#with great writing and characters and roleplay and. Ah

[endtimers]

playing veilguard and it's okay but. i feel like i have been so spoiled with owlcat games dialogue and roleplay choices. why is like every nice dialogue option just therapy speaking all my companions.

[a-griffin-in-the-sky]

So the DM’s marinating the table in his own creepy fetish fan‑fic and some rando bro player thinks it’s hilarious to knock up a lesbian PC against her will? Time to hit back hard.

Step 1: swing the real‑world sledgehammer.

Call a hard pause: ‘X‑card no sexual coercion, period.’

If they ignore that, you leave the table boundaries come first, game second.

Step 2: if you stay, unleash your spite‑drow.

Meet Matron Ysvara Xorlarrin???eight‑foot attitude stuffed into obsidian plate. Misandrist? She’s a walking male‑repellent charm.

Entrance line: “Kneel, surface maggots. I need a footstool.”

Combat flourish: casts Crown of Madness only on men, then turns them against each other while painting her nails with spidervenom.

Social scenes: “Ah, another bearded mouth breather. Fetch me wine or fetch me your head.”

Catchphrase whenever a dude monologues: “Your words bore me; your weakness entertains me.”

Step 3: Make it deeply awkward.

Oh, you wanna play weird sexual tension? Great :D let’s crank it to eleven, but make it your problem now.

My evil misandrist drow? She doesn’t just hate men she collects them. Especially pretty, smug little sun elves with tragic backstories and zero resistance to being flustered.

She’ll sidle up mid-session like:

“Your golden hair reminds me of a captured paladin’s, he screamed prettier than you. Let’s test that.”

Or mid-battle:

“Cover me, sunshine. If you impress me, I’ll let you polish my boots… or lick them.”

Roll high on intimidation, low on personal space 👍

Every time the male player squirms, she gets closer. The goal? Make them regret ever bringing that energy to the table. Watch them try to “fade to black” while she’s asking detailed questions about how good their constitution stat is under pressure.

Step 4: Match their energy, Out-creep the creep.

They think they’re being creative by violating boundaries and adding unsolicited pregnancy plots? Cool. Now it’s your turn. But don’t just play dirty play divine :3

When your drow villainess gleefully lays spider eggs in their sun elf’s lower stomach during a ritual?

“Don’t worry, love. It’s a sacred blessing. You should feel honored.”

And if they so much as raise an eyebrow?

“Wow, are you trying to censor me right now? That feels really oppressive. This is a safe space for my creativity. If I can’t explore my dark feminine spider motherhood fantasy in peace, are we even roleplaying?”

Step 5: Ascend.

Your drow doesn't just survive, she ascends to demigodhood, crowned as the Spider Matriarch of Vengeance and Velvet Cruelty.

Every awkward silence, every flustered male sun elf, every overcompensating DM choice? Now lore.

“There was once a table where men laughed too loud, and now it lies in webs.”

Mechanics? Lore?

New subclass: Warlock of the Forgotten Matriarch gains power every time a man interrupts a woman at the table.

Her legendary item? Broodkissed Fangs lets her implant psychic spiderlings into targets' minds. They whisper exactly what they fear you’re thinking.

At the meta level?

You start drawing fan art of her.

You write fake in-world religious texts and leave them in the group chat.

You start referring to the male players as “her disciples,” and refuse to break character during scenes.

If they try to protest, just cock your head and say: “Oh no. Are you uncomfortable now? I thought this was the sandbox of freedom and expression.”

Step 6: Flip the table then build your own.

Pack up your dice, your sass, and your spider‑egg lore, walk out, and start a ladies‑only campaign where the vibe is 100% rage‑positive and creep‑negative.

Step 7: Profit.

✨ Yay! You now have new D&D buddies that don’t suck ✨

No more awkward jokes, no more unsolicited kink dumps disguised as “plot,” no more rolling initiative against someone’s fragile ego. Just a coven of gremlins, witches, sword lesbians, and war criminals playing for the vibes, the lore, and the sisterhood.

Congrats!!!!You didn’t just escape the dungeon you built a castle.

[minecraftorangesheepjpg]

You! Do you want more minecraft shows? Do you like watching beautiful, intriguing murder mysteries for free on youtube? Do you know about Whitepine?

i rewatched all 3 episodes of whitepine, and i wanted to write a somewhat-cohesive opinion on it, because clearly not enough people are talking about it. i mean, episode 3 has been out for 4 days, and it still only has 123k views. which is an atrociously small number for a show this good.

so, whitepine is a kind of series that you will watch without your phone. the visuals are both captivatingly beautiful and important to the narrative. the pacing is unhurried and calm, letting you savor every shot. however, i wouldn't call it slow or boring. i was afraid that it would be too serious or melancholic for me, or that it is a horror story, but that wasn't the case at all. it's a murder mystery set in the early XX century. the story is centered around a household of the wealthy Hemlocke family, where the main character, Ivory, is a newly-hired maid. Ivory is quiet, shy and agreeable - not exactly a typical main character for a minecraft production. Ivory's progression through the story is genuinely interesting to watch, and i find her actions and words very realistic. actually, all dialogue sounds natural, which is.. pretty hard to achieve.

voice acting is surprisingly good. don't get me wrong, i love minecraft roleplay with its amature acting, but it doesn't mean that i don't notice the flaws. whitepine, however, sounds almost professional, which is a result of actors' amazing work and Ivorycello masterfully matching the actors to the roles. speaking of sounds, whitepine has incredible sound design! not only is there music that Ivorycello composed (and played, i think) herself, there are also actual sound effects - rustling of bedsheets, bird songs, clatter of plates - everything! - that help to interpret actions and scenes that are hard to show within minecraft.

speaking of minecraft - this show is not minecrafty at all. game mechanics have no bearings on the story and are not referenced at all. this is neither a praise nor critique from me, just a fact about the show.

i highly recommend turning subtitles on, at least for the scenes with muffled speech or a lot of characters talking. ah, yes, whitepine has great, human made subtitles in english and... wait.. how many languages?

the only con to watching whitepine is that you will want to watch more whitepine, and it is an on-going show. but it is so worth the wait, i promise you.

okay, last part of the post. whitepine = good. whitepine = intriguing. whitepine = beautiful. i love whitepine. you will likely love whitepine too. and i won't even tell you to go search for it, i'll just give you the link right here. here, take it. click that link. ep1 is 30 minutes long. and if you like the piano soundtrack, here it is. you don't even have to look it up.

[unpossession]

❤️, 🍪, 🦄, 🚙, 🍷, 🍄

❤️ my first roleplay memory

ok walk with me . it's 2012 and my mum has convinced me to make a tumblr account so that she has a follower on her fan blog dedicated to the killers. we are watching ahs together and so i start patrolling the evan peters tag like the obsessive 14 year old that i am bc i have a massive crush. i discover a tate langdon roleplay blog. i message them like "hey. what is this" and they tell me: this is roleplay! and that i should make a blog, and that i should follow @ohfiendangelical when i do, because they are the best of the best u will ever find on tumblr rp. a fact still true to this day.

🍪 my favourite roleplay memory

impossible to nail down. there have been epic highs and lows on this website. i really liked that one period where ic gossip blogs would crop up and start drama between characters for no reason.

🦄 the best thing that's happened to me in roleplay this year

i'm unsure if it's been within 2025 but definitely within a year or so, befriending @inrovina / @holyrots after being a silent and far-off fan since literally 2015 has been a true highlight and treasure. i was really too shy to follow first or reach out for almost a decade, so that has been so so so fun, and one of the best decisions i have made on this site for a long time :)

also: the absolutely insane amount of creative energy being funnelled into zombieverse with @wickdcreatures / @swallowrot has been absolutely unreal and such a highlight for me. love this world we have created and the........... 20+ characters we have built from scratch to fill up the world. just such a joy.

🚙 the one thing i will never do in roleplay

there is a lot i would do. there are a few things i probably would not do. who is to say.

🍷 a character i want to write but never made a blog for

i do what i want. i have never not made a blog for a character i wanted to write

🍄 my favorite original character blog

you're fucking bonkers if you think i will pick just one. i will write you a list: all of shelby's characters spark joy, ohfiendangelical i have already mentioned, but @skullfck + @ritualcore are beloved to me, all of s's problematic children on wickdcreatures, lye has a plethora of interesting, unique and fun-to-write-with ocs on @vitalphenomena, hara ora is That Girl over at @petitsdieu, @eviji is doing some really great work and character studies with her ocs.... i already mentioned what a pleasure river is to write with over at inrovina / holyrots... the key family on @id1eyouth are so fascinating and the more i learn about them the more i want to know more... and of course, there is you, chrissie! benjamin gillespie you will always be famous (in a problematic 'can't leave the house without getting egged' way)... you write so many wonderful ocs that have been so integral to the way my rp experience has played out, it would be impossible without your ocs.

you're all wonderful and every time you post know that i am Watching and Admiring and cheering you on <3

[historiavn]

SPILLING THE TEA ON ME AND MY HABITS AS A ROLEPLAY PARTNER (except the tea is an explanation and NOT an excuse because that would suck)

MY SILENCE IS NOT HATRED, AND I CAN BE SILENT FOR A VARIETY OF REASONS.

As I explained in my rules document, I am currently in year five of six of university. This means that one of those reasons is university-related, in the sense that I might be busy with my uni courseload or extracurriculars.

I also might only have the energy or muse to respond to some threads / messages and not to others. This is the type of thing that leads to me frequently responding to threads / messages from months ago, often to the great bafflement of my writing partners.

IF I FOLLOW YOU, I WANT TO INTERACT AT SOME POINT.

Our writing styles might mesh well together, or we might share fandoms (even if I don’t have A Character on my roster for that fandom, I can still create verses for my muses in that fandom and / or I want to fangirl about said fandom with you)

Sometimes, it just takes me a hot minute to figure out How to have our muses interact, even if I Know I want to interact with you. This “hot minute” in question might be a few days, a few weeks, a whole entire month, or maybe in the most extreme cases, a year.

If you follow me first, pretty please with sugar on top fill out my interest tracker so that I know who you want to write with?

MY MUSE IS INCREDIBLY SPORADIC AND ANNOYINGLY SPONTANEOUS.

Ah, the classic dilemma of AuADHD, amirite?

With the impulsive nature of my fixations, a thread I have muse for one week might not have that same level of muse a couple weeks later. I used to just drop these threads, but I’m working on getting better about actually following through on coming back to threads when I do get muse for them. If you’ve noticed me responding to threads from two, three, or even four months ago, that’s why that’s happening.

The only time I’ll drop a thread or dynamic is when I get soft / hard blocked by whoever I’m writing with or the other person tells me that they want to drop a thread.

When in doubt, assume that I haven’t dropped a thread unless I tell you explicitly that I’m dropping a thread.

Dropped threads don’t mean dropped dynamics.

I have no specific schedule; I tend to reply to whatever threads / messages / memes I have muse for in that immediate moment first. But please do not assume that my silence means a lack of interest!

I’M QUITE SHY AND ABSOLUTELY AWFUL AT COMMUNICATING WITH RP PARTNERS.

I’m trying to get better at it and work on conquering my fear of confrontation and social anxiety in the process, but please bear with me because it is an Ongoing Effort.

ngl this hobby has actually done wonders for helping me handle my social anxiety but there’s still a LONG way to go. if I follow you first and I’m taking forfuckingEVERRR to reach out, just know I’m gathering courage to do so.

[animentality]

Maybe a hot take, but I think Durge is the real protagonist of BG3. Like... I'm sorry, everyone love their Tavs, but from a narrative point of view, it doesn't have fucking sense. It's just another guy (gender neutral) in a The Choosen One situation. I've read this story before, hundreds of times. But Durge's recepción (or disgrace)... now that has juice! That makes sense on a narrative level. You started it, you end it, one way or another.

Anyway, I'm never (with my +500 hours) going to play a Tav run. Ever. Origins only, mostly Durge. Durge and Durgetash are waaaaay better, sorry not sorry.

You are spitting nothing but facts, anon.

You wanna know what the HONEST to GOD fundamental problem is with the writing of Baldur's Gate 3?

It's that it spreads itself so thin, desperately attempting to write an open sandbox sort of world in which ANY kind of character can fit in...that it ends up being this hollow nothing.

IMAGINE if the Dark Urge WAS the default protagonist. It WOULD'VE BEEN an amazing story, if it had been given the focus it deserved, instead of just blankly repeating the SAME dialogue you'd get as a Tav and as an origin.

The idea of a former villain turned amnesiac, and going on an adventure, learning about themselves from the perspective of an outsider and seeing firsthand the horror they've wrought? It's like a fucking Zuko arc, except finding out you were the Big Bad all along could've been written even better than that...

We could've had that blank, nothing slate that Tavs start out as...and then find out, that it has thematic significance, because WE CHOOSE who we become, after a childhood/adulthood of being unable to make our own choices, and being forced into the role of the villain before the game even starts.

It's a MUCH BETTER WAY to give people a blank slate to work with, for the fun of roleplaying, but ALSO asserting a particular theme. Which is, the gravity of your choices, big and small. To do good or to embrace evil.

YOU KNOW. How Baldur's Gate 1 and 2 did being a Bhaalspawn.

IT'S ALSO A REALLY GREAT WAY to DO an RPG because yes, you slightly infringe upon the freedom of the customizable characters a person can make, but in exchange, you actually tell a fucking story where choices are the main theme.

INSTEAD. Because they were so dedicated to Tavs and the variety of ways you could play as a Tav...they completely undersell and underutilize what could've been a really amazing character.

You can literally choose to DIE for your friends in the end...and then what?

Withers brings you back in five seconds, no one has any real reaction to you doing that, except saying good job buddy :)

And then you're basically a Tav.

And ALSO. I want to say this, because it's been bothering me.

The Dark Urge has Tav syndrome too.

They have TWO notes in the entire game that we have to read into to try and glean a greater depth to their character other than murder hobo.

And that's it. They're a blank slate too.

If the Dark Urge was the protagonist, we might've been able to look into who they were before, outside of just laughably evil flesh eating monster.

They might've had real fucking depth, instead of just tidbits.

I and my fellow Dark Urge/ Durgetash enjoyers have to do the fucking work for them and write in stuff that isn't actually there. The Dark Urge as a protagonist could've been really meaningful. We could've seen inklings that they had misgivings about being Bhaal's Chosen. We could've seen scars of resistance, where they tried to defy Bhaal, but were punished with death, disintegration by the loving hands of your own father and flesh. We could've had betrayal, redemption, loyalty to one's blood family vs one's found family.

But we don't get that, because it's taking too much time away from Tavs.

Sometimes I really wish the Dark Urge wasn't even an option. They gave me this thing, and I thought wow this is the only way to play the game...and then I look and see, ah. But the potential for greatness could drive me absolutely insane.

And it has.

Durgetash is the product of my frustration with the game's characterization of the Dark Urge.

And I know I'm pissing off the salty BG3 fans who love their Tavs and all, and think the Dark Urge is lame, and god FORBID a protagonist have a character, can't have that in an RPG, but I can't find it in myself to care.

I'm built different than the rest of y'all. I don't just feed on content, I analyze its nutrients. I calculate how good for me it actually is.

And BG3 has wonderful mechanics.

But the story has so many problems, from beginning to rotten end.

And it is what it is. I still enjoyed myself playing it.

But the story isn't good for anything except allowing you to create a far more compelling story on your own, in fanfic or in original work inspired by it.

And I guess if that's all they wanted, then fine.

But goddamnit, I'm gonna complain anyway! Divinity 2 did it fucking better.

[aetherceuse]

So.

It's been a few weeks since I announced taking a step back from Lusamine's blog, and, I think I'm at a point where I can put my struggles into words.

Before I get into my issue, I'm politely asking that this post is read and digested. In the past, whenever I post about something that I am struggling with in terms of roleplay and community interaction, my post has been used as a springboard for the dash to turn into "vent hour." That isn't what I want. I'm genuinely asking for people to read this, to digest it, and respect the fact that I am having a major issue with writing this character, which has been preventing me from actually being active-- and it is rooted in how the muse, and her information, has been treated.

I'm not tagging this as drama, because it is not drama. This isn't pointed at any individuals, because frankly, it's an issue I have had with writing villains my entire life, and it's only been amplified on Lusamine's blog in particular.

For starters: Lusamine is a beloved muse of mine. She is one of my favorites to sit down, dissect, and write about. It's important for people to understand that all of my canon muses are retellings in a way, but with Lusamine, that's ESPECIALLY important to understand. This Lusamine is not canon, she is a retelling, with her own backstory and world-relevant lore that is very important for people to read, grasp, and understand before proceeding forward with interactions.

However, it doesn't seem as though people really-- respect that, or even bother to read the bio and headcanons that I've written on her. I can tell, because a lot of the interactions I get are people reacting to canon events that haven't happened in my retelling. Mother Beast, for example, hasn't happened, and I've stated that multiple times over and over, yet that seems to be falling on deaf ears.

I really need my writing partners to actually read my content, and understand what I'm doing. I don't write headcanon posts and bios just because I wanna take up space on Tumblr dot com. I write them because they're a crucial part of what I'm doing.

And honestly-- that's not even the biggest issue I've had.

It is EXHAUSTING to open my ask box on a daily basis, and deal with asks sent in just calling her: bitch, cunt, 'Lusa-mean', 'Lusa-bitch', whatever. I don't think you guys understand how mentally taxing, and depressing that is for me. I get it. I'm writing the villain. Lusamine hasn't done great things. But I feel as though people are forgetting that there is an actual, human person sitting behind the inbox, who is writing a character that he loves-- and instead of getting thoughtful engagement, it's a barrage of "bitch." I've had to block people for doing this (IF you are reading this post on the dashboard, that means you're not guilty of doing this.).

But, this extends to the dashboard too. I feel as though I cannot write or do anything without someone dash comming or being automatically aggressive the moment Lusamine even so much as opens her mouth.

It's really, really not fun to be minding my business, and receive asks, IM's, or dash comms of this nature-- especially when I'm trying to write a complex character. I pour my heart and soul into what I write. And it's really sad that I have all of this stuff that people could be reading, interacting with, and reacting too-- and instead people just focus on all of the potential trauma that Lusamine could subject them to. It's not fun. At all. It really makes me feel like shit. I don't want to be used as the target of someone's parental trauma. Just because I am writing a villain, does not mean I am consenting to be nothing but an angst punching bag. I want to write stories, not just receive one-liners and zingers and "AH HAH, GOTCHAS!" in my ask box.

Frankly, I do not have nearly this much of a problem on any of my other antagonist blogs. Even though I'm still subject of whump at many times, it's not nearly as bad anywhere else, as it is on Lusamine's blog. It's really discouraging, and it makes me feel like I'm writing something that people don't really have any care or interest for. I get that my writing can be a little strange and off putting. I know that I dig into uncomfortable topics. It's not for everybody, but, I've never been the type of person to try and appeal to the greater audience. I'm very niche.

We talk about communication in this community a lot. We talk about wanting to interact. We talk about feeling as though engagement is down. And while I sit here and write this, I'm reflecting on that ongoing issue. I really feel as though we can improve the health of peoples' experience in this RPC if we-- y'know-- actually sat down, read what our partners are writing-- and ask questions/engage with it.

I don't know when I'll return to Lusamine's blog. I'm not deleting it obviously, I've put a lot of hard work into her character. But, until I feel as though there's a genuine interest in reading what I have going on, and engaging with it fairly, I'm going to keep my focus on Proton-- because, honestly, I feel really insecure on this account. At least over on Proton, it seems as though people are reading my glitch lore, respecting my muse/worldbuilding, and interacting with it. And it means the world to me. I hope to have that here one day too.

[trashbins-stuff]

Hello. I have seen that you have been tagged by @neobixiscool on one of their posts. I am planning to make a rant post on them. If you can provide some background info and your side of the story, that would be great. If you feel uncomfortable discussing this, that's ok. Have a good day/evening.

rub hands together like flies. my time has come/silly 😋😋

and thank you for coming to me :3 i appreciate it/gen also i get to go all cabby on this hehe

oh and, im not really hurt-hurted by them, i feel like mocha (mochablogger), liam (moonmxple) and mac (blairdrawzstuff) are most affected. They did have a book with my character in it but in a different universe or something (without my consent nor credit btw). Anyway under the cut is my observant. Honestly i think i might have jsut make the rant post for you lmao hrgbnhe 😭😭

the background/before:

mocha was working on a little story and xe said we could be in it! so obviously me and my friends signed up for the fun, not really expecting anything, the story was called "The Traumatized Cup", thats when we first meet him.

In one of the chapter mocha had introduced rubix, at first i didnt really think much about him, i was just aware of his presence, i do notice him and mocha started to become friends and i thought that was great :)

something that you should probably contact cuppy for more info:

so rubix (or according to rubix, "jasp" was roleplaying) and mocha were friends on facebook, and they roleplayed there i think, this i just know but apparently he said crap about liam (mocha's platonic partner and my best friend). Mocha is very sensitive and even in roleplay xe's still uncomfortable with what rubix said

"bezel's" divorce headcanon (and possible influence on further problems):

i heard people talked about it but never knew where it came from, but thne i found out and,,

tdlr; 1st one is about mocha and rubix, i dont know if mocha consent to it. 2nd one is uh a bit weird i i guess like he could have ask facemoji to make another one ;-;. 3rd ah yes the divorce that i had heard about!/vneg

rubix said bezel forced him into making the 1st one, even if thats true, rubix said the divorce was bezel's headcanon but hes the one that decided to post the 3rd one ("okay i asked facemoji again..")

seem kinda sus not gonna lie..but what do i nose right :-)

bezel probably influence more but even after all these months im still not sure if he really did do those things, idk lul, it is pretty weird that bezel's blog was a sideblog though (liam told me)

heres a bunch of words with link attach, those r my opinions lmao:

these u can just click to read so i hope thats okay

on wattpad he have a book in which he painted mocha, hazel and blair as manipulative (admittedly his writing was good, he could have used it for something different though)

he also uses some of our characters (such as mocha cuppy, hazel, blair, harp, blueberry, winter, bin (mine btw), seedling, galaxy journal,...etc) he did the delete that book tho, anyway heres more screenshot proof (credit @moonmxple )

mocha asked liam and neobix said its cringe

i remember this one also

the one where he tried to ban pet name and online dating (in 2023) (check the comment and other reblogs also theres alot, its practically a goldmine/silly)

and can i say he barely knows our friend group? like sure he knows mocha but hes trying to fit into our group (very poorly)

please read what cass wrote in the comment (thanks cass for speaking out about it ily)

the ask i sent him

NOT to get all bitchy here but mocha blocked you therefore you literally dont appear anywhere on xer dash, you're out of xer life and xe had no reason to pester you, not everything has to be about mocha. You guy's relationship (or supposedly lack there of) had change but honestly? thats okay they dont have to like the same people that they liked yesterday. You might think you know that's them but it wasnt, mocha in real life is kinder and better than the version inside of your head and they're happier now and its so sad that you cant see (because you're blocked)

and again, not everything has to be about YOU

he also made it all about HIM like excuse me ???? can i not complain for little bit without you coming in and nag about your problem ??? if you're suffering go talk to someone dont talk to online strangers ??? :)))???????

bro cant even read a long paragraph post like go back to elementary school lmao, also reporting ppl just because they use their right to not forgive you is such a sore loser move, it make you sound like petty six year old (also max be spitting facts tho)

bro brought out HIS right (reporting mocha, which he actually cant do if he doesnt have a valid reason) while ignore MOCHA's right (not forgiving him, which isnt a valid reason for him to report xem). The definition of petty is literally complain way too much about unimportant things that could have and should have ended already

"you dont have to relate to everything you see on the internet, somethings are simply not about you" :)

did you know that to report someone you have to click alot of buttons??

common salad W &lt;3333

oh yeah, this doesnt have links but jasp/neobix is being so casual abt bezel's death but also uses it as a way to make people feel bad for getting upset with what he did

Sorry for playing the dickhead role, but you wouldn't be laughing if you knew how we felt about every single one of you. (why it sound serious all the sudden lol)

why i still doubt (uh and heads up, galaxy brush, kodu, cuppy,..others who think @/rubixisanidi0t was saying the truth, im not saying he isnt but you cant blame me for not trusting can you? please skip this part if you're sensitive):

naw so if this was suppose to be jasp then whats jasp motive lmao :/..he dont gain anything from this + who tell people their secret plan publicly?? + how did jasp know about rubixs hallucination?? rubix please dont tell such personal things to jsut your friends and please just talk to an adult in real life. And jasp, dont let these kind of things on the internet its not safe/srs

this is just straight up weird and also why did neobix/jasp said "old friend" like hes rubix?? when he supposedly told rubix and i quote "yeah.. Soo.... This person named @/mochablogger seemed like some cool person, and when I tried to talk with them... Nothing happened, so when I figured they didn't care... It all happened at once." neobix/jasp and mocha werent even friend to begin with why was he SO obssess over getting mochas forgiveness when they supposedly barely interact much??

aint it a bit weird how this is supposedly jasp/neobix but why would they make this video??? it???doesnt make any sense?? and like were rubix and jasp still good friend??? why wood bezel make jasp of all people do it??? unless yk

HOL UP, WAIT A MINUTE..if rose jelly dated rubix but rubix tunred out to be jasp then..WHO IS ROSE JELLY ACTUALLY DATING??????

if @/neobixiscool is suppose to be jasp then how did he get a screenshot for a show rubix was making???

i translated it and head up. it has death threat in it

you know, if someone stole my account and ruin my reputation i wouldnt be following them and be mutuals with them :)

i appreciate him saying hell save us but like..why would @/neobixiscool linked the real rubix's yt and discord knowing full well that the real rubix was there and could told joiners the truth??? that seem kinda dumb ngl also on the channel you can find a video called "waitng for forgiveness" which @/neobixiscool had talked about. and lets do a bit of timing here, if rubix really was telling the truth and havent been on social media since his alst post on @/rubixcuix (last posted in august) and the divorce arc and the roleplay thing and EVERYTHING had started in september, and if the yt belonged to rubix, then he shouldnt have known that mocha didnt forgive him and make that video????? bc he wasnt suppose to be there since august??? bc if anything he shouldnt be waiting for forgiveness bc if jasp really did steal his tumblr account then its not his fault?? like i find it absoltuely HILARIOUS that the evidence agaisnt what rubix said was on both the account @/neobixiscool AND @/rubixisanidi0t's PINNED post?? and it boggles my mind how no one talks abt this???/lh/nm i mean its quite obvious maybe im jsut really observant though idk

if you got your account stolen and jasp supposedly brought back a wattpad book, i dont think you should be continuing it?? and didnt you said your reported him on wattpad?? on the same account where the book is?? why are you acting like "yes i did promise them this and im fully aware of what happen even though i supposedly havent been here since august and i will continue this book" has it hit you?

uh yeah so these are just my silly little takes, but hey! what do i nose? :-)

[not-glorfindel-stop-asking]

op that Elrond was ask was ooc, why would you say that-

Ah, I see there’s been some confusion! This is a roleplay account—meaning the thoughts and interpretations expressed here are based on my portrayal of Lindir. While I do my best to stay within the spirit of canon, every writer will bring their own perspectives and dramatics to the table.

Especially since we don't have much when it comes to Lindir.

It’s absolutely fair to feel that a particular characterization doesn’t suit your personal vision of a character! Lord Elrond is an incredibly layered figure, and I agree—exile under these circumstances is not something I would typically associate with him.

However, I am not writing Elrond.

I am writing my version of Lindir, who is prone to overthinking, poetic tragedy, and dramatic hypotheticals.

His perspective—especially when under stress—may not always reflect a logical or wholly accurate assessment of Elrond’s decisions.

I also think it’s safe to say that, in situations of stress, panic, or emotional turmoil, people—regardless of wisdom, experience, or rationality—are often prone to catastrophizing. The mind, when overwhelmed, tends to leap to the worst possible conclusion, even when such an outcome is neither likely nor logical.

Fear is rarely reasonable.

It does not follow the path of measured thought or careful assessment; instead, it rushes ahead, unfurling the most dramatic, tragic, and irreversible scenarios as though they are inevitabilities rather than exaggerated possibilities.

When the stakes feel impossibly high—when one believes themselves caught in a situation with no good options—the mind spirals.

Small doubts become looming certainties. The fear of failure warps into the conviction that failure is assured. Even those who pride themselves on logic and reason can find themselves slipping into the grip of emotional extremes, lost in a self-spun web of ‘what-ifs’ and worst-case scenarios.

Lindir, for all his intelligence and sensibility, is no exception to this I believe. At his core, he is a creature of both sharp intellect and deep feeling, a mind of precision tangled with a heart that often feels too much. And when faced with a hypothetical that places him in direct conflict with his own morals, loyalties, and sense of duty, it is natural for him to fall into that spiral of overthinking.

A betrayal—any betrayal—is, to him, an unforgivable thing. And to even entertain the notion that he might be forced into such an act against someone he holds in the highest regard—someone to whom he has devoted his service, his trust, and his respect—is catastrophic.

His instinct is not to calmly dissect the situation, to weigh potential avenues of resolution, or to place faith in Lord Elrond’s ability to understand and forgive.

Instead, his mind rushes to the worst possible outcome: I will be exiled. I will be cast out. I will have failed in the most grievous way possible, and there will be no redemption for me.

But of course, the reality is far different. A reasonable Elrond would almost certainly approach such a situation with patience, wisdom, and the determination to find a path that does not force those under his protection into impossible choices. He is not a creature of rash decisions or unyielding judgment. He would listen, he would counsel, and he would work toward a solution that minimizes harm.

Yet, when one is in the midst of fear, when one feels as though they are standing upon a precipice with no way forward but to fall—it does not matter how unlikely doom is. What matters is that it feels real.

And when the heart is ruled by panic, by the certainty that all roads lead to ruin, it is difficult to see the truth of the matter.

So while an outsider may see the scenario with clarity, may recognize that exile is not the likely consequence, Lindir, trapped within his own mind, sees only the abyss before him. And that is why his response is one of deep, poetic tragedy—because for him, in that moment, there is no greater horror than the idea that his own actions, even undertaken for a noble reason, might cast him out from the home and the people he loves.

If my interpretation doesn’t suit your tastes, that’s entirely valid!

But dismissing it outright or treating it as incorrect rather than simply different is not particularly kind or constructive. At the end of the day, we are all just here to have fun exploring these characters. No need to summon the Tolkienquisition, please—I assure you, no sacred texts have been defiled in the making of this post. Let us all breathe deeply, sip some tea (or cocoa, if you prefer), and remember that this is all in good fun!✨

Didn't mean to make a character & psychology meta this morning but here we are X'D

[alacritysparked]

//Ah, I saw u posted some review asks... I was already planning on sending this, so idk if those you received were due to a meme or smn.. but I want it on record you're my fav Bee that I've yet found!

I would've approached you sooner to plot smn but I'm still cooking on it. (If you have any ideas for interacts, I'd be glad to hear em!) 😳

Ur interp and writing for Bee is so great, though. Gen. I can clearly see his character + mannerisms in everything you write, and I always go '👀🐝?' when I see y'all in my notes / on my dash, so I look forward to writing w you when we eventually get around to it!

Aaaah, they were all from my last round of roleplay over here so...some of them were from like...2018. Thank you so much!! TToTT Seriously, like, I still don't really know how to respond, but I'm so happy whenever anyone likes my portrayal. Absolutely looking forward to writing together! I'm still slowly but surely updating the blog. TFP post-series is my main verse, but I love whenever I can play another Bee. So far, my list is Bayverse, BB2018, Cyberverse, RID2015, IDW1 Ghost!Bee, and maaaaaybe Earthspark when I catch up. Might do TFOne, but I really like the TFOne B-127 RPers that are out there more than what I could do with him. All that to say, THANK YOU!!! <3 And I'll catch ya around the dash!

[xamassed]

⟬ anonymous! ⟭

Happy anon time! You're great at finding the right voice for each character you write, and roleplaying with you is always a massive pleasure, you're super inspiring and a super nice person too! 🧡

Ah? Ahhh??!

Thank you! Oh, gosh. Anytime someone sends me something nice like this, I never know what to say aside from thanks! I never wanna sound disingenuous, but I really am grateful. Writing is one of the few things I feel I do adequately, so whenever someone points out the parts I'm good at, it makes my day!

Never considered I could inspire people, though. That's even nicer to hear!

[strykingback]

Hey, I just wanted to offer some encouragement to you because I know you’re having a hard time.

I’ve had someone on one of my fanfics tell me the same thing that you were told according to one of your posts. Telling somebody to do something like that is horrible, and you don’t deserve to be told anything of the sort.

You are valued, and your presence is valid. If the person who told you such a thing can’t see that, they clearly have serious issues to work through.

You are important, and you are enough.

brief tw for ableist language (Note- It was not said by me. It was someone else who said it)

And he was right........I barely can write shit. Not to mention I was getting fucked up by this guy... and I couldnt even reply to it until I deleted the whole damn story because I planned on replying to it but I fucking couldn't because I knew full well he was going to bite back ten times as harder than I could. I just ended up giving him that satisfaction. Like he even said that all my characters were shitty what does that say about my blog... they're all OC's and everytime I introduce one and try to get something going they get ignored. I just want to hang up the coat right then and there cause the RWBY RP community is dead to shit..

Oh speaking of the RWBY fandom who is well known for being the most toxic fandom ever in this goddamn world. A hardcore fan even said it best to me themselves: "I'm nothing more but a retard that doesn't know writing when I see it on the wall." like do you know how fucking deep that stings hearing that word being thrown at me.. after being called that in Elementary school for just being weird.... and having a Spec. Ed class....made me feel even more alienated to that word..... now to see that word again used on me in a malicious manner... oh how I wish I had just went off on them right then and there, but I'm too nice.

Ah thats another fact about me. Being too nice because in the end I get easily manipulated. Thats how I manipulated by people like Rebornica/Mx.Bones. I was such a huge fan of their art until my ass had to fall deep in that hole and be used as an attack dog all because of my kindness. Maybe thats why I'm so scared of actually speaking too much in a discord server or creating deep bonds with people, cause they can take advantage of my kindness right then and there and use me for their own malicious needs as without proper judgement such as hearing both sides of the story for me to try and find a way for both parties to be at peace with each other.

Then theres the fact that even though I try to be that one person to try and calm an argument down its how I get fucked right after. And boy howdy it happened to me and I lost a a very very great roleplaying friend but a very firm friend who could create a story better than I could. Even when I try to replicate it as best as I can it just explodes in my face. Remember that RP PSA post I made... yeah. while it was not related to the situation I talked about it happened last year in Summer and just the fact I could get singled-out amongst everyone else over shit that is beyond my control.

I just want to go back to being a kid when I was more happier... always having a smile on my face. Filled with imagination, always excited when Toonami turned on for the 2005 Summer. Miguzi showing Code Lyoko. My friends from Elementary School hanging out with me before I moved away....

If I could say one thing to my younger self is that: "Please be good and strong before this world breaks you down."

[monstroustea]

a friend was talking about style influences earlier and it reminded me of this old meme and i wanted to do one!!!!! i'll talk more about each one under the read more, but if you want to do one, here's the link: https://www.deviantart.com/foxorian/art/Influence-Map-Template-174550753

Sailor Moon (particularly the 90s anime) - this is a big one! i remember drawing sailor moon in elementary school and playing pretend/LARPing sailor moon on the playground... the good old 90s anime style with the exaggerated expressions! cute girls! friendship! this general kind of soft, roundness to the style of the 90s anime? it has everything

Honey and Clover - this manga/anime means the world to me. i love the style, the way the mangaka draws emotions, but also the protagonist's story of finding himself? resonant. the manga especially is precious to me bc of the art tho, it has a sketchy quality that i love

Hey Arnold! - another childhood favorite... this one doesn't reflect on my actual style so much, but it's a big influence on the stories and characters i like and create. if i could make everyone watch only one cartoon, it would be hey arnold

this is a triple threat... Persona 5, sketchbooks, @meruz - if you look at more than one page of this blog, you can probably guess i like p5(r)!! a lot!! i love all the characters, even if you mostly see me drawing the protag and akechi bc i'm a shipper at heart lol... i'm always inspired by sketchbooks of other artists! especially proper sketchbooks, where they're messy and worked in and aren't curated to be "good looking" for people to look at. that said, this is a page meruz posted from one of their sketchbooks (go buy them) and i adore meruz's work! i got into their work a while back and their lineart really drew me in, the lineweight and use of spot blacks is delicious. i need to work more on those in my own art and meruz's work always makes me want to do just that

Dolls - and here we take a little detour from the obvious? i sadly don't own this doll :( she's a rune naito fashion doll and i want one so badly. i collect dolls, especially fashion dolls!! i love their designs!! i usually just leave them in their stock outfits bc those are part of the charm to me. i wanna draw my dolls more, but for now they're just a big influence on design and outfits for characters

Amanda Lafrenais - i've been following amanda for so many years i can't keep count anymore!! her style blends "western" and "anime" so well to me and also she just draws lots of pretty women?? also we love queens who draw different body types

Roleplaying (pixelated image from wiki-how) - i've been roleplaying, mostly just with my bestie erin, since i was like 14? i draw stuff inspired by our roleplays soooo much, whether it's from a scene or just "what if"s we threw around. erin is a brilliant writer, has great ideas, and she's basically the GM even tho it's collaborative writing-based rping lmao... im just like "erin come up with a plot and we can shoot ideas back and forth" lol

Drawfee - no idea anymore how i came across drawfee but it's a really fun and funny channel and i'll do some of their challenges on my own sometimes!! (my favorite is the 30s character from memory challenge, i'll have erin give me characters and time me) also they have a ttrpg-style series called Drawtectives that has great characters!!! also every time julia draws a scene im like "ah i want that to be me..."

The Golden Age of Illustration - i'm such a junkie for cartoons and anime and comics and such, i don't really know the classics OOPS... but in the past year or two i've gotten really into what's apparently known as the "golden age of illustration"!! roughly the 1880's to 1920s, there's a lot of fairy/folk tale art from this era and i'm obsessed with all of it. standout mentions that i love to look at the work of are kay nielsen and edmund dulac

honorable mentions are just... every manga i've ever loved. every artist i've ever obsessed over the art of. and HONORABLE honorable mention to drawingwiffwaffles who sadly hasn't updated in a few months... she got me back into traditional media tho and is a general delight to watch work

[semimedieval]

the beach part 7: I dunno, don't judge my Chuji metaphor

We begin with a crowdsourced call to action.

Rim saw a pearl lying on the ground. Could it be the pearl? MOOPY277: (Vote A if yes, or B if not. Then vote C for him to be attacked or D if he won't be attacked) DRAGONODSESSED: BC! TOESOCKSQUEEN: BC. they should all be attacked and the pearl should be sparkly and magical,wrapped around by the dragon as he sleeps. Let's get all of our charcters in one central place in the water.

Augustine is conspicuously absent, a fact that will surely not come back to bite anybody in the ass as they make decisions about his storyline plan. The decision has been made, though, and the storyline acts accordingly. This kind of flops too.

To his dissapointment it wasn't the pearl. He started to swim up when a huge snake slammed into him. He glared at it and swung his fist, causing a massive water current to slam into it. (Someone wanna control the snake?) DRAGONODSESSED: Dracus (the snake!) was thrown back by the current, but went forward right afterward. (BBL, dinner.) TOESOCKSQUEEN: (Me!Me!)The Snake hissed and glared at Rim. This was not his battle, for there was no need to kill just one. Yes,he would wait until they were all together. He swam back into the depths of the water, letting his silvery wings flap behind him.

I love it when Jack and I both go for something and it's equally lame. That said, it's roleplays run by 11-year-olds - they're always going to be corny. Mine isn't corny but it's boring, which is the far greater sin. It's no wonder that Jack won this one.

That said, I can still giggle at the way he wrote villains the same way I giggle about the way I write villains:

Dracus looked up and smiled sadistically. He knew what to do. They had woken him from his slumber and now it was time to pay. He swam round and round, swirling the water. (Dracus is'nt a bad guy, he's just protecter of the pearl. If it got into the wrong hands, mass choas could be realesed.)

Jack makes a great point: what the hell are the greater implications of the Soul Pearl? 15-year-old me made exactly the right move by defining its rules in very specific terms, that is to say, fairy tale rules. It appears as a favor, to reward a great deed done for the fairies, rooted in stories about the Fairy Queen's own loss. I think we should double down on that in part 2 – maybe there should be something big that someone (Mari or Lark?) sacrifices to the fairy queen bring back Tallin? Maybe it should be a reward for freeing the kids in the Castle on the Strait? Either way, maybe the most important part isn't just the sacrifice – it's real people caught up in fairy tale rules. Tallin's return is joyfully impossible, but it's also strange and frightening in the same way that a fairy showing up at your real-life baby's baptism to give her gifts would be strange and frightening. Even if magic was otherwise real. Operating by fairy tale rules in real life would be, well, weird and scary.

Anyway, in the original roleplay, no element of the Soul Pearl's lore is ultimately addressed at all, though Jack does try here. You sly dog, Jack, you've got me monologuing!

Everyone's like 'ah, the water, it's shaking!' We get stock reactions from everyone. Wow, Moopy was LOVING Indiana Jones that summer.

Suddenly, the whirlpool got faster and faster, threatining to suck them all in. The dragon burst out of the water,curling it's massive body round them, as to not let them escape. Rim hammered it with water, trying to squeeze out of its coils. "SO THIS IS WHY INDIANA JONES HTES SNAKES!!!!" He screamed

There's a reaction from all four (!!) of my characters (Katia ditch Lorcan or else, I am no longer asking), the unniest of which is "Obsidian attempted to use his powers, but they appeared to have been drained." Are they drained, Obsidian, or are YOUR POWERS simply no use against a fuckoff sea dragon? Much to consider.

I try to control the dragon again but Jack once again writes a significantly better post than me, which I hope means I've given up on the 'sharing' thing and just ceded control for once. The time to assert leadership was 10 pages earlier, Katia, when everybody was milling around on the beach without anything to do. I was always too unauthoritative as RP leader – collaborative storytelling is built on strong ideas, not vibes. That's right, I'm a narrative authoritarian.

He closed his eyes and the sea started churning, another snake began to form, made out of hardened water. The serpent concentrated on using it's powers to make a magnetic pull that stopped all powers from being used in the circle. But wait...the boy. He had water, the only power he was unable to block. the Snake muttered a curse in a foreign tongue.(rim get's to be the hero! XD) Ky tried to cry out, but was cut off as salty water filled her mouth and nose.

I like the idea of Rim getting a big story moment but I do giggle at the idea that water is the 'only power Dracus can't block.' Shouldn't it be the power Dracus has the most authority over??? Clearly in the coherent version of this story the gang can't use their powers because they are BUSY DROWNING and rim is ok because HE'S THE WATER GUY AND CAN'T DROWN.

Obsidian gets owned by a wave of water, Lupus and Ky hold on to each other until Ky is pulled away from him by a wave, Quartz loses track of Obsidian and calls out his name. This is the lamest part of this adventure, the fact that every single person online except Moopy decides that every single one of their characters JUST HAS to heroically rescue someone or get heroically rescued.

I must really have had some kind of undefined Jack Problem this summer and been trying to disguise it as character development for my newly deep and edgy character, because I have Lupus's internal monologue be an actual genuine jackass:

Ky drifted down into the water, frozen in shock. She watched as the bubbled escaped from her mouth and floated away. A sort of calm washed over her, and she exepted it. She was going to die. "What about Lupus?" she wondered. How would he fare with it all? Lupus....she must find Lupus.....there he was swimming towards her....she wanted to say "It's too late. I'm gone." and reach out to touch his face. Her eyes began to close and darkness started to take over her vision. "Ky!" he tried to yell but only bubbles exited his mouth. "KY!" He pressed down toward her. (wow, dramatic.) He took her hand and kicked upward, making little progress. A tiny part of his brain, the treacherous part, was complaining that she had to pick this of all times to be the damsel in distress, but he ignored it as he often had to.

SHE IS DROWNING YOU STUPID ASSHOLE. SHE DID NOT "CHOOSE" TO DROWN. EVERYONE AROUND YOU IS DROWNING ALSO, IF YOU WOULD CARE TO CHECK THAT OUT.

Anyway, a fairly similar story plays out between Quartz and Obsidian while Rim fights the snake. Meanwhile, my middle school playlist reaches Starships, which means we're officially in Summer 2012, or Extranei Summer. Being a middle schooler in the early 10s means having nostalgia moments over the silliest fucking songs. It's so incredibly funny that this is one of Nicki Minaj's big hits, given that I do not feel it has a lot to do with her general artistic identity. Also i love that 2018 me put the fucking clean version on this playlist for peak authenticity to what my friends and I were listening to. Good lord. Also I fucking put Good Time on this playlist when it was transparently the Summer of Call Me Maybe. Liar, revisionist, tasteless, you are not too good for Call Me Maybe, NOBODY is too good for Call Me Maybe, i'm going to have to remake this stupid idiot playlist aren't I –

Sorry. Where was I.

Tim yelled louder then he had ever before and the snake of water smashed into Dracus. He was in the water snakes head now, controlling it. He made it wrap itself around Dracus, a test of, well, strength. Obsidian! She had to find Obsidian! She tore through the water, catching a glimpse of Rim's snake and the serpent entwined; they were pretty evenly matched. Obsidian felt the whirlpool pulling him down. Despite fighting against it, he was still drowning.

Jack starts setting up for a pretty silly anticlimactic ending while Moopy, to their credit, maintains a very appropriate sense of stakes –

Dracus thrashed against Rim's water snake. He felt Rim's presence in his mind. Was the water....speaking to him? He stopped to listen.(Rim,say something to explain to Dracus about Tozi and the Soul pearl ect. ect.) Rim gritted his teeth and managed to negate the whirlpool. He concentrated harder on his snake, but he was slowly going down hill, he couldn't keep his snake hard enough, and fight Dracus at the same time. &quot;Freeze the snake a little!&quot; he screamed hoping Lupus would hear. Spark treaded water much more easily as the whirlppool stopped. She looked around, seeing Quartz swimming to Obsedian as quick as Chuji to fresh Rassberry pie.( I dunno, don't judge my Chuji metaphor...XD) Rim true to speak to Dracus through the pendant, maybe it would work. "Please, we don't wish to fight! We only wish to brig back our friend Tozi with the soul pearl! If your guarding it, then I will ressurct him where you like so you can stop or kill me if I begin to do evil!"

I love him. What a great negotiator. I do love the aspects of Extranei that involve Negotiating With Powers Beyond Your Comprehension, and I wish the original roleplay and especially the novelization had more of these moments.

Lupus heard and letting go of Ky with one hand extended it and sent a blast of ice, albeit not a very strong one. Quartz pulled Obsidian from the water and held him close. "Obsidian..." Rims snake froze a little, giving him an edge.

Dracus is ready to negotiate but the act of ice freezing sets him off again. Meanwhile, Spark realizes she hasn't had a chance to do a heroic rescue yet, and runs off to rescue Miyong. She does "CPR minus mouth to mouth...XD" but mouth to mouth isn't really an effective part of CPR and is not included in current procedures – the chest compressions make all the real difference. I don't know if that protocol was already in place in 2012, but if not, Jack was ahead of his time. Good on him!)

Rim negotiates a little more, while Quartz and Obsidian reunite.

Rim dissolved the snake and landed on a part of the snake in front o it's face. "I apologize, and I am deeply sorry for the fate of your brethren, however we were not the ones to do it. Though if I were to meet them, they would not last a second. I to am a guardian of sorts, I hunt down people who kill and steal. I am not an evil person." Quartz grabbed Obsidian's hand. "Obsidian! Can you hear me" Obsidian's vision wavered and he saw a figure in front of him...it looked vaguely familiar. "Quartz?" he asked thickly. The dragon nodded and all hostility vanished. The waves stopped and he unwrapped his tail from around them. "I see. Thank you. Remember me. If I ever see you again I will consider you my allies. Let me get that pearl for you and I'll meet you at the shore."

Several takeaways from this, including 1) that rim is a cop, boo, 2) that picking nostalgic taylor swift songs for the playlist is hard because so many of them are ubiquitous enough to not REALLY work as nostalgia-triggers, but "ours" REALLY hits, right down to the memory of that cringe as hell video where her Cool Alternative Boyfriend Her Dad Disapproves Of is... in the us military??? 3) that the problem with this adventure isn't that the ideas are BAD, necessarily, only that there are way too many ideas! I would say the sea dragon is more compelling the pendants if I had to choose one, but the pendants are the thing that's directly relevant to the future of the story, so...??!! I guess I could include one of these stories as a Lost Years feature, but that feels iffy, 4) that we came SO CLOSE to getting that damn pearl in the way Jack rather than Augustine envisioned. In fact Jack straight up narrates Dracus getting the pearl!!!! It was the wild west out there!!

I narrate Obsidian standing up and Jack replies with "Stood up? We are still in the water...XD" This is a certified 'bro is onto nothing' moment, how did Spark give CPR while floating in water?? I don't think that's possible without at least like a flotation device??

Anyway, Dracus shows up and has a cool new twink form, which is stupid but completely to be expected. Rim explains that his deal with Dracus entails Dracus having the right to kill Rim if he feels he's fucking up, which is actually a really cool idea and works better as a Chekhov's Gun for Rim dying than a stable plot solution, but Rim dies under pretty unrelated circumstances so let's not worry about that.

I rip off Discworld in a pretty lame way – 'where mass goes' during a shapeshifter transformation is a profoundly lame question in a non-comedic (not intentionally comedic) work of fiction like Extranei, because the very easy answer is 'IT'S MAGIC, WHO CARES' - but it's okay because we get another one of those subtle little Rimquartz moments. Aw <3

"Yes. There are many like me, who can shift their shapes between their guardian animal and human. We have the choice to walk among you." Rim nodded in reply to Lorcan. "I thought you might of been some form of Asian lung, apparently not. We're Extranei" "Interesting," Quartz said thoughtfully. "How does shape shifting work then? A sea serpent must have a much larger mass than a human, where does that go?" Normally Rim would have veen annoyed, but it was hard to dislike Quartz.

It's a pretty personal question. To Jack's credit, he gives a pretty good "shut up, it's magic" coded answer:

Dracus looked at her, with piercing silver eyes and began to speak. "Our mass mixes with our aura, a practically weightless glow that surrounds everything."

Oh, hey, I did put Call Me Maybe on the playlist after all. Thank God. But "Good Time" came out after "Call Me Maybe," so it had no business at all coming first.

Anyway, Rim thinks ominous thoughts about shapeshifters and their physics, Quartz glances at him in a worried manner because glancing at boys in a worried manner is the most fun an Extranei girl can have without glancing at girls in a worried manner, and Dracus has "three bags of chips, a whole chocolate bar, and a leg of chicken", which is like... not an unreasonable amount of food. Hey, wait, we're doing Rimquartz! Quartz, maybe he seems different because he's narrowly avoided death twice in one day, ever think of that?

Quartz turned to Rim. "What's happening?" she asked. "You seem...well, different." Rim hesitated. "A year ago, there was a crim hiding in a forest, and I was looking for him wih some soldiers, he had a gun," He whispered. "We came close to an object, it was glowing, the soldiers went to take when we were attacked by a huge tiger, the soldiers, they shot it, it turned into a boy before it died and tried to say something, and then it faded away," He swallowed, the horror of it trickling back into his memory. He hadn't like it at all then, and it was even worse now. "Oh." Quartz was unsure of what to answer to that. "Sorry I asked."

Go, girl, give us nothing! Also, AT LAST, we have resolved the pearl situation, which is good because you'd think that, if we were planning to get it back Dracus-ways, there would have been SOME HINT OF NARRATION INDICATING THAT. But what do I know.

TOESOCKSQUEEN: (Rass wants us to find the soul pearl a different way. Let's just say Dracus gave us a Dragon blessing and was protecting the rare dragon egg.) DRAGONODSESSED: Okey-dokey. I didn't know that ;)

I don't know if the wink is supposed to indicate that we talked it over at school and I'm pretending we didn't for Moopy's sake, or that I'm just being nice. It's anyone's guess. See, I can forget things about middle school!

Rim drops his line AGAIN, a melancholic feeling comes over the beach, and Quartz completely fails to play ball. I'm sure that what Rim was planning to tell Quartz about was something convoluted involving magic lore, but I wonder if I was half-convinced Rim was gearing up to confess his love. I think at this point in my life I was getting teased by Jack and Augustine about having a crush on Moopy, which I don't think I ever did. I mean, maybe a little? But certainly not moreso than I had a crush on Augustine. Pick your battles, guys.

The song changes to "Here's to never growing up" by Avril Lavigne, which is a song I have a lot of fondness and nostalgia for but came out in 2013, *not* 2012. Sigh.

Rim looked at his feet. "But how am I supposed to tell her about it?" He asked, half to her, half to himself. Obsidiabn glanced at Quartz. She was changing again. Quartz looked out onto the ocean. The wind was building, and waves crashed over the shore. "G'bye," Quartz muttered, distracted.

She keeps ditching him to talk to Spark. Another lull falls over the story – Moopy disappears before Rim can say or fail to say anything to Quartz, Augustine remains absent, Obsidian takes a nap, Ky and Lupus commit to frolicking on the sandy dunes, and Quartz approaches Spark for their famed field trip into town. There are very interesting Quartz character things coming up, but we will tackle those next storyline and I – to my regret – will go back to doing my actual job. 12:22 letters done? We can only hope.

And Die Young by Kesha is on. It still goes hard. It's a shame about the circumstances. Some good things from your young years (like Adventures of the Extranei) are enriched by context, and some (like the Kesha discography) only make you sad and a little sick to consider.

[bats-after-dark]

OK MY TURN TO CACKLE AT THE FUCK VAULT, what have I helped create? And your somno thoughts uuuuuuhhhhhhhh. It’s good food. And maybe it was Xiaobao's first thought too that Huaien would immediately take the change and fuck him awake, like, two nights after discussing the topic, but he's always surprised by how needy Huaien makes him and he lacks patience.

The CNC, though. That one in particular has haunted me. Idk if they would have the capacity for full-on roleplay and I don't think Xiaobao would have it in him to seem like he's even playfully fundamentally denying Huaien because that’s trauma central, but at the very least there are times when Special Jingles come to play and that’s an invitation for Huaien to fuck him while Xiaobao pretends to be busy with something else. And it probably goes well for a hot minute and after that I'm just imagining Xiaobao pressed against the wall, slack-jawed and maybe drooling a bit, and maybe Huaien is degrading him a bit for it because it's almost like he wants this (can he call him a whore? would he? Xiaobao wouldn't mind), and then Xiaobao remembers he's supposed to fight it. So I guess he tries to mumble a little no and squirm a bit, only managing to brush his junk against Huaien and become hornier in the process. Thoughts???

IT NEEDED AN HONEST NAME. I love the idea of Xiaobao annoyed that Huaien didn’t get on the somno train fast enough. Is Xiaobao supposed to be patient???? (No, but he does have to fall asleep first, which he usually does, but not when he’s too hopped up on getting lovingly fucked in his sleep to function.)

The CNC is what I was totally unwilling to put on my dash, BUT I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABT IT CONSTANTLY. His little jingle sex necklace!!! Technically he could just put it on in the evening, but I feel like he sometimes slips it on in the morning bc tormenting Huaien all day with free use jingling is part of the allure. Xiaobao learns very quickly that provoking Huaien, getting him worked up, being a huge brat is Extremely Effective at getting what he wants (fucked into next week). Huaien is like, “Do you want a sex coma? Because this is how you get a sex coma.” And Xiaobao maybe does want that actually!

As to roleplaying….ah my sweet Xiaobao. I think he goes full romance protagonist where he is all heaving bosoms and feeble ‘no’s and ‘stop’s, but it’s basically fairly obvious he’s enjoying himself? Idk I kind of think Huaien would tie him up just to make it harder for Xiaobao to break character. (Also you’re so right that the danger here is top drop; Huaien wouldn’t feel great abt the character he’s playing. He’s the one who needs more aftercare.)

didn’t realize what a Xiaobao wall enthusiast I was until this!!! yes shove that man up against a wall. (I like how you put his back to the wall and in my head I put his face to the wall until the last sentence. The duality of man!!)

CAN HUAIEN CALL XIAOBAO A WHORE. I don’t know. I have been Thinking About This A Lot bc I’ve wanted to write it into fics several times and sort of headtilted about it. I haven’t found the conviction yet. I think in a scene yes. But Huaien saying it in a scene seems to me predicated on his total unwillingness to call Xiaobao a whore unless it was a sex thing. And also probably only once they’re happily established together? Normally, I wouldn’t be so squeamish abt it, but it seems like it really easily slips into meanness when Huaien says it to Xiaobao. And I don’t think I actually have the nerve to write mean huaibao fic.

OH I wanted your choking thoughts!! They deserve an entire choking fic.

[immortalinvisible]

one. I do not condone any of Frank's canonical actions or traits. Using this blog I hope to try and find out more about him by trying to dig into his character. I love analysis and thus I will dig into things. I will not shy away from Frank's personality (public or private) and the implications of his backstory. A fair warning this blog will contain, as such, themes of homophobia, racism, classism, childhood abuse and religious trauma. Please take a step back if you feel uncomfortable.

two. I am canon-divergent in that this Frank never ended up in an abusive situation with Claire. In my timeline, the two do love each other and he will not be afraid to voice that. Claire is everything to him. Furthermore in my timeline, House of Cards exists in the same universe as its British counterpart. Comparisons in-universe have been drawn between Frank Underwood and the British Prime Minister Francis Urquhart who was assassinated in 2001. Will this be important? Only time will tell.

three. I am a beginner at roleplay, so this blog is rather unconventional. I focus more on asks and fun little quizzes rather than anything else. It’s like doing a psychology test, except the experiment keeps running off. You can try a small conversation if you wish but please be patient. I’m new to this.

four. Shipping is fine, but his total loyalty will always be to Claire.

five. Mun is 17. I don’t write NSFW, though I will put implications and flirtations.

six. Politics features heavily on this blog as a theme. I am not American myself, although I am a politics student and try my best to get things correct.

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— BEGIN INTERVIEW. —

Name: Francis Joseph Underwood Nicknames: Frank, F.U., F.J.U., Frankie Gender: Cisgender male Sexuality: Bisexual, no lean Age: 56 (as of timeline/S3) Birthdate: November 5 1959 Hometown: Gaffney, South Carolina Address: The White House, Washington D.C. Religion: Southern Baptist. Dystheist. Nationality: American Mother: Mary Underwood née Robinson Father: Calvin Joseph “C.J.” Underwood Spouse: Claire Underwood Lovers: Edward Meechum, Annette Shepherd, assorted men and women throughout his career Political beliefs: Democrat. Arguably with some Republican beliefs. Liberal on issues such as gay rights and abortion.

"Hello, Mr. President, it's an honour to have you on our show tonight."

The pleasure's all mine.

"Of course, last year, it was your wife I was interviewing. In better circumstances, you would have been there as well. So, let's make up for lost time. Francis Joseph Underwood…"

Please, call me Frank. Everyone does.

"Frank Underwood… you were born in South Carolina."

Yes. In the town of Gaffney to be specific. Peach capital of the state! We're a very proud people. Tough, thick-skinned.

"You've taken great care in your career not to tell us about your childhood though. There haven't been any photographs, any stories…"

Ah, yes. Well… I was born in less than desirable circumstances. My mother, bless her heart for she tried her best for us, was a maid. While she worked for many families, she wasn't home a lot except in the evenings. My father was a humble peach farmer. We lived on a small farm, a very derelict one. It was built on very uneven land, just above a layer of rock. Naturally, barely anything grew well. Those that grew sold, those that didn't, we ate. I lived hand-to-mouth for the first seventeen years of my life.

"But that is all you've ever told us. Tell me about your parents. Did you love them?"

They tried to look after me. My mother adored me, I was the apple of her eye. I wouldn't have become the person I am today if I wasn't under her care.

"And your father?"

… he was an unstable man. That is all I will say on the subject.

"Very well. And of course at seventeen you entered the prestigious military college of the Sentinel. How did that happen?"

It was a scholarship. My father wanted to send me somewhere that would discipline me. I was (chuckles) quite an unruly teenager. My teachers thought I was intelligent as well. I kept up with my studies, often stayed with the classmates who tolerated me to read their books. Perhaps they recognised something. But before I knew it, I was sent off.

"Did you enjoy your time there?"

I learnt a lot about myself. I learnt to become who I am today in a sense. Forgive me, I seem to be saying that a lot. Yes, I did enjoy my time there. In fact, it’s how I became so interested in politics. A Democrat candidate for the Senate began campaigning near where the school campus was, and I used to volunteer my evenings to help. Nearly got kicked out because of it.

“And yet despite that you got into Harvard. Why was that? Did you work hard?”

I worked hard, but I think my entry was more so due to my skills. Academics aren’t everything to some poor boy like me. You need tenacity, you need to prove you’ll be able to accomplish whatever you want.

“I see. But of course while you attended Harvard, something very special happened. You met someone.”

Yes! Claire in fact. She was the most intelligent woman I had ever set my eyes on, and stunningly beautiful. I couldn’t take my eyes off her. Mind you, I wasn’t in love then, but something about her just enchanted me. … And when we learnt more about each other I fell deeper and deeper. But I always felt bad in a way. Could I be good enough for her? Her mother certainly didn’t feel that way.

wip.