#will never get over Yoongi quoting Boys Over Flowers for Jimin

[thoughts-on-bangtan]

This isn’t really an ask but I wanted to share something I was thinking about with you guys who show your sincere love/admiration for BTS in all you post —

Watching the past BTS Run episodes and the behind videos makes me feel a certain way not only because we get to see the boys relax and have fun (even if they get frustrated a bit haha *looking at HS and JM*), but also because I wonder how often they got to play around and do these kinds of things during the age most people do? I’d say teens and early-20s is the age when we do silly things like play mini games with friends, go to amusement parks for the first time, take a stab at cooking — and yet they were working their hardest and truly shedding blood, sweat, and tears during that time (thinking about JK makes me incredibly soft because he really started young). This show really just allows them to have fun. And it’s frustrating to see that others called the show terrible and said it was something the boys were forced to do and didn’t truly enjoy (the article saying otherwise was a blessing).

Watching “special guests” also be on the show I think highlights this feeling (of them enjoying doing these kinds of things) even more! You can see the excited ness and almost shy manners when they have others on (the voice acting, T1, and recent cooking ep come to mind). I’m looking forward to future episodes! Are there any things/games/themes you’d like to see the boys do on a BTS Run episode?

(Ah, sorry, I guess there is an ask — only if you two wish to answer it!)(Catch me listening to Young Forever now in my feels 😭)

I’ve been sitting on this ask forever and I’m really sorry for that! Especially since it’s such a good one, so thank you so much for sending it in. Maybe that’s why it took me so long, since I kind of wanted to think about it a little and offer something (hopefully) good as response.

RUN certainly offers them a bit of time in their schedules to just be silly together, play mini games and other things they normally wouldn’t really be able to do in their own time, like the zombie game episode or try a flower class. In one of the episodes of Break the Silence Yoongi spoke about how things that are mundane for us are special to them since they don’t get to do them without putting thought into how to pull it off; Seokjin spoke about how while his friends said that he’ll never have to worry about rent, he argued that while that may be true, they will never have to worry about something as trivial as walking down the street, or in one of the Bring the Soul (if I remember currently) episodes where Seokjin was apologetic about wanting to visit the zoo in Berlin since it meant that he had to take so many people with him since they were abroad, though it’s less of an issue while they’re in Korea it seems.

It’s curious how different that experience is for the members though, I mean, just look at their vacation in 2019 and how different it went for Namjoon and Jimin. While Jimin was quickly discovered and followed in Paris and Russia, Namjoon toured through Europe in a way that while ARMY from the respective countries knew about it, they kept it so low key everyone else had no idea until Namjoon posted about it himself. On the other hand, except for their finishing trip, we have no idea what Yoongi did during their vacation, or Hobi besides his CNS collab.

But, generally, it’s rather clear that none of the members would be able to just show up at Everland (an amusement park in Korea, the place where they filmed the America’s Got Talent performance of Dynamite) and have a good time without immediately being spotted, or having to heavily rely on disguises (and likely still worry about it not being enough and what would happen if they were discovered, therefore defeating the entire point of going to a place like that in the first place).

There are two sides to every medal. While yes they had and continue to have to give up on certain things, experiences and freedoms that seem so normal to the average person, something we don’t even have to think about much or can just do whenever we want (like going to the cinema at peak hours or go to McDonald’s (even one of the TXT members couldn’t do that without pictures being secretly taken of him and posted on sns and TXT isn’t nearly as famous as BTS)), they also gain a lot in terms of money but also experiences no one but them will have in such a way. They get to live their dream of being artists, of giving giant concerts all across the globe, of sharing their music with millions of people and bringing us happiness and comfort when we need it most.

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In one of the episodes of Bring the Soul Tae spoke about how they had the opportunities to go higher quicker, but they refused, wanted to do things their own way in their own time. It isn’t like they’ve lost control of their lives, like they wouldn’t be able to do things if they truly wanted—after all in the Bring the Soul episode where Seokjin went to the Zoo, Hobi could also walk around in the area close to the arena where they performed largely without being bothered (which might be due to his heavy disguise and security, but you get the point)—but there are limitations, and in a way, it really is a shame, but at the end of the day, many of these things are ones they’ll still be able to do whenever their fame will calm down, or fade away one day in the future. Cinemas and flower classes and amusement parks won’t just disappear, and they are certainly things you can still do once you’re thirty or forty years old, or even older than that.

But, going back to RUN, the show certainly offers them the opportunity to not have to wait until their fame passes, gives them a chance to experience and try things while also sharing that with us, work and pleasure at once. Though it’s clear that perhaps filming episodes isn’t always at the top of their priorities and I can imagine there are things they’d sometimes rather do—I mean episodes that we’ve seen being filmed in hotel rooms between concerts where I’m sure they’d rather spend the day relaxing, though they likely still prefer filming RUN over giving yet another boring and mindless interview in English, since let’s be honest, those aren’t…great, usually.

When it comes to guests on RUN, be it in form of people like the T1 members or instructors like the tennis players or the auntie teaching them how to make kimchi, it’s always so funny to me to see how humble they are about their own fame, how they get all shy as though they are meeting someone exceedingly famous instead of them being the most famous people in any room they enter. Looking at how they speak of their goals and achievements, it’s easy to see though that they’ve carefully worked on not allowing their fame to get to their heads, to remain grounded and as connected to reality as possible despite being them and how different their lives are from those of normal people. I mean, how many of us can say they were mobbed while trying to buy an iPad?

It's also so beautiful and remarkable to me how people who have met them spoke about them, like Isaac the florist who spoke about how interested they all were in the flowers and truly participated and listened, that they were extremely friendly, kind and polite, and if that doesn’t sound like Bangtan, I don’t know what does. I think this is also one of the reasons why they managed to get to where they are now, why they are so strong as a group, why they still enjoy spending time together, still manage to get even closer and deepen their friendships even after a decade has passed—they’ve remained human despite everything they’ve gone through, despite the heights they keep on reaching, despite all the awards and achievements, the number ones and sold out tours.

Tae said the following about V and his relation to Kim Taehyung in Break the Silence: Persona (the movie):

I think V can show parts of Kim Taehyung and parts of V, but Kim Taehyung can’t show V. Kim Taehyung is Kim Taehyung. Kim Taehyung is someone who’s still filled with a lot of curiosity and he’s inquisitive about a lot of things. There are so many things he wants to do. Also I think there’s so many things he is curious about.

This is the important stuff, and while I don’t have such quotes for the other members, I’m sure it’s true for them as well. Even after all this time Tae is still curious about the world, still has things he’d like to do, he’s still himself even while he stands on stage as V, hasn’t lost himself to the stage persona and the fame. We know Namjoon had a whole crisis about where RM ends and Kim Namjoon begins, and if they really are two separate things, if Namjoon even still exists or if RM has taken over his personality. I’m sure all of them had their respective moment of trying to determine who they are as people, who they are as artists, and who they want to be when they look in the mirror, how to not lose the person below the persona. We’ve also had Jungkook question his worth outside of being a BTS member, something I’m sure all of them also experienced in one way or another since it seems like such an inevitable question to ask yourself after you’ve been part of a group for so long, and yet despite it all, they all still want to stay together as BTS for as long as they can, despite mixtapes and thoughts of wanting to at least be able/confident enough to lead a concert on their own (Jungkook BE Weverse interview).

RUN gives them a chance to be them, to have fun, to be silly, to not have to constantly be on guard, to have fun in an environment where they can feel safe and are surrounded by people who have been with them for a long time and have their best interest in mind as well. There was a whole Weverse Magazine article about it, which I also wrote a post about. And yet there are people who want to take this away from them because they don’t like it while disregarding what BTS themselves want. I won’t call them ARMY since most of them are solos/akgae/mantis, and those are anything but ARMY, they’re not even fans of the one member they claim to stan, are merely caricatures of “fans” who want to “save” them, or rather take control of their lives so BTS would act exactly how they want them to. It’s obsessive and wrong, and it crosses every line and boundary of what it means to be anyone’s fan. As fans it isn’t our job to decide what is and isn’t good for their careers. We don’t know anything about the industry, while they’ve been in it since 2010, and we know nothing about their contracts or what happens behind the scenes.

As long as they are happy and have fun, who are we to question it? I don’t know about you but Bangtan have looked nothing but happy and like they were having a good time in the last couple of episodes, even when they were frustrated because they couldn’t pass a game. After all learning tennis properly and over a longer period of time was their own idea, not anyone else’s, but that’s something those people don’t want to hear anything about or will just twist somehow to fit their narrative. It truly is a shame, but also, it’s their loss if they’d rather make themselves miserable than spend forty minutes laughing along with Bangtan as they’re trying to play the harmonica or trying to cook something with less than stellar cooking skills.

As for something I’d want to see them do on RUN, that’s tricky since there’s so much they’ve already done, but something that comes to mind would be even something as silly as sitting them down and having them try to recreate all the members, or one they chose at random, in The Sims 4. It could be hilarious, and we could see how differently they’d tackle something like it. Or have them decorate a house in Sims, which would be especially interesting with our resident lighting fixtures enthusiast Yoongi. Or maybe something to do with painting, like them attending a class or just attempting to draw the same object or person. (A2: maybe given them a wall and spray cans and have them do graffiti or a mural, or have them do each other’s hair and makeup (taking it serious, of course) for a photoshoot or something like that) Or maybe a Bangtan book club where they’d discuss the same book since it would be so interesting to see what different things each of the members would find in a book and their opinions etc.

The possibilities are endless and just like you I can’t wait to see what the future episodes of RUN will have, and especially the tennis match we’ll see in next week’s episode.

[youarejesting]

Femme: 26

[MASTERLIST]

Summary: The year is now 3019. Women’s population was plummeting. Femme Industries providing cryogenically frozen females to compatible applicants. Using computer analysis and algorithms to match a femme to her male applicants. It is common for Femme’s to match with multiple applicants. When you match with seven handsome young men, it is a challenge. But you love a challenge.

Pairing: BTS - OT7 x Reader,

Starring: Introducing BlackPink

Rating: Fluff so far

Warnings: none

Length: 1.1k words

Announcement: Thank you to everyone your responses are amazing.

Work was busy as it was particularly hot today. You were serving customers and making many different creations of desserts, under the watchful eye of your boss. Looking up to take the next order, eyes widening. It was a group of Young ladies escorted by a body guard. They each were beautiful and had and you grinned leaning out of the van. "Hello hi, my name is Y/N" waving your hand enthusiastically with a bright smile.

“Hello, I am Jisoo” she replied automatically. They all looked up surprised looking over you and all glancing at your collar. The first you noticed was like an angel her eyes a very pretty shape, and her eyebrows are elegantly shaped.

"Wow hi I’m Lisa, you are a femme right, cause of your” She gestured to her neck, she had charisma. She had long arms and legs with big eyes, they were really round and cute that complimented her smile.

“I have never seen one working before" She smiled elegantly. She’s tall and slim, she looked like she was a bit taller than Lisa. She looks cute and very skinny, but it suited to her “Ah my name is Rose and this is Jennie”

She had gestured to the young female next to her. Jennie’s cheeks looked very squishy. Her face shape was so pretty. Her squishy cheeks and gummy smile reminded you of Jimin and Yoongi.

"You don't have a collar?" You asked confused touching the velvet collar around your neck, you felt a little guilty for being proud to wear it. You knew how degrading it seemed but you likened it to a wedding ring and smiled.

"We are the children of the femme project" Noticing your confused expression, Lisa explained "Well our mum’s were Femmes and they had us, with their partners and we are allowed to basically live a normal life. And just like you we have the choice whether we want to be frozen"

"Ah yeah, for me it seemed like an amazing opportunity to see the world develop and to find the perfect one but I got seven perfect guys. Not only that the earth is much better, really everything is so much cleaned now and the park is my favorite place. When I first saw it I was in awe the beautiful tall trees and vines. I can’t help but walk through the park and see both the hydroponic systems and the traditional gardens. The hybrid trees and flowers that light up at night, the air is just so fresh here"

You exchanged names and numbers, and gave them their ice cream even giving one to their body guard who seemed to appreciate the gesture. Smiling relieved as the afternoon began cooling off. Today you were making a honey comb flavored ice cream, it was a lot of fun talking with your boss and making ice cream with him. “What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?” You asked him curiously.

“I like vanilla” he smiled and then smirked “My wife she enjoyed Turkish delight flavor, but it didn’t sell as much as we expected so I use to make it especially for her. I miss making it and watching her get excited” He frowned after trying your ice cream.

You tried it as well blanching feeling the wave of shame. "I ruined it" He told you to start again and helped guide you through it. The whole time he asked you what was happening at home with you and the boys. Explaining that Jimin had gone home to see his family made you feel like you were missing a limb. He told you to use this as a chance to grow closer to the others and to embrace and express your feelings. You were nervous and tried to follow him and his recipe exactly.

You had unconsciously continued talking, telling him everything you were dwelling on. This included the uncharted territory of intimacy, he was quiet letting you talk and prompted you to continue and even answer some of the questions yourself. As you finished the recipe you both tried the new batch. The flavor was perfect sweet and creamy.

He touched your shoulder "A man is great not because he hasn't failed; but because failure hasn't stopped him"

"Confucius" Recognizing the quote, you felt like you had overcome a hurdle and it was almost therapeutic there were things that were weighing on your mind that you didn’t realize. "He is my favorite philosopher his ideas are so pleasant and thoughtful and even witty"

"He was my favorite too" he smiled looking younger again, you smiled the two of you sat in the shade by the van it was a few minutes before you would pack up and ate you continued talking each with a small cone of ice cream. Asking him why he chose ice cream.

"Well my wife loved it dearly and I went out and I studied how to make ice cream, to make her happy. We were a group of five, I loved my four brothers and we made sure our Femme was happy and loved. Altogether we had seven children all are older now and living their lives happily one of my girls got married and has children of her own. My brothers are gone now as my dear wife and I am the only one left.”

You felt the familiar burn in your throat and sniffled, the thought of anyone being left behind was devastating. “But, I am patiently waiting, I know they are all happy in spirit and they watch over me, so I will work hard until it is my turn to join them. I am spending my time preparing everything for my children so they are all ready for when I go”

“Darling?” Seokjin called and Namjoon stood beside him both boys in their suits waving at you as they headed down the path “Is it too late to get an ice cream?”

“What would you like?” you raced inside placing your cone into the holder and made them each a cone they paid you despite the complaints from your boss. Resuming eating the four of you spoke about work and the two boys helped pack away the umbrellas and the tables and chairs into the van.

Jungkook turned up and smiled at his hyung’s and the old man watched you all. He spoke to Namjoon the two glanced at you as you were playing a game with Jungkook on the pavement. “Y/N”

“Moon Inshikkie seonsaeng-nim” you called back, skipping to his side and he handed you the new tub of ice cream and a fancy envelope with your pay inside and you grinned “Oh thank you, I will continue to work hard”

“You have a good evening” He tipped his hat and went headed to his now fully packed van and you paused walking away and turned to him smiling.

“Moon Inshikkie Seonsaeng-nim, Tomorrow, teach me how to make the Turkish Delight Ice cream” You waved your arms back and forth in goodbye to your boss who laughed and nodded waving back, before climbing in and driving off.

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part 20 : waking up slow | loser baby drabble yn and yoongi's christmas break

"oh all my nights taste like gold. yeah when i'm with you it's like everything glows, & all my days we can lay low. yeah when we're waking up we're waking up slow."

"Really, Yoongi?" yn said turning the her phone to show yoongi his own instagram post with the stupid caption that would be very easily misinterpreted by everyone but them. yoongi couldn't help but laugh the sound making yn smile to herself even though she was trying her best to be fake mad.

"I don't see what's wrong with the caption, I thought your breasts were great so I wanted to post my appreciation." yn couldn't help but laugh at the childish joke. this was how they'd spent most of their time since christmas break started, making childish jokes and abusing the fact that they were mostly alone in the school besides the handful of students and staff that stayed back as well.

after dinner yn and yoongi went back to her dorm, something that had become a routine for them since her roommate had gone home and his decided to stay this year. yn sat at her desk, picking up a book while yoongi plopped himself down on her bed, playing on his phone. The two sat in comfortable silence for a while until yoongi got bored with the lack of updates on his socials. yoongi found himself watching yn, fully engulfed in her book.

during their time together yoongi had started to come to terms with his feelings for yn, the only problem being that he wasn't entirely sure of how she felt. every now and then there would be a moment that yn's eyes would linger on him a little longer than necessary, or she'd lay her head on his shoulder, or she’d grab his hand for no particular reason and in those moments he would think maybe she felt the same. then he'd remind himself that she acts that way with all of her close friends and she avidly denies any feelings for them.

"Are you going to keep staring at me all night or are you going to tell me what's on your mind?" yn asked raising her brows but not taking her eyes off her book. she looked so hot when she did things like that.

"Oh I was just, I um," yoongi stuttered for a reply sighing when yn looked up at him from behind her book with a small smirk on her face. he stared for a minute before he got an idea. "Can I show you something?"

"Depends, what is it?" yn asked, her skeptical gaze not faltering.

"Well it's a surprise."

"If you're trying to have sex with me Yoongi you're going to have to do a better job at convincing me. I am not just going to give up my special flower to anyone." yn joked making yoongi roll his eyes at her annoying antics.

"Please, I think we both know that special flower was stomped a while ago." he fired back laughing at yn's feigned shock.

"I have you know I am thirty four percent a virgin." she said.

"How can you be thirty four percent a- on second thought, I don’t want to know. Will you come or not?" yoongi asked, almost immediately regretting his wording.

"Well that depends on your performance, Min." yn said barely missing a beat. yoongi was trying his best not to think about anything like that with yn but their tendency to make less than appropriate jokes with each other didn't make that easy.

"Have I ever told you that I despise you?" yn laughed at how obviously annoyed yoongi was with her before finally putting her book down.

"Come on lover boy, what's the surprise?" yoongi couldn't stop his eyes from rolling to the back of his head in utter annoyance. the kind of annoyance that comes when you like someone so much that it's genuinely irritating. yoongi's frustration was short lived as yn's hand finding his and yanking him up from her bed literally pulled him from his thoughts.

"You don't even know where we're going." yoongi reminded the girl who was currently dragging him down the hall through the astus dormitory.

"Then lead the way, sir." yn said slowing down but not taking her hand away from yoongi's. he tried not to think into it too much. he'd seen her holding hands with jimin and jeongguk many times and even taehyung on some occasions, it didn't mean anything more than she was comfortable with him. shaking those thoughts away yoongi took the lead, pulling her down the hall and towards his favorite spot in the whole school. "Um Yoon, what are we doing on the roof?"

"Well, as you know, whenever I first started school here people weren't as quick to befriend me as you were." yoongi started, a soft smile finding yn's face at his words. she did wonder how no one until now had given him a chance, since being here yn had made quite a few new friends but yoongi was by far the one person she really felt like understood her. "So when I needed to get away from all of that I would come here, I guess it was a hiding spot for me and I wanted to share it with you because you were the first person here that didn’t make me want to run and hide."

"Oh." to say yn was caught off guard was an understatement. she wasn't completely blind to the shift in their friendship over the last few weeks, it was clear to her that yoongi was starting to really open up to her as a friend but she never expected him to ever say anything like that. "You know, I don't know if I ever properly thanked you for how much your friendship means to me. I've never really had someone that made me feel like they understand me, even though Jeongguk always tried it wasn't the same with him. He was likable and so talented. On top of that he had his parents that he came home to every day even though they had their own issues as a family they were one, a family."

"I may not ever be able to relate to you when it comes to losing your parents like that, I know dysfunction though. My parents are divorced, I grew up with my mom who wholeheartedly loves me but she and I were just never as close as my dad and I. My dad is the person I look up to most in this world but even he has his faults. He was constantly making his feuds mine, hence the terrible relationship with my cousin. As for our friendship, there's no need to thank me. My actions weren't entirely selfless, when I saw you in the same position I had been in for five years I knew it was my chance to actually have a friend." yoongi and yn sat together on the rooftop, spilling stories from their childhoods. they talked about everything from their worst times to their best. their evening was filled with laughter and even a few shed tears.

"You know, I don't usually like to talk about myself, or my family. It makes me feel weird and uncomfortable, but I like talking to you, a lot. You make me feel like I'm home and I've never really felt that way about a person before." yoongi confessed bringing a fond smile to yn's face because she felt the exact same way. over the break yn had noticed a change between she and yoongi though she wasn't certain of what it was. in that moment, with this warm feeling in her chest she was pretty certain.

"When we were kids and I realized that Jeongguk was gay, I wondered what that meant for me, as selfish as that sounds. I can't say I ever really had a crush on him but I also never really thought about opening up to anyone else until then. When I realized that one day I'd have to tell someone everything about me, that I'd have to find another person that could accept my baggage, I was so terrified. Opening up like that, it's never been easy for me. With you, I honestly don't even think twice about it." yn had never really admitted any of this out loud to anyone, but what she said was the truth. with yoongi, as cheesy as it sounded, it came easy. but this was yn, she couldn't let any serious moment end without a joke "And I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now."

yoongi's laughter surrounded her. it was a shitty joke, a quote from a cheesy old song but it was her. yoongi had started falling for her hard, and with their laughter blending together, her eyes nearly hidden from how big her smile was he knew he had to tell her.

"You're ridiculous and I know there will never be a moment of seriousness between us, like, ever. But god, I like you so much. I think I've liked you for a while now but I was too confused and scared to admit it." even though she wasn't exactly caught off guard by the confession it still took her breath away. "Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean, yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen."

"You're an idiot Min Yoongi." yn said laughing lightly at his terrible but also perfect joke. "And I like you too."

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[always-in-an-au]

you were the hand that pulled me out of the darkness (1)

This is my first series! I’m not sure how many parts I’m going to have, but there will be more for sure! If you want to be added to a taglist for this series, send me an ask! :) Also, if you read this story earlier, there were some complications so parts have been changed!

warnings: mentions of past abuse, suicide, and depression 

hybrid! AU, poly! ot7 BTS x reader

word count: 2, 069

*y/n’s POV*

You hadn’t always been this tired with life. You remember frolicking in the flower beds when you were younger on the outskirts of town. Although there were always fights about money in your home, you hadn’t really thought about it, you were pretty young anyways. When you were about 12 years old, someone in a crisp suit came to your house and your parents quickly shooed you out of the house, telling you to go play with your friends. There weren’t any kids around your age near where you lived, so you just went into the woods and picked some flowers. A little while later your parents had called for you and had told you this man was going to give you a better life than they ever could. Although you didn’t want to leave your family, you had always wondered what the outside world was like and reluctantly you agreed.

You should have known it was all lies. A couple years later, when you’re about 17, you learn that labs had started asking parents if they wanted to opt their kids into research to turn them into hybrids. Because the children were underage, custody would be handed over and the parents would be compensated. By the time you learnt this, you knew your parents had lied to you because the moment that man had taken you, you had been locked into a cement room and turned into a red fox hybrid.

One day, you had decided enough had been enough and you wanted to cash in that promise that had been made to you so many years ago. So, without anything other than the clothes on your back, you escaped. Of course you had no idea what you actually wanted to do once you got out, so you mostly kept to the alleys of streets, learning that hybrids had little to no rights. As you were looking for shelter on a cold winter night, you happened to bump into someone who would change your life.

*Namjoon’s POV*

It was a cold winter night and the only light left to illuminate my path was the street lamps as I made my way home from work. Jin should have already reached home and made dinner for the rest of the boys. I was usually last to arrive since I work as a college professor and I always have papers to grade. Today was the last day before winter break so for the next three weeks I would be able to relax at home and I was quite looking forward to it. Usually these nights are really quiet and relatively safe, peeking at my watch I noticed I was running kind of late and decided to take a small short cut.

*y/n’s POV*

It’s pretty standard to never run into anyone in these alleys, but for the first time you’ve actually bumped into someone. You hope it isn’t someone who is opposed to hybrids and look up. You’re pretty surprised, although pleasantly, when you look up and realize he’s extremely handsome. He seems to notice the ears on your head pretty quickly and stutters out “O-oh, sorry for bumping into you. What are you doing out here?”.

Although his concern seems genuine, you can’t help but be wary. So, a little sharply, you snap back with “What does it matter? Not like you’re going to help me anyway”. You try to move past him, but he keeps moving to block your path.

He grabs your arm and says, “Its just that I have a couple hybrids at home, and it’s pretty dangerous for a hybrid to be out here alone, so I just wanted to give you a safe place to stay for a while”. Your expression turns kind of skeptical and he must notice because he says “I’m Namjoon, and although my words may not mean much, I promise you I’m not lying. Otherwise you can leave and I won’t stop you”. You’ve never met this man before, but he has a smell that sort of calms you, so you agree and the two of you make footprints in the snow on your way home.

*Jin’s POV*

The time is 8 pm and I’ve just finished dinner, but Namjoon hasn’t arrived home yet. Namjoon is usually back by now and just as I’m about to call him when the time hits 8:30, I hear the sound of the front door and walk over. I was going to give him a hug but I notice that he has a lady with him who looks way too skinny and is shivering from the cold. Throwing caution to the wind I walk over and speaking to the new face I say, “Hey there, I’m Jin. And if you’re worried about me trying anything, I’m a hybrid doctor, so I won’t ask any questions”.

*y/n’s POV*

You let out a small sigh knowing that so far, everyone seems accommodating. Jin speaks again and asks you if you have any injuries. You nod, there were other hybrids on the streets with you and competition for scraps usually ended up with you having a couple injuries. Namjoon goes to set up the table and pats you on the shoulder, while Jin directs you up the stairs.

You can see that there a lot of rooms on the first level, but Jin leads you to one further down and motions for you to sit in a chair that he has in the bathroom. The chair seems like its been used pretty recently and you can smell another hybrid’s blood on it. Jin notices and says “Oh, we had another hybrid named Jimin who had a couple injuries too. He got here two months ago, that’s probably him you’re smelling. Also, I’m going to warn you that this is going to be pretty painful”. You nod, knowing there is no other way to recover without pain. He motions to ask you if he can take off your shirt and you nod. Although other people have seen you naked, this time feels different and you can’t help but blush a little. Luckily you have a bra on underneath, but there is still a strange intimacy. Jin winces a little when he sees the severity of your numerous wounds, but then works on patching them up.

Jin wasn’t wrong, this was super painful and halfway through you pass out. Jin wakes you up afterwards and asks if you’d like to eat dinner and you nod quickly. You can’t remember the last time that you’ve had a cooked, warm meal and your mouth waters a little at the thought. Before you get up Jin asks you if you’d like to take a shower first and this also sounds absolutely wonderful so you quickly agree. He shows you how to use the shower, gets a towel, and then some new clothes for you. As he’s about to leave and give you some privacy, he says, “You can leave your clothes on the ground and take your time. I’ll be waiting downstairs and tell the other boys you’re coming down”. You thank him and take your long awaited shower.

After your shower, you look in the mirror and are pleased to see all of the grime washed away from your face. You towel yourself off and pay special attention to your ears and tail, pleased when they now look their true red color. The clothes are a little large on you, but they smell clean and also sort of like Namjoon. You walk down and find seven other men sitting at a large table chatting and eating away happily. There are four hybrids and three humans, two of which you recognize as Namjoon and Jin. A tiger hybrid notices your presence first and turns around, his mouth turns into a boxy smile and he bounds over.

“Hi! I’m Taehyung! Let me introduce you to everyone else”. You’re kind of shocked at the level of energy he has and he has you sit next to him in the middle on one of the sides of the table. To your left is Taehyung and to your right is Namjoon, who gives you a little smile and squeezes your hand in reassurance. On the other side of Taehyung is Jin, who also gives you a smile. Taehyung then introduces you to Jungkook, who is sitting across from you. Jungkook gives you a small smile and you learn he is a wolf hybrid and apparently a ‘god at video games’ as described by Taehyung. At the edge of the table is another hybrid who is a black panther and just nods at you. You learn his name is Yoongi and although he seems to not care he is actually a ‘big softie’, yet again quoted from Taehyung.

In between Yoongi and Jungkook is a man with a huge smile and before Taehyung can introduce him he says, “I’m Hoseok! It’s really nice to meet you!”. You can already tell Hoseok has an enthusiasm that rivals Taehyung’s and you greet him back. Sitting across from Namjoon on the other side of Jungkook is a calico cat hybrid whose name is Jimin. Jimin gives you a beaming smile and greets you very warmly. After being introduced to everyone, they all stare expectantly at you and you realize you never introduced yourself.

You take a little breath and say “Hi, I’m y/n. I guess I should tell you that I’m a red fox hybrid and that's about it”. The boys seem to have an expectant appearance after you finish, but they quickly mask it and greet you back. After all of the introductions, they all continue to eat dinner and chat together. The boys will occasionally ask you things, but for the most part, you’re too busy eating away.

After you finish eating, Jin and Jimin start to clean up, Yoongi goes back to his room, and Namjoon, Jungkook, and Taehyung go to watch a movie together. Hoseok approaches you and asks, “Do you want to go to sleep? The other boys usually stay up for a while but I think you should probably get some rest”. You agree and he nods, leading you up to the guest bedroom. The bedroom is pretty plain and he explains that there is an en suite bathroom that you don”t have to share with anyone. Hoseok says “Tomorrow we can talk about what you feel like doing, but for now just rest up. It’s winter break so all of us will be home for the next couple of weeks. My room is right next door so just knock if you need anything!”. You thank him, plop down on the bed and are filled with warm thoughts. All of the boys seemed so nice and you think that you may decide to give them a chance. You let the thoughts dance around in your head for a little longer before you fall asleep.

*Hoseok’s POV*

After showing y/n where to sleep, Hoseok walks back down and finds all of the boys on the couch watching a movie. They hear Hoseok walk down the stairs and turn to him. Jimin is the first to speak up and asks “Is y/n ok?”. I nod and go to join the others on the couch.

Jungkook, who seems a little worried says “You know, I wouldn’t be too opposed to having her stay with us”. I laugh at our youngest’s boldness and all of the other boys agree quickly and soon the conversation is about y/n. Namjoon, Jin, and I turn to each other and share a knowing look; tomorrow we’ll ask y/n about her staying with us long-term and perhaps adoption. Although Yoongi doesn’t say anything, he smiles at the others’ conversations about y/n. After the movie, everyone goes to their shared rooms. Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jimin all share a room together, Yoongi and I share one of the other rooms, and Namjoon and Jin share the final room together. I remember that I should probably explain our relationship to y/n tomorrow and mentally add it to the long list of things we need to tell y/n. As I walk into our room I am hopeful that y/n will stay with us and know the other boys feel the same.

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[softyoongiionly]

Fear and Dumplings: Chapter Six

Confronting your fears for a final grade sounds unappealing but, with Yoongi as your partner, things might not be so bad.

Summary: You’re in your final semester at University when your Abnormal Psychology professor assigns you a partnered project surrounding your greatest fears. Lucky for you, your partner just so happens to be a cute boy named Min Yoongi.

Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader

Genre: College Au, Underground Rapper! Yoongi, Soft!!! Yoongi, Fluff!!!, some moderate angst (later), smut (later later),  slow-ish? burn

Word Count: 5.1K

A/N: I’m literally on fire after writing this chapter lol. I hope you like it!😊

Warnings for this Chapter: mentions of fear, anxiety, sadness, some angst aka Jimin is an insecure boy who is unaware that he is literaly heaven on earth, swearing, suggestive situations/concepts, if you squint really hard you can see the beginnings of smut.

Warnings for the Fic: mentions characters confronting their fears, characters in uncomfortable situations, emotional moments between characters, mentions of bad parenting, explicit language throughout the fic, moderate angst, and very explicit smut later in the story.

Chapter 6: Doubt and Shadow Demons

You’re lying on your bed in one of your many baggy t-shirts, smiling like an idiot at your phone. Jimin had sent you screenshots of what he believed to be Yoongi’s twitter. If Jimin wasn’t aiming to be a dancer, you would have suggested a career as a private investigator because,  he could literally find anyone. You hadn’t asked Jimin to go looking for more information on Yoongi but, you’d be lying if you said you weren’t interested. His Twitter was mostly black, no bio and, no location but, the avatar was a picture of Yoongi wearing headphones, his newly blonde hair disheveled as he smiled at the camera. He really had no business being that cute. ‘@agustd93’ was his handle and you furrowed your brows in confusion as you tried to decipher what it could mean.  Yoongi didn’t seem to tweet much, he just retweeted a lot of music equipment accounts however, there were a few scattered tweets here and there that made you laugh.

“Roommates are drunk, again. They can’t hold their alcohol for shit.”

“Update: Drunk Hobi is obsessed with my cheeks and, I swear if he pinches them one more time, I’m going to cut his hands off.”

“Another Update: Joon just started crying after explaining to me that, “we are all just little flowers in the garden of life, trying to find our bees.” What the fuck does that even mean?”

You giggle, shaking your head, your thumb scrolling down to search for more tweets. There were more scattered between retweets of what you assumed to be the latest music equipment as Yoongi quoted some of the them with captions like ‘Dream Studio’ and ‘if only I wasn’t broke.’ You kept scrolling before coming across a tweet that made your stomach flutter.

‘Where? Everywhere.’

Fuck. He tweeted that last night. After you and Yoongi got off the Ferris Wheel, you actually ended up having a pretty decent time. The two of you got dinner at the park and wrote your experiences down in your research journals. Yoongi acted like the conversation on the Ferris Wheel never happened but, he seemed to warm up to you more and more as the night progressed. But still, nothing flirty occurred between the two of you and, Yoongi was very careful not to get too close to you. The whole thing was very confusing, one minute, Yoongi’s admitting that he would kiss you ‘everywhere, if you let him’ and, the next minute he’s treating you like he normally did. This tweet was sent at 11:30 which would have been around the time he got back to his place. Maybe it wasn’t about you, Yoongi seemed to have a habit of being vague and, he easily could have been talking about something else but, none the less, it made your heart skip a beat.

Did you like Yoongi? More importantly, did it matter? You shook your head, trying to rid yourself of your complicated thoughts as you rolled out of bed. Marzipan throws a complaint your way as you walk past her lounging at the end of the mattress. Normally, you would be out at your favorite crepe café gossiping with Jimin over some iced coffee but, Jimin had texted you the night before saying that his showcase rehearsal was running late and he didn’t think he’d get any sleep if he met up with you. You had of course met this with an abundance of understanding as you knew better than anyone how hard Jimin had been working at his showcase routine. So, instead of meeting up with your best friend, you planned on working on your final paper for your International Relations course. You had been working on it all semester and, felt accomplished that for once, you didn’t procrastinate. Green tea was essential for today’s writing session so; you brewed a decent sized pot before, continuing your paper. Marzipan eventually made her way out into your living room, opting to sprawl out on the couch, claiming her space as usual.

After writing for some time, you glance at the clock at the bottom of your laptop and your eyes widen. Shit. You had been writing for 4 hours. How was it possible that much time had passed? You had gotten a lot done, adding an additional 6-7 pages to the giant that was your final paper. Just after leaning back in your chair and stretching your limbs, your phone lights up with a text message.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jungkook): I miss the squad tho.

You giggle at the message, your heart warming as you reply.

BROS 4 LYFE: me too tho :/

BROS 4 LYFE (Taehyung): me 3 tho :/ :/

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): MY BABIES :( i miss u guys.

A hint of sadness plucks at your chest as you read the messages being sent in by your friends. You had made new friends in school and, college had been an overall fun time but, you had to admit that you never stopped missing having all three of your bestfriends in one place. The past four years hadn’t been the same without them and you couldn’t wait til the four of you graduated so, that you could finally have your group back together again. Jungkook had been drafted to play pro ball on a minor league team in your current city and, Taehyung had made the decision earlier in the semester to pursue his masters in art history at the school you and Jimin were currently attending. This meant that in a few short weeks, everything would back to normal for a little while.

BROS 4 LYFE: only a few more weeks my dudes, we got this.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jungkook) stay on that grind squad, college grad hours are about to be open.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): kookie and tae, will you be here for my showcase? It’s two weeks before graduation.

BROS 4 LYFE (Taehyung): duh. We wouldn’t miss it for the world Jiminie.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jungkook): yea we would never miss a chance to see the world’s shortest ballerina.

Your eyes widen as you laugh, already imagining Jimin igniting in fury when he reads the message. His reply comes before you are able to chime in.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): YAH! IM NOT A BALLERINA!

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): I AM A CONTEMPORARY DANCER.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): THE CHAMPION CONTEMPORARY DANCER

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): THREE YEARS RUNNING THANKYOUVERYMUCH

At this point you’re in a full blown laughing fit, shaking your head as your fiery best friend pops off in the chat.

BROS 4 LYFE:  go best friend, that’s my best friend.

BROS 4 LYFE (Taehyung): let the record show that Kookie bought 12 of the limited edition Jimin shirts that your school sold after he won the championships.

BROS 4 LYFE (Jungkook): YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULDN’T TELL

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): >:)

BROS 4 LYFE (Jimin): love u kookie

BROS 4 LYFE (Jungkook): …love u too…

The responses eventually dwindle down and, you decide to hop in the shower to tend to the mop of hair that was growing slightly greasy on your head. Afterwards, you throw on a cozy sweatshirt and your favorite pair of fuzzy pajama shorts and, settle on the couch to watch some Netflix. You hadn’t had a night in to yourself in a long time and, it felt amazing to be able to sit around and, do nothing.  Marzipan made her way up your body before, snuggling up in the free space between you and the edge of the couch. As your fingers absentmindedly stroke her fur, you feel your lids becoming heavier and heavier and, finally, you drift off into a much needed nap.

Needless to say, the nap turned into you passing out around 7:30 and, sleeping through the night until, finally, you awake to the ethereal sound of the never-ending city construction. You grumble as you pull the covers over your head to drown out the noise causing Marzipan, who clearly hadn’t left her spot all night, to flee from the couch.  Checking your phone, you noticed a few messages from your group-chat and a snapchat or two from some of your other friends. After responding to the majority of your missed messages, you drag yourself off of the couch and into the kitchen to make some coffee. The microwave displayed the current time: 7:45am; an unholy time to be awake on a Saturday morning. The coffee was finishing up before a loud knock at your door caused you to jump out of your skin. Who the hell was at your house at 7:45 in the morning? You gingerly made your way to the door, hoping that it was just someone from maintenance. Opening the door, you nearly scream as a tuft of pink hair practically collapses into your arms. It was Jimin and, he was crying.

“Jimin, babe, what’s wrong?” You hold him to you, your eyes wide with concern as you usher him into your apartment.

“I can’t do it y/n, I can’t do anything right.” He cries into your t-shirt, his hands clutching you as if you’re about to slip away.

You rub his back, maneuvering you both onto your couch, Jimin clinging to you all the while.

“Hey, hey, that’s not true at all.” You murmur soothingly. “Jimin, what brought this on? Did something happen?”

Jimin, still crying, nods, as the tears stream down his puffy cheeks.

“I’ve been rehearsing for…for 36 hours…and I ca…can’t….do it…I can’t get it right. I ke…keep messing up. I’m n…not getting it…they’re…they’re going to drop me from the showcase if I can’t do it….they…they will…” At this point, your heart is broken, your usually smiley best friend is completely shattered, sobbing, into your arms. You hadn’t seen him like this since he had his first serious breakup sophomore year and, even that couldn’t compare to what you saw before you.

“Shh…minnie…it’s ok, it’s ok, I got you.” You gingerly tilt his swollen face towards yours, your eyes holding an immense amount of emotion as you gaze into his. “Listen to me ok? You can’t rehearse like that, you’re going to burn out and, get hurt. You have to rest. You’ve been practicing non-stop for the entire semester. You could do that routine in your sleep babe. The only reason you probably messed up is because you are exhausting yourself.”

Before you can even finish, Jimin’s eyes well up with tears once again as he shakes his head.

“No…no…you don’t understand…y/n…the coaches came to watch me last night and, I fell…I fell and they…they said that they were disappointed with my progress…and that I need to do better…so…I had to stay to re…rehearse…cause I failed. I failed y/n, I failed.” Jimin bursts into another fit of sobs as he clutches you tighter and, you actually have to hold back the tears that are pricking the corners of your own eyes.

“Dancers fall all the time Jiminie, it’s ok, you had been rehearsing all day. Every free moment you have, you spend in the studio practicing. I know it must have been so hard to fall in front of your coaches but, hey,” You tilt his face to you once more before he can hide away in your arm again. “You are Park fucking Jimin. You are the youngest collegiate dancer to win the national showcase and, the ONLY dancer to win it three years in a row. Dancing is like breathing to you. Audiences are mesmerized as soon as you step on the stage. You did not fail. You are exhausted. You can’t work yourself like this or, there won’t be a Park Jimin to win the showcase four years in a row.” As your words tumble out of your mouth, Jimin begins to calm down, still sniffling lightly, he hugs you again, his normally sparkling eyes, heavy with exhaustion.

“I’m so scared…y/n…there’s so much pressure and, I don’t think I’ll be able to bear it if I disappoint anyone.” You place a chaste kiss to the top of his bubblegum hair as you nod.

“It’s ok to be afraid, this is something you really want and, when we really want something, the thought of failing can be crippling but, you have worked so unbelievably hard.  No one deserves this more than you do. Try and have a little faith in yourself ok? There is nothing you can’t achieve. You have something so magical within you.  Working hard is good but, everyone has their limit and, if you keep pushing yourself like this, you won’t be healthy enough to achieve all of the amazing things I know you are capable of.” Your voice has dropped to an even lower volume as you continue rubbing Jimin’s back. He is looking up at you with intense focus but, you can tell he is on the verge of crashing.

“You promise? You promise you believe I can do this?” He whispers and, your heart shatters in pieces that someone whom you care so deeply for, is in so much pain.

“I don’t just believe Jimin, I know.” You whisper back before jerking your head to the other end of the couch. “Can you please try and sleep for me? When you wake up, we can go somewhere, or we can stay in,its up to you. Just try and rest of a while.” At your request, Jimin lets out a yawn, his lips pressing to your shoulder once more before he flops back onto the couch, still sniffling lightly.

You help him out of his shoes and his coat before grabbing a blanket and, literally tucking him in.

“Thank you y/n.” Jimin whispers, practically half asleep, his hand holding yours lightly.

“You don’t have to thank me, that’s what best friends are for. I’ve cried on your couch a few times too, remember.” You smile fondly as Jimin lets out a twinkling giggle, happy to see that he’s feeling somewhat better.

“I love you.” He whispers, his eyes beginning to shut.

You squeeze his hand lightly before replying.

“I love you too Jimin.”

Jimin drifts off a few moments later, his light snores filling your living room. Your heart feels achy as you reply the last few moments over in your head. You knew your words wouldn’t be enough to completely take away Jimin’s uncertainty but, you were so grateful that he came to you instead of suffering in silence. Jimin had a history of feeling this way right before a showcase. He had done something similar to this your freshman year before, winning and subsequently making history. It absolutely devastated you to see him hurting but, you meant everything you said. There wasn’t a doubt in your mind that Jimin was going to go far in life; you just hoped one day, he could see it for himself.

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“The dark and the ocean….I think maybe it’s time that we start tackling our fears one by one, what do you think?” You look over at Yoongi, who nods from behind his phone.

“Yeah, I think so too. I don’t know how we’d combine the dark and the ocean anyway.” His voice was slightly scratchier than normal but, when you had asked if he was sick, he told you that he had lost his voice at a concert he went to the night prior. For whatever reason, you didn’t believe him but, rather than prying, you opted to enjoy the sound of Yoongi’s raspy voice becoming even raspier.

“If we did, it would be terrifying and, I would probably die.” You state bluntly, causing Yoongi to scoff in disbelief, shaking his head at you.

“You’re so dramatic.” He chastises, smirking lightly, tapping away at his phone. You shrug, not bothering to disagree with him as you doodle on the corner of your paper. “Are you comfortable confronting this fear directly? I don’t know how you would imagine it, unless, you just imagine yourself in a dark room.”

The shudder that passes through your body was completely involuntary and, Yoongi notices it.

“You don’t have to, we can think of something else.” He assures, his almond shaped eyes, wrinkled slightly in concern. You shook your head insistently, putting on a brave face.

“No, its ok…I can do it. I won’t be alone so, it will be a little easier.” You force smile onto your mouth but, Yoongi isn’t buying it. Thankfully, he decides to accept your statement anyway.

“Does tonight work for you? I have a free Tuesday for once so, I figured we could do yours today and mine on Thursday.” Yoongi’s suggests, his demeanor returning to normal. You nod, leaning back in your chair, attempting to look casual but, your heart jumped slightly in your chest.

“Yeah, that’s fine, what time?” You needed to know how much time you had to straighten up because, you definitely left dirty dishes in the sink and, you were quite certain that you dropped a pair or two of clean underwear whilst running late this morning.

“Well, it doesn’t get dark until 7:30-8 so, maybe around then?” Yoongi cocks his head slightly, his eyes sleepy as usual. You had never had such a strong urge to tuck someone into bed and, kiss their forehead until you met Min Yoongi. That boy needs more sleep.

“I’m good with that yeah. Are we eating together or do you want to eat before you come?”

“I’ll bring something, I have a lot to make up for since somebody, decided to buy our tickets last week.” He gives you a pointed look, disapproval gracing his features. You laugh, shrugging shamelessly, looking up at him.

“I guess you better bring something good then.” You insist, smiling, nudging his desk with your foot.

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It was that very conversation that led you to where you were now:  belly full of That’s Amore’s pasta, apartment tidied up, and Yoongi glancing over at you curiously.

“What?” You giggle lightly, confused at his intense gaze before, he nods over to you.

“Why are you afraid of the dark?” He murmurs, his tone cautious but curious.

You bite your lip, as you feel your body grow slightly uncomfortable. Meeting Yoongi’s gaze, you attempt to sound as brave as possible before, answering his question.

“I…used to have really bad nightmares as a kid. I had them every night for almost two years.” You admit, your eyes moving to stare at the couch instead of continuing to look at Yoongi. “My parents finally took me to a doctor and they told them that I would eventually just grow out of it. They gave me something to help me sleep through the night and, over time, the dreams finally stopped but, I slept with my light on until I was like 14.” You giggle, trying to lighten the mood, not really enjoying the serious tone of the conversation.

Yoongi nods, regarding you earnestly from the other end of the couch.

“I’m sorry.” He says softly and, you can tell that he means it. You smile over at him, brushing it off.

“No, its ok, it happened a long time ago. I’m just still not a huge fan of the dark.” You explain, finally meeting his gaze again.

“You don’t have to do this, you can just keep talking about it…I don’t want you to feel afraid.” He insists, his tone firm and certain.

You nod, your smile growing more genuine.

“I can do it. I think it will be good for me and, like I said, I won’t be alone so, I don’t think it will be too bad.” You’re lying. The dark terrified you but, logically, you understood that there was nothing dangerous about it. You know you can do this.

Yoongi nods but, you can tell that he’s uneasy, his movements cautious and hesitant as he looks around your apartment.

“Ok, do you want to start slow? We could just turn off the lights first; the streetlights shouldn’t make it too dark.” He assures you, nodding toward the window but, you shake your head at his suggestion.

“No, I think it’s better if we just do everything now. I think prolonging it will just make me more nervous.” Your voice is growing smaller and, once you catch that, you sit up straighter.  As if, sitting up straighter would lessen the fear you felt. “Let’s do this.”

Yoongi nods and the two of you move to start closing the curtains and turning off the few lamps that you have on in your apartment. You both stand on opposite ends of your living room as Yoongi’s hand hovers over the main light.

“Are you ready?” He calls softly, his face littered with concern.

You nod, smiling tightly, bracing yourself for the darkness.

“You have to protect me if a shadow demon tries to eat me!” You insist, giggling, trying to lessen the tension as Yoongi rolls his eyes.

“There’s no such thing as shadow demons.” He counters, smirking before, he nods anyway. “But, yeah, I guess I’ll protect you if that happens.”

Your heart is picking up its pace in your chest as you attempt to pull a deep breath from your nose.

Yoongi looks at you pointedly and, before another question can pass his lips, you nod to the light.

“Go ahead. I’m good.” You assure him, putting on the bravest voice you can find.

There’s a click and then, darkness envelops your apartment. You could never have imagined that your apartment could get to this level of darkness. The room was pitch black, you held your hand out in front of your face and you saw nothing but a faint blob.

“Are you ok?” Yoongi calls softly from the other end of the room.

Another shaky breath passes your lips as you attempt to calm yourself.

“Yeah, I’m good. I’m ok.” You assure him but, even you could tell that your tone wasn’t convincing. There’s a shuffling on the other end of the room that causes you to jump out of your skin. “What was that?”

“It’s just me; I’m trying to find my way to the couch.” Yoongi’s voice calms you and, you curse yourself for being so obviously afraid.

“Yeah, I should probably do that too. I don’t want to just stand here…vulnerable…where literally anything can attack me if it wanted to.” You muse casually and, this causes Yoongi to finally break out in his rickety laughter.

“Nothing is going to attack you, just come here and, be careful not to trip over anything. That’s the only real danger you need to worry about.” Yoongi’s voice is practically a whisper and, you use it to guide yourself to your sofa. You finally feel the familiar fabric and make your way around the arm of the couch before, tucking your body into one of the cushions. The heartbeat in your chest hasn’t lessened its pounding but, you feel slightly better that you’re not doing this alone.

“I made it.” You whisper but, Yoongi could already feel you sit down at the opposite end of the couch.

“How are you feeling?” Yoongi whispers back to you and, you feel yourself relaxing slightly at the sound of his voice. He really should be doing ASMR in his free time. Your mouth opens to lie again but, you end up sighing in defeat.

“I’m scared.” It’s the first time either of you have uttered this phrase since beginning your project and, you grow uneasy as you wait for his response.

“That’s ok.” He assures and then he falls silent for a moment. “I know it’s difficult for you. We can stop whenever you want.”

“I’m ok right now; my eyes are starting to adjust.”

Another moment of silence passes between the two of you and, you feel a familiar thickness in the air that seems to occur a lot when you and Yoongi are alone. You close your eyes for a moment, stifling your desire to mention it to him. He had made it very clear on the Ferris Wheel that he wasn’t interested in being with you that way… ‘right now.’

“You can…move closer to me, if you need to. I’m not sure if that will help but, you can try. I don’t mind.” Yoongi whispers and, his offer catches you completely off guard. Should you move closer to him?

Silently, you scoot your body down the length of the couch until you feel your shins meet Yoongi’s feet. He must have been sitting cross-legged on the couch and, now that you’re closer to him, you can make out his posture. He’s sitting with his legs crossed, his body turned to face the direction you were sitting, while his hands rested in his lap.

“Thank you.” You whisper, and you can sort of make out the faint smile ( :] ) on his lips.

“Is it any better?”

“Yeah, it is, actually, thanks.” You repeat your gratitude and you finally start to feel the anxiety subsiding from your chest. Yoongi was warm and, he smelt like berries and the ocean? An odd yet tantalizing combination that, in all honesty, made your stomach tighten. His hands are adorned with a few rings and your eyes squint in curiosity as you try to make out what they look like; regretting that you hadn’t checked them out when the lights were on.

“What are you trying to look at?” Yoongi’s whisper causes you to smile as  you realize that his eyes were also adjusted to the darkness and, he was probably wondering why you were staring intently at his lap.

“Your rings.” You giggle, your head jerking their direction. At your answer, Yoongi’s fingers flutter lightly in response, his head turning down to look at them.

“Oh, yeah, I don’t wear these a lot but, my roommate Namjoon got them for me and, started giving me shit for not liking them. So, I made a point to wear them more.” He explains his tone one of fondness and annoyance. Another laugh passes your lips as you nod in understanding.

“They look nice. Namjoon has good taste.” You compliment, feeling far more comfortable.

“Yeah, he’s alright, I guess.” Yoongi jests but, you know he doesn’t mean what he says, always hiding behind a snarky comment. Before you can speak again, Yoongi holds one of his hands out to you. “You can look at them if you want.”

Your heart stalls a moment as you look at Yoongi’s out stretched hand. The hand that had been on your own lap comes up to bring Yoongi’s closer to your view. The rings were actually beautiful and, you were thankful that the tiniest amount of light had escaped through the curtains so you could properly see them. There were four of them each covered in silver, the engravings depicting the four elements: Earth, fire, water, and air. You smile as your fingers gently examine Yoongi’s rings (hand). His hands were one of your favorite things about him. They were nearly double the size of your own, blue and green veins pushed slightly against the surface, fingernails bitten out of what you could assume as nervousness.  There is a light increase in your heart rate as you continue to examine Yoongi’s hand and, if he had noticed that you stopped looking at his rings, he wasn’t showing it. You tilt his hand up so, its perpendicular to your own, your fingertips only reaching the middle of his fingers, as you place your palm against his hand.

“Your hand is small.” Yoongi whispers but, this time, you detect a different tone from him that you can’t say you’ve ever heard before.

A small smile graces your mouth as you nod.

“Against yours it is.” The whisper that leaves your lips is almost in audible, your eyes find Yoongi’s and, you find him staring back at you, the faint streetlight illuminating his face. The two of you stare at each other as you feel Yoongi’s fingers lace with your own. Your heart beats wildly in your chest as you lick your lips in attempt to compensate for the dryness in your mouth. Without warning, the two of you are leaning towards each other, your shaky breathing intertwining momentarily before, your lips press together. Yoongi audibly lets out a sigh of what literally sounds like relief as he mold his lips against yours. You rise up on your knees lightly, in an attempt to get closer to him, your free hand coming up to gently touch his face. The butterflies that had been taunting you for the past month erupt in your stomach, your heart racketing against your sternum. Yoongi’s hand that was interlaced with yours slips out of your grip and, settles on your waist instead, pulling you into his body. Your lips are beginning to move against one another and, you actually feel Yoongi’s heartbeat rattling against your hand. The thought of you having that effect on him, makes you clench between your thighs. Your body moves to make its way into his lap but, before you make it there, Yoongi is slowly pulling away. He seems reluctant to stop, his swollen lips still pecking against yours as he presses his forehead to your own.

“I don’t want to stop but, I think…”His breathing is too ragged for him to speak properly, and you press your lips to his cheek in an attempt to sooth him, even though, your breathing is just as bad. “We….should slow down….”

You nod in agreement but, relish in the fact that Yoongi is still holding you close to him, your body leaning into his chest.

“You’re right.” You whisper in return, your breath just as shaky as Yoongi maneuvers you so, that you’re tucked into the side of his body. Your hand rests on his chest and you smile as you feel his heart pummeling against the palm of your hand. The two of you lay there for a moment in complete silence, Yoongi’s fingers play with your own  as you wait for the other to say something.

Surprisingly enough, it’s Yoongi who breaks the silence, his raspy whisper penetrating the darkness around you.

“Are you still scared?” He whispers softly, his eyes finding yours.

You look up towards him, a soft smile on your lips.

“No.”

Yoongi smiles back at you and, you can’t help but notice how shy he’s being, his eyes softer than you have ever seen before.

“Good.”

Maybe, the dark wasn’t so bad after all.

[borathae]

↳ The Index [#06 Mistake]

Genre: Heavy Angst, Smut, Fluff

Warnings: cheating, domish!Hoseok, fingering (f. recieving), body worshipping, praising, dirty talk, slow passionate sex that turns into rough sex, mentions of pain kink, mentions of public sex, smut that hits you right in the feels, regrets

a/n: it’s really angsty I mean it, I underestimated my ability to make my characters suffer i’M SORRY

Wordcount: 11.6k

Thankfully you didn’t have another encounter with Hoseok after the party, which made your week significantly easier to manage than last week. So after four days filled with nothing more than work, lunch dates with Yoongi and a coffee date with Taehyung and Jimin on Wednesday, Friday finally arrives.

“Where do you want to go for a coffee now?” Namjoon asks you once the two of you have officially ended your shift. You shrug your shoulders, taking your bag in your hands before walking out of the office with Namjoon following close by.

“I don’t know you can choose one”, you answer him.

“I have read of a café which is also a bookshop at the same time. It’s located just a few blocks down the road”, he tells you.

“Ooooh, that sounds great. Let’s go there”, you exclaim making him nod contently.

“Sure let’s go. I heard that the café previously was a paper factory, but someone bought the whole building and turned it into something completely new. A vet is located on the third floor and on the second floor is the book store which connects to the café on the first floor”, Namjoon explains to you.

You listen to him attentively, nodding your head to every word he says.

“That’s so cool, where did you hear that?”

“I bought a tour guide about Seoul a few days ago because I got bored and wanted to see if they actually write useful information in these books. Apparently they do, I learnt stuff I have never heard of before despite living in this city for more than eleven years now”, he says before stopping in front of his bicycle.

“And let me guess it was written in some foreign language because Japanese got too easy for you”, you tease making him chuckle.

“As a matter of fact it was written in English, but I didn’t purchase it because Japanese got too easy for me I am still studying the language. I just wanted to refresh my English as well”, he tells you walking next to you whilst pushing his bike.

“Honestly you should become some super genius language professor or something and not a simple graphic designer for a publishing company”, you say to which he laughs shyly.

“Ah, no I don’t think teaching is something I would like doing. I would get far too impatient with students, who wouldn’t get the things I am trying to explain”, he dismisses you before continuing, “Do you know that one video of that little boy screaming’aaaah waaah idiots’ in a very high-pitched voice? The one that does Sonic reviews?”

“Yeah I think so, why?”

“Because that would be me as a professor”, he says making you laugh out loud.

“That was literally the funniest thing you have ever said. I am imagining it right now”, you laugh, playfully hitting his arm.

“Yeah me too”, he says before breaking into laughter as well.

With having to laugh so hard, the walk to the café feels far shorter than it actually is and soon you arrive at the three-story brick building. You look up in awe taking in the outside exterior with big eyes. Namjoon watches you with a big grin before parking his bike at the bike stand.

“Isn’t it beautiful?” he asks and you nod.

“It looks so old” you gasp.

“That’s because it is. If I’m not mistaken it got build around 1888, but don’t quote me on that”, he tells you before pulling the glass door open.

“After you”, he says pointing into the café.

“Thank you Joon”, you smile stepping into the warm inside of the building.

“If you want you can already sit down on a table and I’ll get us some coffee”, he says to which you nod.

“Oh that’s nice of you. A caramel macchiato for me please and thank you”, you smile before turning around to look for an empty table.

Namjoon watches you run to an empty table next to a flower pot filled with sunflowers. He watches you struggle with taking off your coat before sitting down on the wooden chair and fixing your messy hair. A fond smile creeps up his face before it falls from his features again. He adjusts his glasses sighing loudly before finally looking away from you.

Once he has everything from his order he waddles to your table, trying his hardest not to spill anything. You smile when you notice him, jumping up to take your coffee from his hands.

“Thank you Joonie, I could have helped you if you would have called me”, you say to which he dismisses your with a shake of his head.

“It’s okay I managed”, he assures you sitting down on the chair opposite of you.

“By the way, how much do I owe you?” you ask pulling out your wallet.

“Nothing, don’t worry about it”, he dismisses you making you smile shyly.

“Thank you so much”, you mumble making him grin.

“Of course it’s the least I can do given the fact that I never have time for you.”

“I am saying it again w o r k a h o l i c”, you say pronouncing every letter.

“Stop calling me that. I just love to get my work to as perfect as possible does this really make me a workaholic?” he defends himself.

“I should probably stop teasing you before you start to hate me shouldn’t I?”

“Probably”, he says nodding.

“Sorry Joon, you just look so funny when you are fake mad”, you confess before taking a sip of your coffee.

“Don’t worry I’ll get my revenge soon enough”, he dismisses you before smirking.

“Now I’m scared”, you gasp sarcastically.

“Good. Be scared my revenge will be evil”, he tells you before laughing like a typical movie villain.

You roll your eyes before breaking into laughter.

“Cute”, you giggle making him stop to look at you with a bashful grin.

But he turns serious after that, looking worried.

“Y/N, can you still remember when you asked me if Hoseok and Yoongi know each other at Seokjins and Jungkooks party?” he asks making you nervous.

“I do”, you say swallowing the lump threatening to form in your throat, “Why?”

“Because I just couldn’t shake the way you asked that question ever since. You looked so unknowing and I just need to talk about it with you”, he tells you.

“Go on”, you urge him on.

“Okay so”, he takes a deep breath, “they do know each other, from high school”, your face turns pale when hearing the same words Hoseok had told you just weeks ago.

Namjoon sees your distressed expression, feeling nervous himself.

“But this doesn’t mean anything Y/N, don’t worry about it. They just kind of fought back then before Hoseok changed schools and they never made up afterwards. Please don’t worry about it too much, they will probably get over it real soon. I mean look at Yoongi and Seokjin, they are still talking with each other even after you and Seokjin made out this one time in late September last year.”

“Are you, are you sure that we are talking about the same Hoseok here?”

“Sure we do. From where do you think he knows me and Seokjin? From some random alleyway?” Namjoon scoffs.

“Why did Yoongi deny it then?” you mumble more to yourself than Namjoon, but he is still able to hear it.

“He-“, he swallows, “-he denied it?”

You nod, feeling yourself grow sick.

“Namjoon I need to go, I need to check something”, you babble before jumping up from your chair and running out of the café.

“Are you okay? Hey, Y/N what about the coffee?” Namjoon calls after you, but you don’t care. All you want to do is get answers from Yoongi. Fast.

You run out onto the street, waving the nearest taxi to you and jumping in. You tell the taxi driver the address of Yoongis workplace, telling him he needed to be as fast as possible. Your mind is racing with endless questions the whole drive, your eyes staring blankly out of the window. Is that why Yoongi tensed up when Hoseok had said his full name? But why did Yoongi deny it, when you asked him first? Is that why he wanted to leave so early? Was he scared that Hoseok might reveal his secret? So Hoseok was right. Damn it! You should have believed him!

You run, once the taxi had stopped, ignoring the pain slowly building up in your feet because of the high heels you are wearing. The staff, who are working at Yoongis company, already recognize you when you enter the small building. You dismiss their friendly attempts at small talk, telling them that your matter was far too urgent to wait any longer and continue running down the corridors to Yoongis studio.

His door is closed once you arrive at your destination. You stare at it for a moment trying to catch your breath. Your raise your shaking hand, your eyes practically staring holes into the alabaster glass door. You knock twice, not really expecting an answer. You hold your breath, trying your hardest to hear his voice call out for you to come in. But nothing comes. Yoongi is probably wearing his headphones. You press the buttons of his passcode-pad, his door springing open with a loud peep once you have finished the code.

Yoongi has his back turned to you, his shoulders hunched forward and his head supported by his left hand. He nods his head to the beat of the song he is listening to. All of a sudden he slams his finger onto one the keys, the cursor coming to a stop on the sound waves. He curses, mumbling something about this song not turning out alright.

You tap his shoulder, his whole body jerking up in shock and he rips his headphones from his head. He spins around in his chair looking at you with big eyes.

“Holy shit Y/N! Don’t sneak up on me like that, you nearly gave me a heart attack”, he yells, holding his racing heart.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to, I just needed to see you right now”, you apologize nervously biting your lip.

His features soften upon hearing your words, his arms instantly wrapping around your waist to pull you onto his lap. You sit down, your fingers automatically finding their way into his soft locks.

“I’m sorry for yelling at you princess, I was startled that is all”, he says pressing a loving kiss to your cheek.

“It’s okay”, you assure him, his kiss burning your skin. Don’t act all innocent right now Min Yoongi, I know your game!

“Aren’t you supposed to be drinking coffee with Namjoon right now?” he asks, his fingers caressing the small of your back.

You nod, nervously playing with his hair. His features turn serious, a worried look creeping up his face.

“Did something happen? Are you okay?” he asks worried.

“Yoongi do you know Hoseok?” you ask, not really in the mood to beat around the bush.

“Yeah, your ex. We met in the restaurant once and then later at Seokjins party. Why? Did he bother you again?” Yoongi says, studying your face.

“No he didn’t and I didn’t mean it like that”, you tell him before taking a deep breath. You are hoping, that both Namjoon and Hoseok are wrong, that Yoongi didn’t lie to you.

“How else could you have meant it?”

“You went to the same high school together didn’t you?”

“Are you starting with this bullshit again? I already told you that we didn’t. Did he visit you again? Don’t believe a word he is telling you”, Yoongi hisses frowning.

“I just wanted to check something and asked Namjoon about it. Guess what, he said the exact same thing Hoseok had told me a week ago”, you tell him, letting your fingers fall from his hair.

Yoongis eyes grow big, his cheeks turning red.

“Y/N-“

“Why did you deny it when I asked you? Why did you lie to me? Hoseok was right-”, you scoff, “-and I was so stupid as to not believe him when he told me.”

“What did he tell you? Please don’t believe a thing he told you”, Yoongi says sounding nervous.

“He said that you know him. I told him that he was lying. He insisted that he wasn’t. He told me, you just started dating me to get back at him for the way he broke your heart all those years ago.”

You wait for him to answer, your eyes racing between his.

“I said don’t believe him Y/N”, Yoongi growls sounding angry.

“Well what else should I believe? I had hoped that both Hoseok and Namjoon were wrong and that you could tell me that you didn’t keep secrets from me. But you did, even went as far as to deny them the first time I confronted you about them and now I don’t know who to believe”, you jump up from his lap, Yoongi soon following, standing close to you.

“Believe me Y/N! Me! Your fiancé! Please I would never use you to get back at Hoseok for some stupid shit he did as a child. Yeah, I denied it, but I did it because I was scared that you would get the wrong picture of me! I would never use you! I wanted you because you are beautiful and amazing and I fell in love with you! I love you Y/N, you have to believe me”, he insists, pointing at his heart.

“I don’t know. I just-“, you sigh, “I need time Yoongi, don’t contact me today I want to be alone.”

“Please don’t do this Y/N”, he begs trying to grab your hand, but you already storm out of his studio.

You don’t want to hear his voice anymore; it makes you sick to the stomach. He lied to you. The man, who promised to never lie to you, lied to you. You ignore the stares of the people you are passing by, throwing yourself against the glass door of the building and stumbling outside. He lied to you. Why would he lie to you? If he didn’t have any bad intentions with you, he would have told you right away. So he is using you to get back to Hoseok. But he just told you he isn’t.

You groan, brushing your hair out of your face rather forcefully. You hate it! Why did you have to get involved in such an emotional chaos like that? You had been a good person all your life, had helped people in need, had said ‘thank you’ and ‘please’, had never once done anything illegal. So why, why did the universe decide to throw you into emotional hell.

Your cheeks feel wet. You touch them. You are crying. When did you start crying?

“Ah fuck” you groan bending forward. Why does your chest ache like that? It feels like, like someone is trying to rip your heart from your ribcage.

Why did Yoongi lie to you? You trusted him.

You sob, hiding your face in your hands.

“Are you okay ma’am?” a deep voice makes you look up. A stranger is staring at you through a rear view mirror. You look around. When did you get into a taxi? And where are you driving to?

“Yes, I, I, where are we going to again?” you ask forcing your voice out. The man tells you Hoseoks address making your breath hitch.

What? Why?

“O-okay thank you”, you choke out and the man looks back onto the road.

This is going to end badly.

But you don’t want to be alone, you know that much. And maybe, maybe Hoseok can help. After all he knows best how to cheer you up. You sniffle, drying your tears with the sleeve of your coat.

Yes, you want to see Hoseok right now. You need to hear his soothing voice, you want to hear his voice; it makes you feel calm. At least he never lied to you. New tears shoot to your eyes, you blink trying to get rid of them, but still the run down your swollen cheeks.

Why did Yoongi lie to you?

“We are here ma’am good luck”, the man tells you. You hum, handing him his money before getting out of the car.

You look up the big yellow building, your eyes stopping at Hoseoks apartment window. It’s still far too bright outside for you to be able to tell if he has his light turned on or not. Guess you just have to see for yourself if he’s home.

You ring the bell once you are standing in front of his door. You hold your breath, trying to listen if he is walking around.

Today is a Friday, he had told that he was free on a Fridays. So he must be home, unless, he is in the gym at the moment. You play with the end of your coat sleeves, nervously biting your lip. That was a bad idea. What are you even doing here?

You are in the midst of turning around when you can hear the lock turn.

“Y/N hey, what are you doing here?” Hoseok asks his voice laced with surprise.

“You were right”, you say before a loud sobs stops you.

“Oh my god Y/N what happened? Hey, don’t cry. Let’s get you inside first”, Hoseok says wrapping an arm around your shoulder to lead you into his apartment.

He leads you into his living room never once letting go of you, safe for when you take your coat and shoes off and sits you onto his couch. You fall down onto the soft cushion, hiding your face in the palm of your face and letting the sobs fall freely from your lips. Hoseok just watches you, caressing your back and telling you to let everything out in a whispered voice ever so often.

“What happened?” he asks once your sobs had more or less stopped. He rests his hand on your thigh, gently massaging it to sooth you.

“I confronted Yoongi about the thing you told me. He, he denied it the first time, but then Namjoon told me the exact same thing you told me. And then I confronted Yoongi again and he just, just-“, you sob letting your head fall down again “-he lied to me.”

“Hey I’m here now, don’t cry”, Hoseok says gently caressing your thigh with his fingertips.

“I don’t know what to believe”, you manage to stutter out between sobs.

“I’m so sorry to hear that”, he gets interrupted by your continuous talking.

“I don’t know what to do Hobi”, you sob. Your use of his nickname makes his heart beat faster in his chest, it still sounds as sweet as always. “I’m so confused. I thought I know him but, but he lied to me, all this time he kept something from me”, you hiccup and Hoseok can feel you starting to shake.

He tightens the grip around your thigh, scooting closer so he can pull you against his chest. You rest your head on his shoulder, nuzzling your face in the soft material of his sweater. You are so close again, Hoseok has to fight the urge to press a longing kiss to the crown of your head.

“I hate you so much Hoseok. Why did you decide to come back into my life and mess with my emotions like that? I was so happy with the way everything was. I actually started to become better again”, you sob and something inside Hoseok flips. He shouldn’t have to listen to you throwing accusations at his head like that.

He pushes you off his body, a surprised squeal falling from your lips. You stare at him with big eyes, your lower lip trembling.

“No, now you listen to me for a change. Stop trying to turn me into the bad guy in this story. Mess with your emotions? You were the one who told me that you just needed to breathe for a bit and then you come back with a fiancé! I think you are the one who messed with my emotions, I waited for you. I came to see you once, yes just once, despite my desire to visit you every day for the last eleven months and six days.”

“Hoseok”, you start but he doesn’t even register your voice too caught up with finally being able to speak his mind.

“And I visited you with good intentions, all I wanted was to save you from marrying a lying bastard, you know literally nothing about, nothing more. I didn’t care if that would lead to you taking me back”, he says, his voice growing louder with every sentence.

You stare at him. Your tears had stopped for you were far too shocked right now.

“You were happy? Well guess what I wasn’t, especially when I found out that you agreed to marry a guy you had known for six months. Six months! Are you kidding me Y/N? We spent five years of our lives together, even lived together and when I asked you the question you run away? Why Y/N? What does he have that I didn’t?” he spits, yelling his last words too caught up with his suppressed emotions suddenly exploding out of him.

Oh, how he had wanted to tell you this.

“I don’t know. I honestly don’t know. It just felt right”, you stutter shaking your head.

“Felt right?” his voice becomes unnaturally high, his mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water, “I can’t believe you right now. We shared everything together. Our first kiss, our first time having sex, our first time saying ‘I love you’ to someone and our first apartment we could actually afford without the help of our parents. And you want to tell me that a six months old relationship felt right enough to say yes to marrying?” he spits, grabbing at his hair.

“I’m sorry Hobi, I really am”, you sob, your heart aching at seeing him in so much pain.

Maybe you really had been unfair to him. He doesn’t deserve this, he never did something wrong. You scoot closer to him, reaching out with shaking hands. Would it be a bad idea to touch him?

“Don’t call me like that. I’m not Hobi for you anymore, you made that very obvious”, he chokes out, hiding his face in the palm of his hands. He doesn’t want you to see the tears falling down his cheeks. You don’t need to know how much he suffers.

“You will always be Hobi for me. My Hobi”, you whisper, the sudden warmth of your hand on his thigh making his body tense up.

“Stop saying that Y/N. Please stop”, he whimpers, violently shaking his head. Your hand cupping his cheeks makes him stop, his tear-filled eyes snapping up to stare at you in shock.

“Hobi I-“, you start gently stroking the tears from his burning cheeks. Your touch sends sparks of electricity through his veins, his eyes closing.

“You should go Y/N. Please just go. I can’t trust myself right now. Go before I do something that makes you hate me for forever”, he croaks his eyes still pressed closed.

“I can’t trust myself either”, you whisper and Hoseok can feel your breath on his skin. He opens his eyes, you are so close; if he wanted he could just move his head and he would kiss you. His breath hitches in his throat. Why are you looking at him the same way you did when you were still with him? “I could never hate you”, you pause to look into his eyes, “Hobi”, you breathe before your lips come crushing down on his.

He wants to gasp, but your mouth swallows his voice, rendering him speechless. Your lips are still as soft as he remembers them to be. His eyes flutter shut, his whole body relaxing. He had missed this so much. New tears shoot to his eyes before running down his cheek. He can taste them between your kisses, mixing with the sweet taste of your honey chapstick. Your fingers find their way up his chest to his neck before tangling in his hair. You hum, scooting closer so the side of your thigh is touching his.

You pull back, sniffling. A new tear runs down your cheek when you open your eyes. He has his eyes closed, his lips slightly parted.

“You still taste like how I remembered”, you whisper and his eyebrows furrow together.

“Y/N we shouldn’t”, he murmurs opening his eyes to look at you.

“Please don’t send me away Hobi”, you choke out.

You look so sad, so heartbroken. Hoseok just wants to wrap you in his arms and hold you until you smile again. He reaches out, cupping your cheek. A small smile creeps up your face before it disappears again.

“I-“, he takes a deep breath. You lean into his touch fluttering your eyelids shut. He swallows. Shit, this is so wrong right now. But still, it’s the thing he wanted. He sighs, “-I won’t send you away”, he murmurs.

“Thank you”, your voice is barely above a whisper. He smiles leaning forward to kiss you again. Your lips taste saltier than before, but he doesn’t care wanting nothing more than to feel you again.

You hum, scooting even closer to his body so that you would be able to crawl on his lap. You never once break the kiss, the movement squeezing his nose against your cheek. He sighs, you still feel the same. Fuck, he shouldn’t be so into this right now. You are just confused, you don’t actually want him right now. No, he shouldn’t use you like that.

He pushes you away, earning a sound of complaint from you. You come resting on his thighs and your hands falls from his hair to touch his chest. They feel so warm, ah shit.

“What?” you ask looking at him confused.

“I don’t want to use your current emotional state to my own advantage”, he tells you trying his hardest to stop the blood shooting straight between his legs.

“Hoseok”, you breathe. You scoot closer to him, your core coming to rest on his crotch. Hoseoks hands clench into fist by his side. Fuck, fuck, fuck you feel so good fuck. “Don’t think so much, I’ll tell you if it gets too much”, you tell him leaning down to press a kiss to his neck.

He closes his eyes, breathing shakily.

“O-okay”, he stutters before letting his head fall back exposing the sensitive skin of his neck.

You smile against his skin, peppering kiss after kiss over his neck. He tastes like his aftershave. Oh how you have missed this taste. You gently bite down on his earlobe making him moan breathily, his fingers caressing the skin of your exposed thighs. Soon your hips start to move on his lap, earning a groan from both you and him.

“Babe fuck”, he chuckles breathlessly grabbing your hips with both of his hands to guide your movements. “That’s it don’t stop.”

He presses you down on his lap, the added pressure of his erection on your clit making you shutter. Your lips fall from his neck as it got far too hard to breath. You pant, leaning your forehead against his with your eyes pressed shut.

“You feel so good Hobi”, you whisper making him smirk. He bucks his hips up earning a breathy gasp from you.

“You are still so responsive”, he chuckles. You huff. He is getting cocky already. Another buck of his hips follows, letting you forget about your bratty response. Your fingers find their way into his locks, gently pulling on them. It makes his dick twitch, you can feel it on your core. You pull again, pressing your hips down and he groans.

“I want to touch you, can I touch you?” he asks and you nod.

“Yes please I want to feel your fingers”, you plead moving your hips to the rhythm he is guiding you to.

“Everything for you”, he whispers before hooking his hands underneath your legs.

He stands up without effort, jumping one time to make it easier for him to carry you. You squeak wrapping your arms around his neck to keep yourself from falling down. You had felt your skirt rip at the sudden stretch of wrapping your legs around his torso. Great, it was your favourite skirt.

He lays you down gently once he arrives at his bed, smiling down at you the whole time. He crawls over you, leaning his weight on his elbows.

“You are so beautiful Y/N”, he whispers making you blush. He leans down to kiss you, slower than before. He hums, gently biting down on you bottom lip. You whimper, wrapping your legs around his hips to pull him closer. His hand finds its way to your breast cupping it over your blouse. It feels hot through the thin material, your back arching against it in reflex. He hums starting to massage it gently, the feeling sending new arousal to your core.

It’s not like him, normally he would have thrown you on the mattress before crawling over you and ripping your clothes from your body. But today it seems as if he wanted to take his time with you. It surprises you, every touch of his hands sending shivers over your body.

You break the kiss, opening your eyes to look at him. His hands stop moving, laying heavily on your chest. He looks scared, probably thinking that he had overstepped his boundaries.

“Hobi please don’t tease”, you tell him to which his features soften again.

“I just want to take everything in”, he says, trailing his finger all over your upper body.

He stops once he is at the waistband of your skirt. He averts his gaze from your hips to your eyes, “Can I?” he asks playing with the waistband.

“Yes let’s get naked already”, you urge him on, your own hands playing the hem of his t-shirt.

“Someone’s eager”, he chuckles, sitting up between your legs to pull his shirt over his head.

Your eyes fixate on his torso instantly, your mouth falling open. He didn’t lie when he told you that he had gained some muscles. His abdominal muscles flex with every one of his movements, the sunlight falling into the room illuminating them perfectly. He had always been well-built, but you hadn’t expected that it would be possible for him to become even more addicting to look at. He throws the shirt on the wooden chair next to his bed once he is finished, averting his eyes to you afterwards.

“What?” he asks when he notices your stares, laughing shyly.

“You weren’t lying about gaining muscles”, you tell him before sitting up and reaching out to touch his stomach. It feels solid, his soft skin contrasting the feeling. Your touch makes goose bumps rise on his skin wherever your fingers travel over his torso. He chuckles again, caressing your face.

“It’s your turn now babygirl”, he says resting his hands on your shoulders and squeezing gently.

You tear your eyes away from his stomach to look into his eyes. They are glistening with eagerness, practically undressing you. Your fingers fall from his stomach to open the buttons of your blouse. He is watching you, his eyes following your every move. Soon your blouse is gone from your body, thrown next to his t-shirt. He smiles, cupping your breasts with both of his hands.

“I remember that bra”, he smiles caressing your nipple over the material. It hardens instantly, your body craving more. He leans down closer to your face, making you fall back onto the mattress again. “You wore it for the first time on our third anniversary when I ruined your pink blouse just so I could finally fuck you in the men’s bathroom of the restaurant. You looked so good”, he whispers into your ear, kissing it with every word.

You shiver letting your eyelids flutter shut.

“It was amazing sex wasn’t it babygirl?” he growls, grazing his teeth over your jaw.

You nod, humming quietly.

“It was”, you stutter out, pulling him closer by his hair.

He groans quietly at the slight pain of your touch, slipping his hands in your bra to finally touch your bare breast. He pinches your nipple, rolling it between his fingers afterwards. It makes your breath hitch in your throat, your mouth falling open. His touch is gentle, too gentle for Hoseoks nature, but all the more addicting.

“It annoys me right now though”, Hoseok mumbles more to himself than to you. His right hand reaches behind your back, unclasping your bra with one swift movement and pulling it off your chest afterwards.

It surprises you, your eyes opening wide. He smirks down at you all the while holding your bra in his hand triumphantly.

“I still got it”, he says smugly and you roll your eyes.

“Wow what a man”, you gasp sarcastically and he chuckles. He throws the piece of clothing onto his chair but misses, your bra falling onto the ground a few inches away. But neither of you care, the desire to feel each other far too strong.

“You really are the most beautiful woman on earth Y/N”, Hoseok whispers cupping your bare breasts and squeezing them gently. You blush avoiding his loving eyes to instead stare at his biceps flexing with every movement of his arms. “A goddess”, he adds before connecting his lips with the skin of your right breast.

You gasp, threading your fingers through his hair the instant his hot mouth latches onto your sensitive skin. He sucks gently, careful not to leave any hickeys behind but still enough to make you crave him more.

“I really missed these boobs”, he growls hovering his lips over your erect nipple.

His breath is tickling you making you arch your back into his touch. He catches on finally taking your hardened nub between his teeth to bite down gently. You hum longingly, tightening the grip around his hair. It stings but the soft feeling of his tongue soothing it afterwards makes up for the initial pain.

His left hand abandons your breast to travel down to the waistband of your skirt. He doesn’t waste any time this time around, hooking his fingers in the waistband and pulling your skirt down. You can feel it rip again and you groan. Great, now it’s definitely ruined.

He sits up, the cold air hitting your wet nipple making you shiver.

“Fuck babe I haven’t even touched you yet and you are already soaked”, Hoseok chuckles his eyes staring at your soaked through panties.

“You can feel it too and not just stare at it”, you urge him on, wiggling your hips on his sheets. You are impatient you want to feel him touch you already.

He swallows, his adam’s apple bobbing up and down, before a smirk creeps up his face. He touches the inside of your thighs first, massaging your flesh. You hold your breath, watching his hand travel closer and closer to where you want him most, your legs opening up even more with every inch his hands creep closer to your core.

“I would love to”, he whispers, breathing heavily. His tongue comes darting out, licking over his slightly parted lips. “So fucking wet for me”, he growls before finally slipping his hands into your panties.

He cups your core, the palm of his hand pressing against your clit. Your breath hitches in your throat, your hips bucking up in reflex.

“Did you miss me that much babygirl?” he chuckles stroking the pad of his middle finger through your wet folds.

“Yeah”, you choke out rubbing your core against his flattened palm. It feels hot against your sensitive skin only adding to the pleasure the friction it is giving you. “Want to fuck you”, he mumbles, stroking his finger up and down your entrance.

“Then fucking do it already”, you tell him and he smirks.

He inserts his middle finger into you, earning a choked out moan from you. It still feels the same than you remember it to, long and perfect for stretching you out. He starts moving in and out of you, curling his finger every time it grazes over your g-spot. It is slower than you want him to go, the panties an annoying restriction for both you.

“Let’s get rid of them”, he growls hooking his finger in the waistband of your panties and pulling hard. You gasp, pressing your eyes shut and clenching your core around his finger. It burns at first, the material digging painfully into the side of your hip before it finally rips.

“Ah fuck”, you moan digging your fingernails into the side of his forearm. He smirks caressing the aching spot of skin with the tips of his fingers.

“Sorry”, he apologizes sarcastically, adding another finger and curling them both inside of you to make you forget about the pain.

It works, your legs spreading even wider and your hips bucking up from the mattress into his touch.

“’s okay”, you choke out letting your hands fall from his arms to grab the sheets instead.

You need to steady yourself somehow or else you would start spiralling into oblivion already. The added finger stretches you out painfully well, sending wave after wave of hot pleasure through your core. He still knows what he has to do to make you lose your mind, something you find out when the pad of his fingers graze over your g-spot with so much expertise it feels like he had never left you. Your mouth falls open, a long-drawn-out moan erupting from you.

“Holy shit do that again”, you pant letting your head roll to your side.

“That?” Hoseok asks curling his fingers again and scissoring them afterwards. Hot pleasure shoots from your core straight to your stomach and you nod.

“Yeah, oh god yeah”, you moan furrowing your brows.

You need to concentrate. It feels so good, you can already feel your orgasm approaching. You don’t want to cum yet and risk him punishing you for it. But as it seems Hoseok has other plans, pressing the palm of his hand flat to your clit adding a new sensation.

“Oh my god Hobi I’m so-“, you stop to take a deep breath forcing your eyes open. He is smirking down at you studying your pleasure contorted face with hungry eyes, “-so close”, you manage to finish before your eyes roll back into your skull again.

He had curled his fingers again, grazing over your swollen g-spot even harder than before. You are so wet you can hear it, your pussy squelching with every move he makes. Normally you hate hearing these kind of sounds but today they were the sweetest melody to your ears.

“Then cum I’m not stopping you babygirl”, he tells you pressing his hand onto your clit and curling his fingers at the same time.

The building pressure in your stomach is nothing like you had ever felt before, leaving you gasping for air. You feel like you might burst any second now, your walls spasming around his long digits drawing him in even deeper.

“Show me babygirl, show me what only I can do to you”, he growls curling his fingers once again.

“Oh god, oh god, oh god”, you sob, pressing your hands against your teary eyes.

You feel the knot in your stomach unclenching; your high taking over you with so much intensity it renders you speechless for good three seconds. Curse after curse leaves your mouth followed by high-pitched moans and the sudden, spurting escape of clear fluid from your core, draining both Hoseoks sheets and sweatpants. The force of your high is so intense it makes you shake for nearly a minute, your stomach convulsing with every wave of pleasure shooting through your body and your legs twitching uncontrollably.

“Fuck, stop, no more”, you sob when Hoseok doesn’t stop bumping his fingers into you and the pleasure had turned into pain. He curls his finger once more earning a choked out sob from you before pulling out of you.

“That was so hot”, he tells you caressing the skin of your hips.

You chuckle tiredly, still wiggling your hips on his now wet sheets. You feel empty now that his fingers are gone from your core, your pussy clenching around nothing, screaming to be filled again, to be stretched out and ruined again.

“I want more please”, you groan spreading your legs so he would get a good look at your swollen folds. His eyes snap to your core racing over your glistening folds. He licks his lips biting them afterwards.

“You sure you can go again?” he asks pressing the pad of his thumb against your sensitive clit. It stings and you whimper, your left leg shaking without you having control over it.

“Ah shit”, you moan moving your hips against the rough pad of his thumb despite the pain it causes. Soon it turns into pleasure, your pain-contorted face relaxing and your ragged breathing returning to normal. If he doesn’t fuck you soon, you are going to explode you are sure of it, “yes fuck me”, you choke out and his gaze turns dark.

“It would be my honour babygirl”, he chuckles, pulling his hands back to rid himself of his ruined sweats. They fall right next to your bra with a low thump and soon his briefs follow after.

Your eyes travel over his muscular thigh up to his hard cock. He is holding it between his long fingers, stroking it lazily, precum already dripping down making your mouth water. You are only now remembering how addicting he had always tasted and your tongue darts out between your lips to lick hungrily over them.

“Can I taste you?” you ask with a sultry voice biting your lower lip and looking him deep into his eyes.

His chest heaves up and down because of the deep breath he takes, the grip around his cock visibly tightening. New precum drips on his fingers spreading all over his length with every jerk of his hand. He would love to feel your swollen lips wrap around his head, feel you swallow around his length and cum down your throat, but the desire to fuck you is higher and he shakes his head.

“Another time babygirl”, he tells you caressing your cheek with the back of his hand and smiling down at you, “because I honestly can’t wait any longer. I need to fuck you already”, he adds whilst stroking a fallen strand of hair out of your eyes.

“O-okay”, you stutter, taken aback by his refusal. Normally he would have never said no to your mouth, but apparently he is needier than he lets you on.

You prop yourself onto your elbows, ready to flip over and get on all fours just like you had always done but his hand squeezing your shoulder stops you. You look at him confused studying his face.

“What are you doing?” he asks confusing you even more.

“Getting into position like always”, you tell him making him smile softly at you.

He pushes you back down onto the mattress, lying down on top of you afterwards.

“I want to look at you today”, he says staring deeply into your eyes.

The two of you just look at each other for a moment, both of you getting lost in the other’s eyes. Your heart flutters in your chest, the familiar warm, fuzzy feeling spreading all through your body. You had forgotten how beautiful he was up-close.

“Is that okay for you?” he whispers caressing your cheek.

“More than okay”, you whisper back cupping his face.

He smiles scooting closer to kiss you but accidentally grazing his dick against your wet folds. He shutters, the grip around your cheek tightening momentarily. It sends a shivering wave of want through your body, reminding you just how much you desired him right now.

“I really need to you to fuck me right now Hobi”, you growl scratching your fingernails over his flushed chest.

“Condom?” he asks pointing at the bedside table. Your eyes follow his finger now staring at the closed drawer.

“He is clean”, you tell him averting your gaze back to Hoseoks face.

You can see him clench his jaw at the reminder of your fiancé, but soon it relaxes again. He smiles.

“That’s nice. So you want to fuck without one or?” he asks, reaching between your bodies to take his length into his hand. He aligns himself with your entrance, touching it ever so lightly. It makes you tense up, your legs slightly closing in on him. Just because you know that you are clean doesn’t mean that you are going to be reckless enough as to trust him blindly. You open your mouth to scold him but his lips pressing against yours stops you. His kiss is quick, but enough to calm you down again.

“I didn’t have someone else in the meantime if that’s what you are worried about”, he says, kissing you once again longer this time.

Your heart stops for a beat in your chest, your eyes snapping open. You could have sworn that he would go out and found someone to take his mind off of you.

“You didn’t?” you gasp and you can’t help but feel guilty.

“Why should I? We didn’t break up in my head, so why should I go out and break your trust like that?” he mumbles against your lips shrugging his shoulders.

“Oh, okay well then”, you murmur fluttering your eyes shut and trying your hardest to swallow down the guilt rising in your chest.

He kisses you with so much passion your worries are soon replaced by nothing than the blissful feeling of thousands of butterflies fluttering in your stomach. His kiss turns hot rather quickly, every gentle bite and lick leaving nothing but desire behind and soon you are squirming underneath his pelvis again, rubbing your folds over his dripping head ever so often.

It is you who breaks the kiss, panting hard and staring at him with pleading eyes.

“Please?” you beg stroking your hands over his chest and torso. He lets his eyes travel from your face to where your bodies meet. You can hear him take a deep breath, one he releases shakily before he looks up at you again. He smiles, cupping your cheek with his free hand.

“Ready?” he asks teasing your entrance with the tip of his cock.

“I was ready ten minutes ago”, you retort, bucking your hips up in an attempt to finally feel him inside of you. He laughs, the movement of his chest making it rub against your hardened nipples.

“Forgive me for wanting to savour this”, he laughs, leaning down to kiss the tip of your nose.

“I’ll forgive you if you finally fuck me”, you tell him wrapping your legs around his buttocks urging him closer.

“Okay, okay”, he chuckles pressing one final kiss to your cheek before propping himself on his elbows to gaze into your eyes.

Despite the urgency burning in his eyes, his hips move slow, burying his length inside of you inch by inch. His breath quickens with every inch he is getting buried deeper inside of you, his mouth falling open. You sigh, the stretch feels amazing, your walls welcoming him hungrily. It feels like something that had been missing from you had finally returned, you feel whole again, your body melting into his where they meet. You reach down to cup his butt cheeks in your hands and force him to slam his hips into yours for the last two inches, too impatient to wait any longer. You want to feel complete again. He groans, his eyes rolling into the back of his skull and his elbows giving out underneath him. He crashes down on you, the momentum forcing the air out of your lung with a low groan, his hot skin sticking against yours.

“Fuck babe, oh fuck, wait, fuck okay wait”, he pants and you feel him tensing his butt cheeks.

“You okay?” you ask, moving your hips ever so slightly. He whimpers nearly inaudibly with every slow movement of your hips and spasm of your warm walls, his hands griping the edge of the pillow on either side of your head.  

“Yeah, yeah I am it’s just, fuck, I forgot how good that feels”, he croaks once he has found his voice again, forcing himself onto his elbows. His whole face is flushed red, his hair sticking to his sweaty forehead. “I nearly came already”, he chuckles his cheeks turning red, “that would have been embarrassing”, he adds making you giggle.

“I wouldn’t have blamed you”, you giggle combing his messy hair out of his face. He joins your childlike giggling lowering his head in bashfulness.

“Thank god”, he murmurs before finally starting to move rendering both of you speechless for a moment.

His movements are slow and long-drawn, enabling you to feel every inch of his length stroking against your walls. It’s addicting, new arousal shooting to your core making it even easier for him to move, the wet squelching sounds echoing sinfully through the small room. Hoseoks eyelids flutter shut, breathy moans leaving his parted lips. You watch him with hungry eyes, his pleasure-contorted expression only adding to your own desire for him. He looks so beautiful, yet so sinful with his flushed cheeks and messy hair.

“It feels so good”, he breathes burying his dick even deeper inside of you with a slow, precise snap of his hips. You moan quietly threading your fingers through his soft locks. He shutters lowering his head to press his forehead against yours. “So addicting”, he adds quickening his movements ever so slightly.

You feel better than he had remembered making his head spin. The last sex before your break-up had been nothing more than a rushed quickie before having to go to work. Hoseok hadn’t expected you to leave him, thinking that he would have enough opportunities to fuck you slow and passionate. A mistake, he had regretted ever since, he should have savoured it, should have worshipped your body more. Now he wants nothing more than to make up for it, wants to relish in the feeling of your hot walls squeezing around his throbbing length.

He opens his eyes to look at you, drinking in every little inch of your features. The way your eyebrows furrow together every time the tip of his dick grazes over your g-spot, the way your lips glisten in the orange light of the setting sun shining through his window and the way your eyelashes flutter against your blushing cheeks. His heart flutters in his chest, the three little words are burning on the tip of his tongue, oh how he wants to say them to you right now.

“Y/N”, he moans, your name like honey on his tongue and you open your eyes slowly.

You smile sweetly, your lust filled eyes staring into his’ with dilated pupils.

“Hobi you feel so good”, you breathe never once breaking the eye contact. You pull on his locks gently, earning a low groan from him, “I need more please”, you plead squeezing your pelvic muscles, the feeling of his dick grazing your walls intensifying. Another groan falls from his lips, his movements faltering for a moment before picking up in speed.

“Whatever you want”, he stutters out between heavy breaths. He props himself onto his elbows, staring down at you with furrowed eyebrows before finally fucking into you like an animal in heat.

The sound of skin slapping against skin starts ringing through his room mixing with the sinful sounds of pleasure leaving both of your parted lips. The Hoseok you had known is back, drilling into your dripping pussy without mercy. You clutch onto his arms, the feeling of his muscles flexing making you crave more and you sink your fingernails into his soft skin. He groans in pleasure, letting you know how much he enjoyed your little manhandling by snapping his hips into yours with so much force you come bouncing off the mattress.

“Ah fuck”, you cry blinking away the tears which his rough movement had caused to form in the corner of your eyes.

“You are so good to me Y/N”, he pants reaching behind your back to hug you tightly against his body. His loving gesture confuses you at first, your eyes snapping open to glance at him sideways. But his movements never stop, the change of angel enabling him to go even deeper than before, the tip of his cock stroking over your g-spot whilst his pubic bone rubs over your clit with every thrust, sending wave after wave of hot pleasure through your body. You wrap your arms around his neck pulling him closer, resting your head on his shoulder and wrapping your legs around his buttocks to keep him close.

“Holy shit yes”, you moan clawing at his shoulders leaving red marks behind. “Feels so good”, you add nuzzling your face in the crook of his neck.

“You are so tight babygirl”, he pants tightening the grip around your body and speeding up his thrusts. It’s hot, your whole body burning underneath him and your head spinning endlessly. Your body feels like it is going to burst any second now, your legs already shaking uncontrollably and high-pitched screams of pleasure leaving your lips.

“That’s it babygirl clench around me, let go I’m here to catch you”, Hoseok urges you on intertwining his fingers with yours. He squeezes your hand kissing the crook of your neck. So close, you are so close, only a few more thrusts and you will fall over the edge.

“Tell me Y/N who do you belong to?” Hoseok growls into your ear, the urgency of his voice enough to finally bring you over the edge. Hot pleasure explodes from your core, spreading through the rest of your body in burning waves, your eyes rolling back into your skull.

“Ah, Hoseok!” you scream clawing at his back and you screaming his name is enough to bring him over the edge as well, his hips stuttering and his stomach clenching before hot spurts of his cum shoot into you, painting your walls.

“Ah shit, ah shit”, he moans, his voice high, burying his face in the crook of your neck and squeezing your hand rather painfully hard. His arms give up underneath him once he had been milked dry, his whole body collapsing onto yours.

It is hard to catch your breath with Hoseok lying on top of you, but you couldn’t care less, enjoying the feeling of his hot skin touching yours. He kisses your collarbone, breathing out loudly afterwards, his hot breath tickling the skin of your neck.

“That was the best sex I have ever had”, he whispers nuzzling the tip of his nose against your neck.

“It was”, you agree, playing with his messy hair.

He props himself up on his elbows before rolling from your body. You shiver, the loss of his body heat instantly making you feel cold. You wrap your arms around yourself, trying your hardest not to shake.

“Are you cold?” he asks with worry in his voice.

“Yeah, a lit-“, you start but he gives you no time to finish your sentence already wrapping his arms around your body to pull you into his chest.

“If you could raise your butt for only a second I could pull the blanket from underneath us”, Hoseok tells you. You follow trying your hardest to get as much body away from the mattress as possible. After some struggling and amused giggling the blanket is finally free now wrapped around both of your sweaty bodies.

“That’s better”, you breathe, snuggling your face into his chest.

“Much better”, he answers playing with your hair.

“I missed you Hobi”, you whisper and you can hear his heartbeat quicken in his chest.

“I-“, he takes a shaky breath, “I missed you too Y/N”, he murmurs pressing a longing kiss to the crown of your head.

You press a soft kiss to the skin of his chest before pushing yourself far enough away from his body to be able to prop yourself onto your elbows. He watches you with half-lidded eyes and a tired smile on his lips. You reach out to thread your fingers through his locks, his lips parting in response.

“You have grown your hair”, you say, brushing a strand of hair out of his face.

“Yeah I wanted to try something new”, he answers you letting his eyelids fall closed at the feeling of you playing with his hair.

“It really fits you, you look very handsome”, you tell him leaning down to press a gentle kiss to the tip of his nose.

He smiles, his cheeks puffing out and he opens his eyes, they are sparkling like a whole galaxy is shining behind them.

“Thank you”, he mumbles shyly, touching your hair afterwards, “but you changed your hairstyle too. Why did you dye it?”

“I wanted a change. I got bored of my natural hair colour”, you tell him shrugging your shoulders. Suddenly panic fills your stomach, “Do you not like it?” you gasp holding your breath.

His eyes grow big, a look of panic written on his features. He shakes his head furiously.

“What? No, of course I like it. You look very beautiful”, he assures you cupping your cheek and you smile.

“Thank you Hobi”, you giggle kissing the palm of his hand.

“You always look beautiful”, he whispers and your heart flutters in your chest. You lower your head giggling shyly.

“I-“, you begin before you decide that actions speak louder than words. You wrap your arms around his chest, resting your head on his shoulder and squeeze tightly afterwards, “thank you so much Hobi”, you whisper into his ear before pressing a gentle kiss to the shell. “for everything”, you add kissing his neck.

He hums painting mindless figures onto your back with the tips of his fingers.

“Don’t mention it”, he murmurs pulling you even closer to his body.

The both of you fall silent after that, the exhaustion finally overtaking your wasted bodies. You let your eyelids fall closed, listening to Hoseoks steady heartbeat in his chest. It calms you making you drift off to sleep further and further.

Hoseok soft voice calling out your name rips you back to the land of the awake and you hum quietly, speaking is far too exhausting right now. “Can you promise me that you won’t regret today when tomorrow comes?” he asks nervously and you hum again pressing a tired kiss to his skin.

“Promise”, you murmur with the last bit of strength your body could muster.

“Thank you”, he whispers squeezing you to his body and pressing a kiss to your head. You hum again and after that your mind goes blank, sleep finally taking over you.

Your bladder screaming at you to finally get emptied wakes you the next morning. You open your tired eyes before yawning loudly. It can still wait a few more minutes; it’s just too warm and comfortable right now. You sigh rolling onto your side to press your face into the soft pillow. Since when did your bed become this comfortable? You press your face even further into the pillow before breathing in. It doesn’t smell like you or like Yoongi. Still it smells familiar. Too familiar. You open your eyes to inspect the strange pillow, only to be greeted with a shirtless Hoseok standing in front of you and a tray of food in his hands.

“Good morning beautiful, I let you sleep in given the fact how exhausted you have been yesterday. I made you breakfast”, he greets you with a bright smile. You stare at the tray of food first, you can spot a cup of steaming coffee, a plate of scrambled eggs and two pieces of toast as well as a plate of apple wedges. Simple, but your favourite.

Normally you would have melted at the sweet gesture, but your stomach twists painfully at the realisation of where you are. Memories of yesterday come rushing in, the big fight with Yoongi, you rushing out of his studio with tears running down your cheeks, the heartache you had felt. You look up, inspecting Hoseoks face. You feel nauseous. So it wasn’t a weird dream you had, but reality. In your hurt clouded mind you had run to your ex only to end up sleeping with him. You sit up, but your head spins too much and you fall back down again.

“Are you okay?” Hoseok asks putting the tray of food onto the floor to touch your face. He studies your features for a few seconds looking worried. “You don’t seem hot. Do you want me to get something for you? ”, he mumbles caressing the skin of your cheek.

“Hoseok did we, did we sleep with each other?” your voice is barely above a whisper.

“Yeah, why?” he answers hesitantly.

You are sure that your heart had actually stopped for a good second.

“No, no, shit”, you say slapping his hand away and throwing the blanket off your body before jumping out of bed.

“No?” Hoseok asks sounding hurt. He steps back nearly knocking over the tray of food but stopping soon enough.

“I, I shouldn’t have done this. It wasn’t supposed to go like this”, you stutter searching for your clothes scattered on the couch.

“You don’t mean that right now. You promised me yesterday that you wouldn’t regret it”, he croaks his shoulder sagging.

“Well I do. That was a mistake, I never should have come here”, you spit, slipping into your blouse and buttoning it up with shaky fingers.

“Y/N”, Hoseok gasps the hurt obvious on his face. You stare at him, guilt instantly washing over you.

“I’m sorry Hoseok”, you dismiss him half-heartedly. You grab your skirt wanting to put it on, only to notice the big tear on the sides. You groan hiding your face in your hands, “Great. My skirt is all ruined because of you”, you spit throwing it at Hoseoks chest.

He catches it, clutching onto the material with all of his might. He studies your face for a moment before looking to the ground.

“Do you maybe want to borrow one of my sweats?” he asks with a tiny voice.

“That would be great actually”, you mumble avoiding his pained eyes.

“I’ll get them for you”, he whispers before turning around and rushing to his closet. He kneels down, rummaging through the bottommost drawer before pulling out some grey sweatpants. He stares at them the whole way back to you, his knuckles turning white from clutching them so tightly.

“Here they’ll fit you, they”, he sighs, “they always did”, he adds looking away.

It hurts you, seeing him in pain. But you need to stay strong right now, for Yoongis sake. It was a mistake coming here and you need to make Hoseok hate you so something like this will never happen again.

“Thank you”, you say with a cold voice ripping them out of his hands.

“Yeah, you don’t need to return them, you can throw them away if you want to I don’t care.”

“Sure I’ll do that”, it hurts forcing these words out of your mouth, especially when you see Hoseok tense up. His hands start shaking clasping the material of his pyjama bottoms.

You pull the sweats on, the feeling of the soft material hugging your legs all too familiar. You sigh, straightening up and fixing your messy hair afterwards.

“I’ll see myself out”, you tell him grabbing your purse from the couch.

Hoseok hums, his eyes still staring holes into the ground. You study him for a moment, contemplating if you should hug him and apologize for being so mean to him. But you decide against it, turning your back to him instead and walking out of the living room with regret in your heart.

He doesn’t follow you into the vestibule, nor does he answer you when you yell “goodbye”. You don’t blame him. You throw his front door closed, leaning against it afterwards.

Stupid. You are so stupid. Now you managed to make two men hate you. You groan, rubbing your aching temples. Why do you keep making mistake after mistake?

You run down the stairs, once your dizzy head allows you to. You need to get away from here before you decide to ring his bell and fall around his neck to tell him how sorry you were for saying these words to him. You had slept with Hoseok. Had cheated on Yoongi. You had promised him that you would never do that to him and you still broke that promise. And for that you deserve to hurt, deserve to have Hoseok hate you. You groan stopping at the corner of the pavement to look for an unoccupied taxi. You had promised him.

Soon a taxi stops at your side and you jump in, telling the driver your address afterwards.

But still the sex had been great, being with Hoseok felt great, being able to feel his touch again was great. You shake your head, trying to rid yourself of these thoughts. No you shouldn’t think positively of this, it was still wrong of you to do. However, it wouldn’t be cheating if Yoongi never finds out about it. You could maybe keep it a secret and act like nothing had happened. The thought scares you and you want to push it away, but no matter how hard you try it stays anchored in your mind. What he doesn’t know can’t hurt him. Right?

Soon the taxi stops at your apartment and you pay the driver with a friendly smile. You jump out of the car breathing in the fresh morning air. Yes, you will call Hoseok later and apologize for treating him so unfairly and then you keep yesterday night a secret from Yoongi. He doesn’t need to know about it and everything can continue as always. You nod, weirdly calm and happy about your plan. You trot up your stairs, only now noticing how sore your legs felt. You still need to find some excuse for that.

You open the door, sighing loudly once you are in the safety of your home. You throw your high heels onto the floor, not really caring where they would land and hang the coat on an empty hanger. You shuffle down the wooden floors to the bathroom, stopping in your steps when you see a shadow sitting on your couch. You reverse your steps peeking at the living room area. Your eyes grow big, Yoongi is sitting on the couch with his arms crossed and a big frown on his face.

“Wow you startled me baby. I didn’t even hear you come in, since when are you here?”, you laugh nervously, stepping into the living room. His eyes fall on Hoseoks sweatpants hanging lowly on your hips and wander up to your messy hair.

“You were with him weren’t you?” Yoongi asks coldly. Your heart stops in your chest, your stomach twisting. Shit, shit, shit he wasn’t supposed to find out about it! Your heart begins to race, your throat constriction making it hard to breathe.

“Yoongi I-“, you whisper folding your hands in front of your crotch.

“No don’t try to find excuses. I understand, it’s okay. I hurt you I deserve this”, he assures you with a calm voice.

Your head snaps up to stare at him in utter disbelieve.

“What? No! Don’t say stuff like that! You don’t deserve this”, you say shaking your head.

“So it’s true?” he asks rising from the couch to walk to you. He looks at you, his eyes sparkling with childish hopefulness that you would say no.

“Yoongi I-“

“Just answer my question Y/N”, he interrupts you, his voice calm.

“Yes, yes I was”, you blurt out and you can see his eyes turn lifeless.

“Okay”, he says, his voice cold. He leaves the living room making you run after him.

“Say something please”, you plead, watching him kneel down to put his shoes on. He stands up sighing before putting his leather jacket over his shoulder.

“There isn’t much to say here Y/N. I understand he was your boyfriend for five years. It was unavoidable that you would have a fall-back. I would have just preferred it, if you would have had it whilst not being with me”, he states, his voice calm the frown on his lips the only indicator that he was hurting. Tears shoot straight to your eyes, your heart shattering in your chest.

“Yoongi I’m so sorry”, you sob, taking his hand to squeeze it.

“Sure you are. Contact me again if you actually mean it”, he scoffs ripping his hand out of your grasp to open the front door.

“Yoongi don’t go please I’m so sorry”, you plead trying to grab for his arm. He jerks back, obviously not wanting to be touched right now. He sends you a glare so cold you feel yourself shiver.

“Bye Y/N”, he says, his back already turned to you before he closes the door behind him, leaving you and your sobs alone.

[frankieabii]

|| Dear No One || Ch. 1

Summary: Bay St.James was perfectly happy crushing on guys from afar and writing love letters that she never dreamed she’d send. So what happens when the letters she prayed no one ever saw, suddenly got sent out to their intended recipients? Especially when one of those happens to be Bay’s sister’s boyfriend!

Pairing: Jungkook x OC, Yoongi x OC, Jimin x OC, Taehyung x OC, Hoseok x OC, Namjoon x OC, Jin x OC

Genre: Fluff, Romance, To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before!au, High School!au, Fake Dating!au, Friends To Lovers!au

Word Count: 1595

Warnings: none

Author’s Note: Holy crap my friends I am so freaking excited to post this story! I’m a HUGE ASS fan of TATBILB and I just HAD TO put it into a series. thanks to @chan-yolo​ for being so supportive of me writing this and reading everything for me lmao. CHAPTER 1 IS HERE!

For as long as I can remember, I have liked to save things, never anything important or relevant like the planet or an endangered species, hell, or even a cat stuck in a tree! It was always small things, charms, trinkets; like those small ugly porcelain figures you can find in thrift shops. Hair scrunchies by the bucket load. Love letters. Out of everything I have ever saved, my love letters are the things that mean the most to me. 

 The letters are kept hidden in a lilac box, topped with a silk rose that my mom got me when I was a child, from an old store in our town that no longer exists. They aren’t love letters, romantic notions, that someone else has written to me; I don’t get those. No, these are ones that I have written myself, and there's one for every boy I have ever loved - seven in total. 

 The first was Jungkook, when I was seven years old. Jungkook Jeon was the son of one of my mom's friends, a couple of years younger than myself but cuter than a bunny in spring. Floppy dark hair that always fell into in big brown eyes, and a little smile that resembled that of a bunny rabbit, tiny, sweet and blushing. I remember him coming over for playdates with myself and my sisters, which always ended up with us picking the games, overruling all ideas that Jungkook had had, insisting that we play house, dress up or have a tea party. I cringe at the thought now, how mean it was to force this five-year-old boy into tiaras and fairy wings, to be the dad when we played house. It went along for a year, until his dad got a job overseas and they moved away. I wrote the letter the day I found out he moved. 

 Next was Yoongi Min, a boy a year older than my nine-year-old self. He wasn't much taller than me but had warm brown eyes and a small smile when he was shy and a big gummy smile that could light up a room when he was laughing. Our dads worked together at the time, and his dad held a Christmas party for several of his work colleagues and their families, and my family was invited. It was a nice party, fancy food and glittering decorations that hung from the ceiling, and I enjoyed it until my nine-year-old self was unknowingly stood under mistletoe next to Yoongi. His mom insisted that he kiss me, as I was stood frozen in fear, he pressed a quick kiss to my cheek and then ran away very promptly, not before giving me one of his precious gummy smiles. I wrote Yoongi’s letter on New Year's Eve, and my dad got a new job a week later. 

 When I was eleven years old, there was Jimin Park, angelic face and innocent eyes that turned moon-shaped when he smiled or laughed. My mom had signed me up to dance lessons, and Jimin was assigned to be my partner. He moved so gracefully and elegantly, whilst I stomped around like an elephant in an awful mood. He was always so eager to help me perfect the dances and the movements, always patient when I struggled and enthusiastic when I got it right. Then, for Jimin, puberty hit like a bat out of hell and suddenly every girl wanted to be his dance partner, and I was cast aside like yesterdays news. Jimin’s letter was written in anger, that day after I got home, and refused a dance lesson ever again. 

 I fell in love with Taehyung Kim when I was thirteen years old at Evergreen Summer Camp. Taehyung had long dark hair that fell onto his eyes when he laughed, and a boxy smile that made him charmingly adorable. He was smart and funny, and was always causing mischief around the camp that my mom had insisted on sending me to, as my older sister Ivy had gone a few years prior and wanted to make it a tradition amongst my sisters and I. I followed him around like a lost puppy and clung onto his every word like a spider monkey, until he pushed me into the lake and laughed at me with his friends. I wrote his letter in my bunk, my hair matted with salt lake water. 

 Hoseok Jung was my first ever date. When his sunshine bright smile had asked me to a school dance when I was fourteen years old, I couldn’t say no. Hoseok had gotten me a flower to pin into my hair, that matched the one pinned onto the pocket of his shirt. We had laughed, and danced all night; myself horrifically and he danced with rhythm and excitement in every move. He kept dragging me out onto the dancefloor, even when I had protested that my feet were about to fall off, he spun me around the dancefloor like we were the only two in the room. He made my heart spin around the dancefloor too, so I wrote him a letter. 

 At 16 years old I fell in love with Namjoon Kim. With his blonde hair cut into a fashionable style; longer on top, with an undercut on the side, his black-framed glasses, the adorable dimples that graced his cheeks whenever he laughed or smiled, and his ability to recite a Friends quote for every occasion. Namjoon was smart, and somewhat popular, not through sports, mostly by association with the ‘in-crowd’, but still much more popular than myself and the friends I could count on one hand. It was about halfway through the school year when we were all invited to a party at one of the popular kid's houses, with smuggled alcohol and kids dancing on each other in every corner. Not exactly my scene, but coerced into going by my sister Ivy, and we somehow managed to get roped into playing a game of Spin The Bottle. And Namjoon was sat in the circle, his smile slightly hazy from alcohol he had consumed, but his eyes still bright and aware of what he was doing. So we took it turns to play, each of spinning the empty beer bottle, kissing whoever it landed on. The boys all whooped and hollered whenever someone kissed, and I buried myself further and further into my jumper, thankful that the bottle missed me each time. Until it was Namjoon's turn, that was. The bottle spun round and round, over and over until it achingly came to a stop and my feet, a blush rising to my cheeks in an instant, Ivy’s eyes widening in surprise. And so, playing by the rules, he kissed me. I wrote Namjoons letter a week later, after some several daydreams about that kiss. 

 And finally, number seven. Seokjin Kim. Jin. Jin is the year above me at school, and the year below Ivy, and moved into the house next door to us about four years ago. He and I became friends instantly, sharing the same taste in music and movies, and playing weird questions games for hours. I never really realized I had loved him until Jin and Ivy started dating about a year and a half ago. And then I wrote his letter. 

 When I write the letters, I don't hold back. I write about all the things I love, that annoy me, that makes me weak at the knees. Everything I think and feel goes into the letters, every secret thought, every careful glance of observation. Nothing is left out, as I write like he’ll never read the letter because he never will. And then when I’m done, the letter is sealed forevermore in an envelope, addressed, and then stored away in the lilac box. 

 But my letters aren’t love letters by definition. I write the love letters when I want the crush to be over. Done with. They’re goodbye to the feelings and thoughts that the crush gave to me. After I’ve written the letter, I feel a weight off of my heart and my shoulders, and I’m now longer weighed down by all-consuming love. I can go about my day like normal, I can watch a movie and eat popcorn and not wonder which sodas he likes to drink with his popcorn; apple tango for me, or if he’s more of a sprite kind of guy. I can sing along to songs on the radio and not be belting out my heart for him. My letters are my freedom, they set me free from my crush. Or at least I thought they would.

[ijungkooki]

Day 5: Jimin—Drawings

Week #1- Soulmate!AU

Word Count: 1.9k

A/N: another late post again sorry lol i lowkey struggled to write a good story so i’m not as happy with it but i did my best and this will have to do

Schedule

Jin | Yoongi | Hoseok | Namjoon | Jimin | Taehyung | Jungkook

I was sixteen when the first drawing appeared on the back of my left hand. It was a simple smiley face but I was ecstatic to finally have the first sign of my soulmate appear. I remember showing off the drawing to my parents—who were just as happy as I was—before drawing a small heart next to the face. It didn’t take long for the next drawing to appear, this time on my forearm.

hey soulmate :)

Over the next few years, multiple drawings would randomly appear. Sometimes they were small and simple while others would cover my arms. My favorites, though, were phrases that would appear on some rare occasion. They held beautiful and poetic meanings but were hastily scribbled on, as though my soulmate was a writer and didn’t want his ideas to fade away. Every time this happened, I always pictured them somewhere on a bus or a bustling cafe, inspired by some random passerby or event occurring around them. 

My favorite one was written on my wrist not too long ago. It said, “Our happiness was meant to be”. I wasn’t sure if it was a message for me or if it was just a random thought but it still warmed my heart when I first read it. 

Despite years of the occasional doodle or word on the arm or hand, we never learned each other’s names. Perhaps it was just to keep an air of mystery. Or maybe my soulmate wasn’t ready to meet me yet. Either way, I hadn’t pushed anything and just enjoyed the drawings we made for each other from time to time.

I was sitting in class, bored out of my mind. My professor was lecturing about the history of philosophy and I was doodling absentmindedly in my notebook where actual notes should be. As I was in the middle of sketching a flower, I realized it had been a while since I last communicated with my soulmate. I decided to draw the flower on my wrist for them.

Moments later, I saw them add on a sun just above the flower. I giggled as I drew a small cloud next to the sun. I hoped that wherever my soulmate was, they were enjoying our little art project. Then I saw something slowly being written on my arm.

bored?

I smiled a little before writing back.

philosophy isn’t the most exciting thing

“(y/n)! Are you even listening?” 

I looked up to see my professor all my classmates staring at me. While I was busy with drawing on my arm, I hadn’t noticed my professor calling my name multiple times. Blushing, I managed to stutter out a “Yes”.

“Then would you please tell me what Aristotle’s first philosophy is known as?”

I swallowed before searching for any clues to his question. The PowerPoint being shown up front didn’t give me the answer I needed and my notebook was out of the question. I looked down in shame.

“N-No, sir.”

“Then I suggest you pay attention in my class,” he responded before returning to his lecture.

Sighing, I looked back down at my arm and noticed that my soulmate responded to my message. 

same. i hate my professor. he just called out this person in my class for nothing.

I blinked at the message, looking at it again to make sure I read it correctly. Not only was my soulmate in a philosophy class but someone got in trouble too. Maybe that person was me. Surely, this couldn’t be a coincidence but I didn’t want to write another message in case I got scolded again. I decided to wait until after the bell rang to rush home and question them.

As soon as I arrived home, I washed my arm off so that I could have more room to write. I took out a blue pen from my school bag and thought about what to say.

what’s your professor’s name? I wrote on my arm.

I wasn’t sure if my soulmate was going to answer right away but I waited anyway. Luckily, I saw them write not too long after.

professor choi. why?

I gasped. The fact that we both took philosophy and our professors had the same name practically confirmed that we were in the same class. All these years, I had wondered who my soulmate was while they were probably sitting just a few seats away the whole time.

funny... my teacher has the same name and someone got called out in my class too.

I nearly laughed at his response which was just three bold exclamation points. Noticing that I was running out of room, I quickly ran my arm under running water and washed off the previous messages.

so we’re in the same class? My soulmate wrote immediately after I dried my arm.

i think so. 

I paused, thinking of something to say. At this point, the hand holding the pen was shaking and I’m sure my heart rate was a million beats per minute. I thought of all the faces in my philosophy class but I couldn’t pin my soulmate as any of them.

let’s meet tomorrow then. i’ll be waiting outside the classroom after class ends :)

Just a moment later, as if hesitating, my soulmate wrote something else that appeared on the back of my hand:

our happiness was meant to be <3

I smiled fondly at the words. My favorite quote made an appearance again and I couldn’t help but feel giddy over just a few words. I wondered if my soulmate was just as happy, nervous, and excited as I was that we were meeting tomorrow.

Tomorrow.

The fact that I was finally meeting my soulmate seemed unbelievable to me. I didn’t question why we never even said our names but now we were going to meet face-to-face. 

The next morning, I got up to get ready for school. I had washed off all of the messages and drawings from the day before except for the one on the back of my hand. I figured it would be used as proof when I met my soulmate. Dressed in something a little nicer than usual, I made my way to school with nerves and excitement kicking in.

Throughout the whole day, I did nothing but think about my soulmate. Though, it was probably bad that I wasn’t focused in any of my classes or seemed out of it to my friends. I was just extremely anxious. Of course, I was happy to meet them but nervous in case I wasn’t what they were expecting. I mean, we’re soulmates for a reason but I didn’t want create a bad first impression.

Finally, I made to my last class of the day: philosophy. Sitting at my desk, I looked around at my classmates, trying to see who would most likely be my destined partner in life. As soon as class began, I was antsy and fidgeting in my seat, counting down the seconds when the bell would ring.

“Alright, that’s it for today’s lesson,” my professor said and I swore I had never heard such wonderful words. “Class dismissed.”

I quickly gathered my things and shoved them into my backpack before heading out of the room. Since the school day just ended, the hallway was packed with students trying to head home. I would need to wait a little bit for the crowd to die down before finding my soulmate. Leaning against the lockers, I looked down at the message written on the back of my hand.

our happiness was meant to be <3

Smiling, I traced a finger over the heart. 

“(y/n)?” I heard someone say. 

Looking up, I saw Jimin standing in front of me, nervously playing with his long sleeves. He was one of the most well-known boys in school. Everyone wanted to be his friend not because of the popularity but because he was just a genuinely kind and outgoing person. Oh, and he was incredibly good-looking. It would be hard not too fall for his cute features. I was surprised to see him approach me.

“Jimin?” 

My heart was pounding so loud that I’m pretty sure he could hear it. Indeed, the boy standing before me was in my philosophy class. If Park Jimin was my soulmate, then I must have saved the world or something in a past life. There was absolutely no way that we were destined for each other.

“Hi...” he began, not meeting my eyes. “Sorry if I’m bugging you but I just want to ask you a quick question? If that’s okay?”

My heart was ready to explode.

“S-Sure,” I stuttered, mentally slapping myself. I’m sure I looked like a complete fool right now.

“Can I see your arm?”

With my heart skipping a beat, I nodded. Slowly, I raised my arm so that the message on my hand was visible to Jimin. I bit my lip nervously as he took hold of my hand. His touch was soft and gentle and he ran his thumb over the message. Jimin’s eyes widened once he finished reading it and looked up at me. 

Suddenly, he rolled up his sleeve to reveal the same message in the same place. Holding his arm next to mine, we compared the message together and saw that every stroke was exactly the same. 

“Does that mean we’re...” I trailed off.

“Soulmates?” Jimin finished in a quiet voice. “Let’s just check to be sure.”

He pulled out a pen and prepared to draw something. On the palm of his hand, he slowly started to sketch a star. While he was doing this, I kept an eye on my own palm to make sure his drawing appeared.

Sure enough, it did.

At that moment, it felt like time had stopped. Jimin’s eyes met mine before a smile took over his face and he grabbed me to pull me into a hug.

“I can’t believe we’ve been soulmates this entire time!” he exclaimed. 

I hugged him back tightly, relieved to finally have found my soulmate and happy to know that it was Jimin.

“I wish we found out sooner,” I laughed. 

Jimin pulled back but his hands were resting on my shoulders. He took in every detail of my face as if he were seeing me for the first time. I could’ve sworn he nearly had tears of happiness in his eyes.

“The only reason why I didn’t say anything about myself was because I thought you weren’t ready to meet me yet,” he explained.

“I thought the exact same thing!”

We both laughed at our similar way of thinking. If either of us had just built up the confidence to say something, this meeting would have happened years ago. As our laughter died down, he stared into my eyes again with amazement, softly caressing my cheek with his finger.

“Our happiness was meant to be,” he whispered with a gentle smile on his face.

“Out of everything you’ve drawn or written, that one is my favorite,” I informed him. “But where did it come from?”

“I don’t know if you know but I write songs every now and then,” he replied. “But I’ve never actually finished one. That message was just a lyric from an unfinished song. But if you like it so much, I think I’ll go back and work on it. After all, I have new inspiration now.”

I blushed as he winked at me. The thought of having a song written about me made me swoon. Especially one written by my soulmate. 

“So soulmate, want to head out and grab a bite to eat? We should get to know each other better now that we know we’re destined for each other,” Jimin suggested. 

“Sounds good to me!” I agreed.

He smiled at me response before taking my hand and kissing the back of it, right where the message was. Then he grinned before leading me outside.

[ohenoch]

Hogwarts!BTS

Oke so

This was pretty tricky to decide but here’s what I think

In Gryffindor, there’s Taehyung

In Hufflepuff, there’s Hoseok and Jimin

In Ravenclaw, there’s Jin and Jungkook

In Slytherin, there’s Namjoon and Yoongi

That’s just my opinion don’t kill me pls

So it works out that JK is in 3rd year, Tae and Jimin are in 4th year, Hoseok and Rm are in 5th year, Yoongi is in 6th year and Jin is in 7th

Okay so RM

So quiet and shy but really helpful and kind when he lets his guard down

Everyone thinks he’s this tall intimidating Slytherin who hates everyone but he’s actually very chill and a little scared of mostly everyone

Most people would guess he’s in Ravenclaw if it wasn’t for the tie and robes

He’s in Slytherin because he’s not only smart but ambitious and driven to do what he thinks is best

He’s a half-blood

Excels in every subject except for Potions, he’s too clumsy and can’t measure too well

His Patronus is an Eagle

Met Yoongi at his sorting ceremony and had been close to him ever since

Met Jin when he was in his 2nd year after a group of Gryffindors hexed him, Jin was the one to take him to Madam Pomfrey and get Jimin and Tae to charm the guys who did this to Joon

Met everyone else through Jin a month after

Wants to become a Divination Professor and break Slytherin stereotypes of being bad people who bully people  

Just a good. good guy 

onto Yoongi

Is a stereotypical Slytherin, hard-hearted and viewed as overconfident

Is actually really empathetic and kind but likes to not seem vulnerable

His whole house claim they’ve only seen him smile twice

He loves Defence of the Dark Arts the most because he learns to protect himself and the people he cares about most

He’s a muggle and he’s pretty insecure about it

Has one older sister who’s married to an Auror

Gets teased sometimes for being a muggle in Slytherin

Tries to show that it doesn’t affect him but Joon has heard him crying in his bed more than a few times

Taehyung tries to show Yoongi that blood status doesn’t really matter in this day and age

Wears skinny jeans instead of school trousers because he doesn’t give a fuck

Has a white cat called Dumpling

His Patronus is a leopard

Envies Hoseok and his friendliness

Wants to become an Auror and protect people

next is Jimin

Was so excited to come to Hogwarts and meet new people to befriend

Everyone thinks he’s the sweetest boy in the whole school

But they know better than that

There was this one time where Jimin physically attacked a Ravenclaw for slipping a sickness potion into Taehyungs cup at dinner once

Now everyone knows to tread carefully around him

Will do anything for his friends

His Patronus is an elephant

He’s a pureblood and the youngest in a family of successful Slytherin and Gryffindor wizards/witches who work at the ministry

His whole family were slightly disappointed at him being in Hufflepuff and act slightly different towards him

He and Taehyung are the terrible twins, add that with Jungkook and you have a trio of trouble

Is best at Potions and loves making new and weird stuff

Met Yoongi in his 1st year and wouldn’t leave the moody boy alone

Is a metamorphagus so his hair changes colour

Is the chaser on the Hufflepuff Quidditch team

Hopes to become a wandmaker even if his family don’t approve

Is super quick and nimble

Just a little cutie pie

Hoseok next

A stereotypical Hufflepuff with extra happiness

The brightest, friendliest guy you will ever meet

Loves all his friends

Could never hate anyone even if he tried

Some people find him annoying because of his personality and he gets so sad

He just doesn’t understand why people don’t like him, he’s never done anything bad to them

Loves charms the most, just loves having fun with magic

Has broken his wand too many times to count and is constantly getting it repaired by Jimin

His Patronus is a fox

He got so shocked when he found out because.  Foxes are scary

But they’re also cute and friendly

he’s from a well known pureblood family who are the most down to earth people you’ll ever meet

Has four sisters, three older, two working in the ministry the other who are married with kids and a younger who’s around 5

Met Jimin when he almost pushed him into the black lake on a day out with some kids from his house

Almost cried because of this

He and Jimin have been best buds ever since

He’s only gotten angry publicly one time

He and Yoongi found a bunch of kids hiding Namjoons possessions around the castle and they both just flipped

Namjoon and Yoongi had to rip him off of one of the guys after he called Yoongi a mudblood

Wants to have a muggle job and a job in the wizarding world

Jin

Absolute charmer

Everyone likes him and he’s very kind and thoughtful to everyone

Is an ideal Ravenclaw

Smart and logical

But is actually a good finder

Like when your mum can find your stuff even when you’ve looked in the same spots

Is a mum, an actual mum

Helps Madam Pomfrey out when he has free classes

He doesn’t have a favourite class, but he loves medicine and first aid and all that stuff so if he had to pick it’d be potions

Wants to heal people and help anyone in trouble, because he never had anyone to take care of him

He’s a werewolf, he had no one to help him through it and he hopes that nobody will go through what he would

Hides the fact that he’s a werewolf so nobody goes after him

His Patronus is a giraffe

Is closest with Namjoon but feels very protective over all the boys

He’s a half-blood with no parents, lives with his grandparents who are too frail to look after him but they do their best and he loves them to pieces

Hopes to become a doctor one day and save lives

Onto  Jungkook

Can seem like a cocky little shit

But is actually pretty reserved and shy sometimes

His Patronus is a lion, so it’s kinda controversial

Adopted by a half-blood family but is genetically pure blood

He doesn’t care for his real parents as they gave him up when he was a few weeks old

But now feels as though he has to prove himself and be the best at everything to make up for his parents leaving him

But he loves his family

Has two brothers,and a sister, all older than him

Makes friends pretty easily but is only close with a fair few

His favourite class is Flying/Quidditch or Care of Magical Creatures he can’t choose

Loves animals a lot

Has a pet owl

Loves to explore the castle and find new and hidden places

Loves talking to the ghosts and paintings to find out about them

His Patronus is a rabbit

Plays as a Beater on the Ravenclaw Quidditch team and absolutely loves it

Once broke Tae’s arm by accidentally hitting him instead of the bludger

Tae got his revenge by making him fall off of his broom about 60 feet from the ground

Is close with all the boys and tries to see them as much as possible

But it’s hard when they’re all in different years

Quotes vines to all his half-blood and muggle friends down the hallway and all the purebloods try to figure out what’s happening

“This bitch empty YEET”

“Why are you throwing your cauldron down the hall, you need that”

Can see into the near future, the furthest he could see was two weeks but never got any further than that

Wants to become a Quidditch player and win that sweet sweet money

Taehyung now

He was a little apprehensive about Hogwarts at first and was a little frightened

He didn’t know much about the houses until after a few weeks when his new friend Jimin explained it to him

He doesn’t know if the hat made the right choice putting him in Gryffindor

He’s a muggle with one older brother and his dad

His mother left them when he was a child

His favourite lesson is Herbology, he found out quickly that he had a green thumb

Has plants everywhere and sometimes plants flowers in the school courtyards just to liven the place up

Can be very mischievous and sly

Once made the caretakers hair glittery because he confiscated one of his plants after it tried to bite him

“Don’t you dare touch Henry you foul, ghastly creature”

Will kill you if you hurt his plants

Almost stabbed a kid in the hand with a gardening fork after they pulled out a baby plant

His patronus is a monkey

Is a beater on the Gryffindor team along with Jungkook

These two together are an unstoppable force

Knew he was a Gryffindor when he took a hex for Namjoon without any doubt

Found the secet passgeway to the kitchens and hangs with the elfs and sometimes helps out

Made a pact with Peeves to not hurt any of his friends or him and to hep out against bullies

Values his friends more than anything

Wants to become a Herboligist and travel the world to discover new plants

[jiminpoppins]

Note: this is a continuation of a post // extremely long

101 reasons why Jikook/Kookmin is my ultimate OTP or 101 times Jikook made my heart flutter (Part 2)

PART 1

51) A jikook compilation wouldn’t be a compilation without THE back hugs.

Hands on waist...

Chin on shoulder...

52) Not long after Jimin tweeted a pic of ramen, Jungkook indirectly replied to him by posting FOUR selcas of him along with a message telling him his ramen looked bland. idk about you but i found this interaction cute.

53) The artistic couple.The muscle pig and manggaetteok drawings that were featured in Snow App. They even drew the chicken drawings on the menu at Isac. I can imagine them sitting and drawing random things together. ㅠㅠ 

54) Jimin posted not one but three videos on Jungkook’s birthday, which means he wished Jungkook three times on SNS and made my head spin thrice.

55) Jimin and Jungkook took photos of each other sleeping.

56) When Jungkook thought there was no camera around when they were rounding the corner so he went up to Jimin and slid his hand around his waist. Little did he know they got caught on camera. I’d like to thank Yoongi’s vj for this awesome footage.

57) The many times Jimin has summoned Jungkook for Armys. In simpler words, Jungkook always tweets something after Jimin, and we all know how seldom he appears on Twitter.

58) “hyung has cute toes” Okay but like who lingers around his friend’s photo shoot and randomly blurts out that he has cute..toes????

59) The look! Jungkook’s expression when he’s feeding Jimin earns him a spot on this list haha. Tbh They’re kinda like eyefucking eo when jimin’s being fed. look at Jimin’s eyes. Apart from that I like how Jungkook fed him.

60) Their interactions the whole ISAC. Masterlist 👣

61)  How can I miss this? Jikook in Japan..this one has a special place in my heart. Back in 2016, it had been just a casual discussion between me and my friends on kakao. Never thought jikook would continue displaying PDA every single time they go to Japan. What’s more when they have very strict no-camera policy during concerts.

62) The amount of heart eyes they shoot at each other.

63) When they had a dinner date in the dorm to promote Mala Hot Chicken. What baffled me was that Jungkook mentioned beforehand he wanted to sleep but he still accompanied Jimin. I’m soft.

64) Jimin has made it very apparent, truly obvious that he likes jungkook. Whether it’s liking him as a dongsaeng, or just someone he’s extremely comfortable with, Jimin always, without failing, reminds us who he dotes on. “Why do I like you so much?” Lately, I’ve been crazy because I like Jungkook so much. I think of this as a start of something beautiful, and I am so glad Jimin didn’t even hesitate in expressing his feelings towards the maknae. I think this might have helped jungkook unwind. Look at jungkook now. That’s some character development right there :)

65) Massage. Quoted line from AHL mentor, Tony Jones “They are very touchy feely and to them, it’s nothing. I’d walk into the room and Suga’s massaging V’s neck or Jimin’s giving Jungkook an intimate back massage..”

66) When Jungkook bent down so he would get closer to Jimin and put the rein-kook headband on Jimin’s head. They’re separated a lot of times during fansigns but somehow they managed to get tgt at the end.

67) When Jungkook blows a kiss, then turns to Jimin whose lips are puckered and does the same to him, using the same fingers he used earlier. Okay I’ve been meaning to say this. Realistically speaking, if you pucker your lips and you put your fingers on them, wouldn’t your saliva stick to your fingers? I’m not trying to imply anything here, just genuinely asking haha. 140529 Ameba Studio

68) When a webtoon artist gave Jimin two dolls, but Jimin decided to give one to Jungkook. She even posted a webtoon of them. To be honest who wouldn’t?

69) *screams to the people in the back* ALL-NIGHTER FRIENDS!!! As written by the man himself, “ALL the time, it’s just the two of us doing something at night. I don’t know what we do”

70) Jungkook scribbling hearts all over Jimin’s birthday drawing. He’s one whipped man.

71) Just other instances Jungkook and Jimin flirting on stage. 

//gif above isn’t mine//

72) When Jimin and Jungkook chose each other when asked “if you were a girl, who would you date?”

73) The shocking fact that Jungkook demanded an apartment from Jimin as a graduation gift. Like, apartment? of all things? What kind of domesticity is this?

74) The way Jungkook takes care of Jimin even though he’s the younger one, and how Jimin is there when he’s the one seeking comfort.

75) I will never forget the Gayo Back hug, ever. I’ve mentioned back hug somewhere above, but this is different.This deserves a point of its own.

76) When Jimin took off one of his rings at the airport and gave it to jungkook.

77) When Jungkook stopped in front of Jimin during his part in For You at Osaka concert, and kind of directed the lyrics for Jimin. Jimin just couldn’t stop smiling afterward :((( The lyrics are: It smells like you The road that I walk on I plug my earphone to my status My true feelings lie beyond there

78) When Jimin and Jungkook steered away from the bunch and instead opted for some alone on the cruise. people say you smile the brightest when you’re with someone you love, yes?

79) The fact that Jimin wanted to become napa cabbage after seeing Kook dressed up as a bunny, so he could eat him, albeit choosing to be cheese initially. What even is that statement lol 👣 

80) The morph of their dynamic. I kind of miss their old moments, when Jimin was bolder, more carefree, and Jungkook seemed to be too shy to reciprocate. (on camera). Now they have matured. They have grown up well. A wave of nostalgia sweeps over me. The transition of their relationship is extremely beautiful.

81) When Jimin became Jungkook’s makeup artist for a day, hovering around the set, even drawing a pic of a bird that’s used as a prop later.

82) their size difference might be exaggerated at times, but you really can’t deny that it is cute, even if it’s not much.

83) When Jungkook changed the lyrics in Spring Day to Jimin.                       Like a small piece // Of Jimin // That floats in the air 

84) When Jungkook showed to the world what a sweet boyfriend he is,making jimin laugh, sitting him on his lap, hugging him on his birthday. Sweet sweet jungkookie.

85) Let’s state the obvious- 21CG choreos!!! i love how they evolved, just like their remarkable, legendary nmd lift.

86) Their sensual dance covers.

87) When Jungkook guides and encourages Jimin during games/missions.

88) The many times Jimin has been spotted wearing Jungkook’s clothes, despite the well-known fact that Jungkook doesn’t share clothes. Newsflash: Jungkook wears Jimin’s too!

89) We know Jungkook knows Jimin like the back of his hand, but that doesn’t mean that Jimin knows any less. I think they spend time together way too much.👣

90) How often the word “JIMIN” trips off Jungkook’s tongue- this what fascinates me the most. At one time he even mistook Jin for Jimin.

91) Jimin’s eagerness to kiss Jungkook for his Coming of Age, being the first one to hold out a hand for a game of Rock Paper Scissors. Bon Voyage season 1

92) When Jimin waited over an hour for Kook to finish filming BTS Flower Boy mini drama, even though he’d finished his part. Jimin couldn’t even stay mad at him for not telling, like how fond is he?

93) The fact that Jungkook is more than comfortable speaking in banmal with Jimin.He once said in Idol Party that he prefers talking in jeondaetmal (polite language) with his hyungs but look at the amount of times he’s dropped the honorific and called Jimin by his name. uhm, let’s talk about treating the other as equals?

94) Jimin and Jungkook, the human embodiment of Piske Usagi.

95) When Jungkook’s bro drew Jungkook as Muzi and Jimin as Con, the inseparable duo on Kakao. Bro knows. 👣

96) In Kkul FM 2016, When Jungkook and Jimin nearly intertwined their fingers . Scoffs bh seemed to think it’s okay to abruptly cut off their scene. What intrigues me most is that they weren’t even looking but their hands still somehow managed to find their way around. Also other instances they hold hands. I love how Jungkook’s slightly bigger hands envelop Jimin’s smaller ones. *Jimin’s pinky tho!*

97) How they’re destined to meet. The fact that they’re both from Busan, have matching moles, Jungkook’s bro named Junghyun and Jimin’s bro named Jihyun..imagine what would’ve happened had Jimin not been the last one to enter Bangtan.

98) When Jimin said he'd be looking at the ocean with Jungkook but Jungkook straight up rejected him and chose to go on a trip with his bro instead. It was quite a strong statement but a moment later Jungkook proved it wrong by reaching out and squeezing Jimin’s hand underneath the table, kinda like a reassurance that it’s all part of a joke. He cares. He truly does.

99) During Jin’s birthday prank at MAMA, these two couldn’t keep their hands off each other. The moment they entered the bathroom, they almost shut everything out-talking to themselves, picking on the cake- until the members gave them the signal to stop w/e they’re doing. Months later Mama kindly revealed another footage, this time consisting of just them, in the bathroom, jungkook right in the middle of buttoning up his jacket, wearing nothing underneath. How was I supposed to sit still?

100) When Jungkook and Jimin take skinship to a whole new level, or simply put, the times Jikook makes us question the real intention behind their acts and excessive skinship.

101) Last but not least, Perhaps my all time favorite moment- When Jungkook was caught observing Jimin’s every move, literally had his eyes only on him.

(Mark 1:17 onward)

I super love this video bc the song chosen matched so well with the situation- like they wanted to reach out but couldn’t so they stayed put, could only observe the other from far...

and that’s it! thank you, you made it to the bottom of this post! In short, everything about jikook makes me feel content. I had thought of doing more  but despite my brain literally screaming at me “Include this! You forgot this!”, I had to stick to 101. Anyway, I hope this mends your longing hearts. Have a lovely day! Thank you for reading!

Bonus because I have to:

when the members revealed on BTS KKul FM 2017 that Jungkook bought a birthday present only for Jimin. Am I your favorite hyung?

When Jungkook, the youngest in the group, called Jimin who is 2 years older than him a baby. 애기야가자 !

[silverglyph]

FRAME BY FRAME - All References in the MIC DROP Fan Video by Kiera and Arwen (with pictures and links)

First of all, go follow @seiyoko and @salukiart, they are amazing artists, animators, and creators!

If I missed any references, please message me and I will add them in!

The opening line of Dope - 0:13

At 0:08 in the video, all member’s names are graffiti’d on the walls.

A line from the song Come Back Home

From about 0:25 to 0:29, Steve Aoki’s eyes watch over the boys from the Mic Drop remix. Also, the TV says ARMY <3

Also at 0:29, there are posters lining the walls from BTS’s past comebacks. If you look closely, you can also see their logo on the controllers (this is much more easily visible later on in the video). The room MIGHT also be modeled to look like a room in their current dorm but I’m not sure.

At 0:30, the first screen of the game finally shows up, and it lasts for about 10 seconds. In that time, we can see:

The stage is modeled from their first music video, No More Dream

J-Hope (who’s character name is written as JHS in the game-- short for Jung Hoseok, his real name) is firing a Supreme gun that shoots fake money (lol).

The little mascot in the Info section is Van, a mascot from the BT21 series created by BTS and Line. Each mascot was made by/represents one member of BTS, except for Van, who represents ARMYs.

“Today, your dream begins! A new path has been opened, don’t hesitate!” I am pretty sure these are lyrics from one of their songs since, throughout the video, Van pretty much mostly speaks in lyrics. I haven’t been able to find this one though.

At 0:41, the stage changes to reflect their We Are Bullet Proof Pt. 2 music video.

Van’s quote “It’s like a desert here, there’s nothing but rocks” is a reference to the hidden song on the LYH album, Sea.

ALSO, a some of the monsters designs are based on lyrics and references from BTS’s music. I’m sure all of them are but I just can’t make the connection. Maybe the rock monster is also a reference to Sea?

Edit: Apparently most of the enemy designs are based off of album covers! This is according to Kiera’s twitter.

At 0:46, Suga joins the party as MYG (short for Min Yoongi, his real name).

J-Hope’s special attack at 0:48 is a reference to the short movie he stars in during the Wings era called MAMA (also the name of his solo song in the Wings album).

I’m not sure I even have to put this, but the great transition at 0:51 is a dead ringer for the iconic MIC MIC BUNGEE move that Suga and J-Hope do in the Mic Drop remix MV.

So now Suga is in the frontlines, attacking. His method of attack is the lighter he’s seen with throughout the entire HYYH series. It first made it’s appearance in the I NEED U music video (seen clearly at 0:29).

The stage has changed to reflect their music video N.O. The red and white color palettes of the monsters in this area are supposed to reflect the red and white album.

And at 1:05 (we’re only A MINUTE INTO THIS VIDEO WOW), they’re in the classroom setting from Boy In Luv. I have no idea what the monster is supposed to be. Is it balancing on a candle? Chalk? Does it represent the red string of fate???

Whoa hey, it’s 1:07 and we’re in the Just One Day music video! I’m fairly sure that paper airplane monster refers to the paper airplane J-Hope had in Spring Day? (At 3:20.) I don’t recall paper airplanes in their other MVs unless there was one in Just One Day that I missed?

Also, it looks like V has shown up! (As KTH, or Kim Taehyung.)

Suga’s special attack starts at about 1:09 and lasts until 1:14. In it, he throws a rock at the monster, an alarm goes off, and a piano falls on the monster’s head. This is a reference to the short film FIRST LOVE, released during the Wings era. In it, Suga throws a rock into a music store, where a piano sits, and an alarm goes off.

Back in the real world at 1:15, we can see more detailed posters from different eras. I just know the Dope era one on the right.

At 1:18, we’re in the underground subway setting for Danger. (If it wasn’t obvious, the stage appearances correspond to the order the actual music videos were released in.) V unleashes his attack, unfurling black wings and firing feathers. In the MV for Blood, Sweat, and Tears, as well as other subsequent material during this era, V was seen and associated with black wings. I think he’s fighting the Gucci snake? Because V loves Gucci in real life?

Also, Van is back! “It’s already your second year, time flows fast...” references their song Second Grade/So 4 More (which is an underrated BANGER btw).

Also, easter egg time: There’s graffiti reading “What Am I to You?” which is the title of one of their intro songs.

New player! Jin (aka KSJ, aka Kim Seokjin) appears at 1:24 and fights by blowing kisses :). Blowing kisses at ARMYs is pretty much his thing lol. Also, blowing kisses sends out hearts that hurt the enemy, and while that’s a common visualization for blowing kisses, I pray that its also a reference to Jin’s heart events.

They’re at the storefront present in the War of Hormone MV. The enemy he’s fighting is, I think, one of the black-clothed goons from Not Today and the Mic Drop remix MV. (It also appeared in Kiera’s last full-length fan animation of Cypher Pt. 3. That video is itself chock-full of references! Incidentally, I believe Van’s quote here is also referencing that song.)

Two seconds later at 1:26, Jimin (aka PJM, aka Park Jimin) makes his appearance. This time, they’re at the bonfire scene from I NEED U (also appears in their prologue MV I think). Their fighting a flower monster that I don’t know the significance of.

Jimin attacks with an umbrella. I think the umbrella is from the Love Yourself short films but I’m not entirely sure.

At 1:37, we get our first look at the achievement system in this game.

It’s all the awards they’ve won up until this point! Really awesome touch.

Two new players appear this time: Jungkook (JJK, Jeon Jungkook) and RM (KNJ, Kim Namjoon). I have no idea what Jungkook’s attack is: he pulls some string from his wrist and it transforms into a spear?  Jungkook’s attack may be referencing the move from DNA. Strands of DNA come oout of his arm and form a spear. (Thank you @bangpdofficial!)

The stage is a scene from their Dope MV. Van’s quote, “so this is Bangtan style,” references the same song.

I am almost certain that the lion enemy has a mane modeled after the lily flower that appears frequently in the Bangtan Cinematic Universe. It’s even got six petals.

At 1:46, Jimin unleashes his special attack. The attack involves him eating an apple and then teleport-kicking the enemies. I think this is a reference to his short film, LIE.

The stage is from the For You MV, a song/MV exclusively released in Japan. I am not sure what the enemies are supposed to be.

Jimin’s kick transitions into the next scene, where the stage is modeled after the tunnel scene from the RUN MV. I am pretty sure the enemy is a reference to Baepsae/Crow-tit, and this bird represents the wealthy older generation.

A wild BTS lightstick appears at 1:53! (Also, we got some new scenes of their room with some new posters.) 9:18 might refer to the date the Love Yourself album was released (thank you anon!)

A new stage shows up at 1:55. I don’t quite recognize it but it might be the Japanese version of I NEED U? We can also get a clearer look at the bird from Baepsae.

At 1:57 we come to yet another new stage modeled after the Japanese Run MV. It’s filled with graffiti of the names of a ton of their songs. 

V activates his special attack. A single lightbulb hangs from the ceiling and a table appears, which he kicks towards the baepsae. I believe it’s a reference to his interrogation scene in his short film, STIGMA.

Also, in a blink-and-you’ll-miss-it moment, V’s attack animation ends with him giving a peace sign and his adorable puppy Yeontan popping out of his pocket.

Two minutes into the video and we get a new stage (modeled after the Fire MV) and we finally see RM’s attack. He pulls out a giant lollipop and smacks enemies with it. He’s frequently seen with a yellow lollipop in the Bangtan Cinematic Universe.

And now they’re in a stage modeled after the Save Me MV.

Again, the stage changes into one based on Young Forever. I don’t know what that enemy’s supposed to be, but he’s pretty cool looking. And an animation for downed party members has never been so cute. (But what is that in Jin’s arms?)

At 2:08, RM provides an assist move that revives V and Jin. It takes the appearance of his BT21 mascot, Koya.

We get another look at the achievements screen at 2:10. It’s coming along nicely!

And a level selection screen a couple of seconds later! Not only does it show the title of the MV, but the description includes the album the song came from. The level code is also the date of the comeback (thank you @bangpdofficial)

2:18 shows a stage based on the Blood, Sweat, and Tears MV, as well as my favorite enemy design in the whole video: a dear featuring the circle designs from the Wings album cover. 

For his special attack, RM unleashes a phone booth to crush the enemies, referencing his short film REFLECTION.

More awards!

Also, seems like the boys have started taking notes. You can see a DNA strand drawn on the bottom one (blocked a little by the YouTube bar--sorry about that).

New stage at 2:30! It’s the train from Spring Day. Van’s line about forgetting shoes also references the lone pair of shoes featured many times in that video.

Jin summons his pet sugar gliders to restore the HP of the rest of the party (to the bewilderment of Van).

Jin uses his special attack in the Not Today stage at 2:45. He takes a photo with the polaroid camera seen many times in the Bangtan Cinematic Universe, and it turns the enemy to stone. It crumbles away under his touch. This might relate to the way Jin crumbled as though he were stone in the Blood Sweat and Tears MV.

At 2:50, we’re taken to a new stage. I think it’s based on the Japanese MV of Blood Sweat and Tears. Van’s quote is another reference to the song Sea.

A closer look at the controller at 2:55.

Even more awards! Too many that I can’t even count ‘em.

And at 3:03, we see a DNA-based stage. Van’s quote is once again from Sea.

Jungkook’s special attack has all the other members in BTS appear behind him in succession before he delivers a punch to the enemy. It’s safe to say that this references the song (not the short film) BEGIN, which is something of an ode to the hyungs of Bangtan. <3 (song) (film)

3:20. Hey look it’s pretty much a direct replica of that one scene from DNA (at 3:49).

At 3:25 we get our first look at the game over screen. Among a bunch of other “you have failed” messages, there’s this one (”don’t be such a try-hard”) that further references Baepsae.

Looks like they keep getting knocked out in the Mic Drop stage. That weird rainbow ball from DNA is tough.

Van’s words of encouragement are nearly a direct quote from the best-known line in Sea. “Where there’s hope, there’s trials.”

Last but not least, BTS’s achevements have earned them a spot on the world’s scoreboard, their debut on Billboard’s Hot 100 as number 28. <3

This fan animation was absolutely stellar and the attention to detail was mind-blowing. Even the tiniest details like how each member’s idle animation would work had so much thought put into it. Again, mad props to @seiyoko, @salukiart and @yowgurt for their incredible work!  

[celestial-jeon-remade]

- Connecting It All -

Okay so I’ve realized that the videos can actually connect to some parts of a theory I wrote when BS&T jpn version came out (pictured below)

  Jin jumps timelines trying to “go back to that time” like his posters say because he wants to save the others. He’s like their guardian angel in that way. But something always happens. Either he dies in the timeline (INU jpn vers) to save the others or the others die (jk car accident/tae suicide/hobi overdose). Either way nothing can go back to normal. 

Jin is meant to fix everything. So when he fails, the timeline collapses and he has to start over again. Him changing shirts shows the different times/ways he’s tried to save them. The one time he made a selfish act and decided to see the girl w the notebook instead of work on finding the boys not only does he see her get hit but it reminds him of Jungkook’s accident which he at one point in the timeline feels he has caused, so he is brutally reminded of his role and starts the timeline over again. It also happens in the very beginning of the story rather than the end. 

 The train crossing represents the passage between the realm of the living(earth/reality) and the spirit realm (like from Demian).

 The girl serves as a reminder for Jin. The notebook was his. She was already dead from the car crash in the beginning, heading toward purgatory. Dropping Jin’s notebook was meant to make Jin realize he can’t run away from the past and leave things broken. Everything will just start over again. 

Jungkook has amnesia and in the Begin short film we can see the inside of his mind. As it wears off he starts drawing both in the timeline (2nd teaser) and in his mind (painting and drawing). He’s remembering someone (Yoongi). 

Grabbing that girls hand shows him grasping his memories. The girl, his memories, trigger his flashbacks with Yoongi by making him pay attention to the song Yoongi’s girl was playing. When he finally has those flashbacks the girl is no longer needed to remind him of his memories. He recovers mentally and physically. Like the child of Omelas, his surroundings are bright and peaceful but he himself is left in the dark, his mind like the basement the child was trapped in. 

While Jungkook tries to hold onto his memories Yoongi tries to get away. He’s always rejecting help (RUN mv & teaser 3) but even after Jungkook gets hurt and he blames himself, he’s still trying to shake off the memories like he does as he’s walking around the streets drunk (he has turned to self destructive tendencies) trying to get the girl, his memories and reminder of Jungkook, to go away. He prefers not knowing, (ignorance is bliss) thinking it’s easier than getting involved or attached which is why we see him covering Jimin’s eyes (he originally was suppose to cover Jin’s in BS&T too) because things are better left alone than pondered on. Because of his actions, Jungkook was hurt so now he hopes his inaction protects himself and the others. He feels as tho he is the white lighter in their live and he brings misfortune as he is seen with a white lighter in INU and the teaser videos (the myth of the white lighter is that it brings death and misfortune to artists). “Don’t come near me, you’ll only be hurt" 

The issue with Jimin is that Jimin is thinking ‘i want to BE her’ rather than ‘i want to be WITH her’ (there’s been a lot of misunderstandings here) the camera recording is important, think back to Lie short film. He makes the girl as his best possible self, the one who can help Hobi, so he tries to be like her by ‘watching’ her closely/recording her as she’s with Hobi, he’s actually studying the things that make him happy. However what he misses is that she remains close to hobi and by his side while Jimin stays distant cause he still thinks he’ll hurt Hobi somehow "I lied because there is no reason to love someone like me” he’s creating a persona of this girl who can be Hobi’s missing mother/sister figure because he doesn’t believe the person who he is now is capable of loving/being loved, taking care of hoseok, etc basically- his camera in the highlight reel is him taking snapshots of what he should be like, while the one in lie is capturing what he’s actually like- just sitting there fighting w himself. 

When they collapse it’s because Jimin’s mentality and self confidence is breaking down. They’re two sides of the same person. When he scrubs the blood off of him he his trying the remove the remains of his facade. Hoseok tries to save Jimin. He’s carrying the girl because this persona of him is who he knows. The stripped down figure of Jimin is him watching as he dies. Perhaps Jimin is always wet because it’s how he tried to kill himself and cause he was soaked while Hobi tried to carry him to save him. 

Hoseok truly embodies the angel thing. Even his quote is selfless “as long as you shine, I’m okay”. In the MAMA short film we see that he has Munchausen Syndrome, caused by emotional childhood trauma. This disorder has no physical affect but the patient will feign symptoms in order to receive sympathy and attention. They are treated with a placebo, but rather than a sugar pill, Jimin was his placebo. Jimin’s nurturing persona acted as the placebo he needed to fill the void his mother left in his life. Without Jimin, he turns to other placebos like a sugar pill (pure white/INU) or even actual drugs (MAMA/BS&T jpn).

Namjoon is just watching. His failure to save Tae in the past leads to him being too hesitant to take any action. It’s possible that the girl is Tae’s sister from stigma/inu. He can’t be there for Tae in other ways but watching out for the girl. He sees her as what he should be but since he can’t take that action he’ll watch over the one who does. He even leaves the girl a hair tie when he sees she used a rubber band. The girl is someone he admires, she’s an activist, just as he once was admired by Tae. He can become someone better, but he can’t act right now because “it’s not the right time”. She is a reflection (wink wink) of who he wants to be.

Tae on the other hand was the follower then, but now has a follower of his own. The girl serves as a reminder of him and namjoon. He takes action by protecting the girl and stepping out in front of the police. In a way, he’s repenting for his past by not letting her fall onto his path. He finally takes responsibility. Rather than following after Namjoon or being protected he starts fending for himself. “Won’t Trust Can’t Trust Don’t Trust”.

 After feeling betrayed by Namjoon and the phone call that was never answered he cuts everyone off (chucking his phone) and he goes by “won’t trust can’t trust” and for a while he lets the girl follow him, or more so drags her with him, as if she is a reminder of what he’s done and what’s he believed in. But then he finally lets go and faces reality and consequence.

 Notes: 

The time traveling would explain the double Jungkook’s in Spring Day and Jimin’s in BS&T jpn videos. The timelines could have morphed. Based on “Through the Looking Glass” everything follows the butterfly effect and the slightest change could disrupt everything 

Jin catching the flowers before they fell could be an action that, following the Butterfly Effect, could have changed everything. 

A freight train refers to hauling around burdens and problems; each of the boys had a different situation that weighed on their minds.  

The girls all put weight on their consciences. Notice how Hoseok is the only one who can’t let go. Tae takes responsibility for his actions, Namjoon learns to better himself, Jimin stops his facade, Jin accepts his role, Jungkook finally remembers his past, an Yoongi drowns his sorrows and memories in alternative methods. Hoseok however cannot bring himself to let go of whatever filled that void in his life.  

At the end of everything Jin catches the flowers, showing that no matter how many times he has to go through with this he’ll try every time. There are times when he wanted to give up, like when he set the flower petals on the floor in INU after he failed the timeline, but he can’t give up on his friends. He’s their guardian and he will save them. 

The story of Love Yourself is one of forgiveness, acceptance, and change. Forgiving others, and forgiving ourselves. Acceptance, and divergence. Changing ourselves for the better, and for a brighter tomorrow. It is a long passage, burdened with those reminders and memories on your conscience but you can set off the little things that will make a big difference.

[hiraethtae]

BTS Fic Rec | part 1

**- fav ***- amazing fics i love

see you through the screen by FlaminkoMage ***

There was Taehyung, a popular internet blogger, and there was Jeongguk, one of the most famous idols in Korea.

AU where Taehyung manages to befriend his favorite singer without even knowing it.

note: it’s ongoing! ( no smut, slow burn )

#Taehyung\jungkook

min yoongi, the park jimin stan by lovelivesinthedream 

Min Yoongi is a few things: college student, amateur music producer, composer, lyricist, and part-time cashier. Min Yoongi is not a fanboy for idol groups. No way.

At least not until he sees BTS perform for the first time and is instantly captivated by Park Jimin.

note: it’s ongoing! ( no smut, fluff )

#yoongi\jimin

Before I Fall by riinkuun (corporalrin) **

Jimin isn't all too fond of the popular idol group, BTS. Okay, so he knows most of their songs and even has a favorite member. And he might have memorized at least one piece of choreography for one of their songs. He would really like them more if it weren't for the notorious douche bag of the group, Jungkook, weren't in it. However, when he and Taehyung get a chance to meet up with the idol group, Jimin gains some unwanted attention from a certain someone he'd rather have no involvement with.

note: completed! ( enemies to lovers, fluff, every fangirls dream )

#jimin\jungkook

all because of you by xxdevilishxx for chunshi **

jeongguk frowns, ruffling his own hair, and whispers, "even if you’re j-hope in front of the fans, you don’t have to play that part in front of the rest of us. i like hobi hyung a lot, but i like hoseokie hyung even more.”

(based off festa 2016 where the anonymous letter for hoseok stated how sometimes he made the members uncomfortable by being too happy and excited)

note: oneshot ( one of my most fav fics because i’ve never read anything like it. pure and sweet. wished it was longer tho ;3; )

#jhope\jungkook

I Want You To Be My Night by TheOrgasmicSeke 

The Big Bad Wolf may be big, but he's really not all that bad. He's more like an over sized puppy who just wants to be loved.

note: oneshot! ( jungkook is the cutest werewolf and yoongi is a caring person )

#yoongi\jungkook

그 손을 내밀어줘, Save Me by TheHalesNyx **

That’s when Min Yoongi, self-declared ‘simple man’, turned the corner onto his street, mid-yawn, his breath escaping with a small squeak he’d never admit he made, when he collided into another body, and his ‘simple man’ life was thrown into chaos.

In which Jungkook is angry, nearly a high school drop out, and alone, and Yoongi is an adult who is struggling, and somehow, they find someone to save them in each other.

note: completed! ( has the same vibe like ‘i want you to be my night’ but this whole fic just made me have faith in humanity again )

#yoongi\jungkook

the moon and the stars (are nothing without you) by wowoashley (orphan_account) 

based off of Real Events that happened to me the other day. i ended up screaming to siobhandestele about it and they told me to write a fic about it. and the word moderation does not exist in my vocabulary so :) based off the prompt: "Taekook college AU! The college tour guide raved about the uni's friendly atmosphere and amicable student body, but wanted a high five from a cute student and all he got was a glare"

note: completed! ( cute & funny, I really enjoyed this one. jungkook is hella awkward and tae is personality goals. seokjin isnt the nicest chara here so be warned )

#taehyung\jungkook

The World by RoseFangedLion  ***

They say if you go and put your ear to the Heart of the World for long enough you'll hear the name of your soulmate whispered out in its heartbeat. But Yoongi fell asleep on that thing almost every night and he had never heard a word. Not that he's bitter or anything...and his bitterness certainly doesn't drive him to leaving his comfortable home to go out adventuring as a mail currier or anything...not at all. That said there is a distinct possibility that Yoongi is more sarcasm than human.

note: completed! ( This fic is on a completely differnt level then any other fic i have ever read. World building, amazing story line, amazing imagination and just the whole idea. Yoongi’s character here is absolutely stunning and the plot twist at the end had me sighing wistfully. i highly recommend you guys to read this fic it’s highly underrated )

#yoongi\taehyung

preorder bonus by abdicar 

Jimin is a lesser known streamer who works at a video game store during the day. He’s pretty happy with his routine and his small audience, at least until famous youtuber AgustD decides to take an interest in his channel.

Thankfully, he’s too busy developing a crush on Yoongi, one of the store’s new regulars, to worry about it.

[aka the gamer and streamer/youtuber au nobody asked for]

note: oneshot! ( aka a really cute fic. really liked the concept. highly recommended )

#yoongi\jimin

The Songbird and the Sea by MissterMaia ***

In a world where dominance of the sea is an endless battle between pirates and mariners, Park Jimin is content living in his little village on a small, uninteresting island by the eastern mainland. He wants nothing to do with the bloodshed of good and evil, the heartless killing of both innocents and condemned, the constant establishment and disruption of order. What he wants is peace, to live his life in the same town he was born in, to spend his days in the beautiful forest, and to use the powers of his Blessed Rune to nurture the home he loves so dearly.

But when his island is attacked by pirates, Jimin will have no other choice than to do as they command and leave all thoughts of peace behind in favor of boarding the Agust, a pirate ship captained by the infamous Min Yoongi, Black Fox of the East.

note: ONGOING BUT ALMOST FINISHED! ( enemies to lovers, slow burn. amazing world building. plot and characters, i bloody love this fic, if i can quote it like a novel i will. it’s absolutely breathtaking with amazing unique concept just like ‘the world’ fic and i highly recommend you guys read it!!!)

#yoongi\jimin

refrigerator humming, chewing gum and instant karma by locks

Taehyung sets the flowers down on the dining table, plucking the card off the little holder. "Dearest Taehyung, just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you. I hope you're thinking about me too. Love--" he pauses and squints before cocking an eyebrow and pursing his lips. "Hyung, why is the boss of your little boy band gang professing his love for me?"

Yoongi drops the noodles on the floor with a loud curse as he burns his hand.

Or, Taehyung's been trying his hardest to avoid Yoongi's criminal life for a long ass time, but a cute kid and his infuriating father keep pulling him deeper into the mix.

note: completed! ( THIS FIC OMGOD, it’s funny, it’s cute, it got me squealing here people! taehyung is great with kids, jungkook is hella smooth, this shiz has explicit sexual content and gang story oml it’s good people! also taehyung scares people i bloody love his character here! )

#taehyung\jungkook

white balance by sasireun ***

Yoongi brings his camera along to the event without thinking much about it, but Jimin really is too cute to resist photographing.

(Alternate-reality where Yoongi becomes a Jimin fansite master.)

note: oneshot! ( god i loved this concept so much! if any of you have more fics like this send me a message! it’s well written and cute and i wish it would continue )

#yoongi\jimin

Blow Me Like Your French Horn by ohdizzy for jiminiminiminie ***

In which Jimin undergoes a transformation from Cinnamon Roll to Sinnamon Roll and Jeongguk is a little too competitive, a little too tsundere, and a little bit too moony-eyed for his own good.

(A tale of red converses, sandpit wrestling, shitty best friends a little too obsessed with playing Cupid, emotional constipation, existential crises, and that one body roll Jimin does that makes Jeongguk re-evaluate his life)

“i see that you adore playing your loud ass trumpet at random moments in the middle of the night, well fyi i happen to be a master at the French horn so fuck u i challenge you to a brass off” AU

note: completed! ( this damn fic had me wheezing continously across this storyline. jungkook is a tsundere and good is this story amazing, highly recomended if you want to have  agood day it will certainly bring up your mood. also the bloody fic name i cannot- )

#jungkook\jimin

King of the Library, Knight of His Trade by madigraye 

Moral of the story? Don't fuck with Jeon Jungkook or else you'll end up ruining your perfect attendance to chase his coattails.

note: oneshot! (Taehyungs character here reminds me of the tae from ‘the moon and the stars (are nothing without you)’ fic and i really liked his character there so hell yeah. a funny chain of misfortune keep tae meeting kook and it left me cackling)

#jungkook\taehyung

Constraint by Harlot ***

Jungkook is young and he is more acquainted with confusion and poor-decision-making than he’d like to admit. Despite being only 19 years old, he sometimes argues that he’s been through and seen some shit. He is never sure where he’s going to end up and he’s not entirely sure what kind of future is waiting for him. He is often not sure of a lot but he is certain—absolutely certain—that he’s not gay. Alternatively, a story in which Jungkook meets Park Jimin and doesn't like him whatsoever. There's just something about him... there's just so much about him. Jungkook really can't stand him. In fact, he can't stand him so much he can't quite seem to get him off of his mind.

note: oneshot! (This story is bloody real to me. Awesome characterization, about the same level like the world and the s&s. Jungkook’s character development is amazing and jimins character is hella strong. I love this story. Please read it. No matter how painful it is)

#jungkook\jimin

Six Impossible Things Before Breakfast by Kavbj 

Taehyung has magic in his veins and Jungkook's determined not to let it kill him.

note: completed! ( The fisrt BTS fic i ever read. really original, well written, can be confusing at times but i really liked the concept and taehyungs character)

#jungkook\taehyung

[sunandmoon0505]

BTS Love Yourself

in the recent BTS Highlight Reels that Big Hit Entertainment released, the girls with the BTS members ARE NOT REAL, they are a representation of their pair. (Yoonkook, Namtae, Jihope, and then Jin is in the center of all of this) Jungkook always tried to make Yoongi stop smoking, When Min Yoongi and Jungkook fight in the Run MV, Jungkook gets into and accident and needs a donor. Yoongi gets a call from one of the boys and rushes to the hospital. (adding this in: In the highlight reels, Yoongi's girl, who is a representation of Jungkook, writes the initials "Y.K." on the white lighter. "Y.K." must stand for Yeon Ki-min, which is Min Yoongi's name. When Jungkook's girl, representation of Yoongi, takes out Kookie's earbud and he hears a girl singing. He walks over on his crutch to see who it is and it's Yoongi's girl, representation of Jungkook. He notices the lighter with Yoongi's initials on it attached to the guitar immediately. I also want you all to notice that Jungkook's girl, representation of Yoongi, has a rolly thing with a needle in the back of her hand at all times. It represents Yoongi donating his blood to Jungkook so he could live. In the end of the third Highlight reel, Jungkook was completely recovered and was bringing flowers to "his girl," but when he got there, he had figured out she had died.) Yoongi becomes the donor but doesn't resist and dies, Jungkook is only aware of this after he is completely recovered. Namjoon is the girl with Taehyung. Namjoon, before, hides from everyone that Taehyung's Father's killer is Taehyung. (Shown in Dead Leaves MV and I Need You MV) Taehyung, who was saved by Namjoon, was sent to jail alone, protecting Namjoon. That's why he wanted to make a call to Namjoon, but Namjoon couldn't pick up. The girl with Namjoon is Taehyung, who was his closest friend. But now, Namjoon just can't face Taehyung (Namjoon's poster says, "I will only watch you from behind, because now is not the time." That is why he is only looking at his girl, representation of Taehyung, from behind.) because he is not brave enough yet. With Hoseok and Jimin, Jimin is the representation, not Hoseok. Hoseok's poster quote was, "If you can shine, I am alright." he is selfless, but Jimin is self-centered because he is too mentally sick. Jimin's poster quote said, "I lied, because there is no reason to love someone like me." Jimin's song in the Wings album was also named "Lie." He was caught in a lie about being okay. He can't stop focusing on himself and how he is not good enough. Jimin then tries to kill himself, which is why he and the girl fall down in the third Highlight Reel video. Hoseok tries to save Jimin, running with him on his back in the rain. (The girl who was the representation of Jimin was shown in that scene.) THAT'S WHY JIMIN IS ALWAYS WET. He died on Hoseok's back on the way to the hospital. When Jimin turned his back to the rain in the highlight reel video, it mean't he had given up on himself. Now Jin is in the center of all of this. That's why on the notes he never mentions the girls but only the boys, because they were all for him. The girl getting hit in the highlight reel, and him wearing the same clothes as he was in the I Need You MV when he was holding the flower petals (In the highlight reel, you can see the flowers on a small table when Jin was getting dressed. I believe that when he put the flower petals on the floor and lit them on fire, it was when he went home after "the girl" had been hit, in other words, after his entire life fell apart) in this moment, his whole world fell down. Taehyung was in jail, Namjoon disappeared, Jimin commits suicide, Hoseok commits suicide as well with pills later, (this can be seen in the Wings short-film.) and Yoongi dies for Jungkook because he felt guilty. Jin saw all of this happening with his friends and that is why he wishes he could go back in time, to save them all. (Jin's poster quote said, "If I could turn back in time, I want to be the best man in the world.") THAT is the message Bangtan wanted to deliver. That no matter what, you need to LOVE YOURSELF above all because that not only saves you, but saves everyone around you.. - this is not my theory, and i cant find the original so if you know who made this theory please comment it and i will add credits

[platinumjeon]

Ankle Biter | 06

pairing: taehyung x reader - single dad! au

warnings/genre: major fluff, major angst, smut eventually I’m sure because of my thirsty ass

summary: You swear that your job sucks, except for the guy who keeps coming in every morning to order himself a black coffee, and his kid a strawberry milk and chocolate muffin. When you and Taehyung have an awkward run-in at the cafe thanks to his kid, feelings start to emerge and so do the secrets.

words: 5.7k

playlist | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 07 | epilogue

moodboards: before & after

this chapter contains smut.

Two years prior:

“Hey, Taehyung! You made it.” Shouted a drunken Jimin from across the pounding music of the club. Taehyung responded with a devious smile as he moved through sweaty bodies entangled on the dance floor, jumping up and down at the music and splashing their drinks everywhere. Taehyung had never been comfortable at parties, but they were the best place to pick up supermodels willing to exchange a few favors, and at the moment he could use a pick-me-up.

He sat down next to Namjoon, who was quietly sitting on the bar stool working on a gin and coke while Jimin and Jungkook sat on the other side tipping back vodka shot after vodka shot and laughing their asses off after each one. Taehyung shook his head after a faint smile grew on his face. Jimin and Jungkook were fresh out of college and already insanely successful in the world of business, literal moguls of their own kind and they bathed in it. Taehyung met the two after they came to stay at the hotel, and as Taehyung stood there going through paperwork at the front desk one night the two came in and asked if Taehyung wanted to grab a drink. One drink turned into five, then ten, and that’s the night Jungkook met his girl and his future as a father. Taehyung remembers the day Jungkook called, paralyzed with fatherly fear because the baby dumped on his doorstep after months of a rocky relationship with the baby’s mother. Taehyung just laughed, telling Jungkook that Jungmi was “a minor bump in the road,” and that “if he really didn’t want her he could find her grandparents.” He would take that back if he realized who would be calling within the next year.

Jimin offered the drugs to Taehyung mere weeks before any children came into the picture. Jin stopped coming to the clubs with the others after he found Taehyung, Jimin, Jungkook and Yoongi in the VIP bathroom with rolled dollar bills and their brains higher than Seoul’s summertime clouds. Namjoon strayed but stuck around, and Hoseok didn’t even bother calling after Taehyung’s first bloody nose at a party one night.

He never thought it was wrong. He kept his personal life and hotel apart, until one morning he awoke next to a girl he’d never seen and his doorbell being pressed incessantly by reporters and paparazzi, begging him to give a statement or answer their questions. When Taehyung stepped out of his house with loose shorts that hung on his hips and a shirtless chest, the paparazzi all but went into a frenzy. “Is it true that you’ve been stealing from guests all this time?” One shouted, his camera flashing. Taehyung grimaced at the streak of light that left black dots swimming in his vision as another pap yelled, “One of your maids admitted to being sexually assaulted by another staff member, what are you going to do?”

Taehyung looked out onto the crowd of reporters with big cameras on his lawn, his private lawn, and walked back into his house to slam the door in the reporter’s faces. He ran his fingers through his hair, the first thought popping into his head being, “where did I put my shit?” Shit, as in drugs, was stuffed under the mattress this mysterious girl was laying on, still completely asleep. Her bare back was revealed and it's obvious what Taehyung had done with her last night, but without any remorse he woke her up and shooed her out of his house through the back door and promised to call a cab for her. As soon as he turned around though, calling a cab for the girl slipped his mind completely.

It was two years after that, that Taehyung got the call that changed his entire life.

“Kim Taehyung? Yes, this is Officer Park Hyungsik from the CSPD. Are you aware that your son is currently in the hospital and is being held by DCFS?”

Taehyung had laughed. He laughed. Maybe it was the fact that the euphoria from the cocaine he’d just taken up was all too strong, but Taehyung said, “What are you talking about, I don’t have a kid.”

The officer sighed, continuing, “DNA tests have stated that you are this boy’s father. Are you available to come to Seoul University Hospital and have a chat? Something happened early this morning and we’d like to..enlighten you on it.”

Taehyung hung up with instructions to go to the pediatrics ward of the hospital that afternoon. “The fuck?” He had said aloud, stepping into a business suit usually reserved for the hotel and walking out of his house. He was already itching for another fix, the thing that was once a one time thing had become a full blown addiction, but despite the annoying urges he never wanted to quit. He never thought even once about quitting and getting help, and he drove off towards the hospital in his Maserati with thoughts nowhere near what he should have been thinking about: his kid.

Present:

You stood in front of Taehyung, weary eyes searching his desperate face as he reached out to you. Your legs propelled you backwards, mind racing a hundred miles a minute as his hand kept trying to pull you to him. “Just fucking speak, Taehyung!” You shriek, panic rising in your chest as he moves back to sit against the back of the covered toilet.

Taehyung swallows, “It’s not what it looks like. Y/N, I promise, these happen to me all the time.”

You shake your head. “That’s not what I heard Namjoon saying,” you pause, then lift your hand in air quotes, “using.’” Are you on drugs, Taehyung?” You accuse, your voice going dangerously quiet.

“No, no! No, I’m not, Y/N. You have to believe me,” he says, and you arch your eyebrow. Taehyung sighs. “A long time ago I was and I guess there’s some damage to my nose or some shit because I get these on a weekly basis.”

“What did you use, exactly?”

Taehyung doesn’t meet your eyes as he answers. “Cocaine.” He mumbles, and at his words you move farther back to the edge of the door. His head snaps up and his eyes are glazed over. “Y/N, please, just stop. It was years ago. I haven’t done anything since!”

You tilt your head up, biting your lip. “I’m gonna get going, Taehyung.”

His eyes are on yours the entirety it takes you to back out of the bathroom, letting your hands slide down the wood of the door frame and plunge to your sides before you turned and started to slowly make your way down the hallway. The image of Taehyung’s eyes, blackened like the ash of a drowned fire, echoed through your brain like the sound of a bullet from a machine gun. You couldn’t decipher if he was telling the truth or lying - the one factor that scared you the most and something you always thought you were good at telling about people, but the way he spoke brought down yet another wall in front of the secret personality you knew he was hiding.

Who was he? This man who had overturned your stone heart and allowed flowers to grow amongst the grave of scars left by people who had no regard for anyone but themselves had all but betrayed your trust. A surge of guilt traveled through your spine to the pit that had grown in your stomach, wondering, what about Taeji? The image of the little boy flashed through your head next to the echoing of Taehyung’s words. How could you fight for his father when he could be using something he was teaching Taeji never to even think about?

Then again, you had never been addicted to something...besides Taehyung, your conscious piped, and you clutched the back of your head as a pounding headache ripped through your skull. Space was good, and space was going to have to happen because you couldn’t even picture Taehyung doing what he said. He must’ve been so out of his mind the days he hadn’t contacted you, and at this point that all made a lot more sense than it did before. At the time, you were hurt because you thought he had used you for sex; turns out, you weren’t the only thing he was using.

You stepped through the kitchen and cursed under your breath for having left your purse in the living room. Rounding the same corner Taehyung had on his dash to the bathroom, six pairs of eyes were already on you. Seokjin stepped forward.

“Let me give you a ride home.”

For an actor, you figured Kim Seokjin would have a fortress of expensive cars lined up in rows just like Taehyung, but it was surprising to see him round the bend of the back driveway in a silver pick-up truck. Undoubtedly the latest model, but you opened the door with a heavy heart and jumped into the ash-grey passenger seat. Jin looked up at you with a sincere look in his pretty, almond brown eyes but you cleared your throat, “Jin.”

He turns his head back to the steering wheel, his lips pursed, “Yeah. Um. Sorry.”

It was silent for a few moments as he drove through the moss tree adorned driveway and through the gates, and you could be comfortable in the silence if you hadn’t had so many questions brushing through your mind like the way Taehyung’s lips brushed yours just earlier this morning, his comfort the only thing you seek and the cracking sound you swear your heart makes when you remember that his comfort is also his poison.

Seokjin clears his throat, “Taehyung has been doing it for a long time.”

You purse your lips. “How long?”

“Years. Since before Taeji was even conceived, before Minsoo was ever in the picture. He’s been doing it for so long that nosebleeds are a regular thing because the nerves and veins in his nose are so damaged.” Jin said, and you notice that his grip on the steering wheel had tightened.

“God,” You laugh breathily, “and here I was putting my trust in him. I thought he was perfect. How stupid.”

Suddenly, your body flew forward as Jin slammed on the brake, agitated honking noises coming from behind the truck as cars flew by in protest.

“Y/N, you have to understand something. I’ve never seen him happier and as sober as he is now. Taehyung was a partier and he made mistakes, a lot of fucking stupid mistakes but he is so in love with you. It’s sickening, actually,” Seokjin said, shaking his head.

Of course, here come the tears, you think, every thought in your head completely jumbled into one huge knot of regret and sadness and guilt and love. You loved Taehyung. He had become a deciding factor in your life, a comfort, but he betrayed you like no one else has before. He betrayed your trust in him.

“Tell me something. If he had told you straight-up that he had done cocaine for a period of time before his son came into his life, would you have even given him a second glance?” Seokjin continued, his body now turned to yours as he reached out to hand you a tissue from the glove compartment.

You slowly shook your head.

“I know he loves you. The way he looked at you as you carried Taeji and sat in front of him and spoke to him as if he was your own, damn, I didn’t even know how to carry a baby before the girls came into my life. He sees something in you and dammit, I’m desperate to make you give him another chance because I know you love him too.”

Seokjin was out of breath by the time he finished, and the tears that had traveled down your face turned into sobs that wracked your entire body like volts of electricity, seizing your breathing as if the oxygen in the air wasn’t enough to sustain your throbbing lungs. You were slightly aware of Seokjin’s hand on your back, rubbing up and down and his voice echoing comforting words but the words weren’t Taehyung’s.

Maybe you should have listened; stuck around to let Taehyung explain what happened and give yourself a chance to believe him. But the hurt that still traveled through your veins over the possibility of Taehyung lying to you still stung.

“Y/N, I don’t know what Taehyung does with himself anymore but he’s trying to better himself for his son and you; he hasn’t been to a party in ages. He gave up partying all together once he realized that Taeji was more important than doing lines in the bathroom of a dirty club.”

You nod, unable to get the words out of your shriveling lungs, “Please take me home.”

It wasn’t long before you got the expected pounding on your front door, having rejected every call and ignored every text Taehyung had sent to you over the six, grueling hours that went by. You were drowning in uncertainty, having jumped out of Seokjin’s truck and mumbling a faint goodbye before stumbling into the stairwell of the apartment and having yet another break-down.

Why does he have this effect on you, you have no idea, and as you lay in bed at 7 PM that night listening to Taehyung’s voice puncture your eardrums from outside the front door, all you want is his arms around you.

“What, Taehyung? I’m trying to sleep,” You say, swinging the door open to see his wary face. His eyes aren’t as fiery was they were before, but now a dull, black sea of all the emotion reflecting in your own eyes as it spilled down his cheeks. “Y/N, I’m sorry.” He said, exasperated, but not taking any steps to get closer to you.

You sighed, rubbing a hand over your face and opening the door wider for him to step inside, ushering him to sit down on the couch.

“This is the first time I’ve ever been inside your apartment,” Taehyung said meekly, taking a seat on the plush, sea foam green couch. Buying your apartment was the best decision you had ever made to date, the little two-bedroom, two bathroom space on the outskirts of central Gangnam was perfect for you with a cozy, bright interior that made you happy.

You nod, sitting down across from him on the couch and the two of you stare awkwardly at each other for a few beats and finally Taehyung looks up.

“Where should I start?”

“Wherever you want,” You reply, moving to sit back and cross your legs.

“I’m not doing it anymore. I swear, I know if I did I couldn’t - I wouldn’t - I-I,” He stutters, fresh tears pooling in his eyes, and you’re compelled to sit up and move to the spot next to him, allowing an arm to reach over the expanse of his back in comfort.

“I believe you, Taehyung. I just don’t understand why you kept it from me this long.”

He turns his head and sniffs. “You know that you’re the first person I trusted with Taeji in a long time. I’ve never had a nanny for him because I felt like I couldn’t trust them. The day I got that call and went to the hospital I was out of my mind and when I saw Taeji lying in that hospital bed with a fat lip and bruised eyes, I knew I had fucked up. I fucked up because I let Minsoo leave that one day, and I fucked up because I let her go through a pregnancy alone. She was probably so scared, Y/N.” Taehyung quivered.

“I sobered up enough to talk to the cops who had no suspicion whatsoever, and they had me sign a few documents before throwing this little...sickly, terrified two year old at me. I didn’t realize what I had done until the nurse asked if I had brought a car seat in my fucking Maserati,” He said, a tearful chuckle following his words.

“I brought Taeji home and he was crying his eyes out the entire time. He kept asking m-me-” Taehyung said, stopping and choking up again. “He kept asking me where his mom was. God, I won’t ever forget when he’d scream for his mom in his sleep then wake up to me staring over him and trying to calm him down. I hope he never remembers getting into that accident, and he never remembers being scared of me because I was scared of him.

He just turned three, too. I remember I called Jimin and made him come and live with me for a few weeks because I wasn’t sure how to even be a parent. I didn’t know how to hold Taeji, or what to feed him. We went to a restaurant and I ordered him a double cheese burger and then Jimin swooped in with an applesauce pouch and a turkey sandwich cut in fours. I don’t know where I’d be without the seven of them, especially Jimin.

Minsoo’s parents came in the picture two weeks later and brought up the scandal. A maid at the hotel falsely confessed to one of the butler’s assaulting her but the entire staff knew she did it for publicity. Then it landed on me, and I was assumed to have kept the whole thing a secret and how I stole money from the hotel branches. I was arrested and taken to court and...Minsoo’s parents claimed I wasn’t a good parent. I was terrified to tell you about the drugs because then maybe you’d think I wasn’t a good parent, either, and it probably would have convinced me to give Taeji up.”

You were silent, looking at Taehyung with shiny eyes. “I’m sorry,” You whisper, leaning forward to wipe at his wet cheeks. “I’ve never thought of you as a bad parent. You’re better than mine were and there’s only one of you. I grew up without a mom and I think I turned out pretty okay, even though I remember her.” You said quietly, your tone hushed and calm.

Taehyung was something else. The past few weeks had truly been a whirlwind of emotion, but you don’t think you would trade it for anything. In fact, you thought of yourself as extremely lucky to have someone like Taehyung come into your life. Everyone has secrets, and the crumbling, struggling man in front of you is no different.

The love you have for him exceeds any of the love you had for past boyfriends. It began the first night you shared tangled in his bed and surged the next morning when you awoke nose-to-nose, watching his quiet breathing. It grew even bigger when Taeji found the two of you one morning wrapped around each other and jumped all over the place. You never considered yourself a morning person, but if there was one good way to wake up in the morning it would be with Taehyung and his little boy laughing and crawling all over the place.

Taehyung leans into you, his breath ragged and his eyes slowly blinking. You could feel the expanse of his soft lashes lapping against your cheek, and one of your hands reached out to grasp at his until they were locked together like a forbidden chest of treasure.

You moved to push him back gently against the couch and sat on the tops of his thighs, leaning forward to put your forehead against his once again and gently kiss his pretty, pink lips before settling your head against his shoulder and your arms wrapped around his lower waist.

The two of you were as close as you could get, with his own arms coming around to hug your body flush against himself. It was in this moment that two separate beings, living their own lives and brains racing with their own thoughts became one, single heart.

“I love you.”

Taehyung turns his head to look at you at your confession, a look in his eyes you hadn’t seen before. “Really? You do?”

You laugh breathily, “Yeah. I do.”

Taehyung shifts slightly until you’re sitting up again and looking straight at his face. He’s trying really hard to contain a grin, but it breaks out as soon as he says, “I love you, too.”

You awoke the next morning to the sunlight filtering in through the windows and the sounds of birds chirping. It was the beginning of spring, the streets of Seoul were beginning to get brighter and sunnier with each passing day. Cherry blossom trees began to grow their pink leaves, littering the ground beneath them with cheeriness and puncturing the air with the scent of promise.

The day of the trial was the day after today, the weeks having slid by without notice. Just yesterday you told Taehyung that you loved him, and he said the same, but truthfully, you had no idea where it came from. It bubbled up and spilled over from inside of you, and that night the two of you had splurged on each other until the sun started to peek over the horizon, slowly waking the city up for a brand new day. Despite not knowing where your confession came from, you feel it. You feel it as you watch Taehyung sleep, his eyes twitching with dream and his breath coming out in little puffs over your face.

You loved him for him - all his mistakes, his promises, his goals, his successes, his failures. The two of you said those three words a million more times the night before, getting lost in each other but also making sure to be on the quiet side so your neighbours wouldn’t ask if someone was moving in with you.

Your finger traced over his face, making feather-light patterns around his jaw and brushing slightly over his pouted lips. “Good morning,” you whispered, leaning forward to settle yourself closer into his chest. Taehyung hummed, and moved to place a kiss on the top of your head before moving his hand up and down over your back in greeting.

“Good morning to you, too.” He smiled sleepily, eyes still glued shut.

You grinned, pulling backwards and placing a chaste kiss on his lips, whereas he whined and gripped your waist to pull you back to him. You laughed, a surge of warmth filling your chest as his lips were on yours again before it was his turn to move backwards and place a peck on the tip of your nose.

You sit up slightly. “Is Taeji with his grandparents?”

“He’s staying with Jimin because neither sides are allowed to be with him as we meet with lawyers and stuff, and that’s okay with me because this needs to be fair. And I need to keep him.” Taehyung says, looking absolutely determined and ready to fight. It was a refreshing sight compared to how he was just yesterday, breaking down and sobbing as he talked about his past. But now, this image of Taehyung strengthened you.

“Are you nervous about being called to the stand?” Taehyung asked gingerly, his hand reaching out to pull at your arm. You laid back down against the pillow and his arm wrapped around you once again, his lips meeting your neck.

“No,” you said, “even if I was, Taeji is worth the anxiety.”

Taehyung looks up at you with a small smile and a lasting kiss to your jaw before he sits up and runs a hand through his hair like he always does in the morning, a big sigh coming out of his mouth.

“You can head to Jimin’s today, or do whatever you need to do. I have a ton of lawyer meetings and they’re boring.” Taehyung said, standing up and walking into the bathroom. You get up as well, pulling your hair into a ponytail as you trail behind him.

“I can come with, I don’t mind.” You murmur, wrapping him in a hug from behind. Taehyung smiles into the mirror, his toothbrush in his mouth and the foamy mint toothpaste dabbed on the sides of his mouth. His one free hand comes down to rub over yours.

“If you’re sure,” Taehyung says, leaning down and spitting into the sink before standing tall and walking out of the bathroom. He was nervous, you could tell by the way he absentmindedly mumbled to himself and checked his phone a thousand times as the two of you got dressed and began the drive downtown for the first meeting with his lawyers.

Before the two of you got out of the car, Taehyung was a jittering mess. You’ve never seen him in between like this; he was always either happy or sad, never in the middle and in a way it unsettled you. There was reason to be nervous, but the imminent fact that this trial could determine the rest of Taeji’s life - and Taehyung’s - was terrifying.

Your hand settled on his thigh as he was grabbing his folders with shaky hands. He looked incredible in this black suit of his despite the hand that kept running through his hair and the purple under his eyes, and you couldn’t help but wonder what may help him calm down..

A thought struck you, and as he was moving around papers your hand crept further up Taehyung’s thigh. He hardly noticed at first, rambling on about Taeji’s birth certificate and crumbled papers when he finally noticed where you were leaning.

“W-what are you doing?” Taehyung swallowed, his breath hitching in his throat as your hand came to palm him over his tight dress pants, and you grinned and leaned closer to his ear to kiss his neck and whisper, “You need to relax.”

Taehyung stays quiet as you continue to move your hand around, squeezing gently until you could feel how hard he was getting, his arousal coming to life under the calculated movements of your hand. He let out a breathy moan, his eyes squeezing shut then opening wide to watch as your other hand comes around to unbuckle his leather belt. His breath hitches again when you squeeze a little harder, another moan escaping his pretty lips.

Taehyung is bucking upwards, urging you desperately to hurry up and take it up a notch when you tug at his pants and let his member spring forward, immediately smiling evilly up at him through hooded eyelids to find him staring down at you with a dazed expression. “Relax, Taehyung,” You say, one hand curling around his member and the thumb of your other hand running repeatedly across his reddening tip. Taehyung was breathing harder and was bucking into your hands when you finally started to move your hand up and down, swiping your thumb over his slit. He moans loudly, his head falling back against the seat in pleasure. “Faster, baby,” he breathed out, opening his eyes momentarily to look down at you again when you finally place your mouth around his cock. “Fuck,” Taehyung whimpers, “God, this is hot as fuck.”

You swirl your tongue around the tip and let your hand brush along his shaft, eventually wrapping around what you couldn’t fit in your mouth. You hum in agreement to his words, the vibrations making Taehyung’s mouth go dry and his throat erupt in lewd moans of ecstatcy, only encouraging you to continue.

His hand comes around to rest on the back of your head, his fingers twisting fistfuls of your hair until he’s pushing you down on his cock, the sounds of you quiety choking on his length enough to make Taehyung’s eyes close and his hips to involuntarily thrust upwards into your mouth until he’s whining over the sensitivity.

“O-oh my G-god,” He chokes out as you hum and maneuver your hands to run up and down his shaft, gently squeezing as you continue to push his length farther in then back towards the front of your mouth. “Fuck, I’m gonna come - fuck-” Taehyung breathes, and with one last swipe of your tongue over his slit, he releases the hot liquid into your mouth and you choke slightly as it shoots against the back of your throat.

You sit back up, traces of Taehyung’s release evident on the sides of your mouth, but you swipe a finger over each corner and stick your finger in your mouth, eyeing Taehyung as he wearily looks you up and down. “I didn’t know you c-could - God, I w-want to fuck you so hard right now,” He stutters, still breathing hard from his orgasm.

You grin as he pulls his pants back up, inspecting his outfit for any signs of what just happened and then he looks at you with wide eyes, “God,” he muttered, shaking his head as he unlocks the car and begins to get out, gathering up his papers.

“Maybe I should do that more often, it sure does relax you,” You grin, and he shoots you devious little grin before he steps out, and you’re not far behind as the two of you walk into the glass building across the street.

“Mr. Kim, I think the best way to go is to have your closest defendant, Ms. Y/L/N-” The lawyer with thick, round glasses glanced up at you with a small smile, before continuing, “tell the judge exactly what Taeji’s routine is and what your thoughts of Taehyung are. The judge for this case is not tough to sway, but that could go both ways.”

You look over at Taehyung. Your sexual expedition seemed to have calmed his nerves slightly, but he still looked reserved as he turned to you. “Are you alright with that?”

Nodding, he smiles gratefully and places his hand on your thigh under the table, moving his thumb in small circles. You weren’t sure if he was doing this in an attempt to reassure you, or himself.

The lawyer continues, “Your in-laws have only a few defendants, and although we’re not sure who they are or what leverage they have, the more defendants you have, the better chance you have to sway the judge.”

Taehyung had asked all six of his closest friends, including you, to get on the stand and speak about his ability to parent. It was almost comical, how each boy had immediately volunteered to speak for Taehyung, and Jimin even admitted that Taehyung got a little teary-eyed at all the support. You were grateful for his friends, it was obvious that they cared for Taeji just as much as they cared for their own children.

When the lawyer excused himself to take a call, Taehyung turned to you.

“This isn’t too much, right? You’re feeling alright?” He asked, his eyebrows pulling together in concern.

You smile, reaching your hands out to adjust his tie, “I’m doing just fine. Are you?”

Taehyung nods. “I’m beginning to feel a lot more confident. It might be a placebo, but no matter how this goes, I know whatever is ruled will be best for Taeji.”

You shot him a weird look, turning your head. “What is best for Taeji is for him to stay with you, Taehyung..” You trail off.

Taehyung smiles sadly, “Well, yeah, but from an outsider’s perspective and opinion is what matters most here, right?” His smile falters and he looks down, “And maybe they’ll think Taeji is best with his grandparents.”

You’re confused - it’s almost as if Taehyung wants Taeji to go with his grandparents, what is he on about? He’s not as confident as he appears, you conclude, and it seems like Taehyung is trying to be the version of himself where he thinks everything will be alright. “Tae, that’s not how you’re supposed to think.”

“I’m just trying to keep an..open mind about it, okay, Y/N?” He snaps suddenly, standing up and straightening his jacket. “I have another meeting. Are you coming with?”

“Don’t snap at me, I know you’re upset,” You mumble, and stand to grab your purse.

Later that night, you’re lying in Taehyung’s bed staring at the wall. Normally, your head would be under his chin and his arms would be wrapped around you - the two of you were never really enjoyed spooning, because what was the point of sleeping next to each other if you couldn’t see the other person - but tonight, you were facing the window and listening to Taehyung’s breathing.

You knew he was awake. And it was weird, because the two of you were completely separate. It was terrifying, knowing that in a matter of hours things would be decided and it was obvious that Taehyung was a wreck. Apparently, your roadhead excursion wasn’t enough to rid Taehyung of all his nerves, which was understandable, but you wish he would let you scoot closer to him and hold him tight.

“Y/N?” His voice rang out in the darkness, and you turned slightly.

“Yeah?”

“Do you think Taeji will hate me if his grandparents end up winning?”

You turn completely, moving to face him as he does the same. You’re still not touching him at all, and you want to reach out so badly to brush your fingers through his hair and trace shapes on his bare chest but you keep to yourself, unsure how to act around him and his seemingly fragile state of mind.

You didn’t know how to answer him, either, how to assure him that in no way would Taeji ever be able to hate his father, his constant companion, so all you said was, “No way.”

Taehyung turns to you and you can see the outline of his nose in the darkness. “You don’t think so? I would if I were him,” he muttered, turning back to stare at the ceiling.

Your lips are still stuck together apparently, unable to formulate a proper response so you move to place your head on his chest tentatively, slowly, waiting for a possible outburst or reaction but it never comes. Instead, his hand comes around to mess with your hair, and your hand automatically moves to rest on his chest.

“He could never hate his best friend,” You say sleepily, planting a kiss on his shoulder before drifting off with your hand curled around the back of his neck, hanging on him as if your life depended on it.

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Responses to {Part 24} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^

(I have also included asks that I received in the hours before IWSY was posted ^^)

Anonymous said: So I'm an English teacher living in China and every Wednesday I wake up at dawn just to read the newest update of IWSY! I loveeeee it!!!!!

That’s so awesome that you’re an English teacher in China! I really miss being an English teacher in Japan *cries* I can’t wait to do it again! But oh my goodness I feel bad that you wake up at dawn x.x I hope you manage to get a good sleep the night before or at least take a nap during the day! Thank you so much my love ^^

Anonymous said: Really quick! You are amazing and your writing IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I have ever laid eyes on, my day today is scheduled around your your update! And 2 I always think of Boys Over Flowers when i see the word paradise 😂

Thank you so much my love, I fan girled so hard when you said that your day is scheduled around my update aahhh *hides* AND OMG YES “ALMOST PARAAAADIIIIISSSEEEEE” that was both the best and most annoying song every during that drama...it would have been better if they didn’t play it every 2 seconds lolol

Anonymous said: ITS TONIGHTTTT!! I REALLY CANT WAITTT 🙈🙈💞🔥

YES IT’S TONIGHT GET READY!!

Anonymous said: Hey Sara! I just want to say that IWSY is the best work that I've read in my 13 years of existence! You're really 대박! BTW, in my country you update every Wednesday 😂 Because I think when it's Wednesday here in Philippines it's actually Tuesday their. So lots of love from Philippines!! 💕💕😍😍

Omg hello to Philippines!! I really wanna go to Philippines someday, it looks so wonderful and I always hear about how the weather is always amazing :) Oh my god you’re thirteEN AND YOU READ MY SMUT I *faints* please make good decisions in life lol I beg you xD Anyway, thank you so much for reading and liking IWSY ^^ That means so much to me!

@talkmemeytome said: I love the iwsy series so much NICE ONE SARA and your other ones are amazing too ILY JFTJH

Thank you very much my love, I’m so happy that you like what I write! I love you too :)

Anonymous said: OK BUT IMAGINE IF VAMP!JUNGKOOK WAS GOING TO BE A DAD HE'D BE SO PROTECTIVE OF HER AND JUST A BALL OF SQUISH WHEN THEY'RE ALONE THO????????? WOW MY HEART

WOW WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME? I’M ALREADY A HORMONAL EMOTION WRECK TODAY AND YOU JUST HIT ME RIGHT IN THE WOMB GOD DAMN IT :(

Anonymous said: iwsy is actually one of the best fanfictions i have ever ever read!!!!! i am so excited for this weeks update — thank you for being such a talented writer 🌹

You’re too kind to me, honestly. But I appreciate you so much for saying such wonderful things. I hope you enjoy tonight’s update my love, thank you so much!

@mocking-butts said: Mumsyyyyy I'm so excited for today I'm checking my phone constantly I know I will cry over this chapter dear lord I'm in need of help~!

Ahhhh I hope you enjoy the chapter! I had so much fun writing it :3 I can’t wait to hear what you think! ^^

@im-that-chesire-jax said: AGHHHHHHHH

Is that a cry of frustration I hear

Anonymous said: what are you trying to do to me!!! chapter 24!!! I can't even... holy shii the emotion roller coaster that is this fanfic

I didn’t do anything I swear! TT I hope you enjoyed it :3

Anonymous said: Tbh sometimes I have to reread some of the chapters of IWSY because it's so much to take in!!

That’s a good thing! I often get scared when I see people send in an ask SO QUICKLY after I post the chapter cos i’m like “there’s no way in HELL you read ALL of that and took in ALL the information in 5 minutes...” lol because I do put in a lot of detail and information and for someone who was to speed read it...I think it would be less enjoyable for them that way :(

@mocking-butts said: WAIT WHAT NO WHAT IS THIS NOOOOO IM SCREAMING NOOOOO MUMSY WHY IM NOW IN THE CORNER CRYING NOOOO I CANT BREATHE IT NEEDS TO BE NEXT WEEK!

You’re welcome my child *evil laugh* thank you so much for reading it!!

Anonymous said: I..Omg..WHY?! I want to cry..Yoongi better not hurt Y/N or I swear to God. Thank you for updating. Everything was going so smoothly and just BAM, it's like a punch in the face ;A; I hope Y/N will be okay.. -Kira Anon

You’re so welcome for the update Kira anon and thank you so much for reading the new chapter! And yes - just as the quote in the description referred to, I truly wanted to capture the essence of ‘the calm before the storm’ hehe ^^

Anonymous said: Sara!!!!! How could you do this to me? I. Cannot. Deal. With. This. U.K. Anon

I apologise for doing to you whatever I did! I hope you enjoyed the chapter my love :D

Anonymous said: Even though she was being careless in the last chapter, i really love the character Y/N. I love how inteligent you made her, but also shy yet feisty. She's not an annoying and whiny character, not Too Bold not Too Shy. I really love it! I love how both she and JK can have mature conversations about everything. I LOVE THIS STORY SO MUCH AHH i just. wow. I've been reading it since part 1 and i cant believe its been so long already!

Thank you so much, you’ve no idea how much that means to me! I wanted to try and make Y/N with as much transparency as possible - but with enough character to build upon so that it sets her as ‘part of the cast’ you know? Thank you so much for reading it and staying with it since part one, that means the world to me! And IKR! 24 weeks...damn. I knew that this series was going to be longer than expected after the 4th chapter, but I wasn’t expecting to get so carried away like this xD hehe THANKYOU once again my love ^^

@bangtangurlarmy said: SHIT PART 24 HAD ME CLUTCHING ON TO MY BLANKET BECAUSE I KNEW SOMETHING HORRID WOULD HAPPEN AMD I WILL SHAMELESSLY ADMIT I SOBBED THE MOMENT I READ THE DETAILS OF TAE TRYING TO WILL YOU TO TURN AROUND. IM SO SENSITIVE TO THIS SERIES. OH MY GOD. I JUST CANNOT WAIT FOR THE HAPPY ENDING ALREADY BECAUSE NO. I HATE ANGST. BUT I LIVE FOR IT AS WELL. AWESOME CHAPTER SARA😭

NO DON’T CRY DON’T SOB IT’S OKAY TT I wish I could tell you how it ends but I don’t want to spoil it for you :( AHHH thank you so much once again for reading the new chapter and I’m really happy you thought it was awesome!! ^^

Anonymous said: So uhm.. this may sound weird and dirty? and maybe not fitting? but UHM... I loved it when jungkook came inside Y/N. Filling her up with /his/ seeds. And then the talk about children.. when his heart became so warm to even think about the woman he loves carrying his little goofballs. I just get so giggly and excited to know Y/N is now carrying his seeds and the possibility of them going at it again without a condom.. and her really getting pregnant. They'd be such great parents T_T

NO OMG IT’S NOT WEIRD AND DIRTY lol you’re fine! Actually - this is probably tmi and probably no one knows this about me. But...it’s kind of a huuuuuge kink of mine? Like - of course I am on the contraceptive pill bc I am not at a stage to support myself and a possible baby having complete unprotected sex lol but a kink of mine is exactly that ^^ So don’t worry! It’s a completely normal thing to love :D And yes they would be such great parents I think :3 hehe

Anonymous said: Fuuuuuuckkkkkkinnnggggg cliff hanger gosh diggity darn it I really don't know how I'm gonna wait another week to find out what happens next. You're too good that this. 😱😑😠hahaha

You know it ;) hehe~ Thank you so much for reading my love!

Anonymous said: Aah ._. I just read the newest Chapter of IWSY and now I don't think I can go to sleep in peace ._. Why do your writings have to be so well described and giving me all the emotions T^T You're amazing though <3

Aww I hope you manage to get some sleep TT Sleep is important!! But thank you so much for liking the detail and all the emotions :3 That makes me really happy to hear! And hey - you’re more amazing, I promise you ^^ hehe Thank you once again love!

@animeimmortal said: God damnit. It had to go that way. God it had to -.- Oml the second she got the call saying "let us in" I knew something was up cuuz if it wasn't then they would just have called throu the thing I am so angry @ Y/N (myself) god so stupid so effin stupid lord Jesus Christ idiot ❤ your taken for writing is amazing. Like lord save me really the amount of little detail you put in there ❤❤❤

It definitely did have to go that way! heh~ It’s never all sunshine and rainbows in this house! xD Thank you so much for reading it and for taking time to notice all the little details I put in there ^^ I really appreciate that love ^^

Anonymous said: SARA IM FREAKING CRYING HOW COULD YOU DO THAT OMG IT WAS ALL NICE AND FLUFFY AND I THOUGHT MY EMOTIONS WERE SAFE FOR A WEEK BUT NO WHAT THE HECK WHY

YOU WOULDA THOUGHT ;D hehe NO EMOTIONS ARE EVER SAFE!!

@mysr3 said: Sara U Know I hold my phone since 1pm (9pm UK), so I can read when u post it! That how bad U got me wit IWSY🙈 U seriously have all emotions hit me wit this PT! Poor Tae n Jimin. JK will be so Pissed! Can Tmr be Tues again? Can we talk about JK n Y/N sweet moments? This is a relationship Goal! JK is so sweet! I know U will leave us with cliff hanger but this week is lit ToO MuCh Dont U think? Now let me cry in silent til next Tues! Thank you LuV! I Love You❤ Send u Big Hug! Have a Good Day!

Oh my god you’re so cute asdfghjk I’m so glad I could hit you with all the emotions with this chapter :3 And ikr? When can I have a relationship like VampKook and Y/N?? D: I want it now! lol It’s never too much for a cliffhanger, you should know me better by now :3 hehe I love you too my dear and I hope you have a great day as well!! *hugs back* thank you so so so much!!

Anonymous said: *sobs* poor tae... anD YOU *points finger* Le quEEN OF CLIFFHANGERS, AN AMAZING CHAPTER ONCE AGAIN

LE QUEEN OF CLIFFHANGERS HEHE *runs away* what did I do? :3 lol thank you so much my love ^^

Anonymous said: OMG SARA IM SCREAMING WHAT WAS THAT OMG FUCK

WAT HAPPEN

@theninjachan said: "Monday morning came after another night of Jungkook pushing you towards several highs in several different locations throughout his Manor– starting with the living room, going on to against one of the walls in his hallway, and ending in his bedroom as it usually did.   okay GOALS

Goals as fuCK GIVE ME THAT ANY DAY PLEASE. I’M SINGLE AND MY P***Y IS READY TO MINGLE (just kidding I’m as shy as a fucking pigeon goodnight)

Anonymous said: I'm currently bed ridden with the flu. So what's the only thing I do? Reread IWSY and the rest of your imagines. :D It's the best medicine. 💕

Oh no! :( I really hope you get better soon...having the flu sucks but I hope that you’re taking good care of yourself and taking medicine regularly and eating yummy soup ^^ I’m glad that IWSY and my writing can make having the flu a little more bearable. Thank you so much and I’m sending lots of healing thoughts your way!

Anonymous said: I know it's probs not gonna happen, coz ya know yoongi is supposed to be the evil guy, but I can't help but think what a twist it would be if once he captures her he begins to get feelings for her just like jungkook did.... THAT WOULD BE SO COOL 😎

I WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN *wonders* HMMMM :3

Anonymous said: You mentioned beauty and the beast and I was wondering if you had seen the movie, or if you included as more of a coincidence?

I did mention it! But actually, I haven’t seen the new live action movie yet - although I really want to! I’ll forever be a fan of the original Disney animation though, I don’t think even Emma Watson could win me over it hehe~ But I’ve used the beauty and the beast analogy for the IWSY series before~ so it is just purely a coincidence that the movie was released at the same time!

Anonymous said: Y'know, I should've known that something was gonna go wrong in this chapter, but I was like 'Nah, my good author friend would NEVER do that. Especially when I'm emotionally distraught.' and you gave me fluff. And I was happy. AND THEN THIS BANANA SPLIT HAPPENS. UNBELIEVABLE. I TAKE IT BACK. I'M STILL MAD AT YOU >:( - love Vampnip anon

BANANA SPLIT LMFAO VAMPNIP ANON WHY DO YOU ALWAYS REDUCE ME TO TEARS OF LAUGHTER I SWEAR TO GOD CHILD YJHVBSBDGKAJG Please don’t be mad at me, I love you very very much ;c

Anonymous said: I knew it aaalll along! Leaving her alone wasn't a good idea in the first place T.T But hey, the good point is that we'll see Jungkook savior's mode and I'm exciteeeeeeeed

Hmmm yes, indeed! I wonder what our Prince will do?! :3

Anonymous said: Omfg. WHY COULDN'T I JUST CALL KOOKIE! WHY AM I SO UGHHHH?! Love the cuddles and his departure was too cute. XD BUT STILL TnT  SARA WAEEEEE~ -Anon that pulled her friend into kpop(aka anon+friend⚇)

I’m not sure but I’m assuming that it would be hard to pull one’s phone out and dial for help when one has just been chloroformed :P BUT YES she should have called Kookie in the beginning when Tae asked her to come outside to confirm with him~ But she was too headstrong for her own goo! Thank you so much anon who pulled her friend into kpop! I hope you’re both enjoying the series ^^

Anonymous said: istg ur ff IWSY is hands down one of the best ive ever read! omg ive been a silent reader all this time and it is truly a pain in the ass to have to wait for the next chapter ugh bUT GIRL U KNOW HOW TO TRILL MY NERVES LIKE IN THIS CHAP 24 HOW I WISH TMR IS TUESDAY AGAIN </3 pls keep on going with more fluff!! and beb just so u know theres someone whos constantly waiting for ur update & love ur stories!

Ahh thank you from the bottom of my heart for that! That’s so sweet :3 I know it’s a pain to have to wait a week for the next chapter but at least you definitely know it will be uploaded at the same time! ^^ Thank you so so so much and I hope you’ll enjoy more to come!! c:

@koreaisanaddiction said: SARS!!! what have you done to meeeeeee!!! FUCK!!!! im going to be trying to solve this now for the next week!

Solve away :3 thank you so much for reading!

Anonymous said: NO READER NO i knew it was a bad idea, i could taste it wHY?!?! poor kookie is gonna be mortified... i feel so bad for tae, too! i mean, he obviously didn't want to do it but he didn't want jiminnie to die. i really hope jungkook won't hate him... i'm a mess help

Let’s hope everything turns out okay in the end! :3 thank you my love ^^

Anonymous said: The whole time at the end of IWSY I was thinking "NO! CALL JUNGKOOK OMG STOP!" You're such a great author I can't wait to see where this leads! 💕 I can't wait for next Tuesday

Yes she should have rang Jungkook but she was too headstrong! Silly girl ^^ Thank you so much :D

Anonymous said: OMG SARA IM JUNGSHOOK wow I cant wait for next week ! Also if Vampires cant enter a house without being allowed to how come yoongi was able to come into Y/N s house to murder her family 🤔 --wifey anon 💕

Because her brother Cassidy let him in ^^ Like I wrote in the previous chapters :) Thank you for reading the update love! ^^

Anonymous said: Mom you got me all the way fucked up. Hold up now. I was prepared for this. Like I was expecting a nice piece of cake and it was a plate full of Brussel sprouts instead. Fucking Min Yoongi you sexy little devil you. But it's all good cuz bae gonna swoop in and snatch y/n up and take her home where she belongs. Poor Jimin and Tae. Like they deserve so much happiness and the keep getting in shitty situations. But even though I feel betrayed THIS WAS A NICE ASS CHAPTER. I Love you 💜 ~LilKookieAnoN

Bae gonna swoop in haha yes hopefully c: I’m sorry for betraying you but I’m so happy you enjoyed the chapter~ i love you too lilkookieanon and I hope you’re doing well ^^

Anonymous said: OOOOHHHHHH FUCK! CHEEZUS SARA THIS TIME I WONT EVEN TRY TO CALM MYSELF DOWN! WHYYYYY??????? Ohmaigawd the whole freaking time it was like a horror movie; I could feel the suspense building and I knew something bad was going to happen, plus the added factor you ALWAYS end on a cliff hanger... CAN YOU FEEL HOW ANXIOUS YOU MADE ME FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER?! anyways, I love you soooo much!!! Please take care of yourself and stay healthy! <3 - army anon

I apologise for any anxiety I caused *hugs* heh ^^ I love you too and and I hope you’re doing well - please take care of yourself too! Thank you very much for reading the update Army anon ^^

Anonymous said: I almost cried while reading chapter 24 of "I won't Stop You", I can almost feel the regret, sorrow and pain in Taehyung eyes, he still love his brother regardless of what, and little did he expect that his brother took him for granted, and that's the most painful thing one can experience, especially when the one is your brother, and I dread seeing how will Jungkook react when he found out omg I CANNOT!!

Yes - it’s hard when your family does shitty things because on one hand you love them, but on the other they are possibly bad people (in this case, definitely) lol ^^ Thank you so much for reading it love!

Anonymous said: S A R A WHY WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT SARA WHY 😭😭😭😭😭 as soon as Tae said come outside I knew something was wrong I KNEW IT god I'm gonna cry poor bby Jimin poor everyone POOR ME I can't!!!!!! Why do you do this to my heart

Because I’m evil ~ sorta :3 hehe thank you so much for reading it!

@wanda-rog said: You can't end a chapter like that and then make us wait a whole week to see what happens! You're so evil T-T I want to see Jungkook raise hell now!  It's going to be the longest week in history

I can and I did *evil laugh* hopefully he will raise hell for you! thank you so much for reading the chapter lovely ^^

@mysr3 said: Sara I have funny thing to tell u! How coincidence that u wrote about Forbidden West Wing and the impressive Library of Beauty and the Beast in IWSY today and I happened to see the movie today! When the west wing was mentioned I was thinking about Y/N and her JoKe lol Then the Library scene I was like huh Y/N enjoyed Jungkook 's just like Belle does in hErE! it's such funny coincidence! 😝The movie was ready GooD! If u have not watched I recommend it! 👏

Yes, I haven’t seen the live-action movie of Beauty and the beast yet but I hope to because I love Emma Watson a lot! Thank you for thinking of me when you saw it my darling :3

@min-ty said: IM SO SHOOK ON CHAPTER 24 OF IWSY IM JUSY ALSJDJSISJDMDJLXKSNS I CAN'T. Your writing was so good in this chapter. Not that your writing isn't always amazing (it is) but I really took notice on it! I know writing fanfiction isn't easy, so to write a chapter of something every week and have nothing be filler or bad quality is so amazing! Have a good day/night!

I’m always trying not to make episodes feel filler-y! I thought that perhaps at the start of this chapter, it felt that way. But it slowly built up to the ending which turned it into a normal storyline! Trust me - many years of watching Naruto + Naruto Shippuuden made me HATE fillers with a passion lolol but they can of course be needed for a storyline to be complete! Thank you so much for reading the chapter love and I hpe you also have a wonderful day ^^

Anonymous said: Oh my god!!! IWSY is killing me I wish you could update 10 chapters a day!!! but oh well, as a university student myself, I can totally understand the demands of school work... am thankful to even have a chapter a week to read HEHE. please tell me Prince jungkook comes to the rescue!! and jiminnie and taehyung please be safe too!! super excited for the next chapter ㅠㅠ

LOL oh my goodness I would definitely write myself into an early grave if I did that :3 I hope Prince Jungkook can come to the rescue for you! :3 thank you so much for reading it love and I hope you’ll enjoy the next chapter too!!

Anonymous said: Hi! Just wanted to say your fics are really amazing! :D I literally just joined Tumblr earlier this month for the fun of it but after miraculously stumbling upon your blog and reading IWSY, I felt like giving a try on writing fics as well (though there are so many of them around already omg). Can't wait for your new chapter on IWSY!

Thank you so much my love! I’m so happy you stumbled upon my tumblr and IWSY ^^ And yes you should definitely try writing ff! It’s so fun and it feels nice to put your work out there for people to enjoy and read too :D I hope you have an awesome day dear ^^

Anonymous said: SARAAAA! Why do you have to do this to my poor heart?!! Can I make tuesday, everyday?.😭😭😭 You're really an amazing writer! I love you!.😭🤧❤️

Anonnnn! I’m sorry for any damage to your poor heart :c Thank you os much for liking IWSY, I’m so glad you enjoy it and I love you too!

Anonymous said: FUCKING HELLNSJSJSJSJSK OH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY FUCKING FLYING FUCK IN THEUFKXINDJSJSJ WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT I MEAN OK inhlae exhale 348x LIKE HOLY SHIT that endingsjdjdjdjjd

*holds you* it’s okay...shhhhh...it’s okay my love

Anonymous said: its my thesis defense tomorrow, im kind of nervous but after reading the new chapter of iwsy my anxiety went away BUT IM LIKE MKAKSK THAT LAST LINE WHY TF DO I THINK YOONGI LIKES Y/N HOLY SHIT HE WANTS  HER OOOHH WAIT BUT HES EVIL RIGHT... BUT LIKE WHY HE CALLED HER "MY DOMITOR" BITCH TF JDJDJXJ HOW ABT JK SHIT THEY GONA HAVE A FIGHT IM FUCING HERE FOR THIS IM FUCKING PISSINGIN EED TIME TO RECOVER FROM THISNKSK

Good luck for your thesis defence my love I’m sure you’ll do great! I’m so happy that my story could make you feel a little at ease :3 LOL OH MY GOD *dies laughing* I guess you’ll need to wait and see what happens dear! :3 thank you so so much for reading ^^

@jauntyjin said: YOUR STORY IS STRESSING ME OUT IM LOWKEY MAD AT TAE BUT I UNDERSTAND BC JIMIN WAS IN DANGER OH GOD JUNGKOOK IS GOING TO GO MENTAL IM COUNTING ON MUGSY TO FILL JUNGKOOK IN

NO STRESS PLS ENJOY~~~ lol I HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!

@jungkookbangtaned said: SARA TELL YOONGI I'M GONNA PUNCH HIM BECAUSE SYCRGIZEWHAO HE USED TAE AND JIMIN TO GET TO ME AND SO I'M GONNA PUNCH HIM.  Amazing as always, and I really can't wait to read how Jungkook is gonna react... poor baby😓 love you💕

I’LL TELL HIM BBY DON’T WORRY ;) Agh thank you so much for reading the newest part love ^^ I hope you’re having a great day and I love you too ^^

@cynicalspacehoe said: DAMMIT I KNEW IT! THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU LEAVE ME ALONE FOR A WHOLE DAY JUNGKOOK, I GET KIDNAPPED

JUNGKOOK CAN’T LEAVE YOU NOWHERE! hehe~

Anonymous said: Whoop whoop I hope I am not too late for the answer post 🐇 Huuuuuum Tae just why ??? I cant judge u tho u had probably no other choice but still baby dont scare us like that 😩 --wifey anon

Yes you’re not too late! I usually post the answer post any time after 9:30pm on a Wednesday but sometimes I hold off in case I get more asks ^^ I don’t wanna clog up peoples feeds but at the same time I wanna answer everyone lol! Poor Tae :) he had no choice, he loves Jimin so much :( Thank you so much for reading my love!

@trashyxpotato said: Hello~ I just wanted to say that your Jungkook fanfic "I Won't Stop You" is amazing! I've been reading it for a few days and... I really love it! I really laughed at some parts. :') I love the story and everything! It became one of my favs~ ^_^

Hi there! thank you so much for finding and reading IWSY and I’m really happy that you’re enjoying it! I’m glad you said that it’s one of your favs, thank you very much once again love ^^