#y’all I’m so very unwell rn

[theheadlessphilosopher]

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[p1nk-syr1nge]

parental mercs?! 🥺 if you want parental merc requests, may i then request dad heavy, dad spy and dad engie headcanons??? 🥺🥺🥺

Mercs being parental towards the reader!!!! This is incredibly self indulgent by the way…

(also apologies for my absence y’all i’m severely mentally unwell rn,, )

Engie

Very doting guy, but just overall really cool and nice to hang out with.

Having a bad day? You can go hang out with him, if you need to talk then he’ll listen all about it and comfort you with a long, warm hug. 

If you don’t want to talk about it, the hug offer is still there. He’ll still try and help you feel better the best he can…

Probably will try and tuck you into bed at night. He does the same with Pyro, and a few other mercs if they ask. A lil goodnight kiss, and wishing you sweet dreams.

Type of dad to teach you everything he knows in life. How to cook, grill, take care of yourself, ‘n all that funky stuff.

While you two were baking cookies, which you had offered to make for fun but didn’t know any recipes so Engie decided to help,you had gotten a glop of flour on your cheek. You were completely oblivious to it.

Almost on instinct he just licked the pad of his thumb and wiped off the gunk. Gross!! How unsanitary.

“UGH, dad…” You complained, without realizing what you called him. Though, all he gave was a kind smile, you can be sure he was wiping a happy tear once you were out of sight.

Heavy

Oh he’s quite protective of you… But tries not to be overbearingly so.

He tends to be firm with you, but he just wants to make sure you’re safe.

Heavy has a tendency of taking care of you like he did with his sisters. Making sure you’re at your best, you’re doing ok, and trying to make you smile.

If he’s comforting you, he will not beat around the bush. What’s the problem, here’s a solution. Although, he’ll hug you and say reassuring things about whatever is making you upset…

Fun to hang around, although he’s often quiet. So if all you’re looking for is peace and tranquility, you can probably find him in the base reading.

A long exhausting day, all you wanted was some quiet. So, looking for heavy, he was peacefully reading a novel that looked familiar, yet you couldn’t quite remember where you saw it from…

Sitting next to him, you made yourself comfortable. After a while, Heavy felt a weight on his side. Looking down to see you’ve fallen asleep…

With a gentle look, he carried you to bed and made sure you were safe and sound.

Spy

Though rather distant, he still has some father instincts left in him.

The type of dad that is constantly fixing your collar, the tag that stick out, etc…

If you go to him for advice he will not sugarcoat it, though will be a bit gentler if you seem visibly upset.

Not great at comforting people, but he’ll hold you and let you cry it out if that’s what you need. Realistically reassuring words and gentle pets on your head.

Will take you to places he thinks you’ll enjoy… maybe an aquarium or a stupidly fancy resturaunt.

Sighing at your antics on instinct, he was trying to be patient, really… But he just got a reservation for a show he was taking you to. You only had an hour to get ready, and you still looked like a mess…

So he was stuck finding a good outfit for you, something fancy enough for the event. You were both digging through your closet to find what items would go together and... oh! This will do nicely.

Smoothing out your collar, and patting your head. There was a proud look and smile upon his face. “You look great, but we are going to be late if you don’t hurry up.”

[chewchuck]

AND ANOTHER THING! (IM BACK FOR MORE)

I absolutely picked up on a few things that honestly had me just asking more questions about Chilchuck’s pov. On one hand, I usually love seeing each pov within the chapters, but! on the other, it was very what’s the word… fitting? nicely done. how you handle the showing and telling of the story

My internal dialogue was a lot of “Oh surely this man is not entirely oblivious to dog boy over here.” “Oh he has GOT to be thinking thoughts rn.” So eek! Yes I am so excited about the addition lol

Also I have no idea WHAT they’re put in this stuff, but Dungeon Meshi has just… gotten me in a chokehold. The Chilaios Nation, don’t know what y’all are doing, but it also has me in a chokehold. Scarily dragging me in. I am obsessing I am refreshing my tabs I am unwell I am blessed with a feast fit for a king this is affecting my mental health I need sleep. Anyway, love all the chilaios nation folks <3

listen to me. look me in my eyes. i am gripping you by the shoulders. this is everything to me

because so genuinely while writing the first part, i considered every single aspect of what chikchuck thought about what was going on. what was he feeling what was he thinking etc etc and i while i don’t always think that’s necessarily for a limited pov fic, especially not when it comes to one that boils down to self indulgent smut, like i said *i* knew what he was going through and wanted to try to translate that to the audience with out like. making it so obvious that laios should have picked up on it.

and when trying to convey something subtle like that it’s so easy for it to go completely unnoticed. and honestly i do think i would have been just fine with that actually! bc i never intended to make a second part of this from chilchucks pov!

but the way sooo many people have been like “i am picking up on this” just made me so happy!!! like i said a billion times while writing this i made and am still making this for me first and foremost! it’s self indulgent and all about what *i* want to happen and what makes me happy

but that doesn’t change the fact that i am so overwhelmingly happy that so many other people are enjoying it!! im over the moon about that! and thats a HUGE part of why i got inspired to actually write a chilchuck pov!!!

(and not to curse myself but uhm. based on the current word count compared to the equivalent part of the first part it. well it might end up longer. but shh don’t tell anyone)

BUT YEAH WTF DID RYOKO KUI PUT IN THIS FUCKING SHOW AND WHAT IS IT ABOUT CHILAIOS NATION.

i think it’s crack cocaine

i’m would like to reiterate/make it clear that i made this blog LESS THAN A WEEK AGO. that’s how insane this shit had made me. it’s been less than a week and i’ve made a whole side blog, wrote over 11k of fic, made several friends, joined a discord server and am HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE. i am having more fun in this fandom than i can remember having in almost 15 years

sorry this reply got REALLY long but. it just feels good. i’m happy. i’m having fun and im glad there are other people along for the ride who are having fun as well :3

[starry-lemonaid]

Hiiiii so this ended up so so much longer than I meant it to and I didn’t even write most of them 😭 Sorry im physically unwell about your au lol. Some are definitely only your au specific others are really any teenager au :>>>>>

Team Bolas would carry around a tamagotchi and pass it off every so often. Rn Carre has it >:3

Since you have it canonized that Pac and Mike are neighbors in this, and in canon they were in an orphanage: Adopted and fostercare pac and Mike. (Pac eventually adopted by his foster dad and mom — who happens to be pals with Cellbit’s mom — and Mike still in foster care, but more in a permanent sense)

Like. Have you seen Alexa and Katie? That’s how I picture the two of them with being neighbors. 

Team Bolas will go to roller skating rinks with the sluttiest and most fabulous outfits known to man

I don’t know the status of Skeppy in this story but he’s the kid that everyone on the team (soulfire) knows about without ever having actually met him because of Bbh

Like in canon, Carre almost never talks in the gc (despite being present a ton of the time), but when he does it’s a fucking *hit* (aka he’s amazing) (aka holding out for a Carre mention in either fic /j /lh /t)

One time all of Bolas’ spirit days for their respective schools lined up and they all collaborated to wear gas masks. They do this for Halloween too. 

(I’m a scare actor) Team Bolas goes to Haunted Attractions together every Autumn and each of them are little babies about it in different ways (I have ideas about what types of customers they’d be for the scare actors omg)  

In the Bolas Minecraft server they have builds that relate to Jrwi and Ordem Paranormal (like Cellbit’s castle in canon) (I have no idea how that’d work with Bagi) 

BBQ’s with Foolish and his big family just. Are chaos incarnate 

Slime and Baghera once got really really into karaoke at a hotel and got a noise complaint 

Somewhere in his lore: Child actor slime who used to work with Niki (as well as a buncha other people). The two of them got extremely screwed over by the company — Showfall. (Like, them exploiting Slime’s hypermobility to the point where it genuinely hurts him, or scaring Niki with gunshots just because she’d sit there and take it so’s not to ruin her “nice” cover with skating) (genloss)

I’m still not quite over BAGI AND MIKE being the two to see Cellbit and PAC first after their fight. The two people who care the most about them being the ones to see each other bloody and sobbing and Jesus Christ. Not really a headcanon but. Omg. Trauma? 

TW PARANOIA: Cellbit gets really really bad psychosis and paranoia sometimes that his friends have learned to help him down out of (you’ve written him so so ocd. It’s lovely — not for him, but for us) 

Bpd q!cellbit 🤝 Bipolar q!Pac (in your au) (someday I’ll go into depth about this. That day it’s over for the rest of y’all)

Adore that Tazercraft prankwarring each other is canon in at least one of your series’ fics. I don’t know how their mind link would translate in this buttttttt I think it fits them very well

I also think they’d have a little collection of crap they’ve stolen from different rinks they’ve traveled to 

The seven of bolas have matching friendship bracelets 

(Sorry most of these are just Tazercraft and Bolas. I’m so insanely unwell about them in your au) 

i’m literally right about to go to bed so i apologize if this isn’t coherent but i love all of these so much!

-in thr chat fic Bolas actually has smth like that! it’s name is iris (like their creature from purgatory) and you’re correct in the fact rn carre has it in the irl fic! :D

-that’s how i imagine it to be in the chat fic au! idk how it translates into irl one but in my mind it’s a similar situation!!

-you’re so right for this actually i will be drawing this

-skeppy lore! he’s a hockey skater at the soul fire rink :) i might make a one shot about him and bad soon :)

-THERES A CARRE MENTION IN THE NEXT TO CHAPTERS I SWEAR (/lh)

-i see your head cannon and raise you: they made their own gas masks one year out of monster cans because Phil raised the point if “our actual ones risk breaking if we wear them to school” (i made my own bolas mask out of monster cans lmaooo)

-(that’s so cool omg?) the way i would read the hell outta that- (i’m such baby when it comes to those things so i’ve never actually gone but i’ve always wanted to participate in it)

-BOLAS MINECRAFT SERVER!!! IRONICALLY THATS CANNON!!!!

-Foolish and Phil’s families at fourth of july BBQs? the fireworks are crazy

-lmao i almost put that in the 10th chapter and then didn’t 😭

-I FORGOT ABOUT GENLOSS LORE OMG *notes that down to use later*

:P no regerts (i had to tone it down when i was writing it )

i feel like the fact i’ve written him ocd when i wrote him similar to me says smth…(my psychiatrist said i have ocd tendencies lmaoooo)

im so intrigued about this because i didn’t realize they lined up with that- ngl they’re just me if i got to go feral a little more when i was 11

you know those online friends that you message like every sing,e thing about your day to? like you liveblog your life to them? that’s how pac and mike are! :D

its cannon to the irl!!! if not stated otherwise all oneshots are irl universe (i’ll say what chapter it correlates to if it’s a chat fic one) and they absolutely have stolen things- especially cuz for a while people would bring tradables to comp so the two of them absolutely stole each others trandeables when they were younger

THEY DO!!!! they have multiple!!! rn they all have hand made beaded ones that say “BOLAS” on ‘‘em!

(you’re so right tho i love them and i didn’t even write abiut them that much

[blurglesmurfklaine]

i was tagged by @justasmallbloginabigklainefandom

rules : spell your url with song titles and tag 10 people.

Baila Esta Cumbia - Selena, Light Up The World - Glee Cast, Unwell - Matchbox 20, Rainbow - Kesha, Grow Old With You from the Wedding Singer, Little Wonders - Rob Thomas, Edge of Seventeen - Stevie Nicks, Shiny - Sara Bareilles, Miss Simone - Sara Bareilles, Unwritten - Natasha Betinfield, Radioactive - Imagine Dragons, False God - Taylor Swift, Keep Your Head Up - Andy Grammer, Lover - Taylor Swift, Aléjate de Mí - Camila, If I Can’t Have You - Sara Bareilles, No Such Thing - Sara Bareilles, Everywhere - Tim McGraw

quarantine asks :

•where are you isolated ??

Home lol with my parents. My brothers are down for a while though! Very excited and happy :)))

•what are you currently reading or watching ??

I have... 14 fan fiction tabs. Open. I have a problem.

I binged Never Have I Ever today! And I’m hate watching Riverdale lol.

OH MY GOD ROSWELL!!! I’M WATCHING ROSWELL NEW MEXICO AMD ITS EVERYTHING

•if you can go outside, what do you like to do during this time ??

I just like to walk around the empty lot next to our house lol

•any fascinating concept you’re studying ??

Lmao no. I guess I’m always working on music, so there that??

•what kind of acts of creativity / forms of art are you currently doing ??

I just finished my sequel to There From the Start, so I’ll be posting that and trying to finish my Glee Potluck Big Bang fic which I’m SO begins on lmaoooooo. I’m learning Songbird on the piano, and several Taylor Swift songs on guitar and piano lmao

•a song that resonates with your state of mind at the moment ??

I think Shiny by Sara Bareilles just... I feel that shit in my bones rn my dudes

•favourite impulsive / “bad” coping techniques ??

Ruining my sleep schedule lol

•favourite healthy / “good” coping techniques ??

Writing and playing music

rules : bold everything that applies to you & tag 10 people you’d like to get to know better.

A P P E A R A N C E

i’m over 5′5″. i wear glasses / contacts. i have blonde hair. i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing. i have one or more piercings. i have at least one tattoo. i have blue / green eyes. i have dyed or highlighted my hair. i have gotten plastic surgery. i have or had braces. i sunburn easily. i have freckles. i paint my nails. i typically wear makeup. i don’t often smile. i am pleased with how i look. i prefer nike to adidas. i wear baseball hats backwards.

H O B B I E S A N D T A L E N T S

i play a sport. i can play an instrument. i am artistic. i know more than one language. i have won a trophy in some sort of competition. i can cook or bake without a recipe. i know how to swim. i enjoy writing. i can do origami. i prefer movies to tv shows. i can execute a perfect somersault. i enjoy singing . i could survive in the wild on my own. i have read a new book series this year. i enjoy spending time with friends. i travel during school or work breaks. i can do a handstand.

R E L A T I O N S H I P S

i am in a relationship. i have been single for over a year. i have a crush. i have a best friend i have known for ten years. my parents are together. i have dated my best friend. i am adopted. my crush has confessed to me. i have a long distance relationship. i am an only child. i give advice to my friends. i have made an online friend (several! this year!! 💞💞💞). i met up with someone i have met online.

A E S T H E T I C S

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell. i have watched the sunrise. i enjoy rainy days. i have slept under the stars. i meditate outside. the sound of chirping calms me. i enjoy the smell of the beach. i know what snow tastes like. i listen to music to fall asleep. i enjoy thunderstorms. i enjoy cloud watching. i have attended a bonfire. i pay close attention to colors. i find mystery in the ocean. i enjoy hiking on nature paths. autumn is my favorite season.

M I S C E L L A N E O U S

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle. i am the mom friend. i live by a certain quote. i like the smell of sharpies. i am (was) involved in extracurricular activities. i enjoy mexican food. i can drive a stick-shift. i believe in true love. i make up scenarios to fall asleep. i sing in the shower. i wish i lived in a video game. i have a canopy above my bed. i am multiracial. i am a redhead. i own at least three dogs (or have at some point).

I know it’s a lot lol but it was super fun! So I tag y’all if you wanna do it: @romanticsanders @princessblaine @blaineskurt @somefeministtheatrepls @sassynosubete @justgleekout @esperantoauthor

[incurableoptimistest1994]

Not gonna lie y’all, I’m having a very tough time rn. I’ve got a very nasty kidney infection on top of my Botox in my bladder wearing out (which will hopefully be sorted this Thursday, as long as this infection clears enough), so I’m feeling really unwell physically... but I’m also having one hell of a dip with my mental health. I’m so grateful to all the people who help me keep fighting every day, including the ones who do so without even realising. Mentions for yesterday are; 1. My incredible parents, who spent literal hours on the phone talking down a sobbing Amy-Claire. It hurts me to hurt them 😢 and I’m so grateful they always love me even when I’m not at my most lovable, and that they fight for me so hard. Thankfully mum and dad find Grumpy Amy (who often appears when Clinically Depressed Amy-Claire takes a break) hilarious 😂! 2. @jessicasweet4108 and Sion for offering to come to my rescue 😭🥰💖 3. @mjenga10 for texting me and supporting me even though she was working. 4. @lucyfishleigh95 for texting me and making me smile; sometimes just getting a message reminds me I’m liked and loved ❤️ 4. @tonio1 for sending me photos of his new puppy that made me smile 😁! 5. @collette.1967 and Ian for messaging me AND for supporting mum and dad ❤️ 6. All the people who sent comments and messages; they are a reminder of all the wonderful people in my life 💖 7. @conjonsilver92 for the usual photos of mostly naked hot dudes 😂👍🏻! 8. All the fab carers who knew I wasn’t feeling so hot and did their best to help 💖 All in all, I’m incredibly lucky to have so many awesome people loving and supporting me every step of the way... but I also have a lot of really shitty stuff in my life, and rn it’s all getting me down. I’m trying my very best to swim 🏊🏻‍♀️ and not sunk in it all 💪🏻 I’m gonna ring my psychologist today to sort out getting some support. Feeling a bit disappointed I’ve had a dip, because I’ve been doing so well my psychologist was thinking of starting me in group therapy... but I know the fact that I’m reaching out at all, that I am talking to the people I love about how I feel, shows my progress from five years ago 💪🏻 #depressionsucksass https://www.instagram.com/p/B8GUfAoBp_J/?igshid=1usjxlv54av5e