#you strangers are the best strangers in my life.<3 im sure youre all sleeping rn so i hope you have GREAT DREAMS!!!

[seppukubunni]

.mildly serious post

[deeeelightfuldee]

Your ex taps you on the shoulder and says, “I still love you.” You say? ooooof. I don’t think i’d buy that. I hardly think people who DO show they have feelings for me are being truthful, so I doubt that.

Do you play video games? haven’t in some time, but I want to get back into it a little.

Do you spend a lot of time with family? oh heck yeah. I have a really great family.

Is your house more than two stories tall? nah, it’s the two stories with a basement.

Have you ever hit your significant other? Has he/she ever hit you? I will never raise my hands to another human being. I once dated someone who was a veteran and had severe ptsd. we were napping one time and he got aggressive. that wasn’t HIM though. 

What makes you an attractive person? (Talk about your personality too!) physically, I suppose I have nice eyes and a decent smile. personality wise, I am warm, friendly, loving, supportive, sometimes funny, very loyal.

What color is your hairbrush/comb? depends which one I use. I have a pink one right now. 

What snacks do you have available in your household atm? I honestly haven’t got a clue. I haven’t been let out of my room in 2 weeks.

Has anyone recently told you that they like you, or find you attractive? yes. it’s weird.

Are you attracted to the last person you Facebook messaged? DEF not. he has been asking me out since we worked together maybeeeee.. 8-9 years ago? 

Do you care about anyone that doesn’t care about you? yes! I am trying to learn how to undo that. it’s not that I don’t want to care about him, but I know and can soooooooo clearly see that he doesn’t care anymore, and it is extremely emotionally draining to watch.

Was your last Facebook friend requests from a male or female? I wanna say female but idk

Which one of your relatives is most likely to embarrass you? scott

When was the last time you ate a bar of chocolate? couple days ago.

Do you play any games on Facebook? Nope.

What would you like to get a degree in? I have two degrees -- one in psych and one in SLP. 

Do you wake up a lot in the middle of the night? ahahahaha yes. almost always wide awake from 3-6

Would you prefer to read a book, watch a movie or TV show, or play a video game? typically more in the movie/show or book mood.

Do you usually get popcorn or soda at the movie theater? Both. nothing like that buttery, salty goodness that obvs requires an enormous drink

What genre of films do you like the best? either make me EXTREMELY sad, or romantic.

How many bank accounts do you have? 2

Have you ever had the flu? Yeah.

What is your goal for the next few months? i have several. the only one that can/will be public right now, is to get my lungs back to functioning as they were.

Have you ever had some kind of sleep-disorder? How did it affect your life? yes. I have very bad breathing during sleep. I have had 11 sleep studies done, because my breathing will just stop randomly, which luckily my brain wakes me. it doesn’t really affect my like severely.. I function normally. but shoooooot, if I got normal levels of sleep i’d be a force to be reckoned with.

Have you ever had food poisoning before? Describe the experience. Yes. It was AWFUL. vomiting for 2 days straight. it was so gross.

Funny, charming, cute, romantic, smart - choose only 2 for the opposite sex. smart and romantic.

Have you ever let somebody use you? Why did you do it? hmm. I think there have been times where i’ve let people have more access to me than they should have had. or there have definitely been times I’ve been used in school groups. But honestly, I tend to be protective of myself. I stop when I feel enough is enough. 

You can go back in time & change something in your mom’s past - what is it? I would want either Bill to not die, or for her to be spoiled incessantly by someone else.

Do you know anybody who is around the exact same size as you? Who? psh. no. my friends are all tiny which is just not fun.

Ever been to a haunted house? How scared were you? Yeah. i found it so fun.

Been on any websites today you wouldn’t want your parents to see? ahahahaha no. 

Which is worse: dusting or mopping? mopping. i hate doing the floors.

Did you pull a senior prank? Not really advised when a homeschooler. 

Did you graduate? Yes. that was a rough, rough day.

Have you ever been unfaithful in a serious relationship? Nope

What was the last song you listened to? i think it was Happier than Ever by billie eilish. the lyrics are ... woof. 

Are you one of those lucky people with 20/20 vision? 20/12 -- the last time I had insurance anyway.

Is fashion one of your interests? honestly, if I had money, it would be. but it isnt right now.

Do you think you’ll eventually find that special someone? It’s getting harder and harder to believe that will be the case. I knowwwww I need to start dating, but every time I go to open up an app, I hesitate and chicken out. I just was so happy before.. its hard to think I could be able to offer anything to anyone right now.

Do you care what people think? veryyyyyy few people. I care about the thoughts of those I genuinely love and respect. However, I still ensure I’m protecting myself regardless.

Is acting something you enjoy? No. 

What was the last thing you broke/sprained? I have a bum knee, so I sprain that from time to time. I last broke a finger.

Have you ever fought with a friend because of their boyfriend/girlfriend? Because of yours? ahahahaha yes. but years ago. never because of mine.

Has a stranger ever yelled at you for your language? No. I don’t cuss. 

Whose house, other than yours and your families’, are you most comfortable at? probably either nathan’s or em’s.

Has any of your friends’ family ever yelled at you? alix’s family used to yell at me a lot for being fat. that used to mess me up. 

Did you ever play a sport as a little kid? Did you enjoy it? soccer. no, i found the endless running to be unnecessary. 

Did you ever watch the show Full House? yup

Is there a celebrity you are just DETERMINED to marry? no, thats so out-of-touch with reality

Have you ever burned someone’s picture? yes, i have.

What’s the longest hike you’ve ever been on? i think it was 8 hours. I hate hate hate hikes. But, thats because I have really weak lungs, so my doctor says it’s like lighting them on fire.

Would you ever get a lip tattoo? No.

Who is the first person of the opposite sex that pops into your head? kile

Do your parents smoke cigarettes? my mom hasn’t since a teenager. I think my dad does still. though, i dunno for certain.

What does one of your T-shirts have written on it? uhhhh, PTK honors society

Name a pet you definitely wouldn’t want. Any reptile or insect. <<<< same

Would you prefer your partner smaller or taller? Taller. 

Do you enjoy going through old pictures? Yes. very much so.

Do you believe people when they say they don’t judge people? No, i respect people who are truthful saying they either try not to judge, or that they do judge despite their desire to stop.

What did you love the most about the town you grew up in? sooooooo much. it’s small town-y, quiet, safe, lots of trees, family close by.

What’s a movie you cried the hardest during? ps i love you will always shatter my heart.

What’s your favorite restaurant? buona or ashford

Is there a dessert you don’t like? im not wild about pastries.

What’s a book that you read because everyone else was reading it? hmmm maybe that one mrs. pettigrews home for peculiar children.

Underwater or outer space? i’m fascinated by both. typically more interested in the water.

Dogs or cats? both. all of them.

Kittens or puppies? kittens.

Bird watching or whale watching? whales!!!!!!!!

What was your best subject in school? in HS probably history. or science. in college, psych or neuro.

What was your worst subject in school? Math. always freakin’ math.

What is one thing you wish you knew in high school? Uhhh. hm. i don’t think anything. I liked my experience.

Who is your fashion icon? nada.

Diamonds or pearls? Both are nice. I love pearl stud earrings and I really want a simple, one pearl necklace. I am kinda ruined for diamonds for some time. My favorite rings and necklace were diamonds from kile and I just cant bring myself to wear those anymore.

What color dress did you wear to prom? pink

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? oh sure. I am envious of those with bangin’ bods. I’m envious of those who have great finances. I am envious of those who live life married to their love. I’m envious of people who see kile regularly. But there are difficulties that come with any of those situations.

Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out? not long ago. the whole crushing reality of losing kile just destroyed me. I’m OK now.

Do you need to return anyone’s phone call? ahahahahah. I just reject all calls.

Who are you closest to? My mom and nathan rn.

Have you ever had a bad concert experience? no

Are you currently sad about anything? several things have recently been really saddening, but I’m ok. Ill get thru it.

Have you had any form of exercise today? Its going to be some time before I’m cleared for that. I almost faint from taking a shower and I have to be on oxygen after doing the one flight of stairs. 

Can you handle blood? doesn’t bother me at all.

Has any place hired you underage for a job? yes. I mean technically, I was legal to work in that I was 17, but the company didn’t want to hire younger than 18.

Have you ever carried a concealed weapon? not like in public, but at a house or gun range, yes.

Are you currently searching for a job? soon.

Does eating breakfast make you sick? i’m never ever ever hungry for it. I know i should, but its the worst. I don’t even like breakfast foods.

[casualmaraudering]

a little text fic, prompt provided by @starstruck4moony <3

Remus Lupin

Sunday, 10:15AM

Sirius Black: hey, a friend told me you have a dog to give away?

11:10AM

Remus Lupin: yeah! lily has mentioned she said something to a few people. i’m guessing you’re interested in taking him?

You can now message and call each other.

11:11AM

Sirius Black: YES!!! i love dogs sm

Sirius Black: what’s his name?? do you have pictures??

Sirius Black: i mean i love him already but i require pictures

Remus Lupin sent a photo.

Remus Lupin: oh i call him Archie! though he’s small enough that you can change it if you want to

Sirius Black: ARCHIE????? THATS SO CUTE HOLY FUCK

Sirius Black: im in love

marauder squad

11:13AM

pads: RED

pads: why didnt you tell me the puppy guy is hot?????

prongs: oh boy here we go again

pads: he’s so fucking gorgeous?????

pads: he has CURLS

pads: and FRECKLES!!!!

wormy: is sirius being gay again

pads: why didnt you ever mention you have a cute friend 

redhind: cause i knew you’d do this

pads: STILL

pads: im hopelessly homosexual lily he might be the love of my life 

redhind: see there’s the thing

pads: he’s straight isn’t he

redhind: i don’t know

redhind: i can try my best to find out for you

pads: i love you lily

prongs: oi

pads: you dont have any cute boy friends prongs, go away

prongs: >:(

Remus Lupin

11.20AM

Remus Lupin: so when do you wanna get him?

Sirius Black: does next week work?? im not at home til next Friday

Remus Lupin: ah yeah sure! 

Remus Lupin: holiday?

Sirius Black: wedding

Sirius Black: my uncle and his partner are getting married and i wouldn’t dare miss it

Sirius Black: and as a gay man he has a flare for blowing things out of proportion so instead of a regular wedding it’s a full week long getaway

Remus Lupin: god i wish

Remus Lupin: stuck in London studying for finals :/

Sirius Black: #cantrelate i’m an art student we don’t get those lol

Remus Lupin: rude

Sirius Black: what do you major?

Remus Lupin: English lit

Sirius Black: so you’re a nerd huh

Remus Lupin: i just like books

Sirius Black: nephew duties call, gotta go

Sirius Black: goodbye nerd boy

Remus Lupin

5:45PM

Sirius Black: how is my darling doing

Remus Lupin: he’s napping rn, we just came back from a walk

Sirius Black: that’s not what i asked

Remus Lupin: ??

Remus Lupin: oh

Sirius Black: ;)

Remus Lupin: do you always call strangers your darlings?

Sirius Black: only when they’re as gorgeous as you

Remus Lupin: now you’re just lying

Sirius Black:??? no i’m not

Sirius Black: as the homosexual of the group my opinion is the most trusted when it comes to cute boys

Sirius Black: and you my dear are cute as all fuck

Remus Lupin: that’s nice of you to say

Sirius Black: and it’s true. you’re both cute and hot and apparently smart too since eng lit, so don’t put yourself down

Sirius Black: and i mean since this is all out here already i’m not just saying it to be polite, i really am attracted to you and it’s been nice talking to you so far and i know it’s a long shot cause i don’t even know if you like guys but i wouldn’t mind getting coffee together someday if you want

Lily Evans

6:30PM

raging homosexual: FUCK

raging homosexual: LILY I FUCKED UP BAD

raging feminist: ???

raging homosexual: I ASKED THE PUPPY GUY OUT AND ITS BEEN LIKE HALF HOUR AND HE JUST LEFT ME ON READ

raging feminist: oh god sirius

raging homosexual: HES CUTE AND LIKES DOGS I PANICKED

Remus Lupin

7:50PM

Sirius Black: hey, i’m sorry about that, i didn’t mean to freak you out or anything, people do say i’m too impulsive at times haha

Sirius Black: can we please just forget that happened? i swear i won’t hit on you since it makes you uncomfortable

Sirius Black: i’ll get Archie next Friday and then you don’t have to see me again

James Potter

10:20PM

prongs: stop sulking

padfoot: i’m not sulking

prongs: i can see what you’re listening to on spotify y’know?

prongs: you’ve had ‘sad gay time’ on repeat for two hours

prongs: i know that dude is pretty or whatever but he’s not the last cute guy you’ll meet

padfoot: yeah i know

padfoot: idk it just hits me sometimes

padfoot: like it’s not even him it’s just,,,, im feeling like shit in general cause that made me think about my life

padfoot: you have lily and sometimes when i look at you i want something like that too and i’m worried i won’t ever get that

padfoot: im 19 and never even kissed anyone

prongs: and that’s normal, things take time sometimes

prongs: the right guy will come eventually, trust me

prongs: 19 is really young still, there’s literally ages for you to find the right guy for you

prongs: you’re the most amazing guy i know, you’ll find someone

padfoot: thanks james

prongs: come to my room? we can play mario kart

prongs: i have popcorn

padfoot: sure

Remus Lupin

Monday, 8.20AM

Remus Lupin: god i am so so sorry i just left like that i swear i didn’t mean to

Remus Lupin: i have this weird condition, and sometimes it acts up really unexpectedly to the point where i can’t even look at my phone cause i have such a bad migraine and i really meant to reply but it got so bad that i could barely move i am so sorry

Sirius Black: are you okay now??

Remus Lupin: yeah, it’s better

Remus Lupin: not amazing but better

Remus Lupin: that’s why i’m giving away Archie, too

Remus Lupin: an auntie gave him to me and while i’d love to have a dog, i can’t really care for one that well 

Remus Lupin: again, i’m so sorry, it was the worst timing possible

Sirius Black: it’s fine! i’m just glad you’re okay

Remus Lupin: and.. if the offer still stands, i’d really like to get coffee with you sometime

Sirius Black: really??

Remus Lupin: yeah

Remus Lupin: only for Archie’s sake, of course

Remus Lupin: he’s quite attached to me already, so i need to make sure you treat him well

Sirius Black: oh yes, absolutely

Sirius Black: you’ll have to stop by my flat, to see if it’s right for him

Remus Lupin: i hope your bed is soft enough for him, he hates sleeping alone

Sirius Black: you’ll just have to check for yourself

You changed Remus Lupin’s nickname to: cute puppy dad

Remus Lupin changed your nickname to: my puppy daddy

[theycallmegothboy]

1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!

FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:(( 1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  -spotify  2. is your room messy or clean? -it’s pretty messy i guess  3. what color are your eyes? -blue and grey

4. do you like your name? why? -yeah it’s fine 5. what is your relationship status? -single 6. describe your personality in 3 words or less -certified intrusive thot 7. what color hair do you have? -brown and rn it’s red 8. what kind of car do you drive? color? -i dont have a car 9. where do you shop? -hot topic, goodwill, target 10. how would you describe your style? -comfy emo 11. favorite social media account -of mine, probably discord or youtube 12. what size bed do you have? -twin >:(( 13. any siblings? -i have 1.5 brothers  14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? -probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit 15. favorite snapchat filter? -i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute 16. favorite makeup brand(s) -i dont wear makeup 17. how many times a week do you shower? -i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower 18. favorite tv show? -stranger things 19. shoe size?  -8 or 9 20. how tall are you? -5′6 with shoes >:(( 21. sandals or sneakers? -sneakers wtf 22. do you go to the gym? -lol no 23. describe your dream date -making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars 24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? -quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao 25. what color socks are you wearing? -not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length) 26. how many pillows do you sleep with? -just one but it sucks 27. do you have a job? what do you do? -NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS 28. how many friends do you have? -like 4 lmao 29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? -idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did 30. whats your favorite candle scent? -juniper rosewood 31. 3 favorite boy names -leo, clay, charlie 32. 3 favorite girl names -ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got 33. favorite actor? -no clue 34. favorite actress? -no clue 35. who is your celebrity crush? -not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom 36. favorite movie? -nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands 37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk 38. money or brains? -CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao   39. do you have a nickname? what is it? - a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy

40.how many times have you been to the hospital? -just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/ 41. top 10 favorite songs -please dont make me do this i dont have it in me 42. do you take any medications daily? -yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough 43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) -i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know 44. what is your biggest fear?  -it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though 45. how many kids do you want? -like 2 or 3 eventually 46. whats your go to hair style? -in my face, looking stupid 47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)  -it’s pretty small 48. who is your role model? -i dont fuckin know lmao  49. what was the last compliment you received? - “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine) 50. what was the last text you sent? -”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? -i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess 52. what is your dream car?  -i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works 53. opinion on smoking? -cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.  54. do you go to college? -no. am sophomore n highschool 55. what is your dream job?  -musician/palentologist 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?  -fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban?? 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?  -no but i take the little soaps >:)) 58. do you have freckles?  -yes 59. do you smile for pictures? -awkwardly, yes 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?  -dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit 61. have you ever peed in the woods?  -yes 62. do you still watch cartoons?  -cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow? 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? -i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care 64. Favorite dipping sauce?  -i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great 65. what do you wear to bed?  -wouldnt you like to know? ;))  66. have you ever won a spelling bee?  -NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed�� as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :(( 67. what are your hobbies? -lol what hobbies 68. can you draw?  -i am physically able to draw, but not well, no 69 (haha). do you play an instrument? -yeah i play a few 70. what was the last concert you saw?  -i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016 71. tea or coffee? -hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though) 72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? -starbucks 73. do you want to get married? -sure why not 74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? -dont have a crush 75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?  -idk maybe 76. what color looks best on you?  -i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope 77. do you miss anyone right now? -yeah  78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? -closed 79. do you believe in ghosts? -on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t. 80. what is your biggest pet peeve? -whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment  81. last person you called -my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40) 82. favorite ice cream flavor?  -chocolate is dope 83. regular oreos or golden oreos?  -regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.  84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -rainbow cause it’s prettier  85. what shirt are you wearing?  -queen shirt from hot topic 86. what is your phone background? -i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background 87. are you outgoing or shy? -really depends on who i’m around 88. do you like it when people play with your hair? -YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-) 89. do you like your neighbors? -to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang  guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell 90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? -whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy 91. have you ever been high?  -i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself 92. have you ever been drunk?  -not that i can remember, no 93. last thing you ate?  -sloppy joe from a can 94. favorite lyrics right now -”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“ 95. summer or winter?  -fall. fuck you 96. day or night?  -night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed 97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? -dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries 98. favorite month?  -i vibe with september 99. what is your zodiac sign -sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:))) 100. who was the last person you cried in front of?  -in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/

felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3

also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3

[jawnjendes]

the fog will clear up | shawn mendes

chapter 13/?, university au, shawn x goth oc

AN: sry its short and definitely a filler im sry its boring but it helps build up stuff thatll happen next ok ok im sry

*let me know if u wanna be added/removed from the taglist

masterlist | playlist

Annalise woke with a start. She was wide awake immediately. There was no room for sleepily rolling around the sheets, her eyes weren't heavy like always. She didn't know what dying and coming back to life felt like, but she was pretty sure it felt something like that. She had a weird urge to go for a jog.

Staring at the ceiling, Annalise reached towards the nightstand next to her, intending to grab her phone. Her hand touched the bottle, and she picked it up anyway, reading the prescription label.

Annalise Flores SERTRALINE 50MG TABLET Brand name: Zoloft

"You don't waste anytime, huh?" she murmured before setting it back down. Then, she grabbed her phone and checked the time.

8:47am. A new fucking record. Annalise rolled out of bed, unable to stay still.

In the 2 hours she had to kill before work, she tidied up the dorm, ate a decent breakfast, took a shower, and got started on the course work she had to make up. The energy levels were through the roof, she had never been so on edge and productive at the same time. Why wasn't she put on sertraline sooner? Sure, she felt hyperaware and borderline anxious, but that was apart of the process of getting on a new antidepressant. She was getting things done this way. Sure, she jumped when the lock on the door jiggled, but she was up and running anyway!

If she wasn't, she wouldn't have seen Stella entering the dorm. She was surprised to see Annalise on the couch, looking like a deer in headlights.

"Oh… I thought you were asleep. I'll, uh, I'll come back."

"No, wait!" Annalise sounded a little too frantic, but it did stop Stella from leaving. "Uh, come sit down! Please!"

Stella narrowed her eyes slightly as she went to the couch. At least she was willing to listen.

"I, uh, I'm sorry," Annalise began, rubbing the back of her neck. "I'm sorry for what I said. A stupid guy isn't the only good in my life. I have you. You matter to me, and I'm sorry for making you feel like you don't." She really couldn't stop herself from rambling. "I miss you. I miss seeing you here between classes, and I miss your optimism because a bitch could use some of that. And, and I'm sorry for the negativity I've brought in here. I'm working on it now, I swear. Just… come back. Come home… because bro, you're my wife, dude."

It could have been funny, but there was nothing funny about the way she said it. Her eyes were wide and pleading, and she was rubbing her hands together. Stella merely blinked her hazel eyes, nearly overwhelmed by that string of words.

"Look at you, expressing your emotions," she said after a while. "I can see why you hold it back."

Annalise nodded rapidly. "It's my first day on a new medication. Got me all sorts of hyped up, but I'll mellow out in a couple of weeks. And I'm taking therapy seriously again!"

Stella was surprised. "Oh, I see. Well… I've missed you too. Bro…"

"Bro?"

"I'll come home too. Camila's bed is too small for the two of us."

"Bro…"

"I know. I have to update you on all that."

"Br-"

"Okay!" Stella broke out a smile and stood up. "Dame un abrazo, puta."

That was much easier than Annalise had anticipated. She stood up and hugged her best friend, relieved. Stella wasn't one to hold a grudge, nor was she as stubborn as her roommate. It was another person to cross off the list.

~

Shawn had social media mainly to get his music out there. Yes, he interacted with his friends on Snapchat, and some fans on Twitter. Most of the time, Shawn just tweeted when he had new music coming out. He didn't check any of his social media very often, not even to stalk Ann's accounts because she was rarely on her's. He didn't even have his notifications on, purely to keep himself from the possibility of getting too attached to the opinions of random strangers online.

That was why he woke up that morning to a number of texts from Camila.

"SHAAWWNWNN"

"SHAWN IM LKTERSLLY BALD RN"

"CHEKC UR TWITTER RIGHT NOW!!!!!!"

"YOIR FOLLOWERS!!! AAHSKSKSK"

"SKSKSK SHAWNMM IM SCRAMING"

So to Twitter he went. Shawn rubbed sleep out of his eye as he went to his profile. He had around 10k to begin with, that he built up on his own over the last couple of years. He nearly dropped his phone on his face as he read the new number.

50.2k

"What… the fuck?" he breathed out as he sat up in his bed. He scrolled through the list, making sure this wasn't a series of spam bots.

His mentions were just as wild, and it explained the sudden blow up.

@hollaestor: @shawnmendes hiii bella told me to follow you

@samxriv: @shawnmendes i am free to hang out on tuesday to hang out when i am free

@gisellenjh: @shawnmendes bella sent me here and im glad she did! loving your music!

And there were plenty more like that. There were so many tweets, Shawn couldn't even get through all of them. It was making his head spin. There was only one Bella he knew about too… He just couldn't spell her last name. Thankfully, her handle was just @bellasanti, and it was the first one to pop up when he typed it in the search bar.

Right under Bella Santiago's name and the blue checkmark were the two little words: Follows you. Shawn refreshed the page ten times before it sank in. This YouTuber, who has over 2 million followers, somehow found Shawn's music… and she liked it. She liked it enough to tweet about it… 3 days ago.

@bellasanti: underrated spotify artists: @shawnmendes. give him a listen. send him some love. truly talented guy💖

Shawn had only overheard Bella's videos when Ann was watching them in the other room. He never really watched any of her content. But he wanted to pass out at the fact that she took the time to listen to his music and tweet about him. He wanted to jump on the bed. He wanted to call-

He texted Camila back. "Wtf why did no one tell me sooner?? This is so crazy!!!!!"

"We thought you knew and you were keeping it from us!! LMAO congrats rockstar!"

He couldn't believe it. His follower count was rising. He was getting emails from Spotify saying his songs were being added to many different playlists.

@shawnmendes: @bellasanti wow thank you so much! Love you bella❤

He deleted the last bit before tweeting it. Holy shit. Shawn lied back down on the mattress, completely breathless.

How does someone like Bella Santiago find Shawn out in cyberspace? What Spotify rabbit hole did she go down that led her to him? How many of his songs did she listen to? How many songs did she save to her library? How many of those playlist emails were from her? Shawn had so many questions.

~

There were two things Annalise noticed when she was out on the courtyard after Biology. The first thing was a table on the side of the walkway, with a handmade banner hanging off the front. It read in big letters: Shawn Mendes: Live at The Cameron House. Brian, Alessia. and Camila were all sat on the same side at this table, talking to a student who was interested in the little display.

"The lounge called back," Annalise muttered to herself.

The other thing Annalise noticed was Patrick sitting under a tree nearby, reading a book. She went to him first.

The last time she had spoken to Patrick was when they cut up flowers together. He was never one to explicitly state when something has upset him, and he has seen Annalise in a depressive episode before. Annalise knew him well. Patrick kept his distance because he didn't like the negativity around her, and he couldn't afford any more of it himself.

"Hey," she greeted.

His blue eyes tore away from his book to meet her gaze. "'Sup?"

"Trying to be less fucked in the head," she told him.

Patrick nodded in approval. "Cool."

That was all that was needed for the two of them. Content, Annalise turned and went for the table. A small line had formed when she wasn't looking, so she waited behind the last person. However, with three people running the thing, Annalise got to the front fairly quick.

"Oh, she actually showed up," Brian chimed, amused.

"Meaning?" Annalise asked.

"Thought you were too pissed at Shawn to care about his show, that's all."

She swallowed the pit of annoyance, discovering that even more people knew about that. Brian is his friend, though, of course he'd know.

"Selling tickets or something?" Annalise turned her attention to the two girls.

"Yeah! Ten dollars a piece!" Alessia explained.

"Cool, I'll take one."

Just as she opened the flap on her book bag, Camila spoke up.

"Wait. I'm pretty sure Shawn said he wanted to buy you your ticket himself."

Annalise rolled her eyes. "Well, he's not here and I can do things for myself." She pulled out her wallet and paid her own goddamn ticket.

Camila breathed out a laugh. "Are you ever gonna let him do anything nice for you?"

None of your fucking business.

A new thought occurred to Annalise. "Why are tickets being sold for this show? Aren't his gigs usually free?"

"There's more production going into this one," Brian told her. "The lounge gave him the option to make it a ticketed event, and we need to make back what we already put into it. So now, it won't be a performance, it'll be Shawn's performance."

Shawn already knew how to make an audience his bitch, but…

"Alright then." Annalise shrugged and then accepted her ticket and receipt from Alessia.

The ticket alone was already quite extravagant. There were little red roses designed around the edges. This boy really loved his fucking flowers.

"I'm guessing rose petals will fall from the ceiling or something?" she guessed with a chuckle.

"I was given strict orders to not spoil anything," Brian told her, folding his arms.

The two had a mini staredown until Annalise shrugged again. "Whatever."

Then, Camila piped up again, suddenly excited. "Ooh, Ann did you hear? Bella Santiago followed Shawn on Twitter!"

"She what?" Annalise stupidly replied.

Camila practically squealed. "She gave him a shoutout too! He's blowing up on Spotify! Isn't that awesome?"

Annalise wanted to say something, but her brain wasn't quite caught up yet. So she just walked away.

The other three students watched her leave. Needless to say, they were confused.

"Is she ever gonna be happy for him?" Alessia wondered.

"I think she was excited?" Camila said tilting her head.

"I can't believe Shawn is going through all this trouble for that," Brian said with a scoff.

"I can still hear you!" Annalise called over her shoulder as she kept walking.

All three of them went red in the face, embarrassed. Brian would have made a comment about her being a vampire with supersonic hearing, but he didn't want to be called out again.

_______

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[james-madison]

lmao ok as you wish anon 1. Did you wake up cranky?
 answered this one lmao,, no 

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? 
uhhh, sure? lmao
 
3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
 Boys have always been more reasonable to talk to for me. girls argue too much 
 
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? 
If they’re hot... 
5. Can you commit to one person?
 answered this one as weLL

 6. How do you look right now? 
Ugly bitch but at the same time kinda hot idk honestly 
 
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? 
green shorts and a rainbow striped shirt 
 
8. How often do you listen to music?
 every second of the day man 
 
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? 
honestly both???? i live in sweden where it’s usually cold so both jeans and sweats are very convenient except during the majority of the year 
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?


Yes ofc it will


11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
 a strange mixure of both, i’m human 
hah ha ha a kneeslappperrrrrr 
12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? 
I would become depressed honestly 
 
13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
 i’m good at suffering in silence 
 
14. Can you drive a stick shift? 
almost, gonna start taking classes for my drivers license when i return home to sweden
 
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
 It wouldn’t be pleasant at least. but i’d rather not want to know what the bad stuff is just to block it out 

 16. Are you going out of town soon? 
I dunno 

 17. When was the last time you cried?
 Yesterday 

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? 
ohh boy, yes 

 19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
 Hazel or brown for sure 

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow? 
wake up at around 9:30 

 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
 Honestly nothing??? I had a great day today!

 22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? 
I have 

 23. Are you nice to everyone?
 I try to be.. ??? lmao

 isn’t that common sense to be nice to everyone?? 24. What are you sitting on right now?
 my bed, more like laying down 

 25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
 I would never cheat... no... not my thing 

 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? 
y e s 

 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
 My best friend 

 28. Do you get a lot of colds? 
Nope not anymore.. I’m barely sick at all which is very good! 

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? 
PROBABLY LMAO 

 30. Does anyone hate you? 
I don’t know.. i hope not?

 31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? 
YES 

 32. Do you like watching scary movies?
 yeeees
 33. Are you a jealous person? 
kind of???
 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
 2009, lmao we getting very personal here anon 
 35. Did you have a dream last night? 
I probably did but i can’t remember it 
 36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
 ye s 
 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
I DONT KNOW AND THATS A SCARY THOUGHT ANON AAHHHHH
 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? 
I DONT KNOW ;_;
 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? 
I... don’t know.. 
 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
 yesss <333333 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? Nope 42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Nope, im in a totally different place rn even lmao 43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? we would just be vibing, watching movies, having some fun (cursed) times 44. What’s the best part about school? art class/history class. 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? i do... im a ugly mf fyi 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? Never did that cause cheating bad 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? yes 48. Were you single over the last summer? yes 49. What are you supposed to be doing right now? probably sleeping idk 50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? 😳😳😳😳😳 gaei

[normal-thoughts-official]

Ok so I know some people in the fandom don't like talking about Magnus' past lovers because anyone that isn't Alec everyone just turns their heads but ok listen. Your last response about Magnus and queer history my head immediately went to Freddie Mercury and oh please I would like a little more insight on how they met and their relationship. The only thing we knew was that Magnus would go to his concerts and even drag his friends along. What I would give to learn more about them.

FUCK MY LIFE anon listen idk if you fully know what you're getting yourself into by asking me this because i am literally OBSESSED with Magnus' relationship with Queen and Freddie like im literally VIBRATING rn i was answering the questions in order but i just HAD to answer this one immediately because !!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck i love magnus' relationship with Freddie Mercury and Queen so much you dont understand, i have already made some posts and i still plan on making a playlist of Queen Songs That Remind Me Of Magnus but anyway hell yeah let's DO this

okay so first im gonna talk a little bit about how i view their relationship. now, they probably weren't in a very serious relationship, since theres this whole Magnus Locked His Heart Ever Since Camille thing, but Magnus and Freddie have SO much in common i cant really think this was just a fling, either. so here's what i think: magnus and freddie were good friends who sometimes hooked up and that definitely had chemistry to have something special, but it never happened because Magnus never fully allowed himself to give in to it and neither did Freddie - im assuming their relationship was in the 70s, since in the 80s Freddie met his husband, Jim Hutton, and at that time Freddie also had a hard time trusting and loving. also, Magnus was already in New York, so it couldn't have been too serious. but Magnus would go around to watch their concerts and every time he would find Freddie somehow (it wasnt that hard, really, you just had to go to the local queer scene) and they would sometimes hook up, sometimes just talk and enjoy each other's company, sometimes both. that's what i think it's most likely.

but the absolutely OFF THE CHARTS amount of vibing they must have done. i dont think you fully understand - unless you're a queenie trash bitch such as me - just how similar magnus and freddie are. here's a short, comprehensive list of Freddie Mercury Traits:

Freddie was seen and stereotyped as an overly sexual, lothario, diva and inconsequential kind of guy, and to some extent he put on this facade, but in reality he was extremely closed off and insecure and loving, and this was mostly a persona he put on to protect himself

Despite that whole persona, Freddie was an extremely compassionate guy who did everything he could to help others, particularly other queer people. His personal assistant, his chef, his chaffeur, all were other queer guys (sometimes his exes even) that had nowhere else to go and were in need of a job, and Freddie was just like "oh, would you look at that, you're hired now. I'm gonna pay you, hm, 3 million" it was so. When Jim lost his job Freddie hired him as a gardener. They literally met because they were talking in a club and Freddie was all like "lets all go to my house" and brought in a bunch of strangers to his home. That's the kind of guy he was. His house was always open as well

Freddie was loyal to a fault and a little bit too trusting, and was stabbed in the back a few times. The most well-known one is P*ul, who outed him against his will despite them having years of friendship, a blow that Freddie never fully recovered from, but there were others. Despite being a shy guy and reluctant to open up, he actually wore his heart on his sleeve and this sometimes ended up hurting him, a lot

Freddie felt absolutely lonely and like he was unworthy of being loved. This is not a secret, its a common theme in a lot of his songs, the most prominent of them being somebody to love. He wanted to be loved and taken care of but at the same time wouldnt allow himself

He was also very insecure. Jim says in his book that Freddie would frequently ask him, out of the blue, if he loved him, despite the fact that they were, you know, married (not in the paper, of course, but Jim bought him wedding rings and Freddie called him his husband, so i consider them married)

He was constantly scared of being an inconvenience. When he found out he had AIDS, his first instinct was to tell Jim that if jim wanted to leave him he would understand. Jim, of course, said that was bullshit and he wouldnt leave Freddie because of that

He was a perfectionist and always wanted to do his absolute best, nothing less. He was also a creative genius as we all know

He loved cats and would bring random cats into his home constantly

He loved fashion and pretty things

He was a queer, gnc man of color

He had a pretty protective side to him; queen's bassist, John Deacon, was extremely shy and said that Freddie pretty much shielded him from the press attention, and also helped him polish his song writing skills and always wanted him to do his best. After Freddie died, John quit the showbusiness.

I mean, remind you of someone? Holy fucking shit, i nearly lost my goddamn mind when they mentioned that he hooked up with Freddie, because they're so similar in their issues and insecurities and interests it's almost meta. I don't know if that was on purpose or not, but i thank the sh writers every day for that line tbh honestly i am so blessed

Unfortunately i think they might kind of be too similar - you get two very insecure, afraid to be hurt people who kind of have a persona together and it's kind of hard to have them have a meaningful relationship. But where Freddie was shy, Magnus was extroverted and easygoing, and there were always parties (something the both of them loved) and they had enough common interests to bond over. Also, they both couldnt help but wear their heart on their sleeves, even when they tried not to. And i mean, i am 100% sure that Magnus absolutely loved Queen, because 1- who doesnt? 2- the songs are so intense and heartfelt and beautiful and theatrical and that's right on magnus' alley; 3- the lyrics just speak to him, because there Freddie was, writing about wanting to be loved and fearing to open himself up, and there was also Brian writing all these songs about seeing your loved ones die, and Roger was a domestic abuse victim - there was just so much for him to relate too. So i can definitely see Freddie and Magnus staying up awake late at night, looking at the window and talking about themselves, their fears, the personas they have created and how hard it is to break out of them, when they were alone in a hotel room and everyone else who was at the party was gone. Just the two of them, having heart-to-hearts, then sleeping, but the next day the magic was gone and they were both back to guarding themselves - also, Magnus was avoiding getting involved with mundane men, if you go by my headcanon. so there was just too much holding them back

but it was still an important relationship that helped the both of them learn more about themselves and get a little more used to opening up and allowing themselves to talk about themselves. they didnt really break up as much as drift apart - Freddie had the band and Magnus was high warlock of Brooklyn and the political tensions in the downworlder community were high. But they both got their happy endings after all - Freddie met Jim and they were together until the end of his life, and Magnus met Alec, who will be with him for the rest of eternity too because i said so :) so its all good, in the end, and Freddie will always have a special place in magnus' heart, as both an amazing human being that he was honoured to meet and someone who was really, really important to magnus and that helped him become who he is today and be a little happier and more comfortable with himself

he still loves queen and listens to them constantly. sometimes its bittersweet to think about him, but most times its just good to hear these songs that mean so much to him and think of how far theyve both gone

[shakingsphere]

um i need a distraction so heres a question thing that yall are supposed to send to me but i just answered all of them if ur interested

Alisons: Sexuality?

straight i think

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/her cis

Amaryllis: Birthday?

january 30th!

Anemone: Favorite flower?

idk what they’re called but these vine type flowers on the side of my porch!

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

atla

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

depends on the context, definitely nothing where they could take advantage of me

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

i hate quotes i can never remember any lmao

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

.... diet coke

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

no

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

maybe? he didnt love me back

Baneberries: Favorite song?

vienna by billy joel

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

my parents are nice and supportive but overbearing and judgmental. my dad has a tendency to talk when its not his place and my mom is very jewish. my sister doesnt like me very much and is kind of rude. one of my brothers is really nice and the other is awful

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

I dont

Begonia: Favorite color?

green

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

red panda

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

a cat

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

an animator 

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

i love kids theyre so cute

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

heights bc theyre scary, and unachieving because i dont want to waste my life

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i used to play with ants a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

like if i was conscious it was my last day? i dont even know

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

single :/

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

central asia and iran

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

when im with my friends and we’re just hanging out

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

no ma’am i am a child of god

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

my ear lobes and i want to get my doubles done

California Poppy: Height?  

5′3. it be like that

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

yes!!!!!!!!!!!! omg

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

a college sweatshirt and pj pants with penguins on them

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

when i was little....

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

my friend hannah

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

i haven’t...

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

um lobster?

Columbine: Are you tired?

yeah lol

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

college and moving out of state!!

Coneflower: Dream job?

something where i can use my degree lmao

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

i think im an introvert but i also might just have anxiety

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

maybe?

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i would take a bullet for most of my loved ones

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

yes. a tie-dyed teddy bear named tie-dye. he is my husband.

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

aquarius

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

nothing that people who arent me should remember, but i think our experiences shape us so

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

im not dead idk

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?  

um id probably be upset i care about my parents approval way to much

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

my friend hannah again lol

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

public speaking!!

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

math

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

um i met my future roommate, i lost a bit of weight, and i got some cute shorts

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

stressful! 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

no

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

join my college’s honors program and study in russia

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

im not doing this one too tired

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed? 

xanax 

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

i try to tell ppl they are important to me

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

im funny i think

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

i wake up at 9:30 its 70 degrees Fahrenheit and i get lunch with some friends and then we hang out for the day

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  

im so bad about this all i do is watch youtube and study, but i love to draw and im going to start reading more

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?  

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

pretty sure its french for clear or bright (depending on the context). my mom just liked it

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

im from a suburb of kck. its a nice and safe place to grow up but i wouldnt choose to live here

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

nice, but its in the basement so the view is really bad i hate that

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

no nope no

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she is very smart and hardworking but very judgmental and a bit inconsiderate. she loves me very much tho

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

he is short and angry. he tends to interrupt me a lot. he is supportive of everything i do. he is stingy about money tho

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my mother’s mom died before i was born, and my i was never close with her father. he died when i was 8. my other grandma has bad dementia and isn’t sure who i am anymore. shes presbyterian but she would send my sister and i dreidels and such for hanukkah. im told i look a lot like her. my grandfather has been very grumpy for as long as ive known him.   

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

my 13th. i had an anxiety attack and had to go home early.

Peony: What was your first job?

i was a hostess at a seafood restaurant.

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

i give myself time to process it and then just move forward i guess

Pink: Where is home?

where your sense of belonging is ig idk

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?

i would have made better grades and quit band in middle school haha 

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i want to be happy with 2 kids and a husband and live below my means but still be comfortable 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

nihil was a philosopher. 

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

fuck idk my dog

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

background noise when your sitting outside

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?

for everything to work out!!!  

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

very very hard

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

the internet

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

8 hours but i overslept

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

i have to

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

i dont have a job rn and thats bad

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

my jeans from uo

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

cool librarian or 90s mom

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

160,000 dollars :)

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

the cost of college!!!!

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

oof like 2. i read Dune, and Slaughterhouse Five

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

college! finishing up my first semester

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

yeah :( 

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

ive been late to ap french almost every day this semester #c’estlavie

[hypereactive]

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? my best friend

2. Are you outgoing or shy? shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? my best friend

4. Are you easy to get along with? depends. i try to be, but im also REALLY picky/have strong opinions on a lot of stuff, and im autistic..

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? yeah

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? a caring one, who listens before judging

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? yeah

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? my best friend

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? sometimes

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? probably my best friend

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “o”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? uhm. I like A LOT of songs.

billie ellish- bury a friend and you should see me in a crown

rag’n’bone man - human

rebel - black pearl (hes a pirate)

Aladdin soundtrack - Prince Ali and one jump ahead

arctic monkeys - Do I wanna know?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? rarely

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yea

15. What good thing happened this summer? new job, in my field of study

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yepp

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? probs at least simple life

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? only if I run into him getting coffee (he works there)

19. Do you like bubble baths? if im in the mood

20. Do you like your neighbors? one i do, one i absolutely dont, the rest i dont interact w

21. What are you bad habits? im REALLY picky, and can come off as ungrateful (if u can’t do it right id rather u just not do it. apparently its more common to think at least you got something/they tried.)

22. Where would you like to travel? Anywhere w the right people. Nowhere without.

23. Do you have trust issues? kinda. More like I understand people wont understand me or meet my needs adequately.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? morning coffee

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? my chin/teeth

26. What do you do when you wake up? if I have ResponsibilitesTM i get up and get coffee and leave the house in less than 20 min, otherwise i lay in bed on tumblr until i have to get up due to responsibilities or hunger.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? im good w where its at tbh

28. Who are you most comfortable around? my best friend

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? yeah. 

30. Do you ever want to get married? yeah

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? lol yesss

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? none?

33. Spell your name with your chin. bdfuds

34. Do you play sports? What sports? not really. i like frisbee and longboarding if those count.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? no. I cant keep secrets.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? i usu dont. ill just go on my phone/leave/etc

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? my best friend. 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? hot topic

40. What do you want to do after high school? lol im not in high school

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? depends on what they did and why, and if they want to grow as a person/make it right

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? im tired/overwhelmed/content/bored

43. Do you smile at strangers? if i lock eyes with them and they smiled, i might smile back, but im pretty good at Not Looking At People

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? ocean

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? ResponsibilitiesTM

46. What are you paranoid about? having a heart attack and no one being around to help me/not noticing until its too late

47. Have you ever been high? yea

48. Have you ever been drunk? yea

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? no

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black

51. Ever wished you were someone else? no, but i have wished my parents were

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my chin probs. idk i like myself

53. Favourite makeup brand? i dont wear makeup

54. Favourite store? this is a duplicate question.

55. Favourite blog? uhm.

56. Favourite colour? black/grey/light pink/raspberry/celery green

57. Favourite food? cheese, cheddar brats, spinach, chocolate chip cookies, milkshakes

58. Last thing you ate? rice w beef, spinach, egg and soy sauce

59. First thing you ate this morning? coffee and nutella

60. Ever won a competition? For what? I think so but i cant remember. Oh i think I won an anti-bullying poster competition once.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? lol nopee

62. Been arrested? For what? no

63. Ever been in love? few times now

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? uh. no. cuz i didnt even like the dude.

65. Are you hungry right now? no

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i only have one real friend so I feel like thats unfair

67. Facebook or Twitter? tumblr.

68. Twitter or Tumblr? still tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? lol no

70. Names of your bestfriends? no, bc hed not appreciate it

71. Craving something? What? not rn

72. What colour are your towels? grey or floral w pinks and blacks and oranges

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yes, usu. 2

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? total? uh. 8?

75. Favourite animal? birbs prob.

76. What colour is your underwear? why?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate, unless its ice cream. then vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? berry (any) or cheesecake (also any)

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? grey

80. What colour pants? a darker grey

81. Favourite tv show? uh. i like sherlock.

82. Favourite movie? deadpool probs. or pirates of the Caribbean. or Aladdin. or detective pikachu.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? never seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? never seen either

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? n/a

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? uhm. I cant remember. Probs the black and white one w the scar, or the starfish, or the sea gull

87. First person you talked to today? my sister

88. Last person you talked to today? my best friend

89. Name a person you hate? my past roommate

90. Name a person you love? my best friend

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? my past roommate and most recent ex

92. In a fight with someone? currently? no? ever? yes.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? 5

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 6

95. Last movie you watched? i dont know

96. Favourite actress? i dunno

97. Favourite actor? i dunno

98. Do you tan a lot? no

99. Have any pets? no

100. How are you feeling? i dont know

101. Do you type fast? yeah

102. Do you regret anything from your past? yeah, but not overly

103. Can you spell well? i think so 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? no

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? i dont think so, but i want to (w the right people)

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? yeah, oops

107. Have you ever been on a horse? yep

108. What should you be doing? cleaning my house

109. Is something irritating you right now? no

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yea

111. Do you have trust issues? yea

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? my best friend

113. What was your childhood nickname? B. as in, just the letter

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yea

115. Do you play the Wii? no

116. Are you listening to music right now? yea

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? not usually

118. Do you like Chinese food? i think so

119. Favourite book? uhm. sherlock (the whole series). the uglies series (scott westerfield). the secret garden. Fahrenheit 451. 1984. 

120. Are you afraid of the dark? no, but sometimes im afraid theres something in it

121. Are you mean? no

122. Is cheating ever okay? no

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? if i want to

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no

125. Do you believe in true love? im not sure i know what this means

126. Are you currently bored? no

127. What makes you happy? i dont know

128. Would you change your name? no

129. What your zodiac sign? gemini

130. Do you like subway? i cant eat there

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? lol weve been dating for a while now

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my best friend

133. Favourite lyrics right now? uh. I dont know.

134. Can you count to one million? that would take a month, so no.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? i dont know. probably that i couldnt go to work bc i was “throwing up from a migraine” when i hadnt thrown up (yet).

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? it varies

137. How tall are you? i think im like. 5′8″?

138. Curly or Straight hair? curly. but not consistent

139. Brunette or Blonde? i am a brunette

140. Summer or Winter? winter. i can always wear more clothes

141. Night or Day? night. its quiet and calm

142. Favourite month? august and october

143. Are you a vegetarian? no

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? yes.

145. Tea or Coffee? yes. depends on time of day/year/mood/etc

146. Was today a good day? i dont know

147. Mars or Snickers? mars

148. What’s your favourite quote? “if you cant explain it simply, you dont understand it well enough” -einstien is one of them. but there are more

149. Do you believe in ghosts? i dont know

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “aunt lillian’s footsteps became more distant, became whispers, were gone.”

@ramblebrambleamble i got bored and answered all of them

[ellisstark]

Devil Twins

note: this is a long one shot. it was originally going to be an actual story but i decided not to do that, so now it’s a long one shot. I also want to give credit to @asteriakace on wattpad for creating this amazing spacer (above). please go check out her stuff on there she is an amazing writer and if you are a writer and are looking for book covers or spacers hit her up cause she’s AMAZING.

reader x han

reader x jeongin (twins)

word count: 1787

summary: You and your twin brother, Jeongin have always been close, that is until you fall for one of his band mates, Hyungjin. Jeongin later tells Hyungjin, and you find yourself being rejected by the one guy you never thought would reject you, but lucky for you, an unexpected person walks into your life to pull you back into reality.

gif creds: @realstraykids

“Y/n!!” your younger brother yelled as he ran up the stairs to your room.

“We’re going to be late, hurry up!”

“okay okay i’m up” you said as he turned on his heel running back through your bedroom door. you hopped out of bed and headed to your closet. Today’s going to be a grunge kinda day, so you throw on a pair of black skinny jeans, a white long sleeve shirt with your favorite oversized t-shirt over it. you brushed your hair, put on your make up and ran out the door grabbing breakfast on your way out. 

“ you ready for your math test today?” you said to jeongin

“yeah i stayed up ‘til 3 this morning studying. I swear my teacher can’t teach for shit” he replied.

“i see, well i’m sure you will do great! also there is a new band playing tonight in someone’s garage and i kinda want to go check it out, wanna come with?”

“ uhhhh i can’t i have... um... history to do. we have a big project due next week and i haven’t started yet, sorry y/n you go ahead though” he said with a shaky hestitant voice.

“ okay well i’ll tell you all about it when i get home” you said as you pulled into your schools parking lot.

“ have a good day okay? don’t stress you’re going to do great!” you said as you have your brother a hug.

“thanks y/n” he said and ran off through the doors and disappeared from your view.

you got out of the car grabbed your backpack and strolled up to the school when all of a sudden you collided with something. “Y/N!! why didn’t you text me???” screamed your best friend.

“i’m sorry astrid. i was busy all weekend. by the way wanna come with me to a garage concert tonight? i heard a new boy band would be playing and i wanted to check it out.”

“ omg hell yeah i would!”

“sweet, i’ll meet you after school by the car”

you waved goodbye to your friend and walked into your first class of the day, english.

the day went by really slow, but you made it through and before you knew it you were waiting by your car for your friend.

“y/n!! i’m sorry my math teacher held me back to talk about our last test, but we good now so let’s go!!”

you nodded and walked to the drivers side sliding into the seat and sped away.

when you arrived it looked like the band had already started playing, but there weren’t a ton of people there yet so you and your friend were able to get good spots.

when you first walked into the garage you couldn’t really see the faces of the members, but when you got closer you realized one of the vocalists was your brother.

“jeongin???” you said nearly screaming.

you and your brother made direct eye contact. his eyes widened when he saw you but continued to perform as if you weren’t there.

when they were finished, jeongin immediately ran up to you and started apologizing for lying to you, but you were too shocked to even care.

“oh by the way, y/n this is my friend hyunjin, he’s one of our dancers. i thought maybe since you were getting into dancing he could give you some tips about it.”

you looked up and saw the most attractive person you had ever saw right in front of your face.

“hi i’m hyunjin. let me know when you want to practice together.” he said holding out his hand

“ uh... i’m y/n” you said grabbing his hand 

“haha nice to meet you y/n” and before you knew it he was gone. 

“y/n? earth to y/n” said your brother waving a hand in front of your face.

“huh what??”

“ you zoned out”

“oh sorry. i’m just so surprised i never thought you of all people would be in a band.” you said turning to face your brother. there were times in your life where you never understood what your brother was thinking, but this time you wouldn’t question it because you realized while you were watching him perform, he was genuinely happy and you didn’t want that to be ruined.

“i’m so proud of you innie!” you said hugging your brother from behind catching him off guard. you could feel him tense up, but he soon relaxed and laid his hands on yours.

“Thanks, y/n that means the world to me” he said as he walked away to go talk to his band mates.

it has now been three days since you saw your brother perform, and the one thing you can’t get out of your head is hyunjin. You decide to shoot him a text asking if he wanted to practice after school, he replied within seconds confirming the time and the place. your heart jumped a little when he replied, you think you are slowly falling for Hwang Hyunjin. 

“you are what??” your brother yelled later that night when you got home from practice. you were on the phone with your best friend spilling the tea about Hyunjin just as your brother was walking by. he overheard and burst into your room. 

“please tell me you didn’t just say what i thought you said?”

“astrid i gotta go. innie it’s not what you think. i know we only met last week but he and i have gotten closer through dance and i think i like him. like a lot.”

“you can’t like hyunjin. he’s my best friend and i know for a fact he doesn’t like you beacuse he has a girlfriend” jeongin replied furiously

“I dont believe you innie. if that was true im positive hyunjin would have told me already.”

“fine if you don’t believe me ask him yourslef.” he said in a very irritated tone and stormed out of your room

“fine, i will” you said. you picked up your phone and texted Hyunjin.

y/n: what are you doing rn

Hyunjin: nothing why?

y/n: meet me at the studio in 10

and with that you ran our of your room, down the stairs and out the door before your parents could say anything to stop you. driving to the studio was nerve racking. your heart rate continued to increase as the minutes went by with thoughts and feelings rushing through your head. when you arrived at the studio you saw hyunjins car already parked in it’s normal spot, so you parked next to it and walked inside.

when you saw hyunjin sitting in the studio your whole body started to shake.

hyunjin saw you and turned his body to face you looking you up and down

“y/n... what’s wrong” he asked concerned due to the fact that your whole body was shaking rapidly

“i... uh... i like you hyunjin” your voice shaky and your palms filled with sweat 

“oh y/n. I have a girlfriend, im sorry i didn’t mean for this to happen i thought this was strictly professional as we are dancers. im sorry again. also, will you lock the door on your way out? thanks” and with that hwang hyunjin walked right past you before you could say anything and was out the door in a matter of seconds. 

what...

your mind was racing. innie was right. as you started to try and process what just happened you could feel your eyes start to fill up with tears. you knew you couldn’t drive home, so you decided to just stay at the studio until you felt like you could face your brother.

who knows how long you were there, seconds, minutes, hours, but you knew you still weren’t ready to go home. you had many unread messages from your parents and 2 unread messages from jeongin probably just saying ‘respond to mom and dad’ or ‘i told you so, so come home you’re worrying mom and dad’. you threw your phone away from you and fell back onto the hard wood floor, slowly letting your eyes close, not knowing when you would get up, but in that moment nothing mattered to you besides escaping into a deep sleep.

“hey. hello? are you alright?” 

you woke to someone poking your arm. you looked up and saw a boy around your age looking down at you. you couldn’t look away, it’s like his eyes were pulling you in.

“what’s your name?”

“y/n. where am i?”

“you’re at the dance studio, what happened? are you alright? your eyes are all red and your face is swollen”

“oh yeah im okay i just--” 

before you could finish your sentence your memory started to return and you remembered what had just happened a few hours ago. you started to feel the tears swell up again, and before you could do anything they started to fall down your face one by one.

“oh my. uh y/n are you alright?”

“no”

after you said that one word you felt the warmth of this strangers arms around you. you felt protected and safe inside his arms, slowly leaning into it. you felt bad for getting his shirt all wet, but you knew this wouldn’t stop anytime soon.

after about 10 minutes of sitting with this mystery man, the tears slowly started to stop.

“y/n did you drive here?” he asked

you nodded your head in response 

“let me take you home, okay”

“okay” you said quietly giving him the keys to your car. 

he stood up and held out a hand for you and helped you up to your feet. he walked with you to your car hand in hand. once you got to the car he opened the passenger side for you and motioned you to slide into the car. you did just that and buckled your seatbelt. he soon joined you as he slid into the drivers seat.

“oh by the way, my name is Han Jisung, but you can just call me Han cause i have a feeling you and i will be seeing each other more often”  

when you got through the front door of your house and walked into your room closing the door behind you, you slid down it and clenched your first around your shirt. something didn’t feel right, but it wasn’t a bad feeling. after your encounter with Han, something inside you changed.

your heart leapt for the first time

and in that moment 

you knew Han was going to be with you forever

as it occurred to you 

that in your moment of heart break

you found your true soulmate

author note: thank you for reading this awful story. this is my first story on tumblr, but i hope you enjoyed it. My masterlist will soon be posted with more short stories for each member of stray kids along with some other stories for other bands.

[bergaruh]

Tagged by @wheezboys​ thank u so much??!!?

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last:

1. Drink - coffee 

2. Phone call - mac or my grandmother i dont know which 

3. Text message - my friend jesse!

4. Song you listened to - should have known better, sufjan stevens

5. Time you cried - i crushed my finger under the cream machine at work today and tears rose to my eyes unbidden 

Ever:

6. Dated someone twice? - ive never dated :(

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - ive kissed two people and hated both of them in the end 

8. Been cheated on - not technically 

9. Lost someone special - we all have at some point i think

10. Been depressed - i mean.....yeah

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - i will never throw up. i won't let myself im not even kidding

Fave colours:

12. red

13. purple

14. olive green

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - no the last friend i made was tessa and that was over a year ago now!!!

16. Fallen out of love - platonically, yeah

17. Laughed until you cried - yeah there was this one post and i fukcnig died last night ask me for it im dying to laugh again jhfklghfdljkghd

18. Found out someone was talking about you - yesterday! 

19. Met someone who changed you - yeah, not great

20. Found out who your friends are - i dont have irl friends anymore so i guess thats a yes?

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list - no i blocked ****** and j*sse doesn't have social media

General:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl - all but two that i met on tungle

23. Do you have any pets -technically no but my parents have a gorgeous boy named stinky (ask for pics and ye shall receive) 

24. Do you want to change your name - Most Desperately 

25. What did you do for your last birthday - i was at my friend jess’ and her mother found out ive never gotten a birthday cake and made me a cinnamon roll with a candle and i almost cried

26. What time did you wake up today - 06:15

27. What were you doing at midnight last night - trying to sleep

28. What is something you can’t wait for - friday i get trained for my executive position at my school!

30. What are you listening to right now - eugene, sufjan stevens (BEST SUFJAN SONG) 

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom - yeah!! we wrote music together! i wanted to uhhhhhhhhhhhh.... d*te him 

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves - all my impending deadlines :)

33. Most visited website - JSTOR

34. Hair colour - blonde but brown in some places

35. Long or short hair - long and thicc 

36. Do you have a crush on someone - kind of??? but i dont Know because th*mas really fuvked me up

37. What do you like about yourself - nothing much to like! 

38. Want any piercings? - i have Several and i think i want my next one to be on my nose somewhere

39. Blood type -  o negative

40. Nicknames - zak is technically a nickname since its short for zacharian but zak attack (tessa), sweet gee (myself but also tessa), geesus (mac)

41. Relationship status - single and gay

42. Zodiac - scorpio 

43. Pronouns - he/they 

44. Fave tv shows - x files, dirk gently, t**n w*lf (sorry god sorry mam), hannibal, the good place

45. Tattoos -two on my leg. a mourning band and karma police

46. Right or left handed - left but i can write faster with my right hand because my mother legit forced me to as a kid

47. Ever had surgery - again, Several, 

48. Piercings - i had my lip pierced but it got ripped out in a fight. my ears are pierced thrice on both sides and an industrial on the right

49. Sport - i was in a car accident that crushed the left side of my body so not anymore but i used to play soccer, rugby, and i figure skated 

50. Vacation - road trip around north america w my friends!

51. Trainers - as in shoes? i have some. 

More general:

52. Eating - im scared to eat rn because theres a stomach bug going around and my roommate had it yesterday and if i dont eat i won't be able to throw up so 

53. Drinking - i drink whiskey every day of my life. also coffee. and when im feeling healthy, tea. 

54. I’m about to watch - nothing im writing a research paper on commodus and nero

55. Waiting for - the day i finally best god in hand to hand combat

56. Want - to finish this essay

57. Get married - for sure! id love to be like “thats my husband!” and knock someone tf OUT

Which is better:

59. Hugs or kisses - not great w physical contact tbh

60. Lips or eyes - eyes

61. Shorter or taller - uuuuuuuh im 4′11″ so im gonna say....taller......

62. Older or younger - older im 20 so right now anyone younger is kinda weird for me

63. Nice arms or stomach - ARMS justin_bieber_i_love_arm.jpg

64. Hookup or relationship - relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker i cause shit all the time 

Have you ever:

66. Kissed a stranger - not physically

67. Drank hard liquor - yeah moonshine is my bitch

68. Lost glasses - no i only had one pair throughout my entire life and then i switched to contacts and wore them way longer than ur supposed to because it was cheaper and now i Just Dont See

69. Turned someone down - yeah and it was awkward

70. Sex on first date - never dated so No

71. Broken someones heart - i think so but u know

72. Had your heart broken - oh yeah losing vogal felt like losing family

73. Been arrested - :)

74. Cried when someone died - mark

75. Fallen for a friend - jesse i guess but not really

Do you believe in:

76. Yourself - absolutely not im a bozo 

77. Miracles - no 

78. Love at first sight - no but i believe u were meant for some people?? like at first sight is a little soon but some people u meet and u Know i guess

79. Santa Claus - yeah!! its so uplifting to think he's real, christmas feels that much better if u do

80. Kiss on a first date - i wouldn't but you do you! if ur comfortable and u ask u can and should! 

81. Angels - i want to

Other:

82. Best friend’s name - tessa! stormy! begrudgingly mac... 

83. Eye colour - one is blue and one is green but if u weren't looking u wouldn't notice

84. Fave movie: rn pacrim is my Interest so we’ll say pacific rim

85. Fave actor- HUGH DANCY

Tagging: @unsolvedbfs @spoookystardust @ghoulign (even tho u already did it) and uuuuh anyone who wants to! the ppl i usually tag on main aren't in this fandom and i dont know many ppl 

[myheart-elsewhere]

5/4/18 || 12am

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? mikayla <3 2. Are you outgoing or shy? somewhere inbetween 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? mikayla!! 4. Are you easy to get along with? yes 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? definitely 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? my girl. but if we’re talking in a general sense, then people with good and positive vibes. 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? maybe, with my girl.  8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? well i guess the singer of the song im currently listening to haha 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? depends who im talking about it with 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? my baby 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “i know you’re asleep, but i can’t stop thinking about you. i love you so much” 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? playinwitme - kyle & kehlani, one kiss - dua lipa, is there somewhere - halsey, this side of paradise - coyote theory, and psycho - post malone & ty dolla sign. 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? love it, mostly when my baby does it. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? i do. 15. What good thing happened this summer? last summer, i got to see my best friend for the first time in 2 years. i also got to see a lot of my ohio family who i missed very much. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes yes yes yes yes yes forever plesase 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? i don’t 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? occasionally 19. Do you like bubble baths? yessss 20. Do you like your neighbors? um i don’t really know them lol 21. What are you bad habits? overthinking 22. Where would you like to travel? new york!! 23. Do you have trust issues? yes 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? talking to my girl 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? either my skin as a whole, or my stomach. 26. What do you do when you wake up? check my phone 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? darker, but i kinda like my skin tone 28. Who are you most comfortable around? liv 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? yes lol 30. Do you ever want to get married? in the future with the right person, yes 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? yes 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? lauren jauregui and camila cabello 33. Spell your name with your chin. cak,k,ui 34. Do you play sports? What sports? currently, none. when i was younger i danced, did gymnastics, was a cheerleader, and played soccer. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? without tv for sure 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yes  37. What do you say during awkward silences? “sooooo” or just awkwardly laugh 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? my dream girl is my girl now :) 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? charlotte russe!! 40. What do you want to do after high school? undecided. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? for the most part. but giving them another chance doesnt mean you should trust them again. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? i’m probably sad 43. Do you smile at strangers? always 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? oof neither 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? when i get hungry or need a drink lol or if i need to get ready to go somewhere 46. What are you paranoid about? losing my girl 47. Have you ever been high? kinda 48. Have you ever been drunk? yes 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? i don’t think so  50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? light pink <3 51. Ever wished you were someone else? yessss 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my skin. 53. Favourite makeup brand? too faced and tarte 54. Favourite store? target 55. Favourite blog? i don’t have one 56. Favourite colour? maroon, rose gold, black, and recently yellow. 57. Favourite food? sushi 58. Last thing you ate? takis 59. First thing you ate this morning? the first thing i had today was in the afternoon and it was a smoothie 60. Ever won a competition? For what? yes, many. too many to list and they were when i was young and im too lazy to think of all them lol 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? yes. for “lying” to a police officer basically. 62. Been arrested? For what? ive almost been arrested a couple times, but no. 63. Ever been in love? yes. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? it was with a girl at a church lmfao 65. Are you hungry right now? no 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i dont have tumblr friends lol 67. Facebook or Twitter? twitter 68. Twitter or Tumblr? oof both 69. Are you watching tv right now? no 70. Names of your bestfriends? liv, mikayla, hailey, and jamie 71. Craving something? What? my girl’s presence  72. What colour are your towels? we have a lot of colors 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? like 7 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yesss 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? too many. probably around 35. i only sleep with a couple tho. 75. Favourite animal? dogs and white tigers 76. What colour is your underwear? currently, maroon 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla..... if it’s flavors we’re talking about. ;) 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? oreo cheesecake 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? white 80. What colour pants? black 81. Favourite tv show? dynasty, catfish, the fosters, pll, and ridiculousness  82. Favourite movie? the other woman, spring breakers, and the 50 shades movies 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? mean girls 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? mean girls 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? karen 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? dory 87. First person you talked to today? my babygirl 88. Last person you talked to today? ^my babyyyyy (first and last everyday<3) 89. Name a person you hate? i don’t think i truly hate anyone. 90. Name a person you love? mikayla. 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? oof yes 92. In a fight with someone? rn, no lol 93. How many sweatpants do you have? like 6 pairs 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? hm maybe 8 idk 95. Last movie you watched? he’s just not that into you 96. Favourite actress? jennifer lawrence 97. Favourite actor? i don’t think i have one  98. Do you tan a lot? hell no 99. Have any pets? yes a dog 100. How are you feeling? happy 101. Do you type fast? yes very 102. Do you regret anything from your past? oh yeah 103. Can you spell well? yes 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? yes 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? yes 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so, thankfully 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yesss 108. What should you be doing? probably school lmao or sleeping 109. Is something irritating you right now? i don’t think so 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yes. 111. Do you have trust issues? already asked this, yes. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? mikayla 113. What was your childhood nickname? calli or cal, which it still is haha 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yes 115. Do you play the Wii? occasionally 116. Are you listening to music right now? yes. my fav playlist. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? yes fav 119. Favourite book? fanfiction lol 120. Are you afraid of the dark? outside, yes. inside, no. 121. Are you mean? no 122. Is cheating ever okay? NO.  123. Can you keep white shoes clean? depends on how much i care about them. 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? idk 125. Do you believe in true love? yes 126. Are you currently bored? kinda 127. What makes you happy? my baby 128. Would you change your name? yes.  129. What your zodiac sign? gemini 130. Do you like subway? yes, love 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? tell them sorry bc im gay and have a girl. 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my baby, once again another question i answered lol 133. Favourite lyrics right now? i have so so so many, but the first ones that came to mind were “you can strip down without showing skin”. 134. Can you count to one million? yes but it would be too time consuming 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? idek 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed 137. How tall are you? 5′1 138. Curly or Straight hair? curly 139. Brunette or Blonde? brunette 140. Summer or Winter? winter 141. Night or Day? night 142. Favourite month? october 143. Are you a vegetarian? no 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk 145. Tea or Coffee? tea 146. Was today a good day? yes :) 147. Mars or Snickers? snickers 148. What’s your favourite quote? “a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor” 149. Do you believe in ghosts? kinda 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? the closest book to me didn’t have page numbers lol

[darling-in-the-fandom]

i was tagged by @2kgayteen

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

1.      last drink: C O F F E E E E E E (i drink way too much)

2.     last phone call: my dad

3.     last text message: idk when my last text was but the last message i sent was to my bff on discord

4.     last song you listened to: gotta go my own way (still hits me in the feels)

5.     last time you cried: like 5 minutes ago reading a fic and being assaulted by all these sad songs playing on shuffle on spotify (r00d)

6.     dated someone twice? honey, i haven’t even dated someone once

7.     kissed someone and regretted it? nope

8.     been cheated on? hell nah

9.     lost someone special? yeah :/

10.   been depressed? fuck yeah, im depressed right now! have been for nearly two months! :))

11.   gotten drunk and thrown up? i’ve been drunk, yeah, but not enough to throw up…yet

fave colours:

12.   green

13.   blue

14.   red

in the last year have you…

15.   made new friends? yes! a few, surprisingly

16.   fallen out of love? what is love? i don’t know her

17.   laughed until you cried? so fucking much

18.   found out someone was talking about you? …not that i know of? im not worth talking about tbh

19.   met someone who changed you? kind of? i mean, she kinda inspires me to start believing in myself and to stop being so negative all the time? it’s a work in progress.

20.  found out who your friends are? yeah

21.   kissed someone on your facebook friends list? lmao i’ve never been kissed, so that’s a HELL NO

22.  how many of your facebook friends do you know irl? most of them, since they’re classmates…and then there’s, like, one online friend

23.  do you have any pets? a DOGGO called texas which??? is a v weird name for an italian greyhound??? but he belongs to my sister, so, yeah, that makes sense

24.  do you want to change your name? no thanks

25.  what did you do for your last birthday? i had an ASSESSMENT on my last birthday and it was the first day back at school after the holidays. so i spent the morning at home memorising my speech (it was about how we shouldn’t have a plebiscite for gay marriage) and then in the afternoon i gave my speech and i fucking nailed it (all those hours crying and stressing wasted, apparently). then in the evening dad and i watched skam s3 while drinking champagne and getting emo. good times.

26.  what time did you wake up today? like 6:30

27.  what were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping. how boring. just like me :D

28.  what is something you cant wait for?

29.  what are you listening to right now? shuffle just started playing NOW OR NEVER from HSM3—my favourite song :)

30.  have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeah. my uncle, one of my dad’s friends, and then a family friend’s son: all toms.

31.   something that’s getting on your nerves? my writing :))

32.  most visited website: AO3 and imgur—fanfic and memes are the loves of my life

33.  hair colour: brown

34.  long or short hair: short

35.  do you have a crush on someone? what’s a crush? idk her

36.  what do you like about yourself? my bizarre sense of humour bc that’s the only reason i have any friends rn. other than that, don’t think i’ve got too much going for me lol

37.  want any piercings? nope. im way too chicken for that stuff.

38.  blood type: i…have no idea.

39.  nicknames: sass/sassy, super sassy, sassy sausage, the crumbler, and my personal fave: special fred

40.  relationship status: SINGLE would rather not mingle thnaks

41.   zodiac: cancer

42.  pronouns: she/her

43.  fave tv shows: skam, bones, game of thrones, stranger things, avatar: the last airbender, buffy the vampire slayer, angel, star wars: the clone wars, outlander

44.  tattoos: don’t have any, would love a darth vader one though ksdjfkdjsf

45.  right or left handed: right

46.  ever had surgery: nope

47.  piercings: none

48.  sport: dancing (ballet) for most of my childhood, and hockey for like one year.

49.  vacation: i really wanna go to norway (the dream) and scotland and go to america again

50.  trainers: ???

more general

51.   eating: rn? chocolate. specifically toblerone. a huge block. probably not helping me lose weight but oh well.

52.  drinking: C O F F E E E E E E (i need help)

53.  im about to watch: im probably going to rewatch some shane dawson videos. my fave thing to do when im depressed. i love shane.

54.  waiting for: CLASSES TO START bc im going a creative writing degree and a part-time acting course and im so fucking excited it’s gonna be good

55.  want: to lose some weight, to get my shit together, to be more confident in my writing

56.  get married: yike. no thnaks :/

57.  career: the dream would be as an actress. or just anything in the entertainment industry. i fucking love performing arts.

which is better

58.  hugs or kisses: hugs!

59.  lips or eyes: eyes

60.  shorter or taller: either

61.   older or younger: im…assuming this is for dating, so both, i guess? depends how much older/younger

62.  nice arms or stomach: arms all the way

63.  hookup or relationship: :/ not really keen on either…

64.  troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant, i guess

have you ever:

65.  kissed a stranger: no

66.  drank hard liquor: ohhh yes

67.  lost glasses: …yep

68.  turned someone down: lmao no bc no one is interested in me :))

69.  sex on first date: nope

70.  broken someone’s heart: don’t think so.

71.   had your heart broken: yeah :/

72.  been arrested: no

73.  cried when someone died: yeah

74.  fallen for a friend: yes

do you believe in:

75.  yourself: lol no :/ but im trying

76.  miracles: no

77.  love at first sight: no

78.  santa claus: definitely not

79.  kiss on a first date: sure

80.  angels: yes, i believe in tarjei sandvik moe

other

81.   best friend’s name: MACK

82.  eye colour: hazel

83.  fave movie: SPACEBALLS

84.  fave actor: i have a whole laundry list of actors i love, but my absolute faves are tarjei sandvik moe and henrik holm!

im gonna tag: @evensdramaticshenanigans @vildenooras @u-pside-d-own @valtermeme 

[sarohara]

Stranger: m

You: You first

You: to say hey

Stranger: hey lol

You: ahhaha jk

You: Hey, how u doing?

You: im f btw

Stranger: cool im good just bored you?

You: Well, everyone's bored on omegle so..what's new right?

You: Im good as well

Stranger: haha true

You: May i ask ur name?

Stranger: Adam you?

You: Hey Adam, how's life?

You: ahahaha

You: Im Sarah

Stranger: nice to meet you :) its okay not great not awful

You: Oh it's a balance then

You: nice meeting u :)

Stranger: hahaha covid sucks but again what else is new right?

You: ahahahhaha yeeea right

You: Life sucks rn

You: But i hope it gets a lil bit better.

You: one day.

Stranger: same :( It has to haha

You: Hopefully :)

You: Wyd now?

Stranger: just school wbu?

Stranger: well not rn

Stranger: its 5 50 am here

Stranger: and thanksgiving lol

You: Oh online classes right? I hate it

You: Oooh 5:50am?

You: Wow, too early

Stranger: yeah im in california. couldn't sleep

You: yeaaa happy thanksgiving :) r u gonna do today?

You: Oh california, gotcha

Stranger: nm maybe play football and just eat hahaha you?

You: Eat is the best one right

You: Im not gonna do anything at all

Stranger: nice sometimes its good to just chill

Stranger: where you from?

You: Yea, i'm always doing this ahaha

You: i'm brazilian

Stranger: oh very cool :)

You: Yea :))

You: Hey, lemme show u a song

Stranger: ok

You: hold up

Stranger: ok haha

You: should i send the link or name?

Stranger: either one!

You: oke

You: name then

You: idk you yet by alexander 23

Stranger: listening now

You: it's a really good song and I just wanted to show this incredible masterpiece to the all world ahaha but it's not possible, sadly

You: i don't even know if u'll like it, but i hope so

Stranger: I love it actually

Stranger: my kinda music for sure

You: oh my gawd, i'm so happy.

You: ahahhaha

Stranger: thank you that made my day better

You: no, thank YOU

You: :))

Stranger: hahaha music is the best honestly

You: u mean, music is the best thing in the whole world? yea ikr. it's just perfect.

You: or u mean, that one..?

Stranger: I mean music in general

Stranger: but that song is excellent

You: oooh yeaa!!!

Stranger: already added to my spotify

You: it's my favorite thing in the whole world. music.

You: Aw :))

You: well, your turn.

Stranger: hahaha okay hold on

You: take your time

Stranger: as much as I ever could - city and color

You: oh, it's an old one

You: I mean, that's cool

You: listening now

Stranger: its one of my faves

You: oh shoot. this intro is just awesome.

Stranger: right?

You: ooohh that's so beautiful. idk, just hitts different u know. I genuinely love it.

Stranger: good im glad I could send a good one back :)

You: Aw, yea, it's freaking good :)

You: hey, wyd on omegle? u shouldn't be here ahaha nah im kidding

Stranger: hahaha I just go with the flow you know? california hippy :)

You: yea?😂

You: ahahhaha i get that. california hippy.

Stranger: thats me for sure

Stranger: what are you doing here hahaha

You: Guess what

You: I'm bored 😂

Stranger: lollll shocker hahahaha

You: And i just wanted to talk to someone. idk.

You: ahahahhahaha

You: no kidding!

You: lmao

Stranger: anything in particular you want to talk about ? :)

You: well, i mean , i guess anything in particular. Just talk about randomly things. u know.

You: killing time.

Stranger: yeah no I feel you for sure :)

You: Oh good to know that i'm not alone, im not the only one 😂

Stranger: it gets lonely with all online shit

You: Yea for real...everything's so complicated now.

Stranger: I know :(

You: I wish I had someone to blame sometimes ahah

Stranger: I know what you mean but at least its fucked up for everyone

You: Yea but if i could i would take all this shit just for me u know

Stranger: for sureeee I know what you mean but you can't bear that big of a burden alone

You: Yea ik ur right. but at least that would be 1000x easier.

You: I guess so. but anyways, there's nothing that i can do or anyone else.

Stranger: yeah :( no just be in it together and try to spread good vibes

You: yeah that's the point :))

Stranger: :)

You: hey, what about The Girl?

You: I mean, by city and colour

Stranger: love that one too

Stranger: they have some incredible songs

Stranger: the lead singers name is Dallas green thats where the band name comes from but he's a genius

You: Oooh wow, wise man huh ahah

You: It was really genius.

You: Nice pun I would say lmao

Stranger: I know his music just hits different

You: Yea. it feels like ur in 1999 traveling the world with someone.

Stranger: yeah its so calming :)

You: Pretty smooth aha :)

Stranger: makes me feel like the worlds gonna be okay ahaha

You: do u know more than one? please tell me, i need to escape there.

You: ahahha just kidding

Stranger: hahahaha

You: but yea, that's the power of music, it's like the whole world doesn't exist. just u & melody. and everything's gonna be okay. whatever it takes.

Stranger: its honestly pretty intimate sharing your favorite stuff with someone

You: Yaaaaas! it's really special, i would say. people usally don't wanna talk about stuff like that.

Stranger: honestly it gets deep for sure

You: Is that bad? should i stop to say these things or something?

Stranger: no no not at all :)

You: sorry, i'm a typist one. as u can see.

You: ahahha ooooh okay

Stranger: what do you look like?

You: u mean, physically?

Stranger: yeah

You: i'm brunette. brown eyes. 5''3. like that? ahahaha

Stranger: yeah you sound beautiful :)

You: oh thank u ahaha i guess.

You: what about u?

Stranger: 6 2 brown hair blue green eyes

You: Oh you're tall huh. and u sound cute. btw

Stranger: thanks :)

You: no problem :))

You: what time is it now?

Stranger: 6 42

You: almost an hour since the last time right

Stranger: yeah hahaha

You: time flies lmao

Stranger: it does for sure should I let you go?

You: good question.

You: nah, im kidding.

You: u shoudn't.

You: ahaha

You: just if u want to.

Stranger: not that I want to haha I just might go sleep soon

You: oh!!! sure sure. it's up to u.

Stranger: sorry haha I just have to get ready for bed and stuff and got kinda h

You: Oh

You: I get that

You: typing something?

Stranger: oh I was waiting it seemed like you were haha

Stranger: are you at all?

You: if i was typing? nah i wasn't. actually, i was waiting ahahah

Stranger: waiting for?

Stranger: oh for my typing?

You: oh my gawd ahahah yea exactly

You: but nvm

Stranger: no tell me hahaha

You: tell what? i was just waiting for ur typing. that's so confusing aahaha

Stranger: never mind hahaha were not on the same page hahahaha

You: def we're not ahahah

You: anyways. that's it, i guess so.

You: u have to go, right.

Stranger: alright it was nice talking to you :) yeah im sorry hahaha I got h

You: aight, nice meeting u as well

[call-of-quileutes-blog]

ive had a couple glasses of wine and i was tagged by @washington-wolves and @masochisticlion whom fthought i wouldn’t do this  but HA HERE I AM BITCH

last

1. drink - chardonnay  2. phone call - alex  3. text message - abigail  4. song you listened to - I guess thats why they call it the blues by elton john  5. time you cried - sunday bc i met my now 6 day old niece and shes so tiny and im lov her

ever

6. dated someone twice - technically-ish (very short lived both the first and second time) 7. kissed someone and regretted it - ya lol 8. been cheated on - not to my knowledge ???? 9. lost someone special - ya 10. been depressed - ya 11. gotten drunk and thrown up - thats !!!! the !!!! only !!!! sport !!!! im !!!! good !!! at !!!!!!

fave colors

12. marigold 13. forest green 14. any and all shades of pink 

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes!! my lovely lil angel bb abigain !!! @masochisticlion for clearification !! 16. fallen out of love - if you consider like “teenage love” to be love then ye ?? 17. laughed until you cried - to where tears have brimmed but not actually like..........cryin  18. found out someone was talking about you - listen my boss talks shit on ALL OF US LIKE SORRY I GENUINELY LIKE SMASH MOUTH, JULIE 19. met someone who changed you - yes! in good and bad ways !!! im a horrible person thank u for coming to my TED tak!!! 20. found out who your friends are - kind of. theres still a couple on the fence 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - ya !!! at least 10 at most 17 (mostly bc i was drunk and i really love my friends)

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - probs like 98% lol maybe closer to 95% but who’s keeping count 23. do you have any pets - i have 3 cats !!!! and i love them all !!! 24. do you want to change your name - at this point in my life it doesnt even matter anymore does it 25. what did you do for your last birthday - we have a tradition where we always have my b day at my friend Pbone’s house and they got me a taco pinata and set up a margarita bar and i love them so much ????? 26. what time did you wake up today - 6:30ish bc there was a bunch of shit for me to do at work this AM so i decided to be an actual adult for once and wake up early and go in early to get a head start lol 27. what were you doing at midnight last night -drinking some tea and reading Graveyard Shift articles on FB to put me to sleep lol 28. what is something you can’t wait for - this friday ???? a new job???? not being poor???? my bf to become a millionaire????? 30. what are you listening to right now - die die die y the avett brothers 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - at least one !!! i actually think i have a cousin named tom 32. something thats getting on your nerves - well the fire alarm just started going off, so that fer sher 33. most visited website - probs tumblr lol 34. hair color - brown 35. long or short hair - i probably have the shortest hair in the twilight fandom ! 36. do you have a crush on someone - alex ! i love him ! and still have a crush on him !! even after (almost) 5 years together !!!  37. what do you like about yourself - my ability to throw hands or my sense of direction

i accidentally deleted 38 lol 39. blood type - who eveen fuckin knows thei blood typ e my dude 40. nicknames - lace, lace-face 41. relationship status - basically married but without he tax benefits 42. zodiac - virgo (leo cusp) 43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - Arrow, The Flash, Parks & Rec, The 70′s Show  45. tattoos - i have 2 and thet’re horrible !!! 46. right or left handed - right 47. ever had surgery - YES MANY TIMES**** i accidentally skipped this one and had to come back to edit lol 48. piercings - none rn ! but i used to have my ears, both nostrils, my smiley, and belly button pierced  49. sport -  wats a sport 53. drinking - listen. i love alcohol.  54. i’m about to watch - probs that 70′s show 56. want - @masochisticlion !!! THE!!!!! LOVE!!!! OF !!!!! MY !!!! LIFE!!!!! 57. get married - maybe???? im torturing my mom by not getting married bc she wants me to so badly lmao 58. career - I’ve been thinking abt embalming school !!!

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - a nice, firm handshake for me, pal 60. lips or eyes - probs lips i guess???? 61. shorter or taller - shoerter???? 62. older or younger - it doesnt matter????? 63. nice arms or stomach - i really dont care??????? i dont see ppl for their physical forms ?????? unlesss their lizard ppl ???? 64. hookup or relationship - nether i really wanna die a,one i only keep alex around bc homeboi can cook (im kidding im lov him relashonship) 65. troublemaker or hesitant - my mans is a lil bit of both so imma go with voth lol

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - yes!!!!  67. drank hard liquor - yes 68. lost glasses - YESSSSSSSSSSSSS 69. turned someone down - homeless men, yes lmoa 70. sex on first date - i think me and alex did it before we even went on a date LMAO  71. broken someones heart - ok so kind of  but no really lol 72. had your heart broken - of course!! im so sensitive !!! my heart gets broken every day !!!! 73. been arrested - yes lol 74. cried when someone died - yes !! 75. fallen for a friend - like a got crushes on lotsa friends but like it wasnt that serious lol

do you believe in

76. yourself - ya!!!!! im the best !!! 77. miracles - possibly? 78. love at first sight - i mean.....maybe???? 79. santa claus - wait whut 80. kiss on a first date - sure

81. angels - sure 

other

82. best friend’s name - Abby ! and Phe and Lauren lol 83. eye color - a nice hickory  84. fave movie - detroit rock city !! 85. fave actor - keabu reeves

ok so imma tag ............... @aphroangel @lapushwerewolves @boysoflapush and uhhhhh im too lazy to tag mor eppl lol

[wovenstarlight]

85 truths

tagged by @alotofpoisonbutalittlebitofsugar​

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people. (as much as you want)

im gonna tag uhhhhhh @toasttedbaguels​, @lisawilbourn​, and @evelynstarborn​!

last

1. drink: cereal milk 2. phone call: my mom lmao 3. text message: “also high five [my cousins] for me” 4. song you listened to: down by marian hill 5. time you cried: uhhh sometime last year i think?

ever

6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: hmmm i wouldn’t say so? 10. been depressed: Oh Boy 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i havent touched a drink in my life

fave colours (i can’t pick only three sorry sdjflsks)

12. purple/pink/blue!!! 13. gold/silver/bronze 14. black/white

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: ya!!! i love them 16. fallen out of love: no 17. laughed until you cried: sometimes jsdlkjsflksd 18. found out someone was talking about you: im a dumbass and have a shit memory so i don’t THINK so but im not sure 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your true friends are: yeah 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no (facebook whomst?)

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: don’t have any facebook friends 23. do you have any pets: no but i really want cats 24. do you want to change your name: not rlly! 25. what did you do for your last birthday: ....what DID i do 26. what time did you wake up today: like 1pm sdjflskvsdl 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: working on an assignment for my literature class 28. what is something you cant wait for: to meet my friends irl 29. fave band: i have no idea but rn it’s probably fall out boy (hit me with that M A N I A) 30. what’re you listening to right now: was listening to down (marian hill) but im opening stay frosty royal milk tea as we speak 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: nope 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: why do i have so much fucken work to do lmao 33. most visited website: tumblr probably. ao3/discord/google docs come close 34. hair colour: black 35. long or short hair: longish 36. do you have a crush on someone: uwu 37. what do you like about yourself: i can’t sing as well as some people but i really like my singing voice 38. want any piercings?: oo difficult.... maybe more ear piercings but i dunno 39. blood type: when i first saw my blood type i was so proud and told my mom ‘look i got an A+ in this too’ 40. nicknames: dev 41. relationship status: Oh You Know 42. zodiac: virgo 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv shows: uhhhh does anime count? bn.ha, haik.yuu, voltron 45. tattoos: none but i want to get some at some point 46. right or left handed: right but im working on that 47. ever had surgery: no i don’t think so 48. piercings: ear piercings 49. sport: sleeping 50. vacation: idk i prefer staying at home but ill go wherever 51. trainers: the what??? sorry?

more general

52. eating: oh that’s a difficult one 53. drinking: water or chocolate milk but that’s it 54.I’m about to watch: newest season of voltron 55. waiting for: bn.ha/hq manga to update 56. want: for this weekend to not end i have stuff to do next week but i dont wanna 57. get married: maybe 58. career: artist or something in compsci

which is better

59. hugs or kisses: you think i’m a coward? both obviously 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: taller 62. older or younger: .... 63. nice arms or stomach: both bitch 64. hookup or relationship: relationship def. 65. troublemaker or hesitant: somewhere in the middle thanks

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: no 67. drank hard liquor: no 68. lost glasses: no 69. turned someone down: no 70. sex on first date: no??? 71. broken someone’s heart: no 72. had your heart broken: no 73. been arrested: no i’m like 5 what is up with these questions 74. cried when someone died: ...no i don’t think so 75. fallen for a friend: Oh You Know

do you believe in

76. yourself: more so recently, yes!! 77. miracles: not really 78. love at first sight: nah 79. santa claus: no 80. kiss on a first date: not unless the date’s been a long time coming 81. angels: got two of em as my closest friends of course i do (honestly tho. not really?)

other

82. best friend’s name: rhian, amy 83. eye colour: dark brown 84. fave movie: black panther/wonder woman 85. fave actor: all of the folks in black panther probably