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Disillusioned 19 . It’s Only Responsibility

a/n: omg my fav chapter is finally here. i was so giddy when writing this lol

tags: low-key yandere behavior from Cale, implied torture, if Cale says what he feels is irritability then it's irritability goddammit

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Cale feels as though he can’t get a good grasp on his emotions these days. In particular, he feels as though he feels intense emotions when _____ is thrown into the mix.

Maybe it’s because he feels accountable as he willingly took in the healer.

He doesn’t know when it started, he only noticed he felt that when back at the Gyerre Territory. It was the afternoon after he had destroyed a human trafficker’s house, just before he talked with Antonio. Ron reported that he had finished investigating the Perduellios.

“Young master, this old man took a stroll there and I must say that it’s very filthy. It looks clean from a certain distance but there are rats everywhere once you look closely. No wonder healer-nim grew up with a weak body. Someone like them does not fit that place.”

The redhead didn’t say anything but the servant could tell his listening to every word. 

The young master’s eyes don’t lie after all. 

And right now those eyes are filled with anger. 

Unmeasurable Anger

To the point it made the servant do a double-take.

Despite Cale’s brewing anger he still does everything according to plan. He doesn’t let out a single ounce of that anger until later when his talking to Alberu.

“Your Highness, the future shining sun of the Roan Kingdom. No one is as bright as you. Just seeing your face, even through a communication device, brightens my night and brings me hope for tomorrow.”

“Just tell me what you want. Is it another golden plaque? But you still have some.”

“Not this time your highness.”

Alberu was taken aback at the serious expression on the redhead’s face.

“As you already know, the Perduellios were working with the Chryshis. I trust your highness to handle the Gyerres and the Chryshis. However…”

“You want to handle the Perduellios.”

“We really are alike your highness.”

Alberu already saw this coming so he instantly agreed.

“I’ll allow it on the condition that they must stay in Aunt Tasha’s dungeon. Speaking of Aunt Tasha, she said she also wants a piece.”

“Then I shall be generous enough to share.”

Cale himself isn’t sure how he had the time to meet that bastard family. Between the war against the Indomitable Alliance. Fighting Arm and the Empire, and teaching the nobles a lesson Cale still managed to find free time to visit the Perduellios.

Must be the power of unmeasurable anger.

“Beacrox, Raon prepare to move quietly tonight. We’ll be meeting Tasha.”

The two are confused as to why, but Cale did not explain. He doesn’t need to as they instantly understand after seeing who’s inside the cell they are visiting.

“Young master Cale shouldn’t _____-nim be here?”

Cale looked at Tasha as if she said the most outrageous thing ever. Meanwhile, in the background, Beacrox is preparing his tools as Raon supplies information as to what the healer went through.

“Why would they be here when I’m doing this to relieve stress? I’m here to act trash, that’s not something an unofficial holy maiden should see.”

The next morning Alberu regrets taking a peak before the cell was cleaned up. He doesn’t think he can light up any of his beloved candles for at least a week.

+~+~+~+~+~+

Succeeding that incident, the next time Cale was overtaken by his emotions was after Operation Reflection. Unlike the last time, Cale felt two conflicting emotions this time.

Skyrocketing Pride and Plumeting Disgust

_____ was a core player during the navy battle and that made the redhead proud. Of course, he was also proud of everyone else in their group.

…but perhaps his a bit more proud of the healer.

However, it was only because they had come a long way. As Cale’s responsibility, his proud that the healer is doing better under his guidance.

Nothing more, nothing less.

“Human, those useless noble bastards were also talking bad about our _____ when you left. Some of them even had the nerve to directly yell at them. I wanted to smack them, but you told me to not do anything to those people for now so I didn't."

But then Raon’s report came.

Pride had been washed over by disgust.

Good thing _____ had talked him out of doing anything rash.

“Cale it’s okay. People who only know how to leech off other people are not worth your time.”

Did he mention how proud he is of how far _____ has come? Because he really is.

However, rumours say that it was the night after that when Cale first ‘visited’ the Perduellios.

+~+~+~+~+~+

Cale’s next overwhelming emotion is something his already familiar with. He already felt it back when they were in the Whipper Kingdom.

In fact, he has already associated this feeling with the healer.

Heart Palpitating Distress

But this time it feels more intense. Cale feels as if his heart is going to crawl out of his chest and into his mouth.

Thump!!

Thump!!

The redhead had been acting as though nothing was wrong ever since they finished the battle at Castle Leona. Contrary to his calm exterior, the redhead is a mess on the inside.

A wound, a stab wound with a lot of blood gushing.

Just inches near _____ heart.

And Cale has a strong gut feeling that it was _____’s own doing.

Seeing the copious amount of blood they lost was already bad enough. Seeing the nasty wound itself when they had to change the bandages was worse.

Then as if that isn’t enough to send Cale into a coma, the healer had the audacity to stand up not even 12 hours after their injury.

It was at that moment the commander made a conscious choice of sticking the healer to him like velcro.

+~+~+~+~+~

Nowadays, Cale is not ping-ponging between his emotions like a madman. But he did notice that he tends to feel a particular emotion these days.

Jealo– Irritability

Cale isn’t sure why he feels irritated, but he does. He feels irritated as soon as _____ woke up and started talking to Bud.

What happened during the week he was gone that those two are all friendly now?

And what was that? Bud is going to teach _____ how to drink?

Not on Cale’s watch.

It’s one thing for him if _____ themself wants to try drinking, but he won’t let the healer be coerced by some fool.

“Ron, separate those two as much as possible. That drunkard is nothing but a nuisance to _____.”

For a moment Cale got the chills when he heard Ron chuckle. It doesn’t help that the kids are laughing too. Regardless, it looks like the servant will heed his request so he lets it be.

But his jea– irritability doesn’t end there.

The next victim of Cale’s so-called irritable mood was this poor servant in Mogoru.

When Cale got back to Mogoru he unfortunately had to leave _____ back in the castle. There are too many undercover missions they have to do. And while _____ is much better than Choi Han at undercover missions, that man is a lot of things but an actor is not one of them, Cale isn’t cruel enough to make them take on such a taxing mission after being sick.

So he leaves the healer in the Mogoru Castle with Rosalyn and the others. 

“Young master-nim what about assigning a dedicated servant for healer-nim?”

Was Rosalyn’s suggestion after Cale mentioned _____’s tendency to overwork themself.

It seemed like a good idea, therefore they arranged for the healer to have a servant. The servant’s job would consist of making sure the Medicus is eating and resting properly. That servant would also act as _____’s assistant, taking care of whatever the healer needs.

At that time, Cale was satisfied with that plan.

That satisfaction quickly changed when he visited Adin’s room, (well, it’s practically _____ and Cale’s room now) and saw how the healer kept calling the servant’s name. In the beginning, it was fine, Cale didn’t mind it. But then he noticed how _____ seems to call for that servant every 5 sentences they utter.

Honestly? Even Cale knows his acting irrationally this time.

Did he care though? Of course not. Since when did trash care for another person’s feelings?

So he stationed that servant far away.

“Raon make a call in the underground villa. I must talk to Hans”

“HAHAHAHAHAHA!”

Ignoring Hannah’s snickering that turned into full-blown laughter, Cale called Hans over to assist the healer.

Because if the healer is going to rely on someone who’s not Cale, then it might as well be one of his people.

This one is a totally logical decision on Cale’s end. It’s not because of his jea– irritability.

It’s definitely just part of him being responsible over _____.

[monsterfactoryfanfic]

The Ravenous

Detente for the Ravenous launches TOMORROW and I figured I'd finally talk about Catholic Kaiju that form the core of the novel! They stem from a lot of things: my love of Naruto, my love of monster movies (Godzilla among them), but also, my deep pretentiousness as a writer.

I wanted the Ravenous to be a metaphor for the ways religion and state violence dehumanize us, turning us into monsters both by calling our innate desires and conflicts abhorrent, and by assimilating us into systems that make us culpable for monstrous deeds committed with taxpayer dollars. I don't believe humans can legislate or educate or evangelize our way out of hurting each other, conflict is always going to crop up because people are weird and messy. But the systems in Ravenous- the Commune and the Empire-- they tell their adherents that it's their own Hunger that turns them literally into monsters, and that it is the right of God and the State to use those monsters to prevent more Ravenous from being born. It's not subtle, it's not especially profound, but it absolutely comes from my being born a Catholic and American, and the way I was taught that some atrocities were necessary for the Greater Good.

With that caveat, it's a bit silly to give them a stat block in the RPG. But hey, they are still weapons of war, and most of those weapons can be destroyed. If you remember the monsterfucker drawing I posted a few months back, this is where we get those freaks:

And the biggest, worst Ravenous, the 4-headed Seraph, also gets an entry. I gave the Seraph 216 Resistance, which Heart and Spire players will know is nearly impossible to kill. I hope that putting a monster that's not meant to be defeated in the game will inspire players to try to figure out other ways to deal with the forces that wield such power, and, like in the novel, figure out if the monsters are to blame, or if the better target is the people holding their leashes.

[maigetheplatypus57]

Tommyinnit could announce "Sorry guys, on further reflection I think I'm just straight" tomorrow and I would support him (questioning is so valid and we respect ppl who even dabble in exploring their identity) but he could never take away the beautiful collective insanity of the last 13 hours through memes and jokes and shitposts and "OH MY GOD????" posts i love you guys and this fucking hilarious community so much <3

[failyaoi]

throws them at you and runs away

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS Height Poll: Who is (technically) the tallest character. Please remember that these polls are for fun!

[winecovered]

　⟢　Doe - Eyed　𓃉

One who is very sweet and affectionate! Often towards partners or those they are particularly fond of. This can be platonic or not ^_^ May be tied to deer, nature, etc!

　— For @coinfight 2024. Attack on @deerflowerz ! Hello non moot,, Not a gender, 8 points. COMPLEX FLAG SOON

[buglaur]

[capn-twitchery]

today on weird inspiration sources: nautical signal flags

matching twitch to come at some point maybe (of course they're gonna get this incredibly specific flag)

[rotruff]

night so long you start thinking of your f/o taking care of you so you can just lay down . night so long you start thinking abt them taking off coats and unzipping dresses or unbuttoning shirts and being careful when they take off any makeup or glasses and giving gentle little reminders when they hand over any medications or even just a glass of water to make sure you've had some.

[ironunderstands]

Ngl it’s so funny when I see ppl run face first into hsr’s themes and still not get it, like wow, two characters who’s story revolves around overcoming their pasts to live for themselves and TRAILBLAZE a better future? In Honkai Star Rail? Nooo, it can’t be

[quaranmine]

collapses on the floor and Dies

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

[fitzselfships]

What if there were little guys who were so in love with each other. Much to think about 🤔

Proshippers/adjacent dni. 100000 shark attack 🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈🦈 also Zooble self ship doubles dni

[mxwhore]

submitted my first ever abstract to the chilean society of microbiology

[stars--and--shadows]

Since you asked, A is the one with the most shoes so she does the most cleaning. B is the one with the eating disorder and she runs a bike club and does chores when asked. H comes and goes, mostly for group meals and to sleep on the guest couch. Q is our depression doula. She leads us in Hasna yoga during new moons, and T facilitates our ML reading group. W cooks and the other W cleans up after her when C isn't home. Its really not that complicated.

I. did not plan on becoming a major player in this game.

@am-i-the-asshole-official I think this is useful to you?

[starlightcleric]

Knight Commander Caroline Gemsledge

After finishing Wrath for the fourth time on my Azata->Legend game, I tried to finally play Lich, the last one I hadn't unlocked, but wound up not enjoying it that much. So I decided to return to my roots, my first and favorite path, Angel, but with the merged spellbooks this time. Out of this was born Caroline, a dwarven Cleric of Torag with the Artifice and Protection domains. Despite my username, Pathfinder 1e Clerics are not my favorite of the divine casters, but I'm having fun so far with her and her warhammer! She's tentatively going to be romancing Ulbrig :) (picrew here)

Caroline Gemsledge A Relic Out of Time

Race | Dwarf Class | Cleric of Torag Alignment | Lawful Good Pronouns | she/her Professions | bartender, smith, priest, crusader Skills | athletics and lore (religion), smithing, hitting things with a warhammer

Appearance | A pale skinned dwarven woman, slightly on the shorter side, with bright green eyes. She wears her pinkish-red hair half-up, half-down, usually with a golden ornamental circlet. When not in armor, she favors practical clothing in grey and gold, the colors of Torag. When making the effort to dress up, she prefers makeup in pink to match her hair, and golden rings and earrings.

Personality | Caroline is outwardly reserved and a follower of tradition, but deep inside she has a streak of free spirit. The homeland of the dwarves was too stifling for her, and so she set off to become an adventurer. She is outwardly kind, if not warm, and it takes a lot of effort to get to know her well. She values justice over mercy, but is not particularly stubborn, and can be talked around on an issue. Her way of showing affection is to make things, usually with her smithing skills, for those she values highly.

History/Hooks | Born to a miner and a homemaker in Gildside, Druma, Caroline grew up close to, but slightly removed from, the legacy of the dwarven homeland. Her mother was a devout follower of Torag and attempted to instill this reverence in her eight children. As a middle child of eight, her upbringing was loving, even if she was slightly overlooked for her more rambunctious siblings. On the cusp of adulthood, her world turned upside-down as her mother walked out on the family in a search for greater meaning in her life.

Her father turned more strongly to drink, and in an attempt to support her younger siblings, Caroline traveled north to try to find work. After some wandering, she secured a bartending job at a pub in Peddlegate, the major point of contact between Druma and the Five Kings Mountains. She worked there for some years, sending money home, but she looked wistfully toward the mountains. When she received news of her father's death, she decided it was time to start living for herself and set off for Highhelm.

Caroline found her calling in the clergy of Torag, learning the prayers and the ways of the forge, but never felt quite at home in the insular Highhelm. Society was highly stratified, and it bothered her that if she had been born in the capital, she never would have been able to become a priest due to the entrenched social immobility. So when her training was complete, she set out to begin a life of an adventurer.

After hearing of the horrors of the Worldwound, she traveled even farther north to join the Crusades. The Second Crusade. The next thing she knows, she finds herself in Kenabres in 4715 AR with muddled memory. But the front line is where her skills as a Cleric are needed most, so she throws herself into repelling the demons, without too much time to wonder at her situation. Torag has not forsaken her, so everything must be fine, right?