#these days someone asks him that and he's like hahahaha lets move on pls

[judasisgayriot]

the one or two people one person

[whityoungfan]

Ok bro Cross had the most heartbreaking one like Omg, I'll be basically giving you his entire dialogue, only like 2 or three "..." And one word shit is cut out of this.

"If you have something to say, spit it out."

"You're staring. Care to elaborate on why?"

"That's a lie."

"A guy like me?"

"Move on. I hear that all the time."

"I can't say I disagree with you. I hope you're not getting any ideas about this."

"Are you referring to my type of woman? No I don't."

— 'I bet you have all sorts of girls interested in you. You're loaded with cash right?' route

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"That having money means I can have whoever I please?"

"Everyone's the same. Money's all you think about"

"Would you like me to pay for future expenses? Maybe then we could be best friends."

(He leaves because of this)

— 'Sorry, I didn't mean to pry.' route

"It's a waste of time."

"What's the point in being with someone who will only bring you down?"

"Do you think someone such as I would have the luxury of such nonsense?"

"I don't have the time to drop everything for a partner. Besides, even if I did... / All people seem to want from me is.."

He then gets asked about friends and family and if he has time for them

"It doesn't matter how much time you give someone, they won't care if they have other priorities"

"You can give and give, but eventually, the disappointment becomes too much to bear."

— 'No you're wrong' route

"You know nothing of me, my family, or my upbringing / What I do with my life is none of your concern" (He leaves because of this)

— 'I have another question' route. Enigma asks him what he loves other than work

"Hmhmhm... It's obvious..." (Yes Cross is chuckling)

"It's... / Dogs!"

"What is not to love? Not only are they loyal creatures... / You can also give them as much love and attention, and they'll return it twofold! / Wealth... Background... Nothing else matters to them but you. / Truly, the most biggest companionship one can obtain is from these four-legged creatures."

"Of course! / A German Shepherd, Poppy, and a Husky, Meeka. Both fine ladies. / I'm beginning to kiss them quite a bit... I hope someone is taking good care of them."

"I never said I was my number one, did I?"

"What they say about dogs being a man's best friend is true..."

"Poppo and Meeks... / They've been keeping me company since their first day with me. / There's not a thing I wouldn't do for them. / Because I know they won't leave. They'll always be loyal to one master, and that is me. / No human can ever replicate the bond of trust between man and dog. / With them by your side, you'll never feel the pain of someone leaving you behind."

"Exactly my point. I'm glad we see eye to eye on something / Perhaps you're not as foolish as I thought. However..."

*I listened and sighed as he continued talking about why he didn't trust everyone, how he still wouldn't let his guard down.*

Also bro does not have a type of girl— so like I have a chance :')

Also potential foreshadowing;

"Maybe eventually I'll get to know him under better circumstances."

Yes I did spend my time looking through Cabinet Confiding part 2 to get these lines hahahaha I have a chance with Cross because he has no specific taste in woman 😍😍😍

Cross bro I'll treat you right pls

DAMN

IM GONNA START WATCHING THE 1ST PART SOON YAYAY

[mouthfulloftoothpasterry]

HELLO i’m back and i’m bringing some more concepts (sorry in advance if i repeat some btw 😭)

- ok so like imagine if yall went to a concert and like he would be DANCING SO HARD and u would basically whisper-shout bc it’s loud (lol) what the artist/band is doing on stage to him… he would be so grateful for that ????

- omg also can we PLS imagine him as a dad to be trying his veryyyy best to build a crib and like help decorate the room??? trips to ikea!!! and harry feeling material on blankets to see which is best for his bubba!

- speaking to dad to be harry… HIM AT A ULTRASOUND appointment!!!! y/n would count all the babies toes for him!!!!!!! and he would so sob when he finds out the gender 🥰 and would be holding ur hand so hand bc he’s so lucky ????

- ok wait this is a but random but i can imagine him being a best man one day for like his best friends wedding and you would whisper in his ear that he looked beautiful ( him with his suit and colourful tie HE picked out 🥲) and he would blush like crazy… also would defo dance with you all dance night… conga? yeah. chicken dance thing? he’s doing that for an hour straight… and hearing ur laugh?? hes DEAD.

- alsooooo night routines would be so cuteee!! he can hear you taking ur makeup off and would go to the counter of ur bathroom and sleepily ask if you could do his moisturiser or something… or he would sit on the counter and wait for you, ask abt ur day, would get some snacks for ur night movie or something. but random but hey ho!

- small dates are a must btw!!! walk on the pier? yup! just harry feeling the wind on this face makes him so happy! and he doesn’t feel self conscious around you or anything… and if someone gave him a funny look you would be SO close to punching them in the damnnn face!! he’s very lucky to have u lol

sorry if these are bad! it’s evening in the uk so i’m tired lol. watch me come back tomorrow 💞 have a lovely day and hope u like these lol!!!!!! xxx

NO THESE ARE SO GOOD OH MY GOD

I NEED TO TAKE A WHILE TO RESPOND TO ALL OF THEM AND WRITE A GOOD CHUNK FOR ALL OF THEM SO I WILL EDIT THIS LATER AND TAG YOU ONCE I RESPOND TO IT ALLLLL!!!! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 THANK YOU SO MUCH 🥺

Okay they are done babyyyy @sunflowerstyles-6

Concert:

“oh my god, Harry he just fell!” Y/n giggles, watching the concert they caught at last minute. They didn’t even really know the band but they have heard a few songs and the band wasn’t very well known so pit tickets were pretty cheap. “What?!” Harry asks, stilling his dance moves and snapping his head toward his girlfriend. Y/n laughs loudly, “He almost fell off of the stage!” Y/n giggles, clinging to Harry. “Is he okay?!”

y/n nods, kissing harrys cheek. “Keep on dancing, baby! I want to get some videos of you!” Y/n yells over the music, pulling away from his and stepping back to take videos of his crazy head banging and jumping.

Building a crib:

“Honey, it’s okay. I can get someone else to build it.” Y/n says, rubbing her eight month bump while standing in the nursery that belongs to their second baby. “Hush, lovie. I’ve got this. Just let me take my time.” He says, growing frustrated with his pregnant wife but he still kept a smile on his face while talking to her.

“Okayyy, I’m going to watch ******. Yell for me if you need us.” She says, letting her man do what he needed to do.

Soon enough Harry yells her name, Y/n was selling up the stairs with their first born. She smiles while she leans against the door frame, breathless from hauling her big belly up the stairs. “You did it, baby.” She smiles, patting his cheek. “So proud of you.”

Yeah… you guys don’t get to know the name until a blurb comes out 😎 me also using they/ them pronouns so you don’t know the gender yet HAHAHAH

Ultrasound:

“Bubby, stay on my lap.” Harry whispers to his baby, hugging them while their mummy gets an ultrasound. “Okay… one second and I’ll be able to tell you the sex!” The woman standing in pink scrubs smiles, rubbing the wand over Y/n’s swollen belly.

“Okay, you’ve got a (YOU WISH YOU KNEW HAHAHAHA) in your belly!” The kind lady announces with a warm, excited smile on her face. Y/n jaw drop while Harry and ****** squeal. “ANOTHER?” Y/n cries, making Harry giggle. “Hush, you are gonna love it, baby.”

Best man:

“Don’t be nervous, silly.” Y/n giggles to her fiancé while she fixes his bow tie. They were at Harry’s best friends wedding. Mitch and Sarah had gotten engaged just a couple months before Harry and Y/n had, Harry now being his best man and Mitch going to their wedding as harrys best man.

“Hush it! I’ve got to walk in-front of all of those people.” Harry whisper yells, pointing to the door where people are slowly trickling in behind.

“Baby.” Y/n says, grabbing his face and looking straight into his eyes- he can instantly senses the eye contact and it makes his cheeks burn. “You look fucking beautiful. You are a dream. After the ceremony is over we are gonna go dance out asses off, and have the time of our lives. You aren’t Gonna have a worry in your mind so don’t get worked up now.” She says, hushing him with a firm kiss to his lips before he can even speak. “Thank you,” he cups her jaw. “I needed that.”

Soon enough Harry is screaming at the top of his lungs while doing the cha-cha slide- his suit jacket slipped off and shirt almost completely unbuttoned.

Night routine:

“Are y’ taking off your makeup, beautiful?” Harry asks from the bed, his voice tired and croaky. Y/n nods from the sink in the bathroom- “yup!” Harry groans, rubbing over his face. “Come take mine off, beauty.”

Y/n laughs at her husband, rolling her eyes while she pats her face dry with a towel. “Baby, you don’t wear makeup!” She yells back, stepping into the door way between their bathroom and bedroom. “Yeah but… come make me pretty. Wanna talk to you.” Y/n rolls her eyes but grabs a sheet mask and other things to doll up her husband nonetheless.

“You don’t need this, you’re pretty enough.” She says, swinging a leg over him and straddling his hips while he relaxes his head down into his pillow while she slides the slimy mask onto his face. “Yeah, yeah. How was your day?”

“It was fine, ****** was a little crazy today, but they went down so good for me during nap time.” Y/n hums. Harry smiles, “good.”

“How the company going?” Y/n giggles on-top of her husband, watching him lips form back into a smile. “It was good, sales are still going up!”

“Was it a good day?”

“Never when I’m away from you.”

Small date- at the fair!:

“No, H, come on! Give me a pretty face.” Y/n giggles, trying to take a Polaroid of him while he makes silly faces, pulling at his cheeks and lips to make himself look crazy. “Okay, okay, I swear. This one I will smile.” Harry makes a pretty face, closing his eyes while he smiles, pulling up his shoulders shyly while he does it. “Awe, you are so pretty.” Y/n coos at her fiancé,. Pulling up the camera to her eye.

As soon as the photo is shot harry is switching poses and shoving his corn dog into his mouth like a mad man. “Damn it Harry!” Y/n yells at her fiancé, making her erupt into giggles, almost making himself fall on the ground.

OKAYYY THATS ALL I HAVE :)

I realized that I spoiled that part about Harry eventually starting his own company… at least you don’t know what the company is 😭

[rw47vr-key]

Part 3/3⬇️

Little note : Hi my dears!!💕💕Hope you're all doing fine.Sorry for my late update😅 and I'm not even sure how this part has come out,pls ignore if there's any mistake.Again sorry 😣

When Princess Hannah went missing,A search crew was sent all around the duskwood forest to find any trace of her.Many were great magicians.Yet defeating Raven was not a piece of cake.Most of them came back empty handed or dead.

The forest lies still when viewing from outside but when you go through it,it's terrifying.It seems more dangerous than entering a lion's den.

***

You lay down unable to get up.The ground was damp and muddy because of the previous days' rain.You could feel mud and the thorns that pierced your skin,and you bit your lip unable to bear the pain. Someone has dragged you to that dense woods and put a seal on you ,so that you won't use magic."You scumbag Dark!!" ,you scream inside, finding yourself stuck there, not able to move an inch.But on the other hand,you were glad that he's not involving the whole kingdom like before.Atleast you were happy that a huge war won't happen,even at that situation.

You try to listen to your surroundings. The insects chirping,wolves howling somewhere far and continuous rustle of the dried leaves gave you goosebumps.

You thought of opening your eyes but,when you heard the people approaching you,talking something , you think of acting fainted and listen to their conversation.

"Look! I brought Queen MC to keep you company,Hannah", Raven says with an evil laugh while he drags Princess Hannah to lie her beside you.He always wears a mask which makes him look more frightening,and so he got the name "The man without a face"

She moaned in agony and said,"Wh--why did you bring Queen here?,you want the Sapphire right?why don't you ask your brother to get it for you??",in a low voice.

Knight Dark : "You still don't understand, Princess.To attain this power, we need to kill a person"

Ravenblack: "and curse another person",he smirks, seeing your sorrowful state.

Dark: "You're right.I can easily take the Sapphire and finish this.."

Raven: "You think I'm a fool to trust my brother Dark?, That's why I came up with another idea. I'm going to kill you,Hannah and bring back my love,Jennifer; and I'm cursing my sweet Princess Nesrin. Hahahaha" ,

The ravens made a huge cry as if agreeing to what their master said.

"I won't let that happen",you say ,struggle and drag yourself to lean on a nearby tree.

Raven pulls your leg ,holds your cheeks with his hand,and says "Try to do something funny like saving the world as last time, I'll kill you right away"

Your eyes as if blazing fire has lit up,you look at his face which is hidden by the mask and say "You yourself will end your life,by messing with me.And why did you drag Princess Hannah in this?"

Raven: "I didn't drag her ,she was the one who asked me to help,to bring back her dead friend,my Jennifer"

Jennifer and Ravenblack, though ages apart, loved each other so much.In fact, his evil side would have never grown more stronger if she was alive.Poor Princess Jennifer Hanson died due to a sudden illness.And now Raven,in addition to attain power,he also wants to bring back her from death which is against nature.

Suddenly,the sky became more dark and it was so windy,and when you looked up ,the moon was slowly turning red.The eclipse which he wished for, has begun.

Raven quickly pulled Hannah aggressively and tied her up to a bark of tree and put a mask which was actually a sack with raven feathers on her face,he started chanting something.

You screamed loudly and tried to remove the seal but you burned your tender hands.You kept on struggling,but it was in vain.

Suddenly you heard a cheerful familiar voice,

"Oh Your Highness MC, it's a waste of time by trying. It's already late for the midnight party,you know.My love,Jake will be disappointed."

You weren't surprised it was Princess Cleo who was here,but you found your spirit leaving your body when you saw Jake standing there beside her.

"You betr-ayed me?!", your words stuttered when tears where already flowing down.

But then you remembered...

***

"You trust me right?"

You hug him and say "Of course I trust you"

"Thank you,Milady. Actually there's another gem besides sapphire,you know right?"

"Yes,it's Emerald.But it was in the possession of Princess Jennifer Hanson,it wasn't found after her sudden death."

"It is with her friend, Princess Cleo.I am going to trick her using my black magic and get it"

"Wait,you can't use that magic.Moreover won't it be harmful to you?",you ask eyes full of concern and worry.

"M-Milady MC, I'm not going to use too much of it,and don't worry about me.My worries are only about you".

"Won't she recognise you as Prince Jacques?What if Ravenblack finds you?"

"My magic will help me,Milady.Again you needn't worry about it at all".

You still don't like putting himself in trouble,so you hand over your magical sword though he refused so many times.

"Listen to the Queen and take this!",you order him angrily and he didn't speak back anything.

"And there's also a wand which he used to kill me when I was young,you remember?it's somewhere in the woods.We have to destroy it,in that particular night. I've asked Lord Norman, who's also a magician,to find it. He'll deliver it to you as soon as he finds it."

"Fine,Milady. Someone's coming.I better go"

"Wait!!"

***

You finally remembered what his plan was,but still it was heartbreaking even if it was a plan to betray you.

"Oh! Jake!! You're here! I'll take care of Princess Hannah. I'll let you have the Queen, it's a great offer,you know" ,says Raven.

Jake wasn't able to hide his emotions,after seeing you in that terrible state.He stumbled and approached you and swiftly used your sword to release you from the seal.He hold you by your waist,handed you the wand,and whispered"Sorry, I'm late,MC".

Dark, "Raven! Look what Jake's..."

Jake's sword sliced Dark, before he could react.Jake was so furious and frightening ,with his cold -ice eyes.

Princess Cleo screamed seeing Dark die right in front of her eyes, only her scream made Ravenblack turn and look back.

Jake took out the Emerald,and Princess Cleo was shocked that it was in his hands.

Jake: "Thank you,Cleo for this precious gem that you hid with you safely for a long time".

"Wait,wa--it ,how did you ta-ke it..."

"Oh, Princess Cleo also betrayed this Ravenblack, huh? First I'll finish you then",Raven was not concentrating on you and Jake,but Cleo having his only love's Emerald almost lying about it's existence, made him more frustrated and he immediately killed her ,who vanished in thin air.

"Don't you dare both move from that place!! I'll kill Hannah and this whole kingdom!!", Ravenblack says and pulls his wand from you and sealed it to Hannah's tree.

He pulls out his sword, ready to face Jake.

"Then,let's begin",says Jake and the fight prolonged for hours.Both were constantly using black magic,and Jake looked terribly hurt,since that curse deteriorated him.

You try to stop him,but he just slightly smiles and nods not to worry.

You slowly approach Princess Hannah and break her seal,you take the wand.But there,Raven tried using his final blow at Jake,who is fallen down, unable to open his eyes.

You quickly ran and stood before Jake,trying to protect him.

There was a sudden flash.

When Jake finally opened his eyes,he saw you not uttering a word,laying beside him motionless.

He pulled you closer and shaked you, screamed your name and cried,but you didn't respond....

***

"Is this the end,Papa?,The queen died?",the kid asked weeping slowly.

"Oh,I left that part on purpose to see your reaction.Sorry, dear .The Queen survived and saved the kingdom."

"Oh How?"

***

There was a sudden flash.

You grab your sword that is on the ground,and fight fiercely with Raven.He is quite surprised by your dodging skills. It lasted for a long time.When he thought you were distracted,he uses his powerful black magic which he had never used before and attack you.

You pulled out the wand and held it before.

The Raven's wand shattered into pieces and at last ,he killed himself by using his own magic.He fell for his own trap.

When Jake found you motionless, Princess Hannah told him everything and assured him that you just fainted out of stress.

You slowly open your eyes and you find Jake carrying you out of that place,when Princess Hannah was walking slowly ahead of you both.

"Your gift saved me,Jake", you tell him pulling out slowly the shining red eyed necklace.

He looks at you with full of joy and the trace of tears in his face still visible,he says, "No, you saved the kingdom, yourself and me on your own, Milady.I love you,I love you MC".

You chuckle,"That was out of nowhere".

He gave a soft kiss on your forehead and replied,"I love you,MC".

"I love you too,Jake."

"I love you,MC"

"I love--,wait you're making me blush too much.Stop!"

"Haha.I love you".

***

You,Queen once again saved the world, and Prince Jake was crowned as your king, and you lived happily ever after.

***

"You liked the story?"

"Of course,papa!"

"Are you both still awake?",asks the mom from the kitchen.

"No,Mama we're going to sleep"

The dad smiled and said goodnight to his kid and placed the book on the shelf with the title,"Don't underestimate Queen MC",a real life inspired fantasy novel written by Ladylotus.

____the end_____

Ladylotus is not only a fortune teller,you know? ;)

(Again I'm sorry if this is illogical.My brain's a mess :D )

Have a great day/night everyone!!💜💜

[donkey-hyuck]

hello!! merry belated christmas!! <3

I'm currently reading your fic, rockland and UM I HAVE TO SCREAM ABOUT IT TO SOMEONE SO I'M JUST GONNA DO IT IN YOUR ASKS IF YOU DON'T MIND T-T (pls just ignore this ask if u wanna)

first of all, oml mark tf WHY DID HE DO THAT TO YN IN THE BEGINNING IM SCREAMING I HATE MIYOUNG SO MUCH #$%^&

that was on of the best break up scenes I've ever read it was so well described omg 😭 ok ngl Chae is kinda evil for doing that to yn like dude why would you bring a person to their ex's house 🧍‍♀️ MARK STILL LOVES YN OMG NOOO😭

OH WOW OK NOW YN INVITED MARK TO HER HOUSE OK- both of them are fucking up so badly I'm laughing in pain if that makes sense JUST LEAVE MIYOUNG, MARK PLS #$%^&6 Mark made a mistake and now he's regretting it like WHAT DID HE EVEN SEE IN MIYOUNG HONESTLY not mark and yn calling each other and ending it in secs 😔 HONESTLY I LOVE JAEMIN SO MUCH HE'S BEING AN ANGEL

OMG YN IS WEARING MARKS HOODIE DIJFHBVGFHRDENSM yn wants to slap miyoung PLEASE JUST SLAP HER SHE'S SO ANNOYING 😍 NO NOW I WANNA SLAP MARK HE'S BLAMING YN WHEN ITS MOSTLY HIS FAULT WHAT THE FUCK

PLEASE WHY TF ARE THEY PARTYING AT YNS HOUSE T-T ok ngl even tho yn's friends made a huge mistake ITS OK IG BECOZ THEY'RE VV GOOD FRIENDS-

ok honestly I'm curious h o w will mark make it better between him and yn like what does he even have to say now mark needs to move on i think i mean??

OH OFC MARK AND MIYOUNG ARE MAKING OUT THESE MFS DOJIJGBFRHDENSM PLEASE YN'S JUST SCREAMING TO EVERYONE WHILE GOING OUT OF THEIR HOUSE 😭😭

at this point I honestly don't know whether I hate mark more or miyoung jdfhbdns AWW THE DREAMIES (EXCEPT MARK OFC) ARE SO SWEET TO HELP YN FEEL BETTER <33

oml yn is having a nightmare of mark OMFVUGYFDHN YES JAEHYUN GO BESTIE SCOLD MIYOUNG <3

I LOVE THE ENDING SO MUCH “The sunset’s beautiful isn’t it?”

I AM CRYING THIS IS THE BEST ANGST FIC I'VE EVER READ LIKE OMG THE FEELINGS, EMOTIONS AND EVERYTHING WAS SO FUCKING WELL DESCRIBED AND WIJOEFUHVGIYBFRHDENSWJ IM CRYING THIS IS SO GOOD THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME SCREAM IN YOUR INBOX AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY 😭😭😭

ANNA OH MY GOD. HAHAHAHAHA THIS WAS SO FUNNY TO READ!

thank you for spending your time reading this fic LOL AND IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!! I LOVED READING YOUR THOUGHTS HAHAHAHA

“PLEASE JUST SLAP HER SHES SO ANNOYING😍” HAHAHAHA GIRL I WANTED TO SLAP HER SND SHE WAS A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION😭

i’m so happy you liked reading it tho :(( your freak-outs are utterly amazing and truly made my day. i’m glad you feel that way about this fic which i worked my ass on😭

AND PLEASE, FEEL FREE TO SCREAM IN MY INBOX ANY DAY! I HOPE YOU HAVE AN EVEN GREATER DAY <3333

[lost-in-jessiland]

Jeff From Omegle

You're now chatting with a random stranger. 

You: hey

Stranger: Hi

You: whats up

Stranger: M 19

Stranger: Im fine

Stranger: U ?

You: sweet I'm a woman and I'm 10 years older than you. hows life kid?

Stranger: Eh well im growing up

You: how so?

You: I need life advice

Stranger: Feels like life ahead is gonna be hard

Stranger: From me

Stranger: Okay shoot

Stranger: I will try

You: just like what do you mean by growing up? I feel like i need to grow up

You: but what is growing up lol

Stranger: Im figuring it out lol 😅

Stranger: U tell me

You: okay fine, do you work? lol

Stranger: Nope Student

You: major?

Stranger: Electrical

Stranger: Engineering

You: oh so what do those guys do? lol fix laptops or build rockets?

Stranger: Nah Just build system which keeps flow of electricity

You: like what lol

Stranger: Yupp thats true

Stranger: Its sucks

You: it sounds hard lol

You: i didnt go to college

Stranger: Oh

Stranger: Hey can ask u something

You: yeah always

Stranger: A relationship advice

You: okay hit me

Stranger: Are u married ?

You: no lmao

Stranger: Okay

Stranger: When do i know i found that person

You: when you've seen someone at their worst but still think they are amazing. still think they are beautiful.

You: not like grumpy morning, i mean pressures on, balls to the wall at their worst.

Stranger: Damn Wow thats some very mature stuff there

You: haha well thanks

Stranger: Thanks for enlightening me

Stranger: Lol

You: oh i do my best

You: ill be here all week

You: $.25 enlightenments

You: just need ur social security and moms maiden name and I can enlighten your day!

Stranger: 😂😂😂

Stranger: Ur funny

Stranger: Hey u wanna ask something ?

You: thanks. thats my strong suit

You: and whats that young grasshopper

Stranger: U said before u needed a advice

You: nope I just need advice on life. like omg I am a mess

You: you have no idea little one. stay in school and get a good job. find you a beautiful, loyal hunny and settle down lol

You: parties are bogus

You: lol can you build a time machine?

Stranger: Man feels like u had a hard past

You: absolutely not

You: My life aint tragic, thank you for askin

Stranger: Ohh

You: yeah lmao I a mess is all

Stranger: How so

You: omg lemme tell you what

Stranger: Is it a relationship ?

You: what? no? lol its the wrinkles

You: men don't rule girl world lol

You: if youre a smart girl

Stranger: Ohhhh

You: yeaaaaaaaaa

You: is u a virgin?

Stranger: Ahh

Stranger: Well yup

You: i'm sorry grasshopper, but maybe you do a party

You: get out there and put ur dick in something

You: male female it dont matter just perferrably human

Stranger: Well that's the plan

Stranger: 😂😂

Stranger: Ur funny

You: again thank you

Stranger: When did u lost ur Virginity

You: psshy

You: I was 17

You: blow jobs werent enuf anymore

Stranger: Damn

You: after a year I had to give it up

You: or this slut Robbi was gonna steal him

You: her name is ROBBI thats a boys name who sleeps with a chick named after a dude

You: i bet robbi would sleep with you

Stranger: Hahaha 😂

You: for free too

Stranger: Oh thanks thats a very generous offer there

You: shes like a year younger than i am

You: tho she has had twins

You: but hey find a wall and stick to my friend

Stranger: Where u from

Stranger: Us ?

You: the great united states

You: wby

You: you seem like a canadian

Stranger: Israel

You: omg

You: whyyyy

Stranger: Im original from Europe

You: i thought you were cool

You: ughhh Jeff, can I call you Jeff?....Jeff this sucks

You: why Jeff why?

Stranger: 😂😂

Stranger: Yeah go for it

You: Listen Jefffffff

You: dont hack my computer okay

You: I have lots of sick porn you dont wanna see

You: and some pretty awesome cat pics too

You: my cats are awesome'

You: Jeff you would love them

Stranger: I love cats

You: Captain Kush and New Jack are their names

You: they are the best things ever

Stranger: Wow

You: but if you get close they will claw you

You: cause they only like americans

Stranger: Cats are the most cuttest and adorable animal on this planet

You: they are racist cats

You: :/

Stranger: 😂

Stranger: Yeah is that so

You: oh yess

You: if you wear your head cover, they will make sure to rip it to shreds'

You: they wanna see your forhead

You: they get sus when they cant see ur forehead

Stranger: I can imagine that

You: yeah

Stranger: Lol

You: do you like foreheads

You: jeff do u like forheads

Stranger: Yup

Stranger: Its a kink or something lol

You: foreheads are your kink

You: jeff are you lying to me

You: jeff dont lie to me

You: we have a history jeff

You: listen jeff

Stranger: Sup

You: dont lie about kinks

You: those are serious stuff

Stranger: Whats ur ?

You: huh?

Stranger: Im kidding

Stranger: U don't have to answer

You: you didnt ask me anything Jeff

You: Try google translate that shit is legit

Stranger: Ok

You: whats ur ? Jefffffah

You: ?????????????

Stranger: Hmmm

Stranger: Idk

You: whatever Jeff

You: You can Call me other Jeff

You: okay

You: Jeff?

Stranger: Hey other jeff

You: thats my kink

Stranger: Wtf 😂

Stranger: Wow

You: what is other Jeff wearing

You: ;)

Stranger: U asking me ?

You: yeah what am I (other Jeff) wearing when you picture other Jeff?

Stranger: Wait a min

Stranger: Its confusing

You: okay anyting for Jeff

Stranger: Im jeff

Stranger: Lets call u Larry

You: yes and I am other Jeff

You: no

You: thats not sexy

You: I AM OTHER JEFF

Stranger: Okay fine

Stranger: Haha

You: ;)

You: yessss

You: that makes other Jeff happy

You: and horny

You: happy horny other Jeff

Stranger: U horny ?

You: other Jeff is so horny for Jeff

You: thinking about sweating forheads while Jeff thinks of what to say next makes me wanna wipe it off with my hand and make Jeff lick it off of other Jeff's hand.

You: then you can lick the sweat off of other Jeff's forehead

Stranger: Man that's Gross

You: you

You: said

Stranger: Really

You: forheads

You: were your

You: kink

Stranger: Nah

You: other Jeff was trying to be sexy for Jeff

You: the fuck

Stranger: Thast gross 😂

You: DON'T make me GET THE SLUT PADDLE

Stranger: Okay

You: so lick the forehead sweat Jeff

You: or other Jeff will spank you

Stranger: That sounds gross

You: okay fine what syour real kink then

You: JEFF

You: dont lie this time

You: fucker

You: other Jeff can be real sexy

Stranger: Hey can i ask u something?

You: anything Jeff

You: u know that

Stranger: Hey can i ask u something ?

You: omg yes

Stranger: Its kinda sexual

You: yes Jeff

You: JEFF

You: YES GIVE ME THAT QUESTION YES

You: JEFFFF

Stranger: How does a pussy taste like

Stranger: The fluid

You: BAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

You: hahahaha

You: AHAHHAHAHHAHAH

You: hahahhahahhahahah

You: hahahhahah

You: og

You: DEAR LORD JESUS HELP JEFF

help him see the light

Stranger: Yeah pls

You: you are the worst man I have ever met

Stranger: My pleasure

You: bow to God and beg that he forgives you JEff

You: Jeff

Stranger: Will do

You: may I ask a question?

Stranger: Shoot

You: what do you think pussy juice tastes like Jeff?

Stranger: I dk

You: guess stupid

Stranger: Sweet sour ish ?

You: okay then it tastes sweet sourish Jeff, Hope you like those Sour Patch Kids 

cuz thats what ur in for Jeff

You: you honestly got boring so fast Jefff like ugh . why? you suck at being a towel head.

You: islamijeff

You: orwhereeveryousaidurfrom

Stranger: Im not

You: likeugh

You: ihateyoujeff

You: istgihateyou

You: omg

Stranger: Bye then

You: i love you

You: dont leave me

Stranger: Me too

You: you love me JEFF

You: wil you move to america and be with me JEff

Stranger: Nah im bored . Thanks for talking .

You: go to the airport and say my name is Jeff

other Jeff has paid my ticket to Merica.

Stranger: Bye byee

You: b

Stranger has disconnected.

[splendidshinobi]

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST 2003 LIVE REACT: EPISODES 26-30

been awhile since i’ve watched but.... another day, another emotional rollercoaster 

episode 26: her reason

who’s her and what’s her reason

bother him ALLLLL you want maria ross...bother him all day long

he deserves it

INVOICE HAHAHAHAHA

dont yell at maria fuck off!!!! 

GIRLY WHAT IS IZUMI DOING!!!!!!!! 

i screamed i did

i love sig and izumi sm!!!!!!

omg ed and al’s faces

PANINYAAAAAAA

why does she have an automail arm whAT

i feel almost insulted for paninya’s dope weapon legs

oh wait ive seen this arm wrestling scene before lmao

go paninya goooo

i do not tolerate this mr dominic slander

OH NO DO NOT INSULT QUEEN WINRY’S WORK

sucks to suck!!!!

i do think winry may have just fallen in love

ed is such a simp though

JUMBO????? his name iS JUMBO??????

al’s mousy little what?

yikes yeah you know what winry id be pissed too

she felt so good about her work!!!

crush over

jk theyre soulmates

wow roy ur so smart

damn oh ok they kept paninya’s legs too

so she only has 1 biological limb wow

paninya is definitely a lesbian 

we’ve all known that though i mean-----the camo pants

i saw paninya wearing army pants and flip flops, so i bought army pants and flip flops

oh my god winry you DEVIOUS BASTARD

i can see why people ship paninya and winry but im sorry im an edwin simp

young pinako is hot i get it dominic

OH MY GOD DEVIOUS

WINRY LMAO

GUN LEGS!

kill him?? pANINYA think about that before you shoot someone!!! 

AWWWWWW ED!!!! “best automail in the world!!!!” IM CRYING

“hello sir” alphonse you sweet boy

sheska u good???

OPE HEY CURTISES

ed why are you sad

omg winry dont cry!!!! 

hahahaha sig

THE BOYS’ FACES LMAO

episode 27: teacher

izumi time lets gooooooooooooo

the ominous music lolololol

THE WINDOW

WHERE IS ALPHONSE

HA

RIGHT THERE

ED’S FUCKING FACE HAHAHAHA

grumman!!!!!

STEW TONIGHT FUCK YEAH

xerxes drop

edward you are being so foreboding

izumi queen of my life lets go girl!!!

umbrella king sig curtis!!!

ed you dumbass!!!!!

angry face boys

mom dad and the kids on the train!!!! makes me cry

awww win’s gonna miss the dudes

omg havoc plzzzz

why is he calling riza like she doesnt already know shes going too

do not leave my boy falman behind!!!

oh good ok

mason my dude!!!

“yes maam”

this is UNCOMFORTABLE

guys i simp for sig tbh

omg al scary boy

uh oh she SAWWWWWWW you!!!

aww i forgot about the dead cat goddamnit

not THE KITTY

ok but those baby kittens need some MELK

its all over for you two watch out

cant hide JACK SHIT from mama bear

yikes

she gonna kick your ass oof

hugs oh thats nice

episode 28: all is one, one is all

island timeeee

wait theyre on island time PART 2???? ok

the way sig’s HAND---- anyway

ok so creepy naked child??

im suspicious

clearly the boys didnt read my hero academia 

or the three musketeers

al really got YEETED

yote?

oh the kid has clothes on. leaf clothes

i know dublith is in the “south” but is it really a tropical locale?

aww the bunny

“kill it”

owie hope you dont get rabies edward

the ost man so good for both series

al really said J’ACCUSE

they didnt know the masked man was mason the first time around? aight

im really having trouble typing and eating dumplings at the same time

might pause for a dumpling break

i made these in the microwave theyre pretty good

def not the best ive had but they were, ya know, microwaved

anyways sad al hours

YOU THOUGHT THAT WAS YOUR BROTHER????

it’s the circle of life simba

getting REAL philosophical rn

“dont call me small”

now we’re getting REAL scientific

im just imagining these idiots on shrooms rn

mannnnnnnnnnnn

WAIT IMAGINE LING YAO ON SHROOMS

wow what a yummy snake breakfast

izumi said 👁 👄 👁

izumi is so hot

that is the creepiest motherfucker i ever did see

ok im gonna go rinse this dish out be back in a min!!!

episode 29: the untainted child

i am the tainted adult

you SURE his parents are lookin?

i feel like izumi is being very loving towards this child

what happened to tough love bbygirl

im not saying shes not loving in her ways but shouldnt she by nature be a litttttleeee bit more sus of this kid???

dont tell me

this is sig and izumi’s “child”

theory pending

winry is such a protective lil egg

here’s whats cookin in my head

its sig and izumi’s child and ed’s arm and leg smooshed together into a homunculus...theory still pending but im definitely right

WHY DOES SIG SLEEP W HIS EYES OPEN SIR!!!!!!!

whole situation is a mess my dudes

what did u do kid????? 

“i know ed lies sometimes”

l oh fucking l

who transmutes themselves with a bed though

not the move kid

OPE

of course winry slept through this whole thing

sheska and elicia and gracia. my heart.

did the colonel just LEAVE HER BEHIND? god what a dick

sheska WENT OFFFFFFFF!!!!!!

yes maam!!!!!!!

u tell that dumbass!!!!!!

why does envy have to sit like that

gon make me SIMP

embarrassing

*debby ryan hair tuck meme*

i love the way al sits

hes so dainty

what a gent

oh that lil kid was in the gate!!!!

how a homunculus is born? please tell me more

ARCHER....my sister was texting me about him when she asked how far i was. i googled him i saw his....bod....

yup

ARM AND LEG CONFIRMED

my brain waves are unparalleled

ED REALLY JUST YEETED WINRY AND KABEDONED THE HOMUNCULUS

EDWARD STOPPPPPPPPPPPPP OMG

off goes the kid

BIDOOOOOOOOOOO <3

why is she upset??? what did you realize izumi

that its your baby??? probs

im just that smart

episode 30: assault on south headquarters

YOKI LMAO

seeing yoki and scar makes me miss mei chang

MEI CHANG SUPREMACY

yoki really about to snitch

BIDOOOOOO

everyone showing up this episode

greed is gonna roll up with a venti frappuccino any minute now

archer is a creep

is this footage from the arnold classic?

“the muscles did the talking for them”

archer is a creep

who ru calling a freak HAHA AL’s angwy voice

ope

how IS hughes doing

pls not the pain

how did this kid come into the corporeal world

armstrong what

OUROBOROS

so he’s either wrath or pride ig

i dont think bradley is a homunculus in this one

yoki is basically michael yagoobian aka the bowler hat guy

there’s greed lmao 

with the ladies

EW NO PLEASE GOD

I DONT WANT ANY MORE SHOU TUCKER

KIMBLEE WHAT

WHAT THE FUCK WHO CUT HIS HAIR LIKE THAT

WHO ALLOWED THAT I AM CHOKING

NOT THE MULLET PONYTAIL

izumi taking on the military

of course

kimblee JESUS 

bradley is EVERYWHERE at ALL TIMES

this is rOUGH

there are so many parties vying for the kid

i still cant get over kimblee like WHAT

WHAT IS HIS PURPOSE HERE

AGAIN it just seems like bradley is everywhere at all times

[jalapeno-princess]

Mark Tuan x Reader

Word Count: 9.8k (Why can’t I write essays this long???)

Warning: If you are a Jaebum stan, this story isn’t for you HAHAHAHA I’M SO SORRY

Genre: Ex-lovers to lovers, fluff with just a tiny bit of angst

A/n: Hey guys! So I wasn’t planning on writing a part two only because I didn’t feel like I could do it justice (I actually think this is shit) but your kind words, support and the fact that some of you requested a part two gave me motivation to do so. Here we go! I hope you all enjoy it, I’m sorry if it didn’t turn out the way you all wanted but please let me know if you want an epilogue! (Italics are a flashback but y’all probably already know that hehehe ok pls enjoy) This is a part two so i suggest you read part one in order to understand the storyline and if you haven’t heard this song, give it a listen (not only because Cher is a queen) but because it relates to the story. Okay i’m out!

“Baby stop! You know how ticklish I am.” Mark’s hands made their way all around your body, tickling you in all the places he knew would get a reaction out of you. The two of you were having a lazy day in, it was one of the only days you both were off from your hectic schedules. It started off with a couple of tv shows and some cuddling. But after a while, your boyfriend decided he was in a playful mood and soon, he switched both of your positions out of nowhere so that he was hovering over you. “That’s exactly why I’m doing this. God, you’re so cute you know that?” He was staring at you with so much love and adoration in his eyes and you took this time of distraction to flip him over so that you were now on top. “Mmm, as much as I love being the dominant one, I love when you top me babe. If you wanted to have sex so badly, all you had to do was ask. We wouldn’t have wasted our time watching fifteen episodes of the office.” You rolled your eyes at him and gently pushed his shoulder. “Y/n?” You hummed in curiosity and he took this time to pull you down to his chest. “I’m going to marry you one day. You know that right? You’re it for me baby. You’re all I want for the rest of my life. I can’t wait to start a family with you. I want ten kids at the least.”

Your eyes immediately widened in shock and your boyfriend’s laughter filled the room. The two of you have been dating for four and a half years, and even though he would always bring up your future together, your heart would always flutter whenever he’d mentioned it. Mark was all you could ask for in a boyfriend and more and you couldn’t wait to see what the future held for the both of you. “Ten is a little bit too much don’t you think? Admit it horndog, you just love having sex as many times as possible.” He pouted at you and playfully bit his lip while hiding his face in to your neck. “As much as I love making love to you, which I do. I really do. I want a big family. You know how much I really want kids. We’re going to get a big house. Remember what you said just a few months ago? You want a house by the beach with a big yard so we can get two golden retrievers and the kids can play with them outside. You also want a swimming pool, which I don’t understand considering the beach will be right outside our backyard. But I don’t judge. You also want an island in the kitchen, a walk in closet and a chandelier like the one your grandmother had in her house. And I plan on giving it all to you baby. I can’t wait for it to all happen. Actually, why don’t we start now? One kid won’t hurt right?” You glared at him and shook your head. It wasn’t that you didn’t want kids. Hell, you were just as in love with kids as Mark was and you wanted a big family too. Maybe not ten children, but you did want quite a few. You’ve dreamt about having a big family from the time you were little and just the idea of having kids with the love of your life sent fire to your bones. Every time Mark would bring up having children, it always brought warmth to your cheeks. He would get all starry eyed, talking about all the sports he’d put your sons in and how he would send your daughters to an all girls school so they wouldn’t be anywhere near boys. The thought of how protective he would be to them never failed to make you laugh. He noticed you were daydreaming and placed a soft kiss on your cheek to get your attention.

“I know, you want to be settled down and financially well off when we start having kids. But when the time comes, do you want a boy, or a girl first? And what names did you have in mind?” He ran his fingers through your hair and patiently waited for your response. “Hmmm. I want a boy. Definitely a boy first.” He jokingly groaned. You knew Mark always wanted a girl first. Every time you’d go over to his parent’s house for a gathering, he would always run off to go play with his nieces. Watching how natural he was when it came to taking care of them only made you want to have kids with him sooner. You knew he would be such an amazing father and you knew one of these days, you’d just say fuck it and have your first of many children with him. “Of course you do. I always catch you looking in the boys section all the time. You would think moms would want a girl first. Well, I-“ You placed a soft kiss on his lips to shut him up because you knew what he was going to say. “I know, you want a girl. I swear to God, if you end up spoiling our daughter to the point where she won’t take no for an answer, I’m filing for divorce Tuan.” His grip on your waist tightened as he lightly thumped your head. “No ones getting divorced. You’re stuck with me forever y/n. We’re soulmates. I was made for loving you and you were made to love me. Now, names. What names did you have in mind?” You released a content sigh while bringing your fingers up to his face and gently traced his handsome features.

“For a boy, I like the name Aiden. Don’t ask me why, I just think it’s cute. And for a girl, Mia. Mia or Sophia. Or Riley. I really like Riley. Maybe even Alexandria or-“ He let out a soft chuckle and grazed your cheek. “You know, for someone who doesn’t want a daughter first, you seem pretty enthusiastic about choosing girl names. I like all the names you’ve listed. I love everything you do honestly it’s insane. I don’t care what we name our child. Well, I do. I’ve seen some crazy names so I’m glad we’re planning this out now. But I just can’t wait till we start having them. Like I said, we can start now.” He left soft kisses along your neck, earning a soft moan from your lips, but before things could escalate, you pushed against his chest and gave him a knowing look. He innocently lifted his hands up in surrender earning himself a giggle. “Okay, what about a practice run then? You can’t only be wearing my t-shirt and a pair of sexy underwear and not expect me to want to rearrange your guts now let’s go.”

It’s been two months since he made that terrible speech at Jackson’s wedding and he’s been having that dream almost every night since then. Matter a fact, every dream he had consisted of just you and only you. Was this his karma for getting plastered and humiliating everyone that night? You didn’t respond to his messages and Mark took the silence as his answer. No matter how badly he wanted to be yours again, he couldn’t force you to leave Jaebum in order to be with him. Although he accepted the fact that the two of you were never getting back together, he couldn’t help the little voice in his head telling him to not give up; reminding him that he still had a chance. He got up and made his way towards the bathroom to start his day but before doing so, he checked his messages. Even if he knew you weren’t going to get in touch with him, that didn’t stop him from looking to see if you finally decided to respond to him. He couldn’t blame you for not replying. How could you respond to such an outburst like that? At the same time, he wished you would just tell him the truth so he could get some closure and finally move on. But as much as he would tell himself that he deserved happiness too, Mark knew there was no getting over you. After checking his messages and seeing that Yugyeom had asked him what his plans were for the day, he jumped in the shower and got ready to hang out with the tall and lanky boy. He should’ve asked what Yugyeom had in mind, because it would’ve prevented him from getting in to this situation.

He shouldn’t have been there. Mark just so happened to be in the wrong place at the right time. However, a part of him was actually pretty happy he agreed with accompanying Yugyeom to his doctor’s appointment. Even if the younger boy was 22 years old, he still would beg Mark to go with him because he never knew what to tell the doctor. Yugyeom knew Mark would do anything Yugyeom needed because you had the biggest weak spot for the younger boy. When the two of you were dating, Yugyeom would stay over at your apartment almost every night because he was too afraid of being alone. You were quick to tend to his every need and although this would irritate Mark, he loved how you took care of his friends. Even after your breakup, you continued to stay in contact with all of his friends. You would’ve probably accompanied Yugyeom if you weren’t already busy with your own appointment. Today was the day you were finding out the gender of your baby. As much as you really wanted to be excited to see what you were having, you wanted nothing more than for this day to be over with.

Since the night of Jackson’s wedding, there has been a strain in your relationship with Jaebum. He became distant. Sure, he still helped you with anything and everything you needed and he still was affectionate towards you. But he no longer held you close to him right before the two of you would go to sleep like he used to. Nor did he spend as much time with you after he would finish work. Sometimes he would come home drunk which wasn’t like him and completely knocked out upon arriving back to your apartment. Then you noticed that most of your conversations that would go on for hours just a few months ago, now consisted of one word responses. It didn’t take you long to realize what was going on. He only started acting this way after the wedding and you couldn’t help but feel that he knew of your true feelings for Mark and that’s why he was being so distant towards you. The two of you planned this appointment months beforehand, but he let you know that he was scheduled to work just a few days ago and you were hurt at the thought of him not wanting to be there. He’s told you multiple times that he took off, so why did he have to work all of a sudden if his schedule was set in stone for months? You were walking towards the elevators when you noticed one of them was just about to close. Since getting pregnant, you tried your best with not moving all too quickly to prevent yourself from harming the baby in any way. However, you were already late and didn’t want to make the gynecologist wait longer than they needed to.

“Wait! Hold the door please!” You should’ve had taken the stairs. Once you entered the elevator, your eyes immediately landed on him. Yugyeom and Mark were sitting in the doctor’s office when he realized he forgot the parking ticket in his car. He quickly ran out to get the ticket and made his way back to the doctor’s office. It’s as if the universe wouldn’t allow him to catch a break. His breath hitched at the sight of you. You were six months pregnant now, which meant you were bigger and took a while longer to move around. You awkwardly stood in the elevator and tried your best to make it seem like you didn’t notice it was him. It’s not that you didn’t want to. Hell, you’ve been wanting to talk to him since his outburst at the wedding, but you couldn’t do that to Jaebum. Especially because there was a chance that you would give up everything you had with Jaebum in order to be with Mark again. Little did you know, your boyfriend was acting this way to you on purpose. Jaebum wasn’t stupid. It didn’t take him long to realize you were still in love with Mark. He didn’t mean to be so cold towards you, especially during the time of your pregnancy. But he didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want to be the reason for your unhappiness. Even if you didn’t talk about what had happened since that night, he knew Mark’s words were affecting you. He’d catch you dozing off from time to time, your smile no longer reached your eyes like it used to, he would hear you crying in the wee hours of the morning when you thought he was asleep and when he did your laundry just a few days ago, he found a couple of Mark’s shirts in your hamper that were obviously worn by you. As much as he loved you and wanted things to work between the two of you, it was obvious your heart was somewhere else. The fact that you were having his baby wouldn’t stop you from being in love with Mark. You owned Jaebum’s heart, but as much as he really wanted to, he didn’t own yours.

Of course Jaebum wanted to be there for your ultrasound. What father didn’t want to be there to find out the gender of their baby? However, after he thought long and hard about what he was going to do about your relationship, he wasn’t in the mood to pretend like he was in good spirits. Therefore, he asked his manager if he could go in to work to prevent him from tagging along with you. Maybe if he continued acting rude towards you, this would make you want to leave him so he didn’t have to be the one to initiate the breakup. He didn’t have the heart to. Especially since you were pregnant. But he couldn’t keep pretending as if things were okay between the two of you. No matter how much he loved you, you would always love Mark no matter what and there was nothing he could do to change that. “Hey.” You avoided his eyes and simply acknowledged his presence. You were sure if you were to look at him, you’d have a mental breakdown. Once you finished reading his messages that night, you tried your best to quietly cry in to your pillow. You didn’t want Jaebum knowing that Mark got in touch with you, and that he confessed his love for you. Nor did you want your boyfriend to know that Mark’s words were making you reconsider your relationship with Jaebum. You almost said yes to leaving Jaebum in order to be with Mark. But you had to stop being selfish. Jaebum’s heart was on the line and you refused to hurt him because of what you wanted. And you were having his baby. There were two people you had to put before yourself now. So, no matter how many times you typed out a response, you deleted every single message altogether.

“Hi.” He released an exasperated sigh and hesitantly reached for your wrist in order to turn you around to face him. “You’re practically a basketball now. Yet you still look so beautiful. What are you doing here? Is everything okay?” Hearing him compliment you, no matter how many times he would do so during your relationship never failed to bring a smile to your face. Seeing him again for the first time after he admitted his feelings for you was driving you insane. He looked so tired. There were bags under his eyes and it was apparent that he lost a lot of weight. The sight of him looking so fragile and weak broke your heart to the point where you couldn’t look at him without wanting to cry. “I’m fine. I uh..I actually find out the gender of the baby today.” He noticed you didn’t sound as excited as he would’ve expected you to be. If anything, you looked as if you didn’t want to be there. “That’s great y/n! Where’s Jaebum by the way? I would think the father should attend each and every appointment-“ You all but gently took his hands off of your wrist and turned back around to face the elevator doors. Damn, why did it take so long for the elevator to take you only five floors up? “He’s working and couldn’t make it. I know he wanted to be here. But it’s fine. I’m fine. I can do this on my own.” Before Mark could respond, the doors finally opened and you let out a sigh of relief. “Well…have a nice day. Bye.” He should’ve let you walk away. The entire interaction was awkward and it made Mark feel as if you hated him. But he didn’t understand why. Sure, he may have embarrassed you and Jaebum at the wedding, and confessing his feelings to you while you were in a relationship was a dick move. However, he didn’t think it was that bad enough to have you treat him like he was a criminal. Although you were being so rude to him, this didn’t stop him from leaving the elevator and following right behind you. The two of you were at the same hospital, at the same time, on the same day. It had to mean something right?

“Mark, what are you doing?” He ignored you and continued to walk. He even took your bag and waited for you to enter the office because he wasn’t sure where he was going. When he noticed you weren’t going to move, he brought his fingers up to his face and pinched the bridge of his nose in frustration. “Isn’t it obvious? I’m going with you to that appointment. I’m not going to let you go through this alone y/n.” You shook your head in disagreement. “I’m fine Mark. Really. You should go. I don’t think it’s a good idea-“ He furrowed his brows and you could see his jaw clenching. You didn’t really want to cause a scene at the hospital, so you admitted defeat and made your way in to the office. Although Mark was a very soft and gentle guy, he could get pretty scary when he got angry. That’s why back when the two of you were still dating, you used to always leave your apartment and run away to Jaebum before things could get really bad with you and Mark. It’s not that you didn’t want Mark there. His presence never failed to calm you down and make you feel safe. But you wish it was under different circumstances. There were so many times back when you to were dating that you would think about how it would be like when you finally got pregnant and what you would go through during your pregnancy. Mark would always tell you how he planned to be there for every single thing. Every appointment, every time you had to go to the bathroom, every 2:00 a.m. fast food run, every pregnancy class. He wanted to be there for it all and you knew he would. He was already such a loving and doting boyfriend, what more when you finally started having children?

You didn’t notice that you were tearing up at the thought of it until you felt his finger softly wipe away your tears. You didn’t know what to feel at the thought of your ex-boyfriend being the first one to find out the gender of the baby you were having with someone else. But in all honesty, you were glad he was there. It took your mind off the fact that Jaebum wasn’t. Once you got yourself checked in, you sat down and started to fill out the paperwork. “How did you get here y/n? You didn’t drive did you? I wouldn’t want you driving in your condition.” You snickered at his worried facial expression and continued to write down your information. “I took a cab. Don’t worry about me. Wait, why are you here?” He gave you a knowing look and you chuckled. “I can’t believe you still make and attend his doctor’s appointments with him. That’s so cute. He’s probably wondering where you are Mark. You should go-“ Before you could finish your sentence, the nurse was calling your name. After taking a solid two minutes to get up from the chair, Mark offered to help you walk in to the room. “Well, I hope you know I’m taking you home after this. I want to make sure you get there safely okay? And before you object, I’m sure Jaebum would want the same, even if he’s probably mad at me.” You grazed you’re thumb against his hand that was gently gripping your waist. Even if you were no longer a couple, Mark never failed to look after you and just thinking about how much he still cared about you made butterflies swarm in your tummy. The nurse had you lie down on the table and helped you lift up your shirt so she could start the ultrasound. Mark was quick to do anything he saw that he could do in order to accommodate you. He took a seat next to you and placed your purse on his lap all the while watching you get prepared to find out what you were having.

Before the nurse could apply the gel, Mark’s phone started to ring. “Sorry, can I take this real quick? I’ll be right back.” He left the room and the nurse smiled widely at you. “The two of you are so cute. How long have you been together for?” You hesitantly shook your head. “We’re not dating. He um..he’s actually my ex-boyfriend. It’s a long story.” She gave you a sad smile while getting the tools ready. “Sweetheart, even someone with terrible eye sight can see how much that man is in love with you. His eyes never left you for one second. And even when the two of you walked in, he was so quick to do whatever he could to help you. He obviously still cares about you if he’s willing to come see another man’s baby. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be butting in to your relationship. But take it from someone whose been there. You’re going to spend the rest of your life thinking about what could’ve been between you and him. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with the father of your child, nor do I know what went down with you and your ex-boyfriend, but the fact that he’s here and your boyfriend is not speaks volumes my dear. A man will make the effort to be there for the woman he loves no matter what. Remember that.” Soon Mark was coming back in to the room and took his seat right next to the table. “Is it alright if I bring someone else in here or is only one person allowed?” The nurse shook her head. “Anyone is welcomed in here. As long as it’s quiet, you can bring however many people you want.” Before you could ask him what he meant, he walked back outside and returned a few minutes later with Yugyeom. “Hey y/n! Wow, I know I saw you last week but you just keep getting bigger.” You chuckled at the younger boy but didn’t fail to notice Mark’s scowl. He knew you still went out with all of their friends every so often, but he couldn’t help to feel jealous knowing they still got to see you.

When the nurse started moving the device along your belly and you heard the sound of your baby’s heartbeat, all your worries about your relationship with Jaebum and everything that was going on with Mark faded away. Your baby was your main focus and although you had a few ultrasounds already, you were always so happy getting to see how quickly your baby was growing and you realized their heartbeat was your new favorite sound. Mark’s heart was about to combust at how big your smile was. Yugyeom took notice of his older friend’s facial expression and he was hurting for him. Even if Mark looked happy for you, he knew his friend was dying on the inside. Yugyeom knew Mark wanted nothing more than for that to be his baby. Right after his mental breakdown in the bathroom that night, Jinyoung sent Mark home with Yugyeom and Bambam. Mark was a mess. If you thought that his whole speech at the wedding was bad, it was even worse back at Yugyeom’s place. He wouldn’t stop crying over you. He started throwing things and screamed at the top of his lungs to the point where Yugyeom’s neighbors started complaining. Mark was really good at hiding his emotions, but he wasn’t fooling Yugyeom. “Congratulations y/n, you are having a girl. That’s her face right there, those are her arms and her cute little feet and-“

You didn’t even notice Mark get up to leave until you heard the door slam shut. Yugyeom gave you a sad look and apologized while excusing himself to run after his friend. Mark couldn’t help himself. Sure, he brought himself in to this. He offered to be there for you. But he couldn’t sit there and pretend like it wasn’t bothering him. When the nurse said you were having a girl, he completely lost it. He was already pissed off at the fact that Jaebum wasn’t there. But hearing that you were having a daughter, something you knew he’s wanted for a very long time, he couldn’t take it anymore and had to get out of that room. He didn’t even make it out of the doctor’s office, he sank down against the wall and started to break down in sobs. He felt bad for leaving you all alone, but he couldn’t stay in there and continue hearing about the baby you were having with someone else. You were probably going to name her one of the names you and Mark chose together and hated the thought of it. “Mark-“ He shook his head and continued to cry. “I’m fine Gyeom. Just go..back in there..and..be there for her. And take her home please? She’s right..I shouldn’t have come..fuck..” He got up before Yugyeom could respond and quickly made his way to his car. He sat in the driver’s seat and cried for what felt like hours. Stupid Yugyeom and always needing Mark to go with him to his appointments.

This could’ve all been prevented if he had just stayed home. But who was he kidding? He couldn’t blame anyone but himself for offering to go with you to your appointment. You told him it was a bad idea. But he wanted be there for you and if he was telling the truth, he was going to pretend that it was his baby the two of you were going to look at. How it should’ve been. When Yugyeom walked back in to the office, he made his way back to your room and he wasn’t prepared for the sight he was going to walk in to. The nurse was holding you as you cried. She tried her best in consoling you because once Mark stormed out of that room, the tears immediately came rushing down. Everything was happening so fast and you were exhausted. You just wanted to go home. Seeing him get all excited or what you thought was excitement only for him to run away once the nurse announced what you were having broke you. You knew hearing that you were having a girl affected him in a negative way. When the nurse saw Yugyeom, she motioned for him to come take her place so that she could file the paperwork. Before leaving, she pulled you in for a hug and whispered in your ear. “That man still really loves you. Do what you want with that information my dear.”

Yugyeom wrapped his arms around you and continued to hold you as you cried. Sure he was young, but it didn’t take a genius to know that you and Mark were still so in love with each other and Yugyeom knew you were hurting just as much as Mark was. He knew you loved Jaebum. Whenever the two of you would go out with the rest of your friends, he saw the way you’d interact with him. Sure, you laughed at his jokes and kissed him every now and then. But it was nothing compared to the way you would act with Mark. You were happiest with him and it showed. It’s not that you weren’t happy with Jaebum, but the smile you had with Mark and the smile you have with Jaebum are completely different and Yugyeom knew the difference. You loved Jaebum, but you were in love with Mark. Two completely different things. “Where is he?” Yugyeom let out a sigh while continuing to rub your back. “He left. He told me to bring you home. Y/n, I’m probably not the one who should be talking to you and I’m sure you’re tired of hearing this, but Mark still really loves you if it wasn’t already obvious with what happened at Jackson’s wedding and what went down just now. I’m not telling you how to live your life, and you know I want nothing but happiness for you. I know you’re not happy with Jaebum. No matter how much you try and portray yourself out to be. I’m very observant when it comes to these things and I can tell, you don’t love Jaebum the way you wish you could. The way you love Mark. I know it’s hard, especially because now there is a baby involved, but I’ve never seen Mark so upset before and I know it’s because this is what he dreamed of. Everyone knows how badly Mark wanted to start a family with you. He’s never been with anyone since your breakup because he doesn’t want anyone but you. You are all he wants for the rest of his life y/n. So you can’t blame him for acting the way he is. That should’ve been him in Jaebum’s shoes and you know it. We all know it. Hell even Jaebum knows it. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be so blunt. Especially since you’re pregnant, but I just thought you should know. Here, I’ll help you up. Let’s go.”

Yugyeom’s words wouldn’t stop echoing through your head. You tried your best to control your tears, especially because you didn’t want it to cause harm to your baby. As Yugyeom helped you in to his car and took you home, your thoughts were all over the place. Where did Mark go and was he in the right mind to be driving around? Hearing Yugyeom say that even Jaebum knew it should’ve been Mark made you realize that that’s the reason why he didn’t come. Because he knew it too. Was he starting to regret your baby and regret your whole relationship in general? What surprised you, was that you didn’t care about Jaebum’s feelings in that moment. You knew you didn’t want to hurt him. He was so good to you and treated you like a queen. But you were finally allowing yourself to be selfish. You couldn’t stay in a relationship you weren’t happy in for the sake of a baby. Your baby wouldn’t get all the love and affection they deserved if both parents were miserable.

You wish you could love Jaebum the way he loved you. But from the start, you both knew getting in to this that it was impossible. Jaebum knew that, and after the wedding he was sure his biggest fears would come true. No matter how many times you said you wouldn’t, deep down he knew you were going to leave and he wasn’t going to stop it. You were so deep in to your thoughts that you didn’t realize Yugyeom had parked the car until he lightly tapped your shoulder. Once he helped you get out of the car, he pulled you in to his embrace and placed a gentle kiss on your forehead. “Try and get some rest okay? You’ve had a long day. Congratulations again on having a girl. I’m sorry today ended the way it did, but I’m always here if and when you need me okay?” He brought you up to your apartment and with one more kiss on your cheek, he was gone. As soon as you walked in, you dropped your bag and made a beeline to your room. Normally you would call out for Jaebum to see where he was, but you didn’t care. All you wanted to do was go to sleep. You opened the door to your room and saw your boyfriend lying down on the bed. At first glance, you would’ve thought he was sleeping. But by his posture, you knew he wasn’t.

“Hey.” He released a long sigh before sitting up and looking at you. “Hi. How’d it go?” You made your way to your boyfriend and collapsed in to his arms. As much as you wanted to feel sad that he wasn’t responding to your sudden burst of affection, you couldn’t feel anything. After a few moments, he finally pulled you on to his lap as his hands found purchase on your belly. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there today. We were flooded with work and my manager begged me to come in-“ You shook your head and placed it in the crook of his neck. “It’s okay. We’re having a girl by the way. She’s healthy and growing more and more every day.” He gave you a soft smile and brought his fingers to your cheek. The two of you sat in silence for a while until he finally spoke up. “Go.” You looked at him in confusion. “Huh? What are you talking about Jaebum?” He reached for your fingers and gently played with them. This was something you noticed both Jaebum and Mark did to calm themselves down. You had a feeling you know what he was doing and a part of you didn’t want it to happen. But at the same time, you couldn’t continue leading him on. You knew where your heart lied and it wasn’t with the man whose arms you were in right now. “Go be with Mark. We all know that’s were you want..no..need to be. I don’t know why we continue to pretend that you and I are going to work. I knew of the consequences that came with dating you but I didn’t care. I loved you and I wanted to be with you even if there was a chance you wouldn’t reciprocate my same feelings. I’ve read the messages he sent to you. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been lurking in your phone but I couldn’t help myself. When I came out of the shower, I heard you sniffling and I knew something must’ve happened. That’s why I waited until you fell asleep to see what was wrong.” He started to choke up and you couldn’t help but tear up yourself.

“I want nothing more than to be with you. I love you with my entire being y/n. So that’s why I’m letting you go. You’re not happy with me and I’m sorry it took so long for me to realize it. I know you love me, but it’s not in the way you love him. You can never love me or anyone else in the way that you love Mark. But I don’t regret being with you, nor will I ever regret our beautiful blessing growing inside of you. Our breakup isn’t going to change things. I’m still going to be there for you whenever you need me and I’m always going to be here for our little girl. I’m really excited by the way. It may not seem like it, but I am. Fuck..this is what love is right? Sacrificing your happiness for the sake of the person you love?” You brought your hands up to his cheek and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. “I’m so sorry Jaebum-“ He shook his head and pulled you closer to his body. “Don’t apologize for your feelings and never apologize for being in love with someone. It’s my fault for believing I could be the lucky person who gets to receive your love. It was always Mark and I know he feels the same way about you. Months ago, you said that lovers fall apart. But maybe they need to lose each other and find themselves in order to find each other again. Maybe it was meant for the two of you to reconnect at Jackson’s wedding so  you could both come to terms with the fact that you both are still in love with each other. It was a hard pill to swallow, but I know you and Mark were made for one another. This year has been one of the best years of my life because of you. You mean everything to me y/n. Thank you for carrying our baby in your cute little tummy of yours. I know Mark will take care of our daughter as if she was his own. Please don’t worry about me okay? I’ll be fine. Or..I will be. We can still be friends and we’ll be the best co-parents there are okay? I’ll still take care of you throughout this whole process no matter what happens. I love you y/n.”

You cried in his arms at the thought of leaving someone who was willing to let you go in order to keep you happy. You could only hope and pray Jaebum would find someone who could love him as much as he loved you. He deserved it. “Would it be okay for me to hold you for just a while longer? And do you think you could stay one more night? Mark’s going to have you for the rest of his life, I’m only asking for one more night.” You nodded in agreement and curled up in to him. Jaebum fell asleep not too long after and you took this time to really look at him. Your heart cried for him. He wanted nothing but your happiness, even if it meant at the cost of his own. Why did things have to be so difficult? After placing a few more gentle kisses along his handsome face, you decided you needed some rest too. Although Jaebum was very broad, muscular, very warm, and no matter how much you loved being in his embrace, Mark’s arms were your home and God, you’ve been homesick.

Once Mark stopped crying, he decided to go on a little drive. He didn’t want to go home. Everything would remind him of you and he didn’t need that right now. That’s why he found himself at the bar, doing what he was best at. Getting drunk. He knew you’d be upset with him if you found out where he was, but he didn’t care anymore. He was no longer yours to worry about. After a couple of beers and a few glasses of wine, he found himself calling up Youngjae and letting him know where he was and what he was doing. You woke up at two in the morning to the sound of your phone going off. Jaebum felt you stirring in bed and this automatically woke him up too. “Everything okay? Whose that?” You saw a bunch of text messages and a few missed calls from Yugyeom, Youngjae, and Jinyoung, telling you that Mark was going crazy and that they needed your help. You let out a frustrated sigh and slowly got up. “Here, let’s get you changed and then I’ll drop you off. I’ll also pack you some clothes. You can come and get the rest whenever you want.” He helped you change in to a pair of his sweats and one of his jackets and the two of you made your way to Youngjae’s apartment. Once the two of you pulled up in the guest parking, Jaebum decided that he would go back home. He didn’t want to make things worse by being there. He held you in his arms for a couple of minutes and stole a few more kisses from you before letting you go.

While heading up to Youngjae’s apartment, you saw Yugyeom and Jackson waiting outside and once you came in to view, their worried faces turned in to relieved ones. “He’s going insane and refuses to talk to anyone but you. Please help.” You took in a deep breath and walked in. You weren’t too sure what you were going to walk in to, but you didn’t care. The boys were right, he was freaking out. Even though you had yet to step foot in Youngjae’s apartment, you could hear his cries from the outside. “Jinyouuuuung..bring her back to me..pleaseeeee..I can’t live without her anymore. I miss her so much Jinyoung..I know I fucked up but God..I’d do anything to get her back..I’ll even donate a kidney..come on Jinyoung you need to help meeeee.” Hearing him sound so hopeless made you want the ground to swallow you whole. When Bambam and Youngjae saw you approaching, they had to do a double take. Although they texted you, they didn’t actually expect you to come. Yugyeom told them all about what happened just a few hours ago, so they had hope that things were going to look up for both you and Mark. When you opened the door to Youngjae’s room, tears immediately brimmed at your eyes and it didn’t take long for Mark to notice you. Everything happened so quickly and before you could process the whole situation, his lips were on yours. You didn’t realize how much you missed him and his kisses until he finally connected your lips together. You didn’t care that he was drunk, you too were getting drunk off his kiss alone. The both of you were too busy in your own world that you didn’t realize how wide five of the boys were smiling. Although they all felt bad for Jaebum, everyone knew that you and Mark were meant to be together in the end.

“I’m not dreaming right? You’re here. You’re actually here. I may be drunk but you’re here right? Fuck. I’m so fucking sorry baby you don’t understand-“ You brought your hand up to his lips in attempts to get him to stop talking and brought him towards the bed. “Lie down. I’ll go get you some pain killers and a bottle of water.” Before you could walk away, he gently tugged at your wrist and pulled you on to his lap. “I don’t need any of those things. Who gives a shit about how I’ll feel in the morning. You’re here. That’s all that matters. God y/n, I’ve missed you so much..wait..so does this mean..” You quickly nodded. A part of you wanted to wait until the morning when he was sober to talk with him, but you knew he’d want answers right now, sober or not. “What about Jaebum? I know I asked you to leave him for me but please don’t feel as if you need to. He didn’t do anything wrong to me I don’t want to make things worse between us-“ The only thing you loved about when Mark got drunk, was how cute it was when he would mumble nonsense. He was a very soft and quiet guy and was only talkative to those he was close to. But when Mark had a couple of drinks, he could tell you the history of trees if he really wanted to. You brought your lips to his one more time and softly pushed him back on the bed. “He knows that I’m still so in love with you and he didn’t want to continue our relationship knowing that you’re where my heart resides. Like you said all those years ago Mark, you were made for me and I for you. Soulmates..remember? Now go to sleep. We’ll continue this in the morning when you’re completely sober.”

He nodded in agreement, but not before wrapping his arms tightly around you and pulling you down on the bed with him. “I’m completely sober right now. The fact that you’re in my arms right now sobered me up pretty quickly. Promise me you’ll be here tomorrow morning. I’ll wake up and you’ll still be in my arms right? God y/n, I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve you here with me. But fuck, I missed you so much. God knows how much I’ve missed you. And I love you. I’m so fucking in love with you.” You heard him chuckle and you looked up to see what he was laughing at. “I want to hold you as close to my body as possible, but there’s an obstruction in the way. A very cute one at that. You’re the most adorable pregnant lady there is. I’m sorry for everything that went on earlier and I know how much you hate it when I get drunk. But hey, if I didn’t take all those shots at Jackson’s wedding, we wouldn’t be here right now. I’m sorry for overreacting earlier. It’s just, I’ve pictured being in this situation so many times. We’ve talked about having kids so many times and fuck, it hurt so badly seeing you pregnant with Jaebum’s baby. I don’t know why I was so upset. You were no longer mine to worry about but no matter what happens between us, you’ll always own my heart.”

He brought your hand up to his chest while hiding his face in the crook of your neck. “This only beats for you. It yearns for you. You’re all it knows. It’s broken, and I’m pretty sure you took a huge piece of it with you when we broke up. But I can feel it slowly patching up each and every time fate brings us back together and hopefully one day soon, it will be complete again and I will be able to give you all the love you and your baby deserve. I promise to always be there for you and your little princess and one day soon we’ll be able to give her multiple siblings of her own. I’ve prayed for this moment every single day since you left. I wanted nothing more than to have you in my arms again and I don’t know what I did in my past life to deserve this, but I’m very grateful that you’re here. Will you be mine again? I can’t promise things will be perfect, but I know how it feels like to lose you and I never want to go through heartbreak like that ever again. I’ll do anything you want, be anyone you want me to be, just so I can have you for the rest of my life. You’re all that matters to me and soon, so will the cute little being that’s growing in your tummy. God y/n, I’m so fucking in love with you I can’t even put it in to words. Thank you for coming back to me. You’re mine. Forever.”

Tears were quick to fall from your face and he giggled at the sight. “I’m so sorry Mark. For everything I’ve put you through. If anything, it’s me who doesn’t deserve you. I’ve missed you just as much, if not more and it took every bone in my body not to go to your apartment and ask for you to take me back. Your speech wouldn’t stop haunting me. I didn’t know our breakup had such that effect on you and when I found out I was pregnant, as much as I wanted to be happy, I couldn’t stop thinking about how you’d react. I don’t regret getting pregnant nor do I regret my relationship with Jaebum, but I couldn’t stop thinking about you and how badly I wish I was experiencing all of this with you. I should’ve broke up with Jaebum the minute I realized I still had feelings for you. I thought that with time, I would fall out of love with you and fall in love with him. However, I only fell more and more in love with you as the days went by. I felt like there wasn’t a chance that we’d get back together. So I kept pushing the idea of us becoming a couple again to the back of my mind. No matter how hard I tried, there was just no getting over you. I’ve had an earful from a bunch of people today about how you and I are obviously meant to be together and I think their words made me come to terms with it. Not that I didn’t want to. Even the nurse talked to me and claimed that she could see how much you genuinely cared about me. Once I got home, Jaebum apparently already made his mind up and told me that he was letting me go so that you and I could be together. I almost tried talking him out of breaking up with me for his sake and for the sake of our baby. But I understand where he’s coming from. I have this terrible habit of comparing the two of you and no matter how amazing of a boyfriend Jaebum was, he could never compare to you. He told me that maybe you and I needed this breakup in order for us to realize how much we can’t live without each other. I don’t know where your feelings lie anymore, but I do know that you’re the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I’ve known that from the beginning actually and I’m sorry it took me so long to realize it. But I’m not going anywhere anymore. Wherever you are is where I want to be. I love you.”

A smile grew on to his face and before you could kiss him, five bodies were filling up Youngjae’s room. “Sorry to interrupt the happy reunion, but we just wanted to make sure everything is okay so that we can all go to sleep. By the way, we already got noise complaints for all the screaming, crying and throwing of objects so please, no more loud noises. We’re all going to be sleeping right outside so if you’re going to have kinky makeup sex, I suggest you-“ Your eyes widened and you embarrassedly hid your face in Mark’s chest but threw a pillow at BamBam while doing so. Yugyeom couldn’t stop grinning at the sight of how tightly Mark was holding you. It’s as if he was afraid of losing you again if he were to loosen his grip on you just a little. He came over and pulled the two of you in to a hug. “I’m happy for the both of you. Do us all a favor and never break up again. Please? I was almost evicted three times because of this big baby. Mark, hurry up and give her the ring already-“ You looked at Yugyeom in curiosity and turned around to face Mark, only to be greeted by a scowl. It looks could kill, Yugyeom would be dead right now. “I’m going to take that as my cue to leave. Goodnight you two. Sweet dreams y/n! If you need me I’ll be on the next plane to Greece GOODBYE!” Before your boyfriend could get up and chase after him for spoiling the surprise, you tugged at his shirt and gave him a knowing look. “I’m very tired baby, like you said, we’ll talk about this in the morning.” You pouted and playfully begged him to tell you all about it and because you were his biggest weakness, he let it all out. There was no point in hiding anything from you anyways.

Now that the two of you were back together again, he was going to propose to you sometime soon so might as well he’d go in to detail about it. “I purchased the ring only a few months after we started dating. From the start, I knew you were the person I wanted to settle down and start a family with. On our first date, you showed me how kind and compassionate you were when you helped that elderly lady carry her groceries to her car. And on our fifth date, when that cute little girl dropped her ice cream cone, you didn’t hesitate to go and buy her a new one. Then as the weeks went to months and we started learning more and more about each other, I couldn’t help but fall in love with you. It was the little things. The way you’d call me to see if I got home safely after dropping you to your place. The way you memorized my coffee order and never failed to bring me coffee when you knew I was working late. The way you would come over to my apartment just to iron my clothes and prepare my lunch for the week. I missed you even when I was with you and that’s when I knew you were going to be someone special to me. The first time I brought you to meet my family, my mom pulled me to the side and she wouldn’t stop raving about how beautiful and charming you are and it was in that moment, when I saw you playing around with my nieces that I knew I was going to marry you one day. I went with the guys to purchase the ring, it’s that one you’d always talk about being your “dream wedding ring” so I worked extra hours and saved up as much as I could in order to purchase it. Unfortunately it’s back at my place, and I was actually debating on pawning it because staring at it only made me hate myself for not giving it to you sooner. I hope you like it. I don’t know if you remember, I had Youngjae take you shopping to see what your ring size is but I think he must’ve been too busy looking at jewelry for himself that he got the wrong size. We can always resize it if it doesn’t fit. I’m pissed that Yugyeom had to go and open his big mouth, especially after all that I do for him. But yes, I plan on proposing to you and I’ll make sure to do it soon. I can’t wait to finally get to marry you. I just hope Jackson doesn’t try to screw up our wedding because I fucked up his. If I’m being honest with you, I’m so glad I screwed up at his wedding. It brought me back to you. Mmm, let’s go to bed baby. I’ll finally be able to get some sleep tonight. Don’t hesitate to wake me up if you need anything okay?” He left soft kisses along your face and gently rubbed on your belly. “I can’t wait to meet her. I’m going to spoil her and give her everything she wants and deserves.” He brushed away some of the hair that was falling on your face and booped your nose. “Words can not explain how much I love you y/n but I’ll spend the rest of my life proving it to you with my actions. I can’t wait to start a family with you. This is only the beginning baby.”

[jungshookz]

drabble where jimin is very clingy and friendly and y/n is really quiet and grouchy but warms up to jimin? oof pls or not its all cool ily and ur work sm

→ pairing: park jimin x reader

→ genre: nonidol!au, college!au, jimin is bending over baCKWArds for u, brownies are the solution to every problem  

→ wordcount: 3k

→ note: thank u thank u!!!! i whipped this baby out in two hours because i got excited at the thought of grouchy y/n so if it’s a little choppy i apologize and ALSO i’m literally never getting over this gif of jimin 

(gif isn’t mine!)

jimin didn’t think it was possible for someone to be moRe quiet and grouchy than yoongi

but here you are

y/n y/l/n

physical proof that it is indeed possible for someone to be more quiet and grouchy than yoongi

it really is no wonder as to why you and yoongi get along so well (he’ll never admit that he’s a lil bit jealous of that fact)

the only difference between u and yoongi is that yoongi actually likes him

and

uh

he’s pretty sure you hate him which isn’t great

because jimin likes to be liked!!!!!!!! in fact he loVEs to be liked!!!!!! in fact HE WOULD KILL TO BE LIKED

teehee!

he’s most definitely a people person

you are not a people person

you don’t give a rat’s ass if someone doesn’t like you

that’s one less person to deal with biTch

you kinda just float around and do your own thing

you’re the complete opposite of jimin and usuaLLY he likes to stay away from people like you (no offence) ((and also yoongi is an exception))

..,.,so he can’t quite seem to figure out why he’s developed a teeny weeny little crush on you

“good morning, friends!” jimin chirps and plops down on the ground next to jungkook

you tilt your head up to roLL your eyes and resist the urge to get up and leave

“already?” yoongi snorts nudges your side with his elbow and you shrug in response before leaning back against your palms and crossing one ankle over the other

it’s not like you don’t like the guy

it’s just that you don’t like the guy

you don’t know what it is about him

maybe he’s too chipper for you

yeah

he talks too much

you fully support the notion that if there is a moment of silence it doesn’t always have to be filled up with bLabbing

silence is good

also he’s a try-hard

he seems to have a thing where he just neeDs evERyone to fall in love with him (which sounds exhausting to u)

evEryone who bumps into jimin immediately falls in love with him and you honestly?? don’t understand it

what’s so great about the guy?????

also his giggling is irritating and he does so much of it

not everything is funny

but to be fair you’re a pretty tough nut to crack

the last time you actually laughed was when jungkook tripped going up the stairs and his smoothie flew like ten feet up into the air and proceeded to splatter all over him ((you told him not to tell anyone this otherwise u would kick his ass but u ended up giving him your smoothie and u helped clean him up))

what else do you not like about jimin

the almost twinkly sound of his giggle 

how helpful and kind and caring and thoughtful and generous he is to everyone 

his pouty pillowy lips

his obviously dyed head of dirty blonde hair that always happens to be perfectly tousled and always looks so soft and silky and you would love to run your fingers through-

“y/n, you got any plans for the weekend?” jimin smiles brightly at you as he pulls his lunch out

you stare right back at him before raising an eyebrow and cocking your head to the side as if to say ‘do i fuckin look like i wanna tell u all about my weekend plans u nosy leech’

you shrug

jimin waits patiently for a response

and then it hits him that that was your response

taehyung clears his throat

“well if anyone wants to know about my weekend i’m going to go to this super cool flea market-“

“what do you have for lunch today, y/n? i-i have a sandwich! a turkey sandwich. do you like turkey sandwiches?” jimin tries again and taehyung lets out a quiet sigh before looking at the others like hEre we go again

“what’s not to like about a thin piece of meat in between two slices of white bread?” you respond cooly as you pluck at the grass

jimin buRsts into laughter before pointing a finger gun at you “good one! that was a good one!!”

jungkook winces and looks around to make sure no one else is observing this awkward exchange because yiKEs

“.,,.i don’t get the joke.” hoseok mumbles

jin shakes his head disappointedly “was that even a joke?? what was the punchline??”

namjoon presses his lips together before giving both jin and hobi a pat on the shoulder “.,.,.don’t worry bout it”

everyone knows about jimin’s crush on you

it’s not just limited to people in the group of course

everyone with working eyes knows about jimin’s crush on you

taehyung has tried many mAny times to tell jimin to just move on because it’s clear the romantic feelings aren’t being reciprocated and every time jimin opens his mouth to speak your eyes roll to the back of your head

you’re very nice once you warm up to someone and luckily taehyung has experienced that but he’s not sure if jimin is going to get the Nice Y/N package any time soon

he just doesn’t want jimin to get his heart broken that’s all 

“i don’t get it. what am i doing wrong??” jimin groans loudly and taehyung huffs because it’s obvious they’re not going to get through this movie tonight

he lowers the volume on the television before turning to glance at the other boy (who is currently screaming into a pillow) ((which is very hard to ignore)) 

“i’m telling you, bro - just give up. give uP!!!!!” taehyung snatches the pillow from jimin

jimin immediately pushes his bottom lip out in a pout “but-“

“she doesn’t like you. she doesn’t liKE YOU”

“you don’t know that!!!!!!”

“jimin, come on! we’ve had this conversation like a hundred times and each time you say you’re going to get over her and then the next day you pull a ‘heY y/N do u like turkey SandWiches’ stunT and i swear you fall even more in love when she flicks hair over her shoulder and glares at you in response-“

“what the heLL are you two talking about so loudly?” tae and jimin both turn when yoongi makes his way down the stairs

he lets out a yawn before stretching his arms out “i’m taking a nap and it would be greatly appreciated if you’d just-“

“hyung, get over here and help me make jimin realise that y/n doesn’t like him!” taehyung whines

yoongi furrows his brows

“…why would i help you with that?”

tae gawks at him

“wha- why noT-“

“because y/n likes him. a lot.” yoongi states as if it’s the most obvious thing in the entire world

wait

what

jimin squAwks

“SHE WHAT-“

yoongi immediately winces

maybe it was a bad idea to tell him that

“wait wait wAIT how do you know- like, did she tell you that she liked m- should i text her?? call her?????” jimin fumbles around for his phone and taehyung snatches it from him before he can do anything

“calm down, romeo.” yoongi snorts before taking a seat on the sofa chair and grabbing the remote  

“oh my god- he’s obviously fucking around with you, you dumbass.” taehyung scowls before glaring at yoongi “thanks a lot-“

“no, i’m serious!” yoongi raises his hands in defence “just don’t talk to her on monday and see what happens.”

“if i don’t talk to her then how will i-” jimin huffs and crosses his arms “whatever, tae’s right, you’re just fucking around with me-“

“no, i’m serious!!!!!” yoongi scoffs “don’t talk to her. see what happens.”

“don’t tell me you’re actually falling for this bullshit.” taehyung deadpans

he can see the gears click-click-clicking away in jimin’s little blonde head

jimin shifts in his spot and clears his throat “.,.it wouldn’t hurt to give it a try”

taehyung resists the urge to beat boTh jimin and yoongi to death with the throw pillow

monday rolls around pretty quickly

jimin is ready to taCKle the new week

but he’s also ready to tackle the new challenge of not talking to you and pretending as if you don’t exist

“good morning, everyone!” jimin greets brightly “how was your weekend…”

tae winces

o god

he’s already failed

“namjoon?”

oh

huh

okay

smooth sailings so far

you look up from your phone immediately

your brows knit together in confusion

it’s not that you care or anything but like

usually you’re the first person he talks to after he sits down

hm

whatever

it’s whatever

it’s not like you would’ve given him a good response anyway

“uh, it was alright! i didn’t do that much… how was your-“

“it was good! tae and i watched the new avengers movie which was super exciting!!” jimin pulls out his lunch and you spoT the familiar turkey sandwich

“oh hey!!! i watched that last week!! did you guys like it????”

you’re not really paying attention to the conversation between the guys 

ah

he threw in some lettuce and tomatoes today!

and you see some mustard peeking out

you clear your throat quietly and sit up a little straighter as if expecting jimin to ask whether you like lettuce and tomatoes and spicy mustard in your sandwiches to whiCH you will respond ‘what’s not to like about lettuce and tomatoes and spicy mustard in my sandwiches?’ and he will respond with his usual HAHAHAHA GOOD ONE Y/N

jimin takes a bite of his sandwich and turns to listen to namjoon rambling about the avengers while jin whines and begs him to noT spoil the whole damn thing for him

jimin takes another biG bite and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand

his cheeks resemble that of a chipmunk

it’s cute

wait what

no it’s not

it’s gross

yeaH it’s grOSS

“ooh, you know what else i did over the weekend? i made brownies!” jimin perks up before turning to rummage through his bag

okAY NOW he’s definitely going to talk to you because he knows you like brownies (he’s brought everyone brownies on several occasions and you’ve always accepted them with a grunt and a barely audible ‘thanks’) and you know for a fact he’s going to offer them to you fiRST >:-)

and you can’t wait because ur favourite piece is the middle piece and u and yoongi always fight over it (obviously u always get it because jimin undoubtedly plays favourites)

“yep! fresH, homemade brownies for everyone!” jimin tosses the brownies at everyone around the circle and your toes wiggle in your shoes in anTicipation

you’ve been craving something sweet all day

“ooh, sweEt i got the middle piece.” yoongi mutters under his breath and your head snaps to look at the brownie piece he just caught

wait a sec-

WAIT A SECOND

:(

okay maybe there’s another middle piece for you

you wait patiently and even find yourself offering a meek little smile in jimin’s general direction (which he deFINitely noticed and will shamelessly admit that it made his heart skip a beat)

and then jimin just-

he zips up his backpack

but

where’s your piece???  

you look around the circle and frown when you see everyone enjoying their brownies

“good brownie, jimin!” tae haMS it up after taking a bite

jungkook practically shoves the entire thing into his mouth like a maniac

meanwhile yoongi shoots jimin a subtle thumbs up before gesturing over to you

jimin’s eyes flicker over to you and you two lock gazes for a second before you’re flushing and looking down at the ground

you proceed to pluCK at the grass a little more aggressively than usual and jimin nEARLY coos when he notices your little pout

hook

line

and

sinker

but also he feels kind of bad because his intention wasn’t to make u sad

:((((

“see you guys later!”

“uGh i’m going to late for my history lecture - bye guys!!”

“thanks for the brownies, jimin!”

usually you just sliP away quietly when the end of lunch rolls around but uh

you can’t help but feel like there’s a tiny issue here

“see ya later, loserrrr” yoongi gives your arm a little punch and you scowl before swatting at his hand

and then there were two

you turn to glance over your shoulder to see jimin packing his lunch bag up quietly

a part of you wants to just pretend this lunch didn’t even happen and just spRInt off the field as quickly as possible

and the other part of you-

“hey.”

“oh. hey!” jimin smiles politely and swings his backpack over his shoulder before pointing behind you “my next class is in the maple building so i- woAH”

needless to say jimin is very much surprised when you grab his wrist and yank him over so that that the two of you are standing directly under the oak tree

“how come i-“ you clear your throat before diverting your gaze to the ground

hUH

usually jimin is the one diverting his gaze

interESting

“-ʰᵒʷ ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᶦ ᵈᶦᵈⁿ’ᵗ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵃ ᵇʳᵒʷⁿᶦᵉ ᵗᵒᵈᵃʸ”

“how come you didn’t get a brownie today?” jimin repeats “is that it? you just wanted a brownie?”

“well i- i don’t…“

“look, y/n, i actually have a class to get to, so if the brownie is all you’re wanting, i can just bake a new batch tonight and bring you one tomorrow.”

the apples of your cheeks go bright pink

“it’s not just the brownies…”

“then what is it?”

goD

you hate this

your brows knit together in frustration before you look up at jimin with a little glare

“today, you didn’t… talk to me….  at all, and you didn’t…. ask me about my weekend,” you stumble a little over your words because this is a verY unfamiliar situation and you honestly don’t know what you want out of your soon-to-be ramble is but pOp off i guess “-a-and today you had tomatoes and lettuce and mustard in your sandwich and you didn’t ask me if i liked tomatoes and lettuce and mustard in my sandwiches because i would’ve replied with ‘what’s not to like about tomatoes and lettuce and mustard in my sandwiches?’ and then you would do your usual stupid dorky finger gun thing-“

you can’t seem to stop the straight up word vomit just floWing out of your mouth and you haven’t even noticed that you’ve taken a teeny step closer to jimin and he has done exaCtly the same

“and you always give mE a brownie first when you bring ‘em but i-i didn’t get one and not to mention you gave yoongi the middle piece but you already know that the middle piece is mY favourite- mMpH-!”

your brain immediately shuts down when jimin tugs you in and leans down to plant his lips against yours

and as cheesy as it is

time stands still

it almost feels like your soul floated out of your body

like you’re floating in space

oh

this is.,., nice

his lips are awfully soft

and he smells good too

,.,.wait a second

jimin’s kissing you

you’re kissing jimin

YOU GUYS ARE KISSING

you don’t get a chaNce to react before jimin pulls away

he giggles softly when you chase after his lips but soon enough you snap out of your little daze and stumble backwards a little

whAT FHE TUCK

what is going on

what the heCK is going on

“you- i- we-“ you stammer and blink wiLdly at jimin

“we?” jimin tilts his head and smiles innocently “oh, by the way-“ he takes his backpack off one shoulder and digs through it

he holds out a neatly wrapped square “of course i brought a brownie for you. this batch was extra big so there were two middle pieces.”

you take it from him cautiously before unwrapping it

yep

that’s a middle piece alright

the corner of your mouth twitches in a tiny smile before you let out a huff and whiP around to start trudging down the grassy hill

jimin’s shoulders droop in disappointment

shit

maybe yoongi did set him up

oh god

and he kissed you too

that was wAY too bold of a move

now you’re definitely never going to talk to him again 

FRicK

but it wasn’t his fault!!!!!! he thought that-

“oi! you coming?” jimin’s eyes widen when he sees you standing at the bottom of the hill with a hand on your hip “i’m not getting any younger here!!” you turn around and continue the trek off the field

jimin grins widely and pulls his backpack back on

he catches up to you in no time and his heart soArs when you clutch his hand in yours

“does this mean you’ll finally answer me when i ask you how your weekend was?”

“absolutely not.”  

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[thesevenumbrellas]

everytime you say anything abt a pride & prejudice au my mind just fyckin stops pls tell me more

A follow up from this post here.

Heck yeah I love Pride and Prejudice! Let’s do this.

·        Reggie Hargreeves is the overbearing parent who just wants to marry off his kids before he dies, because all their wealth is set to go to a cousin no one likes.

·        Grace just wants peace in her house. Please let there be peace.

·        What’s that? Delores Pennycrumb (comic book readers let’s hear some noise!) and her close, personal friend Mr. Dave Katz have moved into that empty estate?

·        Oh? And the Hargreeves have been invited to… what’s that? A ball! At the estate? Wow! The drama!

·        Five Hargreeves is the oldest child. He still gets mistaken for being thirteen sometimes though, which his siblings all tease him mercilessly for. What? It’s not his fault he’s short!

·        Five immediately gets *a crush* on Delores. She is the loveliest and most beautiful woman he has ever met.

·        But Klaus Hargreeves, second oldest child, finds the very rich and very handsome Dave Katz to be the rudest and most socially awkward person he has ever met. Enemies for life!

·        Five goes to visit Delores after the ball but of course Hargreeves would not lend him the coach and so he gets a cold. And must stay at their estate. Oh noooooo…..

·        And of course, Klaus is like well I’m gonna come visit you! Come on Ben let’s go.

·        Ben’s there obviously. Poor aro ace Ben.

·        When Klaus and Ben arrive they find Five in poor health, but recovering.

·        Delores is happy to have them, but her sister Cha-Cha is like ‘I hate you because I wanted Dave to myself.’

                  (Spoiler alert! Dave is hella gay.)

·        So anyway, here comes the cousin no one likes. Let’s call him Hazel.

·        He’s adorable and nice but for the sake of the plot no one wants to marry him because he also tells really weird stories about maybe his secret time as a spy or torturer or something? Dude are you even allowed to be telling us about how you had to carry around a secret suitcase for so long you hurt your wrist?

·        Anyway, next up is Leonard Peabody because unfortunately we can’t keep him out of this story.

·        Leonard at first flirts with Klaus (I know, please bear with) and tells him that Dave is actually a big butthead who stopped him from becoming a clergyman which he really wanted to from childhood or something because we need to stick with some certain themes here, don’t we?

·        Klaus is like “Dave is the worst confirmed.” Enemies for life!

·        Let’s go to another ball! And this time Dave and Klaus dance! And flirt! Frenemies for life??

·        But then things get real bad.

·        Back to Hazel. At first, he’s like “I’ll marry Five.” But Five is like I’ll kill you. So, then he’s like “Klaus?” and Klaus is like “hahahaha… oooohhh you’re serious? Nah you’re good.”

·        Don’t’ worry he falls in love with the donut shop owner I mean their neighbor Agnes. They leave this story to go on a road trip. They live their best lives together.

·        Oh don’t worry there’s still angst because then Delores and Dave are like “actually we’re moving away! Later!”

·        Five is like what did I do wrong! I am heartbroken!

·        So, Klaus and Ben go to stay with NOT their aunt but actually their brother DIEGO and his wife EUDORA because someone has to be happy right? Anyway he runs into Dave’s cousin… idk… Pogo? And Pogo is like yeah Dave saved his friend Delores from a bad match. How good of him!

·        And Klaus is like THAT IS MY BROTHER YOU BITCH?! HOLD ME BACK BEN!

·        Ben is just here like someone end me please. Just kill me. It’d be less painful.

·        Let’s add more drama because then DAVE PROPOSES TO KLAUS!

·        And Klaus is like “no because you’re a dick because you were mean to Leonard and also you were mean to my brother and also you’re a butthead.” Enemies. For. Life!

·        And Dave is like BUT WAIT here’s a letter explaining these things I’m so sorry I’ll never bother you again goodbye.

·        So apparently Leonard is the butthead! Who Knew! AND he thought Five didn’t love Delores. Because Five doesn’t show emotions. Which is like… yeah that’s fair… So… Not??? Enemies??? For??? Life???

·        MONTHS LATER when Klaus and Ben, with their fav brother Diego and their fav sister-in-law Eudora go to visit Dave’s estate DAVE IS THERE! OH MY GOD WHAT AN UNEXPECTED TURN OF EVENTS!

·        And Dave’s like “sup.” And is super nice to them????

·        Diego’s like “bro why’d you let that one go? He wants to go knife throwing I mean fishing with me??”

·        And Klaus is ABOUT to say “alright I’ll marry you lol stop asking already.”

·        When he hears word that Vanya has done something very stupid and run off with Leonard.

·        Oh Leonard you scoundrel! Can’t Vanya find peace in this AU?

·        No.

·        Klaus and Ben return to their home, and wait for Leonard to agree to marry Vanya.

·        He does!

·        When Vanya comes home she was like “oh Dave was at my wedding.” And apparently Dave fixed the whole thing for them? And apparently Dave is an amazing person? Who would’ve thought??

·        So in the end of course Dave and Klaus get married. And Five and Delores.

·        Ben gets to live peacefully, living his best ace aro life. Except at that time they just called them “England’s most eligible bachelors” and such so… yeah…

·        Luther and Allison were there the whole time don’t worry! They DO NOT get married to each other. Allison meets a handsome and rich actor who she marries. And Luther idk marries someone cool? He can marry Cha-Cha how’s that? Sorry Luther your whole space thing doesn’t really work here…

·        Leonard mysteriously dies one day, and Vanya goes on to become a famous violinist.

·        No one can prove anything.

·        Reginald also dies because of his “nerves” or something idk and Grace lives for a very long time living her best life.

·        The end.

[bennyboyjones]

The Getaway (Ben Hardy Fanfic) Chapter Four

A/N: Hi! So, here is chapter 4 to my Ben Hardy AU Fanfic! There are currently several chapters written, which you can find on Wattpad, but I’ve decided to also upload it here as well. It might be a bit behind, but you’ll still get all the chaps eventually.

What it is: basically, a girl from a small town who is bored of her life decides to take a trip to Nice where she runs into ben, who is also running away from some shit and some romance ensues.

Word count: 3.7k

in this chapter: hahahaha just read it pls

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day four

We were taking a walk up to Jardin des Arènes de Cimiez which was a gorgeous garden with ruins and was where the Cimiez Monastery was located. Ben let me decide what we were doing today after I shot down his idea of café hopping which I was sure he had suggested just to make fun of me.

It was going to be a relatively long walk up to the garden but I didn’t mind since it was a really nice day. We were planning to meet at Brassiere L’Olympia, which was where the place he was renting out was located (well, the place he was staying was above it) at around one in the afternoon.

I had woken up early so I could finally take a trip to the grocery store, had a breakfast that consisted of two coffees and two croissants, and went through at least four outfits before landing on one that was comfortable enough to survive the forty-five minute uphill walk and cute enough that it would make a better impression on Ben than what I had worn the night before. My dress was short, hitting an inch or two above my mid-thigh, it was a-line, only leaving a bit of wiggle room between my lower body and the fabric and had a small ruffle running around the bottom edge. It was white with lemons and green leaves and the top was tight, a small ruffle running at the neckline which showed a little bit of my (almost non-existent) cleavage and the straps were thick, tying into bows on my shoulders. It was sweet, but still a little sexy and matched well with white sneakers. I styled my hair into soft curls even though I knew I was going to end up putting it up at some point and kept my makeup as simple as I did on my first night: a red lip and a little mascara.

I had about an hour until I had to meet him and was a bit surprised he never called or texted to confirm.

Last night, before we parted ways, he personally entered his number into my phone and sent himself a text just to make sure that it worked. We had talked about our plans for today for almost thirty minutes last night, planning the day down to every detail, but I still felt uneasy about the fact that I hadn’t heard from him yet this morning. I knew that just because he didn’t text me or call me to make sure we were still on didn’t mean that we weren’t, because I hadn’t reached out to him either and I was pretty sure of our plans. Still, to settle the nervousness in my stomach, I picked up my phone and shot him a text letting him know I would be heading there soon. If he wanted to cancel, this was his chance.

I was completely lost in the excitement of something new. I called my mom last night, after getting back from the date to tell her about everything. All she did was laugh at me and tell me that I was way too deep into something that had only just begun. I knew she was right, but I didn’t stop myself from concocting romantic scenarios in my head last night about all the things that could happen today. This was my problem: I fell extremely easily. It took almost nothing for me to be completely enchanted by someone. I found myself crushing on guys I passed by once on the street, on guys who simply dressed nice, or wore chains (this really got me). But something about Ben felt different, like it was more than just a crush or infatuation. It felt as if it could really turn into something despite our inevitable doom in the form of my trip being over. When I said this to my mom, she laughed harder, “The amount of times I've heard this same speech while you were abroad…Don’t take my laughter wrong,” she said when she heard my annoyed sigh on the other end, “I’m happy for you, I really am—just slightly worried too.”

I had also texted my friends about him and they were requesting daily updates which I was more than happy to supply. I was in the middle of texting Annie back when I looked at the time and realized that I had to leave in the next five minutes if I wanted to be on time. I also realized that Ben never responded.

I went anyway and waited for him a lot longer than I should’ve. At the point where he was thirty minutes late, I decided to go without him, refusing to let being stood up spoil my day.

I really couldn’t wrap my mind around it; why go through all of that yesterday to stand me up? It didn’t make any sense and I knew that there had to be a good reason. If he genuinely didn’t want to see me or wasn’t interested he could’ve made it so much easier for himself; he didn’t have to speak up when he saw me in the cafe, he didn’t have to sit down or ask me to dinner, he didn’t have to ask me to get a drink, or call it a date, or demand to see me today. The only reasoning that made sense was that something had actually come up, but he could’ve given me a call, or answered my text to at least let me know that he couldn’t make it.

The walk up to the garden was taxing, it had only been fifteen minutes and I felt my breath getting short and my calves start to burn. I had my headphones in, the lady from Google Maps interrupting the voice of Matty Healy every few minutes to tell me where to turn.

I loved the style of the buildings and their colors, I loved the little patches of green and flowers in between car lanes and that heavily trafficked bridge I needed to cross had a footpath. I was about halfway there when my phone ‘dinged’ with a text.

*text pic*

I swiped back to the maps and locked my phone ignoring it, trying to focus on the landmarks I could use to find my way back without Google so I wasn’t costing myself an insane amount in data charges.

It was nice that he was sorry and I knew that I should be nice because he probably did have a good reason, but I was still mad and slightly hurt. Also, he just noticed the time? It was almost two p.m, what was he doing that an entire hour slipped by?

I took a deep breath when I got another notification.

*rest of text pic*

I told myself I wouldn’t go to dinner, that I wouldn’t give in without any kind of fight, but I knew myself better than that. I knew at some point today I would ending listening to his apology and explanation.

I let out a big sigh of relief when I saw the sign for the garden; I was sweating and out of breath and having to face the fact that I was severely out of shape. There were a good amount of people milling around the park that was just on the outside of the garden. There was a family playing some game with large ceramic balls, a few older men playing chess, and a few kids running around while their parents spoke to each other a few feet away.

The garden was filled with ruins, large white buildings falling apart and short walls of stone that may have at one time been tall, creating a grid-like maze over the field of grass. Arches were crumbling and I carefully made my way under them, easily getting lost in the field of stone. There was moss growing between bricks, some sprouting small flower-like weeds. I took pictures to send to my mom and then a few on the disposable, knowing how fairytale-like the garden would look on film, because it was fairytale-like. I could see it in a movie, or as an illustration in a story book. I found myself taking careful steps, afraid of disturbing the peace that seemed to belong there. It was quiet and I was the only one there, wandering around, running my hand along something ancient and beautiful.

I found a set of cement steps that seemed relatively new in comparison to the other paths I had walked and followed them up. There were a lot of steps, which took me further uphill. At the end, there was a large gate made of metal and stone which opened to the monastery. It was the color of copper but lighter, and looked so gothic with its arched windows and sharp spires. The architecture was beautiful, with stone laced over stone, ornate designs covering the entire outside. I moved past it and into its garden which was in full bloom.

I walked under arches covered in green, rows of blue, pink, red, and yellow flowers, bright under the sun and dancing with the breeze that came from our height. I strolled under latticed bowers and thought of Coleridge and his Lime Tree and took a deep breath, trying to make myself relax. I felt a well of emotion inside of me—it was all so beautiful and peaceful. I could hear the wind rustling leaves and whistling as it went through arch ways.

When I finally reached the ledge, I felt my breath get caught in my chest. It was the most amazing thing I had ever seen: all of Nice, laid out in front of me like a picture that needed painting. I sat on one of the benches that faced the view and took all of it in. I could see the mountains and the beach, the multicolored buildings filling the space between. I saw trees and patches of parks and gardens. I saw churches and cars the size of my hand.

And I started to cry. I had seen this view before and it had moved me in a way that I couldn’t explain, just as it had done now. There was something in that, being alone, on that hill, seeing everything in the quiet. There was something humbling about being there and seeing everything, having the view of a god.

I closed my eyes and let the breeze brush over my face and wished I could stay there forever. I never wanted that moment to end. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to get that feeling back, but I was reliving it as if it were the first time. It was in moments like that I stopped worrying about the shit that brought me there in the first place and just felt immense gratitude. I felt it weigh heavy on my chest, reminding me how lucky I was to be there, how lucky I was that I got to experience that level of beauty.

I felt someone sit at the other end of the bench causing it to tilt with the welcome of their weight. I opened my eyes and tried to sneakily wipe my tears away so whoever it was didn’t think I was crazy. I didn’t look at them, keeping my eyes trained on the view in front of me.

“I’m sorry I stood you up.”

I looked over at the sound of his voice and saw Ben sitting at the end of the bench. I wasn’t very surprised, since he seemed to have a habit of showing up in places I didn’t expect him to. I didn’t say anything, but stared at him.

“I really wanted to do this with you today. Really, I did—I guess I still kind of am.” He tried out a light laugh but stopped once he saw that I didn’t react. He moved closer to me so we were only a few inches apart. “Seriously, I wanted to be here. I wanted to see it all with you, I did. I just…” He trailed off. When I still didn’t say anything and turned my attention back to the view, he rested one arm on the bench behind me and ran his other hand over his face.

I knew I was being cold and a huge part of me wanted to lean into his side, let him wrap his arm around me and accept his apology without any explanation. That part of me didn’t understand what the big deal was if I was so sure this would only be a fling, if none of this really mattered in the long run. But the part of me that was winning wouldn’t give it up that easy. I didn’t like being stood up and if I just let it slide without putting up a fight at all, what would stop it from happening again?

“I got a call from an ex…fiancé.”

I turned to him, “You were engaged?

“For a really short time, like three months and it ended almost a whole year ago. Calling it off was kind of the start of the reevaluation of my entire life.”

“You called it off?”

“Yeah…I didn’t even want to get married.” He laughed lightly.

I turned my entire body towards him, completely interested in this story, “So why get engaged?”

“We had been dating for two and a half years and I was twenty-six, it just seemed like what I was supposed to do—I don’t even think I was really in it anymore, you know? Like, I wasn’t there because I even wanted to be, but because it was easy.” He shrugged, “I know that sounds awful.”

It was my turn to laugh, “Oh, trust me, I know.” I took a breath, “I’ve been on and off with the same guy for years and I’ve come to realize that it’s been out of comfort and not so much love.”

He furrowed his brow, “So, right now, are you on or off?”

“Definitely off. I broke it off for real before I came here.”

“Oh, so I’m your rebound?”

I hit him lightly in the chest, “You’re not a rebound—well…” I joked.

He lifted his hand off the bench and twirled my hair around the ends of his fingers, “If I am, I’m okay with it.”

We were walking around the garden when I realized I was missing a huge chunk of the story, “Wait, you never told me why she called.”

“Who?” He looked confused before realization dawned on his face, “Oh! Well, obviously, we shared a flat while we were together and she stayed when we broke it off. My name isn’t on the lease anymore, but she still calls me whenever something is wrong as an excuse to talk.”

“Ah, she’s still not over you.”

“She was the one who wanted to get married, who was still in love and…I really hurt her, so I always take the call. She called because my mum told her I was here and was upset that I didn’t let her know about my trip.”

I nodded in understanding.

“It wasn’t a fun conversation to have. Then I called my mum and I lost track of time talking to her. I’m really sorry. I know I’ve said it about seven hundred times, but I’m not going to stop.”

I nudged him with my shoulder and told him he was forgiven.

“So your guy,” he offered his arm to me and I linked mine through, “what exactly am I up against?”

“Not much,” I admitted. “His name is Liam and I met him at school. He’s a business major, never really understood the writing thing, he’s good looking but,” I looked over at Ben; looked at eyes, how blond his lashes were, the way his Adams apple bobbed when he swallowed, the soft sunburn coloring his light skin, the way he pulled his bottom lip between his teeth, “he doesn’t look like you.”

He stopped walking, unlinked our arms and pulled me into a hug, “My ego just sky rocketed!”

“I didn’t know it could go any higher than it already has!” I laughed into his chest—which was broad, and hard, and the feeling of his arms around me left me burning. He pulled away, pretending to look insulted. “What?!”

“Wha-“ he started but I cut him off.

“C’mon, Ben! You have enough confidence for the entire continent of Europe. That night in the restaurant? Drinking out of my cup at the cafe? Showing up here?”

“But it’s sexy right?” He raised his eyebrows and tried to hold in his laugh. I pushed him away and kept walking but not before giving him a dramatic eye roll.

When he caught up to me, it was my turn to ask. “What about me? What’s my competition?”

“Pfft…” he looked at me as if I had to be kidding, “Are you serious?”

“Yes, I want to know!”

“Babe, there is no competition.”

“I hope that means I win.”

“It means you’re fittest girl I’ve ever seen.”

I shrugged and forced myself to act nonchalant, “I’ll take it.”

We walked around the garden a few more times, taking pictures of the view, the flowers, and each other. When I asked him if he was ready to go, he held up his phone, “Not until we get one of us.”

“Us?”

“Yeah, us. I just told you my entire life story, I think that makes us close enough to take a picture together.” I couldn’t argue with a good point. We stood at the edge in front of the view and he held up his phone, snapping several pictures before I was ready. After I complained and demanded retakes, we took ones smiling, making funny faces and a few of him with his arm around me kissing my cheek.

On our way back down, he asked if I wanted to have another picnic on the beach, to make up for last night.

“Make up for it? I don’t need a do-over, I thought it was amazing.”

“Josie, we sat on a bin bag!” He spoke slowly as if I wasn’t understanding his reasoning.

“I know, but it was still really sweet.”

“C’mon, please? I found a perfect spot on my way here. It’ll be great, I swear!”

“Fiiiiine.” I gave in, because it was still gorgeous out and I wasn’t going to pass up the opportunity to be alone with him. “But,” I started, “I need to go back and change first. I definitely smell and look all melted.”

“I think you look beautiful.” He said before throwing his arm back around me as we made it out of the garden and onto the sidewalk. I rolled my eyes. “Fine,” he said, “but I’m coming with you.”

Despite my half-baked protests the whole walk back about him coming back to the AirBnB, he ended up inside, sprawled out on the bed while I was trying to pick out an outfit. I already knew what I wanted to wear but was trying to stall having to get in the shower with him there. It was a studio, meaning there was no where for me to really hide and although I trusted that he wouldn’t try anything, since he swore it over and over again on the way down and since he still hadn’t tried to kiss me, I was still a little nervous.

I turned to him and held the apartment key out, “Why don’t you go and get the supplies while I get ready. I’ll send you the key code for downstairs.”

He smiled knowingly, “Sure, love. I’ll be back in a bit.” He rose from the bed and left quietly.

I let out a nervous breath, feeling so much more comfortable with him gone. I wanted to kiss him, and definitely fuck him, but him being on the other side of the door while I was in the shower was a level of intimacy I was not ready for.

It felt good to shower, to feel all the sweat and dirt slide off my body. I stepped out and wrapped the towel around my body while checking my phone to see whether or not Ben had gotten back yet. I didn’t see a text from him asking for the code (I was purposely waiting to give it to him so I knew when he was back and it was safe to leave the bathroom) meaning it was safe to step out.

“Oh, wow…” Ben’s eyes locked with mine and I jumped, not expecting him to be sprawled out on the bed as he was before.

“Fuck! Ben, you didn’t tell me you were back!” I pulled the towel tighter around my body.

He sat up, obviously sensing my discomfort and put a hand over his eyes, “I knocked on the door and told you I was back!”

“You didn’t text and ask for the code!”

“Someone was going in when I got back! I didn’t need it!” He stood up, hand still over his eyes, “Sorry,” he pulled a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket, “I’m just gonna…” he held them up to me, “just text me when you’re okay with me coming back.”

I stifled a laugh as he backed out of the studio.

[ddaenggtan]

forever rain | knj - teaser

Being dead isn't anything exciting. Just a lot of walking the same halls of the same apartment day after day after day. Things change when the new tennant arrives, though. Kim Namjoon isn't anything you could have expected; not the way he's so careful and gentle with his plants because he breaks so many other things, not the way his friends joke that he's psychic because you refuse to let him get in the face one time, and certainly not the way he comes home after literal months spent moving things away from table edges for him and announces that he knows he's being haunted and he has some questions for you. You didn't know ghosts could fall in love, but he makes you feel alive again, like you're standing in the rain while thunder crashes around you. You should've known nothing good would come of falling in love with someone living, though. You should've known that heartbreak was the only way this could end...that the rain doesn't last forever. 

part of the Love Yourself Collab, please please please go check out the other fics. Everyone involved is so freaking talented and I have been vibrating out of my skin with how excited I’ve been to read all of these. 

pairing | kim namjoon x reader (unspecified gender, even!)

genre/warnings | ghost!reader, slight fluff, there are a lot more for the actual fic so definitely read those when it comes out, i’m not kidding i definitely want you to come and yell at me in my ask when you finish it, but pls don’t send things about what happens bc ur mad about it bc u didn’t read the warnings, y’all are a smart bunch but i know firsthand how skipping warnings can punch u in the gut so just,,,,,,,read the warnings on the full fic lmao

a/n | this is just a teaser for the full fic which is gonna post,,,,,,,,,,,,at some point lmao who knows i haven’t actually decided yet!!! yay me!!!! hahahaha stress!! it’ll definitely go up on my ao3 as well, so if you have alerts on for me there, you’ll get notified that way! for now, have this! and don’t kill me when the rest comes out!!

The creak of the front door pulls you from your thoughts, and the echo of a voice makes you narrow your eyes. Your first instinct is to slam some windows to scare off whoever's in your apartment, but you repress the urge. You'd die of boredom if you could die again, and whoever this is could provide a few hours' entertainment at the least.

You pop your head through the bathroom wall to see what's going on, and wow, who let an actual giant into your apartment? Fucking with the pipes could definitely wait for this guy.

"I know it's last minute, yeah," He says into the phone that's held carefully between his cheek and shoulder. His arms are loaded down with boxes and he's angled away from you just enough that you can't see his face, but he's tall and broad and wearing what looks like the world's comfiest sweater, and you want to badly to wrap yourself up in him. "But you know Joon needs the help. Don't pretend you aren't constantly willing to put off your thesis, I know for a fact that you went out to look at stationery with Tae last week, and everyone knows that's the most boring thing on the planet."

He's quiet, listening to the soft crackle of a voice from the other end. You slide through the wall completely, hovering as close as you dare to try and hear what the other person is saying. Tall, Broad, and Comfy scoffs.

"He can stare at one sheet of paper for at least ten minutes, Yoongi. Do I need to remind you of the time he spent an entire fucking hour debating which set of holiday scrapbook to buy because, and I quote, 'this one has the really nice rose pattern on it that would look great with the invitations, but, oh, look at the pinstripes in this one!'" His voice morphs into what you guess is an approximation of whoever Tae is, and you laugh at the high-pitched, nasally tone.

Tall and Broad spins, eyes narrowing as he looks around the room, and fuck, he's literally gorgeous. You've never seen someone more attractive in your life or your death and it would probably knock the wind out of you if you actually had breath. Comfy McGorgeous turns back around and sets the stack of boxes in the corner, continuing his tirade about Tae and stationery while simultaneously trying to talk Yoongi into coming, you assume, to help Joon move. You don't know who any of these people are, but they're already proving to be the most entertaining bunch that's ever graced these walls.

The door to your apartment flies open, making both you and Boyfriend Material whip your head around.

"Christ, Jin, you couldn't hold the fucking door open for us?" Someone grunts. Beauty Von Softness - or, Jin, as you should probably refer to him - winces and strides over to do just that as two more guys stagger in with a couch suspended between them. The second they're in the door they drop it to the ground and flop onto it, panting and sweaty.

"Listen, I was busy trying to get our resident hermit out of his cave to help us carry some of this shit," Jin spits back. "And you all know what it's like getting him out and about."

"Did you tell him that there's pizza after we're done? Because I've found that food is the best motivator for him," the guy closest to the door says. His hair is soft-looking and long and you wish you could pet it.

The other guy, the one who cursed Jin out and has the softest pink hair you've ever seen, laughs. "Jeongguk, you always think the best motivator is food."

"Well, yeah, because it is."

"For you, maybe. Other people require actual rewards."

"But food is a reward," Jeongguk mutters into the fabric of the couch. Jin tsks and smacks As Yet Unnamed on the back of the head.

"You're lucky I hung up on him when you bombarded your way into this place, or he'd definitely not come help us," Jin says as he leans against the back of the couch.

Unnamed starts to say something else but is cut off by someone running straight into the end of the couch. They all shoot to their feet, spouting apologies as the three of them maneuver the couch into the apartment properly.

"Sorry, sorry, Jimin distracted us from properly finishing our job," Jeongguk says quickly. He looks to the stranger with a small apologetic smile, and you're pretty sure if it were humanly possible, there would be actual literal stars in his eyes.

"Oh, it's okay, Jeonggukkie. I should've been looking where I was going." New Challenger walks straight towards where you stand, and you realize seconds before it's too late that he is not aware there is a massive stack of boxes in his path. Instinctively, you shove them to the side with your foot. Tall And Oblivious sets his boxes down without any trouble, none the wiser about any of it, and the three near the couch are too busy bickering in hushed whispers to have noticed you doing anything.

The newcomer straightens and turns to look at them all with a bright smile, and you think you might actually see The Light in the way his cheeks dimple. If you thought the other three were beautiful - which they are, no doubt about that, you're seriously wondering why the hell a bunch of supermodels are moving stuff into your apartment - then this guy is easily an Actual Fucking God or something. His brown hair is soft and shiny, his smile is warmer than the sun, and you're fairly positive that for the first time since you died, you feel goosebumps along your arms.

"Seriously, Namjoon, we should've realized you'd be up soon. You stay, start unpacking while we go get the rest of the furniture." Jimin shoves Jeongguk out the door while he's speaking, ignoring the taller's complaints, and Jin just shakes his head at the sight.

"Yoongi'll be here soon, he's finishing up another draft of his thesis. Hobi and Tae are stopping to get the pizzas and then they'll be here, too." Jin's voice is calmer than it was Jimin and Jeongguk, more soothing, and it makes you curious. Not only because of the tone change, but because you know Hobi, he owns the building and is the one who rented you the apartment when you first moved in. One of your favorite things to do is scare him when he comes by to make sure everything’s ready for a viewing.

"What? No, I said I was gonna pay for pizzas!" Namjoon looks distinctly more upset about this than someone should over not having to pay for pizza, at least in your mind, and it only makes you more curious.

"Yeah, but you also just moved out of your old apartment because it was too expensive, and had like an hour to load everything into a truck, so you're gonna let their trust fund asses pay for pizzas. We're seven adult men, and Guk could eat an entire horse and still be hungry. I'm not letting you pay for that."

Silence hangs in the apartment for a while before Namjoon gives a soft thanks to Jin. They share a smile before Jin makes his way back out. You follow each step, shadowing him all the way to the door before you're stopped. You lean your entire body forward, struggling against the invisible barrier keeping you inside, and the force of it nearly slams you back into the wall when you sag in defeat.

You aren't sure why you try anymore, but you know yourself well enough to admit that you're not going to stop until you can at least make it to the hallway.

[writershapeholeonthedoor]

we are getting married someday w cordelia pls

The first time I read it, I thought you meant that we were going to get married with Cordelia, and I was, well okay if you say so, I’m down for it HAHAHAHA

Anyway, here it goes, hope you like it.

Cordelia Goode was something from another world. You could see that when she moved, how her hips hypnotized people on her way, you could see that when she smiled, how every person in the room stoped to watch her glow, you could see that in her eyes, how they could tell anything, even the things she didn’t wanted people to know. You were blessed with her presence everyday for the last year.

It’s not too long, considering, but it sure was a well spent year. Days laughing, dates in fancy restaurants or at the yard, walks in the park, shared smiles and secrets, holding hands under the table and on top of the table, making out in the room and out of the room. You were sure you loved Cordelia Goode faster than you ever thought it could be possible. It took her less than a month to make you fall head over heels for her.

Loving her was the easiest thing you ever did, because being happy by her side was not hard, not even a little bit. Specially when she would turn around in bed and her legs would be stuck in the sheets, or when she brought you breakfast in bed, or how she would get out of her way to make you, or anyone else, happy, or how she payed so much attention to the small details and how much she cared about everyone.

Loving Cordelia was easy, but that only meant that other people could think the same.

“I called my lawyer today.” Cordelia was taking of her expensive dress to put on her silk PJ’s for bed. “He said the judge is going to summon Hank to be in her cabinet Monday by 10am or he can go answer justice.”

Hank was a son of a bitch, everyone knew that. After so many nights that he spent in someone’s else bed, cheating on this angel that had married with him, he had take the coward way out when Cordelia found out about everything – including about his ‘family job’. No one had saw him for a very long time, but Cordelia still needed him to sign the divorce papers so she could finally be free from him.

“What if he don’t show up?” You asked in curiosity, but also worry.

“Well, I will be divorced either way.” She let go a heavy sigh, moving to bed to take the large pile of pillows out so you two could lay down. “If he show up, he sign the papers and I’m free. If he don’t go, then the judge will do it without him, just not on Monday. You know, bureaucracy.”

“Said the woman with a thousand papers in her desk.” You joked, trying to make her smile again and forget about her aweful (almost) ex-husband.

“Those are important!” Cordelia quickly defended herself.

You both shared a laugh while getting under the covers and finding your way to each other. “I’m glad it’s almost over.”

“Me too.” She smiled again and put a gentle kiss on your shoulder. “This way I will get rid off him for good and will officially be a single woman again.”

“Not for long!” You protested, pinching her arm. “I’m still here, lady.”

“Oh,well.” You could see her eyes shinning with her tease, so you only rolled your eyes at her and pinched her arm again. “Ouch! I’m joking. We are getting married someday, I swear.”

“You told me that already. I think you delayed your divorce just to provoke me.”

“Never. Can’t wait to send Hank to Hell.” Cordelia sighed. “I’m serious.”

“So am I.” You smiled at her, not even believing how lucky you were. “I will be waiting for it.”

[whittynovels]

restore me predictions 2

*"It made me wish I’d had a sister. Or a mother. Someone to learn from and lean on. A woman to teach me how to be brave in this body, among these men" -Juliette gets friends!!!!! -I want juliette to get a makeover and people who give her boy advice and talk with her about girl stuff and ugh girls -She was never this way with the twins it always felt so awkward *Will Kenji get a love interest? -“he tries” -kenji totes flirts with international people -is the ex-girlfriend his????? -tahereh said kenji doesn’t get anyone in this book but thats ok we'll have a slow burn over a 3 book arc it's what he deserves -T said it’s someone we don’t already know which is fair bc everyone we already know he said is too much like a sister to him so it would be weird *Juliette’s favorite color is black? Sounds fake but ok *JAMES AND WARNER JAMES AND WARNER JAMES AND WA -“were you CRYING?” ummmm just fucking punch me in the lung next time -honestly is every character in this book just gonna witness a warner breakdown why we gotta do him so dirty like that -james is gonna be so mad when they find out they’re brothers because in unravel me he gets pissed about not being told stuff/getting left out -I don’t think it’ll happen this soon *WARNER’S EMO POWERS IN HIS POV -THIS IS THE NUMBER ONE THING I’M EXCITED FOR AND SHE HASN’T SHOWN IT YET IN THE SAMPLER SO I WAS WORRIED BUT YIPPEE I CANT WAIT TO GET CUTE WARNETTE SCENES WHERE WARNER IS AWARE OF JULIETTE'S FEELINGS AND ASKS HER ABOUT IT AND WANTS TO VALIDATE THAT SHE FEELS OKAY ASFUGHJKL;; *JULIETTE DRINKING ADFSGUHDIJ’K -I always wanted to write this but idk -Juliette is happy drunk / warner is emo drunk -Warner super concerned taking care of her *More people with powers? [we been knew reaction pic] -I honestly couldn’t guess any of the powers without just reciting powers from twilight or something lol *Kenji calling warner a dick and warner wanting to punch him -ME -Tahereh is teasing so much kenji & warner dialogue that it makes me wonder about them. Why are they together so much. Why does warner trust kenji. What. Help. Slow down *THE KIND OF MUSIC WARNER LISTENS TO -Either smooth jazz or beyonce, there’s no in between *What warner did to be leader of sector 45 -Pressure waves dude??? -No other predictions. no clue. help. *A cliffhanger?? -I honestly can’t tell you what state my anxiety will be in if there’s a cliffhanger -I think it’ll mirror other books where there’s certainly stuff unsolved but it’s not like someone dies then it’s like “aight, see ya next year” *She keeps hinting about deaths but tbh I don’t think anything will happen until book 6 -She did this with ignite me thinking big deaths would happen but it was nothing -I think she teases to create angst and fear but we’ll be fine -I trust her (t don’t let me down) *Another chapter 55 (◕‿◕✿) *lgbt characters !!!!!!!!! kenji, Brendan, Winston, whatever mans kenji gets *nO ADAM AND KENJI BRO MOMENTS HAHAHAHA -Kenji roasts adam at every opportunity *wARNER SPEAKING SEVERAL LANGUAGES UUGHGHHHHH WHAT A MAN!!!!!! WHAT A MAN, MY DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!! -Seven languages? Oh my lORDDT -I’m not even gonna predict what they are but hooooleeeee mollleeeeeey -We get to see him speak “a couple” ugghhhh I can’t wait to see juliette hear him break into Arabic or something and she’s just like !!!!!!!!!!!! *When asked about juliette and adam’s friendship growing, tahereh said “he’s a part of the story and there’s more left to come” and im just like noooooooo -At the same time, juliette is so forgiving I don’t doubt they’ll finally talk *PPL ROAST ME ABOUT AN ADAM REDEMPTION ARC BUT JUST THINK ABOUT WARNER AND ADAM’S FRIENDSHIP AND ADAM BEING SOMEONE WHO CAN SAVE THEM ALL IF HE PROJECTS HIS POWER AND DISABLES OTHERS’. I’M JUST SAYIN G *WARNER NAKED CRYING ON THE GROUND -WARNER HAS ANXIETY??? PLS LET WARNER HAVE ANXIETY I WANT ANXIETY REP -But at the same time I don’t because #tooreal -I feel like she posted this quote so out of context and it could be nothing but I leapt to the worst conclusions -Why isn’t juliette there? Did they have a fight? Did something happen to her? Did he read his dad’s journals? -DOES KENJI SEE HIS SCARS? -Is warner completely naked?? I’m so confused. I’M SO CONFUSED *Kenji calling warner cute constantly mY HEArt *WHY IS JULIETTE’S POV SPOILERY -Is she kidnapped??? Is she miserable??? Is a character with mind control powers harming her??? Is she separated from warner? Like WHAT??? It’s so spoilery that she can’t even find one quote to give us? *THE VALENTINES DAY SNIPPET -JULIETTE’S CONFIDENCE -THE TOWEL -WARNER’S POV SEXYTIMES -FWUJAOIFPKOIOBLHEIJKMF -SLIHBFLABKVLEAJFGFYOUDLHIJF -I was legit sobbing I was so happy for the first warnette kiss in 4 years -(lowkey wish there was more dialogue and description but that feels almost gluttonous at this point because we are so fortunate for having it at all) *Tahereh said she “likes” the ending of restore me -I don’t think we’ll have a cliffhanger, like I said. -She said “I don’t think it’s sad” so I hope it’s empowering like previous books -T said juliette is her favorite, ever, by the end of RM, so I think she’s fine and she doesn’t die clearly lol *AN EX-GIRLFRIEND COMES INTO PLAY -WHOSE??? WHAT IS THE TRUTH?????? -WHO IS GONNA CLAIM THIS WOMAN -Warner? Is it one of the overseas people? MY MANS IS A HOE!!!!! He out here saying “I didn’t have friends” but he actually meant “I had friends with benefits” -Kenji? Adam? Castle? I literally wish it were anyone else lol I’m solid on my theory of juliette being warner’s first everything but the internet and the author say otherwise *It’s confirmed that juliette MEETS her parents!!!!!! Oufhaouhilvgudyahisjkop;pzfx;ia I’MS O  EXCITED SHE’S GONNA ROAST THEM I’M REA DY FOR HER TO ROOOAST THEM!! -Also warner said in unravel me he wants to kill whoever made her miserable as a kid so I want warner to threaten them or pull a gun or something and im just ready for there to be tea -The biggest question I have—more than what warner did to be leader of sector 45—is what her parents are like. Not even just physically and with their personalities. I’m so split on wondering if they’re sorry or if they still hate her. Are they happy without her? Do they regret it? Will they accept her as she is now? Will they learn to trust her? *New novellas??!!?!! -I was shocked we didn’t get one before this book. -Whose POV? We get a kenji short story so maybe from him. Since we get warner POV in the book, it’s not as important anymore as a separate novella. So it’s gotta be kenji, adam, castle, Anderson, someone, idk. james? new characters? -Maybe it’ll have bonus content from previous books in the trilogy (LS PS LP PL SP L S PL SPL S PLS PLS PL SPL S PLS PL S PLS) *The bird symbolism comes back I’m emo -Juliette flying (ie. Airplanes, she becomes the bird herself? Idk) -I always thought it was so weird that the “the bird I imagined is the bird on adam’s chest” conflict/coincidence was just randomly dropped. -Does juliette become adam’s bird? -DOES MY GIRL FINALLY GET TO SEE A BIRD???? AHHHHHHH --i used to want ignite me to end with her seeing a bird so maybe i can finally have my dream come true and one of these books has her seeing a bird in it *Juliette’s powers are still growing -Unless it has to do with killing people and not physically moving stuff like castle then idk. I’m conflicted about this one. *More about warner’s mom, it’s ok I’m just gonna cry over here *Warner’s virginity better not be a hot topic in this book because I am tired and I’m so happy not knowing -Same how I feel with sex scenes like ty for having them but I don’t need to be ~too~ well-acquainted with their anatomy, ya know? pls no sarah j maas porn in these woods, thank you *Juliette and warner get to travel!!!!!!! -Now that warner knows how to drive a helicopter I just imagine them being like “hey Barbie wanna go for a ride” “sure ken” “hop in” then I don’t wanna live forever starts playing because wasn’t there a helicopter scene in fifty shades *Warner and his 5 o’clock shadow sounds fake bc in unravel me when he was being held captive there was no beard [angery frog meme] -Why my mans so stressed he aint shavin????????? He needs a hug and 3 advil *SHE EITHER GETS A HAIRCUT OR A TATTOO IN THIS BOOK -I’m 50/50. On one hand, she mentioned in ignite me that she needs a haircut, but I really really reall yreally hate haircuts in books so I’m salty -Also Ive always wished she’d get a tattoo bc it’s so empowering and she has a lot of mantras she lives by and warner is such a cheerleader for them and he would love it too *WARNER IS LITERALLY THE EMBODIMENT OF CAR RADIO ABOUT OUTRUNNING SILENCE OAUHOSJIKO;DI;FSLDGYHIJ MY MANS IS EMO AND I LOVE AND SUPPORT HIM UNCONDITIONALLY -I’m concerned that he and juliette aren’t together more in this book. She’s in a meeting he’s not invited to??? Aaron warner? More like aaron burr, not being in the room where it happened

[grapefruitguan-blog]

Fight!AU (Park Woojin)

- woojin was preparing for his comeback

- and they were asking a lot of time from him

- so he was coming home rlly late and leaving rlly early in the morning

- and you were supportive n he was really appreciative

- but it happened for about two weeks

- two weeks of you making dinner and watching it get cold and waking up to him and a quick kiss saying he loves you but he’s gotta go

- but you had ur last straw when he didn’t even come home on your birthday

- he actually forgot

- this time you didn’t fall asleep

- bc woojin promised to spend the day with you

- you were actually heartbroken

- he came back at 1:30 am rlly surprised you were up

- he had a terrible day daniel n the others couldn’t get the choreo down and the producer blamed him

- “babe? shouldn’t you be sleeping?”

- you didn’t answer him

- and had a small bitter smile

- “yeah. i should be. i shouldn’t have waited for you.”

- now woojin never ever snaps

- but today he was in the worst mood

- ever

- “jeez, what’s with you today?”

- and now you snapped

- “woojin, you should know what’s up with me today i’ve waited for you for now two weeks every single fucking day”

- “babe i know i’m sorry it’s just they’ve wanted a lot out of us-“

- “yeah. you want a lot of of me to wait for you. i know that. what do you think i have done?”

- “y/n i know it’s just the fans-“

- “it’s always the fans woojin, always.”

- “because they care about us. we just won at mama i don’t want to lose that streak. why can’t you understand that?”

- “woojin. i’ve been the most fucking understanding of that. i didn’t question you for shit about scandals when i sure could’ve and i always helped you when you felt stressed-“

- “people care about us, y/n. we have fans. they’re there for us.”

- oh god woojin really fucked it up now

- a small silence occurred when woojin’s eyes widened with what he said

- “babe-“

- “save it woojin.”

- “no i didn’t mean-“

- “no, i get it. i don’t have fans because i’m not an idol, so i wouldn’t get it. people care about you and the boys and not really about me. hell, they want me gone since i’m dating their bias. go date fucking lisa from blackpink or something, then!”

- “no that isn’t-“

- “save it. i’m leaving. maybe you’ll someday realize why i’m so fucking pissed after waiting for you for so damn long.”

- you walk out and slam the door

- “fine be that way!” yelled woojin

- he went to your guys’ now empty bed angry as hell

- he almost threw the picture of you two on the ground but hesitated

- you drove over to your bff’s house and slept for the night

- in the morning woojin went to practice

- and he was on snapchat

- and noticed your streak had an hourglass

- he sent you a black screen and you instantly left him on open

- he groaned

- and rolled his eyes

- and he was viewing his stories and saw daehwi’s

- it was a selfie

- “happy late birthday y/n!!!”

- woojin dropped

- wait

- it was your birthday yesterday???

- holy fuck he promised to spend the day with you

- he didn’t even get you an xmas gift cause you said that’s all you wanted

- holy fuck

- he stormed into practice

- “daehwi!!!!”

- daehwi was eating a croissant

- “woojin!!! you almost made me drop my croissant!!!”

- “dumbass bitch!!! why didn’t you tell me it was my gf’s birthday yesterday!!!!!”

- “woojin sweetie you were supposed to know this”

- “i remembered!” piped daniel holding his story too

- “shut up mr center i hope your cats die”

- “heY”

- jisung aka mom runs over

- “dUmbAsS KIDS STOP FIGHTING”

- daehwi rubbed his temples

- “y/n is soooo mad at you woojin”

- “she’s so supportive of your snaggletooth headass and you don’t see that”

- “hIs EYES ARE TOO SMALL TO SEE THAT”

- “shUT UP ONG NOBODY CARES MR I’M-28-TRYING-TO-DEBUT”

- “shUT UP YOU MAKNAE I WAS Y/N’S BIAS NOT YOURS”

- jisung blows the whistle n stops ong and woojin from fighting

- “DuMBASS WOOJIN for foRGETTING Y/N’s BDAY I’M NOT MAKING YOU FUCKIN RAMEN FOR A MONTH”

- jisung sighed

- “y/n rlly never let you see her frustrated bc you’d come home late as hell n she would always rant to me and daehwi about it and she went to (bff)’s house all night and cried”

- “how was i supposed to know!!!”

- “duMBASS biTCH I am Her SECOND COUSIN and you arE HER bOyfrieND anD I COULD TELL SHE WAS UNhAPPY BUT you COULDN’T????”

- “he has a point snaggletooth headass”

- “shut up four foot chode nobody cares sungwoon”

- “LISTEN BO-“

- “gUys shUT UP” yelled jisung

- “woojin go make up with her your dumbass fucKED UP”

- “big time!” chorused daniel holding his two cats

- woojin facepalmed

- “guys what the hell do i do i rlly did fuck up i was just so caught up on the choreo-“

- “dumbass dance machine”

- “shUT UP CAT PEDOPHILE I’M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT”

- jisung blows his mom whistle again

- “gUYS ENOUGH FIGHTING”

- “luckily bc i’m so old and wise i have a damn plan”

- so all 11 boys shut up and crowd around

- “here’s what we are finna do bitches”

- “jisung sweetie pls don’t say finna it’s improper”

- “sorry minhyun”

- you’re at your bff’s house

- you were throwing dart’s at a pic of woojin

- until she knocks on ur door

- “hey y/n someone’s here to see you”

- “if it’s woojin i swear to-“

- “oH HI DAEHWI”

- “HI BESTIE IM HERE BITCH I GOT YOU STUFF FOR YOUR BDAY”

- “aw THANKS BITCH I SAW YOUR STORY”

- “yeAh SORRY BITCH I WAS AT PRACTICE AKDJKSD I PROMISE WE CAN EAT CHICKEN N WAFFLES SOON THO”

- “david lee ur so white”

- “i was born in LA headass”

- daehwi hands you a wrapped gift

- you coo

- “YOU REALLY ARE MY BESTIE”

- bff walks in

- “wtf y/n who’s house are you in”

- “lOVE YOU TOO (BFF’s NAME)”

- daehwi clears throat

- “anyways so”

- “get dressed”

- “we’re hanging out”

- “stop simping over the snaggletooth headass”

- “i wAS NO-“

- “bitch shut up ur listening to butterfly and spring day by bts and you’re really telling me you aren’t simping????”

- ok daehwi got you there

- so you kicked him outta ur friend’s room

- and you get dressed

- no details bc this isn’t smut

- yET

- hAHAHAHA

- anyways after twenty minutes you step out

- daehwi huffs

- “see this hair? i didn’t dye it white. it turned white waiting for your slowpoke ass”

- “shut up daehwi last time i checked i waited for you for two hours when you bumped into iu”

- “iU nOONA IS mOre IMPoRTANT”

- anyways

- daehwi flashes his signature grin

- “oK go to the living room”

- “daehwi i thought we were going out??”

- “yes going out of the room duh”

- “yOU lITTLE SHIT YOU MADE ME PUT MAKEUP FOR NOTHING WHEN IM STAYING INSIDE???”

- “y/n if you think i have money to treat you out for a day you really must be tripping”

- “daehwi stfu you deadass have tons of money after debuting don’t play with me”

- daehwi shoves you into the room anyways

- and your jaws drop

- and there you see the living room decorated

- with your favorite foods on the coffee table

- and presents

- and a chocolate cake

- and the other boys there

- besides woojin

- so daniel’s cats could be at ur bday and not your boyfriend? ok

- “HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y/N”

- “we’re really sorry we couldn’t celebrate with you on your actual birthday so we tried to make up for it” smiles jisung

- you almost broke down in tears

- because THAT IS SO SWEET

- “aw thanks guys i love you so much”

- “even if woojin hates me enough to not even want to celebrate my bday LOL it’s okay.”

- guanlin awkwardly coughed

- “uh look behind you”

- lo and behold

- park woojin is behind you holding 10 bouquets of red roses

- bby boy is almost falling bc he carried all of them

- you’re kind of taken aback

- because who wouldn’t be??

- “i’m sorry that i couldn’t wish you happy birthday with them i had to run to like five florists cause turns out everyone ran out of red roses”

- he hands you one bouquet and other boys scramble to help him

- “i’m really sorry that i fucked up and forgot that it was your birthday it was honestly such a dick move of me-“

- “HE ALSO CALLED ME A FOUR FOOT CHODE”

- “shUT UP SUNGWOON”

- “and i really took you for granted and i feel terrible because i need to remember that they’re fans, and though i’m in their hearts..you’re in mine. i’m scared of losing you because you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and i promise i never ever forgot about that”

- “and like roses are what i gave you on our first date and i know they can’t do too much to make you forgive me but i remembered you love them and you honestly deserve the world”

- and woojin has tears in his eyes and takes one hand and tries to wipe his tears and now he’s blubbering

- “i totally understand if you hate me and wanna break up i support your decision either way i’m so so sorry for being such a dick-“

- SEEING WOOJIN BAWL WAS TOO MUCH SO YOU JUST KISSED HIM

- he was shocked at first but he leaned down just a little bit

- “idiot i forgive you”

- “w-wait really”

- “BITCH YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO REJECT HIM”

- “shUT UP DAEHWI”

- “nO YOU SHUT YOU COYOTE LOOKING ASS I BET $10.00 ON THIS WITH ONG”

- before woojin went to go fight daehwi you laughed

- and he looked at you with a small smile

- ft his little snaggletooth

- and daniel brings out the cake and they start singing

- BUT then woojin’s eyes shoot up

- “wAIT DONT START I FORGOT SOMETHING”

- he hands you the roses and grabs a little box out of his pocket

- “here open it”

- “woojin we’re too young to get married-“

- “nonONONO NOT THAT NOT THAT”

- he turns bright red

- “i-i mean not like i don’t wanna m-marry you i-it’s just”

- you open it

- it’s a promise ring!!! the one that you told woojin how pretty it was two months ago!!!!

- “woojin!!!! this is really expensive you know i was like kidding right!!!!”

- “well like you deserve the world so i’m trying to give it to you”

- “and like it’s my promise to you to never treat you less than perfect”

- “and that i promise to put you before my career”

- all the boys coo

- and daniel is huffing bc the cake is rlly heavy and he wants to goddamn sing already so he can set it down

- so you sing!

- and all is well!

- and woojin puts an arm around your waist and kisses your forehead

- “happy late birthday babe, i love you.”

[thoughtsandeverythingelse]

somoene believed in me

there is something bothering me tonight, but i cant seem to pin point what. 

i had an eventful day today. i (kinda) mentally prepared myself for it.  i took a test that was booked on impulse. i didnt believe i could pass it - but a boy did. so because of that, i started to believe in myself. 

i didnt want to tell anyone i took the test. i didnt want to show them a sight of failure, and i only wanted to tell them when i passed. but i had to tell him because i was bound to meet him. i couldnt avoid him, with a sheer amount of coincidence. 

so because of that, he knew. 

i went ahead and took the test. i passed - 49/50. we hung out at the canteen, before my next appointment. he waited for me, regardless. 

i knew this was coming. honestly, i didnt expect that we’d have a meal together. i planned for tea at 3pm, but because of this meal, a potential intentional conversation, i pushed for 330pm. 

i played all the scenarios in my head. especially more so knowing that i had “full control” of how it’d play out. we’d have lunch, it’d be a nice meal of catching up, then we’d sit at a quiet place, and play the game i bought. 

i brought the game in the name of intentionality. i am questioning my intentions - perhaps i really wanted to play it with him because i wanted to hear what he thinks. was it in the name of friendship? or in the name of attraction? my brain wants to say the former, but my heart thinks its the latter.  i play the questions out in my head. what i would say to our first impressions, the kinds of questions and responses i could come up with.  more importantly - what i would say if “admit something” came up. 

would i have admitted it? what would i have said? what could i have said? i thought i had it going. i thought i knew everything. i thought i had it in control. 

but lunch clearly, proved me otherwise. unexpected questions and reactions came up.  “what would you think my weakness is?”  he couldnt come up with an answer. he said i didnt have one. but the real question would be, was it because i never let him see it?  was it because, i never let anyone see what my weakness could be?  then things took a turn. he started thinking, and started to call this out. and started saying that i wanted to be a fixer. i naturally want to become one. but sometimes, people dont need fixers. they just need listeners.  and i am learning that. 

over lunch, we also started talking about the idea of dating, where he’s at, where im at. he concluded that he is in a season of figuring things out. figuring himself out. “i knew it” says my heart. a part of me wants to be prideful, and say that i knew this would happen. i knew that this season, army boys would be figuring themselves out. that they need the time and the space, - which is exactly why i didnt want to date one. i’ve always told myself, that i would wait till they are done with army. that this season is one of theirs, not mine.  which is perhaps why i find myself being so puzzled at wanting to date this particular boy, who is in this particular season to figure things out.  i think my heart died a bit (hahahaha) when he said, “loneliness hit again” and he scrolled down the list to look for conversations. more particularly, he didnt look for mine. he looked for a girl that he liked (for a very long time, granted) and more importantly, that actually liked him back.  so you would imagine my horror when he pulled out the card, “admit something” - twice. what would i have said? what could i have said? i had it played out in my head. i had a bunch of nonsense answers to admit. i also had the honest answer in my head. but i knew, i knew, that in that moment, it was not the right time. that he didnt need that extra information. i was not ready to give that information. so instead, i played it safe. i gave him the responsibility to make me admit something.  i think this took another turn - he realised certain questions that he wouldnt want to have the answers to. and asked me a stupid, safe question instead. 

i might have reacted a bit too offensively. “out of ALL the questions in the world, you asked me if i ever thought of murdering someone?” what a stupid question! but then again, what a safe question. it was safe because there was a lack of emotional risk. a lack of risk to be vulnerable.  but that made me wonder - that kind of questions did he have in his head? i wanted to know everything. God, i wanted to know everything. what he would have said, what he would have thought, what was in his mind. i wanted to know it all. 

last night i dont know what came over me - but i cant believe i prayed this prayer: “if this desire if not godly, then please take it away and shut the door.” 

i dont think i would consider this a door shut. i would consider this a “wait” move. that i think i need to wait, and then evaluate again whether this is something worth considering.  it’s been 30 minutes since i’ve started writing this, and i still cannot pin point what im feeling. oh Lord pls hahahahhaa