#thats WHY i love him sm hes the kind of person i want irl. like outside of fiction he is my ideal type.

[silliest-heartaches]

I saw your Errorink headcanons

How do you think they would get along? (Because y'know, he destroys, he protects)

tbh aside from input from the creators that they would be canon friends (IN MY DREAMS) i have a lot of thoughts on why they would make great friends actually:

First of all, there is the idea that they have to make peace with the innevitability that regardless of what they do or how they feel about creation or destruction respectively, the balance will keep itself going purely because thats how creation and destruction of fanprojects irl work!! no amount of encouragemnt from ink or pestering from error are ever going to truly eradicate/permanently keep the growth of creations and aus in the multiverse!! I like to imagine its the same kind of silliness that good omens has (ie angel/demon being friends and maybe lovers just having the oppositr kinda jobs) except they both actually enjoy their jobs lol

I also like to think that the way they view the multiverse is not so black and white as they first may appear!! We already know that error DOES have aus that hes fond of and will not destroy bc he has a certain attachment to it, making us see that he isnt just some mindless killer who destroys for the sake of destroying (i forgot what his actual reason was aside from the anomaly stuff so in my head its bc all the multiverses mess with his code and overload his system which is why he hates anomalies sm ((including original ut funnily enough? Bc ig thats why his suffering happened in the first place (to me at least))) he is just selfish and wants everyone else to adjust to his comfort

For ink, he also views pretty much everything else aside from him as characters, and is thus not as connected to them as you may think. The reasons on why he protects these aus is kind of selfish (to refill his vials + the satisfaction of feeling like a real living being But More compared to other characters within their own universes) despite the good guy facade he tries to make himself have hes also inherrently selfish with his reasonings on why he wants to protect the aus in the first place

(i also wanna say that alongside all of what im saying ink genuinely does hold a lot of love for the aus and has a lot of fondness for certain characters aus etc, but it is very much in a fiction vs reality sorta way, bc thats how he views himself vs every one else)

except error. (well. sort of. but it kinda goes both ways. hes close enough)

tldr despite feeling that they are above it all and seperate from the aus and characters that they create (canon info for both i think) i think they can (and do) acknowlege that the world is bigger than them both despite those feelings and find themselves kindred spirits in the sense that their views and pov of the world is very similar on a base level and see eachother as equals because of it (something i dont really see personally with p much every other sans)

like yes other sanses and characters can be aware of and have beef with the multiverse in whatever way they can but none will ever be as innherently connected to the multiverse and what created them as much as error and ink do,,,bc to most everyone else, it is simply a part of their lives to move through aus with, comapred to errorink having the aus be their reason for existing and acting (the other guys drama being centered around different things much smaller in scale compared to error and inks whole deal being with the entire multiverse as it exists if im making sense)

also also theyre both described as immature and insecure so. i think they can have a lot of fun having childish banter thats cute and for the funsies (both dramatic jokey guys please hear me out)

[ghostiiess]

[NSB HEADCANONS] - going to an anime convention with kane!

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pov: you going with kane to one of his fav's place in the world!!

warnings: sweet, sweet, sweet and sweet

type: super fluff and wholesome

member: kane ratan

oh damn, he would be so excited and so happy

like.. if you know kane, you probably know how much he loves animes and japanese stuff

he love watching animes

and if he can go see all the anime characters irl, he would do it

so when you asked yes to go with him to an anime convention, he was super happy and excited!!!

if you're the type to watch A LOT of animes, he would watch them with you

if you don't or / and would love to watch some, then, he would do it with you <3 and he would make you understand the story if you don't really understand and which characters are villains or heroes

he would drive with his car (or ty's car lol... JUST KIDDING.. or not) and put anime opening music in the background

ratan would probably talk about animes all along the drive

« Who do you want to meet? »

« WAIT Y/N!! WE HAVE TO SEE LEVI FROM AOT!!! »

"y/n, this is going to be so cool!! i'm so excited!"

he would do matching cosplays with you (if that’s smith you would like off!)

i know kane love cosplaying, so expect these kind of things with him!! but only if you're comfortable though! if you're not, then, he'll cosplay alone and would be totally okay with it! he really don't want to make you uncomfortable in any way!

he would hold your hands 😆

and he would say as an excuse "there's way too much people! i don't want to loose you"

well.. it would be an excuse and also a truth.. there's a lot of people, you know? he wouldn't want to loose you. but... he also want to hold your hand since he really love it how it make him feel

holding hands for kane, is something that really make him happy and all soft and mushy?

he would take pictures with you!!

And post you on his social medias 😏😏😏

and he would also take pictures with some of your fav anime characters

and if you don't have fav fictional characters, then, he'll ask you to take the pictures of him 😭😂

of course, kane would pay for you <3

not because he know you don't have money or because he's scared you'll be broke or something, but because it make him happy

see.. kane love making others people happy

a proof? he brought a mansion for the nsb boys for a month, i think one year ago? 😭 or he did something like that, but still!! he wanted to make the boys all comfy and cozy and happy and all, you know?

so i'm sure that if you couldn't afford something you would REALLY want, he would be happy to pay it for you (and he would buy it in secret to make you a surprise)

he would buy matching decorations, matching figurines or things like that

Idk why but Kane would be the person to buy a lot of surprise box

Or like anime surprise box 😂

Oh btw, btw!!! For the pictures!! he would also take sm with you

and also the tiktoks.. damn..

OFC HE WOULD POST YOU 😏😏

He have to show the world how lucky he is to be at this place with one of his fav person in the world

finally, going to an anime convention with kane is something super special 🩷

not because he love these kind of things, or that he know a lot of informations and things about them, or because he loves watching animes with you

I mean, yes its still fun going there and knowing who and where the characters are coming from, but also because you're with him and he's with you (help this is so cheesy- 🧀)

he love how he can truly be himself at that place and that he can live this amazing moment at one of his fav place with one of his fav person in the world <3 (thats you babe)

hope you guys liked it!! Requests are coming back soon :))

(i had so much fun writing it omg)

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[poppy-metal]

me cringing whenever i read hard dom eddie smut on this app bc that's my soulmate and i happen to know him deeper than anyone else and know for a fact that man is a service top through and through.

[ksj1]

Hello! 💫✨💛 This is the love bot! I am here to ask you to describe your mutuals as your favorite things/feelings! Spread some love during these tough times 💛✨💫 Then send this to 10 people and keep the love going 💛

describing my muutuals as my favorite things??? ah oh my god this is going to be so hard nd its gon suck sorry 😣

@monojoons - feeling/joy mostly because i feel like that whenever i'm talking to her! taylor is a precious human and i've known her for a while! she's also a good listener nd tries to give the best advice! so she really is to me the feeling joy :) also her work gives me so much joy (especially the jinnie ones hehe) also i never thought i would come back to tumblr like ever..but when i did so nd met u i just knew :( that i should stay on here ... i rlly thought of leaving this place for once but can i say that u being on here made me stay ??? like u make me rlly smile irl even!!! i just want u to have the same feeling like the same u give me joyful taylornim 🌷

@cowboyjinbop feeling/happiness! shir is one of the funniest people nd her tags always give me happiness whenever im on tumblr T-T i hope she knows she's one of the good people on this hell site c i love her sm 🥺

@yoonmochiiii feeling/amazed. i always feel amazed bc fer is a talented content creator nd her love for yoongi is so soft i mean look at her header it ☹️💔 HEARTBREAKING. but in a good way the way where i just cri.

@joonie feeling/thankful. i've known jp for a short time nd i'm just thankful for her message to when that *awful* thing happened to me 😭 thank u jp for ur kind words nd i'm also thankful for her work on this site her gifs r so pretty i'm always like ❤️_❤️ i wish i was just talented like u :(

@jinsmoonprincess feeling/kind dear vivi who has always been there for me whenever i needed someone and sometimes i just wanna give u so much back bc u have given me so much love!! i just adore u so much!! (nd our jin talks ure the kindest :( )

@jinseulgi feeling/wonderful i think the best chloe is one of the most wonderful people i've ever known ☹️. she introduced me the world to animal crossing so god bless her!!! and also her personality is so?? wonderful??? its always positive and so mf cute i just :( respect u lots chloe!!!! *throws a pink jinnie at u* enjoy!

@stargazingjin feeling/tender becca??? the only becca ever?? yes i feel like u would be the feeling: tender. that's what i get from u ... the way u always r so sweet nice nd so good?? to everyone nd with me i'm like..this tender good person..whom i don't deserve to even interact with...does so with me????? i'm just a poor human who loves u so much nd thats why i get the tender vibe with u 💘

@yoong02 feeling/warm its simple! ur personality, ur blog just!! ur everything!!! makes my heart warm so i can say that ur whome existence gives me a warm good feeling especially since ure my maghrebia habtiti that just tops everything and ure one of the cool ones 🥰

@funkyrosejin feeling/comforted am i allowed to say that i do feel comforted by ur cute text posts nd tags cause?? i AM!!! also ure really so kind to me i just dont think ... me deserves.... also crazy but the way u love seokjin gives me also comfort ? to see someone love him so much makes me so happy he deserves so much nd u do give him all that T-T💕

[kweebtrash]

Idk if you’ve ever answered this, but I’m curious, why do you bias Johnny so hard? Messy actually made me start paying attention to Johnny more and I don’t regret it lol so thanks.

Ok so I have answered this before but I can't for the life of me find where I put it in my asks so I'll just rewrite my essay here. Bare with me it's long lmao. I remember I wrote about some physical stuff I like about him but let's take it from the top lmao.

SO I went to kcon ny 18 and I was a avid listener of NCT but I didn't really know any of the members by name or face or anything. And of course Johnny was one of the hosts because he speaks English and I was trying to find my bias and I thought maybe I would like taeyong (ppfffttt lmao) but my friends friend (who is a very toxic and gross and mean to other idols/groups) is a ty Stan and basically said "no he's mine. You can't have him. Go after Johnny or something." And I DEADASS SAID "NO HES UGLY"

Yah I thought my whole ass man was uglee 😂😂😂😂

So anyway I think around Sept or October my friend was really into NCT and was helping me to learn them and I don't remember what made me love Johnny so much specifically but it just kinda clicked.

So after that I just started biasing him so hard, he became my ult bias, and I flew all the way to Chicago for the concert just to see him cry.

So the reasons why I like him include:

Physical: BIG TOL BOIIIII. I have a thing for tol dumb goofy idiots with deep voices and big hands. A lot of my biases are like this lmao. But also BIG HANDS. His voice isn't super deep but I find it to be a nice tone in his own way. He has this cute overbite also?? Like idk why it's cute but I think it is and it makes him suck in air alot when he talks and it adds to his little lisp. (Don't @ me, I have an oral fixation ok) his smile is the cutest and makes me seo soft UM THOSE LIPS??? HI HELLO. His big ass broad shoulders??? HIS CUTE LIL PEACH BUTT??? THOSE THIGHS???? He competed with shownu on lipstick prince in a thigh separating contest and they tied one to one and shownu said it was kinda hard to beat him so this boy got STONK THIGHS. CHERRY BOMB EMO UNDERCUT JOHNNY BEING THE SUPERIOR JOHNNY??? His eyes are the most gorgeous things ever and he's made me fall in love with brown eyes. His hair always looks so floofy and soft. (Also we cannon him as having a big dick so)

Personality: A BIG ASS FUCKING AQUARIUS. so he's basically a big soft teddy bear thats extremely goofy and klutzy (which is also a majority of my biases). He puts his heart and soul into dancing on stage and masters choreography so damn well but when he dances on his own he's just...a white suburban dad trying to fit in with his teenage sons. It's soooooo bad. I am in a constant rotation of disappointment, second hand embarrassment, soft gushy lovey dovey feelings, and horniness when it comes to Johnny Suh. He's so awkward and weird like all the time and im just like WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS PLEASE STOP. He's the most extra person and can't do anything normally and with all of that he never fails to make me laugh. He's the biggest dork to exist. Also he has the best duality of man ever. On stage and in super modelesque pictures and some MVs he looks like a daddy that will tear your ass up in a heartbeat and other times he's just like (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ and the best uwu bean. He's literally so sweet and caring to people and so passionate about his hobbies (although he really like photography he's the worst fucking videographer ever and can't keep a camera still to save his life). He's a really great leader and his relationship with the others are so cute. Marks his brother, taeils his husband, Jae's his best friend, haechan and chenle are his sons, ten and ty have big ass gay love crushes on him (same sis). And it's all so precious. He's a big ass fucking Mama's boy and his relationship with his mom is the cutest thing ever. She loves her big ass baby so much and ME TOO MRS SUH ME TOO. He'd be the sweetest and dorkiest boyfriend ever and would always try and make you feel better when you're sad and make you laugh and give tons of hugs,kisses, and affection. And even tho us sluts categorize him as a big ass Dom he'd be really sweet in bed irl. He's just too much of a goofball to be any other way.

Career wise: well this one's hard because johfam suffer a lot when it comes to Johnny's talents. He's completely overlooked and forced to get one or two lines or some hype up chorus shit and it's really annoying but we find time to support him anyway. He has a really sweet soft voice and doesn't really have a big range like taeil but it's really nice none the less AND THEN THEY SLAP AUTOTUNE ON IT AND MAKE HIM SOUND FAKE. (See highway to heaven) he can play piano/keyboard and he's so good at it and I was at least happy that at their concert Johnny had a mini solo for the transition into regular where he got the spotlight and got to play the keyboard (cries forever). THEY DONT LET HIM DJ ANYMORE AND I DONT KNOW WHY HES SO CUTE WHEN HE DJS. BRING BACK DJ JOHNNY. Also he's supposed to be a rapper? Never raps? Supposed to be a lead dancer? Gets center for like 10 seconds. One day I hope he expands into other stuff though sm doesn't really let their idols do anything else (much). Like I think he'd make a good model. He knows how to take pics well. He walks well in heels believe it or not so maybe he won't completely fall on his face on the runway. Anyway let Johnny Suh have his moment to shine and showcase his talents bc sm thinks he ain't got any and wants him to suffer.

In summary he's just really sweet, kind, funny, and caring and hes talented but overlooked so we try and give him a lot of love and support.

Tl;Dr: Johnny's great. Stan Johnny.

[euphoriecs]

11/11/11 tag !!!

thank u sm for tagging me @yikescomma​, @buckaroowrites​ nd @yikeskimi​ !!!

rules: answer 11 questions, write your own 11, tag 11 people !

under the cut bc its a Lotta questions KSKSKSHK

yikescomma’s questions!!

1. what’s your favourite place to write?

oh this is ?? kind of a tough one bc i feel like i never Branched out in my spaces when it comes 2 being productive,, like a lot of my work is done in my bedroom just bc my desk is there and it’s the most convenient,,,, honestly im jus gonna say my favorite place to write would be from . my desk . bc it faces the window :-)

2. which character(s) from your wip(s) is your favourite?

since i only have wtsf confidently worked out ,, i’ll use those ocs !! but i think , quite Honestlie ,,, that wendy is my favorite character !! im rly in love with how she progresses as a person nd also she’s jsut . she gets it u know .

3. what are some inspirations for your wip(s)?

I TALKED ABT THIS BEFORE but b/ts’ hyyh series, my neighborhood, spring day by b/ts are a few inspirations for wtsf !!! 

4. how did you start writing?

my dad got me hooked on reading when i was really really young !! and being able to read abt all these huge worlds nd being given an opportunity 2 fall in love w them rly inspired me to want to write worlds of my own . plus , i watch a lot of different shows nd animes that feed into my daydreams nd sometimes im like ‘yo,,, that was a good daydream,,,,, time 2 story it’ .

5. which of your ocs is most difficult to write?

uHGHHGHGS ARTHUR ...... trying to capture this like . enigmatic feeling while keeping close 2 his reasons for acting That way is actually ,, rly hard?? hes a tough cookie 2 crack but i will crack it .

6. what aesthetic do you associate with your wip(s)?

for wtsf ,,, quiet towns , lonely beaches , sunset nd sunrise ,,, running through the streets ?? 

7. do you like planning?

YEA !! i see it more as like . being able to explore ur wip and what directions it can take nd its also jsut rly helpful to have a solid foundation .

8. what is your favourite quote from your wip(s)?

i pulled this from my drabbles but: “Slow down.” Wendy grabbed Arthur’s wrist, pulling him down to sit on the sand. “This world can’t keep up with you.”

9. do you like to listen to music while you write?

yes and no ?? im very particular to the kind of music im listening to nd more often than not, i write in complete silence ,,, but sometimes i’ll find a song that i feel rly fits the vibe of what im writing nd i just put it on repeat HGSHJK

10. what do you like most about your own writing?

i think i like the descriptive aspects of it ?? like how i describe places nd feelings ,,,, :-) !

11. what are/were/would be your ocs favourite subjects in school?

everyone except piper in wtsf is graduated from high school but ,, wendy liked english class the best bc it was fun nd she got good grades !! rafael definitely loved psychology nd took it at an ap level ,, arthur liked math nd chemistry .. chemistry he liked More bc he got 2 blow stuff up SKKSKSEH and piper likes world history!! tho shes not good at it . but she likes it!!

buckaroowrites’ questions!!

what is your favorite subgenre to write? to read?

i lov urban fantasy and low fantasy JGHDSHGJKS like its my favorite to write nd read bc like .. o heck ?? ghosts nd ghouls nd just overall supernatural stuff irl ?? that’s the way 2 go

if you had to be trapped on a desert island with any of your ocs, who would it be and why?

if i had 2 be trapped on a desert island ...... i’d probably choose rafael . honestlie he just seems like he always knows what’s up nd my chances of survival would increase w him JHGJKSJKS

what is your favorite medium to write?

definitely novels !! its a format i’ve pretty much grown up w and im more comfortable w this medium than any others GHSHJKS but i’d love to explore like ,, screenplays nd see where that takes me

who was your first oc?

HYLLY SHITTTT THIS BRINGS ME BACK SJHJHJGJKS i used to draw a lot back when i was younger nd so i had this oc JHJS his name was ian and he was meant for the maximum ride universe but he was a dumb dude who was 2% cat . nd he had an adopted sister ,, i forgot her name but she was part bird .

what was your first wip about?

world end club is supposed 2 be abt a group of teens who work together 2 take down a corporation that wants 2 essentially control the artificial island they live on thru engineered soldiers . ITS A CONCEPT ,, nd it requires a little Too Much for my one brain cell to think abt

thoughts on shakespeare?

uhhh no thots bc i never read his work in high school i jus know macbeth is cursed .... wow i rly dont know anything abt shakespeare huh .

poetry or prose?

o this is TOUGH i rly adore both .......... im gonna . im gonna go w prose . i lvoe poetry so much sometimes there are lines that just rly fucken punch u in the face but im gonna go w prose bc its familiar !!

would you ever co-write a story?

nO ..... i wouldnt b able 2 compromise i’d jus b like oH ACTUALLY SKSKKS MY IDEA’S DUMB LETS JUST DO URS 

write what you want to write or write what you want to read/watch?

oh . fuc .... i feel like its important to have a good balance of both but . honestlie im very partial to what i want to read/watch ..

do you like to write violence?

i dont Like 2 write it but its In My Wips !

what is your favorite trope?

oH ,, probably ‘fire forged friends’ or like . mutual pining ... i have too many favorite tropes nd somehow im gonna incorporate them all .

yikeskimi’s questions!!

Tell us about the main character(s) in your current WIP!

oKAY SO im gonna try to not make this too long SJKHJGS !! wendy is a very like . prickly character . shes like a cactus . nd she’s not too fond of letting ppl get close, but the ppl who do manage to get close to her are happie 2 learn she would actually die for them . loyalty is a Huge Huge part of her character, and she cares very deeply abt the people she calls family . shes also v sarcastic nd like . ‘open ur eyes dummy’ .

arthur is a kind of person who lives heavily on false pretenses . like he projects this image bc its an image that he can control nd he jsut Rolls w it , but hes actually someone who likes 2 tease his friends nd be friendly to them ,, hes got Issuez nd is very much the type of person to be like ‘o lol im ok :-)...’ nd prioritize the needs of others 

rafael is , in all honesty , just babey . he studied a lot during high school nd rly pushed himself beyond his limits bc he wants to be able 2 go 2 a good college on scholarship nd get a job 2 support his family , nd hes just ?? very responsible nd sweet but that can also manifest into him taking on more than he should nd burning out . 

piper is a very ,, honestlie kinda sad character kjHGJSJ she spends a lot of time just trying 2 appeal to other ppl bc she knows her interest in the supernatural make her a ‘weird’ person nd she wants to be able 2 have real friends ,, but when she learns 2 let go of this she’s very silly nd always making jokes During The Right time ..

Do you have an all time favorite OC? Tell us about them!

hMMMM i dont think i do ??? my memory of my ocs is rly bad JHSJ so more often than not i just ,, rip i dont remember them </3

If you could be best friends with one of your OCs, who would it be and why?

ms piper chaiyathan !!!! shes a very open nd kind individual nd i feel like our humor nd joking style would match V v v well !!!

Last line you’ve written in your WIP?

Wendy, unlike her brothers Adam and Nate, had inherited her father’s rough touch, and that made them both unwanted in the high stakes setting of a diner kitchen.

If you have a chosen title for your WIP, were there any titles you considered before it? And if not, what are some titles you’re thinking of?

when the sun falls went through SO many titles nd i actually have them all here: where the sun goes / fever dreams / above the sun / where the sun follows / the drowned sun ... as u can see the sun was smth i Needed .

What is an important element in the world your WIP takes place in?

uHHHH the supernatural element is . Very important but i cant be too specific about it but i will tell u it involves a dead tree on the beach .

Tell us an out of context spoiler.

arthur gets a cool new set of eyes.

Any power couples/ships in your WIP?

wendy nd arthur babey ,,,,,, bat nd molotov cocktail duo ,,,, last name central until the important moment nd THEN they use each other’s first names ..

Any music you like listening to while you write?

uHHHH specifically for wtsf i listen 2 a lot of hozier, lorde, conan gray, khalid nd halsey :-)

What would your main character(s) favorite song be?

oH okay i got this in the BAG ... wendy’s favorite song would Absolutely be work place by hozier or more than sorrow by a-lin ,,, arthur would definitely b listening 2 like . free spirit by khalid .. piper, since she p much spent all of middle school nd 2 years of high school in thailand ,, i think she’

Which character in your WIP could you relate to the most?

honestly? all of them !!! a lot of the characters in wtsf have little bits nd pieces of me bc thats how all my ocs come into existence nd theres no One character thats like “oh,,, das me”

and here are my 11 questions !!

Which one of your OCs do you think could survive a zombie apocalypse? Why?

What’s something you’ve been itching to write about?

Share the last paragraph you wrote!

Do you prefer coming up with plots or characters? Why?

Do you have any abandoned WIPs? Tell us about them!

What are some favorite themes/tropes to write about?

How do you get into the zone for writing?

Tell us a random fact for any of your OCs !!!

Are you someone who needs a visual for your WIPs?

What are some influences to your writing style?

If you had to be a character in one of your WIPs, which WIP would it be and what role would you play?

i’m gonna tag @babyreeds @holotones @alejandroistyping @noloumna @faerisms @omniawrites @aslanwrites @ashesconstellation @thegrievingyoung @glittcrpeach @syposium !!! no pressure to do it if u dont want to tho <3

[wanjeokhaeseo]

loving you = i. 💘

group: day6

memeber: young k

genre: really really angsty to fluff LOL I cannot do sad endings soz

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dedicated to  b r i a n for bias wrecking me on this beautiful day…sorry chicken boi :”) really love his work and his cuteness HAHAHAA i hope you keep it up man <3333 thank you for touching me w your hard work and talent !!

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Younghyun licked his tongue against the two cheeky dents in the inner part of his wet, swelled gums as they started to sear with pain yet again. It was always a habit of his-ever since young, he had been taught by his parents that saliva was the world’s best medicine. With tired footsteps, he gave the small scanner on the fare gate a brief swipe before ghosting through, feeling the weight of the world weigh down on his slumped, fatigued shoulders.

It was a cold morning, the quilt of grey clouds filling the air with beautiful, solemn curves-largely resembling the weather that he had seen in London. Younghyun had always liked stormy weather. It signified a good day to huddle up in his room and write songs, whilst maybe doing some freestyle now and there to move his bones…

Instead of doing all of that which he could only bitterly dream of, he was forced onto this stupid train to go to an even more stupid party.

He closed his eyes briefly, only daring to release just a smidge of his pent up feelings into the air through a pathetic little sigh. Younghyun wasn’t one to wear his feelings on his sleeve, either, unlike the stupid friend, Jae who had invited him to the party.

“Jeez, Brian, go make some friends.” he had declared in his throaty American accent, “I know you don’t like to socialise, but you write all those cheesy love songs in your room without having any damn experience?”

Okay, yeah, the last line was sort of a joke, but it also sort of hurt.

Jae was his only other friend, Dowoon, Sungjin, Wonpil and Terry aside.

Did Younghyun have a choice?

Recalling the incident stirred up an almost laughable, petty anger in a part of Younghyun as he felt his eyebrows arch, wanting to rip apart his leather jacket and neatly striped T-shirt. Socialising was most probably the reason he didn’t have friends. Knowing himself, he’d probably just sit in a corner of the party with snacks and start listening to a mixtape or something.

As the chugging of the train ran against his ear noisily, louder and prominent with each step, subsequently following up with the rushing in of the big, white vehicle and displaying fleeting blurs of businessmen in deep conversation, Younghyun took a long, obnoxious breath to pace himself.

Maybe this party wouldn’t be so bad.

At the very least, it would have food.

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The faint sounds of the old piano tapped onto Younghyun’s senses gently, repeating itself and slowly, weaving into a melody of a lost, foreign cry. He could feel his heart begin to smoothen out as ease washed over his back like a dripping waterfall, dilapidating the building of pent up anxiety in him while his back leaned unceremoniously against the cold subway wall.

Music had always been his best companion. As the track from earlier faded into an electro, yet somehow inconsistent, hesitant EDM, Younghyun imagined the cute, petty problems of a teenage girl, stumbling and shy around her crush. From there on, one big story proceeded to unfold and play in front of his eyes, as he started losing consciousness in the real world and dropping deep into the embrace of the imaginary yet tangible.

While the track escalated to a more lively rhythm then onwards, Younghyun couldn’t help but think-why were people so hard to understand?

The scores scattered across his piano stand, the unfinished tracks still stored away safely on his laptop, the melody still hovering over his head steadily and soothingly…they were there for him, when no one else ever would be.

As soon as the story stacking up like building blocks in his head was about to reach its climax, the half built tragedy was instantly destroyed by the rude cutting in of xylophone sounds.

Younghyun’s eyes shot open a little too vigorously as he answered the phone with another kind of petty fury in his heart. Before he knew it, the beautiful scene of cherry blossom trees swaying softly under the two characters had vanished without a trace, instead bringing back the cold winter air and the cacophony of the chatty adults on the train, complaining about how spoilt the younger generation was.

He could feel his eyes rise to his head as he released another helpless, annoyed sigh from his peeling lips.

The stupid iPhone ringtone was perhaps, the only kind of music he would ever loathe.

“Hello?” he grunted, trying to mask as much of his dissatisfaction as possible as he clutched his hand to his chin.

“Yoooooo, Brian, my man, what’s taking so long?” a hearty scream pierced Younghyun’s poor, dying eardrums amidst his earlier, more gentle monotone, and if it wasn’t for the already irritant stares from the grown ups, he definitely would have shouted back.

“Hmm, I don’t know man, you being annoying and embarrassing me in public?” he hissed, settling for a curt retort as his mouth got as close to the mic as he could.

“Oh come on, you know I’m your best friend.” Younghyun could already visualise the pout forming onto Jae’s lips as his tone dipped at the end slightly, and inside, he snickered instinctively-he knew that Jae was holding back his sarcastic replies for the sole reason of getting him to come to the party.

“Nah, you’re not my best friend, you’re a loser.” he smirked, thoroughly basking in the triumph of having the upper hand over someone who’d always win at sass fights.

Younghyun couldn’t help but laugh as Jae proceeded to say, “I’m done with being nice to you, bigger loser. I heard the announcer lady, you’re here already. See you in 5 minutes, or square up.” Spontaneously, the phone hung up, without bothering to let his last sentence linger slowly in the air-it was just Jae’s kind of humour, quick and satirical, which all his friends would use to either tease each other or fire it back at him.

At the coincidental thought of his friends, Younghyun felt his lips lift slowly as the phone interface vanished to reveal his lockscreen of a selfie his friends had took with him, during that once when he had climbed on top of the fence, fell and smashed his head into the ground while he was drunk.

He loved his friends a lot.

At that thought, a strange hollowness followed up into his heart, and he couldn’t help but sigh again as he dragged his muddy shoes out of the flooring of the subway, into the scary unknown of the public.

The party was a place for social butterflies.

There was no way that anyone else at that place could love someone as uninteresting and unsociable as him.

While he started weaving his way through the crowd waiting to swallow him up, inwardly emotionless and stale without the support of music nor friends-the track that had followed up from his call, was painfully the voice of his own, fighting against the voice in his heart with a stinging irony.

It was a self composed song, I Like You, and right now, Younghyun didn’t like himself much.

i love him sm ;;; to be honest I doubt thats who he is irl bcos he’s such an open and friendly person and he’s also a very annoying and interesting person HAHAHA for the insecure part I wouldn’t know but dang,,,he definitely isn’t unsociable LOL he’s so annoying ngl >:( stan talent stan day6 yalls !!! side note young k really is a very talented and hardworking person, I’m so proud of how far he has gone !!!!

[wannawrite]

loving you = i. 💘

group: day6

memeber: young k 

genre: really really angsty to fluff LOL I cannot do sad endings soz

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dedicated to  b r i a n for bias wrecking me on this beautiful day...sorry chicken boi :”) really love his work and his cuteness HAHAHAA i hope you keep it up man <3333 thank you for touching me w your hard work and talent !!

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Younghyun licked his tongue against the two cheeky dents in the inner part of his wet, swelled gums as they started to sear with pain yet again. It was always a habit of his-ever since young, he had been taught by his parents that saliva was the world’s best medicine. With tired footsteps, he gave the small scanner on the fare gate a brief swipe before ghosting through, feeling the weight of the world weigh down on his slumped, fatigued shoulders.

It was a cold morning, the quilt of grey clouds filling the air with beautiful, solemn curves-largely resembling the weather that he had seen in London. Younghyun had always liked stormy weather. It signified a good day to huddle up in his room and write songs, whilst maybe doing some freestyle now and there to move his bones...

Instead of doing all of that which he could only bitterly dream of, he was forced onto this stupid train to go to an even more stupid party.

He closed his eyes briefly, only daring to release just a smidge of his pent up feelings into the air through a pathetic little sigh. Younghyun wasn’t one to wear his feelings on his sleeve, either, unlike the stupid friend, Jae who had invited him to the party. 

“Jeez, Brian, go make some friends.” he had declared in his throaty American accent, “I know you don’t like to socialise, but you write all those cheesy love songs in your room without having any damn experience?” 

Okay, yeah, the last line was sort of a joke, but it also sort of hurt. 

Jae was his only other friend, Dowoon, Sungjin, Wonpil and Terry aside. 

Did Younghyun have a choice?

Recalling the incident stirred up an almost laughable, petty anger in a part of Younghyun as he felt his eyebrows arch, wanting to rip apart his leather jacket and neatly striped T-shirt. Socialising was most probably the reason he didn’t have friends. Knowing himself, he’d probably just sit in a corner of the party with snacks and start listening to a mixtape or something. 

As the chugging of the train ran against his ear noisily, louder and prominent with each step, subsequently following up with the rushing in of the big, white vehicle and displaying fleeting blurs of businessmen in deep conversation, Younghyun took a long, obnoxious breath to pace himself.

Maybe this party wouldn't be so bad.

At the very least, it would have food.

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The faint sounds of the old piano tapped onto Younghyun’s senses gently, repeating itself and slowly, weaving into a melody of a lost, foreign cry. He could feel his heart begin to smoothen out as ease washed over his back like a dripping waterfall, dilapidating the building of pent up anxiety in him while his back leaned unceremoniously against the cold subway wall.

Music had always been his best companion. As the track from earlier faded into an electro, yet somehow inconsistent, hesitant EDM, Younghyun imagined the cute, petty problems of a teenage girl, stumbling and shy around her crush. From there on, one big story proceeded to unfold and play in front of his eyes, as he started losing consciousness in the real world and dropping deep into the embrace of the imaginary yet tangible.

While the track escalated to a more lively rhythm then onwards, Younghyun couldn’t help but think-why were people so hard to understand? 

The scores scattered across his piano stand, the unfinished tracks still stored away safely on his laptop, the melody still hovering over his head steadily and soothingly...they were there for him, when no one else ever would be. 

As soon as the story stacking up like building blocks in his head was about to reach its climax, the half built tragedy was instantly destroyed by the rude cutting in of xylophone sounds. 

Younghyun’s eyes shot open a little too vigorously as he answered the phone with another kind of petty fury in his heart. Before he knew it, the beautiful scene of cherry blossom trees swaying softly under the two characters had vanished without a trace, instead bringing back the cold winter air and the cacophony of the chatty adults on the train, complaining about how spoilt the younger generation was.

He could feel his eyes rise to his head as he released another helpless, annoyed sigh from his peeling lips.

The stupid iPhone ringtone was perhaps, the only kind of music he would ever loathe.

“Hello?” he grunted, trying to mask as much of his dissatisfaction as possible as he clutched his hand to his chin.

“Yoooooo, Brian, my man, what’s taking so long?” a hearty scream pierced Younghyun’s poor, dying eardrums amidst his earlier, more gentle monotone, and if it wasn’t for the already irritant stares from the grown ups, he definitely would have shouted back.

“Hmm, I don’t know man, you being annoying and embarrassing me in public?” he hissed, settling for a curt retort as his mouth got as close to the mic as he could.

“Oh come on, you know I’m your best friend.” Younghyun could already visualise the pout forming onto Jae’s lips as his tone dipped at the end slightly, and inside, he snickered instinctively-he knew that Jae was holding back his sarcastic replies for the sole reason of getting him to come to the party. 

“Nah, you’re not my best friend, you’re a loser.” he smirked, thoroughly basking in the triumph of having the upper hand over someone who’d always win at sass fights.

Younghyun couldn’t help but laugh as Jae proceeded to say, “I’m done with being nice to you, bigger loser. I heard the announcer lady, you’re here already. See you in 5 minutes, or square up.” Spontaneously, the phone hung up, without bothering to let his last sentence linger slowly in the air-it was just Jae’s kind of humour, quick and satirical, which all his friends would use to either tease each other or fire it back at him. 

At the coincidental thought of his friends, Younghyun felt his lips lift slowly as the phone interface vanished to reveal his lockscreen of a selfie his friends had took with him, during that once when he had climbed on top of the fence, fell and smashed his head into the ground while he was drunk. 

He loved his friends a lot.

At that thought, a strange hollowness followed up into his heart, and he couldn't help but sigh again as he dragged his muddy shoes out of the flooring of the subway, into the scary unknown of the public.

The party was a place for social butterflies.

There was no way that anyone else at that place could love someone as uninteresting and unsociable as him.

While he started weaving his way through the crowd waiting to swallow him up, inwardly emotionless and stale without the support of music nor friends-the track that had followed up from his call, was painfully the voice of his own, fighting against the voice in his heart with a stinging irony.

It was a self composed song, I Like You, and right now, Younghyun didn’t like himself much.

i love him sm ;;; to be honest I doubt thats who he is irl bcos he's such an open and friendly person and he's also a very annoying and interesting person HAHAHA for the insecure part I wouldn't know but dang,,,he definitely isn't unsociable LOL he's so annoying ngl >:( stan talent stan day6 yalls !!! side note young k really is a very talented and hardworking person, I'm so proud of how far he has gone !!!!

[woozi]

twt being no.1 on updates, true that <3

not jaebeom speaking abt the mark, hui, btob youngjae fight on youngk's radio show at the time i was typing away abt temper 😭 dhdjdkkdks it's so funny whenever these guys meet someone has to mention abt it and then everyone starts talking. it's like that one story in your friend group you all just can't let go of and some might be like ' how long are you gonna talk abt it?' & next thing you know they're also talking about it at some other time djdjsksk. (but also not him saying he hugged mk to stop him 😔🥺 this was new info to me) i get what you're trying to say hdjdke <33.

oh no alexa pls play you can't sit with us by sunmi. sorry jaebs you are not allowed in our club anymore </3 dhdjdk. RIGHT?? need some silly things to hang on to, to make life interesting jdjdkdkd. naur <///3 i love yugs' smile and laugh sm. i like calling him, chan and seungkwan(even tho sometimes this one makes me want to fight him) ' babu ' (it's a cute term of endearment in my language djjdd idk how to describe it in eng it's something btwn bub and cutie but tbh comparing it to these two makes it a lil bland djdjdk also i feel like sharing this will give away my identity bc i use these a lot in tags 😭😭 also idk if you got the notif but i accidentally liked & then unliked last ask jdjdkd) anyway all 3 of them make me very happy 🥺.

im starting to l*ve u and ur taste too 😿💗. i'll be honest i don't know which bsides have choreo from old albums ( i only know of current ones bc i was there during cbs djdjk 😭) unless someone tells me abt it, i haven't seen it yet but that's what i'm gonna do after sending this. also samee i dont wanna get my hopes up but since jus2 are basically from same agency i am also looking forward to them being in one track in future.

gotsvt chef's kiss 💖. i think ppl just start naming songs they personally dislike, flop these days djjdke. maybe it's just younger ones or just those who listen to title tracks only. there used to be this one song i listened to, of jamie, it was also a feature can't remember name of it, but other than that i haven't listened to her discography much :3. tasteee it's a banger! on the rocks makes me want to miss my non existent s/o djekdkdl. the lyrics </3 the vibe </3. i think drive you home comes close to it for me. after on the rocks that's another one i love with capital L.

dhdjkdjdek that's okay i tend to repeat same phrases too, and trueeeee live performances hit differently.

it's funny how you say i'm keeping up w g7 bc i have no idea where jackson is or what he is doing and until his 2nd bday live i thought mark was in china but then got to know he was in hawaii 😭 i've given up on keeping track what they're doing off stage/irl unless i get update via ig stories through them. keeping up what their releases is still somewhat easy so i'm just doing that. ( i had no idea jaebs was gonna be on eric nam interview but finally today i got the chance to watch it 🥺💚) also!! yes i had didn't know what or how bam's agency is like but everything abt bam's cb i was content with and loved it, i'm impressed.

omg you're chan's age??? i'm a 97 kid :3 and yeah same that's what i thought too, couldn't really find any answer as to why he wasn't :/.

also no worries abt playlist jdjddk i'll slowly start listening to their discography here and there. BUT ALSO i saw there is slchld on the playlist you linked, I LOVE THEIR SONGS OMG. NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE BUT I LOVE LOVE LISTENING TO THEIR SONGS, yerin baek too!! after woozi's cover i started listening to some of her songs <333 also kehlani 💖 i love her voice. thank you for sending in just that too <3

also did you notice seungkwan's ball which got stuck om roof, is still there in same place in 4th ep of in the soop djsjskslsl 😭 i found that so funny for some reason. no one bothered to bring it down.

i hope this week is being kinder to you since last weekend was one rough (else i'm fighting it), stay hydrated <3 yza 💗 goodluck w uni - 🪂

WAIT HE DID????????????? I DIDNT GET TO WATCH THE THING THATS SO FUNNY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

literally how many times have they talked abt this... AND EXACTLY FDJKFJDKFD it's the predebut fight bond for me <3 ok but i can see jaebs hugging mark so he won't beat the living shit out of the other boys that is So Him 😭

YOU LISTEN TO SUNMI... EVERYDAY U GET SEXIER.. WHAT THE HEAL.. it's like that w astrology to me too KJKJDFKJFDKJ i would also fight seungkwan no hesitation tbh it'd end up w me headlocking him im just so sure of it <3 OHHH I THINK IM FAMILIAR W UR NATIVE LANGUAGE THEN??? filo???? im not so sure though fdkjfdjkf and no u don't have to worry abt that i don't check my notifs anymore JKFKJJKDFKJ i just check mentions replies and asks <3 i know i'm missing a lot by doing so but it just takes up too much time for me now :/ and i will pretend to not know even though i have def seen those tags KJFKJDJKFDKJFD

dw i don't know most of them either KJFJKJFDD i just come across things!! i don't even know A Lot of things abt the groups i liked ever since i came back from my kpop hiatus jkfdkjdf i dont feel like i need to know Everything anymore just to like things lol 😭 im hanging on to this frail hope... jus2.. BLEASE....

ik :/ and there's no reasonable.. idk guideline anymore for "successful" songs which is also weird to me.. i think thats bc of streaming and shit :/ JAMIE IS SOOOO GOOOD!! i knew her from her reality competition days and when she eventually debuted in 15&. jype fucking sucks though she could've been v big now :/ the vocal chords on that woman.. incredible. <3 JDSKJDSJ WITH A CAPITAL L!!!! jacks' latest songs are always abt heartache what is he going thru 😭 how did u feel abt LMLY?

i know like.. only 13 words max nowadays so 😭

i think jacks is just always busy so we both cant keep up with him 😭 AND MARK IS IN HAWAII?????????? I THOUGHT HE WAS IN LA WTF 😭 i actually am not keeping up w them as much as i used to i just still have a lot of g7 moots and i follow update blogs so JKFJKDKJFD i still love the boys sm though it's just that im becoming a svtpoppie now 😭😭😭

yes i am <3 he's just a few months older than me!! ALSO WAIT we're the same age as g7 and svt's maknae lines 👁️👄👁️

HELL YEA!!!!!!!!!!!! i actually don't know who they are either i just listen to them too fdjkfjkkjfd lately spotify's doing most of the work for me <3 ALSO U KNOW ABT JIHOON'S COVER... UR SO- ok we're besties 4 life now <3 CAN I JUST SAY... WHAT THE HELL IS UP W JIHOON.. DOING IT IN THE ORIGINAL KEY.. HE HAD NO BUSINESS SHOWING OFF LIKE THAT OK UR TALENTED N IM A LITTLE IN L*VE W U WE GET IT 😭😭😭

AND NO DFKJFDKJJKFDFDKJDF WHY IS THAT SO FUNNY TO ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HOW DID U EVEN NOTICE!!! NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO LOOK FOR CLIPS OF IT JKFDFJKDFD 😭 they're truly relaxing they cant even be bothered lmaoooo

looks like it'll be much better!! i'm kind of excited for uni ngl <3 i hope everything's well w u as well and that all ur endeavors are bussin <3 u stay hydrated too and get lots of sleep!! <3

[sukisdeliveryservice]

hi ash! sorry that im a little late, ive been a bit preoccupied these few days, but im glad you like talking to me :D i rly like talking to you too <3 i appreciate that you put so much effort into answering everything T-T i do have discord actually! id love to continue talking over there after this :D also this is crazy long so dont rush yourself sjhdjdjd

if you want any nct music recs in the future you can come to me 😌 i really love hello future!! i say this about every title track during every comeback but its really my favourite one right now! 

YOU PLAYED DRUMS?? thats so cool :O ive always found drummers rly attractive sjshjehdjsh 

the have i evers :

i have never! been to a concert, ive just never had the chance :/

i have! sneaked out, but it was with the help of my mum where my dad didn't know lmao ehejenjdhen

i have! gone through both a one direction and bts phase. 1D came first and it lasted for almost half a year i believe? and i discovered bts in 2018 thanks to my friend, but i started exploring and eventually drifted apart from them in early 2020. jungkook still has a special place in my heart tho :)) 

i have! had a irl crush actually :'D he actually knew i liked him but did nothing at all and we remained pretty good friends, but he stopped talking to me about over a year ago, and i lowkey don't wanna admit it but i miss him sometimes :') 

i have! pets. i have 3 dogs and a cat currently, and i have 6 other unofficial dogs and a idk how many fish which are at my grandma's side :DD

i have! performed in front of a crowd, i was in a storytelling competition when i was 9 and 10, and then i learned to play the erhu when i was 12 and performed a few times :)) 

i have! fic wise, i also love by-moonflowers fics sm! T^T i read her tokyo ghoul au and i actually didn't have a clue what tokyo ghoul was, i looked it up on wikipedia before reading it djbfkdhdjd and her exes confront each other series was really amazing too. and im rambling but her jeonghan magic au, all the stars we steal, that was probably the first fic of her's i read and it hit something in me and i really wish i could read it again like it was the first time 😔 i really loved it sm. book wise, i will never forget jodi picoult's small great things. and also like any book reader, ps. i love you is definitely a favourite of mine :') it was so touching and i just genuinely really love that story. 

i have! there's quite a lot of moments like that, but this one where i went on vacation in the mountains? we stayed at a very nice place. on the first day i was really tired so i slept til the evening, and when i woke up it was drizzling and there's was quite a breeze, so i sat in front of the open door of my room. in front was a swimming pool so i just put on some music and watched the rain drop into the pool. it was the most relaxed i had felt in a while and i wish i could go back :') 

i would say i have! when we can talk anon off i'll tell you which one, but i really enjoyed writing this one drabble/oneshot and im glad other people seemed to like it as well :DD

and ofc i have! i met seventeen when i was pretty down, and i treasure them the most now. they helped me through a lot and really changed me and im really grateful to them

i wanna know your answers to these too! so, have you ever

been to a place/been in a particular mood after a specific event that you wanted to stay in forever?

written a piece of work that sparked energy within your fingertips?

met a person/have someone in your life who you now just treasure so deeply?

the next mission is out dkhdkdhfj but i'll continue for now, would you rather (pls dont hate me after this)

only listen to seventeen or txt forever

spend a week with soobin or chan

only eat bingsu or only watch 1 studio ghibli films for the rest of your life

sign with sm or yg or jyp

know how to play every single instrument or speak language in the world

be a master at something you love (singing, dancing, writing, that kinda thing) or something unique (like having a photographic memory or like ice carving? or even mouth reading)

i also suddenly remembered, but knitting is also one of my many hobbies :D

- 💎 anon loves you and wishes you a good day!

you can reply whenever you are ready anon. it excites me that we've been having a steady back and forth but sometimes life happens and you should definitely prioritize any other responsibilities you have!! i'll always be here 😌 knitting is a fun hobby anon!! i used to do that and crochet a lot too ,,, i should get back to it. what do you make?

before i go ahead and answer these can i just say how much i love that you personalized it?? that really means a lot to me <3 anyways~ here we go!! when we get to turn off anon i would love to hear some nct recs!! most of my irl kpop friends ult them and i'd love to get to know more!! and discord would probably be the best way to share because the asks just get longer and longer LOL (i love them)

drums yes!! i've been told that i look like i'd play the piano instead bahaha but i think drums are pretty neat :3 i also saw this person ask huening kai about band txt and he said soobin would play the drums :O need i say more?

thank you for your answers!! we definitely gotta talk more about them once we can chat on discord!! i loved reading them and they were just so lovely <333 for the last 3:

i don't think so? i have yet to be in a moment where i am completely lost in the energy - but the closest i've been to that level of peace would be the late nights where i'm playing my favourite music and about to drift off to sleep. i feel almost content, and sometimes wish i could stay in my dreams forever :3

my very first fic!! flights and feelings - i was writing it on a whim at 2 am? and i wasn't planning on posting it until i did randomly and now i am a tumblr writer :O

seventeen like you said! i don't think i would have made it through the rest of high school without them, and as of now they've been one of the things keeping me going :)

the next mission is out owo playlist making do i see? anyways onto these first!! how dare you write these anon my head is SPINNING

only listen to seventeen or txt forever ...seventeen, they're my ults!! but also because they have more music released atm, we have yet to see the amazing things txt have planned!! i wouldn't be surprised if i start ulting txt in the future as well :3 i...bought 3 of their albums a few days ago

spend a week with soobin or chan // WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THIS ARE YOU TRYING TO GIVE ME A HEADACHE (moots please look away) soobin <3 i love them both very much but i think soobin and i will vibe more maybe it's my delusions THEY'RE BOTH MY ULTS and i'm scared of talking to both D: but soobin is slightly younger than chan so that's why i think he'd be easier to talk to T_T the thought of spending a week with soobin makes my head spin

only eat bingsu or only watch 1 studio ghibli films for the rest of your life // bingsu!! i would not mind that one bit :3

sign with sm or yg or jyp // as someone who is a terrible singer and dancer, i would not survive in either of these companies. however, under the assumption that i can do these things, i would say... jyp. i don't think there's an entertainment company that treats their idols completely right but out of these 3 i feel like i'd cry less in jyp. is kq entertainment an option? idk all the details but they seem to treat ateez okay, or maybe IU's company...again i don't know all the deets

know how to play every single instrument or speak language in the world // speak every language in the world!! it upsets me everyday that i'm not close to my culture because of this :(

be a master at something you love (singing, dancing, writing, that kinda thing) or something unique (like having a photographic memory or like ice carving? or even mouth reading) // i'd say maybe something unique!! it's kind of thrilling to always be looking for ways to improve on something you love <3 so i'd go with something unique...a photographic memory would be very helpful for studying!! but maybe i'd like to have a talent in making people smile!!

thank you for these questions anon!! i'm heading out to work now but i'd love to write you some more would you rathers later on :) i should have packed more questions into this reply but i really gotta go now sorry :( so instead just tell me how are you!! also i would like to know your answers to these ones!! you are very creative with these btw :3

which of your biases would you want to spend a week with?

what food would you be okay with eating for the rest of your life?

would you rather:

sign with sm, yg or jyp?

know how to play every single instrument or speak language in the world?

be a master at something you love or something unique?

[erenjaegur]

Snk Positivity Day 6: Love Your Series

Im gonna put this under a read more because I cant think of express my feelings on something without turning it into a full length incoherent ass essay so!!

I’ve been in the snk fandom since I was like 12 lol - Im 16 now so that’s like, five years?? I can still remember like I’d see a lot of gifs n stuff of it going around tumblr and for some reason I just really felt I wouldn’t like it like I had smthing lowkey against it?? But then I decided to watch it one day, n i still remember, I was just chilling on my laptop watching it in the sitting room, my family around me and stuff and goddd it was soo good... but it made me tear up... n bITCH I was NOT! about to cry in the sitting room around my family. I was not! prepared for that. That night I stayed up till possibly 1 or 3am just watching it, I must’ve gotten to like around episode 6 I think? I loved it so much I rlly fell in love, I finished it all in just three days.... three days of which I also went to school and stuff and had to go to my friends party.... bitch i was pissed i didnt even like that person....i just wanted to finish snk lmaooo 😭

Im pretty sure Id spend sm of my time invested in snk and looking through snk tumblrs and stuff and other fandom stuff of it, I loved it so much!!! like!! thats all I did and even then I was still forcing my friends to read/watch it. I was really cringey in 6th class wow lmaoo I would literally go around during break with the snk manga like xD!!! eren is my baby!!! saying shit like that yikes.... bitch first of all hes 4 years older than you...your literally 12.....

Especially then, when I was younger it brought me sm happiness like when little me was going through shit then little insecure young me, you know how people say u use entertainment to escape or whatever, a distraction, idk.... like that was rlly it man idk ho to describe it without sounding weird i swear it was like my main source of happiness omg lol

Almost always, its very rare like I’ll be watching a movie, listening to music, anything like that just consuming some piece of media or literally just like. living my life and I see something and im like. omg snk au in which.... or I just somehow relate it back to snk or some of its characters lol. Like even when I was on holiday in Venice last year I was literally like thinking of a fanfic of like, the 104th on holidays in Venice like how wholesome...

Like I really do love snk I think about it every day without fail, and I honestly think I’ll always always always love it, and even if I don’t, it’s always gonna have a special place in my heart. Like, I liked it since i was literally 12 years old and it helped my through shit and I just have so much good memories associated with it. I honestly rlly do picture myself being like a 40 year old woman and still loving snk but like the fandom is dead or something... 😭 I rlly hope that never happens.....bc that will happen my 40 year old ass will b like boiis whens season 10 coming out ? Like I really hope snk is one of those series that kind of just lives on forever, or atleast for a very long time - Like Harry Potter for example

Okay, all that was really personal and I’d be surprised if anyone is reading this anyway, but I love looking back on it and talking about snk like this, I love it :) Butttt, getting to one of the reasons why I think I might love snk so much, and I mean, I can’t really pin it down why I love it so much, I dont think anyone can pin down EXACTLY why they love something, especially a series, but I think one thing I really like, and it becomes really apparent when I look at other series is like, they have a good balance between male and female characters if that makes sense. Like theres not way more men in the show than there is women, like how it is in some series or like, theres not way more men in the show than there is women, and the female characters in the show aren’t just like background characters pretty much, and they’re all good fleshed out and developed characters n shit. I think people have talked about this before but yeah.. And the female characters aren’t sexualised or anything like that and like, theres basically little to no fanservice at all which is nice. Supereyepatchwolf said something about it in his video about snk, how it can appeal to everyone because anyone of any age and gender and such can be in the survey corps n stuff... :P

And the characters just in general of course :) I honestly think the characters is one of snks strongest points, like... im not about to do a full on character analysis on anyone here lol but they’re just so amazing. Like I think on first glance it can probably be easy for people to sort most of them into like a trope or something or just write them off as cliche - mostly eren is victim to this bc people are like typical shounen boy !!! but like. you know anyway. I wish I was better at expressing my feelings and thoughts lol. Like god idk i feel like its so easy for someone who idk might just be a casual fan or smthing to just kinda see the characters on their more surface level without seeing how much depth they actually have - and I feel like that could also easily happen with anime only ppl. Like snk really does have so much great n complex n developed characters, especiallyyy now with the timeskip, more so now than ever. Like you know when you love something so much that you cant just pin point one thing about it... because its like.... everything about it i love n everything within it works to like compliment everything in it if that makes sense u get me?? like i cant just pinpoint ONE THING its the whole thing.... why i love snk? *directs u to link of readsnkmanga.com* or something lol

as for the characters themselves, obviously u can tell, with my url, u can take a guess at who my favourite is :) since the timeskip, i dont like him as much - not that i dislike him, i could literally never - but timeskip eren is basically a whole new person - and im not saying that in a bitter tone or anything, if anything its cool and i appreciate it and i understand why eren is like this now, all the shit hes been through- stuff so singular that barely anyone else would be able to understand, no one, if anything. So i understand why hes like this, and as i said earlier, this’ one of snks strong points its complex and rlly developed characters... The things I admired about Eren is just like... his good and bad, everything. How passionate he is, how he wears his heart on his sleeve - that of which being his most notable quality imo, and he expresses himself in an unapologetic manner like.... the courtroom scene... he rlly shouted that in front of all those people... how headstrong, stubborn and impulsive he is. I relate to Eren alot, thats part of the reason why I love him so much because I think I can kinda see myself in him.. but on the same hand, I think it’s also because he possesses a lot of traits I admire. Eren never backs down even when the whole world seems to be against him. He holds on firmly to what he believes in and never gives in, even when literal guns or canons are being pointed towards him. He’s full of determination and will power and he knows what he wants, and he’s also not afraid to express his opinion, even if he knows that he’ll be laughed at or be largely disagreed with.. And I admire his impulsiveness too. Those are all things I admire and other things I didn’t mention.. like me, I’m a very non confrontational person, I always feel things out before getting to it, and even then a lot of the time I just don’t at all. I might second guess my emotions and feelings when it comes to relationships with people especially, and I can a lot of the time stifle or keep quiet about my own beliefs, not completely keeping quiet, but not speaking them out as firmly as I believe them in my own mind, yielding? more I guess, if people disagree with me, I might step down a little - Which isn’t a completely bad thing, it’s good to be openminded and to see other sides, but when it’s coming from a place of embarassment or insecurity, not so much. So I really admire those traits in Eren :) I relate to him a lot, but I also know that in a lot of ways too, we are veryy different. I’ve even thought before, if I knew someone like Eren irl would I even like them lol?? Who knows lol. But as a character, I love him :) My other two favourtie characters after Eren, Levi and Jean, I won’t go into them as much as I did Eren but with them, and not just that, all of the other reasons they’re my faves.. I have like more of a ‘crush’ on them lmaooo like with them i could read so much /reader fanfic lol... but even though Eren is my #1 I could nEVER...god NO lol. And I think thats also down to the fact, as I’ve been saying I seen myself in Eren... rather than the other way around :))))))))

Like god there have been so many times I’ve laughed, cried at stuff in this fandom, made good memories as a result of it irl too... bullied my friends into watching it.... Like I have nothing but good memories. I really can’t express enough how positively snk has impacted my life like I genuinely can’t, it’d be impossible.. I seriously love it :) I’ve made friends bc of it, gotten closer to friends bc of our mutual interest in it, stuff like that...:) And even if those things didn’t happen, I’d still love the series and its fandom itself. :) I seriously can’t thank enough, the ppl that contribute to this fandom, I really can’t. Everything, and everyone to small and big creators, thank you so much. Well known and lesser known creators, like just everything and everyone, seriously. Everyone is just why this fandom is so great and!! Like I just think how lucky am I to have smthing like snk have such a big fandom and stuff and so many great people in it. Like y’know when you see your favourite fanfic update, you see your favourite artist has put out smthing new, even just see a funny snk text post or something, it all can really brighten and even make your day, and its so good :) There are so many amazing creators in this fandom, fanfics that are honestly better than published books I’ve read - like seriously, some of this stuff seriously deserves to e published or something!! And the fact that so much of these creators are putting their work out there and sharing with us for free, is just so great, and I’ll never not be grateful for it :)

Like seriously, returning back to when I was like 12-14, some days back then when I was younger it really felt like y’know the only things I could take comfort in was this series and its characters and stuff yknow.... and maybe im just being and emo teen but im getting kinda emotional thinking about it just now :’) Like seriously... I feel like im maybe being too much in this post lol but seriously this series means a lot to me.. as I said, I can honestly really picture myself being like 40 and still rlly loving snk like no matter what, whatever happens, wherever the series goes, whatever the hell, it’ll always hold a special place in my heart, because its helped me through a lot, a lot of bad days, I have nothing but good memories associated with it, made friends, seen some of the most beautiful art and read rlly great writing!! Just like yeah. Thank u Isayama and this entire fandom.....

and I was gonna peace out but I also want to appreciate and throw some love @ Isayamas art and art style. Obviously, Isayama was a bit infamous in the earlier days for his art not looking so great (Which also is amazing bc like a manga with not so great art like his in the beginning... grew to become so BIG!! like who would’ve thought) - even so the character design and stuff was all really good?? Like I also think thats a strong point he has too!! And all those years of practicing really shows, because damn!! look at his art now!! It’s really damn nice and im not just saying that lol :P

Anyway!! :) Thats all lol