#who am i outside of this construct!! bc right now i feel like im 10 years old again wearing the costume of a 21 year old!!!!

[depresseddepot]

so like. after i realized i had adhd it felt like my adhd got worse bc i was seeing symptoms everywhere, but it was really just bc i was paying full attention to it for the first time. now that i know i have autism too, it's doing the same thing, where i feel like its getting worse and harder to manage so i'm going to have to get really good at acting really quickly or i'm going to have to figure out how to not have a mental breakdown when my masking isn't working like it's supposed to

[angel-deux-writes]

I don’t think I’ve ever talked about this On Here, but I really want to tell the story of the guy who put in my kitchen floors because it was terrifying

im putting it under a cut bc it’s probably not that long, but who knows.

(scrolled back up after i actually wrote it to confirm that it is in fact long)

Some backstory is that I was INCREDIBLY lucky and got my condo very cheap in a neighborhood I already knew I loved. The other unit I’d looked at was a full 30k over my budget, but this one was perfect because the owner hadn’t updated ANYTHING since it was built in 1985, so it was just...awful. Awful rugs, awful floors, awful walls. My dad is like...the dad who loves a project, so he was all “I can fix all of this except the floors!!! it’ll be great!!”, so I bought it. We hired a local company to do the floors, not wanting to go to Home Depot or whatever (Which i still support in theory, just......not this company lmao). Everything except the kitchen and bathroom was originally carpet. Hallways, stairs, every single room. And it was cheap industrial carpet, too. Like the kind in office buildings. The dude who did the carpet was like “what the fuck were they thinking???” 

Also, one of the carpets had a truly upsetting rusty stain, so. My guest bedroom might be haunted. 

Anyway, the carpet guy was great. He was the owner of the company, and he was older and very kind. I had my mom come over with me when he was doing the carpets, but I didn’t even need her there. He was cool. His son was in charge of the hardwood portion (I say “hardwood”. I mean, like, the cheapest laminate while still looking nice lmao). He was less great. He had a team of like 3 dudes and 1 lady who would show up and work, doing my office/dining room and upstairs hallway. I know carpet is easier, but the carpet guy took one day, and these guys took a week and a half. They messed up a few times, and it was kind of stressful, but overall it was okay. They had to redo all the subfloors, because condos built in 1985 were almost universally built in buckwild, impossible-to-explain ways, so it took forever. The hardwood guys were loud as hell, but they were nice! 

At one point, one of the nicest guys accidentally broke a few of my kitchen tiles while putting in the transition from the wood to the tile. I was cool with it, tbh, but he offered a discount on a new kitchen floor because, shocker, the subfloor under the broken tile was really jacked up, and it wouldn’t be as simple as taking a tile from under the fridge and replacing it. I was like, okay, cool! We set it up. 

I did not hear from them for four months. Which, I get it. It was a discounted job, so obviously they wanted to do full-price jobs first. I have no problem with that. The same hardwood guys came back to do the subfloor, and then they were like “okay [the owner’s son] will contact you about the tiles. That took about a week. Finally, I got a date. It was a Friday, a day when my sister was already working from home, so she was like “yeah, I can handle it.” She works in interior design, so she’s used to dealing with construction people, and she was REALLY useful when it came to talking down the son of the owner, who was like...every bad stereotype about contractors meshed with a used car salesman. 

So I’m at work the day the tiling is supposed happen. My sister is fine at first, texting me about how the son showed up with one single guy, and then left, so it was only the single guy working. She was annoyed like “it’s supposed to take one day, right? That’s what they said? There’s no way he’s finishing at this pace. Why are they making this guy do the whole thing by himself?”. She called him “nice, kind of cute, but a very slow worker”. I was like ‘well, if they have to come back tomorrow, whatever, that’s fine’.”

Around 10:30 she starts texting me increasingly insane shit. 

“He’s talking to himself downstairs? Maybe he’s on the phone”. 

“He keeps dropping stuff and yelling SHIT really loudly.”

“Someone just showed up with a bag, and he let them in, and they chatted in the kitchen for like ten minutes, and then the person left, and they didn’t take the bag with them”. 

“He’s standing outside using the tile cutter and SCREAMING whenever it’s on.”

“He’s out in the rain and shout-singing something while he’s cutting tile”

“He is BARKING LIKE A DOG TO THE TUNE OF THE RUGRATS THEME SONG CAN YOU PLEASE COME HOME”

I’m half convinced she’s making this shit up, but she’s uncomfortable so I tell my boss what’s going on and race home. When I get there, there’s a vaguely adam driver looking guy who seems nice enough. A little startled to see me, but we make pleasant conversation, I see that he’s not very far along, and then I go upstairs to see my sister. I brought her takeout as a treat, and we sit there for a while talking about normal things. Gradually, downstairs, the dude starts talking to himself. I’m thinking that’s still not THAT weird. Then he starts singing and clapping along. Okay, a BIT weird, but not terrible. I decide to go downstairs into the living room and play some Playstation. Like, maybe he thinks we can’t hear him upstairs and he’ll be more chill when i’m down there? NOPE! HE ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT! He does the barking thing again (and it is, in fact, the rugrats theme song), he’s working at a pace of about one tile per hour, and he starts singing a song that consists only of the word “bitch” over and over again. 

I’m texting my dad, freaking out, and he tries to get in contact with the owner or his son, but nobody’s answering the phone. My other sister and her friend are on their way for game night. My sister’s boyfriend should be home soon from work, but not soon enough. It is, at this point, 7 pm. There is absolutely no chance he’s getting these tiles done today. He’s not even halfway done. My kitchen is VERY SMALL, by the way, so this reasonably could have been done in a day with two people, but I suspect that because it was a discount job, we got the discount treatment. 

My other sister and her friend show up, and the guy is perfectly pleasant and normal to them. We all go upstairs into my sister’s room, and we sit there, waiting in silence for it to start again, hoping that maybe with more people in the house, he’ll be okay. 

NOPE! He starts singing the “bitch” song again. I distinctly remember my other sister whispering “I love this song” and pretending to groove, which was kind of funny but NOT THE TIME. I’m sitting on my sister’s bed clutching a camp axe like a maniac, because I’m like “we are going to be killed by this giant kylo ren asshole”. I’m still texting my dad, who’s like “if you need me to come over, I can, i’m out of work”, but at this point it’s almost 8 and I’m also thinking about my neighbors. Like, he can’t be here at night. He just can’t. He’s so loud even just doing regular tile things! 

I muster up LITERALLY EVERY IOTA OF COURAGE THAT I HAVE, and I head downstairs. I ask him when he’s planning on wrapping up, because I know there’s no way he’s going to finish tonight. He tells me it’ll probably take about two more hours. That is 1) absolutely not true and 2) not something I’m willing to deal with because I live in a condo with neighbors on either side of me, and one of my neighbors is a truck driver who gets up at like 4 am! So I explain that my friends and I have an obligation to get to, and I would love it if we could arrange for someone to continue the work tomorrow. He’s SUPER NICE ABOUT IT and is like “oh, okay, no problem!” He leaves. Just...walks into the rain. Leaves all his tools and his tile cutter. I move it inside because it was on my front porch and it is, again, raining. 

My sister, a Nancy Drew Game fiend, starts searching the entire downstairs and eventually finds the plastic bag that someone brought him. My other sister, who is a nurse in a hospital that primarily treats overdose patients, is like “yep, that’s drug residue for sure”. I’m like, okay, so he didn’t hurt any of us, and he was nice, just....high and weird. But it’s over now, so whatever. My dad says he’ll call the owner’s son the next day, and everything’s cool. He also says that he, my mom, and my brother will all come over to watch the football game at my house the next day just to be there (which...im less than thrilled about the football part, but sure). I also beg my friend to drive up from the Cape to pick up his hat that he left at my condo over the summer just so he can chill for a few hours in the morning. 

The next day, the same guy returns, with the owner’s son this time. The owner’s son is like “why did you only get this far along?” but otherwise doesn’t really say anything. The barking guy is TOTALLY FINE, totally polite. My friend lingers as long as he can, but there’s an ice storm coming, so he peaces out eventually. I’m alone for about an hour with the guy, and nothing happens. He’s quiet, even when the owner’s son peaces for a bit. My parents show up, we watch the football game, and nothing happens. I feel like A LUNATIC, because my dad is like “he seems fine now” and I’m like NO BUT YESTERDAY WAS TERRIFYING. 

Anyway, so that’s the story. I didn’t end up saying anything to the owner’s son, but my dad reamed him out a bit for sending only one person to do a job meant for two. And now every time I drive by that business I suppress a shudder, and sometimes the barking version of the Rugrats theme song still gets stuck in my head.

[queeranarchist]

uhhh every 5th q for the ask meme?

:O

5) What was the first time you suspected you were transgender?

uhhh first time i remember was when I cut my hair off - for an SPN Lucifer cosplay of all things - and was like hell yeah I look like a dude! Radical! and then was like oh that is not a very CisThought™️

10) What have your experiences with packing or wearing breast forms been?

you know i bought a pretty expensive packer and it was waaay too large despite being one of the smaller ones of that model - this was apparently a problem a lot of guys had and their were videos on how to cut it to make it fit but it cost a lot and i was too worried about ruining it - anyway i moved house three and a half times in six months and my stuff is currently in between two houses and I have No Idea where it is and in the back of my mind there is the constant fear that someone will find that dick 

15) What labels have you used before you’ve settled on your current set?

i’ve used pretty much every label sexuality wise bc attraction is weird. gender wise i ided as a trans man until last yearish and now im just like im queer in all senses

20) What do you wish you could have shared with your younger self about being trans?

prooobably a lot of gender abolitionist stuff like meets past self and just holds a reading group of Nobody Passes by Matt Sycamore - like i hate the transmed/truscum view point but i see that a lot of it is pushed by 15 year old trans guys and the whole wanting to be cis/as close to cis as possible and you can have pride in being LGB but not in being trans thing is pretty much how i experienced gender until last year where i was like time to make the Conscious effort to rework my thoughts, i didnt end up in the dysphoria discourse largely bc it wasnt a big thing when i first realised i was trans (lmao no trans issues were big things at that point) - in general i’d want to get myself to work on a more intersectional approach in terms of understanding that the gender binary is a western colonialist construct and that capitalism pushes queerphobia by wanting to minamalise community reliance and further their profit by pushing a nuclear child producing way of structuring relationships - basically get little me to turn all that angst and anger @ the system

25) What do you wish cis people understood?

that they arent the end goal, i detest the view they have that trans people should be glad to be told that they look like a “”””real”””” women/man - also that they dont need to understand, i dont give a flying fuck if they dont get how someone can identify differently to their assigned gender/be nonbinary/have a gender that changes, just use the right pronouns and name and be ya’know a decent person - and! that they dont need to know what “makes” someone trans and that that line of thinking veers dangerously towards eugenics

30) Who is the transgender person who has influenced you the most?

ahhh good question - i realised i was trans in a pre Caitlyn Jenner pre Orange is the New Black era so a lot of it was just me figuring out shit on my own - which gotta say wasnt necessarily a bad thing bc more visibility has also lead to more bulshit

I would probably say Matt Sycamore - the first book i read that was edited by her was Why are Faggots so Afraid of Faggots and like the queer radicalism and like anarchy from that helped me figure out and voice some of my disquiet with queer assimilation stuff and also the big We Won the marriage campaign queer stuff is Done mood that was 2017 after Australia’s same sex marriage plebiscite. her book Nobody Passes which focuses purely on gender stuff also follows a similar vein and its very very good

35) How do you feel your gender interacts with your race, disability, class, weight, etc. from the perspective of intersectionality?

outside of queer stuff i fit into a pretty privileged life, defs gonna say class played a major noticeable role in being able to get hormones despite having to go through a whole court process (pretty sure the government being the Worst to baby me is what made me an anarchist) and get top surgery pretty quickly once out of high school, my whiteness also provides a certain protection when you see the much higher rates of violence at trans POC, and I'm also able to access queer events and spaces without having to consider accessibility etc

40) How did/do you manage waiting to transition?

mmmm honestly at the time it was the worst and looking back on it i am still very angry and bitter at both my school and, you know, the government in general

i did the whole im trans use the right name and pronouns @ the school people (with my parents there so they couldnt use that as an excuse) about nine months before they started doing so AND this was also after my parents flat out ignoring that I was trans for months before that and i did not uuhhh deal well with any of that mentally At All. my school was pretty much like yll be bullied we cant as if every kid i interacted with didnt already know - and when they eventually did it wasnt a big deal with kids - i only heard second hand about some shit that was said about me which gotta admit was kinda laughable bc i had people i barely knew tell me what people in my grade had said and i was like….dont know who that is but Okay - i was too out of the gossip loop to have anything to be upset about 😂 also i had two (2) teachers in the entire school that used the correct pronouns despite me fully out for near three years by the time i left school tho i didnt actually recognise how bad that was for me until i left high school and was like ???? dont want to die all the time ?? what is this

medically was also bulshit bc the australian system used to have anyone under 18 have to go through court to get HRT, it took me nearly three years and was incredibly fucked and even tho the laws been changed now i am still ready to throw down with whoever implemented it in the first place even tho their probably old and close to death themselves

ANYWAY in terms of providing a better answer than i didnt and was v sad and angry for a v long time - i surrounded myself with queer people, i ventured into the city for some youth queer groups, went to a camp purely for young queer people, read a lot of books about trans people etc 

Ask me questions ~

http://queeranarchist.tumblr.com/post/183686207345/datgenderqueerboi-trans-ask-game-what-has

[keijae-archive]

92 truths

tagged by @ayytooru thank you!! this was lots of fun

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

LAST… [1] drink: barley tea [2] phone call: my mom who’s in korea rn [3] text message: rachel  [4] song you listened to: love paint by nu’est  [5] time you cried: literally yesterday lmao

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: nope [7] been cheated on: na [8] kissed someone and regretted it: nope [9] lost someone special: nope [10] been depressed: lol been?  [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] pale blue  [13] ash gray [14] forest green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yep [16] fallen out of love: nope [17] laughed until you cried: probably [18] found out someone was talking about you?: mhm [19] met someone who changed you: i mean every time i meet someone new i change my personality in front of them soo...? [20] found out who your true friends are: hm, yeah [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

GENERAL… [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like, well? a good quarter  [23] do you have any pets: i have a beta fish. and sometimes i dogsit.   [24] do you want to change your name: god, yes, since i was old enough to know my name   [25] what did you do for your last birthday: had a date w/ my mom and dinner w/ the fam  [26] what time did you wake up: 12 am  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: coming home from hc  [28] name something you cannot wait for: going to college and sgetting out of this state  [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: a little over a week ago  [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: myself [31] what are you listening to right now: nu’est’s album. stan nu’est. [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: no but ik a tim  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: the last friend i msg’d [34] most visited website: tumblr  [35] elementary: hornsman or something like that idk it was a different state, a different time [37] college: :) [38] hair colour: black [39] long or short hair: long

[40] do you have a crush on someone: yup [41] what do you like about yourself?: (???) i have really strong empathy 

[42] piercings: none

[43] blood type: i mean im probably a bc genetics  [44] nickname: henny [45] relationship status: that sock in the back of my drawer  

[46] zodiac sign: cancer [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: i usually don’t watch american tv but riverdale is pretty lit ay [49] tattoos: none, but i want so bad [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST… [51] surgery: nope [52] piercing: nope (never)  [53] best friend: idk anymore  [54] sport: volleyball [55] vacation: korea [56] pair of trainers: what are those. like pants? 

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: yogurt [58] drinking: barley tea [59] i’m about to: take a shower i feel gross [60] listening to: construction outside my house [61] waiting for: death! or summer break [62] want: motivation [63] get married: lmao u really t h i n k --? [64] career: (???!!!)

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: um, neither tbh  [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: older [70] nice arms or nice stomach: stomach 

[71] sensitive or loud: sensitive [72] hook up or relationship: relationship i guess [73] troublemaker or hesitant: usually hesitant, but sometimes i can b impulsive 

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? nope [75] drank hard liquor? nope [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? all the time [77] turned someone down: yes [78] sex on first date? nope [79] broken someone’s heart? not really? but maybe for like 5 min [80] had your own heart broken? nope [81] been arrested? nope [82] cried when someone died? like....... fiction wise? [83] fallen for a friend: uh no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? lmao [85] miracles? man i hope so  [86] love at first sight? nope [87] santa claus? nah [88] kiss on the first date? nah [89] angels? sure

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: i don’t really consider any of my friends as a best friend?? and no one really considers me theirs ..?  [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movie: dead poets society i will never get over it 

tagging:  since i feel like i always tag the same people, i’ll try tagging some new mutuals! @kuotarou , @queeniwaizumi, @honeynutobios, @matsinko, @yvuri, @akaaishii, and @toikawas​ but ofc u don’t have to do it if u don’t want to 

[whenismuna]

Hit me with the As to those Qs

dont say that again

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? maybe? idk well see but im hopeful :)2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? FUCK NO3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” that one scene in skam with vilde and magnus bye4: What’s something you really want right now? ice cream. always p much5: Are you afraid of falling in love? absolutely6: Do you like the beach? yeS7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? my dog8: What’s the background on your cell? my lock screen is delaney and emma holding cats and i love it and my home screen is my happy boy :)9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? fuck idk? my bed, my bed at moms, michelles, and then idk???10: Do you like your phone? yeah its nice11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? fuck no12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? lol this girl that never texted back13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? rottie all the way loml14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emo15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? depends but almost always zoo16: Are you tired? generally17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? alphabetical first? since june18: Are they a relative? camp relative19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? lmao nope20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? the day after we kissed21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? yes @ any member of muna hmu ;)22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? tbh... it depends i really dont know23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? 224: Is there a certain quote you live by? do no harm but take no shit25: What’s on your mind? so many26: Do you have any tattoos? soon27: What is your favorite color? deep blue or black28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? who knows tbh29: Who are you texting? maximilian30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? nope31:Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? constantly32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yea33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? yea34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? yea :) it was me :)35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? i wouldnt be surprised36: Were you single on Valentines Day? yep37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? nope38: What do your friends call you? stephanie or steph or sentient tree if ur michelle39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? probably idk40: Have you ever cried over a text? omg so many times41: Where’s your last bruise located? i dont think i have one42: What is it from? i don t have one43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? always44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? my mom45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? my hightops that i wear like every day46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? yea47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? consider this: i am48: Do you make supper for your family? nope but i make it for myself49: Does your bedroom have a door? yea50: Top 3 web-pages? at the moment probably google docs, youtube and tumblr (love writing papers)51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? yea52: Does anything on your body hurt? yea :/53: Are goodbyes hard for you? depends54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? water55: How is your hair? short56: What do you usually do first in the morning? check my notifications57: Do you think two people can last forever? absolutely58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? i was 859: Green or purple grapes? depends60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? idk but the last time i gave a big huG WAS WITH MUNA AND THEY SAID I GIVE GOOD HUGS AND IM CRYING FUC61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?i wish i were at a muna concert gd62: When will be the next time you text someone? in like 2 seconds when i reply to the gc63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? hopefully asleep, but realistically just laying in my bed64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. being woken up by the road construction outside65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? yea66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? michelle and my happy boys :)67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? “god i wish i were still at the muna concert”69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? constantly70: How many windows are open on your computer? like 20 minutes ago i had like 5 or 6 but now i have 4 bc i closed one and minimized another (i love writing papers)71: How many fingers do you have? 1072: What is your ringtone? idk probably the default apple ringtone73: How old will you be in 5 months? 1974: Where is your Mum right now? probably at home with my dog :(75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? lots of reasons76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? no :(77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? most78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? unfortunately79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? he doesnt go by mike but80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? yea81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? so many tbh82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? unfortuantely, no83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? idk if she replies maybe i will84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? thats not something i would do. if im drunk with anyone its michelle and allison and were ploppin over to get cinnamon rolls85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? depends86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? i saved michelles life (again)87: Who was your last received call from? mom88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? depends.... if i did i would have that guilt with me for the rest of my life tho89: What is something you wish you had more of? friends tbh90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? again. constantly.91: Do you sleep with your window open? my windows dont even open92: Do you get along with girls? how tf do u expect my gay ass to survive if i dont get along with girls93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? idk maybe94: Does sex mean love? FUCK NO95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? depends96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? nop97: Did you sleep alone this week? yeah :/98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? michelle and my happy boys!99: Do you believe in love at first sight? ehhhhhhhhhh100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? as i told philip, i dont really make pinky promises so i have no idea???

[sphiggo]

Physical appearance:

I have blond hair.(not really but it passes as blonde in here) My current hair color is not my natural hair color. I have curly hair. I have green eyes. I have red hair. I have natural highlights. I am black. I have lots of freckles. My nails are usually painted. I wear a lot of eye make-up. I have bangs. I have short hair. I wear a lot of pink.

Belongings:

I own a hair straightener. I have my own car. I have posters on my walls. I have a pet. I own a pair of roller skates or blades. I have lots of bobby pins. I own at least four bottles of perfume. I have a lot of jewelry I never wear. I own at least 5 pairs of jeans. I own Converse. I own a pair of high heels. I own a leather jacket.

Family:

I have a step-relative. I am adopted. My biological parents are married to each other. I am an only child. At least one of my great-grandparents is still alive. All of my grandparents are still alive. I am related to someone famous. I have a sibling who is in college I am a twin or a triplet. I have a sibling who is married. I have a sibling who is less than five years old. I have more than one sibling. I see my cousins often.

Relationship:

I am married. I am engaged. I have been proposed to. I have never been in a serious relationship. I have been asked out on a date. I have been cheated on. I am asexual. I want to get married someday. I want to have kids someday. I have children. I have made out with someone against a wall.

Health:

I am lactose intolerant. I have a food allergy. Someone in my family has died of cancer. I have had surgery. I have scoliosis. I take/took anti-depressants. I have attempted suicide. I have been in the hospital in the past year. I have broken a bone. I’ve had strep throat. I don’t drink enough water. I exercise for more than 10 hours a week. I wear glasses and/or contacts.

Friendship:

I have a best friend. I am used to be friends with a pair of twins.  I am close friends with at least one of my neighbors. I have at least one friend who lives in a different country.

Experiences:

I have had a near-death experience. The police have been summoned to my house. I have been nearly run over by some sort of large vehicle. I have been snorkeling. I have been to at least 2 weddings. I have been to at least 2 funerals. I have been to an overnight summer camp. I have been on a train. I have lived in a different country. I have spent the night in a motel. I have written a novel. I have been zip-lining. I have been to a wedding or funeral outside of my home country. I have failed a class. I have cut class. I have gotten a speeding ticket. I have gotten a parking ticket. I have been in a car crash. I have been sent to the principal’s office. I have been arrested. I have been drunk. I have taken a ballet class. I have driven a car. I have been on an upside-down roller coaster. I have gone to school or work after a sleepless night. I have flown in a hot-air balloon.   I have spent more than 48 hours without sleep. I have been in a talent show. I have read Sherlock Holmes. I have read all of the Harry Potter books. I have seen all of the Harry Potter movies. I saw the last Harry Potter movie in theaters. I have thrown up on a plane. I have worn my pajamas out in public. I have worn my hair in a fishtail braid. I have never been trick-or-treating. I have posted a video on YouTube. I have seen an episode of Supernatural. I have worn colored contacts before. I have tried out for a sports team. I have auditioned for a play. I have been in a school play. I have had a main role in a school play.

Personal:

I have a job. I am afraid of heights. I am not religious. I live in an apartment. I am extremely familiar with jet lag. I want to change my name. My first name ends with the letter “I.” I don’t get nervous before making a presentation. I have more than one citizenship. I was born in a city. I run a video blog. I know what I want to do with my life. I am insecure about my voice. I worry a lot about my future.

Education:

I am a student. I go to a private school. I have my Master’s degree. I have taken a college-level class while in high school. I have graduated from high school.

Travel:

I have been to a third-world country. I have been to the Carribean. I have been to Boston. I have visited a college. I have been to Florida. I have been to New York City. I have visited another country. I have been to Egypt.

Skills:

I am fluent in more than one language.(lies...) I have read a book in another language. I can braid hair. I can do a cartwheel. I can do a handstand underwater.

Interests:

I play Skyrim. I play Minecraft. I like country music. I like to read fanfiction. I watch Doctor Who. I enjoy hiking. I run track. I like cooking shows. I like chick flicks. I love poetry. I have written a song. I am interested in cinematography.

Likes and Dislikes:

I like lobster. I like strawberries. I hate making my bed. I enjoy science fiction. I like roller coasters. I like watermelon. I like going back-to-school shopping.

Habits:

I go to the movies at least once a month. I continuously bite my nails. I have a habit of biting my lip. I tap my foot when I’m nervous. I have a paper calendar on my wall. I often have to replace my earbuds.

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Basics

I am male I am female I am neither male or female (i am uhhhhHHHHH) I am a under the age of 18 I am 18 or older I am straight I am gay or lesbian I am bisexual or pansexual I am trans

Friendship

I have two or more friends I have one friend I have no friends I have a best friend I am close with my friend(s) I spend a lot of time with friends I have a crush on a friend I hate a friend I wish I had fewer friends I wish I had more friends

Relationships

I am single I am in a relationship I am married I am a virgin (virginity is a social construct biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch) I often date I prefer to date extroverted people I prefer to date people who are like me I prefer to date people who are unlike me I take relationships very seriously I have high standards (id like to date myself lol bye)

Negativity

I have/had depression I have cried myself to sleep I have/had anxiety I am often lonely I keep a lot of emotions inside I am scared of talking to people I want to talk more to I have/had an eating disorder(i binge eat like an animal bro does it count) I have low self-esteem I often feel I embarrass myself I feel people don’t take me seriously I am quickly jealous I feel people want me to be someone/something I’m not I have experienced discrimination

Positivity

I have become a better person I have gotten out of a bad period of time I am confident I am looking forward to something I have enjoyed myself over the past week I have met a famous person I consider myself a kindhearted person I am currently feeling relaxed and comfortable I appreciate the little things in life I have nobody in my life whom I hate I have achieved something large this year I am part of a religion that brings me peace I have a movie/game/song which cheers me up

I…

…get scared from watching horror movies …play a sport …read a lot of books …have allergies …am a feminist (well technically) …believe in love at first sight …own an instrument …can draw …am listening to music right now …value romance and friendship equally …have sneaked out of the house …am outgoing …respect people’s comfort zones and personal space …am deaf …spend money on a daily basis …want to write a book …can ride a horse …am asexual …put my hands over my face when I’m flattered …like the colors pink and yellow …own an xbox …shop at least once a week …have a drivers license …drink alcoholic beverages …get scared by unsettling imagery and screamers …eat fast food at least twice a week (im recovering from my trashy eating habits :’))))

Likes and Dislikes

I like parties I dislike parties I like perfume I dislike perfume I like “so bad it’s good” movies I dislike “so bad it’s good movies” I like playing video games I dislike playing video games I like chocolate I dislike chocolate I like having a busy schedule I dislike having a busy schedule I like laughing at my own jokes I dislike laughing at my own jokes I like compliments I dislike compliments I like heavy metal music I dislike heavy metal music I like snow I dislike snow I like taking walks with someone I dislike taking walks with someone I like people who aren’t very talkative I dislike people who aren’t very talkative

AND YET ANOTHER ONE :):):):):

1. State your name: Sare 2. State the name that your parents almost named you:  Rana, my sister wanted to name me Minnoş which is a fucking pet cat name 3. Which of your relatives do you get along with the most? Uhhhhhhhhhhh 4. What was your first job? ive never had a job 5. Did anything embarrassing happen this week? i dont really remember 6.Do you miss your ex? i dont have an ex to start with alksdfj 7. White chocolate or dark chocolate? barf 8. Do people praise you for your looks? Family&friends doesnt count, they are delusional 9. What is your favorite color of clothing to wear? Blue, Green, Orange, Yellow??? Black, Gray, White??? as long as its not a disgusting warm color i would wear it 10. How do you wear your makeup? i dont wear make up i only wear face paints time to time (to humiliate myself bc why not) 11. What are some of your nicknames? Sarişa, Saroo, Saruhan 12. How many bedrooms are in your house? 2 13. How many bathrooms? 3 14. Do you have a job? no 15. Do you have a car? nay 16. Do you work out every week? yes kinda 17. Did you brush your teeth this morning? Yeah im not an animal thanks 18. Have you ever kissed someone you never saw again? Probably their hand bc kissing the hands of elderly is a strict custom here but otherwise ew no 19. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh kinda 20. What kind of bathing suit do you wear? one piece 21. Do you like your eyes? kind of 22. Do you think you are pretty? nah 23. Who was the last person you talked to in person? my sister probably 24. How much money is in your checking account? i say im poor but actually being asocial comes with its perks, i have money but i dont have anything to spend it on 25. Are you single? yes 26. Do you want kids? Ew no 27. Tell me what your back pack looks like: like a backpack, navy background has white&orange&another color i cant remember monkey silhouettes on it 29. Last movie you saw in theaters: it