#this one seems bitter

[poems-of-the-anentomologist]

Pride Poems Day #15 Theme: Self-Pride A special thank you to @leafgorge, and you, the reader

The Deadliest Sin

they hate you.

they want you.

your beauty scares them

makes them think

if they are wrong

about themselves

love yourself when nobody else does

you know there’s no other way to hold on

be proud.

scream it out.

if we blend in,

we forget.

and then we die.

[jayktoralldaylong]

I love that the villain of Mouthwashing is not some outer space monster, it's not a science experiment broken free from a lab, it's not even a man with an obvious stereotypical mental illness.

It's a man with self esteem problems. A selfish cowardly man who so badly wanted to be praised for doing the bare minimum. A man who let envy bite through the hand that fed him. Cause sometimes the worst monsters are the ones that are the most human. And everyone died and suffered because one man (Curly this time) kept making excuses for that one weak link (Jimmy).

I also love that the crew in Mouthwashing didn't die because Jimmy went around hacking them up. They died because of his poor leadership decisions. The leadership that he so badly believed that he could do better than Curly.

- Anya was already stressed out from the assault and she was on the edge of a mental breakdown, Jimmy responded to that by shouting at her. 💀 Girl chugged down that pill bottle like it was water.

- Daisuke was an intern, he just did whatever he was told, eager to impress Jimmy. Jimmy says climb the vents, Daisuke climbed the vents. The vents collapsed on Daisuke.

Jimmy then tries to disinfect the wound with Mouthwashing, mind you Anya had earlier mentioned that using the chemical would only make wounds worse. Swansea reminded him of this. Jimmy ignores him. Proceeds to aggravate Daisuke's wounds so bad they Swansea has to mercy kill him.

- Swansea is an old man and 'life in prison' does not mean so much to him anymore. Plus, Jimmy has stepped on his last nerve. Swansea tries to kill Jimmy. Jimmy shoots him.

A domino of events that look like accidents, all avoidable if Jimmy listened, if Jimmy calmed down, if Jimmy did not act so darned arrogant and demanding all the darn time. And now he's left in a ship of corpses, but Curly is still there........

So Jimmy does what he does best.

He blames Curly (and then Jimmy finally has a mental breakdown).

[toki-toro]

Is that the bite of 87

[knox-knocks]

Maybe exy is a little boring to him — but andrew doesn’t just not care about exy, neil notes in the beginning of tfc that he seems to outright resent it. boredom doesn’t bring about resentment. but do you know what does? the idea that a sport you barely give a shit about is the only reason anyone gives a shit about you

[eternalera]

me: apple white is actually a really complex character and her moment with the evil queen was one of vulnerability because she can't be frustrated with how things turned out anywhere else and some part of her was still bitter that she had to give up something good for everyone else. the evil queen knew this and was playing on it. she was also playing on the pressure that snow put on her as well to 'get her happily ever after'. all of this resulted into her throwing the apple in the direction of the mirror in frustration (most likely to get her to shut up), which accidentally caused her to free the evil queen which she did not mean to do. once again afraid of making a mistake and this time having people KNOW about it she then covers for the evil queen as she's afraid of what people will think of her and not anything else because she's a flawed character. the evil queen the promises her happily ever after of course but apple doesnt really have a say in it as she's forced to do whatever the queen says in order to keep the facade that shes 'perfect' because (once again) her upbringing made her scared of making any sort of mistake so she tries to cover for herself instead.

people for some reason: YOURE JUSTIFYING HER FREEING THE EVIL QUEEN!?!?!?

[hopelesslyunstable]

Ajaw who consistently uses a small amount of the limited power he has access to from his sealed state in order to prevent Kinich from aging

it takes Kinich a few years to even notice. It’s not until other people around him subtly start to change. Wayna gaining a few gray hairs, Kachina getting taller, Mualani seeming more mature

and people telling Kinich he hasn’t aged a day. Ajaw usually says something snarky along the lines of how Kinich just continues to be a pesky bug who won’t die…

Ajaw knows this is counterproductive to his goal of acquiring Kinich’s body for his own use, but when Kinich finally points it out, Ajaw can only say that it’s because he wants Kinich’s body to be in the best shape when he finally dies

Ajaw isn’t stupid, he knows the body of an old man won’t be as useful to control, and if Kinich dies of old age it would be terrible for Ajaw! Not to mention having to put up with Kinich for years and years and years just waiting for him to kick the bucket and only getting a frail old body in return… so really Ajaw is just scheming (at least that’s what he argues)

Kinich didn’t care at first. What’s a few more years? Until those years start adding up, and time passes quicker, Ajaw doesn’t change—not on the outside, at least

And if Kinich outlives everyone he knows, who’s going to stop Ajaw? Kinich made the deal, and he’s hardly paid the price he agreed on, instead—he’s lost much more (and gained something else that he never asked for)

He cares now, tired of watching everyone change, watching everyone die, the only other constant is the warm sun, and Ajaw.

Ajaw who is selfish, and arrogant, and rude, even if Kinich grew to resent him for what he’s doing, what could he do? Part of the deal was allowing Ajaw his limited freedom, and Kinich never goes back on his word.

Especially when there’s a price he’s itching to pay, and one he thought Ajaw was just as eager to collect.

(Even if that has since changed as well.)

[jeyne-stark]

andromache's lament

[arlathen]

guys do you remember back like six months ago in june. when we were so excited. remember.

[radioroxx]

take my hand. genderfluid lucas flamingo

[myrmica]

(staring out the window) (contemplating) fascinated by how little zam wanted to dwell on the subz problem. it felt very much like how she acted during vitalasy's first s6 stream. convenient to have other things to throw yourself into. but if this really was it. if he was gone (again) and you never took the chance.... so scared at the prospect of talking to subz about anything of substance when it came up earlier on in s6. the instant recognition, "i know why he would want to be banned. i'll do it. anyway..."

[untimelyambition]

jeff blim as the narrator is so cunty hes having the time of his life!! he makes the whole thing so fun!! if theres one thing that man will do it’s serve physicality EVERY TIME

[necrotic-nephilim]

What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.

batman (1940) #650

A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.

batman (194) #650

BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.

[aroaessidhe]

Demisexual YA Contemporary Books

Main characters

The Summer of Bitter and Sweet - demisexual girl, m/f

Two Can Play That Game - demisexual-coded girl, m/f

Everyone Hates Kelsie Miller - demisexual girl, m/f, novella

Technically You Started It - demisexual girl, m/f

Bad At Love - demisexual boy, m/f

Read With Pride - demisexual girl, f/f (younger-YA)

Side characters

The Summer Love Strategy - love interest is demi-aroace (f/f)

Radio Silence - major side character is demisexual (m/m, the MC has no romantic subplot)

Belly Up - love interest is a demisexual boy (also grey-ace best friend)

#aspec books / aspec database / tumblr masterpost

info included here is brief! please see my database for full details of the books

[swordsonnet]

"i have feelings for you too" "i wasn't talking about you" SAVAGE

[shorthaltsjester]

every bells hells interaction with keyleth being a bullying (affectionate) interrogation — usually about things they have already interrogated her about — versus their interactions with vex being like 3 of the hells at any given time Will be distracted by her hotness and the rest will be just going yes ma’am whatever you say . extremely extremely real of them . i have to imagine after every interaction keyleth is like WHY do they keep doing this to me and vex is like idk darling maybe your vibes are just off

but also i just need them to carry some of the our old pcs are bugs were poking under a microscope energy to vex i need to know what her takes on vaxorb and the gods are right now . do i think vex is as likely to be open with bells hells as keyleth is? doubtful. but i still want them to try

[marimbles]

i miss carpisuns sometimes </3