#there's no earthly way of knowing....

[medranochav]

this last lil dbt lesson pissed me off lol. it's just so incredibly invalidating. and even tho I guess the way I function is not good, it's for good reason. idk maybe I shuld start ******* again

[king-magppi]

♥️♣️It’s old coot game night... TIME TO GAMBLE!! This time a few others were invited to join the "old coots". It's more fun that way, anyhow.♦️♠️

(w/o dialogue vers under cut!)

[t-u-i-t-c]

"It's you..."

[girl-drink-drunk]

ain't nothing quite like being openly bisexual and admittedly nonbinary in your doctor's office and after she gives you the obvious diagnosis of having codependency issues she proceeds to recommend a therapist at a practice that boasts god-centered counseling and lots of prayer from the staff. ain't nothing like it all.

[shmowder]

the more I write the more I start to notice the interesting smooth flowing phrases in the daily posts I scroll by and the more I yoink them to save in my notes app. Like a fisher hauling in today's catch. Be it a pretentious word for a specific act or a clevery strung phrase that made me pause the doomscrolling, sometimes just catchy lyrics from a song

[atopvisenyashill]

any thoughts about how could it be the dynamic between viserys-naerys- daeron ii in fire & blood 2?

okay so straight up the dynamic i’m MOST interested in learning about in f&b2 is the viserys-naerys-daeron ii dynamic. first of all, those first two are just UNGODLY DISTURBINGLY YOUNG when they have children. viserys has naerys, his YOUNGEST child when he is sixteen. naerys has daeron when she is fifteen. viserys is a grandfather before he is 32 years old. it is truly babies raising babies out here!! i mean fuck, daeron has baelor under significantly less traumatic circumstances but he’s still only 17 by the time he starts having kids! that’s all just wildly interesting and disturbing to me. like, that alone, how close in age they all are because they all married & started having kids at crazy young ages, explains so much about why this period has always felt particularly deranged to me (“this period” being post dance where we get this incredible string of deranged freaks from aegon iii to aegon iv that ebbs into this vaguely “we’re having a targ renaissance yay” era that erupts into civil war anyways! i LOVE this conceptually i’m so ready to be annoyed when f&b2 comes out and i’ve hyped this all up for some more dumb sex stories from another court fool ajsjs).

but then secondly, okay, when you look at the timeline- daeron is born in 153 and the birth nearly kills naerys 15/16 year old naerys. aegon iii is still king for four more years. that last year, aegon iv spends his time (and the next two years after that) shacked up with megette. then aegon spends a few years shacked up/probably raping casella vaith the hostage, before running off to war. then he spends more time raping naerys, wherein she has a miscarriage, and aegon is sent away so he doesn’t rape her to death. daeron marries myriah, has a child with her. but before that child is two, in quick succession, his father comes back home & immediately starts raping his mother again, his mother nearly dies having twins & now he has a sister younger than his son, and daena unveils her new bastard who everyone thinks is aegon’s, and baelor is so distraught by all this he fasts himself to death. viserys is king, and likely dead before daeron’s second son is born and before daeron turns twenty. suddenly the person responsible for making sure aegon doesn’t rape naerys to death are daeron & aemon, who have NO authority over aegon. this man has the audacity to stay alive for twelve more years.

that shit is insane. daeron’s father is only around when he’s raping his mom. the closest things daeron has to a father figure are his uncle who wants to fuck his mom, his grandfather who is probably busy constantly (and also only in his thirties 😭), and his batshit insane cousin baelor. his childhood is marked by almost constant instability until it stabilizes for the worse when his cousins all get locked in the maidenvault, then gets thrown into upheaval once again as baelor & viserys die and now his dad who is only around when he’s raping his mom is suddenly back in town and has total control.

and naerys. she’s like if aemma lived long enough to parent her kids, but worse bc you could argue there was fondness of a sort between aemma & viserys. aegon and naerys hate each other. she is constantly pregnant and on death’s door from the age of fifteen (three years older than her father!) until the day she dies, in her early 40s. it sounds like worse than hell to me. it is a lifetime where the only source of comfort you have is the son you birthed at fifteen, because maybe your life is a nightmare but if you raise him to be marginally less evil, he won’t destroy the innocent little girl you know is going to be sent to court to be his wife. everyone else is actively holding you hostage and applauding you for taking the abuse so well. your whole life is screaming for help and all you get is tears telling you you’re so dutiful and brave.

and viserys just. watches it all happen. of course he does! his kids are simply ungrateful! he had to get married at twelve and his wife wasn’t born in westeros so they had nothing in common and at least they have a living father, they have no idea how lucky they are. why should daeron and naerys blame him when he gave them everything because he had nothing? it’s a shame it wasn’t naerys that offed this man. i do think she was his favorite kid tho and i bet he’s not subtle about it at all.

[ingravinoveritas]

dustylyric replied to your post "I'm amazed by the people saying Michael touched...”

Snort. That was NOT a platonic caress of David’s nipple.

I know I caress all of my co-workers' nipples platonically. I have no idea what in the world you are talking about...

[mydaysaresmall]

Garden of Pixelly Delights: Hell.

Closeups of some of my favourite guys:

[musecraft]

a few lil notes re: my portrayal of lottie — for the purposes of this blog, i will occasionally be indulging in lottie's delusion that there is a supernatural god that rules over the wilderness, at least within threads that are from her perspective.

regarding her own alleged supernatural abilities, we know that from the time lottie was a child, she has been medicated for 'hallucinations.' we also see that her indigenous mother believed that her hallucinations might be something beyond mere mental illness, whereas her white father considered them strictly a problem to be fixed & suppressed them with medication. i don't know which idea is meant to be 'correct' within the canon of the show, but it's pretty clear to me that lottie did not actually enjoy being sedated constantly. & besides that, i really do just find the tension between the two perspectives really interesting to explore. plus, there are some small things within her canon that i maintain cannot be explained away by mere mental illness — her inexplicable ability to speak french, the birds at the cabin, the bear, the way her hallucinations seem to stop & start throughout the teen timeline, etc.

therefore, for my own enjoyment, i will be writing under the assumption that lottie does have some minor clairvoyant abilities which predate her time in the wilderness & may arise occasionally. however, most of her ' visions ' within the canon are in fact visual or auditory hallucinations that stem from unmedicated mental illness + complex trauma, & which she merely interprets to match the events that occur. these two concepts can coexist — at least in my portrayal.

the tricky part for lotte i think is telling the difference between hallucination & Vision... & she definitely doesn't always get it right... unfortunately for those she loves : (

[vinthetiefling]

Getting lost in a room of coil-heads with someone who launches into Willy Wonka’s tunnel of terror monologue complete with screaming.

[akkivee]

*rattles my cage* WHAT DID SHAKKU SAY????????? WHAT DID HE SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY?????????????

[livefromtheyard]

man you must be so hyped about all the theology hour content this ep

i listened to slime's theory in the bonus that rich people frequently turn to religion because they have nothing else to do again and it's so wrong LOL. i also don't really understand what he was trying to say bc he almost said they're more religious than poor people but he like backed out

[dandelionjack]

not to get all edgy pseudo nihilist teenager… i want to believe that unconditional eternal love wins out in the end and that god cares and has a plan for the ultimate salvation of all of us but sometimes. sometimes it gets hard to have faith in the idea that anyone is out there looking out for us at all. are we left all alone to fend for ourselves against those who believe that their power in the now absolves them of any consequences and responsibility in the future

[sardonnyxx]

[margindoodles2407]

You know how some people train years and years for, like, the Olympics or something? Yeah that's me with motherhood

[mcmansionhell]

we've found it folks: mcmansion heaven

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