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have an arthur fleckmas and a happy pale man ❤️❤️
edited by the tgelest @cemeteryydriverr 🔥
#id in alt#will not be explaining myself. have fun#christmas#pale man#joker#avery draws#fanart#pans labyrinth#mpreg
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hey Mod,hope you doing well! I wanna ask,what type of pony,or non-pony (like kirin) TPoH characters would be? I have a plan for these :]
oh lordt I watched all of MLP:FIM last year and I have forgotten ALL of it but let me try on the spot after having just woken up sure nothing bad can happen and I definitely won't forget anyone haha
RGB: draconequus Hero: earth pony Dial: pegasus Madras: kirin TOby: earth pony Assok: dragon but like a lil serpent one :P Jullienne: pegasus Melody: yak Cel: gryphon Tinker: bugbear (HEAR ME OUT like. the friendliest bugbear. also green) Tailor: unicorn Click: unicorn
#TPoH ask#MLP#im not gonna defend or explain myself u just get to play with this now ok bye bye have fun#before anyone asks Magnus isn't my character! so you'd have to ask his creator#Madras has been legally handed over to me (thanks nate!) so I guess I can do her plus kirin would be cool?
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Au where Hua Cheng for some reason gets magic amnesia literally RIGHT before Xie Lian's third ascension and comes to knowing that he's a ghost and a fairly powerful one at that but has zero autobiographical info beyond that. This is so 1) San Lang + Xie Lian's ox cart meeting is genuinely a meeting of two not-strangers who don't know each other but are nevertheless immediately infatuated and silly about it 2) He Xuan has a scene where he's panicking worse and worse about Hua Cheng not PICKING UP in his GODDAMN PERSONAL ARRAY
#this thought did inspire a fic which is like 95% done by now and i'm posting this to try to bully myself into finishing it. btw#unfortunately i have no integrity and also didn't wanna fuck with mt yujun#so in the fic hc gets amnesia RIGHT before ox cart meeting happens#i didn't bother explaining why but logically? the answer is 'qi-deviation-in-all-but-name from overexcitement at getting to talk to dianxia#which is VERY funny#but it does mean that hx is no longer in the fic 💔💔💔 i might write a bonus just for fun bc i am genuinely so disappointed abt it skdjfh#tgcf#my posts#kay talks#caps#forget-me-not skies
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DARK and DISTURBING SMG4 theories that will really shock you!!!!!😱😱😱😱😱
SMG4 is in a coma and the whole show takes place in his dreams.
The spaghetti Mario eats is an allegory for drugs (which are bad for you) and so Mario is on drugs (which is bad).
Bob is just a figment of everyone's imagination he's actually just a pile of cloth that blows around in the wind, everyone thinks this because they are all on drugs.
SMG3 is actually dead and everyone sees him as a ghost, he died from an explosion and he's also in a coma
Meggy
If you look carefully at Wotfi 2023 and pause at 30:23, you can see the number 666 flash on the screen for a brief second, this is because the creators of the show are possessed by the devil.
Everything's a evil simulation created by Mr Puzzles to test the entire cast (this one is actually true), he does this because he worships the devil.
SMG3 is gay, this explains why he is evil at first because he is being altered by gay urges to commit crimes, and also he is on dru
Real like Luke is in a coma and the whole show takes place in his dreams.
Tari is dead and is just projecting herself into the show so she can stay alive for as long as possible (because she is dead)
Melony sleeps so much because she is on dr
Saiko is actually really scary and she kills people when no ones looking, she has gone a insane long ago but no one cares because they also all kill people.
Meggys' gun is real and she shoots people
The writers are are all on drugs, this is bad and explains why the show is so crazy.
Mr Puzzles is in a coma and the whole show takes pla
Everyone dies and comes back new at the start of each episode
The cast are all real life paid actors but they use so much special affects that no one can tell they're all real, SMG4 is played by Ryan Gosling.
Boopkins is always dying and in pain because he is a fish and fish can't live out of water, so the cast is always TORTURING him for their sick and twisted entertainment
Mr Puzzles died when he cut off his head, the cast see him as a ghost
The cast are all in hell and this is their eternal punishment
Tari is a computer virus and if you download any SMG4 episode she gives you a virus that you cannot get rid of and it's very scary
Luigi is gay because he is on drugs and also is in a coma and th
SMG4 RUINED!!!!!!😭😭😭😭
#smg4#Not explaining myself for this. Have fun#I'm joking obviously. Those dark and disturbing fan theories are my favourite thing. They're so fucking funny#There's another post on here that's similar. It's my favourite post on this site I had to make a SMG4 version. That thing makes me SOB
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ive been selfshipping since 2019 (i was primarily an und*rtale fanartist that just self shipped sometimes, never had a separate blog for it)
but i haven't been specifically in the general selfship community till.. this year i guess?
can i be honest you guys. i actually dontttttt.... really like it here . LOL
#ten four over#could be my hunger talking..... but man#i Dont like fandom™️. and to be honest i feel like im still having to participate in fandom nonsense to be here#its all a bit much for me......#again i like selfshipping. i just dont think i give enough of a shit to keep up with the Culture here.#being forced to see selfship drama is like. girl. i dont want to be wrapped up in this with yall. respectfully#i dont think im explaining myself well. but imagine me. cinni. being an oc x oc Exclusive artist for the past three years.#where i have seen no drama about anything forever because you cannot have drama over ocs. there is no fandom for that to be a thing.#getting back into selfshipping/fan ocs where i have to see yall fighting people over who owns a fictional canon character.#ive never heard of the terms sharing/nonsharing till 2025. i have been selfshipping 6 years.#like please imagine how annoying and exhausting that must be for me who has had Utmost Peace for 3 straight years. Please.#tl;dr tired of all that goes on here. i dont wanna deal with keeping up with it bc idgaf. this is my fun blog that is for fun.#perhaps i just stay in my bubble and stop trying to make new friends and moots. anyway i lay down thanks for listening to me yap.
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before it felt like a sin, ch. 1
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 3000
summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
a/n: Hi everyone!! I decided to post this here too...I'm slowly going through everything I've written so far, and I want to post each chapter here as I edit them. I'm hoping that this can be a way to a) get back in to writing more, and b) get better at my art as I make full illustrations for each chapter. Let me know what you think!! :)
There is nothing quite as horrible as being a muggle, Eloise thought savagely as she ripped out yet another stitch in the landscape she was embroidering. At least, it was supposed to be a landscape. Maybe with her head tilted to the left and with her eyes almost closed so everything blurred together, it might resemble one. She did just that, trying her hardest to make out some recognizable shape and blast the stupid practice of manually pushing colored thread through a fabric in some sort of -
“And what is this, Miss Babbit?”
Eloise jumped at the sound and looked up at the scowling face of her teacher, and then quickly back down at the tangled thread in her lap. Behind her, she could hear the hushed giggles of the other girls in her class.
“Oh! Er…it’s -”
“How long have you been here?” the woman interrupted.
“One hour…I just -”
“Don’t be smart with me. I mean, at this institute.”
“Five years.” Eloise glared down at her embroidery as if it had personally offended her. It wasn’t like she was actively trying to be bad at everything, but she had the distinct disadvantage - how had it ever come to be that she would be at a disadvantage to muggles? - of not having spent a lifetime being prepared for muggle society and all that it entailed. The last five years had been a monotonous, endless cycle of lessons designed to turn her into the perfect lady: French (a waste of time as Eloise was already fluent), embroidery (a waste of time as the things she embroidered weren’t actually useful), dancing (a waste of time as she was already engaged to be married - why would she bother trying to woo another silly man?), and her most dreaded class of all: etiquette. No matter how many years had been spent trying to assimilate into muggle culture, her thoughts still got muddled when she tried to remember the steps to a dance, or how to properly address the son of a duke.
Did it really matter, anyways, what the other girls thought? She had pretended her whole life to be the daughter she thought her parents had wanted - now she was simply pretending that she hadn’t been thrown into the muggle world without a second thought. What was a bit more pretending - that she didn’t care? That she hadn’t been tossed aside without a second thought?
“Exactly. Five years. And yet, you have shown no progress whatsoever. This -” a finger jabbed accusingly at the embroidery - “is absolutely horrendous. If your parents hadn’t continued to make such a sizeable donation every year, I would have deemed you a lost cause and sent you packing when you first arrived. How your family ever managed your betrothal to the son of an earl is beyond me.”
Eloise grimaced at the mention of her fiance as her teacher clapped her hands together to get the attention of the class - a wholly unnecessary action due to the fact that it was already being given. “Class is dismissed. Please collect your belongings and put them in the correct place. Remember, as future wives and mothers, you must be organized in all aspects of your life. Many of you will be managing important households and the slightest misstep -“ a slight glance to Eloise out of the corner of her eye - “can cause the biggest of scandals.”
Eloise raced to gather her things and leave the classroom before everyone else. No matter how many years had been spent at the school, she couldn’t help but hate sitting through the classes amongst the judgmental stares and snide remarks. Although things had started out shaky at the finishing school - to be expected, really, when you’ve grown up in wizarding society and then are then forced to live as a muggle - it still stung that after all these years, she still hadn’t found a friendly face. She was treated as if she were a pariah: it was as if the other girls just knew that something was different about her. But…wasn’t that the great irony of it all? She wasn’t different than them. She was a filthy squib.
When she first arrived at the school, she was an anomaly. A twelve-year-old girl who didn’t know how to play the piano or who the queen was. It was clear to everyone that Eloise wasn’t the charity case of the school - her parents were obviously quite wealthy - and yet they seemingly wanted nothing to do with her. Whereas the others got regular letters and visits from their family, it was as if Eloise were an orphan. Nothing new to her of course, but to her peers this otherness aided them in her ostracization.
Upon entering her room, she was abruptly pulled out of her thoughts. Something wasn’t right. Everything seemed the same: a twin bed perfectly made opposite a small wardrobe, a plain wooden desk placed between them. The weak afternoon sunlight shone through the window, illuminating her desk. But…there.
That…
Placed on her bed, resting on the pillow, was a letter.
She never received letters.
Eloise shoved her embroidery under her bed and hungrily grabbed at it, pausing when she saw the address. Miss E. Babbit. The Third Bedroom on the Left… It seemed vaguely familiar to her in a way she couldn’t quite put her finger on.
As she read the letter, though, it became apparent to her exactly why this was. Although not exactly the same as the one her brother had received six years earlier, it quickly became apparent that this was a Hogwarts letter. For her. For Miss E. Babbit.
Hands shaking, she set the letter down on her desk and sat on the edge of her bed. She smoothed her hands over her skirt over and over, taking comfort in the familiar softness as she tried to even her breathing.
How was this possible? She had all but accepted the fact that she was a squib. The shame of her family, a dirty secret to be hidden away and never talked about or mentioned again. Her parents had suspected as much by the time she had turned seven without any signs of magic whatsoever manifesting around her - not even a basic transformation of brussel sprouts to sweets during dinner. It was ultimately confirmed, however, when her own Hogwarts acceptance letter never arrived. She had spent the whole year before her banishment daydreaming about her life at Hogwarts, still optimistic that there could be something magical inside of her. Her brother, Leo, came home every holiday with wonderful stories of his new friends and teachers, and the subjects he was learning at school. Even back then, at twelve years old, Eloise hadn’t been sure if he was actually hopeful she wasn’t a squib, or if he had been trying to prolong the fantasy for her before it all came crashing down.
Although she had had five years to come to terms with her new life, there was still a small part of her that hoped. A small “what if…”. She had tried time and time again to squash that tiny ray of optimism that would escape every so often, tried so very hard to cultivate a hard exterior that wouldn’t let any sort of vulnerability shine through. And that optimism was a vulnerability, after all. It was that vulnerability that had made it absolutely impossible for her to fit in the muggle world, and made it so that she didn’t really want to try.
Five years to come to terms with the fact that she needed a new purpose for her life and…
…not anymore?
Eloise grabbed the letter and greedily read through it again, drinking in all of the words. She paused at the end, thinking. Was this a forgery? Some sort of awful joke orchestrated by her brother? Leo had never been cruel to her in the past; in fact, he was the one who always encouraged her and was the most probable source of the small optimism that remained within her. However, she had no way of knowing how he had changed since she had last seen him. It had been, after all, five very long years. And not once had she heard from him, even though he had promised her through huge sobbing gulps that he would never abandon her. Maybe their parents had slowly poisoned him against her. It would be right on the nose for them, after all.
Looking at the envelope again, however…Third Bedroom on the Left…no. It was too specific. Nobody in her previous life had any reason to even want to contact her again, and nobody in her current life even knew what Hogwarts was, let alone have the ability to convincingly forge a letter just to have some fun at her expense.
A light, bubbly feeling began to spread throughout her body as it sunk in that this was real. She was going to Hogwarts. Soon, a - squinting at the letter again - a Professor Fig would be contacting her and giving her things to study. A huge grin slowly spread across her face and she hugged the letter to her chest as she fell back on her bed. She read through it again. Was it the fifth time already? It felt as though no amount of times rereading the letter would ever be enough.
Eloise got up and walked over to look at the calendar on her desk. She was surprised to see that September 1st was in only two days. The days at the finishing school moved in such a strange, sluggish way. They all felt the same. Monotonous. French and Latin and embroidery and household management and Merlin even knows what else all blending into each other in an endless parade of dusty classrooms and gossip and boredom.
The light feeling left her in an instant as, after years of practice, the optimism was squashed back down. But how will you even get to London? And, her brain added sneakily, you haven’t even shown any signs of magic. Maybe you’ll just be returned back here after they realize their mistake.
No, she thought fiercely, gripping the letter. Until -
A tapping came from the window. A tentative smile returned at the sight of a tawny brown owl with another envelope in its beak. She ripped it open as soon as it was in her hands (again addressed to Miss E. Babbit) and along with the letter a small, purple pouch fell out of the envelope and onto her bed.
Miss Eloise Babbit,
I am pleased to be the wizard charged with such an important task as escorting you to Hogwarts in two days’ time. It is something extraordinary to be accepted in your fifth-year, and as such, I expect extraordinary things from you. I have enclosed a small pouch along with this envelope, and in it are some items that will be vital to you in the upcoming days. I have included books for you to study at your leisure, and a small gobstone that will bring you to our rendezvous point in London. All you have to do is touch it at noon on the 1st and you will be transported instantly.
Your family has not been informed of your acceptance. I am sure you understand why - at this, Eloise scoffed quietly to herself - which is why I will personally be your escort.
I am looking forward to meeting you and bringing you to the sorting ceremony in two days’ time.
Yours,
Eleazar Fig
The handwriting was tiny and spidery and cramped, but it didn’t stop Eloise from reading it with the same vigor as the previous letter and as many times. Finally, she turned to the small pouch that had fallen onto her bed when she opened the second envelope. It must have had an invisible extension charm, because it was filled to the brim with books on basic spellwork and general wizarding history. Professor Fig had no way of knowing, but Eloise had already read many of these books and many more during the year her brother had started Hogwarts, as she had needed to know absolutely everything about what would be awaiting her. A few years may have passed since she had stepped foot in her family’s library, but she couldn’t get the books or their contents out of her brain even if she had wanted to. She had really wanted to forget everything she knew about the magical world when it was confirmed she was a squib but it was a futile effort. As she zoned out during her piano lessons, she would find herself mentally going through the movements to cast different charms.
It was painful to be thinking about things from the life that had been ripped away from her, to know that what she was thinking about would never come to pass, that she would never be able to wield magic - and yet she couldn’t find herself able to stop.
As Eloise picked out one of the books and settled into her armchair, a steely resolve overcame her.
She would prove that she deserved to be there, and was just as capable as any of they were. She would make her parents regret ever discarding her like she was nothing.
She was worthy. She was capable. And she would prove it.
The morning of September 1st dawned cold and rainy. Absolutely perfect.
Eloise had pretended to be sick the night before, and no one had suspected a thing when she stayed in bed long after all of the other girls had gotten ready and headed to breakfast. As the last of the chattering faded away down the hallway, Eloise finally got out of bed and prepared herself for the day. It was difficult to sit still long enough to braid her hair. Her fingers wouldn’t stop trembling and she had to restart countless times. Finally, she tied the black ribbon at the end into a neat bow and turned to the drawer of her desk to retrieve the small purple pouch she had hidden away.
Everything she deemed important enough to come along with her had already been placed inside: the books from Professor Fig, the hair ribbons gifted to her by her brother many years ago, and some clothing. Nothing else was coming with. She needed the fresh start. Besides, anything else she might need would be supplied, as her acceptance letter had specifically stated that any school supplies would be provided to her.
Waiting the hours before noon came along proved to be more difficult than Eloise had imagined. Time seemed to be moving slower than the molasses that had come with the breakfast sent up to her, the steady patter of the rain becoming a sort of metronome keeping time as she paced back and forth. Wasn’t there anything that could distract her, even for a bit? She glanced at the clock. Only five minutes had passed since the last time. 10.35.
The second hand ticking away in tandem with the sound of rain splashing against her window.
What if this was all a trick? What if she arrived at Hogwarts, and they turned her away because they realized they had made a mistake? After all, why would they admit a sixteen-year-old? Surely she was too old; every other student had started Hogwarts at the age of twelve and had shown signs of magic much earlier than that. She still hadn’t shown any signs of magical capability whatsoever, and didn’t feel any different than she had before receiving the letter. It had to be a fluke.
As her thoughts started veering into the melancholy she was prone to, she shook her head. No. Today was a happy, exciting day. She wasn’t going to squash the optimism down today, not when she needed it most. All of these thoughts she was having were simply that: thoughts. Not reality. Hogwarts never made a mistake, and in all of the history books she had read, she couldn’t recall an instance of someone being turned away at the door. Granted, she had also never heard of someone being admitted so late. But, better to focus on what she did��know, which was that she had gotten the letter. It must be right in its assumption that she had magic.
Trying to pass the time was easier said than done. She ended up quizzing herself on all of the charms she had memorized in the books sent by Professor Fig, moving an imaginary wand in the precise movements needed to successfully cast and focusing on her pronunciation. She had studied all of these forms late into both nights she had had the books, and when she would eventually close her eyes to sleep, the wand movements were all she saw.
Eloise was determined that she would receive pity from nobody. Nobody was going to look at her like she was lacking. She had gotten enough of that to last a lifetime, and now that she was given this opportunity she wasn’t about to waste it.
When noon finally struck, Eloise was ready and waiting. She eagerly grabbed the gobstone that was sitting on her desk and felt the familiar tugging sensation in her navel as she was whisked away to London and the beginning of her new life.
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#im just writing this fic for fun & since I’m editing it a bit#I thought it would be fun to challenge myself to do full illustrations for each chapter#(the reason I started these fanarts in the first place was for this🧍��♀️)#if you actually read this I would love to know what you think!!#I keep going back & forth between wanting to make a master list and also explain my tag system on this tumblr#but at the same time I like the chaos…🤔#well let me know!! or if you have any suggestions!!💓😙#it starts off a bit slow but this story is VERY canon-divergent#and will have a lot of mythology/magical theory/pureblood society etc etc#i dont expect these to really get much traction bahahahahahaha#but im going to have a lot of fun rereading my fic & making these illustrations🥹💓#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#hogwarts legacy fic#oh also???? how do you format these things??????????????? anyways the chapter is up on ao3 and honestly the whole fic up to chapter 22😆😆#but if you have any suggestions lmk!!!!#like do I put the warnings for the whole fic on each chapter?? put only the chapter warnings??? literally this is me: 🧍♀️#a poor confused technology grandma
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‼️🤯 NEW FANDOM RULE JUST DROPPED 🤯‼️ no more infantilizing hazel no more refusing to ship her with anyone but frank no more excluding black characters from being desirable love interests. you have to think about hazel making out with One character who was never one of her canon love interests for at least 3 minutes sorry
#she's literally 15 in toa + son of neptune is over a decade old we have to get over ourselves#I'm calling myself out too btw. not for infantilizing her but for not being more creative with hazel rarepairs#anyone else remember when I said I didn't know how to make jason/hazel work. a lot of people don't remember it because it#didn't get much screentime but the jason/hazel drama is super interesting and so easy to build upon but I'm not convinced there's#a lot of romantic potential you can get out of them in a canon setting <- my bias because I tend to not like jason ships in a canon setting#but well maybe I could make hazel/[redacted] work#<- censored for my safety because this character's fans might throw a fit#hazel really might be the least shipped protagonist. like va|zhang is niche but it definitely has a following. hazel pretty much has#nothing but fraze| barring the 5 hazeleo fans on this website#frank/hazel/leo trio fandom is very funny I feel like pretty much all of us at least Passively like fraze|+va|zhang+haze|eo simultaneously#I feel like all I talk about are the 2 canon pairs that I love but I'm definitely a rarepair enjoyer (including rare platonic friendships)#but getting into a rare ship is a little intimidating because if it actually catches on then like. you have to Spearhead it#people will look to you to explain it/steer the helm of the ship and it's like#Ok well I don't want all that responsibility I just want to have fun with romance and character dynamics. it makes sense to Me in My head#hazel levesque#baye.txt#pjo#hazelposting
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guy who needs floor time
#mmmm my beautiful dim apartment with my beautiful noise cancelling headphones#my one coworker continues to complain to me about the job which that part tbh is fine because i complain too#it is a little stupid sometimes but she is like 'aren't you tired of this' and i'm kind of like#sooo the thing is 👉👈#i've created a life for myself in which i'm happy frequently#all i wanted was a boring job and my independence#to go to social events Sometimes and to generally be on good terms with coworkers#to work on my own hobbies to have friends and a routine and for my family to be healthy and safe#to set fun challenges for myself on occasion#i have what i spent my 20s wanting. idk#yes it took chemical help and i had to give up on some things and restructure the whole way i thought about myself#it wasn't ever the hard work that i minded#like. every day i get up and do some tasks and daydream the whole time and sometimes listen to books!#it's basically my dream#now when it's 10 hour shifts 6 days a week that is difficult but that's only a month out of the year#do you hear that? i only want to kms a month out of the year!#it's difficult to explain all that to someone who hates doing tasks and needs social interaction/validation
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Untitled Zukka Hurt/Comfort Ficlet #1 (because practicing drawing means I need to write little mini fics I guess...)
“You’re sick.” Sokka’s voice was as calm as the surface of water on a still night. Not a hint of accusation or contempt. No softness, no sting. Only observation. Reflection.
Zuko took a breath, deep to sooth his limbs that were threatening to shake. “I’m fine.”
Sokka frowned, and Zuko felt a knot form instantly in his stomach. His shivered, vision swimming as he saw the flash of another frown, superimposed. A different frown. Harsh. Sharp.
Sokka’s movements were calm. Fluid. Gentle as he raised his hand to Zuko’s forehead and pressed with just the right amount of pressure. “You have a fever.” Zuko felt his heartbeat pick up as Sokka’s lip began to curl, but as his expression settled Zuko realized that Sokka wasn’t angry, just concerned.
Zuko breathed deeply, pinning his arms to his sides before the other boy could notice that he was shaking now. Only, he must not have been fast enough because Sokka dropped his hand from Zuko’s forehead to grab Zuko’s trembling fingers.
“Your hands are freezing.” Sokka hand tightened around Zuko’s as he pulled it upwards, pressing it against his mouth. Zuko couldn’t stop his hands from shaking even harder as Sokka’s breath warmed his skin.
—
“I can do that.” Zuko reached to grab his sleeping bag. “I’m fine.” Sokka lifted it over his head like they were kids playing keep away. Zuko huffed, crossing his arms, but let Sokka keep it.
“You’re not fine.” Sokka spread of the blanket. “How long have you been feeling sick?”
“Ugg.” Sokka paused. He looked up, holding Zuko’s gaze until Zuko finally drawled, two days? maybe three.”
“Three days?!” Zuko felt his pulse quickening again, his shoulders bracing. “Why didn’t you say anything!” Even though Sokka’s voice voice was high he didn’t sound angry. In fact… Sokka’s eyebrows were scrunched, lips pressed thin. “You were training Aang this morning. Zuko, you shouldn’t be bending like that if you’re sick “ Sokka was worried.
“I’m fine.” How many times had Zuko said that now? “It’s just a fever. It’ll go away.”
“I mean, sure it will, if you rest. Can you, uh…” He gestured towards the sleeping bag, laid out and waiting.
“Oh.” It felt awkward to lower himself down when his legs felt so much like jelly, Zuko was sure it wasn’t graceful. But Sokka didn’t say anything, just stood there, eyebrow raised. Waiting. Zuko realized, then, that he was supposed to lay all the way down. So he did, somehow feeling boneless now that he wasn’t holding himself up.
He blinked as Sokka settled a blanket over to his shoulders. It took Zuko and absurd number of seconds to realize that it was a blue blanket, one of Sokka’s own. Woven. Thick. Soft.
“Comfortable?” Sokka asked. When Zuko met his eyes he smiled.
It was nice, seeing Sokka smile. Zuko wanted to smile back, but he… there was a quivering in his stomach. Not sickness, just… waiting. “I’m fine,” Zukp said. When Sokka raised an eyebrow, he added, “I… feel fine.”
“I doubt that,” Sokka said.
“I do,” Zuko insisted. Yes, his body felt suddenly heavy. And his skin buzzed strange sensitivity that made event he gentlest touch feel like a scratch. But he was lying on his side, on something soft, and he was warm. “I… thank you.”
Sokka shrugged. “I didn’t do much,” he said. “Do you need anything else?”
Zuko thought for a moment. “Water?” He croaked.
“Coming right up, bud.”
Zuko let his eyes close for a moment, just listening to the sound of Sokka’s footsteps as he went back to the packs, the rustling of fabric as he was digging through something. Then there was a feeling, something hard brushing his fingers. Zuko opened his eyes to see a small, green glass. “A Ba Sing Se souvenir cup?”
“It was on sale,” Sokka said, chuckling. “Drink it. It’s medicine.”
“For what?” Zuko asked.
“The fever?” Sokka reminded him. “Do they… umm… not treat fevers in the Fire Nation or something?”
“Of course they do.” Zuko propped himself up just enough to tip the bitter liquid into his mouth before settling down again.
More sounds of shuffling as Sokka lowered himself, and then Zuko felt weight on his back as Sokka pressed into him, a hand settling itself onto his arm. Sokka’s touch was firm, but quiet. Soft. Sweet. “But not yours?” Sokka sounded sad.
Zuko swallowed. He remembered that feeling, tossing and turning as his skin crawled and his stomach churned. Waking up with a sweat drenched face but father still expected Zuko to do his katas. Run through his katas, go to school, sit up straight. There was punishment for slouching, even if he only slouched because he was shivering so hard he couldn’t mind his posture. “We were being trained to rule, Azula and I. Countries don’t stop because you have a cold.”
Sokka didn’t say anything, just started rubbing his arm.
“You can rest now,” Sokka said after a while. “I can take care of you.”
Take care of him? Zuko tried to remember the last time someone had taken care of him. His Uncle had tried, of course, but Zuko had always pushed him away. He couldn’t let himself be seen that way - weak, sick. So he ignored the quiver in his Uncle’s voice when Iroh spoke to him from the other side of a metal door. And before that… before that his mother would, when father would let her. When Zuko was so sick that she’d block his bed with her body to keep father away, even if it cost her. Then sit with him and fuss his hair back with slender fingers.
“I’ll take good care of you,” Sokka said.
Zuko took a deep breath in. Not a sigh, just a breath, one to fill him up. He could feel his heart starting to race again, but... nicer this time, with Sokka so warm and solid against his back. He let the breath out. Slow. Controlled. Eyes still closed, he whispered, “Okay.”
#zuko#sokka#zukka#sickfic#Zukka H/C sketch + fic#hurt/comfort#ficlet#art is just for fun#I will not explain Sokka's outfit#I'm just happy it kinda looks like him#kinda#Zuko a little less so#close enough#i grade myself on an extreme curve and i declare this... okay#learning to draw in your 30s#fire sibling headcanon#do we think Ozai ever let Zuko or Azula take a sick day?#Ozai never let his kids have a sick day#and as lovely as Ursa is - she just can't stop him from being terrible - not all the time#not even most of the time#physical art#titles? what are those#titles are hard#look at me crossing over from genfic into shipfic#but still hurt/comfort fic because of course#amateur art corner#my writing#my atla fic#my atla art#zukka h/c
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day 4: old cocole art dump because its about time i posted these 💀
essay in the tags youve been warned lmao
#rhythm doctor#chiimo art shenanigans#cocole#5 different brush styles in one post crying rn#wbhw huwh uh w wuhbeuhw (<- me manifesting the braincells to explain the drawings while fighting the sleepiness)#the first one was back in may??? if i had a nickel for every old nicole drawing that looks good to feel recent id have two nickels which i#next drawings were me testing out palettes from color me curious on tumblr#i showed them to my rd friend and i think they were called cocolors? it was supposed to be some kind of series thing#mostly did it for fun tho so i didnt force myself to keep it up lol#the silly kiss doodles are based on a oneshot from writer's block: confronted on ao3 (pls consider giving it a read its so cute 🥹)#next one is just some practice doodles#i was still getting used to nicoles hair i swear it went through 5 design changes in one year#last one is just the dinguses <3 (i found that tumblr post on pinterest so if anyone has the original post id appreciate that 😭)
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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand
#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona#its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around#one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them#making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth#i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since#memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an#association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont#fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell#on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one#dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong#despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them#interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing#i struggle find a balance between those two things#actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of#her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard#or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard#although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh#yapping#oc talk#oc
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#been thinking about getting something fun and pride themed as a treat for myself#but every time i go look at things it hits me how i'm like#feeling like i'm becoming increasingly alienated with western constructs of queerness#like i still identify with these labels and i know your definition of a labelled identity is what you want it to be but#that doesn't prevent you from having to deal with what other people make of it#i'm not articulating this right but just. well#idk i guess i am once again just wishing queer expression hasn't been so defined by the west#the most accurate term for my partner and i doesn't exist in english. how do i explain that to people#delete later#ashton originals
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comparison!! yuu as I drew him in 2024, february 5th; and this panel from my latest post that just so happened to be drawn in february 5th 2025...
it has been a full year since i started to draw re:kinder like crazy www when drawing yuu i'd always reference one of my own drawings of him for consistency, yet even the way i draw him changed quite a lot www
but im very happy with it😊😊 thought id share this since im amused by the evolution of it
#my art#re:kinder#yuuichi mizuoka#that also happened to be the starting point where i started to draw rekinder like crazy#not the first time i drew it#but it was when my mind had finally set on. “yo...this...this is so peak i need to draw it really bad i have so many visions”#god bless you rekinder and thank you mr parun#imma be so real i have. GENUINELY no idea what i would be drawing if i hadnt played rekinder#what i was into drawing a lot beforehand was Earthbound but. unfortunate events happened that. kind off have soured it for me#even now im still shaken up by thay so . i dont think i would have really gone back to drawing it as intensely imma be real#so with that YEAH i have no idea what id be doing?? drawing my ocs maybe idk but what would i be doing with my brain#rekinder has become such a big comfort and part of my life now that its hard to imagine howd it be if i didnt play it#like indulging in something that comforts me in that way really helped me cope with my illness so. i genuinely dont know what id been doin#anyway fun fact i think its very apparent but the only thin that has stayed the exactly th3 same is the color scheme#which may sound strange but whenever i draw a new character im not one to color pick much rather i pick colors out for myself#in some cases its for value adjustments where id see it fit but mostly i think picking my colors making them my own is part of my style www#dunt know how to explain it but point is the colors have stayed exactly the same www#ITS FUNNT BECAUSE I STILL FOLLOW THE SAME METHODOLOGY I DID WHEN DRAWIN YUU LAST YEAR#i know visually they look different but i see my art with my hands#like. im not good at all remembering things visually and the way i make things stick is via hands and the way ive drawn yuu is the same#hand memory disc.... i think a good chunk of my long term memory is registered through my hands#i think if my hands were to be chopped off i would forget how to speak#but does that imply that if my hands were to be consumed or sewed onto someone elses arms they would gain the knowledge i save there#or is my elbow or full arm is needed to achieve that connection... like what if the rest of the arm if like. the torso to the brain of the h
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【哪吒之魔童闹海】破亿海报英译:49亿
【Nezha 2】 Box Office Milestone Poster Translation: 4.9 Billion


From top to bottom:
內地影史動画片票房單日冠军 -> Animated Feature Champion Makes History in the Domestic Box Office Within a Single Day
49亿 -> 4.9 Billion
夜叉:咋没用?-> Yaksha:Why is it not working?
是妖如何 自在快乐-> What does it matter if you are a monster, you are free to live as you are

Suggestions on the translations would be appreciated as I work to improve my Chinese. I would also love to read/discuss other interpretations ☺️
Project Overview | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 》
#哪吒之魔童闹海#nezha 2025#试一试翻译#At least he tried o7#I embellished the phrase at the end a bit based on the context of the movie#At one point 哪吒 says 少爷是魔 那又如何 which translates to something like “So I am a demon what of it?”#(I am sure the official translation is in an interview but I have not had time to look)#So I added that nuance to the lines to reflect the movie#Other wise the second part would just mean something simpler like “happy and free”#When I do these kinds of embellishments I always try to be transparent about the choices I made and explain my reasoning#It's a good metacognitive exercise to get into the habit of doing#But also because I am technically sharing this publicly#At the end of the day though I am still translating with myself as the audience in mind#If I were to approach this project as if the translation were for official public usage some of the translations would turn out differently#Which would be its own kind of fun#Project Fireball#火流星项目
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shipping really is just about context sometimes. like No I don't really ship this pairing in the standard setting nor do I consider a romance between those characters likely or feasible under normal circumstances. Yes I ship this pairing in the hyperspecific scenario that I made up and only I know about and I'm frothing at the mouth over it. No I probably wouldn't like it in any other setting
#you will arrive at very fun and interesting conclusions if you adjust your shipping attitude from “this would never work”#to “under WHAT circumstances would this work?” very fun I recommend it. I am actively learning to think this way more often#of course the “problem” (it's not a real problem) is that people don't have full context of your scenarios so they'll be confused#if you post about it. and I don't like explaining myself lol#this post about a very specific pjo rarepair btw. top secret until I start hard launching it on main#baye.txt
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