#tw: negative

[mad-hunts]

i'm going to keep this brief because i, as a rule, want to make my account a positive space for people — but... i also do feel like there comes a time sometimes where you have to address something negative. i know that i don't owe an explanation for my absence, but i wanted to communicate with y'all about something. i know that my replies / posts on here have been more spaced out lately and they're likely going to remain that way for a little while, though i really want to be active on here more, NGL.

this is because i haven't been in the best place mentally + it's been hard trying to get rid of all of the self-critical thoughts and stuff that has been going through my head. but yeah, as a closer to this, i just want you all to know that if y'll are ever going through something...

that you can always message me because although i may not have experienced exactly what you have, i understand a little bit of what it's like to feel like you're lost and/or to not really feel good about everything that's been going on in your life. so this is a safe space for all of my mutuals and i'm always happy to listen to you if you need to vent ❤️

[alteregozowie]

(I knew that visit would end with pretty terrible anxiety. I don't know why I do this to myself every single time. Took me a very long time to say something to her, long story short, but I've gone down this road with her before. I'm just trying to enjoy my vacation before I get to taking care of things, health wise, specifically that I won't go into. What a mood drop.)

[the-storm-chaser]

//I love being randomly being yelled for being ... *checks notes* a fucking lesbian.

The temptation to say 'Bitch I'm Bi' was INCREDIBLY strong

Im used to being misgendered, but to be misidentified is something completely new and I have questions

[gatheredfates]

eugh.

maybe not compendium this week, sorry team.

tangibly related to my other cut post the other day but life continues to view me as a cheap lay and keeps fucking me as a result. my partner's pc is pretty much dead in the water and we currently do not have the resources to replace it until the loan gets approved. we have some stop-gap measures in place that we'll launch tomorrow but i'm very tired of expensive-as appointments, things breaking and the economy being in shambles!

and it's like... yeah, I could theoretically charge for some of the resources that I make (dividers and whatnot) but I don't want to fucking do that because I enjoy creating on my terms and knowing my resources are free to use. i have a full-time job!! that should be enough!! who is coming with me to eat the billionaires!!

[the-smallest-star]

//Hey soooo please don't try and get me involved in tumblr drama, orrrr real life world event problems.

More info below if needed

It's not that I don't care, its that I can't mentally handle those things right now. My doctor has me off work currently and I have further doctors appointments, therapy appointments and blood tests to go.

I come to tumblr and this blog to escape that kind of thing currently. So as much as I care, please don't send me messages about real world tragedies asking for my support, please don't send me messages telling me x user is the worst person in the world and I should block them, please don't send me guilting messages. Cannot mentally deal with them.

My blog is for entertainment, stories and art. Not drama.

Didn't want to have to post this, cos I try and keep things like this private because this is not what my blog is for. But maybe people need to know why I don't indulge in that kind of thing, and you'll think before you try and drag me into stuff if you care for my wellbeing.

[starlightiing]

I feel like I am stuck inside a jar someone is shaking very, very violently. Hoping and praying for the time they shake it a little too hard and bash my head open so it can end.

[spectrodevil]

I know like I pop in so rarely. Sometimes I feel like I should stay out of rp, but then I end up missing it a lot even though I'm busy and tired and low energy. It sucks. I wish I had more time to myself to write and do stuff. Ugh. I'll be here to write everything I owe tomorrow.

[ofconstellationsandsnakes]

||Kind of want to write Leon again but also hhhng life.||

[bloodyarn]

✂ little vent I want to write off my heart.

Looks like I'm going to drop my apprenticeship. Which had me crying my eyes out for 2 whole hours. I am exhausted as fuck.

It's not like I don't like the job or my colleagues, I pretty much love everything. I really struck gold there. It's just... the way I have to tackle on a daily basis. I have to go by bus 1 1/2 hrs each time in the morning and another round of the same in the late afternoon. And that is when every bus is on time.

It's my third week and it's dragging. It's awful. Not the work, as I said, but the route. And I am very certain it will only get worse in time. I do not have a guarantee to get money for a driver's license (even if, it would take months until I would be able to drive myself) and I can't move places quickly.

I hate that this is basically all my fault. I was too happy and euphoric I finally found a job that I quickly signed the papers without thinking about the long run. I hate how I have to prepare for talks with my mum and dad, how I quit after they finally were proud. Maybe I overdid it. I was basically blinded by this awesome opportunity and high from everyone being happy for me.

I will go see the doc tomorrow, take some days off and think about how I proceed. I need a job close by. Possibly a driver's license, too. Ugh... I hope things turn out not as painful as they feel right now.

[eyesofthehawk]

I organized some drafts and inbox stuff to prepare to answer them tomorrow. I'm feeling mentally drained, and my brain is being mean to me again. I feel like I'm very annoying to people, and you guys just tolerate my presence. My take on Clint isn't good because it doesn't completely follow canon. I wish my brain would stop overthinking.

[crownshattered]

|| omg I just found out that, on top of everything else, jk rowling trashed ace people (im ace) ON ACE AWARENESS DAY and fucking christ lady… JUST SHUT UP…. SOMEONE TAKE THE FRANCHISE AWAY FROM HER…..

[rilli-luci]

Am very close to crying over something as stupid as not being able to draw as quickly as everyone else I know on top of not being able to cosplay something I want and also not fitting into a cosplay I bought less than a year ago and also not being able to make fanmerch very quickly and also cause my cat has chosen to snuggle the SCRATCHING POST over me for 5 days straight making me think I offended him and I'm sorry baby whatever I did I'm sorry I'll fix it I promise please don't be mad at me.

[the-smallest-star]

//Gonna curl into a little ball for a while;

attempted to go into work today, my sick note finished and my meds have adjusted, and I have no idea what happened. My body was burning, my chest felt tight and heavy and was wigging out.

So I'm back home, getting back in touch with my doc. Think I need a higher dosage. Really disappointed, I wanted to be back.

[seasonal-brotp-prompts]

arophobe spotted on my post

go fuck em up (and by that I mean block)

[powerfought]

you ever just look at yourself and ask ... why cant you communicate like a normal human being

[mddlbro]

Sorry to those I've left hanging ꃋᴖꃋ I've been in a major funk lately, and these 10-hour shifts are doing absolutely nothing to help 🫠 But I'm finally feeling the urge to write today! Gonna be lurking and knocking out replies tonight. hmu if you wanna chat or send me memes to keep me sane 💀

/negative tw in the tags