#tw death in the family

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Random thought processing/rambling beneath the cut.

It keeps being brought up that I was in and out of choir for so many years, and that's true. I was. I joined in 2017, I was in for a year, then I tried to come back for the 2018 fall season and had to drop because I was having mental health stuff, same in 2019, then the pandemic happened so that was 3 years out. Then I tried to join back up in January 2023... and my uncle got very sick and died over the course of a three week period January - February and I had to drop again. I joined gain for real in September, and now I'm back in and having a really great time!

But I was wondering like... why was I so emotionally overwhelmed in 2018? What happened that I like... could not handle anything beyond what was required and still be functional?

Well, today I found a series of google docs that I made in 2018/2019 trying to establish a timeline of everything that happened with my grandmother because I felt like I was going crazy. I was gaslighting myself and my family was minimalizing things to such an extent that I genuinely began to question what had happened/how bad it was.

And February 2018 through August 2019 was non-stop emotional bombardment and trying to manage her health and her outbursts and her chaos. Non. Stop. And, of course, she was being verbally and emotionally abusive to me the entire time.

I finally cut contact with her in August 2019, but then there was like a solid six months of mourning and questioning and recovering before the pandemic hit. And I just...

God, no wonder I couldn't handle anything, it was constant. I was so exhausted and literally teetering on a breakdown for like 2 fucking years, and it impacted other things in my life.

I've been getting kind of upset when comments get made, even in jest, of like "oh are you sticking around this time?" etc. And I don't know, today I just had the realization of, "Oh. I was going through absolute hell and people think I'm just flakey."

I don't fully know where I was going with this but... wow.

[kestrelteens]

personal ramblings

i feel so weird sharing this here since i rarely share anything personal, but i guess i feel the need to for some reason. i haven’t shared it before because i felt like it would seem like i was asking for attention or sympathy, but i really don’t want that.

 i know how much you guys loved the lots i shared and the cc and you all have been soooo so kind to me and that has made me super happy. i know some of you have been counting on my lots to fill your ‘hoods and i’m sorry i haven’t shared any lately. i’ve been kind of inactive (i mean barely i guess since i’m always super active) because my mom has passed away about a month ago and it’s been super hard for me. especially since i also lot my dad 13 years ago.

in october we found out that her illness has spread and that it was way too late. i can’t even describe to you how hard it was to watch her slowly fade away while being completely powerless to help her. so these past six months have honestly been what nightmares are made of. 

while she was still alive, i had some hope that things might turn around somehow and that kept me going so i was still in the mood to convert and create. but now that my denial about her death is slowly ending and i have to face the music, it’s super hard to be creative. i just play and play because that seems to help take my mind off things.

i have also been having super weird dreams and nightmares about her, but i guess all that is a part of grief and has to be faced.

anyway, i don’t want anyone to worry, because i have my husband and my brothers who have all been wonderful and are there for me at all times.

i just wanted to let you know why i haven’t been building anything. but i will start again soon, i just need a little bit of time. 

maybe it seems weird to some that i haven’t left during all this, but this community brings me so much joy and being here and creating has helped me get through all of this. 

thank you so much for being such a wonderful, supportive community that has brought me sooooo so so so much happiness and will continue to do so ♥

[fletcher-bit-me]

Right when i get back from my aunty's funeral i get a reel in my feed about how funerals should have themes and now i wish we did that

[splintergirl13]

Hey all.... this morning I pet my childhood puppy goodbye as she slipped away in the vets office. Her name was Cookie and she was going to be 14 in 11 days. She is a cavachon, a king charles spaniel mixed with a bischon, but we always just called her a lap dog. She loved people more than anything and would always be smiling and wagging her tail at everyone she met. She would've made a great therapy dog and kinda got the opportunity to do so visiting the nursing home all the time. Her favorite human treat was cheese and french fries. She loved walks (always the same one she never liked to change it up and she hated walking in the grass) and car rides and traveled accross the country with us. She hates lakes but loves puddles. She didn't like sticks and always walked wide around them. She loved to chase squirrels and leaves (not very well) and has the funniest bark you would not expect. She was scared of thunderstorms and the stove. She loved stuffed toys and her favorite was a tiny beaver she used to throw across the room. She liked to chew the ears off her stuffies.

She kicked cancer's ass but could not fight the kidney failure that came after. She didn't have to suffer for long and ate like the queen she is this whole past week getting all the treats she wanted. I truly lost a sister today. She was there with me since middle school and I loved her dearly. I have so many fond memories of her and I just wanted to post a few pictures here in her honor.

I love you so much Cook, Cookers, Puppers, Pup Pup, Cookie Doggie, Doggo, Poopers, Cook Cook,

Cookie 🍪 ❤

[spamton]

i accidentally napped and had a dream (nightmare?) where a new update for stardew valley released where everything was the same except on a random day in year 3 Evelyn would just straight up die. There was a whole cutscene that started in her house where she collapsed, and then transitioned over to the hospital where Harvey gave George and Alex the worst news of their lives. However, they got to speak to her where she said something along the lines of "Yoba will protect me, and I am sure he will let me watch over you."

Alex and George would not talk to the player for more than a few words for a full season after this event. George would spend most of his time in the bedroom, so if you had less than 2 hearts with him, you could barely ever speak to him.

And Alex... oh my god, poor Alex. If you were married to him during this event, he just stayed in bed all day. Otherwise, if single, he would just stand on the beach most of the time, staring off into the ocean. If you tried to interact with him, it would just say "Alex is grieving... Better leave him be."

There was also other NPC dialogue like mayor Lewis saying "I haven't seen the community in this state of mourning since your grandfather passed..."

there was also a glitch where you could make Evelyn live forever and there were entire guides for the "immortal Evelyn glitch" that got patched out in the next update. If you tried to perform the glitch after the patch, mr. Qi would tell you that "hey, it happens to all of us. We can't prevent it, and neither can you, no matter how hard you try."

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I woke up and apparently the moon was gonna hit the earth, but everyone was like, really chill about it.

I talked to my mom and she said: “Yeah, the moon will hit the earth in about three months, you still have time to say goodbye to the people who you care about." 

I was like "damn”, and then I said: “How do you guys knew before me?” And my mom said: “Its because we watch the news and you don´t.”

[incorrectbatfam]

Alfred gets sick of Bruce breaking and losing stuff on patrol so he gets a label maker and starts naming items after the kids

Alfred: I got you a new phone, just like you asked. Its name is Jason. Try not to let it die.

Bruce, tearing up: Why would you say that—

[stars-bean]

ꕥ The Addams Family ꕥ ➛ 2.14 - "Morticia's Dilemma"

[ayo-edebiri]

Taste (2024) + movies references:

Psycho (1960) dir. Alfred Hitchcock Death Becomes Her (1992) dir. Robert Zemeckis Ginger Snaps (2000) dir. John Fawcett Addams Family values (1993) dir. Barry Sonnenfeld Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003) dir. Quentin Tarantino

[onionninjasstuff]

i present to you the au that has been brewing up in my head for a couple of months now, dr steals-your-ending (thanks sm @scatterbrainedbot for coming up with the name, it slaps)

i need future mikey focused shenanigans like air, so heres my take. idk when i have the time and energy to work on it more but im glad i at least have this bad boy of a comic out of my system for now <3

[fl3shly-d3sir3s]

Deterioration by me

[galaxymagitech]

HERE LIES JASON TODD...again—wait no he's back—

(I don't actually know how many times Jason has died, but here are the dates I used:

1983 - Jason is introduced 1988 - A Death in the Family 2005 - Under the Hood begins 2006 - The Batarang (after which the Superboy Prime Punch Effect is seen again, so...he almost definitely died here) 2021 - I'm 99% sure Jason dies in Task Force Z and is brought back in the next issue. 2024 - Jason is killed by Zur en Arrh and brought back by Lazarus Resin.)

[raccoonrobyn-imagines]

A prompt

Imagine this guys. Ghost King Danny has been the King for many years now, ever since he was 14 and put Pariah Dark back in his timeout napping corner, and he held an elderly Jazz closely to his chest as she breathes her final breath. As she goes limp and her eyes go distant and unfocused, nothing rises from her corpse. Not a single hint of a ghost forming, or even a simple shade.

The last of his family has left him, and all he can do is scream in anguish.

A ghost who still looks like a 14 year old holds his 2 year older sisters elderly corpse, and all he can do is wail.

[frownyalfred]

Jason coming back from the dead angry and out for revenge using a crowbar as his weapon of choice only to bash in someone’s skull with one well-placed, Lazarus Pit-fueled swing and suddenly getting hit with a flashback of gargling his own bloody teeth and fucking losing it on the cobblestone of a random alley somewhere in the Narrows send tweet

[somerandomdudelmao]

Cass apocalyptic series Masterpost

So...one day I thought "hmmm, what if we had another season about the bad timeline" and then I went to draw it.

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Fanart Edits Fanfics Little interesting details

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Ep 1. Master Leonardo becomes Baby Blue once again

Ep 2. Can you carry your uncles?

Ep 3. Raph is dead. The good news is it's fixable

Ep 4. Your brain may be human, but your soul speaks in turtle

Ep 5. Mikey looks sixty, but he's not even forty. Donnie can do something about that

Ep 6. Krangified

Ep 7. How many cool points does your dad have?

Ep 8. You may not be human. You might actually be a turtle

Ep 9. Commander O'Neil

Ep 10. Tiny Tello

Ep 11. The little things

Ep 12. Everything is falling apart

Ep 13. You are in the past, your thoughts are in the future

Ep 14. Donatello

Ep 15. Raphael

Ep 16. And the two they left behind

Ep 17. You've got cuddles and hot water. Both are limitless

Ep 18. So many turtles

Ep 19. Find the Krang, stop the...wait..

Ep 20. The winter is long

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C.A.S. Animated project - Part 1 Part 2

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[one-time-i-dreamt]

My mom crushed my ribs with her bare hands, killing me.