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The tattoos help but i still go around them ,

But its getting a bit old maybe I need a new spot

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TW.. FRESH ƁŁ⁰⁰Ɗ

(Color gone)

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I’ve been clean for so long but I suddenly want to hurt myself in ways incomprehensible to the human mind

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There are 2 wolves inside of you

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one thing about me is that i will gladly destroy my body

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Well it's been 2 years, im not clean but I've got tattoos over them to stop me from doing them worse , because I don't want to hurt the tattoo

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Should I do more? Probably

... all cleaned up . Honestly, I liked the look of blood running down

TW!! NEW

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The aftermath to my actions won't be fun. But I'm use to it by now.

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What you did to me wasn't cute!!!!

But I made sure what I did to myself was.

.TW ! FR3SH !

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Went for a 5k run instead of relapsing. It's honestly harder for me to run than it is to SH, but oh well . Had the worst day i have had for a while after my boss yelled at and degraded me at work , yippe!

134days

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So.. I'm not as skinny as the girls he follows or what he watches in his p0rŋ .... I don't get it ... I just don't fucking get it. He tells me I'm hot and that he's attracted to me but..... clearly that's not true ...

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Guys... tell me why I wasn't invited to a party with my best mates .. because some chick I apparently knew from 13 YEARS ago hates me ...?? I have no idea who she is ... I'm honestly ... so fucking close to relapsing... it would be so worth it too. :p

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B-but... nvm

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reasons to ☆ve that are not "for him hehe" (these r definitely vv toxic)

- revenge

- to shock the shit out of ppl

- to be scary and unapproachable

- to traumatise my mother <3 the bitch deserves it

- to be more androgynous and confuse cis ppl <3

- for that clean feeling that comes from having an empty stomach

- to make my family worried and refuse their help so they feel bad for not giving a fuck earlier <3

- to be nothing but bones

- more aesthetic bruises <3

- get drunk faster (don't do alcohol guys)

- to dress like a homeless person and still look cool

- to meet that one "friend" i haven't seen since high school and shock them. also make them envious of my looks

- to be hated and envied by everyone but also get all the attention <3

- pretty/skinny privilege

- dainty and fragile wearing oversized clothes in fall/winter <3 like imagine being curled up in a soft comforter while holding a cup of steaming green tea with your graceful bony hands and feeling small and cozy asgdghsg can't wait

- getting sick easily (love that hurt/comfort)

i will add more later <3

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Me like why is it so embarrassingly cring 💀

i be going to cut and then halfway thru i just go "this is fucking cringe" and wail into my pillow

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TW! HEALED , FADED , NOT FRESH. ♡

Been clean a few months now :3

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With the recent being my birthday because im too fat now and i hate my fucking body ew :)

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but doesn't anyone else feel weird when they fade? // When people point out, they've faded like you just wanna do more ... like they are an accessory.

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---Color removed for TW---

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But I'm back after a year away

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I got this mattress for my birthday last year I've been clean for a couple months now but this was before I cleaned it.

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This is from cvtting