#there’s so much I wanna say but ain’t nobody…care lmao but it was a nice visit

[channelworldbluez]

Okay soooo…

Pre-op was interesting . She(my obgyn) didn’t look inside like I thought she would she saved that for April but anyways..

Dude…

She showed me the pics of my uterus before they took it out. It looked like a fucking basketball dude. It looked like one of those mini watermelons you get from Publix lol

Like no wonder my ass was bleeding to death and was in so much pain wtf

I mean she did inform me before surgery that I had an enlarged uterus but to see that thing in 4K UHD, fucking hi resolution ass pic, was a bit real lmfaoo

But the pictures she let me have them!!!and you guys know(or maybe not idk if you pay attention to my reblogs #bitter) but I love pictures of the insides of the body okay love me some internal organs I’m not weird don’t…judge me. I love looking at organs especially fucked up ones so I’m hanging these pics on my wall.

[morgansdeb]

☕️ alex leaving jo for izzie

*sighs* Okay, so I have several thoughts about this, but I don’t know if I’m going to do a good job at articulating them properly. This is going to be long.

So, this is probably my most unpopular opinion of all time... I don’t like Alex Karev. I never have. I think he’s annoying, a bully, and quite frankly, he did a lot of terrible things that the fandom doesn’t really address. I mean, when I finished Grey’s and I went online to see if others disliked Alex, I was disappointed that I found very few people that agreed with me. This fandom LOVES this guy, and I’m just here in my little corner like “nope, he sucks.”

I think the thing that bugs me the most is the hypocrisy in the fandom when it comes to Izzie vs Alex.

When Izzie left the show, because Katherine Heigl left the show, she became the evil bitch who abandoned Alex, that horrible ungrateful woman who didn’t stay by her husband’s side despite all he did for her. We know the reason Izzie’s exit from the show was so poorly handled was because of Shonda’s issue with Katherine not submitting herself for an Emmy for season 4 (which tbh, I can’t blame her? She was right when she said the material she received that season wasn’t Emmy-worthy, especially in comparison to Izzie’s storylines in the previous two seasons, which were actually heart-wrenching and better developed), so I genuinely don’t get where people’s beef with Izzie comes from. She was written that way because of issues behind the scenes.

And if I’m honest here... people forget that when Izzie left the first time, she was under a lot of emotional distress. She was BATTLING CANCER, JUST LOST HER FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD, AND GOT FIRED FROM THE HOSPITAL!!!! Sorry for yelling, but this fandom doesn’t have any consideration for Izzie’s feelings. Webber fired her in a stone-cold way and heavily implied Alex helped him with that decision. So of course Izzie left. She was traumatized!! And then SHE CAME BACK. She came back and wanted to make things right with Alex, but he told her TO LEAVE. He was the one who did that. So what was Izzie supposed to do? Stay in a hospital where she has to work with a man who told her “I love you so much I almost hate you” (wtf was that line)? Yeah, I can’t blame her for leaving.

People always wanna talk about how Izzie is selfish when she donated 8 million dollars to open a free clinic, was the only resident who bothered to teach the interns (while Alex complained about working on the clinic and said the interns were stupid, lmao, what a guy), donated money to pay for a girl’s back surgery, decorated the house for Christmas and made socks for Meredith and George (and Doc!!), tried to be nice to the doctors from Mercy-West (and ended up getting called a bitch for it :///) and was overall a happy, sweet person who cared about her patients and her friends. Izzie was amazing, why are you all so mean to her?? Because she left Alex’s annoying ass?? If that man was my husband, I’d leave him too, lmao

ANYWAY... so yeah, Alex ain’t shit to me. The first thing he did when he met Izzie was tell her she wouldn’t last as a surgeon, then sexually harassed by hanging pictures of Izzie’s modeling days all over the locker room, cheated on her with Olivia, made fun of her relationship with Denny, called her a stupid bitch and stole one of her surgeries, made her cancer all about himself, didn’t comfort her after George died (seriously, this was so fucked up and nobody ever talks about it. Alex was so jealous of Izzie’s love for George and he showed it all the time)... that man was not “the perfect husband”. He’s lucky Izzie gave him the time of day after the stunt he pulled in the locker room. She was the only one of the interns who gave him a chance, when Meredith, Cristina, and George wanted nothing to do with him (and who could blame them).

He also bullied the hell out of George and April, especially April. People defend this by saying “oh, but everyone bullied April!!” (that isn’t a solid defense, btw), and while the other characters were annoying for that (I love Cristina, but her treatment of April was so awful, same with Meredith, Lexie, and even Jackson was a dick to her at times), Alex always took things to an extreme level. When they’re in the on-call room and are about to have sex, Alex starts yelling at her and saying all that gross stuff about not wanting to hold her virgin hand, and then we see April choking on her own tears at Cristina’s house and Alex never apologized to her for that, he just continued to bully her. He ALMOST KILLED Andrew, and I know that he beat him up because he thought he was assaulting Jo, but he didn’t even try to make things right with him?? He could have killed him or ruin his entire career, but the show had Alex be portrayed as the victim and the other characters didn’t seem to be bothered by what he did?? How did Bailey appoint him as temporary chief when he had a record??

Okay, so this turned into an anti-Alex rant more than anything else, but all this needed to be said. I know he became a better doctor and everything, but he never clicked as a character for me. His friendship with Meredith seemed forced (Cristina was gone, so Meredith needed to hold on to someone, right??), and it was very shitty how it took Meredith TWO YEARS to respect Jo as Alex’s girlfriend and Alex just let Meredith treat her like crap?? Never change, Karev. I don’t care about his friendship with Arizona, either.

So... this guy left Jo. He cheated on her, lied to her, and then left her in a letter. And the fandom is like “okay, but Alex didn’t do it!!! The writers ruined him!!!”, oh, wow, so when Izzie leaves Alex she’s a bitch, but when Alex leaves Jo, it was the writers??? Alex should be the most hated character on the show because what he did was horrible, but the fandom gives him a pass. Y’all hate Izzie, but this guy is okay in your eyes???

Another unpopular opinion, but I don’t like Jo either. She’s boring to me; I don’t care about her storylines (I find them quite repetitive), and I never cared about her relationship with Alex (they had zero chemistry to me). So no, I don’t care that they’re over. I do wish Alex had taken her with him, lmao.

I hate that they made Alex and Izzie end up together because now EVERYONE is blaming Izzie for Alex’s exit. “She hid the children from him!!!” Alex SIGNED his rights away and told Izzie she could do whatever she wanted with his sperm. It’s not Izzie’s fault Alex decided he now wanted to be a dad to those kids. Why does Izzie get all the blame for all of this? Alex is a grown man who made a choice. We also never saw them reunite on screen, so we have no idea what they spoke about. Maybe Alex didn’t even tell her he was married. I mean, he had no problem lying to his wife about where he was, so who’s to say he didn’t lie to Izzie, too?

I know, I KNOW that Alex leaving Jo like that is bad writing. But the only reason I care is because I hate that this storyline made my favorite character the target of fandom hypocrisy and hate. But to be honest, Alex got a better ending than most. George, Lexie, Mark, and Derek died horrible and painful deaths. Callie and April also had shitty exists. The ONLY one who had an exit worthy of her character was Cristina (not counting Addison because she went to have her own spin off).

I don’t know if I have anything else to add, tbh. If you hate Izzie but love Alex, you’re a hypocrite.

Oh, and George and Izzie forever <333

[sheabuttahwrites]

[I Know]

. four : reunited, and it feels so...

three

Monday

It was about twenty minutes after eight and Cam had just left. Though, I’d been up for a while since I had to make breakfast for him. I didn’t mind, because I was too anxious to sleep anyway. I was finally about to get out of this depressing ass house for a bit. And O was never boring, so I knew it was about to be a good time. Plus I was so ready to see him. I don't know why, but this particular stretch had felt much longer than all the others. I was on the way to go pack my bag when I decided to mess with him a little instead. I grabbed my phone ready to compose a text, but I already had a notification from him. 

Get up. I’m in route, on my way to you

It had only been there for one minute. I guess we both had the same idea to play this morning. 

I’m up. Been up

You ready?

Yes big head I’m ready 

Ok short legs I was just making sure

I hollered. He was just average height himself, and only about six inches taller than me. Calling somebody short. 

Lmao why you gotta take it there? I’ll be in your vicinity today, don't get beat up

I’m not worried

You should be

Why? Ain't nobody scared of you Jay Baby

Say it to my face

You think I won't

Ok keep that same energy when you see me

Oh fa sho, you do the same

Don't worry about me, you know I’m a G 

Keep talking with your bad ass 

You ain’t gon do nothing

Me and my big head can stay home

I’m not worried lmao you know you wanna see me

You ain't funny

And you ain't gotta lie, you chuckled 

Lol anyway I’m leaving now, I’ll be over there in a minute

I know 

Lmao whatever

I laughed aloud sending him three crying laughing emoji, then slid my phone down into my bra. Finally, I went over to the closet to fill my duffle. I threw a few casual pieces in first, because comfort over everything, and then I added about three or four that could possibly be worn out. I grabbed some sneakers, a couple pairs of heels, a little jewelry, underwear, pajamas, and I packed a separate smaller bag with all of my toiletries. I had taken a shower earlier so I was ready. For about a second, I debated on whether I should change, then decided against it. I knew we would be going right to sleep once we got to his place, so my loungewear would do. 

While I waited for him, I walked over to the mirror, happy that my home remedies had helped my bruises and swelling disappear so quickly. It had only been about two and a half days, but a few aspirin and some intense ice pack usage had really worked. My rug burns were scabbed, but I wasn't too worried about those since the majority would be under my clothes. However, there was still a tiny something at the corner of my mouth, so I covered it with a bit of concealer and finished it with some setting powder. And I was sure to toss the two of them into my makeup bag for later use. 

A little after nine, much to my delight, the doorbell rang. I squealed, giddy as ever, as I jumped up to walk to the door. And, when I opened it, before me stood my bestest friend in the whole world with the goofiest smile on his face. I laughed and invited him in, so excited that I was hardly able to get the door closed behind him. Then I kissed his cheek and pulled him into the tightest hug. It felt so good to be in his arms again. “Hey.” I spoke into his chest and his deep, honeyed timbre fluttered against my ears. 

“Hey.”

I closed my eyes and just held on to him, feeling completely carefree, taking in a moment that didn't get to happen as much as I’d like. I didn't want to let go. Until he took his face down to nuzzle my neck. I flinched and giggled, backing away from him and shielding myself with my shoulder. He knew better. “Don't…”

“Now what's all that shit you was talking?” he asked jokingly, looking down into my face and laughing. 

I tossed my head back, cackling, before I went to smack his arm. “Shut up.”

“Look out. You ready?”

“Yeah, just let me get my stuff.” I left his embrace and started for the living room where I had been waiting.

“Hurry up, get me out this nigga shit.”

I screamed. I knew he hated coming here. But this was his own fault. Because he also didn’t like texting to tell me he was outside, because to him it wasn't courteous. For the same reason, he didn’t like me taking Ubers to or from his place. I personally didn't have a problem with either. Both had been done maybe twice in the beginning and he told me he felt weird about it. I only half understood, but I didn't fight him on it. Honestly, it felt nice to actually be valued for a change. “Simmer down, sir. I’m coming.”

“You know you naked?” 

I paid him no mind and kept moving toward my bags, still tickled by his earlier demand. “Whatever. No, I’m not.” My boxers and tank were plenty clothes.

“Dude would probably have a fit if he knew you were leaving the house in that.” 

Slightly appalled, I stopped mid stroll and turned back to him. “Excuse you? He would also have a fit if he knew you were picking his girl up. But that hasn’t been an issue for you for how long now?”

“Good point. Carry on.” The way he waved me off almost had me in tears. My rebuttal had shut him up too quick. 

“I thought so.”

“Not even a jacket, though? It’s kinda cool out there.”

“I’ll be ok. I’m just running to the car then right into the house after that.”

“If you say so. But what happened to your knee?” 

“Oh, nothing. I scraped it on the carpet. It was an accident,” I hastily explained just under a shout, disappearing around the corner. I hoped I wouldn't have to go into more detail. Omari definitely wasn't shy about asking questions when he wanted to know something.

“Oh. Damn.”

I returned in no time with my duffle bag in hand and my purse on my arm. He took the bag, being his usual gentlemanly self, and I grabbed my keys to lock up the house. Once we were on the porch, I made sure to engage the alarm from my phone. Then he and I hopped into his white Range that I loved so much, and we were out. 

“You hungry?” he asked, yawning.

I yawned instantly, seeing him do it first. “Nah, I'm good. I just wanna go back to sleep.” 

“Word. Me, too.” 

After Cam was done packing last night, he woke me up for round three. Or maybe it was four. I don’t know. But it wasn’t uncommon for him to try and fuck me senseless before he left for work. I guess he thought overuse of his penis was what it took for me to still be there whenever he returned. Whatever the case, I was tired as hell and in need of some serious rest. 

2:04pm

I opened my eyes, slowly becoming aware that Jade and I were face to face. I lingered for a second, letting my vision clear up, enjoying the view more than anything, though. She was stunning. Just so beautiful. Her features had to have been sculpted by the most masterful hands, using only the finest of materials. The lines were sharp, but they had a softness to them. Her skin was golden like warmed maple on a glorious Sunday morning. When they were available, her round, dark brown eyes were gentle, yet so alluring. The way they sparkled in the sun always got me. To top it all off, her sultry pout sat perfectly beneath a nose that fit just right. She was flawless. 

While I stood stretching, yawning, alternating between bending and rubbing the arm she had been lying on, I could see a sense of calm in her expression. She always looked that way when we were together. Like she was happy. And I knew that wasn't the case at home. I tried not to think about it too often, but honestly it really bothered me. She hit me up pretty regularly, revealing how he talked to her, the many ways he mistreated her. But it was probably a lot worse than she was willing to admit. My instincts told me that he was putting his hands on her. She had never confirmed my suspicions, but I knew it was the truth. I knew. And the thought of that shit alone killed me. She was so sweet. So soft spoken and mild mannered. She didn't have a cruel bone in her body. I just couldn’t imagine her actually having the need to protect herself not only from harmful, ugly words but some nigga’s hand. It fucked me up. She was easily my favorite person. I hadn’t witnessed a more pure soul. And to be aware that she was suffering, especially through something so horrible and damaging, was beginning to be too much. I couldn't do shit about it. I couldn't fix it, I couldn't change it. All I could do was be there for her, give her a place to decompress from time to time. Which I loved. I wanted to help her in any way I could, but I was starting to feel like I was in over my head. Truthfully, I didn’t know how much longer I was gonna be able to do this. It was becoming very difficult for me to live with myself. My conscience was tearing my ass up. The most trifling woman didn’t deserve what she was being subjected to every day, and she wasn’t even guilty of anything. Her only fault was loving a nigga who meant her absolutely no good.

I didn't fully understand that either. Of course I knew love could make you do things you maybe wouldn't normally do, but in this case, what was there to love? How could she look at a nigga who was constantly causing her pain and feel anything other than hate? I just didn't get it. She had to know that whatever she was experiencing wasn't love. He was abusing her. How could she still love him? Why would she take his wrath and still allow him to receive all of her goodness? She had to know he didn't deserve it. She had to know that she deserved so much better. From any man. From life. From any situation she found herself in. She had to know that something wasn't right.

But she held fast to her claims. From the start she made it known that she was in a relationship and that she was in love. I respected her honesty, but her words and her actions never matched up. Her mood on the way to my place and the one on the way back to hers were always on two completely opposite ends of the scale. I don't know if she couldn't conceal it or if she just didn't care to, but it was painfully evident where she was excited to be and where she dreaded. She just didn't move like the taken woman she alleged to be. Not by her ‘man’ at least. 

I walked into the bathroom and made my way to the toilet. Then I went to the sink to wash up. I was leaning over brushing my teeth when I felt her arms wrap around me.

I kissed his back, resting my head right against his bare skin after. “Hey.”

“What’s up?” 

I caught his reflection in the mirror and, before I could stop them, my lips had curled into an enormous grin. I was so ridiculously glad to finally be in the same place as him. Plus he was so cute. He had toothpaste all over his mouth, but it took nothing away from his appearance. I couldn't help but notice how good we looked standing there together. A better best friend duo didn't exist. 

“I’ma start thinking you happy to see me in a minute,” he teased, finishing up at the sink. 

I busted out laughing. How dare he just blow up my spot like that? I let my arms fall from his waist. He turned to face me and I swatted his chest, backing away to leave the room. “Get off. Don't act like you didn't miss me.”

He followed me out, going toward his closet. “I already told you that. You know I’m always glad to be in your presence.”

“Um hmm.” I bashfully rolled my eyes, blushing against my own will. Thankfully he was trailing me. He went into the closet and I leaned up against the doorway. “So I thought about it, let’s stay in today.”

“Ok.” He took a t-shirt from one of the drawers and pulled it over his head. “That’s cool.”

“We can go do something tomorrow.”

“Well, I got a couple meetings,” he casually announced, walking over to the other side of the room headed for the couch.

“Awww.” I wasn’t expecting him to have to work so soon. “What time?”

“The first one is at nine in the morning, but neither of them should take too long. Nobody’s recording and I’m not mixing anything. So it should only be a few hours.” 

I stood as he sat, my demeanor in a totally different arena than before. My arms were loosely folded across my chest and a slight scowl had inevitably taken over my expression. “Ok.”

“Jay,” he chuckled, picking up the remote, “don't act like that.”

“I know what you call a few hours. I probably gotta be here all day without you.” 

“It won't be all day,” he claimed, giving the TV all of his attention as he flipped through the channels. “I should be back by around three at the latest. Maybe four.”

I smacked my lips, annoyed that he was alluding to seven hours being minuscule. That was most certainly the entire day. “That’s long.”

“Pooh, you know work doesn't stop. I’m always working.”

“I know, but I just got here.”

He sighed heavily, looking up at me with remorseful eyes and a frown to match. “Why you tryna make me feel bad?”

“I’m not. I just don’t know what I’m gonna do with myself,” I spoke lightly, but the defeat was heavy in my voice. I dropped my head and gave him my eyes, making sure to slouch my shoulders and pout as deeply as I could manage. I didn't even hold it long before we were both cracking up. 

“Don't even try it. Fake self.” 

“Whaaaat?”

“You just about to be sleep the whole time anyway.” 

I doubled over and slapped my knee, because he definitely wasn’t lying. “Whatever.” But I was not about to admit it. Instead, I went to my bag and grabbed my toothbrush and toothpaste. “Be right back.”

[punkscowardschampions]

Edie & Billie

Edie: You’re not at home, are you?

Billie: Why?

Edie: ‘cos Rih has to babysit and you are the last phone a friend that needs to be eliminated 👾

Billie: 💀🔋 if anyone but you is asking

Edie: that’s the 👻

Edie: Even convinced Jun to get the fuck out

Billie: with what 👻? 👽 ?👾 🤡 ?🎃 🤖? madness

Edie: 👻 ish

Edie: there’s some exhibit at some museum, idk, it actually wasn’t my idea so I can’t take cred

Billie: 🦖 🦴 🦕 was next guess

Billie: safe that the 👻 🔮 came through with a plan

Edie: 👽 more like

Edie: that’s the best I can do with emojis anyway

Billie: 💬 💬 💬 💬

Edie: I met the most perfect boy

Billie: Dude not you catching a dose too 🚱

Edie: I’ve gone outside of the gene pool so it is not the same thing at all

Billie: 👍 start

Billie: Go on, what else has he got going for him?

Edie: Only everything

Edie: he’s perfect, I just said

Edie: You know that really tall, ridiculously good-looking boy in Rih’s year

Billie: 🤨 💭 ?

Billie: it’ll come to me

Billie: Aha! The one who [some rave story she’s heard of something wild he did]

Edie: I don’t know how you didn’t just KNOW but yeah

Edie: that sounds like him 🤩

Billie: he’s been working at ⛽️ [the location of said petrol station like whatever road it’s on] nights I’ve gone in

Edie: That’s good to know

Edie: I can go in too now

Edie: 💡

Billie: 👻

Edie: It’s so weird how we met actually

Edie: the thread has 90k people on it, what are the chances, how does that happen

Billie: spooky how many posts you could’ve missed before, weird if he ain’t wrote any til today & then replied to yours 🔮 🛸 🧲

Edie: He’s deffo been on there before, I recognised the username

Edie: but he mentioned somewhere in Dublin so then I knew he was at least from around here

Edie: I’d have never talked to him before, it’s deffo fate

Billie: fated if he agreed the monster was a copout reveal

Edie: He’s not 12, so duh

Edie: He’s so cool

Billie: It’s defs him?

Edie: Come on, like I’m gonna get catfished

Billie: this is wild odds, all I’m saying

Edie: It would be weirder if they worked out where I went to School, and then picked some boy who also went to that School to use

Edie: anyway, he’s sent me stuff today so I know it’s really him

Billie: he does look like someone to use for 🎣 but I can picture him on that thread loads

Edie: 🤤🤤🤤

Edie: Do you think he’ll come see me

Billie: yeah, why not

Edie: Aforementioned hotness, he could get ANY girl

Edie: I don’t know who he has gone out with before

Edie: didn’t he go out with one of Rih’s friends for a while?

Billie: [a pause while she has a convo with her friends about this because she has many and they’re mostly lads so at least some of them must know him or have some info]

Billie: Last seen with Lexie but that was time ago & nobody since

Edie: Hmm

Edie: I’m nothing like Lexie

Billie: he ain’t still with her & wasn’t for long, I’d assume he’s looking for different

Edie: and that’s me 🥴

Edie: charming 😏

Billie: 👽

Billie: She hasn’t said anything ☢️⚠️ I’m hearing now, that’s chill

Edie: she’s a bitch anyway, I wouldn’t trust her

Billie: if Blips is accurate on his timeline, even she couldn’t be that much of a bitch

Edie: ?

Billie: Everything with his sister was fresh then, apparently

Edie: Oh

Edie: I remember her, she had a nice smile

Billie: I don’t think I ever met her, it’s gone out my head if I did

Billie: the memorial he made for her is sicker than anything the teachers would’ve though, we hang there constantly

Billie: Take this info with 🧂 yeah? the source is Blips

Edie: She was a lot older

Edie: would’ve been, your paths probably didn’t cross

Edie: makes sense

Edie: he would’ve wanted someone around

Billie: makes sense he’s not thinking straight to pick Lexie to be that someone, but idk man, you can have your fill of pity quick enough

Edie: Maybe someone in her family died? I can see that and making that connection

Edie: not a sibling obviously or we’d know but she’s pretty dramatic, like all Rih’s friends are

Billie: not above milking a dead nan, bet

Edie: 💭 exactly

Edie: Poor Liam, that’s kinda fucking gross

Billie: bad taste in my mouth from being the messenger

Edie: I won’t say it was ages ago because that’d feel a bit like spitting on her grave but you know

Edie: fuck Lizzie or whatever her name is

Edie: she’s probably had 100 lads since then

Billie: Yeah, fuck Lizzie

Billie: what’s next for you & him?

Edie: I don’t know

Edie: I sort of asked him to come ‘round but not just like that

Edie: so his answer was as open-ended, I guess

Edie: I really hope he does though

Billie: he doesn’t know you’re unshockable & didn’t wanna freak you out by coming through the window on a real dark & stormy night

Billie: tracks if Lexie is his point of ref, she’s known for saying what she don’t mean

Edie: ugh, she’s really fucked that up for me

Edie: I should go cockblock her too

Edie: that’s a good idea actually

Billie: You could roll up if he’s working, let him know you’re not alike

Edie: If I roll up on her, he will 😈

Billie: 😶 cos idk how he rolls

Edie: You think he’ll be 😱 / 🤬

Billie: He could think you’re jealous, which would put you looking like her 🤡

Billie: lads always go to that headspace

Edie: most lads

Edie: like your mates who can’t spell their own names without checking with their ma first

Edie: I don’t think he’s like that

Billie: I’ll bite, what’s he like?

Edie: emojis weren’t covering it but I dunno if I even can with actual words either

Edie: he’s like no one else I’ve ever spoken to, I wasn’t bored, and he wasn’t weirded out

Billie: You weren’t even a bit bored?

Edie: nah

Edie: I felt like I was barely keeping up

Billie: 🤯

Edie: but he wasn’t trying to be impressive how lads do, because that isn’t

Billie: he was waiting for whatever he sent to impress you, which worked

Edie: he sent me lots of stuff

Edie: not 🍆 pics

Billie: he looks like he’d be a fuckboy

Edie: right?

Edie: he’s got too much about him though

Edie: I would’ve gone with it if he wanted, he had the chance

Billie: 🤯🤯

Edie: come on

Edie: you can see him

Billie: & I can hear you, you don’t say this kinda shit about anyone

Edie: I know, I’m deadly serious

Edie: 💀💀💀

Billie: What a day

Edie: Don’t tell anyone else yet though

Edie: I think he feels it too

Edie: but just in case

Billie: 🤐

Billie: he blatantly does, but that’s up to yous two to broadcast if you want, how you want

Billie: I’m just excited for the reveal 🎟 🍿 📺 🕹 📷 💻 📼 💿

Edie: He makes films too

Edie: and I’m writing a song right now

Billie: link me

Edie: [do, at least the ones that are clearly not private or whatever]

Edie: 😍

Billie: Cool, I’m gonna check these while you go 😈 on Lexie

Edie: If you hear her scream, no you didn’t

Edie: 😘✌️

Billie: not her 🩸 🦷 🦴 got it

Edie: only partly

Edie: she’s only 3rd on my shit-list, after-all

Billie: if I give you away with a new tic, no I didn’t & they’ll never convict 🤪✌️

Edie: so lucky you can shout ableism if it comes down to it

Edie: ADHD is an excuse for nothing except maybe being five minutes late 🙄

Billie: I’m not going for that with a free pass to shout out at the law 🐷 🐽 🐖 🥓

Edie: you can brag about your free pass, I only get caught when I want to ☠️✊

Billie: not a humble brag you can throw out to your new man, going off these locations I’m recognising, he’s got skills at never getting caught

Billie: How’d he get into [somewhere he should not be]?!

Edie: that’d be telling 🤫

Edie: I told you, he’s really smart

Billie: How didn’t we have a clue about him pretty much?

Edie: because he looks like a fuckboy, I suppose

Edie: you know Rih is gonna act like he’s a decade older than me because she thinks she’s so mature

Billie: 🙄

Edie: I can’t wait to call her out on her bullshit again with something new to add

Edie: can’t wait for the opposition like she’s got a leg left

Billie: She’ll run out fast, he’s cool

Edie: She’s not

Edie: but whatever, she can’t do anything

Billie: No chill, but he’s barely older, so if that’s her only 🔫

Edie: and he went out with Lexie ages ago, well, basically

Edie: she can’t act like she’s really good friends with him, I KNOW she isn’t

Billie: & she wasn’t in Lexie face not to go out with him, couldn’t cos there’s nothing wrong with him 🤷🏼‍♀️

Edie: you act like she’s rational but yeah

Edie: I don’t care, I know this is right

Edie: and what I want

Billie: She’s not, like, irrational enough to be hating on your happiness

Edie: I hate on hers

Billie: that’s different

Edie: not to her

Billie: Yeah but in terms of you & Liam

Edie: If she tries to be nice that’ll be even worse 😷

Billie: minding her own business isn’t gonna happen

Edie: I wish she’d keep hers to herself

Edie: I can’t stand it when he’s here

Edie: I’ll kill Lizzie and steal her bed

Billie: least you can stay at his soon

Edie: 😋

Billie: [frames of one of the videos cos the location is some end of summer event, why not] & you’ll be there together this year

Edie: You really think?

Billie: I don’t think you’ll be dumped quicker than Lexie

Edie: Damn fucking right

Edie: even if he was after one thing, I could do it better than her

Billie: [deletes that message like I don’t wanna read about your sexcapades thank you]

Billie: 🎧 🔊

Edie: [retypes it more vividly which I won’t subject you to lmao]

Billie: NAH

Edie: 😂😂😂

Edie: you’re alright, I’ve got another level to my mission now

Edie: [deets of the scavenger hunt thing]

Billie: Did he sort it for you?

Edie: Yep 😍

Billie: this lad

Billie: unreal

Edie: I think I’m in love

Billie: Someone offer to make him for you in a lab? getting sus otherwise

Edie: That would make sense

Edie: he’s way too perfect

Edie: not that I’m mad

Billie: 🏩 💕 💐 🧸 💞

Edie: 💍💒👶

Billie: [deletes that like calm down lol]

Edie: 👶👶👶👶👶👶👶 maybe

Billie: When’s the [some meteor shower or comet that’d feel very fated and cosmic and therefore we must]? invite him to that first

Edie: 🛸

Edie: I just need to think of a way to tell him where and when

Billie: You’ll be looking up for it, makes sense if he has to 👀⬆️ to find out

Billie: I’d put something on his roof

Edie: About the only place he’d genuinely have to look up to see

Edie: might be less literal

Edie: 💻

Billie: that’ll work too

Edie: plus if you reckon he’ll think I’m mental for hitting up Linda, finding out where he lives without asking will really tip it

Billie: romantic gestures are mental, less of a public ambush than most are

Edie: Everything fun is

Billie: Yeah, but nothing’s fun about getting asked out in the hallway between lessons or whatever 💩 is meant to pass for 😍

Edie: Well yeah, that’s too American teen drama for words

Edie: are his friends gonna be standing there pissing themselves at you believing it even for a sec

Billie: if it’s me his mates are stood about meowing cos some tics refuse to 💀

Edie: That’s cute

Edie: at least you aren’t saying some embarrassing untrue shit

Billie: my true form is 🐱 🐈 & I’m saying the truest shit since 👶🏼 🧒🏼

Edie: I know enough not to throw out suggestions for your head to grab but I’ve seen people saying wild things that you’d get eaten alive for

Edie: but duh, how else did we end up with you

Billie: I know not to watch that shit & maybe 🐦 it but yeah, love to my non-verbals 😝 😜 🤪 ✌️ 🖕 👍

Billie: & to ma for never meeting a stray she didn’t love

Edie: I’ll wait ‘til you wrong me ‘fore I add you to the shit list and send ‘em your way

Edie: tRIGgeRd ❗️❗️❗️❗️

Edie: 💗

Billie: Well I ain’t gonna develop a convenient new 👊 one OR pull a Lexie & wheel out my dead relative to steal your bf 💚

Edie: Ha, don’t

Billie: wouldn’t know what to do with him after using him as a 🛹 ramp & 🚴🏼‍♀️ jump

Edie: I’m the only one allowed to jump him tah

Billie: 😷

Edie: Okay I need to focus on this last one

Edie: see you at home

Billie: k

Billie: see you soon 🏴‍☠️

[sleepykalena]

Ten Songs to Get You Through the Plague (Hallyu Edition)

How dare you all, daring me to make a list even though I declined because I said it was just a whole lotta kpop. :P

@skitzofreak, @crazy-fruit, and @funkygourmetrva-blog apparently REALLY wanna be “enlightened” or something like that so here it goes~

(under the cut because long post is long)

ON (BTS) - This song slaps, and is one of like...three(???) songs that I like from BTS. This is a straight-up fight song- it’s hesitant, a little scared, but embraces a self-professed insanity as a motivation to keep going, and that’s pretty damn inspirational (and also very Jyn, I must say. That’s been on my mind). This song and Mikrokosmos are helping me write Parka. Favorite Line(s): Can’t hold me down cuz you know I’m a fighter / 제 발로 들어온 아름다운 감옥 [translation: Carried myself into this beautiful prison] / I’m alright, bring the pain on, yeah / I’ma fight, bring the pain on, yeah

Mikrokosmos (BTS) - I love a good song that compares feelings of love and companionship to stars in a night sky. This baby got me through writing about half the chapters in Parka, and is gonna help me write the remaining 3-4 chapters before I move on to Scarf. Favorite Line(s):  어쩜 이 밤의 표정이 이토록 또 아름다운 건 / 저 별들도 불빛도 아닌 우리 때문일 거야 / You got me / 난 너를 보며 꿈을 꿔 / I got you / 칠흑 같던 밤들 속 / 서로가 본 서로의 빛 / 같은 말을 하고 있었던 거야 우린 / 가장 깊은 밤에 더 빛나는 별빛 [rough translation: It’s possible that the night is beautiful not because of the lights or stars, but because of us / You got me / I see you as I dream / I got you / in the darkest of nights / The lights we saw in each other / were saying the same thing / A starlight that shines brighter than the deepest night]

Bad Buy (Cover) (Eric Nam) - I was really uncomfortable with the idea of a female minor talking about how she’s the type to “might seduce your dad”, but under the lens of a “guy next door” in his late 20s/early 30s, it seems...more like a strange quirk than some lolita thing. But also, Eric Nam has no business being this attractive and making this super smooth cover. Seriously. No business whatsoever. *fans self* Favorite Line(s): Duh. (SERIOUSLY. That’s the favorite bit. I’m not even joking.)

Double Knot (Stray Kidz) - I heard the English version of this first and thought, “hot damn, these kids go HARD”. And then someone pointed out that they were literally singing about tying their shoelaces and now I can’t stop laughing. I actually have had this in my rotation because it helps me get in the mindset of the show I’ll be working on next (which has a similarly hilarious juxtaposition), because I hear this song and literally imagine a bunch of 13 year olds trying to act hardcore with a song as G-rated as this (I’m still laughing just thinking about it) Favorite Line(s):  Dramatic cutscene every scene is the best of the best / 'Cause my life is a five star movie / I'm not done yet so / Tight-tight, go brace yourself / I tighten my double knot

HIP (Mamamoo) - This song is a huge critique on the kpop industry and their rather restrictive and fat-shamey culture, and I AM HERE FOR IT. Plus these gals are just GORGEOUS. This one got me exposed to Mamamoo and I have zero regrets. Songs like this always make me feel super empowered <3 Favorite Line(s): 논란이 돼 My fashion / 별로 신경 안 써 그저 Action / 자꾸 Click me click me 홀린 듯이 Zoom / Close up close up close up HIP 해 [localized translation: Your controversy is my fashion / I don’t care, it’s just an action / Go and click me, click me, like a stan, you zoom / close up, cuz you know I’m HIP, hey]

Regular (NCT 127) - Pretty sure this has been living in my playlist for most of 2019, and it hasn’t changed much since. Definitely makes me feel like a baller while I (used to) commute in shitty traffic, so listening to it now that I’m practicing social distancing is more about mentally taking myself to a place of normalcy than anything else.  Favorite Line(s): I like shining, you be lying / I be grinding, you waste time / Know you wanna roll with me / Cause you know I put it down / When I show up, I’m the one and only, nah nah nah / Yeah, pull up in the jag / Haters gon’ be mad

Kill This Love (Blackpink) - This is also an empowerment anthem that also helped me get through my (former) commute! When you spend all this time indoors, you’re bound to overthink your life, so it’s nice to have a song remind you that you need to assess those relationships and, if the relationship is hurting you more than helping you, “kill this love”. Deffo applicable to your relationship with yourself (e.g. if you’re wallowing in negative thoughts on a detrimental level), or even with others on a platonic level. Favorite Line(s): 나 어떡해 나약한 날 견딜 수 없어 / 애써 눈물을 감춘 채 / 사랑의 숨통을 끊어야겠어 [translation: What do I do? I can’t stand being this weak / While I force myself to hide my tears / I need to bring an end to this love]

POP/STARS (K/DA) - My previous editor showed me this song at the start of this year before he left for a new show and it slaps so hard that I’m mad at how much of an earworm this is LMAOOOOOOOO (side note: has anyone noticed that I’m picking these songs based on how upbeat they help me feel since I’m stuck indoors all the time?) Favorite Line(s): Ain’t nobody bringing us / Down down down down down down / They could try but we’re gonna wear the crown / You could go another round / Round round round round round round / Wish you luck but you’re not bringing us down

Dr. BeBe (Pentagon) - The song is just really catchy. The lyrics is really possessive in a helpless kind of way, and that’s sort of the flaw with most pop songs, it’s also strangely self-aware of what it’s going through. So meta LOL Favorite Line(s):  너란 벽에 갇혀 몸부림쳐 / 상처 나도 / 벗어날 수 없는 울림 [translation: I’m stuck inside your walls / struggle to escape / and get hurt]

AND THE ONE SONG THAT ISN’T KPOP:

Godzilla (Eminem ft Juice WRLD) - Came for the two folks in Godzilla suits, stayed for the lyrical mastery. I think even my partner was shocked that I liked this song, but honestly? It goes pretty hard, it’s a bit rude and taunting, which is just the kind of salt that I sprinkle in my head. Plus it’s fun to try and get even a FRACTION of the speed that Eminem raps. Favorite Line(s): You're bringin' the killer within me outta me / You don't want to be the enemy of the demon who entered me / Or be on the receivin' end of me, what stupidity it'd be / Every bit of me's the epitome of a spitter / When I'm in the vicinity, motherfucker, you better duck / Or you finna be dead the minute you run into me / A hundred percent of you is a fifth of a percent of me / I'm 'bout to fuckin' finish you, bitch, I'm unfadable / You wanna battle, I'm available, I'm blown up like an inflatable / I'm undebatable, I'm unavoidable, I'm unevadable

Is there anyone left to tag? Making this post was exhausting, so tag yourselves if you want in LMAO

[porkchop-ao3]

A Thrill I’ve Never Known (Chapter 30)

On The Move Again...

Idk what to say about this chapter other than a little bit of fluff? A little bit of angst? A little bit of pissed off reader? Just.. mucho dialogue, as per usual with my stuff lmao. 

Just wanna let y’all know that I go back to uni tomorrow (I start back really late, I’ve realised) and I’m going into my final year, so I will likely be busy. BUT, I hope to keep posting enough that you wont notice much of a difference, but yeah. If updates become a little less frequent, it’s not cause I’m getting bored of writing this :) side note... I’m so fucking ready to be done with university! 

(All chapters tagged with #ATINK and also posted on Ao3, username PorkChop)

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Arthur woke me up gently, dusting kisses over my face and petting my hair, whispering my name and rocking me in his arms to rouse me as delicately as birdsong. For about thirty blissful seconds I completely forgot about our circumstances, so enamoured with the feeling of waking up with him. This was something I had only done a handful of times but if this was every morning I would be a very happy woman. 

"Good morning, angel. I'm sorry to wake you, but I gotta get up," he whispered to me, his hand still smoothing over the back of my head. 

"I don't mind waking up if this is the first thing I see," I murmured sleepily, making him laugh. 

"I gotta say, it was real nice for me too," he said, kissing my forehead once before wrapping his arms around me and rolling us over until he was above me, though dangerously close to the edge. He slammed a hand on the table next to us before we ended up on the floor together and we laughed as he shuffled us back into the middle of the bed. 

"I don't want us to get up," I sighed. 

"Me neither, but we gotta figure out what's happening with Jack," he said, and it all came tumbling back to me. 

"Oh God, yeah, you know I was almost at peace for a second," I grunted, dropping my head back against the bed and trailing my hands up Arthur's sides. 

"I'm sorry," he mumbled, nestling his face against my neck and inhaling deeply. "I can hear Dutch out there. I ought to go out and talk with 'em, hopefully he's figured something out."

"Alright," I whispered, patting his back a couple of times before releasing him. 

With a groan Arthur pushed himself up and off of me, sitting down on the edge of the bed and stretching, rolling his neck and grunting as his joints popped. His jaw stretched open with a yawn, one which I caught and mimicked shortly after. I shifted to join him sitting up, and after taking a moment to straighten out our clothes and tidy our hair, we rose to our feet and emerged from the tent. It struck me how shameless we seemed to suddenly be about what was going on between the two of us. It had gone unspoken, but I believed both of us had frankly stopped caring about who knew and who didn't. 

Regardless, nobody noticed us leaving the tent together, too preoccupied to care, thankfully. Dutch, Hosea and John were sat around the table talking; Arthur joined them and I pottered off, leaving the men to it and instead heading to grab my morning coffee. I caught sight of Abigail sitting on the ground on her bedroll with her knees hugged into her chest, eyes distant. I opted not to disturb her, taking a seat with Tilly and Mary-Beth in front of their wagon. 

"Morning, girls. How're you two holding up?" I greeted them. Tilly was washing a chemise while Mary-Beth was distractedly stitching a white garment that I quickly noticed was dappled with a few specks of blood. Before any of them could even answer I spoke again. 

"Mary-Beth, you're bleeding!" I pointed out, reaching out and taking her hand in mine. 

"Oh! Oh shoot, what a mess. I pricked myself earlier on, didn't realise I'd drawn blood," she plopped her finger in her mouth and sucked on the injured digit. I put my coffee down and took the garment from her; it was a stocking with a tear in it. 

"I'll finish this, don't worry. There ain't too much blood on it, no harm done. 'sides your finger."

"I'm away with the fairies this morning," she shook her head at herself. 

"Ain't we all. How're you, Tilly?" I asked. 

"About as well as you'd expect. The other day I couldn't stop thinkin' about how bored I was, now I'd happily take boredom over all this mess," Tilly sighed, sitting back on her heels and shaking her hands free of water. 

"I'm confident the men'll get Jack back," I assured them both. 

"Me too, it's just all the worrying until then. Has Arthur said anything to you about where he is?" Tilly asked me and looked up at her, momentarily – and frankly unjustifiably – surprised that she'd asked me about Arthur. 

"Oh, no, he hasn't," I said after a pause. 

"How is he doing, anyway? He's been awfully quiet lately," Mary-Beth began, "not that he ain't usually quiet, but you know what I mean."

"Arthur? He…" I paused, looking down at my sewing. "I reckon his injury knocked it out of him for a bit, he didn't much like being cooped up. Then of course, first thing he does after getting back out there is watch Sean– it's understandable. I jus' think he's going through it a bit."

"Well I hope he knows he can come talk to any of us if he needs it. Though, I suppose he has you for that, now," Mary-Beth commented. I looked at her, a light frown on my face. 

"What do you mean?"

"Oh, we ain't idiots," Tilly laughed "it's extremely obvious that you and him are somethin' more than friends."

"No, that ain't what I meant. You don't think I'm… stealing him, hogging him away from all of you, do you?" 

The two girls looked at me, two sets of eyes going wide for a few long seconds before they both laughed. 

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that," Mary-Beth patted my knee, "I just meant he has you to open up to now, I ain't surprised if he don't talk to us about that stuff all that much anymore. I don't mind it, it makes sense."

"Before you came along, if Arthur was going through a rough patch, he'd come speak to one of us women. That ain't happened in a while so we figured he was talking to you instead, is that not the case?" Tilly added, picking the chemise out of the bucket and squeezing the water out.

"Oh, no, he does," I nodded, thinking back to the previous night, all his talk of getting out of here, no matter how idealised the thoughts were. Mary-Beth leaned forwards a bit, inspecting my expression. 

"Everything okay between you two?" She asked. 

"Between us, yes, everything is wonderful," I told her, a small sigh escaping me. "I just wish everything else was the same. I don't like seeing him worried. I'm worried too, but I know it ain't a scratch on how he must be feeling."

"Well, I'm just glad he has you. That man deserves a bit of love, that's for sure," Mary-Beth said, "after Mary, and everything that's happened to him."

"Mary-Beth," Tilly said, her tone a warning. 

"What?"

"You don't bring up a man's past relationships to his new lady," she chuckled, shaking her head. I smiled in amusement.

"It's alright. I know about Mary, even met her once. Well, not really met, saw her from a distance."

"Really? Oh, well I admit I was a little worried when I heard she was around. She practically carved the poor feller's heart out and spat on it. He was real excited when she agreed to marry him, I don't know how she could do that to him," Mary-Beth sighed. 

My heart thumped uncomfortably and I stared blankly at her. She noticed my silence and looked at me, the colour draining from her face soon after. 

"They were engaged?" I asked, my voice small. 

"Oh, Mary-Beth," Tilly said tightly, shaking her head. 

"I thought you knew," Mary-Beth covered her mouth. "Oh, goodness. I'm a fool."

"No, no it's fine. I've no right to be upset," I shook my head, snapping myself out of it. "I guess it just surprised me, I didn't know it'd gone that far."

I understood better why Arthur had been so deeply hurt by her. Why he'd held onto her for years, why he'd kept her photo, why he'd acknowledged her letter and gone to meet her despite the pain he knew it'd cause him. She was the woman he'd loved so much he'd wanted to share the rest of his life with her.

"No, you're upset. Oh gosh, forget this I'll do it later," Mary-Beth snatched the sewing from me and tossed it aside, clasping my hands in hers. "This was years ago, he's clearly moved on and he has you, he's completely taken by you, it's so easy to see."

"I don't need reassurance, like I said, I have no right to be upset over something that happened before he even knew me. He has his own life, how awful would I be to turn sour over him living his own life?" I forced a laugh, shaking my head. 

It was true, I had no reason to be upset. And I wasn't upset, not with Arthur, he'd done nothing wrong. But I did feel something cold and sickly and gross in my tummy and it was startlingly close to inadequacy.

"Mary-Beth is right, he's crazy about you. I watched him drawing you the other day when you weren't looking. Never seen the man look so peaceful," Tilly added, moving closer to join us. She put a hand on my shoulder as she sat beside me. 

"You did?" I sputtered, eyes going wide and my face going hot.

"Yeah. You were brushing your horse and he was at that table over there just watching you, sketching away in that journal of his. I'd love to see what's inside that thing," Tilly giggled. 

"I bet it's real romantic," Mary-Beth remarked, her voice low and tender.

"It never occurred to me that he might write about me in there," I thought aloud. 

"You should sneak a peek while he's sleeping," Tilly whispered and I flashed her a disapproving frown. 

"Oh, I couldn't. That'd be a violation of his privacy," I said. 

"I guess," Tilly sighed glumly. "You should at least ask him."

I shrugged my shoulders. "I reckon I might prefer the mystery."

"Might be full of things he's too scared to say, could show a soft, vulnerable, tender side to him that his tough, manly lifestyle forces him to hide," Mary-Beth stared off into the distance, her expression nothing short of dreamy.

"Good lord, Mary-Beth. You really have to stop reading those novels," Tilly laughed and Mary-Beth playfully swatted her arm. I couldn't help but smile, eyes wandering over to Arthur across the camp. That smile quickly faded though, when I noticed Lenny approaching the group with two men I did not recognise. 

"Hey, Dutch! We got a problem," he called out, pointing his gun at the back of the men, keeping a close eye on them as they walked towards Dutch. 

The men were well dressed in suits and ties and bowler hats, the second of the men had a gun slung over his shoulder. Something told me they weren't friends of the Van Der Linde gang. I stayed put as the men exchanged a few words. 

"Crap, that's the Pinkertons, I reckon," Mary-Beth hissed under her breath when she noticed. The gang slowly surrounded the group, forming a crowd that couldn't not be at least a little intimidating. I rose to my feet, crossing the camp towards them to listen in on what was happening, aware of the fact that Tilly and Mary-Beth were hanging back. 

"I don't know if you're aware but this is a civilised land, now. We didn't kill all those savages to allow the likes of you to act like human dignity and basic decency was outmoded or not yet invented. This thing, it's done," the first gentleman was announcing when I got close enough to hear. The atmosphere was so dark and thick, it was like I could taste it or smell it, it was foul like the contents of a spittoon.

"This place ain't no such thing as civilised. It's man so in love with greed he has forgotten himself and found only appetites," Dutch responded, his words so well articulated, spoken almost like poetry right from a book. 

"And as a consequence, that lets you take what you please, kill whom you please and hang the rest of us? Who made you the Messiah to these lost souls you've led so horribly astray?" The agent questioned, eyes scanning the crowd around him. His eyes found me. "Oh, and who is this? You must be new, haven't heard anything about you."

Dutch and Arthur looked my way, Dutch's expression stony and serious, Arthur's immediately turning to painful worry. 

"Leave her–" Arthur started, abruptly cut off by Dutch. 

"You'd single out a lady whom to your knowledge has done nothing wrong? That doesn't make you a man any more than threatening the likes of me does," he said. Hosea, who happened to be closest to me, pushed me behind him and obscured their view of me.

"Whether or not any of you lowlifes consider me a man is of no importance to me. I am here to offer you all a deal. You, Dutch, come with me and I'll give the rest of you three days to run off, disappear and go live like human beings someplace else," he bargained, and I stared at the back of Dutch's head, my heart in my throat as I awaited his response.

Dutch chuckled.

"You came for me? Risked life and limb in this den of lowlifes and murderers so that they might live and love? Ain't that fine?"

"I don't wanna kill all these folk Dutch. Just you," the agent stared at Dutch with such disdain I could practically feel the second hand effects of it, creeping hotly up my arms like vines.

"In that case, it'd be my honour to join you," Dutch's words were low, pleasant, "excuse me friends, I have an appointment to keep, with…"

The metallic clicks sounding out across the crowd rose hairs on my neck, weapons being readied, the threat loud and clear. 

"I think your new friend should leave now, Dutch," Miss Grimshaw warned. It was clear that nobody here was prepared to let the men take Dutch away. And Dutch… he was well aware of this.

"You're making a big mistake, all of you," the Pinkerton glowered, unsettled and frustrated, losing his grip on the situation he was so evidently being overpowered in.

"Yeah, dreadful. We have got something. Something to live and die for, how awful for us. Mr? Milton, stop following us, we'll be gone soon," more cool, velvety words from Dutch.

"I'm afraid I can't, and when I return I'll be with fifty men. All of you will die. Run away from this place you fools. Run!" 

"Come on," Lenny grabbed his arm, got him moving only to be shaken off.

"Get your damn hands off of me, boy," and with that, the gentleman returned from the direction they came. As they disappeared through the trees, the air seemed to clear just a bit. It left behind an unpleasant sludge but at least I felt I could breathe. 

The crowd dispersed as Dutch turned to Arthur, the men spoke quietly and I backed away, shaken by the experience. I knew that the Van Der Linde gang were wanted, chased by a dozen different groups of enemies, but actually seeing the evidence standing in the middle of the place we were all meant to feel the safest was difficult to wrap my head around. 

-

I found myself with Javier again, I'd sought him out when Dutch made the announcement that we were moving again, so I could help to take some tents down like last time. We worked together well enough. We were taking down Arthur's first, deconstructing the canvas and posts, loading everything up on the ammunition wagon it all attached to. I was tasked with carefully unpinning his photographs from the side of it so that they wouldn't be lost in transit. Javier and I weren't as talkative this time around, but his choice to start this particular conversation vexed me.

"This piss you off?" He asked, holding up the photograph of Mary. I frowned at him. 

"No," I simply said. 

"Alright," he said innocently. "I just thought, since you and him…" he trailed off. 

"Whatever he and I are, he's allowed to keep a photo of a person he once held dear," I said, packing away the keepsakes in Arthur's chest. I took the photo from Javier and it joined the rest.

"So, are you guys serious?" He asked. When I didn't answer him, he walked around to stand in front of me, folding up Arthur's bedding. "Micah's been sayin' some stuff."

"Micah," I repeated, looking up at Javier. "Micah doesn't know anything about Arthur and I so take it with a pinch of salt."

"No, not about Arthur, 'bout you and him, at the Parlour House," he told me. 

I stared for a moment, mind failing to conjure up a response. 

He smirked, though he seemed surprised. "So something did happen?"

"What's he been saying?"

"Nothing, really. It's all vague suggestion, was saying it 'round the fire the other night when you were in here with Arthur," he explained. "I know you and Micah have had some tension, with that kiss that day."

"What the fuck did he say?" I reiterated, getting irritated. 

"Said stuff like you and him make a good team, the usual crap. But then he talked about you two going out drinking at the Parlour House, you two had fun together, got along real well. Said it with this smirk on his face," Javier told me, wearing a salacious smirk of his own. "Didn't make it hard to read between the lines."

"Right, so basically, he's tryin'a start a rumour about me and him? What, that we kissed? Slept together?" I scoffed, and Javier shrugged. "Well, here's a rumour, spread it all you like. That bristly faced creep asked me to sleep with him at the Parlour House that night, an' he's clearly feeling hard done by considering I rejected him. And don't worry, Arthur already knows about the whole damn embarrassment and I talked him down from beating him, but I'm sure he'd reconsider if I jus' said the word." 

With every word I stepped closer to Javier, poison in my tone that wasn't really directed at him. The corner of his mouth curled up and he leaned away, holding his hands up in surrender. When I was finished, he let loose a chuckle. 

"Alright, I got you, loud and clear."

"I've been trying my damnedest to find the best in him, I know there's some decency in the man, but, by God. He's making it real difficult for me not to join the rest of 'em in hating the bastard," I huffed, feeling my face flush with embarrassment mixed with anger.

"Ay, it's okay. I never really believed him. Don't think anyone else did, either, we all saw how you were when Arthur got fucked up by the O'Driscolls," he reassured me, putting a hand on my shoulder and gingerly pushing me backwards, out of his personal space.

"Yeah well, even so, I don't take kindly to someone making me out to be somethin' I ain't. Say if someone did believe him, then watched me hanging around in Arthur's tent all these weeks, they'd think I was a real piece of work," I muttered, snatching the pillow from Arthur's bed and putting it in the wagon, then moving to roll up the thin padding that served as a mattress.

Javier laughed. "I think you're overestimating people's ability to give a damn. Even if it was true; you wanna get it on with half the gang, that's up to you. Wouldn't be the first girl," he snickered. 

I cocked a brow at him. 

"Could'a been any one of us in John's position," he shrugged. My head whipped around towards where Abigail was, helping pack with Sadie and Karen. 

"Oh, I ain't gossiping. Stop it," I muttered, shaking my head.  

"Alright, muñequita," he chuckled, "no more gossip."

"What does that mean?" I asked. 

"What does what mean?"

"Mune– mune– that word you said," I shook my head, the unfamiliar word dissolving in my mind before I could repeat it.

"Muñequita?" He smirked at me, looking a little surprised that I'd asked. A little embarrassed, even. "Oh, nothing. It's a… just a name. A term of endearment."

"Oh, alright. It's a pretty word," I shrugged my shoulders and smiled at him. 

"Means little doll. People don't tend to ask me what I'm saying, so I'm a little caught off guard," he laughed, shaking his head and turning away from me to lift up the bed frame. "The name seemed to suit you. Those jobs you do, putting on all these roles, playing pretend. Like a little kid's doll." 

He leaned the bed up against the wagon and turned to me, appraising my reaction.

"Well, playing pretend…" I started, pursing my lips in thought. "I guess I can pretend it ain't me robbing people blind. It's Jemima Jones." 

Javier laughed through his nose, tilting his head down. 

"Jemima Jones. She's a clever girl, but don't let her take all the credit–"

"I'm glad you two are gettin' along so nicely but if you remember, we all have the threat of death hangin' over us until we get packed up and gone. Get moving!" Miss Grimshaw hissed as she marched passed us. 

Javier and I shared a glance before getting back to work.

[evermorepeyton]

LOVER IS INCREDIBLE

TS7 snapped I AM SO GIDDY AND HAPPY AND PROUD OF YOU @taylorswift

I forgot that you existed: LOVE THIS ONE! a great opening song omg !!! the way she speaks the word “indifference”. i think it’s just perfection, and the beat is SICK. THE WAY SHE CLOSES THE SONG WITH A “SO..... YEAH”

favorite lyric: “and i would’ve stuck around for you. would’ve fought the whole town, so yeah. would’ve been right there, front row even if nobody came to your show” THAT IS SO RELATABLE WHEN YOU ~WOULD HAVE~ BEEN THERE FOR SOMEONE BUT THEY HAD TO FUCK UP.

cruel summer: ONE OF MY FAVORITES! the perfect pop song, i wish it had been the lead single or the second single. her vocals are incredible. the lyrics are so good i am literally so in love, she did it again, mesmerized me with her lyricism !!!

favorite lyric: (literally the entire bridge but) “and i screamed for whatever it’s worth “i love you”, ain’t that the worst thing you’ve ever heard?” ALSO HONORABLE MENTION TO THE HE LOOKS UP GRINNING LIKE A DEVIL LINE PLS !!!! AND TO “devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes. what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more”

lover: WE KNOW THIS ONE! STILL PERFECT! MY WEDDING SONG EVEN THOUGH I AM SINGLE! I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE JUST TO RELATE!

favorite lyric: THE ENTIRE BRIDGE OH MY GOD !!!

the man: THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE 100% SHE SPILLED !!! i am so proud of her for making this song that not only is it something she can relate to because of how women are treated in the industry BUT ALL WOMEN CAN RELATE TO BECAUSE SOCIETY SUCKS ALL AROUND THE WORLD !!!! and “wondering if i’d get there quicker if i was a man” can also apply to 9 to 5 jobs that are really competitive and for some reason the men always get the positions of power no matter what we do lmao. ANYWAYS I LOVE IT SO MUCH IT’S PERFECT!

favorite lyric: (all of it but) THE ENTIRE BRIDGE! AGAIN! “what’s it like to brag about drinking and dollars and getting bitches and models? (...) if i was out flashing my dollars, i’d be a bitch not a baller, they’d paint me out to be bad SO IT’S OKAY THAT I’M MAD” GIRL !!!!!! THIS TEA !!!!!! i am so proud of her :’) also i love the line “i’d be just like leo in saint tropez” because she has dated like a normal person in their twenties but somehow got slut shamed for it her entire career BUT IF SHE WAS A MAN SHE WOULD LITERALLY BE LEO AT SAINT TROPEZ NO ONE WOULD SAY A GODDAMN THING AND IT WOULD EVEN BE FUN !!!! AND SOMETHING TO APPLAUD HER FOR !!!!!

the archer: have always loved this one wbk <3 so relatable, so vulnerable, i love it still and forever will.

favorite lyric: “all the king’s horses, all the king’s men, couldn’t put me together again. cause all of my enemies started out friends” literally the most heartbreaking thing ever. and i feel for her. having friends become enemies is the ~worst~ because if you make an enemy from the beginning that’s okay, they don’t know you, if they don’t like you that’s none of your business! but having FRIENDS, people who KNOW you completely and have seen you at your best and worst...... and suddenly decided that they don’t like you anymore, when they have seen every part of you..... that makes you feel like shit. you KNOW me, and you didn’t like me enough to stay. :((

i think he knows: A BOP !! literally such a summer bop to listen to in the car in the sunshine omg. i like it so much.

favorite lyric: “he got my heartbeat skipping down 16th avenue.”

miss americana and the heartbreak prince: WHAT IS THIS EVEN ABOUT I DONT KNOW BUT THIS ONE IS ACTUALLY PERFECTION. i picture this really creepy weird high school in my mind, the aesthetic i see in my head i am obsessed. one of the best in the album 13/10.

favorite lyric: “i’m feeling helpless, the damsels are depressed. boys will be boys then, where are the wise men? darling i’m scared” BECAUSE !!!!! and i am also obsessed with “voted most likely to run away with you” + THAT BRIDGE !!!

paper rings: the lyrics are really soft BUT THE SOUND OF IT !! it’s a literal rollercoaster, again! such a fun summer song, i love it.

favorite lyric: “i’m with you even if it makes me blue. which takes me back to the color that we painted your brother’s wall. honey without all the exes, fights, and flaws we wouldn’t be standing here so tall.”

cornelia street: THIS ONE MADE ME CRY! it’s so personal and it’s crystal clear how much taylor cares about her relationship, it made me emotional for some reason. i really like it and it’s not what i expected AT ALL, but it is so beautiful. her voice right after the bridge AHHH I SCREAMED.

favorite lyric: “i hope i never lose you, i hope it never ends. i’d never walk cornelia street again. that’s the kind of heartbreak time could never mend” literally the chorus but i love it <3, also “barefoot in the kitchen, sacred new beginnings that became my religion.”

death by a thousand cuts: I THINK THIS ONE WAS INSPIRED BY SOMEONE GREAT AND THAT MAKES IT SO EXCITING TO ME BECAUSE I LOVE THAT MOVIE <3 i wish it had a bridge because i love bridges but the perfect second verse makes up for it !!

favorite lyric: THE SECOND VERSE, ALL OF IT, GOODBYE.

london boy: LOVE THIS ONE 1) A BOP 2) ALL THOSE ENGLISH REFERENCES REALLY MADE IT PERFECT OH MY GOD!!!! i love it 100%

favorite lyric: “show me a gray sky, a rainy cab ride. babes, don’t threaten me with a good time (THE WAY SHE SAYS THIS) they say home is where the heart is. but god, i love the english” also THE BRIDGE ! + taylor saying “mates” PLEASE THIS IS ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED!

soon you’ll get better: beautiful. sending so much love taylor’s and andrea’s way. it’s so personal and all i could ever do is thank her for sharing. i cried, a lot. it’s very real and emotional.

false god: this one is so good, it’s not what i expected but i love it !!

favorite lyric: “i know heaven’s a thing, i go there when you touch me honey. hell is when i fight with you but we can patch it up good.”

yntcd: WE KNOW THIS ONE! I STILL LOVE IT!

favorite lyric: “and we see you over there on the internet, comparing all the girls who are killing it. but we figured you out, we all know now, we all got crowns” AND “SHADE NEVER MADE ANYBODY LESS GAY” OF COURSE.

afterglow: another beautiful song sonically, the lyrics make me a little sad but i also know relationships be like that sometimes :/ i love this one!!!

favorite lyric: “it’s so excruciating to see you low, just wanna lift you up and not let go” because this is so real, fighting is hard when you don’t want to hurt the other person BUT YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE DOING IT AND YOU WANT TO MAKE THEM FEEL OKAY BUT YOU ARE ALSO GOING THROUGH IT !!!!!

ME!: a cute bop but WHEN I PUT IT NEXT TO THESE OTHER SONGS IT’S NOT AS GOOD :/ still love it and i will forever scream it at the top of my lungs while having fun in the car, it’s all about the memories we are building with this songs folks!!

favorite lyric: “living in winter i am your summer.”

it’s nice to have a friend: this one is a little weird, i am still not sure what it’s about and the production is a bit weird. i am not sure, it’s not a favorite.

favorite lyric: “light pink sky on the roof, sun sinks down, no curfew.”

DAYLIGHT: this one is a literal pink sky, you can’t change my mind, i love it so much. it’s really soft and emotional for me. i hope this turns into my life, all i could ever hope for. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT <3

favorite lyric: “threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it’s morning now, it’s brighter now” I FEEL THAT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW AHHH.

“i once believed love would be burning RED but it’s golden like daylight” THE PERFECT LINE !!! THE BEST LINE !!!!!!!!!!

“you gotta step into the daylight and let it go” I JUST LOVE THIS ONE BECAUSE I’VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH THIS QUOTE FOR MONTHS AND REVOLVED MY LIFE AROUND IT ALL THIS TIME AND WHEN I HEARD IT I SCREAMED !!!!

“i just think that you are what you love” a perfect closing line. this woman’s mind is out of this world.

overall i am obsessed with this album, the soundtrack of this new chapter of my life and i could NOT BE MORE GRATEFUL.

top 5

1. THE MAN !!!!

2. miss americana and the heartbreak prince

3. cruel summer

4. i forgot that you existed

5. i think he knows (or london boy I AM NOT SURE) (also cornelia street is probably what follows this list very closely sooooo)

@taylorswift i love you thank you for writing the perfect album.

[fairymint-archive]

———  BASICS! ♡

NAME! ♡ Felix PRONOUNS! ♡ he/him/his TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡ engaged, though i’m poly af for 2 other close friends...

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡ The songs i listen to via nightcore are mostly just.....actually cause i’m an impatient fuck lmao. sometimes i wanna hear a song but it feels like forever either cause I’m familiar w/ it, super manic, or it simply drags out say an instrumental part/intro too long ;7; has nothing to do w/ the sound tho i do think it fits animal crossing haha to be fair tho songs by girls have a lessened dysphoria factor that way too sometimes fgdfdgshh but i still prefer lyrics i can relate to when possible for faves.

2! ♡ seems like my body.....needs caffeine to function...I make sure to stay hydrated among that, but when i can’t get ahold of red bull i drink coffee- I’m also often hypoglycemic so??? i have to either eat sweets or a lot to not feel dizzy too hhh i have glucose pills in case i fail to keep up (sometimes work) my fiancé and I have a very ‘do what feels right’ kind of notion w/ our bodies, like eat when hungry and sleep when sleepy instead of following numbers religiously hhh

3! ♡ i wear glasses lol. I’m under the assumption that FelixMuse wears contacts for smash since i liked them just fine before they got too expensive, and seeing him in glasses at home in Zendo is like....a rare sight only for close friends/SOs/etc. 

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡ uh basically tumblr. i attempt at discord but anxiety and the format just....eheuh. 

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

FEMALE OR MALE! ♡ i don’t care but i’m gay so the male muses just kinda...flock to this yard...rip LEAST FAVORITE FACE(S)! ♡ i’m not keen on large images (like over 125p??) especially gifs w/ talking but otherwise ain’t picky bout icon usage MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡ multi mostly cause i hate cheat teasing???? like so much???? trying to make someone feel like their lover/RP partner’s just going to leave their ship for someone ‘better’ is mean and people would do it to me before multi was a thing...  if i have single ship muses it’s only within the blog(not a singleship partner) cause a muse has divergent canon like Sammy Lawrence (and debatably Chrom and Bendy) and don’t wanna just drop that for someone else’s ship ahahah that and Molang is just.....too cute with Piupiu and so far nobody else seems perfect for them asddhddjkl FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡  i like all of these! angst is out of my default but i’m comfy w/ it so long as i’m not too triggered, i’m game for fluff and smut 24/7 tho hahaa..... PLOT / MEMES! ♡ probably a happy medium; if too much plotting is required i’m too indecisive, but it’s also really nice sometimes

TAGGED BY! ♡ stolen ! TAGGING! ♡ take it yo

[cannedapricot]

Decorating the Christmas Tree with! Ong Seongwoo

christmas collab with @alliwannado-w1 and @jihoonslattee!!!

y’all have heard of haunted house part timer! ong seongwoo

now get ready for

shopping mall part timer! ong seongwoo!11!1!

ong never has a proper job in my aus sobdvosb

he originally applied for the job of being the mall gaurd

because in his opinion, the uniform was made for him

also he gets to kick whoever he wanted to out of the mall

cough the annoying couples cough

but he unfortunately got the job of cleaner :’’)

well,, at least he was a good looking cleaner

girls come up to him 27394 times a day asking for his number

to which he gives out fake numbers 

the girls can’t even be mad when they find out it was fake

his blinding smile makes them swoon and they forget everything lol

what kind of witchcraft

is in charge of cleaning the shop windows and wiping the floor on the second storey

lowkey hates it

but it’s better than cleaning the food court :)

it doesn’t stop him from complaining to mcdonalds part timer! daniel after hours though

daniel just grimaces because,

he??? worKS??? AT MCDONALDS????? LMAO HE WOULD MUCH RATHER CLEAN THE WINDOWS

on multiple occasions niel has asked ong,

“since you hate it so much, you wanna switch? :)”

“hahHAHAHA NO THANKS”

ong gets coupons from some stores he’s in charge of and it’s basically the only reason why he hasn’t quit the job and gone broke

christmas used to be ong’s favorite holiday

but ever since he started working, christmas season is basically a nightmare

everyone’s suddenly off work and/or school

and the mall doubles in people

so more people ask for his number and more mess is made on the floor

i mean,,,, ong tries to get out of working,,,,, but he’s pretended to be sick too many times

and unless he actually faints nobody’s gonna believe him rip

also the mistletoe the mall uses makes him sneeze

“lol someone’s talking shit about you again”

“no someone’s obviously missing me”

tbfh if i found a mall that has seongwoo cleaning, daniel working at mcdonalds, jisung, jaehwan and sungwoon working at the toy shop i wouLD LIVE IN THAT MALL DONT STOP ME

for once!! you actually work with seongwoo!!!11!1 arE YOU EXCITED

but uh,,, you weren’t exactly on good terms with him

yeah sure he’s good looking whatever

but every time you see him, he’s always slacking off one way or another

AND HE’S NOT EVEN ASSIGNED TO THE FOOD COURT

and he would be flirting with the female staff and just????

you don’t understand how someone could be so shameless

ong knows that you have something against him

your glares give it away lmao

jisung from the toy store claims that’s ong’s not that bad of a guy

“y/n you’re just too focused on seeing his bad side,,,, give the guy a chance”

cue ong sliding by on the cleaning trolley

“yeeeeeaaaaah ok”

“,,,,,,,,,,,,, i sweAR HE’S BETTER THAN THIS”

sungwoon just tells you about all the shit ong’s done which makes you dislike him more???? 

jisung tries to stop him,,,, it doesn’t work

“ong once lead a girl on in highschool”

“suNGWOON,,,,,, THAT’S A HOAX”

ong has, on multiple occasions, tried to get closer to you

but you shut him down before he could say anything

“hey-”

“sorry i have important matters to attend to”

“oh ok :c”

seongwoo has complained to daniel 472974 times about you 

and daniel’s loWKEY SICK OF HEARING ABOUT HOW YOUR GLARE CAN KILL PEOPLE

“are you sure you don’t have a crush on them”

“????crush??????psh no????”

yeah ok ong doesn’t have a crush on you yet

but he’s curious as to why you dislike him so much???

he can’t remember offending you in any way

and you seem to always have a way to escape from him whenever he slides up to you

THAT IS UNTILLLLLL

y’all get assigned to put up the humongous christmas tree 

YOU GUYS THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE A CUTE DOMESTIC FIC??? HA SIKE 

and you immediately come up with an excuse

but your boss isn’t having it

because,

“teamwork is important y/n!!! you can’t keep avoiding working with ong!”

BOVUBOSVBOSB 

YOU JUST HOPE THAT JISUNGS RIGHT ABOUT HIM NOT BEING THAT MUCH OF AN ASS

“oh hi y/n!!!”

after hours, ong was standing in the center clearing of the mall as the tree was getting put up

it was

h u g e

“it’s gonna take us all night huh?”

he smiles

yOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HE CAN BE OPTIMISTIC ABOUT THIS

“i just hope we’re getting payed extra”

you mumble, gritting your teeth

as ong deals with the guys putting up the tree, you head to the storage

it takes a while to find the box labelled “christmas” but you eventually do

and you make the stupid decision to carry three at once

you trip because you couldn’t see anything in front of you

bUT!!!

ONG APPEARS????

lol no you trip and fall

ong appears a second later to witness your pain

anD HE LAUGHS 

YOU START FUMING OUT OF ANGER AND EMBARRASSMENT

ong then picks up the boxes after his laughing fit and says,

“i’ll take care of the rest of the decorations, you go check if you’re hurt”

????why is he suddenly so nice

he’s always been nice y/n you jUST DON’T KN O W

and you suddenly feel like hm he’s not bad

bUT THEN SUNGWOON’S STORY OF ONG LEADING THAT GIRL ON FLASHES BACK INTO YOUR MIND

shuffling out of the room, your eyes meet with his

and you send him a glare

onG’S JUST

auiKUVDISVB????WHAT DID I DO THIS TIME

yOU SLAM YOUR FIST ON ONE OF THE BOXES

AND ONG FLINCHES

“let’s get to decorating the tree. the faster we do this, the sooner we’re done”

“YES SIR”

and without saying anything else, you turn and start hanging up baubles

most of the time,,,, you two were working in silence,,,,

ong would be sending you glances and trying to start convos but you’d just straight up ignore him

it gets to the point where seongwoo thinks he’s gonna burst

THE TENSION IN THE AIR WAS INSUFFERABLE 

so when the parts you two could reach from the ground was covered and the ladder was set,

ong decides to find out exactly why you dislike him so much

how????? by pinning you to the ladder of course

an intellectual am i right

“??????ONG SEONGWOO WHAT ARE YOU DOING--”

“why do you hate me”

“I- WHAT- UM-”

he looks you square in the eye and you find yourself spilling

“SUNGWOON SAID YOU LEAD A GIRL ON AND THAT KINDA MADE ME THINK THAT YOURE A SHIT ASSHOLE”

“??????????THAT SNITCH I KNEW I SHOULDN’T HAVE TOLD HIM”

“SO YOU ACTUALLY DID LEAD A GIRL ON”

“NO!!!!! THE GIRL LATCHED ONTO ME I DIDN’T DO SHIT I REJECTED HER THEN SHE TOLD THE SCHOOL ABOUT ME LEADING HER ON”

oh

wow how petty of the girl

but thinking of it

you reasons for disliking him were quite petty too

and you just now realize how godlike his visuals were up close???

buT YOUR ASS AIN’T ABOUT TO ADMIT YOUR HEART WAS BEATING 24923 MILES A MINUTE

SO YOU DO THE MOST LOGIC THING

PUSH HIM AWAY

ong: pretends to be hurt

you: pretends to be busy

“you don’t hate me anymore right”

“wow lets not get too ahead of ourselves”

seongwoo cracks a smile

becausE WOW YOU WERE BLUSHING AND YOU LOOKED ADORABLE WHILE SO

back to the tree coughs

ong decides to climb the ladder because,

“i need to show you how manly i am”

but he’s also,

“doN’T LET GO OF THE LADDER MY LIFE IS IN YOUR HANDS”

lets go

onG SCREAMS

while hanging up the sparkly tinsel, ong finds two santa hats

he chucks one down at you while he puts one on himself

“wtf?”

“wE CAN MATCH!!!”

“...how the fuck are you in your twenties”

ong sneezes every few minutes because of the stupid tinsel

you both get heart attacks when he does 

whAT IF HE FALLS DOWN

BRO YOU DONT WANNA GET CHARGED WITH MURDER OR SOME SHIT

it’s way past midnight when you’re nearly close to finished

all that was left was the star

ong pulls up your facebook profile picture and goes

“i should put you up there because you are my star”

UM

you shake the ladder in disagreement

SEONGWOO SCREAMS AND DROPS HIS PHONE

but thankfullly it lands in a pile of soft toys at the bottom of the tree :’)

he still makes a big deal out of it though :’)

screams at you to put your number in 

and keeps screaming until you do so and text yourself

just so he knows it’s your real number

after putting the actual star on top of the tree, climbs down so you guys can admire your work

“im gonna jump down”

“sure but i’m not catching you”

“how heartless :(”

so you turn off the mall’s lights and seongwoo turns on the tree’s lights

it was breathtaking

who cared if it was 5 in the morning

ong turned to look at you 

he had wanted to see your reaction but your beauty catches him off gaurd

and he ends up staring at you until your head suddenly drops on his shoulder

smiling even wider, ong whispers,

“good night”

bonus: y’all wake up the next morning to your boss looking at you two like, “ah young love”

daniel, jisung, sungwoon and jaehwan come in to see you jumping away from seongwoo

and they’re like,

“what did they fuck or something”

bonus x2: ong officially asks you on a date on christmas after weeks of flirting with you

he gives you a box, claims it’s your present while inside is a selfie of him with the words, “ong seongwoo, the most attractive man on this planet is asking you on a date. feel honored.” 

you still hate him

perhaps, just a little less now

i wILL NOT STOP PROMOTING MY TOY STORE WORKER! JISUNG OK LOVE MY SUNSHINE MAN

also this was written at 1am pls forgive me for shitty plot + shitty writing :’)

[beer-and-breakdowns]

do all 150 !! :)

Thanks for this Anon, I needed something to do, lmaoo

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My ex, which was a LOOONG time ago, lol

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I’d say I’m a bit of both really, if I get to know you, I’d say I’m super outgoing but with new people I tend to be a little shy, unless the person I’m meeting has a lot in common with me personality wise and interest wise.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Well, I think I’m going out with one of my best friends tonight so her I guess!:)  (But the way I interpret this question, I’m also very excited to see a bunch of bands in the coming year, BFMV, Parkway, Currents, Slayer, Wage War, it’s looking good B))

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I’d say so! :)

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Yeah, I think so, she’s super kind-hearted.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

People with common ground with me.  Metalheads, laid-back people, fans of the same shit as me, etc.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Hahahahahahahanope.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

My mum bc my parents get back from a holiday today!  But also, that one person thats pretty much always on my mind, lol, rip meeee

No, lol

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of mutuals!:)

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Directions of where to find me for someone picking me up from work, lmaoo, HOW EXCITING

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

NOT THIS QUESTION D:  This is gonna be hard, and I can almost guarantee it wont be the same when you read this, lol.

Architects - Downfall, Polaris - Lucid, Currents - Forget Me, Architects - Doomsday, Currents - Life//Lost

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah, kinda lol

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I believe in luck, I think!  Not miracles tho, rip

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Well, it’s not over yet, but DOWNLOAD 2018 YEEEET!!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yeah, why not

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

For sure!  I love believing all that crazy shit, its fun, and also very plausible!

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nah, lol

19. Do you like bubble baths?

I like baths, but haven’t had a proper bubble bath in years (NO, I’m not a smelly bitch that doesn’t wash, I shower everyday)

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I dont know them super well bc I moved house a couple of years ago but from what I can tell yeah, they’re really nice!

21. What are you bad habits?

Nail biting, mostly.  I’m shit with money too if that counts, lol

22. Where would you like to travel?

LITERALLY EVERYWHERE OMG.  But a US road trip is on my bucket list!

23. Do you have trust issues?

Nope

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Probably my nightly music/tumblr session.  It’s so relaxing and my music taste is the fuckin’ bomb.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Probably my legs tbh, rip

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Scroll social media whilst my PC loads, lol

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Neither, but if I HAD to choose, darker

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My closest friends

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Nah, I don’t recall that anyway, rip

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Definitely!  Just, not for a little while

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Nope, wish it was tho (not for the pony tail, just want long hair, lol)

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Alexis Kaufman aaaaaaaaand Emily Kinney, maybe?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

oi9wen, went better than I thought, lol

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

HA no

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV 10000000000000%

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Yup

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Nothing really, lmaoo!  I do try to start a new conversation if I’m not feeling too awkward tho!

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Ummm, I know them irl, lol.  Cute as hell, blonde, blue eyes, funny, kind as fuck, an all-round sweetheart with the looks to match.  

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

HMV, lol

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I WANNA PLAY MUSIC FOR A LIVING but that shits hard so idk bc nothing else interest me the way music does:(  Maybe something with psychology and killers.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Yes, 100%.  I fully believe rehabilitation and reformation can work for everyone with the right tools.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m either super tired or feeling sorry for myself, lmaoo

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yup, most of the time!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Space, even tho I’m scared of heights so getting in the rocket would be an ISSUE.  But the ocean is fuckin’ spooky man, I ain’t goin’ down there :o

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Being awake, lmaoo.  I sleep for more hours than I should but I’m not one for staying in bed and once I’m up, I’m up.

46. What are you paranoid about?

Not having a stable life after Uni tbh, the real world terrifies me, lol help.  But also, and probably moreso never making any progress with my music and hopeful music career.

47. Have you ever been high?

Nope

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Yeeeeeee

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Nah

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black, probably, I dont normally wear hoodies tbh :o

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Originally, I was gonna say no, but then I remembered someone that I’ll forever be jealous of, so yes

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My legs probably hahaha

53. Favourite makeup brand?

What’s makeup?

54. Favourite store?

HMV, again, lol

55. Favourite blog?

Probably either @lovelyfoxes, @meowsonmeows, @emilyharrisxvii and @strawberry-sarcasm

56. Favourite colour?

Black (Dont go telling me that shits a shade and not a colour bc I’ll still say black.)

57. Favourite food? 

INDIAN FOOD PLS

58. Last thing you ate?

Katsu chicken

59. First thing you ate this morning?

^^^ Katsu chicken (I woke up late, okay)

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Nah, not that I can remember lol

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nope

62. Been arrested? For what?

7328916312 times.  Being annoying :): :))::)::) (No)

63. Ever been in love?

Yup, rip

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Idk, I kissed a girl.  Sorry it was super long ago and I didn’t think much of it at the time, it sorta just happened, lol

65. Are you hungry right now?

Nah, I’m FULL boii

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

No, but some of my tumblr frands are my irl friends

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter 1000000%

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr 1000000000000%

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nope, havent in a while tbh

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Emily, Zac, Laura, Leo, Ethan

71. Craving something? What?

Attention.  Of a specific person.  YES PLS.

72. What colour are your towels?

White, black and grey.

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Twooo

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Nope

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

7328131691

75. Favourite animal?

FOXES.  Or wolves.  Unless Dinosaurs count.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Grey

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla, man

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Salted Caramel

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Black, lol

80. What colour pants?

V dark blue

81. Favourite tv show?

Atm, probablyyyyy The Walking Dead, Ray Donovan and WWE, lmaoo

82. Favourite movie?

The Domestics just recently took the spot over Pulp Fiction.  WATCH IT.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Only seen the first one, lel

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

21 Jump Street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Me

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Me (Prolly the turtle)

87. First person you talked to today?

My friend Leo

88. Last person you talked to today?

Who knows, probably my friend Emily

89. Name a person you hate?

Most modern “musicians”

90. Name a person you love?

Alexis Kaufman

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Nope :)

92. In a fight with someone?

Nah, ya boii is mostly pacifist, I wont start shit

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Like, 1 pair, lol

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Prolly like 5 or 6?

95. Last movie you watched?

Looper

96. Favourite actress?

Hard to think atm, so probably off the top of my head Emily Blunt.

97. Favourite actor?

Mark Wahlberg or Johnny Depp

98. Do you tan a lot?

Hahahah, thats a massive nope

99. Have any pets?

I used to have a lil cat dude, but nah, not anymore

100. How are you feeling?

I’m goooood :)

101. Do you type fast?

Yeah, lmao

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Yeah, lol

103. Can you spell well?

Yeah, mostly, I stumble when typing sometimes, but I can correct myself quickly and its usually just a mis-click

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yeah, kinda

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Nope

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably, tbh

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Nah

108. What should you be doing?

Showering, oops

109. Is something irritating you right now?

Nah, not really! :)

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yes yes and YES

111. Do you have trust issues?

Nope

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Honestly I think it was my friend Emily, lol (U remember if ur reading this, Sax is never a good idea)

113. What was your childhood nickname?

I didn’t really have one :o

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yup, been to a few different countries

115. Do you play the Wii?

Used to, lol

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yeah boiiiiii B)

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

It’s pretty good!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Ummmm yes

119. Favourite book?

Sorry internet, I’m not a massive reader 3  I don’t really have one :(

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Nah, used to be as a kid tho

121. Are you mean?

Nah, man

122. Is cheating ever okay?

No.  There’s probably a very VERY specific scenario brought on by many other specific actions within a relationship where it might, MAYBE, slightly be the smallest bit justified, but I don’t know what that would be off the top of my head and no one should break someone’s trust like that.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Nah, my shoes get dirty no matter where I go, lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yup

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah

126. Are you currently bored?

Nah, I love tumblr asks, dude

127. What makes you happy?

Music, friends and escapsim

128. Would you change your name?

Nah, I’ve come to terms with it now

129. What your zodiac sign?

Libra

130. Do you like subway?

Of course B)

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

I’d prolly see how it goes! :)  I certainly wouldn’t complain!

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

One of my mutuals!

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“No matter what it is we've facedIt's now part of usWe can overcome” - As I Lay Dying - Overcome

134. Can you count to one million?

I think? hahahah

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I had every single PS2 game ever created... kids, eh?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed 1000000%

137. How tall are you?

about 5′11″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Straight hair on me, doesn’t make a difference on others B)

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Blonde (but Brunette is gorgeous too)

140. Summer or Winter?

Summer (But Christmas time is GREAT)

141. Night or Day?

Night, mostly!

142. Favourite month?

October, maybe?  Either than or July, idk

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark B)

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee

146. Was today a good day?

So far, yeah! :)

147. Mars or Snickers?

Mars 100000000%

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“The best thing you can do is follow your dreams“ - James Owen Sullivan (The Rev)

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yup, 100%!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

There isn’t one! :(

THANKS ANON!

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Do all of them

1. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HELD HANDS WITH?

umm i don’t remember

2. ARE YOU OUTGOING OR SHY?

i’m pretty shy

3. WHO ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING?

no one in particular

4. ARE YOU EASY TO GET ALONG WITH?

yeah i’m pretty nice

5. IF YOU WERE DRUNK WOULD THE PERSON YOU LIKE TAKE CARE OF YOU?

idk

6. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE ARE YOU ATTRACTED TO?

just people who share a lot in common with me, and people who are easy to talk to

7. DO YOU THINK YOU’LL BE IN A RELATIONSHIP TWO MONTHS FROM NOW?

nah

8. WHO FROM THE OPPOSITE GENDER IS ON YOUR MIND?

my dog

9. DOES TALKING ABOUT SEX MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE?

nah

10. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HAD A DEEP CONVERSATION WITH?

probably my friend sw

11. WHAT DOES THE MOST RECENT TEXT THAT YOU SENT SAY?

it was a text a few days ago asking my dad to pick me up 

12. WHAT ARE YOUR 5 FAVORITE SONGS RIGHT NOW?

homemade dynamite by lorde

broken clocks by sza

white  mustang by lana del rey

garden by sza

this must be my dream by the 1975

13. DO YOU LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE PLAY WITH YOUR HAIR?

yes i looove it

14. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LUCK AND MIRACLES?

yeah ig

15. WHAT GOOD THING HAPPENED THIS SUMMER?

i went to canada for the first time and i loooved it 10/10 would go again

16. WOULD YOU KISS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED AGAIN?

i’ve never kissed anyone

17. DO YOU THINK THERE IS LIFE ON OTHER PLANETS?

yeah the universe is so big there’s gotta be smth there

18. DO YOU STILL TALK TO YOUR FIRST CRUSH?

nah

19. DO YOU LIKE BUBBLE BATHS?

yeah

20. DO YOU LIKE YOUR NEIGHBORS?

yeah they’re a’ight

21. WHAT ARE YOU BAD HABITS?

i bite my nails a lot it’s so bad

22. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO TRAVEL?

anywhere in europe like france, the u.k., italy, etc. i wanna go to japan and south korea, and i wanna go to canada and vietnam again

23. DO YOU HAVE TRUST ISSUES?

nah

24. FAVORITE PART OF YOUR DAILY ROUTINE?

my nightly skincare routine!! i wanna have clear skin

25. WHAT PART OF YOUR BODY ARE YOU MOST UNCOMFORTABLE WITH?

my nails since i pick at them so much

26. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP?

go back to sleep or go on my phone

27. DO YOU WISH YOUR SKIN WAS LIGHTER OR DARKER?

i wanna be tanner right now

28. WHO ARE YOU MOST COMFORTABLE AROUND?

my sister

29. HAVE ANY OF YOUR EX’S TOLD YOU THEY REGRET BREAKING UP?

no i don’t have an ex

30. DO YOU EVER WANT TO GET MARRIED?

yeah it would be pretty sweet

31. IF YOUR HAIR LONG ENOUGH FOR A PONY TAIL?

yes

32. WHICH CELEBRITIES WOULD YOU HAVE A THREESOME WITH?

none, i’d rather admire them from afar

33. SPELL YOUR NAME WITH YOUR CHIN.

brave sky

34. DO YOU PLAY SPORTS? WHAT SPORTS?

i run cross country, and i sprint and long jump in track. sometimes i do triple jump!

35. WOULD YOU RATHER LIVE WITHOUT TV OR MUSIC?

tv

36. HAVE YOU EVER LIKED SOMEONE AND NEVER TOLD THEM?

yeah, basically with all my crushes

37. WHAT DO YOU SAY DURING AWKWARD SILENCES?

talk about stuff i’m looking forward to, or stuff i did yesterday

38. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM GIRL/GUY?

the girl reading this ;)

jk ghkdsflhg

39. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE STORES TO SHOP IN?

target and lush!

40. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO AFTER HIGH SCHOOL?

go to college

41. DO YOU BELIEVE EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE?

yeah, unless they did smth super fucked up

42. IF YOUR BEING EXTREMELY QUIET WHAT DOES IT MEAN?

it don’t mean anything i’m jus chillin

43. DO YOU SMILE AT STRANGERS?

if they smile at me first yeah

44. TRIP TO OUTER SPACE OR BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN?

outer space!

45. WHAT MAKES YOU GET OUT OF BED IN THE MORNING?

my dog who wants to pee

46. WHAT ARE YOU PARANOID ABOUT?

nothing really

47. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN HIGH?

nope

48. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN DRUNK?

nope

49. HAVE YOU DONE ANYTHING RECENTLY THAT YOU HOPE NOBODY FINDS OUT ABOUT?

maybe

50. WHAT WAS THE COLOUR OF THE LAST HOODIE YOU WORE?

black and red

51. EVER WISHED YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE?

yeah

52. ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?

my height! i wanna be taller!

53. FAVOURITE MAKEUP BRAND?

don’t have one. i don’t really wear makeup, but i wanna try using nyx!

54. FAVOURITE STORE?

target, can’t go wrong with them

55. FAVOURITE BLOG?

if we’re talking about tumblr, i like thebootydiaries

56. FAVOURITE COLOUR?

blue

57. FAVOURITE FOOD?

lasagna

58. LAST THING YOU ATE?

apples

59. FIRST THING YOU ATE THIS MORNING?

pasta

60. EVER WON A COMPETITION? FOR WHAT?

i’ve won kahoot a few times

61. BEEN SUSPENDED/EXPELLED? FOR WHAT?

no

62. BEEN ARRESTED? FOR WHAT?

no

63. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

yeah

64. TELL US THE STORY OF YOUR FIRST KISS?

never had a first kiss

65. ARE YOU HUNGRY RIGHT NOW?

no

66. DO YOU LIKE YOUR TUMBLR FRIENDS MORE THAN YOUR REAL FRIENDS?

i like them both equally

67. FACEBOOK OR TWITTER?

twitter

68. TWITTER OR TUMBLR?

hmm tumblr

69. ARE YOU WATCHING TV RIGHT NOW?

no

70. NAMES OF YOUR BESTFRIENDS?

penny, chip, and used napkin

lmao jk

71. CRAVING SOMETHING? WHAT?

i want some mangoes rn

too bad they’re out of season 

72. WHAT COLOUR ARE YOUR TOWELS?

i have some blue towels, some white towels, and a few tannish beige towels

72. HOW MANY PILLOWS DO YOU SLEEP WITH?

2

73. DO YOU SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS?

yeah, just one

74. HOW MANY STUFFED ANIMALS DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE?

too many

75. FAVOURITE ANIMAL?

dog

76. WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR UNDERWEAR?

white

77. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?

chocolate for sure

78. FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?

mint chocolate chip!

79. WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

red

80. WHAT COLOUR PANTS?

purple

81. FAVOURITE TV SHOW?

sense8 is one of my favorites i can’t believe it got cancelled after only 2 seasons :( it’s so good

i also like parks and recreation and the office

82. FAVOURITE MOVIE?

heathers!! and legally blonde!

83. MEAN GIRLS OR MEAN GIRLS 2?

mean girls, i hear the second one is awful

84. MEAN GIRLS OR 21 JUMP STREET?

mean girls 

85. FAVOURITE CHARACTER FROM MEAN GIRLS?

damien is a gay icon!!

86. FAVOURITE CHARACTER FROM FINDING NEMO?

probably dory

87. FIRST PERSON YOU TALKED TO TODAY?

my mom

88. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO TODAY?

my sister

89. NAME A PERSON YOU HATE?

trump

90. NAME A PERSON YOU LOVE?

barack obama i miss him ):

91. IS THERE ANYONE YOU WANT TO PUNCH IN THE FACE RIGHT NOW?

yeah, those people who wanna repeal net neutrality

92. IN A FIGHT WITH SOMEONE?

is this asking me if i have been in a fight with someone bc i actually fight with my sister a lot lmao

93. HOW MANY SWEATPANTS DO YOU HAVE?

uhh like 5

94. HOW MANY SWEATERS/HOODIES DO YOU HAVE?

probably 5 as well

95. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

christine

96. FAVOURITE ACTRESS?

uma thurman

97. FAVOURITE ACTOR?

chris pratt is great

98. DO YOU TAN A LOT?

not really, only during the summer

99. HAVE ANY PETS?

i have 2 hamsters and a dog which i’ve only mentioned a few hundred times

100. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

i’m feeling a lil frustrated bc i’ve accidentally gone back to the previous page bc my mouse is annoying as hell and none of my answers saved so i’ve had to go back and start over 

101. DO YOU TYPE FAST?

yeah

102. DO YOU REGRET ANYTHING FROM YOUR PAST?

yeah lol

103. CAN YOU SPELL WELL?

yes!

104. DO YOU MISS ANYONE FROM YOUR PAST?

yeah a lil bit

105. EVER BEEN TO A BONFIRE PARTY?

i have! it was just with a few people but it was rly fun!

106. EVER BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART?

nope

107. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A HORSE?

yes

108. WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?

studying for my final lmao

109. IS SOMETHING IRRITATING YOU RIGHT NOW?

yeah

110. HAVE YOU EVER LIKED SOMEONE SO MUCH IT HURT?

umm not really?

111. DO YOU HAVE TRUST ISSUES?

no, i think i was already asked this

112. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU CRIED IN FRONT OF?

my mom?

113. WHAT WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD NICKNAME?

it was a vietnamese word, but i don’t remember what it was!

114. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUT OF YOUR PROVINCE/STATE?

yeah

115. DO YOU PLAY THE WII?

yup

116. ARE YOU LISTENING TO MUSIC RIGHT NOW?

yes!

117. DO YOU LIKE CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP?

ofc!

118. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?

hell yea

119. FAVOURITE BOOK?

deep and dark and dangerous by mary downing hahn

120. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?

no

121. ARE YOU MEAN?

sometimes

122. IS CHEATING EVER OKAY?

no way man, but idk how to feel about cheating bc your partner cheated on you first

123. CAN YOU KEEP WHITE SHOES CLEAN?

probably not

124. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?

not really

125. DO YOU BELIEVE IN TRUE LOVE?

no

126. ARE YOU CURRENTLY BORED?

nah

127. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?

going out and doing fun stuff

128. WOULD YOU CHANGE YOUR NAME?

nah

129. WHAT YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

aries

130. DO YOU LIKE SUBWAY?

yeah

131. YOUR BESTFRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE SEX LIKES YOU, WHAT DO YOU DO?

if i don’t feel the same way i’d just tell them 

132. WHO’S THE LAST PERSON YOU HAD A DEEP CONVERSATION WITH?

already answered

133. FAVOURITE LYRICS RIGHT NOW?

got a sweet asian chick she go lo mein!

134. CAN YOU COUNT TO ONE MILLION?

ain’t nobody got time for that

135. DUMBEST LIE YOU EVER TOLD?

umm ok i was gonna go see a movie with a few friends, but i forgot about it and the morning they were gonna see it, i told them i had plans with my mom khglsdhfhg

ik i coulda just had my parents drive me to the theater but they hate it when i tell them about my plans last minute

136. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED?

closed

137. HOW TALL ARE YOU?

5′1″

138. CURLY OR STRAIGHT HAIR?

straight

139. BRUNETTE OR BLONDE?

uhh neither? i have black hair

140. SUMMER OR WINTER?

winter

141. NIGHT OR DAY?

day

142. FAVOURITE MONTH?

december

143. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?

no, but i wanna limit my intake on meat

144. DARK, MILK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?

dark chocolate is the best

145. TEA OR COFFEE?

coffee! i love matcha green tea tho

146. WAS TODAY A GOOD DAY?

it was okay

147. MARS OR SNICKERS?

snickers

148. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE QUOTE?

love yo self!!!

149. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?

yes, but i’ve never had any experiences with them

150. GET THE CLOSEST BOOK NEXT TO YOU, OPEN IT TO PAGE 42, WHAT’S THE FIRST LINE ON THAT PAGE?

from my sister’s physical science textbook: “How do you know which characteristics are physical properties?”

[mooonbeem]

My Boyfriend 😍

Full name? Tyler Thomes [insert last name]

Tell me about him; age, height, skin color, body type, stereotype? 22, 5'8", white, skinny, “mysterious with a sensitive side”

What color eyes does he have? Do you like this color?  Blue, and YES, I LOVE THEM DAMN

What color is his hair? Is it the same color as yours?  Dark brown & no mine is blue lmao

Do you like his looks or personality better? I couldn’t choose one over the other. He is absolutely perfect inside & out

What is the color he wears most in his wardrobe? Black ha ha ha

Does he have a higher or a deeper voice? His voice is pretty deep yeah

Is he too thin, too heavy, or just right; in your opinion?  Oh god there is no such thing as “too” I think he would be absolutely perfect no matter what he weighed, why would that matter it’s the love of my life?

Does he have any tattoos or piercings of any kind? He has 4 tattoos ! (maybe 5 idk I don’t count it yeah 4)

Does he belong to the bad boy, artist, over-achiever, etc. persona? Maybe he’s a bad boy, he’s definitely romantic, and he’s deep hearted too

Do you ever lie to him when you say he looks cute, adorable, etc? No I mean it every single time I say it

Does he have a better smile or eyes? Well I love his eyes because they’re big & blue and his eyelashes are like a mile loooong but I have to say his smile. Because his smile just lights up his whole face and I don’t think anything’s ever made me happier

Is he taller than you? Does he weigh more than you do?  He’s an inch or so taller than me, and I weigh about 20 lbs. more than him

Do many people stereotype him? What do they label him as anyway?  Doesn’t matter because stereotypes are stereotypes

Is he muscular? If so, do you like him this way?  He’s perfect just the way he is

Describe his hairstyle:  Very clean cut on the sides but he leaves a lottttt on top

What would you say is the best quality in his personality?  He doesn’t judge me, I feel completely comfortable about him, I’m 100% myself with him

Is he sweet to you most of the time, or is he mean towards you?  Lol he’s a jerk to everybody BUT me usually

Use three words to describe his personality: Loyal, loving and honest

Does he ever go out drinking? Is this something you’re concerned about?  No and no lol

Does he have any nasty habits? What are they?  Nasty habits? None really

If you had to choose an emotion to describe him, what would it be?  Determined

Is he more spontaneous or romantic?  He’s both, sometimes even both at the same time 😇

Is he more serious or funny?  I’m not sure.. When we first started dating I thought he was more serious, but now I think he might be more funny

Does he ever really open up emotionally to you? Is he that way to everyone?  Yes he does, and no he’s definitely not, I'm pretty sure we talk to each other about everything in life and we’re each other’s safety

Does he ever take you to sweet and romantic places? Actually yes he does, he’s always so thoughtful to me I love him so much

Does he truly care about how you feel and what you have to say?  Yeah, I think he definitely does. He tries really hard for me

Is he usually more optimist or pessimistic?  Ehhh pessimistic but we’re working on that!

Does he treat you like you’re royalty?  He tells me all the time that I’m his queen, and he always takes such good care of me, he’s perfect

Did he ask you out or were you the one who asked him out?  Nobody even asked! We were seeing each other for a little while but not dating, and eventually his mom & dad & brother stayed referring to me as his girlfriend, and we decided that yes that sounds just right 😂😂

How long had you two known each other before you started dating? Since 2013 technically

Was it love at first sight, or do you even believe in that stuff? Okay so the first time I ever saw him I knew immediately that I felt something for him. I didn’t know what the feeling was but I didn’t chase it, and things dropped off & we didn’t see each other for 1 ½ year. And when we met up again I knew that I was in love with him, that was the feeling I had so long ago

Did he/you say yes automatically, or what it a ‘I’ll think about it’ thing?  Like I said neither of us asked the other & it just came to be

When did you two first kiss?  On thanksgiving 2016 😍

Does he ever hold you hand in public?  Always, either that or he’s walking beside me with his arm around my waist

Are you all into the ‘public display of affection’ think? Yeah, we’re cool, I actually think that we don’t really have any romantically public displays, just like display of physical closeness; we’ll stand very close besides, we goof around with each other

Does he walk around with his arm around your waist?  ^^^

When you’re kissing, does he ever play with your hair?  No, that’s usually before or after

Does he ever intentionally try to embarass you?  Never

Is this relationship more based on love or lust?  Love, definitely. When you love someone it’s easy to want to be romantic with them, as lust is wanting just that

Do you feel closer to him than anyone else you associate with?  Absolutely, he is the closest person in my life and I love him like no other

Tell me exactly in detail how he makes you feel:  Happy.

Could you ever see yourself living with him?  Yes I could, someday 💗

Do you two even live in the same town?  Nope!

Have you two ever sat and watched a sunset or sunrise together?  Well we WERE sat up by a beautiful sunset on a high hill once, and he left his back turned to it the whole time so that he could take pictures of us lmao

Do you two share a lot of the same interests?  Some similar, many dissimilar, I think that’s why we work so well

How often would you say he makes you cry, if he does at all in any way?  I cry out of fear for losing him sometimes, but that’s not a cause of him doing something to hurt me, so I’d never say he MAKES me cry

Do you seriously think this relationship could last forever?  God I hope so

How often does he call you and how often do you call him? If we’re not together, we’re talking every day

Has he ever let you wear any of his clothes before? Which items?  Lmao it ain’t even up to him anymore if I do his laundry I will damn wear his sweatshirts when I wanna

When you’re sad, broken down and crying, what does he do to comfort you?  He holds me and brushes his hand against my face, and he stays watching me until I fall asleep again

Have you two ever shared food or a drink with one another?  No gross

Do you two ever go to the movies? Do you just make out the whole time?  No & ew that wouldn’t happen

Does he actually have the ability to make you laugh?  Yessss and he’s perfect at it

Does he ever stick up for you and defend you?  He wants to , but he also cares when I ask him to let me deal with things myself

Would you say he’s overbearing when it comes to protecting you?  No, never overbearing

Do you ever keep the notes he writes and things he makes you?  If he did, I would. But I’m the writer here so it’s more like the letters I give HIM he keeps

Does he normally explain to you how much you mean to him?  He tells me how he feels quite often

Do people think your relationship is cute or immature and unnecessary?  People think our relationship is nice, everybody believes that we are good for each other, and that we’re going to be well together!!  

Does he have any crazy ex’s who are obsessed with him? No, thank God

Have you two ever had a pregnancy scare?  Ew no

Describe the perfect date:  Anywhere & anything with him 💗💜💛❤💛💗💜💗💜💜

[mycasandstarrs]

SPN 9x04: “Slumber Party”

THEN: Charlie Bradbury. She’s a hunter in training and a Woman of Letters. The Men of Letters Bunker, the supernatural motherlode.

1958.

Back when the Bunker was brand spanking new.

James Haggerty and Peter Jenkins.

“Took three years to build this dump?” This place ain’t no dump!

“This dump is the epicenter of -- of the ultimate chess match between good and evil.”

Six Months Later.

“What a dump.” lmao.

“Frank’s kid”, a hunter.

“Now, which one of you geniuses is gonna help me kill the wicked witch?”

Present Day.

They gave Crowley a table.

“You want more demon names. I want a room with a view.” What a child.

They let Kevin leave the Bunker. “I'm hoping this break will, uh, clear his head.”

Aww, a night off with “Game of Thrones”.

“By the way, I still don't understand why he left in the first place.” ME EITHER, SAM.

“But, uh, he felt like he'd bring trouble down on us, so he had to split. But if you got a way to help him, I'm all ears.”

*internal screeching*

“All right. So, Kevin said the table lit up like a Christmas tree when the angels fell, right?”

“So?”

“So it turns out each light was where a cluster of angels fell. So I'm thinking maybe there's some way to hot-wire this, make it track angels. That way, we could help Cas steer clear of danger.”  

That’s wonderful.

A 1951 computer.

Oh dear.

Dorothy cut the witch’s tongue out! That’s damn smart.

“Wait. You captured her all by yourself?”

“Yes. Despite all my lady parts, I managed to capture the wicked witch.”

YES! What an icon.

“This place is the last true beacon of light!” Again with that.

What a cool shot.

Charlie!

Charlie’s been hunting: killed a teen vamp and a ghost.

“All right. It took some doing, but now we can download.” Hell yeah, girl!

“So, you've been hunting.”  

“Alone.”

“I know. Not a good idea, according to the ‘Supernatural’ books.”

Aww, they’re so protective of her.

“Someone uploaded all the unpublished works. I thought it was fanfic at first, but it was clearly Edlund's work.” Oh damn it.

“I don't know. Their screen name was beckywinchester176. Ring a bell?”

“None. Uh, nobody's. Uh, no, there are no bells. Uh...No.”

Sam, you suck at deflecting, lmao.

Game of Thrones!

“You're gonna read the books?”

“Yes, Dean. I like to read books -- you know, the ones without pictures.”

Ok, screw you, Sam.

“Any plans on moving in anytime soon?” He does have a TV.

“Well, I'm sorry I haven't hung up the, uh, ‘Hang in there, kitty’ poster yet, Dean. Feel free to redecorate.”

“So, what, our home's not good enough for the ‘Hang in there, kitty’ poster?”

“This isn't our home. This is where we work.”

Sam...really? You have a TV in your damn bedroom.

(Has Sam decorated his room since?)

“So, Charlie, what was all that about how hunting isn't magical?”

“I am down. But... I was raised on Tolkien, man. I mean, where is all this? Where are my White Walkers and my volcano and magic ring to throw in the damn thing? Where -- where's my quest?”

Aww.

“Magic, quests...suck. Trust me. They're all --”

“--dead ends. Nothing but dead ends.”

Nice segue.

“You were right. There's nothing worse than adventure.” :( Jenkins’ last words.

RIP Peter Jenkins. Killed by Haggerty.

The transitions are so great!

Eww. A giant wall cocoon.

...Where Dorothy had been inside.

“Holy crap! The first case investigated in this bunker involved Dorothy. She and the witch came into this room, and they never came out. This will never stop blowing my mind!” I know!

“We have to talk before anyone does anything, okay? Dorothy?”

“Talk? Typical Men of Letters, standing around, having a nice, little chat with your noses buried in your books while your little secretary takes notes.”

NOW HOLD ON.

“We're hunters.”

“And who are you calling a secretary?”

Damn right.

Fuck yeah!!

Witches and Crowley. Seem to go hand in hand.

“You're protected by the Witch of the North's kiss. It's from the books.”

“Oh, forget the books! They're not important.”

Wait, I wanna know about that.

“I'm helping.”

“Yeah, I don't doubt it. But for right now, why don't you rest up and help the smartest person in the room?”

AWW!

I love Dorothy, but I’m glad to see Charlie knock her down some pegs.

“I'm gonna get some bullets from the gun range and make us some poppy bullets.”

Dorothy loves her already. I know, Dorothy.

“What did she say to you?”

“Something along the lines of... “

lol

I doubt Crowley could just walk out of there, seeing how there’s a giant Devil’s trap on the floor.

The Witch trashed the kitchen trying to find it.

“Damn it, I just cleaned in here.” Aww, Dean.

Poppy bullets. “That's my girl.”

The same key Dean found while going through the archives...and he kept it in his room.

Dean paired up with Charlie, only to tell her to go hide in the dungeon. You can’t stop her, Dean. “Wicked Witch, a key, a quest? Let's do this.”

“’How long have you called this place home?”

“My brother calls it home. Me, I, uh -- I haven't had that much luck with homes.”

Oh Sam.

Crap.

Charlie took the hit for Dean.

RIP Charlie Bradbury. Killed by the Wicked Witch. Death #1.

You know what? I’m actually more okay with this death, and it’s not just because she gets revived. This was a more dignified death, if that makes any sense.

Dean calls for Zeke.

Zeke brought Cas back as a freebie, but bringing Charlie back means he’ll have to possess Sam for longer than they want.

“The witch running around your bunker is very powerful. I can help with the witch or save your friend.”

“Save her.”

“Merry Christmas.” Aww hon.

“Can we be best friends now?” Awww! I ship Dorothy and Charlie so much.

“When I came into your room, before I got zapped, I thought you said the name Zeke. Who's that?”

“Um... I think you're still a little punchy, man. Just keep moving.”

*internal screaming*

“I had the weirdest dream when I was out. It was Christmas, and my parents were still alive, and --”

“Dream? Charlie, you died. Don't worry about it, though. You're not a real hunter until you've died and come back again.”

Dorothy drops that bombshell. It’s sweet that Charlie’s Heaven was Christmas with her parents.

“I met up with these three freedom fighters, and they thought I was this child of destiny chosen to kill the Wicked Witch. They protected me, and then the witch turned them into --”

“A scarecrow, a tin man, and a lion?”

This is the coolest retelling of the story ever.

“Sometimes real life is darker than fiction.” Yep.

“Why haven't you moved in?”

“I don't have any memories of home. And whenever I've tried to make a home of my own, it really hasn't ended well.”

There’s the root of it.

“Yeah, but a lifetime of abandoned buildings and crappy motel rooms. I mean, this is about as close to home as we're gonna get, and it's ours.” Exactly, Sammy. Relax, enjoy it.

“Come on. We've got to get to the garage.”

“There's a garage in this place?!” 

 I know! The Bunker’s wonderful.

“Find the girls...”

“And kill them both.”

Welp. Possessed.

The garage!

Dorothy’s bike! It is gorgeous.

“He didn't make it.” lmao, poor Tinman.

The ruby heels!

“Did you really walk down a brick road in these?”

“No. I never actually wore them. Seemed kind of tacky wearing a dead woman's shoes. Plus, I'm no good in heels, you know?”

Very good points.

“There you are.”

“Was that your Batman voice?”

Nope, that’s their “possessed by evil” voice.

“I have no intention of escaping to Oz. I'm going to bring my armies here.” Oh, shit.

Yes! Teamwork!

“Let's see what you pencil necks are made of.” Dorothy’s tough!

“Now heel.”

RIP Wicked Witch. Killed by Charlie.

She did it all by herself! What an absolute legend!!

“Ding-dong, bitches.” I love you.

Crowley’s back to being chained.

Dean moved the Impala into the garage.

“You have no idea how odd it is having a series of books written about you.”

“Actually, I-I do know, uh, and it is definitely weird. But you know what? End of the day, it's our story, so we get to write it.”

!!

“So, thanks for the slumber party...and bringing me back from the dead.”

“Uh, I didn’t.”

“Don't B.S. a B.S.er.”

Reminds me of “Don’t con a con man”.

“Thank you for everything. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have a rebellion to finish.”

Charlie found her adventure.

“You have no idea what's in Oz. I mean, t-there's flying monkeys, armies of witches. There's all kinds of danger.”

“Promise?”

Let her go, Dean.

I kinda wish Charlie’s story ended here. I sincerely mean it.

“For Those About to Rock (We Salute You)” by AC/DC.

“Take care of yourselves, boys.” See you later, hon.

“Think she'll be back?” Yeah.

“Of course. There's no place like home.” !!!

[chaos-and-recover]

all of them. all. of. them.

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME EVERY TIME is it because you know I have nothing better to do? Because you are right.

1. What is you middle name? Barbara. It’s my mom’s first name2. How old are you? OLD AS BALLS. Or like. 32.3. When is your birthday? April 4th.4. What is your zodiac sign? Aries5. What is your favorite color? purple6. What’s your lucky number? I don’t know if I have one?7. Do you have any pets? nope. I am sad and empty and pet=less8. Where are you from? Canada, eh?9. How tall are you? 5′11″ or somewhere in there. Apparently freakishly tall, according to my tiny, tiny friends10. What shoe size are you? ladies’ 9 1/2-10. Currently wearing size 9 boots every day because I haven’t gotten around to getting new winter boots and got those ones for a cosplay a few years ago because they looked rad and were cheap but NOT COMFY and I NEED NEW BOOTS.11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? lemme tell you it’s not nearly as many as it was when I worked in a mall with a Payless and went there WAY too often. There’s probably like 5 or 6 I wear regularly now.12. What was your last dream about? I... actually don’t even remember? I remember waking up the other morning thinking “what in the FUCK” about a dream I’d had but now I can’t remember what it actually WAS lol13. What talents do you have? none lol14. Are you psychic in any way? I mean I don’t know if I ACTUALLY am but I’ve learned to trust my gut when I feel really sure of an outcome of something because I’ve been right more than I’ve been wrong15. Favorite song? Falling Slowly from the movie Once is probably my favourite thing in the world.16. Favorite movie? 10 Things I Hate About You, The Princess Bride, and a bunch of objectively awful movies that I love.17. Who would be your ideal partner? Someone who will leave me tf alone. Actually I would probably thrive in a long distance relationship where I don’t have to like... see them all the time and can still have my own space?18. Do you want children? Not especially. I recently figured out that may be negotiable though which was... interesting.19. Do you want a church wedding? Not necessarily but if I did have one I would only want it at my grandparents’ church because history (my parents were married there; I was baptized there; my Oma loved that church).20. Are you religious? Not even a little.21. Have you ever been to the hospital? My guy I spent so much time in the ER as a kid that they almost called social services.22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, I’m a nerd.23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Yes, quite a few. That was like, My Thing in high school24. Baths or showers? baths if they stay warm for more than 0.00005 seconds.25. What color socks are you wearing? black, with white writing. They’re my July Socks because I am JUST that awful and love a bad pun.26. Have you ever been famous? I had my 15 minutes of fame in 2004. Green Day were involved. The story circulated the local music/industry community for at least a year. That’s all.27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? I don’t think I would like that AT ALL.28. What type of music do you like? I listen to so much music, honestly. Name a genre and I could probably name at least one artist I like from it.29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? Not totally but I’ve gone halfway there. Not sober lol.30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 231. What position do you usually sleep in? Usually on my stomach32. How big is your house? not as big as the rest in the neighbourhood now but when it was built in the 70s it WAS one of the biggest around33. What do you typically have for breakfast? either: a bagel w/ cream cheese, Eggos (with chocolate chips sometimes), toast w/ peanut butter & banana, Cheerios w/ banana, or oatmeal34. Have you ever fired a gun? only a laser gun lol35. Have you ever tried archery? yeah, I actually liked it? I wasn’t very good. Although my Opa did make my brother and I our own bow and arrow sets when we were little. Nobody lost an eye, so it worked out well.36. Favorite clean word? I don’t know if I have one?37. Favorite swear word? I like made up ones, like “fucknugget.”38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? Without ANY sleep at all, like a day and a half. With minimal sleep, a few days - a week or so.39. Do you have any scars? Yes and they’re all dumb.40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? lol doubtful41. Are you a good liar? Sometimes. For like, inconsequential shit I don’t even need to lie about.42. Are you a good judge of character? I wanna say yes but I’m actually just kind of a bitch and super judgy anyway?43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Every one I try turns out like a really shitty southern accent44. Do you have a strong accent? I don’t think so but people from elsewhere might disagree45. What is your favorite accent? Irish, specifically Galway-area. I also like certain southern accents, like... wherever Matthew McConaughey is from. That’s a nice accent.46. What is your personality type? Like... those acronyms? No idea lol. I don’t do those personality tests.47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? Probably my Roots cabin sweater which I got for Christmas last year but I know ain’t cheap.48. Can you curl your tongue? Yes49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie50. Left or right handed? Right, although I’m fairly competent with my left from when I was 8 and broke my right arm and had to use my left for everything for a while.51. Are you scared of spiders? Yes, they’re awful little demon bugs.52. Favorite food? Poutine lmao. I’m a stereotype.53. Favorite foreign food? Burritos.54. Are you a clean or messy person? Horrifically messy.55. Most used phrased? Lord, probably “lmao.” Or “your face.”56. Most used word? Probably “fuck”57. How long does it take for you to get ready? Depends for what. For just like, every day shit, like 20 minutes. If I actually wanna look good I need more time. Both of those require at least 20-40 minutes of sitting despondently on my bed wondering if I REALLY need to go where I’m supposed to go.58. Do you have much of an ego? I don’t think so?59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? Lick/suck til I get bored, then bite. (Hey boys ;) )60. Do you talk to yourself? Yes, way too much.61. Do you sing to yourself? Quietly, but I do.62. Are you a good singer? FUCK no.63. Biggest Fear? The existential horror of Never Getting My Life Together.64. Are you a gossip? More than I should/want to be 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? Ever? That’s a hard question. I have a really unpopular opinion about Manchester By The Sea (I KNOW how we’re supposed to feel about Casey Affleck) but I don’t even know if that’s the best EVER, it’s just very good and that makes me angry.66. Do you like long or short hair? On myself? Kinda miss my long hair now.67. Can you name all 50 states of America? If you give me time to figure them out, probably.  (let’s see - Alabama, Alaska, Arkansas, Hawaii, Washington, Oregon, California, Nevada, Utah, New Mexico, Texas, Louisiana, Florida, Georgia, Tennessee, Idaho, Iowa, North Dakota, South Dakota, Kentucky, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Montana, Indiana, Michigan, Illinois, Rhode Island, New York, Maine, Vermont, Massachusetts, Virginia, West Virginia, Maryland, New Jersey, North Carolina, South Carolina, Colorado, Delaware, Wisconsin, Nebraska, Connecticut, Minnesota, Wyoming, Arizona, Missouri, Mississippi, Kansas, New Hampshire, Oklahoma. BAM.68. Favorite school subject? I was a nerd and loved History. I took American History in grade 11 SPECIFICALLY because my 10th grade History teacher was so good and he taught it, I wanted him again. I also liked English. Math can choke.69. Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert. But I play an extrovert on the internet.70. Have you ever been scuba diving? Nope.71. What makes you nervous? Crowds, specifically crowds hindering where I need to go or what I want to accomplish.72. Are you scared of the dark? No, I’m scared of things IN the dark lmao.73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Sometimes, but usually I couch it in “I think it might be this actually” which probably comes off as passive aggressive.74. Are you ticklish? Yes but if you exploit that you gonna die75. Have you ever started a rumor? Probably lol76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? Yep. I used to manage a store. I’m also a supervisor at my part-time job.77. Have you ever drank underage? I really didn’t that much but I did a little.78. Have you ever done drugs? Never hard drugs because I’m lame.79. Who was your first real crush? Third grade. Luke Costello. That crush... set a bit of a tone lol.80. How many piercings do you have? None, not even my ears, which everyone finds baffling for some reason.81. Can you roll your Rs? Yes!82. How fast can you type? I don’t know my exact WPM but it’s pretty fast I think.83. How fast can you run? Not very.84. What color is your hair? Red85. What color is your eyes? Green/hazel86. What are you allergic to? Potentially cats and/or dogs, dust, MAYBE alcohol lol.87. Do you keep a journal? Nope88. What do your parents do? they’re both retired but they were both teachers, the absolute nerds.89. Do you like your age? Sure90. What makes you angry? Dumb people at rush hour on public transit.91. Do you like your own name? I don’t hate it.92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? Not in a long, long time and when I used to they were all ridiculous and terrible, thank GOD I never had any.93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? I wouldn’t care.94. What are you strengths? I’m pretty chill I think?95. What are your weaknesses? Maybe too chill when things are important.96. How did you get your name? It was crazy popular in the 80s and my parents just liked it.97. Were your ancestors royalty? No, but there may have been a Polish lord somewhere in the line? No one is really sure. We ARE sure about the bank robber though. She’s my favourite.98. Do you have any scars? Oh hey a repeat question.99. Color of your bedspread? Purple100. Color of your room? Also purple

[thealicehouse]

- okay so this is different. i can't stop thinking about you now i know everything. do i wanna make this move?

- do i wanna make this move? do i wanna do this to you? i'm cutting all my options loose if my choice is you

- glad to see you so happy i hope your heart is so full you mean less than nothing to me how could i be such a fool

for a bar you hate so much, you're in here a lot for a girl you don't wanna see, you see a lot of

can you not just leave it now i told you i don't want you around

- i keep looking at your photos i wanna dive out my window out on the street and into your home i wonder if you're all alone you don't see me but i see you you look so sweet when you're sleeping i love that new tattoo maybe i'll see you this weekend

and maybe this time i'll say hi maybe i'll introduce myself maybe you'll smile when you walk by instead of telling me to go to hell

cause baby i love you you know it i wish you loved me too i just don't get it i'm there for you when you need me even if i'm hanging round discreetly babe i always love the smell of your clothes and i never let other girls get too close (i wish you knew my name)

- i wonder if he still admits he loves listening to taylor swift

- he's got these beautiful eyes that look right through me and a mouth full of stupid things and my heart and my head can't keep it together when he just does so much as talk to me

and sure it's probably easy to see that i don't mean when i'm mean but i try to put a front of no jealousy when i see girls call him name

i hope he'll never change

it's the little things like making sure i'm home safe and the passing comments i hope i never miss and despi

- i will not fall in love with you in retrospect i will not apologize for how i feel i'm sorry if my actions broke you into pieces but i have my fair share of wounds to heal

you were so good at making me look so bad i could not defend myself against your words all stacked you made the room you were in so dreamy and in tact it's only when you left, i could see all the walls were cracked

you cannot force me into being what you wanna see you cannot make me fall in love if it isn't real i dragged myself along to save your heart and that was wrong but we can't make this work anymore

- i can't help the way my heart beats around you i can't help if i stutter when i try and talk i can't help if i don't make sense, i know you probably don't understand what i'm saying at all

- come out with me tonight, let jack take all your fears under this light you've never looked any better dear

i like your smile i wish i noticed it more before come in with me or get ID'd on the door lets just get lost on the floor

- you know what gets me you saiD it yOursElf it's riSky business you witH somEone elSe

we not quiTe over but we're not the same nothIn i haven't toLd ya and my feeLings aint changed i stiLl mIsS you ThE same

so wiNd me up once more ask me whaT i'm thinking see if you believe it get up and lOck my door cause i wanna get close geT close get close

- we might be over you won't Answer at all i know that i've been stupid but i

- if you have asked me i'd have said we'd make it to your birthday but if i'd have known everything that's not even close to what i think i'd say

so forget you happy birthday you won't be hearing from me she'll have you a better gift anyway i've just got your side of the sheets

- i picked my battles wisely tried to get you to fight you'd never scream like me you'd just call it a night

i never thought about our future and now i'm stuck in the past i think it's all to do with the mirror i smashed

- i'm trying not to fall apart in front of you didn't think it'd ever be this difficult to do you're so confident, looking all fixed and brand new well i'm not

- you wanna be honest? i wanted you bad but i heard it from some girl you're not a very nice lad

- oh love oh love i'm turning in my grave round you killed me off oh love oh love i'm sick of these days now not good enough

- Kieran - i'm not sure where i stand or whats going on or if anything is going to happen. it's so early days. i know that i think maybe i like you. i definitely think you're fit. i don't know if i like LIKE you but i definitely think i could. i just have this awful feeling you won't ever feel the same. you just got your job as a manager. why would you mess this up for me? you wouldn't. i'm not just into sex either. fuck.

- update: fuck lmao

- i was tryna defend your side of the fence but you don't see that anymore we had so many plans, he was irrelevant but we were sixteen and bored

weird you don't even stick up for me but if it came to it i'd be the one still following your feet picking pieces he'd break and collecting them he made another mistake, and you'd still go back to him

well i'm done done done

guess we won't go travelling the world together i hope if you get married that your maid of honor gives the best speech you know i'd have done it better but things change, neither us to blame, we don't stay the same

- nothing has to happen heart's turn in to weapons let's just ride with it and have fun when the sun comes up, we run

danger ain't a weakness your kiss holds up as credence and your hands feel so good when they're not doing things they should

we both agree this ain't right but even just for tonight

kiss me like you've missed me your whole damn life like i'm all you've ever wanted, everything you've needed picture perfect for just one night like we're in a movie, but you mean nothing to me

- i bet you weren't expecting that what are the chances we can go back i'm not sorry for the way i am but we can't carry on like this

i know my heart too well and my brain skips tracks i'm a sucker for love, now you know that it's not in me to be casual, it's all or nothing

so don't give me a thing, don't give me a fifth of what i need don't lend out love for a temporary thing i'm not a guarenteed get out of this easy i want nothing from you or completely

this is far for me

- you're doing things you said you'd never do monogamy doesn't suit you. situations change, i know i've felt it too but this is far from the you i knew

- i am imagining, not hearing anything from you. nothing in self defence, is what i'm saying right, is it all true? have you just lost yourself? do you think we could make it through don't wanna lose this, don't wanna end up losing you

but it's hard when you won't talk to me, i'm screaming into a void, and nothings happening, why won't you fight for losing me?

are all our dreams and our plans and our memories we made not enough to even make you listen to me or all our secrets, and tears and moments we shared not even enough to make you care why is it hurting me so much? when you don't even care enough?

- so thank you again i'll make my own way out it's not like your hands are able to help me now

- your eyes are turning green babe and your shirt is stained red and my head can't stop thinking about all the things you said my lungs burn from the embers of the fire in your mouth my love's the only shelter saving me from falling down

- i know this aint easy for you to hear but its even harder for me to say so next time you decide we should apologize again ill look at you and walk away

cause i wont say sorry for feeling this and i wont say sorry for wanting you and i wont say sorry for holding your hand because i want to

so hold me, i know you cant but still please hold me you know we're still friends

for the first time it felt like looking into strangers eyes for the first time i didn't recognize your smile

it's just been so long feels like i never met you once like my memories are not my own

- so if you passed me know, and still dug your eyes into the ground, i won't feel my heart beg to leave my chest i'll feel like it's my body walking past your body, now you're a nobody, i must just be moving on

- how would your girlfriend feel if she knew i sat here imagining you meeting my parents how would your girlfriend feel if she knew how good your lips felt just on mine

my parents might never ever wanna meet you tragic that i'm made to feel like this is wrong cause honestly i love it when i see you you make me feel like i belong

- i'm breathing deeper i can see the city storm clouds roll right from their mouths but you made everyday just the beginning the world just stops when you're around

and i wanna daydream about our first house with an LA skyline view and i wanna see the world i've heard about, with someone just like you it's not easy, believe me with what i'm going through but everyone else i don't care about, when i'm stood next to you

well we did it babe five months, and five long breakups we made it babe out the other side and half a alive i showed them anyway