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rearranging-deck-chairs · 27 days

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trick to fun dialogue is just to make it a little hard to understand. maybe thats a cheap trick but i dont care

#or not even that hard necessarily just like it takes like 2 listens. it takes attention #and what 'harder' is is subjective depends on the type of dialogue you hear a lot and your vocabulary level #watching the nevers right #and im watching this scene and theres this character who exactly hits this spot for me #like 5........wait 5 years ago is not as far as i think it is.........7 years ago (ugh) i woudlnt have understood what she was saying #like i'd know all the words separately but iwouldnt have understood what she was saying at all #but rn im like oooh this is the exact balance between obscuring your meaning and substance #i think oftne in my writing i obscure more than there is substance #there usually /is/. /some/ substance #theres usually substance. just theres more complication than there is substance. here the balance is better #bc someone needs to say these words hfkghgj #the other day while reading scripts im making myself rewrite i was like 'i coudltn do this in a fic. iwouldnt get away with this'#lines that work in a script (bc they'll be acted) fall flat in fic bc we dont have the luxury (or limitation) of actors #but it really made me think abt like..what you need to do in a script for television vs in a fic based on that television you knwo what i #mean? different things you need to work for. WE need to work for that the characters sound like Them. that we can Hear them #tv gets that almost free. the words will be in the right voice in the right body that gets you like 60-70% of the way #less sometimes depending on the specificity of the character&circumstances i was mostly thinking abt the doctor who maybe has more leeway #and tv has the limitations of 1) needs to be sayable. but also 2) needs to be flatter i think #you cant put 5 meanings in every line bc theres plot that needs to keep going and sentences need to stay short #so you get a lot of character work for free i think but in return you need to rein yourself in in that way #anyway idk these observations were just based on like me rewriting the 14 specials and going 'this line fucking sucks in fic' fhgkjhgkjgh #not that it was a bad line! just. boring .meaningless. doesnt add. filler noise. i dont have TIME for that in fic. i lose people #idc if i lose readers i dont know abt that but i lose myself honestly very short attention span keep every word interesting #scripts are fluffy and repetitious. repetitive. but repetitious sounds funner #anyway its fun trying to match that tv need with my own lines that i add in #not too obscure. needs to be sayable. but with my own 'half the spices cabinet in my single cup of hot choccy' approach to writing #(and hot choccy)

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oseike · 8 months

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"This person, who not so long ago searched for herbs with me so earnestly....

"It's too sudden. There's so much everyone wants to say, wants to hear.

"If only he could open his eyes one more time..."

If funerals are for the living, what of one's final moments? For whom do they exist? Is it okay to force wakefulness one more time, even if it should cause pain?

EDIT: @keidokusha has translated this to Vietnamese:

Many thanks to them!

#orv #orv spoilers #lee seolhwa #there really isnt much about her written originally or in fanart that I've seen #i would imagine as his state becomes more precarious the usual drugs or methods don't work on him as well #and some substances might not be available anymore #so this is lsh testing out something that might wake him up #she does it at night so no one else is around just in case the result is bad #the party shouldnt see him in danger or in pain #but that also includes lsh too #her own helplessness in the face of kdj's situation must be crushing #to see the party expecting her to save him and not be able to answer those hopes #she's supposed to be the best!!#between her and aileen what problem could they not fix?#and when she fails the party can walk away but she must stay and watch him disintegrate #i feel that would have some hard repercussions on a person #oseiart #vietnamese translation

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fuckinart · 2 years

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The most important factor in toxicity is the chemical structure of a substance—what it is made of, what atoms and molecules it contains and how they are arranged.

#Danny Phantom #Danny Fenton #art #comic #sketch #artists on tumblr #yeah i've decided to just post the sketches instead of the touch up because i like the former better #anyways here's Understanding Toxic Substances the comic i've been dying over for months & months now #i was researching for FOtPoD & came across this PDF & kinda got possessed by my DP hyperfixation #never drew a comic so fast before #anyway all of this was drawn in one go with like. no touching up or anything so excuse weird anatomy #other than that i think it's good for a sketch. usually for me at least one panel ends up looking super duper fucked up #i gotta also finish the black bear FOtPoD comic & also the gay marriage & boy best friends one or whatever it's called #i'd also like to finish the Laika comic even though I already wrote it into a fic to avoid making the comic #so many comics i need to make & i'm sure i'm forgetting some

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8ptates · 2 years

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So I really loved @donutdrawsthings Cambrian era littlest pet shop designs and was inspired to make a 3D model of the Ammonite one along with a whole scene to make it look like it’s on a store shelf (I went a bit overboard) XD

If anyone's interested in 3D stuff and how I made this look below ! :

Wireframes:

UV rip / Texture sheet:

Unrendered scene (Lighting and rendering still confuse me):

I did the sculpting in z brush core mini, the retop, uv rip, and shelf render in maya and used substance painter for the packaging, fish and ammonite themselves.

First 2 pics in the post are renders from substance painter and the 3rd is a render from maya.

#littlest pet shop #lps #cambrian period #3d model #maya 3d #3d art #ammonite #littlest pet shop fan design #substance painter #autodesk maya #cambrian age #cambrian explosion #ptates3d #my art #the 3d part that is #design is all donut - toast's #I took some liberties with the shell though #This is an outlier compared to what I usually post but I like 3d so...#more in the future?

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fushigurro · 2 days

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the good news is that i got my prescription and it should be ready soon but it’ll be too late in the day to take it so i got a cold brew in the meantime to see what happens lmao

#rambles.#i am not usually a consumer of caffeine but i’m desperate #still going to talk to a psychiatrist tho ✌🏻#like the stimulant shortage isn’t even the problem here it’s literally just my doctors office being trash at communication #thanks for getting back to me DAYS later ❤️#what if i was someone who needed an even more serious medication #anyways. sorry for burdening everyone with my crackhead agenda i am just SO done with all this #there’s always some issues with like every. fucking. medication.#from the controlled substances all the way down to my fucking antacid

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inniave · 25 days

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pharmacies should automatically give you (or at the very least offer) naloxone any time you get an opioid prescription

#and that naloxone should be free #i already keep naloxone in the house but neither the pharmacy or the doctor mentioned it???? which is wild to me #all this shit about controlled substances and “don't get addicted!” but NOTHING about naloxone??????#blows my mind #ur just expecting people to rawdog opioids possibly for the first time in their life post surgery & u offer no harm reduction whatsoever 😳#i don't think this is an individual failing idk how common this knowledge is this is definitely systemic #they didn't teach it to us even working in healthcare on surgery recovery wards?????#i remember sitting in class listening about opioids and when it got to the end of the lecture the prof still hadn't said #anything about naloxone i asked them about it and they said “what?” and i was like 😟 uhhhhhh #yk #the life saving overdose reversing medication 😭#and everyone in the class just looked at me n prof was like “why do u know that” and i was like “why wouldn't u teach about it”#WILD #we didnt even have any not locked in med stations and the nurses on these rehab wards sucked #so i always kept at least a one in my scrub pockets #anyway naloxone is really fucking important!!!!!! u can usually find some for free in ur county #i used to have a whole thing abkht where to get free naloxone and needles and stuff i need to find that #harm reduction #naloxone #opioids

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crehador · 2 months

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i don't know if i think it's really funny or kind of a shame that many people are going to know tadaima okaeri solely as "the omegaverse bl" when it's actually such a sweet slice-of-life about community, family, the struggles of the older generation to understand the younger and vice versa, recovering from social isolation and how recursive that recovery can be, forging lasting friendships as adults, and so on. it's so wholesome and drama-free that it barely has any plot to speak of, but what it lacks in plot it makes up for in themes and man. what beautiful themes

#since my recent reread i've been giving more thought to why i like it SO much #because on the surface it really is just fluff #and i love fluff! but usually require some substance to be completely invested in something #and hoooooo boy am i invested #and i think yeah it's the themes. the friendships the community the intergenerational family tensions that are resolved #in such a satisfying way to me #but yeah of course it is also the omegaverse bl lol #iirc my first read years back of only the first volume left me like ''awh that was super cute'' but it was not memorable #and that makes sense bc it's the community that takes shape in later volumes as the rest of the cast enter their lives #that really appeals to me #anyway! random thinky thoughts before bed #i'm already seeing some comments along the lines of ''this is so cute but why did it have to be omegaverse that's so weird and gross''#''it could have just been normal''#it's omegaverse because that's the story the author wanted to tell. you fools. you absolute buffoons #flashbacks to all the writing workshop critiques i've received that went something like #''this is really good but do they have to be gay. there's no reason they can't just be normal'' ah fun times :) <- sarcastic guy #goodniiight dashboard if you are for some reason still reading these tags here's a little surprise:#SUPER BOOP!!!!!!

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kaeyx · 2 months

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this is getting concerning leo, everytime i open tumblr you're always online i'm not even sure time even exists in your little world please get some sleep or i'm about to reach out to you from this internet barrier just to tuck you into bed

:3

#leo.spam #in all seriousness i promise I'm fine #whenever i have a spare few minutes (waiting for the bus/something in rhe oven/between classes/etc) i pop open Tumblr and check for asks #usually the shorter ones or the ones that don't really have any substance/are more about hanging out or voicing a thought #rather than the longer ones that sre fleshed out concepts and i want to dedicate some more time to #i sleep plenty of time i just do it in bursts like a kitty cat #no long 8-10hrs of sleep for me (usually)#i do 2-4hr naps that add up to 8-10 hours per day

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theexorcistiii · 10 months

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Just so everyone knows I started trying to drugs in the last two weeks & have completely failed to get high each time. Something might be wrong with me

#I’d been putting it off bc usually my brain has a really bad reaction to anything feeling weird or off in my body but I was like fuck it I’m #bored drugs sound found. let’s do it. plus my moms bf is a hippy w endless access to substances so I feel like I should take advantage of #that while I still live with him. so I tried some of his shroom chocolate while we were at the river. did not work. hit his weed vape when #we returned. did not work. hit his pipe several times. did not work. I’m immune I guess #except I HAVE technically gotten high one time my stepdad (diff guy it’s complicated) said he’d been taking gummies to help him sleep so he #let me try one it took me like an hour to fall asleep n then an hour after that I woke up knocked on my fucking ASS #could not move bc my body was too heavy & also I was vibrating & I couldn’t think bc my thoughts were too wiggly. didn’t like it #but that’s it. whatever I will never be cool I guess

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byanyan · 4 months

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byan disappears for two days but instead of emerging strung out and skittish like usual, their hands and arms are covered in paint and ink stains and they're a little distant but hungry as hell

#byan occasionally hiding away to work on a piece of art from beginning to finish to limit outside distractions #bc they have something in their head that they desperately need to get out #and if they lose focus at any point they'll never come back to finish it #it's probably no surprise to hear that these pieces are usually tied to their trauma #they get it in their head that if they get the vivid imagery out onto paper they'll be able to stop thinking about it (they won't)#but if they take a break at any point or get distracted and stop... coming back later is hard #oftentimes they end up destroying the unfinished piece when that happens bc now that they've had some distance #they don't want to relive the event again just to finish it #it's a coping mechanism they don't use often - at least not on this level #their sketchbooks are full of pieces like this but those are smaller and less elaborate - ones they finish in hours rather than days #sometimes certain pieces call for being bigger and more detailed... it just depends on how it looks in their mind #just smth that's been in my head for a couple days now that I've been mulling over idk #I think sometimes there's a little substance abuse that goes on at the same time too...#but not to the same level as the abuse when they disappear specifically to fuck themself up #it's more to like. make things flow and make it a little easier to sit in that memory for a prolonged period of time #so overall still not the most healthy coping mechanism :/ but it's not their WORST so. there's that.#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made.#drug use cw

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astrofiish · 25 days

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Once again rotating Zach Barns shitty experiences post labryinthia (whenever the fuck he decides to leave)

#specifically thinking about the concept of Halloween #Zach barn getting scared shitless during Halloween when hes invited to a Halloween party of some sort #(he literally just brought his old knight costume (ppl judged him for his lil pant things just a little bit))#His roommate (NPC number 2353) explaining the concept of witches in folklore and how ppl dress up as them for halloween #And hes like ?????????????????????????? but witches are literally just real-life woman?????????#((his roommate proceeds to sit him down to talk about misogyny when he meant it in a 'oh-this-is-how-it-worked-in-labryinthia' way))#(((side note: he needs to learn how to deconstruct his misogyny so badly like he lived in misogyny town because was slurpin misogyny juice)#(((he does learn basic respect by the end of plvspw but he still got a LOT of steps to go with that post-labyrinthia imo)))#him getting really fucking confused about why witches usually have a black hats on when all of his witches wore purple cloaks #and they sat in their lil mansion in the middle of the woods stirring who-knows-what-substance (silver misogyny juice)#him learning that ppl actually physically go LARPing and that his whole time in labryinthia was literally just a big LARPing experiment #by an old man who refused to give his daughter therapy #and instead caused a lot of people an incredible amount of trauma #anyways im getting off track im just rotating that in my brain this Tuesday night

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fightclub1996 · 29 days

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anywayz did I even tell u guys that when I went to my doctor for pain meds bc I have an ovary cyst, he first accused me of faking it to get out of work, then suggested the pill and THEN. Tried to give me some injection but refused to tell me what it was or what it was for. Just wanted to stick a syringe in my body and not tell me what it is. So I obviously refused ans he was like "🙄🙄 fine I guess Ill prescribe u some pain meds"

#WHAT WAS THAT!!!#i was having sucg a shit time anyways I didnt even question it and when I told my friends they were like #😟😟 why r u so relaxed aby this this man sounds like a serial killer #but honestly my life just keeps getting more shitty I wasnt even suprised some strange man tried sticking a mystery substance into me 😭#tbc my actual doctor (also bad but not that bad) was on holiday and he told me to go to this one instead. so this isnt like my usual docto😭#.txt

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dorothygale · 1 year

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not my psychiatrist lowkey ghosting me?

#when i called for my vyvanse refill i was like hey bro just wondering. could i possibly get some addy in addition bc i want s smth shorter-#-for the weekends/days i'm not working all day-#-but idk if that's allowed. someone in the office called me back and they were like lol no and i was like haha yeah i figured no it's fine.#and he said my vyvanse refill was still gonna be sent in #that was thursday. and i usually get the walgreens notification the same day i call the Rx voicemail if not within a few hours #i left another message on friday. still haven't heard anything #and i'm nervous to be pushy bc i just asked for (and was denied) extra controlled substances LMAO #blabs #mental adventures

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garbagequeer · 10 months

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barbie discourse annoys me because like the normal person who doesn't hate women part of it just boils down to this movie about a specific doll that is a product of the brand that got the movie made and did huge publicity stunts for it is an advertisement but said as if it's a breakthrough to see that. like. and 1+1 is 2. can we get smarter in here

#like woah the summer blockbuster? that cost millions to make? with the big hollywood starts in it? wouldnt have guessed!#reminds me a bit of when i go to book club and we're discussing a random book by up and coming young usamerican author #and someone's always like but it doesnt uphold a radical politics. like yeah. cause it's about some bitch from iowa #idk it's just looking for things where you would usually not find them and being pissed about it #ignoring the fact that political essays and small scale / counterculture art exist and sometimes things outside of those are just #ploys to make money and books about having a bad day in iowa #and like of course you wont enjoy My Terrible Iowa Day if you want it to be the communist manifesto #and you wont enjoy a blockbuster if you expect it to care about the integrity of art #it's like going to mcdonalds and being pissed they dont have duck #like yes it's an accurate description but it's not an interesting comment. and you could instead tell me about a place that does great duck #but noooo now we have to eat mcdonalds and then spend months discussing the lack of substance of the menu #personal

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mainfaggot · 4 months

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oh also shes straight

#and the part of me thats empty hopeless and constantly passively suicidal scores a goal!#a win for the agony within!#a loss for whimsy hope and serenity and the part of the me that is trying to heal and move forward without the weight of it all defining me.#it's like. im not surprised. why did i have expectations #why did i hope. i shouldnt hope. im so stupid. i shouldnt hope i should know better than that. im scarily lacking substance. im a shell #im a puppet. i cant form lasting relationships im an actor im a liar it would've never worked anyway #-> me going insane in real time #-> i sound so dramatic like go watch txt to do and chill out maybe ⁉️#idk lol 😐#im not giving up bc she said we should hang out again and friendship is always an option and she already #knows too much about me at this point so it's too late to back out #here is to befriending her for the sake of allowing myself to exist imperfectly and for the sake of hanging out with someone every week for #funsies and nothing else. we dont need to have some grand connection. she doesn't need to have a crush on me. we can just be #on campus buddies #we can meet during the summer at some points too maybe #idk. idk i want to disappear i think bc i really feel like i embarrassed myself by being so open about my insecurities #i should've put on the mask i usually wear #but i didnt #and everything thats pathetic about me was on full display #i don't know. god. i dont know #what matters is i made her smile a few times. my unnecessary commentary got a laugh out of her a few times too #the world is still spinning #the air was refreshingly chilly on my way home today #i got rained on and came to class looking beautiful despite my carefully slicked back hair falling into my eyes #my spanish professor agreed with my thoughts on the text we were analysing #z.post

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fissions-chips · 6 months

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Butler letting Jon chill with him in the kitchen while he’s cooking… Jon not even trying to help him cook for once, just sitting there and enjoying his presence and having someone to talk to.

Butler offers him little tastes of whatever he’s cooking, but he’s never pushy about it because he knows that Jon’s gut problems give him a lot of anxiety around such things (Jon limits himself more than he strictly needs to, but does so because one little ill-timed treat can leave him utterly miserable and sick for a while). Usually Jon doesn’t do so, blustering his way through refusing- then again, sometimes he does take it, and Butler’s heart melts a little at how much Jon likes his cooking.

#here have some fluff #jon swings wildly between ‘I give no shits what I put in my body’ or ‘I’m not going to eat anything of substance for several days’#and both are an indicator to Butler that he’s stressed/sick. so it’s a lot of taking it in stride for Butler because he’s *not* Jon’s #- bodyguard and as such he won’t fuss over Jon in that way in the same vein as to how Jon won’t *let* him fuss over him.#but he will offer him tastes of his cooking so Jon can enjoy something other than the bland meals he usually makes for himself (assuming he #- does so at all). and if Jon ever so often (incredibly rarely) actually decides to eat whatever Butler’s cooking with him? well.#- Butler will keep the intense joy he gets from that to himself #spirovoi #headcanons

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