#thisisntlove

[damagedghostwriter]

FREE.

I don’t feel like I’m free.

Free from the abuse.

Free from the pain.

The feeling that I have to have my guard up at all times.

The feeling that my body is never out of survival mode.

How does one live like that?

It’s unhealthy. It’s stressful.

Maybe you’ll be sorry for doing all of this to me.

Maybe one day you’ll stop and let me feel comfortable enough to live my life the way I want to.

Maybe one day you’ll allow me to enjoy what real happiness is without feeling the need to ruin it or to run from it.

One day,

I hope you’ll let me be free.

[nostvlgics-blog]

“He told me the other day that he hated his brown eyes. That he wished his were the same hazel grey as mine. What I wish I could have told him is that I never liked the color brown until I looked into his eyes and saw a million different things at once. His eyes were not plain brown, no, they were like looking at home and when he looked into the sun they turned into sunlight and amber and put my simple grey eyes to shame.”

~what i can never tell him #1

(c.r.d)

[shadeofjayde]

#loveisblind #relationship #relationshit #ex #exes #redflags #gutfeelings #crazy #love #thisisntlove #weonlyseewhatwewantto (at Gold Coast, Queensland)

[youcallthislove]

[youngsickandfighting]

I still. CANNOT believe I am in here for the holidays. #foreveralone #fuckChristmas #fucklupus #whatlove #thisisntlove (at Houston Methodist Clear Lake Hospital) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6jASDgBGHw/?igshid=1ucxatj8ty561

[thelostartofme]

If you mock my sensitivity, Are you deserving of my kindness? If you don't find beauty in the way pain has shaped me, Why are you still here? If you find fault in the way I dance through life, Who is it you're trying to make me be? If your conditional love is all you have to offer, Why the fuck am I still loving you? K. D.V.

[poistymuss-blog]

What I wish I knew 2 years ago

One thing I will never do is get into a relationship. The emotional exhaustion has taken a toll on me. There is just so much love and trust you can invest in one person, hoping that they won't hurt you or let you down. But time and time again, you are disappointed. Because you love them, you want to forgive them. You want to believe they didn't intentionally hurt you. And maybe they didn't... the first time. But once they see just how much love you have for them, how forgiving your heart is, and how much you'd do for them, they realize how much they can get away with. How much you will overlook, let go, or not bring up. All for the simple fact that you love them so immensely. You'd do anything for them. Why can they not see that? You watch as they put others first. Slowly you feel yourself drift away- from the relationship, but most importantly, yourself. You become numb to the abuse. Mental. Emotional. Sometimes even physical. You become numb to how they make you feel, how they treat you, how they act towards you. After awhile you almost expect it. You ask yourself why you stay, why you even want anything to do with them? Truth is, it's not always bad. But don't get your hopes up, because it will go back to how it usually is. They prove to you that it was all just a fantasy, or a figment of your imagination. A reality that will never be achieved. Is it you? Why he won't stay loyal? Maybe you are crazy, just like he tells others. Maybe you aren't pretty enough, that's why he needs to talk to those other girls. You constantly ask yourself why you weren't good enough for him. You gave him all of you. You gave him every part of you. You showed him the side of you no one else saw. He knew everything about you. To him you were vulnerable. And with this, I must say you need to get out. Move on. Realize that you are better off without him. You don't need anyone who doesn't see your worth or who doesn't appreciate you. Please respect yourself enough to know that this isn't love. No matter how "good" the good times are. He's not worth it. He will no longer have control over you.

[ourregretsandmistakes]

Love

YOU NEEDED SPACE?

I’m the fucking one who’s been battling who I am, what flaws I need to change, how to change them TO PREVENT YOU FROM LEAVING ME. YOU JUST PICK AT ME TILL THERES NOTHING LEFT. IM SO DRAINED. IM FUCKING DRAINED

You’re using POWER AND FUCKING CONTROLL ON ME AND I FUCKING HATE IT. CUZ HERE I AM, FUCKING STILL TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF LOVE MYSEF. I FEEL LIKE THE ONLY WAY TO PROVE MYSELF SELF LOVE IS BY LEAVING

but I can’t because I fucking love you and I’m stuck 😭 I’m fucking stuck, and I’m fucking drained.

#thisisntlove #drained #stuck

[anthonylabson]

Ode to Survivors of Abuse

#anthonylabson #haikupoetry #Haiku #haikusofinstagram #independence #freeyourself #survive #imasurvivor #freedomfromtyranny #relationships #abuseawareness #abuse #poetry #poetryisnotdead #poetryporn #gethelp #poetrycommunity #independenceday #whatslovegottodowithit #howcomehowlong #nobodydeservesthis #bruisedarms #brokenhearts #tearsonmypillow #thisisntlove #cryingmyselftosleeptonight…

[vinylburns]

Is this love? #love #whatislove #thisisntlove #notlove #onlylove #showbiz #showbusiness #chairs https://t.co/KC6kE2muRj

[nostvlgics-blog]

"I am sorry he treated you this way, darling you deserve the universe in your hands, and he could barely give you a mountain."

- still though, the mountain seemed enough

[burntdarkness]

you are my anxiety at 6am when i'm overthinking.

[brysontillerteam]

ThisIsntLove (JReezYBeatz)

[lezahbian]

I just wanna be touched. #thisisntlove #originalsong #buddysgirl #mesinging #music #ukulele #drums