#thoughts and stuff

[nonomives]

Have I ever posted this? I dont think so

Anyhow... I had this idea in my little noggin about a weirdcore-esque dating sim game and this little fella is one of the characters I made. Actually the only character Ive made so far lol

Still thinking about it now and then lol

[angelbreaks]

Dirk Strider is easily the most “you fell for the facade that’s meant to be dismantled by the viewer” character ever. He’s really not that complicated yet all of his fans are doing mental gymnastics trying to understand his machinations and 99% of the time the explanation is just that he didn’t get skin to skin contact as a kid.

[icharchivist]

wait i'm thinking

so the Avvar believes in Korth the Mountain Father and the Lady of the Skies and all of that right?

Korth especially is interesting because it's a spiritual manifestation of a mountain, right? so it must be the memories of a Titan being reflected.

and i'm thinking of Codex with newer infos in mind (meaning da4 spoilers under read more)

And i'm thinking about this codex:

Even mountains had a heart, once. When the world was young, Korth the Mountain-Father kept his throne at the peak of Belenas, the mountain that lies at the center of the world, from which he could see all the corners of earth and sky. And he saw strong men become weak, brave men grow cowardly, and wise men turn foolish for love. Korth devised a plan that he might never be betrayed by his own heart, by taking it out and hiding it where no soul would ever dare search for it. He sealed it inside a golden cask, buried it in the earth, and raised around it the fiercest mountains the world had ever seen, the Frostbacks, to guard it. But without his heart, the Mountain-Father grew cruel. His chest was filled with bitter mountain winds that shrieked and howled like lost souls. Food lost its flavor, music had no sweetness, and he lost all joy in deeds of valor. He sent avalanches and earthquakes to torment the tribes of men. Gods and men rose against him, calling him a tyrant, but with no heart, Korth could not be slain. Soon there were no heroes left, either among men or gods, who would dare challenge Korth. (....) The little bird [sent by the Lady of the Skies] traveled deep into the Frostbacks. When she could not fly, she crawled. She hugged the ground and weathered the worst mountain winds, and so made her lonely way to the valley where the heart beat. With all the god's terrible deeds, the heart was far too heavy for the tiny bird to carry, so she rolled it, little by little, out of the valley and down a cliff, and when the golden cask struck the earth, it shattered. The heart was full almost to bursting, and the pain of it roused the mountain god to come see what had happened. When Korth neared his heart, it leapt back into his chest and he was whole again. Then Hakkon Wintersbreath bound Korth's chest with three bands of iron and three bands of ice, so it could never again escape. And all the remaining gods named the ptarmigan honored above even the loftiest eagles.

and this codex

According to Avvar legend, Korth the Mountain-Father kept his throne at the peak of the mountain Belenas, which lay at the center of the world and was so lofty that from it, he could see all the corners of the earth and sky. Over time, bold young Avvar would challenge each other to scale the mountain of the gods. At first, Korth found this amusing, and he delighted in the valor of their failed attempts to enter his hold. Then Sindri Sky-Breaker, boldest of the heroes of old, succeeded in climbing to the summit and stood in the Hall of the Mountain-Father in the flesh. Korth, being a good sport, gave Sindri a hero's welcome, and the mortal returned to the Frostbacks with tales of gods and gifts from Korth, and soon more and more heroes were barging into the hall of the Mountain-Father demanded to be showered with honors. Korth grew weary of throwing banquets, and the other gods began to fear his temper. So Korth spoke to the Lady of the Skies and lifted Belenas from the earth into her realm, which could not be reached even by the most intrepid climber, and there he dwells in peace.

One of two things: the first story is clearly about a "tranquilized Titan" no??? since we know the "dreams" being cut should be turning into a corrupted anger that will be turned against the people.

But therefore doesn't the tale imply that it is possible to heal Titans' tranquility???

Besides this would be the story of the titan underneath the Frostback, where Skyhold is, aka where the Sky was held.

Meanwhile the weapon that was used to sunder the Titans was to be found in Sundermount, in the Red Lyrium Thaig.

As if the weapon was kept where the murder happened, but the veil was set in place on top of the one titan who had been healed?

The story of Belenas also strikes me as interesting since the only other city we really know "floating in the skies" would be the Black City, if it's not about a pre-Veil story where those would be normal, and this happened after a forbidden place has been visited too many times, which also somehow overlap (but not really) with the Breaking of the Black City.

Idk it feels relevent that Korth lost his heart according to the myth, that the Lady of the Skies found a way to heal it.

But wouldn't that imply therefore for sure that Titans' Tranquility can be cured? or at least so the legend goes?

I'll be honest before da4 and when i was reading the Myth, i wondered if it was inked to elven folklore, with the ptarmigan representing Solas sneaking into the Void -- which would explain the legends of "the Dread Wolf also going into the Void", and the possibility that he was trying to look into ways to heal titans after the striking of the Titans, as we discover them in Trespasser.

Now with Veilguard, i feel hesitant to say something else may be Solas' doing because that's boring for everything to be coming from him, but i wonder if there may have been a world somewhere where the point of this story was that there was ways to heal the Titans that Solas may have investigated on at some point, that could have actually been put in motion, if VG wasn't so determined to "the Time of the Titans is over". Especially considering in the first DAVG trailer (still called Dread Wolf then) we do see a Titan wake up:

personally i think the titans aren't all dead/tranquilized, and the implication of the one we see in The Descent is that it's the Veil forcing them to be asleep. While dead ones/tranquilized ones would be like the one in the Primeval Thaig in da2.

now with the infos we have, it feels more final that the Titans are dead and over, but i don't think it started this way, which makes me question if this codex was meant to hint toward a Titan Restoration being possible, and if the fact the biggest story about it is set under Solas' lair may have been an indication that it was well into Solas' plans to account for the fallen titans as well.

(and tbh which would explain "the end of this world" because even if magic coming back doesn't end up pushing people to madness like tranquils getting cured (re his discussion with Cassandra about it), Titans waking up from their slumbers and starting to move again would surely destroy the civilizations built on top of them.-- not to mention how the restoration of the truth would totally destroy The Chantry on which current civilizations are all running. The "end of the world" would be the result of many things as a result, from collateral damages to Titans awakening, people not surviving the return of magic, and the religion on which current civilizations are most based on being destroyed once and for all.)

Just worms for brain

[misstippytoes]

You know the relief when you’re finally over someone, you see their picture, like it and scroll forward without your heart going KSHJEJSJSNE!

I like that feeling..

[tianshiisdead]

Well when it comes to language I have many thoughts on kyowago/xieheyu, the Japanese-Chinese pidgin from manchukuo/the occupied regions back then, which ironically seems to be where the 'aru' stereotype stems from. and then that atrocious idea of writing Chinese in katakana instead. why did they come up with that... you guys literally used kanji/hanzi too anyways... what is the point

[aprianex]

ok so like i may have gone a little bit overboard explaining the entirety of watcher lore in martyn's pov

@inthelittlewood can ya fact check everything /hj

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

you say i don't seem to have a plan in life i say I've been planning what I'd say at various international political conferences since i was 10 in hopes of getting the chance one day

[moldymeat]

Some thoughts I had while playing Psychonauts 2 for the first time that I wanted to write down somewhere because I cant just keep info dumping to my dad. :]

Spoilers, duh

TL;DR this is my new favorite video game :D

I cringed so much through the whole process of turning Hollis into a gambling addict, I know Raz is just a kid and that they make up afterwards, but its so hard for me to play a video game and the character you play as does something I'd never do.

the music that plays in Hollis' Hotstreak reminds me of something from The Incredibles for some reason. Side note, I ADORE both PN1 and PN2's soundtracks and I do listen to them just as background noise. my favorites are all the circus tracks, Meat Circus, Flea Circus, Aquato Family Caravan

Me first hearing the main bad guys name was Maligula at the beginning of the game: "haha, Maligula kinda sounds like Amygdala, the part of the brain that controls emotions, especially fear! I sure love all the punny names in this game! I'm sure this will have nothing to do with this characters lore!"

In my head video games and film are kind of in separate categories, so hearing Jack Black and Elijah Wood, very prolific film actors voicing characters in this seemingly random video game was kinda jarring. I know now that Jack Black is friends with the creators of PN and has acted in other double fine games, buts its still kinda weird to me. (I still liked them tho)

In the Psi-Kings Sensorium, Helmut says "My Bobby" about Bob and my immediate thought was "something a little fruitys going on here" and then later on they show Bob and Helmuts marriage and stuff and I was like "oh something a LOT fruitys going on here". I think I was just so prepared for any kind of relationship for Bob and Helmut to have to be only subtext that I forgot this game came out in 2021 and they could show gay if they wanted to.

Psi pops are definitely sour grape and green apple flavored and dream fluffs are little condensed balls of cotton candy.

In hindsight, Gristol was totally trying to mail his own body to himself for safe keeping, but also he was the only mail worker so how did he think the package was going to get him? he didn't know he was going to get an intern and its not like he could walk down to the mail room as Truman without blowing his cover. My mans did NOT think this through.

The conversation Raz has with Dion is really sad and stuff, but when you're idling around Dion one of the things he says is "look at me and my psychic goggles!" and I literally laughed out loud when I heard that.

"Hey why do all these lice have little signs lol" "Lucy those were peaceful protesters!" "OH, UH OH."

I really loved Comptons Cookoff! it was way different from all the other regular old platformer levels, and I'm a sucker for timed cooking games. I only wish that you could replay the actual game show part in the collective unconscious.

In Cassie's Collection there are all the little paper fairy tale characters right? Well two of them, Shakespeare and a dragon, are played by the same actors who played Snorpy and Chandlo in bugsnax, so hearing the paper characters talk I was like "hey, I know those guys!"

Its a little pet peeve of mine when a character in any media is supposed to come from a specific country and they don't have that country's accent. Obviously Grulovia isn't a real place, but Nona has a nondescript eastern European accent, so why wouldn't the other Grulovian characters? I guess Augustus could have trained it out of himself or something, but Gristol? As much as I like Elijah Wood as Gristol, he's the gzesarevich and loves his country! there's no way he would train himself out of the grulovian accent. I've heard some other people say Gruman has an accent when Maligula was released but eh, I don't hear it all that much.

While finishing the game I (only!) shed a tear three times, once when Maligula was holding Marona's dead body, once when Raz got his junior Psychonaut badge, and once when the credits starting rolling.

i think Cosmic I and Welcome to my Mind are going to be stuck in my head for weeks.

[spotsandsocks]

Im fascinated to see what happens next episode and what it does to the story for Buck and Eddie and how the general audience see them moving forward because you see the difference between us vs the general audience is we’re watching every single minute and watching gifs of literal seconds over and over where facial expressions are clear and feelings seem obvious but that’s all missed by the casual watcher who’s eyes might not even be on the screen all the time (that’s my mum btw)

I work with someone who watches too and I can’t wait to see what they make of it all

Fun times await us 💜

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Random thought processing/rambling beneath the cut.

It keeps being brought up that I was in and out of choir for so many years, and that's true. I was. I joined in 2017, I was in for a year, then I tried to come back for the 2018 fall season and had to drop because I was having mental health stuff, same in 2019, then the pandemic happened so that was 3 years out. Then I tried to join back up in January 2023... and my uncle got very sick and died over the course of a three week period January - February and I had to drop again. I joined gain for real in September, and now I'm back in and having a really great time!

But I was wondering like... why was I so emotionally overwhelmed in 2018? What happened that I like... could not handle anything beyond what was required and still be functional?

Well, today I found a series of google docs that I made in 2018/2019 trying to establish a timeline of everything that happened with my grandmother because I felt like I was going crazy. I was gaslighting myself and my family was minimalizing things to such an extent that I genuinely began to question what had happened/how bad it was.

And February 2018 through August 2019 was non-stop emotional bombardment and trying to manage her health and her outbursts and her chaos. Non. Stop. And, of course, she was being verbally and emotionally abusive to me the entire time.

I finally cut contact with her in August 2019, but then there was like a solid six months of mourning and questioning and recovering before the pandemic hit. And I just...

God, no wonder I couldn't handle anything, it was constant. I was so exhausted and literally teetering on a breakdown for like 2 fucking years, and it impacted other things in my life.

I've been getting kind of upset when comments get made, even in jest, of like "oh are you sticking around this time?" etc. And I don't know, today I just had the realization of, "Oh. I was going through absolute hell and people think I'm just flakey."

I don't fully know where I was going with this but... wow.

[nezarecs-shin]

I really think Destiny 2 putting a reveal that substantial mid season and not during Lightfall's campaign was incredibly stupid (a very lukewarm take I know).

Putting important information that could have otherwise added context to the expansion's campaign in content that is going to be removed in 7 months is so stupid. It doesn't feel like telling a story so much as scrambling to fix holes in Lightfall after the fact.

[lajeunefilleenfeu]

I don't know how to say this, but I cannot relate to a lot of the queer stories written today. They are lovely (tear-jearkingly lovely), but they are not reflective of my reality as a queer person (neither when I was younger nor today). There is a deep generational divide.

So please think about that when you criticize queer stories for not being loud or open enough. I know we've progressed as a society, but those who were more strictly oppressed for being queer didn't disappear. We're still here, and our peers are still working on understanding things you and yours grew up with. Our stories still need space to exist.

[misstippytoes]

Sooo..life is just relentless huh? They should teach you that in school.

[aprianex]

grian wings,,,, i need to learn how to draw Grian with wings more, I wanna animate him with one for the final fight in wild life.

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

you know a lot of people ask me what colour I see for myself and, I never really have an answer.

But i think this year I might finally have one

right now, I am blue and I am yellow. Light shades for both, intermingling to make a soft green, like how the shade feels on a summer day

I am because of what I see, because of what i feel, and because of what I think.

I am because of what is around me.

and that's all I think i can answer