#xxfiction is my realityxx

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I'm gonna share something happy within the horrible exhausting time I've been having. Like trying to actively focus on the GOOD in the inevitably bad.

You know the basics on what's going on so yeah.

When I found out in the middle of June that my baby has a tumor in her jaw (you can see it on the pictures. It was way smaller in June), I already had like a 2 day break down about loosing her. About her feeling worse and worse.

But - She's still here as of August 6th and she's not in any pain, still eating (pureed food), still meowing at me, still coming to greet us at the door when we come home, still standing on her hind legs to try and get a better look at the food I'm making. Still following me around the house. Trusting me to wipe spit off her jaw multiple times a day. Still coming to sit next to me, looking at me expectantly. Still mrrrp-ing.

I don't know how long this will last. It won't be forever and probably not even last until her 16th birthday on the 18th (which I desperately hope she'll be there for), and I've been crying for days now because it's just a lot. Just everything on top of THIS.

But she still manages to bring me so much joy (which also hurts. But in a good way, I think.

I love her so goddamn much (and I know this is supposed to be a happy post but it still made me sad.)

She's my little baby (and I know her two sisters are still there but the bond Diego and I have is just different. I can't describe it.

Hi love.

I'm hugging you and Diego and holding you as close to my heart as humanly possible. She's an angel, and she's full of love and so are you.

I know that there are no words that could soothe your soul right now, and there haven't been any since June. I am so, so sorry that you're going through this. It's such a heartbreaking situation, grieving something that hasn't really happened yet. I have no power to take away your pain, and if I had any, I would use is for you to focus on the love that you two are sharing in this time, and I think it is the only thing I can tell you now. Love is everything, and Diego is so beautiful, so loved and so, so, so lucky to have you as her guardian.

That bond you have I'm absolutely sure that will trascend anything, she's forever going to be part of you as you are part of her, now and always.

I wish you both the best, and if I can do anything for you, please DM me. You know I'm always open to talk to you.

Lots of love.

💗💗💗

[edsforehead]

omg thank you SO much for your lovely words!! I've been having a baaaaad day and this is making me feel a little bit better!! thank you 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Ofc!! Your art is great, I was looking at the details of that particular drawing for a while - it’s beautiful! Hope you make more if you’re inspired to 💛

[irishvampireboy]

thaaaank you soooooo much for your lovely comment on my art 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Oh hi! You are most welcome! It's so beautiful! You did an amazing job! Especially with his hair!!! I am always in awe of people who can draw hair so well cuz i was always TERRIBLE at it!!! But you're art is so wonderful! Thank YOU for sharing it with us! 🧡🧡🧡🧡

[dorkydiaz]

mwah! 🥰

^thats us obviously 😌 🥰

[freckledjoes]

after all the mustache talk, i needed this. i like how the b/w one gets an old-timey feel with the noise and all that. you could really put him in any type of setting and he'd rock it, sigh.

[rocketkit]

If you're still doing this: C4 for Steddie? 🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺

thank you so much!

for this drawing meme

[sidekick-hero]

They are SOOO! (i mean Morgan and Keys) They are so soft an AHHHHH and lovely and cute and absolutely ew (affectionately)

I love them 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Oh gosh, I feel a bit dumb, but I have no idea who you mean? Keys as in Joe Keery's character in Free Guy? (if so, I LOVE HIM).

But Morgan is not ringing any bells except for Morgan from Criminal Minds, which, yummm. But somehow I think you don't mean him 😂

[finduilasclln]

Fredmundo just took me out. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

I mean...

😂

[bewilderedbuckley]

You say it like that's to be prevented.

What's a little bit subtle dry humping on the way to an emergency between ✨️bros✨️

It's just a bro helping out another bro destress before starting work ☺️

[milf-harrington]

This is killing me. It's SO cute. I love this so much. RAHHHH!

RAHHHH!

[mistchievous]

OH MY GOD YESSS!!!

BIRTHDAY TIME FOR THE BESTEST JESS!!

This lil lady here had been in a fight a few minutes ago with some neighbours cat. Had to go in between them to scare it off!

So now we're here wishing you a happy happy birthday!

AWWWW!!! ANOTHER BABYYYY!!! 😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰

She's had a stressful day! 😤😤😤😤😤😤

Thank y ou so much though, Em! To both of youuu! 🤗🤗🤗

[inklessletter]

✨🧡🌙 SEND THIS TO TEN (10) OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL. KEEP THE GAME GOING 🌙🧡✨️

No seriously. You're such a lovely person. Like I feel like every person in your life should be so glad they have you in their corner. 🥺🥺

Adagsfaf thank you so much love! I'm keeping your words very close to my heart ❤️❤️❤️

Have the most amazinest day ever, little sunshine 🌞

[uglypastels]

Joseph without Jamie: 😐

Joseph with Jamie: 🥰

(every damn time. I love them.)

I love him. I love him. I love them.

[viagoh]

I absolutely love your steddie series!

I have a question and don't know if you answered that already somewhere. Is there a reason you choose to have Eddie have short hair? No judgment. Just think it's interesting since you're also kind of the only one going for short hair basically consistently. He also looks so much like Wayne that way, which I LOVE.

sending you hugs and flowers 💐 bc you deserve some nice flowers for being an amazing artist

aw thank you so so much!!! and what a great question!!! it's actually an idea my friend and i had while writing about post-series steddie last year. part of it came from us agreeing eddie would start naturally losing his hair anyway (bc genetics), but it was my friend's idea that he would cut it off without warning one day. it was kind of symbolic of him making a fresh start for himself after everything he went through in s4. i know it's not everyone's take (i love his long hair as much as everyone else, trust me!!!) but it was just one of those storytelling choices that ultimately stuck.

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

That looks fancy.

People giving me checkmarks like I'm a cat on Halloween and they are my owners wrestling me into a cute outfit so that I look like a Dapper Young Gentleman while I wail about it.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Where's rwrb on this list.

ALSO HERCULES YEEEEES OMG. LOVE THAT MOVIE

It’s yet to reach the watch count of ever after but it’s getting there and the question only asked for the most watched movie so until I’ve watched rwrb more than 1000 times it’s gonna have to settle with second spot 😂😂😂

Hercules is also awesome and an underrated movie 😎