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kimtaeri · 3 months

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finally at home after a job interview that lasted almost 2 hours now im going to sleep and hope i wake up tomorrow morning :)

#thats not true im not going to sleep #but i wish i could

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god-of-this-new-blog · 4 months

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“Sorry that it all went down like it did”

#hi! back at it with more highly specific art from The one The Only!#Apa au #Isa I am sorry I left out my true thoughts behind the scar on this one but I am trying to achieve wider lawlight audience appeal #speaking of:#death note #lawlight #light yagami #l lawliet #my art #anyway.#many a lawlight fight that dissolves into a week long stalemate ends with a shared bath #they make up in water every time I have decided #its a theme and its a motif #anyway. the whole plot of our au goes down in the song Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers #also drawing this I learned I do not know a fucking thing about how to draw water or wet skin.#so uh maybe more bath art soon so I can learn to do that #thats all folks I feel like I am normally more insane in the tags #hmm #OH I know what I will over share #I think im like… going to get to into r*ck and m*orty. I liked it when I was like 13 and I was rewatching it for hahas when I couldn’t sleep #but im so scared guys that im going to get INTO it #like yesterday I felt the urge to draw fanart for it and I had to quickly slam my head on the desk until that idea went away #okay yeah this is a good amount of oversharing in the tags #I feel good

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oatbugs · 28 days

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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon #im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels #cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho #for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her?#im going to look someone else in their eyes today #im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow #i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for #him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over #it made things a bit clearer #he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend #and he wanted his friend back #so im going to go back.#he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true #im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl #and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner #ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful #person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up #anyway lets go

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cowboy-robooty · 4 months

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i dont got a gaurdian angel or devil on my shoulder but i do imagine grandad (robert freeman) from the boondocks reacting to everything around me

#been like this for like two months now or something #everytime im too exhausted to get up but am like 'i need to get up to eat dinner' i hear grandads voice like #'have sleep for dinner youre getting fat anyway'#that sounds bad it sounds like i have an eating disorder or some shit that is not true. i love to eat im monkey d luffy irl and its not a #joke. me and wiener are fucking beasts we will go 20 minutes without eating and go gawd... im so hungry rn...#but sometime my demon of a bed traps me like quicksand again and im like i need to eat food.. but god sleep feels so good....#i love the have sleep for dinner youre getting fat anyway line okay it makes me laugh so fucking hard riley be starving af #pretty boy flizzy episode 😍😍😍#i think about the allowance line too all the fuckin time #you want an allowance? i ALLOW you to eat my food. i ALLOW you to burn my electricity. i ALLOW you to sleep in my bed!#robert freeman is so deadass i love him especially when he thought riley was gay and heard tom say all the good things about gay people and #and went 'damn thats a lot of good shit... nah still gotta disown him'#LOL #grandad was not rockin wit that gangstalicious manbag

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the-uk-is-jk · 7 months

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Everybody talking about how izzy deserved to live and should have gotten more.

Guys

This entire season was his moment of shine. Look at how everything seems to be from Izzy's pov the way last season was stede's pov.

He got this whole character arc. Frankly, apart from a bit from Zheng in the finale, the only character arc the season saw. Yes Ed and Stede got a small arc on the side. But by far not as elaborate as in season 1 and by far not as elaborate as it could have been (which I don't think is a bad thing).

Of course it would have been wonderful to see Izzy get the chance to enjoy his newfound family and happiness more.

This entire season was about Izzy and y'all still think he should have gotten more.

#izzy hands #besides #izzy always knew piracy was about family #why do you think ed said “you were my only family”#that was true for so so so long before they came across the revenge #and izzy just had a harder time letting go of that #izzy had a harder time seeing that that family was only left as a shell of what it maybe at some point was #izzy wanted to impose their original way of things on the revenge #and this season he learned not to #and he found happiness again not even knowing he had lost it befote #thats nearly literally what he said to ed there at the end #idk maybe im just grateful he got to die on the ship and in eds arms #but oof #comeon guys #sleep another night #rewatch the entire season by all means #but my god #quit hating on the writing just because youre sad/mad that izzy is dead

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baeshijima · 8 months

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“high-cloud quintet… it is time to say goodbye.”

… excuse me while i throw up

#may the stars guide you <3 #HAHAH IM GOING INSANE JINGLIU I CANT DO THIS U CANT DO ME LIKE THIS I WILL BE HCQS MOST UNWELL FAN AT THIS POINT #actually thats kinda true bc i AM sick #anyway i need to sleep bc its half midnight 🫡 gn everyone and i hope u have a lovely day/morning/afternoon/night 🫶

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bugsoda · 10 months

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someone take this device away from me i am much too tired to be dignified. pay this buffoon no mind.

#is that that word #much too #those are words #when i am sleep deprived i get rambly so thats what this is #please tune me out i will tired post and comment and tag and it is humiliating bc its not my true potential #i am better than this!#go to sleep!#nay #i shall keep on for some reason #old speech posting i guess. what era is this #shakespearean? early modern english? what era was that #anyway the Some Reason is boredom and need of sleep #i will continue to ramble stop laughing at me #bloop #ren faires are so fun even though they have like. nothing to do with the renaissance. im in the process of making a cape. sewing machine is #a bitch. why do i keep adding tags #fuck off stop looking at me #dont reply to this please spare me some pride #why did i even make this post #anyway i shoudl really be more educated on history #fuck what was i thinking about. bees?#no ren faires right #who wants to come with me that would be so fun. actually i have only been here for like 3 months and ive only dm’d a couple of you #and even then not a lot. but in my defense how tf do uou keep a conversation. how does that work i cant even do it in person #ive decided to cut myself off #bye

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raccoonfagdyke · 1 month

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I just wish people liked being around me

#i feel so fucking lonely #like i was yalking to my friend who was talking about how he was imvited to go out tonight #and thats never happened to me #ive never been invited to places really #unless i kinda invite myself tbh #ive never gone to a bar and then gone to a second location #i just wanna have people who think pf me when theyre doing things #i want people to want me around #and is some of this the DID talking ?? yes #i have parts who mever get to do things like that for one reason pr another #i want people to think im cool in some regard or at least interesting enough to keep around #but no #im just here alone on a friday night and i couldnt go out cuz im sick #meanwhile my partner is sleeping over at a friends place cuz hey shes got a car and is good at people #she gets invited to things all the time and im so fucking burnt out from work that i never get to fucking do anything i hate this so much #i just feel so goddamn alone and unwanted #i know the latter isnt true but it sure fucking feels like it rn #and im gonna be even more isolated this summer since im working 2 jobs #and none of my close friends like to do anything interesting #im just so bored and stagnant and lonesome #i wish i coul sleep

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magioffire · 1 year

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remember when i thought i didnt have adhd because when i took adhd meds i thought i was ‘getting high’ off of it and always heard that if you ‘got high’ off adhd meds it meant you definitely didnt have adhd

well that feeling of ‘getting high’ was actually me misinterpreting the euphoria of finally having a more normalish brain function and being able to be productive as a euphoric effect of amphetamine and not the functional level everyone without adhd normally exists at all the time lol.

#LOL???#this is why the 'if you get high off adhd meds youre not adhd' is kinda...not true?#because getting high is very subjective but also #for a ND person being able to temporarily be productive and function IS euphoria #it IS like a high #so maybe a better way of putting is #'if you have adhd it just wont effect you the same way as someone without adhd'#instead of 'any feelings of pleasure you get from the medicine are cuz you dont actually have the disorder and are probs just a dirty junkie #cuz you know....we have a very pleasure-adverse culture thanks to puritanical values but thats a ted talk for ANOTHER DAY #ooc.#tbd.#drugs cw #its kinda like how for someone with chronic pain the pain relief they get from pain meds IS the eurphoria #not any of the actual narcotic effects someone might get from pain meds #people without chronic illness just wouldnt get it sorry #cuz im over here like HM. im not getting any of usual side effects that would go with someone who doesnt have adhd taking adderall #i can eat and sleep perfectly normally #uhh #whoops

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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months

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#ugh. i dont kno what to do. im about to reap what ive sown bc Tomorrow is the start of the 1st real week of class #and i have cell mechanics and biochem tomorrow and i can already tell the class is gonna b a lot #like it would b one thing if we were just reading and discussing papers but there r summary assignments and exams #and like u dont understand what it takes for me a read a paper. it takes so much pain. and this class is centered around eukaryotes #and i study prokaryotes so like its not really that relavent to me but like i didnt kno what else to take #everyone does eukaryotic stuff. general genetics was full. the microbial evolution class conflics with another class #and everyone tells me ill know everything anyway but im not sure thats true. and if it is i think it would still b fun #so idk. i could drop the class and pick up extra hours for research instead. like use the time to read relevant papers #its sorta hard bc i already have a masters so its like where do u put me? not in stats. i kno how to do a lot of things so idk #i think i saw a plant evolution class. if i wasnt intimidated by the teacher and ever took botany maybe i would go for it #but so it goes. idk. im meeting my advisor on Tuesday morning so maybe ill bounch ideas off of him #and like i kno it sounds like im being a bitch over having to take 2 3hr classes but ive got to ta and do research and somehow find time #to work on my existing data. so like i could justify only taking the one 3hr class i think #ugh. i just wish i could read. and i wish i could sleep #maybe the class tomorrow wont b so bad. or maybe it will. idk i just really wanna take the microbio course #my eyes r all swollen from crying. bleh. i was not designed for this. for reading #unrelated

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majorshatterandhare · 7 months

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I started a piece of art today which is based on some plant species* that I think would be good to colonize Tim in @gunpowder-tim’s headcanon of the Persephone Tim headcanon; so it’s art based on a headcanon of a headcanon of a headcanon 😅 [sweat simle emoji].

It’s gonna take a long time I think, but I am planning on posting it here even though it’s just gonna be plants and no Tim (because I am much better at drawing these little doodle plants than drawing people).

*so the art is basically of real species we have on Earth, but I maintain that they wouldn’t have the same plants on the City, so in my brain his plants are just similar to these ones.

#i don’t know if i should main tag this. thats always hard for me to tell #persephone tim #i am taking a break now because for some reason it took me almost 4 hours to paint some ghost pipe.#i am researching more species too. im looking at a lot of liverworts. but they are ‘obscure’ enougb thats its not always easy to find if-#they are parasitic or not. i know *some* species of liverwort are. and depending on how im able to draw them i might include non-parasitic-#species because i need the space filled a particular way #im also tired because i stayed up until after 6 am and then didn’t take my sleep meds (because it was 6 am)#oh there’s also gonns be some mushrooms included #ive explained it before but basically the fungus being an intermediary is a thing we see in real life (although not between plants and-#animals afaik) and it makes sense because fungi are closer related to animals than to plants.#now i suppose thats not necessarily true on the City. because we dont know if they are homo sapiens or not (this would make possible-#implications for the other life on the plant). however for now I have no hcs regarding that. its easiest to go with their life works the-#same as ours. but their species are different if for no other reason because of evolution (over time)#well thats whats easiest and most interesting and fun *to me* which i realize is because i am a biologist and happen to also crave as much-#scientific accuracy as possible. but thats not everyones cup of tea. not everyone wants to spend hours searching about different parasitic-#plants to choose one for this and learn about how they interact and what not. probably *most* people wouldnt think this hard about it.#and that’s okay too. if you like to make up your own plants whole cloth and not worry about it aligning with realy world biology. thats-#okay too. do what you like.#(unless you are a tv/movie/book/etc which is supposed to be set in our world on our earth. YOU CANT MAKE APE/WORM HYBRIDS! for crissakes)#hope its okay i tagged you gunpowder-tim #also sorry to everyone for how much i ramble in the tags. i have adhd and keeping 1 try of though is nigh on impossible #like this: nigh means near. so nigh on impossible is nearly impossible. but one way of defining nigh is approaching. then its approaching-#impossible. which makes me think of math. ‘as x approaches infinity;’ ‘as y approaches impossible’#there have a little language and math too with your dose of spec bio explanation #(the ape/worm thing is a reference to an early x-files episode that i have complained about in tags before)

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haemosexuality · 4 months

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i think princess bubblegum is (and has pretty much always been) neutral good and marceline went lawful good (before being turned) -> chaotic neutral (obsidian flashback era until the early seasons) -> true neutral (early to mid seasons till stakes) -> neutral good (season 7 until the end of the show) -> almost lawful good (end of the show and fowards)

#i will elaborate in Length if anyone asks me im just too tired to write it all down right now #Please Ask Me. i am Begging you to ask me.#adventure time #we dont know what marcy was like immediately after being turned but i think she was neutral evil. i think my girl deserves to have been #fucked up after what happened to her. and i think she deserves insane amounts of guilt i love it when characters are wrecked by thr Guilt #and i think in the Future (think after finn dies until around the shermy and beth era) she oscillates between #lawful good->neutral good->true neutral and back a lot but she never gets as bad as to warrant the chaotic label or worse #at least not in that time frame. shes fucking immortal so who knows what she goes through and gets up to like idk 5000 10000 years in the #future #also the way im using the alignment chart here is good/neutral/evil are about your Goals and lawful/neutral/chaotic are about your actions #...i cant remember if thats how the alignments actually work but its how i use them #ok i wrote too much im going to sleep

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sweetsweetbumblebee · 1 year

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ugh im hungryy

#🍯#sfw #ik thats like. every other post.#but s true #im hungry but i think m gonna go 2 sleep instead of eating #then ill eat in the morning

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beecampbell · 1 year

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been crying a lot. sad a lot. was a bad idea to get into a long distance relationship. didnt learn from lilsimsie.

#im so.#im so fucking sad.#hes the only person that really gets me and I KNOW THAT SOUNDS FUCKING CLICHÉ AND STUPID BUT ITS TRUE.#ITS TRUE.#and it fucking sucks and it fucking hurts!!!!!!! because i cant do what i really want to do and i cant love fully and experience this #the way everyone else gets to fucking experience and its starting to actually for real ruin my life!#love starting to hurt more than feel good #and i dont want the love to stop. i dont want the love to go.#thats the thing i want the least.#but holy fuck can i get a hug #can i get a kiss #can i hold him can i bite him can i ruffle his hair and pull on his stupid beard and drool on him in my sleep PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #FUCK #tired of crying #born to fish forced to post

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