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v3nusxsky Ā· 4 days
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Hey hey hey - šŸ¦­
Can you do an Alpha Larissa X Pregnant Omega Reader. Where reader is pregnant with twins one a boy, and the other is girl. And Larissa is proud like a peacock, that she managed to give her mate and wife a litter of two pups when her family was known not to conceive a litter. ( for more that 4 generations they never managed to have litters in their family, and reader broke the curse. )
Babies then are born and Larissa is shocked when her pups are both born with white hair just like hers. Larissa cries to reader in happiness and reader is laughing and showing her family through camera another generation curse broken. ( white hair is very hard for Larissaā€™s family to conceive, but that genetic inheritance has been shown through generations before it stopped and miraculously Larissa was born with it and now her pups have it. ( Which is a miracle for Larissaā€™s family.) both families jokingly saying that reader is a miracle worker.
Hope you have a nice weekend Mars!
Blessings
*Authors note~ we interrupt sinful souls for a little fluffy Larissa ficšŸ„¹ enjoy yā€™all Iā€™m burnt out with school work and this little fic is what I managed to create*
Trigger warnings~ pregnancy? Birth? Omegaverse
Prompt~ see ask^^^
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Life with your Alpha is more than you couldā€™ve ever dreamed off, you remember how she found you suffering alone through your first heat, how scared she was to not be able to help. With your past and how Omegas are treated you couldnā€™t tolerate touch of any kind especially in heat. Your pained whimpers and whines of fear whenever an Alpha was in close proximity to you broke the blondes heart. It was then she realised, you were destined to be her Omega. She didnā€™t get this way with any of the other Omega staff, just you.
With time and effort from both of you, your Omega called for her to help during your heat about a year later. Now being your Alpha and girlfriend Larissa did everything and anything to ensure your comfort and safety. Time is a great healer of wounds, and with Larissa by your side you finally got to heal. Heat after heat she proved to you sheā€™d be here in whatever way you need and want her. Happy to just cuddle and scent you into a little moment of peace or to give into her wolf and take her Omega.
The little test with the bright blue lines sat on her desk as she went to make her morning tea. After your previous heat, youā€™d noticed you felt a little differently, some of the older Omega students even noting your scent was off, so naturally you panicked and well. Youā€™re pregnant. Itā€™s not something youā€™d planned for right now but with that little blue plus starring right at you, you knew that this was the perfect time.
To say Larissa was extatic wouldā€™ve been an understatement, the moment she saw that test, you became the most fragile diamond in the world. Larissa always had to be touching you at all times. And when your stomach started to swell? Well, she was always rubbing and holding your stomach as you leant your weight on her. Introducing you as her gorgeous wife to be. She made sure you got every craving, she was there for every appointment, bout of sickness and even the false contractions.
Giving birth that night will forever be a memory. A perfect prince entered the world with a little squeaky squeal of protest, absolutely perfect in every way. Itching to hold your new pup until another sharp contraction hit. Something was wrong. You immediately called for your Alpha in fear, instructing her to be with your son despite how exhausted and terrified you were. And just a few minutes later your daughter arrived. ā€œItā€™s a girlā€ was all you remember before blacking out.
ā€œAlpha?ā€ You whined coming back to the world, ā€œwhereā€™s baby boy?ā€ You mumbled not even being able to open your eyes yet. ā€œShh my sweet omega, heā€™s right here with his sister. You did so good my love. A litter of pups. So beautifulā€ she whispered eyes never leaving the sleeping infants. ā€œTwo?!ā€ You mumbled trying to sit up despite the strong aftershocks of giving birth to two babies, ā€œI thought I imagined her.ā€
Only when you held your daughter in your arms did you finally believe it. Youā€™d given your Alpha a litter. Knowing the family history for Larissa itā€™s unheard of to have a litter. No wonder Larissa is grinning from ear to ear. Only then did you realise you hadnā€™t been able to dress the pups in their outfits, thank god for getting one for each gender! Larissa gently taking your daughter as you undressed your son.
ā€œSweet girl? She-ā€œ happy tears trailed down Larissaā€™s cheeks as she spotted the Snow White curls on your daughterā€™s head. Larissa didnā€™t know where her hair colour came from, no one else living in the family had it, yet here her baby girl was with the same stunning feature. ā€œAlphaā€ you murmured taking your sonā€™s little hat off to show the same coloured hair. ā€œY/n! They are perfect. Your perfect. My perfect darling Omgeaā€, your precious litter completing your family was all so perfect.
Larissaā€™s aunt couldnā€™t wait to meet the pups, your family stood with her as they all awaited the new arrivals. Larissa, proud as ever carried both car seats into Nevermore, got you settled on the sofa with both babies in your arm, water in your favourite flask at your side. ā€œTheodore Rodwell James, this is your family baby boy, our sweet princeā€ you murmured happily allowing your mother to hold her grandson. ā€œAnd this beauty is Isla Arwen Saige, our little surpriseā€ you murmured before handing her off to Larissaā€™s aunt. ā€œAuntie look at her hairā€ Larissa prompted unable to wipe the smug smile off her face. The shock around the room being nothing but a beautiful buzz as both babies were passed around the family and congratulations given to the new mothers.
ā€œTwo curses broken, what a little miracle worker you are dearā€ your mother teased before pressing a sweet kiss on your cheeks. ā€œM sweet girl?ā€ Larissa murmured after taking a seat next you. ā€œAlpha?ā€ Was all you offered as you lulled your head to rest on her shoulder. ā€œMy darling omega, thank you for this blessingā€
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jennifer-jeong Ā· 5 days
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Okay so first, I really love your LnD fics (patiently waiting for more of your amazing works) šŸ„¹šŸ«¶ and hear me out...
Reader who is reincarnated as a Fae being and has been alive since. But the thing is, her wings had been clipped off (with the use of silver chains, meaning she's vulnerable against silver) for a century and is in Linkon city since she feels that part of her (her wings) are somewhere hidden in the city (Think of Maleficent live action ig where her wings were taken from her) and meets the guys and so on :)
HI ANON THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR ASK AND YOUR KIND WORDS FJDSKLAFJSDL;A I APPRECIATE IT SM!! TY FOR INTERACTING!! Iā€™m so glad to hear you like my fics and I promise more are on the way hehehe please do request me again if you have more ideas!!
I hope I did your prompt justice! I definitely did think a lot about maleficent when writing this hehehehe
[Fluff + Angst] [Love and Deepspace Boys x Fae!Reader] Angel
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CONTENT
Angst to fluff, gender neutral reader, mentions of violence, blood, trauma, torture, healing alongside them, mutual pining between you and the boys, happy and open ended endings! ALL CHARACTERS ARE 18+
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Your wings were a pretty and pearly milky white. Your wings resembled those of high flying birds. They were thick enough to allow gliding and also strong enough to give you lots of control in the air. They were iridescent in the sun and carried you high in the bright sky. The air was thin but more refreshing up there. You played with clouds and soared through the endless blue. It was freedom. It made you feel alive, warm.
It was your gift, but unfortunately, it was on someone elseā€™s wishlist.
Youā€™d never been a spiteful being, nor had you ever hurt a fly. But when silver chains ripped your flesh and tore your muscle to take your wings, severing your very soul from your body. When they destroyed your forest, your home, your family, your heart. You swore to make them suffer.
You were powerful and hunting these fools down was nothing difficult for you. The problem was hunting without your wings, your best weapon.
The lack of mobility and being forced to fight on the ground made it so that you could maim the weak ones, but you could never reach the ones who profited off the suffering of you and your people.
Linkon city is where they were. You knew this. You could feel your wings there. You also knew that youā€™d need to hide, figure out who did what and how to get your damn wings back. It would take time, but time was all you had as a fae. Youā€™d do whatever it took to make them pay.
Itā€™d take years, but it was worth it.
2 years later and youā€™ve already made moves to apprehend (and torture) a few key figures, always leaving them in front of the police station when you were done. You still had so much good in you and it always prevented you from killing. But it made you seethe that they were filthy fucking rich from what they stole from your homeland. They sold your resources and displayed your bodies, your wings, like they were trophies. Life was still cold and depressing for you but you did manage to make some friends in Linkon. Theyā€™d even help you with your mission. You only trusted them with the information because they had similar goals.
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XAVIER
Xavier was a local policeman you had met a few decades into your plot when you were hired to help with the case. He was coincidentally also investigating illegal hunters and black markets selling goods stolen from other civilizations such as yours. It was a big ring of crime and he was determined to end the atrocities that were being committed in it. Meeting you was just extra motivation on top of his already relentless drive for justice. You became investigative partners since you were both capable in combat and often investigated the same people anyways.
Xavier was kind, gentle, quiet, and stronger than he let on. He always worked without expectation of reward and you appreciated that. You just wanted justice and he wanted the same. It helped that he didnā€™t seek publicity because it wouldā€™ve made your life harder since you were probably wanted as a vigilante from before. Xavier taught you his philosophies and you realized youā€™d been consumed by your desire for revenge, unable to enjoy life outside of it. You admired him for his morals, so you learned from him, and it made you two grow closer. He was more than happy to help, it was so rewarding to see you slowly become your bubbly self that he guesses you lost a long time ago.
He had his suspicions that you might be fae. The man was smart but he played his cards carefully, he always held them close. He acted aloof with you and pretended to not constantly stare at the back of your shirt, trying to see if you had imprints of missing wings on your shoulder blades. He also figured that your motivation for wanting to crack these cases came from somewhere. If he also managed to figure out that youā€™d been behind some of the previous mysterious arrests, heā€™d turn a blind eye. He knew your actions werenā€™t crimes. He felt glad that you got them back for what they did to you and your people.
After a few years of planned raids and dozens of arrests, one of the recovered items from the warehouse was a beautiful pair of wings. Still buzzing with magic, craving to feel the wind again. You felt them when they were being transported to the police HQ. The surge of energy that continued to approach you made you hold your breath and bounce your leg out of pure anxiety. Xavier put a hand on your shoulder to try to calm you down. Heā€™d already figured out what was going on just by looking at you. You didnā€™t need to say a word. It was something that slowly came naturally since you two spent so much time together. You smiled and he smiled warmly back. You were in the middle of panicking because Xavier was still touching you when you were presented with your missing soul, your wings. You requested to view the ā€œevidenceā€ privately with Xavier and wasted no time in feeling your delicate wings with your fingertips again.
Xavier stood behind you, his right hand found its way to your upper back. He finally traced the outlines of your cut wings. It made you gasp at first, but you trusted him. As he continued to feel them, you shivered. They were scars, they were more sensitive. He stepped to your side and you turned to partially face him, his hand sliding off of you. You looked into his eyes and your longstanding feelings for Xavier were making their presence known by heating up your face, flushing your cheeks. You swore you saw a slight tinge of red on the tips of his ears too. He spoke to you in his familiar voice that you loved so much. He decided to tease you slightly.
ā€œI think I always knew that youā€™d have wings, you were too perfect to not be an angel.ā€
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ZAYNE
Zayne was a surgeon youā€™d met one day when he treated your wounds since you collapsed outside the hospital. He discovered the scars where your wings used to sit on your back. You were high off the morphine when he checked your back for more injuries so you barely even realized.
He questioned you but not in the way you expected. You thought he wouldnā€™t know what they were or try to take advantage of you. But instead he asked what you knew about the hunters that took your wings. He already knew exactly what happened to you just by looking. He was involved in cracking down on research related to Fae and Lemurians since there were people trying to fuse their genetics with these races to gain their beneficial traits such as immortality.
He knew some things you didnā€™t know and vice versa. You both began working on this together, investigating research facilities, interrogating suspects, and fighting only when needed. You were unstoppable and the law didnā€™t plan to ask you to let up. You both hand delivered them collectors and shadowy figures that had hid from the police for so long. When you fought, Zayne could both heal and attack from afar while you rushed them head on. You were unafraid because you believed in your partner, your trust in Zayne only grew as the years went on.
Early on, Zayne encouraged you to let go of the spite, the revenge. You knew he was right when he said that they did not benefit you in this. He saw the rage in you and could see that it was hurting you, mentally and physically. You listened, you knew better. You stopped the relentless tortures and instead, let the collectors rot in jail, but not before you got in a few good punches. Zayne watched you slowly come out of your shell again, actually taking the time to enjoy the little things in life instead of being hyper focused on revenge. Heā€™d be lying if he said you werenā€™t one of the most rewarding patients heā€™d ever had.
Working with your partner was definitely quite the rollercoaster. He was always so professional and mature but would also randomly tease you as if you were kids, albeit with a fully deadpan expression. Zayne was reserved and often came off as cold but he made you so warm. You knew he was an extremely compassionate and kind person under his exterior and you admired him for it. Zayne also adored you in the same way. You had gone through so much pain and suffering but you still smiled and shined like the sun.
Over time you adapted to live without your wings but after one specific raid on a collectorā€™s mansion, you knew exactly what the collectorā€™s prized possession was because it belonged to you. You could feel your wings. They still surged with energy and upon seeing them when you went to do follow up investigation, you immediately called to them. They flew towards you and you inspected them, almost not believing the scene in front of you. Zayne stayed close ready to support you, especially if you were to fuse with your wings again, he knew itā€™d be hard to keep them hidden and itā€™d just bring up so much previous trauma.
You turned to face him slowly, leaving your wings behind you. You hesitated. Not letting your wings fuse with you yet. Zayne looked into your eyes, trying to comfort you with his presence. After a few seconds, Zayne held out his hand, you took it. His skin was cold but somehow it made yours burn, the heat spreading through your body as your face warmed up. He spoke quietly to you, telling you to take your time. You closed your eyes and took deep breaths, your thumb slowly caressing the back of Zayne's hand as he did the same back.
Zayne had always been good at comforting you with his words, maybe it just came naturally since he was a doctor. Regardless, you knew it was exactly what you needed right now. You didnā€™t know what youā€™d do after you got your wings back. Would you go home? Would you continue this mission with Zayne? Would having your wings make it harder? Would it make it easier? You confided in Zayne as you spoke your thoughts out loud. Once you were done, you were overwhelmed and he could tell. He started his reply with a sentence that filled you with warmth, hope, and a little bit of giddiness. He speaks, teasing you a bit at the end, his face flushing.
ā€œIt doesnā€™t matter what you are or if you have the wings or not, youā€™re beautiful and you should follow your heartā€¦ especially if itā€™s here.ā€
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RAFAYEL
Rafayel was a painter ā€œlooking for art or inspirationā€ that you met at an underground event where illegal goods were being sold, but you quickly figured out it was a front. Rafayel was a Lemurian, you sensed it immediately since you werenā€™t human. As a fae you had the ability to sense certain things, and so did Rafayel. Upon meeting each other at an art exhibition, you quickly exchanged information and agreed to meet up again the next day. You almost simultaneously revealed that you were both after the hunters that destroyed your homes when you finally got to chat alone.
The two of you start to frequent more underground events, both of you being well connected and hiding your true intentions very well. You use the events to gather information and then put your plans into action when your targets are alone. It worked amazingly well, you were both extremely skilled and efficient at what you did. It slowly chipped away at this network that shamelessly destroyed your beautiful homes.
Rafayel was a bit of a loose cannon. The man was so sweet and bashful one second and deadly serious the next. He was so gentle with you but didnā€™t hesitate when there was business that needed to be done. He could easily switch it on and off too. You were just glad you were on his side of this war.
Both you and Rafayel were out for revenge but something about your partnership changed you two. You both slowly helped each other heal, confiding your worries and traumas in each other. You were still both ruthless when it came to apprehending the people who did you wrong but the tortures stopped and the warmth returned outside of the violence. You two actually started to make good memories and live life instead of just trying to survive. Youā€™d often watch the sunset over the ocean together, it was peaceful and youā€™d chat about anything and everything.
Eventually, after dozens of raids and missions, Rafayel finds weapons that used to belong to his family at the same time you find your wings again. You kept quiet until the mission was done, knowing you could feel your wings but not wanting to startle Rafayel. You looked at the weapons with him, you put your hand on his back to show your support for him. His eyes stayed glued on the knives and his face was a painful melancholic expression. You rubbed circles into his upper back with your thumb, hoping it could ease some of the pain caused by resurfacing memories.
After ensuring that the weapons would be sent to his personal studio, he continues to explore the mansion with you, following you while you find your wings. You communicated to him about your wings and he knew this would be tough for you too but you were both glad you had each other in this moment.
When you saw your wings in a display case at the end of one of the hallways, you bit back tears. It was a lot to take in. You passed millions of dollars worth of paintings to reach the most priceless thing in this whole building. Rafayel lags slightly behind you, wanting to give you a moment. You turn to face him, telling him that you donā€™t know if you want the wings back or not. Would they make you complete again? They canā€™t bring anyone back, canā€™t take away the pain. You couldnā€™t hide them like Rafayel could hide his true form, would it be a nuisance?
Rafayel makes his way towards you as you ramble, clearly distressed. He quickly envelopes you in a hug, letting you cry lightly into his chest, a painting of Lucifer on the wall next to you. You stay like that for a while. When he finally pulls back, he cups your face with his hands. You were his fallen angel, he wasnā€™t always great with his words but he truly spoke from the heart when comforting you like this.
ā€œYou never needed these wings to be complete, youā€™re ethereal with or without them. Youā€™ll always be my angel, no matter what.ā€
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kingofbodyrolls Ā· 4 months
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Learn to Love Again (m) | myg
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Summary: People always leave. They become beautiful stars shining bright in the night sky. When life hands you lemons, youā€™ve been told to make lemonade, but that is hard when your soul and heart is breaking apart. When you rescue a tiny cat and meet a handsome stranger in the cafe, you finally feel yourself healing ā€“ but when they too leave, how are you going to learn to love again?
Pairing: Yoongi x reader (female, mainly called pet names so no ā€˜Y/Nā€™).
AU + genres: Hybrid!au (shapeshifter!yoongi), strangers to lovers, slice of life, heavy angst, a lot of sadness and grief (Iā€™m sorry!), dark vibes, smut and fluff and some humor sprinkled in there too.Ā 
Rating: Mature/explicit/R18 ā€“ this is mature/explicit content, so minors, please do not interact.
Word count: 19,4K
Disclaimer: I do not own BTS or know them personally and this work of fiction is purely fictional and for entertainment purposes only. The actions and personalities described in the story do not reflect those of BTSā€” itā€™s just fiction. Also, if you would kindly read the tags/warnings before reading, that would be lovely: and if you donā€™t like whatever is described in the tags, just hit return and find something else to read. Thank you šŸŒø
Warnings (general) + triggers: Heavy angst, extreme heavy sadness and grief, death of minor characters, mention of previous character death (parents and siblings), mentions of su*cide, mention of m*rder, su*cidal thoughts. Mention of past car accident. Mention of past domestic abuse. Mirrors šŸ‘€šŸ‘€
Warnings (explicit): unprotected sex (please stay safe!), choking, oral (female receiving), nipple and breasts play, one-time use of a degrading word (otherwise petname), hair pulling ā€“ I guess itā€™s pretty vanilla with a slight sprinkle of spice šŸ¤­
Authorā€™s noteĀ  (1): I know it sounds hella sad (and it is), but it is also very sweet and heartwarming too šŸ’œ I wanted to venture into the darker stuff again, and embrace all the feelings and sadness that I felt a few weeks ago (Iā€™m fine, well Iā€™m getting through it at least).Ā 
If you are triggered by any of the warnings, I suggest that you skip this. Itā€™s not that explicit though, but the heavy subjects are still there and they feature in it a lot.
Also, the quote ā€œpeople always leaveā€ features a lot in this and I only now realize why I find it so familiar ā€“ itā€™s a famous quote from Peyton Sawyer from One Tree Hill.
Author's noteĀ  (2): Itā€™s only partly edited, so Iā€™m so sorry about any mistakes or weird wordings (English is also not my mother language). When I read it again, I felt sad and like the whole thing is crap (why do I also feel like this adgadfjkhs), BUT, I still like it, itā€™s a piece of my heart in thereā€¦ I canā€™t just let it sit in my docs to collect dust. So ā€“ Iā€™ll just post it early and never look at the thing again (expect for the cover, because damn Iā€™m so happy with how that turned out šŸ„¹).
Taglist: @keshiadeija @viankiss @hopefulrascalstatesmantoad If you prefer to read on AO3 you can also find it there šŸ™‚
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The heavens are weeping again, unleashing a torrential downpour that drums heavy on the windows. Just like the heavy beating of your heart and the tears that just wonā€™t stop falling down your cheeks.
For days now, the world has languished in this disquiet, a foreboding atmosphere that has draped itself over every moment, casting a shadow even before the haunting ring of the call that echoed through the silence.
A searing, heart-wrenching call that etched itself into the fabric of your existence, standing out as one of the most agonizing moments life has ever dared to deliver.
Caught off guard by the unexpected twist of fate, it blindsided you, sending shockwaves through your core and leaving you utterly rattled, as if the very ground beneath your feet had shifted without warning.
Your conviction in her well-being crumbled as swiftly as a sandcastle against the tide.
In your last encounter, she radiated joyā€”her infectious happiness casting a brilliant glow over her words as she spoke about her new job, her blossoming romance, and her boundless love for life.
A tear, heavy with the weight of the contrast between then and now, traces a lonely path down your cheek.
The echo of her laughter, the sparkle in her eyes, and the unbridled excitement that made her hands tremble with anticipation haunted your memories.Ā 
It's a heart-wrenching juxtaposition between the happiness she projected and the sorrow now etched into the fabric of your own emotions.
She wasn't just a friend; she was your confidante, a steadfast companion through the labyrinth of years and experiences. Your best friend.
In the tapestry of your friendship, she emerged as the resplendent thread, the one who consistently outshone the rest.Ā 
Even on her darkest days, she radiated a brilliance that surpassed the ordinary, a celestial glow that left an indelible mark on your heart. To you, she wasn't just a friend; she was a luminous star, a breathtaking celestial entity whose untimely descent felt like a cosmic supernova, casting a blinding light that left everyone in its wake awestruck and forever changed.
Like a thunderbolt from a clear sky, the day she chose to end her own life blindsided everyone.Ā 
The abruptness of her decision, the finality of calling it quits, left a haunting question echoing in the hollow chambers of your soulā€”why?Ā 
The puzzle remains unsolved, the enigma of her despair a perplexing maze you can't navigate. Outwardly, her life seemed like a canvas painted in hues of contentment, yet the invisible struggles eluded comprehension.Ā 
Despite the deep conversations that usually wove through the tapestry of your friendship, the darkness she harbored never surfaced in her words. Her choice to shroud her pain in silence remains an unfathomable mystery, a tragic paradox that still elicits a profound sense of bewilderment.
The haunting ā€˜what ifā€™ lingers, an elusive specter of regretā€”what if she had shared her struggles with you?Ā 
The possibility that your words could have been a lifeline is an uncharted sea of sorrow. The uncertainty, the unfulfilled potential for intervention, claws at your conscience like a relentless tempest.
In the wake of this unanswered plea for connection, tears cascade down your cheeks, each drop bearing the weight of unspoken conversations. The dampness on your collarbone, where your shirt clings uncomfortably, is a tangible reminder of the storm within.Ā 
A mere few days have crawled by since that fateful call, the kind that alters the very fabric of reality.Ā 
The echo of your friend's voice reverberates through your memoryā€”a seismic revelation that shattered your world. As the words unfolded, you crumpled to the floor, the phone nearly slipping from your trembling grasp.
A gasp caught in your throat, a palpable surge of emotion crashing over you like a tidal wave.
In that harrowing moment, your heartbeat quickened, each thud resonating with the weight of sorrow and anger. The air itself seemed to constrict, tainted with the bitter aftertaste of an impending storm. The onslaught of emotions clawed at your chest, a tumultuous dance between sadness and anger, each one vying for dominance in the chaotic symphony of your soul.
Powerlessness wraps around you like a suffocating shroud, the absence of your brightest star leaving a void that seems insurmountable.Ā 
In this moment of staggering loss, the future unfolds as a vast expanse of uncertainty. How do you navigate a world without the radiant glow she once brought to your existence?
Yet, as the weight of grief presses down, a resilient ember flickers within. Acknowledging the inexorable march of time, you realize that her memory, like a cherished constellation, will be a guiding light in the night sky of your life.Ā 
In the tapestry of your emotions, she, alongside your parents, becomes one of the celestial beacons you look up to during moments of sorrow or when life's burdens become too overwhelming.
You step out onto the balcony, enveloped by the velvety embrace of the dark blue sky.Ā 
The resplendent moon takes center stage, surrounded by a constellation of bright companions that twinkle in the vast expanse of the night. The beauty of the cosmos is a bittersweet solace, a celestial dance that captivates your gaze.
The night sky has always held a captivating allure for you, but in the wake of the profound loss of your parents, it transcends mere beauty.Ā 
It becomes a sanctuary, a cosmic tapestry where memories linger among the stars. Each celestial beacon now carries the weight of cherished moments, transforming the night into a sacred canvas where the brilliance of your loved ones continues to shine, casting a radiant glow that lingers in the quiet moments of contemplation.
The subtle hum of your phone reverberates in your hand, a clandestine messenger that disrupts the tranquility of your thoughts, setting loose a cascade of emotions.Ā 
The screen lights up with a message from a friend, its arrival like a seismic tremor in the landscape of your contemplations, shaking loose the delicate balance you've tried so desperately to maintain.
Yuna [20.31]: Iseulā€™s funeral is on Saturday. Weā€™re all going. U coming?šŸŒ¹
Dread settles in the pit of your stomach like a heavy anchor ā€“ the thought of attending the funeral feels like navigating a tempest of emotions you're not sure you're prepared to weather.Ā 
The prospect of confronting tears, raw emotion, and the grieving presence of her family looms before you, casting a shadow over the already somber occasion.Ā 
Yet, duty intertwines with reluctance; you were her best friend, after all.Ā 
The expectation to pay your respects becomes an unspoken mandate, tugging at the seams of your resolve despite the storm of discomfort that brews within.
Tears have become an unwelcome torrent on your phone, transforming the smooth surface into a slippery terrain that complicates every attempt to type.Ā 
The screen blurs beneath a watery veil, mirroring the tumultuous cascade in your own eyes. Distraction clings to each droplet, making it not only challenging to navigate the phone but also to see through the emotional downpour that clouds your vision.
But against the deluge of sorrow and the weight of grief, you summon the strength for a brief reply, a fragile lifeline tossed into the turbulent sea of emotions.
You [20.46]: YesšŸŒ¹
With a heavy sigh, you gently lay your phone face-down on the nightstand, as if shielding the illuminated screen from the weight of the world you've just momentarily set aside.
How do you navigate this desolate landscape that life has become?Ā 
The void feels more palpable now, a haunting echo of emptiness that had lingered even before.
It's as if the very essence of existence has been drained away, leaving you grappling with the profound question: What is the point when the world around you continues to crumble, and people around you just keep dying?
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At Iseul's funeral, you navigated the somber scene alongside your friend group, bracing for the emotional maelstrom that awaited.Ā 
The atmosphere unfolded exactly as you had anticipated ā€” a tableau of tears, grief-stricken family members, and the embrace of mournful hugs. Conversations echoed with memories of Iseul's radiant spirit, each word a bittersweet tribute to the bright and bubbly soul that once graced your lives.Ā 
Amidst the collective sorrow, the air hung heavy with the weight of loss, weaving a tapestry of emotions that spoke to the indelible impact Iseul had left behind.
It was agonizing, bidding farewell in the harsh reality of acceptance. The harsh truth of life unveiled itself ā€“ an unrelenting cycle of departures.Ā 
Yet, amidst the crushing finality, you find solace in the enduring promise that even though everyone leaves, the stars above will forever bear witness to her presence, a cosmic constellation of memories that will continue to illuminate the canvas of your nights.
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Work persists in its mundane rhythm, the monotony punctuated only by the forced smiles you offer customers as you brew their coffee or recommend delectable treats in the cafe.Ā 
For you, work has forever remained a sterile landscape, devoid of passion or purpose. The unfulfilled yearning for a meaningful career tugs at the edges of your consciousness, a persistent ache exacerbated by life's unrelenting crueltyā€”your unfinished degree in astrophysics stands as a testament to dreams deferred. Maybe youā€™ll go back to school ā€“ you donā€™t know.
Your thoughts are abruptly shattered by a brash intrusion, a manā€™s voice slicing through the ambient noise with an unwarranted familiarity. ā€œHi, pretty,ā€ he drawls, snapping your attention to the present, ā€œcan I get a black coffee, a muffin, and your number, please?ā€Ā 
The audacious request hangs in the air, leaving a charged pause that crackles with a blend of amusement and annoyance.
You stifle a silent scoff, a careful veil to conceal the simmering irritation within, though the indignation is palpable.Ā 
This flirtatious interlude is far from novelā€”far from the first time someone has attempted to weave charm into the fabric of your workday. Yet, a discomforting truth lingers beneath your composed exterior: you disdain these unwarranted advances, a sentiment you've carried with you each time such encounters stain the ordinary canvas of your work.
Forcing a smile that feels more like a fragile mask, you locate a muffin, navigating the familiar routine with practiced efficiency.Ā 
As you approach the coffee machine to craft the requested brew, you gather both items and, with a subtle sigh, slide them across the counter.Ā 
Your words, delivered with a polite cadence, carry a hint of firmness as you say, ā€œHere you go. Apologies, but my number isn't on the menu.ā€
Turning men down has become a skill honed through the crucible of experience, a necessity etched into the fabric of your being, especially after the wreckage of your last relationship.Ā 
It wasn't just a breakup; it was a tempest that left you bruised, not only on the surface but also in the recesses of your soul.Ā 
To declare a dread of relationships, despite the quiet longing that flickers deep within, would be an understatementā€”the mere thought evokes the echoes of a tumultuous past, a cautionary tale etched in both physical and emotional hues of black and blue.
Despite the man's disapproving frown, he begrudgingly parts with his payment, snatching his coffee and muffin.
As he vacates the space, you extend a tight-lipped greeting to the next customer, the forced smile a delicate masquerade concealing the intricacies of emotion churning beneath the surface.
Day after day unfolds in this relentless routine, a relentless loop where, despite the suffocating weight of depression, you muster the strength to haul yourself into work.Ā 
The struggle is an unspoken battle, fought in the silent recesses of your soul, and each morning becomes a victory against the persistent darkness that threatens to engulf your spirit.
You maintain a lifeline to your friends, weaving a narrative of your somber mood and emotional tumult, acutely aware of the significance of vocalizing your feelings rather than succumbing to the perilous grip of silent suffering.
Recent conversations with your friends have taken an unexpected turn, steering into the realm of your dating life or, more accurately, its conspicuous absence.Ā 
Their fervent advocacy for you to reenter the world of romance echoes in your ears, their well-intentioned pleas urging you to cross paths with someone great and amazing.Ā 
However, you find yourself standing at the crossroads of uncertainty, unsure if you're ready to navigate the labyrinth of love once more.Ā 
Despite your reservations, you indulge them, allowing their words to wash over you like a waterfall of unsolicited advice, all the while steadfast in your understanding that a man is not a prerequisite for happiness or the completeness of your lifeā€”you've long recognized your ability to stand firm and flourish on your own terms.
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An entire season has unfurled its tapestry, and while the vast void persists within the caverns of your heart, there's a subtle transformation underway. Amidst the lingering shadows, a sliver of the sun's warm rays threads its way through, gently illuminating the emptiness.Ā 
The caress of warm weather and sunlight manages to coax a faint lift in your mood, a subtle thawing of the emotional frost.Ā 
Yet, amidst the burgeoning warmth, there's a yearning for the crispness of cold, the kind that invites the comfort of wool sweaters and socks, beckoning a desire to cocoon on the couch and lose yourself in the embrace of solitude.
After withstanding the relentless onslaught of your friends' persistent prodding into the realm of your love life, you've yielded to the chorus of their well-meaning badgering. With a mixture of trepidation and curiosity, you've made the bold decision to reenter the intricate dance of the dating game.
The prospect of discovering 'the one' remains shrouded in uncertainty, a delicate balance between the promise of profound connection and the potential peril of heartache from those who might not treat you right.Ā 
However, the ambiguity of the journey doesn't deter your resolve. To remain passive is to forfeit the chance at something extraordinary.Ā 
The echoes of Iseul and the silent encouragement from your departed parents reverberate, urging you to embrace life with all its intricate hues. Their unwritten wish for your happiness becomes the compass guiding your path, compelling you to take the plunge and give it your all.
You yearn for a life where the pursuit of happiness isn't punctuated by the haunting inevitability of departures and loss. You grasp the harsh truth that people leaving or departing through death is an inescapable facet of existence, a relentless current in the river of life.Ā 
Yet, the recurring tide of sorrow that washes over you each time someone departs feels burdensome, a weight that anchors your spirit. It would be a cherished reprieve if the ebb and flow of life's transitions didn't carry with it a relentless undertow that threatens to drag you down each time.
Your dating escapades have unfolded like a series of misadventures, each rendezvous more perplexing than the last.Ā 
One suitor wielded an aggressive tone that eclipsed any potential connection, while another was so absorbed in self-interest that your voice seemed but an echo in the conversation. Then there was the one who sought solace in your company to mend a broken heart, an unwitting participant in their quest for emotional repair.
With every disappointing encounter, your hopes wane like the dying embers of a once-bright flame. Yet, undeterred, you persist in the pursuit of connection, a resilient soul navigating the unpredictable seas of dating with unwavering determination.
Amidst the tumultuous sea of advice from your friends, the suggestion of a night out clubbing emerges as a potential remedy to jumpstart your dating lifeā€”a one-night stand, a shortcut to reclaiming agency over your love life.Ā 
However, the proposition fails to align with the essence of who you are. The neon-lit allure of the club scene doesn't resonate with your soul, and the idea of a fleeting encounter doesn't hold the promise you seek.Ā 
Nonetheless, you find yourself engulfed in a pulsating sea of sound, the music in the club roaring, the bass reverberating through the floor and into your bones.Ā 
The atmosphere is a maelstrom of heat and sweat, a suffocating embrace that intensifies your regret for being there.Ā 
Yuna, exuding an air of confidence, takes charge and orders a round of drinks for the group. Meanwhile, Nari's eyes scan the lively chaos of the club, a vigilant matchmaker on a mission to uncover potential matches for you.
Her finger extends with a pointed certainty toward a mysterious figureā€”a dark-haired man sporting a sleeveless shirt, the canvas of his arm adorned with an intricate tattoo sleeve. His dark eyes, scanning the crowded expanse of the club, carry an enigmatic intensity, hinting at a captivating allure that goes beyond the surface.
Your laughter carries a blend of amusement and skepticism as you dismissively remark, ā€œNah, he's giving off major fuckboy vibes.ā€
Amidst the cacophony of pounding music in the club, Nari practically shouts in your face, her words punctuating the beat as she insists, ā€œMaybe that's exactly what you need!ā€Ā 
The intensity of her proclamation, a fervent plea for spontaneity, reverberates in the air, a challenge thrown into the whirlwind of the night's possibilities.
You shake your head, a firm yet polite rejection lingering on your lips, ā€œNo, thank you.ā€Ā 
Just as the tension subsides, Yuna appears with a tray of drinks, a timely distraction. Gratefully, you accept your drink, savoring the sweet and sour concoction that dances across your palate, momentarily providing respite from the charged atmosphere of the club.
The night unfolds in a rhythm of measured indulgenceā€”a few drinks to chase a gentle buzz, steering clear of the edge of intoxication. Your gaze scans the crowd in search of potential matches, but amidst the pulsating lights and swirling music, none captures the elusive spark that ignites a genuine interest.
As the night deepens and the rhythm of the club starts to fade, you bid farewell to your friends, the weight of the evening settling in your bones.Ā 
Stepping out into the nocturnal air, you're greeted by the relentless cascade of rain, a torrential downpour that catches you off guard. Damn it, you realize, a surge of annoyance coursing through you, you didn't bring an umbrella.
Embracing a sudden burst of defiance, you make a split-second decision, a resolute ā€˜fuck itā€™ echoing in your mind.Ā 
Stepping onto the sidewalk without the shelter of an umbrella, you surrender to the unrelenting rain. In mere moments, your hair clings to your skin, and your clothes succumb to the downpour.
As you navigate the labyrinth of alleys and pass by numerous apartments, a peculiar low noise infiltrates the ambient hum of the rain. What is that sound?Ā 
It's a subtle yet persistent calling that arrests your movements, compelling you to strain your senses in an attempt to decipher its origin.Ā 
It's not just your slightly tipsy mind, is it, playing tricks on you?Ā 
The cadence of the noise feels like a desperate plea, an ethereal call for help that beckons you into a mysterious dance between reality and the unknown.
Undeterred by the absence of street lamps, you navigate a shadowy alleyway nestled between looming apartment complexes. The darkness cloaks the path ahead, but you press on, an intrepid explorer drawn to the mystery that lies beyond the veil of obscurity.Ā 
As you draw nearer, the enigmatic noise crescendos in intensity, a haunting melody that pierces the quiet of the alley.Ā 
Your steps quicken, and with each stride, the source becomes clearer. Could it be emanating from the depths of the dumpster?
A sense of dĆ©jĆ  vu wraps around you, as if this eerie scene has been lifted from a cinematic reel. The dilemma tugs at your curiosity, tempting you to peer into the abyss of the dumpster, a choice that hangs in the balance.Ā 
Yet, before you make a decision, a glimmer of relief washes over you.Ā 
Nestled snugly beside the dumpster, a small ball of fur captivates your attention, its presence a stark contrast to the ominous shadows.Ā 
A silhouette emerges from the darkness, and as you inch closer, the mystery unfolds into a shivering, meowing figureā€”a black cat.Ā 
The frailness of the tiny creature tugs at your heartstrings, and you find yourself hunching down, extending a tentative invitation with soft calls, coaxing the small, ebony bundle to bridge the gap between its vulnerability and your outstretched hand.
The black cat fixes its gaze upon you, eyes mirroring a blend of uncertainty and wariness, as if it's attempting to decipher the intentions behind your outstretched hand.Ā 
The black cat stirs from its initial hesitation, uttering plaintive meows that seem to echo its distress. As it rises, the stark reality becomes evidentā€”malnourished and shrouded in fear, it moves tentatively towards you. Each step seems to echo a history of abandonment and struggle. With aching slowness, the feline inches closer, navigating the wet ground with trepidation.Ā 
Softly, you beckon the malnourished feline closer, the words ā€œCome here, you poor thingā€ carrying an invitation laced with compassion.Ā 
As the tiny creature inches nearer, its pitch-black eyes become an intense focal point, a gaze that transcends the physical realm, peering into the depths of your soul. In that poignant exchange, a silent pact formsā€”an unspoken promise of comfort and understanding between two beings, each seeking solace in the other's company.
As the fragile black cat draws near, an echo from your past resurfacesā€”the cautionary words of your mother reverberating in your mind. ā€˜Black cats bring omen and death,ā€™ her voice, etched in childhood memories, had warned.Ā 
Yet, confronted with the stark vulnerability of this shivering, lost creature in the cold summer rain, you find your resolve tested.Ā 
Against the weight of your mother's superstitions, compassion prevails, and you make a conscious decision to offer refuge. You havenā€™t got anything else to lose, but yourself.
The cat's purrs resonate in the quiet alley, a melodic response to the tentative connection forming between you. Meows become a symphony of trust as it finally caresses your hand, a delicate dance of vulnerability.Ā 
With a newfound intimacy, it leans into your touch, climbing up your arm to find refuge in your lap. Despite your jacket's damp embrace, you pull the shivering creature closer, enfolding it tightly against your chest.
ā€œIā€™ll take you home and get you some food.ā€
Rising from the damp alley, you cradle the tiny black cat in your arms, an intimate embrace that transcends the physicality of the moment. As you navigate the journey home, each step becomes a testament to the newfound connectionā€”its fragile heartbeat resonating against your chest.
As you finally reach the sanctuary of your home, both you and the shivering cat are thoroughly drenched from the relentless rain.Ā 
With a twist of the key, you unlock the door to your small apartment, ushering in a breath of warmth that contrasts sharply with the damp chill outside.Ā 
In a choreography of relief, you kick off your sodden shoes, the cat nestled at your feet. Unburdened by the weight of the rain-soaked coat, you hang it on the rack, a visual symbol of the transition from the stormy world outside to the comforting refuge within the four walls of your home.
ā€œI'll find you a towel and dry you off,ā€ you promise to the cat, your words a tender reassurance before your feet. With a sense of urgency, you hasten to the bathroom, a quest for a towel becoming a mission to provide comfort to your newfound companion.
As you return, traces of wet footprints mark the path from the entryway to your living room, leading to the sight of the cat perched regally on your couch.Ā 
The unexpected image elicits a sense of awe within you, a silent marvel at the fortuitous encounter that has unfolded. With the fluffy towel in hand, you join the tiny creature on the couch.
With gentle strokes, you tenderly dry the cat with the fluffy towel, the rhythmic purrs and meows resonating like a melody of gratitude.Ā 
In this intimate act of care, a bond forms between you and the feline, its response a testament to the shared understanding that has quietly blossomed.Ā 
The dampness of the storm may linger outside, but within the confines of your home, a warmth permeates, forged through the simple yet profound act of offering comfort to a fragile soul.
Persistently, the cat continues its chorus of meows, its nearly obsidian eyes fixed on you with an intensity that transcends mere feline curiosity. In the silent exchange, a profound question lingers in the airā€”what does it want?Ā 
The gaze carries an almost pleading quality, an unspoken plea that invites you to unravel the mysteries hidden within those enigmatic eyes, and in doing so, embark on a journey of connection and understanding with this small, mysterious soul.
A revelation flickers in your mind like a sudden burst of lightā€”food!Ā 
The realization washes over you, and a spark of understanding illuminates the unspoken hunger behind those pleading eyes. ā€œYou're starving, ain't ya?ā€ you murmur, the words a bridge between the two of you, an acknowledgment of shared needs and the beginning of a silent commitment to provide not just shelter but sustenance to this small, hungry soul.
In a hurried dance between care and necessity, you dart into the kitchen, swinging open the fridge door to unleash a blast of cold air.Ā 
The realization that your wet clothes might lead to an impending cold nudges at you, urging a brief pause for self-care. As you contemplate changing into dry attire, the cat, now a nimble companion, weaves around your feet, a symphony of meows echoing its anticipation of the impending feast.
As your gaze sweeps across the contents of the fridge, a flurry of questions dance in your mindā€”what do cats like?Ā 
In a moment of culinary improvisation, you spot the remnants of yesterday's fish. A hopeful assumption takes holdā€”cats like fish, right?Ā 
Without a second thought, you snatch the container, crack it open, and ceremoniously place it on the floor.Ā 
The cat descends upon the fish with a voracity that borders on desperation, consuming it in a whirlwind of seconds.Ā 
You observe in silent fascination as the cat devours the fish with an almost primal fervor, each bite a testament to the depth of its hunger.
As the cat lifts its gaze, those dark, fond eyes fixate on you, a silent expression of gratitude that transcends words, forging a connection that lingers in the air like the sweet aftertaste of an unexpected bond.
You retrieve a bowl, fill it with water, and place it on the floor. The cat, having satisfied its hunger, wastes no time. It immediately dips its tongue into the water, each lap a testament to the thirst that had accompanied its hunger.Ā 
In the quiet aftermath of the cat's meal, you find yourself engaged in a one-sided conversation. While it laps up the water, you speak to it with a hint of longing, as if expecting the feline to reveal its name with a mere glance. ā€œI don't know what your name isā€¦ā€ you muse aloud, your words hanging in the air like a silent plea for connection.Ā 
In the exchange, a profound yearning takes rootā€”a desire not just to care for this creature but to unravel the mystery that shrouds it, beginning with the revelation of a name.
Hmm... A whimsical idea takes shape in your mind, and with a voice full of hope, you share your musings with the feline companion. ā€œI don't know, maybe I'll give you one!ā€ you exclaim, the words tinged with the excitement of a newfound connection.
Testing the waters, you propose a couple of names with a hopeful lilt in your voice. ā€œShadow?ā€ you venture, eyes fixated on the cat, seeking any flicker of recognition.Ā 
Yet, met with a stoic demeanor, you playfully offer another option, ā€œLicorice?ā€Ā 
A soft chuckle escapes your lips, but the cat remains unfazed, engrossed in its culinary pursuits.Ā 
Embracing a sudden surge of inspiration, you think of a name that dances on the edges of whimsy and mischief. ā€œYou look like a 'Loki,' like a God of Mischief!ā€ The words tumble out with a playful chuckle, a nod to the elusive charm that shrouds the feline.Ā 
To your surprise, the cat interrupts its feast, casting what seems like a dumbfounded expression your way.Ā 
A moment of shared acknowledgment hangs in the air before the cat resumes its meal, leaving you to wonder if, in that fleeting pause, you've glimpsed the spark of recognition in its enigmatic eyes.
An impromptu burst of enthusiasm seizes you, and with an abrupt yell, you christen the cat in a moment of whimsy. ā€œKitten!ā€Ā 
The exclamation is so sudden that it startles the cat, prompting a small leap in surprise. ā€œThat's your name. You're so small, like a little kitten,ā€ you playfully jest, mimicking the affectionate cooing one might give to a baby.Ā 
In the imaginary realm where cats understand human whims, you half-expect a hypothetical eye-roll, as if the creature were a miniature human indulging in the theatrics of a quirky naming ceremony.
In the wake of your spontaneous naming ceremony, Kitten darts away, a streak of fur and energy leaving you in its playful wake. A fleeting attempt to follow its swift movements reveals the futility of keeping pace with this agile companion.
An earnest plea escapes your lips, ā€œNo, don't run away, Kitten!ā€ A plea that halts not far from your bedroom, where a sudden idea takes root. ā€œWe're going to bed, and you can even sleep in my bed.ā€ The promise hangs in the air, an invitation that sparks the cat's curiosity.Ā 
Without hesitation, Kitten races back to you, weaving through your legs and darting into the bedroom. It watches itself in the mirror in front of your bed, before it in a graceful leap, lands on the bed, transforming this impromptu offer into a shared moment of warmth and companionship.
A soft chuckle escapes you as Kitten, with a graceful twirl, transforms into a snug, fluffy black ball. It settles onto the bed, a picture of contentment and trust, the rhythmic rise and fall of its breathing echoing in the room.Ā 
In the sanctuary of your bathroom, the day's residue fades away as you delicately remove stained makeup and indulge in your nightly skincare rituals.Ā 
With a sense of quiet reverence, you return to the bedroom, mindful not to disrupt Kitten's serene repose. Nestled in bed, you prop yourself up, the rhythmic routine a prelude to the tranquility that envelops the room.Ā 
As you surrender to the embrace of sleep, the ethereal presence of the black cat becomes a silent companion in the journey between waking and dreams, a guardian of the night's secrets.
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In the intimate company of Kitten, you find solace in the honesty of your own reflection. ā€œHe wasn't really for me, Kitten. I don't know why I keep going on these dates. They amount to nothing.ā€ A sigh punctuates your admission, a subtle echo of the unspoken search for connection that seems elusive in the realm of human encounters.Ā 
As you delve into a shared meal with your newfound family member ā€“ Kitten, you stuff your face with delicious food in an attempt to keep your minds off your failing romantic life.
Kitten responds to your words with a series of gentle meows, a seemingly agreeable chorus that resonates in the room.Ā 
Over the past few days, he has transformed into an impeccable listener, absorbing the tapestry of your thoughts with silent grace.Ā 
In the quiet moments of your soliloquies, a yearning surfacesā€”a desire for more than a feline confidant, for words that echo back with advice and wisdom.Ā 
Yet, despite this unfulfilled wish, Kitten's silent companionship remains a source of profound comfort, his presence weaving seamlessly into the fabric of your daily life, a testament to the unexpected connections that emerge in the quiet interludes of solitude.
Consistent as the rhythm of a heartbeat, Kitten is there, a patient sentinel awaiting your return from the hustle of the day.Ā 
His presence becomes a cherished routine, an embodiment of comfort that transcends the mundanity of the everyday.Ā 
As you settle in front of the television, Kitten gracefully claims his place in your lap, his form snuggling into the contours of your warmth.Ā 
The scene unfolds like a silent ballet, a dance between two beings finding solace in the quietude of shared momentsā€”a testament to the profound bond that has blossomed in the intimate spaces of your daily life.
On a day marked by what you'd deem a successful date, you decide to bring the guy home to your apartment.Ā 
Kitten welcomes you with joyous meows, but the moment his obsidian eyes lock onto the man, a palpable shift occurs.Ā 
The cat's once-hospitable demeanor morphs into a display of territorial assertionā€”he hisses, claws unsheathed, a guardian of the sacred space that has become both haven and sanctuary.
Unfazed by Kitten's display of discontent, the man follows you into the bedroom, a trail of unresolved tension lingering in the air. However, as you attempt to navigate the fragile balance between human relationships and the silent protests of your feline confidant, Kitten stalks in with palpable anger.Ā 
Kitten's claws assert their protest on the man's pants, a silent plea echoing through the room. ā€œI'm so sorry about my cat. He's not usually like this,ā€ you hastily apologize, attempting to navigate the tumultuous intersection of human connection and feline territoriality.Ā 
In the midst of the uneasy dance, the guy gently guides you down onto the bed, a kiss bridging the gap between words left unsaid and the uncharted landscapes of desire.
In an unforeseen twist, Kitten catapults onto the bed, launching a surprise attack on the poor man's back with unbridled ferocity.Ā 
The room erupts with a sudden commotion as the guy yells in pain, Kitten swiftly retreating to the shelter of your startled embrace.
Frustration and pain tinge the man's voice as he vehemently declares, ā€œFuck this. This isn't worth it! Your cat is a fucking psycho!ā€Ā 
The words hang in the air, a bitter testament to the unexpected turbulence that has unraveled in the wake of Kitten's feline intervention.Ā 
With an angry storm, the man storms out of your bedroom and through the front door, leaving behind a charged atmosphere and the unresolved echoes of a connection unraveling at the seams.
As the storm of emotions settles, Kitten finds solace in your lap, a contented purr resonating through the roomā€”a feline sovereign basking in the aftermath of his territorial triumph.Ā 
Meanwhile, you remain seated, mouth agape, an image of stunned disbelief etched across your face.Ā 
You address Kitten with a scolding tone, attempting to impart a sense of reprimand into the air. ā€œYou can't do that, Kitten!ā€ you assert, a firmness in your voice attempting to breach the language barrier between human and feline.
Amidst the aftermath, a hesitant chuckle escapes your lips, a soft attempt to diffuse the tension that lingers in the air. ā€œAlso, you're gonna leave me single forever if you do that,ā€ you jest, the words bearing the weight of both humor and a subtle unease.Ā 
In the ambiguous space between laughter and contemplation, you grapple with the conflicting emotions stirred by Kitten's unexpected display of protectivenessā€”a complex blend of gratitude, amusement, and the uncharted territories of understanding the intricate dynamics of companionship with a creature whose language transcends the boundaries of words.
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A solitary figure with raven-black hair occupies a corner table in the cafe, his presence shrouded in an air of quiet mystery that tugs at the edges of your memory.Ā 
Intrigued, you've stolen glances at him, an unspoken connection sparking curiosity within you.Ā 
The man, seemingly lost in a world of words and sketches within the pages of his journal, emanates a strange familiarity that dances on the fringes of your consciousness.Ā 
As he sips on his coffee, a poignant picture of solitude and anticipation, you can't help but wonder about the untold story woven into the fabric of his contemplative gaze. Perhaps he's a poet awaiting inspiration, or maybe, like you, he's caught in the delicate dance of anticipation, waiting for someone who may never arrive.
His long, pitch-black hair cascades in soft curls, framing a face adorned with dark, expressive eyes. The fair and creamy complexion of his skin, paired with lips tinged with the aftermath of fervent bites, adds an air of mystery to his features. His hands, adorned with prominent veins, move with purpose across the pages of his journal, translating the thoughts within his mind into tangible strokes. Clad in a black leather biker jacket and ripped jeans, he emanates a ā€˜bad boyā€™ allure that might not align with your usual preferences, yet there's an undeniable handsomeness that transcends the surface. As you observe, the truth unfoldsā€”looks can be deceiving, you know.
As the hands of the clock inch towards the conclusion of your shift, you notice the enigmatic man with the pitch-black hair has vanished, leaving only the echo of his presence lingering in the now vacant corner.Ā 
The air is charged with the unspoken allure of an encounter that slipped through the fingers of time.Ā 
Packing up your belongings, you carry the weight of curiosity with you as you embark on the journey home, where the enigmatic enigma of Kitten awaits.
Kitten, sensing your return, greets you with a symphony of affectionate meows. Your hand instinctively reaches out, weaving a tapestry of gentle pats and strokes, an unspoken language shared between human and feline. With a contented sigh escaping your lips, you murmur, ā€œHappy to be home.ā€
In the quiet sanctuary of your apartment, you find yourself recounting the day's enigmatic encounter to Kitten, the words lingering in the air like a shared secret between kindred spirits. ā€œI saw the loneliest guy today, Kitten. It felt like he was waiting for someone, but destiny stood him up.ā€Ā 
As the words escape your lips, Kitten's attentive gaze reflects an unspoken understanding, a silent pact shared between you and your feline confidant.
Your fingers delicately dance behind Kitten's ears, a gesture that elicits a symphony of contented purrs, resonating within the confines of your quiet haven.Ā 
The next day unfolds like a familiar scene, the cafe's atmosphere steeped in the aroma of coffee and the rustle of pages turning.Ā 
Once again, the mysterious black-haired man graces the corner with his presence, accompanied by a steaming cup of coffee and the enigmatic dance of his pen across the pages of his journal.Ā 
Your curiosity, a flame flickering in the recesses of your thoughts, draws you to the edge of decision ā€” to approach and unravel the mysteries that cloak him. Yet, an invisible barrier holds you back, a silent pact with yourself not to disturb the solitary poet whose verses remain unread.Ā 
The elusive man, shrouded in the mystery of unread words, remains a realm unexplored, as each coffee order becomes a bridge guarded by your coworker.
As the day unfolds, the mysterious man persists in his corner, a captivating enigma that draws your attention like a moth to a flame.Ā 
The rhythmic ballet of your daily routine continues, an intricate dance of serving customers while stealing glances in his direction.Ā 
In the quiet recesses of your mind, a burning question simmers ā€“ who could possibly stand up this captivating soul, adorned with the allure of dark hair and an air of mystery that commands the room?
After days of observing the silent saga of the man and his solitude, a week of unbroken routine, your empathy swells like a rising tide.Ā 
A magnetic force compels you to bridge the distance, and against the backdrop of the cafe's ambient hum, your feet, as if guided by an invisible hand, carry you to the table where he patiently awaits an absent companion.Ā 
With a mix of curiosity and compassion, you settle into the chair opposite him, breaking the invisible barrier that held you apart.
As your presence disrupts the solitude he had grown accustomed to, his intense gaze, reminiscent of a predatory feline, lifts from the pages of his journal to meet your own. The sharpness in his eyes feels like a calculated assessment, causing a subtle tremor to course through you. You gulp.
ā€œHi,ā€ you start, the uncertainty palpable in your voice. Attempting to mask your nervousness, your fingers run through your hair, a feeble defense against the anxious tide.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ve noticed you here alone for the past few days, and I justā€”ā€ Your words stumble, caught in the rush, but before you can continue, he interjects with a voice sharp as a blade, his eyes piercing through you like he can unravel your deepest secrets.Ā 
ā€œAre you stalking me?ā€ The question hangs in the air, and his gaze feels like an X-ray, laying bare your darkest thoughts. Your body seizes, frozen in the penetrating gaze that seems to pry into the very recesses of your soul.
Why does his voice carry a hint of familiarity, resonating through the air like an echo from another time?
His very presence, too, feels like a distant memory, even though you're certain you hadn't laid eyes on him before he entered the cafe a week ago.Ā 
A subtle smirk plays on his lips, a realization dawning on you that he's asked a question. As you attempt to gather your thoughts, you find yourself choking on air, grappling to string together a coherent response.
ā€œI'm kidding. I know you work here,ā€ he chuckles, and you release a breath you hadn't realized you were holding. Your shoulders ease, and in an instant, you respond with a soft smile, a subtle connection forming in that shared moment of relief.
ā€œAre you waiting for someone?ā€ you inquire, and a smile graces his face, revealing gleaming white teeth and pink gums. He looks cute. Dangerously so.
ā€œNah. She just arrived.ā€ Your eyes light up. Finally, his date has shown up! You start to rise from your chair, eager to make space for his companion. He looks up at you, a curious expression on his face, and asks, ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€
ā€œMaking room for your date?ā€ you quip, utterly dumbfounded.
ā€œDate?ā€ he asks with a raised brow. You nod, adding, ā€œThe one youā€™ve been waiting for.ā€
ā€œBut Iā€™m already looking at her.ā€ Your mouth hangs wide open; did you just hear him right? Is this a pickup line? And why on earth is it working?
You chuckle nervously, the sound a stark contrast to his calm and cool demeanor.
You ease back into your chair, and the conversation flows so naturally that you feel like you've known him for years.
Upon returning home, you excitedly share the details of your day with Kitten, recounting the encounter with the handsome man with his curly hair and piercing eyes. While you stroke Kitten and he purrs contentedly, you express your perplexity about the strange sense of familiarity the man emanated, despite being certain you've never met him before.
Kitten twirls and purrs in your lap, savoring the gentle strokes as you recline on your couch.
ā€œI can't help but wonder if he'll be there again tomorrow,ā€ you muse, your voice a soft melody to the room, accompanied by Kitten's content purrs.
He returned to the cafe the next day, and the next and the next turned into weeks.
He dedicates every moment to his secluded corner, and during your breaks you find solace in the cadence of your conversations. His name, Yoongi, resonates with the soulful poems that he breathes life into with his well-worn guitar. Youā€™ve never heard him play or sing, but you look forward to the day you might.
His question pierces through the hum of the cafĆ©, abruptly pulling you from your reverie as you delicately nibble on your muffin. ā€œAre you heading home for the summer break?ā€ he inquires, the unexpected interruption leaving a sweet and curious taste lingering on your lips.
As his question hangs in the air, you lock eyes with him, realizing he might not grasp the gravity of his inquiry.Ā 
There's a momentary sag in your shoulders, a silent acknowledgment of the pain that lies beneath. Gathering the strength to respond, you share a piece of your past, ā€œNo. My parents died when I was young.ā€
Regret casts a shadow over his striking features in an instant, and you witness a profound apology escaping from his lips.
ā€œI'm holding up okay. It's a tale from a while back. A car accident took my parents, leaving just my little sister and me as survivors,ā€ you share, a poignant sadness threading through your words, your eyes misting with the memories.
He tenderly offers words of comfort, a soothing balm for your weary soul, and you allow him to lift the heaviness that clings to your spirit.
You beam at him, grateful for the warmth that radiates from his kind soul, a presence you've grown to cherish over the past few months. ā€œAnd you, any exciting plans for the summer?ā€
ā€œI might have to go home to my parents for a bit, but Iā€™m not sure yet,ā€ he shares, absentmindedly running his fingers through his soft black locks, a gesture that makes you yearn for the touch of your own hand in that sea of darkness.
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ā€œI'm telling you, bitch!ā€ Nari slaps Yuna's thigh, a bit too enthusiastically, causing her to flinch in pain, as Nari adds with a sly grin, ā€œShe's head over heels in loooove.ā€
You roll your eyes at both of them, their playful banter fading into background noise as you savor the drink that Yuna ordered for you.
You've navigated downtown, finding refuge in a cozy establishment where the ambient tunes, board games, and drinks create the perfect backdrop for reconnecting with your friends.
ā€œI swear, I'm not head over heels or anything,ā€ you insist, batting away their teasing with a playful smirk, all the while sipping on the drink that Yuna ordered for you.
ā€œHeā€™s just nice,ā€ you add with a soft smile.
ā€œYou sure do talk about him a lot,ā€ Yuna adds in a chuckle as she rubs her thigh.
ā€œWell, he's an interesting person, and the conversations just flow,ā€ you reply with a grin, downplaying the significance, but your friends exchange knowing glances that hint at their suspicions.
Nari takes a sip of her drink, a mischievous glint in her eyes. ā€œSpeaking of crushes, your little companion, what's his name again? Kitten?ā€
You passionately defend Kitten, your eyes sparkling with affection. ā€œDon't bring Kitten into this! I adore him,ā€ you gush, wearing your love for the little furball as a badge of honor.
Nari shares her romantic wisdom, her words dripping with affection. ā€œCats are fine companions, but you should find a man who can bring you warmth and happiness,ā€ she says, her eyes practically turning into hearts if this were a cartoon. You can't help but chuckle at her earnest advice.
Yuna playfully nudges your shoulder and suggests, ā€œYou should totally ask out this Yoongi guy. I mean, come on, you practically light up every time you talk about him.ā€
You pause, a moment of uncertainty hanging in the air. ā€œMaybe,ā€ you finally reply, your words carrying the weight of contemplation.
Nari's enthusiasm rings in your ears, a bit too loud in the cozy ambiance. ā€œYou don't have anything to lose, only more to gain!ā€ she almost shouts, her excitement reaching its peak. Her words, fueled by a touch of intoxication, linger in the air, leaving you to ponder as you consider whether it's time to call it a night.
ā€œOkay. Iā€™ll ask him tomorrow.ā€
As you step into your apartment, Kitten greets you with an extra dose of affection, weaving himself between your legs and trailing you with heightened attention. Tonight, he appears more attuned to your every move, purring and twirling around your legs with an endearing neediness. Settling down, you can't resist his charms and find yourself seated, offering gentle strokes to his fur-covered frame.
As you wrap up your nightly routine and slip into your comfortable pajamas, you turn to Kitten with a question that has become a familiar part of your routine.Ā 
ā€œI'm heading to bed, Kitten. You joining?ā€ Kitten promptly leaps onto the bed, taking his customary place by your side.Ā 
However, tonight, there's a lingering sense of affection in his actions. He showers you with gentle licks, a gesture that brings a smile to your face. As sleep gradually claims you, your dreams are adorned with vivid images of obsidian eyes and a dark, star-studded sky.
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As you awaken from a restful sleep, the absence of Kitten by your side strikes you like a sudden jolt.Ā 
Your initial response is to sit up, calling out for him, yet there's only silence in return.Ā 
The quietness, once comforting, now carries an eerie weight as you realize the profound impact Kitten has had on your daily life.Ā 
The room feels emptier, and a sense of unease settles in, disrupting the peace you've grown accustomed to.
A wave of melancholy washes over you, creating a heavy ache in your chest as you scan the familiar corners of your apartment, desperately searching for any sign of Kitten.Ā 
The unanswered questions pile up in your mind, a torrent of worries threatening to drown you. Did he, too, decide to leave, slipping away like others from your life?Ā 
The uncertainty gnaws at you, pushing you to venture into the quiet streets, hoping against hope to uncover the fate of your feline companion. Each step is a mix of trepidation and determination, a journey into the unknown to retrieve the missing piece of your daily existence.
A sense of desperation tightens its grip as you scour every nook and cranny, but Kitten remains elusive, leaving you with the bitter taste of vanishing hope.Ā 
The echoes of your unanswered calls hang in the air, blending with the growing unease that clings to you like a shadow. The once familiar spaces now feel like a maze, and you can't shake the sinking feeling that your luck is slipping away, slipping through your fingers like grains of sand. The haunting question persists: where could he be, and what could have taken him from your side?
With a mixture of determination and trepidation, your feet instinctively carry you back to the cafe.Ā 
The familiar chime announces your arrival, drawing the attention of your coworker, who casts a puzzled look your way. The early hour has caught them off guard, their raised eyebrow mirroring the questions that dance in your own mind.
As you scan the cozy confines of the cafe, a subtle panic begins to creep through your veins. The absence of Yoongi creates an uneasy knot in your stomach, but you reassure yourself, clinging to the hope that he might stroll in later, as he often does.
The hours drag on, each passing moment heightening the anticipation. As the door chimes with every newcomer, a flicker of hope dances in your chest, only to be extinguished when it's not Yoongi.Ā 
The day becomes a symphony of disappointment, and the subtle hope you clung to begins to dissipate, slipping through your fingers like elusive grains of sand. The cafe, once a haven of warmth and comfort, now feels eerily empty without the presence of his familiar silhouette.
As your shift draws to a close, a heavy sadness settles over you like a thick fog. The absence of Yoongi, who always brought a touch of warmth to the cafe, leaves an emptiness that echoes through the familiar surroundings. The unanswered questions linger in your mind, and a nagging worry creeps in ā€” what could have kept him away?Ā 
The air is charged with uncertainty, and you can't shake the feeling that something might have happened to him.
A sudden realization hits you like a wave, as you recall Yoongi mentioning the possibility of traveling to his parents for the summer break.Ā 
The initial sting of disappointment transforms into a pang of concern. Questions swirl in your mind like a tempest ā€“ did he leave without saying goodbye? Why didn't he share his plans with you?Ā 
The uncertainty gnaws at your thoughts, and you grapple with the unknown, desperately seeking solace in the memories of your time together.
A disquieting sensation twists in your stomach, an ominous premonition casting a shadow over your thoughts. The unease tightens its grip, leaving you with an unsettling sense that something may have befallen Yoongi.Ā 
Your mind races through various scenarios, each more distressing than the last, as you grapple with the haunting uncertainty that looms over his absence.
Regret echoes through your thoughts like a haunting refrain. The absence of contact details with Yoongi leaves you grappling with the repercussions of a missed opportunity, a seemingly insignificant detail now carrying the weight of your uncertainty.Ā 
A sense of loss and yearning wraps around you, intensifying the void created by the absence of a farewell. The realization dawns that in the midst of budding connection, you failed to secure a bridge to traverse the distance that now separates you.
Each step on the journey home feels like a weighted march, the heaviness of unspoken goodbyes sinking into your bones.Ā 
Sorrow, like a relentless tide, floods your heart, consuming it with an ache that echoes through each footfall. Familiar pangs of longing claw at your chest, constricting breaths into fleeting gasps.Ā 
It's as if the very air you breathe carries the weight of an unfinished story, leaving you to navigate the foggy terrain of uncertainty, the poignant residue of an incomplete connection lingering in the spaces between each step.
A tempest of thoughts unleashes in your mind, a whirlwind of self-doubt and abandonment. The notion that he, too, might have slipped away like others before him wraps around your heart, squeezing it in an unforgiving grip. The ache is palpable, resonating through every fiber of your being. It's an anguish that cuts deep, a symphony of hurt orchestrated by the haunting possibility that echoes in the chambers of your wounded heart.
In the intricate tapestry of your time knowing him, he wasn't just a passing figure; he had etched himself into the mosaic of your life, becoming a fragment that held the essence of friendship.Ā 
You step into the sanctuary of your apartment, liberating your feet from the constraints of shoes, and collapse onto the couch, surrendering to its plush contours that cradle you in a cocoon of solace.
In the midst of trying to regain control of your racing breaths, a subtle vibration resonates from your pocket, drawing your attention like a lifeline. Retrieving your phone, you cast an intrigued glance at the illuminated screen, revealing an incoming call from Yuna.
With bated breath, you answer the call, the familiar cadence of Yuna's voice instantly arresting your senses.Ā 
An unexpected wave of emotions surges through you, freezing you in the moment as her words weave a narrative you weren't prepared for.
The weight of her words hangs heavy in the air, a heartbreaking tremor in her voice as she struggles to regain composure.Ā 
ā€œBabe,ā€ she utters, the tearful plea slicing through the silence like a dagger.
You can feel the gravity of the situation intensify as she reveals, ā€œIt's Nari,ā€ the name echoing with a sense of foreboding that pierces through the air, leaving you breathless.
Dread hangs thick in the air as you muster the courage to ask, your voice trembling with fear and concern. ā€œWhat about Nari?ļæ½ļæ½Ā 
The words escape your lips, each syllable a hesitant step into the unknown, and as you sit up on your couch, a sense of urgency grips you, rendering you more alert than ever before.
The weight of Yuna's words crashes over you like an unrelenting wave, drowning your senses.
ā€œShe's gone,ā€ Yuna sobs, her cries echoing in your ears.Ā 
A sudden chill grips your entire body, and the world around you blurs as your vision turns white.Ā 
Tears well up, threatening to spill over, and an indescribable ache settles in the core of your being. It feels as if the ground beneath you has shifted, leaving you suspended in a surreal and devastating moment.
Your voice quivers as you manage to break through the numbness, the question escaping your lips like a fragile whisper.Ā 
ā€œHow?ā€ you repeat, the word catching in the tightness of your throat. Tears cascade down your cheeks, each drop carrying the weight of an ocean, a torrential release of the overwhelming emotions within you.Ā 
Your friend's voice wavers with sorrow as she delivers the painful revelation. ā€œApparently, she was sick and didnā€™t tell anybodyā€¦ā€Ā 
Each word, heavy with the burden of the unspoken, echoes in the emptiness of your apartment.
The truth, a bitter pill to swallow, lingers in the air, and you find it hard to comprehend the reality of the situation.Ā 
The walls of your sanctuary, once comforting, now press in on you, transforming your home into a claustrophobic cage of grief. The world outside seems to blur, and all that remains is the weight of disbelief settling on your shoulders.
The longing to share your grief with Yoongi intensifies, yet the barrier of not having his contact details becomes a painful obstacle. Your emotions, already tumultuous, now surge like a tempest within.Ā 
Frustration and sorrow intermingle, a chaotic dance that you try to contain.Ā 
As the weight of the news presses down on you, your nails unconsciously dig into your skin, seeking an outlet for the overwhelming emotions that threaten to consume you. The physical pain becomes a tangible manifestation of the emotional turmoil churning within.
The abruptness of Nari's illness and passing hits you like an unforeseen storm, leaving you grappling with disbelief.Ā 
Memories of her last moments flash vividly, and you question the cruel twist of fate that snatched away someone seemingly healthy. The sounds of inconsolable sobbing echo in your ears, and only then do you realize that the mournful cries tearing through the air belong to you.Ā 
ā€œAre you alright?ā€ Yuna asks you in sobs.
The weight of grief presses down on you, suffocating and relentless.Ā 
As the tears stream down your face, each one carries a piece of the pain that now resides within you.Ā 
ā€œNo,ā€ you whisper, the word a feeble attempt to encapsulate the magnitude of your despair.Ā 
Your body curls inwards, seeking solace in the fetal position, as if you could fold away the anguish.Ā 
The phone lies beside you, a lifeline to Yuna's distant sobs, but it offers little comfort compared to the absent warmth of Kitten, whose presence could once bring solace to even the darkest moments.
The weight of Yuna's words hangs heavy in the air, a shroud of truth that you're forced to confront. ā€œBabe, she had cancer and didn't want us to knowā€¦ She wanted to live a happy life until the end,ā€Ā 
Yuna sobs again, and though her intent is to offer solace, the revelation feels like a cascade of heavy stones on your already burdened heart. The bitter sweetness of her desire for a joyful life juxtaposed with the pain of her silent struggle adds another layer to the grief, leaving you to grapple with the complexities of Nari's hidden battles.
ā€œYunaā€¦,ā€ you cry, the anguish in your voice echoing the profound pain that seems to squeeze the very life out of your heart.Ā 
ā€œWhy does everyone leave?ā€Ā 
The question hangs in the air, more rhetorical than expectant, as if you're not seeking an answer from Yuna but grappling with the cruel patterns of departure that life has woven into the fabric of your existence.Ā 
Each departure, like a thread pulled from the tapestry of your world, leaves an unraveled piece that never quite knits itself back together.
ā€œIā€“, I donā€™t know,ā€ she stammers through her tears, the weight of the unknown echoing in her voice, mirroring the uncertainty that now shrouds both of your lives.
ā€œPromise weā€™ll be there for each other,ā€ you declare, the weight of the words hanging in the air. It's a poignant plea, an acknowledgment of life's unpredictable twists. You understand that you can't ask for an eternity, but in this moment, you're determined to hold onto each other as tightly as time allows.
ā€œCount on it,ā€ she vows, her response flowing effortlessly, a testament to the unspoken bond between you two.
Despite the tightening in your throat, a glimmer of happiness sparks within you at the assurance she just gave.
Why must life be so fucking cruel, robbing you of everyone you hold dear?
An overwhelming urge to reconnect with your sister washes over you, a deep yearning fueled by the ache of prolonged silence between you.
ā€œI want to call my sister,ā€ you manage to say through your sobs, a desperate plea lacing your words. ā€œWill you be alright, Yuna?ā€ you ask, your concern breaking through the waves of grief that surround you both.
ā€œYeah. I mean, I'm fucking sad, but go ahead and call her. Can I come to your place tomorrow?ā€ Yuna's voice carries a subtle plea, a shared understanding that neither of you wants to be alone in the midst of sorrow.
ā€œYeah, I'd love that,ā€ you respond, your voice carrying the weight of grief and the faint glimmer of gratitude for the companionship that awaits tomorrow. As you attempt to dry your tears with a throw blanket on the couch, the room feels emptier than ever, and the ache in your heart persists.
ā€œSee you tomorrow,ā€ she says before the call ends.Ā 
The hollowness in the room deepens, and you draw in a shaky breath, your gaze fixed on your phone. The background image captures a moment frozen in time, featuring you, Nari, and Yuna.Ā 
God, the ache of missing her intensifies, and you can't shake the heaviness in your chest.
You tighten your grip on the phone, each tear that escapes your eyes a silent testament to the pain in your heart. Determination wells up as you locate your sister's number, fingers tracing the familiar digits, ready to bridge the gap that time and distance have carved between you.
The rhythmic ringing echoes through the emptiness of your apartment, each tone a reminder of the solitude that now envelops you.Ā 
Anxiety gnaws at the edges of your thoughts as you anticipate the warmth of your sister's voice, a comfort you desperately need. Yet, the unanswered calls amplify the distance that separates you. With a heavy heart, you decide against leaving a message, the weight of unspoken words settling as you slump back onto the couch.
The sudden vibration of your phone startles you, and as you glance at the screen, the sight of your sister's name sparks a mixture of relief and anticipation. With a soft sniffle, you muster the strength to answer, ā€œHey, sis,ā€ your voice laced with a blend of vulnerability and longing, reaching out across the digital expanse to bridge the emotional gap that separates you.
A chill courses through your body, rendering you motionless, as a deep, resonant voice resonates through the phone, catching you off guard.
ā€œHey,ā€ his voice echoes through the phone, sending a shiver down your spine.Ā 
Your trembling hand clutches the device, and you find yourself holding your breath, caught in the sudden intensity of the moment.
ā€œI'm Detective Kim,ā€ he introduces himself, his voice echoing through the line. It carries a calm demeanor, yet beneath its surface, you detect a subtle undertone of sadness, adding a mysterious depth to his words.
This can't be good, you murmur to yourself, the words barely escaping your lips as a chill courses through your veins, turning your blood to ice once again.
ā€œAre you Jiho's sister?ā€ The detective's voice remains steady and calm, but beneath the surface, you sense an undercurrent of gravity and anticipation.
ā€œYes,ā€ you reply, your voice catching in a sob as you struggle to contain your tears. The ominous feeling intensifies, and you can't shake the sinking realization that a detective is the one answering your sister's phone.Ā 
The air becomes heavy with uncertainty and fear.
ā€œI'm deeply sorry to be the bearer of this news,ā€ he begins with a sympathetic tone.Ā 
You inhale sharply, bracing yourself for the impact of the words that follow.
ā€œYour sister has passed away.ā€Ā 
The world seems to shatter around you as the weight of his message settles in, leaving you breathless and heartbroken.
In that devastating moment, it feels as if the very foundation of your existence crumbles.Ā 
Your body and soul plummet through a void, each passing second an agonizing countdown to the inevitable impact that will shatter you into a million irreparable pieces.Ā 
The weight of grief bears down on you, and you're suspended in a free fall of despair.Ā 
You become acutely aware of your breath, or the lack thereof, as if the air itself has turned into a suffocating force, triggering a torrent of violent inhalations, each one a desperate attempt to grasp onto a reality that has just slipped through your fingers.
A heavy silence envelops the room as the detective imparts the devastating truth, each word landing with the weight of a sledgehammer on your fragile emotions. ā€œShe was killed,ā€ he utters, the somber notes in his tone resonating like a funeral dirge, casting a pall over the already dim reality of your world.
A suffocating wave of panic crashes over you, rendering your extremities numb and your breath caught in the grip of invisible hands.Ā 
The room seems to close in as the detective's voice on the phone becomes a distant echo, his words lost in the disorienting whirlwind of your own mental tempest. It's a struggle to comprehend the standard condolences and procedures he details, as if reality itself is slipping through your trembling fingers.
Fucking hell. Is this hell?
In the wake of your parents' departure, you believed you had tasted the bitterest sorrow, yet today eclipses that agony without a shadow of a doubt.
You cast your phone aside on the couch, retreating to your bedroom, collapsing onto the bed. The anguish within erupts into violent sobs, an unrelenting torrent of tears flooding from your eyes, your entire frame convulsing with the weight of your grief.
You bury your face into the softness of the pillow, muffling the guttural scream that tears from your lungs.Ā 
The sound, a primal release of anguish, reverberates within the confines of your room. Screw the neighbors; right now, the universe needs to bear witness to the rawness of your pain.
What the fuck is up with this world? Everyone around you dies! Everyone leaves!
You canā€™t take it anymore.
As you surrender to the torrents of grief, you hope that tears might offer solace, a fleeting relief that could pave the way for much-needed sleep. Yet, despite your desperate attempts, the embrace of slumber eludes you, leaving you trapped in the clutches of your sorrow-soaked thoughts.
In an impulsive surge, you opt for a nocturnal stroll. Snatching your jacket, you step into the silent night, the residue of dried tears blending seamlessly with the ones that refuse to cease.Ā 
The moon above, a silent witness to the turmoil within, as your footsteps echo the rhythm of a heart weighed down by grief.
As you traverse the familiar streets of town, a magnetic pull guiding you to a cherished park, your sanctuary. Swiftly, you arrive and gingerly settle your weary frame onto a weathered bench, the cool night air offering a gentle caress to your battered soul.
As your gaze ascends to the enchanting tapestry of the night, a celestial dance of stars unfolds above. Tonight, the cosmic expanse seems to cradle the spirits of your sister and Nari, their luminous presence illuminating the vast darkness, a celestial reunion among the constellations.
As your tears persist, you fix your eyes upon the star-lit canvas above. Each gleaming star appears like a radiant jewel, casting an ethereal glow across the night. The beauty is undeniable, yet a poignant sadness lingers in your heart.Ā 
Compelled by an unspoken yearning, you embark on the solemn task of counting the stars, each one a celestial tribute to the cherished souls who now adorn the heavens.Ā 
The question echoes in your mind: Why?
Why do they blaze with such brilliance, akin to a dying star igniting in a final, magnificent burst before consuming everything in its cosmic embrace?
Your heart pounds violently against your ribcage, each beat echoing through your chest, and the air feels elusive, slipping away as if you're caught in a suffocating grip.
Life reveals its cruel nature, leaving you to grapple with the relentless question: Why does everyone leave? Why does the world around you crumble, stealing away those you hold dear?
An emptiness envelopes you, a void so profound it swallows every ounce of light. Darkness creeps in, and an irresistible urge emerges, coaxing you to surrender to its consuming embrace.
Perhaps it's time to release your grip on reality and join the celestial dance of those who have departed before you?
As the tears flow, perhaps this haunting void within will dissipate, bringing an end to the relentless ache that permeates every fiber of your being.
As the weight of loneliness bears down on you, an insidious desire to surrender, to slip into an eternal slumber, creeps through your shattered heart. The yearning for an endless sleep, where the fractured pieces of your soul find solace, consumes you. It's as if the very essence of your being is crumbling into irreparable fragments.
The fragments of your soul lie scattered, and the daunting question echoes in the hollow chambers of your despairā€”can you summon the strength to mend them once more, to piece together the shattered remnants of your being?
In the depths of your despair, a resolute realization surfaces ā€” a quiet but unwavering knowing that, despite the relentless cruelty, you're not ready to surrender to the void. Life, as brutal as it may be, still holds threads of resilience within its intricate tapestry, and you find an ember of strength glowing amidst the shadows.
You divert your gaze downward, focusing on your hands nestled in your lap, choosing the tangible reality of your own existence over the distant allure of the star-studded night.
You harbor too many aspirations to surrender to despair. Your desires paint a vivid canvas of dreams: to find solace in the embrace of a kind-hearted partner, secure a fulfilling career, and relish the simple joys that life offers. Nari's silent battle with illness inspires you to embrace life with the same gusto, celebrating its moments without the need for validation.
In the midst of your fragmented existence, amidst the shattering pain, you crave it all. Yearning for the entirety of life's tapestry, even when it feels like it's unraveling.Ā 
Despite life's cruelty, there's an undeniable allure in its intricate beauty, compelling you to seek solace and embrace the stunning contradictions that define your life.
Amidst the tear-stained path, your resolve solidifies.Ā 
The decision made, you tread back to your apartment, the silent witness to your inner turmoil. Each step echoes with the weight of your emotions, a symphony of sorrow playing in the background.Ā 
The sanctuary of your home beckons, promising the respite that only sleep, albeit restless, can bring. Sleep, like a long-lost friend, embraces you swiftly this time. Grateful for the solace it brings, you sink into its comforting arms, the reprieve from the turmoil of the day unfolding like a gentle lullaby.
The chime of the doorbell resonates through your apartment, and you're roused from the depths of sleep. Yuna, true to her word, stands on the other side, a beacon of support in your time of need.
Embraced in a tight hug, tears stream down both your faces, the shared weight of grief transforming the silent embrace into a powerful testament of mutual understanding and shared sorrow.
Seated on the couch, you engage in a heartfelt conversation about the unpredictable journey of lifeā€”its highs and lows.Ā 
As a comforting silence settles between you, you reach for the remote and, with a flicker of distraction, decide on a mindless show. Wrapped in the embrace of shared grief, you find solace in the soft glow of the television, its images casting a gentle veil over your weary souls.
That night, Yuna stays over, a comforting presence that feels like a blessing in the midst of your overwhelming grief.
In the vulnerable hours of the night, you pour your heart out to Yuna.Ā 
Tears flow freely as you share the ache of losing your sister, the void left by Kitten's absence, and the fear that Yoongi might be gone forever. In the solace of shared sorrow, you find a glimmer of hope amidst the shadows.
In the tender embrace of Yuna, you find solace. Her comforting presence is a lifeline in the storm of grief, holding you close as tears cascade. Though she's often your pillar of strength, tonight you yearn to reciprocate, to be the support she's always been for you. It's a quiet understanding, an unspoken pact between friends navigating the unpredictable currents of life.
In the quiet depths of the night, as you share your pain with Yuna, a flicker of determination ignites within you. You yearn not just for solace but to become the architect of your own joy. The realization dawns that your happiness lies in the unwritten chapters of your own journey, waiting to be explored and embraced. It's a moment of self-discovery, a commitment to forge your path to happiness, independent and resilient.
With the dawn of a new day, you decide to embark on a journey of self-discovery.Ā 
Despite the weight of sorrow lingering in your chest, you resolve to savor life in all its transient splendorā€”embracing its beauty, acknowledging its ugliness, and reveling in every nuanced shade in between.Ā 
Each moment becomes a canvas, and you are determined to paint it with the vibrant strokes of resilience and newfound appreciation.
With unwavering determination, you approached your boss at the cafĆ©, advocating for a shift in your work hours. The goal? To rekindle the pursuit of knowledge, to step back into the world of academia and reignite the spark of astrophysics that had once fueled your passion.Ā 
As the prospect of returning to school looms on the horizon, you recognize that the journey ahead is both a challenge and an opportunityā€”a chance to sculpt a future that you can genuinely be proud of, with each completed course marking a triumph over self-doubt and a step closer to the constellations of your dreams.
In the wake of that poignant night where two cherished souls departed, a few months have quietly slipped away.Ā 
In a tender gesture of support, Yuna encourages you to embrace the prospect of love once more. Unlike before, hesitation has no place in your heart this time.Ā 
With newfound courage, you step into the realm of dating, a journey tinged with both vulnerability and hope, as you navigate through the tapestry of emotions woven by the threads of the past and the promises of the future.
Life, a relentless journey, doesn't yield to simplicity, yet within its intricate folds, a subtle transformation occurs. It doesn't unravel swiftly, but with each passing day, it stitches together a mosaic of improvement, a gradual emergence from the shadows into the dappled light of a better tomorrow.
With each sunrise, a symphony of healing orchestrates within you, crescendoing into a melody that resonates louder, and you find solace in the fact that every dawn gifts you a version of yourself stronger and more resilient than the preceding day.
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As winter unfurls its icy embrace, you find solace in the familiar touch of your cherished wool coat, the cozy sanctuary of fluffy sweaters enveloping you like a hug from a dear friend, and the softness of warm socks cradling your every step.Ā 
With a steaming cup of tea in hand, you dive into your studies, the brisk air outside contrasting with the warmth that courses through your veins.
Embarking on the journey to reclaim an unfinished chapter of your life, returning to the hallowed halls of academia, you revel in the triumphant echoes of resilience as you strive to complete the narrative you once set in motion.
As you tread homeward, the city draped in the melancholy hues of twilight, a fleeting silhouette dashes through the alleys, a phantom of darkness.Ā 
For the briefest moment, memories of Kitten's playful escapades dance in your mind, a bittersweet symphony of nostalgia.Ā 
A sigh, heavy with the weight of longing, escapes your lips, yet you trudge forward, navigating the shadows toward the warmth of your home.
In the intimate glow of your kitchen, you conjure a culinary masterpiece, a symphony of flavors orchestrated only for yourself. The sizzle of ingredients harmonizes with the rhythmic beat of your heart, a ritual of self-love that has become your refuge.Ā 
Many a time, you've crafted these delectable creations, some shared in the company of fleeting dates whose presence, like autumn leaves, brushed briefly against the canvas of your life, but leaving no lasting imprint on your heart.
Midway through the mundane task of stowing away dishes, a subtle and mysterious hum reverberates through your abode, originating from the vicinity of your door.
The air is suddenly filled with a familiar, distant melodyā€”a soft and rhythmic meowing that sends a jolt of excitement through you.Ā 
Abandoning your chores, you rush to the door, fingers fumbling with the lock, and there, in all his glory, stands Kitten!
In a flurry of warmth and relief, you scoop up the cold, shivering Kitten into your embrace, quickly closing the door behind him. His meows echo gratitude, and a tender lick against your cheek seals the unspoken bond that time and distance failed to break.
In a million moments, you never fathomed seeing him again. Now, as he rests in your arms, elation courses through you like a celestial symphony, leaving you over the moon with sheer happiness.
His return is a testament to a bond beyond time, a friendship that defies the measure of days. It's not about the duration of his absence; it's about the joyous truth that he returned to you, stitching the fragments of your heart back together.
You rush to your cabinet, your heart pounding with both relief and excitement. Grabbing a can of cat food, you swiftly prepare a feast for Kitten, watching as he eagerly devours the meal, his hunger echoing the void his absence left in your life.
As you stroke Kitten's fur, you can't help but ponder on the mysteries that shroud his disappearance. His body, while not emaciated, carries the silent tales of his adventures.Ā 
You yearn to unravel the chapters of his feline escapades, wishing you could converse with him, share the unspoken hardships, and assure him that he's found a forever home in the warmth of your embrace.
In a breathless whisper, you confess, ā€œI've missed you so much,ā€ the weight of your longing carried in the tenderness of your voice.Ā 
A solitary tear, a testament to the emotions flooding your heart, escapes and dances down your cheek, mirroring the joy of a reunion long yearned for.
As the echoes of your affectionate words linger in the air, Kitten responds with a gentle purr, a harmonious melody that intertwines seamlessly with the sound of him relishing the meal.
Amidst the soft cadence of Kitten's purring, you find solace in the familiar presence of your feline companion. With a sigh, you decide to share the intricacies of the tumultuous journey you've undertaken since his absence. ā€œSo much has unfolded, Kitten,ā€ you whisper, your voice a gentle reassurance, ā€œa lot of shit, but also a lot of good.ā€
As Kitten finishes his meal, he responds with a symphony of content purrs, gracefully padding over to where you crouch. With a playful nudge against your legs, he seems to convey a silent acknowledgment, a shared moment of warmth and connection between old friends.
In the span of a few days, the void that Kitten's absence left has been filled with the comforting rhythm of his presence. You've poured out your heart to him, recounting the events and emotions that unfolded during his time away, as if catching him up on the chapters of your life.Ā 
Kitten, with his attentive eyes and soothing purrs, seems to understand more than most, providing a silent anchor in the storm of your experiences.
As you sink into the soft embrace of your couch, a contented smile plays on your lips. With Kitten nestled beside you, you share a profound realization that has taken root in your heart: ā€˜I live, so I love.ā€™ The words hang in the air, a testament to the resilience you've found in the face of life's unpredictable twists. The TV hums with background noise, but in that moment, the simple joy of companionship fills the room.
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In the quiet solitude of your apartment, you confide in Kitten, the loyal companion who has witnessed both your joys and sorrows. ā€œI don't think he's coming back,ā€ you murmur, a tinge of sadness lingering in your voice. As if attuned to your emotions, Kitten responds with a gentle meow, a feline reassurance that transcends words.Ā 
In the rhythmic cadence of your words, a sense of vulnerability emerges. ā€œI know, I know. I don't need a man in my life. I get that,ā€ you confess, your voice carrying the weight of self-awareness.
The clinking of utensils against pots and pans provides a subtle percussion to your thoughts as you continue, ā€œBut Yoongi was special, you know? Like he just got me... and I just wish for him to be happy doing whatever he's doing.ā€ The aroma of dinner fills the air, mingling with the unspoken sentiments swirling in the room.
As you delicately feed Kitten some steamed broccoli, the notion of reuniting with Yoongi lingers in the air. ā€œIf he comes back, you should meet him ā€“ I'll introduce you!ā€ The words spill from your lips, carrying a hopeful melody.
As you reminisce about Yoongi, a fond smile plays on your lips. ā€œHe's such a wonderful person. And handsome? Oh, his hands,ā€ you begin, tracing the air with your fingers as if you can feel the texture of his presence. Memories flood back, each detail etched in your mind like a cherished photograph. ā€œLong fingers, veiny hands,ā€ you murmur, the words infused with a hint of admiration that even surprises you. The love for this man reverberates in your voice, a quiet confession to the depths of your feelings.
Kitten's melodic meow serenades the room as he gracefully weaves between your feet, his tail coiling affectionately around your calves like a comforting embrace.
ā€œIf you meet him, please donā€™t claw his back out like you did with that other guy. Yoongi is nice.ā€
With a heavy heart, you confide in Kitten, the weight of your worry evident in the rhythmic tapping of the spatula against the sizzling vegetables. ā€œIt's been nearly half a year, and I can't shake the feeling that something might have happened to him,ā€ you murmur, the crackling sounds of the kitchen offering a somber backdrop to your uncertainty.
As the warmth of the meal envelops you and Kitten, you sit together, a silent companionship settling over the room. The simplicity of this moment strikes you, and a quiet realization unfolds ā€“ you love your life just as it is.Ā 
In the shared silence, you feel a sense of wholeness, a testimony to the goodness found in life's simplicity. Though your heart may still ache at times, you've come to accept that, too, as a part of the beautiful complexity that makes life what it is.
You're keenly aware that time is the remedy for healing, a gentle but persistent force that gradually eases the ache until one day, the pain will be a distant echo of what it once was.
Your weary limbs protest against the demands of a full-time class schedule and cafe shifts, revealing the hidden challenges of your daily grind. Fatigue clings to you like a shadow, and an involuntary yawn escapes.
With a wearied sigh, you address Kitten, your loyal companion in fatigue. ā€œAh, Kitten, today's been a battle. I'm going to bed early today,ā€ you murmur, dragging your exhausted body to the bathroom in a nightly ritual.Ā 
Upon returning to your sanctuary, you find Kitten, already nestled in his customary spot, a comforting presence in the silent embrace of the night.
Sinking beneath the cozy duvet, you surrender to its tender embrace, the fabric cocooning you in a haven of softness. With a gentle pat, you acknowledge Kitten, ā€œThank you for being here,ā€ you murmur before succumbing to the enchantment of dreamland.
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As consciousness tiptoes back into your awareness, the remnants of dreams linger like elusive whispers in your mind. Gently awakening, you open your eyes to find the absence of Kitten.
Your eyes widen in astonishment, and your body tenses as you absorb the scene unfolding before youā€”a man, peacefully lost in the realm of dreams.Ā 
Your gaze follows the cascade of long, slightly curly, obsidian hair that drapes over his shoulders, tracing the contours of his creamy white skin. The play of morning light reveals a well-defined back, drawing your eyes down the elegant curve of his spine until they come to rest on a small, soft, plum-like ass. The realization hits you like a boltā€” he's completely naked!
Why is your heart orchestrating a rapid symphony, each beat echoing in your ears like a thunderous drumroll? And what in the world is a naked stranger doing sprawled across your sheets as though he belongs there?
He slumbers in serene oblivion, emitting soft, melodic sighs that weave through the air, his chest gracefully ascending and descending in rhythmic dance with each tranquil breath.
Wait.Ā 
He seems familiar.
A gasp escapes your lips as you take a closer look, and the realization hits you like a bolt of lightning ā€“ it's Yoongi!Ā 
Shock and disbelief intertwine in your chest as you stare at his peaceful slumber.
Confusion and a hint of panic surge through you as your mind races with questions.Ā 
Why is Yoongi in your bed, and why on earth is he naked?
How did Yoongi end up here, and where is Kitten?
A myriad of questions spins through your mind, a turbulent storm of curiosity. As you ponder the mysteries, you belatedly notice Yoongi stirring, gracefully shifting to lie on his back.
Your face burns with embarrassment as the realization dawns that he's still completely naked. Heat rises to your cheeks when his half-erect dick brushes against his stomach, prompting you to instinctively shield your eyes, flustered by the unexpected sight.
You wrestle with the dilemma of whether to disturb his serene slumber or let him continue resting peacefully. The soft innocence in his sleeping form makes the decision more challenging, and you lean towards allowing him to bask in the tranquility of his dreams undisturbed.
Gently, you drape the comforting warmth of your duvet over him, a shield against the chill of the room. With nimble movements, you extract yourself from the bed, careful not to disturb the delicate balance of his slumber.
Confusion seizes your thoughts as you grapple with the surreal scenarioā€”Yoongi peacefully nestled in your bed. You wrack your brain, questioning every sober memory, desperately trying to unearth the missing pieces that would explain his presence.
You step into the kitchen, a fleeting sense of unease prickling at your skin as you scan the room for Kitten, but he remains elusive, leaving a trace of uncertainty in the air.
A twinge of melancholy washes over you as Kitten remains elusive, but you console yourself with the hope that he might return, his absence merely a temporary void in your otherwise comforting routine.
You embark on the simple yet intimate act of preparing two steaming cups of coffeeā€”one for yourself and one for the unexpected visitor who occupies your bed.
You seize a handful of aromatic coffee beans from a vintage jar, letting the rich fragrance envelop you as you crush them under the steady hum of your machine. With precision, you measure out the perfect amount, combining it with hot water, allowing the concoction to brew into a comforting elixir.
While the coffee brews, your mind races with bewildering thoughts about Yoongi's unexpected presence in your bed. Puzzlement clouds your senses as you contemplate every conceivable scenario.Ā 
Did he let himself in? Was there some mysterious way he could have gained access?Ā 
With a touch of anxiety, you even venture to your front door, checking for any signs of unauthorized entry, only to find it securely locked, shrouded in an eerie silence.
You're grappling with the perplexing mystery of Yoongi's appearance in your bed, as if he materialized out of thin air, defying all logic and reason, leaving you spellbound by the inexplicable magic that seems to have woven its way into your ordinary reality.
In the quiet chaos of your thoughts, Yoongi's presence offers more questions than answers, an enigmatic puzzle that seems to defy the ordinary. The absence of Kitten only adds another layer of mystery to the unfolding scene.Ā 
As the coffee machine dings, disrupting the contemplative silence, you're left grappling with the surreal conundrum before you, seeking clarity in the comforting aroma of freshly brewed coffee.
With the warmth of freshly brewed coffee in your hands, you reenter the bedroom to discover Yoongi, now alert, draped in your duvet, a captivating silhouette in the soft morning light.
Your greeting falters as you nervously stammer, ā€œHā€“, Hi,ā€ setting the two mugs of coffee on your nightstand. Yoongi's gaze, sharp and feline-like, traces your every move, creating a palpable tension in the air.
An unfamiliar nervousness grips you in his presence, an unusual sensation considering your usual ease around him. Perhaps it's the fact that he's naked, his gaze akin to a predator eyeing down its prey, intensifying the air with an unspoken tension.
ā€œHey,ā€ finally breaking the silence, he greets you with a low grumble, scratching his head and letting out a lazy yawn.
His body exudes a captivating blend of softness and defined muscles, a captivating sight thatā€”
His voice, laced with a teasing smirk, breaks the tension. ā€œCan't stop staring at my dick, huh?ā€
Your throat tightens as you realize you've been caught in the act, silently observing him. Panic sets in ā€“ does he think you're a freak now? Fantastic.
You let out a nervous chuckle, deliberately shifting your gaze away from the obvious bulge in the duvet around his lap. ā€œWhat are you doing here, Yoongi? And why are you naked?ā€ you inquire, genuinely puzzled.
He chuckles, a low sound that sends a shiver down your spine, and you can't help but feel a tinge of unease. ā€œYou haven't figured it out yet?ā€ he teases, his words hanging in the air, leaving you in suspense.
You must resemble a walking question mark, because his chuckles only intensify. It's as if he finds your confusion amusing, and you're left standing there, desperate for answers in the midst of his enigmatic laughter.
In a soft tone laced with a smirk, he utters, ā€œKitten.ā€
Your gaze fixates on him, bewildered. Kitten? Is he referring to your cat?
Your jaw drops as he gracefully emerges from the bed, the duvet cascading off his frame. In his unabashed nudity, he strides toward you.
He inches closer, the proximity almost causing your lips to collide. A surge of warmth courses through you when he delicately tucks a stray strand of your hair behind your ear.
ā€œIā€™m a shapeshifter,ā€ his revelation hangs in the air, the weight of it palpable, and as he locks eyes with you, searching for any flicker of discomfort, the truth settles. Before you can process it fully, he leans in, capturing your lips with an irresistible surge of passion.
His lips, soft and inviting, embark on a slow yet passionate dance, as if reuniting with a long-lost lover. Responding eagerly, you part your lips, allowing the kiss to deepen, and in that electrifying moment, your entire body succumbs to a sensation akin to melting butter.
You yield to his touch, molding your body to his as you sense the undeniable hardness of his arousal intimately pressing against your core.
Fuck.
In the midst of the heated moment, you draw back slightly to meet his gaze, the question hanging in the air, ā€œSo... you're Kitten?ā€
He offers no verbal response, just a low, affirmative hum, before plunging back into another intoxicating kiss.
You surrender to the sensation, feeling the firm grip of his hands on your waist as they journey upward beneath the fabric of your well-worn shirt.
His touch ignites a trail of sensations, tracing a path across your body, sending electric shivers as he lifts your shirt, gently grazing against the contours of your breasts.
Under the intensity of his gaze, your body responds, a flush of heat spreading through you, your nipples hardening in response. He emits a low, satisfied hum, as if relishing the effect he has on you.
Effortlessly, he works to level the playing field, swiftly undressing you as if in a race against time. With a purposeful tug, he eases your shorts down, a silent declaration of his desire.
Bare before him, clad only in a simple black panty adorned with delicate pink hearts, you can't shake the vulnerability coursing through you. A sudden urge to conceal yourself washes over, a reaction to the raw exposure in this intimate moment.
ā€œDon't shy away, you're stunning,ā€ Yoongi murmurs, his firm grip on your hips drawing you closer to his naked body. The undeniable heat of his arousal presses against your core, a tangible reminder of the desire smoldering between you.
Gratitude escapes your lips in a hushed tone, your cheeks tinged with a warm blush.
ā€œNow, letā€™s get these off you, yeah?ā€ with a mischievous glint in his eyes, he hooks his fingers inside the fabric of your panties, teasingly tugging them down. He pauses, seeking your consent, before sensually sliding them all the way down your legs.
As he slides your panties down, a sudden awareness of your arousal hits you, intensified by the cool rush of air against your heated core.
As they fall to the floor, Yoongi swiftly snatches up your panties, bringing them to his face to inhale the intoxicating essence of your arousal, his eyes darkening with desire.
Why does that look so utterly sinful, setting off a delicious rush of arousal coursing through your veins, leaving you breathless in its wake?
As the intoxicating scent of you envelops him, he murmurs, ā€œDamn, you smell good,ā€ his eyes dilating with an unmistakable hunger.
ā€œI wonder if you taste as good as you smell.ā€
In the raw vulnerability of your shared nakedness, he guides your body back to the bed, gently laying you down, his presence a magnetic force, hovering above you.
He immerses himself in the expanse of your neck, a symphony of sensations unfolding ā€“ a delicate ballet of tender kisses, followed by the electrifying nip of his teeth grazing the juncture between your neck and shoulder.
You moan in unabashed pleasure, your hands instinctively seeking refuge on his chiseled pectorals, anchoring yourself amidst the rising waves of bliss.
Yoongi's gaze shifts to the mirror positioned strategically in front of your bed. ā€œI've been meaning to ask,ā€ he smirks, locking eyes with you, ā€œwhy do you have a mirror in front of your bed?ā€
You squirm beneath him, breath catching.ā€'It's part of my wardrobe panels,ā€ you admit, your voice a fragile melody.
He chuckles, a low and enticing sound, his smirk dancing on his lips. ā€œI don't think that's why the whole panel is mirrors,ā€ he says, sitting up slightly. His finger traces a slow, teasing path from your collarbones to your breasts, sending shivers of anticipation racing through your body.
He leans in, his breath sending a shiver down your spine, and in a deep, low voice, he murmurs into your ear, ā€œYou're a dirty one, aren't you?ā€
His degrading words make your breath hitch instantly, and you involuntarily clench your thighs together. As you shake your head in disagreement, he just smirks, unconvinced.
His chuckle resonates in the room as he asks, ā€œDo you enjoy watching yourself in the mirrors?ā€ Sitting up, he moves to the foot of the bed, his eyes gleaming with a mischievous spark.
He gracefully steps out of the bed, casting a predatory gaze as he hovers over you, an aura of irresistible allure surrounding him.
With unwavering determination, he declares, ā€œYou're going to watch yourself in the mirror as I fuck your pussy with my tongue.ā€ In a single, fluid motion, he seizes both of your thighs, pulling you to the foot of the bed, sending a thrilling jolt through your senses.
Despite the heat coursing through your entire being, a light chuckle escapes your lips. However, the mirth dissipates as you lock eyes with the intensity in Yoongi's dark gaze.
ā€œSit up,ā€ his command echoes through the room, and as he gracefully lowers himself between your legs, a thrilling anticipation courses through the air.
From your elevated position, you admire the tousled chaos of his hair, a disheveled masterpiece that only enhances his captivating allure. His eyes gleam with a mischievous spark, a silent promise of the intensity that is about to unfold.
You seize his cheeks with urgency, your voice dripping with desire, a fervent plea escaping your lips, ā€œFuck. Yoongi, please eat me out.ā€
He moistens his lips with a teasing chuckle, descending eagerly towards your already soaked center.
He expertly widens the gap between your legs, creating a perfect haven for himself before delving into your pussy with fervent devotion.
With a tantalizing finesse, he starts with a subtle stroke of his tongue along your folds, gradually ascending to the apex of your clit, eliciting a fervent moan that echoes in the room.
As waves of pleasure cascade through you, your fingers instinctively entwine in his tousled locks, gently pulling as he skillfully devotes his attention to the exquisite dance of his tongue and lips on your pulsating core.
Gasping for breath, your anticipation mounts, every nerve tingling with pleasure, as Yoongi's rhythmic strokes across your intimate folds propel you toward a climax, your toes curling in ecstasy.
Pausing momentarily, he murmurs in appreciation, ā€œYou taste even better than you smell, Kitten,ā€ his words sending a shiver down your spine.
You're on the verge of asking him about the nickname ā€˜Kitten,ā€™ but his tongue explores your folds, leaving you breathless and unable to form words.
Your question dissolves in the heat of the moment, the building climax taking center stage as you lose yourself in the pursuit of pleasure.
Lost in the waves of ecstasy, you can't resist the urge to surrender, closing your eyes as Yoongi works his magic with undeniable expertise.
ā€œNo, no, no. Look at yourself in the mirror, Kitten.ā€
ā€œWhy doā€”ā€ before you can finish your question, it fades away on your tongue as Yoongi plunges back into pleasuring your core with a renewed intensity, leaving your thoughts swallowed by the whirlwind of sensations.
As you glance at the mirror, you catch a glimpse of your own blissful expression, framed by Yoongi's tousled black hair nestled between your thighs. The sight is nothing short of breathtaking, a sight of pleasure that leaves you utterly captivated.
The provocative scene unfolding in the mirror intensifies your arousal, your breath hitching in tandem with the escalating desire pulsating through your veins.
ā€œYoongi, Iā€™mā€”ā€ your plea catches in your throat as Yoongi skillfully responds, his hand finding your pulsating clit, heightening the pleasure while he continues to ravish you with his insatiable tongue.
His fingers dance in rhythmic circles over your throbbing clit, coaxing the tension from your core. As the knot unravels, a wave of blissful release washes over you, leaving you breathless and trembling in its wake.
Ecstasy courses through your veins, your toes curling, muscles tightening, and in that moment, an unexpected surge of pleasure hits you like a sneeze that never comes. You release a symphony of moans, surrendering to the intense climax that Yoongi skillfully orchestrates with his talented tongue.
He continues to suck, savoring every drop of your essence, an insatiable thirst in his eyes matching the fervor of the intimate dance between your bodies.
As the intensity peaks, you gently tap his shoulder, signaling him to withdraw. He complies with a sensual slurp, leaving you breathless and tingling with the echoes of pleasure.
A mischievous grin stretches across his face as he licks his lips, ā€œYou're incredible, Kitten.ā€
You arch an eyebrow, curiosity coloring your tone, ā€œWhy do you keep calling me ā€˜Kittenā€™? Youā€™re Kitten.ā€
He erupts in laughter, a symphony that resonates through the room, his chest rising and falling with the melody of mirth, and in that moment, he's a captivating masterpiece.
ā€œDo I really look like a Kitten to you?ā€ he inquires, a playful glint in his eyes as he gently nudges you back onto the bed.
Your words stumble as you search for a response, ā€œNot really,ā€ you admit, offering him a small yet tender smile.
ā€œBut you look cute and sweet, like a good Kitten,ā€ he murmurs, his hands exploring the curves of your breasts.
A low moan escapes your lips as he teases your nipples with a playful twist, igniting a fresh surge of desire that pools in the growing heat between your thighs.
As you ache for the feel of his throbbing length, you attempt to grab hold of him, but like a fleeting mirage, he skillfully eludes your touch, leaving you yearning for the intimate connection that inches away with each evasive movement.
ā€œNah. I just want to fuck you silly,ā€ he rasps, eyes tracing every bead of sweat on your flushed skin, reveling in the primal rhythm of your hurried breaths.
ā€œIf you want to, that is?ā€ he teases, his voice a sultry whisper, as he takes control, guiding himself between your legs with a confident hand that promises a morning full of pleasure.
As you feel the weight of his gaze, you gulp, wondering how, in that heated moment, he could question what you crave. It's undeniable ā€“ you want him, and the intensity of your desire hangs in the air between you, palpable and unspoken.
Your breath catches as you respond, the words tumbling from your lips in a heated rush, ā€œFuck, yes, Yoongi. I want you inside me, now,ā€ the urgency in your voice betraying the intensity of your desire.
A low, rumbling chuckle escapes him, the sound sending a shiver down your spine as he replies, ā€œPleaseā€ with a teasing glint in his eyes.
ā€œā€˜Pleaseā€™ what?ā€
ā€œSay ā€˜pleaseā€™.ā€
You huff, incredulous at his audacity. The desire in his eyes is undeniable, and he seems to enjoy the game. Part of you rebels, tempted to be a brat just to irk him, but the need for his touch overrides any resistance. You crave his intimacy, aching for his dick despite the defiance lingering in the air.
ā€œFuck this,ā€ you grumble, frustration evident in your voice. In that fleeting moment, you catch a glimpse of Yoongi pulling back, as if reconsidering his stance.
ā€œPlease! Donā€™t leave,ā€ you plead desperately, your sincerity laid bare. The smirk on his face deepens, as if savoring the intensity of your plea.
ā€œPlease fuck me, Yoongi.ā€
His satisfaction evident, he rewards you with a swift kiss before aligning himself with your eager entrance, anticipation humming in the air.
Your arousal has reached a point where there's no discomfort, just a perfect fit as he slides into you, your wetness welcoming and enveloping him seamlessly.
He hisses as he eases into your warm, tight walls, and you can feel him doing his best to restrain himself.
You release a breathy huff as he fully penetrates, his balls gently meeting the warmth of your folds.
He lets out a guttural groan as he steadies himself, withdrawing only to plunge back in with an intensity that sends shivers through your body.
In this intimate position, with him above you, every nuance of his pleasure is on full displayā€”the way his nose scrunches in delight, his soft lips occasionally nibbling the bottom one in sheer ecstasy.
Between each thrust, he can't help but express his amazement, his voice low and husky, ā€œDamn. You're so tight.ā€
You know. Itā€™s been awhile.Ā 
As he moves within you with an increased rhythm, his hands find your breasts, skillfully massaging them in sync with his fervent thrusts, creating a symphony of pleasure that courses through your entire body.
Ecstasy courses through you, and in the midst of your fervent pleasure, you can't help but release a breathless exclamation, ā€œFuck, Yoongi!ā€
Every skillful thrust seems to find its mark, synchronized with the enticing dance of his fingers on your hardened nipples. Pleasure envelops you, clouding your thoughts in a haze of ecstasy.
Your pleasure intensifies as Yoongi skillfully pinches your nipples, eliciting a symphony of moans that harmonize with the rhythmic dance of his passionate thrusts.
Sensations ripple through you, and the desire to reciprocate Yoongi's pleasure builds within you. You yearn to give him the same ecstasy he's generously bestowed upon you.
Amidst the rhythmic cadence of Yoongi's thrusts, a bold request escapes your lips. Your gaze, laced with desire, meets his, and with a subtle plea in your eyes, you softly murmur, ā€œYoongiā€”, I want to ride you. Please.ā€
With a devilish grin, Yoongi withdraws from your embrace, reclining on the bed, his eyes ablaze with anticipation.
His voice, laced with desire, sends shivers down your spine as he commands, ā€œThen you're gonna watch in the mirrors as you fuck yourself on my dick,ā€ reclining with his head angled towards the mirrors.
Mounting him, you position yourself strategically, both of you reflected in the mirrorā€”a tantalizing image of entangled limbs, the intensity of the moment etched in your heaving, sweat-glistened bodies.
Grasping his throbbing dick, he hisses in anticipation as you deftly align your eager entrance with his cock.
With a fluid motion, you descend onto his rigid cock, your velvet walls enveloping him in a tight, intoxicating embrace.
From below, Yoongi savors the view, his gaze lingering on the contours of your face, as if committing every detail to memory.
You guide the rhythm, your hands finding stability on his sculpted chest, setting the pace as you ride him with a mix of determination and desire.
Your movements cascade, a slow dance that gradually builds momentum, each rise and fall carrying a symphony of pleasure and anticipation.
As you gaze upon your reflection, the flush of arousal paints your cheeks, your disheveled hair framing your face like an unruly halo, and your breasts dance in perfect harmony with the rhythm of your passionate movements.
The person in the mirror seems like a stranger, a sensual revelation you never knew existed within you. The mirrors, always present but never before utilized for sex, now reflect a version of yourself thatā€™s both thrilling and new.
Heat courses through your veins, an intoxicating blend of arousal and empowerment, as you observe your own uninhibited reflection. With newfound vigor, you escalate the rhythm, riding Yoongi more vigorously. His appreciative groans and tender gaze mirror the intensity of the moment.
Unbridled desire takes over as your hands instinctively find their way to Yoongi's neck. Without a conscious thought, your fingers glide over the warmth of his skin, gently encircling his throat.
An electrifying jolt courses through you as you sense Yoongi's involuntary twitch within you, and you catch the ragged rhythm of his breath.
Panic courses through you, and you hastily retract your hands, realizing with a shock that you had unintentionally exerted pressure on Yoongi's throat. ā€œOh my God! I'm so sorry!ā€ you blurt out, your apology a mix of concern and embarrassment.
ā€œIt's fine, Kitten. I like it,ā€ he reassures you with a devilish grin, seizing your hands and guiding them back around his neck, his eyes sparking with a hint of mischief.
You shoot him a concerned glance, pausing your movements to ensure he's okay. Once he reassures you with a nod, signaling his approval, you dive back into the rhythm you had before.
With a newfound boldness, you tighten your grip around his throat, drawing out another satisfying twitch from him. His reaction sends a surge of pleasure through you as he hits that sweet spot, causing a kaleidoscope of sensations that make you see stars.
Your unrestrained moans fill the room, a symphony of desire that intertwines with the rhythmic sounds of your bodies colliding. The sight of Yoongi unraveling beneath your touch fuels a primal arousal, and you revel in the raw passion that courses through every fiber of your being.
ā€œFuck!ā€ you pant.
ā€œIā€™m gonna come,ā€ you confess, the words escaping on a ragged breath, as you impale yourself on his dick. Youā€™re body trembling as you hold the moment, savoring the anticipation before the inevitable plunge into ecstasy.
With a tender touch, you withdraw your hands from his throat, leaning down to kiss him. Your lips meet his in a dance of passion, tracing a path from his mouth to the very spots your fingers had claimed on his neck moments ago.
His low, guttural groan harmonizes with the rhythm as you ascend, reclaiming your perch on him. The dance begins anew, your body moving with purpose, riding the waves of pleasure set in motion by each calculated bounce on his throbbing length.
Yoongi's hands eagerly envelop your breasts, his fingers dancing with the rhythm of your fervent movements. With each descent onto him, you feel a surge of pleasure building, the shared pursuit of ecstasy driving you both towards the brink of blissful release.
His fingers deftly find your sensitive nipples, sending a jolt of pleasure through your body. The sensation is so intense that a fractured, high-pitched man escapes your lips, your back arching involuntarily in the exquisite dance of pleasure and pain.
As your walls instinctively clench around his pulsating dick, you witness the pleasure etched across his face, a delightful scrunching of his features that mirrors the ecstasy coursing through both of you.
ā€œYoongi, Iā€™m comā€”,ā€ you gasp, a desperate plea laced in your voice. Your words are unnecessary; the vice-like grip of your walls and the erratic cadence of your breath already convey the impending release that hangs thick in the air.
ā€œCome all over my dick,ā€ he smirks through a groan, a wicked gleam in his eyes. ā€œWatch yourself fall apart in the mirror.ā€
How can this man ignite such an intense flame within you? The knot in your stomach tightens once more, and as you surrender to it, a primal, drawn-out moan escapes your lips, echoing the depths of your desire.
With unyielding eyes, you lock onto your own reflection in the mirror as ecstasy courses through you, marking the moment you climax on his d*ck. Your rhythmic bouncing falters, but Yoongi, sensing your need, seizes your hips and propels the pace, driving you deeper into the intoxicating whirlwind of pleasure.
Your mouth hangs open, breaths rapid and erratic, akin to the aftermath of a sprint, while every inch of your body throbs with the residual heat of a fervent blaze.
ā€œSo beautifulā€”FUCK!ā€ he moans, powering into you with an astonishing velocity, sending shivers down your spine.
His hold on your hips tightens, your hands finding refuge on his sculpted chest for support. Your body teeters on the edge of weightlessness and grounding, as if you'd unravel if Yoongi's firm grasp on your hips faltered.
Despite the fatigue washing over you, a surge of determination courses through your veins. Summoning the last reserves of your strength, you entwine your fingers around his neck once more. You sense the impending release in Yoongi's every movement, and you're determined to be the catalyst that propels him over the edge.
The moment your grip tightens around his throat, a powerful surge reverberates through his dick within you, sending intoxicating waves of pleasure coursing through your body. It's an electrifying sensation, making every touch between you more intense and satisfying.
With an intense squeeze, you lock eyes with Yoongi, a plea in your gaze. ā€œFill me up, Yoongi.ā€
In a primal release, he surrenders to the moment, thrusting into you with an erratic rhythm, coating your walls with the warmth of his climax.
ā€œAhh,ā€ he pants, the rush of air filling his lungs as you release your grip on his neck, both of you engulfed in the aftermath of shared release.
You watch him in amazement as his fervent thrusts subside, and he eases into the embrace of your bed, a portrait of passion painted across his beautiful face.
As he gradually softens within you, you take the initiative to lift yourself off him, both of your essences clinging to your skin, a residue of your shared passion that you welcome without reservation.
As you recline beside him, a soft chuckle escapes your lips, a shared breathlessness enveloping both of you. The air in the room is charged with the echo of passion, leaving a tangible energy that binds your entangled forms together.
Breathless and sporting a satisfied grin, he turns to you, his eyes filled with a post-passion glow. ā€œFuck that was incredible,ā€' he murmurs, capturing the shared intensity of the moment in the curve of his smile.
An undeniable contentment colors your voice as you respond, ā€œYeah,ā€ savoring the echoes of pleasure that linger in the air.
Suddenly, a spark of realization ignites within you, propelling you to move with swift purpose. You crawl back on top of him, a burst of energy that startles him, like a surprise in the midst of shared afterglow.
ā€œWhy did you leave me?ā€ you inquire, a tinge of accusation laced with the bitter notes in your voice. ā€œWithout a word or a farewell. Why did you disappear without a trace?ā€
His eyes widen momentarily before giving way to an expression of anguish and sadness. A tug at your heart intensifies, as his face alone tells a story you fear can't be good.
He begins with a heavy admission, meeting your eyes with earnest sincerity, ā€œMy brother died.ā€
Your words stumble out in a rush, ā€œOh, God! I'm so sorry!ā€ The unexpected revelation leaves you fumbling for the right response.
His words flow, carrying a weight of anger and grief, ā€œIt's alright. ButI felt so much anger and grief, you know?ā€ he explains, ā€œso much so that I couldn't shapeshift and was stuck in my cat form.ā€
You exhale a soft ā€˜ahaā€™ at his words, and the realization washes over youā€” he was grappling with his own demons, just as you were.
ā€œWhen I'm consumed by intense emotions, I lose control of my ability to shapeshift, and, andā€”ā€ You witness a tearful welling in his eyes, prompting you to gently cup his cheeks, reassuring him that it's okay.
ā€œI just wanted to be alone and I didnā€™t want to burden youā€¦ā€ A few tears spill from his eyes, and you tenderly catch them with your gentle fingers.
You lean in, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek, finding solace in the curve of his neck, where his soft minty scent envelops you like a comforting embrace.
ā€œI am so fucking sorry you had to endure that. I understand, truly. But you would never be a burden to me,ā€ you express, gazing into his eyes with a tenderness that echoes your sincerity.
ā€œI want to be there for you,ā€ you declare, your own tears mirroring the empathy in your eyes.
ā€œAh, shit. I didnā€™t mean to cry. But, you know, I understand,ā€ you say, your words accompanied by a wry smile as tears trickle down your face and onto Yoongiā€™s cheeks.
ā€œIā€™m sorry, Kitten. I know. Iā€™m sorry I wasnā€™t there for you.ā€Ā 
He seizes your cheeks, tugging you into a tender and unhurried kiss. Time loses its grip, and you're oblivious to the remnants of his seed mingling with your essence, creating a slippery trail between your pussy and his still-slick pelvis.
Lost in the rhythm of your kisses with Yoongi, you surrender to the moment, where every touch feels like a missing puzzle piece seamlessly falling into place.
The two cups of coffee are long forgotten.
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Authors note (3): Thank you so very much if you have made it this far šŸ˜­ I know this story is a lot ā€“ Iā€™ve been dealing with a lot of different stuff for many years, and some of it just got to be too much a few weeks ago, and this story popped into my head. It was therapeutic to write. I donā€™t know if people will like it or not, but in the end, thatā€™s not what itā€™s about. It will just exist here.
If you struggle with any of these subjects or emotions, youā€™re always welcome in my inbox ā€“ Iā€™m not a trained psychologist or anything, though! But sometimes it is better to voice your feelings, than struggling in silence. Everybodyā€™s welcome šŸ«‚
I hope youā€™re doing well. Thank you for you šŸ’œ
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landonorizzz Ā· 3 months
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SUMMARY: marceline's valentines over the years (a short study of self love and a look into the past)
PAIRING: pierre gasly x ex! fem! redbull media team! oc , [redacted] x fem! redbull media team! oc (no faceclaim)
WARNINGS: mentions of cheating, cursing
A/N: this is a short valentines day special, marci is healing and we get a look into pierre's and marci's past relationship - this one's not really plot filled, just some valentines snaps over the years ;)
[carved my name] masterlist madi's library
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marcilazzaro1 this year, for valentines day, i am celebrating the strongest, bravest and funniest person i know, the curious soul that has been with me my whole life - myself. these past months made me realise that i wasn't always so kind to her, always putting her wants and needs on hold for people who weren't worth it, telling her to settle for something less rather that fight for what she deserves... now, i'm learning to love her and be happy for her in a completely different way and i've never felt more like myself. today of all days, whether you're single or in a relationship, please remember to show yourself some love too. you can spoil yourself a little - you absolutely deserve it.
all of my love goes to you x
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carrie_on whos cutting onions here what the shit
redleclerc she is actually so mother, you don't understand
clairobernie_x i very much agree with the home decor, mia bella šŸ¤
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 aw, are we about to kiss rn?
ā†³ clairobernie_x šŸ˜š
cuddlyxricc are you trying to trick me into loving myself with a very aesthetic valentines photo dump?
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 is it working?
ā†³ cuddlyxricc ......maybe
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 good.
quickstappen did you do anything special today to spoil yourself?
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 yes! i cooked my absolute favourite meal from my childhood, took a very long and relaxing bath all while sipping on apple cider (i'm not a huge fan of champagne) and binged the mamma mia movies again!
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 did you do anything to spoil yourself?
ā†³ quickstappen it was gonna be another sad valentines, but you've changed my mind. i deserved a break. i went shopping to my favourite store and i'm planning to treat myself to dinner night out!
ā†³ marcilazzaro1 you don't know how amazing it is to hear that šŸ¤
barbiegirl i just love how confident she's getting šŸ„¹ i've waited YEARS for this
shithappens okay but the revenge dress???? absolute serve
ā†³ madi_races it looks like it was made for her, honestly
ilpredestinatox HELL YEAH. GIRL, YOU DON'T NEED NO MAN (especially not that cheating bastard)
sarah_scott šŸ„‚šŸ’›
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FEBRUARY 2020
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marcilazzaro1 to the one who always listens to what i have to say and never complains about my weird shit - i thought i knew what it was like to love and be loved, but everyday you prove me wrong, you're like a breath of fresh air after a long dive.
all of my love goes to you x
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pierregasly there's no one i'd rather listen to in the middle of the night, you make me feel whole, i didn't even know i had so much love to give
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FEBRUARY 2021
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marcilazzaro1 another year, another letter. i've never felt such an overwhelming kind of love, no matter how many words i write, it's never enough. there's so much i want to say and so little words. i think i'll just have to write it out for the rest of my life and even that might not be enough time.
all of my love goes to you x
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pierregasly i've never liked reading, but i know all your letters by heart. i can't wait to spend forever with you
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FEBRUARY 2022
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marcilazzaro1 to pierre, my love - no words can explain what i feel for you (and yet i try every year), i love everything about you, even your dirty socks laying around the apartment, but most of all, i love your quiet. i was never good with silence, my life is chaotic and full of noise, i was scared of slowing down, but with you i am safe and i don't have to fear the quiet moments anymore
all of my love goes to you x
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pierregasly i can only be quiet with you, no one else
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FEBRUARY 2023
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marcilazzaro1 to the future us - i hope you're kind and loved. to pierre - another year with you and i still don't have enough. i think my love for you might be endless, like the depth of your eyes in the mornings. i am enamored, bewitched, but never lost, i've found myself in your arms.
all of my love goes to you x
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pierregasly here's to the future! i love you always
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madi's radio: here we have a bit of nostalgia for marci and pierre :)))) i don't know where this came from honestly, but i wanted to show that there was a time when they were happy and in love (on both sides)
taglist: @sunny44 @rockyhayzkid @biancathecool @unluckyyoshi @woozarts @janeholt3 @celestialend @formulaal @d3kstar @yoremins @rd14 @mess-is-my-aesthetic @callsignwidow @blaaahblubb @evans-dejong @lwstuff (xxx - couldn't tag you)
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DISCLAIMER: i do not know anything about this people, this is not real life, this is just something for fun, i do not know anythings about their life or personalities!
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kpophubb Ā· 1 year
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į°” š•°š–“š–š–žš–•š–Šš–“ š–ƒ š•½š–Šš–†š–‰š–Šš–— į°”
ā„ єŠøŠ½ŃƒĻŃ”Šø тĪ±ŠŗĪ¹Šøg Ā¢Ī±ŃŃ” Ļƒf тŠ½Ń”Ī¹Ń ѕĪ¹Ā¢Šŗ ѕ/Ļƒ ā™”
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ā„šŸ„¶šŸ„“šŸ„½šŸ…šŸ„“: š–暝—…š—Žš–暝–æ,š–暝—…š—Žš–暝–暝—’ ā™„ļøŽ
"š˜ š˜Øš˜°š˜µ š˜ŗš˜°š˜¶, š˜ŗš˜°š˜¶ š˜Øš˜°š˜µ š˜®š˜¦, š˜øš˜©š˜¦š˜Æ š˜Ŗš˜µ'š˜“ š˜¶š˜“ š˜£š˜¢š˜£š˜¦ š˜ŗš˜°š˜¶ š˜®š˜¢š˜¬š˜¦ š˜®š˜¦ š˜§š˜¦š˜¦š˜­ š˜“š˜° š˜¤š˜°š˜®š˜±š˜­š˜¦š˜µš˜¦. š˜ š˜°š˜¶'š˜³š˜¦ š˜¢š˜­š˜­ š˜ š˜Æš˜¦š˜¦š˜„."
āœ¼ā€¢ā€¢ā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā€¢ā€¢āœ¼ā™”āœ¼ā€¢ā€¢ā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā€¢ā€¢āœ¼ā™„ļøŽāœ¼ā€¢ā€¢ā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā”ˆā€¢ā€¢āœ¼
ā™” ā„“єє Š½Ń”єѕєĻ…Šøg [ģ“ķ¬ģŠ¹]
The genuinely concerned, loving boyfriend :(
Will wish that heā€™s the one who got sick instead of you bc he hates seeing you suffer šŸ˜”
hee becomes so much softer with you I swear, like holds your hand in feather motions, brushing and massaging your skin with his thumb gently and pressing butterfly kisses to your cheeks and all over your face to make you feel better.
Will google remedies and pour all his efforts to make sure you get well as soon as possible.
Heeseung cares so much for you, that heā€™s even gonna take his day off just to spend the night with you.
Will make ramen for you and cuddle with you, pulling you into his chest, laying your head on his heart beat when he will brush your hair with his delicate fingers and sing for you. He will kiss the top of your head so fondly, humming to make you fall asleep and ensure you a good nightā€™s rest.
Is the one who holds you tight all night, even in his sleep bc even subconsciously he yearns to protect you and keep you close to him. T-T <3
Gives you so many heartfelt confessions to make you feel good. Theyā€™re so genuine, you can literally see the softness and hearts in his eyes. ā€œIā€™m so lucky to have you, you know I love you so much right?ā€ ā€œI promise Iā€™ll protect you and take care of you, so please donā€™t be falling sick again okay?ā€ ā€œHey, I love you so much my Angelā€ and hug you, holding you in his embrace for a long time and securing you tightly. Love radiates from every heart beat of his that you feel while your bodies are pressed, his promises and feelings seeping into your body and making you feel like warm rays of sunshine on a cool, chilly day. :ā€™) šŸ¤
Will be SO EXCITED and thankful the day you heal and dance with you, jumping in the air while holding your hand like a little kid that finally youā€™re healthy again YAAY!! šŸ„ŗ
Will take you out on a cozy date the next day after, to celebrate and treat you to a delicious meal <3
+ take the chance to be as lovey dovey with you now, as much as your hearts desire ;)
ā™” ĻĪ±ŃŠŗ ąø§Ī±Ńƒ [ė°•ģ¢…ģ„±]
Absolutely HATES that youā€™re sick :(
Totally NOT having it, you can literally see the pout and the concerned, disapproving frown on his face the moment he sees you shift in your bed from sickness. Like MANā€™S READY TO FIGHT whatever the shit is bothering you!!šŸ˜ 
Will immediately come to your service, pamper you, kiss you, be soft with you, give you tummy rubs and kneel on the bed beside you taking your hands in his so lovingly, asking you what is wrong. Heā€™s gonna listen with the most utmost attention what pain/ sickness youā€™re suffering from and act accordingly.
Jay will give you massages to help with your cramps or head aches and most definitely will cook all nutritious and healthy foods for you.
He will even bring you the food IN BED! šŸ„¹šŸ¤ set up the tray with candles and give you the most heart warming smile as he enters the room. <3
Will literally listen to whatever you say and call you to check up on you. Yes, CALL, not texts bc he wants to hear your voice that feels so reassuring, calms his soul and brings him peace and happiness no matter how busy or tired he is.
Will give you so many tender forehead kisses, cupping your cheeks with his hand and give you words of affirmation like the husband material he is.
ā€œYouā€™re so strong baby, donā€™t worry you will be fine.ā€ ā€œIā€™m here for you always okay?ā€ and proceed to give you the tightest, ooziest ever hug. šŸ„ŗšŸ«¶šŸ»
will buy you gifts and spoil you sm when you recover, and expect to hear so many doā€™s and donā€™tā€™s advices from him next ā€œwear warm clothesā€ ā€œ donā€™t eat out so muchā€ ā€œdonā€™t sleep with wet hair!ā€ And so many detailed points that he personally gathered for you to follow so his precious girl never gets sick again.
ā™” ѕĪ¹Š¼ ąø§Ī±Ń”ŃƒĻ…Ī· [ģ‹¬ģž¬ģœ¤]
PLS, donā€™t even get me started on this-
LITERALLY goes into clingy boyfriend mode at the slightest inconvenience because he loves you TOO much
Panics and is all over the place the moment you sneeze
BABY YOU ALRIGHT??ā€ ā€œAre you catching a cold??ā€ ā€œOh my god is that a FEVER symptomā€ and proceeds to check your temperature a million times
Just bc youā€™re his baby love that he must protecc at all costs :(( šŸ’•
Jake is the type of boyfriend whoā€™s gonna devote his whole time taking care of you. Buying you medicines and even attempting to cook for you, dressing you up and even doing your hair and skincare and what not.
GIVES YOU TOTAL PRINCESS TREATMENT. I REPEAT T O T A L PRINCESS TREATMENT!!
Will even carry you to the bathroom bc he wonā€™t let you walk. Princess style transportation to the door ohmygod >.< !! ą²„_ą²„ ā™”
Texts you a trillion billion times a day , even while heā€™s at work he will spare a few seconds just to take updates on your day.
Will come home from work early with your favourite food take outs and flowers šŸ„ŗā£ļø bc duh, heā€™s the BEST BOY on earth.
The most heart melting part? He would pray to god for you. So you recover fast and are always healthy and happy with the most sincere heart (*sobs bc imagining that is giving me a breakdown*)
Will literally SMOTHER you in kisses every two minutes now that youā€™re sick. And claim that his kisses have ā€œhealing abilitiesā€ (pls donā€™t argue with his romantic ass) he will even kiss you to shut you up. Moral of the story, he will take those kisses anyhow. šŸ˜¤šŸ’œšŸ¤­
Jake is gonna pamper you even after you recover and mentally promise himself to take care of you better so you never get sick again. šŸ„ŗ
ā™” ĻĪ±ŃŠŗ ѕĻ…ŠøgŠ½ĻƒĻƒŠø [ė°•ģ„±ķ›ˆ]
The one who really panics a lot! šŸ˜£ :((
Heā€™s so scared and clueless, fretting over what he should do and doubting himself whether he can care for you the right way or not
But mind you, baby boy is protective and will take care of you HIMSELF, not letting anyone else nursing you even for a second
Heā€™s your man so he wants you to rely on him šŸ˜¤šŸ’–
Will literally Google ā€œhow to take care of your sick girlfriendā€ and even call his members to take tips on what to do, even tho heā€™s not an expert in this, he will try his best to not make you feel any lacking
You can seriously see the love he has for you, from the way he furrows his brows in concentration while making chicken porridge for you in the ki thenšŸ„ŗ
Will try to be verbal and more openly affectionate for you to cheer you up when youā€™re sick. Like pat your head and give you back hugs, but he gets so shy and awkward xjdndjdndj šŸ«£šŸ‘‰šŸ»šŸ‘ˆšŸ»
Will even whisper ā€œI love youā€ in tiny just barely so you can hear them lmao
Pls do not ask him to repeat, bc he will be into tomato mode so spare his life girl!! XD
Another one who you can make to do anything for you because heā€™s at your service maā€™am šŸ«”
Letā€™s out the most relieved sigh and pretends to wipe sweat off his forehead when you recover like ā€œphew finally I wonā€™t have to be so worried and take care of youšŸ˜®ā€šŸ’ØšŸ„“ā€ JUST to tease you and make you run after him, chasing him and the both of you bursting into sweet laughter soon enough! šŸ’—
ā™” ŠŗĪ¹Š¼ ѕĻ…ŠøĻƒĻƒ [ź¹€ģ„ ģš°]
Pouts very displeasingly the moment he comes to find you sick ā˜¹ļø
Seriously more upset than you that youā€™re IN PAIN >.<
Becomes so worried and dramatic like ā€œoTtoEkEšŸ˜£ baby youā€™re feeling bad!!ā€ and starts walking in the room to & fro, thinking hard about what he should do for you.
Takes you out to the doctor from the minor inconveniences!! You get a sore throat and heā€™s dragging you to the hospital the next minute
Becomes extra when it comes to caring for you, feeds you all sorts of medicines and remedies and grows ā€œšŸ˜ ā€ if you say no !!
You can literally see the worry painted all over his face aww šŸ„ŗ
Begins lecturing you every now and then why you shouldnā€™t do this/ that and prevent yourself from falling sick and how he never wants to see you suffer ever again
Irritated at himself for letting you fall sick in the first place :(( </3
Holds your hands at all times and kisses your entire face and talks constantly about how much he loves you and to hang in there until you have to kiss him to shut him up oh god
Will assign ni ki to take care of you for the days he has schedule and narrow his eyes when he video calls you to check if yā€™all are not messing around and actually resting
Jumps around the room from happiness and does his joyous lil dance the day you recover, and you can see that million dollar sunny smile on his face from his excitement <3
Clings to you shamelessly for the rest of the day now cause come on, his baby is finally all fit and healthy šŸ’•šŸ„°šŸ„°
ā™” уĪ±Ī·Ö ąø§Ļ…Ī·ÖĻ‰ĻƒĪ· [ģ–‘ģ •ģ›]
Since heā€™s already really good at taking care of people, he will do a great job looking after his beloved girl aka you <3
The bonus point is that youā€™ll get more affection and love from the others he takes care of ;)
wonieā€™s someone who has a whole medication routine to follow for you. If youā€™re having a cold, he knows what kind of drinks to feed you, what medicines you need and all the things covered. If you have a fever, heā€™s gonna nurse you with wet towels and give you medicines and basically the best and most perfect kinda treatment you can ask for. Your boyfriend is just an all rounder!! He wonā€™t let anything be less from any direction when it comes to you.
Heā€™s someone who becomes extra romantic given this chance. šŸ¤­ā£ļø he will sneak in a few more kisses and give you as much cuddles as you want. Bc heā€™s someone whoā€™s not normally very clingy or touchy, heā€™s gonna use this chance to pamper you as much as you desire.
Starts using pet names to make you feel better like ā€œmy baby needs this?ā€ ā€œOhh my love is hungry?ā€ But nothing too cheesy because he pretends to cringe but HEAR ME OUT, the real reason is that heā€™s so shy lol šŸ‘‰šŸ»šŸ‘ˆšŸ»
Gets red ears and blushy rosy cheeks and you can literally see the dimple poking everytime you look at him lovingly while cuddling and tease him for suddenly being so romantic. šŸ˜³
The type of sweetheart who stays up all night caring for you!šŸ„ŗ you wake up to a sleepy jungwon sitting beside you on the bed, while holding your hand. Heā€™s been holding your hand all night and keeping an eye on you.
You wish you were sick more often because the ā€œI love youā€ parades are so real and make you feel šŸ¦‹šŸ¦‹šŸ¦‹. I love yous from yang jungwon every hour? PLS,, literal heaven šŸ¤²šŸ»
Even if heā€™s at work, heā€™s gonna text you every now and then, ESPECIALLY during meal times to make sure youā€™ve eaten. Wonā€™t be convinced until you snap him pictures of your food and reassure him youā€™re eating well.
Literally the most caring, cutest boy ever. Period.šŸ’•šŸ˜©
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Now altho ni ki is very playful 90% of the times, he becomes SO MATURE when youā€™re sick
Goes into his adult mode, is so patient with you and gets you medicines and groceries by himself, and even gives you physical support when you walk (even tho you donā€™t need it T-T)
Yes by physical support I mean tucking your arms inside his and LIFTING YOU UP with his strength in the name of helping you walk lol
But heā€™s doing it bc he cares for you sm
Donā€™t think youā€™re NOT going to be teased just bc youā€™re sickšŸ˜ heā€™s gonna tease you and enjoy it just to laugh at you, his cackling laughter making you laugh in turn
Will show you so many memes of the members and make goofy faces to make you smile and cheer you up into a good mood until you forget youā€™re sick in the first place šŸ„ŗ
Another one who becomes very romantic (and touchy) when youā€™re sick ahem *coughs*šŸ˜³šŸ‘‰šŸ»šŸ‘ˆšŸ»
Will give you tummy pats and kiss your jaw and cheeks and even the spaces in between your fingers bc heā€™s just so adorable T-T
Will chant in your sleep into your ears softly & lovingly ā€œyouā€™ll get better soon my baby bear so donā€™t worryā€ and kiss your earlobes
Then proceeds to gets SHY over it and rolls into the other side of the bed and kicks his feet in the air lmao
And he even checks in the middle of blushing just to make sure youā€™re actually awake and not witnessing this funny high school lovesick scenario he has on šŸ˜†
Stares at the phone all day for your text notification until he gets teased and laughed at by his hyungs. ā€œ leave me alone aishā€ he always holds back his smile and complains, but they can see how your name impacts him from his evident red ears.
Overall, just another sweetheart whoā€™s so relieved when you recover and promises to himself to never let you fall sick ever again. <3
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Tagging: @csmicbot @cloudcutter @miyoung07 @yjjungwon @ingkai @love4heejayke
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mo4anm94 Ā· 4 months
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I honestly donā€™t think these people donā€™t understandā€¦ Iā€™m a very complicated person. I know I am. My mind can scare even a well trained psychiatrist believe it or not.. mentally Iā€™ve been beaten to a pulp. To a point where I hated who I wasā€¦ pero thenā€¦. She came into my life.. šŸ„¹šŸ„¹šŸ„¹ this beautiful soul that has changed my perspective.. thatā€™s healed how I think and mentally has kept me at bay.. Sheā€™s more than just flesh. Sheā€™s more than just a woman. Sheā€™s more than just for sexā€¦ for me. Sheā€™s my safety.. sheā€™s my paradise. My peace.. Sheā€™s given me love that I donā€™t even deserve if I can be completely honest.. for I am nothing but a man. Sheā€™s been through and gone through so much.. She deserves everythingā€¦ and she chose me to make her happy.. she chose me to be her safety. Her peace. Her paradiseā€¦ I wasnā€™t a jealous man before.. and Iā€™ll admit this because this how different she is.. Iā€™ve never been so protective over anyone beforeā€¦ and how she has been treating me and giving me this amount of love.. I have to go into Nipsey mode and go based off what he once saidā€¦ I have to protect her heart now. Sheā€™s given me reason to protect her from ever getting hurt or disrespected. I mean Im not gonna lie. Iā€™m sure some of yā€™all can try to keep up with meā€¦ and some that can keep up and more. But trust when I say this to everyone or anyone that reads thisā€¦ Iā€™ll go past beyond my limits for her. Iā€™ll ride or die for her. For herā€¦ Iā€™ll burn half the fucking world.. and donā€™t try me because I am willing to do that for her. Sheā€™s proven to me that she is someone that can never be replaced or replicated. Sheā€™s shown me that she isnā€™t afraid to love my son as if he was her own.. I canā€™t afford to lose such an intelligent and beautiful human being and Iā€™ll be damned if I let some buster try to slide in between what we got going on.. Sheā€™s my entire universe and trust me homie.. this T. Rex bites. One bite and you done.. look it up lol ok.. glad I got that off my chest šŸ˜…šŸ˜Šā˜ŗļø
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emsuemsu Ā· 4 months
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@hprecfest day 31: fav among favs
Last day of 2023!! Last prompt of the magnificent HP rec fest!!! This fest has given me so much joy and introduced me to a bunch of new stories to read (which I probably would never even considered to read if it weren't for this fest) for the past month šŸ„¹ December went by so fast, 2023 went by even faster. Iā€™ve been in and out of the fandom for the last too many years, more out than in to be honest, but this year I crashlanded back to HP fanfiction which honestly is my safe haven even after all these years. Further ado, fav among favs which my silly little words will never do justice:
The Brightest Constellations of Our Souls by @thecouchsofa šŸ©µ 256,402 words, draco/harry
Harry doesnā€™t know how to cope after the War. The only things that make him feel even remotely normal again are taking risks while flying and fighting with Malfoy. Itā€™s not likely to end well. Or, Draco becomes obsessed with ā€˜Wonderwallā€™, reads Muggle books, and drives a campervan, while Harry slowly falls in love with Draco. A story about travelling around the British Isles in the late 90s while healing deep scars.
My life can be divided to before and after this fic. I like to think that I didnā€™t find this story but the other way around - this story found me. And since it is a new fic, posted in the course of last six months I truly do believe it was meant to be I'd come back to the fandom via this story.
This fic is really fucking precious to me and I'm like a healthy-ish amount of emotional about it. First of all it's incredibly well-written, the style of the whole story is very straight-forward but at the same time extremely detailed, immersive and beautiful, sentence after sentence. Even though I love longfics (and this is definitely a longfic with 250k) they can feel a bit dragged out at times, but the way this story is paced and organized I never had that feeling reading this. I felt like each and every word of this story was essential, nothing too much, nothing too little.
This story does come with a little cw from the author. This fic is heavy, really fucking heavy at times, but there is so much light and eventual happiness to balance it out. One of the reasons I love this story so much is that it feels so relatable, it's raw and real to me in so many ways. Harry is my ultimate favorite character out of all the fandoms and characters out there, and the Harry we get served in this fic is godsent. His gradual healing with Draco during their little travels is really moving and touching. Babes.
It's extremely slow burn. Like the burn is so slow the fire is completely out most of the story. But then there's these small things along the way; like Draco's wet left shoulder from the rain and getting almond croissants all the way from Edinburgh that feed the flame and just wreck the shit out of me. And this fic drags you through the mud and minefields right before (and/or during) getting to the part where something actually happens between them. The way their relationship builds along the story is magnificent and emotional. And when we finally get to part where the slow burn pays off and flames lick every inch of my rotten body this fic has some class A smut that I file in the category of "so good I cried". Although, I did manage to cry for nearly the entirety of this story.
This fic definitely is a journey, and it's a long, at times difficult and gut-wrenching, but in the end it's a journey I'm really fucking glad I took. This is a fic I think everyone should at least give a chance to, it'll steal your heart.
All in all, this is a very, very dear story to me on every level possible. Thank you so much @thecouchsofa for writing it, I'm beyond in love with this story and I'm so glad I happen to exist on this planet at the same time as you and your brilliant, beautiful stories šŸ’•
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bookishtheaterlover7 Ā· 2 months
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I'll only let me walls down for a minute, okay.
After reading your message, AnšŸ«¶n. All I can say is thank you šŸ„¹
Because honestly I thought y'all would hate me for lashing out. And basically pour all my hate towards the two of them.
So, I'm thank you for telling me that it's okay for me to go through EVERYTHING basically. The betrayal, the hurt, all of it.
And it's going to be a while, and I won't make it easy for Chris to make his way back into my good graces (heart, whatever). But I won't give up writing his characters, because my writings are basically my children and I'm not willing to give them up.
Basically, thank you ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ and I'm cautiously in #Team Chris, I don't want him to suffer. Grovel, but not suffer. But that doesn't mean, I won't spew hurtful words and shade in his direction. Just giving y'all a heads up.
Just give me time to mourn, and thank you šŸ¤—//
Same anon here.
Firstly, Iā€™m glad you found my message uplifting and secondly, I want to thank you for not giving up wholly. I understand you being cautious, this shitshow isnā€™t going away soon and, I hate this as much as anyone else but, thereā€™s going to be more of this. I didnā€™t like tonightā€™s show but itā€™s the Oscars and Alba has to be seen, so what better way to be seen than attending the Oscars as a famous personā€™s plus one?
My guess is that CAA is forcing Chris into everything and this was one of those cases with the additional instructions of looking happy and in love. Iā€™m placing all the blame on them. Theyā€™re reading everything weā€™re saying and adjusting Chrisā€™ behaviour to make him sell the ā€œrelationshipā€ so that AB can somehow be noticed by the big Hollywood people. I believe that AB paid CAA to make her famous by getting her into a PR stunt with one of their clients and Chris just happened to be available at that time and, unfortunately, got picked. I know that sheā€™s a nobody but we all know she has a rich family.
You can still mourn and be disappointed in him but I am glad that Team Chris isnā€™t dead, and I hope one day you can go back to feeling the way you did about him. Iā€™m still supporting Chris. In my eyes, he needs support from his fans as I believe heā€™s most likely suffering the most out of all of us. šŸ’™
P.S.
I donā€™t think that Chris wearing that suit means heā€™s supporting Nazism. Itā€™s just a bad suit. šŸ˜
I hope so too, AnšŸ«¶n. It'll be a while. But nothing heals disappointment like time šŸ¤—
I can honestly say, I admire you for being so optimistic. And basically being, a kind and gentle soul.
So, thank you. And also for not suggesting therapy. šŸ˜Š
Eh, Agree to disagree until I can unsee the color combo of the suit, right next to her...
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šŸ•ÆļøšŸ¤ŽHere is my polyship & OT3: 'Rrrru (main OC & WoL), Vi (my OC) & Raha. They're a closed throuple, Soulmates lovin' each other equally and they're all Pansexual (like me).šŸ’—šŸ’›šŸ’™
They're my everything and mean the world to me. I started telling 'Rrrru story in gpose, and so their story, almost 1 year ago.
āœØMore about their throuple: They're very fusional, almost inseparable, their connection is strong, mystical but also the fruit of natural & open communication made of boundless love and consideration. Listening, sharing, giving & receiving love with all their heart, respecting the freedom & choices of each of them, trusting each others, and always wanting the best for each other is at the heart of their relationship.šŸ«¶
They rarely argue & even if they don't always share the same opinion, they respect, keep an open mind. They talk to each other about almost everything without judgement.šŸ˜Œ(each one has his secret garden and they are aware of the importance of this). They take care of each duo of their throuple with endless love & care, not afraid of being cheesy! They suffer if one of them suffers, and are happy when each of them flourishes.šŸŖ·
They have endured much, and cherish every moment together, show their love in many small gestures: a gaze, a caress, a sweet kiss, an embrace, a little word, listening & talking for hours, caring, healing, sharing hobbies, preparing their fav dish, a bath... Cuddles, lot of cuddles, making love, kisses, lot of kisses and much more! šŸ„°šŸ„¹
ā£ļøI created them with all my heart, my soul, my guts, based on my vision of things, irl values, experiences, choices, instinct, even if i've never been in throuple. Please perceive them, and thank you for reading me! šŸ–¤
šŸ“”To read their story, (still ongoing but main scenario almost done) you can join the non-social discord (link in pinned). I'll repost the whole soon here, except the explicit parts for wich i'll redirect.
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josephseedismyfather Ā· 8 months
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2 in 1 uquizzes
I was tagged by @inafieldofdaisies and @socially-awkward-skeleton for these 2 quizzes, sorry about the delay! I still haven't gotten all the tags figured out apparently!
What is your ocs true role in the story?
The "Oh" quiz
Harley Jane ā¤ļø
the fallen prodigy
hello old friend, it's been a while hasn't it? I remember when you were just a child, gape-smiled and beaming like the sun. where have you laid your youth to rest my love? is it buried beside your heart perhaps? I know how deeply life has wounded you, it took away everything, didn't it? oh poor soul, you held onto happiness with bloody, shaking hands but still fate ripped even that away from you. your past lovers are dead or did some betray you? turning away in fear of what they once admired. your comrades have been slain, or their priorities shifted. I've heard you too have changed your way of thought. the people fear you know, do they normally cower at the sound of your name? ah don't fret, that makes two of us. the masses tend to despise the things they do not have the will to comprehend. the villain finds sympathy for you don't they, well I could have seen that from a mile away. you two are the oldest friends, you made a deal with them correct? to save your late love, they tried to hold their end of the bargain, really, but I fear you are cursed to forever be despondent. oh what a sad and miserable life without love. is that why you chase loneliness? for is it truly a life of sorrow if you yourself has chosen it? but don't become bitter from the pain. trust when I say I have seen wounds unfold a man, turning the gentlest spirits into seething beasts. please, keep seeking love, even if it seems you are forbidden from it. you are the master of your own fate, I see how tired you are. the scars never healed, they twist and wrap around your entire person. your eyes are dark and lifeless, rest. but keep fighting, not with the sword you have forsaken so long ago, but with your heart. I'll be rooting for you my friend.
the late-night talk
Oh. you figure it out when you realize just how vulnerable they are willing to be with you. it isn't everybody who could or would stay up talking into the night with you, not with such affection or easy familiarity. it isn't everybody who is so understanding of you. it isn't everybody who could bare their soul to you in return. that kind of intimacy... it means deep foundations. it means comfort. it means trust. maybe it's a secret, maybe it's a story, maybe it's something you just never thought of before -- but they say something, late at night, and you realize all at once how remarkable they are, and how special it is to exist in the same time and space as them. "oh" indeed.
Why do both of these fit her so well?! šŸ„¹
Evangeline Rose šŸ’›
the supporter
oh gentle comrade, you know what it takes to make others shine. you live your life assisting others to reach their goals, but many say you are lackluster and unnecessary. but alas, do we need the stars any less for their dim light helps the moon glow brighter! you are warm inside and out, perhaps made of sunshine one might ask? but I can see you are as weary and worn as the hero you so desperately cling to. your purpose is to serve? Is it not? it's those moments of undying loyalty that make your bones ring true with honor. "I am right beside you," you whisper, for unlike the ones who lie through their teeth you will be with your ally through joy, through heart ache, through death. it is a difficult thing to gain your trust back if one has shattered it though, you are forgiving yes? you give many chances, but alas, one can only look away from a wrong doing so long. you can't exactly turn your other cheek as once wrings a blade through your middle. you are made of a steadfast heartbeat and a tired, knowing smile. you bring solace to the aching, and comfort to the wronged. but what happens when your protagonist loses? what happens when your valiant heroes fail you? will you pick up a sword and vanquish their enemy or will you wait patiently for yet another savior to appear and save the day? one must live long enough to see their heroes die. but are you brave enough to take their place? the only strings that bind you to your oaths of subservience are your own doubts. "am I good enough?" they whisper in your ears. you answer that yourself love. for the only difference between the paladin and the stable boy are mettle. it is not the question of can you be a hero. it is simply, will you be?
the unrelated moment
you tend to be more preoccupied with practical things, to the point where you've been blinded to matters of the heart. sure, you're close with this person. you like to be close with people. it is rewarding to know and be known in return. you leave realization no choice but to sneak up on you. they're not even in the room when it happens. someone or something else spells it out for you, an observant friend's passing comment or a particular sentence you were reading in a book, and suddenly it hits you, what it all means. the person your feelings have been building themselves around. Oh. it's them. it's time. it's them and you, here and now, and you have to decide what to do at this crossroads. luckily, you're practically-minded.
Okayyyy but these ones are perfect, too. Especially "the unrelated moment"...iykyk šŸ˜
Tagging my usual peeps because honestly I can't remember who did this and who didn't. So, SUPER apologies for doubles and no pressure!!! @wrathfulrook, @trench-rot, @jacobsneed, @vampireninjabunnies-blog, @ladyoriza, @cassietrn, @redreart, @hotmessteaparty, @g0dspeeed, @silenthqll, @the-silver-chronicles, @malefiquinn, @strangefable, @psyren-psyrpent, @noodlecupcakes, @neverthesameneveranother and anyone else who wants to play šŸ„°
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{Hello! Here is my half of the matchup trade!!}
{ā˜†} Name: AstraeaĀ 
{ā˜†} Demon slayer and Aot! (Male results please!Ā 
{ā˜†} Female, She/herĀ 
{ā˜†} 17, 15-20Ā 
{ā˜†} INFP, (yay twinsies!!) 2w1 enneagram also know as the ā€˜Companionā€™.Ā 
Iā€™m pretty shy/ reserved most of the time though I make an effort to not come off as cold or unexpressive, I always try to smile and I love doing things to make others happy. Iā€™m a nurturer at heart and I always strive to make things easier for everyone around me, even at the cost of my own time. Iā€™m not very good at confrontation so I could see that as being a flaw in the sense that I could keep on bottling negative things up until I have a break down or something, so I could really use someone who would care just as much as I try to. Iā€™m pretty sensitive, on the inside more then the outside, so I think if I was with someone who didnā€™t pay attention or care about my feelings, I would get worn out pretty easily.Ā 
{ā˜†} likes: I like writing, creating characters and stories to go with them. I like drawing and baking, as well as cooking. I like to read in my free time and Iā€™ve always been fascinated by the sky, whether itā€™s at night or in the day. I could stare at it for hours on end and not be bored. (Idk if thatā€™s weird or not lol) I love milk tea and onigiri!! My favorite colors are cream/white, light blue and dark blue. Dislikes: the thought of loosing everyone Iā€™m close to, people that take advantage of others, and papaya I guess?? Itā€™s hard to think of things lol.Ā 
{ā˜†} I have a pretty average body shape I think, edging toward curvy with a short torso and longer legs. I have a round face,long eyes lashes, a button nose and dark brown, small-ish upturned hooded eyes. My hair is inky black and curly/wavy depending on the day. I have round glasses and I like to wear cute clips and rubber bands in my hair.Ā 
{ā˜†} reading, writing, drawing, making fantasy maps, playing video games and moreĀ 
{ā˜†} I like to wear comfy but stylish clothes, so baggy pants and a button up+ sweater or hoodie, sometimes a casual dress with leggings. I like to wear lighter colors, most of the time blues whites creams and green.Ā 
{ā˜†} Receiving: I honestly prefer quality time and acts of service the most. It makes me feel like Iā€™m worth something and like the person actually likes to be around me. Giving: i tend to show people I love them by acts of service and words of affirmation. Once Iā€™m close, the compliments will keep on coming. Iā€™m very loyal and will do pretty much anything for a spouse as long as I love them and feel comfortable with them.Ā 
{ā˜†} Someone who shows appreciation for me, makes me feel loved despite my flaws, and someone who can understand my feelings. I donā€™t think Iā€™d get along with someone who is materialistic, as I really appreciate it when people find beauty in the small things. Introvert or extrovert doesnā€™t really matter, as long as theyā€™re not overbearing/macho or controlling if you know what I mean.Ā 
Thank you so much!! Iā€™ll get your matchup out asap!! ^^Ā 
Hi hi~! I absolutely LOVE your name! Also you seem like such a wholesome, pure soul šŸ„¹.
This is a match up exchange and Iā€™ve had so much fun with it! Please check out their page! šŸ’œ
In KNY, I ship you withā€¦Tanjiro!
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You and Tanjiro are such pure and kind people! Your personality also reminds me of Tanjioā€™s too. Even though the saying is ā€œopposites attractā€, I truly think you and Tanjiro would make such a wonderful and loving couple. And I feel like your similarities will give you both a better understanding of each other.
Tanjiro will appreciate you taking care of him and healing him back to good health after missions. Although he feels great amount of guilt for making you worry about him. He still finds it very sweet and makes sure you know how grateful he is to have you!
Whenever both of you have any down time, Tanjiro makes an effort to set up cloud/star gazing dates. He absolutely finds your fascination with the sky so cute and endearing.
Tanjiro is very doting with his friends and family. And he wouldnā€™t be any different with you! I can see him always making sure youā€™re taken care of to. Making sure youā€™re eating and resting when you need to. I think heā€™d be very in-tuned with your feelings too.
Tanjiro loves all the cute accessories you put in your hair and will ask if he can braid your hair sometimes. He enjoys how playing with your hair relaxes him after a stressful training session. Nezuko definitely wants to turn after heā€™s done playing with your hair lol.
Overall, just a very pure and beautiful relationship~!
In AOT, I ship you withā€¦Amrin!
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Another man who is super sweet and kind. I have a sense that you two are very loyal to your loved ones!
Armin will enjoy baking with you as a stress reliever. Heā€™ll also playfully dip his finger in the batter and bop you on the nose just to hear your sweet laugh~
This boy gets SO blushy and flustered every time you compliment him lol. He canā€™t help but stutter a quiet ā€œthank youā€ and gently kiss you on the cheek. Heā€™s so happy, but his brain malfunctions and doesnā€™t know what to do. Also expect Jean to tease him every time he see you two together lol.
Armin also enjoys his laying video games with you. More so the fact that he can think up some strategies to help you beat the boss levels.
Armin admires your caring and nurturing personality. You give him so much strength and love on his more tougher days. He knows he can lean on you and he hopes to be a safe place for you too.
Armin would be so sweet and attentive to you. And I can see you being the same for him, which Heā€™s very grateful for!
I hope you enjoyed your side of the exchange. I had so much fun with this~! ā˜ŗļø
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siriuslysatorusimping Ā· 8 months
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OH MY GOODDDD!!! A RINGGGGG??????? OMGGGGGG
I just finished (Please) Prove Me Wrong after i left for holiday right before the angst dropped (and binged it all in the last 24 hours) and I HAD TO TAKE A BREAK AND SAY THIS
BECAUSE A RING?!?!? THAT BOX ON HIS BEDSIDE TABLE WAS A RING THIS WHOLE TIMEEEEEEE
This whole time i thought it was the box it was the box that Rinko gave him his blindfold in, thinking he kept it for the same reason as the blindfold.
AND THEN IN THE LAST SENTENCE WHEN HE SAID HE WILL GIVE IT TO HER EVENTUALLY I GASPED
WHAAAAATTT HE BOUGHT A RING BEFORE ALL THIS??? My man is WHIPPEDDšŸ˜­šŸ˜­
Omggggg that makes this even more heartbreaking omggšŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
I need to read the next chapters to heal my soul because this whole thing BROKE ME
You have genuinely written this SO WELLL it genuinely feels so natural to the personalities and character of Gojo and Rinko and it just makes sense. I generally dread angst in stories because it often feels forced or unecessary (just for the drama) but this felt so naturally occurring because of the circumstances in a way that made me CRY right alongside Rinko even though i KNOW they will have a happy endingšŸ˜­šŸ˜­
I stumbled across Another Level for Gojo and now i am staying because of Rinko forget Gojo i absolutely LOVE her and wish she was canon SMM
Also i have a question about Maki's situation. When she moved in with Rinko did she ever become her legal guardian or something like that? Or is she still legally tied to the Zenin clan?
(Also sorry but if the anonymous emojis are still an option could I be šŸ¬?)
Hello šŸ¬ Anon! Emojis are always an option, so you can absolutely have that one!
First off, thank you!! šŸ„¹šŸ’•
I ranted like the lil wordy I am so it's below the cut šŸ™ƒ
If you haven't already, you can read Another Level on AO3 :)
I genuinely hated how long we had to spend in the angst, but, I made it a point from the very beginning to make their emotions as realistic as I possibly could. And with how their story is working out, we absolutely had to go through these events for them to make it to the other side of all the hardships they'll face moving forward!
The fact that Rinko has become so important to so many people genuinely makes my heart so, so happy and I just hope that she continues to do so!
As for Maki... So, I originally had it as yes, Rinko became Maki's legal guardian. BUT, I genuinely don't think that the Zenin clan would let that happen. Just out of pure spite. They don't care about Maki as anything except property and keeping her from happiness and success. They would have known that Rinko could bring her both of those. So they would have barred that from happening at all costs. On top of the fact that both of her parents are still living?
AND Rinko being Maki's legal guardian would have brought too many questions about why Rinko would care so damn much because remember, the Zenin clan still thinks they're slick about Rinko's blood relation to them
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subskz Ā· 9 months
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crying again LMFAOOOOO actually crying even harder than bb4 the second y/n said ā€œyr so good chanā€ i fucking lost it nah they are literally my babies. the way her thumb was hurting bcuz of chanā€™s cut,,, be so fucking serious rn i canā€™t do this
btw realizing tht when y/n tells chan ā€œi donā€™t love you for what you can do for meā€ thatā€™s prob the first time he heard her say she loves him bcuz he was about to pass tf out from sleep the first time,,, kmsing actually
i legit got no words for how beautiful that entire fucking scene was like i felt it healing me from the inside out idc how corny i sound rn everyone look away while i be vulnerable wit missus rin šŸ„¹ everything they said 2 each other nd the way y/n FINALLY matched chan by opening up and thatā€™s what made the breakthrough. nah iā€™m inconsolable this series is fucking everything to me
the smut. dawg. you alr know you got me chewing the iron bars in my enclosure every time but this was literallyā€¦. a bitch thought sheā€™d get a break from crying during this scene but NAH IT MADE ME CRY TOO šŸ¤£šŸ™šŸ½ the part that rlly got 2 me was the sentence about chanā€™s strength being used to protect others and never to harm,,, the most chanathan thing ever what if this was my last straw. and channie hidin his face, the fucken i love youā€™s over and over again ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?!?!? QUICKLY
i canā€™t believe itā€™s over like i got no choice but 2 reread bb every day for the rest of my life actually i want to live inside this series. but i love you saur moch girlie queen thank you for writing this fr it changed the trajectory of my life forever nd i canā€™t wait to see what you do next šŸ«¶šŸ½
NOOOO šŸ˜ž i owe you so many apologies haha iā€™m very sorry for the emotional turmoil this past weekā€¦i hope it was more of a happy cry this time at least! and yes i couldnā€™t resist such a golden opportunity for the reader to feel channieā€™s painā€¦they are connected in ways they donā€™t even know of!
THERE U GO AGAIN BEING OBSERVANT AS EVER 慠慠 you got it!! a very critical moment for channie to hear those words for (what he thinks to be) the first time! iā€™m thrilled u made that realization but thatā€™s just our genius grindset isnā€™t it <3 thank you so much my dear you have no idea how much that means to me!! it was a bit of a challenging scene to write but knowing it could have that effect on you makes it all more than worth it, iā€™m really happy it touched ur heart! šŸ’—šŸ’—šŸ’— and thatā€™s exactly it, the reader had to subject herself to the mortifying ordeal of being known just as channie did hehehe
the smut made u cry too šŸ˜­ i know it was incredibly sappy n soft i just couldnā€™t help myself w it being makeup sex n allā€¦esp when the central idea was praising channie n making him feel loved HAHA i blacked out and suddenly 7k words of adoring chan were on my screen </3 iā€™m so glad u liked that line!! itā€™s what i love so dearly abt chan (and binnie!) that theyā€™ve got such broad shoulders n muscular arms but such gentle kind souls yknowā€¦their strength is for hugging and helping others and being steady enough to lean on šŸ„°
i kinda cant believe itā€™s over either it feels bittersweetā€¦but i just feel so fulfilled overall to have finished this series and to have shared it w you! you uplifted me so much from day one and iā€™m so grateful to you! your feedback has made me giggle and smile every step of the way, so thank you so much for everything. i love you right back ā™”
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cooloddball Ā· 1 month
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Iā€™M SCREAMING!!! The new Chapter is so good šŸ‘ŒšŸ»šŸ˜Š
Disclaimer: I always leave comments on ao3 and will still come to your inbox and scream about the same thing. I hope itā€™s okay.
First, Mousy is so sad and jealous I canā€™t bear it. Iā€™m glad he spoke to Pierre and he offered some kind of solution which is something would say to him tbf. I hope he makes a decision because maybe Max is preparing to propose to you know who !!!! Please tell me itā€™s not so because I will fling myself into the sun.
Second, In chapter 3 Lando just told Charles that Max likes him so will that ever be addressed because now Lando is asking Charles if heā€™s ever been in love and he says that? He is so funny I swear. Ask Lando what he meant that Max likes likes you.
Third, do you think Carlos knows about Charles and Max? Do you think Lando told him or heā€™s heard rumours in the paddock about them?
Fourth, Max is the sweetest, kindest soul and he will do anything for his mousy. The way he was so grumpy about the puking in Germany yet he took care of him and always finds him whenever heā€™s sad and wants to make him feel good. Thatā€™s love and itā€™s not clear Max knows it or not but heā€™s in love with Charles too šŸ„ŗšŸ„¹ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ Heal my heart.
Fifth, I canā€™t wait to see how they end up together because they are both in relationships and we can only see things from Charlesā€™ side.
Lastly, that smut scene. Max you dirty dirty man. I love you. The chole was meant to be eaten and worshipped and you did not disappoint šŸ‘šŸ» I would kiss Max in the mouth but mousy might come for me next.
Love, Love this! Waiting for the next chapter.
you are far too kind, thank you. of course you can leave comments anywhere, feedback is always appreciated.
to answer your concerns:
yes, charles is sad and jealous but i believe that at the end of the chapter he was on a self discovery journey. will max propose to she who shanā€™t be named? well, wait for the next chapter to find out. the only consolation i can give you is that this story has a happy ending for both charles and max and hopefully the reader.
yes. landoā€™s drunken confession will defo be addressed. it is actually one of the things that will help charles in his decision on what next.
i think all the relationships at the paddock are an open secret. no one ever talks about them ever, everyone just knows and is cool with it.
max will do anything for the people he loves and charles pretty high on that list.
you and me both anon. like i know they are end game but how they will get there is something that i am still trying to figure out.
omg šŸ«£ yes max is freaky like that and charles is so trusting of him and always ready to receive okay bye
thanks for your kind words anon. ā™„ļøšŸ˜˜
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oddinary4bts Ā· 4 months
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Ellaā€“, you are undoubtedly the queen of angst šŸ‘‘
You just write it with such deep, beautiful and meaningful emotion. You are so good at capturing and showing very complicated emotions, with intricate morals too. Itā€™s so fucking amazing. Itā€™s brilliant. Iā€™ve said it before, everything you write, is a fucking masterpiece šŸ’œ
You are so exceptional at writing all these grande emotions, that it makes me wonder what you might have been through? Like do you write from experience? All of this beautiful angst makes me wonder, if youā€™re okay? šŸ˜­ If you do draw from experience, I just want to say that you are a truly beautiful soul ā€“ like you have a tremendous heart, insight in the human mind and capability to heal with your words. If you donā€™t draw from experience, thatā€™s also completely fine, then you just have a brilliant mind with a beautiful imagination ā€“ either way, I want you to know, youā€™re appreciated by many on this platform. I love you, everything you do ā€“ and for me, youā€™ll always be the queen of angst on this platform šŸ’œ
I loved Sinful Lust ch 5 ā€“ the sadness and angst was exceptional āœØ
I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas / Happy Holidays šŸ’œ
The queen of angst?šŸ˜­ Iā€™m not sure I am, but Iā€™ll take the complimentšŸ«¶šŸ¼
Iā€™m so so thankful to have you reading my stories. Your kind words mean a lot and motivate me to keep on writing!šŸ„¹
I do write from experience to a certain extent. I canā€™t say Iā€™ve been in a situation like the one in Sinful Lust, but I use similar emotions that Iā€™ve felt and try to put them on paper, if that makes any sense? I canā€™t say that Iā€™m always okay. I struggle with mental health a hell of a lot and writing is my escape from it, you know? So sometimes my writing gets really really sad :ā€™)
Thank you so much for everything that you saidšŸ«¶šŸ¼ happy holidays/merry christmas to you tooāœØāœØ
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sunmoonjune Ā· 3 months
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okay. *breathes*
can i just say how proud i am that you managed to turn our silly lil hcs into a full blown 13k oneshot šŸ„¹šŸ«¶ this is like 'when the trip makes it out of the groupchat' but with a fic LMAO
i've missed bug and ltm so much and it's been FOUR MONTHS since i last sent in an ask and i don't have a long ask for you this time bc my incoherent screeching is littered all over your doc rn but FOR OLD TIMES SAKE HERE I AM IN YOUR INBOX <3
everything about this fic was so perfectly written and described and it was like /i/ was on this trip with them too and my heart and soul are completely healed rn. the amount of times i sobbed or squealed or broke out into goosebumps was STONKS like if you gave me a dollar for each time it happened i'd be able to fund our Operation Coffee and Oreo /and/ our touring trip when atz go on their tour šŸ˜Œā˜ļø
I LOVE THIS AND I LOVE BUG AND I LOVE THE BOYS AND I LOVE YOU MWAH MWAH KISSES FOR YOU <3333333333
LOREN THE LOML <333 IM KISSING YOU RN THIS ONESHOT WAS ALL YOUR INSPO MUAH MUAH I LVOE YOU SM <33
the way I was URGENTLY scribbling things down in my notes when we were making our silly little comments xD my brain was like "write that down WRITE THAT DOWN"
it finally made it out of the group chat :')) now onto the mafia!teezers one I suppose?? (don't come for me I need more inspo for that one xD)
also it's been FOUR MONTHS since that last ask?? OMG time flies :")) AND ALSO the way I was literally in my bed the morning after I sent you the doc like kicking my feet and doing the happy hand flaps just reading all your comments xD I swear half of them were just "OGHWOEPG BUG <333" but the way they made my heart skip? stOP :"DDD
LMFAO operation coffee and Oreo AND the touring trip to follow atz on tour?? dang you'd be /rich/ rich bby xD but also when?? I'll get on a plane rn and meet you there?? (jk I dont have that kind of money :"))) )
ONGWPE I LOVE THIS AND I LOVE YOU <333 I'm so happy you liked it bby KISS KISS THANK YOU SM MY DARLING
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