#fanfic: cbt

[castielmacleod]

Let him heal from his own issues or else <3

[garden-eel-draws]

I looked up “can you see a blush through make-up” for writing research reasons, and the answers I got were mostly along the lines of “how can I hide blushing with make-up” and “how can I permanently stop blushing”. That is...disturbing. Granted, I’m not someone who blushes much, or whose complexion would show it all that well, but is it really something that people are ashamed of? I thought it was considered cute???

[duckprintspress]

Fandom Lexicon: C

The third installment in our posts about our Fandom Lexicon introduces the most terms yet: those beginning with the letter C!

Make sure you check out the main Fandom Lexicon page! We’ve posted letters A, B, and now C, and will be adding one or more letters each week until the entire lexicon is live and available for your perusal.

Spot a mistake we’ve made? Have we left something out? Let us know!

Lexicon Terms Beginning with C (read more)

C Drama: Abbreviation for “Chinese drama.” TV dramas from China

C Pop: Abbreviation for “Chinese pop.” Pop music from China.

C-Ent: Abbreviation for “Chinese entertainment.” Overarching term for the Chinese entertainment industry.

C&C: Abbreviation for “comments and criticism.” Typically used by a creator when indicating whether they do or do not want comments and/or criticism on their work. For example, an author’s note might read, “C&C Welcome.”

Camp NaNo: Shortened term referring to “Camp National Novel Writing Month.” A week-long writing event that occurs twice every year, in April and July. It is hosted by NaNoWriMo, but unlike the original NaNo, participants in Camp NaNo choose their own goals. See also NaNoWriMo (pending).

Canon: Facts about a narrative provided within the published context of the media being referred to. What does and does not count as canon is often up for speculation and scrutiny by fans with different interests/perspectives. Generally considered separate from “Word of God” explanations of the text – canon events must have happened “on the page” or “on the screen” or “in the recording” for the media in question, depending of course on the original format for the media. Read more about what canon means.

Canon Compliant: A fanwork that follow the rules/characterizations/plot of its source material, as interpreted by the creator of that work. Truly canon compliant works follow canon so closely that they could exist in canon without violating any known information about the world and characters, though that can be a moving target for canon compliant works created when canon is still ongoing. Read more about canon compliance.

Canon Divergent: A fanwork that begins at an established point in the source material’s canon, then takes off in its own direction. Read more about canon divergence.

Canon Insert: Most typically refers to when a writer’s original character is added to canon or replaces an existing canon character. Less typically, refers to a character from franchise A who is added to a canon or replaces an existing canon character in a fanwork about franchise B. Read more about character inserts.

Carrd: A service that hosts simple, easy-to-make websites for free, or more advanced ones for a fee, used by fans and other people to provide a central place for their contact details, interests, and personal information they want to share. Learn more on the Carrd website.

Casefic: A genre of fanwork in which the main characters are solving a case. Most common in fandoms where there are episodes or books that are each case-based, such as The X-Files, CSI, or Supernatural. Read more about casefic.

CBT: Abbreviation for “cock and ball torture” and for “cognitive behavioral therapy.” A classic example of just how important context can be for understanding what an abbreviation means!

CC: Abbreviation for the Creative Commons. A license that a user can assign to their own creation, giving permission to use the creation in their own projects provided they follow the terms of the chosen Creative Commons license. Read more about the types of Creative Commons licenses on the Creative Commons webpage.

Cheerleader: A person who reads a fanfic before it’s published and cheers the author on, so they keep up their motivation. The difference to alpha or beta reader is that the cheerleader usually does not offer any concrit nor do they do spelling and grammar (SPAG) editing.

Chibi: A type of art in which the characters are shown with unrealistic proportions, most often with unusually large heads and eyes. Also sometimes called “SD,” which stands for super-deformed. Read more about the term “chibi.”

Cishet: Shortened term for “cisgender heterosexual.” An individual whose assigned gender at birth matches their gender identity and who experiences sexual attraction to the opposite gender and only the opposite gender (excluding non-binary people and other genders outside the binary). While intended to be used to refer to people who are not queer, the term has often become a short-hand insult for aromantic and asexual people, and for bisexual people who are in relationships with person who are of the opposite in-the-binary gender. Read more about the term “cishet.”

Cisswap: See Genderbend (pending).

Citrus: See Citrus Scale.

Citrus Scale: A method for rating works from general to explicit without using lewd terminology. Read more about the citrus scale on Fanlore or in our blog post on the topic.

Claims: Typically refers to the point in a Bang of any size when artists are given an anonymized list of fic summaries, choose their favorites, and subsequently find out which authors they will be working with. In reverse bangs, it refers to when authors choose the artist they will be working with. For another usage, see Face Claim (pending).

CNTW: Abbreviation for “chose not to warn.” The creator chose not to use warning tags/labels. This abbreviation and usage is based on the AO3 Archive Warning “Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings.”

Coda: A fanwork that adds a scene that fans wish had been included in the source material. Often described by citing the season and episode that the fanwork is a coda to. For example, “coda to 5 x 2” would be a coda/new final scene created to follow the events of episode 2 of season 5. Sometimes referred to as an “episode tag.” Read more about codas.

Concrit: A shortened term for “constructive criticism.” 1. Critique of a creation that actively contributes to its improvement. In this definition, the criticism is usually intentionally solicited, and the critique is done by the editor or beta reader in collaboration with the writer, after discussion of what the author is trying to accomplish and what their goals are. 2. Unwelcome and unsolicited critique from commenters on fanworks, which givers often try to excuse by leaning on definition 1.

Conlang: A shortened term for “constructed language.” An artificially created language, for example Klingon in Star Trek and Elvish in the works of J. R. R. Tolkien. Read more about conlangs.

Consentacles: A portmanteau of “consent” and “tentacles.” Used to refer to tentacle sex enjoyed with enthusiastic consent. “Dubious consentacles” is also in use, indicating that the consent is more ambiguous.

Cosplay: Dressing up like a character from a given franchise. Ranges from exact replications to crossovers and/or creative reinterpretations of the source material. Read more about cosplay.

CP: Abbreviation for “couple,” except when it means “child pornography.” In East Asian fandoms, CP refers to the main couple in a work. In Western fandoms, CP most often stands for “child pornography.” This difference has caused many, many problems. Read more about the different uses of CP as an abbreviation.

Crack: A speculative concept that is unbelievably ridiculous. For example, “what if all the characters were chicken nuggets?” Read more about crack.

Crackship: A ship between that is unbelievably ridiculous, such as a character with an object, a location with a creature, or two people who would genuinely never in a thousand years ever work out in a relationship. Not the same thing as an unpopular ship or rare pair. Read more about crackships.

Creation Challenge: A fandom event in which the host(s) come up with a theme and/or a list of prompts, and participants are invited to create fanworks in response to that prompt. Examples of creation challenges include Big Bangs and Bingos.

Crossover: A term with many uses in different contexts; in fandom, it refers to when a fanwork combines multiple sources in some way. Mulder and Scully showing up in a Doctor Who fic, for example. Read more about crossovers.

Crucifix Nail Nipples: A well-known story told by Tumblr user thebibliosphere. Often referenced as an example of just how ridiculous erotica can be. Read the original post.

CSEM: Abbreviation for “child sexual exploitation material.” What it says on the tin – this is a legal/technical term for materials featuring actual children photographed or filmed in sexual situations. Creating or possessing these materials is illegal in most of the world. Read more about the usages and legal definitions of this term.

[midgardian-witch]

The Consequences Of Being A Brat

After days of Nathan being a brat, Reader decides on a punishment that leaves the resident genius wet and wanting.

Part 1 | [Part 2] | [Part 3]

AO3

tags: sub!Nathan | Dom!Reader | AFAB!Reader | Mommy Kink | Spitting Kink | Humiliation Kink, Dumbification (slight) | cock ring | bondage | cock cage | Chastity Kink | Cunnilingus | Face Riding | CBT (slight) | finger sucking | Orgasm Denial | cursing | Temperature Play | BDSM

ships: Nathan Bateman/Reader

AN: What started as one little fanfic now turned into this almost 3.9k part one of a three part fanfic. The other two parts are already planned out and only need to be written now.

tagged list: @my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction

You watch him squirm uncomfortably, desperately humping the air, the restraints keeping him tied to the bed spread-eagle and cock ring keeping him hard even after what to him feels like hours spent like this. You've been sitting to the side of the bed, out of sight from him while having the perfect view yourself. His head turns side to side, desperate to see you, to see if you approve or not. He's been slowly but surely sinking into this needy, eager, submissive headspace since you teased and then left him tied to the bed alone without relief. Denial was the easiest way to help him slip into this headspace - too stubborn otherwise to give in to what he really wants, what he needs. 

Finally you slowly rise from your seat and with measured steps make your way over to the withering mess that is your lover. As he catches your gaze, his eyes look vacant, blown wide, almost delirious. His mouth hangs open, drool steadily dribbling from the corners of his mouth, his beard shiny with saliva. Seeing him like this you're sure there is not one coherent thought left in his head. 

Good. 

You sit down next to him on the bed, fingers drawing lazy circles over his torso, your touch lighter than a feather. And yet that simple touch makes him keen, his body instinctively chasing your hand even as you withdraw it again. 

You tsk at him, shaking your head. When he hears the sound of your disapproval he whines pitifully. 

"Are you ready to be a good boy now, Nathan?"

Your voice is as cold as ice despite the heat flooding your core. Nathan looks at you with glassy eyes and you're not sure if he can actually see you without his glasses, his eyes re-focusing every few seconds. 

He nods furiously and when he finally talks his voice sounds broken, raw from moaning and begging, the tension too much for his brain to take, heavy breathing and hiccups slurring his speech. 

"Y-Yes Mommy hic I-I'm sorry Mommy. I-I-I'll be g-good."

You hum thoughtfully in reply as you resume your feather-light touches. Your fingers glide over his chest and stomach as you make a great show of mulling over your options. Laying your hand flat over his abdomen you can feel him try to buck into your touch, only stopped by the restraints holding him down. 

Nathan had a tendency to be a brat most of the time but the last few days have been agony. He had gotten stuck on one of his projects and when working out and drinking himself into a stupor hadn't given him the relief he needed, he had turned his bad mood on you. Nathan Bateman was a smart man, a genius even, but his stubbornness had always been his downfall. Instead of asking you to help turn his mind off of things and give him the mental break he so desperately needed, he decided to behave like a spoiled child. 

Ignoring you when you asked him something. Giving more and more snide remarks when you talked. Starting fights over the smallest, silliest things. After almost a week of living with this you decided to draw the line. 

"You've been a real brat lately, Nathan", you state calmly as you run your nails across his abdomen. You can hear his breath hitch in response. 

"I'm sorry. I'll be good. I-I'll be good, Mommy."

His wrecked, pleading voice is music to your ears. You suppress a smile and shake your head instead. 

"Oh I know you will be after we're done."

"D-Done? But-" 

"But what? Did you really think we were already done with your punishment, Nathan? And here I thought you were smart."

Your amused chuckle fills the room as you pull your hand back again. 

"Not so smart after all, hm? I mean look at you. You're a mess, drooling all over yourself."

Slowly you lean over him, careful that your body is not touching even an inch of his skin. His glassy eyes snap to your face as you look down on him, desperate for your attention. 

Gently you caress his face, fingers combing through his thick beard. His eyes flutter closed and he leans into your touch with a pleased hum. Nathan looks beautiful like this, relaxed and unashamed. The trust he puts in you, to let you see him like this, never fails to make your heart melt. 

Holding his face in your hand your thumb gently teases his bottom lip. On instinct, Nathan opens his mouth wider and you slip your thumb into it with ease. With a muffled moan he begins to suck eagerly on the digit, his tongue swirling around it with slow strokes.

"So eager. It's actually kind of funny, you know? All that genius, building Artificial Intelligence, androids and then what did you do? You used these brilliant machines as nothing more than house maids and human-sized sex toys."

Your disapproving tone gains you another desperate whine in response and you can see tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. You push down on his tongue with your thumb and tilt his head upwards. 

"Look at me, Nathan."

His eyes open, wet with tears as he looks up at you dutifully. 

"See? This is much better, isn't it?" 

He moans around your thumb and nods dumbly. 

You chuckle again, a cruel smile forming on your lips. 

"I figured you out, you know? All these androids? I know why you use them. Not because you couldn't get your dick wet any other way, no. It's because you're actually jealous."

You can see in the way his brow furrows that he is desperately trying to follow your words but his mind has a hard time keeping up, now that you have broken him down so thoroughly. You intend to take him even further tonight. 

"You build these machines while in reality you want to be used like you use them. All you really want is to shut off your silly little brain and get used like a mindless fucktoy."

He nods vigorously and you can feel him swallowing around your thumb. Slowly you pull your digit out of his mouth. You shush his needy whimper at the loss. 

"Y-Yes, Mommy. Please…please use me."

You place your hands next to his head, one on each side. Neither of you is breaking eye contact as you stare him down. 

"Open your mouth."

Instinctively he follows your order, mouth opening wide enough for you to see his pink tongue. 

"Very good."

His eyes nearly roll into the back of his head at your praise, a high-pitched keen spilling out of his throat. 

You position your face right above his as you gather saliva in your mouth. Slowly you part your lips and let your spit drip down. You can feel him try to push himself up, so your saliva can reach his awaiting mouth sooner but it's no use. After what to him feels like ages your spit finally hits his tongue and unable to restrain himself Nathan lets out a guttural groan. Obediently he keeps his mouth open, still staring up at you, eagerly waiting for instructions.

"Swallow."

At this point you're sure Nathan couldn't even think if he tried. Mindlessly he obeys your command and you see his Adam's Apple bob as he swallows your saliva. 

It's getting harder and harder not to openly show your delight. You pull back from him and stand up with one smooth motion. As you turn your back to him you grant yourself a pleased smile. 

With measured steps you make your way over to the box of sex toys you had placed at the bottom of the bed earlier. Accompanied by the sound of Nathan's labored breathing you dig through the various contents. Between multiple vibrators, butt plugs, dildos and strap-ons you find the item you've been looking for. You close the box and place your chosen object on top of it, out of Nathan's sight for now. 

You straighten your posture and pull yourself to your full height. Without even looking you know Nathan is watching your every move. You can feel his gaze on you as you linger a while before taking off your clothes. 

As the first item of clothing hits the ground something in Nathan seems to snap. He lets out an incomprehensible string of words and moans, most likely curses, as he watches you slowly reveal your naked body. 

You click your tongue against the roof of your mouth and shake your head. 

"Could you repeat that? I'm sure there was a sentence under all that whining."

"Please, Mommy. I wanna- please let me take those off."

Torturously slow you undress further, dragging out every movement. It almost makes you feel bad, denying him like this. Nathan wanted so badly to be good for you but you were not done. Not by a long shot. 

"Not tonight. Only good boys get to undress and touch Mommy. And you've been anything but good lately", you remind him, your voice just a touch more gentle than before. 

"I'm sorry, Mommy. Please! Please let me be good for you. I wanna be good!" 

Oh how his begging made your insides tingle. You could feel how wet you were already, just from this. You force yourself to ignore his pleas, instead finally stripping down fully. 

Once you're completely bare, you walk around the bed, like a predator stalking its prey. Squirming on the bed, Nathan follows your every move with his hooded eyes, mouth still hanging half open. 

"Please, Mommy. Can I touch you? Please let me touch you, Mommy!" 

You tap your lips with your pointer finger and let out a thoughtful hum. It's a difficult decision: you know Nathan is good, very good, with his hands and yet, this is still supposed to be his punishment for being a careless brat. And if you go soft on him now all would be for nothing. But just because it's his punishment doesn't mean you'd deny yourself the pleasure of feeling Nathan's body against yours forever. 

You crawl onto the bed straddling his head with your thighs. Slack-jawed Nathan stares up at your pussy hovering right above his face, saliva steadily dripping into his beard. 

"Your hands stay tied to the bed, but this is much better anyways, isn't it, baby?" 

Nathan audibly swallows, nodding and humming affirmatively. 

"Yes, Mommy. Please, can I eat your pussy, Mommy? Please! I wanna taste you so bad."

He slurs his words, seemingly already pussy drunk without even having had a taste yet. You lower yourself down, your pussy just inches away from his face, before you stop. In response to your teasing he whines, craning his neck to get closer to your soaking wet folds. 

"Will you be a good boy for me, Nathan? Promise me to be good and I'll ride your face, baby." 

You're not sure what affected him more, your gentle cooing or just the thought of getting to get his mouth on you. The high-pitched, almost pitiful sounds spilling from between his lips suggest either or both to be true. 

He nods frantically before his begging continues. 

"I promise. I'll be so good for you, Mommy. Please, can I eat your pussy? Please, let me make you cum, Mommy!" 

A pleased grin spreads across your lips. Classic Nathan, already getting ahead of himself. You know how much he loves to make you cum so you're not surprised. And since he was behaving himself so well (for now) you'd give him that. 

Without another word you lower yourself fully on top of his face. As soon as your drenched folds all but graze his nose he is on you. Like a starving man he practically tries to devour you. With rhythmic, practiced motions he rubs his nose against your clit as his tongue licks a long stripe between your folds. Skillfully switching between licking and teasing your entrance with his tongue, all while keeping a soft pressure on that sensitive bundle of nerves, Nathan is intent on giving you as much pleasure as he can in this position. The feeling of his beard against your most sensitive spots makes you shiver in delight. 

You steady yourself against the wall behind the head of the bed as his ministrations make you lose your balance for a second. Nathan was divine with his mouth, unsurprising since he loved to use it so much. Even though usually he used his mouth to be a know-it-all brat. You just had to find a better use for his mouth than that. And what a better use this is. 

With every lick and suck his movements get more sloppy. His muffled moans vibrate against your sensitive pussy, adding to the stimulation. Slowly you begin to move your hips, grinding down on his face, seeking more of that delicious friction. In moments like this you regret Nathan's shaved head and lack of hair to grab and pull. Repeated, broken pleas of "Thank you" and "Mommy" echo from between your legs as you rub your clit against his shapely nose. Nathan licks and sucks your wet folds as best he can, your fluids leaking into his thick beard and joining his own saliva. 

With every stutter of your hips you can feel your orgasm building. You voice your pleasure unabashed, moans and praise spilling from between your lips, mixing with Nathan's muffled groans and begging as the sounds of your shared lust fill the room. 

"You're doing so well, baby. Come on, make Mommy cum.", you encourage him as you feel your legs start to shake from the strain. 

"Yes, Mommy. Please cum, Mommy. Please cum. Wanna make you cum."

Despite the lack of grabbable hair you put one of your hands on his head to hold him in place as you ride Nathan's face, your knees shaking with pleasure. You feel your orgasm building, higher and higher with every stutter of your hips. 

With another grind against his nose, with his tongue as deep inside your core as your position allows, you find your peak, your walls clenching around his tongue as you cry out. Your pussy is still pulsing in the afterglow as you ride out your orgasm. After a few more movements you quickly dismount your lover's face, the soft scratch of his beard starting to be too much on your sensitive pussy. 

You sit down next to Nathan, catching your breath, chest heaving. Your skin is soaked with sweat, your limbs start to feel heavy but you remind yourself that you are still not done with Nathan. 

You turn around to look at your lover and the sight of Nathan steals your breath away. 

He's a mess. With his beard completely soaked with your fluids and his own saliva, the mixture smeared all over his face, he looks ruined. He looks at you with a dopey grin, eyes unfocused and glassy. 

"Did- Did I do a good job, Mommy?", he asks blissfully, his voice cracking from overuse. 

You grant him a pleased smile, your hand reaching out to pet his head. "You did a great job, baby. Such a good boy.", you answer and lean over to place a soft kiss on his temple. 

He looks up at you adoringly, tilting his head up in a silent question. You indulge him and place several more kisses to his nose, cheeks and finally on his lips, lingering there just enough to taste yourself. 

"My good boy.", you whisper against his mouth. Your other hand spreads across his chest, gently tracing his sweat soaked skin. Your lips follow your hands, showing him just how pleased you are, making him feel your love and appreciation. 

Your hands and lips trail down further until you are face to face with the evidence of his arousal. Nathan's cock stands proud against his abdomen, head a dark, angry red as it's kept erect by the cock ring you had put on him at the start of his punishment. It's still leaking a steady trail of pre-cum, leaving him wet and slightly sticky. The ring has done his job in preventing him from both coming and going completely flaccid while you were busy teasing your favorite genius. 

Even your breath against his cock makes him twitch. He squirms again, gasping. 

"Please. Please can I cum, Mommy? I was good! You said I was good!" 

You can't stop your chuckle at his continued begging. "Oh sweetheart. This wouldn't be a punishment if I let you do that, now would it?" 

You get up from the bed, ignoring Nathan's whining for now. 

"Wait here. And don't move.", you order with a wink, knowing full well that he wouldn't be able to move even if he wanted to. 

You return as fast as you vanish, knowing the maze-like pathways of the facility by heart and making your way quickly from your bedroom to the kitchen and back. As you re-enter the bedroom Nathan's eyes are immediately on you.

"Mommy! Please don't leave me again! You were gone so long!" 

You were gone maybe five minutes but you would never fault him for complaining in his state. The poor genius is only slowly getting out of subspace, his mind still a little foggy. 

"I'm sorry, baby. Don't worry. Mommy will take care of you.", you try to soothe him, holding up the glass of water you have gotten from the kitchen. You walk over to Nathan, and sit back down next to him. Tilting his head down you hold the glass to his lips, gently feeding him the cool liquid. He gulps down the water eagerly, some of it spilling into his beard, until there are only ice cubes left. 

You pet his head again and kiss his cheek before returning to the foot of the bed. 

"Now, let's take care of this.", you mutter as you trace his erection with a single finger. His cock twitches and another bead of pre-cum pools out of the head. Gently you remove the ring pressed snuggly around the base of Nathan's cock. He gasps once he's finally free from the torturous pressure. 

"Poor baby. I bet you'd come with only a few strokes."

You tease his balls as he keens and more pre-cum spills forth. His drawn out "Mommy please" makes you chuckle devilishly. 

"Listen well, baby. You've been a brat for almost a week. So as punishment, you're not allowed to cum for the next seven days, starting now. Do you understand?" 

"Yes, Mommy. I-I-I'll be good, Mommy."

"Very good. And since I am so nice, I even have something to help you."

You pluck the item you had hidden from him earlier from atop the toy box. You raise it to the side of your head, showing him the metal cock cage in your hand. Nathan stares at the cage in a mix of horror and arousal. 

"Are you OK with this, Nathan? I need a clear yes or no.", you ask softly, ready to abandon your plan if he is too uncomfortable with it. 

You see his Adam's Apple bob as he swallows hard, thinking it over. You can feel the gears turning in his head as the fog of subspace is slowly dissipating. After a few moments he answers with a sharp nod: "Yes, Mommy. I'm ok."

Your shoulders sag in relief and you let out a pleased sigh. Quickly you put a confident smile on your face before turning back to your lover's straining erection. 

"Well this won't fit at all. But thankfully I came prepared."

You take one of the ice cubes out of the glass and gently hold it to his shaft. Nathan gasps and struggles in his bonds. 

"Cold! Fuck. Too cold!" 

"That's the idea, sweetheart. You remember your safe word, don't you?" 

"Yes, Mommy. Python."

"Good. Use it if it gets too much."

"Yes, Mommy. Please continue."

He doesn't look at you but his tone of voice tells you more than his eyes ever could. He wants this even if he isn't ready to admit it to himself. You'd have to explore that further. Another time. 

You pick up the next ice cube and gently run it along his cock, tip to root. He squirms and writhes underneath you, gasping and shaking, but no words other than "fuck", "oh god", "shit" and other curses leave his mouth. You giggle quietly as you watch his cock go soft and shrink under your freezing touch. 

After a few minutes of the same routine Nathan's impressive cock has been cooled down to a manageable size. You think about teasing him about it, knowing a little humiliation is definitely on his kink list, but you push that away for later too. 

With careful touches you squeeze his cock into the silver cage. You turn the key and with a resounding click the cage is locked. Somehow his cock looks even smaller, engulfed in metal. You run your fingers over the cage, feeling the smooth, unyielding material under your fingertips. 

"How does it feel?" 

"Fuckin' unreal."

You laugh, shaking your head. 

"In a good way?" 

He swallows hard but nods. 

"Yeah…"

You raise an eyebrow at him and he clears his throat with an eye roll. 

"Yes, Mommy. Can you untie me now? Fuck, if my wrists are fucked up because of this, I swear I'll-" 

Seeing your unimpressed stare he stops himself and mutters a quiet "Sorry" instead. Even a bratty genius could learn, it seems. 

You untie his legs first, massaging and rubbing the indents the leather straps left on his skin. Once you're done with his legs you crawl over him, sitting down on his lower stomach and freeing his arms with skilled fingers. You soothe his wrists too, careful not to irritate the skin further. You make him move his wrists, checking for any damage. Once you're satisfied with your check up you lean down for a long kiss, your lips sliding against his. You hum into his mouth, ignoring the wet feel of his drenched beard against your face. 

Needing air the two of you part. He wraps his arms around you, finally free to roam across your skin. You lay there, your forehead pressed against his, just enjoying the feeling of being so close to eachother. 

"I don't know about you but I could use a nap."

You feel Nathan laugh against your lips in response, before his low chuckle turns into a thoughtful hum. 

"Let's stay like this, OK? Just say something if I get too heavy. Or roll me over. You got the use of your limbs back after all.", you joke before pressing a soft kiss to his nose. 

You only get another hum in response. 

Concerned, your eyebrows furrow. 

"Nathan?“ 

"A whole fucking week?", he grumbles, mouth turned into the cutest pout you've ever seen. You snort and give him another kiss. 

"You'll survive. And after…"

"After?"

"Be good for a week and you'll see."

Nathan rolls his eyes at you and you're sure he could hurt himself if he rolled them any harder. 

"A week.", he repeats. 

"Yup."

"You're cruel."

"You love it."

He looks at you, his brown eyes somehow seeming so much warmer than before as he admits: "I do."

[thesafecafe]

Being a fanfic writer is wild, because you research a bunch of things and are full of random facts afterwards all because of an idea/prompt. I have learned several things about CBT in the last hour and I do not mean cognitive behavioral therapy.

[bonvoyagenoona]

BTS Case Conceptualizations | Jin

Intro: Thanks again for indulging me as I share more about my characterization process for writing BTS fanfics (for more, check out the tag #how i write)!  This started with a post about how easy or hard it is to write about the guys (you can check it out here), and additional questions about my characterization process! Here are some abridged notes for context:

Psychological principles guide my writing style, partially because of my training, partially because psychology and writing (especially fanfiction writing!) are so intrinsically linked, and partially because I just happen to naturally gravitate toward delving deeper into core beliefs of characters

The framework that I use for characterization is based on cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), which assumes that people’s core beliefs about the Self, the World, and the Future influence people’s thoughts and actions

I use the members as ways to describe central themes in stories by using them to illustrate conflicts and/or resolutions in beliefs about the Self, the World, and the Future

For more on the series, click here, or follow the tag #bts case conceptualizations!

Jin

Our next installment is for our beloved Seokjinnie!

Jin’s concerns are about his Significance. I always think about his desire to celebrate himself in some ways:

source: JINSONYEONDAN

And I juxtapose that with his shyness when he is being celebrated by other members, like when Hobi was so quick to thank and celebrate Jin for working just as hard for PTD LV even while injured:

source: bellank 18

Contrast that further with how Jin also points out when people aren’t paying attention to him on his special days. Remember Jin’s birthday Vlive in 2020?

source: vlive

We celebrate Jin for being braggadocious in the silliest way. He’s goofy, random, and sweet. But at his heart, he’s humble, even self-deprecating about his capabilities, role, and personality. This particular juxtaposition screams something to my psychologist brain. Jin’s tendency to swing from braggadociousness to self-deprecation often reminds me of this scene from Fleabag, in which her therapist points out her tendency to use humor as a defense mechanism.

I think about this scene all the time. My therapist-y ears perk up when I feel people doing this when I’m talking with them. And we see Jin do this all the time. In fact, it’s a big part of his idol identity. Jin himself acknowledges using “Worldwide Handsome” as a joke:

'I’m nothing special, and I’m someone who doesn’t particularly excel at anything,' Jin said.

'Though people around me don’t think of me that way at all…if I even start to say something like this, they’ll say, "How can you say that? You’ve accomplished amazing things,"' he continued.

'But I still have a hard time accepting that. If someone were to ask me what sets me apart from other people, I wouldn’t have much to say other than "I’m a member of BTS,"' Jin shared.

source: Daily Mail

Humor is a well-known defense mechanism in the Freudian / psychodynamic sense. CBT doesn’t recognize defense mechanisms using the same terminology, but the use of humor can help identify irrational beliefs that one can hold about themselves. Check out these studies that examine the role that humor may play in identifying and breaking down such behavioral patterns.

This allows us to point out the all-or-nothing thinking that we can all succumb to: the idea that “one absolutely must be competent, adequate, and achieving in all important respects or else one is an inadequate, worthless person” (source: Psychology Today).

And I think this is particularly important, as we’ve seen time and time again, when someone is valued for their looks, or something completely arbitrary that they don’t have control over. People discount them. So much so that they may start to discount themselves.

source: anonymous954

And what happens when you’re a small fish in a big pond? What happens when you’re known for your looks, but you’re in an environment where everyone looks incredible? It’s even easier to question what you might bring to the table. To question what might be uniquely yours. What might be uniquely you.

CBT Application Through Core Beliefs

Self: Significance Negative core beliefs: I am insignificant; I am forgettable.  Positive core beliefs: I am integral; I am included.

World: Attention Negative core beliefs: The world ignores me. Positive core beliefs: The world celebrates me.

Future: Negative core belief: People will question if I ever deserved to be here. Positive core belief: People will think I’m special.

At his worst, Jin sees himself as someone who doesn’t contribute anything to the team. In some ways, his sense of humor allows him to mask that insecurity; in other ways, it helps him get to the joke first before anybody else can call him out on what he thinks are his flaws. I’ve been re-reading Nora Ephron’s I Feel Bad About My Neck, and this statement really sums that up:

However, at his best, Jin is particularly powerful.

Jin somehow always finds a way to embrace that insignificance.

'You know how everyone is born with a certain talent? I think my talent is that when something unpleasant happens or when I’m having a tough time mentally, I’m able to forget things quickly,' he said.

Jin added that, 'if I focus on my everyday life, I naturally wind up forgetting and moving forward.'

He also made quite the surprising admission that he doesn't think he's special at all.

source: Daily Mail

He spoke with Yoongi in a very “do or do not, there is no try” kind of way during their chat during season 1 of In the Soop, strongly making the point that happiness cannot be achieved or accomplished; it is merely a state of being. And it’s that enlightenment that I try to speak to in my fics.

Characterizations: A Map of Mrs. Kims, Hideaway

In A Map of Mrs. Kims, which is a work in progress, Jin is a character meant to investigate what it is to live as an independent person in today’s world, someone who is not focused on long-term partnership, someone who is fulfilled as he is on his own. In addition to that, he is a casanova focused on his career and immediate family. But when his mother, or his friends, press him on his love life, he does have a bit of a guard up. He tries to cover this up with jokes that focus instead on his sexual prowess.

“How many girls??” Retsuko’s eyes glisten with curiosity and excitement.

Jin pauses typing and looks sideways at her, eyes narrowing.

“You can’t be reveling in this.”

“I know I tease you relentlessly, but it’s because you’re hot as shit, smart as shit, kind as shit, but shouldn’t be single as shit.”

“I’m not single as shit.”

Jin presses ENTER on his keyboard and lets his initial data analysis run as he swivels his chair to face Retsuko head on.

“I’m just single. It’s not shitty, being single. I go on dates when I want. But I like—”

“—your independence, yeah yeah yeah,” Retsuko mocks, nodding her head exaggeratedly. She sits back and crosses her legs, the inside of her right knee resting on her left. “You do know that you don’t just merge into the person you commit to, right? You’re still your own person. You don’t just… blob together, like glue, or snot, or… or… I dunno, name another viscous fluid.”

Jin smirks.

Retsuko smirks back. “That’s why you’re single.”

“I just have too much viscous fluid in me to save it all for one person,” Jin says, turning back to his screen and scanning the syntax of his analysis. “Sharing is caring.”

“Well,” Retsuko says, “you might find out that after years of sharing—”

“Incessant sharing.”

“Incessant sharing—”

“Messy. Criminally so.”

“After your incessant, messy, criminal, absolutely depraved and disgusting sharing,” Retsuko jokes, “you’ll look up and find that there’s no one to share with anymore.”

Obviously, happiness is not only discovered through romantic partnership. I just happen to enjoy exploring the meaning of different kinds of personal relationships in my fics. But compare AMOMK Jin’s reaction here to Hideaway Jin’s reaction to partnership. 

Here, instead of using humor to deflect or mask, he chooses to be vulnerable. When discussing the nature of his and Y/N’s working relationship, meant to support a chaebol that consists of many families, he decides to be honest about his feelings, particularly about how that affects his friendship and personal relationship with Y/N.

You know what Jin means. If you abide by the current familial obligations, you don’t doubt that this will come up again and again. It puts undue stress on a relationship. Before Kwan, you were hopeful that you’d just find someone who understood. Now, you’re sure that no one will, and you’re beginning to resign yourself to that fate. But you can’t just turn your back on tradition. On power. On your parents. On your family. On Jin.

“I think you’re going to be the only guy in my life,” you say.

Jin’s breath hitches in his chest. You feel his body stutter.

You take some time to finish your tea. You’re feeling better, just waiting for all of this turmoil to settle. And Jin choosing to wait with you is helping.

“I’d be honored to be the next guy,” Jin says with a smirk.

You laugh.

“Why is that funny?” Jin asks, looking at you playfully.

“You know what I meant,” you say, leaning over and setting your empty mug on the table. “It’s just not going to happen for me, as long as I choose to focus on work, and on you.”

“What if you put a different kind of focus on me, then?”

You turn to Jin, confused.

As if to explain, Jin slowly raises his arm, the one that’s between you, the one you’re leaning on, and wraps it around you, under the blanket. He hugs you closer to him. You feel his fingers press against your arm and run down to your hand, intertwining his fingers into yours.

“Think about it, Friday. Think about me.”

You close your eyes and sigh, sinking into his hold.

He does feel good.

You’re looking straight ahead, but he turns his head and rests his chin on top of your head. Under the blanket, he moves his other arm to find your knees, scooping his forearm under them and turning you so that your legs run across his lap. He brings his arms around you, his hand still intertwined with yours. You look at him finally, questioningly. Your arm finds its way to his broad chest, and when you trace the collar of his muscle shirt, the blanket slips off of you both slightly, falling to your waists.

You deepen your touch, feeling the outline of the muscles of his firm chest. He sighs and closes his eyes, breathing hard. You’re starting to feel too warm, like you might start sweating.

He feels you, too. His hands are running up from your ankles to your thigh, moving across your stomach, and then down your other thigh to your other ankle. He grabs hold of your calf and massages it.

His other hand moves to your back, stroking it gently, first with just the knuckle of his thumb, but then with his entire palm, his fingers tickling in its wake. He grabs at your side, and you move against him, pressing into his chest harder, and letting out a little gasp.

You place your hand on his cheek, and he presses his hand over yours. You stroke his cheek, and he licks his lips. You gaze into each other’s eyes, and you see a glimmer of what could be.

But your gut is telling you the same thing that it will tell you in bed at Jin’s hideaway.

This won’t work.

You break your gaze and bring your hands down his neck, down his chest, and then back into your lap. You lean your head against his collarbone.

“We can’t, Jin.”

He watches you silently, both of you cooling back down, his hold feeling more like its usual caring and friendly hug.

“I just want you to know… I’m not a joke, either,” Jin says.

In all of my Jin stories, save maybe one, there is some aspect of insignificance or insecurity about his performance or identity in some way, whether it’s as a professional, or a significant other, or a lover. He often covers that up with humor, and he also has the tendency to act in boyishly, rapscallion-y, selfish, and self-destructive ways in an attempt to keep expectations of him extremely low. By the end of his character arcs, things have rarely changed for him. For example, in Hideaway, he still faces the huge responsibility of taking over his father’s company. However, the way he cognitively reframes his situation helps him see that responsibility through. Similarly to how IRL Jin thinks about BTS, Hideaway Jin realizes that he doesn’t have to do it all himself. And that takes the pressure off.

I write Jin in this way to honor the fact that we all fear our own potential. We have a hard time seeing our own strengths. We get confused when we try to line up with what other people value. When familiarity breeds contempt, knowing ourselves and being extremely self-aware, can sometimes backfire. So, we sometimes need to forget — or at the very least, go easy on ourselves. Jin teaches us how to embrace the things that we are uncomfortable with and turn them into our own joys. In a world where we often wonder what we can bring to the table, or how we can show up for others, we often forget that just showing up at all is more than enough.

As always, thanks for reading! What do you think? Do you agree? Disagree? I’m always interested in hearing what you have to say, so send me an ask or comment below!

🧠 Cheryl

[fanby-fckry]

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The Amazing Devil (Band)

Doctor Who

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Hazbin Hotel

Helluva Boss

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Black-and-white thinking in fandom and resources for CBT, DBT, and addressing cognitive distortions.

About Me:

My name is Nico, I’m 25, and I write fanfic. I use they/them and xe/xem pronouns, and have a whole heap of queer labels I fall under. For more info on my labels and term preferences, check out my pronouns.page.

I’m part of an real life love triangle made up of myself, my fiancé, and our boyfriend.

If you wanna read more of my work, I’m on AO3 as fanby, and have some exclusive fics posted there.

Blog’s new, but I’m not. I was on this hellsite back in the ‘go nuts, show nuts’ golden age and when they finally shut this place down, staff will have to call animal control to remove me from the air vents like the rabid little raccoon I am <3

I have a twitter, but there’s literally nothing there that isn’t here. Check it out if you prefer Musk’s bird app, I guess?

Fanfic Masterlists:

Harry Potter – WIP

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss

The Witcher

Kinktober

AO3 Exclusives – Links to the AO3 collection

Requests:

Requests are currently open for mutuals only. I’m trying to limit requests at the moment, but will make an exception for mutuals if I think I can swing it.

Will Write:

Angst with a happy ending

Hurt/comfort

Fluff

Familial relationships

Found family trope

X reader

OCs

Canon x OC

Any relationship style: platonic, queer platonic, romantic, sexual, D/s dynamics

Most kinks

Explicit kink

Non-explicit sexual content

Might Write:

Hurt/no comfort

Crossovers

OOC

Non-canon disabilities and mental illness *1

Alastor as a Voodoo practitioner*2

Explicit sexual content *3

*1 If I’m going to represent a marginalized group, I’m going to do my best to do so respectfully, even in fanfiction. If I’m not confident in my ability to do that, then I may choose not to.

That being said, I’m down to research and I have lived experience with chronic pain and a few mental illnesses. I am extremely confident in my ability to project my own experiences onto my blorbos, and do so quite frequently.

*2 This is mainly for the same reason I won’t write non-canon disabilities. Voodoo is highly misrepresented and I don’t want to contribute to that. I may write him as a past practitioner depending on the circumstances and as long as his current magic is not Voodoo-based.

My personal headcanon is that he grew up practicing Voodoo and ancestral magic, but burned bridges in the pursuit of power and lost support because being a serial killer is generally frowned upon. I usually write his current magic as non-specific, demonic, or Eldritch in nature.

*3 My ability to write explicit sexual content varies, so I’ll be taking this on a case by case basis.

Won’t Write – This Fandom-Specific Content:

Note: These are due to personal preference, deeply ingrained headcanons, and nunn’yuh (none ya business). I am not judging or condemning any of these ships/headcanons/etc. or people who make fanworks involving them; it’s just a comfort thing.

Hazbin Hotel:

Rosie in an NSFW context

Chalastor

Alastor x Niffty

Angel Dust shipped romantically with women

Vaggie shipped with men

The Witcher:

Yennefer bashing

Ciri (including adult!Ciri) shipped with any Wolf School Witcher

Ciri (including adult!Ciri) shipped with Jaskier/Dandelion

Won’t Write – This General Content:

Note: A good deal of this section falls under Kinktomato or YKINMKATO (Your Kink Is Not My Kink (And That's OK)) and DLDR (Don’t Like, Don’t Read) – just like, with writing instead of reading.

I’m not here to take sides in shipcourse or police other people’s writing; this is, again, about my own comfort level with writing certain topics. That’s it.

Scat/watersports/emeto kink

Adult x minor ships

Underage NSFW/smut/explicit, including any underage kink

Incest, including adoptive/step family

Detailed or romanticized non-con *1

Detailed or romanticized dub-con *1

Detailed or romanticized suicide *2

Detailed or romanticized self harm *2

*1 I can write aftermath of non-con/dub-con or attempted non-con/dub-con, but will not go into detail or portray it as in any way positive. I won’t write the reader or a canon characters as the perpetrator, unless it’s already in canon – AKA: The Valentino Exception. This does not include negotiated CNC, which I would consider writing under specific circumstances.

*2 Any time I write content involving suicide or suicidal ideation, I write with the National Recommendations for Depicting Suicide in mind.

The way suicide is portrayed in fiction can have real world consequences:

“Studies have shown that both news reports and fictional accounts of suicide in movies and television can lead to increases in suicide. In contrast, when depictions are done responsibly, the media can help to encourage help seeking, dispel myths, and reinforce hope – and ultimately save lives.”

(Source: Alliance for Suicide Prevention)

I am a suicide survivor and have lost loved ones to suicide as well, so this is deeply personal to me. If you’re struggling with self harm or suicidal thoughts, please hold on, and don’t be afraid to ask for help:

International Suicide Hotlines

Australia Lifeline: 13 11 14

Canada Talk Suicide: 1.833.456.4566

UK Samaritans: 116 123

USA Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: 988

[cliveguy]

sorry i kind of love how dabb dean can be so cruel and horrible... it's literally more in character than any of the fanfics people write where he goes to therapy and starts reciting his cbt worksheets whenever he has an emotional confrontation

[kristailine]

Massacred to the core because of a lot of irl stuff lately, but I'm finished with my exams szn!

Barely breathing but I do know that writing fanfics would make me feel better so I might do just that this weekend and hoping to get something out before CBT :>>

[deadlysoupy]

2. What fanfic do you wish you got more response on?

For the fanfic writer ask :)

hiii!!!! <3

mostly the one-shots become a little forgotten, but i'm otherwise happy with the responses to my weird stories. CBT-JT hasn't gotten much attention, but honestly that's on me i feel like, the premise isn't one you see often and i get how people wouldn't want to read it. meh

thank you for asking!!!!! muah kisses u

[couldyouspeakmyname]

Sleepover Saturday

fuck, marry, kill

ask my top 3 of anything

send me celebrities for hot or not

would I ship _______ with _______ ?

headcanons

who you ship me with

tell me stories about you or your day

ask me for advice

ask me questions about things you want to know

literally whatever you want

FMK

Yandere!Bill, Shishigumi!Bill, Normal!Bill

Sebun, Haru, Ako

Melon, Legoshi, Riz

Hino, Dope, Jinma

Question by Anons!

1.What if the old guy who was sitting in front of the Black Market selling his own fingers to carnivores to eat was someone who had been gotten rid of by his kids long ago? Or what if he was doing it to support someone else he had under his care?

2.What male Beastars character makes you wanna do CBT on? (IDK what CBT, other than cognitive behavioral therapy. If you know, let me know! -Maeve)

3. If you could take any one of the Shishigumi home for yourself for the rest of your life, who would you choose?

4. Headcanon for which Cherryton students grow the tallest once they reach adulthood?

5. favourite rare ship? Favourite fanfic trope?

6. How would the Shishgiumi slide into your DM's?

Scenarios

Pick a character, now introduce them to your parents

Pick a character, you're now going trick or treating with them. How does it go?

[hekateinhell]

switching tabs between my analysis paper on cognitive theory & CBT practices in relation to postpartum depression and my vc fanfic that should never leave the depths of hell

[theirmajesty2139]

I want so badly to write for coyle but I've got such a backlog😪

Some of the fanfics already up on ao3 already so good though. Read one where he got strapped and there was electro cbt involved. Holy shit

[goldheartedsky]

Five things I never tire of writing

got tagged by @ongreenergrasses and it was really fun to think about what my main draws are!

1) DeVOtion, baby

MAN this is the big one, isn't it? This is what it comes down to. We are ride or fucking die with this love, you hear me? I don't care if it's healthy, if it's toxic, if it's gonna destroy one or both of these characters, the devotion is gonna BE THERE. The world could be on fire but as long as it's you and me, we gonna be alright. I love writing about devotion in both fanfic and in original fiction—I truly cannot get enough of it.

2) Forgiveness

There's the other side of that coin. When it all goes wrong, how are you gonna find your way through it? How are you gonna pull that bit of you that wants to hate so much—because it'd be so easy—and turn it into forgiveness? It's such a hard theme because sometimes choosing forgiveness isn't the easiest choice but a necessary one, both for yourself and the other person. It's such a powerful emotion and a catharsis when you finally find yourself on the other side.

3) Grey Antagonists

Call me an absolute lunatic, but I can redeem almost any antagonist in my story. Doesn't matter if it's Francesca in Fireproof or my main character's father in my novel, these villains aren't always what they seem at first read. I think having a big scary boogeyman as a main antagonist is so incredibly lazy and, with good enough storytelling, you can make damn near anyone sympathetic.

4) Difficult subject matter

It doesn't matter if it's eating disorders, PTSD, addiction, spousal abuse, whatever, I really do love tackling these hard to discuss and hard to read issues. And I always strive to give them a lot of nuance and show the reality of what these issues are like, because so much of fanfic glosses over the messy, traumatic parts of it in effort to find that happy ending. I did a lot of research when tackling stuff like eating disorders in Tripping on Stars or domestic violence in the Cherry Wine verse, and have been told I've written everything really well. Sometimes a happy ending is just getting to your next meeting. Sometimes a happy ending is just picking yourself up after a relapse. It's not failure until you stop moving forward.

5) Kinky stuff

I'd be a liar if I said I didn't love writing niche porn. Doesn't matter if it's CBT or sounding or boot worship, I'm probably into it. There's arguably less kinks that I'm not into than stuff I am into, so I like to shake the grab-bag around when I can. I do have my favorite kinks and it'd probably be pretty easy to tell which ones they are, but please don't drag me on hellsite dot com 😂

Tagging @quinbi, @captain-grammar, and @jakeseresinfag. Expose yourselves, heathens

[sassykattery]

One-Shot/Headcannon/Smut/Imagines Obey Me! Requests Open!

Rules for requests:

You must be at least 18 to request and you either must confirm with me via DM or have it clearly stated in your bio that you are of age. Minors and ageless blogs who send requests will be blocked immediately even if you request something SFW. I have clearly stated this is an 18+ blog in my bio.

Just because you made a request does not guarantee I will do the request.

I like to do a mini consultation about the request to make sure we're on the same page just over DMs unless you're pretty specific about the ask

Your request may take at least a week for me to complete, and I will let you know when it's finished, or if it will take me longer. Please don't rush me.

You must ask non-anonymously = no anon asks

Please be kind and polite, I will block you if you're rude.

side note: this post will be linked to my "Love, Eternal" masterlist so if you ever lose this post, just go to my pinned post and there will be a link to take you back here.

Also please feel free to check out my fanfic "Love, Eternal" if you haven't already :)

Please respect my rules, and happy reading!

Characters:

All seven brothers

Side characters but not Luke, Thirteen, or Raphael as I don't know their characters well-enough, or I am just choosing not to write about them.

Will write SFW and NSFW, you have to tell me what you want, or you can leave it up to me (you must tell me if you're leaving it up to my discretion)

My Do's and Don'ts Lists are not exhaustive. I learn all the time as I write what I am and am not comfortable writing about. So, if you ask for something I don't feel comfortable with, I will likely inform you of that, but I'm open to modifying your request if possible.

SFW Rules:

Do's:

Hurt

Angst (to a certain extent)

Comfort

Fluff

Crack

Mental health issues (i.e. anxiety & depression, to a certain extent) and body image issues (I am plus-sized and happy to write from the perspective)

Blood is okay but not gore

MC pairings platonic and romantic

Small spicey scenes but not full-blown smut

Self-insert from the author or reader self-insert (basically if you want me to talk about what I'd do personally vs. "MC")

Gender neutral or AFAB/fem reader perspectives (must tell me which you want)

Menstruation-related things (can do gn or fem reader)

What If? scenarios

Don'ts:

HC's

Dom/sub relationships without NSFW

Yandere Lite™️ (I can write and do enjoy reading yandere dynamics, but I don't do super dark stuff. I once read a super dark yan fic that literally made my stomach churn so, yeah)

Extreme violence/gore

Character deaths (makes me too sad to read let alone write)

Pregnancy/Having children with any characters

NSFW Rules:

All characters involved must and will be at least presumed to be 18 or older in smut scenes.

Do's:

Kinks (it depends on the kink; harder ones are less likely to be accepted. Case by case basis.)

BDSM

Roleplay

Objectification

Dom/sub/switch

Aftercare

Impact play

In reference to the first bullet, I can do breeding kink, but it will never result in/mention pregnancy.

Positions

HC's

I prefer to write consensual scenes but dubcon is okay depending on the ask.

Gender neutral or AFAB reader perspectives (you must tell me which)

Can do threesomes/groups but characters will only interact with reader, not each other

Don't's:

Monsterfucking

Yandere Lite™️

Vore

Noncon

Situations that allude to any characters being underage (ex. Asking for a scene with the idea anyone is under 18)

Extreme violence

Super hard kinks

Edgeplay

CBT

Demoncest (aka incest)

Pregnancy/Lactation

Watersports

Direct pairings between characters (example: SolomonxLucifer, DiavoloxMammon, etc)

[eddies-artofsuffering]

🍉this is the writer ask thing🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?🍉only if you want to🍉

Ha! I see what you did there. i've got a feeling you might've read some stuff i've written. Right, so. Trauma.

I’ve mentioned this a few times in my notes... But in my life the only person who knows that I write fanfic is my therapist. He encourages it because he believes that it offers therapeutic release through processing, and I agree with him. So far my fics have dealt with physical pains and scars, PTSD, the importance of parental figures and guardianship, the roles that love languages play in our lives, and different types of loss. all of these themes are v personal to me...

suffice to say: life hasn’t been kind to my past. and it genuinely helps me process shit when I write about characters who go through similar stuff and heal from them. It's hard to hear stuff externally sometimes, so it's wonderful when i get to care about how the characters feel and think, and to make them hear/realize/say affirming stuff that a CBT-trained social worker would say, because so much of PTSD treatment is rebuilding new passageways for the nervous system. How fortunate I am to have met characters like Steve and Eddie and many others who understand intimately what I've suffered from. By helping them heal I help myself, and I hope that by extension my readers could feel some semblance of healing/closure as well. take care of yourself and be safe out there. i love you.