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ultraviolencced · 2 years

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the only thing keeping me alive is paul and my cat

#not good today lads #like my pilots tattoos aren’t even doing the trick #i have 0 people irl to talk to or spend time with when i feel this way #can’t go to my sister or mom the only people i interact with daily #i spend all day everyday on the verge of tears #i don’t do anything i can’t work i dropped out of college twice from different schools #the last time i saw anyone i consider a friend was in september when we trespassed on a dairy to spend time with cows #she’s not like a super close friend she’s my best activist friend but vigils kinda stopped and that’s the only time i spent time with other #people and like vigils aren’t fun like being at a slaughterhouse isn’t a fun hangout #we would always smoke weed after which was good but that’s not a thing anymore #i’m just an inconvenience for everyone whether or not they actually say it it’s true #i haven’t been able to give my mom rent since 2020 i don’t have an actual income my ssi application hasn’t been processed even tho i filed #it in 2020 i was able to get food assistance but not cash assistance i have to drive to a doctors office 45 miles from me once a month and #gas is $4 now and i can’t afford that my sister hasn’t payed me for the phone bill which is $60 #the seattle trip was such a horrible idea and i never should have done it #it was so expensive and i should have never thought it was a good idea the rental car was more expensive than it was supposed to be #the hotel should have been $129 and pre paid but it was $280 which took almost all of my money after i paid the phone bill and insurance #the only time i leave the house is to go to the fucking hospital twice a week and every few months a doctors office and for what #like it’s not really doing anything but slow the progression of it but like im still sick nothing will change that there’s no cure #shut the fuck up taylor

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deathsmallcaps · 2 years

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The cow stepped on my foot today and left a strange bruise. It probably just follows along some veins or bones, but I looked the symbols’ shapes up on Google translate and apparently these (roughly)

Mean ‘great’ in Japanese. So either somebody has a sarcastic sense of humor or Moo knows Japanese. Or it’s a not so funny coincidence :)

#when it happened i screamed in such a way that was like #‘bloody murder’#and #‘like straight out of a Shakespeare play’#my coworkers laughed but not in an unkind way XD #it’s been many years but I used to practice screaming #in preschool we understood that screaming your best meant the kidnappers would have a harder time lmao #and i took drama classes throughout high school lol #honestly if I’d pretty funny #i mostly screamed because I was angry #he stepped on the foot whose ankle the DOG helped me twist a few days ago #(Idk if it would’ve been better if it was the other foot but still)#combined with my still-somewhat painful knee #my (you know shin splints #this was like those but from my knee into my thigh)#by chafed skin and sunburn … this was not a welcome addition #i did a ton of squats today oof

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mccleans · 3 years

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#you're all going to think i'm stupid and never respect me again (because of course i garner a lot of respect on here usually)#but basically i've been having a rough couple of days this week #feeling super anxious and down it's mainly about money and my appearance and stuff but also christmas time is making me so homesick too #it's manifesting physically with my hair falling out and constant breakouts on my skin #over the past few weeks that is i mean #but the past two or three days in particular i've felt so awful i can barely talk to people or go to work i feel so worthless and horrible #and usually me and my flatmates hangout everyday in the sitting room but our friend came over two days ago and i tried my best to be social #but it was really hard and i must have seemed so weird and like a bitch #and yesterday i just went to work and stayed in my room because i know i'm bad company rn so i didnt want to bring my flatmates down or w/e #and today i was feeling a bit better so i was excited to hang out with them again #but i think they might be mad at me idk if i'm projecting but i tried to talk to them in the kitchen and they seemed kind of standoffish #and idk if i annoyed them the past few days or if i'm just overreacting and overanalysing but #i can't even bring myself to go into the sitting room to watch telly i feel sick with nerves just thinking about it #so i'm crying in bed now on tumblr and playing candy crush like an adult #this is all sooooo stupid i know i'm sorry #i just really feel. crap #personal

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searidings · 3 years

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Hi! I just wanted to tell you that I love everything you write. If your name is attached, I read it. So I know, as a writer, you always have those days where you look at something you wrote and you hate it. It's not descriptive enough, you don't like the wording etc. So I just wanted to tell you this in hopes that you remember at least once when you look at a sentence you hate, I love everything you write.

BRO u really got me 😭😭😭 are the keepers of my writing demons paying you to say this

#if u dont get this song reference im too old 4 u #😌#how did u know that i have been having a hideous few days writing wise and that this is exactly what i needed #😭😭😭#literally genuinely thank you so much if i could tattoo this ask onto the back of my eyelids i would #i am so aggressively 🥰🥺🥰🥺🥰 at you right now #come catch these hands bro!!! they're ready to hug you!!!!#my heart just did a whole flipflop thank you so much #anon i hope you and you specifically are having the best day of your life today #asks #anonymous

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alrightboss · 3 years

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Don’t mind me, I’m just over here thinking about the immense amount of survivor’s guilt Bobby must have been feeling after the night all of his friends died and he didn’t, and how messed up he surely still is because of it.

#julie and the phantoms #jatp #bobby wilson #trevor wilson #bobby jatp #i’m in my bobby feels today #trevor has a lot to answer for with regard to recording all of their songs with no attribution #but bobby was just a kid #who had to deal with the sudden death of all of his best friends #and if his life was anything like his bandmates’#those friends were all he had #their deaths would have fucked him up big time #and for a long time #a good friend of mine died two years ago and he still crosses my mind every day #i’m a lot older than bobby was and i hadn’t even seen my friend in a few years #it was bad for me and it would have been infinitely worse for bobby #i hope we get to hear trevor’s story in season two #i often wish there were two versions of this show #the kids’ version that is primarily about making music and having crushes #and the adults’ version that gets to go into some of the heavier aspects of the show’s general story #because three teenagers suddenly dying is dark as hell!#and they all had pretty shitty sounding homelives #at least luke was effectively homeless at the time of their death #i’m betting reggie and alex spent a lot of nights away from home as well #give me the dark shit!#i want the disney version and the hbo version #anyway #i’m getting off topic #thoughts and notions

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dandeliononthemoon · 2 years

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Twas a successful day today:

The weather was great for walking around the city

The atmosphere was amazing

We bought some stuff from the stalls: a cute lantern thing for the wall inside, a small drying rack, some earring and belts (of course with haggling, you don't go to an open market without haggling for shit)

We ended the outing by going to one of the parks nearby and eating the samosa's and cheesecake and drinking chai that i made (fucking hell i am so happy the cheesecake turned out great because i'd changed some stuff but my sis approved it so i guess i am done lol)

#it was surprisnlgy okayish busy #we thought with how kings day didnt go through the last two years it might be hella busy but it was okay #anyway we got some mattar paneer from a sri lankan restaurant and i tell you it is one of the few desi restaurants to make the best food #like we are very hard to please with desi restaurants so we were very happy with this one #but now i am very very tired and i have morning classes so imma go sleeo #i just wanted to report that today has been one of those great days where everything went perfect #tp.e #randomness era

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oscalesoffeeling · 2 years

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Woah :O !!! Epic Gamer Moment >:) !!!! i Looooooove my husband :3

#wil.huff.... ohh wil.huff :)#he's been so sweet to me today. i rlly like imagining him with me as i go about my day ya know.#going apeshit!! he's utterly heavenly. my angel in wolf's clothing.#G-d blessed me with such a wonderful husband. i'm in awe every single day of him and his love. my hubby loves me sooooo much!!!#i like imagining him brushing my hair every morning :) it makes it more enjoyable for me bc while i do like brushing my hair i also wanna #chop it off for gender reasons. and him brushing my hair helps me associate it with more positive feelings.#or i put my hand on my belly and pretend it's his hand instead :) not only does it make me feel less alone #but it also helps me associate my belly with more positive feelings.#or when he just sits with me because he knows i don't like being alone. he sits beside me and reads a book while i'm cranking out victory #royales in fort.nite all day.#(/lh bc i rarely ever gets wins smh. dedicated my last solo win a few days ago to him though. he's my good luck charm.)#anyway. he's my best friend and idk what i'd do without him!!! ❤#all i wanna do is wake up next to him every day and go to bed with him every night ❤#just thinking about his silhouette under the covers of Our™ bed..... holy fuck. or seeing sunlight or moonlight beam down on his beautiful #sleeping face #:'') okay.#crying sobbing etc. he's the most divine creature in any universe.#what did i ever do to be blessed with such a sweet perfect man? i love him so much and i wanna hold him rn!!!#he spun the stars on his fingernails (tag)#ellie rambles about stuff

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swanqiu · 2 years

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i usually scroll through the dash on desktop at the end of the day bc with the new ios rollout i just want to make sure i’m not missing important* posts but

mentally, i am Tapped Out TM for today

i’ll try to play catch-up with the dash some time between saturday and sunday, but for now/tomorrow, i plan to do most of my interactions through DMs and discord. feel free to reach me there; my handle’s below the cut!

esscapekey#3726

#i've been staring at a screen all day tbh and just got off a call that was nice but. i've been falling asleep at ~4am-5am the last few days #and then working remotely ~6 to 8 hrs those days too so #yeah calling it a Night seems like the way to go #esp since i start up my in-person part time job(s) tomorrow so! i will do my best to sleep earlier tn.#idk i also love all of the threads i have but for sure there's Something that sets in when i see my drafts count at *checks notes* 66 drafts #so when i say i Simply Pretend Like I Do Not See It i........ simply pretend like i do not see the number. i rlly mean it.#i am also aware there's a way to now toggle the ios content button but i sometimes scroll too fast on mobile lmao #so i like taking my time to scroll through the dash on desktop anyway.#i didn't even have the time or energy to scroll through and interact with mobile today sobs goodbye q.uarantine week #( OOC. ) — this is an ESS OH ESS.#*important = shytposts but also seriously any ooc things my mutuals post i just wanna make sure i follow you for YOU too u know

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gardenhotspot · 2 years

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today was so. was so. hm. yeah.

#garden hotspot #gcwtual #coworker texted out so i had to do everything myself. fine.#mb came out much much later and actually did stuff and also saw o accidentally push me over lol #idk im still irritated with him but whatever. i saved their asses today with the garden center.#our rep from scg sent ??? somebody and their kid and they helped me for a few hours. that was so funny.#but they were nice and helpful and willing to work. and they said it was the best looking store they'd helped in the last 2 days :'l #my store. my storefront. my monster rack and a frame and tables. mine :-)#sorry l*wes of (redacted) my store now lol #idk how it went with corporate but ik if they came outside they wouldve been impressed. im sad i missed it.#anyways i worked a 6:30a to 4p ish shift. im going to go to bed and do probably the same again. .lort

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basaltbutch · 2 years

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packpack update day <3

#it speaks #today i'm finishing up the chest strap + reinforcing the straps + ripping out the lining and replacing it with something lighter #been testing n working on this chest strap for the past few days and now it's actually comfortable to wear #also i'm considering using the hidden pocket to store my water filter on cold days? or maybe a heating pad or smth?#bc it's right in the crook of my back. but i think for snow it would be best to keep it actually in my clothes

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corvidaedream · 3 years

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corporate really will be like “the customer is always right, the needs of the guests come first, go above and beyond for the guests when you can”

and then turn around and are like “we’re going to do less than the bare minimum to meet accessibility needs of the guests” and i have to look like an asshole explaining to hoh/deaf guests that yeah we do have several prerecorded segments of our tour and no, not one of them is captioned!

#messages from the ouija board #sadies day job #we also dont have braille cards which i think would be easy to just have #like u wouldnt have to do them all just pick one guy like idk akeley or revere or something and print a few in braille #my usual tactic w giving cards to blind guests atm is just to give them a little synopsis of the person as im handing it out #but this is the second day in a row ive had multiple deaf/hoh people on my tour and we only have two transcripts (which dont include my #script bc all the host scripts are different!) and no captions! and ive had to be like Im So Sorry This Sucks. Im Aware That This Is Bad.#My Coworkers And I Have Been Pestering Corporate To Get Us Captions But Also Please Complain On Your Comment Card #thank god the group yesterday had a hearing person with them who translated #but there were definitely points i noticed where u could tell she had no idea how to sign something like fo’c’sle or ‘tarring & feathering’#and i did my best to pick up on that and explain terms & also take time to talk to them after to answer questions instead of taking a break #but the couple today were both deaf and didnt have anyone w them and i was genuinely so embarrassed at how inaccessible the tour was #the husband was really understanding that thats not something i have control over but his wife was pissed and yknow what! she should be!!

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widevibratobitch · 2 years

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got a nice anon today and i 🥺 like not to say i am a pathetic lil bitch but i am a pathetic lil bitch and rn im at that moment in my life when i think everyone around me HATES me, especially my friends, so yeah. it means a lot.

whoever you are anon, ily and im kissing you on the mouth rn

#<333333333333 #i am very rarely that person. but for the last few days or weeks or idek. ive been needing so much validation #i am absolutely convinced that i am the most annoying and unimportant person alive and even though logically i know its not quite true #it certainly does feel like it #i saw my best friend on monday and. admittedly i was in the strangest mood. but she told me im being too much. and she was right #but. sad nonetheless. she was a bit cold to me today too. and she's generally quite reserved and No Touchy and i get that #and i love her but lately ive been needing. a lot of patting on the head and i just ughhhh. nvm #thank you anon <3 ily

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elfgremlin · 2 years

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am i upset and sad about something? yes. do i feel let down and disappointed and betrayed? yes. do i feel like i always end up being betrayed by someone i trust? sometimes. i'm very lucky i have a few amazing best friends that i trust with my entire soul that know who they are but like. i'm still really hurt and feel flighty with people again

#txt #ive been in on and off tears all day intermittently about previous events from a few weeks ago #bc the emotions hit me again today #imagine introducing 2 of ur close friends and they in turn become best friends and betray you #like idk i havent done anything to deserve any of this #'siana acts like shes her best friend when she says shes done w her lmfao make it make sense'#I WORK WITH HER I CANT JUST SHUN HER #i cant just act like idk her and not talk to her #that'd cause unnecessary drama in the workplace!#bye!#and just bc im nice and cordial w someone doesnt mean i act like t heyre my best friend!#people disappoint me #me: expresses joy about someone's engagement #them: omfg u cant do that ur acting like ur best friends jfc

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thekenobee · 3 years

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He can't dance- that's for sure.

#endeavour #endeavour morse #joan thursday #60s fashion #60s #I'm going to be a lil bit personal here in tags- for the past few days my depression has been hitting me hard- I sleep for quite a long time #I barely touch food #and I can't get anything done #but today- I got a notification that this orange dress I ordered is waiting for me to pick it up from a parcel locker #and this made me incredibly happy #although I don't remember myself smiling this week #the smile you see in the first picture is real #fandoms are life. hope. and one of the best guides to lead you through all the mayhem and uncertainty if chosen wisely #if someone told me that -tHose Are jUsT MoViEs- I would slam sth in their face(pardon but I had to)#so here I am #I'm not sure whether its going to be ok for the next few days but those fandoms and the brilliant fans will be always there to make me smile #🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡#Joan thursday- out ;>#itv endeavour #endeavour cosplay #endeavour: home #sara vickers #shaun evans #ndvr #cosplay #tv

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piratekane · 3 years

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It's been a fucking month and it's only going to get worse and I know that LJ post was funny but it made me really grateful for the people I found there and the relationships I built from there. Some of us might not talk as much as we used to, but I have never not thought of you.

#today has been That day #and i have a feeling that it's going to be that way for the next few weeks #but i saw that LJ post and i instantly went back to being waaaaaay too young to use it and finding my feet and finding people i would call #my best friends #god i miss my best friend #this is for smurf #i miss her every fucking day #shoutout to my day 1s and my day 4271s #which is how long i’ve been on tumblr #gasp

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 years

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#what even was today? i feel like it was really long #i got v little sleep so maybe that doesnt help #but i bought an iPad and my pen comes Friday. which is exciting but it is the most expensive frivolous thing ive ever bought #probably more expensive than every frivolous ive ever bought for myself collectively which really freaks me oit #like ive gotten dizzy a few times turning it on #i just... there are a lot of little disruptive things ive had to do this week. so many changes. i have such low functional capacity atm #and my advisor was like: heyyy u wanna drive an hour out for a conference in person this weekend starting Friday?#and so i spent abt an hr sobbing abt that #bc devoid of emotion: i should go. its local so its good to reach out to the public abt our research and there could b funding opportunities #plus networking. so i should go. i should go #but it would also mean adapting to a big change in plans in a short period of time and agreeing to a lot of driving on top of socializing #and that's a lot on top of my already teetering stablity atm #so like it would prob be fine if i went but if literally one thing went wrong. like if i missed a turn or couldnt find parking i might #completely freak the fuck out. so i think its prob not a great idea to go. but i dont wanna say no #ive been so good abt saying yes to things... i feel whiny for not wanting to go just bc i dont wanna drive on low sleep/low stablility #which is valid and prob for the best but extremely annoying. so far ive not responded to the email #idk its been a productive but weirdly extremely stressful day #partly i think im so stressed bc im no longer a student so in doing a 9-5 'job' which fucks with my head a lot #ugh... im exhausted but sleep stresses me out...#srry for being whiny #unrelated

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