#yammering to myself

[blazingpeter]

New Logo! XD

I commissioned Mushie's brother for a logo! It's so fucking cool!

You guys should go commission him! He's awesome as fuck.

Link to how you can harass him

@sm-baby

[apple-onigiri]

i can feel it... a bonnie analysis post.... the stars have almost aligned for it.... soon before long

[blazingpeter]

Translation: I havent thought that far ahead

Unless there's an anticheat system, can people use hacks in the carnival like aimbotting and scripting? And if so/even if there were anticheats can the ai use hacks themselves?

You're using words that I'm not qualified to answer bucko 🧍

[hoppityhopster23]

If I ever piss any of you off, please tell me. Most of the time it’s not intentionally done.

And if I pull back from a friendship, 9/10 it’s me getting scared that I’m annoying you and don’t want to impose on your life and not you.

[synodicsoma]

Heeeey, soooo I had a dream about reincarnated human Bill talking to Ford a year after Weirdmageddon, some million years after Bill's stay in the Theraprism. Wrote it down for future use in Wolf Among Weeds, hopefully. But wanted to share here too because I thought some of you would get a kick out of it.

[blazingpeter]

Ha, i thought i was the one who likes to stockpile their attacks for the last day. Nice to see i can make it a revenge attack!

Prepare thine butthole sword for my attack

Here's all the artfights ive done this year! Was pretty fun looking at everyone's characters on the site. I saw lots of different styles and peoples blorbos so that was interesting.

AND WOWIE WHEN I GOT ATTACKED ASKDKJASDNA SO COOL

Overall, it was pretty fun! Would have done more attacks but had little time due to irl things. With any luck ill be able to do it again next year

Links to people's ref sheets under the cut

Umiko - the artist hid the character T-T

Seally Blue - https://artfight.net/character/5356791.seally-blue

DJ Spiral - https://artfight.net/character/3401223.vera-djspiral

Peter - https://artfight.net/character/3499235.peter

[blazingpeter]

Does anyone else like the 'Spamtenna' ship?

cuz i really do, its cute :)

[fayeandknight]

Something I've been chewing over is Forte's work as a service dog, or rather how I utilize him as one.

I put so much time and effort into training him and, aside from the odd outing or event, I really only take him on grocery runs.

Don't get me wrong, he is amazingly helpful to have on them and I've been able to improve my diet because of him. He's also super helpful at home. But a big part of my drive in training a service dog in the first place was to make my world bigger. To give me the ability to do the things I want.

I had that with Faye. We went shopping for clothes so I could wear things that made me feel good about myself instead of just whatever t shirt and leggings were clean. We went to movies and the zoo. Heck I had a membership to the semi local aquarium because of how often I went. And while human company would have been nice, it was so life affirming to be able to enjoy those things on my own terms.

And I really don't do that with Forte. Not because he isn't capable of it, he proves that he is any time I "dust off" his public access skills and go somewhere. Like today I got out of work early so I stopped at the mega mall on the way home, just to see how he'd do and refresh his training in a bigger/busier place. He did amazing. He switched between casual heeling and fmp as directed, ignored the people calling to him, alerted in a timely manner, and after an hour of wandering around - led me to my car in the giant parking lot. And he did it all happily. Nothing bothered him, not the flashing lights of an arcade, not the toy gun range, not the indoor bounce house, none of it.

So why don't I utilize him more?

When I sit myself down and really think through it, it's internalized ablism.

When I lived further from my family I was free from their direct input on deciding to go out and do things with a service dog. Now that I'm with them again, I live with their constant pushback around bringing my service dog. They want to go out to eat, but do I really have to bring him? It's such a hassle and really they're family and that should be enough for me. They want to see a play but there's no need to bring the dog when we're going together. And on and on until somewhere along the way I just started opting out of going because it was easier.

No amount of 'but we're your faaamily' changes my disabilities or benefit of having a service dog. But I've grown so accustomed to anticipating complaints that I talk myself out of going now before they can.

And honestly I'm pretty disappointed in myself to come to this realization. I don't want my life to consist only of home, basic errands, work, and nothing else. I worked so hard to give myself an avenue of independence and I'm wasting it.

So here's my pledge to myself. I will do more. I will go to places and enjoy the world again. I will visit the library and bookstores and cafes more than every once in a blue moon. I will see that really interesting museum exhibit. I will go to the aquarium because I absolutely love it.

I'm going to focus on easing him back into working more frequently out and about and for longer durations first. But I am also going to trust him more to do the job I worked so hard to train him for. The job he shows me he loves at every opportunity.

It's past time to start living life again.

[blazingpeter]

Cumin Goudav 🧀🧀🧀

Pick a cheese, any cheese

The one you say when taking a picture

[witawwy-ponyboy-curtis]

Age of Madness patch I'd made and sewn onto my backpack

[astrowarr]

writing a grian etho cleo post session 6 fic and it's almost done. nobody move

[mothibooz]

They should've been at the club

[dsrtrose]

eliza,  the  bleeding  heart  of  the  wild  west  +  her  inherent  belief  that  everyone  in  the  gang  has  overwhelming  good  in  them  /  are  deserving  of  love  -  except  micah  and  strauss.

[permanentlyexhaustedpigeon88]

So, how does one maintain their joy of talking about fanfic plots/OCs with others, without going overboard, becoming unhinged, and unleashing a constant stream of consciousness about said plots/OCs that seemingly never has an end in sight, thus overwhelming the recipient of these discussions, even if they're too kind to state that they're overwhelmed outright?

Alternatively, how does one stop internalizing that they are, and always have been 'too much', 'annoying', and 'over the top', and actively silencing themselves/making themselves smaller, based on perceived moments where the recipient of the above conversations isn't responding as excitedly as they usually do, and thus must be tired of/annoyed by one's constant rambles?

Asking for a friend (it's me, I'm friend).

[blazingpeter]

I saw someone said "Kinger bueno' in the server so ofc I had to drop everything and make this masterpiece

[helloarchivist]

sometimes my brain remembers that despite the label on my diploma most of my education was in political philosophy and I become possessed and write up this whole long ass post about some arcane nonsense or another

and then delete it all bc the reasonable response to anything I'd have to yammer about would be "....this is a Wendy's drive-thru" aldsijk