#vex.sys

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Crazy how some things work out.

Our system collapsed a bit ago and we've been struggling to rebuild it for maybe a month now. Then, maybe an hour after the finale, we settled our system into one of the most stable forms we've ever had: the Worldport, with all of us here together, fronting by passing the title of Quixis between us. This is home, I think.

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Apparently I'm in the desert now :/

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Its my insys birthday today and last night the entire rest of the system rapid switched through so that they could all sign a birthday card for me! I love them all so much <3

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We lost a headmate who likes to bake by hand during our most recent system collapse. We now all experience a bone-deep urge to mix everything by hand. Wtf

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So we just finished a system poll where we all get three votes and the total number of votes is fucking 51. That's so incredibly irritating like, why???

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The problem with only having one person in the system who's willing to get rid of things is that when you have to clean shit up it always falls on them bc 90 of what needs to be cleaned up is sheer hoarding tendencies of the rest of the system.

That alter is me. I've been fronting for three days straight bc I'm the only one who can ever clean shit up. Guys please, just pick up after yourselves! It's not that hard I swear!

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The funny thing abt being a fictive-only system is that the only alters who can visualize us as a system dying are the ones who've already confronted permadeath in their sources and even then they're not great at it. Like, we as fictional characters had plot armour, which is something that we as alters in a real life body do not have, and it gets really fucky sometimes.

This is pretty much the "we don't have a life past the end of our story" kinda deal and is part of the reason we don't exist when we picture our own future. Fun times!

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The strangest part of being a system is the nebulous "i" cause, like, it can apply to the system when closeted, it can refer to a singular alter, or it can be used to reference the system before syscovery

Which gets really strange when it's like, the tiny little kid, yknow? Like that baby is "me" but not the same age, not the same gender, not the same name, not the same fucking person. But it's still "me". Despite the fact "i" didn't exist. Despite the fact that "me" means something totally different.

Theres literally no way to describe that feeling to somebody who's never experienced it before

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I have so much less of an attention span than literally all of the others (except maybe static) and its kind of funny.

Its also what I get for being a social media overlord in my past life (:

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God I hate being systemflux >:(

Every couple of months the system just empties and it's not even like we feel like a singlet, we're just left without any identity at all not feeling like any known member and unable to access the rest of the system. And the last couple of times we basically lost almost everyone who was around prior to the collapse and have to build everything back up from the beginning but we never stop missing our old members and just ughhh >:(

It usually happens whenever we start to get too used to just being a system too, which ducks. Our brain is like "oh, your gaining too much info abt the people I put in your brain? How about I get rid of them?" And I hate it so fucking much >:(

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Radio made like four posts simping for his boyfriend without once mentioning the fact that their boyfriend is named Static or that the two of them are introjects from Hazbin Hotel.

Theyre alastor and vox, specifically. Their ship name is radiostatic in canon.

These two are such simps that their chosen names are literally just their respective portions of their in-canon ship name, and this is something I need everyone to know about

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:D 👋🏻

🫂 - do you have a comfort item, song, or anything like that which you enjoy?

💘 - do you have a "theme song"/a song you think represents you well?

💫 - what's your headcount (if you know)?

🫂 - C: i don't have an object like this currently, but i really want to make a pair of horns that match the ones i have internally. (I: also our binder, a sweater, and a pair of flannel pants that is all of our go-to)

💘 - I: Monster (epic the musical) & Labour (paris paloma). The two songs we want to turn into Icarus cmvs, no surprise there lol

💫 - We have 24 total active headmates & 2 dormant ones, but of those 24, 8 are a part of the Margins System (we're the more active fronters) with the other 16 in the Worldport Crew! (both dormant alters are in the Worldport Crew). I (C) am in the Margins Sys, while I (Icarus or Sol) is in the Worldport Crew

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Being systemflux is terrifying because any given moment could be the last one of your existence, and you won't even know it, but sometime in the future whoever has taken your place will look back and wish they could've met you and that's the closest you'll ever get to existing again.

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Im half-dragon internally, and one of the exolimbs I have is a tail. Which is covered in acid, which wouldn't normally be a problem

If I was immune to my own damn acid!

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Yknow, radio was sure fronting earlier today and since he's a hazbin hotel fictive (alastor specfically) he swears so much more than the rest of us, so it's funny looking at his posts and being like "why did you decide to insert that word there? It's kinda unnecessary"

(It's also v validating cause we all have such different ways of speaking and interacting with the world, but it's mostly just funny)

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Its simping for my boyfriend hours rn <3