#venting tbt

[unorcadox]

the world keeps speeding up / i don't know how to handle it

[konkuurito]

do you ever just feel like you don't belong anywhere because i'm in my sadboi mood tonight

[haresvoid]

Real talk the lack of Wyll attention from a lot of fandom outside of tumblr makes me so sad

[loetise]

here is a thought not particularly stemmed by anything. i really love playing with plots where allie’s partner gets jealous/possessive about her because she really doesn’t know what to do abt it in general. and i love to poke her. but i always get really anxious about sending the themed memes when i see them bc it feels… like really weird/bad??? to send them when i know allie doesn’t get jealous (back) and to assume that they Would get jealous over her bc it’s not the vibe of the relationship because. she doesn’t. also more lighthearted thing about those memes is that none of the quotes usually fit her anyway. it’s just the reassurance ones usually. she’d really be more like ‘are you mad at me :(?’ because she just wouldn’t read it accurately

[decaeysa]

cries

[a9saga]

max - mugshot // hOO 🕺🎶 it's max here

[dragxnsfire]

|| stg you can’t browse this hellsite without seeing nsfw bots clogging the tags 

[bitterseadrop-a]

the closer you are to milou, the more likely it is for her to lash out on you. in a twisted sense it is a way of knowing that she puts trust in you — she feels safe expressing and showing emotions around you.

constantly putting up a facade is tiresome at some point, even for her. she also needs an emotional outlet sometimes, though unfortunately it is towards those she cares about and trusts.

earning her trust is a double edged sword — on one hand you gain both an ally and friend for life, but on the other hand you may be at the receiving end of a barrage of verbal abuse just because someone put one spoon of sugar in her coffee instead of two.

[unorcadox]

try not to remember

[snzhnrisen]

What from “my loyalty is to Tsaritsa only” from Tartaglia Genshin fandom in some capacity cannot understand and think that he’s playable because he’ll turn on Tsaritsa first like? No. Tartaglia is playable because he is more free in his endeavors (in a sense) and his wish is to fight + he is the only possible link & voice of insight into other Harbingers. He’s the thread that ties us as players to know information we wouldn’t usually get until 3 years later as just Traveler. It’s not ‘he’s going to betray Tsaritsa’ aspect like stop and read instead of skimming w/o thinking 🙃

Tartaglia is proven to be Loyal to his ideals, his decisions, his family and his promises. Don’t destroy his character by wishing he’ll become Traveler’s bestie and so easily abandon his loyalties. It erases the base and the beauty & complexity of his character. 🙈

[johndonneswife]

every day on The Internet i am forced to read a terrible take about how self-diagnosing serious developmental/personality disorders is Okay and You Should Do It because you know yourself better than a doctor and this is why there are legions of fourteen-year-olds on tiktok pretending to have DID and making videos like ‘SYSTEM OF 21 CAUGHT SWITCHING ALTERS ON CAMERA!!!! HOLY SHIT GUYS!!!’

[blood-driven]

im loving this thread bc, Tiir - uncensored would have already tried gutting Haise long ago. But bc we need things to go semi smoothly he has to be toned down to grumpy tension. 

[decaeysa]

uhhh let this be a super low activity notice (in terms of writing)

being a crybaby in tags

[qucintly]

TEN Q’S

1. When are you usually online?

Um... in random intervals. However I am trying to be online more often. No schedule has been set as of yet.

2. What verses are you involved in?

AU wise? The only AU I’m involved in really is Genshin Impact. Mainly because the majority of my mutuals either play genshin muses or have genshin verses. The brainrot is real.

3. What is your biggest RP pet peeve?

Spam liking a post just to get the OP’s attention. Or spam following a blog of interest to get the owner’s attention. Like, we can see that you follow us. But we can also see who’s desperate for attention on the media. There’s a notification tag for a reason. Spamming my phone’s notifications with that method will get you blocked, no exceptions. If you want attention so badly make a “hot take” on twitter dot com and put your phone off silent.

...Anti-Rant wise, please don’t spam my notifications, especially personal blogs. It really messes up our reply drive.

4. Are you drawn to specific types of muses?

Honestly? Depending on the personality of the writer, I’m practically drawn to any muse. I’ll be honest that at first I was a little intimidated by the muses that express dark themes, merely because they’re very brave to explore such things ( including looking into irl looks of those themes ). But the more I’ve written in my entire life, the more I grow to become more confident in writing said themes. So like, anyone with dark themes or light themes is welcome in my book as long as you, the writer, isn’t being a piece of shit on the internet.

5. Are there reoccurring themes in your writing that people might not notice?

If there are reoccurring themes in my writing that isn’t noticed by the people, then those reoccurring themes aren’t noticed by me either. :D

6. What are your favourite RP trends?

Not intentionally copying the answer of the previous poster, but carrds look so pretty?? A majority of my mutuals create them with the most simplest yet badass aesthetic ever. I tried creating a carrd once but it’s just so complicated. Call me Techitis for nothing :’D.

7. What is your process for starting a new story with someone?

The first thing I look into is the personality of the other character, and see how it meshes with the personality of my character. This also applies to starting a new story with my own characters. The second thing I do is ask whatever is on their mind when it comes to interacting with my character, cause sometimes, they blow my mind with the potentialities that I never would have thought of. Basically, I explore the minds of other people through conversation and attempt to make those thoughts into reality, through writing. It’s a process..

8. How do you feel about duplicates?

Once again, not intentionally copying the answer of the previous poster, Resse is an OC of mine. I created her out of nowhere and I grew a heavy liking to her. Steal my concepts and I’ll steal your braincells. Steal the reference sheet/look my commission artist drew for me with pure dedication and exceptional prowess, I’ll break your fingers. But, I have always wanted to write with other muses with a detective aesthetic/base to see how they interact with Resse. So like, general detective muses are fine. But no Resse Harris 2.0s, okay?

9. How long have you been involved in roleplaying?

Ever siiiiiince 2015? Wow, it’s been a while. My first official RP blog was a fandomless OC that has been lost to the abyss. Kinda want to bring him back but at the same time I’m already suffocating in the amount of OCs I made throughout the years. God help me.

10. Is there a muse or verse you could write in, but haven’t?

Canon muse wise? My brain only runs on OCs, sorry. OC wise? I have been contemplating on writing one of my Splatoon OCs alongside my self insert for a while. But I haven’t gotten the uh... energy for making an entire new blog... yet

Verse wise? I’ve always been considering writing a Resident Evil Verse for Resse. RE has been a watch interest of mine, and given the supernatural life of Resse, it can be proved interesting to explore!

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[carmendeisystem]

🪢 I get so clingy... and so needy. Everytime I'm here without getting the affection I want from people, I inevitably get intrusive thoughts or start hurting. If it's my body or my mind... I already feel bad for leaving people so many messages if they don't reply for a while. Even with the people that are there, I just feel bad to ask. I'm just complaining all the time... how do the others find happiness in themselves?

Happiness... maybe it's because I don't really have anything I want to do outside of spending time with the people I like. Or... no. There are things I'd like to do. I want to exercise, go for walks and write... maybe listen to some music. The music works, but everything else takes so much energy I never get to do it. What's something only I can do, something only I want to do?

Maybe I can start thinking more about that... it's weird how I'm one of the few people who can talk consistently in our system but I still feel the least stable. My mood spirals down so easily.

[konkuurito]

i hate complaining and I'll delete this soon, mostly because i feel like regardless of the fact that people mean well, it's usually a turn-off for a lot of people to deal with someone talking about their mental health struggles on here without actually writing much

the truth is that i feel both so mentally and physically burnt out. my weight has increased a lot within almost the past two years because of my mental health struggles and also my chronic fatigue. which i didn't know I had at the time but now i do. it feels like my body constantly hurts and somedays all i have energy to do is sleep

i know part of getting better is making myself get up but especially with the physical job i work the only thing I want to do on my days off is sleep. and i should find another job yes, but i just got a car payment and i need to be able to pay it

next to that it feels so difficult to keep in contact with my friends right now because I only have the capacity to talk to one or two people regularly and i feel like most people wouldn't even notice if i wasn't here