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byfulcrums · 3 months

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i've been thinking about lesbian scott summers because the other day i made a jeanscott drawing where scott was a girl and like. how would it affect her, as a character, and how would it affect her relationship with other people (namely jean)?

scott's already canonically 'nervous' when it comes to his attraction to women. he's always like, "is this safe? it's not, it's not safe" until actively proven otherwise and EVEN THEN he's still like that (whyyy), and sure it might be because of his deadly eyes but add the lesbian into it. this shit takes place in the 60s, 70s, add the lesbian into it

#there is something about how society shapes people and how people shape society that is so hard to correctly show in media #in ways that aren't ooc. uncanny x-men begins in the 60s. bobby has been in the closet since the 60s #they already struggle because of how much the world hates mutants. add the fucking lesbian into it #there is something about the idea of xavier having repressed bobby's sexuality or smth like that because the ppl would hate them more #if they were queer. that i think would be fun to add into the jeanscott (+ xavier and perhaps bobby) dynamic #nothing can keep those two apart. so even if their sexuality was repressed. they still wouldn't be apart yk what i'm saying??#but.... society.......#smth about--#they can't help the fact that they're mutants so maybe queer people can't help the fact that they're queer #but it's the 60s #and they're lesbians #in the 60s #their love would still be the same i believe #but the way they might act upon it. the nature of their relationship. how much they show to the public. etc #all of that would change #the thing is. how it would change #the way society views people and the way people view society can affect how they show themselves to others #i'm not explaining myself correctly but please jst think about it #lesbian jeanscott... my beloved...#marvel comics #x-men comics #jeanscott #scott summers #jean grey #and GOD this isn't even talking about how the writers would. write them yk #like if scott was a girl we can know for a fact that they would not have been canon back then #so we can at least assume they wouldn't be together #until very recently #man this is so complicated #avis' post

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sollucets · 1 year

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favorite characters x favorite color: jaeyoung

#jang jaeyoung #semantic error #park seoham #rowan gifs #fcfc #khaotunq #(if you want! you should be resting bt. i dont know who i ought to tag in smth like this)#look i wanted to pick yuna as my favorite se char So Bad and i do love her but i'm being honest with myself #the truth is that i love jaeyoung So much. the most even.#six feet of over-the-top dork #he's pathetic!! he's extra!!! he has great aesthetic sensibilities!!!!!! he has a thing about being called hyung! what's not to love #(i'll maybe still make something for yuna hehe. or perhaps both of them <3 their friendship)#this set didn't give me half as much trouble as heart's i feel a lot better. even the first one (recoloring red augh) wasn't so hard

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 4 months

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they call me the griever because halfway through a thing I enjoy I’m already sad that it’s closer to being over

#blue chatter #trying to work on not doing this #and just enjoying the thing in the moment #this happens to me a lot with school breaks and such #like ‘oh I love being on spring break but I’m sad bc I’m already 3 days in’#‘oh I love summer vacation so far it’s too bad it’s already a month over’#and I’m like NO!!!!! blue!!!!!!!! you’re missing the point!!!!!!!!#you have the joy *right now* and you are SPOILING IT bc you’re too busy looking ahead to when it will be gone!!!!!!!!!#it happens with friend visits a lot. it’s less bad now but it still happens.#like. the first time I visited friends over spring break I woke up in the early morning of the last morning and just cried #because I only had a few hours left before I had to get on the plane home #and I start hurriedly stuffing seconds and minutes into my mouth and refusing to swallow #because maybe if I just cling extra hard then the time won’t pass-#but it does pass. and that’s okay. and I know that’s okay because life had more joyful things after that moment #had I stayed there on that day I would have been frozen as a much more miserable person #my friends themselves would have been very different people #I mean. fuck. between then and now two of us figured out our genders. both of them got married. they moved somewhere else now.#there’s a lot of little joys that got left behind there. a church they loved. a local park. mountains and windy streets.#but I wouldn’t hold ourselves there. which I try to remind myself when I start crying about lost time again #because yeah. this will end someday. human lifespans aren’t infinite.#but the future is full of life I still have to live. there’s no saying that I can’t have good things again.#and this period of my life is rapidly rushing towards a much more uncertain future and I know that and it’s scary #I know I have about 11 months to make several very adult decisions that will determine a lot of my future #but no matter what I choose this period of my life is not wasted #and I don’t need to hurriedly optimize every second and mourn losing them #and I know that. and I still feel sad and mourny. but that might be more indicative that I’m hungry or smth.

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 24 days

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i'm kind of amazed how most of the stardew marriage candidates just want you to be their manic pixie dream whatever by agreeing with everything they like and plying them with compliments or praise or whatever (which is fine but a bit. Much) but for shane his romance is just you being there for him while he figures his own shit out... dunno why i never wanted to romance him before he's so good

#i'm usually a sebastian kinda guy but i do think it's silly you have to say you like scifi to gain friendship points w him like cmon man #i will say though that. my bestie's baby daddy being named shane kinda does make it hard to like him 😭 unfortunate but not his fault #ik a lot of ppl are weird abt his recovery and his messy ass room bc they play stardew to make things look pretty or whatever #but i'm actually kind of glad he's a realistic depiction of addiction... the problem is his dependence on indulging in alcohol when he's #depressed not the fact that he drinks period... i think that a lot of ppl are unrealistic abt alcoholism (including me abt my dad's)#but concernedape did really good w him imo. anyways all this to say that i'm really glad shane never expects someone to be a certain way #i know most of the candidates are like. archetypes or whatever and i think that's fine they are very sweet and cute regardless but #i think maybe i didnt romance him before bc i related to him so badly that it hurt seeing myself reflected LMAO dead end life and being #suicidal about it like. i've never had a drug dependence but i'm not really in a position where i can ever make my own decisions anyways #but regardless. there is smth to someone who slowly warms up to you when they can't ignore your kindness any longer and have no reason to #act like an abused dog anymore which. does make me sad just to say but that is how he acts beforehand #idkkkkk idk i think people are always too caught up with his addiction and his messy room to actually see him without realizing that #getting better is a lot harder than it appears and that having a dirty room doesn't mean you aren't trying to be better. sigh #besides it's not like. the end of the world that he has a beer sometimes. have you tried going thru life completely sober? it sucks #ok im done LMAO but yeah i've found myself gravitating towards him this time around when i've romanced sebastian literally every playthru #til now. hmm!#ACTUALLY ONE MORE THING. i like how he's basically a twist on the classic useless husband trope in media where they love sports and drinking #but he's not a bad person and the only reason he's mean to you at first is because he hates himself and his own life and he makes an effort #the more you get close to him instead of the opposite. i like that a lot. ok now i'm done

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g0thsoojin · 30 days

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#honestlyyyu #life without him is so boring....#idk... just imagining my life without him makes me feel bored lol #i want to be with him i think ...#but it is difficult bc we live on two different continents #and relationships between nations are difficult bc you're not allowed to just move anywhere lol #idk how it could work #plus ... also he's 20+ years older than me.. to me it isnt an issue more than #1) he wont live as long as me (if we both die of old age that is lol)#2) everyone are very judgemental and even if both of us mainly want to just have us and not any social circles #it will be hard.. and how am i supposed to tell my mom....?#the thing with that is hard because of my avpd.. im not normal #i never will be. even if i like met a guy my age now in school and we started dating i wouldnt want to tell me my mom #i cant explain how i feel to normal ppl but yeah... im just someone who wants to live isolated to myself #i dont want to be like yeah hi mom heres my bf who i fuck and love and now lets go for family dinner woooop #idk ... i could never. i just cannot do that normal life.#so then its like.. it isnt purely bc im 'ashamed' of him and the age gap #im just someone who feels shame about everything.... so i wouldnt wanna tell my mom anyway #but then it feels like im 'betraying' her. if i move away to another country to be happy on my own #and she wont even ever get to meet my bf or hear abt him... i'll get married (bc of convenience) and she wont know #that feels bad.. like im hurting her. but i know in my heart that even if i met a bf my own age here #i would NEVER want a wedding. my avpd.. im not a normal functioning person.. i'd want just me and the other person there. not infront of my #family... idk i just cant do normal life things..#maybe sometimes i dream abt having a few friends and being cared for. but that is a DREAM #theres no way of knowing if i'd ever find ppl like that. im also very different and cant connect to basically anyone i meet fkn EVER!!!!!#he's the only one i've ever met that im this compatible with.. and he is real. and i know him. should i let go of him just for ppl i havent #even met? who i might never even meet? bc yeah the thing is that with him we wouldnt have a conventional life. it'd be just us #and thats not really a bad thing. its just that w my avpd i never know what i really want bc i want smth but when it gets real #and i can actually have it suddenly i dont anymore. and i want the other thing i didnt want before...#so i have sm fears.. what if i choose him but then will never get that comfortable job in a cozy school and my own apartment

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skhardwarevers1 · 4 months

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me when I write poetry to cope with my bitchass teacher

#I think. I should seek help for these problems. Maybe. Juuuussst maybe #Will I though? No!!! Asking to see a therapist is like ….idk I feel like my parents would take it as like #“Hey you guys fucked up so bad that I have mental issues now love you !!!!”#And I’m not very good at asking for things #I get scared asking to leave the house without more than three days notice for fucks sake!!!!#Despite my very….outward nature here I’m actually extremely timid and afraid of everyone ever #It’s just here there isn’t much consequence to it. I don’t have to hear your voice or look at you #It’s just text on the screen #It’s easier. So much easier #vent #Also to add to the therapy point #I also feel like I’m gonna get hit with the “what are you depressed about” / “you don’t have anything to be depressed about” line so hard #That I’ll actually consider doing something drastic cuz I’m tired of this bullshit #I do it to myself too! That’s how bad it’s gotten!#I know I was joking about the “s.k trauma deniers” but people don’t normally get so terrified in a usually safe environment like that!#I KNOW there’s stuff up with me it’s just very hard for me to go out and do smth about it cuz it’ll snowball and ruin things

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dan-crimes · 1 year

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I love writers I love when they ramble on abt characters and their motivations, their core values and the reasons why they react to things in certain ways and having character interactions work off of each other due to their differing ways of viewing the world and in general I just love character analysis

#as someone who loves humans and human behaviours and figuring out why people react to things the ways that they do #uhhh I'm actually surprisingly really bad @ writing characters with those same traits 😅#unless it is smth I can connect to on some sort of level like a few of my characters have issues that I specifically relate to #thereforee I can understand the ways they act in certain circumstances #BUT when it comes to characters that are like almost entirely outside of my wavelength it's pretty hard for me to understand how they work #and it's pretty basic habits and behaviours I just fuckin lack them in general #like the concept of clinginess or abandoment issues or wanting to stay around people who treat you badly or jealousy or missing people #also love like I understand my type of love but my type of love isn't typical from what I've seen from others #even some of my own past issues like dealing with trauma have kinda been lost on me especially bcuz I'm the type to ignore stuff #like I just ignored it til it came back to bite me in the ass and had to just kinda struggle with it and go completely numb #until I got tired of feeling that way and pulled myself outta it step by step and my various negative ways of thinking elude me #since I just gradually built myself up and rearranged my brain so that all negative thinking eventually turns into dust #whether be positive or purely neutral until I'm able to handle it better #REGARDLESS I try to get a sense of what these other traits are like and how exactly they work for people but it is VERY difficult for me #bcuz the stuff is just such an alien emotion to me like people get REALLY emotional about things that simply aren't a problem for me #and I wish I could understand why and what goes on in the brain that causes that but my brain just doesn't work that way #SOOO me trying to make characters of typical issues I see people having DOESN'T really work when I have no idea what's going on #like IN GENERAL my characters need to have more emotion behind them but the emotions I need them to have are #like I said before. something I totally lack ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so I have no idea how to do it #I mean I think I need like a check list I need to make a list of traits my characters have in general cuz I never write anything down #it'd be easier to figure it out if I had words to go along with it and then I could figure out the behaviours behind those words #plus I need to draw my characters cuz I'm very much a visual person I can't get as good of a feel without some visuals along with it

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reimu-enjoyer · 1 year

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my special interests are very specific sometimes which comes as a shock to someone when they reference one of them, say LLS, and i just don't shut up about it for like the next 4 hours .

#i love pc98 touhou so much #made myself late for work just talking at people about the pc98 games and specifically LLS #like i don't know everything about LLS but even still i can't help but not gush about that game i love it so much i love the music #and characters and gameplay it's self and the mood and the subtle artsyle changes and patterns and eepy yuuka and then not so eepy yuuka #hell. a part of my love for LLS stems from the fact that it's the only touhou game I've played that I've achieved the most in.#got my first normal and hard 1ccs in that game. did a few normal mode no bomb runs in that game.#i never bothered doing achievements as hard in any other touhou game as I do LLS #even now. even though I've 1cc'd that game like nearly 15 times I still get chills from stage 6 yuuka and it's the best thing ever #even just booting up the game makes me happy it's like an instant serotonin release for me #i wish i could compose and draw and program because i'd loooove to make a pc98 touhou style fangame or smth #reimblimg

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nt3000s · 1 year

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i think this increasing normalization or i should say this constant normalization thats existed for a long time of self hatred humor is starting to become incredibly hard to bear and i know that im not exempt from this i need to do better at being kinder to myself and getting out of this near constant usage of language like that but the real thing that just makes me feel bad all the time is just how much people pretend that its okay and maybe im a little baby but so many good people are so so mean to themselves ruthlessly and its really upsetting and the thing that comes with the territory of normalizing this behavior as humor is that people will just be so rude to themselves and their worth and pass it off as a joke to resist the idea that they deserve to be treated better than this no matter how much you try to be kind and change it and i guess its like everyone knows the ‘treat yourself as good as you treat other people’ and stuff and i know these days we all have self worth problems i do really and its hard to just stop having them which isnt what im talking about i guess i just wish the world was kinder and we don’t all have to live in this sarcastic nihilistic world where you have no worth and no talent and everyone else around you does i cant hate myself because i dont want to put all of the people around me on this pedestal that theyre better than me while i make everyone around me feel bad because i think everything i do is shit and i dont let them console me i just want people to realize they need to matter as much as everyone around them please love yourself and those around you please dont hate your art your photography your writing your music your work your worth please realize love exists not for you to give only but for you to also receive not just from others but for yourself. please be kind to yourself. genuinely genuinely kind. i love you(reader). sorry if thats too earnest and cringe.

#Talking #so many peopl on twitter and tumblr and life and im upset i guess my message is i love uou okay and i dont care if we've never talked or onl #y talked once i dont care. i love you okay #not high not drunk not delirious just built like this #its hard being alive. its hard to pretend and to lie to yourself about things that you feel like you were born with i know that #but i love you. i love you i love you i love you. please believe that. i dont caare what the context of your life is i love you. thats all #i want to say ill be mad at myself in the morning for posting smth like this like man youre crazy #but idk i just want to say i love you whats wrong with that. let me live in peace

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lycanthian · 10 months

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uniquely annoying aspect of the thanksgiving holidays reliance and association with food is when you have extremely bad issues abt food that ur working thru but its going slowly and you cant eat most of the food offered and u try to be polite abt it but everyone thinks ur fucking rude for making your own food that you brought even though its not taking anyone elses time energy or money but yours

#i hope this makes any sort of sense #i wish i could be someone that could eat all kinds of food bc so much sounds good to me #but trying anything outside my extremely small comfort zone makes me literally nauseous and not in a good way #thanksgiving always makes me feel Bad about something that it really feels like i cant control no matter how hard i want to and try to #esp when it comes to other ppl because then it feels like youre making other people mad for doing smth that feels like shouldnt affect them #idk. im trying to branch out more but its rlly hard. next year i might do a thing like trying to expose myself to one new thing a week #or smth #if anyone has any advice abt this id love to hear it but it feels liek s rlly specific personal problem LOL #lycan howls

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year

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let me tell you. i have read 21 out of 38 of the extant canonical plays of william shakespeare. the first one to make me close the book and think "well i wish that had been better" was henry v.

#i read it in under a week so i can't say it was a huge waste of time but like. dawg #do you guys remember how furiously i was blogging richard ii and henry iv parts 1 and 2 earlier this year???#i was OBSESSEDDDDD #i told myself i was gonna read other things in july and put off reading henry v until august bc i wanted smth to look forward to #and i wanted to sit and enjoy the henriad more slowly #it was such a dull ending to a tetralogy that had 3 beautiful and diverse plays preceeding it #it kinda ruins the whole series for me sdfsf #no. not the whole series but i dont think i can ever enjoy all 4 of this plays in sequence like i did the wars of the roses #which i was also blogging about in a frenzy when i read them several years ago and watched jane howell's productions last month #henry v is a skip #tales from diana #there have been other shakespeare plays that i ended and felt kinda nothing about but usually bc i had a hard time reading them #like let's say i slogged through them slowly #like king lear i read on and off for months. so i wasn't really in the rhythm of it #same w love's labor's lost #i want to rewatch those plays sometime soon bc i kinda have no memory of them #but i still enjoyed the poetry and characters of them while i WAS reading them #even if my own pace kinda didn't get me the most out of it #i consumed henry v comparatively. im not sure how many other shakespeare plays ive read in under a week tbh?#i try not to keep track of time bc reading a play is different than watching it. it feels like punishment for me to try and #make scruples about how much i should or shouldn't be reading at once. bc a play is meant to be consumed in a couple hours #so if i leave off at a weird spot. it's like well. just get back into it diana #there is no 'right' place to leave off really. shakespeare's plays didn't even have intermissions #but yeah. if anything im grateful i didn't take a punishingly long time reading it or else i'd be even unhappier abt it

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astrxealis · 2 years

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damn i never thought i'd get into stardew valley this much but here we are !! makes perfect sense tho

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#heyy this adds to my roster of games that actually have Evidence #gotta play more soulsborne legitimately soon so i have more evidence of my range LMFAO ...#i love how my. taste in games is really broad tbh! i'm willing to try anything out but i do uhh am less inclined to the more popular ones?#unless i get into them by way of. personal. or without outside influence #but if there's a certain something that makes me dislike a media yeah ... i do end up more indifferent tho. ultimately #i think sdv is another huge example of how me and lune really go all in when getting into smth #like terraria. but we end up forgetting about it pretty soon after. oops!#it depends tbh on how bored we are? how much we have to do. so yeah #xiv was That for a very long time bcs we didn't really have anything else uhh insert hashtag xiv was there for us when nobody was #aaa so thankful to xiv fr. idk. i think about what it has done for me sometimes and i get really emotional!#also funny how things connect. i got back into tumblr bcs of jjk and then connected w others mostly thru gi. and then twt thru a friend i #met thru a school event wholy thru chance. who got me back into twt where i connected with others thru ff(xiv)#and i find it fascinating how people make friends irl! i think its easy for me to feel that way 1. its just who i am lol its in my nature #2. im more of a bystander so. yeah. ez for me to study people and people-watch. idm that much tbh #it's funny... hmm interesting? a bit sad too. wnvr i want to. Take A Step Further. i end up not caring anymore LMFAOOO but tbh it's really #nice in the long run! my outlook on life is pretty weird tbh like uhh... idk. hard to explain. complex #whenever i face a problem i'm. absolutely confident i'll get over it. and unfortunately i feel like that... sense of confidence is rather ra #rare*? idk. and the fact i've always known (always!) i'd love myself no matter what. even if sometimes i would be really insecure. i never #truly hated myself and i sincerely doubt i ever will. but the fact i often suceed and rise from my failures that sometimes they don't feel #like failures doesn't mean that uhh i'll end up facing my downfall through. naive confidence? i try to be self-aware and do my best for no #regrets and it's fascinating how my values in life are shaped by my past. not just me. everyone. damn. i think the formative years of a #person are so goddamn fascinating and also i'm still unsure what i want for college but it's already fucking march HELP #anyway wow. i dont want to be too harsh on myself if the What If bad scenario/s end up happening but i'll really try my best #my aunts on my dad side both got into up diliman and i'll be damned if i don't. i know i can do it. i just gotta put in a ton of effort.#okay rambles bye bye #also i've been staying up until 3/4 ever since break LMFAOOO SDV HAS RUINED ME dw i'll be good again next week lmfao

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usercelestial · 14 days

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btw if you've ever sent me a message saying it's okay to time off of fandom bullshit and wishing me good things and peace of mind and ive never responded, it's because every time i look at them i get emotional and start crying so hard i can't see my keyboard

#ive gotten a few over the past few months and thank you thank you thank you for the kind words and good wishes #im fine im good its a sucky thing to watch a show you love and a fandom youve been a part of since like middle school get to the point #where just being a part of it and liking a certain relationship over smth else become Disk Horse is a shitty feeling lol #and i want to complain about it because i want to enjoy the space im in but its consumed with negativity #“and will they be endgame and if you like this thing youre evil and dumb” and its just bleh grrrr #i appreciate it a bunch but if youre worried dont be i am Fine its that im noticing that this fandom makes me feel awful #both in like i feel anxiety everytime i think about it but also like i feel way more annoying here than ive ever felt #posting about discourse and starting to hate things i actually do enjoy is like. i wish i could block myself lol 😭#like i would unfollow myself if this is the shit i always post this isnt funnnnnn #its hard to stop thinking about the things that annoy me because i also find it fun to disect fandom and think about why ppl do things #and where certain headcanons come from and stuff like that like thats all really interesting!!! but then i get frustrated and anxious #which like frustrated is one thing #but actively getting anxiety from being in a fandom or thinking about a fictional relationship Should Not Be Happening

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sunlightfeeling · 5 months

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god i forgot how much i liked that cohost hid a lot of metrics…

(much ranting in the tags…)

#im despising the note counter again….#ramblin but not a gamblin man #but i really REALLY didnt like how cohost completely felt like a void #…like genuinely felt like an isolation room or smth…#why can’t i just opt out #i have my notifications turned off again for sanity #but I don’t like seeing everyone else’s lol #…they make me feel bad….#and yeah i guess it has to do with smaller fandom but that’s kind of part of why it sucks #i want new content that’s not just made by the small group that we are #i want fuckin dedicated tags and a line of people making new things….even if the stuff we use is old #there are so many smasmas that have NEVER been giffed #so many dramas #(even though for a lot of these there’s like negative incentive to make anything for….)#but you know what sucks the most….#no matter how much we love the stuff and do it because we like it….we are hoping that it will get shared….be known….#im trying so hard not to pressure myself to gif every little thing #which is part of why im posting more and more clips #but it hurts seeing the note count that other fandoms get even in such a short time….and just being grateful-enjoying the ones i receive #i don’t know how much this shit makes sense #and im honestly so tired of getting upset by this time and time again but it hurts #i hate being part of an actually small fandom lol #..that’s basically it….i guess #or one that’s small until someone random reblogs it and shoots the note count up #and I really can’t explain why that makes me more upset than happy but it actually really does lol #how many times am i going to talk about these and go in circles? way too many #i ruminate….its what i do…always been that way…got on my ex’s fuckin nerves lmfao……

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peapod20001 · 1 year

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When I love a song, I’ll love it forever

#random post #smth i thought about earlier. yknow. I have a hard time picking favorites with literally everything #I also have what I SAY is a favorite of mine. but I have a hard time really pinpointing whats number 1 in my brain #like. I love lots of things. I like different aesthetics and clothing and art mediums and movies and shows and books and music and people #but it’s difficult trying to find the favorite. some things are easier cus there’s more that I DONT like so it kinda singles out an option #like with music. I love LOTS of music. but what does it mean when smth is a favorite? I don’t have a favorite genre cus I have songs I love #from all over. even ones I haven’t heard yet. music overall is one of my favorite things. I’m not joking when I say it’s a love language #I love the melodies and beats and rhythms and lyrics and voices. always and forever will have a place in my heart and mind #I hate questions that want to know favorites. isn’t it enough to just show you instead? to share everything with you? why do you need one #single thing to know exactly who I am? wouldn’t you get me better if you spent a day with me instead?#I can’t remember everything of importance to me. not all in one single moment. if I went through my playlists and told you what songs I love #and why. what books I love and why. what anything I love and why. you’d find that I’m a bit undefined. I’m an artist and a creator. strong #yet weak imagination. sometimes think better in the abstract and other times do better with what’s set in stone #I love sharing things with people. I wish people would engage more with what I share sometimes. but I never hold it against em or hate them #if they don’t haha. often I feel down when ppl don’t engage with what I share. I know people aren’t obligated to do things but. yknow. it’s #my heart in a platter. splayed our for everyone. bits of me I want to share. what I want people to see. I’ve sat down with people to share #music I like. one friend said a song I like was scary. some people make faces at what I play. some have paid it no mind at all. they don’t #even know how important to me sharing something like that is. hell. how important me sharing ANYTHING is. it’s so easy to hide away #everything about myself. yet here I am trying my hardest to open myself up. yea. wish I was able to connect with someone like that #in person I mean. I guess. I just want to lay down with someone and play music we love. explain why we love it. or try to understand why #idk I’m getting rambly. I just want to do new things forever. and relive the first time everytime #this isn’t a vent or anything. just thinking and writing as I do. typing helps me to keep my mind on track. a bit at least. as much as one #with a brain like mine can havagahhaga. I wonder if anyone actually reads through my tag rambles in their entirety. I know it looks daunting #so I don’t blame you if you can’t or don’t feel like it. it won’t kill me if my words are lost in the void #haha anyways yea :> thinking lots

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velvrei · 2 months

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hiii first of all i luv ur writing sm:33 would u consider writing smth fluffy w logan w a mute! reader who signs? i feel like since logan's so old he would've picked it up over the years and it's so hard to find fics where the reader is mute 😖😖

logan with mute gf <3 (headcannons)

- at first, it took logan a while to finally fully understand how to communicate with you.

- but that man was in love with you.

- so he did anything he could to communicate with his future wife better.

- over the years, he took sign language classes, learning and figuring out how to communicate with his future wife.

- god, he loved you. so much. and he made sure to tell you everyday through sign.

- there were little moments where he would mess up, but it would just turn into you both laughing about it, because he signed the wrong thing.

- like one time, you asked logan what he wanted to drink, and he meant to sign water, but accidentally signed for alcohol.

- he wasn’t exactly complaining you brought him a glass of wine, but after he explained to you it made him chuckle at himself.

- he protects you like crazy. someone even talks about you being mute in a slightly bitter tone, he will immediately shut them down and tell them to shut the fuck up

- he is secretly a big teddy bear around you especially sense he gets to communicate with you through his hands, which he got better at over the years!!

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a/n: hi anon! i tried my hardest with this, i didn’t want to mess anything up because i myself am not mute but still wanted to fufill your request best as i could so i researched a little :) lmk if all my info is correct!! <33

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