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#thats the one thing i can take pride in now is that my bitter anxious premonitions are right. or at least reliable. ive been doing it for a
amethyst-skeleton · 4 years
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#i need to vent but i know people will see it and so uh dni at all please? i will be ok im just fuckin Sad rn#im so tired. ive had enough. i have nothing left to give the universe#i am? was? idk trying my best. trying to keep everything afloat and take care of everyone#but my best isnt good enough at all. i dont even know if it is my best truly#look at me complaining like this like i deserve to be pitied or coddled into thinking im good and kind i dont im awful and the guilt eats#me alive. i am not a good person. i am cruel and selfish and inadequate. i hurt those around me and have no way of fixing it#i cant cry anymore because it feels too fake so i just wallow in silence. everyone does leave eventually and again i was right#thats the one thing i can take pride in now is that my bitter anxious premonitions are right. or at least reliable. ive been doing it for a#long time. and now i just wonder who is leaving next. i felt so secure i thought maybe this time they would all love me and i would be safe#maybe its not me that needed to be safe maybe i was subconsciously looking for something else to fuck up. maybe they should be safe#so im not mad when people leave. its just a reminder i cant always help. i cant be good enough.#history repeats itself and instead of me being hurt im hurting everyone else. im just like he was. i knew i would be.#i think im just going to sleep more. i wish i could outsleep the world. put me in a coma please.#i already ruined my future and im ruining the present too. everything i touch i lean on too heavily until it breaks and crumbles.#inadequate. bitter. undeserving. cruel. manipulative. failure. lazy.#scared#scared of myself and the world around me#i wish i deserved help and comfort and i wish i wasnt too much to handle. i wish all my friends werent sick of me#im tired of pretending im functional and fine#and when they all say oh youre so nice kind angel darling baby sweetheart i want to cry because im not like that truly im sorry you thinktht#...idk what else to say. im done. i dont know what to do about this i cant help and my help doesnt work anyway#im tired and i cant unload anything else on friends its not fair to them. to have to put up with my mistakes.#i'll get up soon and ignore the guilt and pretend i can be ok but i dont know when bc time is liquid right now#i wish i could cry it out i wish i deserved that#thanks. if you read this please dni w this and dont message me ill be ok eventually but thank you for listening i suppose#especially particular friends i hope you never see this post because you dont need any more of this on your plates#the leaving has already started. you will all be gone too soon. it always happens. im meant to be alone but im not built to be happy alone#oh well.
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xsamuu · 4 years
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HEYYYYY!! I saw your ask box was open and I was wondering if I could request a headcanon? Where the reader is in a massive fight with a friend they haven't seen for like 3 years and the friend takes it too far by saying something like "That's your boyfriend? How gross" "Ew why does he look like that? Couldn't grab someone better? Ugly ho" or whatever you come with? Tendou, Bokuto, Kenma, Kags, Nishinoya please, if you will?
I screeched when I saw this omg thank you I hope this is up to your standards bebs 😼👍🏾 but uh I should say some did come out a little bit like scenarios but I tried to stick to headcanons sorry for that still hope you enjoy 🎃😼
~Admin Rizzo
Tendou Satori
-you was minding your own business walking through a park your hands intertwined with your lover when a ✨m u s t y✨ old friend you knew had decided to share there unwanted opinions
-Tendou could see how uncomfortable you was and wanted to remove you from the situation but as he went to walk around the obstacle you stopped dead in your tracks
-“That’s who your with oh my god that’s fucking gross, I guess you’ll hook up with anyone you thot”
-It’s safe to say that tendou had come up with thousands of insults by the time the slur left there mouth
-Who even was this person?— WAIT WHO THEY CALLING A THOT?!
-you wasn’t a very confrontational person but nevertheless you wasn’t about to let this person who wasn’t even in your day to day life anymore talk smack about your man
-you went to retaliate when a big arm swooped around your shoulder catching you off guard
-“Babe lets go I wanted to bring you to the park today not a circus” 🤡
-Needless to say your ‘friend’ was shocked and maybe a little intimidated
-You on the other hand had to summon all the strength in your body not to laugh in there face
-With his arm still wrapped around he moved you away from the situation the both of you quickly changing the subject to something more important
Bokuto Kōtarō
-Bokuto loves spoiling you
-your the love of his life and he will make sure you know this not only through his words but also his actions
-this however works both ways there isn’t something you wouldn’t do to show him how much you support and love him
-You was sitting in the crowd at one of his games it was a very important one winning this match would definitely get him recognized by some powerhouse teams
-every time he would score a point for his team he would look up at you and every time you would be there imitating his celebration “HEY HEY HEY THATS MY ACE” You felt only pride and absolute infatuation with this man
-you was cheering your heart out when you suddenly felt someone bump your shoulder (a little too hard to be an accident—)
-You swung your head around only to come face to face with an old friend from middle school they looked bitter asf and your conscience was telling you to just ignore them
-“Oh you have nothing to say to me now Huh? I see your at another one of these boring ass games I thought you didn’t have time for people?”
-It’s true at one point you did say that but you didn’t think you’d loose one of your closest friends because of it even so you continue to ignore them hoping they’d get the message and leave
-they didn’t.
-“So you and number 4 are together I’m assuming. I guess ugly attracts ugly”
-immediately you saw red but you couldn’t ruin this for bokuto important people were here. As if he could sense your distress he shot his eyes up to where you were in the stand
-He called a time out, and started running out the gym everyone was confused but when he reappeared in the stands you knew all to well that he had caught on
-“Babe I just noticed your supposed to be closer to the match your an important guest” he smiled you mouthed him a thank you and gathered your things walking a few rows closer to the front
-Thankfully Akaashi was there looking up at you distracting you. The owllike man glared at your old friend “I don’t know what you did to Y/N but you better leave before you have another problem”
-When you looked back your ex friend was nowhere to be seen you giggled as bokuto gave you a big kiss before returning to the court
Kozume Kenma
-Kenma isn’t a contentious person in fact he would much rather settle an issue in the most inconspicuous way possible
-Even so if he feels that him or his partner was disrespected in anyway he will not hesitate
-You and Kenma was at a gaming convention you had been planning since the beginning of February (it’s now late April)
-You had sat through the entrance ceremony and was walking around admiring all the stalls and you were both having so much fun
-Kenma had left you for a split second to get someone’s autograph it was the animator from a game he played religiously you didn’t mind you stayed put and was scrolling through your phone
-“Long time no see y/n” you lifted your head to the sound of your name being called and made perfect eye contact with an old ‘friend’
-If you were being completely honest you hated them all they did was make you feel like an inferior insect whenever you two were together you hummed a ‘yo’ before going back to your phone
-“Still a quiet freak eh LuLu I guess you here on your own or something”
-Lulu was the name of a magical girl from a cartoon you used to love but upon finding out people would use it to mock and degrade you
-you was gonna walk away the ridiculous nickname when you heard a familiar voice
-“no y/n is with me and you are?” It was a genuine question but anyone who didn’t know Kenma would take his pack of expression as bored or sarcastic
-The person scoffed and pointed accusingly at Kenma “That’s who your with LuLu you couldn't do any better HE’S JUST AS LIFELESS AS YOU ARE”
-You tugged on Kenma sleeve motioning to just leave as you felt uncomfortable but Kenma wasn’t having it you had been so excited to be here and with him and this nobody came out of nowhere and started harassing you
-“Listen um going to say this in a way you could understand— he smirked at you and then opened his mouth again
-What escaped his mouth next left you shocked, scared, a little embarrassed for him even but mostly touched
-he cleared his throat
-“lifeless. I’m not lifeless in fact I have a burning hatred for you right now. And that why I feel no guilt in what I’m about to do.”
-You gulped and held on tighter to kenma’s sleeve mentally preparing yourself for what he was about to do
-“YoU HaTe LuLu’S tRanSforMatiOn sOng?!” He practically shouted. Instantly a horde or gamers, writers, weebs and more bombarded the area shouting and screaming and causing a scene
- From all the commotion it’s sounded like your ‘friend’ was ok but some of the words leaving the mouths of the mob were kinda cruel
-you smirked and Kenma led you away
-You know he doesn’t like being the center of attention but he still protected you and for that you’d be sure to thank him for that
Kageyama Tobio
-Kags never really liked leaving you behind when he had to go to different countries
-without you it made him anxious and you would reassure him that you’d be fine and eagerly awaiting his return
-Including the return of his big, fat juicy—
Ahem heart 🙂
-You had been sitting in a café Face Timing him
-You’d often have dates like this and you both enjoyed them you was talking to him when someone took up a seat next to you
-“Hey Y/n funny running into you here” a familiar voice echoed
-A w k w a r d you hadn’t seen or heard from this person since a fight you had a couple years ago why now?
-You had nearly forgotten about your boyfriend on the other side of your iPad screen until “Oh you bought a friend y/n”
-you was at a loss for words but before you could answer the unwanted annoyance to your left answered for you
-‘We’re not friends y/n cut me off because she’s toxic” it took kageyama a solid 10 seconds to realize that this wasn’t a real friend and that you were silently asking for help
-You rested your head in hand obscuring the person from kags field of vision therefore blocking there vision of your face and boyfriend
-hoping they’d get the message without you having to vocalize it
-they stood up and you let out a breath you didn’t know you was holding
-“I wasn’t checking out your friend don’t worry he isn’t my type I prefer cute boys” they spat
-Before you could even assess the fact that they pretty much called your boyfriend ugly you was already pissed at the fact that they referred to kags as your friend
-you stood up abruptly and it’s like they were waiting for you to loose your cool all hope was lost when you heard him clear his throat
-“[there Instagram name] Damn you was easy to find. I liked you post”
-You felt a tinge of confusion race through you but watching all the blood in there body rush to your friends face made you curious
-“DELETE THAT RIGHT NOW” people were definitely looking in your direction
-“Leave then I will” Now you was curious what the help did he do?
-seconds, literal seconds. The annoyance was nowhere to be seen
-“Kags..wha—”
“I shared there IP address in the comments :p”
- “PFFT kAgS!”
Nishinoya Yū
-Noya made sure that you felt like the only person in the world before he asked you out, so when you started dating you didn’t think he could get any more protective over you
-You was sitting in the cinema with him both smiling and listening on to the movie
-He fidgets a lot in his seat but you dont mind you know he cant help it besides you find it cute he is just so full of energy
-“Babe imma go to the toilet be right back” he kissed your cheek and left
-you continue to watch the movie until you feel someone slither into the seat next to you and hearing the voice your your temples irks and your expression one of annoyance
-One of your ex friends for how many years ago had to be in the same theatre at the same time on the SAME FUCKING DAY
-they didn't seem like they were moving so you just spoke first
- “can i help you.?” 
-No response :/
-You were even more irritated than before
-Noya came back a few minutes later and noticed another person had sat right next to you 
-Noya is dense VERY VERY DENSE he assumed you ran into one of your friends so he didn't question it
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-After the movie finished you grabbed your things and rushed to get out of that situation
-The same person had finally said something after a whole hour
- “That’s who you came with.. You really know how to pick em an annoying toddler really Y/n your honestly pathetic--”
-It didn’t bother Noya he has been called short all his life this isn’t any different but this rando was obviously upsetting you and he would NOT have that
-Noya would step infront of you and confront the person they get a warning 
-one fucking warning 
-If they don’t take it i shit you not noya is going for the ankles periodt
- “I DONT KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE BUT YOUR UPSETTING MY PARTNER THE FUCKING DOOR IS BEHIND YOU SO TURN AROUND”
-Noya looked like the aggressor and its safe to say he may have caused a scene but he would be a fool not to step in and protect you with all you got
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infinite-hearts-333 · 4 years
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Broken pack, Broken wolf
Sander sides, Analogical (Eventually), Logan Angst, Werewolf AU
WARNING: really bad writing, angsty, lack of sleep and starvation, homophobia, swearing, I'll add to this-
Before 
Part 7- Can you fix what’s broken?
Logan spent around 5 hours fast asleep, draped across Virgil's form. He was like a giant puppy!!! Virgil was currently sitting cross legged in Logan's den thing, writing. Logan was curled into an impossible tight ball in Virgil's lap, and somehow fitted, despite being taller than the anxious side.
Virgil everyone in a while would look down to stare at Logan, and his glances switched from soft, happy and gentle, to curious, excited and pleased. He had summoned a new notebook, a dark purple covered one with stars and a wolf on the cover and began furiously scribbling down notes and sketching pictures. His non-dominant hand remained softly stroking Logan's perked left ear. Virgil didn't notice Logan awaking, sluggishly shifting and mumbling, eyes flickering under heavy eyelids. "V...virgil?" Rumbled Logan willing his eyes to open, his long tail to uncurl from around Virgil and stretch, flicking back and forth.
"Morning sleepy head. How... how do you feel?" Virgil asked softly, quickly placing the book down to focus on Logan. "Tired.... Somehow...." Huffed Logan, slightly pouting. Virgil chuckled, brushing Logan's midnight black hair out of his eyes. "Pat made soup for you." Virgil offered, helping the other into a sitting position who made no effort to reclaim their pride, slumping against virgil, head resting on virgil's shoulder and made a low loud groan. "Im not hungyyyyyy." whined Logan.
"Lo, you're skinny as a twig, you're eating something. There's no arguing." Virgil said firmly, scooping up the container of soup that Patton had dropped off not that long ago, popping the lid off, allowing steam to rise from the beverage. Logan whined, and tried to hide away from virgil, which didn't really work, given he hid using virgil. "Do i have to?" Whined Logan, trying to hide under Virgil's arm. "Yes, now, face me I'll help you, but if you be a big baby I might spill some on you. So sit up."
Logan made a low growling noise, and pulled himself off Virgil to turn around in his lap so he could still lean against Virgil. Virgil smiled lightly, and gently nuzzled the others' hair before dipping the spoon into the soup and lifting it up to Logan's lips. Logan quietly stared at it for a bit, tilting his head a little and Virgil realised he was sniffing it. Logan made a small huff after a while and opened his mouth, teeth clicking on the metal as he closed his mouth.
Virgil found himself staring at logan's lips as they moved, his cheeks unnoticeably becoming a scarlet red. He imagined what it would be like to rub his thumb over the bottom lip, to lightly press his own lips against them, to gently bite them and roll them between his teeth. Virgil silently groaned, donking his head against the back of Logan's neck. He was a hot mess. "Virgil?" Logan's voice was a lot clearer than before, more smooth and silky unlike the thick ruffness from just waking up. "Are you alright?"
"Yep. Peachy. Just, peachy." grumbled Virgil, refocusing on feeding logan. By half way Logan began to refuse. "I'm sorry... i just can't... or i might throw it up..." Virgil softly sighed. "You're not gonna get better unless you eat more. Just... a little bit more? For me?" Logan mumbled something that Virgil didn't pick up and continued to eat the soup. Virgil smiled, pausing to lightly pet logan's ears. "Thank you." Virgil didn't comment that Logan's tail began to furiously wag.
After a few more spoonfuls, Logan leaned back tucking his head back into the nook of Virgil's neck. "No more....." he mumbled. Virgil softly smiled. "Okay, you did such a good job." Logan was right there it would be so easy to just tilt his head up and kiss him. But he didn't. He couldn't. Cause.... That would be weird, and Logan probably wouldn't like it and he would hate him, oh god what if he already hates him, should he leave??? Would Logan prefer that-
"Virgil. You're pulling your panicked face again." Logan said softly. Virgil blinked, being slapped back into reality by Logan's soft velvet-like voice. (God bless Logan, Virgil could and would listen to the werewolve's voice all day and night if he could-) Virgil had come to realise that Logan had turned back around in virgil's lap, his arms draped over Virgil's shoulders and head resting on the start of his chest. Hickity heckity Logan was much closer than before, practically an inch away. Why, god why, in the name of gay jeusus must Virgil be tormented like this?!?!
Logan softly smiled, and nuzzled Virgil's chest, his eyes closing as he mumbled some soft gibberish under his breath. Virgil took that time to calm his poor gay heart, collect himself, and then carefully begin to neatly put away the soup for later, and then lightly combed a hand through logans tail. Which- virgil will add- was wagging happily, and it was so darn cute.
"Um... hey Lo?" Virgil asked softly. "Mhm?" hummed logan, pressing his face right into virgil neck and oh god why-
"Um-" Virgil had to cough to clear his throat so it wouldn’t jump an octave. "I was wondering if it was okay if i asked you about your species? Only if you're okay with it of course, I'm just really curious!" He quickly added.
Logan was quiet for a few minutes, pondering mostly likely, but virgil panicked internally, thinking he had done something wrong or offended him.
"Sure." he mumbled, going back to snuggling into virgil. Virgil swallowed thickly, grabbing onto the book he had been using to scribble done notes on werewolves in. "Ummmmm so, is your diet the same as a humans? Or are you more carnivores?"
Logan hummed, and virgil could feel his ears flicking as he thought about it. "A little more carnivores? Like I can eat raw meat no problem.... And some plants make werewolves sick."
Virgil began furiously scribbling the notes. "Okay... okay.... Are you fixated on one spot in a territory?"
Logan snorted, as if the idea was ridiculous. "No. P.... Packs move around between seasons, so food sources are never rare."
Virgil hummed, intrigued by the knowledge. "Um... touchy subject, sorry... but how do your packs work?"
Logan winced, taking a few seconds to swallow before answering. Virgil picked up on how his tail stopped moving and that Logan's grip tightened a tad. "Well.... My pack was a bit..." he chuckled, "Peculiar. Most of us left our birth pack, were kicked out, got separated or never had one to begin with."
"Oh yeesh.... Sorry lo." Virgil winced. Nice going idiot.
"It's fine, we had each other." Logan hummed. "Well, you start off in your birth pack, which is the pack your parents are in. By your 10 blue moon you must have decided to either stay in your birth pack or leave to make or join a new one."
"And you chose to leave?" Virgil asked scribbling down the words in a glittery purple pen.
"Mhm. my birth pack Alpha was homophobic, so i left. My parents supported me and helped me pack and get organised. They were the best." It was hard to see Logan's face, but Virgil could tell he was smiling.
"F*ck homophobic Alphas." Huffed Virgil. "F*ck homophobia in general." logan snorted.
"The first i was Empero. Her birth pack was genetically changed via artificial selection for the usage of humans." Logan continued, and virgil flipped to a new page, writing down this as well. He wanted to help logan any way possible, so knowledge about his pack may help.
"She was my Alpha, and I was the Beta.'' Virgil could practically hear the fond smile in Logan's voice. "Beta?" questioned Virgil. "Second in command. So when Empero cant take charge, the pack's responsibility falls to me. After Empero, we met Hazel. Hazel is a little ball of energy I swear to Artemis- she was separated from her birth pack by a flood. Then Dusk, they were kicked out because of how they spoke and thought. And then we found Jackson. Or really, Dusk found Jackson. He was kept in captivity for the sick desire of humans. They wounded him till he lost an arm, and if he ever did escape he wouldn't be accepted by normal packs. So Empero took him in."
"Whoa...." mumbled Virgil. "Your packs' been through a lot...."
Logan let out a bitter laugh that stung virgil even though it wasn't aimed at him. "Yer... they have. They were the best pack I could have ever asked for."
There was an awkward pause. "You know Lo... it's okay to miss them." virgil said softly, putting down his book to lightly rub circles on Logans back. Logan made a soft sad noise, and his grip tightened more, and in the corner of Virgil's eye he could see Logan's ears drop, laying flat on his head. "Is it?" he asked in the softest of voices.
"Of course. They were your family. Nothing's gonna change that. It's okay to miss them." virgil said softly, noticing how Logan slightly shivered when virgil pressed on his higher back.
"Is.... am I allowed to cry?" Logan's voice was even softer, more fragile. "Of course." Virgil said immediately, giving Logan's shoulder a little squeeze with his free hand. "Oh... okay then..." Logan's voice cracked at the end.
Virgil continued to rub circles on Logan's back, muttering small 'thats it' and 'it's okay' and 'i'm here' as Logan started to cry. He was silent, no sobbing or gasping for breath, just tears streaming down his face, soaking into virgil's shoulder. "I m-miss them..." Logan whimpered.
"I know Lo...... I know..."
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amaviarra · 6 years
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First love
Pairing: Newt scamander x plus size reader.
⚠: self doubt? I guess. I think thats it. Bad grammar/writing. I'm on my phone. Don't judge.
A/N: just a thought that was going around my head and wouldnt leave and let me focus on anything else.Also wanted to try writing reader inserts differently then I usually do.
Part 2
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Y/N walked down the aisle of the bookstore, her eyes wandering the "new arrivals" section. It had been awhile since she had been to the wizarding world, so she was currently catching up and gathering all she needed to hold her over for awhile. Of course, that included some new reading material.
She paused as a book caught her eye, grabbing it she looked it over 'Fantastic beasts and where to find them' was the title, but what really drew her attention was the name of the author. 'Newt Scamander' it was a name she hadn't seen nor heard for awhile. Even now, years later, just reading the name made a handful of emotions rush forward.
Pride
For Newt being able to write about something he had always been so passionate about. She still remembered how back at Hogwarts Newt would generally keep to himself. But once you talked about creatures of any sort he'd perk up and never stop talking. Hearing him talk about creatures was always something she had looked forward to.
Yearning
No matter how much time had passed since she had last seen him or spoken to him, her heart still yearned for him. They say one's first love is hard to forget and that's true for Y/N. Newt was her first of everything. Her first love, her first kiss and even further. But it had all been one sided on her part, he had accepted her when no one else had. He had never judged her for size, her passion. He had always been so polite and never pushed her to do anything she didn't want to. How could someone not fall for him?
Sadness
Unfortunately for her, after she admitted to herself that she was completely smitten with him, Newt revealed to her that he had fallen for someone. It wasn't her. She knew that if he had known of her feelings he wouldn't have told her, but he didn't. So she had simply smiled and wished him luck. But still, even now when she thought of him the pain she felt that day sliced through her heart.
Shaking her head to clear her wandering thoughts Y/N tightened her hold on the book. Well, the past is in the past she thought was a small smile Might as well get the book and see what Newt has been up to after all these years. Maybe it would even help in her own research.
Mind made up she added the book to her other items and made her way to the till.
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Y/N had finished the book in record time and after finishing it, she had a strong desire to get in touch with Newt.
Part of her was scared, would he remember her? Would he even want to talk to her? She didn't know but she had to talk to him. Although he was very thorough in his book, she felt like he had left some things out. Which may help with her current research.
It Took awhile but after months of being lead around she finally got in contact with the right people that got her to arrange a meeting with Newt. Which was today.
Y/N was currently seated in a small cafe, waiting for him to arrive. Looking down at the napkin that was on the table before her she sighed, noticing that she had unconsciously torn it into shreds as her mind wandered. She began to gather it into a pile when a soft voice interrupted her.
"Still have that nervous habit Y/N?"
She looked up with wide eyes to see Newt standing beside the table, a small smile on his lips as he watched her.
Y/N chuckled softly "always" she replied before gesturing for Newt to take a seat.
He complied without hesitation, taking the seat across from her he lowered his suitcase to the ground, settling it beside his feet.
Y/N watched the suitcase curiously before meeting Newt's gaze "Is that the famed case?" She questioned.
He nodded, his smile growing "It is. I heard that you had some questions about my book, I figured you'd want to see inside as well"
Y/N nodded enthusiastically "I'd love to! But how would that work? Here or somewhere else?"
Newt shrugged "somewhere else preferably. A cafe isn't really the safest place to go inside. It wouldn't give us much time, not unless we go inside a private room but that might..." He hesitated for a moment, his eyes going to the table and a small blush coming to his cheeks "might tarnish your reputation"
She couldn't help it as a laugh ecscaped her lips, Y/N waved her hand at him, once she settled she spoke "You're sweet Newt but you have nothing to worry about. I don't have a reputation around here. We can go to my hotel room though. It has more security then here or some alley on the street."
Newt nodded "Sounds great, but before that could we have something to eat?"
Y/N chuckled "of course, we are at a cafe after all"
Watching Newt look over the menu Y/N was relieved that after all this time, Newt was still Newt. Her anxious thoughts had disappeared after she started talking to him, the dull ache in her heart was still there, but she could deal with that. She'd focus on lunch now and then get down to business.
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Y/N and Newt had talked for what felt like hours, and it could have very well been. Newt caught her up on his life, his time in New York, his beasts. It was all very interesting to Y/N and she listened intently.
Soon enough they had finished their food and left the cafe. Y/N lead Newt to her hotel room and ushered him inside. Once they were both inside she closed the door and turned to him excitedly.
"Well?" She questioned, clapping her hands together and she basically bounced on her feet.
Newt laughed, that same laugh that had always made her heart flutter. Placing the suitcase on the ground he opened it up "Follow me" without waiting a reply he disappeared into the suitcase.
Y/N approached it and looked down into it. Suddenly wondering if her wide hips and extra curves would even fit into the thing. Pushing down those thoughts she timidly stepped inside. She was slightly surpised and delighted when she got inside without difficulty. Coming down the ladder she released a breath of relief.
Looking up she noticed Newt looking at her curiously, she rubbed the back of her neck in a nervous manner "I was slightly afraid that I wouldn't be able to fit"
Newt's brow furrowed slightly at her statement, he went from looking at her to looking at the entrance, a small frown coming to his lips "Why wouldnt you be able to fit?" He questioned curiously.
Y/N huffled slightly upset at herself for bringing it to attention, she gestured to herself "cause you know this body isn't exactly made to fit into small places, not the right fit"
To her surprise Newt seemed upset at her words "There's nothing wrong with your body Y/N"
Y/N blushed but decided, as she often did, to change the subject off herself. She turned to look around the small building they were in and then looked back at Newt "So, any tasks that need to be done?"
Newt studied her for a moment before sighing and turning his attention back to where it had been previously "Yeah, we need to feed the creatures. Just wait one moment while I get everything ready and then I'll show you around"
Y/N nodded and leaving Newt to his task began to move around. Taking in the small knic knacks that Newt had around. Her attention stopped at the multiple photographs he had. She smiled softly as she looked at the joyous group, that also had Newt, in the first frame. "Are these people you met in New York?"
Newt stopped his preparation and looked back at what held her attention and nodded "Yes, those are the people I was telling you about earlier"
Y/N nodded and turned her attention to the other picture, a small frown coming to her lips. "Leta..." She turned to Newt "What ever happened to her? After she got You expelled I didn't see much of her at school. Do you two still see each other?"
Leta was Newt's first love. The one that had held his affection while he had hers. She shouldn't be so bitter, but she couldn't help it. They had all been outcasts in school, they had formed a bond of sorts. But at some point she herself had become the outcast in a group of outcasts. And then Leta got Newt expelled. She hadn't even seen him for weeks before the event or after, that was when they lost all contact. She couldn't bring herself to even approach Leta after that.
Newt's sigh and mumble of "I never understood why you two didn't get along" pulled her from her inner turmoil. Her frown deepened as she looked at him, seeing her look he answered her question "She didn't get me expelled. And no we don't see each other too often..." He trailed off as he finished his task.
After a few moments of silence it was he who decided to change the subject "You said earlier that you were doing your research on a creature, what was it?"
Y/N's eyes widened. How could she forget. "Well that's the thing, I'm not sure what he is."
Newt turned his attention to focus on her "He? Do you have a picture or something? Maybe I could help identify it"
Y/N smiled shyly "I actually have him, right here" holding up her right hand she used her left to motion toward the creature that had been resting on her hand. He was in his dormant state right now, a state she found her prefered to take when they were in new places.
She watched as Newt approached cautiously. He took her hand in his own, looking over at it. He had thought it was just an accessory, not a living thing. "It looks like a dragon, a Peruvian vipertooth actually. But smaller." He looked up at her curiously "Is it? Where did you get it and how old?"
Y/N shook her head "I don't believe he is, I've had him for years now and he doesn't grow. He is not venomous either"
Newt hummed "curious..." He took one finger and stroked the creature. The action caused the little one to come to life, it grumbled slightly at Newt before going further up your arm.
"I actually had something i wanted to try, if we could?" Y/N questioned.
Newt looked up at her "What is it You're wanting to do?"
"Do you still have any occamy in here? I'd like to see how he reacts to them" Y/N said, her excitiment building once again at the thought.
Newt nodded "I do. Let's get the food and we will work our way over to them" stepping away he lead Y/N to the food he had prepared and once they had both grabbed enough he lead her outside to begin their tasks and get to where she wanted to go.
After they finished feeding all the other creatures they finally arrived at where occamy where. Y/N approached their nest and softly rubbed her companion to get his attention.
She watched curiously as he lifted from her arm, his attention went quickly from her to the small creatures. Her eyes widened as within minutes of studying them his appearance started to change to match them. Within moments her little friend who had previously looked like a dragon now mirrored the occamy that were looking at him curiously.
Y/N excitedly slapped Newt's arm. "Did you see that? I thought i had been dreaming the last time he did that!"
Newt was looking at the creature with wide eyes as he nodded "it's very interesting indeed. Would you mind staying with me for a little while, so i can observe it further"
Y/N stalled for a moment. She hadn't thought of that, but then knowing Newt she should have figured he would want to know more. She knew her little buddy wouldn't want to be seperated from her, she had the time and also this was a chance to get close to Newt again. Mind made up she nodded "of course".
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