#theyre either deep or straightforward

[found-family-tournament]

Found Family Tournament Round 1 Part 20 Group 100

Propaganda and further pictures under the cut

Reds and Blues: Grif, Simmons, Sarge, Donut, Lopez, Doc, Caboose, Church, Tucker, Agent Washington, Agent Carolina, Locus

Wright Anything Agency (& Company): Phoenix & Trucy Wright, Apollo Justice, Maya Fey, Miles Edgeworth, Pearl Fey, Ema Skye, Kay Faraday & Sebastian Debeste

Submissions are still open!

Reds and Blues:

My babies are all assholes but love each other deep down

Wright Anything Agency (& Company):

THEY MEAN THE WORLDDDDD TO MEEEEEE for some reason a lot of people in the fandom don't play Ace Attorney 5 which is fair since it's kind of messy BUT. BUT. IT INTRODUCES ATHENA AND DOES SOOOO MUCH FOR THE WRIGHT ANYTHING AGENCY. In AA4 we learn that Trucy Wright made the Wright Talent Agency into the Wright Anything Agency in order to bring Apollo in as a lawyer when before it was just her (a magician) and her adopted father Phoenix (a poker player). and AA5 is all about Athena joining and Apollo learning how to trust her, at least it is to ME. they're so gooddddd aaaaaaa like you've got Phoenix and Trucy who are weirdos who love to scheme and you've got Apollo their longsuffering guy who deals with it all, and Phoenix is the mentor... and then Athena comes in and she has a lot of light and determination and trauma (just like the rest of them lol) and she's SO determined and I like her a lot!! And Trucy is my favorite and Phoenix cares about her SO much but he also has his other found family in the Feys!!!!!! Mia dies in the first game but her ghost stays with Phoenix and her sister/cousin Maya and Pearl are SO IMPORTANT TO HIM he loves them so much that's his sisters to me ;-; he would do anything for them and Trucy and he's growing as a mentor to Apollo and Athena too as the game progress... They don't write them all perfectly but they sure do a lot of things I like :) also feel free to split this up into their Wright Anything Agency or Phoenix + the Feys or Phoenix + Trucy if you need to I won't mind I just love AA's found family a lot

Picture this. You are a attorney in your mid 20s and somehow find yourself surrounded by weird little girls with every case you take on. You officially adopt one but really, all of them are either sisters or daughters to you. Especially your loud, burger-loving lesbian sister. Your childhood friend turned rival turned lover, who has a whip-wielding adoptive sister of his own, goes on a series of investigations while messing around with a furry for a couple of weeks and returns with two 17 year old children, a thieving lesbian and a child with a narcissistic murderer for a father who should've kept him back in school a few grades. Your lover has each of them under an arm, and they are appended to your stable of weird little girls but are very much hidden in the back. Then you find out that your daughter, the official one, has a 22yo trans half-brother with a musical diva mother and was half raised as a prince in Khura'in, so you divorce his boss (who is not your official lover, you just had a weird thing for a while when you were in your alcoholic phase, maybe while your actual lover was still messing around with the furry) very publicly while sending him to prison for murdering your daughter's father. Oh, but you have been disbarred, so you make your daughter's son send his own boss to prison, by planting false evidence on him. Of course the young man punches you in the face. Needless to say he works for you for a couple of years and never finds out that he's related to your daughter because that would require a straightforward conversation, now wouldn't it?

only one of them has never been arrested. only two of them arent lawyers. theyre all gay

Theyre very weird and misteruous and kinda fucked up a bit and they were through a lot but phoenix did his best and trucy well she's still just a kid but oh she's trying so fucking hard and always trying to wear a smile and it's breaking my heart the two of them. Also theyre weird i already said that but let me say it again they are WEIRD. and we love them<3 (the ace attorney fandom)

[tendebill]

Ill bite

For the ask game 2, 18, 21, 25 and 26.

ty for the ask ^^ if anyone wants, here's the link to the ask game!

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even): i dont mind either way, but i default to drawing peple facing my left, 3/4 and all that. idk if its easier tho, its just what i do instinctually xd

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken: i have several brushes that have been brutalized, a few times ive broken very thin fineliners (expensive ones too) and felt bad about it for years, plus i have a tendency to break pastels/pencils/crayons sometimes, cuz i press too hard or hold them too tight lol. also i once broke a marker tip. actually probably more than once.

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways: i love simple cartoony styles, especially ones with cool, exaggerated shapes, but i also love semi-realistic, detailed styles, thus my art ends up in this weird in-between state where i commit to neither :')

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by: anime. so many people (especially art teachers) say its anime. and like. at one point as a kid i did try to draw in an "anime" style but this was pretty recent. i remember one instance four years ago and once literally last month. luckly it wasnt said in a "kids these days" way or "dont draw like that" way, it was just like, an acknowledgement. maybe theyre right tho lmao.

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended:

okay this is a bit long, but in my 3rd year of art high school i had the principal as my design teacher for a year (the horror). she's this older lady and tho she acted nice for the most part, she could be rly mean (to this day idk if she said certain things on purpose to make us feel bad, or if she legit didnt know how degrading it sounded). she would often read into every little thing about a piece when it really wasnt that deep. or she would read into it and miss the point and come up with some other, out-there interpretation. she also liked to mention plagarism (asking us if we came up with everything ourselves and whatnot) and she would come up with some wild metaphors and symbols that were not really there. for example once she said that a window i drew made her think of imprisonment, because it looked like the bars of a cell, i guess. so this one time for an assigment i made a piece with four characters representing different emotions (happy, sad, angry and apathetic) and they all had colors assigned (yellow, blue, red and gray). it was only their heads visible and they had no real distinguishing features, just the planes of their face and a mouth to indicate a facial expression. i thought it was pretty straightforward, thought she would say it wasnt rly complex enough as a concept. like you know, emotions are a very simple idea and the colors were pretty basic, "blue for sad" is not exactly innovative. so anyway, she said it really made her think and might be interpreted as racist. didnt even pick up on the "emotions as colors" side of it all, despite it being the only real meaning i intended. she was fun, but only in retrospect.

tysm again for the questions :>

[drifthail]

xangonne makes the good fics

look executioner is such a good fic and i love it

and that also goes with sacrilege, every day a little death, reciprocity, london/berlin... all of xangonne’s fics are so gooooooooood

[henlex]

Onlyoneof Compatibility: Junrie

Suns

Rie: Scorpio I'll try to be unbiased I swear

Mysterious, driven, water sign so driven by emotions. Fixed sign so stubborn. They love power and can be very strategic about getting it (you might even realize because it can be really subtle) They love to investigate things, get to the bottom of things, basically find the truth or deeper meaning. Don't shy away fr confrontation, not easily intimidated. They can be pretty secretive, they don't easily open up but would love to hear you talk about yourself and learn everything about you.

Junji: Aries. Fire, very driven, energetic, can be a bit childish. They're straightforward and want everyone to be as well. Naturally athletic, or at least meant to move their bodies (main dancer yesss) They tend to live in the now, don't think things through too long because they want to get moving. They know what they want and go get it, they can be very brave because they don't let anything stand in their way. They enjoy a challenge.

Moons

Rie: virgo, earth. They like stability and enjoy taking care of the little things in life like running errands. But they can also nag a lot😂 But if you show them appreciation they'll happily help you too. They really like feeling needed and helping, they'll probably be the first to jump in if someone needs help. They really like living simple, unassuming lives. They can be easily overwhelmed and worry a lot. They thrive on routine. They can get restless and nervous but love to analyze and are detail oriented. They shy away from new people, can be stiff about affection, but show their affection through small gestures. Reliable, good for advice. They can be quite shy in love. Very interested in others problems and can be skeptical.

Junji: leo, fire again. Often not outgoing but like being the center of attention with those they're close to. They like to organize and be in control of their group. Very creative but can be bossy. Jshfjsnjf they need a lot of love and care to function😭😭 (is this why he's so cuddly) They can be very dramatic if hurt, with big displays. Very proud and don't like being controlled. Not easy to change their mind or their plans. Strong sense of fairness and justice. Apparently these are cuddly mfs

Mercury

Rie: scorpio am I reading myself I'll be unbiased I swear😂😂

So they really love finding answers, getting to the deep truths, constantly learning. But it goes to places other don't dare go or haven't even thought of. VERY observant. They hate anything and anyone superficial and tend to see right through it. They can be suspicious and pessimistic. Great communicators, but can be prone to lecturing, but are passionate about giving advice. They are best at judging when they aren't personally involved. The secretive scorpio nature likes to keep their own secrets hidden. It's Very hard to win an argument against them. But when they aren't emotionally involved they are very lucid. VERY protective of those they care about, and will defend them with anything they've got. Prone to jealousy, they tend to expect the worst from others. They love mysteries and challenges.

Junji: Aries, is this whole man fire!?!?!

Quick decisions, they don't like mulling things over because they don't have the patience and need instant gratification. Very direct communication...again. Rip this boy is Not subtle. Can be agressive-fire- especially when they are opposed. Childlike. They can be sensitive and defensive. Not detail oriented. Truthful and direct but innocent and enthusiastic. Idealistic/ optimistics. They love new things: opportunities, ideas, challenges. But they might drop old things for something more exciting. Motivating and fun with infectious enthusiasm.

Venus

Rie: Libra: air, a big change.

This boy is so soft oml. Will try to impress you with their kindess😭 They can be very gentle and exact which can come off as insincere. They always go for the middle ground and expect to be treated fairly. They will make concessions to make the relationship work. Any imbalance will make them unhappy and slowly wear them down. They could express this is underhanded ways.

Junji: Aqua, Air another big switch. Open minded, unique, and rebellious and want everyone to know, especially the object of their affections. They really like being recognized as being different. They like unconventional relationships which can mean a lot of things depending on their circumstances and culture. They don't like any restrictions, don't follow anyone's path. They really want to break the mold even in shocking ways, but they can also come off as cold or stand-offish. They want their lover to also be their friend. They also want someone to appreciate their mind and ideas. They need room to be themselves and they'll give you the same.

Mars

Rie: Virgo: earth, productive, goal oriented. They like to do a lot of things, can be stubborn or particular about the way they do things. Not one to anger but when pushed they can nag A Lot. Sensitive. They can be nervous and restless. They need to be busy or they really struggle. Shy and humble especially when they don't feel knowledgeable enough, but they are curious and will want to learn everything they can.

*Sex- healthy views of sex. Simple and sweet. Attracted to people who have gone unnoticed. Like a person's imperfections. Very attentive. Like to care of the other. Sub. Very curious.

Junji: Aries...wow junji just🔥🔥🔥🔥 Ok so lives in the present, can be quick to anger but it's quick to pass. Impulsive. They go in and out of crushes fast😂 "they feel alive when they have someone to desire" good lord. Spontaneous as always, quick decisions, hardly deliberates on anything. They don't like when life is predictable so they're always going and trying new things. Relationships with them are exciting but hard to keep. Very impulsive. Again they're very direct and hate when others are anything but that.

Sex: spontaneous. Like an innocent/ pure partner 💆🏼‍♀️ Agressive, love a conquest. It literally says they like their hair messed with EYE

Bonus: north nodes

Rie: libra rip it's me again. So he needs to learn cooperation and trusting others. He's comfortable in Aries, aka being independent and doing everything for himself. He can be selfish but he's meant to be in relationships. That will make him feel whole.

Junji: virgo. So he's basically supposed to get his head out of the clouds and not only follow his inner voice. He's comfortable in the dreamy pisces but he has to learn how to keep his feet on he ground and observe. Can be sensitive to the world.

*Messy thoughts and summary*

They both probably wake up early and enthusiastically take on the day, that's so cute.

They both love organizing and hate a change of plans 😂😂

They both love a good challenge

Rip Rie really likes to think things through while junji just goes. This could either drive them insane or they could balance either other. I think junji would understand ries thoughtful nature tho because of his leo moon  

So junji doesn't like being controlled and is care free and Rie isn't controlling but likes taking care of the day to day. It could be perfect. Junji can be free and rie can take care of things.

So Rie is very Very detailed and junji is not at all.... Which is complimentary if they don't try to change the other

Junji is that childlike optimist that Rie needs. Could really help him kind of unwind or just enjoy things/ have fun, be carefree. But also Rie could help ground junji.

They just seem like a perfect match....in bed

Rie's slower moving nature could drive junji insane but that's not a guarantee 😂

I'm emotional. Junji literally is meant to learn and become more like Rie. That's called fate.

Lads rie's soul is comfiest in junjis sun.... Hello. I wonder if he feels super comfy with him because he Understands him so deeply. But it's also a relationship and theyre learning all of these things from each other and they're genuinely Made to do that. I'm. Hahaha Soulmates wtf.

Rie overall is really just silently observes literally everything. He for sure knows everything about everyone and is just chilling, watching, learning.

[1eos]

@svtboo​ this is for u? im p sure this is for u if it isnt im so sorry but its still a roast of a seungkwan from svt nd u’d enjoy it anyways

um? i have no idea what’s going on here. what is with the members of seventeen nd having 5 placements in the same sign? are they ALL so unbalanced? im screaming?

bro.......earth sun nd moon. L. luckily cap nd virgo r the two valid earth signs but virgo moons r hard to deal with. all earth moons r emotionally constipated but virgo mons have the added problem of being perfectionists that nitpick everything nd everyone. mostly themselves but other ppl a lot too. 

theyre also the type to try to ignore their problems by focusing on other ppl’s problems. like they could have 4 months worth of homework due in 2 days but theyd still try nd help a friend with 3 minutes of homework first. 

all this cap............cap placements r good bc it makes them capable, like idk this dude but i would be willing to trust him with anything bc ik he gets his shit done. BUT he’s also prolly repressed all to HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. he hasnt been honest abt his feelings since 2002 AFALKKLAAK. 

but its weird bc i bet he’s super straightforward bc he’s cardinal dominated with a cap mercury (communication planet) but also super not straightforward when it c comes to emotions like sadness....or even sometimes happiness....if u do something wrong or offend him he’s prolly quick to be like 🗣FIX URSELF!🗣 but when it comes to his own deep emotions he’s like............dont wanna talk abt it :) im fine *continues to do work to ignore emotions*

not a drag but earth mercuries r known to have v pleasing voices nd its inch resting that he’s a cap mercury nd a main vocalist ehehehehe

OH YEAH! HE HAS NO FIRE OR WATER! which is.....yeah this dude is basically a walking brick. like a walking talking brick. water nd fire are the two emotional elements so for him to have NO personal placements in either of these elements.....eye--good luck to this man. 

some good news he doesnt have a thot venus? cap venus ppl r boring as hell nd want stability over anything else nd it takes 100101010101000101010101 years for them to trust someone to even reach acquaintance status. OOF speaking of ik this dude holds grudges. oh ik it. a main thing abt capricorns is that they are super paranoid abt being hurt by ppl. like they would rather fight a dragon thats on fire nd full of poisonous gas than feel like someone is hurting them or disrespecting them or that theyre opening up to someone that isnt worthy. its obsessive the hoops theyd jump thru. so ik when someone hurts him in any way he remembers it nd will never trust that person again. 

aqua mars isnt necessarily the fist fighting type..........they tend to just talk nd debate abt shit no one cares abt then run when ppl wanna square up but. idk this dude got so many cap placements i could see him throwing hands. i really do. when it comes down to business caps  believe in two things: success nd beating ass. 

whew....................what was going on when they put together svt? its just.......a lot

[redandfranticfeelings]

in light of the final trailer finally dropping, i should finally post some of my bojack season 6 part 2 theories/predictions/guesses/hopes/etc.

warning: this gets very long!!! also, spoilers for everything, obviously.

the moore-carsons have to return. in fact, i think it’d be really interesting if the cold open of the first episode in part 2 was about charlotte. after all, there’s going to presumably be a flashback to bojack during the time when he was friends with charlotte and herb...

given that season 6 overall opened with a flashback to sarah lynn’s death, maybe season 6 part 2 will open on what happened in the moore-carson house after bojack left penny and charlotte behind? since those are the two major incidents that part 1 set up to bite bojack in the ass. however theyre also not anywhere in the trailer, meaning they might not physically show up, or maybe something about their appearance would be a huge spoiler.

we also see bojack return to the club where he did stand-up during the 80s. this is probably what triggers the above flashback. maybe this ties into the charlotte thing too, as mentioned above?

that scene of bojack with the letter from hollyhock has a lot of people talking, with how last season ended and how his hands shake holding it. interesting that it’s a letter and not a phone call or online message. this leads me to believe something physical must be in the letter, like money or some sort of memento or personal record. or maybe she just wants to be old-fashioned. it seems there is some issue b/w hollyhock and bojack because there’s an empty seat when he invites her to some sort of show he’s in, maybe with his wesleyan students. (also diane looks very unamused, even though she and bojack ended on a good note, which feeds the idea that this is after bojack did something bad or something bad about him came out. also, who are all these people in tuxes? are these waiters? is this tied to mr pb buying elefante?)

i actually believe hollyhock will learn about maddy but not about penny, and bojack will assume she knows about penny and forget completely about maddy. this will lead bojack to realize something i don’t think he really has even after all his development: he needs to care about the people he hurts who were never close to him, because they’re still people even if he didn’t want their attention and didn’t “lose” anything in hurting them.

many people have noted that doctor champ isn’t a legal therapist and thus might not be under disclosure agreements, which leads me to believe that he will release information about bojack out of pure spite. i also believe maddy could be doctor champ’s daughter, which would give him even more reason to hate bojack.

however i believe that if everything about bojack does come out...the public won’t really care. it feels within the show’s nature to make a story about how “cancel culture” doesn’t really hold up well and how people will learn about a celebrity, but not care about what they did as soon as some other news overshadows it, and the celebrity won’t really lose anything in their career most of the time. bojack will suffer personally but his career won’t suffer as a result of being “cancelled.” this might actually send him spiraling and maybe he will try to convict himself or something, if he’s still at that level of self-punishing behavior.

something really interesting is that bojack is talking to biscuits braxby, the host of the talk show where he and gina covered up the strangling story. the fact this is the person to whom he’s dumping all his angst...concerns me. is he coming clean about that? does gina know he’s coming clean about that?

speaking of gina, i think she will connect with kelsey after all, maybe even work on the movie. i think kelsey will see past the hollywoo bullshit and suspect gina isn’t being given a fair chance. idk if it’ll work out but it feels in-character for her. i just really hope we see more about kelsey’s movie and i hope it’s a success.

somebody else had to point this out for me to notice, but bojack appears as a...corpse?? in an episode of birthday dad. this means he must lose his teaching job somehow, or at least goes back to acting in LA during his break.

on the subject of mr peanutbutter, i have a lot of thoughts about where his plot is going to go. for a while i thought pickles was going to leave him for joey pogo because of how episode 7 seemed to imply mr pb would set them up and joey is a lot like mr peanutbutter except close to pickles in age and spirit. i assumed this would send mr peanutbutter into a deep depression due to being truly alone for the first time in his life, which would ironically get him fired from making speeches about depression because he becomes unmotivated and irritable, which are symptoms of depression considered “too ugly” for the mainstream (bjhm is just the show to drop that sort of message on us). however, this theory is muddled by both this and the netflix january trailer showing them still together. so if the above does happen, it probably won’t happen right away. (maybe pickles will propose a polyamorous relationship but mr peanutbutter will feel actually jealous?)

and while i don’t like the bojack suicide theory at all, if i have to pick a main character to die, i would put my money on mr peanutbutter, or at least that he’d get really badly hurt after putting on an impulsive grand gesture. his path in life is self-destructive and reckless in its own right, and when he loses everybody, i think he’ll lose himself. i picture him waiting outside diane’s old apartment not realizing she’s moved away for good, possibly getting sick on the sidewalk, hachiko style. however i’m not married to the idea of killing off any character.

on the subject of diane, i really like that we’re seemingly getting more focus on her issues again, and we get more art styles to demonstrate her angst. this one actually resembles the teenage diane from “the dog days are over” which means it could be a flashback. more info on diane’s childhood!

i also think guy’s son is going to muddle things for diane. as good as guy treats her, the son seems to be a major issue with guy, and diane has made it clear she doesn’t want kids so any long-term commitment probably won’t work out. i do hope things don’t end badly for her, and i really hope she doesn’t run back to mr peanutbutter or bojack. maybe she’ll take time to focus on herself and finish that book?

another interesting turn would be if maybe diane’s book ends up being about something that makes her happy rather than something that she thinks is important but stresses her out. or maybe she finds people who will listen to her and actually help her make change in the world, maybe not immediately, but in the long run.

as for princess carolyn i think her plot seems pretty straightforward. the only thing that seems to be implied is a stronger relationship with judah. i wonder if he’ll move in with her, since he’s in her apartment in one of the trailer scenes? she also goes to see him play in a band which seems to suggest we will learn more about judah and PC will get to know him as a person. i wonder if they’ll tease the idea of them as a romantic item, but i don’t think that would stick, though judah is a great man. (maybe we’ll learn he had a partner all along, or maybe he’s aromantic, or maybe he simply doesn’t want to date PC and make things weird knowing how her other work romances blew up in her face.)

as for todd, i’m wondering what’s up with his mom. i wonder if she gave him shit for his asexuality? all we know is she kicked him out of the house and he has some issue with her that makes his sunny attitude sink very quickly. i’m assuming she must have been cold and judgmental towards him like bojack used to be, but maybe even moreso. she probably wanted him to be more serious or something and he couldn’t follow through. i assume she’ll recover fully from her ailments (because they probably don’t want to try to top free churro) and maybe try to become close to todd again through some zany adventures (maybe tied to the reason she was in a coma). i feel like it won’t perfectly work out, though. todd and his father might be able to become closer, though.

i don’t know why margo martindale is threatening todd either, maybe she needs him for a caper? that’s bound to be wacky. imagine if margo is somehow tied to his mother?

todd’s bunny gf looks adorable, and i hope this relationship goes well. i notice maude has some family pictures up and i wonder if her being a rabbit will be relevant, because of the stereotype of rabbit families being so big. maybe her parents will want her to have kids but she’s unsure because she’s asexual. maybe she and todd will evetually have kids through nonsexual means, like adoption or sperm donation, if only because he’s so great with ruthie and the exploration earlier in the season of his family relationships might add some fuel to an arc about him as a father. however i wouldn’t die on this hill, though i do feel like maude and todd will work out.

in fact, i noticed todd is in formal wear during part of the promo and a lot of people from todd stories are there like emily’s firefighter boyfriend and the assistant from when todd was a ceo. initially i thought maybe this was a wedding party but then i realized maude is in the background talking to princess carolyn. i wondered if maybe this is for the peanutbutter and pickles wedding. however since todd is schmoozing and mr pb is giving out drinks, i think it must be something tied to both of them, so maybe a pb living related party?

(the following shot has pickles in formal wear but mr peanutbutter isn’t, and pb looks sad, so she’s going somewhere fancy without him which interests me, maybe connected to the above “pickles tries to date both joey pogo and peanutbutter but pb is jealous and depressed” theory)

i have a feeling they’ll do a time skip of substantial length for the final moments of the show. something that show’s bojack and his friends’ legacy or lack thereof. we can see an older ruthie, and how hollywoo changes, and how people remember bojack if they even do. it could end very bittersweet this way. but that’s just a wild guess, lol.

[patroncrow]

id love name suggestion for her. 

the planned color scheme is pastels and light colors, her hair is already pink, but im holding off on everything else until xmas.

rough concept sketch for the doll ive started. her legs have been a lot of work, and she’s been the most overall modding ive done yet. elbow joints, wrist joints, two new joints for each leg, horns, her hair is new (i planned a wig cap but it wasn’t going well, partially due to the fact that i took the hair from another doll. i didn’t want to reroute it either, cause it would require taking her head off again and im afraid of damaging her horns), and i plan a bit of face sculpting, which i will be painting over along with the rest of her body. i think it’ll be some sort of skin tone, not sure what yet but itll need to work well with her pink hair.

ive had a lot of challenges on this, mainly her legs. at one point, she was in ten separate pieces. her arms werent initially hard, and her left leg was straightforward enough after i filled a hole in it (with air clay. i shouldve used hot glue). the issue was with her right leg, which for some reason didnt have the same hole. 

 i tried heating a wire red hot, i tried heating the leg carefully, i tried piloting a hole with a sharper needle. i ended up having to heat her leg with a hairdryer while heating a wire red hot before stabbing the sucker in there. that finally got it in deep enough to feel stable. i then decided to do the same with the other holes to secure them better. this caused me to stab myself not once, but twice with the wire when it shot through her arm and hand. something ironic about that. ill figure out some sculpting or whatnot to go over the holes. 

she was going to be a sort of dragon-deer but now i think im gonna skip the wings for the time being, and save that for another doll. ive already made a skirt similar to the one i plan to give her, though sadly i cant use it for her cause it comes all the down in the front and i am not going to cover the legs ive worked so hard on.

speaking of the legs again... ive also had a lot of problems trying to create sculpting for the excess space. ive tried air dry clay, but it didnt want to hold on. ive been trying hot glue which is working so far, but i have to do it in layers bc if i try to put too much on at once it drips downward. ill admit it does look funny. 

overall im proud of what ive accomplished so far and overall. this is my second time making horns, and i believe theyre much better than the first set (youll see them at some point when i finish that doll. she really just needs clothes but im not sure what i want to do yet). theyre mounted well. and i feel like theyll look really good once i do the final pass of sculpting. ive done several joints by now (hm.. about 12 including this fine lady, along with making  ball joint shoulders on another doll) and im starting to find methods and looks i like. i wish the better quality dolls like older monster high or bratz were still in production and common finds in america. ive been using just barbies since thats usually all my thrift store has in, but i found a brand at walmart that has very similar proportions to monster high dolls that i really like. im trying to complete the other three im working on before starting on here. 

the other two are near complete, like i said one of them just needs clothes and the other need her hair finished (rerouting takes forever) as well as clothes. ive tried making a lot of stuff for her (including the aforementioned hoop skirt) but i dont like any of it on her....

[autisticmob]

kinda negative under the cut. mainly its just me gettin salty about college and trying to make life decisions and just being VERY long winded about it and like weirdly personal toward the end so just fair warning if u want to read this its A Bit Much but nothing too dramatic or devastating tbh

so like... im considering dropping out or at LEAST taking a semester off from college so i can like, work and get money and stuff. but like... not sure if i should do that right now or like, AFTER the current semester.

bc okay this semester, regardless of how i do, will be covered by my scholarship, and i will not have to pay tuition, just student fees. HOWEVER unless i get straight a’s this semester, I’ll lose my scholarship next year anyway. and tbqh the probability of me getting straight a’s this semester is slim as hell. 

so do i like... drop out RIGHT NOW before i get hit with like $1000 in student fees, and eat through the last of my savings? or do i take advantage of the free college credits while i can, pay the fees, and go through a brief period of financial struggling until it’s over and i can get back to working more hours? because after this semester, regardless of if i tough it out or not, i will not be able to get this scholarship back.

i mean ok its pretty straightforward, i have the opportunity right now to get like. $3k worth of college credits essentially for free? so if i drop out right now, that’s 3000 bucks more of student loan debt i’ll have to deal with if and when i go back. thats a lot of fucking money. logically i should just grit my teeth and get through the next three months until finals.

but right now im so stressed i literally feel like im dying. and i feel like id be better off if i didnt have classes to deal with. like, ok im an art major, and i recently declared an emphasis in photography. but now my photography teacher is literally telling me that i should drop her class if im going to “continue letting personal issues (ie trying not to let myself Fucking Die, or let my dog Fucking Die) affect my academic performance”. granted she implied that i should just take the class at a later date when my life isnt so shitty but like! thats still not a great thing to say to somebody when they’re being introduced to the thing they just committed the next 3 yrs of their life to.

basically college is just ruining my mental health and making my depression/anxiety/executive dysfunction like 10x worse than usual, and the thought of staying at it for another 3 months is hurting my soul on a really deep, visceral level. 

its just rough man. college shouldnt be making me question my basic worth as a human being. i dont even know why it’s doing that either like... legitimately the majority of my high school friends either took semesters off, dropped out, or straight up didnt do college at all, and they seem like theyre doing just fine! like... i think theyre all really cool and great and stuff regardless so idk why im over here acting like my own inability/lack of motivation to do college is such a gigantic Character Flaw, yknow?

ok ill be real actually its probably my dads fault, bc all my emotional bs is my dads fault lmao. we both started out majoring in education, had major depressive/anxiety episodes, and dropped out of that program. i switched my major to art thinking i should just do something i can tolerate so i can get the degree, but he just never went back to college. as soon as he left he ended up getting stuck running HIS dad’s struggling insurance business, and like. he hired me on there a couple years ago doing data entry and stuff. its like, really hard not to draw comparisons between us is all im sayin. 

anyway with the way he turned out, without getting into it too much, i just. dont want to be like him. makes me really paranoid. dude’s not happy or mentally healthy in the slightest, and i dont want to be like that when im a grownass 40something dude, you know? 

so maybe thats why this is bothering me so much idk. who wants to be my new dad & assure me that my adult life will not be filled with poor life choices and even poorer mental health care?

[thebinaryjesus]

hi im back to tell you the truth

1. ive been a sadboi for as long as i can remember. dunno if maarte/mahirap iplease lang ako, tamad na ayusin sarili, or im just broken as a person. im in this constant search for happiness pero aware akona what is happiness nga ba diba. either way di ko lam kung selfrighteousness or ego lang to pero gusto ko tlagang nagpapasaya/nagiimpress ng iba. i want to take care of someone and be taken care of. dunno what’s the ratio between those 2 things. dami kong gusto no haha. i hate myself for being this incompetent. this is the truth.

2. im not doing well in my job. i hate it pero im still staying because kahit ganon sobrang ayos ng mga kasama ko. tho kailangan ko paring magmake face and iadjst behavior koaround them, theyre great people. pero actually i want to quit and pursue arts. halos lahat ng naipundar ko as of now is for arts kase im trying to reachmy childhood dream of being an animator/illustrator. nagbibigay na ko ng hints on everyone abt this and im hearing mixed opinions pero what the hell. let’s do this.

3. nagtatampo ako sa tropa ko kase parang nagddrift apart na kami or parang nagiging left out na ko. either way im sad. i miss them. kase i dont have a lot of friends. jst ‘acquaintances’. i mostly rely on them to not feel lonely. iwish na mas approachable ako and more trustworthy na pagsabihan ng mga issues nila. tingin ko medyo capable nman akofor giving advice. sana in the future kami kami parin magtotropa. i wish them all the best of luck on everything they do and about to do. suportado ko parin sila no matter what happens coz theyre my homies. pero sana mas niyayaya nila ako sa mga gala tho im not from where they are or di ako masyadong align sa mga interest nila.

4. bobo ako sa romance. masyadong twisted yung reasoning ko. last time ended up with me cheating and i got caught red-handed. deserved ko yon. binigyan non ng lamat lhat ng relationship na binuildup ko with others. guilty parin ako hanggang ngyon and probably for the rest of my life. pero minsn naiisip ko na it must be nice to be in a relationship ulit. kakapanood ko ata to ng romantic anime and series. maybe. jst maybe. itry ko ulit inthe future. pero that time will be the last. or baka di rin mangyare yon who knows

5. i love my family so much. even if i cant express it to them. im investing almost everything i had for them. sadly im not as straightforward as other people. aware ako sa age nila. everytime napapaisip ako on how to repay them for everything. i wish na sana di ako napalaking ganto gusto ko pa sila makasama nang matagal. sobrang guilty ako for not being that capable firstborn na alam ko ineexpect nila up until now. nakakainggit ung mga nakikita ko sa fb na showy sa love nila for their parents. honestly i think im a disappointment pero because of their love for me never nilang sasabihn saken yon. i love them so much

6. nung una tlaga i considered myself atheist pero ngyon mas gsto ko na ung term na ‘non-conformist’ because it applies to everything. not jst religion. i like to do things my own way. be it pagiging edgy or indie or normie whatsoever. i think whatever floats my boat, g ko agad. siguro isa to sa mga good things na i like abt myself. in a non-narcissistic manner ofc

7. insecure person ako. for example i actually hate my surname. it’s one of my insecurities and i think forever will be. it’s like everytime na banggitin sya ng iba lage na ieexpect na pinagtatawanan ako ng tao na to deep inside. there’s a lot of my insecurities na pwede ko ishare pero common na yung mga yon

8. ive considered suicide pero im afraid of dying. yes takot ako mamatay even with my nihilistic pov. and practically bat ka papakamatay dba magiging pabigat lang burol mo sa parents mo and tingin ko talaga sobrang selfish way out ng suicide. nadidisappoint ako sa ganyan

9. awkward person ako. hirap akong sumingit sa usapan even if my mind is full of ideas. takot ako ipakilala sarili ko. takot akong lakasan ang sarili ako takot akong maglead ng group. this involves when im having chat with my friends or while im at work.

10. i can get this emotional tuwing madaling araw while listening to music. listening to music really soothes my mind pag ganitong troubled ako for no apparent reason. i wish na whoever u may be na binabasa to. kung meron mang bumasa, na pls have a wonderful day and salamat sa pagbasa nito na humaba na pala masyado to sorry na. out na ko sir!