have ppl i work with tell me "sorry that kid was just so attracted to you he couldn't help himself" like come on. if the kid himself doesn't change then i don't really care to remember this incident. and no one reaching out to me and saying they've talked to this kid will actually prove to me he understands. this is the kind of inappropriate behavior it takes years for people to understand why it was wrong, especially a child who has no idea. i mean come on.

[simplydnp]

char, you're so so strong and i'm proud of you <3 i'm glad dnp and the community can be a source of strength and joy for you and i hope all your problems can get solved soon cause i feel like you're such a genuine and lovely person

aww katie thank you 🥺 i'm doing my best--some days i've only got 30% in me, other days are better. i'm trying to be kind to myself during this time, and one of the best ways, i find, to do that is to share joy. let myself feel excitement and happiness, send that message, buy that thing (within reason, as i'm currently at a place i am able to do so)--and do my best to be present with those around me (especially the ones who do the same for me). we've got a special community here and i'm grateful every day that there are lovely people for me to get to interact with all the time. it's truly an honour and a privilege, and i don't take it for granted 💞

[assortedvillainvault]

Could you also some generic headcanons with Hades? Please 🥺

Thank you for your patience Anon - and absolutely!

Hades Headcannons:

I like to think that Hades, when he has time, has A Lot of opinions on how the other Olympian god's run their respective domains.

He's so geared to constantly be thinking about running and improving his own kingdom 24/7 that hearing second hand retellings through gossip or dead souls of his relatives frankly bonkers decision making drives him up the wall.

Zeus is obvious, and he knows not to poke Hera's business with a 10ft pole, but he observes Ares and Athena with a keen interest not unlike a spectator hollering at a sports match, attempting to direct the players from way up in the stands.

At first it was the excuse that war obviously contributed to his soul count - but fuelling the sibling's rivalry gives him a satisfaction unlike any other, and he low key roots for Athena most of the time despite her cold disposition towards him. Ares is more fun and easy to manipulate, but he likes to see the sibling with sarcastic wit, higher intelligence and a blue colour scheme come out on top.

No he is NOT projecting you get that thought out of your head and GET BACK TO WORK

One thing I DEFINITELY think applies to Hades (and this is through my own lived experience so I'm projecting here but if the shoe fits and all) is that he naturally has low empathy. In fact, I think this is a trait that both he and Zeus share.

To be clear - low empathy does not mean that he is naturally cruel (cruelty is a skill honed over time, it's deliberate, and a trait that he definietly posesses though.) It means that Hades would struggle to connect emotionally to others from a young age, and thus had to actively learn what was and was not an appropriate reaction to certain stimuli to get along - or stir shit - with his siblings.

As such, unlike his more naturally empathetic siblings, Hades came across as awkward and off beat while growing up, which didn't help his relationships. He retreated into himself and put up a front to help himself cope once he figured out that his honest feelings tended to gain him negative reactions. His 'businessman' persona is a direct and proportionate reaction to Zeus's own low empathy, specifically to how Zeus barrells on through with sheer confidence enough that most will overlook his shortsightedness in that regard, while that courtesy is not extended to Hades.

The Kronos situation Did Not Help.

With no other avenues available, Hades turned his frankly brilliant intelligence towards logically analysing social interactions and twisting them to his advantage in an attempt to form connections, while also keeping those connections distant so as to avoid disappointment.

That this actively makes others distrust him is not lost on him but he legitimately does not know how to stop this behaviour and, after a few disaters upon attempting to open up, has given up trying all together.

I'm making myself sad again FUCK

On a lighter note - he has a club in the underworld for those souls most affected by his sibling's bullshit. He likes to go and rant with them sometimes, and remembers all their names.

[transgender-craze]

I wonder why no one ever willingly starts conversations with me and then i remember i literally just come up to my friends and ask them to listen to a song about a dead mouse. Like dude. Stop.

[iguessitsjustme]

I will choose true violence... because I already know the answer, lol.

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

21 .part of canon you think is overhyped (tropes in general)

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

You said you’re choosing true violence and you did.

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

I want to preface this by saying that I don’t like calling people annoying. I find that word is most often used to belittle and bully neurodivergent people and I don’t like it. So I’m not going to say the person is annoying but I will say that *I* was annoyed by this so I blocked them. I even made a post about it because it happened twice and I wanted to just put it out there that I didn’t like it and I’ll start blocking people that do it.

I was tagged and performatively thanked for participating in a fandom even though that person never interacted with my posts ever. I was also getting very tired of being tagged by people who never talked to me and only seemed to tag me in a weird way that felt like clout chasing (on tumblr of all places and using me of all people). It felt like people forgot that I am a person behind the url and that they can talk to me about what I’m personally comfortable with before just deciding for me. I could really go into this a whole lot more but I’ll spare y’all the long essay. This is long enough already and I still have two questions to go.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped (tropes in general)

Sing your love. I hate it. This might be surprising to people who know how much I like music but I despise this trope. I always get secondhand embarrassment from it and I feel awkward. The amount of fast forwarding I do when someone whips out a guitar. Very, very, very few actors can pull off this trope and make it enjoyable and yet it keeps appearing in shows. I hate it here.

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

KinnPorsche. I’ll say nothing else about this.

Choose Violence Ask Game

[dutybcrne]

One-sided Kaebedo idea. Not for angst, but for just the sheer absolute PUPPY MODE Kae would be in trying to make himself useful to Albedo and Albedo realizing okay yeah, maybe it IS kind of cool to have someone THAT dedicated to you helping out with shit-

[bklynmusicnerd]

Trina can't decide if she's scared or annoyed. On the one hand, she's aware that Victor is insane and that pathogen is dangerous so she's hiding behind Spencer (human meat shield bf) and covering her face when she can.

On the other hand, her savior complex can't abide by genocide so she's calling Victor out on being "greedy". That was great because Victor still thinks he's the better man than Mikkos because he's not blackmailing countries. But Trina is right.

He's a genocidal ecofascist who wants to kill off everyone not rich enough to be a "true believer" and earn a spot in his bunker. Thereby more effectively hoarding natural resources for himself and his fellow rich people. That's the definition of greed.

[torgawl]

i think venti is the "sorry he asked for no pickles" person in xiaoven

[shadowetienne]

Tagged by the wonderful @catboyjunhyung, thank you!

rules: tag 9 ppl you want to know better

last song: Lightsum "Alive"

last show: uhhhh, I don't do a lot of shows. If we are talking things with an actual plot, I watched Our Flag Means Death with my sister, spouse, one of my best friends, and said best friend's husband not that long after it came out. If we are good including variety shows in this, I did finish watching the entirety of that Hybe picnic show.

currently watching: again, I dont do a ton of show watching, I've been in the middle of a few Star Wars shows with the same crowd for a while? I'm enjoying Enhypen's So So Fun as it comes out on the variety front. My spouse and I have been ongoing watching Forged in Fire episodes working our way through extant episodes bit by bit.

currently reading: I am not in the middle of a book right now. Surgery recovery does not lend itself to attention span for me. I am utterly blanking on the last book I read, but I read a lot of YA, partially because it is relevant for what my students will be reading and partially because I like it.

current obsession: Kpop wise: OnlyOneOf solo progression and how it will play out, Seventeen always. Outside of that: figuring out how to make mooncakes that I can eat.

As always, tags from me are low pressure, do this if it seems fun! @iridescentspacewhale, @greenteaocean, @ginaeyo, @henlex, @kellyren92, @lesbianhanguangjunji, @professional-fangirl2187, @qaz-the-great, and anyone else who this seems interesting to (I tried to focus on newer mutuals and people who I'm seeing into new things), so especially if we are newer mutuals feel free to tag me in the thing.

[shrimp1y]

sorry to the few ppl on my dash I am not spam liking on ur blog ur just the only ones on my dash

[lunar-fey]

💕 What's your favorite thing about FFVII or surrounding games?

i think cloud is so funny. i really need to play ffvii fully one of these days (perhaps the remake when its done) and i'm not entirely sure the pace or extent to which they reveal this in main game, but going into crisis core with my only knowledge of cloud being "he's the really special cool protagonist guy who has like a soul bond with sephiroth and Has To Defeat Him as like a metaphor for personal demons or like the horrors of what capitalism can create or something" and then finding out he's literally just some guy with every mental illness ever. instantly he became one of my favorite protagonists of anything ever. they really did that! AND he's a drug addict <3

special interest asks

[noxtivagus]

bruh

[some-french-asshole]

Actually I think I should just stop that, you know, the whole talking, chatting, speaking, discussing, conversing thing. I'm not good at it, I think I gave it a good shot but this really isn't my thing.

If you need me, no you don't, go ask someone more competent (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ♡