#to the point that it becomes distressing

[not-equippedforthis]

really love characters who have varied panic responses. kirk stating himself that he does not panic outright, externally, not in high-stress dangerous situations, but instead becomes tense and level like a wound string, on-guard: mostly because his role as captain necessitates that he maintain level rationality even when facing potential death as his training as 'the guy who tells you what to do when shit hits the fan' requires, but also because his childhood experiences taught him early that drowning in the desperate haziness of panic won't help you survive. especially as kirk already follows his intuition so deeply. he learned to grasp and contort the feeling. spock is the main person who represses his emotions, of course, but kirk does it to those deep-set, personal ones (this includes how he doesn't reveal anything truly personal about himself willingly 90% of the time, only what others already know/shallow anecdotes) in a much more subtle way that's really interesting to me. certified expert at avoiding the subject as long as he isnt caught out on the lie. professional bluffer.

in terms of past or parents we dont know much!!! hes known as the heart-on-his-sleeve guy!!! like yes he yells, he gets irritated, excited, hes a whirlwind of quick-thinking and plans and intuition, he goes out of his way to connect with his crew and shows it, when he puts on a little act or bluff he puts his heart into it and clearly enjoys the dramatics so much, at times he wears his heart on his sleeve, he laughs openly and is honest to spock about what he means to him, he's very sun-coded to me in a burning, passionate way, always intertwined with the stars and seeking them out, but when it comes to genuine deep-set turmoil? we dont actually know all that much about him??? hes so full of emotion and character (i love fics where spock characterises jim's mind/bond as a whirl of colour and sensations, hes a quick thinker!!! intuitive!! lively!!!) and yet its still so outwardly surface level. tarsus iv gets mentioned like twice? so especially here where kirk gets briefly jumpscared by the creature, because like:

its subtle but his eyes. his eyesss!!!!! kirk commands with his emotions but there's always some sort of level of control to it, or he transforms them into something that spurs on others or uses them to ascertain a goal: seeing unguarded fear/distress in his eyes even if its faint and brief (in this instance) makes me go insane every single time. like!!! its such a small moment!!! he isnt even panicking!!! really, he just got jumpscared!!! its insignificant!!!!!!! but seeing a two-second flash of actual, naked apprehension is just...oughhh,,,,,,,,,

oh god, and dont even get me started on the galileo seven episode where he assumes a tense level-headedness throughout the whole thing, irritated and apprehensive but not panicking, making sure he maintains intelligent rationality, even when he has to leave them behind, but when spock and the crew are confirmed safe and the bridge is occupied the camera pans to him and his eyes look like they're fucking watering and he's so achingly relieved. don't even talk to me. im. fuck.

he shows so so much but at the same time reveals so little.

[transsongtaewon]

I think the way baby Yoohyun cried is sooo cute, especially since it was all crocodile tears. Here is this tiny little guy deciding to get his way by crying because he saw it on tv and then his hyung, also a tiny little guy, starts crying too because he was so startled and itty bitty Yoohyun never anticipated that reaction so he just sort of stops crying so hyung will stop crying and this was never meant to end this way.

[haemosexuality]

i just heard someone on youtube (T B Skyen) say that silco loved jinx but didnt quite know how to love powder, while vi loves powder but doesnt know how to love jinx. and oooof oof ouch yeah

also it got me thinking and obviously jinx and powder arent two different people shes just going by a different name now but its also not baseless to analyze them as different "characters", or what traits of jinx are part of powder, etc. like the animators literally have a trick where they change her facial structure how they animate jinx to show when shes behaving more like powder. shes completely changed who she is, its jinx now powder fell down a well, sat on the jinx chair embraces who she is etc etc

[mamawasatesttube]

everyone who prompted "can you hear me?" from that list last night. well there's good news and bad news. the good news is i had a banger idea for what to do with it! the bad news is that it's definitely not gonna fit in a ficlet AND im out of town for the next couple days and probably won't have time to write so i Really hope i retain the "oh shit this is a banger idea" juice 😩😩😩

[distressed-pup]

not to sound desperate or anything, but i'd do almost anything for someone to call me a "good boy" or anything similar lol

[ennaih]

Not Every Film I Watch In 2024

42. Uproar (2023)

[unlicensedinvestigator]

spider riz doodle

[ectonurites]

SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR KEVIN PHILLIPS

[uncanny-tranny]

I've been reflecting on some interactions I've had with cis medical professionals, and I actually have a ton of criticisms about the ways they treated my transness, if you could imagine (sarcasm intended).

I've found that a lot of care, primarily in mental health, was almost afraid of my transness. Cis mental health professional almost treated my transness and my dysphoria as their personal kryptonite, and any time I mentioned how awful my dysphoria made me feel, I felt shut down or almost gaslit by their responses. They focused on everything but the primary issue, which before I medically transitioned was my dysphoria, so it doesn't surprise me that I didn't make any progress towards anything, really. Most of the things I have learned about dysphoria were on my own as a kid, no less.

When I transitioned how I needed, I could finally feel ready to tackle other issues because dysphoria really overshadowed everything else. I'm ready for the trauma therapy my many cis doctors insisted upon when I wasn't ready. I feel the care I did recieve at that time though was minimal at best, and had this air of gaslighting me and making me question if I truly was worthy of care because the issues I had weren't being treated.

My advice, ultimately, for cis professionals is to let your trans patients lead the care they get. If a trans person comes in specifically for dysphoria, then you should help them with that. Some trans people will not want you to mention dysphoria, and for those trans people, it would be a good idea to let them initiate those conversations. Don't treat trans patients like lab rats or that you know how to treat dysphoria or even their transness better than they do. I'm sorry, but some of the worst professionals I have had have had the attitude that I was a lab rat on dysphoria and that they simultaneously could lead the discussion (even when they admitted they don't have a clue about what they are doing).

I think cis professionals can treat their trans patients well, which is why I am so critical of them. I know cis people can understand trans people and show compassion to us, it is not inherent to cis people to be transphobic. The only barrier is willingness to learn, willingness to show compassion.

[rainbowpufflez]

More of this guy

[dhmis-autism]

whatever. love the writing of the DHMIS show because EVERY single character in it switches violently between the roles of either straightman or bugs bunny with no in between.

[curamorte]

my friend seele posted on their blog about it, and i was told several times yesterday, and i'm saying it here too because i just saw 3 different mutuals receive different accounts of anon hate today alone. anon should be turned off for everybody for a while i think. it's been said on the dash twice now i think, and it seems like an ongoing problem lately as a whole (not that it isn't already a problem). i love you guys.

[raspberryjellybrains]

remember when delirium was worried about destruction being gone and it was rooted in her loneliness and genuine love for her siblings and the other endless wanted to ignore her sudden upset over this because she's delirium and she gets this way sometimes, don't worry about it, she'll forget soon enough so it really doesn't matter at all. I should get to bludgeon all of them with a bat for that.

[agayconcept]

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[jewishcissiekj]

thinking about my "Padawan Asajj ends up in The High Republic for some reason" AU again. I have so many Asajj-centered AUs what the fuck

[pwurrz]

weird ass nightmare. i mean then again when are they normal but jesus christ my subconscious can get really creative when it wants to

i’ve been playing to much paper mario. that’s gotta be it