#this is something i think abt a lotttt

[kavehater]

thoughts utc :

It’s a little weird to me that some people want others who are the complete opposite to them because to me at least since as long as I can remember the things I wanted from others I would emulate it within myself, I would meticulously work to be the best version that in my eyes a human can be. Like if I was attracted to intelligence and I am, then I would work incredibly hard to be intelligent. If I was attracted to emotional maturity and sensitivity then I would literally ensure I am exactly those things, to the best of my ability of course. And while I am not perfect and I do hate fundamental things about myself, which were forced upon me to hate, not that I hate those qualities that I tried to perfect into myself, the essence of what I’m trying to emulate remains.

It’s interested me that people wish for someone their exact opposite, if that’s the case, change is very much free, why not be what you wish for a partner or friend to be like ? It’s confusing because the issue I’ve had for so long is that why does nobody notice the little things I do the ones I meticulously pedantically plan to do for a very explicit precise reason. It’s annoying. It’s so infuriating in fact. Sometimes I wish I could just grab the person and sit them down and just explain exactly why every single action I do is purposeful and intended. Why every single word and I do not even joke here or over exaggerate. Every single word I say has a meaning even silly ones like the or and or whatnot. They are filtered and selected with care because sometimes even tho the other might not recognise that a simple word like that could change the tone a little I do use the most preferable one possible. But nobody notices that. It’s annoying. Not because I care too much but because I feel unappreciated. Truthfully I don’t think anyone realises how much I care how much I invest etc. ik lots of people say they’re a yearner they care they’re pedantic but I swear to god none of you are like this whatsoever. No one. And if I find someone like this you bet I’m gonna propose to them asap 😭🙏 it’s like being surrounded by people who haven’t gained consciousness. Like they’re living in their own stupid bubble. It’s so annoying ugh. And when ppl think I missed a cue no the fuck I did not. That too is purposeful. It’s to teach said person to stfu or rethink or it’s meant to be a moment of repercussion for their actions. I am very much for justice and fairness so if I feel someone is being an imbecile with me you bet I’ll discretely try to put them in their place all the while acting silly and like I dunno anything. Or laughing about things or acting confused. Because yall suck hard and are lowkey a little stupid. Scratch that not a little but a LOT.

That is why I absolutely go insane when someone tries to rebut me or refute any argument I put out. It’s like wtf did you just tell me. Like do you even know how much prep and logic and reason and meaning goes into what I say and do ? While you pea brain just spout things out of your ass ✋😭 literally stfu do NAWT speak to me with your stupidity rn I literally explode (in my head) all the while trying to keep composure and act very nice and caring etc. it’s so NDIWKSKSK cause why are ppl so stupid. Why are they insufferable and dumb. Literally why like I thought humans were meant to be smart but it’s like I’m talking to someone who came out half baked and deformed. Or they were dropped as a child. JDIWWKAKAOQK

[hearts-4-vicky]

Can you write Sub!Liz x Dom!Gp!Reader,with overstimulation,praising and facesitting.If you're comfortable with it,if you're not you can delete it.Thank you 💌🫂

OMG ANONIE IVE BEEN THINKIGN ABT LIZ A LOTTTT LATELY here u go my luv

warnings: subby baby liz, g!p reader, dom reader, overstimulation, praise, face sitting, petnames, unnie kink, a lot of eye contact (i think its hot), marking, unprotected sex (wrap it b4 u tap it), i thibk thats it

not proofread sorry baby💔

Liz had never been straight forward with with what she wanted. always dropping hints, lots of hints. it was exactly why you were surprised when she hovered over your face, with no bra or panties pleading to you. “Make love to me, please” the sultry look in her eyes awakened something inside of you. both of you lock eyes as you grab her soft thighs to guide her to press her puffy pussy to your awaiting mouth. you hold the eye contact as you give her cunt kitty licks, making her close her eyes and arch her back, swirling your tongue in her warm cunt.

her bottom lip was trapped between her teeth, muffling her pretty moans and whimpers you loved so much. pausing the movement of your tongue caught her attention, looking down at your slick stained face. her head tilt to the side, signaling her confusion “Princess, I need to hear your voice… please” your voice slightly muffled by her cunt on your lips before going back to lapping up her juices as if it was your last meal. her soft thighs suffocating you in a tight embrace, her puffy cunt drenching you in her juices. everything about her was addicting, and all of it was yours. Liz started mindlessly grinding against your face, feeling her clit hit your nose which earned a loud squeal from the girl. “mmgh- ha… unnie!- p-please…” she tugged your hair to make you capture her clit in your hot mouth, lightly grazing your teeth against the bud. the action has her reeling, moaning loudly as if to let the neighbors know whos making her feel good before throwing her head back and squirting all over you. liz’s moans were a beautiful symphony to your ears as she rides her high. you swallowed all that she gave you, moaning at the taste, cleaning up her leaking cunt with urgency. as jiwon slowly stopped grinding shamelessly against your face, you kept the same pace, overstimulating the poor girl. the whining girl tried to push your head away from her overwhelmed pussy, with no success shes once again moaning out your name. your skillful tongue brings jiwon to her second orgasm of the night, harsher than the first. “s’too much unnie… ha.. ghk! s’too much!” you stopped your actions, not wanting to overwhelm the poor girl anymore. it took her a bit to come back to her senses, she looked down to meet your eyes while breathing heavily. you gave jiwon a look to signal her to move off your face, which she did. sitting up on your bed, you brought her into your embrace, soothing the tired girl. “did so well baby, unnie’s so proud of you..” she kept her face buried in your neck, panting against it. you sat liz on your clothed crotch, letting her feel how hot she makes you.

“Got one more in you, babydoll? for me?” you whispered in her ear, before switching positions so you were pinning her to the bed. she blinks slowly at your words before nodding in response. you gather some of jiwon’s juices in one hand, the other busy pulling off your boxers. you spread her slick on your throbbing cock, pressing your tip against her pretty cunt then slowly pushing into it. she clenched around you, throwing her head back.

liz whined as tears kept spilling from her eyes til they were kissed away by you, made her feel so loved🥺 (i really love liz guys shes so cute) tracing shapes on her plush thigh to distract her, “fuck… taking me so good baby, just like that.." her grip around your neck tighten by the second. all of your cock was inside of her now, breathing heavily in response the foreign feeling of it. slow, deep thrusts had both of you panting, liz was barely able to form words “u-unnie..” you marked her neck as you toyed her hard nipples, groping her soft tits “let unnie fuck.. take care of you sweet girl..” you mumbled in her neck between kisses. her high pitch whines get you to speed up until you’re pounding into her overstimulated cunt. liz throws her head back onto the pillow but you hold her chin to hold eye contact with her as your harsh thrusts create slapping sounds echo in the quiet room. “cmon babygirl-mmgh.. shit.. so pretty for me baby, give unnie one more..” a few more thrusts and shes squirting all over your lower half, drenching herself and you in her juices. her squeals drown out your moans as you fill her up, thrusting faster into her puffy cunt to fuck your load into her. your grip on her waist tightens as you slow down, before coming to a complete stop. heavy breaths fill the room as you look at each other. “thank you pretty girl.. fuck, i adore you” you say softly as you slowly pull out, your cum leaking out of her pussy onto the sheets.

“Lets get you cleaned up yeah?” scooping her in your arms as if she was light as a feather made her mind fuzzy, hiding her red flushed face in your neck.

“mhm..”

holy shit i missed writing for you guys.. hi my loves❤️ theres now over 330 of you guys damn😭 sorry for my absence i got super busy last week :((( ill make it up to you guys i promise <3

Stay safe n i love you lots!

- Vicky 💋

[biancathecrossbow]

There's a LOTTTT to say now that I've finished Disco Elysium (first time) but something I really, really love is the overarching theme of letting go of the past- the importance of moving forward.

Rene and Gaston were my favorite NPCs- something about their story really hit me like a truck. Just two dudes who never moved on- who spent their whole lives thinking about politics that no longer matter and some long-dead girl. As a result, they waste all the time they had to spend together arguing. And when Rene dies it hits like a gut punch.

When the Deserter brings Rene up, it feels beyond appropriate. Of course. These men are the exact same, despite being on opposite sides of this conflict. They have spent every day since the war still in the war- festering like an infection. Rene and the Deserter both refused to engage in the world around them after their perceived *loss*- and then had to gall to assume they still understood it.

This theme is very present re: Harry/Dora... But honestly, I don't think it's the main thing you're supposed to get out of the Harry/Dora narrative (I'll post abt this later once I've formed thoughts).

Instead, I think Harrys narrative around drinking executes the theme better. I played an alcohol-free run without really thinking about it. Just seemed natural. And one of my favorite side-quests was earning back Garte's trust after the bender. To me, this captures the theme perfectly. You can't, under any circumstance, change where you begin the game. You're always a fuckup drunk who destroyed everything. But that doesn't mean you can't fix things- you just can't do it by living in the past. You move forward.

[steelycunt]

opinions on ottessa moshfegh? i’ve never read anything of hers but i’ve heard a lotttt about her hahah

ummm i read my year of rest and relaxation which was alright i quite liked it at the time but then i also read eileen which i didnt like..theres something abt her writing that bothers me although i cant pinpoint it. i think it relies on shock value a lot which wears thin so quickly. and for that reason shes not an author ive got a lot of curiosity about like i didnt HATE either of her books but ill still never read anything else she puts out because im just not that interested in more of that sort of thing personally!

[audinite]

OMG OK i’ll ask more specific questions about bella… how would u describe his dynamic with schezo (idk anything abt puyo so feel free to say however much you want abt schezo id love to hear) & how did they meet? plus anything else you’d like to add of course

i took a bit to answer but omg thank u for the questions it makes me happy😭💛 now then time for a readmore cus i ramble a lot🥹apologies for all the incoming words LOL

it changes a bit between how i see them (couple or one sided) but honestly its basically the same (ofc theres some differences) anyways ill be writing with the one sided relationship in mind. bella is obsessed with schezo and has equal amount of normal and affectionate moments. schezo sometimes is wary or has his guard raised against bella since the lovey dovey-ness from him can be too much for him to handle (mainly with how one of bella's way to show his affections is cooking..schezo made a one time mistake of accepting his gift + schezo is just a loner. likes silence) but besides that they get along<3 bella is like schezos first real friend. ok like schezo has some friendly relationships but doesnt really have any actual friendships since he likes to do his own thing and his words doesnt help either (blunt + his accidental innuendos) ->making this about bella now and how he personally handles those two aspects of schezo. bella interprets his words literally like his classic "i want you" line bella would be like "for what?" or something like that. and this is more important to their relationship but the bluntness can honestly be upsetting to bella if what is said is something hurtful or negative. theres a few incidents of bella getting sad which honestly gets to schezo, he doesnt like to see him sad so unlike with everyone else he is a bit more gentle with bella. might be ooc but the way i think about it makes sense (treats bella like how he usually does with everyone else➡️bella gets sad/upset once or a few times bc bluntness➡️oh this kinda sucks➡️a bit more gentle now). gentle in the sense that he will sometimes think and reword his thoughts better before actually speaking (im the overthinker but i dont think anyone would assume this but its not like he babies or is over the top kind to bella but he just will be more conscious at times). i guess considerate would be a better word for this? LOL also forgot to mention but bella is a mediocre mage and really admires schezo since hes pretty powerful. bellas pretty sensitive about his own skills so thats one of the things that can be upsetting to him.

ok now to how they meet.. ill try to keep this one shorter☠️ this would be like a madou monogatari story thing. bella is atop of a hill during the night and sees a shooting star (which unknown to him is filled with magical energy) and decides to wish on it to become a better, stronger mage! soon after he does that, out pops a doppelganger of him (theres a lotttt of doppels in puyo/madou and i want bella to have one🙂‍↕️no design yet but being a doppel..you can already guess how he looks but just with a different outfit on). the bella doppel ends up pushing bella off the hill and into a forest because of a simple "well we both can't exist" + is way stronger than the real bella so goodbye!! but that leads into the bella schezo meeting since schezo just happens to be in that forest and at the exact spot bella is falling from so hes forced to catch him because its that or get smashed. for bella its pure love at first sight but to schezo its some bothersome stranger. schezos searching for the random spike of power that he felt (the doppel) bc hes a guy who kinda sorta steals others magical powers, all the timing was just rightt...welp im gonna end it right there since i think the introductions probably the most important part and im rambling and writing so much its kinda embarrassing....anyways😭thank you for the ask ily💛

[valsansretovr]

hello! i love that you have interest in appalachian folk lore (and i’m sorry i’m just very excited to find anyone who is open to talking about appalachia). but i’m curious to know- as someone who isn’t appalachian, how did you view the appalachian influence in district 12 both in tbosas and the trilogy? do you have any thoughts on things you wish had been included? (if this question makes any sense hahaha).

Oooh my god ok literally my first thought was. mountain dulcimer. I loveee the mountain dulcimer (maybe I listen to Jean Ritchie’s instructional recordings on how to play the mountain dulcimer regularly because she has theee loveliest speaking voice. maybe. who can say.) and I feel similarly about the banjo. People are so mean about the banjo and like. They are wrong. Lucy Gray should have been a banjo player I just know it. I feel it in my soul (unrelated but something I think abt all the time: the fact that she burns her hands in the arena bombing then doesn’t receive proper medical care. she’s probably lost a lot of mobility in her hands bc of it which would make playing a string instrument really difficult. Idk it makes me really sad to think abt that)

I think I might have liked to see a more explicit link drawn between resistance to the Capitol and Appalachian history. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that collins wrote a heroine that is from an area that is literally the historical heartland of American labour unions. I remember reading a lot abt settlement schools at one point and how the govt was Not happy abt them in the 50s and 60s.

Idk if it’s discussed in mockingjay, I’ve only seen the films and I had to stop reading the main trilogy bc it was making me Too Crazy.

Im sorry this is just me infodumping ough. I’m sure you know a lot of this already and probably know a lotttt more than me 🩷

[duncebento]

how to become a decent writer like you

hiii well i took fiction and poetry writing classes @ columbia but looking back ive always been pretty decent at writing :> my parents read a lotttt to me (mostly a. a. milne) and i was reading magic treehouse on my own around 3 or 4, so i think that just being exposed to a lot of writing made me more adept…but that’s not very helpful. so i would recommend not just reading a lot, but (same as with any art) attempting to dismantle anything you find yourself liking in order to better emulate it. i personally am nominally influenced by the casual academic voices of ppl like terry eagleton as well as fiction writers like the brontës and nabokov, and when i’m reading them i habitually take note of what’s being done by the language. actually, my little bookshelf is beside me, so let’s have a look:

this is the opening of baldwin’s giovanni’s room. it would take a lot of words to discuss everything that’s being done, but a couple things:

“my face is…a darker past” is a pair of sentences giving us a LOT of information, and quite poetically! our main character is not only telling us that he is white, he is saying something about what whiteness has done, and a bit of how he feels about that whiteness (and, perhaps, a bit of what baldwin feels about whiteness.) this is not purple prose: there is a reason why it is not written “i have an average face. my ancestors were european.” it could have been, but that simplicity would have painted a different character without all the drama and brooding this one appears to possess! beyond that, baldwin’s phrasing compels us to think about whiteness, about privilege, and about what it means not to be marginalized— even the earlier act of watching his reflection in the “darkening gleam of the window pane” curves nicely into this talk of whiteness, because it implies the visual contrast our mc has with darkness! the nature of poetry, in fact, is “defamiliarization,” phrasing that compels the reader to see the Real in a way they don’t normally have reason to.

and this is fiction, but good argumentative writing is also based in an attempt to anticipate the reaction of its reader. as such, take note of your reactions while reading! “I stand at…morning of my life” is a lovely opening sentence, because it is contrastive: standing at the window of a great house in the south of france is surely a reason to feel grand in general— so when our mc expresses his terror, we wonder “but why??” and baldwin knew we would think “but why??” which is why he placed it at the very beginning of the book. the next sentence, seemingly unrelated, has a LOT more meaning after the first sentence, a sort of kuleshov effect…we realize that we are not just hearing about random objects in the setting (although we ARE getting info abt the setting), we assume because of the aforementioned terror that the mc may be drinking away his despair, and is hence keeping the bottle close. and so on and so on. to write well argumentatively, you must reverse-engineer the reaction you wish your audience to have, i believe. so i hope that’s helpful!

[malevolantkitcheen]

halloo!! halloo!! hhiiii!! helloooo xDDD !! HOW R U??? R U DOING OK?? Hopefully u are!!! >_< i apologize in advance if my writing is incoherent, i js got home from uni, im tired asl.. :P u can do sfw w a mix of nsfw ffirst of allll things since i heard ur doing matchups for jjk heres some stuf abt me :DDD im andre, ppl usually call me ray ray though im a guy.. (shocker) i like guys too (shocker) as for what i look like im 5'3 (i know), im somewhat chubby? idk how to describe it, its like ur normal but u have some squish and fat on u ykwim. one thing i like about myself is that ive got an hourglass figure :D I like my curves even if im a guy if that makes sense. im like a semi tan. i grew my hair out, neck length. layered, looks like a.. uh.. an overgrown wolf cut. my bangs look like twilight sparkle's lmao. anyways, i always liked wearing feminine things, sometimes i can be masculine, js sometimes. i put on makeup MOST OF THE TIMEEE. my wardrobe is filled with mini skirts and rhinestone belts and all that cool stuff. i like dressing up ok..

as for my personality im an infp. but to go deeper into it.. i like people, i js dk how to make friends, its so bad that i dont even have online friends.... butttt my 2 friends often describe me as a ray of sunshine :33 probably why they call me ray ray. i care a lot for my friends.. i rarely get mad.. i like everyone!!! js not my parents. i have daddy and mommy issues (shocker). i like yapping too, i talk a lotttt about my interests. IM A HUGE NERD WHEN IT COMES TO WHAT I LIKE. i can talk about it for hours and hours without my mouth feelin dry. i like music too. i listen to brutal death metal, and vocaloid >_< thats all really... hav a greatttt dayyyyyy!!!!!!

Good afternoon lovely, I hope you’re doing good! I’m doing okay :3 (also, great music taste 🙏)

For Jujutsu-Kaisen, I match you with….

Kento Nanami

- Nanami first noticed you at a passing glance, whilst you were sat having coffee with your friends. You were deep in conversation and were very visibly extremely interested in what you were talking about. He didn’t really recognise you so he just assumed that you had just moved into the city; he was pretty good at recognising and observing people. There was just something about you that intrigued him, something that drew him in. Of course he couldn’t just stray away from his routine due to him working but he planned on coming back the next day, in hopes that you would be there again. He was desperate even just to share a glance with you. Anything would suffice.

- The next morning on the way into the city, Nanami ensured that he passed that same coffee shop, and as hoped, there you were, once again conversing with your friends, the sun beaming down onto you. It highlighted every detail, every angle, every crease from your smile on your face. Nanami couldn’t help but stare, blushing as he did so. Only this time, you could feel someones eyes on you, causing you to turn to meet his eyes. You gave him a sweet smile, causing him to quickly turn away and carry on with his walk. You couldn’t help but think about this all day; who was he and why hadn’t you seen him before?

- This exchange continued to happen for the next couple of days until he finally mustered the courage to actually come and speak to you. You were in the queue, about to pay for you drink when you turned to see Nanami stood beside you: “We’ll also take a small black coffee with that”. Before you can even utter another word he had already paid. Of course you thanked him but you were a little set back by the whole situation as you weren’t expecting it. You weren’t complaining that you finally got to be around him, you just didn’t think that you would actually see the day.

- Nanami couldn’t help but glance from your eyes to your lips as the two of you spoke, his mind continuously wandering. You noticed it of course, never failing to fluster each and every time, just hoping that it would become more than just a glance, causing you to stutter every time you opened your mouth. “Something wrong hm?” , he says smiling to himself.

[neteyamsilly]

HI ITS UR FAV ANON WITH A BLOODY EAR INFECTION 🫀!!! A LITTLE LATE TO THE PARTY BUT THATS CAUSE MY PHONE BROKE😍

ANYWAYS

I CRIED DURING CHAP 4 OH MY GOD the way Jake actually cares but gets such bad tunnel vision that he actually looses sight of what he's trying to protect:(

what if the conversation he has with reader at the tree of souls isn’t like any actual conversation??? but it’s like a barrage of memories and visions, possible futures and dreamlike visuals that portray both people’s feelings.

like obviously there would be a conversation but like when Kiri went to see grace, their location and physical state changed, so what if since jake and reader are both very emotional but also emotionally constipated they can’t get everything out through actual words?

when reader finds out Ikran (my vote is for the name is yom’tsyeyk cause it means “eat jake” 🙏) can’t fly anymore :(( maybe the ikran can just get really good at running… OR PULL A HTTYD ‼️ either way you go the metaphorical and emotional meaning behind it can do a LOTTTT. i just love the way you write, it’s so GOOD

like the way you describe emotions, actions, thought processes??? i’m currently writing my own fic and i aspire to be you fr

The anger Neytiri felt and how she lashed out at jake, THE ADOPTION CEREMONY THING??? i love the way ur brain works, are the kids mad at jake too?? like they’d probably never show it cause of how intense it gets when reader does but i can’t imagine the anger the kids might feel, wether it be directed more at Jake or reader or if it’s just anger at the situation and their relationship, id actually cry if we got some sibling angst up in there.

as someone who watched many conflicts between their sibling and authority figures, there’s always that kind of habit unconditional siding with the sibling even if they might be wrong. The sibs are definitely gonna be traumatized by this but how are they gonna respond and how will that manifest? isolation? attachment? anger? Would Kiri stay the pacifist or would she try and become some kind of protector or shield for reader? each kid would def have their own response and opinions and what if they clash?

Bro imagine the tension if the kids’ emotions manifest negatively like that :( would reader feel responsible?? WILL THIS BE THE REASON THEY MOVE TO THE REEF??? (assuming we’re going in that direction) THE DRAMMAAAA

tbh it could have a tiny little romance subplot 🤭

(SAPPHIC READER???? TSIREYA😍😍 Rotxo being sweet and balancing reader out??? rivals to lovers ao’nung with a not really secret soft side??? the possibilities are endless)

IM GETTING AHEAD OF MYSELF AND RAMBLING SO MUCH😭😭 anyways, that’s just my thoughts and theories abt how this could go, im sooooo excited for the next chapter and where you go with thisssss :)))))))

-🫀

EAR INFECTION ANON, WELCOME BACK AHAHAHSJDSJKD AND ITS OK, UR HERE ANYWAYS!!! WOULD NEVER FAULT YOU FOR ANYTHING!

OUF so. from movie-canon its like a blend of the souls living in their best memories, neteyam wasn't aware he died but the moment jake didnt follow the memory his soul knew something was wrong, but jake put things back in order again. grace, however, knew she was dead - and we saw how the sceneries could change. im planning to take FULL ADVANTAGE of what we've been given AHAHAHAH

about jake and sister!reader's conversation though, HHHHHHHH its hard to have a heart-to-heart, but im sure you'll like what ends up happening since it's hurting me to write it BDBSBD

ALSO "EAT JAKE" IM HEJHKJSKDS AHSDHBSDBD BAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU HAVE A LOT OF EXPECTATIONS I HOPE I CAN MEET THEM BDBSDSBD

About the siblings-parent conflict... I haven't written much of it because I don't think it's in character for either of them to be angry at Jake for it, they never are for Jake's actions even in TWOW. Lo'ak's generally frustrated and Neteyam gives the slightest bits of attitude, and Kiri is moody. They are too young for the kind of anger you're talking about, in my opinion. Sully family also is one of the healthier families in media. But there are tidbits of it in the new chapter, but it doesn't really go anywhere because Jake isn't his old self where wouldn't listen any of it. He takes full blame of it, and sort of reconnects with Neteyam and Lo'ak through it because Neteyam full on blames himself and Lo'ak is flabbergasted as to why Jake isn't affected. Jake listens to Neytiri's advice on transparence here. I'm going for sort of a healing-route! Though of course they'll be traumatized in their own way.

And this IS heading to the awa'atlu plot! I'm just making it more solid.

Also I've NEVER considered what kind of romance plot there would be, but sister!reader to me is kind of fruity LMAO She has a mix of Korra, Ellie and Vi vibes in my head. Like, girl-preferring with stupid attraction to men she gags at. Idk if I'll ever write it though BSHDBSS The general outline in my head is that she sees tsireya as a goddess and aonung as a pest she'd like to step on. rotxo is nice though she rocks with rotxo

ALSO!! ITS ALRIGHT ILY <3333 Have an amazing day!

[x-daisy-x]

Hiii Daisy!! Milly’s telling me i might be attracted to woman.. can you tell me more abt that???

-Lia (ooc: can’t ask on side blogs T-T)

Oh hello Lia! Of course, I wouldn't mind trying to help! You can always come and ask me about anything especially stuff like this!

Well, for me it was easier to figure out I was a lesbian because I had two moms and I knew about queerness from a young age, and that girls could love girls and boys could like boys (stuff like that!). So I'm not really sure how it really is for other people with different familial situations, especially ones with homophobic parents.. it can be a lot to learn and unlearn but with patience and time, you can get there someday!

I think one of the most basic questions of this is: who do you see yourself ending up with in the future? A man? Woman? Person? No one? Does it matter? Does it change anything? Can you see yourself with multiple of these people in a lasting relationship? It's ok to just try to sit down and think about it and how you would feel about doing "couply" stuff - like kissing, cuddling, holding hands - but with the same gender, and then see how you feel about it.

It's also important to notice that sexuality is a spectrum! You may despise the idea of kissing anyone but one specific person, or you may like people romantically like a flickering switch; on an off. You may find people attractive, but may not want to date them. And etc, etc. If you find yourself having complicated feelings on this matter, I recommend research! I think I could link some quizzes or articles to you if you need them!

There's a lotttt more to it, and it isn't as simple; but that was the start for me and when I first questioned it and I thought it mightve served as a good start to you too!

Anyway, hope that helped, Lia!! You can always talk to me if you need it, and I wish you good luck on your journey! Even if you don't end up being queer, you may find out something else about yourself! It's really about self exploration and discovery and I hope you the best!

- Love, daisy 💙

[blueslight]

Irl as in in my family and school obviously i dont go by Blues (although my irl friends do call me Blues) and my full irl name is pretty long right.. and i disliked my first name for quite a while but ive recently started to make my peace with it . But on new years eve my mom jokingly called me Leif which is one of my middle names a few times as like a joke abt how i was drinking mead (so like leif= viking name) and for some reason that made me like it like a lotttt and now ive started thinking abt using it as my first name when i go to university or something but im not really sure if its worth the trouble but today at the cinema there was a guy w the same name as me and i wanted to END him (there can only be one !!!!!) So i feel like i need an even rarer and cooler name than the one i currently have. Second option is my other middle name which is valerius but like vikings are cooler than romans

[especdreamy]

👀 penny for your controversial c!Ranboo opinions? (u get him so i'm sure they're fine)

ok gonna preface this with I am so content starved and having a constant feedback loop with myself + i dont rewatch vods (except specific clips sometimes) + Sometimes I have difficulty wording things in a way that I feel couldn't be misinterpreted. so Please if you want clarification/debate me on this you can bc rn I have talked about this with like. 2 people. and they both agreed.

Short answer: I don't think c!Ranboo AND ew!Ranboo are good people. But they're not EVIL either. But I also feel like ew!Ranboo is much more logically driven than c!Ranboo is.

Long answer? putting under a readmore because oh my god

There's A LOTTTT i got to say abt my perception of ew!Ranboo. I saw someone say how it'd be more interesting for c!Ranboo's whole character if he, for whatever reason, willingly worked with c!Dream. And as someone who at the beginning of the year was very partial to the "Worked with c!Dream at first, got blackmailed afterwards" idea, I also kind of saw where that person was coming from, and how ew!Ranboo working with c!Dream because he saw it optimal, necessary, or whatever else, is probably a very interesting conflict to the story.

I have said in dms that I belive ew!Ranboo is more Goal oriented. He's a "The ends justify the means" kinda person. He genuinely believes that whatever he's doing is for a better cause (Ending conflict on the server).

And I used to say that at least at the beginning ew!Ranboo willingly working with c!Dream seemed very plausible! Because c!Dream also had a whole spiel about ending conflict on the server, it's just that his real goal is a very corrupted version of that. And that similar but different goal is what had lead to ew!Ranboo being allies with c!Dream up to the disc finale. And I used to say that after that, he didn't align with c!Dream's views anymore and was blackmailed into doing everything that came after.

BUT I started thinking. What if he wasn't being blackmailed into it? I don't think that ew!Ranboo sees eye to eye with c!Dream at all times, I wouldn't even say that he likes him or enjoys his presence. But I do think that he believes working with him is something that is gonna help with this "ending conflict in the server" deal, and whatever talking that c!Dream does to convince him into doing things like the prison explosion are kinda up in the air.

So that's the controversial opinion, at least in my close circle I belive? ew!Ranboo works willingly with c!Dream, he isn't being blackmailed, I would even dare to say that he doesn't even feel regret. Guilt maybe! but not regret.

And why? Because of his reply to c!Ranboo after the lessons stream:

I am someone who stops conflict. I need to make sure that if any conflict arises to try and help in any way possible.

MAKE SURE THAT EVERYONE IS SAFE.

STOP CONFLICT.

MAKE THE SERVER BETTER.

This is what I need to do. Trust me.

There's something about the "try and help in any way possible." and the "This is what I need to do. Trust me." that scratch my brain in that way. c!Ranboo was asking him "Who am I?" after being bombarded by memories and the lessons that were pretty much driving him towards a panic attack. I feel like ew!Ranboo wouldn't be WILLINGLY causing him turmoil by hiding any information that'd make it clear that actually he didn't want to do some of the bad things.

Instead, he tells him to trust him. that this is what he has to do.

He KNOWS c!Ranboo doesn't like the stuff he's remembering. He KNOWS c!Ranboo hates c!Dream, would rather have him dead, would rather die than willingly work with him.

ew!Ranboo in that book was basically saying "I know that you don't like what you're remembering. That you don't like what you've done. But I promise you this is for the greater good."

I think whatever past c!Ranboo has that he doesn't remember (but ew!Ranboo DOES) gives a very different perspective of the situation, and maybe a different mentality on how to approach the problem of "Conflict in the server" and just. c!Dream as a whole.

I'll clarify I dont think ew!Ranboo is evil. I don't think c!Ranboo is evil either. But I don't think either of them are good people and both are very grey characters.

I think ew!Ranboo genuinely believes that working with c!Dream is for the greater good of the server, whether or not c!Dream is hiding stuff from him or giving him his full intentions is something that I cannot say fully. I think that ew!Ranboo doesn't regret things like the prison explosion because he thinks it's all gonna pay off in the end. The ends justify the means.

[anna-scribbles]

i was tagged by @ponpasta, a fact which nearly made me go into cardiac arrest bc pon is one of my favorite artists on this site and also the real actual creator of connie maheswaran <333 luh u <3

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 8 (ish) favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome work!

1. steven getting taken off cash register duty  (i’m just gonna include 1 panel from long comics)

I had to include one of my gf/su crossover things (even tho they’re from before I rly knew how to use procreate lol) bc thats the original anna-scribbles brand babey!! this comic is probably my favorite one from that series just bc it still makes me laugh and I love making steven stupid <3

2. prettiest boy in paris

this one isn’t particularly good from like an Artistic Standpoint but I just think i rly captured the essence of adrien with these. like. thats just a little boy. hes pretty and full of love. yeah

3. summer nights 

I like the colors and the vibe of this one a lot!! it feels very peaceful and casual which is something these kids don’t get a lot so I like to give it to them. I drew this before I knew how to color in procreate so I was v proud of the colors back then and i’m less proud now but ik I worked a long time on it so i’m still a little proud

4. just some stevens 

I like these a LOTTTT esp the top middle steven, I think he looks really steven-y. I had a lot of fun playing with different kinds of warm & cool lighting, and experimenting with different not-okay steven facial expressions. also I drew lion which I never do bc lions are hard to draw but I like how it came out. & the way he’s nuzzling steven’s neck turned out exactly how I wanted!!ok im done 

5. at comm

this was my first Big Commission!! I worked on it for many hours and I was very proud of how close to the original adventure time style I was able to get the characters. I showed it to my dad and he said he liked it :)

6. tell me something

this commission I love a whole lot!!! it’s a scene from one of my favorite fics EVER, tell me something (I don’t know) by @chatnoirinette​. idk if u can tell but the real star of this piece is the railing on marinette’s balcony bc that took SO LONG to draw. but i also like the expressions and the lighting and how glowy chat’s eyes are 

7. obvious animatic 

baby’s first animatic!!! ive been wanting to make an animatic since I was like 15  so I finally sat down and did it and I actually love it a lot. I think it’s rly expressive and fun to watch and I enjoyed testing how many sparkles I could put in adrien’s eyes until he ran out of pupil 

8. ladrien christmas 

this is my most recent full piece (for @mlsecretsanta​) so I actually kind of DO know how to color in procreate in this one!! I almost never do backgrounds but I tried one in this and I like how it turned out. also I love how glowy the little light strands are and i’m just a sucker for ladrien in general so all around it makes me happy to look at 

ill probably make a sappy post later abt how much fun being on tumblr has been for me this year but this post is already too long so we’ll save it lol 

I tag @sabertoothwalrus​ @spooksier​ @chatnoirinette​ @marikittynoir​ @ladybuginettes​ @peachcitt​ @tizzymcwizzy​ @rosekasa​ @jattendschaton​

no obligation obviously!! I just love all of your work sm <3

[ladiablesse]

Your comment about Azealia is something she's adressed in the past and I;m surprised your perpetuating this idea because although it may be true to an extent, being intentionally inflammatory never stopped Donald Trump or Kanye's bags (all three are geminis btw) There is a larger systemic reason that azealia, as a bisexual black woman, is being held to this crazy standard that men and white men and non black women are not. Look at fucking Chrissy Teigen for instance, she is still out here living life after being so so gross, she lost a few deals, but nothing like the blackballing that azealia has gone through since the zayn sand n****r incident and using the f word on the plane

i mean yeah i agree that shes held to a disproportionate amount of criticism but i don’t think the criticism itself is unwarranted (for the most part, bc some shit like that outrage following what happened w her cat was completely unwarranted n borderline antiblack). like i think the appropriate response to “it’s not fair that she as a darkskinned black woman with mental health struggles is criticized more than her nonblack/male peers for doing similar shit as them” should be that they all need to be held to the same standard shes held to, not that we let her slide as well because we let others in more privileged positions slide. also like i think audience matters. bc donald trump was able to maintain his success and audience despite the horrible shit he’s done largely bc his core fanbase agrees w his beliefs, so none of the inflammatory things would drive them away. it’s not like that with azealia in that her audience largely doesn’t agree with a lot of the things she says, and can often be the targets of her offensive remarks (im talking specifically abt the transphobia) and will support her despite of that, rather than because of that. i will say that a lot of the language that many people use to criticize her is just like genuinely fucked up and not conducive to anything and is usually just laden w abelism and misogynoir in order to dunk on her which is super lame. and the fact that when she’s been obviously candid about the abuse she’s faced from famous ppl in the industry people will still use that same ableist/misogynoristic language in order to justify why they don’t believe her is gross. like a lotttt of people owe that girl an apology

[sanchoyo]

thinking abt that text post I rbed like a week or so ago that was like abt being thankful for older butches existing in public. and I cant stop thinking abt it.

like retail def made me more evil and the job itself was miserable but one thing I did like abt working at walmart was the sheer amount of gay ppl there. specifically on my morning team there were SO many older butches. so many. like there were maybe 10-15 of us there on most days on that team and out of us 7-8 were gay and like 5 were older butches it was incredible. im talking like 50-70 yr olds that would tell me they loved my hair and my energy and my weird little pins. they would bring me donuts n tell me abt their wives (actually several couples worked on the team too...so wonderful to see gay love in public)

my manager was even a lesbian and I met her grown sons and her wife once and seeing older gay ppl doing well and thriving and having familes. idk man something abt that.

the other week me and my mom were out shopping and I met one of my cousins for the first time (we have a LOTTTT of cousins on her side of the family so this isnt unusual for there to be ones I've never met, I joke that we're related to everyone in the state, lol) and this was a man older than my mother, shopping with his husband, and my mom told me he was basically the first family member she can recall coming out, like back in the EIGHTIES. we live in such a conservative area and I'd never even heard of this guy, but he's related to us and has been so brave and living his truth for so long...idk I've just been emotional abt this lately.

I wish there was a non-weird way to reach out to older queer ppl and be like. thank you. thank you for existing publicly it means everything to me. I need them to know how much it means to see that.

and I try my best to do the same around my younger cousins too, to use the word lesbian and tell them its a good thing to love who you love and that ill always be there for them too even if some ppl in our extended family are homophobic, that theres more ppl who will love and accept them.

and my sister was telling me she met an older man at the salon who was telling her abt his husband, and my sister was telling her salon lady abt her gf at the same time, and the salon lady was being so sweet abt it.

and idk. im emo about it. I felt so isolated as a young preteen when I first realized I liked women bc I thought there was really no one like me around here. everyone was a christian and id heard a lot of ppl who said they loved me say gay ppl go to hell and. I was so scared theyd hate me and that I would be alone... and its like. no. older queer ppl have been here this whole time. and there will always be people that are accepting, and a lot of the reason my family was okay with it is because of older gay ppl. one of my moms old best friends at the time came out as a lesbian a few yrs before I did and I KNOW that impacted my moms opinion abt gay ppl, bc that lady was amazing and I actually still have a lot of ppg toys she would give us as kids.

im so thankful for every older gay person. I've been out for like 10 years now and I'm still choked up anytime I meet an older queer person... ;_;

[saintobio]

hmm expecting yn to just grow balls, dump him, steal his ceo position etc aint happening because first of all, both of them are most literally powerless in the face of their parents 🤣 her and his dad just gonna drag them back together. there area lotttt more consequences if she does what yall want her to do. it's not gonna be a simple thing where she dumps him and ruins his chances as ceo and it's all good. besides, if u consider her character, she's literally almost inexperienced in BOTH dating and business which is another reason why the "bad-bitch move" won't work 🤷🏽‍♀️ i think her only choice rn really is to try and make this marriage work because she's not escaping him – even gojo knows this!

exactly 😣 i love me a bad bitch mc and i know that it’s satisfying to think abt but rn the situation is not calling for it. if she does end up standing up to gojo someday, she’ll do it her own way that fits her personality. (also bc there’s something that’s gonna happen later in the story that’ll change the course of their setup so be patient w her 😔 she’ll go through a lot)