#this is how Dean shows his love

[bloodfreak-boyking]

how to look at your brother in a platonic and god-honoring way

[angelsdean]

once again, thee only time dean is reckless with Baby is when he's fucking staring at cas for five minutes straight while driving

[sunforgrace]

no but the thing is the thing is orpheus turns and. you’re early. i missed you. he sacrifices his life to save his love and he still dies at 41

[wisefoxluminary]

Misha Collins autograph at Comic Con Liverpool storytime

Hi, you may remember me posting my photos of meeting Jensen and Misha this morning so here is my follow-up post about getting Misha's autograph like I promised. He was everything I hoped he would be. He was so sweet.

I went in to the booth to get this photo of Castiel signed and he was so sweet and welcoming to me. I gave him a very special gift I made for him- a song I had wrote for Jensen and Misha based on Dean and Castiel. I was inspired by the song You Are Not Alone that Jensen and Misha made up on the spot during a JIB 11 panel and I made it longer and added more lyrics to it. My dad recorded and sang it and then put it on a personalised CD for Jensen and Misha as a gift. I have two copies. I gave Misha his one today and he loved it, saying that he would show Jensen. He was really sweet about it and I got to have a lovely conversation with him. I asked him how he was loving Liverpool so far and he said he was enjoying it. He was so lovely and charming. He really is an angel 😉🥰

I'm getting an autograph with Jensen tomorrow so I'm going to give him his copy. I'm sure he's going to love it.

I'm really happy with how my autograph went and how lovely Misha was about the song. I am even considering making an album....

[samsrosary]

fucked-upnatural where sam is pregnant with jack. he begs dean to get rid of it who agrees but how the fuck are you supposed to find somewhere that will give a male abortion How Do You Explain That? so he has to resort to some back alley supernatural surgeon and sam dies in the process. except. well. he doesn't. the baby persists. jack brings him back to life. when sam wakes up again he throws up and dean doesn't know what to do. sam dies again when he gives birth to jack; how else could he get it out? But he's forced back together again soon enough. dean doesn't know what to do with jack after watching sam go through the pregnancy and neither does anyone else. Lucifer is the first person to show jack unconditional kindness and its too sweet a fruit to resist.

[quietwingsinthesky]

Dean is such a paradox for me because on the one hand, I have been actively triggered by him in the show, there are moments where, intentionally or not, the writers managed to create a portrayal of manipulation and abuse and control issues that it sets off actual alarms for me. And on the other hand, I would not have him any other way. There is something — not comforting, that’s too soft a word — about knowing where Dean’s actions stem from, having seen and learned all that we do about his childhood neglect and parentification and the trauma he goes through repeatedly in the show, and that he doesn’t come out clean. He comes out a goddamn mess who ends up hurting the people around him in reaction to his own pain!

There’s a reality there that’s. Almost nice, actually. Distressing to watch, but it is a fucking mess, it’s a good mess! He’s got zero healthy coping skills and a healthy relationship with say, his brother, is terrifying because it leaves him open to abandonment!

I’m not sure I’m wording this correctly. There is a way to be a good abuse victim. Take the pain, martyr yourself on it, and then, even if you have no support or idea how to, then you have to become a Good Person who never hurts anyone the way you have been learning to your entire life. Simply toss everything that shaped you out the door and emerge a saint with a tragic backstory. And Dean is not that. And that’s so fucking good. Everything that he has gone through continues to effect the way he treats the people around him, and he can’t fight the behaviors he might recognize as harmful because he also sees them as protecting him (or protecting Sam by keeping Sam with him.)

And sometimes, idk. It feels good to see a guy who didn’t heal the “right way.” Who mostly didn’t heal at all, just keeps the wound open because it’s easier that way.

[insanesonofabitch]

They really did the “seeing your lover for the first time after a long time apart” trope with Dean and Cas over and over and over again in all the different flavors and expected us to act normal about them?

Like yeah let’s kill Cas off he’s too gay. Wait hold on the fans didn’t like that. Okay let’s bring him back but he comes back with a WIFE. Wait hold on DEAN didn’t like that—

[pointyearedelvishprincling]

coming up to two years and still the latam dub of 15x18 feels insane to me. trying to explain the scope of it to people on the outside was impossible and still is tbh. no other show

[suncaptor]

Like I think it's funny people jump to "Sam doesn't know Dean" when Sam shows shock at Dean's behavior rather than "Sam is reacting to Dean showing a different side the role he generally plays which reveals a history the show is telling us of how they interact and define each other."

[bunny11903]

re-watching supernatural and I'm on s3 ep10 and what kills me is the dream that Dean has, Lisa says 'I love you' because thats the one thing Dean wants most in this world is to be loved he DREAMS about it and that makes me go crazy is when he gets that love it get taken away and he's left behind

[ardentpoop]

the s4 parallels are putting my heart through the wringer :)

sam extends levels of compassion and patience to the vulnerable people in his life that he was never offered when he needed it most

[bloodfreak-boyking]

"you wanna take another swing, go ahead, if it'll make you feel better." -> "dean you only touch me when we're dying or fighting so please dear god punch me if it means i get to feel your hands on me again"

[angelsdean]

Jack: Yeah, he-he wasn't all bad, my dad. Uh, that's what makes our parents loom so large in our heads, I think. They're… a million things to us all at once.

And even after they're long gone, we're stuck with them. Can't help it. They're inside of us. You know, my whole life, I promised myself I'd be nothing like him, but…I ended up just like him.

Kevin: No, Dad. You're way better than him.

Jack: Thank you, my son. And you're gonna be way better than me.

— 5x07, This Is Us

[sunforgrace]

rowena gave them couples counseling

[flugame-mp3]

what do you fucking mean that's how charlie dies. THAT'S HOW CHARLIE DIES??? i mean i know the show has a penchant for killing off every character who's not a winchester brother or an angel of thursday but good god. what the fuck. charlie was such a good and enjoyable recurring character, and she had such a fandom impact that i've seen, and she's only around for THREE SEASONS?? (sidebar: it's amazing she has the presence she does for only being around for a couple episodes in the long run!) but: was this necessary? and she just dies offscreen after her skills are utilized to progress the plot of decoding the book of the damned?? oh my god. what in the actual fuck. i'm finding myself getting genuinely very upset at her death. she did not fucking deserve that. and i can absolutely see why the fan response to her death is what it is now. completely fucking unjustified and throwaway and useless.

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.