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b4kuch1n · 6 months

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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sadaveniren · 1 year

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I don’t even know where to begin with describing last night (or this whole weekend tbh) the joy and love I felt from the very beginning when we began handing out rainbow flags to people (FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFTY!!!) was only amplified by the first time I saw everyone waving them for the first time during Andrew Cushin. Looking out over the crowd and being like “shit we helped make that possible” and the fact that everyone had been so incredibly lovely and excited about having flags for Pride and for Louis. It really hit me just how much I LOVE this fandom and how much fandom can be a community.

And all of these emotions came rushing in BEFORE the show even started!! @lululawrence and @londonfoginacup worked so incredibly hard to put together the flags for @rainbowmegamix and they deserve so much credit for it. All I did was just help hand them out to all the lovely people with @jaerie 🤗

Louis was absolutely incredible as I knew he’d be. He performed the FULL SET LIST and it was AMAZING. INCREDIBLY! PASSIONATE!

I had so much fun dancing and hugging and cuddling with Sus and Emmu and bothering Jenna when all she was trying to do was film for everyone so we can have lovely gifs 🤣 I couldn’t always see Louis cause I’m ShortTM as they all kept reminding me and people were TALL in front of me but he sounded amazing - especially after three shows in a row!!! Like!!! Omg??? And his energy?? Next Level!!!

I will never forget this show. Thank you fandom for being as incredible as you are ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 I hope that for anyone at the show the rainbows were just as comforting for you as they were for me.

#my show #I love everyone #I love my friends #i love this fandom #last night was something absolutely incredible #and I’m putting this in tags cause 🤪 but he really loved our side of the stage #like A LOT #and I’m not saying it’s cause me and Sus were waving our flags high in the air the entire fucking show but also #he said the whole ‘If you want to be true to yourself you might feel alienated’ speech RIGHT IN FRONT OF US SO YOU KNOW 🤡#I choose to believe

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bread-making-vikings · 4 months

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#Having a 3.5 year gap in talking to a whole group of people I was incredibly close to and then very very abruptly #wasn't is kinda refucking me up now I'm interacting with them again #like 1 of them I wasn't super close to #but friends #and we were playing dumb 4 players chess with a couple of others #and then 2 hours after finishing for the night #and saying happy new year #haven't seen you since last year #etc etc #was just not gonna interact for closing on 4 years #like it fucked me up a lot at the time #and it's nice to be talking to that group again #but #god it's pulling a scab off #on some levels it's delightfully the same #falling back into old patterns #but also there's just these whole gaps in each others lives #and stuff we're inevitably not gonna remember #I've lived in 2 cities and worked jobs and had relationships that have changed me #I mean I've changed my whole name lmao #like #idk it's just very bittersweet and sad #especially seeing ppl in the discord user list or whatever who I still haven't dared contact #opening the DMs and seeing the last messages are happy new year stuff from that one midnight #I'm not the same they're not the same and we could have changed in each others company #silly ramble #if u saw this before I edited it no u didn't : i starte dit as a post then decided I wanted venty tags instead

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gawayne · 3 months

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#gonna do a little throwback and vent a bit here lmao #I may have pushed myself a lil far by doing a couple impact scenes and then wandering thru a bunch of crowds to watch the fireworks 💀#felt incredible on sunday night had a bad panic attack last night and haven’t been right today I just feel so down and strange #idk if it’s cause we got to discussing trauma and mental illness or if I’m just a lil depressed but I’m in a very pre-medication headspace #and then I rly feel bad cause he walked me home so he was out later than me and then soon after he got home there was a shooting near where #we were. and he’s the one who gets nervous about being out at night I’m always flippant about it #n I feel stupid and careless keeping him out so late just making sure I was alright #idk idk. hoping this is all part of coming off all that adrenaline and I’ll be normal in a couple days #I didn’t anticipate it at all cause the pain was pretty light. but it was all insanely good so maybe it’s more about how high up you get lol #idk! advice welcome if you’ve had a similar experience hdjfjsj

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dimitrscu · 2 years

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i love spending hours writing only to read it back the next day, cringe, and then delete the whole thing

#this is what i call progress #coming to terms with how awful i am then erasing it from existence before it gets worse #made the terrible mistake last night reading some very opinionated persons comments on the way ppl write and well #they were trying to make it sound like helpful criticism but tbh it only sounded l like hate #kind of like ‘omg ppl who do ‘X’ are just so bad’#anyway a lot of what they said ended up being incredibly discouraging #like if you don’t write like this then you’re bad kind of thing #the mental torture i put myself through i swear #for years i have wanted nothing more than to actually do something meaningful with myself #even if that means writing or whatever #cause god knows i’ll never be able to draw #but i will never get over this hurdle it seems #i am only ranting so pls ignore #i'm having one of Those days today #just need to get over myself thats all

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no27-autonation-honda · 1 month

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thank you to everyone who gave me advice on preparing for my first ever Tisha b’av service last night! I was surprisingly well prepared and it was a beautiful service

#kazoo noises #Conversion tag #Jumblr #i did spend a lot of it worried about the fringe on my Stevie nicks poncho not catching fire on the candle and realizing I have no #way to cope with older transliterations of Hebrew (whoops) but it was a very beautiful service and my friend #Henry who got me the scroll for my mezuzah gave me a lift home and we spent the entire time talking about my journey to conversion #As well as my family and the people we were remembering #My inter generational friends are so important to me man #Something about hanging out with Jewish people who got scads of grandkids already. Just makes ya feel complete and at peace with #Stuff ya know. Like man. We’ve been here for so long. We’ve been through so much and regrettably we will be through more. But we’re here #We’re together. We’re joking about like the only person under the age of 25 at service and his stumbling through blessings #(Also bc despite only saying them for a year the instinctual call and response is already set in)#I was thankfully not the only person saying the entire Kaddish at service. A lady from the other congregation also did it and Henry AND #The rabbi caught me #Anyway. If you interacted with my post last night: thank you. Your community has been so wonderful and it’s such a privilege that I’m #Allowed to work towards joining you all #Sorry for being mad sappy on main but like. I’ve had an incredibly crazy two years and conversion has probably been the only thing keeping #Me fully tethered onto the earth and not climbing the walls

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orcelito · 2 months

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Did the stuff exchange 👍 that sucked 👍 wahoo

#speculation nation #i was very curt bc i just wanted to get it over with.#kinda wish id given her a piece of my mind but whatever #i did shut the door rather forcefully in her face. which hopefully said plenty.#and then i cried bc it just felt so Cold. a stark difference from the last time i saw her.#man ive come to accept it's probably for the best overall but the suddenness of it still sucks so bad.#also the 'i never actually loved you' thing. what an asshole thing to say.#she also missed one of the stuffed animals and it's one i wanted to have back Especially #bc it's a pair with one that i own. i want my little bee's axolotl friend back And i dont want her owning the other one of a pair.#she seemed to really love this deer before. said it gave her a lot of comfort to hug at night.#so i wanted it back especially too. i dont want her getting any more comfort from my prior affection for her.#i just hope that seeing me reminded her that im a real fucking person that she fucked over.#like yeah shes got her new 'love' yadda yadda yadda but she strung me along for 6 fucking months #then broke up with me over fucking TEXT. saying some incredibly insensitive things as she did so.#even if they were the truth. there are still some things that dont need said i think. especially to someone who has trust issues.#but most of all she shouldve fucking done it in person or At Least on the phone.#i told her plenty already how cowardly and horrible it was for her to break up with me over text #and i want to scream it from the rooftops and carve it into her tires #but i wont. because ive said it enough. and being too destructive wont make anyone happy.#not even me.#it just feels like such an injustice. and i feel so angry and hurt.#i can understand and accept that it's probably for the best that the relationship ended here #but that doesnt make the manner it was done hurt any less.#and jesus i thought i was the asshole for how i broke up with my girlfriend last year. at least i broke up with her in person!!!!#i didnt even get that. what a whole load of bullshit.#anyways im gonna play my samurai game. and focus the best i can on just moving on.

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cyberstabbing · 4 months

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in my 'the age of pleasure' by janelle monáe era (got finger fucked by a dyke in the corner of a queer club in copenhagen within five minutes of meeting them) :]

#we exchanged ig handles eeek!!!?!?#it was so perfect and then i danced for two more hours on stage with my friends who were just as busy #last time i went to a queer club that centres gay men i wasn't as comfortable (got shoved off the dance stage by men for no reason etc)#but it was an incredibly good vibe from everyone and by the end pf the night it felt like i knew everyone there #except for the guy who groped me like a motherfucker right before i left and was gross #like why are you here bye #mine

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strawberryserpent · 4 months

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When your flight gets cancelled.... you make alliances.... you make enemies..... but ultimately you're on your own.... it's like in the hunger games

#jade talks #my enemies are the starbucks barista some asshole father and ESPECIALLY the people who worked at the airport last night and were incredibly #rude and awful #my alliances are several old men and one mom <3 #the real enemy was ofc the airline itself... the capitol if you will

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wraenata · 1 year

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Good luck with the wedding!! Hopefully it goes smoothly and the rest of the evening treats you kindly!!

Hehe I showed my bestie this during the reception/ dancing and it made her chuckle :3

Thank you Robin! We are finally free! That was a long 14 hour adventure, I'm going to be tired for the next 7 days oof.

Hey, I even danced to ONE song, so that's something!

But honestly, I think I had the most fun on the half hour drive back to besties place. We jammed out in her jeep XD

Tomorrow morning we will do the Asian Food Market and hopefully I can get some lotus root, and then the Farmers Market.

It was a beautiful wedding and I'm glad to have supported the bride but both bestie and I are so glad to be done with this endeavor. My bestie more so she was a little more antsy. If you read what happened at the Bachelorette party you'd know why lol. Guess what maid of honor lost AGAIN while we were getting ready asdfgjknfdr

Anyway thank you so much Robin I really appreciate it! I hope your weekend treats you wonderfully and all sorts of amazing things happen for you!

#wren askbox #wedding saga finally done #honestly i worry about this marriage though #they were off and on in college and he is not being supportive of her depression #she told me that when she cries and hes just kinda judgemental like why are you crying?! stop #idk i dont like that #plus his side of the family is pentecostal and bride texted me one night asking questions about all their crazy beliefs #cause oh yeah one of grooms family members had one of 'those' cars at the wedding parking oof #i guess groom has expressed interest in going back to church and shes worried it would be back to his families church #big oof #idk bestie is not confident this will last either #I feel bad bride is an incredibly sweet soul and she only deserves happiness #i really hope groom follows through with all his promises in marriage #oh also we pulled out 24 bonny pins from my hair lol #hopefully that was all of them #also wore makeup for the first time not a fan #but i asked for it very light i could barely see any difference but i certainly felt it #hopefully i got it all washed off #all in all im tired but feel like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders

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anaalnathrakhs · 6 months

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...i'm starting to wonder if i wasn't actually pretty often failed by the adults in my life as a young kid tbh.

#i'm always doubtful where to put the blame #in a morally neutral causality kind of way to be clear #because like. i dont know. if i was the adult. confronted to the opaque behavior of a child. would i have done better?#but also i can't help but think #why the fuck did they make me skip a grade (last grade of primary on top of that) when i was notorious for never doing my homework #and was incredibly inconsistent across topics #like i sucked at math. like ''needs to count on fingers to do a simple addition or substraction'' sucking at math.#like i never learned any multiplication tables sucking at math #like i never got how to pose divisions and still can't at age 18 because logicomathematics are completely counterintuitive to me #and just. the work was never done to make me Get It. my work or teachers' work who knows. but perhaps skipping a grade wasnt the solution #or like #apparently when i was three years old the pediatrician suspected smth was up with me #either autism directly or ''generally suspicious child'' we're not clear on that #but he told my parents. and everybody said ''we better test that'' and then. nothing. idk.#they filled a parental report of behaviors questionnaire for... adhd i think? autism maybe. and that's it. never fucking heard about it.#god. i just remembered my mom saying proudly they almost never put me in the nursery as a kid.#always either with a parent or family or a nanny.#and perhaps mother. you could have foreseen that a kid with no siblings no pets no kid neighbors no playdates. would end up socially fucked #i remember the teachers scolding late students and showing us that we were supposed to be in bed by 9:30 or something #and internally i was like BUDDY AT 9PM WE'RE HALFWAY THROUGH DINNER #MOM'S BEEN HOME FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR #and shit. i don't know. i was scared of the dark as a child. to the point that even with the compromise #of keeping the door ajar and lights in the hallway (which i had to fucking advocate for btw)#i still slept curled up in the bathroom on a towel sometimes when it got too scary #and i would cry and scream before going to bed. i would beg my mom for sleeping pills from a young age.#i would often find myself in the morning sleeping with my face smushed between the pages of the book i literally fell asleep on #because i read until my eyes gave out #and a couple years later when i got a 3ds i'd play at night and if my dad caught me he'd storm into my room and i'd hide under the comforte #and he'd punch a couple times and whisper-yell at me not to do that and go to sleep #it took until i was about 15yo for me to see a sleep specialist

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musical-chick-13 · 8 months

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I'm the LAST person to suggest that you have to preface every single comment you make about a character/fictional relationship/etc. you like with a reminder that you Know™ it's pRoBLeMaTiC, but I DO question what the point of acting genuinely for real like there were no problems is.

#I don't even mean in a 'what would it look like if this relationship were healthy' or 'what if this character were a good person'#because I think that's interesting to explore and I have several things I'm working on with elements of that #but I genuinely will hear people go 'there ARE no flaws in this thing' with their whole chest in a completely serious manner #when they could just. talk about how they like the thing without that qualification? and I feel like...#...idk. just because *I* am someone who enjoys horrible characters and deranged unhealthy fictional relationships #I feel like it's a disservice to act like there were never any faults or problems or [insert applicable noun here] at all? it gets rid of #the narrative complexity that's present #I was talking to long-distance best friend last night and I went on a rant about how I wouldn't like jaime as much if he actually WAS as #Super For Real Actually A Completely Good Person Who Was Never Flawed In Any Way as some people act like he is.#it's BECAUSE he does shitty things and isn't A Super Good Person™ that makes him particularly interesting #if you want to imagine a version of this story where he doesn't act horribly and is a 100% Stand Up Guy then go for it you don't need to #justify that by saying that that is completely for real without exception who he actually is in canon?#(this wasn't even the example that brought this on. he's one of many MANY examples.)#and you know I could write a story (I won't) where like. idk altena for example. handles her issues and doesn't become The Antagonist™#where she gets therapy and ends up with a fulfilling life where she participates in society as a more well-adjusted person.#but again it would be an INCREDIBLE disservice to the way this character (a complicated fascinating character) is written to act like #she was Always Like That or that this turn of events was intended by the story or that She Genuinely Never Did Anything Wrong Actually #it's less 'oh people are having sympathy for [xyz] in a story context that I think isn't merited' & it's more 'acting like this is the way #the story was all along and the way it was meant to be interpreted all along is a misreading of the text and I don't think that's fair'#mel's media criticism

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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at this point i just dont know how dreaming works

#snap chats #this sounds depressing as hell no its not im just CONFUSED #i posted bout daigo and mine for like. months everyday 24/7 #and in that time ive had one Utterly Peculiar dream with daigo in it but like. on a technicality #and ive never had a dream with mine yeah. probably for the better #but i swear last night i had a dream where i was watching something with tsutsumi and nakai in it #make it make sense brain. do you know ill be mentally unwell if i see daigo or mine in my dreams.#trying so hard to remember what it was but its been lost to the subconscious #im gonna blame it partially on me having read those arasawa fics right before bed #i mean it was objectively not arakawa and jo in my dream but yk. same face #i just wanna remember what it was even about... mightve been a comedy of sorts...#OH YEAH SINCE I MENTIONED THOSE FICS im gonna throw up they were great #ooohhh i love sad/tragic fics oooh the guilt on both sides was so real and potent #im gonna think of jo helping masato walk until i die #the vision of jo in the rain with masato’s burned in my brain actually i might. draw it if you will #but im going to the mall in a hot hour so. hm. we’ll see #maybe i’ll do it before i leave for the mall... shouldnt take long...#not unless i also wanna include a shot of arakawa and turn this into a two-panel comic ig....#IDK POINT IS everyone should read those fics. both sides theyre so good #there is no happy thought and if there is its incredibly fleeting and im injecting it right into my veins #these tags are damn everywhere but i treat tumblr like a Blog blog so im updatinng everyone on everything #plus its related ok. im valid.#alright im gonna snake to my computer and crank out that drawing then #mall wont open for another two hours anyway and i dont wanna be a mout breather standin at the door as it opens so

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ghostingink · 2 years

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Who needs therapy I saw the mountain goats live last night

#the mountain goats #folk punk #music #concerts #what genres do I tag this with lmao #but yes if you ever get the chance take it and go see them live #they’re an incredible show #Also to the person I was talking with at the show last night #if you happen to see this by pure chance you were really fucking cool #and I hope you got home safely

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adriartts · 2 years

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Something about purpose and pasts, old worlds and new ones.

(Dialogue from @dungeonsanddragonsfifthedition‘s Bird and Bear are Friends)

#original #nightlings #fauns #ANYHWAY. having an incredibly normal one #*slaps roof of mini-comic* this bad boy can fit so much fucking worldbuilding in it #bird and bear are friends lives rent free in my brain. omg they are. f.riends #me preparing to draw reiji: that's it you're going to the fucking grassland. get in the plains idiot #i fuck hard with the bright panel in the middle here. didn't turn out exactly as it was in my brain but i like it a ton either way #it's the only warm colors. they're hella saturated even more so than i usually saturate my colors. resembles either an explosion or the sun #both mean something to the world or the characters respectively so either interpretation is correct #redesigned the tattoo on milo's left arm again because i changed how the moons function. dig it tho and now it's got LORE lmao #the three panels of reiji that overlap the sun look really good. i like his fucked up eyes #all the hands. he's signing. his hair is down and the jewelry is gone. it's the middle of the night. he'd been sleeping #constellations as something that follows milo. stars as something that reiji follows #reiji's colors were initially more saturated but he was TOO fucking purple so i had to change it #their speech bubbles are complimentary colors. sorry. ill be SO normal dude i promise im so incredibly normal bro #apparently around thanksgiving every year I need to do a minicomic. last year was fierce deity comic. now u get ocs #now you get THIS GUY (plural)#my fucked up little creatures who are here to wander around and Find Out #my fucked up little guys who are here to exist on the ashes of an older world. and be friends about it #my fucking. these dudes. make a normal character then shoot them with my beam that makes them a fucked up little fantasy creature.#get creatured. idiot #ONE more. i simplified milo's design a lil for the sake of clarity. mostly just the fur pattern is typically not so defined but for the...#...small panels especially. it didn't look good to draw it all out. ok NOW i'm done #Milo Montalvo #Reiji Droet #oc #ocs

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wanderestless · 1 year

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these twee posts about giving money to tumblr are such a perfect source for blocklists. embarrassing fandom people, waves of bigots, and fools who believe a website that largely profits from advertising is a mom n' pop business.

did you all forget about the 'emporium' campaign where they filled the dash with endless ads about buying tumblr merch? the loser employees who wrote the cringe faux-relatable commentary under all those posts, whining about how tumblr doesn't buy enough merch?

i sure wonder if this 'save tumblr!!! they'll totally change their minds if we give them tons of money!!' campaign is linked to the last months of priming via advertising.

i don't know if any other website could manage to be this overt about employing emotional nonsense for profit, but you all lap it up lmao

#you are all incredibly stupid #tumblr knows we will hate an algorithm-based dash. they're not ignorant of this #sometimes the overly-earnest liberals breach containment into my dash and it's so SO embarrassing #people were making fun of me for using tumblr last night and i know exactly why #mine #crab day #save tumblr

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